#how do u meet people when ur too derpessed to do anything???

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oh wow, a year summary, bit too late

aka 2022 was a fucking nightmare and it keeps going

i had barely any time and energy to create what i wanted this year cause i spent majority of it being at my worst. but to find something good in it, i do like those fast sketch portraits

to explain my situation - i moved from an asscrack of the world into a big city in september 2021 to find a job bcs in that small town i was year on unemployment cause jesus fuck there’s 0 jobs there. we fucked up. the realter was a lying bitch. i ended up in the worst disctrict the city has to offer, incredible start if i say so myself, feared walking home everyday

so i spent about 9 months there being miserable and then i managed to move out! yay! a great location, i like it here really, bonus point for seeing crows daily, love the funky guys

this apartment is old piece of shit where things barely work. i was in a rush to gtfo cause my lease was ending in like a week and i had to find a place fast af and everyody is now picking who to let move in and let me just say that nobody trusts a single person working retail can reliably pay rent so i got denied on every apt except this shit one and i couldnt be looking any longer so i just had to take it

so i’m back to being miserable, even worse now, as we wasted money on another moving, rent is high as shit, and i don’t even have a properly functioning heating here. why wont i report the broken things? oh i did. i got told by the owner “well nobody before was complaining about it” and thats where it end. fucks sake i have just one working burner here, i havent cooked since october. i dont see myself drawing here any good stuff anytime soon, all i do is get home and go into bed under covers cause i’m cold as shit

we plan to move this year again. mom here to this city and find a place for both of us together. when is that happening i dont know. i hope it’s soon. i want to be sane and create again