#how...do i tag this sksjs um-

[blistering-typhoons]

cw for food, relationships to food one can classify as an eating disorder, mentions of starvation, mentions of ptsd

watson doesn't occupy himself too much with keeping holmes fed until he himself starts eating again.

he returns from the war with no appetite for anything, spiritual or physical. he gambles his money away, wasting it away just as the flesh wastes from his bones.

he all but rots in a hotel room that is not a home. he eats whatever he can afford, when he can afford to eat at all.

the hunger that pines in his chest almost feels like the loneliness that resides there as well. he wonders which one will consume him first, which one will disintegrate the walls of his stomach and burn him alive.

a stomach which murmurs constantly but which only fully growls the first time he takes a meal in 221B.

sat at the dining table in a living room which he can almost feel become his own. sat across the most intriguing man he's ever met, who exchanges with him a few sly barbs with shining grey eyes. as if they've known eachother forever.

mrs hudson brings them their food and smiles down at him. there is no pity in her eyes, merely a challenge.

just try to refuse, young man.

he doesn't, of course he doesn't. firstly out of politeness, but politeness all but disappears once he first smells it.

a meal. homecooked.

served at a table that he can feel becoming his own. shared with the most brilliant man he can feel becoming his own.

small pieces of his soul stitch back together that very first time he takes a meal in 221B. it only continues to grow whole afterwards.

(mrs hudson is always sure to provide a sandwhich or something to the like whenever she can tell he's not eaten.

he rarely even needs to ask.)

it is only when he starts to eat again does he take care to make sure holmes does the same. his techniques gentle over the years from the somewhat fiery insistence in those first few months.

he thinks back to being curled up in a hotel bed with hollow ribs, and hates the thought of holmes suffering the same.

he understands his friend's habits more as time goes on. understands it to be a different suffering to his own.

he learns when to prod and when to wait.

and when to say nothing when holmes joins him for lunch.

right there at their very own dining table.

[kwaniehae]

get to know me tag

tagged by: @ohoshi (thank you cora <3)

tagging: not tagging anyone but if you want to do it just say that I tagged you

What day is your birthday?

28 november!!

What is your favourite colour?

I don't really have a favourite colour but I love pink, blue and purple

What's your lucky number?

2 and 7

Do you have any pets?

no, I love dogs but it's too troublesome to own one

How tall are you?

...150cm I know I'm smol

How many pairs of shoes do you own?

5

Favourite song?

I can never have a favourite song cos I just love too many songs

Favourite movie?

NARNIA!!! I love narnia so much <33 my fav narnia movie is prince caspian

Who would be your ideal partner?

ngl it would be seungkwan, he just fits my criteria

Do you want children?

yep, in the future

Have you ever got in trouble with the law?

no

Baths or showers?

showers!! I don't like sitting in a bathtubs, even when I go to hotels and there's bathtubs I just stand on it

What colour socks are you wearing?

I don't wear socks at home

What type of music do you like?

kpop and cpop and more specifically, I like upbeat and exciting songs I'm not a fan of ballads

How many pillows do you sleep with?

3 plus lots of soft toys!!

What position do you usually sleep in?

I always change my position when I sleep but the most comfortable position would be on my side

What you don't like when you're sleeping?

heat, I always turn on the air con because I can't sleep without it

What do you typically have for breakfast?

usually bread but sometimes on the weekends I eat noodles or prata

Have you ever tried archery?

yes and it's hard to hold the bow steady when I'm aiming so yea I'm terrible at archery

Favourite fruit?

MANGOES!!!!!! I love mangoes so much just give me mangoes and I love you <33

Favourite swear word?

I don't like to swear but sometimes I replace f*ck with freak

Do you have any scars?

yes?? I have this scar from an insect bite that caused me to have infection and it affected my leg muscles so I couldn't walk

Are you a good liar?

yes...

What is your personality type

infj-t

What is your favourite type of girls?

um idk?? as long as you don't gossip then it's fine

Are you an innie or an outie?

innie

Left or right handed

right handed

Favourite food?

fishball noodles, nasi lemak, chicken rice yes I know I'm a basic singaporean

Favourite foreign food?

japanese food!! I love korean food too tho esp their fried chicken

Are you a clean or messy person?

messy sksj my room is a mess but idc :D

Most used phrase?

I have no idea (that's not the phrase I just don't know)

How long does it take for you to get ready?

like 10-15min, I really don't do much

Do you talk to yourself?

yes my brother says I'm crazy

Do you sing to yourself?

does listening to songs in my head count? if not then nope

Are you a good singer?

no like I used to be part of the church choir when I was young but honestly I'm too shy to sing and I have no interest so yea

Biggest fear?

falling from heights and cats

Are you a gossip?

no

Do you like long or short hair?

long hair

Favourite school subject?

physics!! I hate bio to the core

Extrovert or Introvert?

introvert

What makes you nervous?

speaking in front of a crowd, talking to new people

Who was your first real crush?

I don't really have crushes?? but the closest I have to a crush is this one guy like he's handsome, smart and seemed very nice like he accidentally threw a frisbee at my shoulder and kept on apologising and he even texted me an apology when he already apologised in person. but honestly he's a little mean like he looks down on people who have tuition like bro we get it you're smart and don't need tuition (oops sorry for the rant)

How many piercings do you have?

2, one on each ear

How fast can you run?

all you need to know is that I'm very slow and I have no stamina <3

What colour is your hair?

black

What colour are your eyes?

black, sometimes dark brown

What makes you angry?

when people make fun of other races/religions my classmates kept making fun of christianity specifically jesus and as a christian, I just felt really angry

Do you like your own name?

no<3

Do you want a boy or a girl for a child?

both

What are your strengths?

um what strengths??

What are your weaknesses?

soonyoung, seokmin, seungkwan sports like im really really terrible at any kind of sport other than badminton

Colour of your bedspread?

mint green

Colour of your room?

white

[scintillasofbeomgyu]

ult group tag!

tagged by: @beomiebear5 (thanks ray💗)

um,, i have two ults so take that aksjsnd 😤 [game starts under the cut!]

0. who is your ult group?

exo & txt!

1. who was your first bias?

exo - chanyeol || txt - soobin

2. who is your bias now?

exo - still chanyeol || txt - beomgyu

3. what was the first mv you watched by them?

exo - wolf || txt - crown

4. what’s your favourite mv?

ooo this is a difficult one, i love all their mvs 😭 but for exo, it’s probably between “call me baby”, “loveshot” and “love me right”. as for txt,,,if i don’t count the way home mv that came out today it’s probably between “can’t you see me” and “blue hour”.

5. if you could only listen to one of their songs for the rest of your life, which would it be?

ooo tuff. probably “what if” and “way home”

6. who would you want to see them collab with?

i was contemplating this question for a bit, but then i was like — it would be really interesting to see exo and txt collab with each other? 😳 yeah i think it would send shockwaves through the industry 😌

7. what (mv) concept do you want to see them do?

hmm,, idk exo and txt both have really unique concepts that are always changing up. you never know what to expect, and are always satisfied 😌

8. have you ever had a dream with any of the members in it?

uh,,, unfortunately i RARELY dream of them members which is funny given they’re on my mind rent free 🧍🏻‍♀️OH i remember, around the time the to do ep where they played games in the library came out (before it did) i dreamt i was there them aksjshw so when the episode came i was like 👁️👄👁️ am i a,,, ✨s o o t h s a y e r✨ 👁️👄👁️ lowkey cried cause beomgyu was taking care of me alot skjs nuuu

9. if you could spend a day with one member, who would it be and what would you do?

don’t @ me but i would really love to spend the day with my biases! both chanyeol and beomgyu dabble in the songwriting and producing process, so i’d very much love to watch them at work wksjjdeb. sounds pretty silly right?

10. which member do you think you would get along with best?

oof erm,,, so i asked @mango-mina for a second opinion and she agrees that i’d probably get along best with baekhyun and beomgyu sjsjsbdb

11. which member do you think you would argue with?

baekhyun & yeonbin, no cap 😔✋🏻 idk how to explain this, but anyone who knows me irl would know how it be (i’m annoying and stubborn asf)

12. if you had to let one member scroll through your tumblr, who would it be?

... ಠ_ʖಠ

AKSKDJD this was interesting even for me sksj

tagging: @choideluxe @binniebutter @jay-ke @halohyuka @sungdipity @magicalstellar @mango-mina @03sonika05 @jungwon-luv-bot ,,, anyone who wants to do it!

[honeyedmilks]

gtkm 🌙

tagged by the cutest @captain-junmyeon ty angel !!!!!

tagging: @championamjoon @rabonghee @allonsy-allie @gimme-a-chocolate @blushyandreil @longguosus @myhalloweendreams @millkiway @lavenderbyun

how tall are you: 5′9 ? or taller ? or a little smaller ?? i dunno !!

what colour are your eyes: so dark they’re like black snjdjdjd when will i be cast as a demon?

do you wear contacts and/or glasses: only sunglasses to make me look cute

do you wear braces: i used to !!

what is your fashion style: i don’t even know ? i guess casual chic ? but sometimes i just look like a hobo so who knows ... the things i like in terms of fashion are often or not what i get to wear tho :(

when were you born: 25th january 2001

how old are you: 17 !!

do you have any siblings: hm yes . two brothers (younger) and one sister (also younger)

what school/ college do you go to: rn ? no where jjjjsndnsjjdd

what kind of student are you: i’ve not been a student for like a year so i dunno and my mental illness fucked me over so bad so i dunno sndidnkdndkd but i guess i’m a perfectionist and very messy but always striving to learn to my optimum and brimming with knowledge lmao i can be vocal when i’m confident. i used to be quite terrible tho :/ but i guess that’s because i had to learn to do everything on my own as a child? but i got sick of being the dumb one by the time i got to high school and started to get my head down a bit. i wasn’t perfect lol. after a while it got really hard. it’s been a lot of ups and downs for the most part

what are your favorite subjects: history was one i enjoyed a lot i think ? english was like my safe heaven at one point but i dunno djdjdjd

what are your favourite movies: oh binch ... i dunno !! do u know how many movies i’ve seen? but from the top of my head; wheelman (it’s on netflix go watch it pls !! it’s so underrated), the mummy 1 & 2, and um peter pan !! the live action one ... damn i’m already crying ... this is why i can’t watch it anymore

what are your favorite pastimes: depends on my mood tbh. i like listening to music, blogging on this shithole, baking (a more recent development), writing (i swear i’m a writer :/), doing dumb shit on photoshop, looking through my pinterest sndidkjddi, watching stuff like dramas, films, youtube stuff

so you have any regrets: eh i’m always out there being a Mess so yeah i guess. but i’m like a zombie so i get over stuff now unless it’s Really a lot okay wait i’m remembering ... hmm not good at all

what is your dream job: director/ writer. and recently ? singer even tho i can’t sing :/

would you like to get married: sigh yes cuz apparently that’s when i can actually live whatever trash life i want

do you want kids? how many if so: i want babies :( when i’m older i think. even if pregnancy is so scary. only a few kids :( like 1 or 2 ?

how many countries have you visited: i can’t count so um pakistan, egypt, turkey, italy, france, england, dubai- these were all to varying degrees but oh well. and i was so young i barely remember a lot of it.

what was your scariest dream: uh i don’t wanna talk about it since a) it’s gonna take me ages to remember and then put into words and b) i just :/

do you have a boyfriend/ girlfriend/ significant other: binch no !! 😤😖 but a girl (me !!) is so lonely . if someone has baekhyuns number then tell him i’m fucjxjixx FREE ALL DAY EVERY DAY !!

put your playlist on shuffle and without skipping the first 15 songs:

i have a million platforms that i listen to music on so deal with this random array of songs i’ve kind of but not quite hand picked with no links because i’m too tired~

like a cat by aoa (FUCK I LOVE THIS SONG SKSJ)

automatic by red velvet

sin contrato by maluma

no ordinary love by sade

come get her by rae sremmurd (look ik :/ it’s trash but it slaps)

3 by britney spears

how’s this by hyuna

borro cassette by maluma (i love ... val this is our Other song)

eu sou assim by anitta

someone new by banks (</3)

O by coldplay

beautiful ruin by jhene aiko

safari by j balvin

rockstar by post malone (again ... trash ... but it bangs)

talk talk by girls generation (um amazing fantastic iconic mindblowing !!)

[myhalloweendreams]

gtkm 🌙

tagged by the lovely @honeyedmilks​ <3

(sorry it took me so long to answer ... I suck)

how tall are you: 5′6 ? i think ? (i converted it but i don’t really get how it works  so i’m not sure if it’s right or not !! but 171cm)

what colour are your eyes: I have boring brown eyes.... I wish i had black eyes they’re awesome or blue they are beautiful

do you wear contacts and/or glasses: glasses ... I suck at putting contacts so I only use them when going out for free and spontaneous peer pressure

do you wear braces: nope, never had to... but I still have a milk-tooth that I had to cover

what is your fashion style: i don’t have money enough to buy nice things style + my mom is very controlling and will vet things and if you buy it anyway she will throw it out of the window style - but I normally dress like: I don’t like to show skin, I don’t fell comfortable in dresses or skirts and I don’t use bright colors or patterns or anything that draws attention to me... so you’ll find mostly in black jeans and plain or simple stamp dark shirt (probably black) bonus points if it’s long enough to end under my butt and something over it (like a  sweater or jacket or something ....probably has something to do with my need of not showing skin) and my favorite short boots. There isn’t much for my mom complain and it doesn’t show skin and mostly is comfortable  (when it isn’t too hot... i suffer a little when it’s) so it’s what I normally go with

when were you born:  may 28th

how old are you: old !! how i say since i was  little kid(and i’m talking about my five years old self) i was born a 60 years old person and i’m just growing older from there (I don’t only was a kid who had an easier time communicating with adults, but I never wanted to play with the other kids, I have back problems, I would take everything serious and be responsible, I nagged even the adults about wrong and right and so on... I was born old)

do you have any siblings: hm yes . one brother (younger) ...he’s awful ... next question

what school/ college do you go went to: interior design 

what kind of student are you: I have always been a good student, but I talked a lot in class... but now that I think about it I had to teach myself everything because I couldn’t concentrate enough, but I was always an overachiever and the teacher’s favorite, but never the best student (I made a conscious effort to not be the best - second is always better than first as it’s be the second in command in any group, never the leader... you’re good enough to be heard but the attention is not on you... I can’t handle attention).... I was always the one to assemble the power points and group’s essays, because that way I would know that it would be done(I’m always freaking out so I couldn’t handle not know if the others weren’t doing their part or if it wasn’t going to be finished) and I would always research everyone’s part so I knew that it wouldn’t lack one part if that person didn’t do its part, but I would always include the information they researched in the essay, but in that way I at least would know that I wasn’t writing nonsense on the essay when they gave me their part and it would be a tool to help the ones that had a hard time finding their part (I liked to be prepared and I liked to be able to help who needed and I liked to know all the subject being researched, normally a lot more profoundly than needed to do the essay ... as I said overachiever)

what are your favorite subjects: arts, math, statistics and I do love history, but not the school subject (I had a mix of bad and not interested teachers in this one)

what are your favorite movies: i have no idea !! you ask my favorite movie and all movies that I ever watched just vanishes from my mind. I can try to think in a few that I like (but probably not my favorite) I guess...

The Mummy 1 & 2 (that Sofia cited)

Zombie ones (like Dawn of the Dead, Shaun of the Dead, World War Z, Train to Busan, etc)

i love animated movies (some of them: Shrek 2, Coco, How to Train Your Dragon, Coraline, Mulan, Anastasia, The Nightmare Before Christmas... I could keep citing animated movies for a long time here)

Grinch

The Covenant

Pride and Prejudice

The A-Team

Hero movies (even the bad ones)

Rom-coms (but I can’t think in any rn)

Silly comedies (i’m saying silly like the mummy ones and not over-sexual and stupid like american pie... i hate that kind of movie)

That’s all that I can think of rn :X

what are your favorite pastimes: I live from one distraction to another... Sooo, there’s a few...

I listen to music, a lot, while doing everything (I shouldn’t be let alone with my thoughts... ever); I read as much as my concentration and motivation let me; I watch stuff (like tv shows, dramas, movies and not so often: youtube videos); I draw sometimes when my motivation let me(... can I still say that after all this time? there is probably more than a year that I don’t draw anything), I blog and scroll down in the blue hell a lot; I look through and save pins on my Pinterest; I do some diy projects, i really like it but it’s linked to my motivation too so I do less and less stuff as the time passes; there were a time where I would play on my phone but it’s memory it’s too small and I can’t have games anymore; I used to play videogame too but I kind of linked it to my father so I don’t do that anymore; I create stupid stories or scenarios in my head; I really like to play around with photoshop; and I like to learn new things or tricks in things that I already know how to use/do

so you have any regrets: I have only regrets

what is your dream job: i dunno... you have to want to have a future for want to do something in the future i guess

would you like to get married: nope

do you want kids? how many if so: nope... i love kids but nope. Pregnancy is a terrifying thing and everyone painting it as a beautiful full of flowers and rainbows experience is lying. But even if it (pregnancy) wasn’t a problem put another person in this world would not only hypocrite of me, but a really mean thing to do. The world sucks every day more and bring an innocent life to this hell would be mean. Well, if I ever find any will to live I could adopt I guess... the kid is already here and I could at least love her/him, protect and give them the best I can, i guess.... No, I’m too afraid to become my mom, I don’t think I can do that. :(

how many countries have you visited: i can’t even say that i have visited mine... i know like three cities of it. I wish I had ever went to another country.

what was your scariest dream: i dunno... maybe the one where i was in this big ass house that i don’t know and i was running away and i could feel something hunting me  and keep entering in different rooms or not being able to open doors and never finding a way out, and i started to run slower  and i was terrified and then a very graphic version of the hunter of the left 4 dead that my brain created jumped in front of me and then in my face. Maybe not the worse since I have had several nightmares through my life but pretty terrifying and I remember it know..... and what kind of question is that?! who wants to think about that D:

do you have a boyfriend/ girlfriend/ significant other: nope... i’m asexual 

put your playlist on shuffle and without skipping the first 15 songs:

almost gave myself a heart attack since I forgot to check the volume~

(I got my old ipod for the last five of the list, because I still listen to it... but it haven’t see a new music for like seven years)

Perfect Man - BTS (cover)

Ciao Adios - Anne-Marie

Often - The Weeknd (i didn’t even knew i was listening to a remix)

Play Hard - Krewella

The Edge - Tonight Alive

I Hate Everything About You - Three Days Grace 

Pocketful Of Sunshine - Natasha Bedingfield

Fight Song - Rachel Platten

Now I'm That Bitch - Livvi Franc ft. Pitbull

The Outsider - Black Veil Brides

Tea Party - Kerli

Call Me When You’re Sober - Evanescence

C’est Moi - Marie-Mai

Papa Don’t Preach - Kelly Osbourne (cover)

Blue Suede Shoes - Elvis Presley

Bonus: Until the Day I Die - Story of the Year (because I forgot its existence until it start as the next in this shuffled list)