#how do u see a guy try to kill ur brother and then still sleep with him like???
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itsza Ā· 3 months ago
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tyme has some explaining to do
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coff-in Ā· 6 months ago
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hii this is the anon who requested for that pregnancy fic w the graves siblings >< thank you so much for answering my follow-up questions!! šŸ„ŗšŸ¤ I had a bit of thoughts as well as your fic and response made me have a hugggeee brainrot!!
so after everything you had said, I had a strange dream weirdly enough of the scenario and hcs you came up with (I like to read fics and hcs before I sleep, including urs <3) and basically, I was thinking that yes:
ā€¢ ashley, despite not liking [reader] and kind of terrorising her when andrew became obsessed with her, still pretty much assists in kidnapping and bringing her everywhere despite her protests and horror when she witnesses the grave siblings murder and sacrifice people.
ā€¢ along the way however, ashley has a bit of .. how shall I put it, tsundere feelings for [reader] <3 falling for her and convincing andrew to have a threesome rape with her eventually
ā€¢ when [reader] got pregnant (before ashley fell for her) ashley ofc wasnā€™t too happy about it but also, didnā€™t allow reader to escape from them with andrewā€™s baby or to scream for help, in fact, she threatens her that if she tries calling for help or running away, sheā€™ll mutilate her arms and legs and cut her tongue out </3 anything to defend her brother
ā€¢ ok this is probs a bit dark so feel free to skip this one (my own lactation kink!) but can u imagine while [reader] is pregnant, andrew and ashley notice that [readers] breasts are larger than normal .. and that she is leaking through her shirt ā€¦ and well they *are* a bit thirsty and could use something sweet ā€¦ so ā€¦ they caught [reader] unaware and pretty much forces her shirt up before latching their mouths onto her nipples </3 (ahh the symbolism! kind of like healing their inner child by trying out mommyā€™s milk) despite reader begging and crying for them to stop, they canā€™t
ā€¢ omg also maybe a few months in while reader is still heavily pregnant, andrew and ashley canā€™t stop getting horny seeing reader waddle around with her pregnant belly and decide to rape her bcs she looks too cute not to molest </3
ā€¢ ooo omg maybe this same scenario but with male ashley (asher) ā€¦ hating reader at first but slowly falling for her and now, seeing his big brother having a baby with her, he wants one too! </3
thank you for listening to me ramble šŸ¤§ soo many yummy scenarios šŸ¤ take care!!!
notes from coff-in: 'NONNIE YOU COOKED!!! YOU COOKED A WHOLE MEAL!!! A DINNER FOR FOUR!!! when i woke up to this at first i was like "wow... that's crazy /positive" but i've came back to my inbox to reread this like 10 times and now i'm like "teehee šŸ¤­ that's so silly i wonder what happens next" like... you're so creative, 'nonnie, honestly feeling so blessed to see this in my inbox! YOU CAN ALWAYS RAMBLE TO ME!! remember this guys, you can always come to me to ramble if u need to. i listen to everything
[fem] reader-insert, [afab] reader-insert, mentions/brief talk of male ashley graves, NSFW, rape, incest, pregnancy, lactation kink
you gotta tell me how [reader] and the siblings met. i keep it vague intentionally but i wanna hear from YOU how they meet. what would get andrew so obsessive over them? especially to the point where he has to fight with ashley to keep her around and ashley FUCKING DOES IT?? ashley is impulsive, not stupid, i know this-- she doesn't just outright kill people she doesn't like. but back at the apartment it's a fucking free for all, she would be so so justified if she did kill [reader], she's just another loose end after all. like the lady in room 302. actually this parallels(?) what happened in room 302 a lot; unknown neighbor lady, andrew watching her and keeping her hostage, ashley believing that he just wants to get his dick wet with her (except this time he actually does want that??). instead of killing her they just take [reader] with them... do they ever explain to her why? how would they do that??? they'd probably pressure her into committing a crime (murder/cannibalism) so they'd have that leverage over her... god they're so fucking crazy ā™”
i can see andrew just cradling [reader] in his lap while they watch TV, holding her in his arms while he rests his cheek on top of her head. so calm and peaceful while [reader] is shaking like a leaf because ashley is glaring fucking daggers at her and andrew isn't doing anything about it (it all reminds me of julia, except andrew actually likes/cares for [reader] more than he did julia). omg ashley threatens to fucking cut off [reader]'s limbs and tongue and andrew comforts her, petting her hair as he whispers "it's okay, ashley's just trying to scare you. she's just a little jealous. if you keep being good we won't have to resort to that, will we?"
i love sucking on tiddies (i have never done so) so seeing andrew and ashley latch on to [reader]'s leaking nipples is such a mood. it'd be so funny if they sort of fought or pushed each other out of the way so they can drink more and [reader]'s underneath them gently trying to break it up, "hey, hey... one at a time! there's enough for both of you..." i honestly feel bad for [reader] though, i hope they do nice things for her since they rape her so much. (was not expecting to type that out) like they better be giving her the best dick/strap or head ever!!!
these were so yummy, you guys take such good care of me ā™”
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coff-in
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boyfhee Ā· 5 months ago
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no no no apologies, you can reply to my asks whenever you want. i missed talking to you too, my fever has been with me for the past two days. it increased to 103 today and i thought i would die due to headache :( but i am too, excited for romance : untold, she gonna be my fav i think. did you see the tracklist??? we gotta talk about it 慠慠
i will definitely ask you like a whole manhwa recs cause i wanna read them too >_< i haven't seen the kdramas you have mentioned (adapted from the manhwa) but i think i will read them once i am ready for it, since conselling is this week. i will be busy :] hehe
same >//< i like workplace romance + historical romance and those fantasy romance too, i think i would be addicted too so i will reward myself if i study daily hehe i mean code and study calculus daily :p
pls pls i thought what craze is there for anime not until my friend recommended me jjk to watch, i was heart broken, devasted amd then at that time, after completing the movie and s1 慠慠 i, i got the news of ded kitkat :( soo it sad for me amd then silent voice šŸ˜­ i am glad i started watching animeno, because when i started watching anime, last year aug, all the good anime were completed, especially aot ā€” mikasa and eren <333 i havent watched it the way people were hyped for the finale on 4th nov. i remember it still fresh :( huhu help! even i watched the movies you mentioned heheā€¦ i watched 5cm per sec too and i could understand the feelings there, the deep connections they had (ā‰”äŗŗā‰”ļ¼›)
haikyuu, my 10th friends begged me to watch it but i think I'll give it a try later since you are saying it is cute >_< whatever you say is good, i go see or watch or read that ;)
yea, i thought the books they were recommendeding were fluff not until i saw the comments so i stopped watching those kinds of reels :/ please tell me more others like that, even i wanna read, just recommend me the books you read + the authors work you have mentioned pleaseeee (i thought you were talking about bsd until i realised they were real authors!! dazai sucode mf 慠慠)
thanks fo reading till here amd then from the day you answer this ask, we will be talking on Instagram i guess?? i love you, good night sweetheart, ^3^ muah~
ā€” lover club anon
can this fever leave u alr :/ u should sleep it off :D how was your movie today ?? did u go or did you skip because of fever :O i hope you feel better today >< i've seen the tracklist and seeing jvke there made me so happy TT i know the album is a banger aaa i can't wait to hear it
you should def watch the kdramas i mentioned when you have time because they're just so so cute ^_^ and the manhwas are adorable too >< lmk ur fav genres and tropes and i will make a detailed rec list for u :D workplace romance and historical are so šŸ™šŸ’— also love me some cute family guy .. like i read daytime star and it's so so cute and fluffy omg TT i need what the main couples have there please ... also, i hope ur counselling goes well ^^
jjk being first anime is a different kind of trauma šŸ’— ALSO me and my brother started aot together and dropped it withing ten minutes lmfao TT i kinda want to watch more movies .. maybe i will tomorrow ><
for book recs uhh i haven't read that many actually .. but i've really liked the one's that i did so i hope you like them too ^_^
kafka on the shore by murakami
no longer human ++ setting sun by osamu dazai
crime and punishment by fydor dostoevsky
the silent patient by alex michaelides ( SO GOOD )
girl on the train by paula hawkins
death on the nile by agatha christie ( has a movie too )
to kill a mocking bird by harper lee
the vegetarian by han kang ( if u love murakami u will love this )
seven years of darkness by you-jeong jeong
i think that's all for now .. i've read a few others but the ones i mentioned above stick out the most to me. if you read, do let me know if u like it :D love u mwah
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anna1306 Ā· 3 years ago
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Hi I love ur work, I was wondering if u could write a poly lost boys x reader, where the readers twin brother dies because of some girl in the hospital and sheā€™s so devastated to the point where she blacks out kills everyone in the hospital and the boys see her do it ( u can chose the reaction they have).
Violent
Warnings: blood, death of secondary characters, mention of slight gore
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You weren't violent. Weren't cruel at all. Hell, you weren't even rude. Like yes, you met four rough vampires and yes, you later found out they were vampires and still you hung out with them. Yes, you started dating them and even turned into vampire yourself, but... You weren't exactly violent.
You were more or less soft. Or more fitting word would be indifferent. To many things. To people around you, to rudeness of some of them. There were not so many things around you that you cherished for real. Boys were one of them. The other one...
The other one was your brother, Jim. You were twins, inseparable from the birth. Of course there were fights, anger at each other about toys or school and everything else. But you still loved him dearly. He got along with the boys pretty well, but didn't want to turn. Jim wanted to stay human, and you waited for him to change his mind or just be ready for this. You didn't want to watch him die, so you waited for the right moment.
And in the meantime he went to the cave every night, hung out with you even when you changed your bedroom in family's house for the rafters and the boys. Your brother was like their little brother. Human one for that matter, and they were very careful about that.
- I am fine, sis. You just need to relax. Nothing will happen to me, - Jim smiled at you, sitting next to you on the beach, while boys were in the water, Paul and Marko running around and Dwayne and David washing themselves from the meal.
- What if you get into the car crash? Or fight with this fucker-nazis?! - you looked at him pleadingly. - I just want to be sure you are safe. Nothing is holding you back in human life, guys love you, why are you against it?
- Because I like fresh air and love day sky and want to taste cakes rather than blood, - he giggled and hugged you. - If anything happens, I promise - I will go to you immediately, - Jim looked at you, and you sighed. You believed him. You didn't have any reason not to. He was careful, he was young and he was smart. He'll go around the dangers of life.
This day, however, you woke up and couldn't fall asleep back. There was this strange, tugging feeling in your chest like you missed something, like you were hurt. After an hour of this you descended to the ground, sitting on stone and leaning on a wall, trying to understand what was going on.
- Babe? - you raised your head to see Marko looking down at you sleepily. He yawned. - Are you alright?
- Yeah, just... Don't know, I'm fine... Sleep, sorry for waking up, - he frowned and jumped from the rafters.
- You are sitting on a hard stone instead of sleeping with us, - he went closer to you, sitting next to you. - I am not moving until you tell me what's wrong.
- If I knew, I would tell you, - you poked his shoulder and smiled a little. - There's just this... Strange feeling inside. Like something happened, but I don't know what or why, - you put a head on his shoulder. Marko hugged you and kissed your head.
- I wish I knew more, like David, about this sensory things and all that "strange visions and feelings" shit, but oh well, I guess, it's just little old dumb me, - he tried to joke, but you didn't even smile. Marko tightened his hug. - Look, I'm not the best in figuring out what the hell you are feeling and what can that mean. But I suggest we cuddle till the evening and ask David or just look around the town to figure it out. Fine?
- How can I say no to this face? - you mumbled. Marko laughed, but shut himself up pretty quickly, definitely not wishing to get any anger from the sleeping boys.
He fell to some sort of slumber, but you couldn't. Something worried you. Something was wrong, something happened, you knew that. You tried not to overthink it, but the thoughts still went back to your brother. Something must have happened.
As soon as the sun at least went down the horizon, you got out of Marko's hands and got to exit. In a minute you were flying to your brother's house. You were there in five, knocking on the door, trying to get him to open, to know that he's fine. He had to be at home.
- Oh, Y/N, - his neighbour, sweet old lady called you. - I thought you were with Jim.
- He was supposed to be home, - you glanced at her quickly, but stopped. - Did... Did something happened?
- You didn't hear? - her face became more sorrowful one. - Your brother got into a fight and got to the hospital, to the west of the town, the smaller one. It's been several hours, - she said. If your heart could beat, it would stop right then and there. You shuddered at the thought that your brother was hurt, while you were asleep. While you were away.
You darted to the exit, then flew again. At the same time you heard commotion in your head, worried voices overlaying your own thoughts.
"Where are you?!" - you heard Marko's worried voice. You tried to push them out, and if with Marko and Paul you managed to do just that, Dwayne struggled a bit, David was stronger than any of them.
"Kitten, where are you, we feel you. Just tell us where you are and..."
"I have no time for that!"
"Don't play with me, kitten. We are worried. You are there alone, Marko tells us that you were scared of something in day and now you are gone. Are you expecting us to sit and do nothing while you are there?" - you sighed. He was right, it wasn't fair to them.
"Jim is in the hospital. He got into a fight, I'm going to him. If you can, ride there, I think I've got enough flights for the night".
"I see. We'll be there in an hour," - you felt a wave of calmness from him, but it wasn't very effective for you. At least he was short with his reaction and wasn't nagging in your head longer.
You landed near the hospital, running inside. You looked around frantically and rushed to the nurse post.
- My brother, Jim Y/L/N, got here after the fight today. Where is he? - you tried to look calm, but it was bad acting.
- Oh, miss...
- Y/N, my name doesn't matter now, where is he? - you practically screamed at the nurse. You were too panicked to be polite. She should have understand you.
- He's at the second floor, room 8, but miss... Wait! - you didn't listen further, running to the stairs. You had to see him. Had to see that he's breathing, that he's okay. You could help, you would save him, you would do anything for that.
At room 8 you saw several nurses and patients, standing near the door and watching something. Your heart sank, when you heard the muttering, mumbling and the beeping sound. Non-stop. This sent you in a scared state, let alone the smell of blood that was everywhere, it seemed.
- I... Didn't mean to... - girl's voice.
- If you did, I would fire you with a lawsuit, - someone answered this girl. - You better pray that none of his relatives would find out about this. HEY, GET OUT, - the doctor in the room shouted at the bystanders, shutting the door. People slowly went away, while you stepped closer. Each step was like a thunder to you. You were afraid to see what was going to be there. And wanted this nurse to be lying about your brother.
No. You saw his face on the sheets, pale, almost white, and saw the flatline on the screen for a split second, before the window was quickly closed with curtains. You opened the door, stepping inside the thick smell of blood.
- I said get out, miss.
- I'm his sister, - you answered, focusing on the doctor in front of you. His white coat was in splashes of blood. The nurse was behind him, covered in blood more, especially her hands. She was still holding the scalpel. Your gaze traced the mess around, stopping on the body on the sheets.
- Oh, you are his sister, I see. You see, there was an accident and... - he tried to explain the situation, but you didn't hear him.
- What have you done? - you looked at the nurse, who was calm, but you could see the panic in her eyes.
- Nothing, I tried to help and...
- You are holding a scalpel, you look like you gutted a human and my brother is... His like inside out. So I'm asking again. What. Did. You. Do? - you made a step to her. The doctor stepped in between you, trying to stop you approaching the girl.
- You need to understand that there are accidents. She tried to help your brother, but there was nothing we could do to help him...
- Out of my way, - you looked at him. - You aren't going to do anything about this killing, lying bitch, and I am not gonna let it slip, - he tried to stop you physically once again, but you quickly and easily caught the initiative in your hands, snapping his neck.
- WHAT THE HELL! - the nurse jumped from you, dropping the scalpel in surprise and fear. You snarled, looking straight into her eyes.
- You killed him. And that would be the last fucking mistake you have ever done, - you growled at her. The floor was filled with screams withing minutes...
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- You think she's alright? - Paul sped up a bit, being nervous about you. David sighed, looking at him.
- Don't think so. She loves her brother too much, - he answered. Dwayne furrowed his brows, looking at the building they got near.
- Something's wrong, - he noticed. The smell was strange, the atmosphere was dire and they could hear...
- Screams? - Marko snickered, but caught the smell too and tensed up. To the moment they parked near the hospital, they sensed everything pretty well. - It couldn't be her.
- If it isn't her, we're in trouble, - if it wasn't you, it could be anyone causing the screams and the smell of blood. From psychos to hunters. David headed to the doors. They were locked, surprisingly, so the boys had to use the window on the second floor. With something strange going on noone would notice four of them flying.
There was blood. A lot of it. Paul even flashed yellow eyes couple of times, losing a bit of control. The lights were flickering and they decided to follow the blood trail and whimpers.
David saw you first. You were holding some pretty beat-up girl, who was missing hand and drank her with so much thirst he hadn't seen in you before. You always were the most sane out of them. The most calm one. You never went so violent on anyone even on your first hunt. And what was worse - you closed yourself. He couldn't sense you, even if he saw you right before him. You didn't let them in.
- Kitten? - he called, hearing whistle from Paul behind his back. You turned sharply, dropping the girl to the floor. David noticed tears on your face and furrowed his brows. - Care to explain?
- She killed him. She... He...
- Who killed who? - Marko asked, interrupting your trembling voice. - Because it seems you killed everyone here because of some sort of, oh shit... Jim?
- He's gone. And I was too late to do anything... This bitch, she messed up and... - you sobbed and kicked now dead body. - I want to kill her all over again, I want to rip her apart, I...
- She's dead. Like others are. You avenged him, - David said slowly. You looked at him almost angrily, shaking your head.
- NO! It's not enough! She took him, she... She deserve eternity in hell!
- And I'm sure she is there, - Dwayne moved closer to you. He stepped slowly, being carefully on bloody floor. - Look around. You killed everyone who could possibly harm you or harm him. You did that. Jim is free, - he put hands on your shoulders. You looked at him, your face slowly morphing back to human-like. Dwayne was hurt too. They all liked your brother, but for them - losing a human in their life was a habit after all these years. For you it was your first. And it was your closest person. His heart ached for you.
- But I don't want him to be free, I wanted him to live, - you sobbed, as Dwayne hugged you. Marko joined it, hugging your side, muttering something incoherently and softly, David only coming closer.
- We are with you. You are not alone, - you closed your eyes, feeling their thoughts and wish to help you. They felt your pain, they wanted to heal you from it. You just had to let them do that.
- What now? Oh gosh, I destroyed the hospital, people...
- If we are fast, everything will be alright, - David cut you off. - We just need to take your brother to bury him properly. And burn this place to the ground. Everyone would think it's an accident, - he kissed your bloody cheek, trying to calm you down. You nodded and then heard a chuckle.
- You did great job! - Paul looked around. - Never thought you would be one for violence, baby, but you surprised me with this perfection! - he looked at others, while they silently glared at him. - Come on, I'm trying to ease the tension!
- You can bite him, if you want, - David looked at you. - Or beat him up, we can help, - you smiled weakly and shook your head. Paul's defense was bad humour, you weren't offended, more sad though
- I just... I want to get out, - he nodded, taking you in his arms.
- I'm gonna flew you to the cave. Boys would... Take your brother and destroy this mess, how does that sound?
- Sounds good, - you nodded. David kissed your forehead, taking you bridal style.
You were broken, shattered, you didn't want to move, think, hell, even open your eyes. You were exhausted by this outburst of energy and rage. But you knew you weren't alone. They were near you. Not judging, not justifying. They were just near you. They would always be by your side.
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skzfairies Ā· 3 years ago
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sooyoungā€™s relationship with nct dream!
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āœæ mark
he was actually the first one to introduce himself to her in the dreamies
he was really sweet towards her but wasnā€™t like, over the top, he was kinda chill yk
and that just made her feel so comfortable because she had so many worries about joining nct dream as a girl, she knew monique would also be there, but they werenā€™t in the same unit so it was very nerve racking for sooyoung
and this girl was like, 15 and she was being thrown into debut suddenly with a bunch of boys, and it was very overwhelming
but mark assured her that it was all okay, and that everyone wanted her there, and that she deserved to be here
if she was ever having any problems with anything, he would always try his best to help her out, or direct her to someone he knew would help her
and now they are the bestest friends, sooyoung admitted that out of the members he feels like an older brother the most to her :D
their always goofing off or messing around, but not like bouncing off the walls together, they just make jokes to each other and burst out laughing
they have so so many inside jokes omg
and whenever they randomly make eye contact, they would always burst out laughing, they literally can NOT be serious around each other ....
mark is basically the reason she knows so much english šŸ˜­ she literally just repeats whatever he says and then studies it later....thatā€™s basically how she learned lmaooooo
āœæ renjun
renjun ALWAYS clowns her, like she could just be breathing and he would make fun of her (all jokes ok he loves her)
and sheā€™s just like .... did i ask
but she always gets him back :D
she doesnā€™t roast him, but rather she EMBARRASSES him
if renjun teased her a lot in a video that was uploaded fhat day, she would go on vlive and tell a VERY embarrassing story of renjun and go in COMPLETE detail and then sheā€™s done sheā€™s like ā€œhow are you guyssss?ā€
once renjun saw that she was doing that and he went to where ever she was and complained about it and she just laughed at him while he was begging her to stop šŸ˜­
they love each other i promise
they also play fight a lot, like they could just randomly be hanging out in the living room and they would just randomly start fighting each other until they called a truce
sooyoung always wins ā˜ŗļø, you gotta learn a few tricks if you spend the majority of your time with seven boys
also, when sooyoung got confindent and comfortable with speaking some mandarin, she randomly started speaking it renjun
and he was SO touched like šŸ¤ž he was in shock he was like ā€œwhen did you- how- what?ā€ and she was just like ā€œ i wanted to learn some so i can talk to you and chenle, i donā€™t know much but itā€™s a start!ā€
and renjun just hugged her, he didnā€™t know what to say and he was like I LOVE THIS GIRL SO MUCH
no bcuz sooyoung literally deserves the world okay shes so sweet
and renjun would teach her and help her practice when he saw her studying and they just have little conversations with each other in mandarin, and itā€™s so cute hehe
oh yeah stargazing is a thing for them heeh, when neither of them can sleep because their stressed or itā€™s just not happening, they both go outside and attempt to watch the stars, even if you can barely see them since their in the city :/
āœæ jeno
GAMING BESTIES
they stay up so late playing games whenever they are off and always regret it in the mornings šŸ˜­
when she first started playing games w him she was rlly bad and jeno would always beat her and he was SO SMUG ABOUT IT and he was like ā€œhaha loseršŸ’Ŗā€
and sooyoung being the hard worker she is, she practiced her gaming skills for a few months and watched a ton of vids and jeno would ask her to game and she was like ā€œno, not yet.ā€ ā€œiā€™m kidding your not a loser!ā€ ā€œiā€™m not playing w u until i can beat ur ass!ā€
and then a few months later she finally asked him to play
and jeno was like YAY ā˜ŗļøā˜ŗļø
and he kept on hyping himself up,,, and then sooyoung beat him
she ended up beating him 4/6 times they played šŸ¤ž
JENO WAS SO SHOCKED
HE WAS SO HEARTBROKEN
and sooyoung was just like :))) itā€™s okay jeno, maybe next time!ā€ and she skipped out of his room happily while jeno was still like :0
he sat there in shock for awhile...
song writing besties šŸ¤ž
he actually helped her a lot when she was first learning, and when she completed her lyrics she had him check them over
same for him, she would always read over his lyrics he written, and sometimes she recorded a guide for him !
they always bounce ideas off of each other whenever their stuck, and then their like ā€œdamn we rlly are big brain šŸ¤žā€
OHHHH SHE MET HIS CATS ONCE
she fell in love with them, and his cats were instantly drawn to her
jeno has like 100 pictures of her w his cats heā€™s like :)) my childern
after meeting them sooyoung wont stop asking for asking for pictures of them or asking if their okay šŸ˜­
jenos like ā€œdo you love my cats more than me?ā€œ and shes like ā€œYUP:Dā€
āœæ haechan
oh my gosh someone seperate them
these two are so chaotic omg
they are always coming at everyoneā€™s throats omg
they roast the shit out of everyone šŸ˜­šŸ˜­
whenever they are together thereā€™s always loud laughing, BECAUSE HAECHAN IS JUST SO FUNNY OK
completly random but they look so cute and pretty sitting next to each other :D
haechan does tease her, but itā€™s not as much as the other members and sheā€™s like :) ā€œiā€™m specialā€
heā€™s always hugging on her and she either has two reactions:
if sheā€™s sleepy and haechan throws himself on her sheā€™s like ??? who tf is on me ??? and she looks so confused while haechan is moving around on her to get comfy and hes lowkey screaming and shes like šŸ˜³ i just woke up, and then she just goes back to sleep
if sheā€™s wide awake she will scream and laugh and jokingly push haechan off of her until she gives up and just hugs back onto him, and she pats his head and goes ā€œhaechannie, your so cute :) i love you!ā€œ
its kinda a suprise that heā€™s older than her because he acts SO CUTE AROUND HER
and normally sooyoung would judge tf iut of u if you acted cute around her but wirh haechan she gets SO SOFT
like internally screams with haechan looks at her with a soft expression on his face because HE IS JUST SO CUTE AWH
another gaming duo <3
although itā€™s harder to beat haechan for her šŸ˜­šŸ˜­
sheā€™s only beat him like 5 times of the 6 years sheā€™s known him šŸ¤ž
they also stay up late together, like theyā€™ll be facetiming and they will litwrally just talk about ANYTHING and laugh their asses off
he lets her ramble about the random facts that she knows or the show she has been watching and jes just like :D your so cute, even if she repeated the same thing 2828 times or is not making any sense at all
haechan and sooyoung are so soft for each other šŸ¤ž
but they also arent afraid to roast tf out of each other šŸ’Ŗ
āœæ jaemin
these two are the sweetest omg
like they are SO CLOSE
and they are always together omg
like they always hang out in either one of their rooms and chill, itā€™s mostly her room tho because she complains about jaemins bed šŸ˜³
jisung feels like jaemin is his roomie too because heā€™s in there so much :0
dw sooyoung and jaemin are considerate šŸ¤ž
if jisung is sleeping and they wanna have a deep ass talk then jaemin will drags her to his room, because lets say jeno is a heavy sleeper (idk if he is but lets just say he is ā˜ŗļø)
they are ALWAYS cuddling, like whenever she walked infront of his and he is sitting down, heā€™ll pull her to either sit next to him or his lap, it depends if cameras are around šŸ¤ž and then once sheā€™s sitting heā€™ll wrap his arms around her and just cuddle until they get uncomfortable lmao šŸ˜­
sooyoung will not fall asleep on any other member but jaemin, itā€™s just a thing idk, not that sheā€™s not comfortable with the other members she just prefers to cuddle w jaemin since they cuddle so much hehehehe
whenever they are out walking in the streets and sheā€™s tired sheā€™ll grab onto jaeminā€™s shirt and he just down at her like :0 oh my god your so cute i just wanna protect ā˜ŗļø, and he just puts his arm around her shoulder while she holds onto him :( i love them their relationship is so soft
ohhhhh jaemin made her go bike riding w him one day and she felt like she was going to DIE, her legs were so sore afterwards but jaemin was semi fine, and she was just like šŸ˜”i hate you.
she always asks jaemin to edit her photos for her, cuz she doesnā€™t know how hmph, and jaemin offered to teach her so she was like ā˜ŗļø okay so she sat in a chair next to him, and she ended up falling asleep.... whoops
jaemin was like ā€œso you just do this to remove any- sooyoung?ā€ and he looked down and sooyoung had her head against her knees, and she was OUT, like jaemin tried everything to wake her, so he ended up having to pick her up and put her on his bed while he finished editing her pictures šŸ¤ž
best boy jaemin YUP
i could write for AGES about them because i just love their relationship so so so much but all you guys need to know in summary is that they are such a soft friendship, they can always be seen cuddling together, they talk about almost everything, and their just besties :D
āœæ chenle
01 liner babeā€™s yup !
they were close before debuting because they were close in age, and when they found out they were debuting they were like YESSS I KNOW YOU šŸ˜ŸšŸ˜Ÿ
they call themselves twins hehe, even if they arenā€™t even born in the same month šŸ˜­
if they say they are twins, they are twins.
HIGH PITCHED LAUGH DUO YUP
sooyoung also has a higher pitched laughed, so whenever they laugh, itā€™s VERY high pitched
also they love to randomly harmonize?
like they could just be sitting in the waiting room and then they would just sing in harmony and then go back to whatever they were doing :0
ohhhh and they LOVE doing tik toks together
they will do covers of dances together or those silly duo ones and itā€™s so FUNNY because they are both so chaotic and itā€™s so cute
they really killing everyone w their cuteness šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­
he was also so shocked when she spoke mandarin to him, even if it was just a little bit and kinda awkward because she had just been studying to for a few months (she started studying it in january 2021!) and he was like šŸ˜ŸšŸ˜„šŸ˜„
he also gave her a big hug but he was way more entergetic than renjun, he shook her back and forth and yelled in her ear, NOT ON OURPOSE
he was just excited šŸ¤žšŸ¤ž
ohhhh they also post lil duets together :D and itā€™s so CUTE
like their both bare faced in a dim lit vocal room and one of them is playing the piano, and they just sing, and itā€™s so raw and beautiful, OH MY GOD I LOVE THEM
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āœæ jisung
at first he was kinda shy around her, since hes normally shy around new people
and sooyoung was like, i understand, but shes an extrovert so she tried her hardest to be friends with everyone and talk to everyone, and jisung was like ???? how are you so talkative ???
the first thing he ever said to her was ā€œyour shirtā€™s cool, i like shinee subaenim too!ā€ and it was really quiet and sooyoung was like ā€œthanks ā˜ŗļøā€.
she was wearing a shinee tshirt btw, sheā€™s a big shawol šŸ¤­
they eventually got close though, i mean your bound to be when your with them all day yk
but sooyoung was so soft and gentle w him and reassuring him that itā€™s okay that hes a lil shy and he just felt comfortable around her, even if it was kinda hard to have conversations
now their inseparable!
she always laughs whenever he breaks something, but she always grabs it and sees if she can fix it for him, while laughing
for the first few years of their debut jisung was like her lil bro, she would always tease him or fool around him
and now its the reverse šŸ˜­
jisung always roast her or teases her, and itā€™s so subtle she would just laugh whenever he said something and then after awhile she realizes what he just said so sheā€™s like ... ā˜ŗļøšŸ˜ŸšŸ˜³šŸ˜•
shes like wHAT HAPPENED TO MY LIL BRO
jisung always pats her head when she has her mouth open after he teases her, and is like ā€œhehe, love uā€
ā€œsure you do jisung, sure you do.ā€
she gets him back by blasting twice or shinee and dancing on her bed until jisung gets out of bed and turns it off šŸ˜­
she never does that when heā€™s sleeping because she doesnā€™t actually wanna make him mad šŸ˜­
they have never fought and sheā€™s not willing to loose that streak
jisung compared their hand size once and it litteraly made sooyoungs hands look like a baby hand and she was like ... i hate it here
now he always asks for a high five and then he laughs because of the size difference
and she gets SO MAD
ā€œSTOP DOING THATTTTT, ITS NOT FUNNYā€
ā€œstop falling for it šŸ¤·ā€ā™‚ļøā€
ā€œhOLD ME BACK.ā€
jaemin actually had to hold her back from running after him after he teased her
not that she would hurt jisung....she would just hit him a few times
jaemin scolds her for fighting the members heā€™s like ā€œwe do not condone violence in this household!ā€
then she goes ā€œcondone violence my ass! just let me flick him.ā€
jaemin doesnā€™t let her flick him šŸ˜­šŸ˜­
she does it before jisung goes to sleep tho šŸ’Ŗ
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7fckingidiots Ā· 4 years ago
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Would you be alright with writing some HCs about the brothers and a MC who's a trans guy? Sorry if it's a tall order or too vague, they're a big comfort for me and I'd like to see what ideas you have bcs your headcanons are fantastic ;w;
HELL YEAH DUDE!!!! IM ALSO TRANS!!! AH!!!!! demigirl rights :3 but i also find a huge comfort in the boys and i hc all of them as trans because no one can Stop Me ā€¢ā€¢ but i really hope you enjoy these and remember youā€™re valid and i care u so much! Also i hope you donā€™t mind but i kinda made it gender neutral so every trans folk could enjoy!
The Brothers With A Trans MC
Lucifer
He didnā€™t know until you came out to him honestly. He knew all his other siblings were trans but with all the work Diavolo gave him and adding new students from different realms on top of that he hadnā€™t really had time to notice any minor changes in you.
He feels guilty about this and immediately makes sure(like everyone else)to ask for your pronouns, name, and how you would like to present yourself from now on.
Fixes your ID cards and your papers with Diavolo right after dinner
God. Heā€™s such a dad and he gets you things that have your new name on them. You wake up to see you have a new pencil case with your name embroidered on it with matching pencils. God.....heā€™s so weird i love him so much
Asmo does most of your clothing shopping but for formal wear he takes you shopping! Heā€™s not about to buy you some cheap tux or gown ok itā€™s gonna be over 2000 grim and heā€™s gonna get you three of them STOP HIM
Heā€™s not the best with verbal affection so he writes down notes that are like ā€œyou looked very handsome/pretty today.ā€ or when he first starts writing them theyā€™re like ā€œyouā€™re a boy/girl/kid. iā€™m proud of you.ā€ Thank u mr morningstar
You want surgery or to start hormones??? He will stop all his work with Diavolo and spend forever looking up things for you, he wants you to be as safe as possible(pls he almost fainted after he realized youā€™d have to give yourself a shot like everyday dhdhdhjdhd hc that demons/angels donā€™t have to do hormone therapy iā€™m so JEALOUS)
Practices saying your pronouns in his study when you first come out. He just wants to make sure you feel as safe as possible in his care(and he remembers how terrible it felt to be misgendered)
Guess what....he loves you no matter what :)
Mammon
Youā€™re blind as hell if you couldnā€™t see his top scars but I respect it
King DOES slip up on your pronoun change but always immediately corrects himself. Satan has a spray bottle that he sprays Mammon with when he does it. Mammon is NOT amused but the same canā€™t be said for Belphie.
Gender affirming activities??? Oh yeah like robbing a bank?? Thatā€™s pretty gender neutral and trans right?? Yeah!!! Wow such a good supportive brother.
If you want you can wear the formal wear Lucifer bought you to the said bank heist. Boom trans rights
You can practice painting his nails or doing his makeup if youā€™re too nervous to do it on yourself first!! Dw if itā€™s bad he also canā€™t do makeup or paint nails so once you let him return the favor youā€™re both laughing and Asmo is distraught.
KING at dying hair he will get you whatever you need and if you want an entire different hair cut entirely heā€™s ON it
Very used to being Loud and Brash but if you need someone to talk to about anything really he always calms down and sits down to listen to whatever you have to say.
Lots of gendered gifts from him. This said for men??? Oh ok adds to cart. Oh pink??? For ladies??? yeah that can go in there too
Youā€™re never gonna believe this.....But he loves you and supports you :)
Levi
He was the first one to come out to you at the house!! He was just so excited! Same hat!!!
Gets literally any video game where you can design the protag/have custom pronouns and will play games like that with you for hours
Would you like a pride flag.....for u.....He has too many.....Please take the trans flag please he has no room....he bought in bulk for a pride event and didnā€™t consider the consequences of his actions
Miku binder but irl. He will get if for you but unironically.....thanks King. He just likes binders with patterns and i respect IT
Dysphoria?? He gives you his hoodie bc that was his trademark dysphoria hoodie and i GUESS for you he can share............he would give u anything just ask nicely heā€™s sensitive
Reads any character that matches up with your gender and is like!!!!! Thatā€™s you!!!! OMG!!!! You in da IRL
Goes back and edits his tweets if they use your old name or pronouns(also has he/they in his bio. this is for nothing just makes me :D)
If you havenā€™t chosen your name heā€™s gonna suggest so many fictional characters. POV levi kin assigns you.
You listen to music together that just has Trans Vibes.....maybe u cry together but thereā€™s no judgment!! Itā€™s just nice :)
God itā€™s wild but! He loves u and thinks ur great :)
Satan
Enby Satan. Thatā€™s all :)
Heā€™s very quite about it, he supports you! Heā€™s just not loud like his brothers
He brings you book about gender studies and LGBTQ history that he thinks would interest you(there some of his favorite books and theyā€™ve made him feel the most comfortable in his gender)
Gives you a name list if you havenā€™t named yourself yet! He cares about you and wants to make sure you have the right name that suits you
Heā€™s the one that tells you that itā€™s ok if youā€™re still figuring it all out, learning about yourself is a very tricky process and if anyone knows that itā€™s Satan
Any of the brothers would kill anyone who misgendered you but with Satan that shit is ON SIGHT
Asks you how you know and what were the signs that gave it away to you, but only if youā€™re comfortable telling him!! He just finds everyoneā€™s experience interesting and would like to know yours as well.
Spells for fucking DAYS Satan personally kills body dysphoria the best he can(mainly bc heā€™s HIGHKEY afraid of you getting surgery he hates knives so much)
Makes your comfort food for you when youā€™re feeling down about yourself and will read whatever you want to hear outloud to you.
!!!!!! GET THIS !!!!!! He loves YOU :0
Asmo
Fucking excited!!!! This means you two are going to buy so much clothing together and he gets to style you letā€™s GO
Buys you whatever you want but he will make you try it all on so be CAREFUL what u wish for.....ur gonna be there till the store closes yeah......
Paints your nails with the trans pride flag!! Also does your makeup and gives you tips on how to look more masculine or fem!!
VOICE LESSONS
He will help you lower or raise the pitch of your voice if it KILLS him. It eventually becomes like a mini class after school
Helps with internalized transphobia! Hes dealt with his fair share and knows how awful it can be and he will NOT being having you experience that as well we r practicing Self Care now
Picks apart any one who misgenders you until theyā€™re crying he has NO fucking time for that behavior in this HOUSE
Sometimes self care is eating whatever you want and sitting in the dysphoria hoodies while watching chick flicks with Asmo
He likes dressing you up but heā€™s always sure to set boundaries so he never puts you into something that makes you feel uncomfortable
ALSO edits his posts and takes down anything that makes you uncomfortable!!
He loves you so much!!!!
Beel
another one to hand you The Dysphoria Hoodie and itā€™s very large and comfy!
heā€™ll help you make out a work out routine that will help you get the body you want and it makes him really happy to work out with you :)
heā€™s gonna hold your hand if you have to take shots and will give you puppy eyes if you donā€™t let him. Heā€™s just worried!!!! He wants to help
stands behind you whenever youā€™re nervous about coming out to someone, he will NOT have someone making you feel bad or misgendering you
heā€™ll see food with trans pride colors and gives it too you, probably doesnā€™t even know what it is half the time but it made him think of you so he makes sure to get it for you
he doesnā€™t trip up on any of your new pronouns or name and makes it seem like he never even knew them. dead name???? whatā€™s that??? a type of sauce?????
will let you vent to him whenever needed and will always make you a sundae after youā€™ve finished. itā€™s comically huge but itā€™s tasty and does make you feel a lot better, thanks beel
makes sure you remember to take off your binder if youā€™ve been wearing it for more than eight hours! and if youā€™ve been wearing heels to feel more fem he reminds you to take those off too and has a pair of slippers for you in his room that you can wear instead
hey! get this! He loves you so, so much :D
Belphie
youā€™re trans? ok kid join the club. he doesnā€™t make a big deal at all
are you still gonna cuddle with him and join him in his quest to make luciferā€™s life difficult? yeah? ok then cool whatā€™s ur nameĀ 
if he hears someone misgender you he waits till youā€™ve left the room and just kills whoever did it, dudeā€™s unhinged what did you expect from him honestly
heā€™s actually really curious about any hormone therapy youā€™re on and likes listening to you rant about it to him. he likes seeing your face light up and it partly reminds him of lilith
calls your hormones something stupid likeĀ ā€œoh dude, your gamer girl juice arrived.ā€ orĀ ā€œhey your little man potion is here.ā€ ...thanks belphie
will NOT let you sleep in a binder or push up bra!!! not healthy!! let ur chest breath guysĀ 
like mammon, he gets you gendered gifts but theyā€™re so fucking weird? you didnā€™t need a girls version of a collectable hot wheels set???? he got you blue lightning mcqueen sheets?????? those EXIST here????!!!!! when does he even shop......
introduces you to new people likeĀ ā€œthis is our resident boy/girl/human. they donā€™t do much but i think theyā€™re cool.ā€
he really does care about you but he remembers when he came out he just didnt want people to make a big deal about it so heā€™s just doing what would have made him feel the most comfortable, but you can still see how much love he has for you when you look into his eyes
he loves you, so, so much :)
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marvxlousqueen Ā· 4 years ago
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So Fucking Sore- Bucky x Loki x Reader
iĀ have returned from the dead to deliver this smut for my friendā€™s birthday LMAOO anyways for this letā€™s just pretend tony killed thanos in endgame and brought back nat and gamora and nobody died haha yes anyways bucky is a simp in this tbh (and iā€™ve never written for loki so forgive me if itā€™s bad LMAOO)
anyways happy bday bestie (donā€™t wanna expose ur name on here lol) love u <3
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The Avengers compound was more full than it had ever been. Finally, every floor was filled, every guest room taken, some sleeping bags even rolled onto the floor. Tony hadnā€™t planned to host the entirety of the avengers force, some odd one thousand people. After defeating Thanos and fixing the time lines, Tony felt as though they deserved a break and a celebration. Although most people were still recovering and wouldnā€™t stay for long at the party, he figured laughter is the best medicine- that, and he always loved an occasion to show off his hosting skills.Ā 
Tonyā€™s invitation even extended to the staff at the compound, which is how (Y/n) found herself holding a rsvp letter, trying to decide which box to check off.Ā 
ā€œYes [Ā  Ā ]Ā  (+1)Ā  Ā No [Ā  Ā  ]ā€
She fumbled with the letter, pen getting heavy in her hand. She was seated in her office, taking her lunch break in between helping some of the injured Wakandan soldiers. Being an on-site nurse, of course she had had encounters with the team, but nothing like this party would be.Ā 
Would it be embarrassing if I didnā€™t have a plus one, she thought
She was interrupted by a knock at her door.Ā ā€œCome in,ā€ she said without looking up.Ā 
The door slowly opened and Bucky entered, small smile on his face.Ā 
ā€œHey.. just figured Iā€™d bring you some snacks. Figure you must be real busy in the infirmary.ā€
He set a plate of strawberries on the table with a bottle of water, metal arm extending towards her. (Y/n) could briefly see her reflection in the shine of the vibranium. She lost herself for a moment, examining his arm.
ā€œ(Y/n)?ā€Ā 
ā€œWhat- oh yeah! Super busy. Thanks, Buck,ā€ she gave him a smile, cheeks burning.
They had always had some sort of chemistry, but she just couldnā€™t quite get a read on it enough to make a move. Ever since reconnecting with Steve, Bucky had gotten back into his old ways. Still a giant flirt, just maybe a little more shy than in the 40s. He loved to toss some pick up lines around whenever he wound up in the infirmary (which was a little too often), so (Y/n) couldnā€™t figure out if he really liked her or was flirty with everyone.Ā 
ā€œWhatā€™s that you got there?ā€ He motioned to the rsvp letter on her desk, still unanswered.
ā€œOh, invitation to Tonyā€™s party thing this weekend. Think heā€™s trying to get a head count for seats and food. Donā€™t think Iā€™m going to go, though.ā€
Bucky pulled up a chair to her desk,Ā ā€œWhy wouldnā€™t you go? You should be celebrating too, I mean- half of us wouldnā€™t be in this good of a condition without your healing hands.ā€
His lips pulled into a smirk as he saw her smile shyly. He loved how we could always make her melt at the slightest compliement.
ā€œI think it might be a little embarrassing to show up without a plus one.. I donā€™t know, itā€™s probably stupid, but it seems like everyone has someone, you know?ā€
(Y/n) shrugged, not sure how else to explain her thoughts.
Bucky nodded, running a hand through his hair,Ā ā€œSo- what, youā€™re waiting for someone to ask you?ā€Ā 
ā€œI- No, but it would be nice, I guess.ā€
Bucky felt his face heat up. Hereā€™s my chance, he thought. A chance to get some real action because Iā€™ve been out of it for too fucking long.Ā 
(Y/n) looked up at him, waiting for a response. When nothing came, she pushed through her nerves.Ā ā€œYou donā€™t have a date, do you?ā€
His eyes snapped up to hers, wide with worry.Ā ā€œI-uh-no. D-donā€™t need one. Just a party, you know? Kinda stupid to get a date for a party like this.ā€
ā€œOh- yeah, totally,ā€ (Y/n) stumbled over her words, facing burning with embarrassment. Did he call me stupid? Well, I guess that answers my questions- he is definitelyĀ NOT into me.Ā 
Ā Bucky almost slapped himself after seeing the way (Y/n)ā€™s face dropped. THAT CAME OUT WRONG THAT CAME OUT WRONG THAT CAME OUT WRONG!! He meant to come off as relaxed and nonchalant like he used to be, but instead he sounded like a dick.Ā 
Before he could get an apology out, another knock was heard from her office door.Ā ā€œC-come in!ā€
Steve opened the door,Ā ā€œHey- oh hey buck,ā€ Bucky awkwardly waved at him, still busy screaming at himself,Ā ā€œanyways, (Y/n)- Thorā€™s got friends on the way and apparently they got a little scuffed up on the way from Norway, so you think you can head in and check on em?ā€Ā 
ā€œYes! Totally! Uh- bye Bucky, I-Iā€™ll see you.ā€ She jumped out of her seat and rushed off down the hall, happy to get away from this tension with Bucky.
Steve watched her speed off down the hall before turning back to his old friend.Ā ā€œSo.. howā€™s that going?ā€
Bucky sighed,Ā ā€œItā€™s not going at all. I think I accidently called her dumb? I donā€™t know- I kinda blacked out for a minute there.ā€
Steve patted him on the shoulder,Ā ā€œYouā€™ll be fine. You got plenty of time to fix anything and make your move when youā€™re ready, all right?ā€
He understood how his friend was having some difficulties. While he was far more stable then he used to be, Bucky still had his moments and was working through them. Steve couldnā€™t be prouder.Ā 
ā€œI guess youā€™re right. As long as no other guy tries to scoop her up.ā€
--
(Y/n) entered the infirmary, breathing hard from the speed walk she took to escape that awkwardness. Laying on two of the beds was a tall man with long black hair and some sort of creature with knives attached to itā€™s hands.Ā 
ā€œ(Y/n)! My friends require your services!ā€ Thor shouts, embracing her in a hug.
She laughs as he squeezes her tightly,Ā ā€œOf course! Now let me go so I can help-ā€
The man who was reclining on the first bed sat up, eyebrows raised.Ā ā€œYouā€™re a healer?ā€
She looked towards him, noting his accent was similar to Thorā€™s,Ā ā€œWell- no. Not a healer, just a nurse, but Iā€™ll do my best. With all this new tech itā€™ll be real easy to batch you up. What happened?ā€
Thor spoke up,Ā ā€œMy dear friend here,ā€ he motioned toward the creature with the blades for hands,Ā ā€œMiek- got into a argument with my dear brother and knives were thrown. Just minor stab wounds of course, but it would be nice for them to be healed before Starkā€™s feast.ā€
ā€œYour brother?ā€ She looked towards the man with black hair, who offered a smile.Ā ā€œYouā€™re Loki?ā€Ā 
ā€œThe trickster god indeed.ā€
Her face heated up, partially in fear and partially in awe. Before her was the man who constantly tried to rule Earth.Ā ā€œAre you-,ā€ she turned to Thor,Ā ā€œis he allowed to be here?ā€
ā€œOf course! He aided me in our fight against Thanos. He stands as an avenger now.ā€Ā 
Loki rolled his eyes and began to spin a small knife he pulled from his boot.Ā  (Y/n) nodded, still registering everything,Ā ā€œWell, uh , okay then. Whereā€™s the stab wound?ā€Ā 
Loki moved to lift his shirt. On his left side was a gash still dripping blood. (Y/n) took a deep breathe, forcing herself to focus on his wound and not the outline of his abs and the way sweat was dripping down.
ā€œOh- jesus christ, okay. Let me get some stuff.ā€
The creature on the other bed made a noise and (Y/n) realized he was injured too, a small blade sticking out of his leg.Ā 
ā€œOkay, Iā€™ll be right back.ā€ She ran to the other side to grab materials and begin patching them up. The process went like a blur. All she could feel was the way Lokiā€™s body felt warm against hers, not like the cold she was expecting from his being a dark elf. His hand brushed against hers as he admired her handy work, eyes moving from her face to her form. Finally she was done and seated back in her office, yelling at herself for being so horny today for no goddamn reason.Ā 
As she took a seat once again, she noticed the still blank rsvp card.
God-fucking-damn it
She still had a decision to make. As she went to check theĀ ā€œNo [Ā  Ā ]ā€ box, her door opened. Loki walked in and quickly made himself comfortable, sitting across from her.Ā 
ā€œI wish to thank you for the help.ā€
(Y/n) nodded, eyes wide,Ā ā€œOf course, yeah, anyth-ā€
ā€œI also wish to invite you to Starkā€™s feast.ā€
She froze, mouth slightly open. I donā€™t even know this dude! And heā€™s killed a shit ton of people..
ā€œUh, well,ā€ oh fuck it,Ā ā€œI would love that. Thanks.ā€
He smiled,Ā ā€œIā€™ll see you then, (Y/n).ā€
He left and closed the door behind him. She rushed to fill out the card and went to find Tony. Knowing him, heā€™d probably be down in his lab playing robots with Morgan. (Y/n) hopped in the elevator and headed towards the basement above the parking garage. It stopped around 3 floors down and the sign flashedĀ ā€œgym.ā€ The doors opened and Bucky entered, sweaty from trying to workout and get rid of all these new feelings heā€™s having. He didnā€™t look up from his phone until the doors closed behind him.Ā 
His eyes landed on hers,Ā ā€œO-oh hey! Hi.ā€
(Y/n) gave him a wave and looked down at her letter, rolling it up in her hands.
ā€œYou going to the party?ā€
ā€œYep.ā€
ā€œThatā€™s good! Really good! Because you really donā€™t need a date for stuff like this, weā€™re all friends, right?ā€ Bucky was desperately trying to make up for what he had said earlier.Ā 
ā€œI have a date actually.ā€
His eyes widened,Ā ā€œWhat? Who?ā€
She turned and shrugged,Ā ā€œJust some guy I met, donā€™t think you would know him.ā€
A light went off in his head- sheā€™s trying to make me jealous, isnā€™t she! She doesnā€™t have a date! She just wants me to make my move!
Bucky laughed and gave her a smirk, ā€œYou donā€™t have to lie to impress me, doll.ā€
She whipped around,Ā ā€œExcuse me? You donā€™t think I can get a date?ā€
His cheeks turned bright red,Ā ā€œW-what? No, youā€™re just trying to make me jealous.. right?ā€
Her jaw dropped,Ā ā€œYou are so full of it.ā€Ā 
The elevator dinged and (Y/n) exited into the basement, leaving Buckyā€™s head full of questions.
Did I just fuck up again, he thought.Ā 
The next few days past fairly quickly. (Y/n) spent her time in the medical bay once again, dealing with minor injuries and organizing the first aid kits. The few highlights she did have was a quick lunch with Loki, which seemed very abnormal for him. He showed up in her office with, as he called it,Ā ā€œMidgardian Trash,ā€ which was just a plate of different snack foods that Clint had recommended. They ate in a comfortable silence, sharing a few thoughts here and there, until he took his que to leave. (Y/n) walked him to the door and was surprised when he pressed a kiss to her cheek, making her face heat up.
ā€œSee you tomorrow, dear (Y/n).ā€
She stumbled out a response, making him laugh at her speechlessness. After work she rushed to prepare herself for Saturday night.
--
It was probably the biggest party upstate New York had ever seen. Completely catered, a professional band, everyone dressed up in their finest clothing. (Y/n) wouldā€™ve felt completely out of place if it wasnā€™t for Lokiā€™s arm wrapped around her waist as they entered. He was dressed in a black suit with a dark green tie, constantly repping his main color. Time flew as they spun on the dance floor and drank a little too much, although alcohol didnā€™t seem to have much effect on him. Loki excused himself to the restroom as (Y/n) downed a glass of water to sober up. She felt someone sit next to her at the bar.
ā€œLook, Iā€™m not interested-ā€
ā€œAre you crazy? Like- do you genuinely have a death wish?ā€
She looked beside her and was face to face with Bucky. It felt weird to see him so dressed up. She was used to the sweats and t-shirts, but she had to admit that he cleaned up nice.Ā 
ā€œWhat are you talking about?ā€
He glared at her,Ā ā€œLoki? Your date is LOKI. Steve filled me in, I know everything. Heā€™s killed people, (Y/n)! A lot of them!ā€
ā€œSo have you.ā€
ā€œI-ā€ His voice faltered.Ā ā€œThatā€™s different, you know it is. Iā€™m just worried about you, thatā€™s all.ā€
ā€œWell donā€™t be. Heā€™s actually a pretty good guy. And here he comes now.ā€
Loki appeared, tapping Bucky on the shoulder,Ā ā€œcan I help you?ā€
ā€œWe were just talking.ā€
He laughed,Ā ā€œseems you would rather do much more than that.ā€
(Y/n)ā€™s brows furrowed,Ā ā€˜What does that mean?ā€
Buckyā€™s face turned red,Ā ā€œnothing! I guess Iā€™ll leave you two alone now.ā€Ā 
ā€œNonsense,ā€ Loki pushed him back into the chair.Ā ā€œTell the woman what you think of her. Perhaps it could work out for you, or for us both.ā€
ā€œWhat!?ā€
(Y/n) was confused again,Ā ā€œWhat the fuck are you guys talking about?ā€
Loki looked her up and down,Ā ā€œdonā€™t be a fool. He fancies you, as do I. I propose an agreement-ā€
ā€œwait what,ā€ she looked at Bucky,Ā ā€œyou like me? Like- more than a friend?ā€
He looked down at the table, confused and frustrated about his feelings and about how this alien douchebag was making fun of him. He swallowed the lump in his throat and spoke up.
ā€œListen asshole-ā€
Loki rolled his eyes,Ā ā€œdo you wish to mount the lady or no?ā€
(Y/n) choked on her water,Ā ā€œwhat the fuck-ā€
Buckyā€™s eyes felt like they would fall out of his head, but he responded instinctively,Ā ā€œyes, god yes.ā€
Butterflies went off in (Y/n)ā€™s stomach, eyes locked onto Buckyā€™s face.
ā€œGreat. So do I. So we shall share her then? Tonight? What do you think?ā€Ā 
Loki turned to (Y/n), who was in shock.
ā€œI-what?ā€
ā€œTonight, the two of us, yes? In your chambers, perhaps.ā€
ā€œI-uh, okay.ā€
Bucky licked his lips,Ā ā€œOkay?ā€
ā€œYes, I mean-fuck, why not. You are both.. wow.ā€
Loki laughed,Ā ā€œGreat, but truly shocking how blind you mortals are to each other.ā€Ā 
The three of them sat in a weird tension at the bar while waiting for Tony to give his toast. After about 10 minutes of emotional rambling, Tony finally raised his glass to the Avengers. (Y/n) downed her drink and looked to the two men sitting beside her. Locking eyes, they shared a common thought and all excused themselves one by one. They found their way into (Y/n)ā€™s bedroom, where she made herself at home by throwing off the heels she had been wearing all night.Ā 
ā€œSo-uh-ā€
Bucky cut off her rambling with a hot, open mouthed kiss pressed to her lips. His hands trailed down her sides and grabbed her ass. He pulled away, breathing hard.Ā ā€œYou have no idea, how long Iā€™ve wanted to do that.ā€Ā 
He suddenly felt far more confident and began to strip off his suit, starting with the tie that had been choking him all night. Loki threw off his coat and pushed (Y/n) onto her bed.Ā 
ā€œI want you to kneel.ā€Ā 
She stood up on her knees, face flushed, waiting for his next move. He slowly undid his pants and pulled out his cock.Ā 
Well, yeah, heā€™s definitely packing
(Y/n) pressed a kiss to the tip before licking her way from the bottom back to the top. She took a deep breath and took him in her mouth as far as she could. Loki began to thrust, gripping her hair and pushing her forward, using her mouth as a fucktoy. (Y/n) opened her eyes to look up at him and noticed Bucky on the side, hand in his pants, eyes zeroed in on her mouth. She motioned for Bucky to strip, making him drop his pants and boxers, leaving him now completely exposed. His hand continued to pump his length, whimpers leaving his mouth. Loki noticed (Y/n)ā€™s eyeā€™s on Bucky and pulled away from her, leaving spit and precum dripping down her mouth.
ā€œTake her.ā€
Buckyā€™s face flushed, embarrassed to be doing exactly what some other dude told him to. He walked towards the bed, cock standing proudly.Ā 
ā€œIs this okay?ā€
(Y/n) nodded yes, grabbing him by the shoulders and pulling him onto the bed with her. With Bucky underneath her, she lined up with his dick and sunk down onto it.
ā€œFuck! Jesus-fuck-ā€
(Y/n) couldnā€™t think for a moment, too distracted by how much he was stretching her. Buckyā€™s head was thrown up and his grip on her thighs tightened. He lifted his tips and bucked into her, making her gasp again.
Regaining her composure, (Y/n) began to roll her hips. As she rode him, Bucky sat up and his lips found their way to her neck, leaving marks up and down it. From the side of the bed, she could see Loki completely exposed now, hand running up and down his length as he watched them. He smirked as he caught her eye, making it more of a show.Ā 
His hand moved faster before focusing on his tip. (Y/n)ā€™s thoughts were broken from him as Bucky began to paw at her clit, rubbing it just the right way. Her hands went to his hair, pulling him close.
ā€œGod, so fucking-shit-so tight-ā€
Buckyā€™s voiced was strained, trying not to finish before her, but (Y/n) was making it difficult with how tight she was clamped around him.Ā 
ā€œFuck-iā€™m so close, please!ā€
Bucky started thrusting up into her,Ā ā€œsay my name-fuckā€
ā€œBucky! Please!ā€
He rammed into her with a quick pace, hands groping her ass. (Y/n) a warmth growing in her, squeezing his dick even more. Finally, she reached her peak and exploded around him, dripping her juices down his dick. Bucky quickly flipped them over, putting one of her legs over his shoulder and started to pound into her. (Y/n) choked on her breath, completely overwhelmed from the overstimulation. Buckyā€™s thrusts began to stutter until he bucked one last time, going deep into her and exploding. He filled her up and slowly pulled out, seeing his cum dripping out of her.
ā€œHoly shit.ā€
(Y/n) laughed, trying to catch her breath,Ā ā€œthanks, you too.ā€
ā€œQuite the show, indeed.ā€
(Y/n) had almost forgot there was a whole other dude waiting to fuck her. Looking over, Lokiā€™s cock was still standing tall, the tip burning red.Ā 
He stood up and made his way to the bed,Ā ā€œOn your hands and knees.ā€
His command made butterflies form in her stomach. (Y/n) turned over and got on her hands and knees. Loki entered her without warning, making her scream out in surprise. His hand came to her head, pushing her into the mattress. His pace picked up as he slammed into her.
ā€œJesus-fucking-god!ā€
Loki laughed through his heavy breathing, literally fucking her into the mattress.
ā€œLetā€™s get something in that mouth, yes? Barnes-ā€
Buckyā€™s eyes moved from watching where Loki was connecting with (Y/n) to her mouth.Ā ā€œSure-yeah, fuck yes.ā€
Bucky was thankful for his super soldier qualities because he was already up for round two. He got on the bed, dick facing (Y/n)ā€™s mouth. She got back on her hands and kissed his tip before he pushed in. Bucky let (Y/n) control the pace although most times she was pushed on his dick by Lokiā€™s hard thrusts. (Y/n) lost track of time as she getting literally fucking railed. Lokiā€™s thrusts began to speed up and sweat was dripping down his godly body.Ā 
(Y/n) felt the coil in her stomach tighten again, warmth spreading through out her, she was close, moaning around Buckyā€™s length. He pulled out of her mouth and began to jerk off, enjoying the show Loki and her were putting on.Ā 
(Y/n) screamed as she reached her climax for the second time that night, eyes rolling to the back of her head, but Loki didnā€™t slow. He continued until one finally thrust, he pulled out and spilled onto her back, throwing his head back.
The noises (Y/n) was making made Bucky cum into his own hand before collapsing on the bed.Ā 
(Y/n) dropped onto the bed, legs shaking.Ā ā€œJesus- fuck.ā€
Bucky put a hand to her cheek,Ā ā€œyou okay? We didnā€™t hurt you, did we?ā€
She shook her head,Ā ā€œNo, just-fuck- Iā€™m gonna be so fucking sore.ā€
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winghero-writing Ā· 4 years ago
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hey I just found your blog and.. WHY DIDN'T I SEE U B4 UR SO GREAT I LOVE U FOR THE 30 MIN I READ THRU EVERYTHING!!! and I was wondering since u did a Keigo x Todoroki!reader and the reader told the smaller fam about her bf I want to know how Endeavor reacts :p U don't have to do it but I'm a fucking cat and curiosity finna kill me.
Hey! In sorry in taking too long to answer the asks but in going to get them out, I promise! Also, thank you so much for the support! I hope I did justice to what you wanted!
It had been a few weeks since Y/N introduced Keigo to her siblings. She was happy with the outcome and so was Hawks. But right now, is when the real challenge starts.
She knew that her siblings would like Hawks, and even if they didn't like him that much she could use her privilege as an older sibling and get them to stay out of her love life. It was really reliving when they told her they were happy for her.
Now, her dad was something unpredictable, she can't even imagine the way he would react.
Now, her days consist of her head full of scenarios of how to break the news to her dad and how he would react.
She knows he is changing for the better. He took to heart the advice she told him and began to show interest in his children without giving up, even when Natsuo pushed him away or Shoto ignored him.
She was pulling a lot of scenarios in her head at the moment that she didn't hear the door from the apartment. She gave Hawks a spare key since she always got scared when he used the window to get in.
"Dove?" Hawks made his way from the front door to the kitchen where he found his girlfriend lost in thought.
"What are you thinking about, little birdie." He moved a chair and took a seat, he saw her jump a little, getting out of thought. He laughed a little at her reaction.
"Keigo! I didn't hear you. I'm so sorry!" She stood from her chair a little and give him a kiss. It didn't last too long but he was satisfied with it.
"So, what do you have in your head that you forgot about me?" He rested his chin on his hand, giving her his full attention.
Y/N played with her fingers a little in deep thoughts before answering him.
"It's just..." She let out a long sigh. "I already introduce you to my siblings and my mother. I have to introduce you to my father too." She looked at him and found a smug expression in his face. She knew that he would think that all this would be easy but it wouldn't be.
"Not as the Winged Hero, Hawks. As Takami Keigo, his daughter's boyfriend." She put extra emphasis on the word 'daughter'.
She would have laughed at how his expression changed and his face showed realization about how he would have to meet Enji Todoroki, not Endeavor, but the topic at hand didn't a low her to laugh.
"I..." His whole body position change after her statement, now sitting upright and tense in the kitchen chair.
"I didn't think about it in that way..."
She smiled a little, if he got this worked up about meeting her family at least it showed that he was serious.
"We'll find a way for him not to blow up." She rested her hand on top of his own, offering comfort to her now troubled boyfriend.
A few days later, the two of them agree that Y/N would call her siblings and father to have a family dinner where she would take her boyfriend. She told her siblings that Hawks would go but hid that information to her father.
Again, her head was pulling all kinds of scenarios of the possible outcome of this dinner. Sensing her distress, Hawks took her face in his hands and looked straight in her eyes
"Hey, it's not like I'll die, you know!" He laughed, trying to make the tension lighter.
She smiled at his attempts to relaxed her. She knew that he was a lot more nervous than he showed.
The two were wearing casual clothes since it wasn't anything formal. Just dinner.
They arrived a little early for Y/N to help her younger sister for dinner. Hawks helped too, Natsuo and Shoto arrived not long after the couple. The only one missing was Enji.
He had sent a message to Y/N telling her that he was on his way, also apologizing for being a little late.
"Okay, dad is on his way." Y/N save her phone in her pocket and turned to look at her two little brothers.
"Please, don't cause a fight." She took their hands, Natsuo and Shoto saw their sister pleading eyes, it made them realize how important this was for her (and Hawks) so they agree.
Smiling at the two and giving them a kiss on the cheek, she turned to Hawks next. He smiled at her.
'Looks like he is not that nervous anymore, huh.' She returned the smiled.
"Euh, get a room you two." Natsuo made a gagging noise and turned around not wanting to see the lovey-dovey interaction that the couple had. Shoto just stared at them, not finding the problem.
Hawks laugh out loud and put his arm around Y/N.
"Well, maybe after this, we will go to the room?" He asked seductively. Y/N hit his chest and got out of his one arm hug.
"Pervert." She went to talk to Shoto about the girl she helped him with but not before sending a smile at her boyfriend.
"Y/N-nee! Dad is here!" She heard Fuyumi from the door. Y/N stood up immediately and looked at Hawks.
He made his way to the door before she could stop him.
"Yo! Endeavor, how have you been?" Hawks greet the man in a simple way. He tried to make this lighter.
"What are you doing in my house bit brain?" Endeavor didn't expect to see the Number Two in his house. His mood was starting to get down (in an angry way!) seeing the blond hero in his house.
"Dad! How have you been!" Y/N stood in front of Hawks, trying to shield him. Enji's face softened a bit at seeing his older daughter greeting him but he tried not to show it. Still, Hawks notice this change in his expression.
"Good. Now, could someone tell me why is Hawks here?" He looked at everyone in the room. Natsuo and Shoto were just watching from the sidelines but their faces showed amusement at the situation. Fuyumi just watched and couldn't help but feel a little bad about her older sister.
"You see dad, I broug..."
"I didn't come here as Hawks, Endeavor." Hawks interrupted Y/N and put his arm around her waist.
"I came here as Keigo, Y/N's boyfriend."
The house was silent for a long while. The tension could be cut with a knife. Nobody dared to move either.
Endeavor glared at Hawks while the blond was smiling at him (smirking would be more accurate).
Y/N let out a sigh, at least the news was out. She got out of Hawks hold and stood in front of her dad. She smiled at him.
"We have been together for a few months now. He is a good guy. I hope you accept him soon."
And so, she went to the table to start serving the plates, her sibling followed her to help in anything they could (also, to get out of the tension between the two heroes).
"So, I have your blessing...?" Hawks was the first one to talk, he wasn't as nervous as before but seeing how Endeavor was glaring at him would scare anyone.
"You're dead bird brain." He took Hawks from his shirt and put him at his same eye level. The blond male just gave him his carefree smile.
"Wow, wow, calm down Endeavor! I really love her you know!" He looked at him in the eyes. "And I really hope that you don't mind me being with her. I promise to protect her from anything."
"She can protect herself, she is strong." Endeavor let out in a gruff tone.
Hawks laugh at this. "Yeah, I know!"
Endeavor let go of Hawks, letting him fall from his hands. The blond male was unaffected by it and started to fix his clothes.
"I can't control her." Endeavor let out after a while. "I don't have the right, but if you hurt her you're dead." And so, Endeavor made his way to were his children where waiting.
Hawks was left there stunned. That was a blessing, right? Did he approve?
He followed the same path and took a seat beside Y/N who just looked at him with a smile. She had heard them talking and for her, it was a win. At least her dad didn't kill him.
The dinner was then filled with Fuyumi attempts to make her brothers talk without success. Y/N laughed at it, thanking her brothers for staying quiet, she knew that if they talk they would start to throw insults at their father.
At the end of the night, it was a successful mission for the couple. Even when Endeavor threatened Hawks that he would beat him up the next time. Y/N just laugh and enjoy her time in family.
- Bonus -
Hawks was patrolling. He hates patrolling at night since he enjoys sleeping in Y/N's bed, cuddling her. It was a fairly peaceful night but he didn't fail to see the blue fire from an alley not too far where he was.
He made his way to the alley and was met face to face with the infamous villain, Dabi.
"Fancy seeing you here, Number two." The villain said to him. "I'm not here to fight." Dabi put his arms up in form of surrender.Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā  "More especially, I came here to talk to you."
"What do you want Dabi." Hawks was getting pissed, he didn't want to deal with this now and fighting at this time it's a pain in the ass for him.
"I know that you associate me with the League..." Dabi hid his hands in his pockets and began walking away from him. "But you know... This is more on a personal note..." He turned a little to watch him in the eyes before going away. "You hurt her and you are dead." Dabi glared at him. It was the first time that Hawks feel scared of a villain. What did he mean by her? Before he could ask, Dabi was already out of sign.
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officialleotolstoy Ā· 4 years ago
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Oh Dolokhov Brainrot Weā€™re Really In It Now, aka Dolokhov playlist annotations!
A note on the cover photo: I donā€™t really like this one but I got tired of looking at men on Pinterest so I gave up. The window symbolizes the rum window and the smoking symbolizes uhhhhh habitual bad life choices idk
Drinking game take a shot every time I say ā€œitā€™s about the vibesā€
Wrecking Ball - Mother Mother
ā€œI break it just because I canā€
This is THEE ā€˜I am going to cause problems on purposeā€™ song and that is like his entire narrative purpose!! Argue with me about this one I dare you
The Good, The Bad, and the Dirty - Panic! At The Disco
ā€œIf you wanna start a fight you better throw the first punch, make it a good oneā€
Partially its just vibes, I wonā€™t lie. But also the consistent spoiling for a fight is very in character
Shoot to Thrill - AC/DC
ā€œIā€™m like evil, I get under your skinā€
Itā€™s got I Am Morally Repulsive But Also Iā€™ll Steal Your Girl energy which really hits all of Dolokhovā€™s character traits. And of course the added bonus of gun imagery.
Mr. Brightside - The Killers
ā€œIt started out with a kiss, how did it end up like thisā€
I added it strictly for vibes, but then I realized the quoted lyric is very much him @ the Kuragins if you take the reading that he refuses to admit he actually like them but grows genuinely fond of them over time even though he initially got to know them with a lot of ulterior motives.
Bohemian Rhapsody - Queen
ā€œMama, I just killed a manā€
The amount of songs that are on these playlists just for what are essentially your mom jokes since Dolokhov loves his mom so much is a little pathetic. But Iā€™m not wrong! I canā€™t really put it into words but something about this song has Dolokhov energy.
Feel It Still - Portugal the Man
ā€œGive in to that easy living, goodbye to your hopes and dreamsā€
A good deal of what I find interesting about Dolokhov is the internal conflict he has of knowing heā€™s become rather wicked and problematic but also not really trying very hard to change and almost enjoying it so a lot of the songs on here are about that, including this one. The ā€œIā€™m a rebel just for kicks nowā€ also very much screams Causing Problems On Purpose.
The Bidding - Tally Hall
ā€œI like to take advantage of the bourgeoisieā€
His whole role in volume one and two is to take advantage of the bourgeoisie! This song also oozes confidence and a sense of superiority that comes from being better than the sellouts in high society, Dolokhovā€™s not like other girls uwu (he really is, but I donā€™t think he would admit that).
Say Amen (Saturday Night) - Panic! At The Disco
ā€œI could be better but baby itā€™s Saturday nightā€
Embracing his own wickedness! The idea that he knows he could be better than he is but he doesnā€™t want to take that opportunity...yeah vibes
Wilson (Expensive Mistakes) - Fall Out Boy
ā€œI became such a strange shape from trying to fit inā€
This is the epitome of the ā€œwoe is me I need to be purifiedā€ phase he goes through when heā€™s into Sonya. Also ā€œIā€™ll stop wearing black when they make a darker colorā€ reminds me of Comet Dolokhovā€™s stupid eyeliner <3
Some Nights - fun.
ā€œSo what is this? I sold my soul for this?ā€
Thereā€™s a long stretch of this playlist that just boils down to ā€œWoe is me I need to be purifiedā€ crisis hours, because Dolokhovā€™s oscillation between embracing his own cruelty and trying to be a good person is super interesting to me. This song captures the idea that heā€™s still having fun and thereā€™s some good there, but heā€™s also aware that heā€™s losing himself a bit
Roaring 20s - Panic! At The Disco
ā€œI donā€™t even know meā€
ā€œWoe is me i need to be purifiedā€ crisis AGAIN. This song gets more to the annoyance with society as a whole and feeling kind of lost in it
Send Them Off! - Bastille
ā€œHelp me exorcise my mindā€
ā€œPlease purify me 16 year old girl! Iā€™m 27 this isnt creepy at all ahahahhaā€. I do despise Sonyakhov but this has the vibes of a man feeling his own evil and wanting a woman to fix it. Not a great look.
Easy Days (Demo) - Bastille
ā€œI donā€™t wanna fall back again, back into the easy daysā€
Near the end of the ā€œwoe is me I need to be purifiedā€ phase when heā€™s kind of drifting back to his old ways and heā€™s like wait no- wait- and then he does anyway because heā€™s horrible. I also really like the acknowledgment that his horribleness is easy and pleasant for him, and he has to fight against that (and he loses that fight HDJAJJD).
Undisclosed Desires - Muse
ā€œYou trick your lovers that youā€™re wicked and divineā€
This is a Dolokhov/Nikolai song I do not take constructive criticism. Undisclosed desires...not being straight...lots to think about! It feels almost like a corruption arc? Nikolai isnā€™t corrupted nor does their...fling (?) last very long but Nikolai is obviously enamored with Dolokhov despite him being The Worst so I think this fits. I donā€™t have enough songs for a Nikolai/Dolokhov playlist so I just add those songs to both of their individual playlists
Thnks fr th Mmrs - Fall Out Boy
ā€œThanks for the memories even though they werenā€™t so greatā€
Also mostly a Nikolai/Dolokhov song. This man has never ended a relationship on good terms, huh. Also. Sighs heavily. ā€œHe tastes like you only sweeterā€ never fails to make me laugh when I think about it in the context of Dolokhov post-duel being like oh?? Youā€™re just a stupid WOMAN HĆ©lĆØne your brother and/or Nikolai is hotter than you :/ which is not exactly what I think happened but it makes me laugh to consider. Dolokhov ur bitterrrrr
Dangerous - Royal Deluxe
ā€œIā€™ll be the last man standing here, Iā€™m not going anywhereā€
I feel like this has the vibes of his cruelty, especially in that bit after the Kuragins have died when he and Petya infiltrate the French army.
Another One Bites The Dust - Queen
ā€œThere are plenty of ways you can hurt a manā€
He will hurt you and kill you so violently :) Itā€™s about the vibes.
White Wedding Pt. 1 - Billy Idol
ā€œItā€™s a nice day to start againā€
In the exact inverse to his ā€œwoe is me I need to be purifiedā€ phase, heā€™s like ok yes i will pick up bad habits again and enjoy them because frick you! I read once that this song is about a relapse into drugs, but Iā€™m making it analogous to his relapse into Terrible Person Behavior after Sonyaā€™s rejection. Also the repetition of the phrase little sister does something for my brain idk, after we know he loves his mom and sister it just fits.
Highway to Hell - AC/DC
ā€œIā€™m on the highway to hell and Iā€™m goin downā€
Like White Wedding, it screams acceptance of his problematicness. He knows heā€™s cruel and evil and he revels in it. This is the phase we see him in most I think.
Back in Black - AC/DC
ā€œItā€™s been too long, Iā€™m glad to be backā€
I think this plays every time he gets reinstated to an army position he lost by being reckless earlier. Just kidding sort of but listen to this song and tell me it doesnā€™t have Dolokhov vibes. If you do, youā€™re wrong <3
Poet - Bastille
ā€œI have written you down now, you will live foreverā€
This is just here cause he ghostwrote Anatoleā€™s love letters and I think itā€™s funny. Itā€™s MY playlist and I get to choose the barely relevant Bastille songs
St. Jude - Florence + The Machine
ā€œMaybe Iā€™ve always been more comfortable in chaosā€
This oneā€™s more scattered lyrics than an overall vibe. ā€œEach side is a loser so who cares who fired the gunā€ has duel energy also.
Hey Look Ma, I Made It - Panic! At The Disco
Confession: I hate this song. However, itā€™s about the about the MOM R U PROUD OF ME vibes (she is. Should she be? Probably not).
Rich Kids - Bea Miller
ā€œItā€™s never enough for the stuck up typesā€
The not coming from wealth and having to almost scam your way into being part of the aristocratic scene is very Dolokhov. Also in my mind the rich kid heā€™s roasting is specifically Nikolai.
Money, Money, Money - ABBA
ā€œItā€™s a rich manā€™s worldā€
Iā€™m not SAYING the wealthy man they talk about is Anatole but - [i am shot]. Scheming and clawing your way up to wealth is Dolokhovcore.
This Is Gospel - Panic! At The Disco
I literally have no justification for this other than that i think modern AU Dolokhov would vibe with it. Look at the amount of eyeliner he wears in Comet and tell me he didnā€™t have an emo band phase. You canā€™t.
Troubleā€™s Coming - Royal Blood
This is not about the words at all, itā€™s more about the vibes. It just sounds Dolokhovish to me, donā€™t ask me to explain.
Sleep Alone - Two Door Cinema Club
ā€œTheyā€™re just ghosts and they canā€™t hurt him if he canā€™t see themā€
This gives me post-Kuraginsā€™ death vibes, and I canā€™t pin down exactly why? I think itā€™s the idea of being very alone and closed off.
Golden Days - Panic! At The Disco
I canā€™t put a specific lyric to it but itā€™s the vibes of looking back on your hedonistic youths with nostalgia and rose-colored glasses. Post-Kuraginsā€™ death vibes again.
Go Get Your Gun - The Dear Hunter
ā€œOne foot in the grave, the other oneā€™s kickinā€™ its way right down to hellā€
All we see of him after the Kuraginsā€™ death is just him being particularly cruel and reckless, almost careless. This feels like it encapsulates that energy.
The Fallen - Franz Ferdinand
ā€œThey say youā€™re a troubled boy just because you like to destroyā€
Iā€™m aware that a good portion of this song is about a Christ figure but Iā€™m going to respectfully ask you to ignore that bit and just focus on all the Sketchy Things the guy does instead. Thank you. He does in fact like to destroy things! SeƱor Cause Problems On Purpose back at it again at krispy kreme, huh.
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sunshinecrashed Ā· 4 years ago
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@tokoyamis-luvā€‹ requested: okay IDK if you do angst to fluff (iā€™m sorry if you donā€™t) but maybe reader hides that she can see supernaturals and sheā€™s recently been dating teru. one day sheā€™s waiting for him after school and heā€™s taking some time, so sheā€™s goes and looks for him, only to find him attempting to exorcise hanako maybe? or a supernatural idk- (teru thinks itā€™s okay bc she supposedly canā€™t see supernaturals) BUT SHES SHOCKED AND HORRIFIED and is very sad you know? since heā€™s a sweetheart 1) SORRY
2) i forgot what part i was in whoops anyways so he notices she can see supernaturals and shes ofc very shocked and sad but he goes to her house and talks to her and apologizes and it ends up more light-hearted and cute and fluff (heā€™s also taken in consideration koiā€™s feeling towards exorcising) you DONT HAVE TO DO THIS REQUEST!! IM SORRY I ALREADY ASKED U ONE LIKE YESTERDAY OR SMTH (also if you can could this be a scenario? you are AMAZING at them) THANK U šŸ„ŗšŸ’“šŸ’“Ā 
word count: ~1,400+
summary: you try and stop teru from exorcising hanako; but you havenā€™t told him that you can see supernaturals.Ā 
warnings: slight angst with a happy ending, attempted exorcism of hanako
a/n: ok first i wanna say that zara (can i call u that?) u are SO KIND omg i donā€™t mind taking ur requests at all, i eat that shit up lmfao. and 2nd its like 1am lol im sorry if this turned out shitty ;-;
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Itā€™s not easy hiding the fact that you can see supernaturals from your boyfriend.Ā 
Who is literally an exorcist.Ā 
When you both started dating, you agreed that no secrets would be hidden between you two, but if Teru knew that you could see supernaturals... things would get complicated very quickly.Ā 
Every time you passed the bathroom and saw Hanako in there while other people were around, you turned a blind eye.Ā 
Ā Every time the Mokke try to give you a sweet from the classroom window sill, you averted your gaze.Ā Ā 
It pained you to ignore the supernaturals that you have seen all of your life, but you simply just couldnā€™t risk how Teru would react if he knew that you interacted with them. You were very aware about Teruā€™s opinions on ghosts and supernaturals, especially about Hanako-kun.Ā 
Right now, you were walking with your boyfriend to your next class, chatting.Ā 
ā€œAre we still down for getting lunch after school?ā€ you asked curiously.Ā 
You could tell that he was already almost drooling at the thought of trying out the new cafe in town.Ā ā€œFor sure. You know where to find me once school is out, right?ā€Ā 
Poking him in the arm affectionately, you said,Ā ā€œUnder the tree in front of the school. We meet there every day, dummy.ā€Ā 
ā€œI know, I know. Iā€™ll meet you there as soon as I can, and then we can taste test their pastries.ā€ He smiled at you. You let out a littleĀ ā€˜yess!ā€™ as you linked pinkies with him.Ā 
Standing on your tippy toes, you pressed a tiny kiss to his cheek.Ā ā€œIā€™ll be waiting! Go ace the test that you were talking about!ā€ you cheered.Ā 
Teru laughed and watched your form turn the corner, a fond look in his eyes.Ā 
He made a mental note to be quick while he got rid of that pesky ghost Hanako.Ā 
- - -
As you stood under the tree in front of the school, you worriedly glanced at your phone.Ā 
ā€˜Heā€™s already fifteen minutes late.. thatā€™s longer then last time.ā€™Ā 
You pondered on whether or not you should send him a quick text, your finger hovering over the send button.
you: hey, everything alright? those pastries arenā€™t going to eat themselves šŸ˜³šŸ‘€
Sent.Ā 
ā€˜Maybe he was just finishing up his test?ā€™
Ā But that didnā€™t make sense to you either. Your boyfriend was a straight-A student, who somehow always turned in his assignments first while getting perfect scores almost every time.Ā 
You couldnā€™t help the nagging feeling in the back of your mind, that... the supernaturals had something to do with his absence.Ā 
With your mind made up, you hurriedly placed your phone back in your pocket and made your way back into the school.Ā 
Peeking into all of his classes, you found that they were all empty, with the students and teachers having already packed their things up. The only exception was Tsuchigomori-sensei, who only quirked an eyebrow at you as you quickly stammered an apology for disturbing him.Ā 
The only place left to go was.. the rooftop.Ā 
As you climbed the stairs leading to the very top of the building, you could feel energy growing in the air, similar to electricity.Ā 
ā€˜Shit, he couldnā€™t be--!ā€™Ā 
Your hand flew to the rooftop door handle, revealing the very scene that you had dreaded the most.Ā 
ā€œTeru!ā€ You tried to yell over the crackling of lightning. But he couldnā€™t hear you with his back turned to you; all of his attention was on Hanako, who was currently speared to the ground by your boyfriendā€™s sword.Ā 
Even from a distance, Hanakoā€™s struggling screams still rang in your ears, shattering your heart.Ā 
You couldnā€™t let him do this. You couldnā€™t let him harm a ghost just for being a ghost, who hasnā€™t caused any harm to the students.Ā 
ā€œYou supernaturals are all the same. Even if you promise not to hurt anyone, who says that your rumors wonā€™t change? What will you do when you finally end up killing another person? Itā€™s my job to stop that from happening--ā€
Tears welled into your eyes as you ran forward, wrapping your arms around him from behind.Ā 
ā€œTeru, you need to stop this!ā€ you begged.Ā 
For a moment, the lightning stopped and Teru tensed up.Ā 
ā€œ[Name]? What are you doing here?!ā€ He whipped around to face you, shock written all over his face.Ā 
His eyes darted from you to the supernatural he had pinned to the ground.Ā ā€œWait. You can see him?ā€Ā 
You looked away.Ā ā€œ...We can talk about that later. But right now, can you please let go of him?ā€
ā€œYou know I canā€™t do that, [Name].ā€ He said softly. ā€œItā€™s for your own safety.ā€
Taking a deep breath to collect yourself, you saidĀ ā€œWait, Hanako hasnā€™t harmed anyone,ā€ Teru opened his mouth to respond to that, but you continued.Ā ā€œLetā€™s talk about this somewhere else, and after that, you can decide if you still want to go through with exorcising him, okay?ā€Ā 
Your boyfriend took one look at Hanakoā€™s puppy-dog eyes that screamedĀ ā€œplease?ā€, then back at you, and sighed.Ā 
ā€œFine. But you have a lot of explaining to do, too.ā€Ā 
ā€œ...I know.ā€ you confessed.Ā 
Teru took your hand and led you back to the doors to the stairs, before shooting Hanako one last cold glare, to which Hanako only closed his eyes and sighed with relief.Ā 
You both went your separate ways once you exited the building, an unspoken feeling left hanging in the air.
- - -
Your day ended with a blur, and Teru still hadnā€™t contacted you all night. By the time morning rolled around, you were beginning to think that your relationship with him had ended before you heard the doorbell ring.Ā 
It was still fairly early, and you were only dressed in a big t-shirt and some sleep shorts, but you answered the door nonetheless, only to find Teru standing there with a box in his hands.Ā Ā 
ā€œUmm.. May I come in?ā€ He asked hesitantly.Ā 
You were (secretly) really happy to see him standing on your front porch, knowing that the tension between you guys could finally be settled.Ā 
As you invited him in, he sat down on a stool at your counter while you stood on the other side, leaning on the kitchen cabinets.Ā 
Teru nudged the box in your direction with his hand and looked away sheepishly with a blush on his face.Ā ā€œHere, I uh.. got these for you.ā€Ā 
You curiously opened the box to find...Ā 
ā€œPastries?ā€Ā 
His blue eyes looked up to meet your gaze and he gave you a gentle smile.Ā ā€œYeah, I remembered that we were supposed to go try the new cafe together yesterday, so I thought that you might want to share these since... things got in the way.ā€Ā 
The corners of your lips quirked up as you took one of the pastries.Ā ā€œThank you, Teru. That was really considerate of you.ā€Ā 
ā€œAnd I also hoped that we could talk about what happened yesterday..ā€ He trailed off.Ā 
You sighed, taking a bite of the pastry before beginning.Ā ā€œYeah, Iā€™ll start. Iā€™ve been able to see supernaturals since the beginning. I didnā€™t tell you because, well.. I knew what you thought of them, and I didnā€™t want to put anything at risk.ā€
Continuing, you said, ā€œI know that you come from a long line of exorcists, and I really didnā€™t want to interfere with your work, but some of the supernaturals, like Hanako, havenā€™t done anything to harm anyone. Heā€™s even protected your little brother and Nene when theyā€™ve been in trouble.ā€Ā 
Teru also took one of the pastries and munched on it, absorbing your words.
He noted, ā€œBefore I came here to talk to you, I also had a small conversation with my brother about that. Kou insisted that he would keep Hanako in check, as long as he didnā€™t hurt any of the students. And if it came down to that, then he agreed to exorcise him.ā€
He took a deep breath. ā€œWhat Iā€™m trying to say is that Iā€™m giving both Kou and Hanako a chance to prove that Hanako is a safe supernatural. And if they fail, well.. then Iā€™ll take care of it.ā€Ā 
ā€œTeru,ā€ You began with a smile tugging at your lips.Ā ā€œYou donā€™t know how much I appreciate you doing that for us. Iā€™m sorry for interfering in the first place.ā€Ā 
He gave you that familiar warm smile that made your heart skip a beat.Ā ā€œAnd Iā€™m sorry too. From now on, no more secrets, okay?ā€ Teru questioned.Ā 
ā€œDefinitely. No more secrets.ā€Ā 
Ā Your boyfriend held his arms open for you and you rolled your eyes affectionately before letting yourself be held by him, both of you humming in satisfaction.Ā 
ā€œWanna go grab some breakfast in town to make up for yesterday?ā€ He asked you, his voice slightly muffled.Ā 
ā€œ...is that even a question?ā€
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lotusjwy Ā· 4 years ago
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ā€œPlease come get me.ā€ nhs to anyone, but preferably Da Ge - @gremlinmetawin
You left so many I love u šŸ’• šŸ’œ anyway I could really only see this as modern au, bc phone calls and all! i hope u enjoy it and it lives up to ur expectations~ šŸ„°
He pressed the phone to his ear, letting out a soft breath, ā€œplease pick up, please pick up, please pick upā€¦ā€ As the phone rang, he watched as the chilly air exhaling from his mouth. His brother would likely kill him for this, and he wouldnā€™t really blame him for it.Ā 
When he was about to give up and accept that he would be stranded here all night, the ringing had suddenly stopped, and he could hear muffled fumbling noises come from the other end. Ah, heā€™d definitely woken up his brother. Fuck, he was definitely going to be murdered for this.Ā 
ā€œHuaisangā€¦? What fucking time is it?ā€ Nie Mingjueā€™s sleep filled voice came through his phone, and Huaisang had never felt more relief at hearing his brotherā€™s voice than he was at this moment.
ā€œDa-ge! You answered!ā€ Just as quickly as his relief came, it left, as Huaisang realised that heā€™d have to explain why he was calling in the middle of the night. ā€œUmā€¦ Itā€™s 3amā€¦ Maybe closer to 4. I donā€™t. Umā€¦ Please come get meā€¦ā€
There was more rustling coming from his brotherā€™s end, signalling that he was likely getting out of bed and pulling clothes on to come get him, as he frantically barked out questions at Huaisang. ā€œWhere are you? Are you okay? Are you hurt? Whatā€™s wrong?ā€Ā 
ā€œDa-geā€¦ Iā€™m not hurtā€¦ Iā€™m...ā€ Huaisang let out a long, pained sigh, knowing he couldnā€™t get around this, ā€œum. Iā€™m at Yao-geā€™s.ā€Ā 
It was as if all movement had been halted, like Mingjue had stopped in his tracks, probably willing himself to not kill his brother. ā€œā€¦Youā€™re at whoā€™s? I know I didnā€™t hear that correctly. I know you didnā€™t just tell me that youā€™re at my ex-boyfriendā€™s apartment, at 4 in the fucking morning.ā€Ā 
ā€œDa-ge! Please! Just come get me!ā€ Huaisang cried into the phone, not wanting his brother to yell at him over the phone, while heā€™s outside, alone and cold. Heā€™ll cry, he swears heā€™ll cry if he has to endure this for much longer.Ā 
Nie Mingjue let out a rough exhale, ā€œfine, but donā€™t expect this to be the end of this. We are going to fucking talk about this.ā€Ā 
ā€œYes, fine, whatever, just come, itā€™s cold!ā€Ā 
As Huaisang waited for his brother to pick him up, he texted his friends informing them of his impending death and how they should absolutely keep after his birds after his brother burns his body to ash. He also cursed them for suddnely having decent sleeping schedules and not answering his phone calls. He flinched when he saw headlights blinking in front of him, his brother glaring at him from the driverā€™s seat, waiting for Huaisang to get in the car.Ā 
He scrambled into the car, cosying into the seat and soaking in the warmth of the car. Pointedly avoiding looking at his brother, Huaisang sighed, ā€œthank you, da-ge. I donā€™t know what I wouldā€™ve done if you didnā€™t answer. Jiang Cheng, Lan Zhan, and even Wei Ying didnā€™t answer when I called. Since when does Wei Ying have a proper sleeping pattern, what bullshit!ā€
ā€œWhat the fuck is going on, Huaisang?ā€ Mingjue wasnā€™t stupid, he knew his brother was trying to distract him with mindless chatter, but he wasnā€™t to be deterred. He would get to the bottom of this mess, he thought heā€™d never have to go near Meng Yaoā€™s place ever again, and yet here he was, picking his little brother up from there in the middle of the night.Ā 
Huaisang froze, knowing there was no way out of this, ā€œwell. Um you see. Yao-ge invited me over for a movie night?ā€Ā 
ā€œSince when are you still in contact with him? What the fuck, A-Sang?ā€Ā 
ā€œIā€¦ was never outā€¦ of contact with him?ā€ He voice was barely above a whisper, as if, if Mingjue didnā€™t hear it then it wasnā€™t important.Ā 
Gripping the steering wheel tighter, Nie Mingjue willed himself to not stop the car right there and shake his brother stupid. ā€œStop phrasing everything like itā€™s a fucking question, I know youā€™re not an idiot. What the fuck do you mean you never dropped contact with him?ā€Ā 
ā€œI just- I donā€™t- Da-ge. He was my friend before he was your boyfriend. What was I supposed to do? Drop a friendship because you guys fell apart?ā€ Huaisang flinched at his own wording, knowing just how badly the breakup had affected Mingjue. He always did wear his heart a little too on his sleeve, was always the one to get hurt in relationships.Ā 
With a clenched jaw, Mingjue swerved the car, parking it quickly before turning to face his brother, who was suddenly very interested in the tree outside of his window. ā€œIf Meng Yao and I had broken up because we didnā€™t work out, then fucking fine, but youā€™re telling me that youā€™re unwilling to stop being friends with someone who cheated me? Who used me for his fucking career? Who tried and is continuing to try to make a fucking move on my best friend?ā€Ā 
Mingjue couldnā€™t remember the last time heā€™d been more frustrated and hurt by one of Huaisangā€™s decisions. He would generally let Huaisang do whatever he wanted, knowing that the other would learn from the few mistakes he would make, but this. This was crossing a line and Huaisang had to know that. Huaisang had seen him after the breakup, had heard all of the stories that Mingjue had told him. And he still chose to keep the company of Meng Yao?Ā 
ā€œWell, I meanā€¦ Itā€™s not like heā€™d never get far with Huan-ge, not with A-Cheng always being aroundā€¦ā€ He wasnā€™t lyingĀ per say, Jiang Cheng had more or less staked claim on Lan Huan and everyone in their immediate circle knew it, includingĀ Lan Huan, who apparently was taking his time on making a move. But he knew that saying that was more than likely a mistake, flinching when his brother began yelling.Ā 
ā€œHuaisang!ā€ Mingjue shouted at his brother, willing the other to take this situation seriously. He was concerned that Meng Yao was somehow trying to use his brother, and now Huaisang was trying to make jokes about the situation. When would he start to take these things seriously?Ā 
ā€œWhat the fuck do you want from me, Da-ge?ā€ Huaisang rounded on his brother, fury in his eyes, ā€œyouā€™re right, I fucked up! Nie Huaisang, the disappointment yet again.ā€Ā 
ā€œDo not start with the woe is me bullshit, and just fucking explain yourself.ā€ He barely grit the words out, his voice growing harsh.Ā 
He hated arguing with his brother more than anything in the world, yet he had brought this upon himself.Ā ā€œI donā€™t know what you want me to say. Yes, I was friends with him, even after you broke up, even after all the stories you told me. I wanted to hear his end of things, I thought maybe it was a misunderstandingā€¦ā€ He trailed off, knowing that this would likely make Mingjue even more mad than he already was.Ā 
ā€œMisunderstanding? A misunderstanding?ā€ Mingjue repeated, his voice coated with disbelief. ā€œAnd whatā€™s your conclusion, then? What lead you to need to call me in the middle of the night for a lift home from his place?ā€Ā 
Huaisang shrugged, knowing the other could already tell that it had gone badly. ā€œWhat, so you can gloat? Clearly, it wasnā€™t a misunderstanding, and he did willingly and knowingly do all the shit you said heā€™d done. And more. I called him out on it, and he and his other friends started saying shit about you, and so I left.ā€ It was a very watered down and short explanation, but Mingjue didnā€™t need to know everything that had happened tonight. If Huaisang could get away with it heā€™d never tell Mingjue the full story.Ā 
ā€œDid they hurt you?ā€ Mingjue could tell that his brother was beginning to shut off from the conversation, so he pulled it back, knowing he wasnā€™t likely to get anything else from him at the moment.Ā 
ā€œNo. Can we go home now? Iā€™m tired.ā€ He didnā€™t wait for the other to respond and leaned his head against the window and closed his eyes, hoping that if he fell asleep, he could avoid having anymore conversations with his brother.Ā 
With a soft sight, Mingjue silently started the car and continued to drive home, knowing that heā€™d have to be pestering his Huaisang for weeks to get any actual information from him. He couldnā€™t let it sit as it is, he couldnā€™t let Meng Yao get away with hurting his brother.Ā 
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hey-hamlet Ā· 5 years ago
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BNHA AU Ideas : Quirkless Erasure
Also on AO3!
TL;DR:Ā 
In some worlds, Midoriya Izuku is the first quirkless hero. But not in this one, not by far.
Because his homeroom teacher is the hero he's always looked up to: UA's first quirkless Pro Hero.
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Izuku isn't the only quirkless one, and Aizawa gets into the hero course via emotional devastation against his opponents.
anyway so: quirkless aizawa bc i need that
everyone thinks he has a quirk like emotional manipulation of something but no he's just fucking savage, he gets into the hero course bc he blasted the absolute shit out of mic
everythingā€™s on youtube itā€™s one of the most viewed videos of all time
this aizawa's eyes are permanently gold bc i headcanon it's his quirk that makes his eyes black, not the colour they flash
"you yell because you have a constant fear no one is really listening to you. you play the class clown and don't try too hard so when you look back you think "i failed because i didn't try" not "i failed because i wasn't good enough""
"bro,,, bro what the fuck did i do to you"
aizawa isnā€™t even salty heā€™s quirkless tbh
"you're pushing this on me because it hurts, right? your loud, flashy but damaging quirk means the only thing people think you're useful for is heroics. did you want to do this, or is this the only way society will let you feel comfortable in the role it presses in on you"
"well being quirkless is rough but at least i cn be whatever i want to be"
mics just shell shocked mics not even using his quirk and everyoneā€™s just uwu heā€™s erasing mics quirk
all aizawa does is walk is close and mutter "society thinks im worthless, which is rough. but you have to put your life on the line or you're nothing better than a villain to the people"
and just, lightly pushes him out of bounds
pls mics just in Love this guy tore him to fucking pieces but Damn
aizawa Ā helps him up off the floor
"so im probably not wrong but im a little sorry for saying it on live tv"
mic "youre amazing"
aizawa just goes bright red and starts sputtering
aizawa: the emotional devastation hero weakness: genuine compliments
consider 1A teacher aizawa just still made of emotional devastation, nezu made him promise not to use his powers of destruction on his children unless he was expelling themĀ 
this is a quirkless izuku au too, mirio got ofa, allmight encouraged izuku to be a hero after the fight but had no quirk to give him and he manages to make his own way into the hero course
so izuku is a little analyst, gets mostly hero points but uses sharp rebar and poles to smash in the sensors of some robots, getting him a few non-rescue points either. Aizawa is watching like "oh interesting a non-combat quirk" and beside him allmight is vibrating with excitement
"he might actually do it!"
"who might do what"
allmight turns sheepishly to aizawa
"young midoriya on camera 6, he might just be the first quirkless student to pass the enterance exam to heroics straight up"
and aizawa can hardly watch anyone else for the rest of the exam, he adopts this kid on the fucking Spot
hes on the edge of his fucking seat, when nezu sends out the zero pointer. "this kid only needs 10 more points, just ten more" and izuku turns around to look at the 0 pointer and aizawa is like "fuck kid i hope you know what youre doing"
he manages to shove a piece of rebar into the treads, stoping it in its place. it tries to swat him like a bug but he just dives out of the way, picks up ochako and sprints and aizawa is like "holy shit holy shit these bastards better give this kid hero points for that"
like they are assigning final hero points and aizawa has to awkwardly put his hand up "i,,, should probably be excluded from giving midoriya hero points because i went from 0 to bias very very quickly"
allmight just nods sagely
"young midoriya be like that sometimes"
pls aizawa tries to act extra tough bc he canā€™t let anyone know heā€™s Adopted this child
for all izuku's brain hes useless w social stuff and thinks aizawa hates him but everyone else k n o w s
also izuku is the only person in 1A who knows ab aizawa's "quirk" and hes like, constantly vibrating w glee around the guy
aizawa walks in the first day, hears bakugo asking how this "quirkless bastard" got in, grabs bakugo w his scarf and yeets him into vladā€™s room
"ok students, looks like we are a class of 19. any other comments before we start?"
and like everyone is so lost no one questions it
bakugo is screaming bloody murder until vlad "kindly" tells him ua has a strict no discrimination policy and aizawa would have been well within his rights to expel him
please nezu is like "uwu take one of 1B to make the classes even" and vlad is like "no ive already bonded tough cookies" vlad just adopts bakugo instantly
monoma and bakugou become bros, the baku-squad is 50% a thing, but its mostly 1B students but with pinning kiri. kendo and bakugo both keep monoma in line, monoma and kendo keep bakugo in line
during the sports festival shinsou is like "you must have a blessed quirk to get into the hero course"
and izuku just has this "really. this si what we're doing now" look on his face. hes just gesturing to shinso in exasperation, trying to make eye contact w aizawa hidden up in the commentary box
all you can hear from the box is aizawa quiet snickering as mic tries not to give the game away. he yeets shinso out of bonds and just hauls him back to his feet
"im quirkless you nonce"
"oh,,,"
"yeah, oh. what, gonna be embarrassed a quirkless kid kicked your ass?"
"nah i just feel bad for being a dick"
"ok you are the only valid person ive ever met, come meet my not-dad"
"wait what"
izuku fireman carries shinso into the announcers booth and just presents him to aizawa
you can just vaguely hear "no not kid" "but he'll be perfect" "kid this is live ask me after the festival" "but! hed be perfect! and you could train him to carry on your legacy of soul-crushing burns" "... hmmm"
"do i get a say in this?" "no" "nope"
mic just loudly saying "SO BEFORE WE WITNESS A CHILD CRY LIVE ON AIR AGAIN, AS ALWAYS HAPPENS IN THIS FESTIVAL, LETS START THE NEXT ROUND!"
thereā€™s a counter ā€œdays since someone last cried: 0ā€
please its like "times cried durring all sports festivals" "average cry events" "number of times cried this festival"
aizawa being even more of a dad than canon, like hes a mess he sees on sad kid and he's like "wow that's my kid now"
he makes them soup when they get sick and leaves it outside their doors, refuses to admit its him doing it
soup cryptid
please mic is like 100% in love with him and had been for years but aizawa still has internal bias against the quirkless and thinks he's not good enough for mic so he cant make himself see the flirting for what it really is
ā€œhaha heā€™s just being friendlyL
ā€œaizawa i literally want to marry uā€
ā€œawww ur so nice u mean as friends tho right?ā€
in this au ive decided that quirkless heroes are a thing, but pretty rare, in japan they are all underground bc villains go after them a l o t. there are some public ones in america but they tend to,,, die,,, pretty quickly
and bc there are some quirkless heroes everyone acts like discrimination isn't a thing anymore and quirkless people should shut up while quirkless people are still getting killed and committing suicide at like 500% the rate of people with quirks
also the suicide rate is,,,,, significantly higher in japan but no one ever talks abt it bc japan the ā€œideal place for people with quirksā€ so that surely means nothing could ever go wrong
izuku does the "its your power" speech in like 3 parts, before, during and after the sports festival bc he needs he bones w no quirk
stain asks izuku what his quirk is and izuku does the "wouldn't you like to know, weather boy"
",,, where are your parents"
"one abandoned me straight up and the other is giving it a red hot go right now, try me coward"
izuku but everytime he roasts a villain he does it in vine quotes
tl;dr in the au inko is like,, not ok w izuku being a hero and she's trying to do the "leave the school or you can't live here any more" ultimatum and it's not working for her
bc izuku said "ok bye then" and now lives out of his backpack. no one knows. he just like,, sleeps on the train
and iida is like "owo could i come over to your house" and izuku is like
"aaaaa its on fire. yep. made of arsenic and always in flames, why dont we go to the park"
everyone in 1a is like betting on what his house is like. they harass katsuki in 1b but he refuses to talk
hes like "hell no i got thrown into another class for talking ab that nerd eat my left tit"
they only fucking work it out when aizawa and allmight go to izukus house to talk ab dorms and there is literally no one there
aizawa asks izuku ab it like "kid you need to update your forms with your current address" and hes like "oh worm, she moved? wack."
ā€œu,,,,didnā€™t know,,,,ā€
ā€œnah lmao i sleep on the bench in a park near hereā€
ā€œmy boy,,,,,l
"what, ochako lives alone!"
"yeah, in a fucking house, kid"
aizawas just: this is literal child abuse iā€™m ur guardian now
allmight "hes my kid too dont be greedy"
"fuck off all might you already have mirio" "and you already have shinsou!" nighteye, from around the corner "ill take him!" aizawa and allmight "NO" Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā 
mic adopts him nezu just sitting in the distance "well, its my school. i get the kid" one whole school full of adult heroes "NO ITS MY SON,,," izukus like crying "wait,,, you guys aren't sick of me? wild" while sobbing
afo out of nowhere: iā€™ll take the child :))) everyone collectively: N O
for self-indulgence, izuku is the youngest in the class for this au so they all call him their little brother
consider: quirkless aizawa is very similar to normal aizawa but he does practise self-care, he just tries to make it look like he doesnt because hes like that
if i dont take care of myself ill never be able to stand up to the heroes w quirks but also do i deserve normal good human things
tl:dr: he can cook well and is trying to teach izuku that 2-minute noodles and apples arent hero fuel
inko is like: "uwu i wont change what i cook for you so you'll just have to make do owo" in like, a pathetic attempt to get him to stop training so izuku runs off protein bars, electrolyte drinks and raw vegetables
just like, his bento at school. its only raw mushrooms, spinach, tomatoes and 2 full carrots
the only time he gets like a kinda valid balanced meal for a hero in training is when he pops by bakugous place and mitsuki forces him to stay for lunch
izuku is like "oh hi bakugo i have ur book-" "HI ITS LUNCH GET IN PIPSQUEAK"
hes just thrown into a chair, bakugo isnt even confused. izuku is like ",,,, so vlad gave me your book bc your house is near mums." "fair enough. hope you like miso salmon"
izuku just looks stary eyed
"f i s h ??? warm food bakugo id kill for you"
"deku wtf"
"i had nothing but 3 scoops of protein powder and 2 tomatoes today"
ā€œdEKU WHAT THE FUCKā€
"i had to eat the protein podwer with plain water kacchan. protein sludge followed by two raw tomatoes. i would commit real actual murder for you"
mitsuki always packs an extra bento after that
so like when itā€™s dorm time izuku gets rly stressed out bc he doesnā€™t know how to cook for himself??? bakugous in the 1b dorms and even if he wasnā€™t he definitely wouldnā€™t cook for him
1a goes on a fucking shopping trip, chaperoned, obviously
and theyā€™re lining up and aizawa sees that izukus cart is only filled with like??? instant noodles and like two (2) fruits and heā€™s losing his mind bc yes okay heā€™s a child but heā€™s also a young hero and heā€™s going to get a heart attack by 20 if he doesnā€™t fix his diet
aizawa is like "izuku, you cant eat that" and izuku just goes "oh ok" puts the noodles back and comes back with a tub of protein powder and like 11 vegetables and a bag of kale
okay this is an improvement kinda, how do u cook it
,,,,,c
cook?
izuku just has a totally blank face
"i was just gonna like,,, eat it"
"raw."
"uh, yeah, is that not how u eat vegetables?ā€
"thats a potato. and some leeks. thats a fucking onion"
"it wont kill me though"
"thats,,, that not how you pick food kid."
ā€œbut vegetable??? good????ā€
"kid do you even fucking like any of this"
"wait, im supposed to like?? my food???"
yagi in the fucking health food isle hearing this is 50% laughing but 50% crying
aizawa: ā€œizuku ur supposed to eat a well balanced and tasty mealā€
izuku: *surprized pikachu face*
please even todoroki is like ",,, at least fuyumi could c o o k"
oh god imagine having a worse diet than shouto todoroki from 1a who eats nothing but cold soba and drinks juice
also please aizawa is like "kid i thought you just happened to be thin but now im seeing thats not the case"
bakugo in the distance "like inko ever fed him enough anyway lmao"
aizawa "WAIT WHAT"
whys bakugou shopping with 1a? its actually all 40 of the first years just descending on this poor little store. itā€™s this little mom and pop grocery store and a billion hungry hero hopefuls just burst through the door like š’„š’‰š’Šš’„š’Œš’†š’ š’š’–š’ˆš’ˆš’†š’•š’”
izuku is like "oh its too expensive" and aizawa is just holding a bag of rice, aizawa is like "its cheaper than the protein powder you have"
and izuku is like "yeah i mean its empty calories and im not paying that much for empty calories"
",,,"
"thats what you taught us sensei!"
"EMPTY CALORIES ARE ONLY A PROBLEM IF UR EATING TOO MUCH"
"and?"
"YOU HAVE 3 POTAOES FOR THE NEXT 2 WEEKS"
"i can put some back if you want?"
"THATS EXACTLY WHAT I DONT WANT"
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ā¤æĀ  ā€“ā€“ā€“ā€“Ā  op,Ā  well,Ā  helloĀ  !Ā  iā€™mĀ  neptuneĀ  andĀ  itā€™sĀ  beenĀ  aĀ  lilĀ  bitĀ  sinceĀ  iĀ  lastĀ  REALLYĀ  rped. plsĀ  beĀ  gentle.Ā  itā€™sĀ  likeĀ  learningĀ  toĀ  walkĀ  again. anyways,Ā  sinceĀ  myĀ  introĀ  postsĀ  areĀ  alwaysĀ  milesĀ  long,Ā  iā€™mĀ  gonnaĀ  tryĀ  andĀ  keepĀ  disĀ  asĀ  shortĀ  asĀ  possibleĀ  (Ā  spoilerĀ  alert:Ā  itĀ  wasĀ  notĀ  shortĀ  ).Ā  also.Ā  thereā€™sĀ  300+Ā  typosĀ  inĀ  thisĀ  andĀ  iā€™mĀ  soĀ  sorryĀ  ifĀ  noneĀ  ofĀ  itĀ  makesĀ  sense.Ā  uĀ  gotĀ  questionsĀ  aboutĀ  anyĀ  ofĀ  this,Ā  iĀ  canĀ  answerĀ  itĀ  theĀ  bestĀ  iĀ  can.
( harry styles , demiboy , he/they , twenty-six ) omg ! i was walking yonge street downtown , and youā€™ll never guess who i saw . west holiday ! i just saw a post about them on sixsecrets ! i think it said something like ā€œ heart-breaking, heartthrob west holidayā€™s series of drunk tweets about his recent sex-capades now have their own twitter account ā€ . isnā€™t that wild ? i guess it makes sense though , since theyā€™re apparently abrasive and shameless . but iā€™ve heard theyā€™re also Ā indomitable and debonair ! iā€™ll just stick to giving them the benefit of the doubt . i mean , itā€™s not like i know them personally ā€” theyā€™re a famous singer/songwriter ! you know , iā€™ve actually heard rumors that ( redacted )Ā , but theyā€™re just rumors ā€¦ i think . i dunno . if you happen to run into them , tell them iā€™m their biggest fan !Ā  (Ā  theĀ  1975Ā  careerĀ  claimĀ  )
so,Ā  firstĀ  andĀ  foremost.Ā  fuckĀ  thisĀ  kid.Ā  iĀ  hateĀ  thisĀ  guyĀ  andĀ  iā€™mĀ  sureĀ  youĀ  willĀ  too.Ā  notĀ  becauseĀ  iĀ  thinkĀ  heā€™sĀ  fleshedĀ  outĀ  badĀ  orĀ  anything,Ā  heā€™sĀ  justĀ  theĀ  #Worst. iā€™mĀ  justĀ  gonnaĀ  goĀ  straightĀ  ontoĀ  bulletĀ  pointsĀ  bcĀ  thisĀ  willĀ  actuallyĀ  takeĀ  yearsĀ  ifĀ  iĀ  rantĀ  onĀ  aboutĀ  thisĀ  boy.Ā 
toĀ  startĀ  of,Ā  heĀ  didnā€™tĀ  reallyĀ  growĀ  upĀ  great.Ā  likeĀ  yaĀ  heĀ  wasĀ  madĀ  rich,Ā  butĀ  hisĀ  twoĀ  momsĀ  cannotĀ  standĀ  eachĀ  other.Ā  theyĀ  wereĀ  constantlyĀ  yellingĀ  atĀ  eachĀ  otherĀ  andĀ  throwingĀ  thingsĀ  butĀ  hey.Ā  westĀ  justĀ  kindĀ  ofĀ  *wipesĀ  tearsĀ  wĀ  hundos*Ā  soĀ  heĀ  didnā€™tĀ  thinkĀ  itĀ  wasĀ  thatĀ  rough
heĀ  grewĀ  upĀ  mainlyĀ  inĀ  cheshire,Ā  england,Ā  thereĀ  forĀ  heĀ  hasĀ  aĀ  prettyĀ  heavy,Ā  thick accentĀ  thatĀ  comesĀ  acrossĀ  inĀ  hisĀ  music.Ā  i mean.... hisĀ  careerĀ  claimĀ  isĀ  the 1975Ā  so youĀ  knowĀ  thatĀ  iĀ  mean
uhĀ  heĀ  hasĀ  lil,Ā  babyĀ  sister,Ā  anabelle .Ā  sheā€™sĀ  vĀ  smallĀ  soĀ  sadlyĀ  noĀ  wc.Ā  butĀ  sheĀ  isĀ  hisĀ  wholeĀ  worldĀ  andĀ  ifĀ  youĀ  sawĀ  themĀ  togetherĀ  uĀ  wouldĀ  thinkĀ  westĀ  hasĀ  niceĀ  twinĀ  brother.Ā  heĀ  doesnā€™tĀ  but.Ā  ifĀ  heĀ  did.... westĀ  isĀ  theĀ  evilĀ  twin.
thoughĀ  theyĀ  alwaysĀ  foughtĀ  theyĀ  stayedĀ  togetherĀ  forĀ  someĀ  dumbĀ  reason,Ā  thatĀ  dumbĀ  reasonĀ  thatĀ  theyā€™reĀ  lilĀ  boyĀ  gotĀ  MADĀ  RICH.Ā  heĀ  startedĀ  ofĀ  makingĀ  someĀ  cashĀ  byĀ  playingĀ  outĀ  onĀ  busyĀ  footĀ  trafficĀ  areasĀ  andĀ  havingĀ  aĀ  guitarĀ  caseĀ  wideĀ  open .Ā  andĀ  peopleĀ  wouldĀ  justĀ  tossĀ  moneyĀ  inĀ  thereĀ  andĀ  onceĀ  heĀ  sawĀ  aĀ  careerĀ  inĀ  thisĀ  heĀ  straightĀ  upĀ  justĀ  droppedĀ  outĀ  ofĀ  highĀ  schoolĀ  andĀ  pursuedĀ  music.Ā  basically,Ā  whatĀ  iā€™mĀ  sayingĀ  is,Ā  heā€™sĀ  dumb.Ā Ā bigĀ  dumb.
besidesĀ  beingĀ  theĀ  biggestĀ  dummyĀ  heā€™sĀ  reallyĀ  superĀ  talentedĀ  iĀ  swear.Ā  theĀ  onlyĀ  problemĀ  isĀ  thatā€™sĀ  hisĀ  ONLYĀ  redeemingĀ  quality. imĀ  notĀ  evenĀ  beingĀ  dramatic.Ā  thatā€™s it. thatā€™sĀ  theĀ  onlyĀ  goodĀ  thingĀ  aboutĀ  him.Ā  likeĀ  yeah,Ā  heā€™sĀ  charmingĀ  andĀ  heā€™sĀ  strongĀ  orĀ  whateverĀ  butĀ  do uĀ  thinkĀ  heĀ  usesĀ  thatĀ  forĀ  good ??? NO.Ā 
heā€™sĀ  quiteĀ  literallyĀ  theĀ  guyĀ  youĀ  haveĀ  inĀ  yourĀ  phoneĀ  asĀ Ā ā€˜DNRā€™Ā  bcĀ  ifĀ  uĀ  doĀ  heā€™sĀ  gonnaĀ  tryĀ  andĀ  charmĀ  youĀ  intoĀ  comingĀ  overĀ  justĀ  soĀ  heĀ  canĀ  hookĀ  upĀ  withĀ  youĀ  andĀ  getĀ  youĀ  anĀ  uberĀ  whenĀ  yā€™allĀ  areĀ  done.Ā  heĀ  wonā€™tĀ  evenĀ  cuddleĀ  uĀ  wtfĀ  bro.
TRUE LIFE: Iā€™m A Disaster Bi
ifĀ  yā€™allĀ  wantedĀ  toĀ  knowĀ  heĀ  isĀ  coveredĀ  inĀ  tattoosĀ  justĀ  likeĀ  harry,Ā  andĀ  heā€™sĀ  short - hairedĀ  harry.Ā  evenĀ  thoĀ  asĀ  myĀ  frenĀ  putĀ  it:Ā  allĀ  harryĀ  livesĀ  matter.Ā  watchĀ  meĀ  makingĀ  westĀ  growĀ  itĀ  outĀ  bcĀ  long - hairedĀ  harryĀ  isĀ  myĀ  personal fave.Ā  weā€™llĀ  seeĀ  howĀ  longĀ  itĀ  takesĀ  forĀ  meĀ  toĀ  cave. place ur Bets
uh . soĀ  aboutĀ  thatĀ  headline ... amĀ  iĀ  rightĀ  LaidĀ  Ease.Ā  uh,Ā  soĀ  basically,Ā  heĀ  recentĀ  madeĀ  likeĀ  74Ā  tweetsĀ  aboutĀ  theĀ  guys,Ā  galsĀ  nĀ  enbyĀ  palsĀ  thatĀ  hadĀ  recentlyĀ  beenĀ  inĀ  hisĀ  bedĀ  bcĀ  allĀ  heĀ  doesĀ  isĀ  eat,Ā  playĀ  musicĀ  andĀ  sleepĀ  wĀ  anythingĀ  thatĀ  breaths. im soĀ  sorryĀ  forĀ  thatĀ  butĀ  chancesĀ  areĀ  .Ā  ifĀ  youĀ  letĀ  him,Ā  heĀ  willĀ  getĀ  uĀ  intoĀ  hisĀ  bed.Ā  orĀ  tryĀ  hisĀ  best .
plsĀ  dontĀ  beĀ  offendedĀ  ifĀ  yā€™allĀ  haveĀ  sleptĀ  together / metĀ  andĀ  heĀ  doesnā€™tĀ  rememberĀ  youĀ  name .Ā  chancesĀ  areĀ  heĀ  willĀ  callĀ  youĀ  bro,Ā  dude,Ā  babe,Ā  etcĀ  untilĀ  heĀ  remembersĀ  yourĀ  nameĀ  orĀ  youĀ  remindĀ  him
westĀ  hasĀ  thisĀ  rlyĀ  weirdĀ  habit,Ā  itā€™sĀ  kindĀ  ofĀ  funny.Ā  HE WILL TRYĀ  ANDĀ  SHOVEĀ  HIMSELFĀ  INTOĀ  YOURĀ  DRAMAĀ  BCĀ  HEĀ  ISĀ  BORED.Ā  likeĀ  sure. heĀ  meansĀ  wellĀ  ........ Well. noĀ  heĀ  doesnā€™t.Ā  heā€™sĀ  aĀ  littleĀ  shitĀ  andĀ  isĀ  soĀ  proudĀ  ofĀ  it
plsĀ  hateĀ  him.Ā  imĀ  begginĀ  uĀ  heĀ  thrivesĀ  ofĀ  beingĀ  hated,Ā  heĀ  rlyĀ  doesĀ  likeĀ  heā€™sĀ  gotĀ  fansĀ  thatĀ  loveĀ  himĀ  andĀ  seeĀ  theĀ  himĀ  thatĀ  stopsĀ  toĀ  takeĀ  pictures/callsĀ  youĀ  honey/lovesĀ  hisĀ  fans.Ā  butĀ  heā€™sĀ  like..... simplyĀ  put ?? AĀ  Dick.
u h.Ā  soĀ  sinceĀ  heā€™sĀ  horribleĀ  heā€™sĀ  never. EVER. beenĀ  inĀ  love.Ā  anyĀ  relationshipĀ  heā€™sĀ  everĀ  beenĀ  inĀ  isĀ  100%Ā  fakeĀ  andĀ  meansĀ  nothingĀ  toĀ  him.Ā  itā€™sĀ  allĀ  forĀ  prĀ  andĀ  heĀ  knowsĀ  itā€™llĀ  getĀ  hisĀ  ratingsĀ  upĀ  soĀ  like.Ā 
iĀ  trulyĀ  cannotĀ  thinkĀ  ofĀ  anythingĀ  elseĀ  soĀ  like....... uh . plsĀ  plotĀ  withĀ  me.Ā  iā€™llĀ  makeĀ  himĀ  aĀ  pinterestĀ  inĀ  aĀ  lilĀ  bit.Ā  butĀ  untilĀ  then,Ā  thisĀ  isĀ  allĀ  iā€™veĀ  got.Ā  heā€™sĀ  stillĀ  aĀ  totalĀ  workĀ  inĀ  progressĀ  butĀ  uĀ  kno .Ā 
okayĀ  !Ā  soĀ  !Ā  thatĀ  wasĀ  aĀ  giantĀ  mess.Ā  but,Ā  i doĀ  haveĀ  aĀ  quickĀ  littleĀ  listĀ  ofĀ  wcsĀ  beforeĀ  iĀ  actuallyĀ  workĀ  upĀ  aĀ  wholeĀ  wcĀ  pageĀ  !
001.Ā  100%Ā  smashĀ  onĀ  aĀ  gameĀ  ofĀ  smashĀ  orĀ  pass:Ā  uh . so letsĀ  sayĀ  westĀ  playedĀ  aĀ  gameĀ  ofĀ  smashĀ  orĀ  passĀ  onĀ  aĀ  talkĀ  showĀ  andĀ  theyĀ  askedĀ  himĀ  whoĀ  isĀ  hisĀ  numberĀ  oneĀ  smash.Ā  dasĀ  whereĀ  urĀ  museĀ  comesĀ  in .Ā  urĀ  museĀ  isĀ  hisĀ  numberĀ  oneĀ  smash.Ā  ALWAYS.Ā 
002.Ā  mostĀ  recentĀ  publicĀ  relationship:Ā  soĀ  westĀ  andĀ  urĀ  museĀ  wereĀ  probablyĀ  spottedĀ  outĀ  somewhereĀ  andĀ  hisĀ  prĀ  teamĀ  wasĀ  like.Ā  wowĀ  urĀ  albumĀ  isĀ  blowinĀ  upĀ  keepĀ  askingĀ  thisĀ  personĀ  toĀ  hangĀ  outĀ  withĀ  andĀ  pleadĀ  theĀ  fifthĀ  ifĀ  theyĀ  askĀ  ifĀ  yā€™allĀ  areĀ  together.Ā  urĀ  museĀ  canĀ  chooseĀ  whetherĀ  theyĀ  wereĀ  togetherĀ  orĀ  not.Ā  butĀ  atĀ  thisĀ  pointĀ  theyā€™reĀ  definitelyĀ  NOTĀ  together,Ā  butĀ  theyĀ  couldā€™veĀ  stayedĀ  friendsĀ  orĀ  not.Ā  weĀ  luvĀ  enemies.Ā 
003.Ā  dead to me:Ā  wouldĀ  absolutelyĀ  killĀ  forĀ  thisĀ  plot. bc iĀ  LOVEĀ  enemyĀ  plots .Ā  butĀ  basicallyĀ  westĀ  andĀ  urĀ  museĀ  dated,Ā  youĀ  know,Ā  forĀ  pr.Ā  heĀ  didnā€™tĀ  loveĀ  themĀ  no way jose.Ā  butĀ  itĀ  endedĀ  REALLYĀ  badlyĀ  andĀ  urĀ  museĀ  absolutelyĀ  despisesĀ  him... rightfullyĀ  so.Ā  butĀ  basicallyĀ  weĀ  canĀ  totallyĀ  workĀ  onĀ  thisĀ  butĀ  iā€™mĀ  sureĀ  theyĀ  getĀ  intoĀ  twitterĀ  feuds.Ā  theirĀ  breakupĀ  wasĀ  v messieĀ  GIVEĀ  ITĀ  TOĀ  ME.Ā 
004.Ā  iĀ  needĀ  justĀ  oneĀ  personĀ  toĀ  notĀ  hateĀ  hisĀ  man........Ā  justĀ  giveĀ  himĀ  oneĀ  single friend.Ā  itā€™sĀ  allĀ  heā€™sĀ  allowedĀ  iĀ  swear.Ā 
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Please give me your amami essay, I'd like to know the TEA! I was also gonna ask for the mastermind essay, but honestly I REALLY wanna hear your thoughts on his characterization (and your thoughts on his shitty fanon characterization)
HOOO BOY OKAY. this is good, it gives me an excuse to procrastinate on reading that new amasai fic on the latest feed. (note that i REALLY WANT TO READ IT, iā€™m just anticipating commenting and tbh the spoons,,, i lack them. itā€™s okay though iā€™ll get over it.)
so!!! letā€™s start with general attitude, because i think that amamiā€™s is really unique. heā€™s a subversive character. in general i feel like that was the biggest goal with his character design and personality combination-- he looks like a total playboy, kaede even comments as much moooore than once. but heā€™s the absolute opposite. iā€™ll rant about that in a bit. iā€™ve already gone off on a tangent and i said i was gonna talk about attitude.
amami is laid back, but not to the point of complacency. yā€™know what i mean? like, heā€™s relaxed, but heā€™s on his guard, too. his speaking style is pretty casual (typically heā€™ll greet people with a ā€œhey,ā€ whenever heā€™s slightly uncomfortable heā€™ll probably say ā€œhahaā€... this isnā€™t necessarily a canon thing but i like it when people have him talking in sentence fragments. ex. ā€œforgot to grab my jacketā€ or ā€œwanted to get a snackā€ sort of thing) and thatā€™s just,,, the type of person he is. heā€™s casual. itā€™s remarkable considering how wealthy amami is-- though bear in mind, he still IS wealthy, so there are bound to be things he doesnā€™t understand about people-- that he can be so normal and like, down to earth, in a way. when people mess around with him heā€™ll probably just laugh it off.
to cite a fic i read once that had REALLY phenomenal characterisation, imo, ouma ends up dumping a bucket of water on amamiā€™s head (on accident; there are some semantics and i wonā€™t get into it but again the fic is really good and funny and you should totally read it) and amami just squeezes out his shirt and makes a couple cracks before walking away. (sorry this isnā€™t meant to be a ā€œdumping love on ficsā€ post but GOD that fic is hysterical.) heā€™s an enabler too, at least i think so-- remember that anthology chapter where kaede, shuichi, and kaito are trying to catch ouma and kaito sets an ā€œamami trapā€ to stop him? all ouma has to do is flutter his eyelashes and go ā€œpleeeaaase let me go amam~niichan!ā€ and then he just. he does. what a fucking doormat i canā€™t believe him.
heā€™s like that though. i feel like big brother stuff is kind of his weakness. (and not in a kinky way alright i will destroy you. he might make a joke about having a sister complex in one of his ftes but he DOESNT that joke was just tasteless COME ON RANTARO WHFKLDSJFK) which brings me to his whole older brother thing, because like,,, YEAH. guy grew up with twelve younger sisters!!! and he remarked in his ftes with shuichi that theyā€™re mostly step sisters, which means he just.... has a nurturing personality. i mean amami is somewhat conservative (if you try to come on to him during salmon mode you will be brutally rebuffed; amami tells u to keep your horny thoughts to yourself, though you shouldnā€™t be ashamed of having them) so i imagine heā€™s not the biggest fan of his fatherā€™s tendencies-- not that i donā€™t NECESSARILY interpret his fatherā€™s behaviour as him sleeping around.... itā€™s possible he just likes children and deliberately marries women who already have kids so he can take them... i mean itā€™s exceedingly decent to keep considering ur step children to be your children after a divorce so i have a hard time reconciling this common image of rantaroā€™s dad as some kind of player figure with the impression i got of him in my head but thatā€™s just my daddy issues coming into play again so ignore me-- and yet he still considers all his sisters to be his sisters.
not to mention he feels a great deal of like, responsibility, when it comes to taking care of them. i find it impossible to believe that all the losses were his fault. you could ARGUE that the one he tells you about with his younger sister was to be blamed on him? but i mean, amami is a child. he didnā€™t even know his sister was following him out. sure he blames himself for it but thereā€™s no real good way to blame him just considering that,,, heā€™s a kid. and he was so young-- he was obviously so young-- when it happened. so like, not to be all Good and Bad on you, but i do feel that amami is fundamentally a good reason. and you SEE that too, in the killing game. iā€™m certain he was on the fence about trusting that note he woke up with. would you trust it? he had no memory whatsoever of writing it, all he had were the words ā€œultimate huntā€ and a map of the school to guide his way. i imagine he wasnā€™t even sure if he should do what the note said. but then ryoma started talking about sacrificing himself for everyone else, and rantaro probably thought, ā€œwell... if i have a way to get us out of here, even if it doesnā€™t work, i canā€™t just let ryoma sacrifice himself without having tried.ā€
rantaro is self-reliant too, i think. in the talent development plan mukuro remarks that she noticed he was injured a good number of times, but never said anything about it because she felt like he was trying to keep it under wraps. (note: good idea for an amami and mukuro friendship fic. must write. someone remind me.) i think amami kind of feels isolated from his classmates? either because he has these perceived notions of like, independence and whatever, not burdening anybody else with his problems (honestly not to go chabashira on main but wtf men ask for help cā€™mon i promise if you find a person whoā€™s worth being in ur life they wonā€™t treat you like shit for feeling ur feelings) or just because heā€™s not around a lot. i think amami is the type of person to invalidate his own problems a lot, or at least downplay them to others. he blames himself for all his sisters going missing, took the responsibility to find them all. you know the blow thatā€™s going to be to his education? traveling around the world looking for twelve different people? and he plans to keep doing that!!! forever!!! ugh ;-; poor babey. but anyway i feel like he doesnā€™t want to tell anybody about his problems because he feels like itā€™s his thing to deal with.
i also believe that rantaro is a bit prideful. i mean, anyone can be prideful under the correct circumstances, and in fact there is a great deal of pride that simply isnā€™t addressed by the fandom in analysing characters and that makes me really sad because pride is such a SEXY character flaw but iā€™ll leave that alone for now. he hates being told to give up on what heā€™s doing. i mean everyone in his life has been telling him to stop looking for his sisters. thatā€™s got to suck, but also, DAMN look at what his reaction was. this utter refusal to open up to anybody. shuichiā€™s ftes with him are spent pretty much just trying to get amami to stop squirreling around and actually TALK to him. amami asks shuichi at one point if he has any siblings and when the response is negative, amami immediately assumes that shuichi wouldnā€™t understand, would tell him to quit. just like everyone else.
(i mean, even with kiyo and mukuro, whose circumstances mirror his almost painfully at least in willingness to sacrifice stuff for their siblings, he doesnā€™t tell them what heā€™s doing, just that heā€™s doing it for his sister-- singular-- and that he would do anything for her. kiyo and mukuro!! out of ANYBODY, they would understand. in tdp they DO talk about it-- kiyo encourages him to keep searching-- as his friend...... fuck amaguji is such a good ship even if the implications of kiyo saying he wants to meet rantaroā€™s sister after he finds her bc she must be suuuuch a good person if heā€™s doing all this for her are uhhh not great-- and mukuro immediately understands when he says itā€™s to do with his younger sister. like, full stop. she just goes ā€œokayā€ and goes serious. all at once. damn rantaro, mukuro, and kiyo really do be a power trio huh. i need to write more fic about them i miss them.)
this is more into baseless conjecture so take this as you will, but i also think rantaro is kind of,,, easily distracted lmao. he mentions helping out a village with a disease-- been a while since iā€™ve seen his ftes, sorry for any inconsistencies-- among other shit and like... bro what are you DOING. you have sisters to find. and he canā€™t be getting injured all the time, getting wrapped up with gang violence and all that, looking for people who were lost traveling. i mean sure, you could say they went all over the world and got wrapped up in all sorts of mess, but more likely they stayed in roughly the same area, waiting for him to come back. and also? i have a hard time believing his sisters were lost in these remote forest places people always put them. COME ON, who the fuck goes to some village for a vacation? a RICH person no less. iā€™m on another tangent. sorry. but yeah, i love the people who write rantaro as an absolute airhead. i headcanon that he has no way of judging the passing of time and thus is the absolute worst in the bathroom bc he sits there for twenty minutes thinking about the universe and then walks out like ā€œ:) ok ready to goā€ like wtf are you even doing there stupid akljdf anyway.
i think rantaro is softhearted and thoughtful. in his ftes with kaede he demonstrates an ability to look past what people show at surface level-- you can ask him about miu, kiibo, or kiyo and heā€™ll give u Good Fucking Insight(tm)-- and analyse their intentions more closely. and i mean this is just from a couple dayā€™s interaction. heā€™s down to earth for sure, understanding when people are intimidated but also caring and observant. (his ā€œtalk about a first impressionā€ line is so fuckaindgf.... good for his characterisation. i love romantic amamatsu but he so clearly takes an older brother role in those ftes, heā€™s really such a sweetheart,,,, hnadhfkj ;w;) rantaro is just. heā€™s patient with people. and selfless and kind. idk itā€™s all the good stuff. warm smiles and indulgence. all the way. probably lets kokichi steal his lunch.
THAT BEING SAID: i think rantaro also has a very serious streak. he doesnā€™t show it a lot but there are moments. heā€™s self-sacrificing-- i mean, obviously. he was the ultimate survivor, after all. some people hc that he got there by killing, or maybe everyone else in his game died but one person, but bro that doesnā€™t make any sense???? no. what happened was there were probably like three people left, and monokuma was like ā€œone has to be sacrificedā€ and rantaro thought, welp. itā€™ll be me then. and i wouldnā€™t say the choice would be immediate because rantaro DOES has self preservation instincts-- heā€™s only human-- but i donā€™t think heā€™d have let anybody else make that decision. i think ultimately he would try to protect other people.
he can be scarily confrontational too. i do believe heā€™d usually only do it in the defense of others-- like, his base instinct is to protect. i read a fic once (oumami, unfortunately) where ouma was committing crimes and went to hide behind rantaro and rantaro instinctively moved to protect him, and thatā€™s.... thatā€™s good characterisation. point one to the oumami stans, point zero to me. motherfucker. (love u oumami stans, itā€™s just not my thing.) i really like it in fics when heā€™s stern, lecturing people for hurting other people, but i also think rantaro is too understanding to be truly unforgiving. like if two people got into an argument and one came out of it more hurt than the other, i donā€™t believe that amami would be unsympathetic to the less hurt one. i think heā€™s mature enough to take a look at the situation and go, well, okay.
i think heā€™d be TERRIFYING when angry. heā€™s patient, yā€™know? so it takes a lot to get him to that point. heā€™s really, ah, accommodating of people. puts up with a lot of bs kind of thing. but i imagine the best way to get him to snap is by hurting someone he cares about. and at that point: ur fucked. iā€™ve never written it before because iā€™m terrified of what iā€™d do with that kind of power but.... imagine the shuichi whump. holy god.
iā€™m NOT here to talk about shuichi whump (though iā€™m down to do that any time of day believe me) so iā€™m gonna like. shhhhiiiiiiffft.
i project on characters a lot so at this point itā€™s difficult to distinguish if some of my characterisation things are like, actually characterisation things? or just me venting, so like, take nothing i say as canon, but also,,, akdsjf we love a man who bottles up his emotions.
because rantaro just doesnā€™t have the TIME to be crying all over the place. he was probably a total wreck when he lost his first sister. and his second. and maybe even his third. but then he started to gather his composure, more and more. because if thereā€™s anything that rantaro has in excess, itā€™s composure. the more losses he suffers the more of a shield he builds up. and the self hatred and the guilt and the blame and the responsibility are piling up and up and up, but god he hates it when other people see him sad, because he needs to be the strong one, he canā€™t just pile that up on other people. thatā€™s not their weight to carry, and besides, heā€™s the older brother, he should be able to deal with his own problems. heā€™d just be burdening the people he cares about by letting them see his demons.
and then he doesnā€™t have any coping mechanisms because he never lets himself feel enough to cope, and when people get close enough to actually CARE about him, when people notice heā€™s upset or struggling and offer him help, he doesnā€™t know how to deal with it-- and god he hates lashing out at people but itā€™s so much easier to deal with the consequences of being mean than the consequences of breaking down. only conflict is scary when heā€™s one of the causes so he needs time to recover, and well, what better way to do that than to get on a plane or a boat and go look for his sisters? after all heā€™s wasting time whenever heā€™s just sitting around, theyā€™re still out there and he needs to find them, so might as well just keep pushing himself to the limits, because itā€™s his fault theyā€™re lost anyway...
something mukuro said to rantaro in the talent development plan stuck in my brain. like, initially itā€™s just a funny and cute interaction (rantaro even blushes and a blushing rantaro is a GOOD FUCKING RANTARO) but when i thought about it more i was like.... huh. hm. angst ideas. mukuro makes a joke about rantaro going over to her stand at the festival to flirt with her-- i think thatā€™s the context, i know itā€™s play-boy related-- and rantaro assures her (as he always does) that heā€™s not that kind of guy, and mukuro agrees, saying she was just pulling his leg and that he seems like the kind of person who gets dumped because he doesnā€™t show his emotions enough. rantaro laughs, blushes, and says ā€œhaha, not touching that one,ā€ and akdjfnnnnnn god mukuro youā€™re so blunt i love you fkdjf but wow. i usually have rantaro as not having dated anyone, just because i feel like he kind of hyperfocuses on finding his sisters? and given that heā€™s like sixteen (seventeen at the MOST) thereā€™s not much of a timeline for when his sisters got lost. in my fic search i had to cram all the losses into a four-year period and damn that was rough. anyway i just donā€™t think heā€™d really prioritise romance. but that reaction implies that thatā€™s EXACTLY his experience with romance, which makes a bit of sense because mukuro is ridiculously sharp, and also itā€™s,, itā€™s just sad idk poor rantaro. getting dumped because heā€™s like the emotional equivalent of a doorknob when it comes to his own feelings.
i do think rantaro is a bit cowardly. not in the sense that heā€™d shy away from danger-- i think heā€™d RUSH INTO IT HEAD FIRST because heā€™s a man or whatever, i know he respects women but he does seem to hold some of those very stereotypically masculine ideals of constantly protecting those around him, which is like.... ok toxic masculinity mcgee can u and kaito stop throwing hands every time u see each other ty-- but more in the sense that he avoids,,, confrontation. emotional confrontation just ainā€™t his thing. and i think heā€™d rather run away from it or otherwise find some way of ignoring it than try to address his problems.
he would, with that in mind, probably try to associate with people who donā€™t push the matter. kiyo and mukuro, for example. they both have a fair amount of baggage themselves so theyā€™d probably be respectful. ryoma is lowkey enough that he just, he wouldnā€™t bring that shit up, thatā€™s uncool. i also think rantaro would get along REALLY WELL with kaito, and i actually donā€™t think kaito would pull his sidekick stuff with him? just because in a way theyā€™re kind of kindred spirits, and i think kaito would see an ally in rantaro before seeing someone to try to nurture, so theyā€™d probably have some kind of a truce like, if you donā€™t force me to be vulnerable, i wonā€™t force you. one of the reasons why i love amamota so much is because it involves the two of them growing to care about each other beyond that sort of unhealthy camaraderie and breaking down each otherā€™s barriers and i just..... hhnnfhhdkfj they could be so good for each other but nobody wants to talk about thatjslfkj
you werenā€™t asking for my amamota mess lmao sorry anon i get sidetracked SO easily. but yeah, amami gravitates towards people who wouldnā€™t try to get him to be more honest with himself. and i honestly think the v3 cast would be pretty good about that overall, except for shuichi who is a detective and has a habit of sticking his nose in places it shouldnā€™t be, but i see no reason to write that out because amamiā€™s ftes already display that beautifully. (well, thatā€™s a lie, iā€™m absolutely plotting out a slowburn in my head already that involves shuichi stripping down his walls one by one, but forget about all of that rn we donā€™t need to talk about why amasaimota is my ot3.) also he is softer on childish people like ouma and himiko. ainā€™t nobody wants to TALK TO ME about how brilliant it would be if rantaro and hiyoko were friends because hiyoko has such problems in that department and he would take one look at her and go hm. iā€™m adopting her. and heā€™s so fucking patient and nice and sheā€™d lose the will to make fun of him and i have to do ALL THE GODDAMN WORK AROUND HERE but itā€™s fine. at least i get to write it.
iā€™ve described the fundamentals of his characterisation pretty well by now i think. i have some throwaway headcanons, like uhh,,
heā€™s claustrophobic
plays the guitar and the ukulele
he prefers warm weather and perishes in the cold
high pain tolerance
heā€™s a Good Cook
doesnā€™t like sex jokes (they make him uncomfortable)
asexual (i do like a good demisexual hc at all times of day tho)
master of piggyback rides
does his own piercings
impulsive as hell
gets lost easily but can always find his way back
has a lot of scars from travels
hands are rough and calloused (again from travels)
morning person
smells like evergreen (you know i had to, you know i did)
Radiates Heat Like A Fucking Toaster Oven
good hugs
hates tying his shoelaces
likes being the big spoon :)
has a tongue piercing
i said ā€œsome throwaway headcanonsā€ but i ended up listing way more than i mean to. iā€™ll make a separate list of my rantaro headcanons someday and talk about them all in detail but for now, uh, thereā€™s that.
SO AS FOR THE RANTARO CHARACTERISATIONS I ABSOLUTELY DESPISE:
god where to fucking begin. actually i know exactly where to begin. itā€™s my least favourite one just because, like i said at the very beginning, rantaro is a subversive character. i mean i think heā€™s kind of a low hanging fruit when it comes to that. there are plenty of other subversive characters in the dr series but rantaro is like that. you expect a flirt and u get,,, a sweetheart. but then some people (usually the ones who ship him with female characters exclusively though i will see it on occasion in an amasai or oumami fic) decide to throw that out the window and make him a total playboy!! and listen, i have no problem with people who are a little flirty. weā€™re kids!! flirt ur heart out!!! and hey, thatā€™s not what this is about but yā€™know what? so long as everything is safe, sane, and consensual, then yeah!! exercise your sexual freedom and sleep with whoever you want to!!! i donā€™t think thereā€™s anything wrong with messing around a little, dating who u wanna and experimenting with ur tastes and preferences. if rantaro WAS a playboy, then there would be nothing wrong with that. i would love him just the same because heā€™s such a fundamentally GOOD character.
except that.... heā€™s.......... NOT. you slaughter one of the biggest aspects of his character by throwing away what matters to him and making him some hunky-deep-voice-dreamboat dude meant to sweep kaede/tsumugi/whomsteverthefuck off her feet. rantaro is one of those characters where heā€™s so blatantly not that kind of person, and itā€™s like. itā€™s an affront, almost, to portray him that way? and i do believe you should have the freedom to write what you want, since weā€™re in that age (aside from romanticised pedophilia and incest; that shit ainā€™t cute, i say this often but pro-ship DNI) where u should be able to take some liberties, but itā€™s just. hnnn. itā€™s so frustrating. rantaro does not know how to smolder! if he DID smolder, he wouldnā€™t even realise he was doing it. he doesnā€™t have people lying at his feet, okay? heā€™s too flaky for that. i wouldnā€™t say heā€™s unreliable but he definitely ainā€™t at school as much as he should be.
another one that i hate: st-stalker? what the fuck? that is not sexy that is creepy and weird?
another another one that i hate: yandere? what the FUCK??? that is not sexy that is glorified ABUSE???? the yandere trope is AWFUL bc youā€™re taking a controlling relationship and turning it into a fetish. NO. if he limits ur contact with other people, if he follows u everywhere, if he threatens ur loved ones, if he tries to control you, ladies and gents and nonbinaries, heā€™s not a yandere, heā€™s an abuser and you need a fucking restraining order. actually, people of ANY gender or sex can perpetuate this behaviour and IT IS NOT CUTE. I DO NOT GIVE A FUCK WHAT BOUNDARIES U SET IN PLACE, IF YOUR FREEDOM IS BEING RESTRICTED THAT IS ABUSE.
hate it when people make rantaro violent. hate it when people make rantaro a murderer. hate it when people make rantaro controlling. hate it when people make rantaro overtly sexual. some kind of sultry deep voice dominant kind of figure. dude, what the fuck? i donā€™t,, want to make any public comments about sex positions because i think thatā€™s kind of Strange to just talk about on a post, but i do think that the way people portray him for their smuts is,,, idk itā€™s weird. iā€™m not gonna kinkshame u but like. :eyes:
i will however accept rantaro as a thrillseeker, or a highstrung rich boy, or a total space cadet, or a himbo, or a cryptid. these are all very good interpretations of the Mans. just, like. be wary of making him two dimensional. a good character is multifaceted. if you can take a trait that clashes with all of these and SELL ME ON IT, i will buy it. if u give me good justifications, or even just good writing?? then i will accept it.
the long and the short of it is, anon, heā€™s my favourite so i think about him a lot. i love writing rantaro. heā€™s just, heā€™s a Guy. yā€™know? Heā€™s A Good Dude, If Youā€™ll Give Him A Shot. :) we donā€™t get to see very much of him but i think that thereā€™s plenty of material if you overanalyse everything, which, as you probably all know by now,,,, i absolutely do.
thank you for the ask, this was a delight to spend an hour talking about.
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tired-toby Ā· 4 years ago
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it's been nearly a year since my first suicide attempt, since the worst summer of my fucking life that i STILL CANT REMEMBER.
and i feel like i've gone nowhere
i'm still the same piece of shit who couldn't even acknowledge the people she hurt, who still tries to victimize herself when she's anything but the victim, who is wasting the time of everyone around her
i know all this. i know these flaws. i'm self-aware and that makes it worse because despite everything i do i feel like i haven't gotten any better, like i haven't improved at all and if anything i've just sunk deeper into this pit
and it's not like i haven't had people reach out!
my math teacher has kept up with me the WHOLE YEAR yet time and time again i let myself fall short.
i want to be better. i need to be better, for the people that are here now and for those that i've hurt in the past.
for my guinea pigs. for my rats. for my dogs. for everyone.
yet here i am just fucking wallowing, crying on an empty blog that no one will read or give a shit about because it's just me.
i graduate soon. well. i /might/ graduate soon
god
i've fallen so far.
my friends are going to harvard, to mit. i feel like i'm just going to a shallow grave.
i wish things were easy, that i could take a few pills and just be /better./ i want to stop feeling this way, i just want to feel better. i've changed my ways! i only drink water, i eat healthier, i walk my dogs for two hours every day, i've taken up new and old hobbies. but i still fall into slumps, i feel like i am a slump.
i've barely told anyone but i haven't felt like myself in weeks and i'm so fucking scared. i feel like i don't know who i am anymore and the coping mechanisms that i've used to try and feel like myself aren't working like they used to. i feel like im fragmented and being pulled apart at the seams. maybe i'm giving myself too much credit
a overfilled trash bag thats splitting and spilling nothing but garbage
that's better.
i'm just overdramatic
i'm just tired
i even have a healthy sleep schedule, did i mention that? in bed by 10, up by 7. i walk my sister to the bus stop almost everyday.
i thought i did everything right. why doesn't it work why aren't i better why am i still the same asshole why am i no one why am i nothing why can't i just be better why am i not fucking dead
55 days until i'm 18
54 until the night i became the world's greatest failure
what kind of idiot fails to kill themself? twice, at that?
i feel like i'm faking this. i read these words i type and i cry and if eel like im faking it. that i'm doing it for attention. i'm manipulative, i lie to emotionally abuse people
i know this and i'm probably doing it now
seems like something i'd do
my mom says my laptop will be back soon, finally repaired. i don't think i mentioned it here but the harddrive broke and i lost everything
stories. hundreds of thousands of words and i WISH that was an exaggeration
my fucking POKEMON. ALL MY GODDAMN POKEMON!!! I BEAT SOUL SILVER WITH JUST AN AMPHAROS AND ITS FUCKING GONE. MARILYN IM SORRY. NOT TO MENTION ALL MY OTHER SAVES
all my art. all those sketches. i've barely drawn since, nothing feels right anymore. not like i know where my art tablet is anyway :/ that's just
gone
everything's gone
once i have a laptop again, i think i'll be happier. i hope i'm happier. my life is there, my happiness is there. it's not healthy to stare at a screen for who knows how many hours of a day but it makes me happy
i want to have fun with graey again. the weeks we'd spend just playing minecraft and stardew and we haven't been able to do anything because i'm just on my phone and a shitty school laptop that can't even run google and word at the same time
i don't know what i'm going to do. this whole thing is a mess, just so much bullshit. and it's barely the tip of the iceberg
i didn't even mention how my dad found another rope in my brother's room. part of me hopes it's not what i think it is and some part of how i once opened his girlfriend's snapchat and found him listed as daddy
fucking discord moderator lookin' ass. it's the trauma innit
i'm doing dnd again. it's not full campaigns, just one-shots with the sewer rats every other weekend or so where i dm and they can have fun.
i like making them happy
i love all of them. they're my family. caesar, crypt, xeno, cat, moe, roo, blink, cig, fox, graey, even fed and ag. if it weren't for you guys, i'd be nothing. i'd be gone.
caesar, you've been with me through everything. i wouldn't be here if you weren't there for me. i'm glad we're getting close again, i've missed your company
i'm glad i'm the one you tag when you see if anyone wants to watch u stream :)
crypt, for all the shit i give you i love you. when are we going to finish mamma mia together u rat ass bitch
xeno u are one of the funniest motherfuckers i've met, even if u are a literal fetus. whenever i see u join vc im always so fucking hyped
cat why r u so fucking racist. when r we gonna play phasmo
moe stop touching kids.
roo i am not gonna lie sometimes u feel like my mom i s2g granted u are geriatric so maybe that makes u my grandma. point still stands, also when r we gonna plot wren and dhova i want my twink-turned-twunk
blink i still need to dm u back give me a sec.
cig u are also a fetus but u are one of my FAVORITE people to brainstorm and plot with. UR BRAIN IS SO WRINKLY AND UR ALWAYS SO RESPONSIVE IT MAKES ME SO HAPPY!!
fox. ANOTHER FETUS. but also an amazing dm and just?? ur so creative. U ARE SO CREATIVE. UR CHARACTER DESIGN. UR ART SKILLS. ur so underappreciated?
graey when r we having the dildo battle. i will come to alaska and live in a shack in the woods with ur nasty unshowering ass if it means i get to punch u in the face irl and laugh abt the usual bullshit with you.
fed stop being british it's literally so gross idk how u do it. if u stop being british i'll stop bullying u abt ur terrible typing skills
ag u are just. cool. like if i had to pin someone as like the 'cool/chill' person of the sewers it would 100% be u i am ngl. play roblox cats with me u fucking coward
enough of being sappy. they need to stop accusing me of being a lesbian I AM NOT A LESBIAN
ok
im happy again
thinking about them makes me happy
in other news celestial bodies by ghost data is a nice song
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unlockthelore Ā· 5 years ago
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catch me, wonā€™t you?
Part 6 of Know-It-All a.k.a the modern AU snippet series that no one asked for. To find other parts of the series, follow the know-it-all tag.
shijimeikme#1231 ā€” direct message with nenehime#1113
nenehime AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
shijimeikme what is it Iā€™m studying
nenehime are you really studying??? (ĀÆā€•ĀÆŁ„)
shijimeikme fair
shijimeikme what is it
nenehime Iā€™m coming over
shijimeikme okay??? but the screaming ( Ā¬_Ā¬)
nenehime i messed up
shijimeikme bad enough that you gotta scream???
shijimeikme did you text aoi???
nenehime no not yet sheā€™ll do the thing
shijimeikme the protective best friend thing where she defers to murder first?
nenehime itā€™s almost scary that you know that
shijimeikme been hanging out with u guys long enough
shijimeikme alright ima clean up, tell me what happened
Nene was hard pressed to stay where she was while waiting for Amane to wake up. The sides of her phone case pressing uncomfortably into her palms as she gripped it tight enough that she could hear the plastic cracking. A slight fumble to keep from breaking it resulting in her phone smacking against her face and only Amaneā€™s soft huff reminding her not to groan in pain. The throbbing on her forehead reminding her of the contrast, his lips soft as they brushed against her skin, leaving a kiss that was quickly drowned out as he sang the last line.
Looking her in the eye.
Just like ā€”
She wanted to scream or kick out her legs or do something. Staring out the window as the evening sunlight slanted through, lightening the dark blue curtains and running over the carpet to the edge of Amaneā€™s bed. His arm loosened its grip around her waist and Nene could move a bit easier but she stayed where she was. As much as she wanted to rant and rage, she found herself just laying there. Looking around the room and memorizing every inch of it.
His telescope in the corner.
A number of books on his shelf, rearranged in sequence, with a soccer ball propped up beside them. The dust collecting on the trophy hidden behind it. Posters of his heroes on dark blue walls, a mosaic painting of the Apollo 11 moon landing, the light catching and making the moon shine. The glare catching on the dark screen of his television, a shelf beneath it with books and games organized on either side, his system tucked away in the cabinet.
How many hours did she spend here playing games with him when they should be studying?
His slight grin when she won and rubbed it in his face only to start up another game while she wasnā€™t looking.
Would that all change because she knew now?
Looking down at him, her breath hitched when he started to shift and his eyes slowly opened. His cheek brushing against her chest as he raised his head, resting his chin against her chest and staring up at her with sleep-glazed sunset eyes.
ā€œYashiro,ā€ he called, voice husky with sleep. ā€œWhat time is it?ā€
Neneā€™s eyes widened and she fumbled for her phone, pressing the home button to see the time and another message from Mei.
ā€œAbout five,ā€ she said, shifting from beneath him as carefully as she could as he rolled to the side. ā€œI should start heading home.ā€
She chose to wisely ignore the way that his voice made the back of her neck warm or twist her stomach in knots when he looked her way. His eyes were oranger than gold, or was it golder than orange? If she got a better look. Zipping her bag shut with more force than necessary, she downed the thought before it could grow any further. There was no way she could do that. Being that close to him ā€”
Standing up abruptly, her knees almost buckled but she forced herself upright, picking up her phone from where it laid beside him. Amane lying on his side and peering up at her with a soft grumble, his fingers curled in the sheets.
Why.
She pressed her phone to her chest, holding it tightly, trying to slow the racing of her heart. He looked so vulnerable, small as he curled up in a ball, his eyes squinting to avoid being blinded by the light. Wide eyes that looked up at her with trust and fondness, faint dark circles beneath them showing he could use a bit more sleep, and his smile. It wasnā€™t teasing or cat-like but wide and warm, crinkling his eyes at the corners and stealing her breath away.
Oh no, she couldnā€™t do this.
ā€œSee you tomorrow, Amane,ā€ she blurted out, gripping the strap of her bag and hurrying downstairs.
Tsuchigomori raised his hands as she flew past him, peering at her curiously. ā€œWhereā€™s the fire..?ā€
ā€œI just have to head home, parentsā€¦ yā€™know.ā€
Lying to him was so difficult. Not only because he was a teacher but he always seemed to just know. His hum was judgmental and she could feel his gaze on her back, analyzing her with a scrutiny that might have made her crack if she looked back at him. Tugging her shoes on, she stood and bowed deeply.
ā€œBye!ā€
Throwing open the doors, she looked down at her phone, squinting against the glare from the light.
shijimeikme#1231 ā€” direct message with nenehime#1113
nenehime I came over to amaneā€™s to hangout and he was so tired so I tried to cheer him up then we were singing and it was all nice and he kissed my forehead and said he loved me
shijimeikme ā€¦. Just like that
nenehime wellā€¦ yesā€¦ and noā€¦and kinda??? It was part of the song
shijimeikme but he kissed you
nenehime my forehead
shijimeikme which is a part of you
nenehime hnnnnnn I knooooooow meeeeeeei
shijimeikme are you still there???
nenehime no Iā€™m leaving
shijimeikme did you talk to him before you left
nenehime does saying see you tomorrow count
shijimeikme baby no
shijimeikme hurry up and get over here
nenehime AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
shijimeikme see now the screaming makes sense
Throwing her phone into her bag, she hurried off as quickly as her legs could carry her. Amaneā€™s voice repeating like a song she couldnā€™t get out of her head.
koulest#0206 ā€” direct message with hanako#0724
hanako i fucked up
koulest to the surprise of no one
hanako kid ur killing me
koulest wh
koulest Iā€™m olny few years younger thn u
hanako and shit at spelling too
koulest Iā€™m going back to bed
hanako wait kou no listen
koulest whaaaaaaaat???
hanako so how would you cope w/ falling asleep on ur crush
koulest ā€¦.. what did you do
hanako so yashiro came over and tsuchigomori mustā€™ve said something to her bc she was trying to get me to stop studying
koulest to be fair you donā€™t take breaks
hanako hey hey thatā€™s not the point
hanako stay on topic
koulest mmmmm you didnā€™t deny it
hanako kou
koulest alrgiht alright damn so what
hanako I was sleep deprived kinda and she played this song and we were dancing and
koulest wait how sleep deprived
hanako stAY ON POINT
koulest HOW LONG WERE YOU AWAKE
hanako LONG ENOUGH TO KNOW I FUCKED UP
koulest you know what??? fair
koulest continue
hanakoshe played fly me to the moon
koulest soft but mmm think theres more to this
hanako look up the lyrics
koulest ohhhHHH fuck
hanako does your brother even let you curse???
koulest if you and I wanna survive he better not find out
hanako anyway we were singing
koulest ā€¦.
hanako kou
koulest you did a duet w senpai
hanako why do you still call her that but not me
koulest because you might be older than me grade-wise but up here weā€™re the same
hanako did you tap your head??? you know I canā€™t see you right
koulest HUSH
koulest okay, so howā€™d this lead to you falling asleep on her
hanako I got comfortable andā€¦ she was telling me to take a break and I was gonna just lay down and when I woke up I was on her
koulest did you do anything to her
hanako WH no what do you take me for
koulest (;ļæ¢ļ¼æļæ¢) do you really wanna know
hanako killing me
hanako anyway I was faking sleep when I woke up bc I was trying to figure out how I got here
hanako and sheā€™s messing with my hair
hanako then I ā€œwoke upā€ and she was on her phone and said she had to go
hanako and idk if she actually had to go or no but we didnā€™t talk bout it
hanako and idk if I made things weird cause this isnā€™ the first time
koulest back up
koulest the fuck do you mean this isnā€™t the first time
hanako ā€¦.
koulest oh no NOPE you donā€™t get to do the ellipsis of disappointment
hanako the wh
koulest mitsuba
koulest but thatā€™s not the point TELL
hanako mmMMM mitsuba ok
koulest the fuck does that mean
hanako ANYWAY we were stargazing awhile ago
koulest post or pre kodama incident
hanako we do not speak about the kodama incident
koulest still canā€™t believe u did that
hanako kou no kodama incident please
koulest alright, alright what happened
hanako we fell asleep and when I woke up we were cuddling???
koulest idk if u have the best or worse luck
hanako don you mean worst
koulest nah ur luck just gets terrible w the day
koulest anyway did she talk about it w u thin
hanako then???
koulest Iā€™M GOING BACK TO BED
hanako KOU WAIT NO
hanako yeah yeah she talked to me
hanako and I asked her if we could cuddle not as friends
koulest ??? Donā€™t leave me in suspense whatā€™d she say
hanako she said yeah
koulest ā€¦. Okay why do I think youā€™re leaving something out
hanako am I?
koulest u were sleep deprived so you mightā€™ve done something to make senpai skip out
hanako I canā€™t think of what tho and if I ask her
hanako so fkinembarrassed
koulest maybe if you actually slept
hanako shUT YOUR FUCK
koulest get some sleep we can talk about it tomorrow
koulest GET SOME SLEEP
hanako fuck we do have school tomorrow
koulest you would know that if ur days werenā€™t blurring
koulest BECAUSE YOU DONā€™T SLEEP
hanako GOOD NIGHT KOU
koulest oH FINALLY
Amaneā€™s phone screen went dark, reflecting his own flustered face, and he grimaced at the sight. Dropping his phone to his chest and burying his fingers in his hair as he squinted at the ceiling. Itā€™d long since gotten dark and Tsuchigomori ordered takeout, Yako coming over, and their usual bickering distracted him from his thoughts. Insisting that heā€™d be heading off to bed when he was only paying partial attention to one of their arguments that heā€™d been drawn into. Weighty sharp gazes following him and their voices were hushed as he disappeared from sight, no doubt trying to glean the meaning for his behavior.
How was he supposed to tell them that he might have scared off the girl that he liked because she was trying to make him feel better? Hell, how was he supposed to justify it to himself. The heels of his hands pressed against his eyelids, making the stars on his ceiling blurry and his eyes water. Deep down, he almost wanted to cry.
It took him a full six minutes to register Neneā€™s hasty goodbye and another two to hurry after her with the insistence of walking her home. She didnā€™t hear him, tapping away at her phone, her shoulders hunched and steps brisk ā€” reminding him of that day. A muffled curse behind his hand as the memory came to mind.
The day was perfect. Like a scene out of her favorite movie, and her eyes were so warm and trusting. She believed every word that came out of his mouth. And that was it. He meant it, meant that he liked her, perhaps not love but he did like her and ā€”
He hurt her.
Ruby eyes glistening with unshed tears, the ones that managed to slip free in silver streaks down her cheeks were quickly wiped away as she jerked away from him. The dull ache in his head from her headbutt was nothing compared to the sharp pain in his chest. Seeing her walking away from him, rubbing her eyes from tears he caused, all because his intentions were good but his method wasnā€™t.
What more could he do but apologize to her?
Could he really expect her to believe him when he lied before?
His phone slid off his chest as he shifted onto his side, pressing his cheek against his pillow, the smell of earth and something sweet filling his nose.
Nene.
It could only be her. And he mentally kicked himself, burying his face against the pillow and clutching it tightly.
kannoaoi#0320 ā€” direct message with nenehime#1113
nenehime AOI I NEED YOUR HELP
kannoaoi name and whatā€™d they do
nenehime whā€” ļ¼ˆćƒ»ā–”惻ļ¼›ļ¼‰no not like that
kannoaoi just kidding ļ¼ˆāŒ’ā–½āŒ’ļ¼‰mei told me what happened
nenehime
nenehime message
kannoaoi well it doesnā€™t sound like the kodama incident again
kannoaoi if he was as tired as you said maybe he meant it
kannoaoi or maybe he was delirious
nenehime not helping aoi
kannoaoi what im saying is that talking to us is well and good but you should talk to yugi
nenehime but how do you talk to someone whose bed you woke up in twice
kannoaoi how do you talk to me? (āœæā•¹uā•¹)
nenehime aoi youā€™re different
kannoaoi and Iā€™m glad you think so but nene whats one of the most irritating tropes from your books
nenehime besides power imbalance???
kannoaoi mhm
nenehime miscommunication
nenehime ā€¦ oh
kannoaoi oh (āœæā— ā€æā— )
Flower emojis were supposed to be cute but somehow Aoi could make them both that and absolutely threatening. Locking her phone screen, Nene stared at her own reddened faced worried her bottom lip between her teeth. Black Canyon rolled across her pillow, colliding with her cheek and she closed her eyes with a sigh. Letting her phone fall to the side, her hands cupping around the mischievous hamster as she sat up and tucked her knees in close.
The contents of her bag spilled out over the shag carpet, her books face down and obscuring the heart shaped design from view. Her gaze drifting to the ceiling then her curtains, the stuffed animals and movie posters barely discernible in the low lighting. Her teal hair falling in her face as she rested her head against her knees, nuzzling against Black Canyonā€™s fur. Honey and brown sugar from the shampoo that she used bathe him still fresh. Pressing a kiss to his head, she set him on the floor and let him run around, pushing the ball that heā€™d come to claim as his own.
Black and white, checkered just like the one in Amaneā€™s room, bumping against her dresser and the walls. Sitting back with her head against the wall, she almost wished for the glow in the dark stars on her ceiling. Checking to make sure that Black Canyon wasnā€™t nearby as she toed off her bed, bending down to pick up the objects from her bag. Her books heavy in her hands, thumbs running over the embossed titles.
What was she going to do come tomorrow?
It wasnā€™t as if she could just hide in her room or avoid him. No one was at fault but the knots twisting in her stomach and the fear of having dashed hopes meant something. Pressing her lips to the spine of her book, she tried to remember the warmth of his hand and the gentle press of his lips against her forehead. That wide smile, soft and all for her.
I just wanted them to stop making fun of you.
Was it really that bad?
If he liked her and she liked him, did anyone else really matter?
And even then ā€” why would anyone tease for her liking him when he was soā€¦
Draping her bag on her chair, she tip toed over to the window and pulled the soft cherry pink curtains, opening her window slightly to let the cool air come in. Her arms crossed on the window sill and chin resting atop of them as she looked out at the cityscape. Thousands of lights wavering in the distance, dancing as her eyelids fell and she sighed. The moon wasnā€™t out tonight and she wondered if he was dismayed by it.
He kept track of the moon phases on his calendars so she doubted he didnā€™t know but she wanted to check anyway.
Though with the way she left, would it be alright to text him?
Was he offended because they didnā€™t talk?
Or should she just do it anyway?
They were still friends.
Black Canyonā€™s soft squeaks made her smile and she rested her cheek against her arms, watching him as he bumped the ball against the wall, trying to get it to change directions. Scurrying after it with all of the speed that his tiny legs could afford him.
Sometimes, she thought it must have been a lot easier to be an animal.
Like a hamster or a fish.
Lingering by the window for a moment longer, she sighed and drifted back to her bed, picking up her phone. The light shining in her eyes were momentarily blinding and scrolling through the recent messages, she found the thread with Amane and her finger hovered over it.
Yashiro, I love you! Please go out with me.
I love you.
hanako#0724 ā€” direct message with nenehime#1113
nenehime no stargazing tonight I guess
nenehime amane
nenehime about earlier can we talk?
nenehime ā€¦please
Nene had never been one for flippant use of prayer. In fact, she tried not to pray for things that were selfish if she could help it. But right now, she really needed this. Even if it went wrong and something happened that couldnā€™t be taken back ā€” it was better than this.
A gentle chime and a notification popped up on her screen. She pressed her phone to her forehead with a ragged sigh, sagging down to the floor. Black Canyonā€™s ball tapping her side as the hamster squeaked at her.
hanako#0724 ā€” direct message with nenehime#1113
hanako yeah
hananene squad ā€” 5 members
koulest added kannoaoi to the group.
koulest added shijimeikme to the group.
koulest added aoi_a to the group.
koulest added elemonate to the group.
koulest added snapmitsu to the group.
koulest renamed koulest, kannoaoi, shijimeikme, aoi_a, elemonate, snapmitsu to hananene squad.
snapmitsu TRAFFIC EARRING yOU ASS
koulest wrong chat mitsuba
elemonate im sory but what was the right chat
aoi_a sory?
elemonate yeah like you
aoi_a rude
shijimeikme assuming weā€™re all here for the same thing are we gonna talk about our friends pining orā€¦
koulest is pining even the word anymore
koulest wait role call how did everybody find out
kannoaoi nene
koulest amane
snapmitsu being added to this gc
aoi_a u can leave anytime
snapmitsu fuck u im staying
koulest okay but can we talk about what weā€™re gonna do about them
snapmitsu like are we picking sides
koulest wh NO why would we pick sides weā€™re both of their friends
aoi_a idk if Iā€™d say that
kannoaoi akane
kannoaoi and donā€™t worry too much kou
shijimeikme aoiā€™s right, we donā€™t have to do much of anything
elemonate ā€¦.. what did you two already do
kannoaoi planted the seeds, so watch them grow
snapmitsu a gardening joke???
kannoaoi this IS nene weā€™re talking about here
shijimeikme yeah kou so just let the stars align
snapmitsu am I having a stoke is this what a stroke feels like
aoi_a so basically we were called forā€¦.
aoi_a nothing if weā€™re being honest
koulest no no I wouldnā€™t say THAT - sigh - weā€™re out here in case anything happens
elemonate like what super senate
koulest yeah like sentai WARRIORS
kannoaoi and the two people weā€™re talking about arenā€™t part of this little band of heroes
koulest do you want me to make a whole gc with all of us???
snapmitsu nope a server
koulest wh
aoi_a more space for pins
elemonate you mean memes
shijimeikme you mean pictures
kannoaoi you mean puns
aoi_a aoi please
snapmitsu heathens all of you
aoi_a tomorrow is gonna be fun
snapmitsu for who?
shijimeikme yes
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