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rin i am so deeply unwell about cecil palmer.
his mother didn't talk to him except to prophesise his death or remind him he doesn't exist.
his dad made him climb into a tree and get eaten by the smiling god??
he doesn't remember his childhood.
he used to go back to his abandoned childhood home and sleep on the sofa. it's probably demolished now.
he can't go to the grocery store anymore because he's afraid of auctions. and for good reason !!
he was raised by his sister and she always resented him for it.
he describes his family history as a ghost story. his childhood was a ghost story. his life is a ghost story.
he keeps having to watch other versions of himself die.
he didn't choose to be the voice of night vale, it was chosen for him whether he liked it or not. he probably can't quit or resign, he'll probably be the voice until he dies.
leonard burton died in his arms. his interns keep dying or leaving or growing older than him and moving on with their lives while he stays where he is.
his main coping mechanism is Denial and drinking to forget
he dies in a tree every year???? interesting lifestyle choice
terrible things keep happening and he can't do anything about it except narrate !!
also a mirror is gonna kill him. how is he supposed to deal with that. can he not go to walmart?? cause they sell mirrors at walmart !! does he have to call the store before coming in like "hiiii can u pls cover your mirrors or put them away". does carlos do most of the shopping just in case? then what did he do before carlos? does he have mirrors on his car? do his friends cover their mirrors when they know he's coming over? do all reflective surfaces make him nervous? what is it like knowing that such an everyday item can kill you? does he wake up every morning and wonder if today is the day?
SORRY FOR THIS you just reminded me of 171 and that episode makes me feral
DUDE ME TOO WE CAN BE UNWELL ABOUT THIS WEIRD GUY TOGETHER
the tree thing makes me unhinged like WHAT is going ON with that. if it is the smiling god that brings up even more questions. mostly questions about the smiling god honestly!
his entire family is a wreck i really do hope that part of him and Abby talking again was them, like. talking about that a little bit because could you IMAGINE being in that position. like. what do you even do about that
him in 171 being like did your mother tell you she was an oracle before she left like WAUGH. we know that his position as the Voice was prophesied his mom was an oracle was she the one who told him? if so was that the only interaction they had that wasn't her telling him he was going to die/didn't exist or fucking hiding from him? considering his Entire familial situation it's a wonder he's as functional as he is.
the mirrors i want to scream about the mirrors ok . ok. like. YEAH does it apply to every reflective surface or just mirrors? going grocery shopping at all has to be a nightmare yeah no kidding. you know those mirrors sometimes in the drink aisle? how the fuck do you deal with that? do you just shut your eyes? do you just avoid it entirely? I know carlos doesnt do all their shopping bc cecil keeps reading off requests for him to pick stuff up from the store in texts so like How did he deal with that. do night vale stores just not have mirrors?
driving must be a nightmare too you're right i didn't even think about that before holy shit. Can he drive? How? You need to use your mirrors while you're driving. does he walk everywhere? does he have like a bike? a scooter even? i think he can drive bc of first date but like that must be So stressful. I'm just. so. so mentally ill about the mirrors. he was so fucking stressed out by eunomia's visor it made me stressed out how do you lead a functioning life that way
in conclusion thank you and i wanna chew electrical wires about this man
#wtnv#ask#mutual stuff#DONT APOLOGIZE IM UNWELL ABT HIM TOO#im just . like. wow you have So much going on#no wonder narrating is his grounding! it's the only control he has over his situation!#and like#oh boy and this just occurred to me. or re-occurred to me bc this def was in my brain when i was#writing forbidden thoughts box but like#how much worse did that need to narrate get after lot 37#how much more strongly did he grasp onto his mere ability to narrate his environment when he wasnt sure if his body was going to be#taken from him. like#LIKE. DUDE.#it's the control thing again its the autonomy again like i wanna.#i wanna! bite chew on drywall
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Cinematic Comic Characters Ranked! (Year 2007) Part Two
Seven movies were released during 2007 that make it on our list! Marvel’s debut of Ghost Rider started us off, followed by the incredible action film, 300! Up next was TMNT, the list’s first animated movie as well as the return of Spider-Man 3, Fantastic Four: Rise of the Silver Surfer, and Alien vs Predator: Requiem! Also debuting is the horror film 30 Days of Night. Here’s #40 through 21!
*SPOILERS ALERT FOR ALL MOVIES HIGHLIGHTED ABOVE*
40. Victor Von Doom/Dr. Doom (Fantastic Four: Rise of the Silver Surfer)
"Now, let's be clear about this, shall we? I hate you."
I roll my eyes every time this guy showed up on the screen. No one else is as entitled as he is, which he proves by still only caring about his rise to power instead of the immediate threat of THE WORLD DYING. He cons and manipulates his way to get his hands on the silver surfboard and even ends up killing Sue before Johnny ends up taking him down. His death is very ambiguous so if a third movie did get approved he probably would've survived but since it didn't, I get to declare that he truly did die.
39. May Parker (Spider-Man 3)
"You start by doing the hardest thing: You forgive yourself."
With Aunt May living in her own tiny apartment now, she seems happier now that she isn't stressing over bills she couldn't pay with the old house. She still gives Peter great advice, especially when it comes to proposing to Mary Jane and forgiving Uncle Ben's killer.
38. Max Winters (TMNT)
"Immortality is a curse!"
Max Winters turned out to be the all-powerful warlord that turned his closest friends into stone. With three thousand years under his belt, it's no wonder he's managed to build himself a fortune and now has all the resources to reverse the curse back to normal. Of course something has to go wrong in the shape of his own generals betraying him so they can stay immortal themselves but luckily he gets the turtles' help at the last minute and puts a stop to the generals and end his curse once and for all.
37. Gwen Stacy (Spider-Man 3)
"I mean who gets kissed by Spider-Man, right?"
Gwen Stacy finally makes her debut as Peter Parker's college lab partner. Jesus that whole scene with the crane almost killing her gave me so much anxiety. There were, like, three separate occasions in that scene alone where she could've died. She also manages to kiss Spider-Man, not knowing that he's Peter OR that he's in a relationship with Mary Jane. You can't blame her, especially when she walks away from Peter during their date once she realizes he was only using her to get back at Mary Jane for dumping him. She even apologizes! That's a girl who understands the sisterhood so I'm glad nothing horrible happens to her.
36. Dallas (Alien vs Predator: Requiem)
"People are dying. We need guns."
The bad boy of town, it's never actually said if Dallas was in jail the past three years but it's assumed that's why he's gone. Of course he returns right as an alien infestation takes over the entire town and now he has to work with others to insure his and his brother's survival. He wasn't the best leader in terms of encouragement, he was a bit of an asshole sometimes, but his respect for Kelly, who was the true hero here, is what got them to survive.
35. Karai (TMNT)
"The Foot Clan are owned by no one."
With Shredder gone, Karai is now the leader of the Foot Clan. There's still animosity with the turtles which makes every run in a "fight on sight" type of deal. I don't know, I liked her. Her clan did what they could for cash but when things got out of hand and New York was in jeopardy, they put their differences aside with the turtles and worked with them to save the day. Her last goodbye message could've been interpreted in a couple ways. Either she's found a way to resurrect the very dead Shredder, or she's taking up the mantle herself, I just don't realize which one is the worse option.
34. Stella Oleson (30 Days of Night)
"We made it. It's almost dawn."
Stella wasn't even supposed to be in Barrow during the month-long night. But she ends up missing her flight and has to deal with awkward tension with her husband after they separated and also with a horde of blood-sucking vampires. Stella does well surving as authority to the group but is put at risk when she's stuck under a truck with a child while Marlow and the vamps burn down the town. Once everything's done, she holds Eben in her arms as they watch the sunrise, the light eventually killing Eben.
33. Flint Marko/Sandman (Spider-Man 3)
"The only thing left for me now is my daughter."
I get that we need a villain, but I didn't really buy the whole redemption thing they tried to get going for him. Yes, I understand he just wanted to save his daughter, but taking matters into his own hands cost someone their lives, accident or not. And how come at the end of the fight with Spider-Man and New Goblin did he act like he wanted no part in it once Venom was destroyed? He definitely agreed to wanting to kill Spider-Man, and he definitely almost did had it not been for Harry coming to save the day. He wanted to make it seem like he wasn't a bad guy, just was under bad circumstances, but I think he definintely was a bad guy.
32. Xerxes (300)
"I only require that you kneel."
The god-king of Persia, Xerxes is such a tall, bronze man! I'm lowkey living for his very androgynous look. What, with his drawn-on eyebrows, body jewelry AND those piercings. He might not be an actual god but he was definitely serving! As honorable as the Spartans were, there was no way they were going to stop Xerxes and his army of thousands. All he had to do was wait it out and eventually the Spartans were defeated.
31. Harry Osborn/New Goblin (Spider-Man 3)
"They're my best friends. I'd give my life for them."
Harry sort of redeemed himself for me in this movie. In a perfect world he would've gone through life without getting his memory back but that didn't last long. Both fight scenes with Peter seemed a little childish and I couldn't really take any of it seriously. What I DID appreciate is Peter telling Harry that his father never cared about him, because that's exactly what I've been saying this whole time. Harry finally gets a clue, with the help of his butler that decided to wait until Mary Jane is about to die to reveal how Harry's dad truly died, and flies in just in time to save Peter from death. He does it more than once and ends up dying the same way his father did, getting impaled by the blades in his glider. However he dies knowing he fixed things with both Mary Jane and Peter.
30. Splinter (TMNT)
"I still got it!"
Splinter is more than just a master to the turtles, he's their father. His lessons are more than just how to be a great warrior, but how to be good soul. It was cool to see him not take the back seat when things got rough. He took down every ninja and other worldly monster that got in his way, proving this old rat had no problem keeping up with his sons.
29. Blackheart (Ghost Rider)
"Forgive me father, for I have sinned. I have sinned a lot."
The devil's son, a pure demon. He wants all the power his father has and tries to use the power of the San Verganza contract to overthrow him and take over Earth. He also has this unnecessary habit of killing people for no reason? Like, ok, yeah that motorcycle guy started picking on him, but was there any reason to kill everyone in the entire bar? In end all his killings come back to bite him in the ass after he absorbs the evil souls, allowing Ghost Rider to use his Penance Stare, which ends up killing the demon spawn using his own victim's pain.
28. Dilios (300)
"Only the hard and strong may call themselves Spartans."
The narrator of the story, Dilios proves that he has the right to stand and fight among the 300 Spartans defending their home from the Persians. During one of the battles, he takes a hit to the eye, leaving him unfit to continue. When the Greeks ditch the battle, Leonidas sends Dilios with them, to spread the tale of the 300. He does just that before going back into the battlefield with the Greeks at the end of the film.
27. April O'Neil (TMNT)
"Be careful."
She's the only girl on the ninja turtle team and probably everyone's favorite member as well. April is not just brain smart, she can also handle herself with a sword, which isn't surprising with the company she keeps. Her and Donnie's brains are the main reason the team is able to figure out what's going on and stop the Immortal Generals from taking over the world.
26. Mack (Ghost Rider)
"We were riding the gravy train on biscuit wheels before you showed up."
Mack is Johnny's manager and loyal best friend. It didn't matter if he thought Johnny was crazy for trying to jump a football field full of helicopters, once he realized Johnny wasn't changing his mind, he was fully supportive and did what he could to make sure his best friend stayed alive. His loyalty made his death hard to watch as Blackheart quickly gave him the death touch, killing him right in front of Roxie.
25. Stelios (300)
"It's an honor to die at your side."
Stelios is a man who loves war and battle and was just made to be a soldier. He treats the entire war with the Persians as sport as he has wagers against Astinos on who can kill the most Persians. He manages to cut off the arm of a Persian general before he gets whipped and is the last soldier to die before Leonidas.
24. Alien-Predator Hybrid (Alien vs Predator: Requiem)
*alien screech*
What could possibly make an alien, designed to destroy all life, more dangerous? Making it a hybrid breed with a Predator, one of the most violent creatures in the universe. Apparently, as far as alliances go, the alien side won over, as the new hybrid attacks the predators on the ship and causes it to crash into a Colorado town. It then begins implanting alien babies into pregnant women, further producing the aliens over taking the town. It's finally brought down by the Predator before being blown up by a military nuke.
23. Mephisto (Ghost Rider)
"After all, a deal's a deal."
The devil himself. Mephisto is all about making deals to take someone's soul and then double crossing them once it's too late. Johnny is his latest victim. He gets Johnny to seal his soul and agree to be his Ghost Rider as long as he cures Johnny's father of cancer. Well he does just that...then he kills him the next day by having him crash in his circus act. His evil is only matched by his son, Blackheart, who wants everything his father controls. To show his son who's boss he sicks Ghost Rider on him while he watches in the shadows. He gets his own karma once Johnny refuses to give up his powers and vows to stop all his future plans.
22. Ben Grimm/The Thing (Fantastic Four: Rise of the Silver Surfer)
"I'll show you a rockslide!"
Even though Ben took the backseat in this movie as opposed to the last one, I just wanna point one thing out! It's the fact that he had not only accepted his appearance as The Thing but has embraced it in a way where he's not insecure about it anymore. Twice he changed back into his human form and didn't so much as bat an eye when he was changed back. Of course some of the credit goes to the love and support he gets from Alicia and his team, but he's come a long way and is text book definition of confidence as a superhero.
21. Donatello and Michelangelo (TMNT)
"Yeah, it looked like your mom, dude!" "Yeah that would make her your mom too, dufus."
These two make up half of the teenage mutant ninja turtles, and they're usually the fan favorites mainly because of their humor throughout the show/comics/films. They both took a backseat from their other brothers when it comes to character growth but the movie would not be the same without Donnie's brains and Mickey's horrible jokes. Plus they're side hustles as an IT and a party host were some of the funniest parts of the film.
#ghost rider#300#tmnt#spider-man 3#fantastic four#rise of the silver surfer#alien vs predator#requiem#30 days of night#donatello#michelangelo#Ben Grimm#the thing#mephisto#predalien#Stelios#Mack#april o'neil#Dilios#blackheart#splinter#harry osborn#new goblin#xerxes#flint marko#sandman#Stella Oleson#tmnt karai#Dallas#gwen stacy
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FROM AFAR - CHAPTER 18
We woke up around eleven the next morning, and I couldn’t even look at Lauren straight in the face. I was still embarrassed and pissed about the events that had occurred at the end of the previous night, we only talked the necessary about our plans for the day and for lunch, which we had all together by the way. I came back from the dining hall straight to my room, where I instantly started to narrate what had happened to two of my friends from home. They encouraged me to go talk to Lauren about it, to say how I was feeling and maybe decide something for real this time.
In the short time that everything had happened between me and her, and the times we had to really stop and talk about it, I was the one to have the initiative every time, and that frustrated me more than anything. I was already tired of it. Because my pride was huge, although I didn’t have a problem in overcoming it for a greater good, but it gets tiring to be the only one to make an effort to solve problems or make amends or whatever has to be done. I remember saying that to them, that I really needed Lauren to do something on her own but little did I know that that feeling would be a constant in my relation with her. I was sure that Lauren left my room that morning knowing that we had to talk about it some time, and I was left there knowing I had to be the one to take the first step.
It sucked.
I didn’t want to at first, but my friends convinced me to do it anyway. I was mad about everything, it was such a difficult time in my life and I didn’t want the extra pressure, even though Lauren was my remedy more often than not, I needed to know what was up with her, with us. What she would like to happen in the future regarding our relationship. And don’t get me wrong, at the time I was okay with just being friends, even if in my perfect world we would be more than that, and I didn’t want to stay away from Lauren because of everything we’ve been through together and everything she had helped me with. I was okay with the weirdness now if I knew it was only temporary, and getting used to not being too close to her.
It had only been three months that we knew each other and I surely could live without all that stuff I had with her because I had been living my entire life so far without it, I just had to endure a few days of loneliness and weirdness and maybe a little heartbreak, but soon I would be back to my old life. I only knew that because I had been through it that first time, it may seem like the end of the world but it’s not. The human being has the ability to adapt to anything, in the same way I got attached to her and that changed my routine, I would be able to go back to what it was before her or get used to whatever was going to happen in the end.
What I was not okay with was the nagging feeling of being confused and frustrated all the time because that was all Lauren made me feel when we had trouble in paradise. When I thought that things were getting better, whether I would still be kissing Lauren or not, something would happen and everything would go down the drain, and I absolutely hated that. I was pissed and I’d speak to her and get it over with, because at that point it was more than me wanting that, I needed that, stability, I needed to know for sure what she wanted to do because I was never sure of anything in my life, but that had to end there and this time there would be no turning back, no more getting closer again and forgetting all that’d happened, forgetting the limits and what we had settled and then it would all happen again like an endless cycle. The only word I had in mind was finality, whatever that meant.
Camila (12:16 pm): hey
Lauren (12:20 pm): hey, ow, let’s go
Lauren (12:20 pm): do you know tony hawk? hahaha
Lauren (12:20 pm): hi camz
Camila (12:21 pm): the skater one?
Lauren (12:22 pm): yess
Lauren (12:22 pm): it’s the song from the game
Lauren (12:22 pm): i was such a sk8ter girl lol
Camila (12:22 pm): i used to play that a lot
Camila (12:23 pm): it was awesome
Camila (12:23 pm): but let’s get to the point
Lauren (12:23 pm): speak up, i knew this was coming by the way
Camila (12:24 pm): it has to
Camila (12:24 pm): otherwise i’ll die here alone
Camila (12:24 pm): little by little each day
Lauren (12:24 pm): that’s awful
Camila (12:25 pm): sorry about yesterday, i don’t know if i forced anything but for me it was pretty clear that you wanted it
Camila (12:25 pm): and then that happened
Camila (12:25 pm): and i get confused
Camila (12:25 pm): nothing about this was what we had settled
Camila (12:25 pm): from beginning to end
Camila (12:25 pm): since i’ve been going through this in my life with my grandma
Camila (12:26 pm): i really appreciate that, god knows that i don’t have words and it’ll never be enough for me to thank you
Camila (12:26 pm): even if i don’t say it
Camila (12:26 pm): but then we got back to being what we were before
Camila (12:26 pm): and i know you’re reaaalllyyy confused
Camila (12:27 pm): and i’m sure that most of it is because you’re scared about losing our friendship
Camila (12:27 pm): i’m sure of it
Camila (12:27 pm): but then you give me all the signs
Camila (12:27 pm): and i don’t know what to do, i’m just following my needs
Camila (12:28 pm): but after yesterday i don’t know about anything anymore and i don’t want to keep doing this
Camila (12:28 pm): if you need space you’ll have space
Camila (12:28 pm): because i don’t know until when i’m gonna keep up with this and awkward situations like yesterday are going to happen
Camila (12:28 pm): and i hate it
Camila (12:28 pm): now talk
Lauren (12:33 pm): i agree that everything is back to what it were and yes i’m really confused, but i really wanted it yesterday and i know it was clear, i really thought we were going to make out again, but when it was going to happen you turned to the other side and i understood it like you wanted it but were not going to do anything because of what we had settled
Lauren (12:33 pm): for real, i didn’t get anything that happened yesterday
Lauren (12:33 pm): and i swear i don’t know what to do
Lauren (12:34 pm): to be honest, i wanted to kiss you for a long time yesterday
Lauren (12:34 pm): and that happens many times during the day
Lauren (12:34 pm): I really don’t know what to do
Lauren (12:34 pm): really
Lauren (12:35 pm): obviously the first thing that comes to mind is our friendship
Lauren (12:35 pm): but what i feel with you is too good to simply ignore too
Lauren (12:35 pm): but i understand what you said
Lauren (12:38 pm): i know you hate that
Lauren (12:37 pm): so it’s gonna be like you said
Camila (12:38 pm): actually i was really scared of doing anything yesterday
Camila (12:38 pm): i was holding myself
Camila (12:38 pm): and with ally here it just made everything worse
Camila (12:39 pm): but it was all a misunderstanding
Camila (12:39 pm): i was gonna kiss you yes
Camila (12:39 pm): but when i got closer you turned your face
Camila (12:39 pm): and i got it that you didn’t want to
Lauren (12:39 pm): No
Camila (12:39 pm): that’s why i turned to the other side
Lauren (12:39 pm): hahahaha
Lauren (12:39 pm): i didn’t want it to stop
Camila (12:40 pm): that’s why i got confused and ‘angry’
Camila (12:40 pm): because you did everything right to do that to me in the end
Camila (12:40 pm): and i don’t know until when i’ll handle it
Lauren (12:40 pm): angry your ass, i’m gonna go there to beat you up
Camila (12:40 pm): two idiots
Lauren (12:40 pm): no shit, not at all, you got everything wrong
Camila (12:40 pm): but it’s too complicated
Camila (12:40 pm): i was really scared
Camila (12:40 pm): reeeallyy
Lauren (12:41 pm): i know it is
Lauren (12:41 pm): i know
Camila (12:41 pm): of ruining everything
Lauren (12:41 pm): you were not going to ruin anything
Lauren (12:41 pm): seriously
Lauren (12:41 pm): do you think i would do all of that
Lauren (12:41 pm): to act like a pussy when the time comes
Lauren (12:42 pm): that’s why i didn’t understand why you turned
Lauren (12:42 pm): i knew you wanted it too
Lauren (12:42 pm): and then i moved and you turned to the other side and i was like: ?
Camila (12:42 pm): i don’t know, because you’re confused?!
Camila (12:42 pm): you might want it, but not want it, you know
Camila (12:42 pm): i turned because i thought you had given up
Lauren (12:42 pm): i see
Camila (12:43 pm): asshole
Camila (12:43 pm): i still lost a good amount of sleep because of that situation
Lauren (12:44 pm): i’m gonna tell you something about me
Camila (12:44 pm): and i think about kissing you all the time too, so much that makes me angry
Lauren (12:44 pm): i don’t play games, if it seems like i want it, it’s because i want it
Lauren (12:44 pm): period
Lauren (12:45 pm): you don’t get to think otherwise
Camila (12:45 pm): noted
Lauren (12:45 pm): hahaha i know, it’s the same with me
Camila (12:45 pm): that’s why when we talked about it i said stop everything
Camila (12:45 pm): because it just tortures me
Lauren (12:46 pm): :(
Lauren (12:46 pm): then we do that
Lauren (12:46 pm): we can’t just say ‘’let it happen’’ because i think it’s gonna be worse
Lauren (12:47 pm): we can barely hold ourselves together when we’re close
Lauren (12:47 pm): and if this is bad for you we’re not gonna keep doing it
Camila (12:47 pm): what do you wanna do?
Lauren (12:48 pm): i don’t know
Lauren (12:48 pm): it’s just like
Lauren (12:50 pm): it sucks putting a limit to what we can and cannot do
Camila (12:50 pm): yeah
Lauren (12:51 pm): because everything i’ve done so far was natural and it seems that when we put a limit it gets weird
Lauren (12:51 pm): kind of forced
Lauren (12:51 pm): i don’t know how to explain
Lauren (12:51 pm): but i got it that it makes you feel bad
Lauren (12:51 pm): i don’t want that
Lauren (12:52 pm): so we need to stop with the physical contact
Lauren (12:52 pm): because we can’t handle it
Camila (12:52 pm): put a knife in my heart and it’s gonna hurt less than that lol
Lauren (12:52 pm): don’t say that
Lauren (12:53 pm): see
Camila (12:53 pm): what are you afraid of?
Lauren (12:53 pm): i don’t want you being like that because of me
Lauren (12:53 pm): i’m not afraid of anything
Lauren (12:53 pm): my only concern is hurting you
Camila (12:53 pm): i’m not thinking about anything else
Camila (12:53 pm): only that when i feel like kissing you for example, i won’t have to put on my resting bitch face because I can’t
Camila (12:54 pm): and now i know that you want the same
Lauren (12:54 pm): JESUS THE RESTING BITCH FACE IS EXPLAINED
Lauren (12:54 pm): can’t believe it
Camila (12:54 pm): lmao
Camila (12:54 pm): a stronger resting bitch face*
Camila (12:54 pm): the resting bitch face is natural
Camila (12:54 pm): i was born with it
Lauren (12:54 pm): hahahahahahha
Lauren (12:54 pm): idiot
Lauren (12:55 pm): anyways
Lauren (12:55 pm): what’s up?
Lauren (12:55 pm): what’s the deal?
Lauren (12:55 pm): you decide camz
Camila (12:55 pm): don’t say that
Lauren (12:55 pm): i’m saying it haha
Lauren (12:55 pm): no whatevers
Camila (12:56 pm): oh god
Camila (12:56 pm): you don’t even know what you want
Camila (12:56 pm): let alone me
Camila (12:56 pm): but wait
Lauren (12:56 pm): i’m chill
Camila (12:56 pm): i don’t wanna stop with the contact
Lauren (12:56 pm): you don’t have to decide now
Lauren (12:56 pm): if you don’t want to
Camila (12:56 pm): even though it’s the most reasonable
Camila (12:56 pm): shush
Lauren (12:56 pm): mhm
Camila (12:57 pm): but then it’s not like I have a place to run to
Camila (12:57 pm): I’m gonna see you everyday
Camila (12:57 pm): and we’re gonna hang out together
Camila (12:57 pm): and it’ll be this weird atmosphere
Camila (12:57 pm): and i’ll be torturing myself
Camila (12:57 pm): if we’re gonna stop it for good we’re gonna stop with all of this
Camila (12:58 pm): seriously
Camila (12:58 pm): and each one carry on with their life
Camila (12:58 pm): if not, it’s gonna stay like it is and the only words i can express is ‘let it happen’, unfortunately
Lauren (12:58 pm): but the way it is, is not good for you, isn’t it?
Camila (12:59 pm): it’s not good because i can’t kiss you
Camila (12:59 pm): just that
Lauren (12:59 pm): Camz you haven’t decided anything, you gave me two options
Camila (12:59 pm): but it’s not just about me, Lauren
Camila (01:00 pm): i’m saying that i like you
Lauren (01:00 pm): so
Camila (01:00 pm): the options are
Camila (01:01 pm): stop with everything for good
Camila (01:01 pm): or let it happen
Camila (01:01 pm): i wanna let it happen
Lauren (01:01 pm): My fear of this let it happen is that we’ll do everything we want to without thinking about anything, wonderful, and yes i want that too
Lauren (01:01 pm): but my fear is that one of us, for some reason at some point get hurt by that
Camila (01:02 pm): i know
Camila (01:02pm): i’m scared of that too
Camila (01:02 pm): but i just wanna live
Lauren (01:02 pm): us both
Camila (01:02 pm): i don’t wanna hold myself back from things i want to do cause i’m scared of something happening
Camila (01:02 pm): shit happens with everyone
Camila (01:02 pm): we get hurt everyday
Lauren (01:03 pm): you’re so right
Camila (01:03 pm): we get sad because of so many things
Camila (01:03 pm): i just wanted to live something good
Camila (01:03 pm): but then i don’t get it if you want that or not
Camila (01:03 pm): even if you want to keep doing this
Lauren (01:03 pm): i want to
Lauren (01:04 pm): we can’t live fearing things, we don’t even know what could happen tomorrow
Lauren (01:06 pm): i just don’t want to hurt you
Lauren (01:06 pm): just that
Camila (01:06 pm): forget about this thing of hurting me
Camila (01:06 pm): for god’s sake
Camila (01:07 pm): you only make me feel good
Camila (01:07 pm): and if at one point something happens
Camila (01:07 pm): patience
Camila (01:07 pm): that’s what living is
Camila (01:07 pm): it doesn’t mean anything
Lauren (01:08 pm): haha what a philosopher
Lauren (01:08 pm): so okay
Lauren (01:08 pm): the i think we have a deal
Camila (01:09 pm): that would be?
Camila (01:09 pm): just live?
Lauren (01:10 pm): haha yes
Camila (01:11 pm): can i come by to kiss you?
Camila (01:11 pm): just to make up for lost time
Lauren (01:12 pm): what
Lauren (01:12 pm): haha
Camila (01:12 pm): yes or no?
Lauren (01:12 pm): hmmmm
Lauren (01:12 pm): i’m kidding
Lauren (01:12 pm): yes
That was my finality, and to my surprise it was what I wanted really. I was taken aback by all of Lauren’s words because I honestly didn’t expect it. I was torn before going to talk to her because I knew I just needed those feelings to end for good, and in my head that meant that we would have to stop doing that and not the other way around. Lauren had just ended a relationship and there I was, a girl, making her feel things that made her confused which was making me confused in return. I had started the conversation with my mind convinced that it was the end and not sure about what Lauren was feeling about that, about me, about the other night, again, but I was okay with that, like I said, I just wanted stability and finality, whatever that meant. But then the conversation took a different path and there we were. It seemed like a good end for me, the unexpected ones are always the best.
I waited a few minutes before going there, I needed to regain my composure first. I was never that bold before, like asking if could go there to kiss her?! What the hell! Maybe the exchange was making me change in ways I didn’t predict, or maybe I didn’t know myself well enough before. I went to brush my teeth first because like hell I would come up with all of that audacity and show up at Lauren’s door with bad breath. And I tried to prolong the time as much as I could because of my nervousness, but it was just Lauren, it should be fine.
After waiting the most I could, I made my way to Lauren’s door. I knocked and heard her say it was open. I think had never been so embarrassed in life, Lauren was sitting cross-legged on the bed chewing a gum that I knew she did it because of her breath as well, she was so confusing but so predictable sometimes.The first thing I did was throw my body on her bed because I didn’t have the guts to do anything else in the moment. Lauren showed me a huge grin while I buried my face in her pillow to wait for my shyness to pass. After a few moments of us both just getting accustomed with each other’s presence after that conversation, I stood up to stop in front of her on the bed. We leaned in closer with stupid smiles on our faces, I’m sure I looked like a tomato too.
“Take your glasses off, I don’t want that to get in the way,” Lauren put the item on the duvet as I grabbed her neck and pulled her close. There it was again, all the build up frustration from the night before, all of the words uttered by Lauren about how she thought about kissing me the other day and that it happens all the time too. It was all leaking through our kisses and touches.
“Are you calmer now?” She asked with a smirk on her face. She must have sensed my frustration.
“Yeah, asshole!��
We spent the entire day together. Literally. I studied there, and I don’t even remember getting out of the room to eat and I surely don’t remember Ally or Dinah. We talked about everything and anything, we kissed for the times we didn’t get to, we talked about how sad I was because they wouldn’t get to meet my grandma and she told me they already did, through me. I couldn’t sleep there because of her roommate but overall it was a happy ending. For that day, of course. We had decided to ‘let it happen’, which was a lot different from our ‘don’t get too close to each other’ thing, and I didn’t know what to expect. Chances were shit would happen again and I would think about what to do when it happened. Sure I was happy that things turned out the way I wanted but I was not naive, life is unpredictable and it didn’t change the fact that Lauren was still confusing, so you never knew what would happen the next day, but I was still happy because I wanted to live that, I chose to live that without fearing the tomorrow, and I had to trust her when she said she wanted that too.
A/N: good camren moments ahead :D
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Chapter 91: "The right kid's gonna die tonight! I think."
#Paula reads SBR#Chapter 91#stupid Valentine fetching another stupid Dio#can this race please be over already?#Steel Ball Run spoilers#Part 7 spoilers
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