#how in act one there was NO intention for cuddling or morning after talk or anything in starrys mind

[utterdrip]

thinking about how after the first time you have sex with astarion, your player can ask,

“not staying for a cuddle?”

and how in act 2, if durge romanced astarion and they wake him, he asks,

“looking for a cuddle?”

[barcaatthemoon]

good enough ii || alanna kennedy x reader ||

you and mackenzie talk things out.

part 1

alanna's phone call had come first thing in the morning. you had spent your night catching up with the last bits of your schoolwork. it wasn't your ideal night at all, but you were glad to know that there was nothing else for you to worry about for the rest of the school year aside from a couple of exams at the end of the month.

alanna would be glad to hear that. she hated having to share her time with you and your schooling. it made her proud that despite the fact that you could just coast along as an influencer that you still worked hard to get your degree. even if it did take up a lot of time that she wanted to spend with both of your focuses solely directed towards each other.

"how did you sleep?" alanna asked you. she invited you over with the intention to make you breakfast. mackenzie was passed out in the hallway, as if she had attempted to go to alanna's room, but didn't quite make it. you noticed the way your girlfriend's body felt a little stiffer and wondered if she had joined mackenzie on the floor.

"okay. i had a bit of a late night finishing up assignments, but i'm all done now," you told her. alanna smiled as she leaned down to press a kiss to your cheek. "how was your night?"

"we argued, made up, drank, fought some more, and i guess cuddled on the floor. macca called kirsty at some point last night, which was not fun to sit through. whenever she wakes up, she's got something to tell you," alanna told you. she sounded very serious, which you weren't used to at all. the blonde rarely took anything so seriously, which kind of threw you off a bit.

"i haven't caused problems, have i?" you asked. alanna could hear the fear in your voice and was quick to reassure you that any problems weren't your fault.

"no, of course not. some people just don't know how to pull their heads out of their asses." alanna spoke softly, despite the small bite in her voice. you turned away from the eggs in front of you to give her a quick peck on the lips. alanna whined a little as you moved away from her.

"not now, i don't want to burn breakfast," you told her. alanna pouted, but moved around the kitchen to help where she could. she took great delight in using the blender to make some smoothies for the three of you. you knew that one was just to give mackenzie a harsh wake up, no doubt knowing that the woman would be hungover.

you had expected mackenzie to come shuffling into the kitchen, not for her to tackle alanna onto the ground. you watched as the two of them rolled around the kitchen floor, finally breaking it up after a couple of minutes. you were quick to reach down and pull alanna back as she tried to wrestle mackenzie into a chokehold.

"this isn't helping," you told her. alanna gave you a sheepish look as she grabbed the plates you had set out and placed them at the table. "thank you."

"sorry," alanna mumbled quietly. mackenzie glanced between the two of them before making a subtle whipping motion at alanna. "ahem."

"i'm getting there. let me wake up a bit first, fuck's sake," mackenzie said as she leaned against the counter. she took a moment to sort her mind out before she turned towards you. "i am sorry for acting like a cunt yesterday. i shouldn't have judged you so quickly, and it is very obvious that you're good for alanna. it's really sweet that you both love each other so much, even if she's acting like a fucking sap all the time."

"thank you for apologizing." you didn't really know what else to say, so you followed alanna into the dining room. it was a bit tense for a while, but alanna was quick to make the two of you talk to each other. you were still understandably apprehensive about mackenzie, but by the time that mackenzie had to leave, you did feel sad about that.

alanna seemed relieved when mackenzie left. she immediately pulled you into her arms as the two of you settled back on the couch. you knew that aside from games and training, the two of you weren't leaving alanna's apartment for the week. she loved getting to spend time with her friends, but that was a mere afterthought whenever she got into one of her clingier moods.

"i am so sorry for noticing earlier," alanna apologized. you were sick of apologies and just wanted to put yesterday behind you. "i should have been paying more attention. if i had known, it never would have gotten that bad."

"you don't have to always be paying attention to me. i am a big girl, i can handle my own problems sometimes," you reminded her. alanna huffed as she shifted on the couch, the new position making it hard for either of you to look anywhere else. "you don't let me solve all of your problems for you. i just have to trust that you'll come to me when you need help."

"you don't think that i don't trust you, do you?" alanna asked. you shook your head. you knew that alanna trusted you. at times, you thought alanna could be a bit too trusting, but it was part of why you loved her. she kept herself well guarded, but the moment that someone slipped through, her walls came crashing down. "because i love and trust you so much, more than anybody else in the whole world."

"i know that you do. i know that you just want to protect me, but some things i need to learn to handle on my own. i know we're keeping this private right now, one day, people will know and i don't want there to be any doubts that i can't stand up on my own." alanna let out a small sigh at your words, but she understood. it would be a slow process, but you knew that eventually, you'd learn not to depend on her so much.

[the-fo0l]

Micheal Scofield dating hcs

notes: it's criminal crazy kooky insane how little content there is for this show

warnings: gn reader, s1 lore, super soft fluff!!!! also idc if u think its out of charater let me be delulu

he's so babygirl

a very devoted boyfriend (im pretty sure i say that in all my hcs but its true!!)

just so soft and polite and gentle with you aaaaa

doesn't notice just how hard he's fallen for you until he has to be apart from you a long while

such a gentleman, his intentions towards you are always respectful

before you we're offical he had quite the crush on you

sometimes you could notice that cool, calm, witty demeanor of his becoming more bashful and jittery around you

daydreamed a lot about you and your potential future together. what it'd be like to live with you, to start the day by your side, how you'd show affection, how you'd express diffrent emotions, what you'd talk about, your niche interests and quirks— etc

slightly creepy but he did do a bit of research on you to make sure he hit it off with you as best as he could

always says good night and good morning, over text if not in person

just imagine waking up, still cuddling, but with a little distance so he can properly take in your sleepy morning face

him just gazing at you so lovingly, his gentle smile growing a little bigger seeing you open your eyes, then moving one hand from your waist to caress your cheek and murmur "good morning" with his sultry morning voice

GOOD LORDDD

he developed a new-found love for his job when you two started dating cause thanks to it he can properly provide for you

and provide he does

doesn't think you should have to work a day in your life (unless you wanted to)

he'd hate for you to stay at a job you're miserable at

super proud of you for all your accomplishments

when you have to seperate while walking to avoid something in the street, be immediately reaches back to interwine your fingers again

expresses all love languages in some way but 'acts of service' is his main one

amazing at gift giving and romantic gestures

just when you think he can't possibly out-do last year's anniversary/birthday gift he suprises you with something super elaborate and meaningful

absent-mindedly makes origami flowers for you at work. you'll also find them all over your apartment, some hidden, some in plain sight

at some point he started writing messages on them. some with the most loving praise you've ever heard and some w cheesy pickup lines

p.s. he grins ear to ear when he finds out you've got a special box for them all instead of throwing them away

when you're both still a little tired in the morning, or when either of you comes home after a long day, he peppers delicate kisses all over your face, ending with a deeper kiss to your lips

your touch just makes all the headaches of his day-to-day melt away

also takes both your hands and kisses your knuckles while looking at you with all the love and admiration in the world god lord

okay enough with the kissing!

always opens doors for you

compliments you often, and always uses words like stunning or beautiful instead of "hot

loves making you flustered with praise

he's an amazing listener, and he looooves listening to you talk

also, he's quite intense with the eye-contact

he thinks you're the most gorgeos person in the world what can i say

it might seem like he's not paying attention sometimes cause of how lost-in-your-eyes he seems but i assure you he remembers every little thing you say

nods along and hums a little to let you know he's listening

"i remember you said you liked this, so i got it for you" typa guy

you're happy = he's happy

will often sometimes call you to talk about nothing really important, more just for the sake of hearing your voice

and if you're not much of a talker that's fine too, the silent moments you share are never awkward

he's canonically super observant, so if you changed anything about your apperance or if you were in a bad mood he'd notice right away, even if you tried to hide it

great at comfort too, that silky-smooth voice of his knows exactly what to say

he's a very handsome guy (i mean cmon just look at him) so he tends to get hit-on quite a bit

he'd always brushed it off before but ever since he set his sights on you he's been very adamant on very clearly and quickly rejecting others' attempts

when he was making plans to break linc out of prison, a huge amount of his focus went to making sure you were kept safe during the whole process

having you be there from him after news broke and after linc got the death sentence already meant so much to him

so when he trusted you the broad strokes of his plan, and you supported him??? ohmygod this man fell in love with you all over again

yes, he was worried, but he had to tell you, spending days obsessing over prison schematics and getting full body tattoos is rather hard to hide from the love of your life after all

granted, he could have broken up with you and tried to rekindle after he'd escaped, but be fr he could never bring himself to dump you

you never know what may go wrong, and his love for you wasn't exactly a secret, so he took every precaution he could (as in like if someone wanted to harm you cause of your association with him)

he was still super anxious to let go of you

gave you the most passionate and desperate kiss before he went to prison

gets really really homesick for you

calls you whenever he can

would sometimes get teary-eyed from how hard he misses you before falling asleep in his bunk

would lose his mind if something didn't go according to his carefully constructed plan and put you at risk, cause there's not much he can do to control what happens outside foxriver. if t-bag ever found out about you he'd. freak. out.

he's willing to go to great lengths for the people he cares about (it's like the whole plot of the show), so you'd better not play w his beloved

on the rare occasions he has down-time in prison his thoughts always go to you and what you might be up to

he's surrounded by murderers daily and has the gall to be worried about you

sucre would pester him about his love-life a lot. insisting that he recognized yearning in michael's distant expression and saying that no single man could've helped him woo maricruz with that letter (michael writes love letters for you too)

sucre does eventually pull it out of michael and becomes just the biggest supporter of your relationship

this was kinda messy huh

[confusedemiposts]

Chuuya sfw alphabet

Notes: Requested by Anon but i accidentally deleted the ask.

Tags: Floof, tiny angst for E,D and W. Not proofread, might be oc, GN! reader

'A' is for Affection (How affectionate are they?)

He's very affectionate, he'll spend any time he can with you and buy you a bunch of gifts, he loves seeing your face light up when he suprised you with a gift, a grin on his own face from your reaction. But his favourite is physical touch. He loves it but he keeps it to a minimum in public, he always has a hand on you no matter what and keep his arm around your waist but nothing too much, only one or two short brief kisses if deemed appropriate, this is even less within the Port Mafia because he wants to keep serious and not seem like some lovesick puppy by his subordinates.

But once in private space? He'll smoother your face In kisses and keep you in his arms for as long as he can

'B' is for Best Friend (What would they be like as a best friend?)

He's litterly such a nice and calm person canonically but only acts like an annoyed hot headed chihuahua to Dazai cause he annoys the shit out of him but also trusts him, so unless you annoy him like Dazai then he's the most loyal and trustworthy friend you can find and he loves hanging out with you. I feel like he's the type of friend to beat the shit out of someone who wronged you and offer to buy all your things and even if you say no several times he will buy it anyways, no repayments back.

'C' is for Cuddles (How would they cuddle?)

He likes to cuddle you like a teddy bear, just letting out all his stess out from the day and let exhaustion consume him while he's in your arms,he holds onto you tightly. I think he prefers to cuddle on top of you so he can embrace all of you and just keep his face in your chest or shoulders, embracing your scent that he cannot get enough of.

'D' is for Domestic (Everyday life with them, do they want to settle down?)

Unless you work in the Port Mafia you won't really be able to see him for hours on end, only before and after work or his day's off. He wakes up really early in the morning and cooks breakfast if you aren't awake, and let me tell you he's a fantastic cook. The evenings are more quiet and gentle, probably cuddling on the couch as you either watch tv or read a book as he drinks a nice glass of wine

I think he wants to settle down and spend his every day with you but realistically he can't unless he somehow retired from the mafia, which I don't think Mori will let happen :(

'E' is for Ending (If they had to break up with their partner)

If he had to break up with you it would be for your safety, dating a mafiaso is dangerous in general, dating a mafia executive is asking for a death wish. Your safety would be in absolute danger if any organisation or even Mori were to know you were close to Chuuya, who knows what they'd do to you if they had ill intentions. He'd talk to face to face about it, calm and collected even though his chest is aching at the thought of even doing this

'F' is for Fiance (How do they feel about commitment?)

If this a long term serious relationship the thought of marriage would come across his mind maybe a year or two in, when he realises he genuinely loves you and wants to spend all his waking hours with you. He would propose to you if your thoughts of marriage are positive and when he feels like the moment is right- unless you propose to him first, leaving him extremely flustered but he will instantly say yes

'H' is for Hugs (What are their hugs like?)

He likes hugs. He loves to wrap his arms around you and feel you close, doesn't matter if you're taller or shorter than him, he loves to bury his face into your neck and feel your warmth and he just loves it when you hug him back with your arms around him.

'G' is for Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

He is very gentle with you physically, touching you as if you were a delicate flower, but there are times where he loses his patience. He tries his best to keep calm and collected but with the amount of stress he goes through and if tension arises he snaps. But he'll try to fix it if he genuinely upset you, he cares too much about you

'I' is for "I love you" (How fast do they say the L-word?)

This isn't a word he throws around carelessly, it's going to take him awhile till he says it and when he says it he means it.

'J' is for Jealous (How jealous do they get?)

He knows there's no need to be jealous since your his and he is yours but he can't help it if he sees someone get physically close to you with a flirtatious intentions, he will put his hand around your waist and pull you close to him, head on your shoulder as he asks "who's this darling?" Giving a quick peck on your neck and cheek, staring at the person with a menacing glare without your notice.

'K' is for Kisses (what are their kisses like?)

Every kiss he means it, often passionate and deep yet gentle. He loves feeling your lips on his and it's something he will never get tired. Wine and your lips are his favourite things.He likes to place soft kisses on your cheeks, neck, shoulders and the back of your hands. He loves every kiss you give him but he loves the one's where you unconsciously kiss his cheek, forehead or even his mouth with no thoughts in your head, just kissing him makes him feel all tingly inside

'L' is for Little one's (How are they around children?)

He is litterly the BEST with children! He knows how to deal with them and let them have fun, he'd be the best dad ever! The thought of having his own children comes into his head if he sees how you interact with children or just seeing your baby photos. He might bring it up in a late night conversation just to see how you feel about children and ask if you'd ever want children. I think he'd love to have children if he's in a good position but he also cares about your comfort and if this is something you want, since this a serious two person descion.

'M' is for Mornings (How are mornings spent with them?)

Mornings with Chuuya are calm but structured, if you aren't awake yet he'll cook you breakfast. I feel like he has a morning routine so he wakes up at the same time every day, though sleeping in for only an hour on days off. He has a skincare routine that he definitely does with you, how else is his skin so smooth?? Definitely works out too in the morning, he may look slim but he's definitely built.

'N' is for Nights (How are nights spent with them?)

Nights after work are also calm (he's just a calm person to be around). He often comes home late or early even depending on how the mafia is doing, he'll call you if he's coming home late so you know he'd okay. When he's home your both eating dinner and filling each other in the on the day. I think he'd take a shower as fast as possible after dinner, he likes to keep himself clean, he prides in his skincare and haircare, genuinely dragging you into it too. After that he likes to relax with a glass of wine and do whatever before bed, he does go to bed at a certain time to get his eight hours

'O' is for Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves?)

He is simultaneously close to others yet at the same time he isn't. He will never reveal everything about himself, but what he does reveal will come when he is ready and feels secure enough to do so. He won't bring this up either if you never bring up a particular topic. He says a lot of things just because you ask.

'P' is for Patient (How easily angered are they?)

He tries his best to be patient with you, always taking into consideration of your feelings but the rare times if you're being unreasonable about something harmless and he's stressed he will snap but nothing that should lead into an extreme argument. He likes to solve things before they escalate

'Q' is for Quizzes (How much would they remember about you?)

He'll memorise every single thing about you, your likes,your dislikes, your behaviours, he remembers every single detail he seems nessecary which is all.

'R' is for Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)

His favourite moment with you is the first time he kissed you, just seeing your face from his kiss made him grin. He was addicted to your lips from then on.

'S' is for Security (How protective are they?)

Chuuya is protective but will give you space if you need some, but if you feel bad or threatened, he will definately do something about it. Even unconsciously he's protective, as I said even in public he always has a hand on you and keeping you close.

'T' is for Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

He may be severely busy but he is always trying, using his head to keep a balanced work life and personal life. Always planning free time with you and dates, constantly buying you gifts as if to compensate for the time he wasn't with you, he does it unconsciously I think. If you plan or gift something for him he will absolutely adore it

'U' is for Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)

'V' is for Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)

I think his worst habit is blowing up? To be honest I'm not really sure about this letter, I think he'd only snap at you specifically if he's stressed or really upset which isn't often, he likes to sort things out

If you don't like smoking that could be a problem, he only smokes to cool off when he's extremely under pressure but he'll try to quit if you really don't like it

This man is not leaving the house without looking perfect, as I said he has a strict skincare and haircare routine- and have you seen his outfit? He could litterly be a model

'W' is for Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)

Chuuya has experienced lost before and you certainly won't be the last, Though it leaves him devastated every time,Chuuya has learnt self-control to understand his loss and how he personally experiences grief, since he knows all too well how simple it is to lose people. He bears the weight of loss, yet it is loss that gives him motivation to move forward

'X' is for Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)

Let me just ramble about his ability real quick. If he wants to hide something from you, he'd use his gravity to hide it on high place that neither of you can reach, he'll use it to tease you if you don't have a nullification ability. If you ask he'd put you on the ceiling or just float in general, making sure to comfort you if you get scared or dizzy from blood rush.

'Y' is for Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)

Not being trusted back, he is loyal and trusts you so he would hope you would trust him back. Or someone who only sees him for his money as he's quiet loaded

'Z' is for Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?)

He is a sound sleeper, just flat out exhausted one he lands on the mattress, he must get his eight hours worth of sleep. He weirdly sleeps like a mess yet somehow looks ethereal at the same time? He likes holding you close to feel you close and his body is extremely warm like a fire so that sucks during summer

Why is he literally the most perfect boyfriend ever???

[tokiwarcube]

can we get general relationship hcs for toki please 🫶

Would you believe me if I told you all that Toki is actually one of my favorite boys? Thank you for your patience!

Nathan HERE ; Pickles HERE ; Skwisgaar HERE ; Murderface HERE ; Charles HERE

Toki wants little more to love and be loved in turn. Despite his notably cold upbringing, he still yearns for that “perfect” relationship. Although surprisingly, Toki doesn’t actually fall all that fast! He really values your friendship, and while he does recognize how pretty and funny you are, he’s not quick to fall. But when he does? Oh, he falls hard. He has to be held back from proposing a week after he realizes how much he really likes you.

When he does decide he wants to pursue a relationship with you, he is refreshingly plain in his intentions. He’s probably the only member of Dethklok who won’t act like a complete dumbass to try and get your attention… assuming he doesn’t take the advice from his bandmates, that is.

The media loves to focus on the cutesy parts of his personality, but nobody ever really hones in on just how much he likes to be in control. It’s a very subtle thing, but it absolutely bleeds through in the romantic sense. It starts with smaller things, like planning dates… and then guiding you through crowds… and then subtly encouraging you to wear his clothes out of the house, and wow, how long have you been staring at him?

He’s overshadowed by Skwisgaar in a lot of sects, but it certainly doesn’t feel like that with you. He has a very special way of commanding your attention, and he uses that to fluster. Often. He lives for it, really.

That’s not to say that there isn’t an equal relationship — you’re just as much of a cornerstone in his life. You've had many a call from Charles, asking you to please get Toki into the studio. And you’re the first person Toki goes to for… most everything! Whether it’s to share a story about a cat he saw on the street, or to nestle himself in your arms after a hard day, you’re always on his mind. He’s nothing if not putty in your hands.

He has so many nicknames for you, many of which are tooth-rottingly sweet. He thinks they’re adorable, and even though the guys rib the hell out of him for it, he refuses to stop using them.

His camera roll all but belongs to you, with how many stolen photos he’s taken. His lockscreen seems to change every other day — he can never seem to choose a favorite!

He’s very clingy in his sleep — part of it has to do with the nightmares that plague him, and he can’t help but subconsciously grip you tighter. It’s usually the only way you’ll know he’s having a nightmare… until he wakes up, stark still, breath caught in his chest. Call to him softly, let him know you’re there, that he’s safe. He won’t say anything, he never does… but eventually he’ll press his face into your chest, and he breathes.

It’s a 50/50 on whether or not he remembers the details in the morning, but he never wants to talk about it, regardless. His past is a scary thing that, in his mind, is left untouched and forgotten. Working through it is hard.

But again, in the morning, all is well. He’s a strong man, and despite the fact that he’s the one curled up in your arms, he imparts this very deep feeling of safety. Just, you know, don’t try to get up before him. He will whine, and he will use his strength to his advantage.

On that note, you’re such a critical part of his morning routine. Mornings (or I suppose afternoons is a better descriptor) are a sacred time for the two of you — hazy and sweet. Although without you, he tends to miss little parts of his upkeep — having you there keeps him on track. Brushing his hair in the morning is just one small part of that routine, and sure, it’s a little thing… but it’s the tenderness that really gets to him. And of course, you start the day without a good morning kiss.

He’s just as clingy while cuddling, too. He loves resting his head on your chest, listening to your heartbeat while you card your fingers through his hair. He’s chatty, too — he’ll talk about anything and everything, occasionally peering up at you to watch you respond. Sometimes he’ll press quick little kisses to your collarbone while you speak too, just because he can.

Needless to say, he’d be a wreck without you on tour, if for whatever reason you couldn’t come along. He’d beg to call whenever you’re free — even if that means the makeup crew has to work around his phone 5 minutes before the show starts.

Please take him to an animal shelter — if you only ever surprise him with one date, let it be a shelter date. With the life he lives (and the curse that seems to have woven its way into his bones), he can’t necessarily have a cat of his own… but that doesn’t mean he can’t make friends with them!

This man gets so, so excited if you engage in his interests with him. He’s so used to being talked down to, being told that his interests are childish or “cute,” so having someone just as excited? Just as passionate? He’s over the moon.

He’s the type to scrapbook all the little moments in your relationship. Saved receipts from your first dinner together; pulled pop-tabs from the drink you shared on a night in; spare tokens from the arcade… it all stays in a little wooden box he keeps on his nightstand. He also regularly gets all of his photos developed, so he can properly glue and press them into his memory book.

[seospicybin]

TOO HOT TO HANDLE.

PART III

Changbin x reader. (s)

Too Hot To Handle masterlist

Synopsis: You and Changbin become contestants in a reality dating show, Too Hot To Handle. (13,4k words)

Author's note: As always, thank you for following this series. Please enjoy this one too x

Looking at you giggling while cuddling with Javi on the bed is the last thing he wants to see when Changbin wakes up in the morning.

Like, okay, Changbin gets it now, you wanted those kinds of physical affections and he didn't give you that.

He's barely starting the day yet he already sighs this much. It's a little inconvenient that he has to share the bed with Gia, he knows that it's by default but if only you gave him a bit more time he could have talked to you, and he would be giving you those physical affections you want.

Gia senses that inconvenience too but she doesn't have a choice. She ties her hair into a messy bun and looks at him, "You okay?"

Changbin looks back at him and purses his mouth, signifying that he's indeed still upset. Upset is an understatement, he's furious.

"Were there any rule breaks?" Liam asks while looking around the room.

Rita puts down her water tumbler after taking a sip, "I heard some noises from over here," she says, pointing to the two beds occupied by Gareth and Jax and the other one by you and Javi.

His heart skips a beat because what if you did a rule break with him? Would that mean he should give you up? His heart aches just from thinking about it.

And for the first time, Changbin stops worrying about the money.

-

CHANGBIN: Looking at them... [sighs] It feels like what she and I have had just meant nothing to her.

-

Working out usually helps to take his mind off things but it's hard when he's living in the villa with you and he can see you everywhere he looks, there's no way of avoiding it.

Changbin can only try to act cool about it even though he's suffering inside, watching you swimming with Javi from afar.

Liam chuckles seeing Changbin with his eyes like a hawk, "So what is exactly going on, Bin?"

He immediately looks away and reclines on his lounger, he considers not telling him but Liam seems trustworthy, he's the closest to him after all.

"Honestly, I came here just trying to follow the rules and not lose money and it somehow... it just backfired," his mouth gets sour from admitting his fault.

Liam rubs his oiled chest then looks at him to ask him the important question, "Are you going to try to get her back?"

The truth is Changbin has come to the last stage of grief and that is acceptance. He has accepted the truth that you left him for a physical fling instead of having a real connection with him.

Whether he has intentions to get you back or not, that's still unclear.

"I don't know," he answers with a nonchalant shrug.

He then leers at you again who's now sitting on the edge of the pool with Javi with his arm draped around you.

"I just don't know how I could sit here and be like... okay with what she did," Changbin continues with a bitter smile.

Liam lifts his hands and puts them over his head, "Well, we're men, we're full of pride," he remarks.

And that's also the problem, Changbin has a lot of pride in him.

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CHANGBIN: She wants to be with Javi then... [shrugs] that's okay, it's her loss.

-

Javi gives you everything you want.

Attention, touches, compliments, he gives you all that and there's no denying that he's extremely attractive. On paper, he's your type, he ticks everything you like on a man.

You get that excitement to dress up for someone who will appreciate the effort you put into looking that good.

"Ooh..." Javi hisses the second he lays his eyes on you.

You offer his hand at him and he wastes no time to take it, giving you a twirl before pulling you close against him.

"You're phenomenal," he compliments with his mouth pressed close to your ear.

He puts his hands around you, pulling you close until there's no gap left between your bodies, "Looking so tasty," he says along with a kiss on your cheek.

How can you not like Javi?

The cabana is crowded with couples tonight. There are Liam and Riley and Rita and Nico, since Javi wants to go there, you go along with him.

"No, but you guys, you two, I didn't see it coming," Riley points at Rita and Nico.

You prop a hand against the sofa and look at Riley, "Excuse me but I'll take credit for that," you jokingly say.

Rita bursts into laughter, knowing exactly what you're saying and probably, reminded of the kiss you both shared too.

"That's true!" Rita agrees.

Nico shakes his head in disagreement, "I kissed Rita because I thought I was going to kiss you too," he jokes.

Rita glares at him, covering Nico's mouth with his hand to stop him from talking.

It's like Lana knows everyone is having too much fun, she chimes in to join the fun, being the buzzkill she is.

"Oh, shit!" Rita reacts in slight shock.

It's very unusual that Lana didn't gather everyone first to announce something and that convinces you that it's not going to be about the rulebreaks but that's also why you get a little nervous.

"Good evening, everybody!" Lana greets.

You sit up straighter on the sofa even though Lana is just a talking cone.

"Good evening, Lana!" Everyone somehow replies at the same time.

"Riley and Liam, you took your relationship to the next level when you were awarded a green light," Lana says.

You give them a round of applause for being the most committed couple in the retreat so you hope that Lana is delivering good news for them.

"Now, it is time to build a deeper connection. Tonight, you will get the chance to know each other better in the private suite," Lana informs.

The shriek Rita lets out is piercing your ear, you get that she's excited but that excitement should be coming from either Riley or Liam.

"I'm happy for you," you sincerely tell them.

You couldn't hope for better things for both of them but yeah, can't deny that you feel a little jealous inside.

"I must remind you that the rules still apply in the private suite," Lana gives a forewarning.

Liam sucks air through his teeth and shakes his head, "It's going to be tough," he says with widened eyes.

"You can do it!" Javi hypes him.

"If anyone can do it, it's you guys," you add even though you won't mind if they spend some money in there, they deserve it.

"Please make your way to the suite," Lana orders.

Everyone is giving words of encouragement as they get up from the sofa and walk away, heading to the private suite located in a different part of the villa.

"They can do it," Rita remarks with so much confidence.

Nico nods along to her words, "They're the mom and dad of this retreat," he says.

Javi puts his arm around you and looks at you, "I would love to go to the private suite with you," he suddenly says.

You slyly smile at him, "Yeah?"

"Mmh," he eagerly nods.

"Are you going to be good in there?"

Javi inhales air and takes a second to think of an answer, "No promises," he says with a lopsided grin.

With Riley and Liam spending the night in the private suite, Gia takes over their bed and that leaves Changbin to have the bed for himself.

You've been giving him space and time to reflect but a few days have passed with no signs of Changbin having intentions to get you back.

Despite of how much you missed Changbin and wanting to give him more time, you think it's better to stop hoping now so you won't get badly hurt.

You're deep in your thoughts when Javi puts his arm around you. Without looking, you slip your hand into his hair only to find out it's damp.

"You've just showered?"

"Yes," he answers with a soft kiss on your cheek.

"I think we should shower together sometime, that'd be cute," Javi says.

You only smile at him in response and let him cuddle you on the bed.

As much as you want to make Changbin jealous and Javi has been hinting that he doesn't mind doing it with you, you can't find it in yourself to rule break with Javi.

The physical attraction is there and if you weren't here, in this sexless retreat, you would have taken him home and done God knows what.

But here... even to kiss him takes a bit of commitment and not to mention, $6,000.

You can always wait for the green light but the possibility to get it with Javi is discouraging and you hate to admit it but that is because the connection you have with him is purely physical.

-

YOU: I've been waiting long enough for Changbin to come around but well... [shrugs]

-

"Good morning, Lana!" Rita exclaims the second the lights are turned on, knowing that Lana will shortly come online.

Changbin wakes up and forces himself to sit up, his bed couldn't feel more emptier than this as he wakes up to no one but himself.

"Anyone think they spent some money?" Oliver jokingly asks with a mischievous grin.

All eyes are going toward Riley and Liam's shared bed which is now occupied by sleepy Gia, knowing that they're in the private suite and things may have happened there, possibly a few thousand dollars too.

"Nah," Sabine answers with her head shaking vigorously, "I think they're good."

"Yeah, I trust them more than I trust anyone," Jax also adds her comment.

While everyone is casually chatting, the door to the bedroom is flying open and Riley enters the room.

"We didn't break any rules!" She announces with a proud smile.

They earned a round of applause from everyone and Changbin is happy for both of them. Though he wishes that he could be more sincere with his happiness towards them, he just can't.

Without him wanting to, Changbin's head turns at your bed, seeing you sitting next to Javi whose head is resting on your lap and the fact that he gets jealous only means that he still cares about you.

You may look like you're having a good time with Javi but he can see what you have with him is merely physical, there's no connection there because if there was something, you wouldn't hesitate to rule break with him but you didn't.

It's time to admit that his pride has been getting the best of him because he doesn't even know why it took him this long to realize that he's done wrong and he'll regret it if he doesn't, at least, try to get you back.

It's time for Changbin to take control of the game, again.

-

CHANGBIN: I understand now that she wanted to be heard and without realizing it, I muted her and made it all about myself.

-

Changbin gets a different kind of jitter when Lana calls everyone to the cabana.

He used to be scared of hearing how many rule breaks have been committed and how much money they have lost but today, he's scared for one thing and that is you did a rule break with Javi.

Changbin plans on apologizing to you but he needs one last reassurance that getting back with you is the right thing.

The melodic chime comes and Lana begins with her usual greeting, she sounds rather alright today but who knows?

"Riley and Liam were sent to the suite last night and I can tell you that..."

Riley said they didn't break rules but there could be some mishaps so we'll never know for sure no rules have been broken in the private suite.

"...they did not break any rules," Lana confirms.

Cheering erupts in the cabana and another round of applause is directed at Riley and Liam as they embrace each other for a triumphant hug.

Amid the celebration, Lana interrupt with her famous cursed word.

"However..."

And that means, someone has been very, very naughty.

Changbin's heart is racing because what if his fear manifested into reality?

"Oh, shit..." Sabine lowly mutters.

"There was a breach of rules," Lana announces.

It feels like someone has punctured his lungs and he's losing all of the air, making it hard for him to breathe.

"What the fuck you guys?" Riley says with a disappointed sigh while Liam slumps down his seat also looking as disappointed.

"This is not okay," Riley complains.

They have every right to be upset because they managed to not rule break in the private suite while someone casually acted selfishly and fucked around with the money.

Changbin feels uneasy and his eyes keep glancing your way, trying to get any clues whether you kissed Javi or not.

And he deeply wishes that you didn't, or else, his plan is a bust.

"Just fess up, we'll be more annoyed if you lie about it," Oliver says and that's coming from him means this is serious.

"Well, it's not us," Sabine is the first to come forward.

Everyone turns to the next couple, Rita and Nico.

"Nope, we didn't," Nico calmly denies and the last time they did, Nico admitted it right away.

Changbin holds his breath as they turn to you, silently praying that it's not you.

You crack a smile then turn your head at Javi, letting him. speaks for both of you. Javi rubs his chin, stalling on answering the question, and then he opens his mouth to—

"It was us," Gareth confesses, shifting everyone's attention to him.

"We kissed last night," he explains.

"Are you joking?" Nico asks in disbelief.

The tension is rising and everyone is about to eat Gareth and Jax alive. Meanwhile Changbin... feels greatly relieved and he can feel that the air is filling him again.

"This rule break has cost the group $6,000."

"That's so disrespectful," Riley sighs with angered facial expression.

"The prize fund now stands at $133,000."

Changbin may have lost some money but he gains something out of it: a newfound hope.

-

CHANGBIN: I want to apologize to her for my behavior and come clean with everything that I did wrong [sighs] I hope it's not too late.

-

The first thing that Javi notices is your black dress that hangs low in the back.

You spin around on your feet to show the whole look and break into laughter as you get a little dizzy. Javi quickly offers his hand to help you steady yourself.

"Gorgeous!" He beams with a bright smile on his face.

You lift your feet, showing him the shoes with the straps lacing up to your knees, "What about my shoes?"

"Love it!" He shortly answers.

"Thank you," you sweetly mutter with a smile.

Javi picks up a glass from the table and hands it to you, "Got you a drink," he says.

You take a seat on the chair opposite him, "What did you guys do at the workshop today?" You ask since they spent the whole afternoon at the beach for the workshop.

As you sit there listening to him talk while sipping your drink, you unknowingly find yourself drifting away from your head and it leads to you wondering what you really feel for Javi.

It's obvious that you like him, he's nice, he's good-looking, and he's been treating you well but can this thing go further than this? You're not sure and a part of the reason is that your head is still stuck on Changbin.

As if your thoughts are calling him, Changbin comes walking toward you.

"Hey," he softly greets.

Your heart leaps and you find yourself smiling at him.

Javi glances up at him and getting a little alarmed, "Hey," he answers with a slightly confounded tone.

"Can I talk to her for a minute?" Changbin asks him.

Javi looks at him and then at you, he seems to consider rejecting his request.

"Yeah, sure, okay," Javi takes his drink with him and leaves the two of you to talk in private.

Changbin takes Javi's seat, leaning forward with his hands clasped between his legs. He starts with a smile yet his gaze is intense, a little seductive too.

"I want to say something to you," he says.

He demands your attention for what he's about to say to you and of course, you want to hear it.

You nod and smile, "Okay."

Changbin takes a second for himself before starts talking, "I've been thinking about it, about us... and the workshop helped me reflect on what we had, you know?"

You nod again, "Yes."

"I know where I messed up... I put the needs of Lana and the retreat before the needs of us," he admits his mistake right away.

This is where you learn a new thing about him, that he is a man who knows his mistakes and owns up to them.

"I was rigid on us not to rule break and not lose the money. I was super strict on the fact that we need to follow the rules," he pauses to inhale air.

Changbin closes his eyes like what he's going to say next is painful to say, "I forced you to do all that, and I... I didn't ask you if that was okay with you."

Oftentimes, men would apologize without knowing what they did wrong, they just want to get it out of the way but Changbin is different, he knows where things went wrong and acknowledges his shortcomings.

"And I shouldn't have done that," he says, his words are heavy with regrets.

Other than that, you can feel how sincere Changbin is and that truly says something.

"That's right," you confirm all of his words.

Your eyes are looking deeply into his and holding the gaze, "I felt like you have it easy to go along with the process and I was like struggling so much," you tell him.

Other than growing as a couple, everyone is also having their processes in this retreat and you must admit that it wasn't easy for you to completely give up on physical things. It's possible, yes, but it takes time for you to do that.

"You probably think that not getting anything physical from you is the issue but it's because of you making those decisions for me," you explain.

You inaudibly exhale air and continue, "I did not like that."

Both ends are communicating well with each other with how Changbin has been intently listening to what you have to say in return.

"I want to apologize to you," he earnestly says.

"I know I should have valued your opinion and listened to what you had to say," he adds with a heartfelt gaze directed towards you and only you.

This is exactly what you wanted and needed to hear from him. Your heart is bursting open once more and overflowing with warm feelings.

"I appreciate it that you coming and talking to me tonight," you tell him with a smile.

He nods and smiles back at you, "I realized that I'm not perfect but I'm always trying to be better every day."

He tilts his head to the side then continues, "Especially for you."

You can't help but smile wider and wider until your cheeks hurt. Even after what happened, Changbin still knows how to make you flutter inside.

"One question though!" He suddenly says, turning serious all of a sudden.

"Mmh?"

"Who are you sleeping with tonight?" He asks with a sly smile on his face

You have to remind yourself to not fold right in front of him despite how much you want it, you take a breath and gain a little composure.

"I think I know who I want to sleep with tonight," you cryptically say but with a stare that pierces right into his heart.

This talk means so much more than just you and Changbin solving the issue together, but the way you two handle it in such a mature way makes you realize that you have grown too as a person.

-

YOU: I'm looking forward to sharing the bed with Changbin again but I have to do something else first.

-

Changbin feels like flying, his body might be lying on bed but his spirit is soaring high to cloud nine. He's waiting for you to come with a space prepared for you on the bed right next to him.

Tonight has been one hell of a roller coaster of emotions.

Changbin knows you still have feelings for him but feelings change so he can't rely on everything solely on that. Then the talk went well and he couldn't ask for a better outcome.

Apart from that, he feels incredibly relieved to have fixed things before it gets too late.

The door to the bedroom swung open and Changbin's head turned in that direction. A smile instantly blooms on his face the second he sees you enter the bedroom and it grows wider and wider as you get closer.

Then you walk past his bed and toward the bed you shared with Javi, causing Changbin's smile to automatically drop.

"Baby..." he meekly calls for you while patting the space on the bed.

Everyone else is silently watching how you keep going to Javi's bed, you grab your tube of lotion and water tumbler from the bedside table then waddle to his bed.

"Oh!" Sabine coos in reaction, shattering the tension in the room.

Changbin opens his arms for you, catching you as you jump right onto his lap. He wastes no time to wrap his arms around you, holding you so tightly.

"Yes, my favorite couple is back," Rita squeals from her bed.

"How about Javi?" Nico asks, kind of killing the celebratory vibe in the room.

You turn at him and answer, "I told him about the sleeping arrangements."

Everyone is worrying about Javi's reactions to this bed switch but Changbin won't let it ruin his happiness. He only wants to focus on you and how happy he is to have you back again.

Having to hold you again, your warmth, your scent, oh... this is heaven!

"Missed you so much," he whispers with a heavy kiss on your neck.

"Me too, baby," you say back with a soft laugh as he continues to ferociously kiss your neck.

Filling everyone's anticipation, Javi finally walks into the bedroom and he seems to be calm finding Gia instead of you lying on his bed.

Everyone's eyes are going back and forth between his bed and Javi's, sensing there's a tension in between.

"I feel bad," you lowly mutter at Changbin while looking at Javi.

He understands well if you feel that way but you have done your part by talking to him, what happens after that is out of your control.

"It's going to be alright," he says to you with a soft caress on your cheek.

It seems to have worked to comfort you as you softly smile at him and Changbin couldn't be happier that now you're back at his side

-

CHANGBIN: Sorry, Javi but she and I are here to stay [smiles]

-

The moment he opens his eyes and sees you still sleeping next to him, Changbin feels butterflies flying around his stomach.

He carefully removes the hair covering your face and puts it aside, he rubs your cheek with his thumb before placing a soft kiss on it and another one on your temple.

"Wake up," he lowly mutters with his nose nuzzling into your neck.

Instead of waking up, you snuggle close to him and Changbin puts his arm around you. You look so adorable sleeping with your hand folded under your head.

Not long after that, the lights in the room are turned on and everyone else drags themselves out of their cocoons, sitting on their beds bare-faced and barely awake.

"Morning..." Sabine hoarsely greets everyone.

"Morning, family!" Liam greets with a voice that is deeper than usual.

Changbin tries again, waking you up with gentle caresses on your back, "Baby, wake up," he softly calls.

After a while, your eyes flutter open and meet his. You rub your eyes while forcing yourself awake, sitting on the bed next to him.

Changbin puts his arm around you and rests his hand on your waist, "Still sleepy?"

You nod while you're yawning, then put your head on his shoulder.

"Want me to wake you up?" He asks.

Your eyes are glaring at him in confusion then Changbin slips his hand under the duvet and pinches the flesh on the back of your thigh.

"Ouw!" You squeal, jolting next to him.

You hit his chest but it couldn't do much with all those muscles on his chest.

"Well, you're awake now!" Changbin mutters with a sly smile, pulling you closer to him.

He caresses your head and tilts your head so he can kiss you on your cheek, "Morning!"

You grope around for his hand and once you find it, clasping them together.

"Morning," you mumble with eyes closed.

"Where's the kiss?" He playfully asks.

You hold his chin and kiss his cheek, rubbing the skin once you pull away.

It's funny that Changbin couldn't remember what happened, he couldn't even remember why he was mad at you. It seems like that part has been erased from his memory and all he can remember is how much he likes you and how he wants to keep waking up next to you.

Changbin can't help but start to think of taking this outside of the retreat, he wonders if—

Lana chimes in, shattering Changbin's sweet daydream.

"Good morning, everyone!"

"Morning, Lana darling!" Rita cheerily answers.

"I would like to inform you that many of you are showing signs of emotional development and this is the most encouraging."

Everyone is cheering because it feels like we finally achieved something and ultimately, it's the first good news we got from Lana.

Everything is going so well and Changbin just can't wait for what's coming for you and him. He takes your hand and looks at you, in your eyes he knows things are going to be alright.

-

CHANGBIN: I woke up to the prettiest girl in the world and I'm just... excited for us [grins]

-

Even Lana is in a good mood today so you have nothing to complain about.

You run out of dresses to wear but that's not going to stop you from putting on your best look. The girls are having a late start getting ready since the workshop took hours to finish.

You stand right in front of the mirror wearing a one-shoulder dress you borrowed from Rita and check your appearance one last time before stepping out of the villa and into the night.

The anticipation rises as you get to where everyone is gathering, you can't wait to see how Changbin is going to react to how you look tonight.

You see that Changbin is talking to Liam and has his back facing you, you take advantage of it by sneaking up behind him.

Slowly, you slip your hands under his arms and hug him, "What did I miss?"

Changbin automatically turns his head and without letting go of your hands, he turns around to face you. You can see how his eyes light up when he looks at you, sending a tingle down your spine.

"Me. That's what you missed," he answers.

You take his drink and have a sip of it before handing it back to him. You loop your hands around his neck and look at him, "And what else?"

He has his arm wrapped around your waist and the other is steadily holding his drink, "You missed... these muscles too," he says, flexing his biceps for you.

You chuckle in response and cling to him, putting all of your weight against him without worrying that he won't be able to hold you. You use the chance to trace his wide shoulders and lower them, feeling the bulging muscles on his arms.

It feels so wrong to touch his God-like body, it's like touching something so sacred but at the same time, you feel tempted to ruin it.

Changbin puts his drink away so he can wrap both of his arms around you. He presses a hot kiss on your jaw and then on your neck, delightfully sighing as he looks at you.

"The face, the hair, even your nails... I love all of them," he compliments you.

You already get giddy just from one compliment and shyly smile at him, staring back at him with hearts in your eyes.

He then makes a trail of kisses down your shoulder to your arm and sighs again.

"How are you so perfect, mmh?" He asks in a voice full of wonder.

He presses another kiss on the skin behind your ear, "So perfect," he sighs.

You notice his hands are resting on the arch of your back and you know how much he wants to go lower than that, you admire his self-control.

"Mmh..." his heavy sigh feels hot against your ear.

"You still make me hard, baby," he shamelessly admits, making it obvious the thing that has been poking at your thigh is indeed his pulsating member.

Goodness! How can you think straight when you know how much he wants you and probably as much as you want him? Even after being away from each other, the sexual chemistry is still there and it's getting stronger.

He tilts his head up and lets out another heavy sigh, "This is dangerous," he says.

You both know what you want but that want is not allowed at the moment. You take the role of being the good girl tonight and gently pull away from his hold but his arms remain locked around you.

"And where are you going?" He asks with a raised eyebrow.

"You said it's dangerous," you tell him with a subtle glare.

"I did," he confirms.

Then he tightens his hold around you until there is not even an inch left between your bodies.

"Just let me—"

Without finishing his sentence, his hands slide down the sides of your body and they're resting on the end of your spine.

He buries his head in your neck, inhaling your scent like it cures his addiction and then he kisses you there.

Lana may be a cone but she has eyes and you know she's seeing this, that's why you get startled when she chimes. Everyone takes it as a cue to gather in the cabana to hear what news she has for us now.

"Were there any rule breaks?" Oliver asks as he takes a seat on the sofa.

Well, you and Changbin have been very physical but there's nothing sexual there to be considered as rule breaks. You've been playing by the rules like a good girl.

"I hope it's another good news," Changbin mutters next to you.

Don't want to be the voice of pessimism but it seems like Lana only gave good news this morning just to ruin it tonight. But you could be wrong, and gosh, you hope you're wrong.

-

YOU: I get the feeling that... we're not getting more good news tonight.

-

Lana lights up and chimes, "Hello, everyone!"

She always talks in the same robotic voice, there's no cadence or emotions in them yet somehow you can always guess what she brings to the table tonight.

"The retreat will be ending in three days, after which, I will be allocating the prize fund to those most deserving," Lana informs.

Wow! It has been that long already? The time you spent in this retreat felt so long but now that you've been through so many things, it feels so short. You suddenly feel sentimental about it.

"However..."

Everyone groans in unison once that word is said and we know what comes after that, which proves your guess is right.

"I have observed that not all of you are sufficiently invested in the process."

Your heart drops, guessing that Lana is about to send someone home again. Even though you both have made up and together again it doesn't mean that you're safe from elimination.

"Two people in particular are showing no interest in changing their approach to sex and relationships. It's for that reason I will be sending those two people home tonight," Lana confirms your guess.

-

YOU: I am so stressed thinking that it's going to be me.

-

Changbin senses that you need the comfort, he takes your hand in his and holds it tight. His thumb is gently rubbing the back of your hand.

"Oh, God..." You hide yourself behind Changbin and rest your head on his back.

Who could it be? You ask yourself and everyone else probably asking the same thing too.

Honestly speaking, you could be one of those two but you don't want to go home yet, not when you're so close to finishing it.

The air shifts, suddenly it's turning cold and dense in here, but everyone knows that they can't escape it.

"The guests leaving the retreat are..."

Your heart is beating so fast that you can hear it in your ear and you're not sure if you can—

"Gareth and Jax," Lana announces.

You know it's not a good time but it feels good to let out a breath of relief, you immediately melt into Changbin's back, hugging him from the back and feeling so incredibly grateful that Lana is still giving you another chance.

"Since arriving at the retreat, you have ignored my rules. You have failed to grow and generally showed very little respect for the process," Lana lays out all the reasons why she eliminated them.

Jax seems to have expected this meanwhile Gareth, he looks rather a bit devastated by it. Sabine is the first to come to them and give them a farewell hug, everyone following suit after.

"Gareth and Jax, please leave the retreat!" Lana orders.

Jax smiles as she gets up from the sofa and looks at everyone, "I love you, guys," she says with an air kiss.

You didn't get to get to know Jax and Gareth that well and you know Lana has the right reasons for sending them home, but still... it's sad to see them go.

-

YOU: I'm just so thankful right now, I still want to learn, I want to keep growing, and I'm trying to progress.

-

The first thing you do as the two of you walk into the bedroom from the cabana is hug Changbin.

"That fucking scared me," you mutter with your hands around his neck, hugging him so tight.

Guess the elimination must have shaken you but Changbin is ready to give you the comfort you need, hugging you back, caressing your back with such love.

"It's alright," he assures you.

He lovingly pats your head then kisses the top of your head, "We're still here."

It's rough, what Lana did but that's what happened when you didn't play by the rules. Changbin kind of expected that since Jax and Gareth blatantly broke the rules multiple times and they were in the retreat half the time he has spent in here.

The gloom lingers until bedtime, everyone is either sad about the elimination or that the retreat is going to end in a couple of days.

Changbin is thankful that he managed to fix things with you and now, he just needs to keep building this connection with you.

He's holding you close to him as you lay with your back on his chest, comforting you with light touches of his fingertips up and down your arms.

"That was horrible," Rita mumbles from her bed while playing with Nico's hair on her lap.

"It's one of the worst nights," Liam agrees with a sigh.

"This should be a wake-up call to not take this retreat for granted," Oliver says.

He can feel you nodding at Oliver's words and he looks down to see you, tilting your head with his hand gently holding your chin.

"Are you okay, baby?"

You nod with a soft smile on your face and he feels good knowing that you're alright, that way, he can feel alright too.

The lights are out not long after that.

When Changbin thinks that you're already sleeping, you shift on the bed and bring your mouth close to his ear, "I'm so happy that we're together," you softly whisper.

It's so sudden yet so endearing. He doesn't know what to say to that because you caught him off guard.

Then your hand reaches for his face and in the dark, he can see your gleaming eyes staring deeply into his, "You're genuine, you're honest, you're so patient with me... I feel like I can trust you," you tell him while keeping your voice low.

Hearing those words from you makes his heart rattle in his chest and full of warm feelings.

"I want to get to know you better and keep growing with you," you continue with your hand resting on his chest as if you wanted those words to seep into his heart.

Something shifts in this relationship, Changbin believes that you have chosen to open up to him by telling him how you feel and he is tremendously grateful for that.

Yet he is still speechless and with you keep looking at him with glazing eyes, he knows he should say something by now.

"Where is that coming from?" He asks you in a mix of disbelief and awe.

You glide your hand down to his abdomen, "I just feel like I needed to tell you that," you simply answer.

He slips his hand in your hair and holds the side of your head, "Thank you for telling me that," he sincerely says.

"You're very welcome," you say back with a smile.

He badly wants to kiss you right now but he knows he can't break rules, ultimately, not when the retreat is about to end.

"Just so you know, I want to kiss you right now," he honestly tells you.

"I know."

He opts to hold your face, looking at you with fondness in his eyes, and with all of his heart, he kisses your forehead. He then draws you closer and holds you, not letting any space get in between your bodies.

It's rather frustrating that he can't show you how much he likes you physically. Well, that's a good thing that the retreat is about to end because he doesn't know how much longer he can resist you

"Just three more days, Seo Changbin," he says to himself with a sigh.

You giggle with your head buried in his chest, "Technically, it's two more days," you correct him.

He smiles at your words and responds, "Even better!"

-

CHANGBIN: There's a real, genuine connection there and I can see myself with this girl [smiles]

-

With what you said last night, Changbin feels reassured of his feelings towards you and he can feel it continuously growing as he wakes up the next morning.

It's another day in heaven with you, he starts with a kiss on your cheek and keeps cuddling you while you're still peacefully sleeping next to him.

"Baby," he softly calls.

"Wake up," he says with another gentle kiss on your shoulder.

He slips his hand under the duvet, tracing the curve of your body with his hand. He stops at the dip of your waist and calls you again.

"Wake up, my angel," he says again with a squeeze on the flesh of your waist.

"Mmh..." you hum with your eyes remain closed.

Even without looking at the time, Changbin can tell that the lights are going on soon. He tries one last time, putting his hand on your stomach and pinches the flesh.

You jolt on the bed and grip his arm, taking his hand away from your stomach.

"Not fair," you grumble while sleepily laughing.

Ignoring your complaint, he pulls you close and begins placing kisses on your face, avoiding the part close to your mouth.

"Good morning, everyone!" Lana comes for the morning greeting.

"Morning, Lana!" Everyone replies.

"I hope you make the most of the time you have left in the retreat," she reminds everyone to remain celibate for another couple of days.

There are only two days left in the retreat and Changbin wants to make the most of it.

There's one thing left to do now and that is to find out if you want to take this further even after the retreat ends.

Looking back at what he's been through, he admits that he had his ups and downs but he also must admit that he was hurt with what you did with Javi.

He likes you so much but he has this small part of him that won't let him put his whole trust in you. For now, maybe it's enough but for this relationship to last, he needs the assurance that he can trust his heart on you.

"Hop on!" He orders, offering his back for you.

You excitedly get on his back yet he's not moving from his spot, "Let's go!"

He looks over his shoulder at you and taps his cheek, a sign that he's asking for a kiss.

You place a long peck on his cheek and let go with a gasp. Changbin suddenly charged with so much energy and got up from the bed, "Okay, let's go!"

-

CHANGBIN: We've been making a genuine connection but I need more reassurance about the future of our relationship.

-

It's impossible to not get sentimental at the reminder that the retreat is going to end.

You're going to miss this place and surprisingly, Lana but on top of all that, you're going to miss everyone here, whether they're close to you or not, they're what makes this retreat bearable and full of special memories.

Talking about the people here, you feel like you still owe someone an apology. You have apologized but still... you want to make sure that things are good between you and him.

After finishing your make-up for the day, you're heading to the bathroom and Javi happens to be there.

It seems like the perfect opportunity to talk because if not now, then when? It's time to put the lesson you learned here into practice.

You smile finding him putting on some shaving cream all over his chin and jaws.

"Hi, sexy. How are you?" You ask.

Javi steps back to let you use the sink, "Good, good."

He watches you as you wash your hands under the running water, "How are you?" He asks back.

"I'm very well, thanks," you reply.

You hurriedly step back to let him use the sink, it seems like a bad time to talk because he'll most likely focus on his shaving. But you don't want to postpone it, you're just going to make it succinct.

You gulp air and just say it, "Hey, what happened..I–I truly apologize for that," you sincerely apologize.

Javi looks at you with half of his face covered in white cream, "That's okay. It's cool," he assures you.

You lean against the sink as you keep talking to him, "I hope, you know, despite that, we can still be friends," your voice quivers a little, serious talk like this gets you nervous.

Javi nods and picks up his shaver, "aren't we already friends?"

You're worrying too much about this not going to end well and never thought that it could be the opposite.

"Yeah?" You ask again, wanting the reassurance you need.

"Yeah," he confirms.

"We're good?"

"More than good," he says with a smile.

It's like a ton of weight has been lifted off your chest and you can breathe in ease now, knowing that there's no bad blood between you and him.

"Can we hug it out?" You hesitantly ask.

Javi looks down at the shaver in his hand and then puts it down. He then opens his arms for you, welcoming you for a hug.

"Careful not to get some," he reminds you, tilting his head up so none of the shaving cream gets onto your hair.

You put your arms around him and hug him as a token of friendship, "You're a good person, Javi," you mutter.

He rubs your arm, then pats your shoulder, "and you're the nicest girl I've ever known," he says.

Most men won't easily accept the fact that you chose someone else than them and still say nice things about you, but here is Javi, proving that he's not just most men.

"Aw... thank you, Javi," you sincerely thank him.

This also reminds you that there's a man who won't be delighted to see you hugging him, so you pull away and smile at him.

"You can shave in peace now," you tell him with a laugh.

Javi picks up his shaver and says to you before you leave, "See you around!"

-

YOU: I used to be bad at having serious, difficult talks but now, I started to stop avoiding it.

-

It's time for another fun session with Lana in the cabana.

You don't think there would be anyone who is stupid enough to break rules when the retreat is close to the end but you can never know with Lana.

"I think someone rulebreak last night," Changbin mutters to you.

You look at him with a questioning glare, "Yeah? Who?"

"It was me," he replies.

Your first thought is that he probably did something without you knowing. You open your mouth in slight shock then land a slap on his thigh, "You did not—"

"Ouch!" He yelps even though you're sure your slap wouldn't hurt that much considering how big he is.

"What did you do?" You ask with eyes widened.

He leans in close to whisper to you, "I kissed you in my dream."

You burst into laughter and slap his thigh again, "in your dream, huh?"

He's slyly grinning at you, satisfied that his prank is a success, "That's not the only thing that happened," he adds.

"Ah?" You give him the side eye.

He leans in again, "We kissed, we got naked, then I went down on you..." he whispers, lowering his voice and making it sultry.

You cover his mouth to stop him from talking, "Okay, I get it," you tell him, not letting him fill your head with his wild imagination.

He takes your hand away and continues whispering to you, "Then we—"

As Lana chimes in, you hurriedly shut him up with both your hands covering his mouth now, "Stop it!"

"Hello, everyone!"

"Yes, Lana," you reply, holding Changbin's hand in your lap as an emotional support.

"All romantic connections matter and must be nourished with time apart from the group," Lana says.

Oh, you don't like the sound of it but you give her a chance to make it right, opening your ears to hear the rest of the announcement.

"This is why I'm sending all partnered guests on a final date."

The group applauds in reaction while you wonder if you and Changbin are eligible to get a date. You look at the staff and mouth, "Including us?"

One of the staff holding a walkie-talkie nodding in confirmation and that's when you allowed yourself to celebrate it.

Lana further confirms it by informing your turn for the date is going to be this afternoon, instantly putting you in a panic having not much time to get ready for it.

"It is time for you all to look at your development and assess what you want from your future. Please use this time wisely," she concludes.

-

YOU: I am so excited about our date, we're going to have so much fun [squeals] okay, maybe, not too much [grins]

-

There's a fear lurking behind the excitement you have for your date.

Changbin has acknowledged your feelings but he won't easily forget the thing that happened with Javi and you're afraid that it's still haunting him and makes him doubt our future.

You keep taking deep breaths with each step you take to the beach, finding him already waiting for you with a scintillating smile on his face.

"My perfect girl, aren't you?" Changbin says with a gleeful smile.

"You're my beautiful man," you praise back, taking a moment to admire how beautiful he is under the afternoon sun.

The walk to the date spot is quite far yet Changbin firmly holding your hand and tirelessly complimenting you. The date is not started yet but he's already making you flustered.

They have prepared a small boat for where you're going to have a cute picnic, without warning, Changbin lifts you with his arms and gets you onto the boat.

"Thank you," you mutter, sitting on one of the cushions inside the boat.

The view is perfect, he is perfect and you can only hope that the date is just as perfect.

Changbin opens a bottle of wine without a hassle and pours it into two champagne flutes, making a toast to start the date.

"At one point in the retreat, I didn't know if I would have gone on this date," he says.

That feels like a jab at you, not that you don't deserve it but you didn't think he would dig at it this early on a date.

"Mm-mmh," you nod.

"Because of that thing with Javi... I was hurt," he says to you.

You try to be positive, at least, by him bringing it up early, you can quickly get it out of the way.

"I regret hurting you, I do," you confess.

You look into his eyes and let him see through all of the exteriors that you're being sincere with your words, "I never want to do that again," you earnestly promise him.

With Javi, it's clear that you were distracted by the physical and you were frustrated by the lack of affection from Changbin. It's time for you to explain yourself how you got yourself into that position.

"I love getting attention, I love physical affection and not having that... it was really difficult," you explain.

He shakes his head in disagreement, "It was hard," he says.

He takes a quick sip of his drink before continuing to talk, "It was hard not giving you that physical affection."

The last time you checked, he didn't seem to struggle with it, "Are you sure? Because it looked easy for you."

He puts his drink down, then licks his lips, "Trust me, it wasn't easy at all," he convinces you, taking your hand in his with a smile on his face.

-

YOU: We had our ups and downs but I definitely see a future with him [smiles] There's only one thing left to do now.

-

The best feeling in the world is knowing that his feelings are being reciprocated but having you convinced him that you won't hurt him again, he takes it as another way of telling him how you really feel.

"I'm really into you," you sweetly admit with a shy smile.

Changbin's doubt starts to scatter with every reassurance he gets from you

"I like what we have," you tell him, lightly shaking your clasped hands.

And there it is, his last shred of doubt just detached itself off of him. Changbin is now ready to hand his heart to you but it seems like you have something else to say to him.

With the subtle change of facial expression and how your shoulders tensed, he gets nervous about what you're going to say next.

"What I want to ask you right now..." you pause to inhale air.

Changbin gulps air too in anticipation of what's coming after that sentence.

"When we go back home, out of this retreat," you continue.

He's getting impatient now as you keep stopping in between sentences, "Yeah?"

"Do you want to be with me?" You finally ask.

Changbin always takes pride in being dominant, making grand gestures for someone he likes, and being the one in control. However, you're doing all that to him now, and surprisingly, he enjoys every bit of it.

"There's only been one person the entire time," he says with a piercing stare right into your heart.

"And she's here, right in front of me," he says.

The smile on your face blooms ever so softly like a sunrise that slowly fills the sky with daylight. Gosh, you're so beautiful that he can't believe you're asking him to be with you.

Lana chimes and he almost groans in complaint, except that he forgot about the watches and that it's turning green.

"Fucking finally!" He curses out loud.

This is the moment that he's been craving and he bets, you did too. He pulls you close and leans in, a hand holding your jaw, then slowly, crashing his lips against yours.

He has kissed you a few times already but it feels like the first time all over again, he allows himself to deepen the kiss and tastes you more to make up for all the times he couldn't do it.

Without him realizing it, his hand runs down to the hem of your dress and slips under. The next thing he knows, he's grabbing a handful of your ass cheek in his hand.

"I always wanted to do that," he says against your lips.

You smile and say, "Yeah, I can tell."

Changbin feels like fireworks are going off in his chest and it's crazy that his heart can contain all of this happiness inside of him without exploding.

-

CHANGBIN: This is it! It took us a long time to get this green light and we did it [smiles]

-

The night is exceptionally vibrant tonight.

Everyone is looking so happy returning from their dates, Rita and Nico are the last ones to come back, holding hands as they join everyone in the firepit.

"Oh, here they are!" Sabine exclaims, putting away her drink to welcome them.

Sabine and Oliver, despite their dramas, are leaving the retreat as a couple and so are Riley and Liam, who are the strongest couple in the retreat. You expect that the same thing happen to Rita and Nico, especially because you were the matchmaker.

"You know, Rita, I'd be so upset if you didn't date each other," You jokingly say to them.

Nico sits and is ready to answer everyone's questions, "We had a very nice date," he shortly says.

That's not enough information, you force yourself to get up from Changbin's warm embrace and look at them, "Any big news you want to share with us?"

"We had some cheese, some red wine..." Nico continues to dodge away from answering the real question.

With Rita staying quiet, you start to worry that things are not going well with them.

"Another big news?" You hopelessly ask.

Nico glances at Rita then looks at everyone, "I asked her to be my girlfriend," he finally answers your big question.

You scramble to come up at Rita and throw yourself at her, feeling so proud of her. Truthfully, all you did was give them the nudge and they did the rest.

"So happy for you, mami!" You gently pat her cheek.

You go back to your seat and by it you mean Changbin's lap with his arms ready to keep you warm against the cool night air.

You couldn't be happier to see everyone is happy and for everything that they achieved but in the process, you forgot that you should be happy for yourself as well, for coming this far in the retreat and growing as a person.

It's like she can't help that everyone is having fun, the cone lights up and chimes.

"Good evening."

"Evening, Lana..." you reply with sheer panic, afraid that she's going to ruin this good day too.

"Congratulations on a great day in the retreat," Lana says.

You let out a quick breath of relief knowing that Lana isn't bringing bad news with her, you can relax your shoulders and melt into Changbin's chest.

"You have all made significant progress. Your prize fund stands at $133,000."

"Ooh..." Liam hisses, "That's a lot."

"Yeah," Javi agrees with a nod.

"As you know, your time here has almost come to an end so please use the remaining time wisely," Lana finishes with a forewarning.

It only gets to you now that it's the last night in retreat and it feels so sad that soon, you'll not be able to spend this much time with Changbin.

-

YOU: It's the last night in the retreat so I want to have a little fun [smirks] Just a little [winks]

-

Everyone is heading back inside for bedtime but Changbin stays in the firepit with you.

He simply wants to enjoy the night with you and enjoy each other's company in a comfortable silence, soaking up the last moments you have in here.

It's not going to be like this and he's fully aware that the real test is out there, out of this retreat. With that fear slowly creeping up inside him, he reminds himself to enjoy every second of this moment and holds you close.

You turn your head at him, "It's getting late," you say.

"Want to go back inside?" He asks.

You nod then slowly, get up from the sofa. You hold his hand, leading him back inside the villa and going straight to the dressing room.

You're sitting with your chair pushed close to the vanity table, cleaning your make-up while Changbin is taking off his clothes next to his closet.

"Wait for me!" You tell him.

He turns around on his feet to look at you, "What?"

"Are you going to shower?"

"Yeah."

"Then wait for me," you tell him.

Changbin doesn't get what you're saying. Why should he wait for you to go to the bathroom?

You brush your hair quickly and put everything back into your make-up bag, "Let's shower together," you say.

"That's not a good idea," Changbin says and you should know that by now.

"Don't get ahead of yourself, we're just going to shower," you say, sauntering to your closet.

His fair warning doesn't stop you from taking off your clothes and he knows he should look away, yet somehow, he finds himself enjoying watching you get undressed.

"Get the shower ready, will you?" You say, standing across the room only in your underwear.

It's like someone else has taken control of his body, he finds himself removing his clothes and wrapping himself in a towel before heading to the bathroom.

He leaves the glass door of the shower stall ajar while he's alternating between hot and cold water to get the water temperature right.

"Is it ready?" You ask, coming into the bathroom wrapped in a white towel.

Changbin checks once again, putting his hand under the water and it warms his skin.

"Yeah, it's ready," he says.

"Okay, I'm coming in," you say, taking off your towel and hanging it on the handle of the shower door.

It's a miracle that Changbin didn't die on the spot when he sees your naked body, but his hands are flying to his eyes, covering them a little too late.

He hears you giggling and it's echoing in the shower stall, blending with the sound of the water running, then you take his hands away.

"Why won't you look at me?" You ask while laughing.

When he opens his eyes, you're standing so close to him and he can feel your body heat in this proximity.

"This is so dangerous," he says through his gritted teeth.

"It's not," you immediately deny.

"Don't be so dramatic!" You hiss at him, grabbing him by the elbow to get under the shower together.

Changbin wonders if he sets the water temperature too high or if it's getting hotter in here. Is the shower stall has been this small or you're standing too close to him?

Either way, you best believe that he doesn't want to get out of there.

-

CHANGBIN: [Exhales air] It's hard. Trust me, it's really hard [Laughs]

-

It's funny to see him getting all tense and Changbin rarely gets tensed.

You feel the need to lighten up the mood and stop ogling at his body because it seems like it's making him even more nervous.

But it's hard not to look at him when he's looking like a greek God, you get to see his naked body with water streaming down the outlines of his muscles.

It takes everything in you not to jump at him, climbing him like a tree.

"Want to use my shampoo?" You ask, shifting your attention to your toiletry bag.

"Yeah," he meekly says.

You hold in your laughter hearing his helpless voice and grab your bottle of shampoo, taking a big dollop of it into the palm of your hand.

Carefully, you lather it onto his hair until it's foaming, then gently massage his scalp with the pads of your fingers.

"You'll do my hair after, okay?" You tell him, making it fair for both of you.

It's hard to focus on the task at hand when his eyes are intensely staring into yours, hinting that he's thinking something else while you're shampooing his hair.

You daringly stare back into his eyes, "your hair is so soft," you compliment with a sweet smile.

He doesn't say anything but takes the bottle of shampoo from your toiletry bag, taking his turn to do the same to you. He starts at the crown of your hair and works his way down from there.

"Am I doing it right?" He asks.

"Yeah."

He massages your hair and does it so gently, aware of the strength he has with those big arms.

"Is it good?"

"Mmh, very good," you shortly answer, your voice dropping lower than you intended to.

"Oh!" He gasps in panic, accidentally dropping a blob of foam on your eyebrow.

You close your eyes to not let it get into your eyes and he tenderly washes it down with water, "You can open your eyes now," he says.

As soon as you open them, you find his eyes and they softly gazing at you but you can see the fiery glints in them. As much as you want him to fold, you must admit he has great self-control.

The shower continues with you lathering him with soap and you don't know how you find yourself pushing him against the wall, but you're using this as an opportunity to explore his glorious body.

You begin at the neck and glide your hands down his shoulders, feeling how broad they are, and how you can rely yourself on them being your place to seek comfort from.

From there, you drag your hands down his chest, feeling the ridges of his muscles under your fingertips, all the while you're holding your gaze with him.

You know you should have stopped at his abdomen, yet you dare yourself to go lower than that. Your hands are going to the sides, holding his waist as your eyes flick down to his semihard.

Gosh, he's even bigger than you pictured it in your head, and in a second, filthy thoughts are flooding your head.

Oh, how you want to touch it, hold it, feel it in your hand and one thing you know for sure is your mouth is certainly bigger than your eyes, you can take his—

"Hey, hey, my eyes are up here," Changbin tells you, tilting your head up to meet his eyes again.

You burst out laughing, getting caught looking at his cock but there's nothing wrong with it, it's not like you haven't caught him doing the same thing.

Changbin turns you around as he takes his turn, lathering the liquid soap on and around your body. You feel his chest against your back as his hands slip under your arms, his hand starts at your neck and across your chest, then brings it down the valley of your breasts.

With his head hanging above your shoulder, you can feel every breath takes, how it's getting heavier and hotter the longer he roams your body.

"You're so soft," he murmurs close to your ear.

You shyly smile at him, putting your hands on his and exploring your body together with him.

"Oh, you're so beautiful," he murmurs with an overwhelming sigh as if he couldn't believe what he's seeing and touching.

Changbin seems to can't help it this time, he presses a kiss on your wet cheek and pulls you close, staying like that for a moment until he lets out a soft laugh.

"I can't stop touching you," he whispers.

You turn around to face him and wash each other under the shower, hands all over each other with the warmth of the water enveloping you both in an unspeakable comfort.

Changbin holds your face with both hands, doing it so tenderly like he's holding a fragile object.

"Oh, I'm in too deep," he says with a giddy smile.

"Apparently, not deep enough," you jokingly say.

He then slowly leans in and places a sweet kiss on your forehead. It's not the kiss you wanted but it's not less intimate than that, it's enough to make your stomach flip.

-

YOU: It's just me and him, it's very intimate... I think it's just so romantic [brightly smiles]

-

This is one of the moments where Changbin thinks that he can see a future with you.

He joins you in front of the sink as you're brushing your teeth, only in your towel and your hair is still wet. He places a kiss on your shoulder after getting his toiletry bag from the drawer.

"That took a lot of uhm... self-restraint," he says, letting you know how hard it was for him.

You stop brushing your teeth and hold his elbow, "You did okay," you playfully say.

You offer your fisted hand for a fistbump, "Good job!"

"Good job!" He says back, bumping his fist against yours.

You finish brushing your teeth while he's about to start but you linger there, hugging him from the side and playing with the hair in the back of his head.

"I love your curls," you tell him.

He leans down on the sink to wash his mouth and wipes it with a towel. He pulls your arms and puts them around him, he then looks straight ahead.

Through the reflection in the mirror, he can see the way you look at him with fondness in your eyes as you say, "My man is so beautiful."

That makes him feel so admired and loved, he gets it now why you demanded attention and affection from him because he likes it whenever you give him all of that.

Moreover, he likes seeing himself with you, it feels as if you belong there with him.

You keep sticking to his back as he walks to the dressing room, he likes when you're clingy to him but you both need to put some clothes on.

He takes your hand and kisses it, "Come on, it's getting late," he says.

You groan as you pull away and pout at him, "at least, let me see that again," you say.

"What?" He asks in confusion.

You grab the front of his towel and open it, your eyes flick to his member. He decides to let you have a look at it as long as you want.

"My goodness!" You gasp, clicking your tongue in awe.

The way your eyes widen and your mouth hangs open, he can't hold himself from laughing.

He then grabs the towel back from you, "Okay, that's enough."

He grabs your shoulders and turns you around, "Go get dressed!" He orders with a slap on your ass.

You yelp in pain and obey him, "Okay, okay," you tell him while walking to your closet across the room

But that's only because he wants to watch you get dressed.

-

CHANGBIN: One of the best nights in the retreat [smirks]

-

Changbin is used to wake up even before the lights on but this morning, it's the other way around, the bright lights wake him up. He had the best sleep of his life last night and it's mostly because of you.

You're lying on your side with your back facing him and he checks if you're still sleeping, "Are you awake, baby?"

There's no answer so he tries to wake you up by placing touches all over you, kisses on your neck and cheeks.

"Baby," he softly calls, nuzzling his nose in your neck.

"Mmh..." you hum, letting him know that you're awake.

Not long after that, you turn around on the bed to face him and look at him with your half-shut eyes.

"Hi, beautiful, angel baby," he says with his thumb caressing your cheek.

There's a crease forming between your eyebrows then you clear your throat before talking, "Where's the kiss?"

He smiles, then leans in close to kiss your nose, "Morning!"

You return the smile and the kiss, putting your lips on his cheek for a long kiss, "Morning," you croak.

Lana lights up in the middle of the room followed by her melodic chime, "Good morning, everyone!"

You both drag yourself out of the duvet and sit on the bed with your backs against the headboard, seeing everyone else is also waking up from their slumber.

"Welcome to your final day in the retreat," Lana says.

Everyone is reacting with a mix of sad coos and cheering, happy and sad at the same time.

"Later on today, I will announce who has won the $133,000 prize fund."

Changbin almost forgot about the money and it's funny that he used to be worried about it, now, it doesn't even matter if he has the chance to win it or not.

"Oh, someone is going to win that money today," Oliver says.

Lana leaves to let everyone get on their days and use the last hours they have in the retreat. You get on his lap and put your hands around him.

Changbin allows himself to put a long kiss on your shoulder and inhales your heavenly scent.

"Who do you think is going to win, babe?" You ask.

He honestly has no idea so he shakes his head, "I don't really care about the money..." he says.

You nod then glare at him, "But we need to win that money."

He brushes your hair aside, "Why?"

"We need the money to book us flights so we can see each other often and have a lot of sex," you explain.

He cracks a laugh at your well-thought plan, you're so cute to him that he can't help but squeeze you like you're his favorite plushie.

-

CHANGBIN: Lana will choose the right person to win the money but you know, Lana... I won't refuse a check from you [laughs]

-

The dressing room is where pieces of information are being transferred and you've been in your Changbin bubble for too long you start to miss chatting with the girls.

"Sabine, baby, the orange looks good on you," you compliment her two-piece bikini.

"Thank you, my darling," she says with a wide grin.

"Who do you think is going to win, girls?" Riley asks.

"Well, obviously, we all want to win," Rita says even though she's busy applying mascara.

You laugh at her too honest answer but she's also right because who in the right mind would refuse $133,000? You have enough money but you won't say no to that.

Rita laughs at her answer, "if it's not me then I think it's Liam," she says.

Riley smiles in approval because, of course, she'll rooting for her man. You think both of them deserve it because they grow as a couple.

"But here's the real question," Sabine says.

Everyone's head turned to the end of the vanity table to look at Sabine.

"What are you going to do with $133,000?" Sabine asks with her eyebrow raised higher than the other.

"New vibrators!" Riley answers without a beat, sending the girls screaming in laughter.

A little after lunch, Lana calls everyone to the cabana, and this time, you're less nervous than you usually get whenever she gathers everyone for an announcement.

"Hello, everyone!"

"Hi, Lana!" Everyone replies in excitement.

"I have been collecting data since you arrived and have now conducted my final analysis," Lana informs.

So many people have shown so much growth during this process and at this point, anyone is eligible to win the money. You're not going to bother to guess, you believe Lana knows which one shows true growth.

"You have all shown great progress but four people in particular stand out for the transformational journeys they have been on."

Four people? You look around and see everyone is getting nervous, probably wondering who those four people are.

"And one of them will take home the prize."

You don't want to get ahead of yourself but you would love for Lana to acknowledge your growth too. You hold Changbin's hand and rest it on your lap.

"The first finalist is..."

There's a slim chance that it's you but you won't mind if it's Changbin, not only that deserve it but his win is going to be your win too.

"Oliver and Sabine."

It's neither of your name but you're happy that the name of one of your closest friends is being called. You happily applaud them as they get up from the sofa.

You reach for Sabine's hand and excitedly shake it, "Congrats, darling!"

Lana continues with her announcement and everyone gets tensed once again.

"The second finalist is..."

Changbin presses a kiss on your shoulder as he tightly holds your hand, reminding you that what you get from this retreat is more valuable than the prize money.

"Liam and Riley."

You also give them a round of applause, they earned it for being the most consistent and strongest couple in the retreat.

But you know what? You're also proud of yourself and at Changbin as well, you went through difficult times and managed to get back together in the end.

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YOU: Yes, I know I deserve the money but I'm not jealous, not envious... I'm genuinely happy for them.

-

Changbin can't hide the sheer disappointment that Lana didn't call his name or yours.

Then he looks at you and your smile, reminding him that the money is not the main thing of this retreat, it's what he gained during the process.

Changbin learned that he should value your thoughts and opinions, he learned that he doesn't always have to be in control of everything and that it's okay to let himself be vulnerable around you.

He came here not expecting to find someone like you and here he is, coming home with the most beautiful girl that he likes so much.

Changbin doesn't care what anyone says, he's winning.

The voting for the winner takes the whole afternoon and everyone goes straight to get ready for the last hurrah.

The dressing room is vivacious tonight, everyone is wearing white to fit the theme. Changbin puts on his white fitted shirt and dark slacks, styling his hair in the bathroom because it's hard to focus when everyone is pacing around the room.

You come to find him there, sitting on the edge of the bathtub to let him finish styling his hair first.

"Babe, how do you fit all those muscles in that shirt?" You ask with a puzzled look on your face.

He chuckles, almost spraying his hand with hairspray instead of his hair. It takes him a moment to focus back on his hair.

When he's done with his hair, he takes your hands and takes a good look at your appearance, dressed in a knitted white dress that hugged your body perfectly.

"You look good in white," he says.

"Mmh," you hum in agreement and hug him.

Changbin kisses your neck and then your shoulder, "you'll look good on our wedding day," he playfully says.

You giggle and look at him, "Put a ring on it first, sir!"

The staff ordered everyone to start heading to the beach to where they'll shoot the last part of the filming. Changbin keeps you steady as you walk in the sand in your heels.

"Ooh... champagne, yes!" Rita exclaims, spotting bottles of champagne sitting on the long wooden benches.

Changbin opens one of them, popping it open so that it fizzles out and drips down the bottle. He fills the glasses and you distribute them to the people sitting on the same bench with you.

"Let's have a toast for Lana!" Nico initiates it.

Everyone raises their glasses in the air and chants in unison, "To Lana!"

-

CHANGBIN: I'm going home with the most beautiful, the most attractive, the sexiest girl in the retreat, I couldn't ask for more.

YOU: He's just trying to get lucky tonight.

CHANGBIN: Yes. Yes, I am [nods]

YOU: [Laughs]

-

By the time you finish your first glass of wine, the finalists finally enter the party and everyone is welcoming them with cheering and applause.

Lana chimes and it's for the last time, ever.

"It is time to announce the winner of the $133,000 prize."

The two couples are standing, awaiting their fate and whether they will come home with the money or not.

"Your fellow retreat guests have voted and I have the results," Lana announces.

You're aware of how deserving everyone here but you voted for Sabine and Oliver. Maybe it's a bit biased because she's closest to you out of everyone here besides Changbin but it's also because you knew their journey as a couple.

"The person leaving with $133,000 is..."

You look at Sabine and have your fingers crossed for her, feeling proud of her whether they win the money or not.

"Oliver and Sabine," Lana finally announces.

-

YOU: Sabine and I were the first to enter the villa and look at her now, she won! I couldn't be happier for her [squeals]

-

Changbin watches as you break into a run to hug Sabine for her win while Changbin has to patiently wait to get his turn to congratulate the couple.

"Congrats, man!" Changbin says as he exchanges a quick hug with Oliver.

"Thanks, Bin!" Oliver says with a grin plastered on his face.

He hugs Sabine next, earnestly congratulating her on the win.

The staff hands them a new bottle of champagne to pop open together, Sabine and Oliver are bouncing on their feet as they're spraying everyone with the wine.

Lana chimes in for one last time for one last announcement, "Your time at the retreat is over and the rules no longer apply."

This is the moment he's been waiting for, Changbin has to part the group to look for you and finds you standing next to Sabine.

"Come here!" He says with his hands gesturing you to come closer.

You're smiling as you walk up to him and go straight into his arms, "This better be good," you mutter to him.

Changbin may have waited long for this but he has to calm himself down, he wants to make the most of this kiss knowing how much he deserves it.

He places his hands on each one of your jaws and takes a moment to look at your face, a face that he can't get tired of looking at and admire.

"Are you going to kiss me or not?" You impatiently say.

There's only one right way to answer you and that is by kissing you, kissing you like it's the first time all over again. He can feel the sparks flying and the chemistry is electrifying, making him feel so alive.

When he lets go, he keeps his head close to yours, trying to imprint this special moment in his head as one that he'll remember forever.

Most importantly, Changbin is now ready to give you everything you want.

-

YOU: From day one, I always knew that we have a connection, but this retreat helps us gain that emotional connection and deepen it.

CHANGBIN: And it's only going to get deeper now.

YOU: [Looks at Changbin]

CHANGBIN: Like... literally.

YOU: [Bursts out laughing]

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I would like to request spicy hcs about the TO and ANE routes when they get an accidental b0ner, could be caused by the reader or a natural one. Thank you, bless your brain...

ELDARYA; routes when they get a boner (NSFW)

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𝐂𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐭: TO & New era routes, NSFW, them dealing with a boner. ↝ 𝐂𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐨𝐫'𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐞: Thank you for blessing my brain and I hope it worked decently to satisfy your wishes… Sorry if there are any misspellings! (let me know if it happens)

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EZAREL

Whenever he accidentally gets hard he tries to act normal and subtly hide it by crossing his legs or place something on top of his lap to not make it too notorious. He will refuse to stand up by making up excuses like “let me chill for a bit, I am so tired from work..”

Sometimes you wouldn’t even know when it happens because he can act like nothing happens, pressing his hips against any furniture to hide it as he talks to you and others. But there is no way he is letting anyone know that he got hard because his freaking brain decided to at that exact moment.

If he sees that it doesn’t go or his thoughts weren’t too innocent it’s time for him to get a cold shower and probably take advantage of the previous moment in which he is alone in the bathroom.

The hint that might let you know that he needs help is when he gets touchy. When he holds you by the waist, when he plays with the extreme of your shirt or your belt…

He gets constant morning woods. He sleeps with gray sweatpants and is a grower himself, so even he would get surprised by waking up at the morning with almost another arm on his body. 

It also happens with naps, even though he tends to grind himself against your ass when he gets hard after a nap. Obviously after checking that you are awake and that you let him do so.

He would literally say the “that’s not my knee”

You aren’t aware of how many times Ezarel would have grind himself against the mattress in the morning when you weren’t there.

He practically whines when you press your hips with his as you cuddle. He tries to not be so close, because he is aware that it might be awkward if he got hard being glued to you. And probably because he’d get handsy at having you as his small spoon.

The pillow is his main friend to hide his boners.

NEVRA

You are the first one to know when he is aroused as he’d playfully pull you into his lap. And even if it wasn’t with any intentions at first, suddenly there would be an annoying bulge right under you.

You’d see him following others’ conversations, but his hands gripping your hips tightly as his fingers caress you very slowly. He tries to keep himself distracted but the thoughts about what he could do to solve his state only make him even more excited.

Drinking from your blood makes his cock twitch. He loves your taste, the way you gasp when he bites your neck even if he is being really gentle… god, he adores how you might squirm under him. It will be a plus if you press your leg right in between his legs, where you will check how he gets progressively hard.

He is used to being hard, even if sometimes it’s frustrating for him to not be able to go to the bathroom and pleasure himself. But it’s alright, he also likes to wait for the best part (he waits until he gets a chance to drag you away).

Nevra can’t resist your teasing. Whenever you caress his abs, you untie his belt to make him more comfortable or even caressing his thigh already makes him sigh, clearly aroused. He’d ask “what are you doing, pretty one?” as he looks down at your hand, smirking. “Oh, simply making you comfortable” you’d mutter, seeing how his gaze showed a hint of desire on it. You’d feel how he grabs your hand and slides it down towards his clothed erection; “there’s where I want you.”

He understands that sometimes you might not be in the mood to help him, just as he sometimes isn’t in the mood and his dick decides to act on its own. 

VALKYON

He really doesn’t put much effort into hiding it. It’s a natural body reaction after all, why make such a scene about it? He can walk around with an erection without really caring about it.

He might be uncomfortable by the fact that his poor dick is making his pants tight and it can even hurt at some point. Sometimes, as you two are in public, it might happen accidentally, and he squirms around and adjusts his pants to try to avoid the uncomfortable pressure. He isn’t aware of his cock awakening until he feels the brush onto his pants.

He remains calm about it, not a big deal. He’d never hide it because he isn’t really embarrassed. He just has to wait calmly for it to go.

Sometimes he might get hard as you give him kisses on bed, or subtle caresses on his body while you are in public. The moment your hand brushes up and down on his back, slowly, brushing it so gently he’s gonna sigh and look at you with a little grin.

Expect his hand also giving subtle caresses on the skin of your thigh, sometimes adding pressure but generally keeping gentle and melting caresses. Hearing the change in your breathing thanks to his teasing makes him proud, and his bulge is firm and visible thanks to you.

And about the kisses… he loves when you shower him with kisses as his hands explore your body. He’d groan softly and pull you closer to embrace you as you kiss his jaw. He likes to brush a little against your thigh and see your flustered expression. “What’s wrong? If it’s bothering you… maybe you could do something about it..” He speaks with a deep, low yet hoarse voice.

He isn’t gonna offer you to help him out with his erections because he doesn’t want to make you uncomfortable after all. He prefers if you are the one offering it first.

LEIFTAN

His tight ass pants make it really easy to notice any change on his dick, he is sometimes scared of it accidentally twitching. So the moment he feels his pants tight, he disappears. Like, almost literally. You won’t find him anywhere until his dick calms down. He locks in the bathroom and takes deep breaths until he is prepared to go out.

He might find himself trapped in the situation of not being able to escape to the bathroom and having to deal with a boner in public, a thing that makes him panic a little. He stares deeply into an object and ignores everything until it passes. When you ask him, he wouldn’t even notice you until you shake his arm or something. 

Leiftan is too shy in this context to confess to you that he has a problem under his pants.

He barely gets erections and he needs certain time to form a full boner, which only happens when the heat in between you two is too big to handle. 

Whenever you decide to give attention to his dick, he becomes a gasping mess. His breath gets completely shaky and soft grunts leave his lips every now and then. How can he not get excited if you are pleasing him like that.

The most common situation where he gets accidental boners with you is when you two bathe together. The relaxing warmth of the water, the way your body is pressed against his as you two relax, it has something that makes him feel close to you, to feel intimate and connected. That is a feeling that truly makes him feel excited, to the point even his lower friend can be the evidence.

He feels guilty of getting hard and mutters “I swear I wasn’t thinking anything weird.. I-it happened alone.” (and poor creature... he is being honest)

LANCE 

One day you were having dinner in the dining hall with him and a few of your guard mates. The environment was alive and amusing, giving the vibes of finally being able to relax after stressful work. Your boyfriend though… he was resting his forehead over his fist and had his eyes closed, breathing deeply. “Lance..? What’s wrong?” You muttered to him and his reaction was simply a sigh, leaning into your ear to confess; “Something just woke up in the worst moment.”

His other hand was right over his lap. He wasn’t doing anything suspicious, he isn’t a pervert! He was actually trying to hide it somehow. He is embarrassed.

He doesn’t get erections too often due to the stress he carries on his shoulders. The moment he feels his cock starting to grow, he immediately starts thinking of negative things such as dead things… heh…

If he’s standing up, he simply hides it by putting his hands in his pockets to make it less obvious.

Even if he gets hard when you two are alone, he is still getting embarrassed and quiet all of sudden. You could be talking and you suddenly hear him inhaling shakily and rolling on the bed to give you his back and groan “no way…” as he curls up, hugging the pillow to hide the bulge on his pants. That reaction had you laughing for a few minutes. It’s easy to tease him when he is like that because he truly gets flustered.

Making out sessions work for him, as he will get semi-awake and needy.

He is sexually frustrated, and getting boners due to the arousal is one of the things that can make him lose control. He tries to control himself though. But a horny Lance has barely nothing to do with the casual Lance.

His pupils get dilated asf when he is hard.

If you currently offer to help him expect a no at first place, even though his body will search for you unconsciously. Do not tease him much over pants or the stain of his cum will be very difficult to wash after it.

He’s scared of you thinking of him as a pervert or something.

MATHIEU

He is young and his hormones are still too revolted to the point he can get a boner easily. There are times in which he isn’t aware of it, but when he is aware, he tries to hide it by distracting himself instead of focusing on it. He feels exposed whenever he gets hard, so he tries to be close to you, sitting beside you and simply talking to ignore it. 

Sometimes he ties a sweatshirt around his waist and focuses on doing sport. If it doesn’t work, he might think of the most disgusting thing ever (probably a gore manga he read a long time ago that still makes him shiver).

He can get hard from kissing you, hugging you, and not exactly because of any horny reason; just because he is so excited that even his dick wants to say hi too.

He is scared of getting an unwanted boner as you sit on his lap, but it is most likely to happen. When you give him the confused look he whispers “uh… that wasn’t supposed to happen.”

Mathieu also has his hormonal times which can last for days. He might stare at you with his lips slightly parted, completely out of reality. He can only think about how good you are looking, how would it feel to bury his head on your chest now as he hugs your hips… and damn, another boner.

He deals with it in a humorous way so it is less awkward. It’s normal, it’s just how bodies work. 

When you get to be on Earth for a long time, he is definitely gonna have dates with you to cuddle and watch movies. And more than once things would get heated up since he teases you a lot, making you squirm and accidentally brush against him. And oh, surprise! That’s gonna cause something to wake up inside of his pants.

Mathieu definitely puts the netflix excuse more than once.

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disobey - park sunghoon.

pairing. dom!sunghoon x f!reader

warnings. smut (minors strictly dni), explicit language, unprotected sex (both receiving), use of nicknames, dirty talk, suggestive, pussy slapping, ass slapping, slight choking. please tell me if i need to add more.

a/n. just downbad for sunghoon. hbu? lol the last half of this is just fluff, enjoy.

“s- sunghoon, mmh— please..” you whined, the way he was ramming his cock into you with his all on how you disobeyed him today, you didn’t know what to do but to squirm and cry underneath him.

you were on your second orgasm but he wouldn’t let you be on your third as you were very close to reaching your high. “flirting with jay and heeseung while i wasn’t there? fucking whore,” he spat, his one hand was wrapped around your neck, he had no intention on hurting you, but to put you in your place.

“i- i wasn’t flirt—” you squealed as a hard smack landed on your ass.

on a side note, you weren’t flirting with heeseung and jay at the new years party. you told the both of them to come up to you while you were alone, there was a creepy guy who kept making you uncomfortable. god knows where sunghoon went, and him getting mad at you is normal, but you’ve never seen him like this at all.

“taking my cock like a fucking slut,” he said, bruising your pussy, you could feel him twitch inside you, knowing hes close as well. the sight of your boobs bouncing on every thrust he makes, turning him on even more.

“who do you belong to? hm?” you were too tired to respond, to make it even worse, you were so, so close.

“i said, who the fuck do you belong to.”

“y- you.. only you.” you whimpered, managing to finally say something, as the knot feeling in your stomach began to tighten.

“good girl.” and goes another slap on your throbbing clit.

“hoon, please let me cum..” you begged, holding onto his shoulders for more stability. “go ahead, baby. cum on my cock like the good fucking girl you are.” a few more movements of his hips and you came on his length. sunghoon doing the same, painting your walls with his seed.

the room filled with your moans and his little groans as you both came at the same time. he plopped onto you and the both of you stayed in the same position for a while. his breaths fanning your skin.

after a little bit, sunghoon stood up and you sighed as he pulled out of you. your cum mixed with his running down your thigh, he quickly grabbed tissues to wipe everything.

without saying anything, he picked you up from the bed, into the bathroom, placing you on the counter. he helped you put on a clean t-shirt and new panties before doing his own. your hair was a mess so you decide to take care of that while he does everything else for you.

confused on why he was acting this way after taking all his anger out on you. but you let him anyway.

“..i’m sorry,” you apologised. “about earlier, at the party.” mumbling, looking down at your hands, too scared to even look at him. but he completely ignored you.

slightly watching his every move as he was changing. you shrieked as he picked you up once again, gently putting you on the bed, tucking you in with the blanket before he does the same, laying down beside you.

his back was turned to you, but you needed his cuddles again. you quickly sat up and put your chin on his arm, signalling that you want his warmth.

“sleep, y/n.” sunghoon spoke, “please.. ?” you pouted, he ignored you again. you decided that there was no use and he was still mad at you, so you gave up and hope for the best in the morning. laying back down again, turning your back to his too.

tears were now pooling in your eyes, covering your mouth trying your best to not make any noise. you instantly wiped your tears as you felt a pair of arms wrapping around your waist.

“don’t cry, hm?” he said, caressing your arm. you immediately turned to face his way and began to uncontrollably sob on his chest. “ ‘m sorry if i went too hard on you today.” he placed a kiss on your head before stroking your hair.

you hummed at his words, your cries stopping you from talking. “shh.. i’m sorry, okay?” he says, reassuring you. you admit that he did go too hard on you today since he didn’t let you explain everything.

“look at me,” he demanded, putting his finger under your chin to lift your head up, staring at your teary, glossy eyes and red cheeks. “you’re even pretty when you cry,” he chuckles, and you smiled, still crying.

he placed one last kiss on your forehead, then your cheek, then on your lips. you nuzzled your head into his neck, and the both of you dozed off.

remembering not to disobey him again.

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Winter Mornings

It's the time of year when snow covers the ground, and the icy winds leaves your face stinging. How do your loves act during the darkest and coziest season?

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Featuring: Thoma, Tartaglia, Kaedehara Kazuha, and Kaveh

Thoma, The Protector From Afar

Winter in Inazuma tends to be rather mild. It doesn't reach the same freezing temperatures as Mondstadt and, while it does snow, often is easy to manage overall. It is the first winter you and Thoma are spending in your new home.

It isn't uncommon to go to sleep with Thoma in your arms and wake up with him gone. It's just the nature of his work, it requires him to be at the Kamisato Estate before the sun was. He would do his best to not disturb you as he got ready for the day ahead. On his way out, he would set up the kettle and leave a teabag in a cup, just to make it easier for you to get your morning drink.

He's gone most of the day, but you can occasionally run into him as he does errands for the Kamisato Clan. A chance meeting by the food vender during your lunchbreak becomes and invitation for you to accompany him as he gathers the items on his list. Thoma makes sure to get you a small treat before heading back to work, wishing you a good rest of the day at work.

By the time he comes back, Thoma's boots are caked in snow and his face rosy from the cold. He took some additional time before coming in to make sure the sidewalk in front of your home was shoveled and salted. He is tired, but seeing your face again puts the pep back in his step.

He helps prepare dinner with you, chopping up vegetables as you two chat, catching up with eachother. You find the feather light touch of his hands on your hips and his chin on your shoulder while you stir the pot, him listening intently as you talk about what you did that day. He doesn't get to spend much time with you during the day, so evenings hold a special place in his heart.

Thoma's body is warm, both naturally and because of the pyro vision on his belt. The two of you wind down as you sit on the couch doing your various hobbies. Thoma loves physical affection, so often times he's leans against you as he knits, simply enjoying your company.

Bedtime comes all too soon for his liking, but it's better than when you weren't living together. Now, he gets to go to sleep cuddling you every night. There is no more sneaking around the Kamisato Estate to spend the night with you or cold nights where sleep evaded him. Your nights are now just the feeling of his arms around you and your shared warmth ensuring a comfortable rest after a long day's work.

Tartaglia, The 11th of The Fatui Harbingers

He's begged, damn near pleaded, that you come to Snezhnaya for the winter holidays. He has been with you for a while, and he wants more than to spend time with both his family and you. The mental image of you opening presents alongside his siblings makes his heart swell. Plied with honeyed words and the promises of him warming you up personally (which earned him flushed cheeks and a halfhearted scolding for saying that in public), you agree to go to Snezhnaya in the middle of winter.

The first thing he does when you two arrive in Morepesok was introduce you to his family. Teucer is practically glued to your side as Anton asks you a dozen questions about what it's like where you are from. Tartaglia's mother welcomes you with open arms, telling you all about how excited she is to meet the person her son wrote so much about. It's a lovely time and Tartaglia enjoys every second of it.

Tartaglia eventually says goodbye to his family and, hand tightly holding yours, walks you to the cabin he rented for the duration of his visit. It is already filled with goods, everything needed to make your favorite meals and to keep you both entertained during the evening.

He has planned out several activities for you to do together. He shows you how to ice fish one afternoon with Tonia. Another evening is occupied with dinner at his family's house. Morning, however, start the same. Wrapped up in thick, soft blankets, the two of you have a slow morning, enjoying the breakfast he made. He finds you so cute when you are all bundled up.

The Holiday Market in Morepesok market is a wonderful sight. Lights are stringed up around the town and people hawk their wares. Tartaglia leads you through the market, arm wrapped around you as you both delight over the festivities. He buys you anything he sees your eyes linger on, finding satisfaction in how much you like the hand pies an older woman sells.

He's a perfect gentleman throughout all of this, chatting with people he grew up with, showing you where he went to school or the shop where he got his first fishing pole from. There is the wisp of nostalgia in his words, eager to share every part of his childhood with you.

Eventually, the cold starts to get to you well before the dancing starts, so Tartaglia goes to get you a cup of something warm while you wait by a torch. You were looking around the street when you made eye contact with an older man across the street. He looks like your love but battered by a hard life. His heavy gaze lingers on you, carrying a sense of pity that left you more unsettled than it should. It lasts just for a moment before he turns around, walking away.

Later, when once more dining with Tartaglia's family, you see the strange man again. This time, its him when he's younger, smiling in his wedding picture. Tartaglia's mother apologizes for her husband again, saying a fisherman's work is never done.

Kaedehara Kazuha, The Scarlet Leaves Pursuing Wild Waves

As a traveler, the experience of winter is something that varies wildly for Kazuha. Captain Beidou's ship will brave any storm and any ice float. With an experienced hand at the wheel, the Alcor continues its watch over the seas even as the rest of the world hides away from the ice.

You joined the Alcor's crew during this journey to Mondstadt's harbor.

Either with you deciding to travel with him full time, or if this is a rare occasion that you can accompany him on the Alcor, mornings with Kazuha were slow. Despite his penchant for waking up with the sun, Kazuha still makes sure you wake up with a kiss on your lips and a soft-spoken greeting.

Even though he woke up before you, winter inspired him to keep an ear out for when you were getting closer to waking up. A few minutes before you finally open your eyes, Kazuha sneaks back into your shared hammock in the crew quarters. You wake up with his chin on the crown of your head and his steady heartbeat, almost as if he was always there.

His smile is endearing as he coaxes you out of bed. The ship is already busy by the time you wake up. The deck is cleaned, and the crew is making themselves busy, checking to see if the ship has any minor damage from stray hunks of ice or the daily tasks to keep the Alcor running. With ease, Kazuha helps you get breakfast and talking about what he was doing while you were asleep.

Kazuha, with his soft manner and warm touch, manages to convince you to join him in the crow's nest as he keeps an eye on the Horizen on Captain Beidou's request. When you get up there, you realize that his beloved wind is colder up here. You have once more been bamboozled into being his personal heater as he drags you close and sticks his hands up your shirt.

Despite him stealing your warmth, your time with Kazuha is relaxing. Up in the crow's nest, it's so easy to have intimate conversations with your love. From poetry to hobbies and even him trying to teach you to listen to the wind, you feel closer than ever to him.

There is so much teasing from the crew when you two finally come down. Kazuha just smiles, happy to have you here with him. Kazuha's home is the world and the open sea, but having his heart with him brings him a warm feeling that he cannot describe. The look on your face when you saw the northern lights for the first time is something he wrote many poems on in an effort to immortalize it.

Kaveh, The Empyrean Reflection

Kaveh has never seen snow in his life before, so when you showed him you had rented a cabin in Northern Fontaine, he was very excited. Winter has always been a large inspiration to architectural design, with buildings in colder regions taking on unique design features to keep their inhabitants warm. However, when he got there, it was a completely different story.

Kaveh is another lover who would cling to you like you were the last ember left in the hearth. It doesn't matter if it's barely sbelow freezing or if the temperature is in the negatives, Kaveh will act like he'll get frostbite if he's not sharing your body heat.

He's rather active once he gets comfortable with the cold. Bundled up in various jackets, scarves and layers of clothing (some of which he definitely stole from you), he's ready to explore the wonders of winter.

The snow-covered trees, frozen water, and even your footprints in the snow are really inspiring to Kaveh. While he has studied architectural styles from colder nations, being out in a snowy winter allows him to contextualize them. You're treated to long explanations and theories he has about why certain styles were developed and how he could take inspiration from them in his next work.

Kaveh's favorite part about this trip is just how long you stay in bed. Back in Sumeru, he would have to beg and pled for you to stay in bed to keep cuddling him. With it so cold outside, he wakes up long after sunrise with you still snuggled in his arms.

With your head resting against his chest, shielding you from the cold, Kaveh feels so wanted and comfortable. Please press a kiss into his skin, his heart will overflow.

Kaveh loves simple domestic moments with you the most and winter gives him the perfect opportunity to snuggle with his muse and enjoy the serenity of a quiet winter morning. He misses the rainforest and the calm of the desert, but he can see the unique beauty of a winter day.

[sunlighthroughthe-ashes]

this episode was slightly clunky in places, but let me tell you what i loved.

i ADORED the scenes of them alone in baek inhyuk's house — one of the best qualities of a well-made k-drama is how beautifully it can capture the holiness of commonplace events — the "precious intimacy of ordinary things." sunjae drying sol's hair for her is an excellent example — so much love in such a small gesture.

sunjae's ridiculous attempts to get into the guest-room with sol were BEYOND adorable — it's also such a nice touch by the writers to show that despite the otherworldliness and rarity of his love for sol, sunjae is still a 20-year old boy at heart. he does stupid (albeit unbelievably cute) things. and that's okay. that makes him even more endearing.

the entire segment when they're talking in the guest-room while cuddling was heart-touching. sunjae wishing that she never has to go back, that tomorrow never arrives, sol committing his sleeping face to memory because she knows she's going to pretend to leave the next morning. she's going to have to let him go. there's this japanese phrase that's very popular: "mono no aware —" that describes these scenes perfectly. it means the bittersweet beauty of transience.

the moment is full of it — the lovely ache of passing time — because of course tomorrow arrives. it has to. but that doesn't make the memories matter any less, or hold less weight.

it's like the cherry blossoms sunjae sees wilting earlier in the episode — they may bloom only for a moment, but the petals pinken in the mind for months after; still fresh.

that's the melancholy charm of their love.

my heart went out to sol during this episode. she looked happiness in the face and decided to give up even the little time she had left with it, just to save sunjae. she's risking life and limb to protect him, (again), only to have her actions further compound their fate.

greek tragedies (and shakespearean plays) operate on the same principle — it is often the core aspect of your personality, and the best of your intentions; that leads you down the dark road of your destiny. (eg: oedipus, hamlet, etc). in sol's case, this is the selflessness of her love for sunjae, and vice versa. they both spent this episode trying their level best to protect each other. it's not going to end well. (but since this was marketed as a rom-com, i'm hoping the actual ending of the show will be happy.)

also, the way byeon woo-seok's face just crumples when sol runs off the train? the mute agony in his eyes — how his expression just splinters into pieces? it's a masterclass in acting. he genuinely deserves an award for this role.

i am not going to talk about the promo because i have been traumatized enough. i will see you all next monday.

[sweetfire01]

The little little lamb (Daddy!Simeon)

Tw: forced age regression, mention of diaper wetting and change. Words:2.300

"Aww baby, are you having fun?" Simmyeon asked you, leaning towards the baby box where you were currently sitting to keep you safe from the enormous dangers of the house. Nope. You were imprisoned. Locked up. You really wanted to throw those stupid stuffed animals that surrounded you in his face, erasing that condescending smile. However, the best you could do at the moment was turn your head away and cross your arms, "What's the matter, little lamb? Mh? Maybe you need a change?". You tried to get away from his hands as he was checking the front of your diaper but, with that strange drug still circulating in your body, you could only move your legs just a little and whine behind your paci.

Simeon's face frowned: it was almost lunchtime but you were still dry. He changed you a lot of hours ago, just after you woke up that morning. He knew you had a hard time figuring out when you need to relase yourself: In the last 2 days since you awaken from the comatose state, you were always squirming when he asked if you had to go potty or when he pressed on your bladder. You were simply too young to realize you had to pee! But nothing he couldn't deal with.

The angel picked you up under the arms and pulled you out of your box to head towards the sofa. He started shushing and bouncing you on his arm as he walked, seeing you start wiggling. Poor thing! You must have an hard time for not having relieve yourself yet, perhaps it's also because your Simmy had been so busy cleaning the house and your adorable little onesies, he hadn't time to play with you. You were probably starting to feel hungry too! "Shh, it's alright little one, i got you". He layed you on his lap and started rubbing your belly "Soon this bad feeling will go away and then you can have some nums-nums in this little cute tummy." his hand starting to descend towards your swollen bladder "And then we can read a story." A kiss on the top of your head as he began to push gently. "And color together. And cuddle..."

You really wanted to hold on, to keep some dignity at least for a few more minutes, but it took you less than 10 seconds to soak the diaper as you started sobbing, the pacifier falling out of your mouth. You hated getting wet and you didn't even want to imagine if you had to... do something else. (If you hadn't been there right now, you would have thanked the heaven for still being drugged when he took care of your dirty diaper yesterday). And above all, you couldn't stand the change that would follow. It was always humiliating and this time it made no exceptions. He took you back to your nursery room, lying you on the changing table and started removing diaper tapes while playfully kissing your belly. You really hated how he always acted so cheerfully, praising you for being such a good little lamb (if he just stop to drug you...), telling you about this adorable pattern (no, those stupid diapers. Aren’t. Cute.), commenting on the way your little tooes kicked because yes, those are your footsies! (Thanks a lot, but you already knew it and were just trying to hit him in the face). Unfortunately, you had to lay there and take it.

Simeon was glad you calmed down a bit during the change: it seems that all those silly talks worked! Mentally taking note to use them more often, he took you back down to the kitchen to make your delicious bottle of milk.

 During your stay in the Devildom, you had found many... peculiar and not very desirable looking foods.There were some which you didn't even dare to try; now you would have given anything to eat them. The teat of the bottle had been pressing against your mouth for a minute but this time you really wanted to fight! Tightening your lips even more, you stare at Simmyeon with a defiant look, not having the intention to let him win this time. You knew the milk was drugged and you didn't want to find yourself on your crib, watching fuzzy spots move as you drooled behind your paci. But the archangel obviously didn't recognize it as an act of defiance. Rather...

Poor little thing. The bottle was too uncomfortable for you. You were probably not used to the rubber nipple, you preferred to be nursed! However the milk produced by angels was not suitable for humans, it would only harm them and Simmy would not let her little lamb get a bad tummy ache, oh no. Who knows which very dangerous effects there would have been, your little body couldn't resist something as powerful as it. But he didn't bother explaining it to you, you were too young to understand such a speech and he wanted to find a way to make this fussy baby comfortable. He repositioned so you were no longer lying but sitting on his lap, leaning back slightly and with your head on his chest, his arm behind you to support your back. Mhh, you still weren't taking the bottle. On one hand he was glad you weren't crying like this morning; on the other, it had been much easier to put it in your open mouth and, after squeezing it a little, to convince you to swallow the contents, warm drops that filled you. He tried to think of something else, maybe you needed something that simulated a human mother's breast, that you could touch and hold with your little hands. Could it be a solution? Perhaps if you closed your eyes - or if he covered them for you - you wouldn't be able to tell the difference, he might even put his finger in your mouth to hide the rubbery teat. And then an idea struck him. Putting aside the bottle for a moment, he lowered the arm that was holding you, laying you down on the sofa and took off his turtleneck and shirt, leaving him with the chest uncovered. He wasn't sure if skin-to-skin contact would calm you down but he wanted to try. And it seemed to hit the nail on the head when, after repositioning yourself as before, you whimpered with joy with a lovely "Wah" and started suckling.

 You found yourself on your crib, watching fuzzy spots move as you drooled behind your paci. Again. You couldn't believe yourself. You were doing so well, seeing even the worry and uncertainty in the angel's eyes. But when he took off his clothes and placed you back on his chest, you really feared that he would make you…nursing. It was a stupid thought, Simmy - no, Simeon - was a male and there was no way he could produce milk. However, his nipple so close to your face sent you into panic and you didn't even have time to ask “What?'" that immediately, like this morning, he took the opportunity to push the bottle into your open mouth. And now you were here. Nap time, but you didn't have all this desire to sleep, not with the feeling of sinking into emptiness as soon as you closed your eyes, not with the anxiety that afflicted you, thinking about what the archangel would do to you next. At the moment you couldn't resist to him, your legs felt too heavy to even move them a few inches, let alone try to hit him; your mouth and tongue were numb, you couldn't articulate a simple word, just whimpers and cries which Simmy would have found adorable anyway. Simeon. You feel helpless in this situation, you would found too much comfort just from the blanket, as the childish (but also adult!) belief that it could reject every monster... too bad you didn't have any in your crib. In fact, there weren't even any sheets or pillows, just the firm white mattress you were lying on now. It really wasn't like you felt cold, the sun was shining all the time here, the temperatures were always just above average and the comfy onesies and socks you were wearing kept you warm. You just wanted a consolation, a barrier that could protect you, even for an instant, from the outside world. It was indeed a childish wish but you dared anyone to think otherwise if they had spent too these two days here as a baby prisoner. Moreover... slowly turning your head you could glimpse between the bars of the crib, with some difficulty, Simmy's bed. Cushions! Oh, to have one right now. You could only imagine how comfortable it would have been to rest your head on it, as you slowly fell into a confused limbo. the noises and images mixed together as your thoughts drifted away.

 Simmy watched you sleep peacefully in the pram sucking the paci, confirming the comments of the angel he had just met. Only your little head was visible, the rest of the body was hidden under the light blanket. You weren't yet used to the cool breeze blowing outside and he didn't want to risk you catching a cold. He was also not worried about the danger of the blanket, he was right there next to you keeping an eye on you and helping you anytime! Moreover, the strap on your stomach would secure you in place, your hands, even if free, would not be able to take it off. He shivered a little at all the horrible things he had read about how human infants were so fragile: if they tried to roll over on the crib, the sheets, pillows, blankets, even a soft mattress would become deadly traps, causing them to suffocate. When he found out about this, he nearly passed out as he imagined you terrified, with the cloth over your mouth impeding your attempts to scream and call out forhim. And then the sobs would stop as, with your airways blocked, you slowly died. He had been so shocked by this image he had come down to see you, making sure you were safe and sound, alive, deciding to anticipate your adoption by a lot. The sooner he take you away from all the dangers surrounding those two worlds, the better. And SIDS was no joke! After greeting the angel, he regained pushing the pram, continuing the walk. It was after about twenty minutes that he saw your little eyes open wearily, probably the loud baby talk of another brother had woken you up. Simmy really wanted to strangle him with his cape - he warned him to keep his voice down! - but your still half-asleep gaze was making his heart melt. Also, he didn't want to show you such an awful thing.

Rubbing your eyes, it took you a while to figure out what was going on. First, you were in a cozy position, lying on a softer surface with your head slightly elevated. Very comfortable. Second, there was a blanket over you. Very cool. Third, you were moving your arm and hand. They felt a bit heavy, but still you could handle it. Very good. You looked up from your limb. Fourth, there was your caregiver kidnapper and another unknown dude cooing at you. This, however, was not good. You screamed.

 It was bedtime. The shutters were closed to block the perennial sun, the not too much dark room would allow little lamb to sleep. The angel spent the small reading lamp on the nearby table and continued rocking in the rocking chair. He had just finished reading you a book, a very nice one about a man who imitated animal sounds. It was a pretty easy and fun subject to start learning Latin. And if you were lucky enough to meet a dog or kitten during your walk tomorrow, you could practice speaking by saying their name! He imagined how adorable you would be, pointing at the canis "ni-ni" all excited (and hopefully you wouldn't be scared of other people). He smiled at the thought as he stroked your back.

You were tired. Physically and mentally. Reading that stupid children's book had been exhausting. Especially with Simmy pointing to each drawing and telling you things like "Hic est agnus, just like you. Do you know what it says? Baa-baa. Try to say it with the man. Baa-Baa." It went on like this until the end of the book. At some point you decided it was enough and tried to kick yourself off the chair. Anything to not pronounce the moo-moo of the "bovis". Sadly your loving angel only pulled you tighter as soon as he saw you starting to squirm. So nothing, you had to stand there and hear the stupid, silly voice. On the other hand, the back massage was really soothing and you found yourself melting in his arms. 

You remained in that position for some time, the chair rocking back and forth, lulling you to dreamland. Your eyes were closed but the archangel knew you weren't fully asleep yet. After planting a light kiss on the crown of your head, he cleared his throat and began softly singing an old lullaby.

   Scite puer, mellite puer, nate unice dormi.    Claude tenelle oculos, conde tenelle genas.      Ipse sopor "non condis, ait, non claudis ocellos?”.    En cubat ante tuos Angelus Custos lassa pedes.    Languidulos, bene habet, conditque et claudit    ocellos Agnus, et roseo est fusus in ore sopor.    Aura veni, foveasque meum placidissima natum:    An strepitant frondes? Tam levis aura venit.        Scite puer, mellite puer, nate unice, dormi,    Aura fovet flatu, patris amata pectore.

Feeling your breathing get slower and deeper, Simmy picked you up and placed you in the crib. Everything was going well. You were safe and loved. No more dangers. He could finally sleep peacefully too. He laid down in his bed, facing your craddle. He smiled seeing you sleeping so peacefully. He probably wouldn't have been so pleased if he knew you were dreaming about the demon brothers, Devildom and other inappropriate things. But he didn't need to find out.

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Wow, I didn’t expect it to be this long. Here there are the Latin translation:

Hic est agnus: This is a lamb, bowis: Cow canis: Dog

The lullaby that Simeon sing is a poem written in year 1460 ca. by Giovanni Pontano. It’s called “Nenia quinta” (fifth chant).

Sleep, lively and beloved little child Sleep, my only son, Close your eyes, little one, hide your little face.

The sleep itself asks you: "Don't you close your eyes?" And behold, at your feet, your tired guardian angel sleeps

Lamb, that's all right, hides and closes his little eyes, and sleep is now pervading his face. Wind, come and cradle my baby in a caressing way

Do the fronds perhaps murmur? The breath of the wind comes so lightly. Sleep, lively and beloved little child Sleep, my only son, The air warms you with its breath and the father with his chest.

You can see how the sentence “ hides and closes his little eyes” refers to a male. That’s because the original version was for the male son of the poet, Luciulus, which I changed it with “Lamb” (Agnus). Also the “guardian angel” was placed instead of Luscula, the guardian dog of the family.

[cherryeol04]

Defense

➻ Pairings: Reader x Changbin

➻ Genre:  slice of life, AU, slight romance, drabble

➻ TW : Alcoholism 

➻ Word Count: 730

➻ Warnings: ➻ Author’s notes: This story is cross posted on multiple sites under the same username!

It was the second time the shout happened and you rolled over quickly, grabbing Changbin’s arm to stop him from getting up. “Don’t.” You muttered, pressing your face against the middle of his back. “Not worth it.”

He grunted, but stayed there, half raised. It took a moment, but he finally laid back down and you scooted back to give him more room. He rolled over and wrapped his arms around your bare body, pulling you against him. Sighing contently, you snuggled into his chest, taking in his warmth against your chilled skin. You probably shouldn’t have fallen asleep naked last night, but in your defense you had been ungodly hot at the time. 

“Fucker.” The whisper made you giggle. Changbin was right, he was a fucker and damn annoying at that. But the sporadic shouts the idiot gave from the living room wasn’t worth getting upset about. It was easily ignorable and you were more than used to doing that. The downside of still living at home. Your hand found broad shoulders and you gently stroked the soft flesh soothingly. Soon after, you found yourself slowly drifting back off, Changbin’s breathing already evened out. 

You weren’t sure how much more time had passed but the loud banging on one of the doors jerked you awake, eyes wide and mind racing. By the time you processed it was the drunken idiot - he didn’t deserve a name - Changbin was already up and putting his boxers on and you could barely make out the sound of your mother’s voice talking to him. 

Sitting up, you grabbed your sleep shirt and put it on, scrambling for your slippers before rushing out after your boyfriend. 

“I wasn’t making any noise. You’re drunk.”

“The fuck you weren’t.” Your mom turned and was a little surprised to Changbin there in the hallway, but stepped back anyway, allowing the other male to enter the living room, leveling a glare at the fucker that was trying to act all innocent. “You were shouting and woke us up three different times and now you’re banging on the damn door. People are trying to sleep.”

“Well I’m trying to work.”

“Bull fucking shit. You just sat down. Don’t act like you did nothing wrong. The hell is the matter with you that you have no manners or courteously for the people living here?”

Walking up behind him, you rested a hand on Changbin’s shoulder. You weren’t necessarily trying to stop him, but you wanted to remind him of you and your mother’s presence. Even if this dickhead did deserve to get his ass kicked. The verbal scolding seemed to have left him stunned or he was just sulking like a child, you weren’t sure. You wouldn’t be surprised if it was a combination of both. Satisfied, Changbin turned and wrapped his arm around your waist, ushering you back to your room, giving a small “good morning” as the two of you walked past your mother. 

Back in the safety of your room, the door closed once more, you fell face first into your bed, groaning. “And I don’t have to be ready for work for another hour.” You whined. You groaned louder as Changbin laid overtop of you, careful to not add all his weight and crush you, because boy could this man crush you if he wanted to. And you would probably die happy honestly. Soft lips skimmed over the back of your neck. 

“I can think of something else we can do until then.” He muttered. 

“Oh yeah? What?” You asked, voice muffled by your comforter, but you had no intention of moving from that spot. If you suffocated, then so be it. You were exhausted. 

“Cuddles and YouTube.” You giggled at that, whining after as Changbin rolled off of you to get situated on the bed. “Come on, cuddles!” He called out cutely, arms open wide for you. With a grin and a lot of effort, you hauled yourself up and crawled into his lap, curling up into a ball. Changbin grabbed your blanket and covered you both before turning your TV back on and finding some random YouTube video to watch. l for the next hour. You were perfectly content and honestly wished you could spend all your time with your boyfriend like this. But next time you were definitely staying the night as his place.

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ok ok ok so just imagine oscar does come around but y/n is still a bit closed off coz ya girl is hurt and oscar starts doing his lil acts of service to show he cares bcuz he's not a talker. like always shows up with her fave coffee order, sends flowers to her work, buys her a lil mclaren teddy to cuddle when she's too grumpy to cuddle him instead 🥹

crying over the teddy bear.

she’d secretly embroider his initials and number under the hoodie, right over where it’s heart is, and its her little secret no one will ever find out about. she takes it everywhere with her after he gifts it to her and she’d secretly spritz it with his cologne in the mornings after they leave for the day, if she isn’t going with them to the track or they’re back home during the off season.

he’s got a way with words when he’s inside her, knows just the right thing to say to make her fall apart, but outside of that he doesn’t have much to say. it frustrates her at first, when he’s not as forthcoming as lando is. she’s shocked by how different they are, when they come back from work and she asks how their days went. good or bad oscar just says same as usual or it was work as he cuddles up into her, head on her stomach, while lando spends an hour telling her every little detail. she listens intently while playing with oscar’s hair, nodding along and asking appropriate questions. oscar wishes he could talk like lando, but he just can’t, doesn’t really have anything to say, so he’s grateful his teammate is there to fill the silence while he relaxes into her.

he’s not good with words, but he’s good at showing he cares in every other way. he can read her better than lando can, knows what she’s thinking before she says it, finishes her sentences all the time. she finds it endearing the way he can read her mind, and can answer any questions she has. i know he’s said like, he would be an engineer if not a driver so i know he’s got brains, but also i feel he’s like weirdly smart in that he knows a lot about random things you wouldn’t expect, so she starts treating him like her personal google. he’s got an incredible memory when it comed to her, she’ll passively mention something and months later oscar has it for her, says he just saw it and thought she’d like it. she’ll mention she likes a certain body wash and he starts buying it for his apartment. he buys her perfume and lotion too for his place without mentioning it, she’d just stumble across the new bottles in his medicine cabinet one morning, right next to his cologne and daily moisturizer. he’d keep all her favorite snacks in his pantry and fridge too, he’s not good at cooking so they’re pretty much bare otherwise, so knowing he specifically goes to the grocery story just so she has snacks when she visits makes her heart skip a beat.

he always knows what she wants for breakfast when she wakes them up whining about being hungry and places an order for delivery while her and lando are still debating what they want. he’ll drift in and out of asleep, half listening to them try to decide for half an hour what to eat, then their food arrives. theyre confused when they’re back home, neither of them expecting company so early, and when they’re at a hotel during the season, she shouts that they don’t need house keeping while oscar rolls out of bed and puts on a pair of sweats to retrieve their breakfast. her and lando are always surprised, like it doesn’t happen every other morning. she trades them bites of their breakfast in exchange for kisses until she’s full and is pushing the food away even if they’re not finished bc she’s suddenly in the mood for something else.

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Why won't you ask me out? (Shinichiro Sano X gn reader)

So this is my first short story! I have a particular liking towards Shinichiro so I thought using him to start would be safe. Bare in mind that english is not my first language, therefore I am open to any feedback. I hope you enjoy!

Trigger warnings: MDNI, nsfw, mentions of sex, cursing, physical touch, shower sex.

Category: fluff

Others: the characters Shinichiro and Benkei belong to Ken Wakui, no proof read

You slowly fluttered your eyes open as the shifting weight on the mattress next to you pulled you out of your slumber.

"Shin?..."  You mumbled with a raspy morning voice. "Morning" he gave you a sleepy smile "did I wake you up? Sorry" he apologized as he played with your hair softly.

The clothes laying around the room helped you recall last night's events "it's okay" you stretched your limbs as you took a look at the clock on the bedside table -5.30 a.m- "gotta get to the shop early today?".

His lanky figure searched in the closet for clothes to put on after a quick shower "Yeah, Benkei asked me to take a look at his bike's carburettor" you couldn't help but admire his naked body, just like you had done for more than a couple of times now. In fact it had been going on for more than month. As much as you enjoyed the sex and all the time spent next to him, the fact that he didn't seem to have any intention to have a serious relationship with you bothered you incresingly every night that passed by.

"He said it was pretty urgent" you finally shifted your attention to his face, he still had that sleepy expression you were used to look at most mornings "I should get ready too, I have to buy groceries before my shift".

Shinichiro chuckled softly "you can jump in the shower with me then" he couldn't help but draw a snarky smirk on his face.

"Sure" despite the bitter sweet feeling the offer awoke in your chest, you managed to lift yourself up and walk toward the bathroom, knowing damn well what was about to come.

You walked out of the shower with shaky legs, holding onto Shin's arm with one hand. The man had a satisfied look on his face as he pulled you closer to him to wrap the two of you in a towel "was it too much?~" he said sheepishly "shut up" you flicked his forehead playfully as he giggled.

After you both were ready he offered you a ride home, wich you refused, you needed to clear your head. You needed some time away from his infatuating charm to finally be able to think staright. Where were you going with this? How long could you keep up with that weird situationship that never seemed to end? "Ugh" you grunted to yourself. You couldn't quite wrap your head around the fact that he had asked about 20 other women out without hesitation, and wouldn't ask you out for the world. The fact that you had been friends since highschool perhaps made things more delicate, however, ever since you first kissed him in his shop after the closing hour more than a month ago you both had been acting like a couple. Texting each other every few hours, cuddling, kissing, fucking. What upset you the most, however, was the fact that when anyone was around his arms would unwrap from your waist and he would act like a normal friend once again.

You didn't think Shin was one to play around with women, no, he wasn't that kind of guy.  Your decision was solid. That same night you would talk to him, you would ignore his lustful manner, or perhaps it was your own that you had to avoid, and you would have the serious talk you'd been practicing for weeks now.

Nearing his shop's closing hour you dropped by, breathing in deeply before pushing the door open. "Welcome, what can I do for you-" he said, still focused on the bike he was working on, before turning around to look at you "-hey 's you" he stood up with a warm smile spreading across his lips. A smile so charming that made you knees weak and so sweet that left your tongue numb.

"Hey-" you smiled softly "-you done for today?" "Nearly" he pulled you into a warm hug and pecked your head softly "how come you came by? We didn't have any plans for today, did we?".

Your hands were sweaty as you played with the rings on your fingers in an attempt to calm the anxiety that corrupted your whole body "Can we talk?".

The black haired guy looked at you surprised by your words, the seriousness on your face made him worry, fearing that you were bringing bad news with you "Of course, come, take a sit".

You sat next to him on the couch he had in the back of the shop "Are you okay?" he asked placing his hand on top of yours "Yeah... well... yeah..." The speech you had been rehersing for a while now had been completely erased from your mind by the fear of ruining your relationship with him for good.

"Hey, 's okay, talk to me" you swallowed harshly, his reasuring words helping you process your thoughts a little more clearly. "Why have you never asked me out formally?" you blurted breathlessly "you've never seemed to have a problem asking women out, so why are you doing this with me? It makes me feel like you just want something to do with me when you're needy and, fuck, Shin, I have liked you for years now and you seemed to pursue anyone but me-" your rant was cut off by the hand the guy placed on your cheek "y/n listen" he stared at you with his obsidian eyes and a serious expression as he tried to organise his thoughts "I didn't ask because I simply thought you wouldn't want something serious with me, I thought I couldn't aim higher than that"  he smiled awkwardly "you are gorgeous in every way possible, I just didn't think you could ever be into me like that".

After a few seconds of silence that felt like would never end you finally spoke "you are stupid" you tried to stay serious but you couldn't help but chuckle at the absurdness of the situation. He followed you, slightly giggling although still a bit confused about what was happening. "Well, you should try, I might say yes" you said playfully as you stood up. "Oh yeah?" he smirked following you "then I might try".

You pulled the door to exit the shop "hey, were are you going?" he held the door, confused "to enjoy my time as a single womam, hopefully it will end soon" you smirked sheepishly looking his way "good night, coward" you whispered against his lips before giving him a soft peck.

The next day you had just come out of the shower whem the sound of the doorbell echoed through the small appartment. At first you had it was your roommate, who had forgotten their key once again, however, you couldn't help but smile excitedly when you looked through the peephole. "What are you doing here?" you grinned as you opened the door for him "just closed the shop so I thought I'd  drop by" you noticed how his hands shifted behind his back "oh really? What for?".

The warm grin spreading through his face melted your heart completely, how could he be so gorgeous? "I thought maybe it was time to ask" he pulled a bouquet of red tulips from behing his back "Would you be my girlfriend?" he spoke softly as he tried to stay calm, although the both of you knew what the outcome would be, the excitement was overwhelming.

Without hesitaton you pulled him in by his collar and crushed your lips together in a sweet but eager manner "It was about time" you whispered "of course I will".

His heart fluttered as he felt your lips against his, it never failed to warm his heart like nothing else could. He was happy, the happiest he had been in years, it showed im the way his lips danced softly with yours and his free hand caressed your cheek in a loving manner.

"I love you" you muttered as you rested your forehead against his "I love you too". These words weren't unfamiliar for you both, in fact, it wasn't the first or the second time you shared them, but they now felt as truthful and caring as ever.

That was all for today, I hope you liked it as much I did writing it aaaa. Have an amazing day!

-Vee

[dadsdaugther]

sooooooo I went out to a queer club with A yesterday. And we got drunk and had a lovely night and I met her friend and she was super nice and friendly. And then when A started to get drunk and she had those weird puppy eye face and then she started to have these emotional talks with me about how I am as a person and how we’ve come to know each other pretty well in a short time. Then she also started to mention that she felt protective of me and that she wanted to make sure I dated a good person bc I deserved that.

And she started to talk about why she couldn’t date me and she was very serious throughout that conversation. She’s usually only silly so that was new. And she talked about she had a hard time explaining her feelings to the person she cared for. And then she told me that she cared for me and that I’m so easy to talk to and open up to. And I think throughout this conversation I was so confused about her intentions.

She told me that she felt a lot more about me than she thought she did. And I realised that I’ve had it the same way. And I tbh knew that she felt more than she admitted. Bc well she stayed at my place for 48 hours the first time we met. Of course she felt something more than that. And then it started to get late and then early in the morning. And she told me how she wanted to make me feel better when I text her I have anxiety. And that she wants to make sure I sleep well.

And in the beginning I very much took all what she said lightly tbh. But bc ppl talk you know?? Then they don’t act. And I explained to her that I don’t believe words, I believe actions.

I know that she cares for me. I know that she thinks I’m wonderful and I also now know that she’s felt like that for some time. So the reason why she didn’t want to date me had literally nothing to do with me. So I was right.

now it’s 6am in the morning and I’m so tired and drunk that I can’t help but fall into all this stuff. She holds me. She dances with me. She said she wanted to follow me home bc I live a dangerous place lol not true. But I let her do that and we try and fall asleep together. But my heart is pounding and she comforts me and does breathing exercises with me. And all this is very cute n love. Here’s the issue

A hasn’t fully accepted that she’s into girls and that A is bi which is affecting her a lot.

so she likes me. I like her. And we can’t date basically bc A has some challenges which I understand completely. But this is one of the hardest things ever to like each other and not be able to do the stuff you really want to. And we were both very annoyed and affected by that. I’ve never tried this stuff before and it’s really absolutely horrible.. bc love and stuff is just not enough to make a relationship. That sucks so bad.

yea .. and then I cried. And she cried and then I comforted her and my heart was pounding and then she comforted me and then I could feel I needed to make a very clear boundary. So I told her: “it’s okay that we cuddled together today without having sex. But from this day forward I have to sweep all this stuff under rug and pretend like you don’t have all these feelings for me. Bc if I will fall into it and I will be greatly disappointed if you aren’t able to be secure about a relationship with me.” and then I also said “if anything changes with this way you feel about communication in a relationship and being in a wlw relationship, you will come and tell me but till then I will pretend like this never happened so we can be friends”

then we snuggled for 12 hours straight and made out constantly the last hour and my cunni was SOAKED. We still didn’t fuck bc I would be wayyy sadder if we did than I already am.

and yea idk then she texted me a few hours later after how it was going at my friend’s place and I had to tell to not text me for a while so I can find myself in all this

so I think I managed pretty well putting down boundaries but damn the pain in my heart feels very heavy :// and I know it’ll be better soon.

If it happens, it happens. I’ll take one day at a time. But no matter what I feel I won’t use my time on someone who doesn’t feel secure to be in a relationship. Even when I know for a fact that the reason has absolutely nothing to do with me. I know that A’s challenges should and will be solved by A and A knows that too.

she’s ridiculously caring and attentive and I hate the fact that she’s actually such a good girl bc then I can’t hate her guts.

[arenabreadandbiscuits]

Um, so currently watching Ohmyoji... Seimei is getting to me a lil. Also reeling in more peeps for commissions. ^^

Seimei Headcanons

We're going to write this in a way where he's more than just a little interested in you. You're rather calming to be around and silly as well and there's a few times where you get a chuckle out of him even at the worst times

He's a tease, he can help it from time to time but oftentimes he finds it funny just to reach his hand over and lightly grip your thigh when talking to others over a drink for example.

Bro will definitely act like he doesn't know why you jerked like you did. If you mention it later in a fit hell grin just a bit.

He kinda reminds me of a fox, like those kitsune characters OR that snake brother from Juni Taisan (Zodiac War) or however you spell it.

On the topic of who he looks like I can imagine him getting a little annoyed being compared to other people

Outside of touching you just to get under your skin, if both of you are okay with it he will take the time to touch you, caress your skin and admire it in all its glory.

I wanna say that the interest he has for you is only meant to be seen with ONLY you. He's not a fan of showing off his pda to anyone who he doesn't care for.

Though, of the topic I can definitely see him get touchy if he's feeling a bit threatened. It's not that he gets jealous often if at all but he does know when someone is looking at you with less than innocent intentions and maybe there's no harm in... Suddenly wrapping his arms around your shoulders or waist before pulling you in.

"Aren't you a cutie?~" or "You crying?" From Gojo is something I can see him saying.

Probably into things like morning hugs and cuddles, like imagine making breakfast in the early morning hours of the day just for him to come find you and rest against him quietly.

Will also offer to cuddle if he visits you in the middle of the night.

Will play music for you, find little flowers and trinkets and such to bring back to you, honestly a bit of a lovey dovey type with the right conditions.

Touches and rubs you while humming softly as if it's a calming thing for him.

I can see him being the type of guy that touches you all the time but let you ask him playfully he'll respond just as playfully but let you seem serious... Looking deep into his eyes.. he may try not to but bro might fold. He's so pretty when he blushes..

Likes running his hands through your hair if you let him and if it manages to put you to sleep he'll stay still and let you sleep against him.

If you mention that your favorite aspect of his is his eyes he might freeze for a moment. One of those moments where he seizes, blinks and then smiles a bit.

Honestly so far he's giving possible aspec, like maybe after time to watch and examine his LI it's easier for him to want to cling to them and be close.

Honestly bro being in love with his partner is like watching two swans or geese be in love.

Will take the time to get you gifts that he's sure you'll like but also makes him think of you when he sees em. Those flowers match your eyes.. he'll pick em up. That necklace would go so well with your eyes. Hell he'd take the sun out of the sky and hand it to you if he could because of just how beautiful it is as it runs over your skin.

I can also see him writing little poems or notes for you to find. Bonus points if he hides them all over the house like it's a little game.

Caresses your knuckles whenever you leave your hand in his for too long.

Head kisses, forehead kisses, shoulder kisses and neck kisses seem like they'd be a favorite of his.

And I'll stop this here for now but he definitely will say your name in different ways just to see which affects you the most.

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