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brandilovevip · 5 years ago

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What I Believe About Coronavirus

It’s been a HOT topic on Twitter...

So what do I think is really going on and what do I think about Coronavirus?

Read on.

WHAT IS REALLY GOING ON

When health events like this happen ( and they happen often )

there is always some fear and trepidation. In recent times however it has become an obsession in the media to track and breathlessly report the number of deaths especially with the flu and/or any other viral outbreak. They don’t do this with any of the actual leading causes of death in the USA which are:

1. Cardiovascular Disease ��deaths each year 647,457 2. Cancer deaths each year 599,108 3. Accidents deaths each year 169,936 4. Respiratory Disease deaths each year 160,201 5. Stroke deaths each year 146,383

So every flu season, despite the flu not making the top 5, we are fed a steady diet of fear and mounting death. When you add in a “rogue” virus like the Chinese Wuhan Coronavirus, things get really out of hand. You would think that they believe The Walking Dead and Outbreak are documentaries.

This FEAR drives ratings and the progressive left’s globalist agenda. This agenda is the agenda of 90% (+) of the global media, the EU , China etc. There are few countries left in Europe and Asia that don’t want globalism. They have already been pacified. The great spirit of America however has not. Donald Trump’s election was a shock to the globalist agenda which is clearly on display in the democratic party. They are now out in the open as unabashed, socialist/communist “progressives”

meaning… globalists.

There are a number of “conservative” publications out there that believe that Covid-19 was created in a lab an purposefully unleashed. I do not believe that is the case, although I do think it is possible. I do however believe that they had foreknowledge of the virus and it’s potential spread & impact.

Why do you believe this Brandi?

Because of Event 201. If you haven’t read about this, you need to educate yourself. This ACTUALLY took place. The “players” and sponsors should be looked at closely.

Only a few months ago, in OCTOBER 2019, Johns Hopkins, the Bill and Melinda Gates Foundation and the World Economic Forum (a fraternity of self-professed globalists) ran a “pandemic simulation” called “Event 201” specifically focused on CORONAVIRUS. Not Ebola, or Swine Flu or even Avian Flu – but CORONAVIRUS. The simulation features the spread of coronavirus in South America, blamed on animal to human transmission (pigs). The conclusion of the exercise was that national governments were nowhere near ready.

Event 201 played out almost exactly as you see it in the world today. Even their propaganda pieces are eerily similar.

Some very disingenuous or perhaps rather stupid people have been arguing that this kind of thing is “normal”, claiming that we are “lucky” that the elites have been running simulations in advance in order to “save us” from a viral outbreak.

I believe that Event 201 was not a simulation but a war-game, played out to study the possible outcomes of an event the globalists already knew was coming. They played it out to see how to use it to their advantage.

In their simulation 65 million people died worldwide. A number they knew was false but it would certainly scare the sheep into submission.

Does anyone really believe that Event 201 is pure coincidence? Does anyone really believe they left up their “findings” for any other reason than to frighten readers?

But what do globalists have to gain directly from a coronavirus pandemic beyond simple chaos that can be exploited?

Interestingly, a representative from Johnson and Johnson, one of the companies that may end up designing a “vaccine” for the Coronavirus, suggested during Event 201 that a “centralized” global economic authority in charge of funding and procuring vaccines for various nations in crisis was an option for solving the pandemic.

The reason why globalists want a collapse is simple – They need crisis in order to manipulate the masses into accepting total centralization, a global monetary system and global governance. They are also rabid believers in eugenics and population reduction.

Regarding a “centralized” global economic authority and a global monetary system ... did you notice the Democrats included language pertaining to a digital currency in their bloated, globalist agenda filled coronavirus bill after pulling the rug out from under America.

The US and China are still currently in the middle of a trade war. This trade war has been demonized by Democrats and RINO’s alike. And despite it being the right thing for America, the Phase 1 deal was always a joke because it demands that China quadruple its purchases from the US within the next 1-2 years. This was never going to happen.

The Chinese cannot be trusted. They are the most evil, unfeeling regime in the world. They are cold , calculated and intelligent. They have made, through money, slaves of many of the worlds largest, most influential and wealthiest corporations and people.

Now, because of the impact of the Chinese Wuhan Coronavirus, there is no chance that China will meet the requirements of the Phase 1 deal as China’s economy will slow under the weight of the pandemic.

Coincidence?

If Trump continues tariffs against a nation in the state of a viral emergency, he will look like a monster. If he doesn’t continue the lockdown and one person dies thereafter, he will look like a monster. They have him in an almost impossible situation. He knows it, which is why he looks so somber & frustrated.

Another advantage of the viral crisis is that the globalist establishment will undoubtedly blame “climate change” for its impetus. Even though there is absolutely no concrete evidence linking human carbon emissions to climate change or viral outbreaks, given enough public fear, globalists will attempt to link the things together as if it is a proven fact.

Not only will they have a rationale for an economic collapse THEY created, but they can also present a virus as an “act of nature”, and use it as a rationale for implementing carbon controls. (ALSO PRESENT IN PELOSI’s DESPICABLE BILL)

So what is really going on:

The globalists are using COVID-19 to their advantage to wrestle back control and complete their globalist mission. They know that if Donald Trump gets re-elected their horror of a dream is over.

BUT BRANDI THIS IS A DEADLY VIRUS, YOU ARE BEING STUPID.

It is a deadly virus. It is highly communicable. But is neither as deadly or communicable as the fear mongers want you to believe. I’m not going to go through all of the FACTS here. But I would encourage you to read this excellent article:

http://archive.is/yuaUq

If the USA follows the pattern in SIMILAR countries with similar population demographics and geography then we should see maybe 250,000 total who have contracted this and a death rate of 1.5% for total deaths around 3,750

We have all been around death. Iv’e lost most of my family and it’s always gut wrenching. But if the numbers hold true, the 3750 deaths due to Coronavirus are about 5x less than the number of homicides we have every single year.

Where do I agree with the trolls that bombard my Twitter account?

I agree that we need to have a far better protocol in place for WHEN pandemics happen and I believe we need to make a HUGE investment into our healthcare system. Some things I would love to see them consider:

1. Everyone wears masks during a “Pandemic Protocol” I know , I know… surgical masks don’t stop the virus from getting in.. but if EVERYONE is wearing them it does stop a lot of the virus from getting OUT. Japan has an 80% adoption rate for masks. They have major population centers and yet.. their numbers remained low.

2. Have tests ready. Jesus. Everyone on the planet seemed to have more tests than us. That’s embarrassing. Test everybody.

3. Isolate & quarantine the most vulnerable to death, first.

4. Immediately close borders and international travel

5. If needed, in extreme situations impose a reasonable self isolation and social distancing period not to last longer than 21 days.

6. Have teams at CDC ready to collaborate with local and international physicians to discuss treatment modalities & vaccines.

7. Build regional medical facilities in conjunction with private, non profit health care systems to handle sudden increases in medical emergencies.

This closing down of the country however and spreading fear the way they have is grotesque and evil. Do you think it’s any less horrible to die from Cardiovascular Disease , Cancer an Accident, stroke, suicide or murder? No. Death is horrible and sad. But it is in fact part of life. I don’t want to die, I’m not looking forward to death but I do know that at some point, it will occur.

I’m ever thankful that in addition to my thirst for facts vs fear, I also have contacts across the medical landscape. In every single case, they tell me the same thing. If you don’t smoke, If you don’t have major underlying medical conditions and are in good health… then you have very little to fear even if you do contract the virus. Yes, it may have a 1.4% - 2.0% death rate but those numbers are skewed toward those 65+ and those with major medical issues. Regardless of age if you are generally healthy, you are looking at a death rate equal to or less than the common flu.

And they also tell me that if you do get it, demand that you be treated with the combination of Hydroxychloroquine and a Zpack unless there are contraindications.

Lastly…

Some things that have become perfectly clear:

1. Socialized Medicine would be a Disaster 2. Open Borders = Complete Insanity

References:

https://www.cdc.gov/nchs/fastats/leading-causes-of-death.htm

http://archive.is/yuaUq

https://www.europereloaded.com/how-viral-pandemic-benefits-the-globalist-agenda-event-201/

https://docplayer.net/11605196-Foreign-affairs-april-1974-the-hard-road-to-world-order-richard-n-gardner-volume-52-number-3.html

https://www.technocracy.news/globalization-faces-disaster-with-supply-chain-leaving-china/

https://meaww.com/wuhan-coronavirus-warned-2017-lab-wuhan-deadly-diseases-escape-lab-level-4-safety-scientists

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elodieunderglass · 5 years ago

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Hey Elodie. :) so I was reading your moss post and I had a question: you know those algae lights that they want to put everywhere? How does that work? If the CO2 goes to making biomass of a plant, how is algae so good at making O2 when there isn't a ton of it physically? I mean presumably it is pretty good at it cause afaik that's where the O2 on earth came from to begin with?

(in reference to my general grumpiness about people’s claims that moss sequesters more carbon than is physically possible)

To engage with this post, you’ll first need to know that photosynthetic organisms absorb carbon dioxide and break the molecule apart. Carbon dioxide consists of a carbon atom and two oxygen atoms. These organisms keep the carbon atom and release the two oxygen atoms. This is how plants turn carbon dioxide into oxygen. The carbon atom goes into their biomass. Right now, there is too much carbon dioxide in our atmosphere, caused by the burning of carbon, which reacts with oxygen when burned to form carbon dioxide in the atmosphere. This is making the atmosphere too hot. As our economies depend on burning carbon, people do not want to stop doing it. Many people are now interested in “absorbing the carbon dioxide out of the atmosphere” in order to survive on the planet. The problem is, as I point out, that the atoms of carbon have to go SOMEWHERE. Carbon dioxide doesn’t just magically turn into oxygen - the C atom is still there. And when plants break CO2 down, they need to do something with the carbon - they use it to grow. The C atom goes to making the biomass of the plant. If you see a product that claims to use plants to suck enormous amounts of CO2 out of the air (I argue) you should look for the biomass that it will produce. If you can’t see where the carbon went, it’s probably not real.

Anyway! Ah! It’s a good question! but there is a ton of algae physically! And it does make biomass! Lots of it! PLANETS FULL OF IT! It’s its best trick. And it grows very quickly, too. The fact that algae still produce a huge chunk of the oxygen we use today is a big clue to the fact that there is Really Quite A Lot of It. Anyone who has ever had an aquarium can attest to how quickly algae can increase its biomass. That’s where the carbon goes! Into the biomass! That’s where the oxygen comes from! It’s discarded as a product of all that growth! There’s a huge amount of it!

I’m just going to dump this whole quote from a relevant paper here:

There are several reasons for the greater biomass yields of algae versus land plants. Generally, algae have higher photosynthetic efficiency than land plants because of greater abilities to capture light and convert it to usable chemical energy (Melis 2009, Weyer et al. 2010). Under ideal growth conditions algae direct most of their energy into cell division (6- to 12-hour cycle), allowing for rapid biomass accumulation. Also, unlike plants, unicellular algae do not partition large amounts of biomass into supportive structures such as stems and roots* that are energetically expensive to produce and often difficult to harvest and process for biofuel production. In addition, algae have carbon-concentrating mechanisms that suppress photorespiration (Spalding 2008, Jansson and Northen 2010). With algae, all the biomass can be harvested at any time of the year, rather than seasonally. In contrast, only a portion of the total biomass of terrestrial crops (corn cob, soybean seed) is harvested once a year

* this means that instead of slowly growing into a more complicated structure, like plants do, algae just doubles and doubles and doubles. FYI, moss is a plant. algae is not. algae can casually double its mass even caring, and that’s where the carbon goes: literally into LITERALLY doubling the biomass, INCREDIBLY quickly. Moss will not. Moss will grow, become more complicated, and eventually flower - all quite slowly, in comparison.

Anyway, here is a picture from the paper, showing the Biomass. you can see exactly where the carbon is going. There is so much carbon being made here, they’re literally turning it into ... oil?

Yeah... oil. Algae fuel is considered to be a reasonable replacement for fossil fuels. (starting link here: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Algae_fuel). Algae fuel is used as reliable gimmick in science fiction, as a renewable fuel that spaceships can generate as they go - the handwaving possibilities are endless: ‘ooh, here’s a thing that takes the waste breath of human crew and makes fuel and oxygen out of it. hurray!’

So you may be like, “oh Elodie, but surely burning carbon-based fuels contributes to climate change, because it releases CO2, so uhhhh why would you bother replacing fossil fuels with a slightly fresher version of the same product?”

and I’m like “YEAH I KNOW RIGHT? the argument is that because algae removes the CO2 from the air, and burning the oil releases the same amount of CO2, it’s argued that it’s a carbon-neutral fuel. the carbon goes in, the carbon goes out. The algae puts it into the atmosphere and it takes it back out. it’s always the same carbon.”

WHICH. THE MATH CHECKS OUT, BUT I DON’T LIKE IT. The argument for developing algae fuels is that the math works out as carbon-neutral, and that it reduces reliance on the oil industry and its geopolitics, as every nation on Earth can easily grow and refine their own oil. BUT I STILL DON’T LIKE IT.

Anyway, the trick here is to look for the biomass. In the diagram above, YOU CAN SEE WHERE IT IS. The carbon goes from the carbon dioxide into the algae, where it can be made into carbon-based fuel. The carbon is THERE. it is FOUND. The peer-reviewed, heavily researched industry is so confident in the math, and the carbon, and the physical laws of photosynthesis that algae can genuinely be called a carbon-neutral fuel. The carbon has been AUDITED. the mass is KNOWN.

So what about those “algae lamps that [THEY] want to put everywhere?” I know exactly what you’re talking about. They are glowing street lamp things full of algae and they have the amazing claim of “fixing as much carbon dioxide as 200 trees.”

Those appear to be bullshit. Sorry.

However, on Tumblr, you will find a lot of posts about the algae lamps. I know. I’ve seen them. And I really wanted to believe in them! I may have even reblogged one! But then I just couldn’t find any more evidence about them. And neither could these science bloggers who tried to track down ANY ANSWERS AT ALL in 2012, https://www.citylab.com/life/2012/04/streetlight-powered-algae-actually-possible/1854/ and again in 2015. https://www.zmescience.com/science/biology/the-green-algae-street-lamps-that-suck-up-co2/

The algae were reported on in 2012 and 2013 as a funky startup invention, but apparently, only one lamp was ever made. The inventor, an utterly obscure man known as Pierre Calleja, does not appear to have a scholarly record and his scientific qualifications are a bit murky. A few scientists appeared to have asked, “Since algae grows so quickly, what will you do when they overgrow the container/ block the light?” and “Anyone who has maintained an aquarium know that removing the algae - even if you want algae! is part of maintenance; won’t these require a huge amount of maintenance?” and there was no answer. There was definitely no peer-reviewed research. The claim of “fixing as much carbon as 200 trees” (by generating equivalent biomass) cannot be backed up because all of the actual materials have disappeared from the web. The TED talk he did is gone. The startup has vanished. The website is gone. Considering that it attracted millions of dollars of investments, that’s sad news for stakeholders, but normal for a startup based on an idea easily blocked by the question, “don’t you need to clean it.”

Calleja reappeared in the news in 2017, having left the lamp startup (the article has some explanations - apparently the issue was ‘finance people’) and now he wants to make vegetarian smoked salmon out of algae. https://thefishsite.com/articles/algae-can-spearhead-a-culinary-revolution So I think it’s fair to say that the lamps didn’t work and aren’t going anywhere and have disappointed a lot of people and wasted a lot of money. However, I like his new project better. It’s obvious where the biomass is going. It’s going into the fake meat! Carry on, Pierre!

“They” are not going to put them “everywhere” because there is no secret panel of “Them” who, like, Decide Things. There was one inventor, a few reporters who talked about him, no scientific research, no marketable product was ever created, and now the creator is trying to generate fish. Just because that post has 6 bajillion notes on Tumblr doesn’t mean it’s real.

(It’s a bit awkward because two of the science communicators who reported on the lamps are friends of mine, and I know that they simply reported on it in good faith as an interesting bit of pop news, based on the now-vanished TED talk. The tumblr post in the screencap claims its source as Jess’s 2012 snippet from the Grist, which was just meant to be a cheerful description of a cool Youtube video of Pierre Calleja’s TED talk... which has now vanished from the internet entirely. She wasn’t reporting on research, just pointing out a cool video. But yeah, the ‘‘‘‘‘source’‘‘‘‘‘‘ for the Tumblr post we’ve all seen is ... literally just my friend, mentioning a cool TED talk she saw. in 2012. Which is now gone. Because the startup folded with its tail between its legs. And people are using it as a ‘source’, which I don’t think is fair!)

#conservation and ecology #climate change #dark internet show me the forbidden biomass #kyidyl

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zhannabelle-eng · 4 years ago

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How to prepare for the New Year and resist the coronavirus?

Challenge of Good from Zhannabelle: 5 steps that will change your life

2020 has been a challenging year for the entire world. But let's not let things get us down! A higher power gives us nothing we can't handle and survive. The important thing is that each of us can make the world a better place, and therefore we can make ourselves better too. This is what Zhannabelle's New Year's Challenge of Good is all about. Discover the 5 basic steps you need to take to become happy.

This year has brought a lot of unpleasant news and bad events. First of all, there's the new COVID-19 virus, which has already sickened millions of people. And some people are still waiting in fear to get sick. But should we be afraid so much? Spiritual mentor Zhannabelle recommends everyone to join the Challenge of Good consisting of 5 steps. Performing each step, you will make your life and the lives of your family and friends better, and you will be able to protect yourself from all illnesses.

Step 1 – SAY THANK YOU

At this difficult time, many may say, ‘I have no one and nothing to be thankful for’. But think carefully before you say this. It has been a difficult year, but have you never had a single event for which you can say thank you?

Let's proceed with the first step of the Challenge of Good. Take a blank sheet of paper, a pen and write down all the events for which you want to thank God or a family member, a friend, an acquaintance - it does not matter who. Most importantly, remember and write down all the good moments in your life during the year that are worthy to be thanked for.

Some of us may find it difficult to remember everything at once. If this is the case, ask Zhannabelle for a magical amulet. It will awaken your memories and focus on the most important things. After all, so many positive things have happened during this time, and some things are still forgotten! Hold the amulet in one hand and write your list with the other.

Keep this sheet of paper once you have written down all the events. Reread it on days when you feel bad and when you are in a difficult situation. It will give you strength and an opportunity to move on, to live and think only about good things, to believe in a better future and in yourself.

Step 2: BE JOYOUS

Joy is an invincible force. While despondency, sadness and denial can destroy everything, joy inspires and encourages everyone who comes into contact with it. Nowadays, people have protective masks on their faces and you can't tell if they're happy or sad. You should smile in any case! Know and believe that joy can heal any disease and help in difficult situations.

There is one monastery in the world, where almost all diseases can be cured, but on one condition: while you are there, you have to smile all the time. Otherwise, the monks will point out your fault and even punish you. The punishment is carrying heavy buckets of water up and down the hill. Having done this a couple of times, one decides that smiling is much easier and keeps smiling even when no one sees it.

The things is that smiling sends special impulses to the brain, which can even heal the body. Since not everyone can get into that monastery, we must try to awaken our joy on our own.

The easiest way is to stimulate joy with cheerful labels and smiley faces. These should be hung up around your house and/or in the workplace. You can draw a funny face and write: ‘Smile urgently!’ or "You're not naughty, you're a smiley’. Basically, let any little thing that makes you smile be in front of you all the time.

If fun stickers don't work, there is another way. It will fit more for home than office. Turn on your favourite music and dance without thinking about anything. Give yourself over to the dance like children do. You will feel the positive energy pulsating inside you after 2-3 minutes.

Zhannabelle has a special amulet for you in the form of brightly coloured feathers. Just looking at it will make you smile! There is a cheerful spirit inside of it that will energize you with positivity every day.

But if you still can't rejoice anything, then signing up for Zhannabelle’s retreat and doing a ritual there is the only way out. You need to do this, because without the feeling of joy you cannot move on to the next step of our Challenge of Good.

Step 3. BE FRIENDLY

You now have gratitude and joy. These feelings can be multiplied by sharing them with others through friendliness. But it is important for you to do it from your heart. Think about it: which person's picture you have in front of your eyes right now or who you are constantly thinking about without keeping in touch with this person? Maybe you have dreamt about that person more than once for no reason. Often it is because they need your help or support. Call, text, or meet this person! Even if you haven't communicated for a long time or had a grudge against this person, it's all in the past.

A friendly chat with an old friend would bring you joy and excitement. Send her the link to the article about group classes at Zhannabelle's online school. Let her read it and decide to give it a try, too. Maybe she needs individual consultation, then tell her how to make an appointment. Provide help, be a guide for someone to the world of opportunity, and new resources will open up for you.

Be a friend to people, don't give up on them in difficult situations, and inspire them. Then goodness will return to you. If it is difficult, amulets with assistant spirits will always help you. Put this amulet to your heart - and it will immediately help you be friendly towards others.

Step 4. Be Generous

Generosity isn't only material, although it's also important. For example, sharing money, clothes, and food with those in need. However, the most significant is generosity of your heart and soul. You can not measure it, but it is always immense. You can show it by sharing your joy and giving a good mood to others. But the highest degree is to share knowledge with people. It's especially important to pass on sacred wisdom.

Share information about seminars at Zhannabelle's online school, invite them to join mentor's YouTube channel, where every woman is sure to find a useful and relevant video for herself. You already have this knowledge, so share it, be generous!

Step 5: START BELIEVING

Faith should never leave you: believe in the future, in the best, in yourself. It's the feeling that allows you to move forward. Without it, you can't live life to the fullest.

Write down on a sheet of paper everything you want for your family and yourself. Next to it, write down the things you wish for the world. If you want to have a good life, you should write your wishes on a piece of paper with a huge faith at heart that everything will happen the way you want it. You are recommended to read your wishes to the music of transformation.

Faith of each of us is very strong, anything is within our power! Faith can heal the whole world and every person. Pray not only for yourself and your family, but also for our planet.

Communal prayer has often saved cities and countries from enemies. It will also help against the common enemy of humans, the coronavirus. Write Zhannabelle via her website where you live, and we will tell you how to contact the women of Power in your city. You can't imagine how many of us there are all over the world! Women unite in prayer for the future of the whole earth. You join us too.

Dear ladies, together we have taken 5 steps towards a new year, a new world. Share this knowledge with your family and friends; send them the link to this article. Invite new people to our seminars, and you will be lucky, prosperous, healthy, you will love and you will be loved.

Mariika (Budapest)

‘I have been studying at Zhannabelle's online school for a long time. I attend group classes and seminars. It helps me a lot in life: I got rid of fear of communication with strangers, overcame the fear of saying something wrong, as a consequence I met a good man and we are dating. But recently I started dreaming about an old acquaintance with whom we had quarrelled a long time ago. It's funny to say: once, 10 years ago, I considered something she did a betrayal, because she told my parents that I was going on dates instead of going to classes. It seems so silly now, but then it was a tragedy and a dirty trick from Elzbieta, whom I considered my best friend.

When I made an appointment for individual counselling with Zhannabelle, I asked her why I was dreaming about my friend almost every night and what it could mean. She explained that Elzbieta probably needed my help and recommended me to call her. I didn't really want to reconnect with someone with whom I had lost contact long ago. But, following Zhannabelle's advice, I called her.

Elzbieta was pleased to hear my voice. After a couple of minutes of conversation, she admitted that she had been waiting for my call, she was afraid to call, afraid that I would slam the phone on her. It turned out that a couple of months ago she had been diagnosed with breast cancer and the recovery from a course of chemotherapy was very difficult for her. My former friend had no one to have a good talk with. She remembered our friendship, we trusted all our secrets to each other, and no one but me had ever supported her like that. Elzbieta missed me very much and constantly regretted the mistake we had made at a young age, which had caused us to stop communicating. After talking to her, I knew that I had to act immediately and I made an appointment for her for a consultation with the mentor.

After a month of continuous study at the online school, my friend had a sustained remission. She could even keep her breasts, and now she feels great! This is all thanks to Zhannabelle. I showed my concern by doing my part to save Elzbieta, for which I gained a firm friendship.

#zhannabelle #spirituality #new year #christmas #holiday #challenge #coaching

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nexstage · 5 years ago

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LIMBO SILVAM - EPILOGUE (1/2)

Inside the Beach House, everything and everyone were silent. Pearl was drying the dishes with a somber expression, Amethyst, sat in one of the seats in front of the kitchen island, played with her hair bitterly, and Connie was on the sofa looking at her sword, red and puffy eyes trying to holding back more tears. At her left was a gemstone placed over a pillow: Peridot's gemstone.

There was also Lion who watched intently the little gem in her comatose condition like waiting for a signal to act.

If silence had a name, it would be unbearable or hell. Utter, endless hell. The tension between the members of the Crystal Gems could be noticed even for the most oblivious individual in the whole world. Though that didn't matter not the fact that no one in the Beach House had the mood or the guts to 'break the ice' with a single comment. However, what could they say after the torment they were put through?

Amethyst sighed, fed up with the uncertainty, and looked at Pearl and Connie. Both her friends were too immersed in their own way of grief that it seemed they had forgotten the only person who was in the shadows. "Hey," she started but no one listened "Hey, guys" Amethyst was met with the same silence.

Irritated and with her patience to her limit, she resorted to her best tactic. A very high whistle took them by surprise, Pearl caught one of the plates she was drying before it broke into pieces and Connie accidentally dropped her sword to the floor.

"Amethyst, what the heck?!" the veteran gem glared at the quartz "Why did you do that?!"

"Because we're wasting time, P!"

"Wasting time...with what?" Connie asked, her voice a bit hoarse due to the crying. She coughed a bit to clear it. "What do you mean?"

"What are we going to do with Peridot once she wakes up?" Pearl caught the meaning of Amethyst's question faster than Connie and grimaced, trying to think a good answer. "Well..." hesitation stopped her from a moment before continuing "Obviously, we're going to check on her. Verify if she can remember what happened after she was poofed... And cracked... Almost killed..." the last thing was said in a trembling whisper "Then when we're sure her memories are intact, we'll tell her the truth".

"Really, Pearl? Like, for real?" Amethyst sent her the best, most unimpressed stare the old gem had seen in her quasi-immortal life "You're the smartest gem I've known, and this is your best shot?"

"Amethyst, I understand your reservations about my methods but, what can we do? There is no option for Peridot"

"There IS one and that is not waking up. Ever"

"You can't be serious, Amethyst!" Connie yelled outraged and approached the quartz while glaring at her "Have you forgotten that Steven is still in the hospital waiting for an answer about Peridot's condition? Hoping for her to stay in a coma forever is too cruel! Steven can't lose someone else!"

"Well, what's your plan then?!" losing her temper, Amethyst sat up from her seat of the kitchen island and glared at Connie as intensely as the girl "Are we going to tell Peridot 'Hey P-Dot, glad you're awake. Remember that crazy gem, Spinel, who wanted to poison Earth with a giant injector and tried to kill us all? Well, you and Lapis really got into serious trouble with her and almost got crashed, except that you got lucky and Lapis is a bunch of shards inside a bubble. Anyway, want some consolation cookies?'. Do you really expect anyone to say that?! Even after we saw how heartbroken Steven was when we told him?!"

"Ok, enough, both of you!" Pearl put herself in the middle to stop a fight between the pair and pinched the bridge of her nose. Sighing heavily, she gazed at them "Look, this is a compromising situation and there is no way out of it unless we are honest with Peridot. Praying for an endless coma to save everyone from giving the bad news isn't possible and to top it all, it's even selfish"

"How can that be selfish if Peridot is going to suffer again, P?! Should I remind you that Lapis left her homeless and depressed and now is unable to come back like the last time?!" Pearl glared at her as if ordering her to not lose her temper, but Amethyst looked away angrily while crossing her arms. The purple quartz wasn't a fan of Lapis, and her opinion of the blue gem went to total disapproval after Steven told her about Lapis and Peridot's disagreement that ended up with the first one taking the barn to space while the second one was left sad and lonely.

Despite Lapis' sudden return to Earth and her saving them from Blue Diamond when she crashed Ruby and Sapphire's wedding, Amethyst was still wary with the ex terraformer.

"That incident is something between those two, Amethyst. If they've talked things through, fine, if not, it's up to them. We can't mix something from the past with what's happening now"

"Still, it's better if we spared her from more hurt feelings. We have lost too much thanks to Mrs. Revenge Noodle Gem who wanted to give Earth a piece of her mind"

"What we need right now is to plan the best way to deliver the news, Amethyst. We're her friends" Connie intervened after ordering her thoughts while still holding back the tears "Everyone here is in the same position as you because no one can be as close to Lapis like Peridot, Bismuth or Steven. Besides, what if she finds out about Lapis' demise on her own? It's not like it's impossible for someone to discover a gem or her remnants inside a bubble hidden in a secret place! I mean, Steven could find Bismuth and discover what happened to her, and Peridot is too smart for her own good!"

"That was luck. Pure luck and Lion was living with us. But anyway, what do YOU expect us to tell her? No matter if we are too careful or go straight to the point, nothing will save Peridot from the heartbreak!"

"She isn't the only one!!" Connie cried, anguished tears finally running down her cheeks "I. Was. There!! I was there when I saw Lapis' gemstone shatter. I-I-I was so goddamn close t-to... The fountain was in front of me, just some steps and she would be healed and safe... But... I wasn't fast enough. She broke into p-pieces in my own hands. I can still hear the crack, see myself trying to put her back together just to--"

Pearl immediately hugged her close to her chest and the girl cried, holding tight on the gem she considered a second mother.

For the veteran gem to see her apprentice falling apart like that, it tortured her mercilessly. No one had any idea of how to approach Peridot with the fact that the gem she was closest to died after both were defeated by Spinel. Connie was right that only Steven, Peridot and Bismuth -at some extent- were close to Lapis, and she and the blue gem had a rocky history between them concerning the mirror and Pearl storing her inside her gem without checking if the object was gem-powered or if a gem was imprisoned in it. However, that didn't stop her from being horrified and saddened by Lapis' shattering.

Unfortunately, that wasn’t the only concern. Spinel and her reasons to destroy Earth with them in it were the second priority which she didn't want anything to do with. Despite having defeated her, Pearl couldn't grasp in her mind -full of good and conflicting memories of Pink- how the deceased Diamond could have been so cruel, thoughtless and self-centered to abandon Spinel while deceiving her with a 'waiting game'. Advanced equations or building a robot were tasks Pearl could do easily; understanding Pink at all, that was another story.

And to make it worse, they have suffered because of another careless decision of her. Steven had to fix another mistake that even took one of his friends' life. She could get that Pink needed to grow up and prove herself to the Diamonds back then, that running a colony required too much time and work to spare in other activities or fun, that her interests and Spinel's were completely different, but just look at what her lack of guts has caused!

She could've left Spinel with the Peebles in her palace on Homeworld or tell her the truth kindly that they were growing apart, heck, put her in charge to take care of the garden with the aid of some gems. She could have done something better, anything!

But no!

Pink just played with Spinel's head and prayed at everyone's backs that this never 'bit her in the butt' as humans said. Technically, it didn't blow up in her face but it did with Steven's. Pearl just hoped her little boy could heal appropriately and not be burdened by more of his mother's screwups.

"I'm sorry" Connie and Amethyst glanced at the thin gem who lowered her head in shame "I know I didn't cause this mess, but... But if I had known Pink was going to left Spinel, if I had known the abandonment was going to break Spinel mentally, I would've tried to stop Pink or tell her to take another course of action. If I had acted, things would be different now. Again, I failed to change the future for the better"

"Come on, P! Don't be ridiculous!" Amethyst punched her in the arm, not to start a fight but because it was her way right now to give comfort "You can be annoying sometimes, but your heart is where your friends are! That's why you're thousands of times much better than Pink. You have grown, you changed, you're the best! But her? She cheated and lied to get her way! Sure, Rose, Pink, -whoever she was- played a part in saving the Earth and if it weren't for her, we wouldn't have Steven, but if it weren't for YOU, the Crystal Gems would've never existed. I mean, you were the one with the idea of pretending to be another gem, and that led to both of you to explore the planet, fight for it and then for the gems who wanted to be free, dude! Besides, YOU are part of the heart of the Crystal Gems, and then Garnet, and me, Steven, Greg, Lion, Connie, Peridot, Lapis, Bismuth, and the gems we healed from corruption and live in Little Homeworld, but not Pink. She may have tried, but she didn't try enough. Not like you, Pearl. So, stop that bullshit about feeling guilty for someone else's mistake!"

"She's right, Pearl. You've done so many great things, heck, you're like a second mother to me. Besides, don't take offense of this, but even if you'd tried to convince Pink to talk with Spinel or to leave her in Homeworld where she would be with other gems, I doubt Steven's mom had listened. She didn’t stop to consider the consequences of faking her shattering after all" Connie rubbed at her teary eyes, her face becoming more serious "I don't know what to feel anymore, but that doesn't mean we have to fight each other like moments ago. Peridot will need us more than ever when she knows about Lapis. We have to tell her the truth and give her our support. And even if we'll never have the chance to get to know Lapis better, at least we will pay her our respects while taking care of Peridot. It's what she had wanted us to do. It's the right thing to do. For Lapis, for Peridot and especially for Steven"

"Yeah, you know, even when I never liked her that much, even less when P-Dot was all alone after she left, I could see how much those two were meant for each other. Sure, maybe I can't see it that well because I'm more defensive on Peridot's side, she's my friend after all, but I know there was something more than a closeness between them. But once Peridot wakes up, it'll be gone"

"And that's where Spinel didn't have luck enough to heal" Pearl explained though the others didn't get it at first "Peridot has all of us. Spinel only had Pink, but when she abandoned her, there was no one she could turn to for comfort and hope. Losing Lapis in this way, I can't imagine the devastation in Peridot's face, but at least she won't be alone. So, no matter how we approach her with the news, we'll never leave her side"

Amethyst and Connie nodded determinedly and joined hands with Pearl in silent camaraderie and solidarity.

The sound of the warp pad being used startled them, Garnet's silhouette visible despite the blinding light, then the stoic gem got out of the warp pad, a scowl on her face. Pearl gulped a bit and separated from the other two to talk with her comrade despite the nervousness "Glad you're ok, Garnet... How'd it go?" She asked, her voice almost shaking.

"Really. Exhausting" she hissed, her teeth were gritted strongly, barely containing the urges to punch something or yell. Whenever there was too much frustration to deal with, Ruby made herself noticeable via angry growls and tense seriousness. The fusion massaged her temples to alleviate herself from the high-level stress and exhale a big sigh "We have 5 minutes before Peridot reforms so, I'll be quick. Spinel's new prison in Homeworld will take some preparations, the Diamonds are still in disbelief about what had happened to her and what she'd done, but they at least understood that Spinel is a huge danger to Steven as long as she is free so they'll take care of her while she's still in the bubble until the prison is finished"

"Wait a second, some preparations?" Pearl was the first talking before the others intervened, "What do you mean by that? Garnet, it has been two weeks since the attack and people are still paranoid about another gem wanting to destroy the planet. I know this is going too far but Spinel is seriously obsessed with her senseless revenge, she needs to be shattered"

"But what about Steven?" Connie asked concerned. Shattering was a quick option that could save them from more work, but her best friend would never agree "Are we going to lie to him if he wants to know what we did with Spinel? Even if she deserves that punishment, he will be against that idea"

"Yeah! 'Sides if the Diamonds think they can replace Pink with Spinel and keep her in check by putting her on a royal pedestal then screw them! They'll make it worse and Spinel might escape and try to kill us again!"

The discussion went on and on, too caught up in finding out what to do with the Diamonds' sudden affection towards the homicidal gem and the repercussions of telling Peridot about Lapis' demise that they didn't notice Peridot's reformation until Lion growled at them.

"Shit! She's coming back!" The four Crystal Gems saw her comrade's light projection getting out of the gemstone and then the little gem plopped on the ground, dizzy and confused.

"Ugh... My head... What happened?"

Suddenly, she was engulfed in a bear hug by Connie and Amethyst while Pearl and Garnet watched from behind. Peridot's appearance had changed: her visor now had the shape of the upper body of the star; she was wearing a mix of boots and sandals, both brown with some golden lines decorating them and a jacket of three tones of green with the Crystal Gem's symbol emblazoned in the middle of it; her hair didn't have her classic triangular style anymore but a star style, complementing with the visor.

"Wow, dude, you look awesome!" Amethyst's compliment broke her train of thought. With a single look at herself, Peridot gasped amazed at her new appearance modifiers "That's what I am talking about! This is how I, the unbeatable ruler of the skies Peridot, should look in front of her enemies!... Still, Ummm, guys do you know what happened? Because there is only one way I could change my appearance and that is by being poofed"

Her friends' joy for having her back was quickly replaced by uncertainty and concern. Before she could ask what was wrong Connie was the first one speaking "Peridot, what's the last thing you remember?"

"What do you mean? Wait... Are you implying I was poofed during a mission or an accident and brought here?"

Pearl looked at Garnet as if asking her if her future vision had some plan B to help the little gem to recover her memories. The fusion decided to take action and approached her comrade whose face had turned into a pensive frown while searching in her confused mind.

"It seems that what she had done to you have shocked you to the point of not recalling anything" Peridot glanced at Garnet and when she opened her mouth, the taller gem stopped her raising a hand to explain herself "You mentioned your suspicions of being poofed during a mission. They were right, you indeed were poofed while protecting Beach City from a gem. Peridot, does the name Spinel sound familiar to you?"

The former technician pronounced that name silently, the core of her gemstone was tingling with the sole mention of Spinel. However, her mental repertoire was useless in giving her the information she wanted. Images ran through her mind with such velocity it was difficult to process what they meant and the collage of sounds and voices didn't seem to have an end.

Then a headache. Oh how loving! Now she had to deal with that!

"Peridot... Can't you remember anything?" Connie's tone of voice was a mix of concerned and pleading, but right now it grated her nerves. Since when human children sounded so annoying?!

"Shhhhh! I'm trying to concentrate!" Peridot hissed. Closing her eyes, she delved in the deepness of her memories just to find... Nothing. A complete mess.

"Ugh! This is useless! I kind of have the answers at the tip of my tongue but they don't come any closer!"

Putting a hand on her shoulder, Pearl stopped the distressed Crystal Gem before she got more frustrated "It's alright, Peridot. Maybe we can find another way to revive your memories without you fainting for the exhaustion"

"More like going insane for the headache" the little gem mumbled angrily.

"But, anyway, Garnet, you said a Spinel attacked Beach City right? I have read about that kind of gem: they're jesters, entertainers. Not warriors or weapon-experts gems. So, why one would want to invade Earth?"

"It was for very personal reasons" Pearl intervened, shame and anger painted on her facial features.

Peridot started formulating many theories around that. What kind of personal reason would a Spinel have to attack them? Was it because of the new statu quo of Era 3? That might be, after all, now with the Diamonds out of leadership and all the gems being freed, there was more space for new purposes, but that also meant that many gems would feel lost and angry for their sole job to be questioned and for some of them to get revenge at the responsible for those changes. Wait! If that was true, that means Steven was the target and he wasn't in the Beach House. Where was he?!

"Where is Steven?" that question surprised the rest of the group, and strangely enough, she perceived some relief in their eyes but didn't have time to ponder about the source of their reaction "Where is he? Is he ok?"

"Hospital" Garnet's response got her attention though not in the way she wanted "He is recovering at the hospital. Let's go, he needs to see you"

"Garnet, wait, our only way to get there is by Lion and hospitals don't allow any animals much less magical ones!" The fusion went to the wireless phone, grabbed it and gave it to Pearl "Call Greg, tell him we're coming to visit with Peridot now reformed. Ask him if there are humans in Steven's room so we can be prepared to go when they're gone."

The veteran gem nodded and dialed to him.

The former technician was left observing everyone's behavior, even feeling a subject of it. Pearl's voice was trembling, her posture rigid but with some freaking-out urges escaping from the seams. Garnet was at her side, the stoic manifestation of leadership though more bitter and somber than any time she had seen her like that. Meanwhile, Connie and Amethyst were looking at her and at each other conspicuously. If there was something she disliked was to be left in the dark. It was much better when data was delivered to her so she could make a plan or get to a conclusion, but Connie and Amethyst weren't helping which irritated a bit. And every time she glanced at her friends, the girl and the quartz looked away as if not knowing how to talk to her. Did they know something Peridot should remember or being informed about but didn't have the guts to tell her? The most concerning thing was Connie's eyes, they were so puffy and red, it must have been related to Steven's condition which worried her more because if the girl had cried that much it meant Steven's life was in peril.

Then an alarming realization crossed her mind, "What happened to that Spinel? Is she still free wreaking havoc?"

Amethyst tensed slightly at the mention of her name, that wasn’t a good signal. "Poofed and bubbled, dude" the quartz said, Peridot sighed internally. So there was no danger or enemy ready to kill Steven. That was good.

"You can't still remember what happened to you?" Peridot tried again, but her mind was as uncooperative as ever.

"Nothing. Ugh! This is such a mess. A Spinel with a vengeful agenda against Steven, him in the hospital, my memories too disorganized and fragmented to make sense, all of you acting so weird around me"

"We're not" Peridot raised an eyebrow not buying that. "Really? You two are sending secret messages by looking at each other and then you glance at me with a sort of pity which I don't like. At all"

"We're just worried about you. You were in a coma for 2 weeks"

TWO WEEKS?!! Was she kidding her?!

Connie froze, Amethyst glared at her for letting that bit of info escape from her mouth, but it didn't matter now that Peridot was digging harder than ever every corner of her mind something to put the images and sounds together so she could remember what happened to her exactly. Protecting Beach City from a revenge-thirst Spinel who tried to kill Steven wasn't context enough for her. A little voice told her that her friends knew more but couldn't explain or were afraid or...

Ugh! Whatever, she needed to know!

However, just when the green mechanic was going to demand answers, Pearl interrupted "Time to go. There are no nurses in Steven's room, so we can use Lion to warp there"

Amethyst shapeshifted into a little monkey, holding onto Pearl's shoulders; Garnet sat on Lion's back after Connie and Pearl, whose appearance was weird with a primate-sized Amethyst on her. "Peridot, time to go" Garnet commanded. The green gem fulfilled the order numbly, her mind too full of many questions and few answers to process correctly what was happening in those moments.

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Hospitals were now the bane of existence for Greg. Before he never thought of them unless his son's health was in peril whether for a serious illness or severe injuries and with the dangerous lifestyle Steven had because of his mother's actions, the concerns just grew stronger, despite having the Crystal Gems as Steven's best defense.

Then, with Greg's unhealthy eating habits like hotdogs, donuts and anything with too much sugar or fats, the urgency of going to a hospital became a priority, especially after almost having a heart attack during a family barbecue.

"Dude, even a heavy eater like me knows that too many burgers and other carbo stuff can be the death of you" Amethyst commented when she caught him fighting to breathe and clutching his chest as if it were going to explode.

The purple quartz looked scared, sounded scared, though she tried to lessen the tension in the air with her joke-y tone. Greg asked to not tell this to Steven because that would ruin the fun for him, Amethyst was against that idea but complied with the condition that Greg took better care of himself, that meant fewer snacks and more exercise.

It was a fair deal so he tried hard.

However, now he felt that temptation was going to overtake. The stress and fear were so dense that maybe a snack or two might alleviate those feelings, but Greg refused. His son's condition was more important which just increased his distaste for hospitals.

He couldn't believe this mess was hitting them again, hitting Steven of all people, again!

They should've been rid of Rose's mistakes already, but it seemed that her series of wrongdoings got larger and more infuriating by the second.

He could understand the need to lie and keep secrets because, hey!, he even kept some like his real name, but for Rose to deceive Spinel into playing a 'waiting game' just for her to not deal with the fact of telling the other the truth of them growing apart, and for that to blow up in Steven's face when Spinel found out Rose abandoned her...

It was nauseating. He didn't have the heart to act in that way, though why delving in the past when Rose wasn't there to defend herself or receiving a piece of everyone's mind for putting them, especially Steven, through another hell of her problems.

The more he thought about it, the more he wondered if he really knew his lover.

"I barely know you"

"That's a good thing"

What did Rose mean by that? That she even was aware all her progress and growth were insignificant compared to the cost and it was better being all ignorant about it? Or that thinking of her as a perfect person was the best option despite the obvious consequences of the festering secrets and wounds?

Anyway, that didn't change the outcome: Steven got hurt and had to fix this as any other problem Rose caused.

Just recalling the agonizing pain his son had gone through when he was told one of his friends, Lapis Lazuli, was shattered by Spinel during her revenge tore his heart apart. The anguished weeping, the shaking body, the horrified eyes, it was like seeing another person, no, the embodiment of sorrow taking over Steven.

Greg shook his head, trying to rid of those horrible images and just focus on being there for his boy. The teenager was sleeping a bit easier now that he had been informed Peridot was ok, although the many machines hooked to him make Greg believe his son has a terminal illness.

However, there was no time to grimace at that prospect because suddenly, a warp portal appeared in the middle of the hospital room and Lion got out. In its back were Garnet, Pearl, a monkey-sized Amethyst holding the pale gem's shoulders, Connie and Peridot.

The Pink beast flopped on the floor, exhausted. Steven opened his eyes slowly due to the noise and his eyes sparkled after seeing the green gem. "Peridot! You're alive!"

The former technician was shocked at Steven's appearance. The once confident and strong savior of the universe had terribly pale skin, huge bags decorated his eyes who were a bit red and puffy, many machines were connected to his body and his voice sounded so small and weak. Was this person really Steven?

"Steven, what on stars happened to you?!" Garnet shushed her for talking too loud, Peridot ignored the fusion and ran to be on her friend's side. Connie was the second, being on the right side of Steven's bed, hugging him tightly just to make sure he wouldn't disappear.

"I'm glad you're ok, Peri" For some reason Peridot couldn't explain, the nickname gave her a familiar sensation though she felt it came from someone else "I was so worried about you. I thought you'd never wake up"

"Me being in a coma doesn't matter as much as your condition, Steven! What happened? I mean, the only things the others have told me is that a vengeful Spinel attacked Beach City, I was there protecting it and she poofed me"

"...They didn't tell you?" Steven's eyes directed to the rest of the group with a secret message 'Why you haven't told her?'. Garnet decided to take action before the tension got worse "She still can't remember what happened. But we will show her the proofs and deliver the news"

"News about what?" Everyone except Peridot grimaced or winced at that question. The little gem didn't like the prospect of her friends lying to her or leaving her in the shadows as if she couldn't take some bad news "Come on, guys! This isn't fair! Now Steven is acting weird, there are still details I want to know about Spinel's attack and to top it all, there is bad news which you don't want to tell me! Wait, is it Little Homeworld, isn't it? Is everyone there ok? Are Bismuth and Laz alright?"

"We'll show you, Peridot" Pearl's voice could barely contain the grief "For now, don't push it too much. Your mind needs to be well-rested if you want to process everything that is to come"

The mechanic wasn't satisfied with that response. It sounded like Pearl was pitying her, but if it took patience to get to the bottom of this, then it would have to be whether she liked it or not.

During the 15 minutes of the visit, it was hinted many things concerning Spinel and how Beach City was dealing with all the damage inflicted by her. Sometimes, Steven let a bit of information escape on purpose to help Peridot's memories to resurface just for the little gem to still find her mind a collage-like mess which just left her confused and frustrated.

"You guys should go to Mask Island" Steven suggested, everyone tensed up at that option while Peridot wondered what the island had to do with Spinel and Beach City in ruins. Unless the destructive gem was bubbled and put there so no one has to be burdened by what she had done, but no, it wasn't possible. They had the Temple for storing bubbled gems after all.

"Dude, are you sure about this?" Amethyst hated to admit it but showing Peridot the remnants of her and Lapis' battle against Spinel didn't sound like the best idea. What if it didn't work? What if it was too much and Peridot fell apart on herself?

"You have to. Peridot," the look on Steven's eyes unnerved every immaterial inside of her hard-light body. Whatever it is that happened was serious, at least concerning to her due to how everyone was behaving "I'm so sorry"

Sorry... Sorry for what?

"I don't like the course of this conversation" Both Garnet and Pearl lowered her heads somberly. Connie and Amethyst led Peridot to where Lion was resting so they could come back to the Beach House, not without wishing Steven a good recovery and bid Greg farewell. The group returned to the house, the silence a heavy layer of apprehension and sadness. Before using the warp pad Garnet wanted to check if Peridot's memories were still too fragmented to make sense of them "Peridot, try to remember what was the last thing you heard, felt or saw. Don't push yourself though. Just pick what you think you can understand". The green engineer inhaled and exhaled then closed her eyes and dug deeper than ever. Then freeze frames popped out of nowhere, though they looked pixelated to the point of being unrecognizable. The voices inside her head weren't as overwhelming as before, but now they sounded fragmented and too far away for her to understand what they were talking about. However, Peridot was able to number the people who were speaking. There were Connie, Bismuth, Lapis, herself, but there was also a high-pitched, cruel stranger. Wait, was that Spinel?

"It's still confusing but not so much. It seems that I can recognize some voices, maybe they are part of my memories. Connie, Bismuth, Lapis, even me. There is another one but I don't know her. It must be Spinel"

Garnet's stoic face didn't show any emotion, or that is what Peridot believed. There was a tension barely visible in the fusion's posture as if she was trying to keep herself together. It was pretty worrying, but the green gem didn't have time to ask if Garnet was alright because the fusion spoke "It seems your memories from the time Spinel attacked are coming back, though slowly. I know where to start but I want you to know, Peridot, that if it's too overwhelming for you, we can postpone this until you feel better"

Annoyance and irritation sparked in Peridot's gemstone for a while. She appreciated her friends caring about her and being thoughtful about whatever they were going to tell her, but she was starting to feel pitied by them. As if the former technician didn't have what it takes to face the truths they knew.

#Peridot #Crystal Gems #Greg #Steven Universe #Steven Universe: The Movie #Dark #Angst #Tragedy #connie maheswaran

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muthaz-rapapa · 6 years ago

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StarPre Ep 13: Culture Shock & “Fitting In”

Ok, I’ve only ever studied abroad for one summer semester so I can’t claim to know what it’s like to be a foreign exchange student.

But WOW did it not feel that this episode portrayed the realism of that experience in spades (for me, anyways).

Which is why in spite of it being another filler, ep 13 shot itself up the ladder to become, perhaps, one of the best episodes in the season so far.

But before we get into that, I just want to say this. Though we have four lovely protagonists to drive the plot forward, it’s pretty clear that the heart of StarPre’s overall story lies with Lala and not the lead Cure, Hikaru. Lala is the actual main character here (heck, even her personal motif is a heart so take that how you will).

Much like how MahoPre focused on Riko gradually letting go of her self-limitations and opening her mind to the world, Lala is slowly learning to release her constant grip on the AI and look for something that data cannot give her.

Hikaru and Mirai may be responsible for building the bridges, extending their hands and establishing the connections between the different worlds of their respective seasons (which is JUST AS IMPORTANT and don’t you let anyone else tell you otherwise!) but Riko and now, Lala, are the ones who demonstrate the necessity of meeting them halfway, however hard it may be at first, in order to gain true understanding.

So, with that said...

Lala’s first day at school. She’s very excited and of course she is!

Back on her home planet Saaman, she didn’t have school. The AI is the go-to for everything. So she’s never known what it’s like to interact with other kids her age, attend classes together, study together, etc.

It’s totally brand new to her and she wants that. She wants to know what life is like for Hikaru, Elena and Madoka. She wants to be a part of that life because that’s where her friends are.

And in their lives, they don’t have AIs to aid them throughout the day so Lala decides she wouldn’t need hers either.

Lala didn’t realize it at the time but the fact that she chose to leave her AI glove at home spoke volumes of her willingness to step outside her comfort zone.

Again, she’s relied on that AI for her entire life up till this point so if she brought it with her to school, just to have some sense of security while she adjusted to the setting around her, nobody would say anything about it. Yet she didn’t.

Lala really wanted to experience what it was like to be a normal kid on Earth. She didn’t want to be the old Lala who clutched to her AI like a lifeline. She wanted to become someone who could handle things without the AI.

The only reason why she brought AI-chan with her the second day was not because she grew afraid and backtracked on finding her new identity but because she underestimated the culture shock that would bowl her over.

And what a culture shock it was. Look, there are even lightning strikes for emphasis.

LOL, anyways...

Things on Earth are so different from things on Saaman that it physically drains Lala’s energy after she discovers just how different they are.

What’s more, for all of Saaman’s apparent “advancement”, it seems that its civilians can’t do much without AIs, which makes Lala feel ashamed when she compares herself to the Earthlings, who do make an effort to learn and understand what they learn.

Not just absorb details and retain them.

On Earth, they ask questions, they make theories, they perform tests and experiments and they repeat the process.

Lala, who’s always been told what the answers are, has never learned how to do that and she feels so lost because of it.

Then there was the ill-timed comment from Himenowhatsherface on her fluency in Japanese and therefore also, indirectly (and unbeknownst to mostly everyone), Lala practically been home schooled since forever so of course she wouldn’t know about the rule of no running in the halls.

It’s no wonder Lala’s become so depressed by lunchtime.

Poor girl. That’s a lot to take for just the first day.

What’s sad is that Lala’s misunderstanding the whole situation. She thinks that it’s her fault for not acting like the other kids when in reality, no one really expects that of her.

She’s from a different country, speaks a different tongue, has different customs. They all know that. Nobody is asking her to change that, to be like everybody else.

But given Lala’s perfectionist nature, every “mistake” she makes only drives her desperation to “fix” it as fast as possible.

Remember beginning!Lala? How she closes people off when she’s frustrated nothing’s going her way? How the more she tries to make things right, it just becomes more of a mess?

Yea, Lala still doesn’t do well under stress.

But this time, the stress has lead her to making the wrong assumptions.

The next day, she’s got her glove on again and doing her best to talk to everyone in “lun”-unaccented Japanese.

All the way down to the keigo.

Considering that Lala was completely fine with not using honorifics or acknowledging seniority and the like before, it’s no surprise that this new development shocked her friends.

The issue is not Lala’s attempt to assimilate. The issue is that she’s trying to assimilate when there is absolutely no need to.

And I’ll say it again. If Lala brought AI-chan with her to feel more at ease in an unfamiliar environment, maybe to have AI-chan help her translate some things or explain some Earthling stuff, then that’s one thing.

However, Lala continuously referring back to AI-chan throughout her second day at school and asking it what she should do to appear more “Earthling” is counterproductive to her original objective (learning not to rely on the AI).

She’s taken the phrase “when in Rome, do what the Romans do” a little too much to the extreme.

She’s trying to erase what makes her unique so she can blend in with the people around her.

Which is so...awful to even say out loud but that’s just how badly Lala wants to fit in!

But even more than that, she’s so afraid that her being different will damage her friendship with the other girls.

She doesn’t want to be so “foreign” or “odd” to other people that it would affect how they look at Hikaru, Elena and Madoka as well. She doesn’t want to inconvenience her friends that it will change their relationship. She doesn’t want to be what breaks them apart.

After all, they’re the biggest reason why Lala’s going through all this trouble. They’re the reason why she wants to stay on Earth in the first place otherwise she wouldn’t have fought so hard in the last episode to stay together with them.

Lala’s willing to give up being herself just to stay with them (AWWW) and reassures Hikaru that she’ll do her best to get used to being “Earthling” (read: not Lala).

But Hikaru and the others, being the awesome friends they are, straight up tell her “No, Lala, you’re wrong” and set about reminding her why she wanted to go to school with them in the first place.

Yea.

They love Lala for who she is.

The would never demand Lala to act like them or speak like them or know every single Earth custom there is to know in order to hang out. Friends don’t give friends those sort of conditions (wow, that would be majorly screwed up).

They just wanted to spend time together with Lala and give her the experience she didn’t have on her home planet.

Lala never needed to worry about “fitting in” because she fits in with Hikaru, Elena and Madoka perfectly fine and she always had. Just because she goes to school with them now, nothing has changed.

Nothing that truly mattered had changed.

And they’re going to keep it that way.

had to correct it, not apologizing for anything except that text font, srslywtf “yeppers”?!

Finally, I think if this has taught Lulu anything (other than what’s already stated above), it’s that if she lets people to get to know her, including all her oddities and quirks and whatever makes her Lala, then they will surely respond to her sincerely and learn to appreciate her just as much as her own friends do.

It’s a scary thought, to face an unknown world where you might be rejected for who you are or what you are not.

But it’s not so bad when you do find someone who does understand and wholly accepts you.

That makes being different, being unique, everything worthwhile.

#i hope i mentioned everything i wanted to say #star twinkle precure #hagoromo lala #cure milky

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raeynbowboi · 6 years ago

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Top 10 Disney Villains

10. King Candy Wreck-It Ralph (2012)

Although he’s newer to the villain roster, King Candy was a well-written villain who served as a perfect blend of humorous and genuinely threatening. He also tied very nicely into the themes of the film, which makes him stand out in my memory as a good villain, because I take more than just personality and actions into account when judging characters, but also role in the narrative, and how they support the themes and ideas of the story. King Candy is the perfect villain for a story like this, which is why I consider him good enough to be on this list, even if as a villain himself, he might not be the most memorable among the Disney canon.

9. Gaston Beauty and the Beast (1991)

Perhaps the Disney villain we’re most likely to meet in real life, Gaston is the perfect example of toxic masculinity on full display. He’s a great anthithesis to the Beast, though I never saw him all that handsome, which sort of detracts just a little bit from the story. But in a story about how looks don’t matter, but actions do, he’s a great foil to the love interest. He’s a selfish hateful man who is handed everything he wants, and when he doesn’t get his way, he strongarms people until they meet his demands. Yet, despite his personality, he retains a legion of followers who are more-so admirers than actual friends. He never once considers anyone to be his equal or of sufficient worth unless it was helpful in his own endeavors. And anyone who has ever had a friend who basically used them and then ditched them at the soonest convenience can probably recognize that kind of so-called “friend” in Gaston. He’s a great villain to dissect as an analysis of our current culture, but I don’t want to write a five page essay on Gaston for a top 10 list.

8. Yzma Emperor’s New Groove (2000)

Inarguably Disney’s best comedic villain (not counting her henchman Kronk), Yzma is a brilliantly funny character whose exaggurated appearance and over-the-top personality blend well with the fast-paced slapstick comedy that fills the movie. Yet, despite being a funny villainess, she avoids a major pitfall of many comedic villains by also being legitimately threatening and dangerous to our heroes. That, combined with the excellent writing in the movie makes Yzma so memorable and likable.

7. Mother Gothel Tangled (2010)

Although her actual villainous actions in the movie are surprsingly few and far between, I genuinely love Mother Gothel as a villainess. Her motivations are well-established, and she’s the sole reason the story has any plot at all. Comparisons have been made to the living conditions of both Quasimodo and Rapunzel, and I would genuinely agree that Mother Gothel is akin to a diet version of Frollo without all the genocide and religious superiority. She has to be more discreet and pretend to be kind in order to keep her little flower content to remain obedient locked away from the outside world. It makes total sense the way she treats Rapunzel, and her entire character, personality, and role all fit together to enhance the narrative of the story.

6. Long John Silver Treasure Planet (2002)

Arguably one of the most human villains from Disney, Silver is a beautiful complexity as he juggles the duality of being a father-figure to the impressionable young Jim, while also betraying Jim’s trust. Since Jim’s father left when he was a child, Jim closes himself off from people and seems adrift in the world. Silver, who has no need to trick the boy for his mutiny to succeed, still takes the time to take Jim under his wing, nurture the boy’s abilities, and form a bond. Heck, with how relatively apathetic Jim was, he could have manipulated Jim into hating being on the ship, and thus have him be happy when the mutiny sets him free. But instead, he chose to teach the boy and boost his confidence. In the end, Silver is a compelling Anti-Villain where it’s hard to really define him as a good or wicked person. That is honestly more interesting than just being a straight deceitful villain.

5. Bill Sykes Oliver & Company (1988)

Perhaps the most surprising choice on my list, Sykes was a villain from Oliver & Company, a retelling of Oliver Twist with stray dogs and a kitten. However, despite Disney’s family friendly brand, Sykes is a surprisingly menacing character. A loan shark and a cut-throat business man, he spends most of the movie threatening to kill Fagin which is far darker than Disney tends to get. While many Disney villains want to kill people, those desires were driven by personal grievances with that person or people. With Sykes, it’s cold, ruthless business. He doesn’t care about Fagin’s life. All he cares about is getting his money, and Fagin’s life just happens to be the collateral. It’s the purest form of cold-blooded murder, and that’s not a common thing among Disney villains.

4. Ursula The Little Mermaid (1989)

There’s a good reason Ursula is one of the flagship villains of this franchise. She has a strong personality, is a great antagonist, and directly plays off the protagonist’s weaknesses to win. Second only to Scar, and possibly Jafar, Ursula is the classic hand-drawn animated Disney villain to get closest to winning. The fact that she’s based on a drag queen is kind of perfect, since the fairytale was written by Hans Christian Andersen to express his love for Edvard Collin discreetly. He intended to give it to Edvard as a wedding gift, but Edvard and his wife purposefully “forgot” to tell him when the wedding was out of fear that he’d make a scene or announce his love for Edvard in front of everyone. Thus, the mermaid’s taboo love of someone she shouldn’t who comes from an entirely different way of living is a direct parallel to Hans’ feelings for the young Gentleman, and the mermaid being unable to speak and suffering greatly to be near her love is a clear metaphor for Hans’ own feelings of torture. So the inclusion of a drag queen in a movie adaptation of a covert metaphorical gay romantic tragedy is just deliciously fitting.

3. The Horned King The Black Cauldron (1984)

Sykes got a place on this list for being genuinely intimidating, but this villain is living nightmare fuel. One of the best things a genuinely threatening villain can do is successfully scare you, and this villain scared the living daylights out of me as a child. In fact, he was the only Disney villain to truly and completely scare me as a child. The rest of the villains were pretty much just bad characters, but the Horned King was far more terrifying than anything else I’d seen as a kid. Though his movie bombed and the story itself was a bit lacking, the Horned King was a genuinely horrifying presence, and to this day, I can’t think Disney Villains without this guy clawing his way into my mind. Maybe as a villain himself, he’s a bit flat, but he’s a horrific undead murderous monster trying to snuff out all life. He doesn’t need to be that complex for what he is, and that works with the type of villain that he was created to be.

2. Claude Frollo The Hunchback of Notre-Dame (1996)

If Sykes made it to number 5 for the cold-blooded attempt at murder on one person, Frollo strolls into 2nd place for his cold-blooded successful mass racial/ethnic genocide of multiple people over a long reign of tyranny. Although we don’t see his treats on-screen, he very verbally implies that he has been executing people one by one for at least twenty years as he crushes ants. We even see him barricade a family with children inside of their house and then proceed to burn it down. This man is not messing around, and I love it. When it coems to dark, twisted, and messed up villains, Frollo takes the cake. He is hands down one of the greatest and most horrible villains out there. And the fact that he does this all in the name of God is a hauntingly dark reminder of the true cruelty of the medieval Christian church. Frollo was written in the original book to be a deliberate critique of the Catholic church, and I for one am grateful that Disney decided to be faithful to Frollo’s horrible nature when adapting to film.

1. Maleficent Sleeping Beauty (1959)

Finally, we reach the leader of the Disney Villains. How could I not put her at the top of this list? She literally fights with all the powers of Hell. But what I like most about her is what you can piece together from the narrative. Out of all the fairies, only Fauna thinks that Maleficent could be reasoned with, and she feels sad at the idea that Maleficent may not even grasp the concept of happiness, or what it feels like to be loved. This opens Maleficent up to being a product of abuse, abandonment, and bitterness. Her hatred for the world and her actions of spite and envy come into a new light with the idea that it’s kindled from neglect and exclusion from others. It offers the question of what would happen if someone did try to just talk to her, and offers a possibly sympathetic reading of her character. But, the true crux of what Maleficent stands for is that she’s evil, and she takes great pleasure in her evil ways. She cursed a baby because she wasn’t invited to a party. When it comes to pure, unfiltered evil, Maleficent has that in spades. So, Maleficent is a perfect character no matter which type you prefer as a villain: the tormented outcast lashing out, or the heartless monster lighting the world on fire for fun. No matter what kind of villain you prefer, there’s a way of reading her narrative to satisfy you.

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dicedumpling · 5 years ago

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[Get your Character’s Natal Chart here]

Chart Data For: Ryuuju Otogi 28 February 1980 at 09:54 (9:54 am) (time zone = UTC -8) Universal Time: 17:54 Las Vegas, Nevada, United States 36°N10' 115°W8' Tropical Zodiac Placidus Houses

Introduction

The following lists positions of planets and points in your natal chart with interpretations for key factors.

Planets and Points in The Signs

Sun in Pisces 9° 18' 13"

The Sun in the chart shows our character, personal identity, and ego. It represents our will to live and our creative life force. Just as the planets revolve around the Sun in our solar system, we derive our life purpose from the Sun in our natal charts. The Sun is our “adult”– the part of us that censors our “inner child,” reasons things out, and makes final decisions. The Sun also gives clues to our overall vitality. The Sun directs us and can be considered “the boss” of our chart.

When people ask you "What's your sign?", Pisces would be your answer. Technically, though, it's your Sun sign that is Pisces, and you're made up of many different sign combinations. Even so, your Sun sign is highly influential and significant, and we're interpreting this factor here.

As the twelfth and last sign of the zodiac, Pisces contains within itself a little experience of all the signs. This gives Pisces Suns the incredible ability to identify with people from all walks of life--from all backgrounds--in some way. Pisceans are not only changeable and adaptable, they have open minds and tremendous understanding. But Pisces itself is often misunderstood. Pisces Suns may spend a good portion of their lives yearning for understanding, and the other part in a state of divine discontent. Suffering is sometimes glamorized in the Piscean world.

Sun in Pisces people are sometimes pegged as wishy-washy, but this is all a matter of opinion. What you will find behind a vaguely directionless manner is a deep, sincere person with real dreams. Their dreams are more than getting that picket fence or making it up the corporate ladder. Pisces are tuned in to a higher purpose and their goals transcend the individual. A deep love for humanity and compassion that knows few bounds is found with this placement of the Sun.

Pisceans are not known to be cutthroat business types, nor are they given to throwing themselves out into the world in an aggressive manner (unless their charts show strong indications of these tendencies). But make no mistake about it, Pisces can be extraordinarily successful when given a chance to express themselves. The arts, marketing, music, teaching, drama, healing arts... these are all fields in which Pisces can find expression. Their imagination, attunement to humanity, and remarkable intuition endow them with enviable gifts of insight and creativity.

Pisces is a sensitive sign--both sensitive to criticism and sensitive to others' feelings. Easily touched by human suffering, at least in theory, Pisces wouldn't hurt a fly. They believe in people, are deeply hurt by compassionless human behavior, and have a hard time saying no. Harsh realities are avoided either through escapist behavior or self-delusion; but every now and again reality does raise its ugly head and hits Pisces over the head. This is a sad time indeed. Pisces retreats into their own world, self-pitying and giving pep talks to themselves ("I will never trust again!"). Rest assured, though, that these periods are rather short-lived and even useful. Pisces seems to derive energy from their (generally short) bouts of self-pity. They come back stronger, with a spring in their step, ready to face the world again, and just as, if not more, compassionate and trusting as they were before. Some might even wonder if Pisces finds pleasure in suffering. Perhaps this is the case for a few, but most of the time, Pisces pulls a lot of creative energy from sadness. Pisces is the poet or artist with angst.

Some find Pisces' tendency to be late for appointments, spaced out behavior, or absent-mindedness amount to irresponsibility. Pisces would be shocked to know this, however. Who me? Pisces wonders. Irresponsible? Pisces Suns absolutely care -- their love knows few bounds -- but their retreats from ordinary life (whether they are as simple as daydreams or actual departures) that they do seem to need are not always understandable to no-nonsense signs, such as Virgo or Aries.

Many Pisces seem almost allergic to things like shopping lists, maps, directions, and instructions, and for some brave souls, even watches -- they prefer to feel their way through life than to follow a solid plan. Of course, Pisces with strong Capricorn, Aries, or Saturn, for example, in their charts will appreciate a guide map, at least.

You are generous, kind, creative, and peace-loving by nature. Your artistic sense is well-developed.

As a Pisces, you are wise, but you seem to retain a certain amount of innocence throughout life that keeps you vital and compassionate. This is because you believe -- in people, in life, in spirit, whatever it is you put your faith in, it keeps you vibrant. People appreciate you for your sense of humor, wordless understanding, and innate kindness.

Pisces vibes with Thursdays, the number 3, the colors aquamarine and variations of blue and green, opals and pearls, emerald, amethyst, silver jewelry, and the metal tin.

Your Sun sign is modified by various factors, including the aspects it makes to other planets and points, its house position, the house with the sign the Sun rules (Leo) on its cusp, and your Neptune and Jupiter signs since Neptune and Jupiter are your planetary rulers. These positions add more layers to the Sun in Pisces interpretation. Pisces is a Mutable Water sign. More on Pisces.

Ascendant in Taurus 28° 37' 12"

The Ascendant defines, in part, the first impression we make on others in a personal rather than professional sense. It represents our physical appearance, our physical bodies and overall health, and the body ego. It can be the mask or costume we wear to greet the world. It reveals our natural and personal defense mechanisms that we use to adapt to - and cope with - our environment. The Ascendant also shows our first impressions of the world around us and our expectations of same –whether we are naturally hesitant or enthusiastic, for example. How we begin new projects and our attitude towards new experiences come under the rule of the Ascendant.

Slow, steady, and capable are adjectives that we can safely attach to individuals born with a Taurus Ascendant. You are likely to possess tremendous stamina and staying power, or, at the very least, you come across as very stable and comfortable. You are often quite loyal to the people you care about, and even to places, objects, and situations. Although you typically don't come on strong, you have a strong personal presence, and you fairly radiate stability. There is also a wonderfully healing and sensual aura surrounding you.

The sign on the Ascendant reveals how individuals start or approach new things and situations. Taurus, by nature, is resistant to change as a Fixed Earth sign. It can be difficult to sway Taurus rising natives –they're often rather stubborn and fixed in their ways. Your first instincts are to feel things out in the realm of the five senses. You have a well-developed sense of smell and touch, and you respond powerfully to the material world. You adopt a practical approach to life, and you are often very methodical. Security is one of your first considerations before undertaking anything new.

You may be very cautious and careful, at least at first or in appearance. With a Fixed sign on your Ascendant, you are definitely NOT known for your flexibility. Rather, you possess determined single-mindedness. You may have been labeled the slow and cautious child in your early years. Sometimes, this placement indicates a childhood in which there was a little too much emphasis on the material world. However, you are likely to have fond memories of your early years unless Venus is very challenged in your chart.

In fact, Venus is your first house ruler, and its position and condition by sign, house, and aspect have a particularly profound impact on your life. The placement of Venus can also influence and color your appearance, mannerisms, and approach to the world around you or new situations. For example, if you have Venus in a Fire sign, you may come across as more assertive or impatient than other people with Taurus rising.

You may very well be a creature of habit. While you are a tolerant person, changes to your routine can be difficult for you to accept. In fact, one of your pet peeves is to be pushed into new situations. People have a hard time getting you to change your mind once it's made up.

More than most, Taurus rising prefers the "good things" in life. Self-indulgence can be a weakness for many with this Ascendant. You may very well be a collector in a significant way -- you place a lot of value on your possessions. More than most, you may want to own your own home or a piece of land, for example. You also thrive on physical touch.

You often avoid atmospheres that are very noisy or chaotic. You come across as quite easygoing, and, for the most part, this is true. However, you do have a breaking point, and once beyond it, you are unlikely to come back.

Security and certainty are tremendously important to you. Perhaps you take your time on new beginnings because once you set out on a course, you rarely stray from it. Stubbornness and persistence can get you places. However, it can sometimes cause interpersonal problems, mainly because people close to you can be tempted to approach you in roundabout ways simply to get their way. If this persists, relationships can become toxic. Aim for more flexibility and place more value on others' honesty and directness than peace and harmony in the moment.

You often prefer to dress in quality clothes with a comfortable feel to them. You are rarely ostentatious in your presentation. Many people with this rising sign have strong and sturdy physiques or the appearance of robustness. You tend to move in a graceful or sensual manner. Many people with your rising sign have beautiful, soothing voices. You radiate contentment and peace. While this endears you to others, at times this can lead you to feel misunderstood. There can be times when you're feeling anxious and off-center, but you rarely appear this way.

Often rather possessive in partnership, those with Taurus rising don't easily break up their relationships, or their routines and habits! Although you are not particularly jealous, you have some tendency to view your partners or friends as your personal property. Intensity and loyalty are especially important to you. You are a highly sensual person, often preferring the comforts that a one-to-one, stable partnership offers. Although you value harmony and calm, your partnerships may be on the passionate side.

You are often very comforting to be around. You radiate a certain stability that is soothing to others, as well as an inner harmony that is attractive. More on Taurus Rising.

Moon in Leo 16° 02' 25"

The Moon in the signs reveals much about our habits, reactions, and instincts. It shows how we express and deal with our emotions. Most obvious in our homes or in private, our Moon sign reveals our innermost needs. The Moon can represent our experience of nurturing; it also shows how we nurture ourselves! It's important to note that Moon signs change every 2 or 2-1/2 days, and on some days, can be one of two signs, in which case an accurate birth time is necessary.

With your Moon in Leo, you are proud, noble, and loving. Your heart is enormous! Depending on other positions in the chart, you may or may not be outgoing, in general, but with this position of the Moon, when you feel comfortable, you do like being the center of attention. That is, you love being in the "spotlight" in the comfort of your own home and with family and friends. You thoroughly enjoy entertaining others, and you often take on the role of comic or leader.

Lunar Leos often feel a need to organize, and even control, their families and friends. They have a secret mission to set things right, and generally like to oversee the goings-on in their little circle. This, or family and friends tend to assign Leo Moon people their unofficial leader or organizer.

This is a very creative position of the Moon. At the very least, you seek or want to create and entertain. You can be lazy at times, and a little bossy, too. You're flexible only up to a point, after which you draw the line. Generally, though, you have a deep need to treat others fairly and justly.

You require lots and lots of love and care to function well in the world. When you feel slighted, you can be dramatic in your emotional displays, whether you choose to brood or hold your head high. When your pride has been hurt, you can be given to big scenes and sulking. This rarely happens in public, however. Lunar Leos are far too concerned about their image to make splashy scenes outside the comfort of their own homes. In public, they prefer to take things in dignified ways. At home, however, they're less inhibited. These scenes generally don't last too long, however.

Lunar Leos are often personally popular folk who are valued for their integrity and strong sense of justice.

You can be very proud, and you're rarely happy to follow orders. Leo is a Fixed sign, and it can be difficult to change your mind or to change up plans on you at the last moment. You need time to adjust to schedule changes! You will go to bat for anyone you love, and you can be fiercely protective of your loved ones.

Generally, it is easy to reason with you, though. Appealing to your well-developed sense of fairness usually works well. You are strongly self-aware and always strive towards self-improvement. You are extraordinarily loyal to people who have proved themselves to you, or perhaps more accurately, who haven't disproved themselves to you! In truth, you expect the best from others and give them the benefit of the doubt until they prove you wrong. The same can be said of life, in general -- first and foremost, you expect the best. You're not blind to adverse situations, but you focus on the positive and strive to remain positive in your expectations and attitude. This is one of the many reasons others love to be around you.

Mercury in Pisces 20° 55' 36" Rx

What's your style of communication? How do you make decisions? How do you pick up, process, absorb, and exchange information? These questions are answered, in part, by Mercury's placement by sign in your natal chart. Someone may be an assertive Aries, but they could also have Mercury in Taurus, with a style of communication that's slower, patient, and not quite as spirited as one would expect from an Aries, as an example. Mercury refines the Sun sign, and it helps to define how we take in--and give out--information.

With Mercury in Pisces, you're a gentle communicator with a soft touch that is pleasing and warm. You may even come across in an almost poetic way. Not given to bother too much with details, you tend to sponge up the feelings and moods of your environment. The information you extract from your surroundings can be unusual and undoubtedly unique. More often than not, it's heavily skewed in the direction of emotion and feeling.

You're usually a lovely listener and, when you get talking, a warm conversationalist. When it comes to communicating, you're moody, and this extends to your texts and emails, too. It's a kind of odd thing -- people never know when you'll be in a quiet mood or a yakking state. You don't compete for airtime, but you can talk up a storm when you're in the right frame of mind. Predicting when that will be can be difficult, though!

With your Mercury in Pisces, you're tactful because you don't want to offend others in any way. You feel out your audience and sometimes search for what you think others want to hear. Yes, Mercury in Pisces can fib. It's not because you're malicious--you just want others to be comfortable.

You may come across as dreamy and indirect. It can be hard to pin you down to any one belief or decision. It's not that you want to drive people crazy or anything--it's just that you take in so much information from the world. As well, your open-mindedness prevents you from taking a stance for too long. You have an unusual aversion to cold facts and hard decisions. Driven more by intuition than facts, you avoid list-making and the like. Others might think you disorganized, but you have an uncanny knack of finding things nonetheless. You tend to skirt detail work or avoid tying up loose ends, not to mention your mind often drifts off to Never-Never Land. Pisces is the escape artist, and since Mercury rules studying and concentration, you are not always living in the moment!

You tune in to all the nuances of subjects and environments. You pick up on subtleties of all kinds, so what you lack in organization you make up for with insight. If your Sun Sign happens to be Aries, much of the brashness and directness of Aries is considerably toned down with Mercury in Pisces. If your Sun sign is Aquarius, you're especially artistic, humane, and whimsical. If your Sun sign is Pisces, well, you're doubling up on the sign, and your creativity and imagination are boundless.

You're often vague and indirect in your communications. If you learn to express yourself with more clarity, you'll find that a lot of the problems you encounter with misunderstandings will lessen. Your sensitive nature can make you an easy target at times. Your plans may seem too dreamy and unrealistic to more practical sorts, lacking the details that make them seem viable or attainable. But your vision is extraordinary, your unusual point of view delightful, and your leaps of faith are admirable.

Favorite expression: "I believe..."

Venus in Aries 21° 58' 46"

How do you attract things, situations, and people into your life? Venus rules our sentiments, what we value, and the pleasure we take in life. Grace, charm, and beauty are all ruled by Venus. Through Venus, we learn about our tastes, preferences, artistic inclinations, and what makes us happy. We look to Venus in the natal chart to see how we approach relationships of the heart, as well as what gives us pleasure. We also turn to Venus to show how we spend our money, the types of gifts we buy, and how much we spend on leisure activities (not to mention the kinds of leisure activities we seek). Venus rules attractiveness--both the ability to attract and attraction to others (and things). Venus rules, amongst other things, the arts, love and romance, beauty and the beautifying process, money, entertainment, leisure, sensuality, and comfort.

With Venus in Aries, you're straightforward in your romantic or social life. You flirt by being up-front, direct, and even daring. You try to win others over by expressing how enterprising and independent you are. Your style of expressing love can be maddeningly "me"-centered, but the right person for you will find this approach charming. People often enjoy your aura of innocent charm, even when you are acting a little childish or impatient.

You're likely to have a fun-loving manner in love. You're turned on by energy and activity. Turn-offs include a relationship that is considered stuffy or too "mature," vagueness, and beating around the bush. In love, you can be hopelessly addicted to the conquest. For a relationship to remain fresh and new, you require plenty of stimulation. You need to see some sparks flying! You're attracted to independent, dynamic people, or that's your own style when in pursuit of something (or someone) you want.

Pleasing you in love involves fueling your need for action. Others should be direct, open, and honest with you since you don't much like game-playing or evasiveness unless it is in the full spirit of fun. They'd do well to feed your need for spontaneity, appreciate your playfulness, and understand your desire for the relationship to remain young and fresh. Venus in Aries likes to take the lead in love (even if your Sun Sign is gentle Pisces). You have many whims, and you thrive on competition.

You don't necessarily take control, but you do instinctively take the lead in matters of the heart. You don't quickly adapt to others' feelings, however. You can be demanding in love, addicted to the chase or the intense passions of the moment. You love spontaneous expressions of affection and sexuality. You're enthusiastic and attractive and possess innocent or straightforward charm. You attract by being direct and not beating around the bush, preferring to get right to the point! Your attractions are quick and sometimes short-lived. You're ardent and often hard to resist! However, you can be a little blunt and abrupt at times.

Venus in Aries Personal Ad Bio: "I have a strong sense of adventure. I will win you over. I'm self-taught and self-sufficient."

With money, you can be an impulse buyer. You're attracted to new and innovative products but would do well to wait a few days before buying because the desire can pass quite quickly. Art that appeals to you is bold and active in tone.

Mars in Virgo 4° 23' 21" Rx

As a productive and busy person, you are goal-oriented and practical. Although you can be a little scattered at times, only because you are doing so many things at any give time, you get things done—quite well! You may have a knack for handling a wide variety of tasks at once, and a tendency to take on perhaps too much at the same time.

Mars in Virgo natives like yourself are usually not particularly aggressive by nature. Although you can be a little hard-nosed and critical at times, you rarely resort to pushing others around. Still, you might be difficult to be around if you are annoyed! Should anyone arouse your anger, you might turn into a bit of a nag. Generally, you don't make yourself a nuisance, however, so this stage is unlikely to last for very long. It is a sensitive position of Mars, however. It doesn't take much to make you nervous.

You are quite protective about your "system" for getting things done. Although rather humble in a general life sense, you can be quite particular about your methods--how you organize your things and accomplish your goals, mostly with work. Yours is nervous energy. Although you have some staying power, you can be restless and are not given to sticking with the same projects for too long.

You may derive plenty of energy and life force from the things you do--your work, hobbies, and any projects you take on. It is a sorry sight, indeed, when you are stuck being idle. Fidgety, nervous, worried...all of these things are a sure sign that you have either too little to do, or far too much on your plate. You are a perfectionist at heart. You'll be the first to deny this, but it's there! You may worry when you are not producing anything, and you worry about whether what you've produced will measure up.

There's often a shy and humble side to you in any area that involves putting yourself out there and letting go (areas ruled by Mars). But experience and knowledge are important to you, and this drive generally wins over your natural reticence. You can be wonderfully organized and ready for most anything that comes your way. People can count on you, and you're often particularly willing to help others out.

Jupiter in Virgo 4° 45' 53" Rx

With Jupiter in Virgo, you attract the most fortune when you are helpful, honest, practical, orderly, and when you pay attention to details. The service industries, nutrition, and health are prosperous avenues for you.

You most value practical and technical knowledge and skills. You are a real problem solver and others appreciate your help. You don't always feel lucky or especially ambitious. Instead, you value hard work.

As an Earth sign Jupiter, you are a practical realist who needs to visualize results to feel motivated to achieve them. You are a “doer” who is not easily lured by get-rich-quick schemes! You are not very much of a risk taker. You need direction, clear goals, and definite plans, and you value tangible results.

Saturn in Virgo 24° 45' 46" Rx

Saturn in our charts shows us where we limit ourselves due to fear or insecurity. With your Saturn in Virgo, you may feel limited or weighed down by work, routine, service, and attention to detail. You may feel overburdened or often left to your own resources, taking on more work than is fair. Finding the meaning or joy in your work, routines, and service is something to strive toward.

You have an excellent eye for details, but you sometimes get lost in them, unsure of your ability to piece everything together. Or, you might leave things unfinished because of a very strong perfectionist streak. If you don't finish it, there is no risk of it being less than perfect! Fear of criticism or of making mistakes can severely limit your opportunities, whether to take on new endeavors or to finish the ones you started. Chances run high that the standards you've set for yourself are too strict. Watch, too, for a tendency to convince yourself that you just don't care to get things right, precise, or accurate since this means avoiding the problem. In all likelihood, deep down, you care too much. Tackling the root of the problem with self-honesty can help you to do less fretting and more living. Digestive problems are often associated with this placement.

Uranus in Scorpio 25° 34' 11"

You're most interested in making changes, innovating, and updating traditions related to intimacy, healing, metaphysics, psychology, transformation, investigation, privacy, dependence, support, the management of resources, and debts. You seek more freedom in or through these areas, and you don't feel much need to conform! You may believe in breaking through some of the inhibitions or taboos related to sexuality, power dynamics, mortality, and self-knowledge. Despite the need for progress, you can be very stubborn and set in your ways in these areas. You may challenge authority or rules and laws in place only if you feel they are limiting our progress, seeking to revolutionize the ways we view our intimate relationships with others and ourselves, or to awaken others to new thinking in these areas. Your intuition is powerful and hunches uncannily on point. You're excited to break new ground when attempting to understand the layers of yourself, a person in your life, or a situation. Research is a talent.

Neptune in Sagittarius 22° 30' 06"

Your vision of an ideal world may center around the truth, tolerance, freedom, liberty, generosity, and intellectual understanding. You may idealize truth, justice, and the power of positive thinking. Your optimism is a breath of fresh air, but may at times be taken so far that you are somewhat blind to the practical side of an endeavor. Or, your goals and ideals are set so high that it can be challenging to reach them. Fantasizing about something better is your escape. Your openness to mystical or alternative interpretations of life is refreshing.

Pluto in Libra 21° 25' 49" Rx

The quest to bring reform or to distinguish yourself through your relationships and connections with others can be so fraught with pressure at times that you have a hard time letting go or feeling content and satisfied with your accomplishments in these areas. The goal should be to feel more personally powerful through your ability to compromise and treat others fairly, not to seek your power from your relationships. You have brilliant insights into people and relationships. You know that improving the world starts with reforming the ways we interact with one another.

Chiron in Taurus 9° 55' 57"

You may very well hold onto guilt for enjoying material things, comfort, luxury, and so forth. In your head, you know you're entitled to spoil yourself from time to time, but it's hard to truly convince yourself of this deep down. You're wonderful at helping others understand that they're worth it, however! Whether you compensate by over- or under-indulging, you're likely holding onto too much guilt. Your needs for security and safety run very deep, and sometimes they work against you if you're not careful.

Black Moon Lilith in Virgo 25° 56' 34"

You may have felt ashamed, off, or wrong about paying special attention to the practical side of life, attention to details, organization, and routines. As a result, you may go to pains to prove you’re not ordinary, worried, eager to please, or concerned about details enough to perfect a craft or project. Leaving many projects unfinished can be a sign of perfectionist expectations – this way, you don’t have to deal with the prospect of not producing something perfect.

North Node in Leo 29° 19' 51"

One theory behind the Nodes of the Moon (the North Node and South Node) suggests that we all come into this world with some underdeveloped and overdeveloped aspects of our character. The Nodes of the Moon point us to these specific qualities: the South Node represents our overdeveloped character traits that we automatically fall back upon. We're talented here, but if we overdo this area of life or hold onto these traits to feel secure, we may undermine our lives or prevent growth. On the other hand, the North Node suggests the qualities that we need to work on and develop to achieve inner balance.

With your True North Node of the Moon in Leo, your South Node is in Aquarius.

A tendency to rely too much on others who may let you down, to come across as impersonal or distant in your dealings with others, to be fearful of being the center of attention and standing out as an individual, to fear taking risks, and to fall back on peers and community at the expense of your own individuality are some of the issues this position suggests. With this influence, you should watch for falling into the easy trap of worrying too much about what others think about you. Instead, you need to strike out along your own individual and creative path. You'd be wise to make a conscious effort to deal with others in a more personal, involved, and loving manner, rather than falling back on reason and intellect which detaches you from your feelings. You might unintentionally alienate others when you over-emphasize equality to the point that we won't acknowledge individuals' uniqueness. You may too often be the audience and not the performer in your life! You may too easily lose touch with your own heart by rationalizing your feelings, and you might become overly involved with other people's problems at the expense of your inner needs for attention. Learning to take personal risks, which requires a certain amount of self-confidence, will help you to achieve inner balance and happiness.

Part of Fortune in Scorpio 5° 21' 23"

You could find that success comes more readily for you when you are using your powers to investigate, dig deep, read between the lines, research, and intuit. In fact, you find joy through these things. You are very perceptive and resourceful. You can be a particularly successful healer, investigator, accountant, psychologist, or agent, among other things. You enjoy inspiring others to understand themselves, to find their courage, to accept their deeper desires, and to embrace their personal truth. You also find joy through transformation and regeneration. Look to the condition of Mars and Pluto for more clues to where and how you might improve your lot in life.

Vertex in Libra 28° 00' 09"

Midheaven in Aquarius 8° 39' 15"

Planets and Points in The Houses

Sun in Eleventh House

The Sun's house position modifies and refines its position by zodiac sign. With the Sun in your eleventh house, you are a humanitarian who aims to treat everyone as equals. You are unique and original, and you do your best to avoid bias and prejudice. Social status is less important to you than belonging to a group of diverse personalities. Your identity, in fact, is somehow linked to a larger unit than yourself. You have high hopes and goals and tend to look at life in terms of opportunities. You have magnetic appeal, as people sense your broad tolerance and openness. The friendships you establish are crucial to your development. If you identify too much with your associations and your friendliness or ability to build bridges, you may become too impersonal and alienate those who would like to get close to you. You are a team player and can have a significant impact on groups and among friends and networks.

Moon in Fourth House

The Moon in the houses can reveal where and how we go about seeking emotional satisfaction. If it's an issue, we can discover vital clues to the reason for perpetual emotional unrest through the study of the house position of the Moon, and these can manifest as constant changes or ups and downs in the areas of life ruled by the house. It is in these areas that we should aim to make deep attachments rather than chase superficial and temporary emotional thrills if we are seeking out a genuine feeling of belonging and emotional fulfillment. It's important to note that house positions are quite sensitive to birth times.

With the Moon in your fourth house, you long for a sense of true belonging, but you may be quite restless in your search. You might change residence frequently or simply feel the need to make many changes in your home. Moving often may be a healthy thing if it keeps you emotionally stimulated. However, if you find that you do so on whims and later regret the changes, you might want to treat it as a symptom of emotional unrest. This is because, with this house position, you could be in an endless search for the perfect mood and setting, when in fact a feeling of belonging should be worked on from the inside out, not the outside in!

While some with this position remain somewhat immature on an emotional level, never wanting to truly grow up and take care of yourself, for most, this is about taking attachments to the past, traditions, or family/home strongly to heart.

With the Moon in the fourth house, you very often feel the need to anchor, ground, or center yourself before feeling fit in other areas of life. You have a powerful sense of home or family, and the drive for security and safety can be behind much of what you do.

This is an excellent position for home business. You can have a strong interest in lineage, history, or collecting. You are likely quite creative and warm. You have strong emotional "feelers," and you need to feel out a situation before trusting it.

Mercury in Eleventh House

You are endlessly curious about people, group interactions, community affairs, trends, and teams, as well as wonderfully open-minded. You are attracted to people who bring new ideas into your experience, and who have something novel to contribute on an intellectual level. You are very forward-looking and fair-minded. Fair play, impartiality, and unselfishness are essential ideals for you. There can be many changes or fluctuations in your personal wishes, dreams, plans, and ideals. You might attract friends who come and go, or who are dishonest or duplicitous if Mercury is challenged here.

You are friendly and an engaging conversationalist, although you tend to go off on many different tangents, rarely following a neat, logical line or train of thought. Sharing ideas with others is vitally important to you. While your ideas can be unconventional, you work well with others or in a team.

These traits are Mercury in the eleventh house in pure form and are modified by Mercury's sign and aspects. [Note that house positions are highly dependent on birth time.]

Venus in Twelfth House

With Venus in the twelfth house, you may enjoy a strong level of privacy or emotional space for you to decompress and get in touch with your feelings. You have a huge imagination and enjoy a rich dreaming and daydreaming inner world. You are quick to help others, but sometimes at your own expense. You can be big on romance, and you tend to live and breathe your partner once you're hooked. Not the best at defining your boundaries — where your needs and a partner's needs separate — you can get hurt in love rather easily.

You are attracted to people from all walks of life, finding a partner who has an unusual background or quirky personality most attractive. Partners who mistake your compassion for weakness can take advantage of you. Being openly affectionate and trusting doesn't always feel comfortable for you. Love and sacrifice often seem to go hand in hand for you.

Mars in Fourth House

You can be fiercely protective of your close friends and family with Mars in your solar fourth house. Anger may be deeply felt and possibly deeply buried, too! As a result, it can be difficult for others to pinpoint your true motives, and you can be considered a real enigma. You can be passive-aggressive in your approach to the outside world when younger, which could lead to resentments if you are not careful--or confident--enough to take a more direct approach to pursuing your desires and expressing your anger. With time and experience, as well as substantial work towards achieving a healthy balance between emotional self-control and expression, you're likely to deal with frustrations in a more empowering way.

Family dynamics are lively and often intense with Mars in the fourth house. You may frequently have arguments with family, about them, or on their behalf! You might attempt to rule the roost on the home front, or you often take on a leadership role at home and with family. In fact, you may be the unofficial leader on the domestic front. Your actions are more often than not governed by your instincts, and you don't appreciate being manipulated or forced into doing something that doesn't come from your gut. You also possess tremendous energy for domestic projects or activities. This is a powerful astrological influence for working from (or on) the home.

Jupiter in Fourth House

With Jupiter in your fourth house, you have strong instincts that guide you, particularly on a professional level. You readily make warm connections with others, particularly valuing your family and close loved ones. Old age is expected to be pleasant and rewarding. Strong morals were reinforced in your childhood. You dream of--and have a good chance of attaining-- a large or spacious home. You likely feel that "happiness is home." You can be a collector of objects of sentimental value, or you take a great interest in history.

Saturn in Fifth House

Uranus in Sixth House

Neptune in Seventh House

You are inclined to give more to a partnership (including marriage) than you take. There may be a tendency to wear rose-colored glasses when it comes to the selection of a partner, in an attempt to find a soulmate. The need for a strong psychic or intuitive link with a partner is so high that your perceptions in partnership are not always accurate. You need to take a step back, consciously attempting to see your partners and relationships for who/what they are, rather than what you wish them to be. You might be attracted to relationships in which you feel a partner needs to be saved somehow, or in which a partner saves you. However, you might end up with people who only serve to confuse you, who are noncommittal or unavailable, or who are overly dependent. You tend to idealize a partner, assigning them traits that you want them to have, or even seeing them as worse than they are due to inflated and dramatic expectations. You need to develop discipline and discrimination when it comes to setting limits, selecting partners, and keeping communication clear in a relationship. In some cases, people with this position give up their power to partners and become dependent upon them. You are likely a creative negotiator, and you can be especially accommodating with others. Positively, you are very talented at bringing out the good in another person, particularly a partner, if that person is appreciative of your efforts and is willing to grow.

NOTE: Since Neptune is very close to the next house cusp, the next item is also relevant.

Neptune in Eighth House

There is a spiritual longing with this position. You might often experience deja vu or other psychic phenomena. You pay attention to dreams, and you might enjoy analyzing them. Sexual fantasies or role-playing can be strong themes in your life. You might yearn for a spiritual form of ecstasy on an intimate level--a soul connection.

You could feel that your needs on this level are always just out of reach. You can be a giver in bed, and perhaps feel that you give more than you get. Alternatively, you could be in the opposite position in which you seek partners who are exceptionally giving on a sexual level. Either way, there is an imbalance, and you could be left wanting. With Neptune in the 8th, it can be especially important to be discriminating when it comes to selecting sexual partners if Neptune is challenged. You may not see your partner clearly because of a deep need for extraordinary or fantastical experiences. There may be times when you give more than you take with money. If a more aggressive personality seems to want something more, you will cut them a better deal. Your shared finances may be chaotic in some way. You may be taken advantage of on a monetary level in partnership, or you might keep poor financial records and end up paying or owing more as a result. There can be a blurring of boundaries when it comes to finances and partnership, whether that means you allow a partner to control your finances or you adopt a "what's mine is yours" philosophy without following up on or enforcing the "what's yours is mine" part. In this way, you may leave yourself open to deception or even fraud. You can be a bit sloppy with accounting. You may have problems collecting inheritance and could encounter difficulties on a financial level through the marital partner.

Over the years, you will likely learn to take more responsibility for your finances and learn to be less timid about taking ownership of what is rightfully yours. You are very creative and imaginative sexually, and you understand and accept a broad range of styles and preferences on a sexual level.

Pluto in Sixth House

You are a hard worker and can be quite protective or private when it comes to your work output. You are excellent at analysis, but you can also easily become obsessed with finding an answer to problems, perhaps even finding problems that others overlook. You "come alive" when presented with a problem that requires research and analysis. Work can become an obsession for you, and you are able to work almost tirelessly. You might be private or insular when it comes to your job, and you might also feel overly attached to what you do even to the point of paranoia. Fear of criticism might run high when it comes to your work output. Directing your own work or working for yourself may be the best route for you to take, as you can easily resent others controlling your schedule and the work that you do. You are likely very interested in areas of health and self-improvement, as well as explorations of the mind-body connection, and you instinctively seek alternative therapies for healing. Some of you are outstanding researchers in these areas.

Chiron in Twelfth House

Black Moon Lilith in Fifth House

North Node in Fourth House

The theory behind the Nodes of the Moon (the North Node and South Node) suggests that we all come into this world with some underdeveloped and overdeveloped aspects of our character. The Nodes of the Moon point us to these specific qualities: the South Node represents our overdeveloped character traits that we automatically fall back upon. We're talented here, but if we overdo this area of life or hold onto these traits to feel secure, we may undermine our lives or prevent growth. On the other hand, the North Node suggests the qualities that we need to work on and develop to achieve inner balance.

With your North Node in the fourth house, your South Node is naturally in the tenth house.

Your path is to, more often, allow yourself to be vulnerable, to open yourself to the possibility of receiving nurture, and to release the need to feel in control and on top of things. You fix problems and take on a management role expertly and quickly--it's second nature to you--but you need to be nurtured from time to time as well. Once you do let others in, your life will improve many times over. Fixing your home life can enhance your career tremendously.

Part of Fortune in Sixth House

Vertex in Sixth House

Aspects

Sun Opposition Mars (orb 4°55')

Sun Opposition Jupiter (orb 4°32')

Sun Sextile Chiron (orb 0°38')

Sun Trine Part of Fortune (orb 3°57')

Moon Trine Venus (orb 5°56')

Mercury Opposition Saturn (orb 3°50')

Mercury Trine Uranus (orb 4°39')

Mercury Square Neptune (orb 1°34')

Mercury Quincunx Pluto (orb 0°30')

Venus Quincunx Saturn (orb 2°47')

Venus Trine Neptune (orb 0°31')

Venus Opposition Pluto (orb 0°33')

Mars Conjunction Jupiter (orb 0°23')

Mars Trine Chiron (orb 5°33')

Mars Conjunction North Node (orb 5°4')

Mars Sextile Part of Fortune (orb 0°58')

Mars Square Ascendant (orb 5°46')

Jupiter Trine Chiron (orb 5°10')

Jupiter Conjunction North Node (orb 5°26')

Jupiter Sextile Part of Fortune (orb 0°36')

Jupiter Square Ascendant (orb 6°9')

Saturn Sextile Uranus (orb 0°48')

Saturn Square Neptune (orb 2°16')

Saturn Trine Ascendant (orb 3°51')

Uranus Square North Node (orb 3°46')

Uranus Opposition Ascendant (orb 3°3')

Neptune Sextile Pluto (orb 1°4')

Chiron Opposition Part of Fortune (orb 4°35')

Chiron Square Midheaven (orb 1°17')

North Node Sextile Vertex (orb 1°20')

North Node Square Ascendant (orb 0°43')

Part of Fortune Square Midheaven (orb 3°18')

Vertex Quincunx Ascendant (orb 0°37')

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The Principles of The Universe

The nature of the universe, at its deepest level, is (like) your mind. There are certain principles that make our experience an active choice. It is an ancient teaching. There are eight principles that make it possible for us to determine the nature of our existence: the past, the future, and most importantly the present.

PRINCIPLE ONE:

The Universe is pure Intelligence

The basic nature of the universe is mind. It is pure intelligence. You see, the deepest level of the universe, deeper than molecules, atoms, electrons — the deepest level of the universe — is a level where the idea of “location” does not exist. At that level it is not possible to locate the specific position and speed of an electron. That essentially means that this deepest level pervades all that is. It has no specific location. It is omnipresent. Scientists in our world have not located it yet. In other worlds they are calling it Quantum space. Scientists have not been able to locate consciousness in the brain either. In fact they have no idea where consciousness in located in the human being. That is because it is like the basic Quantum level of the universe. The basic nature of this deepest level of the universe is consciousness — pure intelligence. At the Quantum level, at is very depth the universe acts like an information processor — like a mind. This information flows around and through all processes. All things are intimately and infinitely connected by the flow of the consciousness. Nature is purposive and its possesses deep intentionality. The laws that govern the universe are contained at this Quantum level. That is why one can find this information during their inner journeys. Always remember that he who is capable of deep inner reflection will gain the secrets of the universe, because that is where they are kept.

PRINCIPLE TWO:

All Matter is composed of (thought) Vibrations

Reality is not what you see. Everything is vibrating at different rates or frequencies. Principle number two is that everything is composed of frequencies. Everything is in vibration. The difference between a rock, a tree, and a man is the difference in the rate of vibration. There is a hierarchy of vibration with matter at the low end, and energy at the higher end. Mind is even higher than energy. Take an object, hot or cold. that object will manifest certain heat vibrations. Those heat vibrations will, if raised, turn into light. If rased enough, a tremendous amount of power will be released, and the matter will disintegrate. The ancient teachings say, “All manifestation of thought, emotion, reason, will, or desire, or any mental state or condition are accompanied by vibrations.” These vibrations are, in a sense, transmitted to the area around them in the same way heat radiates outward from a hot object. Every thought, emotion or mental state has its corresponding rate and mode of vibration. These frequencies can be changed by a change in the thought patterns that inhabit the mind. Since the universe is also made up of vibration at the deepest level, and the matter that is the universe can be affected and changed just by your attention, the vibration of the thoughts that you are thinking may affect the very substance of the universe. The universe is like your body in that respect. It will give you what you dwell upon. If you dwell on negativity, you will get just that. Which leads us to the next principle.

PRINCIPLE THREE:

Every thought has its own Vibration

The universe seeks balance. In seeking balance, our part of the universe creates everything with two poles. Everything has its opposite. Like has dislike, black has white, light has dark, hot has cold. But hot and cold, while different in degree are identical in context — the context of heat. The ancient saying is, “everything is and isn’t at the same time.” Moreover, between the poles of hot and cold, there are many degrees of hot and cold, the highest of the two being called “warmer,” and the lower, “colder.” There is no absolute standard for hot and cold. Nor are good and bad absolute. There are degrees of good and bad, but there is no absolute standard. These dichotomies are called the “pairs of opposites.” The pairs of opposites are all this way, having only the relative meaning that we give them. The universe assigns no degrees of value to them. Taking the first two principles together, it is possible to change one mental state into another. Emotions and things belonging to different classes cannot be transformed into each other, but things of the same class may be transformed. So cold can become hot. Hate can become love. Fear can become courage. But hate cannot be transformed into courage. By changing the polarity of an emotion, through raising the mental vibrations of the energy of the emotion, we can transform it to the higher emotion. In this way, a fearful man can become a courageous man by polarizing the emotion along the line of the desired quality. The ancients say, “To change your mood or mental state, just change your vibration, through an exercise of your will, by deliberately fixing your attention on the more desirable state.” If you are sad, deliberately remember times when you were happy. You do not have to get rid of the darkness, just bring a candle into the room and the darkness will disappear. The next principle is closely related to the previous, in that even in the variations of the poles of opposites, there is a balance.

PRINCIPLE FOUR:

The Universe demands balance

The universe demands balance. The Law of Compensation is that for every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction. If the pendulum swings one way, it must always swing back the other way. If you will, for a moment, stop; and consider that these swings of rhythm are also evidenced in your life. Courage is preceded by fear. Happiness and sadness oscillate. The ancients say, “The man who enjoys well can also be subject to great suffering. The man who feels little pain is capable of feeling but little joy.” Mentally, however, it is possible to escape the low end by rising above it. We are able to overcome the swing of the pendulum by making the vibrations higher and rising above the lower vibrations. In essence, we are raising the vibrations of the self above the ordinary plane of consciousness, and then simply “refusing” to allow the pendulum of emotion and mood to swing us back. Even so, the Law of Compensation is operative. You will probably find that there is no such thing as an overnight success. One generally pays the price for what he wants to attain. The things that one pays a price for are always repaid. Always remember that everything is subject to the principle of cause and effect. There is a cause for every effect, and vice versa. Regardless of a belief that says that there is no cause and effect, the principle is always operative.

PRINCIPLE FIVE:

We are always compensated for what we do

As Edgar Cayse said “You only get to keep what you give away.” The Universe is a giant mirror, always reflecting ourselves back to us, for that is all there really is. We are always compensated for what we do. If we consider cause and effect in terms of events, then strictly speaking, no one event “creates” another event, but is merely a preceding link in the great chain of events in the day of the universe. Every thought we think, every action, every deed, creates results both directly and indirectly. The problem in most peoples lives is that they are not on the cause side of the cause and effect equation. Most people are on the effect side of the equation, not at cause, but at effect — at the effect of event, other people, the environment, internal moods. You have seen them complaining about their powerlessness in the face of Nature, events, and other people. You have seen them giving away their power to affect their own futures as well as others’ futures. You have see people riddled with guilt, fear, anxiety, and lack of self control. This is all a result of a misunderstanding of the principle of cause and effect. Just remember this, you are at cause in your universe. If you raise the vibration rate of your thinking, you will be able to rise above the lower effects. The lower emotions and effects will not affect you. You will, however, always be subject to the higher effects.

PRINCIPLE SIX:

You Exist

If you exist it is the only quality you have. It means you always have existed, you exist now, and you always will — beyond time. That which exists cannot become non-existent. That is a completely different quality. You exist and existence contains the concept of nonexistence. Existence does not and cannot become nonexistence. You are eternal, you exist. It is your primary quality. You are and ever shall be. You will change, you will transmute, you will shift, you will learn, you will grow. But you will always be you — the True You. The You that knows itself as you.

PRINCIPLE SEVEN:

The One is All, the All is One

As we look out into the Holographic Cosmic Dream we see that we are the Dream and the Dreamer, all the stars, all the planets, and all the people. And each individual contains the whole. All the information, all the accessibility, of all that is, is in each of the parts of all that is. All that is knows Itself as One and knows Itself as All the parts. The Parts know themselves as individuals, and know themselves as One with all other Parts.

PRINCIPLE EIGHT:

Entrainment: The closer two things match the stronger the coupling and attraction between them

This principle also known as sympathetic resonance or “like attracts like” is the basis behind all interaction. The world we create or attract to us is the one that most closely matches us. The symphony of our vibrational patten of our beliefs, emotions, and being determines the world we experience. If we are feeding our fears then that is the chord that is being energized. That energized chord will find corresponding chords in the universe and “dance” with them. Who and what we chose to “dance” with is determined by the chords we choose to energize.

THE UNIVERSE REARRANGES ITSELF TO ACCOMMODATE YOUR PICTURE OF REALITY.

The universe being intelligence and consciousness, it is possible to affect the fabric of the intelligence that makes up its Quantum level. The level where effects may be gained is at the higher vibratory levels. Programming your experience works on this level. There is balance in the universe, the balance is maintained by the pairs of opposites, and the Law of Compensation and Entrainment. You cannot expend energy and have it not be returned to you. Finally remember that you are at cause of all that happens to you, and in your life. Rearrange your picture of reality and the universe will accommodate it.

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The next part of the epilogue prologue. :P I wonder if Andrew has committed to this format for the entire piece, or if we'll shift to something else. I'd like at least one panel showing the author avatar typing this, but then again, he's dead like everyone else, and so, stuck in the bubbles. Speaking of, how could Aranea, Meenah and the other A2 trolls survive this? Will Jane use her revive powers on them to spare them a double death? As an aside, I'm glad the ==> arrows remain a thing even after the end of the story. Even though they're now mixed with simple >'s in the in-line commands. (We're mixing the story format up from the get-go, here.) I hope Rose's new apartment gets a detailed described. I'm expecting a lot of knitted ware lying around, for one. I also wonder how long it'll be until an OC is mentioned, and how much longer after until they get some sort of dialogue. Presumably it'll be the intermission-like dialogue, I mean us being shown what they say by John's or another's inner narration.

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"When you arrive at Rose’s apartment, you find her asleep on the couch. You slide the balcony door open, quietly."

If this was a fairy tale, John would kiss her awake. :P

But I fear the migraines might be exhausting her.

"Her eyes flutter open. She looks like a ghost, and not the kind of ghost that looks and acts exactly like an alive person."

Grim implications not withstanding, I'm reminded of Kanaya's first assessment of seeing her. "Skin as pale as a ghost!"

Wow, okay, so her condition is really nothing to sneeze at.

"All I’m trying to say is, I’m not backsliding, if that’s what you’re wondering."

So I guess the substance abuse, post-retcon, was still a thing, not just nipped in the bud by Vriska.

Well, it WAS a way for her to cope with her mom's death, that isn't something that just goes away by a slap on the wrist, even if it was on date night.

"ROSE: I struggled with substance abuse for a while, years ago. Remember?

JOHN: rose, jesus. i wasn’t going to accuse you of being a drug addict, and i didn’t fly over here to give you an intervention.

JOHN: it sounded like you had some important stuff to tell me, and the fact that you also seem to be sick is more than a little alarming!

ROSE: I wouldn’t say I’m sick.

ROSE: Just having spectacularly debilitating headaches as a result of my visions becoming more frequent.

JOHN: oh yeah.

JOHN: what are these visions you’re having?

ROSE: I’m a Seer of Light, John.

JOHN: i know."

I'm happy to see how mature John is being about all this. He's really grown into a proper adult.

Also, that they can still exchange sarcastic remarks shows the base of their friendship hasn't changed over the years.

"What are these visions you're having?", it's like John just became Rose's therapist. :P

"JOHN: so you mean like, your standard psychic visions about the future and stuff?

JOHN: what’s going to happen? should we be worried?

ROSE: It doesn’t technically pertain to the future. Well, not our future."

A potential future then? Or the future of the dead ghosts, their doubledeath?

I mean, I thought Rose's powers were meant to show the best possible future and how to get there.

That hopefully isn't implying that they're not... the main timeline anymore.

"ROSE: My abilities have broadened considerably beyond their previous horizon. They shed light on many unseen events. Past, present, future, in realities and frames of reference that have no intersection with ours at all."

And then Rose could see us, and all the fiction our universe has spawned. Including stuff about their clique! :P

"ROSE: It seems to be an unfortunate side effect of god tier abilities. They can advance at a rate beyond one’s physical ability to keep up with.

ROSE: Fortunately it doesn’t seem to be happening to anyone other than me."

So... what, could that mean Sollux & Mituna's psychic problems were explainable by a surplus of Doom powers, even though they weren't god tier?

... In other news, can they overload Lord English with Time?

"JOHN: yeah, can’t say i’ve noticed anything like that.

JOHN: or improvement in my powers for that matter."

He hasn't been practicing them either, I suppose. Then again, after you've drilled a hole to a planet core and moved an entire different planet to another dimension, as well as rewrote your own timeline, there's few plateaus left to grow towards.

"ROSE: It’s not about gaining additional power, so much as the gradual dissolving of the boundaries between your own awareness and that of your many doomed selves who perished in other timelines."

D'aaaahhhhh, that sounds a lot like what the sprites^2 experienced!

Actually, Davepeta mentioned something about this, didn't they? Something about become their best version through this process?

Didn't it have something to do with the Ultimate Riddle as well? Well, that would certainly quantify as something to know about "to learn what it all means".

But, I got to say, why would John be any less affected? He had doomed selves too, and this isn't just a Light thing, just because it has similarities to Rose's powers.

"ROSE: It’s a slow and apparently rather uncomfortable accretion of knowledge. Perhaps I’m the only one to notice any change, since my aspect explicitly relates to knowledge."

Mulling it over, I think the reasoning here is that, since there's so much knowledge to go around between the Roses of all timelines, she's getting more crammed inside her than anyone else.

So even if they don't just 'merge' into her, just increase the knowledge she can fall back on, and one point she'll reach a limit.

Sounds really painful and I don't want to imagine the migraines now.

Way to get screwed over by an otherwise very useful skill to have. That's Paradox Space for ya!

"ROSE: But in totality, I have pieced together a greater understanding of our present situation and all the events that led us here."

She has become self aware to an extent then. Useful, if they're going to have to fight English.

"ROSE: There’s a different scale I’ve come to understand. Another dichotomy that’s less... emotional, I guess?

ROSE: Consider, instead of the word “good,” using the word “essential.”

ROSE: And what exists at the opposite polarity from essential is...

ROSE: Something that is best not to contemplate."

Yeah, Paradox Space is much more impersonal than is 'good' for anyone.

The Horrorterrors are a good example, their game is a long and incomprehensible one.

And, if you don't fulfill your role in the timeline, you're basically fodder to use against LE. :/

It sounds to me, Paradox Space might be forcing them to join the cause or become doomed.

"ROSE: I really should cut it out, and just start from the beginning."

Once upon a time, in Paradox Space...

Blaperile has a theory she may know LE's backstory now, that would be a good story to tell here, but John already knows parts of it.

So maybe there's something new we'll learn.

"She points with purpose, as if to say, there. Right there, precisely, is where the green sun would be, if it still existed.

ROSE: The green sun is gone.

JOHN: what??"

Last time Rose pointed in a context with the Green Sun, she pointed away from it.

Oh yeah, they couldn't have known about Alternate Calliope changing the Green Sun into the Black Hole!!!

"ROSE: It has been destroyed. At least, from the current frame of reference it has.

ROSE: It still existed, and therefore in a way that’s hard to explain, currently exists, over a nearly infinite span of time, presiding over the birth and death of countless universes."

It's interesting how Universe C's timeline overlaps with the death of the Green Sun.

Does that mean Jade lost her First Guardian powers? (And GCATavrosprite too, I guess.)

Would she regain them, if she were to travel back to an earlier point in the timeline?

"ROSE: But this universe, our universe, is not one of them."

Oh, if Jade didn't have her FG powers, she would've noticed so, by now.

Unless the Green Sun's influence does something else. Well, for one, Earth C won't have its own First Guardian.

"JOHN: you saw this in a vision?

ROSE: No. Jade told me.

JOHN: she did?

JOHN: how does she know?

ROSE: She can’t draw from its power anymore. She no longer has the ability of a First Guardian.

ROSE: It has been this way for several years. I suspect she has kept this fact on the downlow, however."

... Oh, so she kept it secret for seven years. That's... huh.

Well, you know, they are friends, but even between friends secrets can exist.

She might not have wanted distress to grow, since the others wouldn't enjoy their Ultime Reward otherwise.

"JOHN: that’s...

JOHN: surprising, i guess?

JOHN: or maybe not. i dunno, it’s not like she tells me a whole lot these days."

Adults don't share as much as children... That's a sad fact for many.

"ROSE: It’s also not like she’s had any particular need to unleash the full fury of the green sun, not while she’s been gallivanting around with Dave and Karkat under whatever perplexing social arrangement they have settled on."

Heheh, confirmed for opacity! Just like how Dave & Karkat's initial "thing" never got assigned to a quadrant.

"JOHN: how did that happen?

ROSE: It doesn’t matter much, for our purposes."

Alternate Calliope confirmed for not appearing in this epilogue.

"ROSE: There was a cataclysmic event. A suicide strike by a very powerful being. Much like the one Dave and I attempted, once upon a time."

Remember that time, John? Can't believe Cascade could ever qualify for "simpler times", but here we are.

"ROSE: The entire sun was swallowed by a supermassive black hole.

ROSE: I digress though.

You press your eyes shut, just for a moment. Behind them you see a black hole so supermassive that it spans the width of eternity."

John is adding things up faster than usual!

I have to wonder whether his 'dream' was actually the memory of a doomed John, being swallowed by the black hole.

"ROSE: There’s really no route through this expository garden path that will adequately cushion you from the bottom line, John.

ROSE: You will need to travel back into canon and defeat Lord English."

'canon', pfffffff. I guess you could say, canon is everything inside the Green Sun's reach.

But oh boy, the implications of someone travelling back from beyond the end of the story!

I mean, I know we've been shown the path this'll probably take, ending with the kids inside the plot hole, and then Vriska using it on LE, after which... Something something.

But still, I can now imagine John travelling back to other places in canon.

Probably this time around, the panels in question won't be altered. I guess?

"> Shrug and try to look casual.

You pull off the most casual shrug that a guy has ever shrugged when being presented with the inevitability of his own fate. If Rose were looking at you right now, she would be totally convinced that you are approaching this topic with a level of nonchalance that is entirely plausible and genuine. You’re sure of it.

JOHN: yeah, i had a feeling that was going to come up again someday."

Classic John. Perfect response.

Can you imagine Frodo giving Gandalf the shrug like this?

... It's like Young K in MiB3. "M'Okay."

You know, if they were travelling back into canon, you could wonder how they ended up fighting Caliborn, since that was in a timeline outside the Green Sun's reach.

At least, I figure, since Universe C begetted the cherub session.

But then I thought of this: when Caliborn took over the narration, he made those things canon, and thus also the 'future scene' rendered with clay figurines where he defeats the kids!

"JOHN: when exactly is the point of no return?

ROSE: Today."

... Way to postpone this, Rose. I guess after today, the Black Hole swallows Universe C???

I can understand John trying his best not to think about having to fight LE, since semi-forced obliviousness is his forté, though.

"JOHN: why?

ROSE: Why what?

JOHN: why do i need to go back and beat him?

JOHN: i mean, sorry if this is a stupid question. i guess he’s a huge awful monster, and that’s just what you’re supposed to do with huge awful monsters. take them down for their crimes, and such.

JOHN: but why does he actually need to be defeated at all?"

Valid question, since LE made himself a staple of spacetime and all.

"to be honest, it’s been years since we’ve even bothered thinking about any of this, and everything seems...

> Take a look around and survey the current status of all life on Earth, which is totally possible to do from the vantage point of a single apartment balcony."

Ah, impossible command prompts, how I missed you.

Everything seems fine, until the black hole opens up in the sky and eats a frog that is your universe.

"JOHN: fine?

ROSE: Of course everything is fine here.

ROSE: We’re outside of canon now.

JOHN: yeah, i know. what does that actually MEAN though?

JOHN: are you saying this isn’t really happening?

ROSE: Of course it’s happening.

ROSE: Just because certain events take place outside of canon, it doesn’t mean those events are non-canon.

JOHN: oh."

I guess this is a way of saying: little is ever going to happen in Universe C that has effects in the parts of the multiverse that the Green Sun touches.

And vice versa.

Also, in a meta sense, for people not enamoured with Homestuck ending and writing their own endings, those efforts are not being discredited here.

"ROSE: In other words, there is an important distinction between events which can be considered to occur inside canon, outside canon, and those which are not canon at all.

ROSE: The day we went through that door and claimed our reward, we passed a threshold between continua marked by differing degrees of relevance, truth, and essentiality.

ROSE: Those are the three pillars of canon.

JOHN: what?"

Ah yes, a scientific exposition on the nature of fanfiction seems in good order right about now. :P

I'm taking a guess that the epilogues are "essential" to wrap up the huge dangling plotline about LE, but that doesn't mean they are THE truth about post-ending Homestuck.

Or even that the events in this story are really relevant to enjoy Homestuck proper.

"ROSE: Any event said to take place inside canon will have nonzero values of relevance and essentiality, while maintaining an absolute foundation in truth, by definition.

ROSE: Whereas events outside canon have diminished values of relevance and essentiality. Or, for the most part, can be considered neither relevant nor essential at all.

ROSE: But such events can’t be said to be untrue either. Instead, it’s better to regard their truth value as highly conditional.

ROSE: Are you still following?

> Say “oh, yeah. totally.”"

This is Andrew's version of the M3KYT mantra. "Just enjoy this story, folks!"

"JOHN: oh, yeah. totally.

ROSE: So to be clear, everything that’s taken place here on Earth C since we exited canon can be considered completely irrelevant, and for the most part, absolutely inessential. Yet none of it can be called untrue.

ROSE: At least, up until precisely today. "

So, yeah, they're going to become relevant to the story again, but that doesn't have to mean that Jane having usurped the Felt, as well as other events from the snaps and things we haven't even seen happen, are going to be given even a passing mention, hahah.

"ROSE: Events that are formally non-canon have no truth whatsoever, by definition.

ROSE: They may have relevance and essentiality values that are nonzero, or even quite high, but only as projections along an imaginary axis, resulting from highly subjective frames of reference.

ROSE: But due to those events having no truth, and thus carrying no real weight, the other properties are basically rendered meaningless."

Aka, fan fiction is not something to dismiss out of hand, but it isn't, like, a holy text.

"You can feel your eyes go wide as the gears in your head slow to a stop. The implications of what Rose is saying are as vast as they are completely incomprehensible. Your mind has just been BLOWN.

ROSE: John?

ROSE: Are you okay? Your pupils have gone quite wide, thereby facilitating the appearance that your mind has just been blown."

Ah John, he hasn't changed.

"JOHN: i just wouldn’t have thought to put all of this in such a jargony way.

ROSE: Sorry. That’s kind of what I do.

JOHN: it’s fine. i’m just a bit rusty is all.

JOHN: it feels like it’s been so long since i did, or even thought about... anything that mattered at all.

ROSE: Yes, the longer we live outside of canon, the more tenuous our relationship with canon becomes."

Aka, the fans are growing up and moving on, so additional stories in the same universe become less likely to be accepted as canon as time goes by. :D

"ROSE: As long as we live outside canon, everything that happens will technically be “real,” but only conditionally.

ROSE: There are certain crucial events inside canon which must happen in order to continue to prop up the legitimacy of events here on Earth C. "

Ooooooh, so Rose's saying they need to go back and fill up some plotholes, hahahahahahah. Glorious.

"ROSE: And you specifically, John, have a responsibility to make sure those events take place.

JOHN: and i take it that means going back and killing lord english?

ROSE: Yes.

ROSE: His defeat is the keystone to this entire continuity.

ROSE: Much like his life, in some sick way, governed the overall design of the bridge which that keystone was holding up.

ROSE: But without it, all of this falls apart. Every thing we’ve been through, in a way that’s impossible for a single mind to fully comprehend, becomes retroactively discredited."

They can't both have entered the Universe AND not have gone back to fight Caliborn at some point. Otherwise, their nature as being "the alpha selves" is cast into doubt.

Especially since John led them to Caliborn with retcon powers.

Of course there could be space retJohns flying about, but that's speculation, not (yet) truth.

"JOHN: so... reality will be destroyed, or something?

JOHN: hasn’t that already sort of happened?

JOHN: i mean, when all the black space started cracking?

ROSE: No, this consequence isn’t physical, or even a disruption of the timeline. It’s more of a conceptual unraveling.

ROSE: If you miss the chance to authenticate canon events, something will take place that’s a bit difficult to describe, but I’ve encountered a term for it.

ROSE: It’s called “dissipation.”

ROSE: Like, a notional fading. As if something, somewhere, is undergoing a process of “forgetting,” and we are what is being forgotten."

So I am definitely thinking this refers to the fandom, in subtext.

But does Rose refer to what happens in doomed timelines, to the folks that don't die but are erased with the timeline ending?

... "Dissipation Island" would suck as a reality tv concept.

ROSE: All ideas, people and their full potentialities, possible outcomes and their specific unfolding, all these things live inside conscious frameworks.

ROSE: The further removed we get from authentication of canon events, the less relevant they become, and they slowly fade from the conscious frameworks which kept them stable."

DEFINITELY a reference to the fandom.

"JOHN: so i just retcon-poof back to english and start like...

JOHN: brawling with the dude?

ROSE: Don’t be ridiculous. You wouldn’t last a second."

You're not the fisticuffs kind of guy, John, those genes went to Jade.

"ROSE: You’ll need a team.

ROSE: Also, you don’t want to just dive headlong into a battle with his hulking adult form. That would be tactically foolish, and furthermore, would skip over some very important steps needed to authenticate canon."

So yeah, Rose is definitely in the process of skimming important details, like she did during the session.

She definitely seems to have a grasp on the requirements for success, but people being in the know hardly ever seems to be one of them.

"JOHN: like what?

ROSE: I mentioned that English’s defeat was the keystone to the continuity. But this is an oversimplification.

JOHN: yikes. well, we sure as fuck wouldn’t want to simplify anything."

Insta-Classic.

"ROSE: The true keystone, which is a necessary component of his defeat, is the juju."

Cal then? Blaperile thinks the Plot Hole. Or is it the sucker perhaps?

Cal needs to be filled with Caliborn's essence for LE to even exist in the first place, so...

"ROSE: The house-shaped object you stuck your hand in to gain your retcon powers.

JOHN: oh yeah.

ROSE: While empty, it resembles a gap. Like a hole in canon, whose only purpose is to be filled."

Oh. I stand corrected.

"ROSE: In serving that purpose, it grants one with the radical canon-altering powers that would be needed to fill it.

ROSE: Once filled, it becomes solid. No longer a gap, but a serviceable, load-bearing wedge in our continuity.

ROSE: Like a keystone."

So, nice term, but a house-shaped keystone isn't that servicable. :P Neither is a mousepointer-shaped one, and the Sburb logo is both.

"ROSE: And once delivered to English and directed his way, it empties itself again, releasing its narrative-bridging payload."

Aww yeah, so they WILL be set free. Glad to have that out of the way.

"It functions as a weapon, and in some manner will bring about his demise.

JOHN: in some manner?

ROSE: It’s a complicated artifact. As old and unfathomable as anything else in Paradox Space, like the green sun, or English himself. Don’t worry about it for now.

ROSE: The important thing is that, in the due course of your travels, you end up loading and unloading this weapon."

So, will nothing be done with Scratch's gun anymore then, & the cueball analogy that might have been able to defeat Lord English?

Are all other items rumored to be able to kill him real red herrings... Or will John need to travel back to the places we last saw them & collect them?

"JOHN: how am i going to do that?

ROSE: Once you set things in motion, it should just happen naturally through the narrative momentum of your journey. I’m really just warning you about it, rather than instructing you.

JOHN: ok. thanks??

ROSE: You’re welcome."

He won't be thankful after the fact, that's for sure. :P

"Rose looks at her phone. You recognize Kanaya’s distinct typing style in the window. Rose’s thumbs begin to fly across the keypad. She continues to text as she talks."

I'm guessing Kanaya is at work at this time, at the Mother Grub's cavern.

"JOHN: so if we’re going to go back and kill him in time to “authenticate canon,” i guess we have to get going soon.

JOHN: like today?

ROSE: Yes.

JOHN: are you sure you’re actually up for a fight though? no offense, but you’re looking a little worse for the wear.

ROSE: I’m not going."

I don't think that's possible, since Rose should be there for the fight.

They can't very well replace with Jasprosesprite^2, that's for sure!

"JOHN: oh.

ROSE: None of us are. Only you.

JOHN: what?? but you said... "

Uuuuhhhmm, but where could John even pick up living versions of his friends!

... Also, it would be rather awkward for a 23-year-old John to meet up with 8-to-10-years younger versions of his friends alone, wouldn't it?

"ROSE: John, this is the victory state.

JOHN: what the hell does that even mean."

Pfff, she means this is the 'good ending'.

"ROSE: When we went through the door, and passed beyond the threshold of canon, we effectively retired from bearing any responsibility for influencing canon events. We’ve all been sort of decommissioned as active players on the cosmic stage, with severely diminished relevance attributes."

Hah, so none except for John with his retcon powers can be expected to hold relevance to canon?

... Blaperile has a good point that this doesn't hold true for Terezi then.

Neither does it for Aranea, Meenah and Vriska!

But still, Vriska immediately went after LE... Even if Terezi has aged as much as John, that is just... Is John going to find 23-year-old doomed versions of his human friends somewhere?

"JOHN: but... couldn’t you all just come along anyway?

ROSE: We could. But it wouldn’t serve any purpose.

ROSE: It wouldn’t plug up the remaining dark spots in canon."

Yes, but, the commentary. Rose, think of all the things Dave could be commenting on!! Don't deprive us of that!

"ROSE: You’ll need a group of active players. Those still stuck inside the stream of canonic karma."

Like OCs? I mean, or the people I mentioned earlier.

Though Blaperile has a point, maybe he'll revisit LOMAX and pick his friends up there. Still, age difference!

"ROSE: Nothing too extravagant. Just different versions of us.

ROSE: Younger versions, from a particularly dysfunctional impasse in our journey.

ROSE: I can point out the exact moment in canon you should be disrupting, and how you should disrupt it.

ROSE: In fact, I’ve already written it down to spare you the trouble of remembering."

... I don't think he'll go and 'save' the people from the Game Over timeline, but then again...

Hah, Blaperile points out how this must be like Terezi's scarf, all over again. :P Nice.

... Wait just a goddamned minute. If he goes back and changes the Game Over timeline, there's an errant Aranea Serket he'll surely encounter!

Wow.

That.

Hah, that's actually very fitting, since it's John's native timeline.

Roxy's too, though. So he might just have her tagging along! :D

Blaperile's right, Game Over went as it did because of the absence of John!

I think that, if he can return and re-relevant all those doomed selves, a lot of people would really, REALLY like that development!

JOHN: huh.

ROSE: Is anything confusing about my instructions?

JOHN: no, i remember all this. it shouldn’t be a problem.

JOHN: it’s just weird to think about revisiting this. it seems like an eternity. like... we were all completely different people back then.

ROSE: I assure you we are all still fundamentally the same bunch of losers."

Heheheheh, that you are.

"Rose is ultimately right about that, the way she is about most things. You continue to scan the letter, and grimace slightly.

JOHN: should i really punch her in the face?"

That would be just so sweet, for Rose to get that kind of comeuppance through John. After all, she might have Jasprosesprite^2's memories from when she still lived now, too.

And Aranea killed her.

That would be the second time John comes in retconning a timeline, punching a Serket.

"JOHN: i felt kinda bad about it, last time i did that to someone.

ROSE: Yes. You absolutely should, and must, punch her in the face."

Oh yes, so essential. I'm just casually going to ignore John punching a younger woman. For one, she was at least 1 sweep older than the A2 trolls, and a millenia-old ghost besides.

"You exhale and turn the paper over in your hands. The other side is blank. You flip it back over, having fully processed the instructions drafted in the polished purple handwriting. You like how Rose still writes in purple, after all these years. Some things never change."

Awww.

"JOHN: alright. this seems straightforward enough.

JOHN: i mean, aside from the part where we all have to fight an invincible monster.

ROSE: He isn’t entirely invincible. He will be vulnerable to Dave’s weapon. I believe other gambits should present themselves as well."

Return of the eggsword! Nice!

And okay, the other supposedly "ultimate" weapons to kill LE with will still play a part too, cool!

(Spades Slick has dips.)

"ROSE: I don’t think it would serve the mission well for me to tell you exactly how it will go.

ROSE: But at least I can offer this bit of encouragement.

ROSE: If you follow my instructions, English will be defeated.

ROSE: It is an absolutely essential outcome.

ROSE: And essential, if you’ll remember, is the word we should be using instead of good."

So... What, LE won't really make a heel face turn, but does that mean that... :/ The fate of the other kids might not be pretty, is what I'm getting from this.

Quick John, engage your Dad mode! Protect them!

"JOHN: i see you’re advising we go after him when he’s young...

JOHN: i guess that makes sense.

JOHN: go get him before he gets all big and strong.

JOHN: like, kind of a surprise attack?

ROSE: Sure."

Let's go with that, says Rose.

"JOHN: that dude sucks.

JOHN: he was taunting me a while back.

JOHN: like, i think he WANTS me to come fight him?

JOHN: anyway, i just ignored him obviously, because i’m not a stupid idiot.

JOHN: but i guess today will be his lucky day."

So, if we assume Caliborn spent the same amount of time waiting for John, he's already an adult, but a scrawny one.

"Her eyes are closed and her hands are folded in her lap. She’s not asleep, but she looks wasted—like all the life in her has been sucked out through a straw. Like she’s insubstantial."

"You can’t believe how sick she looks. How did this happen to her?"

I'm... getting some very worrying signals here.

"JOHN: i should probably get going and let you rest.

JOHN: we can talk all about it when i get back. i’ll fill you in on how it went, hopefully you’ll be feeling better by then.

ROSE: Oh. Um."

:/ I hope she isn't going to die on him now, this is supposed to be the victory state!

Blaperile thinks John might not come back, but that would be a dick move for Rose to pull on him. Even if he can force another victory state from all this!

"ROSE: Yeah.

JOHN: is something wrong?

Rose opens her eyes and looks at you, but she says nothing. Just looks.

JOHN: i’m not scared, if that’s what you’re worried about.

JOHN: you already said we’re going to defeat him. so, nothing to fret over, right?

ROSE: Yes. You...

Something flickers through her eyes, almost too quick to catch. When she smiles at you, it’s warm and sincere.

ROSE: You’re going to do great.

Rose slides her arms around you. After a while, she releases you from the embrace and gets up to fetch her bottle of pills. She pauses at the bedroom door to look at you one more time.

ROSE: Goodbye, John.

She closes the door behind her."

... That is REALLY not comforting.

Bathrooms & pills are NOT a good combination in any type of fiction.

"> Look at the letter.

Your run your thumbs along the edge of the paper. Is this really it? One hug from Rose and you’re off to face your destiny? The instructions in the letter are clear, but you aren’t sure precisely what to do next. Inertia and indecision keep your feet planted firmly on the carpet.

Then, as if directly answering your quandary, your phone buzzes in your pocket. It’s a text from Roxy."

So, I'm going to park how I feel about Rose's... condition, and what she might think to do with it.

And I'm going to go and be glad that Roxy texts John at this time, as I hope that she, at least, will join him on the journey.

"> Read text.

It sounds important. You get up to go without even thinking about it. You exit through the sliding glass door and leave it open behind you."

Eep, so the situation at her end is dangerous to? ... Don't tell me that it has only now just happened that Jane was kidnapped by the Felt, and Roxy & Calliope went out to get her.

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So, this chapter definitely wasn't all shits 'n giggles, that's for sure.

I'm going to have to process this a little.

At least it was great to have Rose & John interact again.

#homestuck #homestuck epilogues #homestuck liveblog #john egbert #rose lalonde #lord english #upd8 #reaction #spoiler alert

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meditationadvise · 5 years ago

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3 Methods to Maximize Your Health

With our world's societies tormented with sickness, despair and also stress and anxiety, it's virtually defiant to take excellent treatment of your wellness. Currently of program there are pockets of individuals who pump their body for the primary function of vanity, but efficient health monitoring is a lot more compared to simply working and also toning your body.

The word 'wellness' has etymological roots which specify it as 'whole'. When you assume of being healthy, it's sensible to consider what layers of your life demand focus to bring your whole experience into a practical and also productive synergy. To puts it simply, your individual wellness is much even more compared to just the usual description of 'physical and also psychological health and wellness', it's a myriad of mirrors which reflect the wholeness of your being.

What complies with, as a result, is a sharp photo for optimizing your health and wellness holistically.

1 - Love Your Body

Let's start with the many fundamental. Your physique is an organic computer. It calls for certain inputs to operate functionally. The very first step is to be clever concerning exactly what you take into it, specifically the food (medication) you feed it.

For instance, with a food supply that is tied by a business culture firm on testing out whatever cheap, man-made component they could to maximize their revenues, we're bombarded with a rich tapestry of genetically and also chemically changed products that struggle to appear like genuine foods. Plus, the monocultural model of industrial-agriculture makes sure that many nutrients we require are not in the synthetically created diet regimens they manufacture.

Therefore, a natural, nutrition-dense diet plan that prevents contaminants from both the plant as well as meat industries will always be a smart relocation. Couple this with fresh rainwater (or water from other natural resources) and you're already on your means to detoxing yourself from a sick food system as well as optimizing your physical wellness.

Without going right into as well much information, here are a few other crucial facets of physical health and wellness to think about:

Sugar, especially the processed ranges, ought to be reduced due to the fact that they're addicting as well as trigger different conditions, including weight problems and cancer,

For meat-eaters, a predominately plant-based diet regimen with all-natural and also ethically-produced meat is a must, particularly since excessive meat intake is linked to conditions such as cancer cells (along with a huge selection of unfavorable environmental impacts),

Pharmaceuticals from the business syndicates generally deal with the signs and symptoms (as well as not the cause) of an illness with artificial mixtures that have destructive side-effects, including death, so always lessen your use of them and select all-natural options if they're available,

Having some enjoyable with altered states of consciousness from your recommended choice of compound is outstanding for mind development and/or de-stressing the body and mind, as long as it does not come to be repeatedly destructive,

We don't need to be flawlessly fit, but participating in some kinds of exercise - such as strolling, extending, treking, physical fitness circuits, sex, horticulture etc - is needed to stimulate your body in its entirety, along with your lungs, heart and also other organs, and

Getting out into the sun and also right into nature have astounding physical results that may be tough to quantify, yet regardless, it contributes strongly to your general health.

Ultimately, you should appreciate your body as well as its demands. After all, it's the just one you'll ever before have, at least in this life time. Use your body like its planned. Move it, function it and sustain it properly. When it gets out of equilibrium, including your digestive tract health, it has serious impacts on your mental well-being, so as a prerequisite for being emotionally healthy and balanced there should be a minimal regard for balancing your body's health.

2 - Love Your Mind

Your body is the equipment and your mind is the software. Without both conscious as well as subconscious programs, the body won't run and also will certainly as a result pass away. If the programs are badly created and also operated they will certainly create the love event of the mind and body to create disease.

It's somewhat complex when its recommended to 'take care of your mental wellness' because your interior experience is a deep dancing of eclectic powers. Also when you recognize the different facets to your emotional wellness, it could be frustrating to know where to begin and ways to proceed.

To simplify just, your psychological self is that which catches your ideas, feelings, memories, needs as well as ideas. It's your ego, your finite photo of unlimited consciousness. It's likewise the outcome of your environmental impacts and your freewill. Consequently, the way you arrange your mind as well as reply to your experience can either be primarily self-abusive or healthy.

No one ever gets it perfect, certainly, however it is essential to understand where you sit on this range so you could do exactly what's essential to have even more healthy and balanced and functional mind as well as heart states.

Put truthfully, it's not rocket science: poisonous thoughts create tension, which could result in condition. The mental feedback to your psychological apparatus (which are called 'feelings') could do the same if it's also hazardous. That doesn't suggest you require to always feel positive feelings either, it just means that you manage your fear, temper, anxiety and also sadness in healthy and balanced and also productive ways.

( For more, see 'Exactly how to Obtain Out of the Rut of Self-Harming Ideas and also Sensations').

Another aspect to your mind are your approaches. Etymologically, philosophy merely means 'love of knowledge'. Almost, your philosophies are your beliefs and the standards they're conceptualized within. Your philosophical settings belong to the classification of mental health since the healthier and also equipped your ideas, the healthier and equipped your internal health.

Philosophy is rarely gone over in regards to health, possibly since there are as many idea systems as there are individuals. Just due to the fact that we all have the right to think just how as well as just what we desire, that doesn't indicate that those ideas are in fact healthy. One fail-safe way to make sure a healthy and balanced philosophical structure is to recognize both your refined as well as explicit links to fact at huge, which I'll elaborate on in the next section.

Ultimately, your mind could be broken down into two basic layers: the aware and also the unconscious. Furthermore, the scale at which you are actually mindful compared with the activity of your mind is so insignificant that you should explore your subconscious to properly take care of your inner health.

One such approach is meditation, which could be a type of self-administered psychiatric therapy. This can be done by focusing your focus in a peaceful, undisturbed setup, or it could be done on-the-go, specifically when we are engaged in an activity that has a single emphasis, such as workout, washing recipes, gardening or a plethora of various other ordinary activities.

Whether its attained by certain meditation strategies or by merely providing even more emphasis to your mind's task, the purpose is to become more conscious of the motorists, motifs, patterns and also practices that arise from your subconscious because they will certainly illustrate the dysfunctions and poisonings you should heal as well as the immaturities you should grow. By determining the dis-ease that exists in the much deeper layers of your awareness - such as your traumas and also anxieties - you could currently move on with vital layers of self-healing as well as self-development.

Beware though: re-shaping yourself neurologically as well as upgrading on your own conceptually takes months, if not years, of repetitive and sustained behavioral change, which is usually gone along with by sacrifices to properly achieve.

3 - Love Your Connection to Reality

What I always advise when it comes to developing a healthy idea system is to recognize and appreciate your connection to fact. This encourages you to honor your exterior world, as you must your internal realm.

This can be done multiple methods. First is clearly the link to on your own, just how aware are you of the holistic activity of your mind/body/spirit interaction? Following is the so-called outdoors globe, which you are connected to on numerous essential degrees. Household and your ancestry is your hereditary link. The pet as well as plant kingdom is your environmental link. The planet is your cosmological link. Some also go further into the wacky globe of quantum scientific researches to rationalize their knotted link with reality at large, whilst the other approach is to research esoteric disciplines to envision it through the lens of spirituality.

A poetic method I want to summarize our link to our experience is that we're an individual tool in the orchestra of reality.

Regardless of how you particularly make your understanding of your link to all things, it's a required attribute for your health since standing in an incorrect feeling of isolation can trigger a myriad of crazy mind states. For instance, excessive greed, selfishness as well as vanity are typically spin-offs of an undesirable feeling of link to truth which causes a disharmonious connection with on your own, as well as others.

Yet, as soon as you create your approach of affiliation, you understand that your connection is equally as vital as your originality. Just, they're two sides of the one coin. So, just how healthy are your relationships with your household and also close friends? Exactly how healthy are your neighborhood relationships? Are your activities healthy and balanced on your own and those around you? What impacts do you have on your environment and also all-natural systems?

Moreover, your connection to reality is not just physical as well as esoteric, it's likewise interactive. It's the expertise you're sharing as well as absorbing. It's the energy you're emitting and also drawing in. It's the love that you radiate and the love that you invite into your experience. Just how you dance with your experience can either be a visual masterpiece, or a disturbingly, bloody war.

The great news? It's entirely as much as you to choose.

Final Thoughts

There are other nuances to our health that are similarly essential, but also for the purpose of time I'll just point out a few of them quickly. Just how strong is your energetic vigor? Are you constructing synergy in between your aware understanding and your energised bodies? How is your innovative wellness? Are you sharing on your own effectively? Are you encountering yourself authentically by recognizing your weaknesses, such as your hypocrisies as well as bigotries? Are you ethically aware? Can you recognize your habits that are self-loathing as well as self-abusive? Just what concerning your capacity to forgive? Are you also aware of your unneeded hates as well as condemnations?

Whatever your present state of physical, mental, behavior, social and also spiritual wellness, it actually is a difficulty to embark on an alternative rebirth of the self, particularly once we exceed the natural growth limitations of the body-brain. As pointed out previously, it is a long, neuroplastic process of commitment and sacrifice to recreate on your own right into a new and also improved version.

However, it is achievable. It's also required. In an international community that is identified by lower frequencies of reasoning, feeling and also acting - one where concern as well as experiencing runs rampant - it's not just vital for the top quality of your very own life, but the high quality of the collective power that you're dancing with, regardless if you recognize that you're influencing it or not.

#healing #meditation #spiritual #spiritual wellness

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tweeds-rp-hub · 2 years ago

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Nothinglings and Planet Naught 🌠 [Worldbuilding Headcanons]

Basic Info: Naught is a planet that has no nature to speak of, having been mined and colonized to the point of nature's destruction many generations ago. The only beings that are able to survive in such harsh conditions are the Nothinglings, the dominant intelligent life of Naught. The Nothinglings have bended and contorted Naught's environment to their will, and though no animal or plant life manages to thrive on Naught, Nothinglings make do with manmade architecture, hydroponic gardens and synthetic food.

About Naught: Naught is a small planet in an unnamed solar system within the Milky Way. As stated, it's nature is baren and barely survivable without the intellect of the Nothinglings. From a far off view, Naught comes up as completely concrete gray and white due to almost the entirety of Naught being covered in pavement. Buildings tend to be large, white and futuristic. The closest to nature one can find on Naught is manmade patches of Astroturf. Oxygen levels are rather low, and air-conditioner like vents pump out breathable oxygen to the point it is able to be lived on. Naught has a dreary, almost oppressive atmosphere that seems to suck the soul out of anyone who lives on it, leading to the Nothinglings uniquely emotionless nature. Naught has two moons, in a position that often blocks out the sun. Lunar eclipses are very common on Naught. However industrial it may be, it's not heavily polluted, so stars are very visible on even the busiest of nights. Nothinglings are known to often stare at stars blankly.

About Nothinglings: Nothinglings are virtually identical to Earth humans, and many theorize that Nothinglings are descended from human space colonizers many generations ago. However, Naught's oppressive aura and dreary atmosphere creates a somewhat soul-sucking blankness in those who spend long periods of time on it, resulting in the Nothinglings having lost the ability to properly feel emotion. It's also noticeable that most Nothinglings are very beautiful by human standards, creating an entire race of people who are easy on the eyes but lack substance or personality. As you can put it, the average Nothingling is nothing more than a pretty face.

Unlike most intelligent lifeforms of other planets, Nothinglings rarely mate for life and if they do it's a union of convenience. Every Nothingling woman is expected to at least attempt to conceive once in her life to further the species longevity, but intimate endeavors are meaningless to Nothinglings. On the topic of child-rearing, Nothingling fathers rarely contribute to the raising of children and Nothingling mothers tend to kick their children out during the preteen years, or in other ways expect their children to start to contribute to the household. For that reason, Nothinglings are considered "adults" at exceptionally young ages, despite clearly still being children.

Nothinglings are very wishy-washy, and will do whatever is told of them without question or complaint. Due to this fact, and their beauty, Nothinglingsare often abducted and brought into intergalactic human trafficking rings. The sad thing is that though this is such a common occurrence on Naught, even with Nothingling children, rarely do the other Nothinglings do anything about it or really care if their own go missing. ΑΩ Nova's mother, for example, was absolutely unphased when he never returned home.

Nothinglings tend to name themselves with a series of characters from the greek alphabet as their "family/house name", followed by their given name afterwards. Nothinglings have a weird interest in names that are celestial or astronomy themed. Popular Nothingling names include Cosmo, Orion, Nova and Nebula. It might come from their fascination with the galaxy, and dreams of a world better than their own.

Naught Culture: No need to bring money of any kind as Naught has no currency to speak of. Instead, all Nothinglings above the age of 10 are expected to contribute in some way shape or form, often being assigned their "true purpose" by the Nothingling Elders, who are chosen based on their level of intellect. Nothinglings tend to speak Earth English, further cementing that they might be descended from humankind. Though Nothinglings find it very easy to learn new languages, due to being logic-driven, so expect to hear some speak other human languages and alien tongs. It took ΑΩ Nova, for example, a matter of weeks to learn Japanese for his assignment in Ogikubo. Nothingling governments are ran by Elders, who are usually treated as the most intelligent Nothinglings you can find. Nothinglings tend to be agnostic when it comes to religion, being indifferent to the idea of a higher power, not being able to strongly feel one way or the other about the idea of God. Nothingling children go to school year round starting at age 4 with absolutely no days off, until they turn 11 and start being expected to contribute to their planet's overall wellbeing. Nothingling food is tasteless, odorless, synthesized slop that is very unappealing to the eye. Nothinglings have no hobbies or leisure activities, though without emotions they don't get stressed from being overworked. Even Nothingling children spend all their time either at school or resting, without any breaks to play and this workaholism carries on to adulthood. Nothinglings are known for being well-spoken due to all this work and tend to at least bilingual and multitalented. This all might sound very miserable, but truly residents of Naught don't mind either way.

#long post #( hc. )#( worldbuilding. )#☄️ a nothingling with an empty heart ( about nova. )#spoilers; spl

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ravennawritesfanfiction · 7 years ago

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My Perfect Wedding

This is a follow up to Safety of McCoy

Leonard McCoy x Reader

Word Count: 2068

Warnings: a few swear words and implied fun times (honeymoon-esque)

It had been only a month since Lee had proposed, but the whole ship was abuzz about the impending wedding. Jim still thought he was going to perform the wedding; neither you nor Lee had the heart to tell him you were waiting till you were on Earth to be Wed. Scotty, Chekov, and Sulu would not stop arguing over best man duties, each thinking that they were most qualified for the job. In the end, Leonard chose Spock. It shocked everyone, but he had a few good reasons. Firstly, Spock was the only one who hadn’t brought it up a trillion times and second, Lee could count on him to not go overboard. The same couldn’t be said for the other three.

You had chosen Uhura to be the maid of honor. No one was surprised and everyone thought that she was a solid choice for the role. Nurse Chapel was the only other woman you knew well enough to have in her in the wedding. You thought it was comical how involved the rest of the ship was in your wedding when neither you nor Leonard had put much thought into the details yet.

You two were forever busy in the Medbay. Scotty and his engineers were not making it any easier for you either. You prayed for a day that the engineers didn’t get hurt, but no such luck. You thought that it was Scotty’s way of getting back at Leonard for not choosing him. Leonard didn’t disagree with the analysis and took it upon himself to have a talk with the lead engineer and his crew. It ended with an irritated Lee being escorted back to Medbay by a very entertained Captain Kirk, who took it upon himself to intervene instead of calling security, cause honestly, how often did the opportunity arise to play babysitter to the CMO.

You laughed as the men walked in and Lee went straight to his office and pulled out his Bourbon; the special bottle that he kept for extra stressful shifts. You stopped laughing and left the captain to join Lee in his office. He had sprawled out on the sofa and looked utterly defeated. You felt terrible for him. You placed his feet on your lap and just sat there with him. Neither of you said anything for the longest time and for a minute you almost thought he had fallen asleep.

When he finally spoke up, your heart almost shattered. You had noticed that he had been agitated since the engagement, however you had thought that it was the stress of the job. Now he was telling you that that wasn’t the case at all.

“Before I say anything, I don’t regret anything I said or even proposing; but I wish I hadn’t done it here. The more people bring it up, the more afraid I get. You know I have been here before and I know you are nothing like her, but I am afraid I will mess this up too and that would quite literally kill me. I cannot lose you, but I feel like I will. I am so sorry, (Y/N). I shouldn’t be unloading all of this on you. I know.”

Words couldn't convey what you were thinking and feeling now. You hated Jocelyn for what she did to Lee. He lacked all confidence in himself when it came to relationships. He always doubted himself and there was no reason for it. You grabbed the hand that he had laid on his stomach and he looked up. You could see tears welling up in his eyes. There was a mixture of anger, fear, and sadness masking his features, but you knew it wasn’t directed at you. It was all for himself.

“Leonard Horatio McCoy, there isn’t a damn thing you could do to lose me. I love you and I am right here beside you. One hundred percent, we are in this together. I know you have been here before, but you're right I am not her. You can talk to me about anything you need to. That’s how a relationship is supposed to go. I talk to you, I expect you to talk to me. We are a team in every aspect of our lives. I love you more than I will ever be able to convey and I will spend the rest of my life making sure you know that. I owe you my life; both literally and I wouldn’t be here on this ship if you hadn’t fought for me. As for the being afraid; I am too. Neither of us has a great track records and I have never been here before. I love you so much and so unconditionally that it terrifies me. I couldn’t live without you either. And if the wedding is stressing you out, we can wait however long you need. I love you, Lee. I don’t need a big wedding if it means hurting you in the process.”

Halfway through your words, Leonard had shifted and was now curled up into your lap sobbing. Kirk had shut the door as soon as you had walked in, but you hadn’t noticed until you had thought to shut it yourself. Jim had also gone down to tell Scotty to rein in his men so the Medbay wasn’t crowded with redshirts. You had called M’Benga in to relieve both you and Leonard with strict orders not to go to the CMOs office. You knew Leonard was in no condition to get up and head to your room, but you didn’t need an emergency to stress him out further.

He sat there in silence, sobbing to himself for an hour. He hadn’t responded to your words, but his tears told you that he had heard them. He hadn’t let go of your waist since he had buried himself into you and your shirt was soaked; you didn’t say anything, he needed to let everything out and if it was at the cost of your uniform, well Jim went through so many he would have no room to talk. When Lee finally spoke again, it was barely audible.

“(Y/N), let’s get married tomorrow morning. I don’t wanna wait till we are planet-side. I wanna make you Mrs. McCoy. Jim’s here. We have plenty of witnesses. We have civilian clothes here for shore leave. Let’s do it!”

He had perked up quite a bit and you were relieved, but you had to laugh. The thought of Kirk was almost more than you could handle. You also had a request. If you weren’t getting married under peach trees in Georgia, then you were getting this…

“I want you to wear your dress uniform. And do you have any idea how insufferable Jim is going to be after this!”

“You always were a sucker for me in uniform. Of course, I’ll wear it, Beautiful. As long as you wear that pretty green sundress you wore when we visited my parents. As for Jim, when isn’t he insufferable.”

“You’re in luck darling, I brought it with me.”

“I know, I saw it this morning and I was almost late because I got caught up daydreaming about seeing it on you again.”

“Haha, tomorrow you can see on me and then you can help take it off me. I am putting you on medical orders to take the day off.”

“What a coincidence beautiful, I just put you on medical leave tomorrow.”

Jim must have been looking at the duty log for tomorrow because you communicator immediately went off and a very confused Jim was on the other end. You gave Lee a look asking him if you should tell Jim about the plans, he just nodded. Kirk was too excited and you could hear the entirety of the bridge crew in the background whooping and hollering. Scotty was also up on the bridge cause he was also in the background.

After that, you and Lee went to bed. It was the most restless night of your lives. Neither of you slept much, you were just too excited to see how your lives together would go. He made anything feel possible.

That morning, you put on your dress and helped Lee get his uniform on. The entire time wondering what it would be like to take it off your husband. You had decided on the observation room for the wedding, it felt right. The walk was strangely quiet and when you got to the door, Scotty was waiting for you. He had Leonard go in and take his place by the Captain. You were to stay out there with him. He told you that since he couldn’t be the best man, he was going to be there to give you away. You were happy that it was going to be Scotty to give your hand to Lee.

Sulu gave the cue and you started walking in. Considering the short noticed, Uhura did an amazing job setting everything up. Jim did a wonderful job reading his part. But Lee’s vows made you cry, you didn’t even try to hold back your tears.

“I knew from the moment I saw you that you were the one. I knew when you started telling me about yourself and I started learning everything I could about you, that you were too good for a broken man like me. I never knew that someone could pick up my broken pieces and put me back together, but if it had to be anyone, I thank God every day that it was you, (Y/F/N). And I promise you that I will spend every day of my life and every breath in my lungs, loving you and protecting you. You are my rock, my guardian angel, and my best friend. I can’t wait to spend the rest of forever with you by my side. I Love You.”

It took you a minute to gather your composure to give your vows, you couldn’t get over how beautiful his words were.

“Leonard Horatio McCoy, I love you more than words could ever describe. You saved my life that day and you have been saving my life every day since. You protected a woman you didn’t even know, you protected a woman without realizing the dangers that followed right behind her. You befriended a broken girl and loved her when she couldn’t find it in herself to believe in love anymore. You showed me your heart and what it is like to be truly loved. Today, I vow to give you all that I am and everything that I have; in this life and the next. I am so thankful that it’s you that I’ll have by my side, now and forever. I love you, Leonard, and nothing will ever change that.”

“I now pronounce you man and wife, you may now kiss the bride.” “It is my honor and privilege to introduce you to Dr. and Dr. Leonard McCoy!”

Jim was tearing up. Upon looking around, you couldn’t find a single dry eye in the room. You heard a familiar chime and you realized that even though only your closest friends were in the room with you, Chekov had opened a shipwide channel so everyone could watch the wedding of their favorite doctors.

The reception was in a recreational “gym” hall. Everyone was drinking, and for the first time in forever, Lee danced the whole night. Mostly with you, but Uhura had stolen him for a dance towards the end of the night. Jim took the opportunity to steal you away. He was happy that his best friend had gotten back up on the proverbial horse and rode it straight to you. Uhura was taking a different approach with a brief lecture along the lines of a “Don’t you ever hurt her Leonard McCoy, because if you do, I will take pleasure in hurting you back.” Of course, it was said with love.

The night ended eventually and you and Lee slipped away. As promised, he helped you get out of the dress and you had loads of fun getting his uniform off of him. The rest of the night was spent, just the two of you in your shared quarters, using it as a makeshift honeymoon suite. The real honeymoon would have to wait for shore leave. Tomorrow you were back to the Medbay. The only difference was that this time, you were the Dr. McCoy on duty.

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