#how is a deactivated acc asking though

[iamstuckinthevoid]

Da Luffy Tab is visible to everyone and is most likely advertising for a netflix show that's coming out on Thursday and (I hypothesize) tumblr fucked up and probably realeased the tab too early, that's the why there are only like 5 posts in there because that Tab most likely isn't supposed to be out yet

Ohhhhh thanks mate

[tiredsadpeach]

So far no new updates for the friend drama except he tweeted something about being a bad person (it was right after I tweeted something mundane so I assume it was about being mad at me still) and his bf replied that he wasn’t a bad person which is hilarious to me ngl

[lloowweesss]

Apologies, and here we are yet again imma try and finish ep4 so I can upload before Friday but umm let’s get to it!

Imma work on getting an AO3 acc but for now it’s getting uploaded here- also mainly I was working on a drawing that I’ll upload one I finish the outher one that goes with it! >:3

Disclaimer: cussing, gore/blood, Russian ppl, violence, self umm sewerc*de thoughts

Ep3: Oh Дерьмо.

“Hurry. You’re running out of time. They will all die because of you.” A firm Russian mans voice encoded in Elizabeth’s head, she was working on decoding the suit so she could organize it in such a way where it wouldn’t instantly fry the brunet lying on the floor..unconscious.. but instead so he could retrieve more animals- for her to experiment on. Oh right, she would be the reason countless animal bodies to be placed in the ground.

The sooner she figured it out the less bodies she would have bury.

“Aha!” She exclaimed loudly, having done something useful then for that feeling to be shut down when the radio that had been lying on the counter beside her lit up.

"I’m setting up another shipment of кролики *rabbits*-" The same man from earlier was interrupted by the blond.

“Don’t. I-..I’ve fixed this americano’s furry suit, h-he can not collect them for me..” Her voice full of worry not sure of how he will respond.

“Mm. I’m assuming нет *no* progress.. given your still needing кролики..you know as well as I..why we do what we do.” The radio turned off, Elizabeth’s elbows bent in such a way on the counter so her hands ran through her hair. I know . Her eyes and everything around her became blurry as small drops of water turned into tears.

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Chris had woken up now chained up on a wall that wasn’t to far from the woman, Chris noticed his cps was missing, then realized it was next to the blond woman …uh oh.. the activation button was hooked up with wires that were running everywhere- Elizabeth was visibly crying and looked stressed.

“Hey-..umm you ok?..” The younger Kratt had tried to ease the situation but ended making it worse, like always.

“No-…I-..here.” She started talking though the tears before standing up unplugging the wires and walked over handing him the suit, it was grayish now and looked like the first prototype Aviva cooked up.

“Don’t just sit there- try it on, it’s not going to bite.” Her voice shaky trying to hide the fact she had been crying with humor, though it was obvious.

Chris hesitated for a moment before reaching out and taking the suit, examined it then cautiously put it on and waited for some surge of energy to electrocute him instantly- but instead it did nothing good sign so far.

“Vell what are you waiting for?-“ Elizabeth was in a hurry, she was rushed her whole life and now she had to wait.

The brunet was hesitant as he slowly pressed the button..nothing..then bam a white flash almost blinded the blond woman standing next to him- a surge of energy rushed though his body well this is how I die, how Pathetic he though to himself.

Nevertheless he had awaken, now lying on the floor his eyes adjusted to the dim room thinking it was all a bad dream. He called out “Martin?..”

“Oh- good your awake..how do you feel кот?” Elizabeth excitedly asked the small white cat, Chris now realizing it wasn’t a dream thought to himself oh shit- I lived..I’m fucked aren’t I..wait I’m a oncilla?

“Кот?” She waved her hand in front of him trying to make sure she didn’t just electrocute a man.

“What?-“ The brunet answered still his mind was fuzzy, Elizabeth glanced over and smiled then with a press of a button the suit flashed again deactivating Chris.

“It works!-.. you may get some rest now.” The blond woman’s words firm but excited echoed throughout the younger Kratts head had he felt his legs give out beneath him.

Lately he found himself passed out on the floor, after the first night though he couldn’t be sure because there wasn’t a window anywhere in sight so he couldn’t really know how long he’d been in this hellish place- time faded as minuets became hours and hours turned into days.

The numb sensation he felt when passed out or just plain drugged was calming in such a way, so that the biologist could forget about everything around him, he had no reason to fear Elizabeth though previously he tried to Ecape which landed him behind her workspace- to his knowledge she hadn’t killed any animals yet.

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Martin on the other had silently cried himself to sleep every night since the incident after all he knew deep down it was his fault no matter what anyone says, on top of everything he still went out into the amazon despite Aviva orders desperately looking for the mysterious black jet.

Koki and Aviva had barley gotten any sleep in the past week, not only taking care of the older Kratt but desperately searching the internet for any clue to who this mysterious woman was, or any previous records of experimenting on animals that could be remotely related to her.

“I’m sorry..it’s m-m fault- I’m so sorry..” The older Kratt continued after he got back to the Tortuga, he had lately been doing this type of thing- over apologizing that is.

“Martin- it’s not your fault, it could have happened to anyone..” Koki chimed in trying to calm him down though it often proved to be more difficult.

“We will find him- together, it’s not your burden to bare alone..” Aviva now had her hands on his shoulders as she pulled him into a hug.

“Umm- I’m going to make pizza, any special requests” Jimmy attempted to redirect the conversation trying to ease some tension.

“No-..well just no fish” Martin replied in a choked voice, he had calmed down and stopped crying.

Sleepless nights became routine in the flying turtle by now, really anything could’ve happened by now. Unlike most villains who were easily able to be tracked it was strange how this random Russian girl managed to cover her tracks so well, unless she wasn’t alone.

Sooner or later the crew knew they had to take flight and began to search the skies- Given it was a jet and it could fly or at least it should be able to.

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Elizabeth had been weighting down formulas and surrounded herself with papers, deciding to take a break from the mess and come back with a new conscience later she wiped up some flash cards with letters of the Russian alphabet, for the americano of corse- she didn’t trust him yet to just run off but she felt bad for the poor thing.

“Americano,..you awake?” The blond woman now squatting In front of Chris with her hands behind her back holding the small pieces of paper with letter written on them asked.

“What do you want.” His annoyed voice clearly in agony, he just wanted to go home back to the Tortuga.

“I have a gift for you..” Elizabeth extend her hand which was holding the cards towards the younger Kratt signaling him to take it.

“What’s this-“ After a moment of hesitation he accepted it now flipping though the pile.

“Flash cards..to..um h-help you learn Russian, of corse if you want..” Her usually cocky and firm voice was now soft and shaky almost.

“Oh, um..thanks-“ Not sure of how to respond but having nothing else to do here decided to study the cards, he thought mabe this could be helpful given everyone around him spoke this foreign language.

Seeing the poor thing struggling to do remotely anything with the chains and mostly because she knew whatever happened, if he tried to kill her that she would be held responsible so with a snap of fingers and a point she yelled “боты, untie the americano.”

Chis shared a confused look with the blond woman who as a pair of bots were taking his chains off he began to stand, now realizing he was at least a cuple of inches taller than her he smiled,

“you know- I could kill you at any given moment”

“Oh please, if anything you would be doing me a favor-..” she caught her breath then decided to finish her joke, “I deserve every inch of pain inflicted on me, It’s my fault. I’ve let everyone down.” Realizing what she just said fearing she scared the American she avoided eye contact by continuing to bury herself in work.

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Martin hated more than anything keeping track of time, time since he left his younger brother to rot with the Russian- time since he last ate..slept..showered..anything really..

“None of the villains have done anything to endanger animals lately, it’s been over two weeks since we last had word on people dealing a large number of rabbits, or an population decline-” Koki gave a general report to Aviva who wore a worried face, now noticing Martin staring at the Tv the engineer tried to hide the fact it wasn’t looking great.

“If she still is experimenting with the rabbits now, it will be at least anouther week or so before she needs to refill..on the other hand she could use Chris to gather them..” Martin pondered trying his best to contribute, his brouther would know what to do if there positions were swapped.

“Why would he do that-..unless he was forced..”Aviva pondered for a moment before her face matched the white floor, “d-do you think it’s possible..that..s-she could hack the..cps..” She couldn’t think strait, to imagine the possibility was dreadful.

“It’s possible-“ koki was interrupted when Jimmy rushed into the main room claiming one of the wk kids spotted a creepy black jet flying towards France, Aviva pulled up the report giving Jimmy a nod the Tortuga pulled up and began the hunt.

“Hey- it’s going to be ok, we will find Chris” Aviva had been saying stuff like this the past two weeks when she knew Martin was worried usually she had her hands on his shoulders, she was hugging him, or just plain holding his hands.

“Hey..Aviva- umm we have a problem”The engineer nervously asked.

“Yeah- what is it?!” The brunet scientist frantically answered her voice growing with concern.

“One of the wk kids just reported seeing Gourmand rounding up parrots off the cost of Portugal-”koki hated being the one to deliver bad news, though that kinda was her job.

Aviva looked over at Martin waiting on his opinion, this was the first clue to getting Chris back in weeks, but they wouldn’t make it back in time before he cooked up some parrot soup..they had to make a choice..and quickly..

“Let’s get this over quickly-” Martin sighed knowing this might be his olny chance to find him, but decided to hide his tears so nobody including Gourmand could see his pain.

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Upon arriving to the scene of what seemed to be a failed science experiment Gourmand attempting to clean up the mess of pasta sauce while a flock of parrots swung at him, “Get off me!- Just go back to your little nests!”

Martin now noticing the eggs sitting in a basket behind him he joked, “need some help?”

“Wild Kratt’s!- er wild Kratt where’s the green one?” Gourmand now focusing on Martin noticed somthing was off he corrected himself while still being attacked.

“I think if you just returned the eggs they would go away-“ The older Kratt joked sarcastically avoiding the question.

“I’m starting to think rabbit stew would be better- but Elizabeth has been stelaing them lately..” gourmand replied trying to fight off the birds.

“..how do you know Elizabeth-..” Martins tone turned serious he was holding the chef by the collar on his shirt. The aquatic brouther’s mind was panicking yet he was so, angry.

“Woah- calm down I’ll tell you..Just help me get rid of these damn birds!” Gourmand managed to get out while still being attacked.

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Martin climbed up each tree while keeping a close eye to make sure the cook didn’t Escape, he kept thinking Chris is the climbing brother.. oh right he’s somewhere with that Mouther-fucking Russian..

“All done, now how do you know Elizabeth.” Hopefully this was a clue to finding his brother but he couldn’t be sure.

While continuing to clean up the spilled sauce he replied with his face focused on the counter, “About 2-3 moths ago somewhere in the Amazon, she was looking for “rabbits” and lost her jet, she had to have been lost for hours because she was hungry..” He struggled to continue.

“And?!-“ Martins panicked voice desperate to get some clues.

“Well I fed her some food I cooked, she was scared I thought it was from just being out there.. but no, she told me she was a scientist..and someone was looking for her s-she had to experiment on animals because if she didn’t many people would die-..that’s when I noticed her bloody stained hands..” The cook’s voice sounded panicked and scared he stoped cleaning and focused on the counter.

“That’s all?-“ Still trying to process the information, by this point Martin knew she wasn’t some low level, though now Elizabeth seemed to be some mad scientist much worse than his usual villains.

“..yea so..” Gourmand tried to cover up he was shook so he didn’t look so weak in front of the man he hated.

“Thanks-“ He had started walking out of the door then jumped on one of Aviva’s bug bikes and rushed back to relay this information.

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“So, France..it’s a big country-“ Koki had been talking when Martin ran though the doors his mind racing he quickly tried to inform the team.

“Gourmand said he met Elizabeth before!- She was lost and he fed her..then she told him the only reason she’s killing and experimenting on animals is because many people would die-..” The older Kratt talked fast trying to remember every detail it was obvious he was panicking.

It wasn’t supposed to happen like this he’s the older brother, it should be him who’s getting hurt not his younger brother Chris.

“What?!- Calm down, did he say whare he was when he met Elizabeth?” Aviva bounced off her chair and now had her hands on his shoulders, it pained her to see him so miserable.

“Two months ago, The Amazon Rainforest.” He calmed himself enough to answer her questions.

“So not recent..” She let go of his shoulders and started pacing, hand on her chin pondering.

“Wait- didn’t you mention she knew Donita?!” Jimmy practically blurted out, he had been listening in on the conversation.

“Yea-.. wait! Where is Donita right now.” Koki now pulling up a map of the villains last known locations replied, to there knowledge her bright pink jet was last seen near Bordeaux- a city in France

“Let’s go- maybe she has some clues to where Elizabeth is or is heading.” Aviva chimed in giving Jimmy the signal to lift off.

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Let’s just hope I don’t fuck up again, Elizabeth thought as she prepared a syringe hopefully this time she had her formulas right. The scientist went over the steps withdrawal the virus from its container, inject into the animal then withdrawal the “cure” and see if it works.

She began to inject various syringes into the small brownish animal when Chris looked up from his flash cards and focused on what she was doing, she wasn’t really going to do anything right?

Last step, inject the “cure”. It was obvious she was panicking, her hand shakily pressed the needle into the rabbit and waited

Nothing, now pressing against the animals neck No pulse

“дерьмо *shit*” the words escaped her lips, every scenario ran though her head getting caught in a panicked state she glanced at the now dead rabbit.

Chris creeped closer to the woman whose head was in her arms on the counter, he glanced at the animal what the actual fuck just happened.

Noticing footsteps she lifted her head picked up the limp rabbit and carried it to the closest door, grabbed a nearby shovel and left.

Talking his chance the younger Kratt observed the notes and formulas before noticing a small mistake, should I tell her? What if I do..?

A moment of silence before the blond woman walked slowly back in. “You americano- do you have a name?.” Pointing at Chris her eyes already forming tears, Elizabeth’s shaky voice asked.

“Chris..” concern was imminent in his voice, nothing could hide it.

Wiping her tears that fell onto her cheeks she then activated the man’s suit.

“Khris..can you please get me anouther rabbit, alive.” It wasn’t a question more like a demand. Not wanting upset the already broken woman if she kills animals, who knows what she will do to humans he headed for the door before she added “don’t do anything rash- I would hate for you to get hurt.”

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He lingered though the forest, it was different he wasn’t in the Amazon..why should I hunt animals… His thoughts were muted as the suit got into position upon seeing a rabbit stalk was his olny instinct. Kicked into a void unable to escape he could only wach as he hunted a small animal, the biologist wached as he slashed though its skin after he pounced. “what the fuck!..” His terrified voice spoke before blacking out.

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“That wasn’t supposed to happen-“ Elizabeth’s calm voice almost drowned out by the ringing in his ears, instead of collecting the animal he killed it.

Now looking down at his blood stained hands and open further inspection he noticed some brownish fur underneath his fingernails, his vision; still blurry cleared, he realized was covered in blood..his mouth especially stayed a blood red, though it wasn’t his own.

“Chris?..americano hello?..I’m going to try and help you ok-“ He was alive but the same couldn’t be said for what she assumed was a rabbit, one notion later two bots picked him up and carried him towards a enclosed room. There they held him over a sink while the blond woman helped wash his mouth and hands given he was unresponsive..

“What happened.” Now looking down at the woman cleaning his hands, the biologist looked at a unkept version of himself Martin wouldn’t approve- oh right he’s not here.

“I’m not sure, you came though the side door barley awake covered in blood and rabbit fur. Not to mention when I deactivated you- let’s just say it wasn’t for the faint of heart” She pointed to the scar on his arm then she snapped her fingers and the bots dropped him, lucky though he caught himself on the sink counter.

“Woah!-“ She stoped cleaning his hands and instead sat on the toilet lid next to the sink in the dimly lit room looking up at him as if he was some deranged monkey, then stood up now realizing he had a cupple of inches on her the scientist left the room.

Alone, still wearing this damn bloody suit. The younger Kratt washed his face hoping it was some dream that he hadn’t killed an animal his head ached now suddenly gaining a memory though the cracked mirror. His mind felt like it was playing tricks, he stared blankly at his reflection before blacking out.

Slashing though the animals tender skin it tried to fight but it was no use, tearing it limb for limb blood and guts spewed across the forest floor leaving nothing but pieces of what used to be a rabbit. When the suit was satisfied he left.

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“Chris- wake up! It’s ok you’re not a кот-…why is it allwase my fault…” The blond woman had practically shook the man awake, he had passed out in the bathroom shortly after she left

“Martin?…Koki?..Aviva-…” For a moment he forgot about the pain, where he was who he was with.

“They are not here, unfortunately I cannot just hand you back. Someday not to far from now I promise..I will fix this, fix everything I’ve done.”

The conversation had shifted to a calmer tone, she knew Иван would never forgive her if she just let Chris go, though she didn’t care if he forgave her. He would end up killing somebody close to the man which was far worse.

Her death would mean nothing, Иван would replace her within days and the americano most likely would be used for far worse than collecting animals.

“I-I remember..everything..” Chris managed though his tears. He remembered his brothers screaming before he disappeared, drowning in the days. slashing though the tender skin as blood dripped from his vest.

“I’m going to fix this.” She wrapped her arms around him then shut her eyes to keep the tears from falling, Chris on the other hand sat in the dim bathroom eyes open staring at the sealing while his tears rolled down his cheeks and onto his vest.

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[unohanabbygirl]

So from what i gathered litathesissy called corviids out over plagiarism in fanart (one of luke holding his oc kid) and a fic (a one shot of hers included a scene similar to another where Lucemond son goes into a rut and Aemond pulls him away from Lucerys who says "I'm his mother" to which he replies "And I'm your uncle"). Corviids responded by saying they remember reading the fic but it wasn't intentional though they could add it as inspiration if the authors reaches out (the author being grimsoul) and that not mentioning the original work the Luke art was based on was a mistake but that it was a forgotten piece that she posted randomly.

In the middle of this the acid rain author came out to say "now that lita is exposed as a bully, she said I'm a groomer but I've never given the minor smut scenes to beta and I didn't know they were a minor + lita says i write anon comments on her works except she blocked me on ao3 and i have her on mute" got flamed by many on twitter bc of saying that the grooming allegations are false and that it's "over a mistake of 2 days", others are saying the author knew and ignored warnings.

Also gybtm author apparently replied to the lita tweet to say "yeah corviids should've said it's inspired by grimsoul" and got OUTED then stepped back and said they haven't read the works of either sides after privating the fic for a bit (+ lita seemed to have other twt accs for drama and said to someone who told her you bullied people "and I'd do it again!") Lita and middle_c also deleted their entire accounts.

Anyways monkkeyslut posted an update on "All I had to give" saying she won't write anymore and is very much done with the fandom. The chapter has comments about the drama flaming corviids for how they're not exempt from dragging and it's all just??? Chill?

Ntbiutb author has an ask also summarising what happened and seems vindicated over lita but is very much mocking the "protecting the children" narrative against the acid rain author considering Elliot's face is often dragged into inappropriate conversations by Lucemonders.

Twitter is a dumpster fire, people are deactivating left and right, the fandom is imploding for the 8295th time this month, hope you're okay.

Oh my… that’s a lot.

I have to say that I’ve never been more happy with the decision to remain in my own little bubble. It also helps that i’m way lesser known among all the lucemond authors so there’s no pressure on my shoulders 😭

I just hope everything can come to a resolve soon. I’m not new to fandom so fighting amongst everyone isn’t new, but it never fails to make me a bit sad. This should be a fun/safe space for us, you know? But we’re all people with different views and personalities behind the screens so it makes sense for drama to go down sooner or later

Anyways, I’m more than fine anon! Thankfully no mean comments have been directed at me so I’m incredibly thankful to everyone here for being such sweethearts 🩷

[starsomens]

Anon from the group chat heere

That girlie deactivated the accs she had for Bad Omens but called me to say that even though she's not into them anymore we can still be friends 😶 ingl, I get an off vibe about this situation that she just doesn't like them anymore cause Noah was seen with someone but I like to think that I'm a sympathetic bitch so I'll try to talk to her and tell her what you answered, thank youu, Star💋💋💋

🧍🏽‍♀️🧍🏽‍♀️🧍🏽‍♀️

With respect and love: your friends mindset needs some adjustments:…

I’m gonna go in a little little bit of a rant here because that is just ridiculous. If you can’t handle this concept, I don’t even think you should be into band or finding new band with Mail members if you’re gonna act this way.

Listen, I’m more than happy to help and I feel like I gave you an appropriate answer. However, I have to say something about this because that is not only stupid. It’s ridiculous and immature because you see an artist that is around on the opposite. Gender you’re just gonna not like them anymore? That’s so fucking stupid, here’s my thing unless you dated this person and they did you dirty why the fuck do you care. Respectfully he’s not gonna date you the closest you’ll ever be to him is probably in VIP. Maybe he comes off stage and touches your hand but just because he was around a female artist, does not mean anything, because how does that affect your life personally????

Are you gonna go through a divorce? Are you gonna fight for custody of your kids? Are you going to die?? No!

This is why parasocial relationships are so toxic because you see what happens then the artist, you no longer like them you don’t like who they are as a person and you don’t like their music and it makes no fucking sense. grow the fuck up and be realistic.

You want Noah to be your boyfriend? Find someone who is close to him because we need to be realistic and logical. It’s not going to happen the closest thing you’ll get is someone who looks like him

I say this with love and care because this mentality will have such a bad effect on people ans their mindsets. my thing is everyone has gone through it at some point. I went through it when I was younger, but I’m over it. I still think Noah is attractive.

will I be slightly sad once he gets into relationship? sure, because I’m delusional and I think I’m gonna have my Wattspad moment where he looks at me from the stage and picks me from the crowd But it’s all in my head. I know where to draw the line

Noah would not notice me would he ask me out on a date or give me flowers in a crowd of 1000 people. please be realistic for your sake, and for other people sake, mainly your friends.

So, with all the love and care, please reevaluate your choices, and the way that you think about celebrities and artist🤎

As for you anon, you get an off vibe because it’s something so off that typically is a little weird due to this kind of jealousy kind of thing being towards an artist who doesn’t know half our existence…. but I’m glad I can be of help against this is not to degrade her or belittle her but to try and make some sense out of this because really it’s not healthy and it doesn’t make any sense but I hope all goes well

[nereidprinc3ss]

Wow u already got 4k!! I feel like this is a milestone that makes me realize how big ur gonna get. I found your acc a while back, and you actually replied to one of my asks ab ur masterlist being small lol. I hope u keep writing for as long as you can, and that the haters (if there are any) don't get to you. I've seen a few writers I really love either deactivate their acc, or stop writing all together bc of horrid ppl in their inbox. It's always a big loss bc they're extremely talented just like you!! I just wanna say that even though I send a bunch of asks on anon, I'll always support you and your writing. (Even if I don't like every post you make or every ask you respond to) Also ur really funny sometimes lol. Have a great week dude!!! 🫶🏾❣️💘💝💖💋💗💓💞💕❤️‍🔥❤️🩷🧡💛💚💙🩵💜🤎🖤🩶🤍👍🏾

hiiiii!! im assuming this is the 💿 person and the one who sent me the thing abt accidentally saying 4K instead of 2k??? I hope you’re all the same person

anyway THANK YOU LOVELY!!! thank you for the continued support and yes i remember that ask i think it was my first ask that wasn’t a request!!

honestly i have received very very little negative anything, for the most part ive just gotten a lot of love from an exceedingly kind community and who knows what the future holds but as of now i still love criminal minds i still love spencer reid and i LOVE LOVE tumblr like this is my life now so no plans of stopping yet!!

and thank you for thinking im funny i do try🙏🙏

[nalyra-dreaming]

I know exactly what LOUIS FANS tried to do with you yesterday... Louis fans did exactly the same with the most iconic and beloved iwtv fandom acc here, "amc-iwtv". She was being massively attacked by LOUIS FANS, because she's always discussing Louis flaws, nothing to do with race, when she decided to deactivate. Louis fans, not Lestat's (lol, how ironic), treated a black woman that way. I miss her.

Yeah I saw some of the shit that went down, but only after when she had already deactivated. I do hope she's around somewhere though. *hugs*

I did not always see it the same way as her, but the shit that went down was so out of the question it was.... IDK. You could only stare at it and shake your head.

As I hinted at in one of the asks yesterday I had some of the same mechanisms in comments on Ao3, too. The same... lets call it tactics.

And I must say it is such a shame? We get such a brilliant, layered, flawed and yet perfect black character, played by an actor of THIS FUCKING caliber. Jacob fucking Anderson was the reason why I gave this a shot, because I loved him in GoT, and the first teasers didn't capture the show at all?! (Imho)

(And we actually got the whole cast like that. Bailey, Assad, Sam, Eric - they are all so fucking brilliant?!)

Ugh. Harassment is simply a shit show, and never right.

I hope amc-iwtv does come back at some point, whether with that url or not doesn't matter. I just hope they didn't kill all the joy of it for her.

[daaydreamy]

Its been a really long time since the last time i checked her acc she also like recommended subrry oneshots ur writings where in that list too thats how i found ur acc

yeahh, she told me she was leaving before she deactivated :( she asked me to post all her writings though, which you can find in the tag #harry-is-my-little-spoon :)

[maiverie]

( ୨୧ ) ── ꒰ update ! ꒱

hi hi everyone !! just wanted to share a super quick update <3 i know this account hasn't been properly active in a month so i firstly wanted to apologise for the inactivity and also keep u all in the loop abt what i have planned in the future :>

( note : it's kinda late here so i'll answer asks tmr :0 <3 )

ㅤㅤ↳ the reason for my inactivity is quite multifactorial but boils down to a lack of motivation to write / be on tumblr + many commitments irl !! ive been working + studying a lot, which has kept me busy :(

ㅤㅤ↳ i don't have plans to deactivate this acc or anything so don't be concerned about that!! not that anyone would even care saslkddjsj just wanna put that out there!! i still very much have a passion for writing, though admittedly my motivation has taken a bit of a hit. nothing really to do with you guys / tumblr,,, i think i just have a tendency to overthink things and sometimes writing can be stressful when ur brain literally mf hates itself :’>

ㅤㅤ↳ a few months ago i reached a new milestone (4 digits!!! that is literally so effing slay IM CRYING) but didn't get the chance to say anything soooo THANK U ALL SOOO MUCHHHH AAAA im seriously in awe at that number because tbh i really don't feel like i've achieved much w this acc T_T sometimes im super embarrassed that my masterlist is so puny and i've only got the one completed fic,, but reaching such a cool milestone is more than enough for me to be utterly grateful. in saying that, i'm so so so sorry abt how horrible my updating schedule is :’’> i'll definitely try to work on it and be more consistent :( in the meantime, if anyone has any idea on like milestone ideas then pls pls pls lmk *-* <333

ㅤㅤ↳ anyways, if you're wondering what my plans are next, the first thing i want to do is update & finally complete triage !!! i have about 2-3k written so far but the final chapter will probably reach 7k+ (kms) :’’> i have sm wips i want to publish and start, but i probably won't do anything about them until my other ongoing fics (misconduct and doublespeak) are on a somewhat steady trajectory to getting finished (i.e. i have a good understanding of where they're headed).

ㅤㅤ↳ to any moots that are reading this (but tbh blr literally looks so dead that i wouldn't even be surprised if nobody sees / reads this HAHAHS), i will defs catch up on all ur updates <33 i really wanna be active again on this acc so ill probably be reaching out sometime soon to say hi :’>

ㅤㅤ↳ lastly, i noticed some people are recommending my fics and asldk;fjl;kjew im literally crying like it genuinely makes me so happy that people are even reading my shit like?? hello?? yall got some questionable ass taste but tysm for enjoying my fics :< i gen love yall sm u !! don't !! even !! know !! sooo yeah thank you so much for all the likes, comments, reblogs, recommendations, or any other sliver of interaction bc yall are the best and i love writing and i love enhypen and i love u all MWAH MWAH MWAH !! anyway i'm probably gna sleep now but tysm for reading this long ass post aksjjadjss ill answer asks tmr!!!

ㅤㅤ— lots and lots of luv from mai <333

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[forestspoonie]

Hi! So I saw a post from idk how long ago saying you were roommates with maybecowboycore? (Bc I went down a rabbit hole it’s a. Long story.) I originally tried to find their acc bc of this one amazing piece of writing I found but I could not find their acc :’) so I suspect they deleted it or changed their handle :’D you wouldn’t happen to know if they have an acc where they post writing stuff still? (Only if your ok with me asking of course! If they’ve deactivated due to personal reasons i won’t pry any further!) hope you have a nice day/night!

hiya! they did end up deleting their tumblr account, and dont have a place where they are posting writing publicly. thank you for thinking of them though! we're still living together (and are dating now), and we're doing great :)

[seijch]

ANNOUNCEMENT: NOT A HELLO, BUT NOT A GOODBYE EITHER

omg hi ... im like . ashamed to come back after saying brief hiatus in october and then disappearing off the face of the earth til FEBRUARY but under the cut i will be explaining myself and the following, if youre interested (and a tl;dr at the very bottom if you don’t wanna scroll thru this obnoxiously long post):

the reason(s) i was gone for so long

what i was doing during that time (its just a personal account yall can scroll past this idrc)

the status of those um . halloween requests

the future of this account

i. so . Hiatus .

i know. i know . i probably mentioned it when i made the announcement post, but my mental health likes to go on one of those rides. yknow the ones where you go like up rlly fast then down maybe and then up then DOWN .... its like that. i needed a break and every time i wanted to come back or thought about it, something would happen and i would get stuck in my own head.

a big reason for getting stuck in my head was (and i hate to admit this ... i hate to admit that i have Insecurities On The Internet) my feelings of inadequacy regarding my writing. i love to plot fics, i love concepts and characters and making little headcanons but i dont ... know if i love writing rn. and i thought for the longest time that like . whatever ill just push thru it its fine ill be fine but it kinda wasnt lmao you can kinda see it in my halloween reqs and what become of them when i get to that but i began to feel like nothing i had put out or would put out would hold up prose wise (and normally i dont feel like this im much more “idc its my life im living it” but thats not a rant for tumblr LMAO). i still feel like that -- like im better as a reader than a writer. but . You Know :-)

tl;dr: mental state go brrrrr

ii. anywhere here’s wonderwall

when i left, i was in a steadily decreasing mental and emotional state, made worse by a situation at work that really was a case of petty jealousy on my end and rlly isnt very consequential now despite how much pain and resentment it gave me when it Was a problem so i wont get into it. the tl;dr of november and december was me using work as an crutch and distraction -- i know my job, i do it well, it helped me not think about my responsibilities and obligations and inadequacies. of course, as the holiday season grew busier n busier i was scheduled so often that i moved 88 or so miles (according to my apple watch, which i ONLY wear at work since im never anywhere else outside my house) and fell into a cycle of showering n sleeping at my house before going back the next day. (theres definitely something to be said abt capitalism and “grind culture” here but once again its not the time or place snsjkdfds)

at the turn of the new year, i happened to remember a birthday card i hadnt filed away for safekeeping from a friend of mine that id been horribly out of touch with til that point. i started crying because i realized how out of touch id been in general up until that point. the month of january was great for me: i was focused, happy, and in a much better place than i had been before. the end of it brought me down focus wise and im hoping that enough time away from my distractions will refocus me bc i ... need it LMAO and though ive burned out from that level of productivity and gotten distracted again im ... trying to stay positive which i think is the most i can do 😁👍🏼

media wise, i got real into stardew valley (but burned out bc i played it extensively as a way to wind down after work), the pokemon platinum romhack renegade platinum (still havent finished it bc of school n i played it w the intent to see if i could nuzlocke it ... bitch its so hard but its so fun bc of it), briefly assassins creed: odyssey (im one of those ppl who completes an entire region before i move to the next so you can tell i burned out of that one + wouldnt have the time to properly devote to it even if i didnt), got back into genshin impact after pulling for xiao (after not touching it for like . months), and danganronpa. yes . danganronpa 😐 i Know. i stopped playing it after the second trial of the first game bc i was so hurt by the outcome and picked it up in late january only to get sucked in (thank god i had the foresight to buy the second and third games during the steam winter sale). rn im at the start of chapter 4 if anyone wants to come in my asks and um . talk to me abt danganronpa

tl;dr: I’m Into Danganronpa Now

iii. you realize halloween was three months ago right

i mentioned this in the first section, but i love to plot things. every request is plotted or at least has a solid foundation. i had fun detailing what concept i wanted to go with considering what i was given, and there were some bangers i might touch up in the future. but heres whats going to happen to the requests themselves:

there are two finished requests. one will be posted tomorrow and the other will be touched up (just bc i finished it doesnt mean its good 🧍‍♂️) and scheduled for next saturday. as for the ones i never got around to ...

i will not be finishing those requests. i hate to be That Person, but i feel like we all expected this 🧍‍♂️ what i will do is post all of my notes for each request in batches -- requests that have an @ to go with them will be mentioned in the post proper, but anon asks will be pictured. (there are some asks that came from blogs who are now deactivated but i wrote down all the prompts and remember most of those askers so ill cross that bridge when i get there) there will most likely be an excerpt or two simply bc i think i mightve written a few plot points or interactions in the form of bullet points. i rlly am sorry about doing this but i remember looking at my notion doc with all the prompts and feeling ... like i wasnt measuring up n it wasnt just to myself or to some intangible concept of “other” id constructed but it was instead to those who requested n actually WANTED to see and hear and read my writing and i ...... im gonna admit thats another big reason i avoided this site.

regardless, youll definitely get what i have (and likely more than just my bullet points and illegible handwriting).

tl;dr: im sorry. what i have in terms of plot, concept, and interaction for every request will be posted, but i cant say ill ever complete them and mean it.

iv. so what now?

well i mean . im not entirely sure how sold i am on haikyuu in the content creation department (as a creator n to a lesser extent, as a consumer). as mentioned previously, its no longer my primary focus. it doesnt mean im not into haikyuu anymore; i have a lot of love for those boys but i cant rlly say im even caught up w recent fandom activity and also havent even finished s4 pt2 LMAO thats on my to do list

and despite all that, i still want to share my plots n concepts and snippets and maybe even fics. it wont happen anytime soon. it might not even happen. but i mean . its better than me saying i wont write ever again shjdkfs but either way ill probably use this blog as a personal blog w the occasional ask game for dialogue prompts (those are always so fun i love making up aus to fit like . the most mundane prompts)

as for my works (past and any potential future), ive opened an ao3 acc here n ill be editing n possibly expanding on my old works to post there. tumblr, to me, is The x reader hub, but i figure more x reader fics on ao3 is never a bad thing.

ill be deleting/posting drafted posts to the queue since they were all meant to be queued anyway as well as (sorry again 🧍‍♂️) deleting or answering asks in the inbox. (moots if you get a notif from me saying i rbed your post from months ago ... mind your business) im very hard to get ahold of and its ... a problem. expect an overhaul of the nav n shit to reflect my new direction n also because i feel like i cant tell if my passion for carrd is shared by the majority HSDKLFS maybe its better to read my info in a normal post ykwim .......

and of course . if youve read all this n decided im no longer worth the follow, i sure as hell cant stop you. thank you for wanting to, at some point, hear what i have to say -- it means more than you think.

tl;dr: writing will be edited and reposted to ao3, this blog will be a personal blog with a hint of writing (sometimes)

the tl;dr to end all tl;drs:

im back! i wont be as active as i used to due to a lessened interest in haikyuu in general, but i have an ao3 acc now where all my past work will be edited, possibly expanded, and reposted. any future work will also find itself there. my halloween requests will be posted in batches as incomplete concepts, plots, and snippets of scenes; i wont be promising to finish any of them.

there are still fic concepts im attached to and want to finish, but i cant promise any more writing on my end. this blog will be a personal blog with maybe writing, not a writing blog with my personal thoughts all over it.

regardless if you stick around or not, its been crazy sexy cool (equal emphasis) being on haikyuu tumblr even tho i wasnt around for long ... even tho its not my main focus anymore, im still excited to see what the future might hold 🤝

love, ari 💌

[theartofmining]

:((( sorryyyyy i deactivated my old tumblr impulsively and now im trying to refollow all my old mutualss and until i fix this acc i dont wanna send asks off anon (I MISSED YOU TOO i was like D: bc i didnt see your antics with cai on the dash :((( im back now emme just fic my account lol) - azzie

Ooooo yeah ive impulsively deactivated accounts before n then been kike :(( oh ,, thats how i ended up here though!!! i fee weeks before i made this blog i deactivated one i had for years n years >:]

[politicallycorrectinnocentteen]

Payback (Part 1 of 2)

Title – Payback (Part 1 of 2)

Summary –  What are the things we pay back? Money ? Revenge? Love?

“Taken aback, she noticed at his face. His face was sweating, slightly red…tensed and hesitating.

Oh no…

She had read about it. She had read about this infamous love triangle everywhere! On fanfictions, on tumblr, on tacebook, on toogle – everywhere! These…these signs were clear. Before destiny could reveal what it wrote for them, Danni already knew what is going to happen. Something which she did not - but should have - expected, has happened.

No…Really?

She froze as she saw Parker closing in the distance between their faces”

Pairing : ?????? x ????? x ?????

 Words – ~1100

 Hey lovelies <3 , dont forget to comment if you like it :D

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 Danni groaned as the grey clouds roared above her head. It was Vance’s birthday and there she was – almost running late and dead tired. Why, you may ask? After all, what is there which could drive The Queen, Danni Asturias, to the edge?

It was very common knowledge on how much Vance loved – or rather worshipped chocolates. In the town next door, they suddenly started selling some new variety of chocolates, which soon became the talk of Pine Springs. The customers at Compass Café, her colleagues taking a piece and moaning in pleasure till eternity – that’s when she decided to march off to her co-workers and snatch a piece to taste herself. They already hated her, so there was nothing at all to lose. And man! The way the chocolate just melted in her mouth with the sweet, thick chocolaty flavor drove her to bliss.

She had to get those for Vance. Even if it meant waking up at 4:30 am in the morning, or jogging for over 10 km to the town next door, or waiting for another hour hungry for the store to open, or fighting the crowd like the Legendary Courtesans of Rome in Arena, or running back hungry to Vance’s place so she does not miss anything out – even at the risk of getting perfectly drenched in rain.

But it will be so, so, so worth it.

She stared at her present, neatly gift-wrapped in an heart shaped box. Just imagining the chocolaty flavour-

GRRRRRRRUMPPPPPPPPP

She was distracted by the sharp grumble in her stomach. With a new determination of reaching Vance’s house – to get both Vance’s heart and good food, she increased her pace. And that’s exactly when a familiar jeep drove past her and stopped in front of her.

“Parker?!” Danni gasped, instantly narrowing her eyes in suspicion.

“Danni?!” Parker gasped in return, “Did not expect to find you here out of all places.” He then gave her than fucking smug and confident smile, which boiled her blood till the very last drop. “I thought you’d be already at the party.”

“That’s rich coming from you.” Danni glared at her, and he instantly raised his hands in surrender.

“You know, I heard about some divine chocolates being sold in this town, and thought they’d be perfect for Vance-“

Aha! Her suspicion was correct!

“But they went out of stock! I was waiting since afternoon!” Parker cried. “Can you imagine that? Since afternoon!”

Rookie. Danni smugly thought.  

“…Whats that in your hands though?”

Danni yelped in surprise as she was pulled back to reality. She didn’t notice when Parker came in and stood just in front of her, eyeing the present of hers.

“This is heaven.” Danni smiled, “ The divine bliss God created only for the most fortunate creation’s of his-“

“These are those special chocolates, right?”

“….Yes”

Danni nodded, and then turned up to look smugly at Parker.

“The same chocolates you failed to get for Vance.” She chirped, “He’d be so happy to see them” She put a finger on her chin, as if thinking, “And he’d probably blast out of happiness when he taste’s them-“

“How did you get those?”

“Because,” Danni rolled her eyes as if stating the most obvious universal fact in the world, “I was waiting in the queue since morning. Morning 7 AM.”

“Oh…I see.”

That was not a response Danni was expecting. She thought Parker would get frustrated, tensed, worried, kick his jeep in frustration and probably puncture it being the moron he was, scream, cry, beg her to give him chocolates – or anything which was Parker’ish.

But perhaps…perhaps he was got a grain of wisdom in that thickhead of his’ ? Perhaps he did realize that Danni is the perfect one for Vance and not him? Perhaps he admitted defeat?

“How much did they cost you though?” Parker asked.

Danni’s eyes immediately narrowed in suspicion.

“Hey! I-I am just asking…” he trailed off, “They seem pretty expensive…”

“Obviously!” Danni smirked, “A hundred dollars!”

“And if we, hypothetically,” he stressed, “ order them from Pine Springs, then it’d be at least 20 dollars for delivery…?”

Danni struggled to stifle a laughter.

“Twenty? More life fifty!” Danni laughed, “And forget getting chocolates delivered to Pine Springs Officer Buzzkill,” She smugly smiled, “Because they are all out of stock.”

Parker bit his lip in thought.

A minute passed by, then another, and another. Another sharp pain at her tummy reminded her of her unpleasant situation. And that Officer Moron standing there like a statue did not help her either. Thats when her attention fell to the lively, rumbling jeep.

Its just a twenty minute journey to Vance’s house on it…

Now she bit her lip.

“Parker…”  she said. Heck, she never thought she’d see such desperate times.

“Huh…?”

“You’re going to Vance right?”

“Yes...”

“Would you mind giving me a lift?”

She tried to give her best bestestestest-friend smile to him... It did not seem to work. 

Parker seemed in another world again, thinking of God knows what.

She waited, tapping her foot impatiently. She waited…waited….waited…AND waited…and when she felt she could wait no more…she waited still….and then even more…and more.

Finally, when the last straw of her patience fell out, when she was about to burst like an erupting volcano on our poor Parker, he held her by the arms.

Taken aback, she noticed at his face. His face was sweating, slightly red…tensed and hesitating.

Oh no…

She had read about it. She had read about this infamous love triangle everywhere! On fanfictions, on tumblr, on tacebook, on toogle – everywhere! These…these signs were clear. Before destiny could reveal what it wrote for them, she already knew what is going to happen. Something which she did not - but should have - expected, has happened.

No…Really?

She froze as she saw Parker closing in the distance between their faces, his luscious lips going to her ear.

Oh no…this is the moment!

He is going to say those three words to her. He is going to confess to her.

No...what…how?

She never thought of him like that. He was more like a friend, and a competitor to her. But that’s also where love sprouted at, in all the fanfictions she read-

She could feel Parker’s breath falling on her neck as his enormous, studdy and muscular frame covered her like a cloud covering the sun.

She felt him pass something to her hand. Something…paper’ish

A love note?

Frozen in shock, her heart threatened to beat out of her chest.

Why was it thumping that way?

What was she feeling?

The little feelings she could mutter in her heart were that of sorrow. She felt sorry for Parker because they both know how much she loved Vance.

She felt a jolt run down her heart as Parker’s lips opened to say something. But fate was already sealed. She had already played this scenario a thousand times in her head, and in each time she could see herself with only Vance and no one el-

“Sorry.”

Wait WHAT?

She felt a heavy tug and the next thing she knew was that Parker snatched the chocolates from her and was now driving his jeep to Vance’s house.

Dumbstruck, she looked at the paper he gave her. One fifty dollars. He stole those chocolates for a hundred and fifty dollars. And he did not give her lift either…

…

…

…

“PARKER YOU SON OF B*@!#”

Her shout cracked through the loud thunder, which was immediately followed by a torrential downpour of rain.

Parker is going to pay. He is going to pay with his dear life…

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Tags - @brightpinkpeppercorn , @bhavf @pixieferry @scrappysheep (I miss you since you deactivated your acc </3) @hotchocolatelovesyou @fluffy-cat-whisper @strangerofbraidwood @strangelycami @sherjules

[airkingasparagus]

I need to be honest, when people ask for those stories about a girl not being able to defend herself or rape or anything like that, it feels like they’re doing it on purpose. You’ve said multiple times that you WILL NOT write about it and people still ask. It bothers me and I’m not even the one who gets asked.

i understand that it’s frustrating. it sucks knowing some people still want those imagines because no matter what, even if the blogger chooses to write it, they know it’s bad because those imagines are always met with (generally) less than positive reviews. if i’m honest, i don’t care at all when writers who wrote rape reqs deactivate. that’s what they should do if they’re not willing to take feedback as a learning opportunity. 

but i suppose i can see how people wouldn’t know i don’t write those requests: lots of outsiders blogs do, i guess it would make sense to assume i would write them just based on the sheer amount of authors who would. but then on the other hand, there should never be any assumption that one can just come into someone else’s inbox and start talking about their disgusting and harmful rape kink.

i have a hard time with it because when people request rape, they show a complete lack of empathy towards me. you guys know nothing about me. maybe you know my name, my outsiders opinions, what i look like, or my age, but you know nothing about my personal life or the struggles i’ve been through. people who request rape hurt a lot of people, but i would argue they hurt the authors the most because they don’t know if or how we’ve been affected by rape in our lives. it also goes to say authors don’t get trigger warnings for asks- they just show up.

when the abuse request showed up in my inbox a few months ago, even though i put ‘abuse tw’ in the tags, someone messaged me on my outsiders insta account. i had to stay up very late to make sure she was okay, because i was genuinely worried she was going to hurt herself over the request.she couldn’t wrap her head around why someone would request something that exploited her trauma, not pain, trauma, like that. in what world is that okay? and, on this acc and my other imagine acc, when i reject rape/abuse requests, i always get dm’s from people thanking me for not writing them. in those messages, i often get a number of years it’s been since they were raped or assaulted, and how people requesting those shitty shitty ideas are the ones that hurt them the most. it’s the people who operate the the disguise of caring you have to watch out for. 

thank you for messaging me, because now when i get requests along those lines, i’ll just delete them so none of you have to see them. i’m sorry i didn’t do that earlier. i hope you’re okay, and i really appreciate this message. stay safe.

[mostlycompetentwriter]

hi! sorry to bother you but i was trying to find the post “hedonism” by popisdead on tumblr but turns out their acc is deactivated. i remember that you had reposted it a bit ago so i was wondering if you knew anything? i also saw that they moved to ao3 but i’ve tried looking for the post on there and couldn’t find anything :( if you know anything about where to find it or if it is still on the internet lmk pls! sorry again for bothering you or if asking this has made you uncomfortable that was not my intention i send my many apologies 🫶

Hi! It’s been a while since I heard about that account. Unfortunately, I’m not really sure what happened, and I wouldn’t know how to find that particular story. I do remember it, though, and I wish I could be of more help 🥺

[timextoxhajima]

HI DANA I'VE MISSED U SO MUCH😭😭

god i really came back to so much new stuff from u😭😭😭 I'VE BEEN VERY BUSY PREPARING FOR MY THESIS AND MY ABROAD YEAR PREPARATION NOW (literally writing this in the middle of finishing another nasty paper i need to do) SORRY I CANT BE AROUND SO OFTEN😭😭😭 i saw that post of yours and omg im this 👌 close to just sending u a message SO WE CAN BE ACTUAL FRIENDS

anw i wanted to tell you this so much so,,, i actually started writing too🥺 (idk it just become one of my coping mechanism with the amount of stress and pressure i've been getting) i would literally write them in my car on my way somewhere or just in the middle of waiting for something, and i wanted to tell you this because idk your writings always brings so much idea into my head so i've been trying to put it out into real words, so thank YOU for helping me find a new hobby that i could turn to as a coping mechanism when things become hard!❤️

i actually do post them on tumblr (just so i wont lose them) so i would actually creep in ur acc everytime i happens to open tumblr to post something but i really havent had the time to read any of your posts yet even though i've been dying to do so BUT IM VERY DETERMINED TO READ THAT JUYEON SERIES AND RACER HYUNJAE SMUT BY THIS WEEK! (hopefully😭😭)

ANDD this is so late but i'm also so glad that you are back on tumblr!! i know this is a very late welcome back message but welcome back dana!! how about u!!! how have you been? i really hope you've been well ❤️❤️ - 🍋🍋

omg get out IT'S MY LEMON ANON EHSJDJSKJD udk how i live in fear everyday worrying about my anons deactivating or going off tumblr and me never actually getting to know them... i started tumblr and shifted away from aff for the sole purpose of being closer to my readers, not knowing that having anons was a thing and yet now i wake up worrying about my anons disappearing 🥺

udk how happy i was to see you in my ask box cause all i saw was HI DANA I MISSED YOU SO MUCH in my notifs and i was alr hoping it was you, i didnt even read the middle and just scrolled down to see if it was signed off by you 🥺🥺🥺🥺

First and foremost, thank you for taking the time to send this in despite all the work you have to do! You sound so packed and so... busy that i almost feel like i shouldnt be taking up your time omo and im actually very surprised that alot of my anons saw that post about the tumblr hug /crying ugly tears/

Also please dont feel the pressure to reveal yourself! tumblr's anon function is meant to protect yourself and so if you are uncomfy with revealing your blog that's totes fine, i just hope that my anons will tell me if they were gonna deactivate, at least i can say goodbye or smth idk

I'm so proud of you for starting to write for yourself! I'm nothing but honored to have... facilitated you beginning to write and i'm just... i'm in awe at how dedicated you are to making sure you know what's best for you and finding out what keeps you happy and healthy (both mentally and physically)

My posts are in a MESS now, ive recently been dragged into the enhypen circle but as you already know i'm still actively writing for the groups im stanning uwu 👁👁

i'm actually really happy to be back on tumblr after a whole sem. The sem was a shitshow and lots of things happened and so tumblr really was my route for escape when the sem finally wrapped up and i moved home from sch and had time to myself. It's been rough, recovering from all the mishaps in the semester, cleaning up all the shit i left behind w people i've decided to cut off contact with and etc. BUT i've gotten alot more vocal and daring ? To make friends here so that's really nice, to have a community back my ass up or at least be around when i need them. I've made so many new friends and some of them ive exchanged personals with, it feels like a fever dream and i dont know if i can bear to leave if the time comes.

That being said, how are you? have your works been helping you organise youe thoughts and feelings since you said they were your coping mechanism? are you taking care of yourself?

I'll alw be here for you to talk to, even when im inactive for posts, my dm/ask box will ALWAYS be open love 💞 welcome (partial) back, and i hope you meet you soon!!!