#how i wish there was a cure...
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best (saddest most terrible most gut-wrenching) vignette in the game
#it physically hurts#his frustration of being unable to explain to people that its not boredom. its not a lack of attention or care. it is real and he has no WHY#the comments of like 'i get bored too dw!!' and silver just being unable to express fully how completely wrong that is#and the 'chronic illness' gut punch of him saying he doesnt know why and then blaming himself. i must just be lazy. i must not be trying har#d enough. like im sure sebek says stuff to this effect often. im sure silver has heard this time and time again from classmates.#and when he doesnt have a better explanation? when doctors dont even know? what choice does he have to cope other than internalize it as tru#sorry for the novel hes my son and he genuinely makes me cry on his behalf#how i wish there was a cure...#me too silver#twst#twisted wonderland#twst silver#lab silver#suntails
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Every time you think, "Oh, I don't have [x condition], I'm basically cured!" that is the devil talking. You aren't cured, you are likely going through periods of your symptoms waning. Don't cease whatever you're doing to help yourself, like medication, for instance, because it's likely you still have the conditions or symptoms, even if you aren't noticing them as frequently or severely.
#disability#this is a callout post about myself#i genuinely thought my GAD was cured because my symtoms had lessened significantly since i've transitioned#turns out my anxiety is just as killer and awful - it's just muted slightly#i am currently laying down with my brain convinced that i'm About To Have a Heart Attack#(and not in the fun demi lovato kind of way)#(that song is a little over a decade old... what the bingle)#anyway please don't do what i do whenever i experience ANY level of symptoms getting better because it will shock you...#...when those symptoms come back and remind you that you Do Indeed have [x condition]#i now know how a wolf girl feels when they say they are Actually Feral because that's how i feel rn ��#even I'M not immune to the idea that the things i suffer from are things that can Disappear Magically 😭#it's wishful thinking and almost like... imposter syndrome because you're *so* desperate to prove to yourself you're Fine or A Faker#and you become hyperfixated on picking every tiny little waxing and waning of symptoms like you're a fortune teller#and honestly it's really stiffling and it's a lot of work to kill the cop in your head that says you are secretly Not All That Affected...#...that you're either exaggerating to the Extreme or you're just a bored faker who's trying to Get Attention (bad somehow)
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vampire andrew
werewolf neil
witch aaron
fairy kevin
mermaid nicky
#okay so for andrew imagine like oz from morgana and oz#for kevin imagine cardan of course they are both alcoholic divas#neil is werewolf because he is probably fast as fuck and comes out at night#nicky is hotttt and flirty and has amazing hair#aaron is a badass witch always studying how to make shit blow up#can also cure literally anything#i wish i could draw#aftg#all for the game#the foxhole court#andrew minyard#neil josten#aaron minyard#kevin day#nicky hemmick#andreilscat
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I heard its her birthday and had a sudden urge to draw kirararararararrara
#I LOVE YOU GO PRINCESS PRECURE GRRR ARRHHEGHAHRKJHR#im behind on hirogaru sky rn. im sorry.#i missed most of delicious precure too </3333#rosemary and spicy im so sorry. ill come back to them eventually#rosemarys look slike kanata if he was better. hes so cool#cant he barbecue or smth. fuck yeah.#precure#pretty cure#go princess precure#cure twinkle#amanogawa kirara#i wrote amonogawa at first im sorry. theres an easy joke here. sorry.#can i talk abt how much i love go princess and heartcatchs villains. i love them.#i like how shut gets more pathetic and silly as the show goes on. and i looooove twilight/scarlet/towa love love love you#shes so cool and lame at the same time. girl that acts really cool but her lameness and silliness shines theough in everything she does#opposite of yuri/moonlight who looks lame and silly but is effortlessly cool all the time i adore her#imagine finding out ur nerd senior is the coolest superhero in the world. ehat the hell#anyway. love shut and towa i hate when theyre in the same frame. that was really weird. wish that wasnt a thing#kanata and haruka too i hate that old precures like this#you know what precure series ISNT like this……… heartcatch. watch heartcatch.#thats a lot of ramble tags ok. im done. gootbye#art tag#i forgor…..
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behold: the doomed unrequited waltonstein manifesto courtesy of twitter user ustfile
#‘would revive you if you died’ made me laugh bc. yeah#i guess you could say this is what i consider their 'canon' relationship dynamic#to put it succinctly: walton thinks he's met his soulmate#his eyes? replied to baby#margaret you don't understand he's PERFECT even though he's literally about to pass away from grief and exposure you don't UNDERSTAND#victor values walton. absolutely cares for him and thinks he's wonderful#but has literally lost the ability to Feel in the way walton wishes he would#can any man be to him as clerval was? :(#'i can't love you how you want me to' just like boygenius said#and when he tells walton as much it breaks his heart a little#because he's having fantasies of somehow curing victor and whisking him back to england and becoming his househusband#but alas#bro is in agony and victor's like 'dearest henry... is that you....'#waltonstein#robert walton#victor frankenstein#frankenstein#walton tag#sorry buddy ilysm but your romantic failure is compelling to me#doomed narrative foil yaoi YAAAAAAAAY#this was not succinct at all was it
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Have you ever just stared at an idea and couldn't write it? You want to buy it's so you tailored that no one will read it, in fact your scared that people who ship the rare pair might be disappointed with it.
If so how do you deal with it because I am struggling. I lost a lot of my creative drive because I feel like no one wants to hear my stories. Has that ever happened to you?
Sorry to come in and like have a big sad in you inbox but I love your work and I always wonder if other people with such amazing work feel this way too.
Ah, nonnie, you sent this in a little while ago and I was laid flat, so I'm so sorry that it has taken me this long to reply!
But yes, this has happened to me! I think it's very natural. The only way you can get past it is by saying fuck it tbh. Write what you want to write; write what makes you happy!
I thought Stars was going to be way too hyperspecific to me. I hadn't really seen anything like it, and platonic OC & Canon Character fics as a whole rarely see any popularity, but I wrote it with my whole chest and surprisingly it resonated with a lot of people. That happened with Brimbrond (there were like, I think three people who shipped it at the time I started writing Partake), and now with my Zhongli x Baizhu fics, Genshin is such a large fandom and it is such a rarepair. Zhongli is attached to one of the most popular fics in the fandom and Baizhu is simply rarely ever written about. But I love them. And I feel that way about Dehya and Baizhu, too, and plan on writing stuff for them and making art.
Truly the only way to get past this is to write what you love. You don't even have to post it. Write what you want to read. It helps if you can find even one other person who ships the ship and likes your work, and the two of you can scream about it together. I know it really sucks when it feels like no one's reading your work. I've had flop fics myself, and it happens especially with art since people just don't reblog as much as they used to. It can be really discouraging. But you have to do it for you.
If it's really bothering you, then maybe take a step back and just don't post anything. You don't have to post it at all. Write it without posting. Let it be Bad, even. Put your whole chest into it, write whatever tropes you want, skip around. If you're bored then don't write it. If you aren't having fun, don't write it. Skip all the uninteresting parts and just write the shippy nonsense you want to read.
I guess what I keep wanting to say and keep repeating ad nauseam is that you really, really cannot be writing for others. Again, believe me, I know it's disheartening when something flops and you feel like no one wants to read your work, but that's where you have to decide that you're going to write for you.
And if you're burnt out and absolutely nothing is fun, then take a step back and just read. Like, fanfic sure, but I mean a physical book. It'll exfoliate your brain. Read for fun. If you aren't enjoying the book then don't be afraid to DNF it. Play a good story-based video game if that's your thing. Watch a show or a movie and really pay attention to it. When I'm lacking inspiration and everything Feels Bad sometimes I just need to get some input. As it was described to me years ago: your writing brain is like a well. You have to pour good stuff into it. Nothing is written in a vacuum, and if you're struggling to make anything come out it may be because your well is empty, and you just need to top it up a bit.
Anyway, yeah. Enjoy some good fiction. Kill the critic inside your head. Write for you. I am pretty much terrified 100% of the time when I am writing and posting that it won't be good, it'll flop, no one will like it, etc. etc. But you absolutely cannot let that paralyze you into not creating. Don't let the critic in your head win. Tell yourself it doesn't have to be good. Repeat that over and over. It's okay if it's bad. It's okay if it's bad. No one even has to see it.
Plus, when it comes to rough drafts --- accept that it is going to be bad. You are just shoveling sand into a box to build castles with later.
If you want to post, please try to remember that it is a gift to the community. It is a privilege that we get to read other people's work. For FREE. For FUN. And make friends doing it! You do not owe anyone anything. At risk of sounding like a broken record: please, please, please write for you and no one else. If you choose to share it that is up to you, and the rest of us say fucking thank you. The inner critic never goes away. That fear never goes away. I'm so serious. But it's fake. It's so fake. It doesn't matter. Imagine it in a silly, stupid little voice (mine sounds like a whiny kylo ren or sometimes like Donald Trump, and then it's easy to dispel). Tell it to shut up. If it's like 'this is awful' then say 'that's okay. I'm having fun', and if it's like 'no one will read it,' then say 'that's okay, i'm writing it for me,' and then write what you want to write, because you like it and want to read it. Fuck it you ball.
#i repeated myself so much in here but god nonnie I cannot express how universal a feeling this is#and that's not to invalidate it -- that's to say it's INCREDIBLY valid#i'm so sorry i wish i could say it goes away#it doesn't#but the only cure for it is to say 'fuck it we ball' and write what makes you happy#otherwise you will be miserable#writing#this is an ongoing process#i don't know of a single writer who is 100% confident in their work#not even professional ones#i've read so many books on writing and interviews from pro writers and everyone has the same problem#you aren't alone#but the contentification of fanfic and fanart is such a fucking plague#you are not making content for engagement#you are making art
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I have been getting back into Fairy Tail lately and really really want to try writing stuff for it. Is the fandom still alive? Would anybody read and/or request? I may do it anyway but I'm curious how many people will see or pay any mind to it-
#fairy tail#fairy tail x reader#not sure how else to tag this honestly#plz it's such a good show i wish to contribute to the fan content#if it cured my depression in junior high it can do it again now
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Don't mess with Cure Dream
#I was happily clapping my hands seeing these red eyes#spoilers#power of hope spoilers#precure spoilers#precure#cure dream#power of hope#sternennacht update#but do not get me started on how they didn't change her appearance or change her animation#I really wish they did or kept them grown up to keep with the theme#otherwise the message feels like you can't be anything better than your younger self or stronger or happier which isn't true
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#soape salty rants#just reminded of how bad the ableism on reddit is#the belief over there seems to be#if you're disabled you need to be constantly wishing to be “cured” or regret letting your parents keep you alive#like its wild#there are popular threads like “if I was born disabled I would kill myself” and everyone agreeing like ???#yeah it sucks to be disabled and it makes life harder but#we should still be allowed to live. to find joy in life??#im sorry Im not miserable and wanting to kill myself because I don't function above the standard
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i just spent ages looking for the post, i swear i posted about it when i broke my beloved fish plate like a year ago, but now he's finally back together! i just have to wait a week or so for the resin to cure , and then i can go in and wipe away the excess gold. even though the process was frustrating and VERY time-consuming and i lost motivation halfway through and let it sit on the shelf unfinished for like 14 months, i'm glad i went to the trouble of learning how to actually kintsugi it with resin and gold instead of rushing it with epoxy and mica powder.
the before pics (freshly broken and after the initial gluing):
#kinda wish i'd gotten pics of him when i'd filled in the voids and done all the coats of resin on top and sanded them down#the different types of resin were different colors and after sanding it had kind of a marbled look#the process basically goes like: filing down sharp edges to create a gap for the gold to show#gluing everything back together with resin mixed with flour and water to make it strong and sticky#filling in the voids with resin mixed with fine sawdust to make it strong (this part took the longest bc you can't put the paste on thickly)#creating a uniform surface with resin mixed with (i think) fine clay powder#creating a smooth finish by alternately painting on layers of pure resin and sanding it down once cured#(the resin will wrinkle if applied too thickly or if it's too humid)#(this is also used to smooth out the rough areas that the resin/clay step couldn't fix)#and finally painting on a final layer of resin and applying gold powder and burnishing it slightly#each layer of resin takes about a week to cure#if my apartment was more humid and if i hadn't lost steam i think this would've taken me... three months#and thats assuming i could work on it every weekend#seriously it's only worth doing if it's a piece you really love#alternatively if you didn't care about looks you could just stop after sticking it together but idk how food safe it would be#ALSO. BIG word of warning.#the uncured resin could give you a really nasty painful rash if you touch it with bare skin#it is not a joke#once it's cured tho it's inert
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eepy lil guy
#i cannot put into words the amount of love and affection i have for him. u do not understand. he is my SON im giving him a QUILT#the first character i think in my whole life that i have loved so deeply i wish he were real so i could tell him. i want adoption papers#i feel so bad i wish he didnt hafta suffer with the tired eepy. i want to get him uncursed i want him cured i want him to be free from sleep#the absolutely crushing guilt of how much he misses from being tired all the time sounds miserable i want to#i dont even know. i want to help. i am just a stupid lil lady on my phone how can i possibly help him from here. it sucks. im stuck behind t#he screen and theres nothing i can do. it KILLS me. like haha if i invite him to my guest room 1000 times maybe itll help. sobs#twisted wonderland#twst#twst silver#silver vanrouge#suntails
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Okay but. Consider.
Snek 🐍
#ai's random art#hirogaru sky pretty cure#hirogaru sky precure#empress undergu#kaiserin undergu#skearhead#hirogaru sky spoilers#sorta???#you can say whatever you want about Skearhead/Darkhead but his snake form was cute af#now I kinda wish instead of being killed he just turns into a small inoffensive one but we'll see what happens sjjsjs#if I draw this concept again I wanna try adding some patterns#SO happy the Kaiserin has friends now#I need a whole spin off about how awkward that's gonna be at the start#she WAS a hero I'm gonna cry
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I would be so popular if I were an anime boy. People would make posts about putting me in a blender all the time. They’d call me sopping wet and say I was born in a cardboard box all alone
anyway. *shoots trans-your-gender laser beam at yumemi for fun*
#milgram oc#ocgram#koike yumemi#maybe posting transmasc yumemi will cure my fever and heal me. maybe playing around with a genderfluid yumemi design will bring world peace#I actually have a fever btw :[ I feel so under the weather uHGH#anyways back to the post. I think yumemi deserves to be any gender yumemi wants to be and well. yumemi looks fucking great#this is what happens when I get my little bigender hands on my OCs they can just be whatever whenever 💜 mwahahaha#I wish I had more cool funny profound things to tell you but fever head says no sorry that's not happening </3#my art#wait hang on I've got 1 thing. his pose is giving off male protagonist of an anime-detective-visual-novel-thing isn't it?#I don't know how that happened but it is what it is!!
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i know its probably been done to death but i love the concept of the shivering isles as only a realm of "madness" insofar as no one in tamriel has a concept of what neurodiversity or mental illness is lmao
#like. 'mad' being used as a catch-all term for someone who is just neurodivergent or otherwise acting in a way ppl cant understand#shivering isles#sheogorath#(i am by no means well read abt neurodivergent perspectives im just speaking as a neurodivergent person relating to it) buut#i think its interesting to reframe sheogorath as more of a partly-benevolent figure. not wholly but just a bit#who (if he feels like it) takes in ppl who would ordinarily suffer bc others might try to hurt/'cure' them‚ and lets them be free#'free' to act how theyd like in peace (but also if im being honest also enabling potentially-harmful behaviors)#(like i love you relmyna but also holy shit. lmao)#(and sheogorath is def NOT like. 'good' or a staunch advocate for healthy behavior or morality sjnfjsdfdsf. so double edged sword)#personally. ik no one in tamriel would understand my ocd (for example) but i think sheogorath might go 'oh yes! i get that sometimes'#<- but that might just be wish fulfilment on my part. teehee#enochtalk
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thinking about rebekah wanting to cure more than anything so that she could live a normal life, be human. thinking about elijah putting her under strict ruling that she had to prove herself worthy of such a thing, prove it wasn’t impulsive desire and would mean something in the long run even with everything she would have to give up and leave behind [namely the family] — NO VAMPIRE POWERS, no unnatural advantages. she must live as a human for a day. i can do it, rebekah swears. and she does. UNTIL SHE DOESN’T. until april young has been attacked; left bleeding out, dying. until she’s given the choice to let a pesky human girl who should mean nothing to her die. until it means that is the one girl who has been kind— without strings or hidden agendas —to rebekah, who only wanted answers and maybe a friend in such a friendless world. until matt donovan, the simple boy with the pretty eyes who is the embodiment of everything rebekah longs to be, is sitting at her feet on his knees begging she do something, that she help. a wrist bitten means a body healed. april young lives to see another day, and rebekah loses her chance at the only thing she has left to live for. only to find a temporary solace in matt, who promises her kindness, that a good deed can go unpunished, that no one has to find out … but they do. and it’s niklaus who makes sure of that.
#granted; silas was also to blame#as was elena#and if we’re being honest the cure was so far out of reach anyway#that’s why the added TO thoughts about her getting the cure later means nothing to me#and i don’t knowledge it but god this one moment#where rebekah wants for once to be so human and good to be the person matt and everyone says she cannot be#and she almost walks away from it bc it goes against elijah’s rules for a selfish wish#then does it anyway bc at her core … she knows#she knows better she wants to be better#she just doesn’t know how#so many years spent at nik's feet …#the embodiment of stay soft get eaten#she wasn’t always so cruel she wasn’t always so selfish#she may not regret all she does but she does have regrets#she’s still just a 17 year old girl who wanted to live a normal life#to love and be loved; unconditionally and without strings#but that too is out of reach yeah?#ic … rebekah, ༶ notes.
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This is as much effort that I'm willing to put into this.
Somewhat of a fix-it with getting rid of the child bride LMFAO, but revamping it so Y!Tiki can still participate. And also a manifestation of how I think Libra/Virion/Lon'qu would be the most powerful if not slightly disastrous throuple (unfortunately no real interactions between them here, they're all too wrapped up in their own things!). And also a fuck you to amatonormativity.
Target audience: Literally just my sister and I think LMFAOOOOOOO
#fire emblem#feh#literally my sister and i have had one million conversations over YEARS about how libra and virion would be a good fit#for thw bridal banners. like. we've had jokey TT units before of less popular characters.#libra is LITERALLY a priest he can officiate the wedding. and i've been wishing for a libra alt for years.#and lon'qu. dear lord. my sister is in the fucking trenches. for NO fucking REASON#bc lon'qu is LITERALLY SUPER POPULAR. HE SHOULD HAVE GOTTEN AN ALT BY NOW.#also i'm anticipating some bullshit about how romance and a happy marriage is gonna cure tiki's loneliness and trauma#and i'm absolutely fucking dreading it. literally there is so much more to life than that.#love isn't just romance and romance ISN'T like. love's Final Form#literally love can be family you collected along the way. love can be kindness towards your younger self. ect. whatever.#i try v hard NOT to be a hater but. on the fucking record i am a marriage hater through and through.#tiki#fe libra#virion#lon'qu#fe anna#flavia#my art
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