#how could she say this and be totally right wtf :crying:

[darlingcloudie-9]

this is my…… alter ego- ANITA MAXWYNN. ANITA MAXWYNN

[princessbrunette]

omg i was doing a little deep dive on your page (cos wtf else would a girl be doing) and i saw you say something about pope and bunny!reader and i cannot get it out of my head like omg????

her throwing a little fit because she messed up her makeup or something and hes just gentle with her making her realise how small that problem is and he just keeps her down to earth

he’d be so gentle and patient oh i’m gonna cry.

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it almost makes him jump, the whiny “no!” that suddenly explodes from your side of the room as you do your makeup. pope was on his laptop, putting together some finishing touches on the research he was doing for a project that you felt was a little too complex for you to grasp. he blinks, looking over at you huffing as you stare into the mirror, teary eyed with a huge blob of mascara on your cheek.

“i messed it up! i got it over my flawless base so now i’m gonna have to wipe it off and do it again and i’m gonna cry so now my eye makeup is gonna be ruined too!” your voice seems to strain higher and higher as your brows furrow, and your boyfriend knows it’s only a matter of time before you’re throwing a crying fit on the bed. he knew how to work fast, luckily.

“you’re okay, i’ve got you.” he shrugs as he quickly manoeuvres across the room to squat infront of you where you were sat infront of the mirror. “all i’m seeing is a tiny mistake that can be fixed. don’t be upset.” he waves your hands away gently as he cups your jaw gently, tilting your head back into the light. “now if i could just have a little look…”

he inspects you for a moment, mostly just taking in how beautiful you look before his face lights up. “easy, okay — i saw this hack on my tiktok feed where you let the mascara dry and then you just gently rub it with one of those… where is it —” he bends over slightly to look at all your brushes standing in their pot because plucking out a spoolie. “aha— this. you just rub on it a little and it’ll flake right off. totally foolproof.” he smiles, and your heart swells. blinking the tears back into your eyes, you let out an airy giggle.

“you get makeup videos on your tiktok?” you ask as he gently blows at your cheek, ensuring the mascara has probably dried onto your skin.

“hey, i only watch them because of moments like this— so i can help you.” softly, you feel him brush lightly at your skin before pulling back victoriously. “okay, not that i didn’t expect that to work… but that was really easy.” he’s grinning victoriously. you check the mirror before clapping your hands happily, letting out a little squeal. “you haven’t put on your lipgloss yet.” he suddenly announces.

“so?” you blink dumbly up at him.

“so, i get to do this.” he smirks, before pulling you in for a kiss.

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[yawujin]

hiiiiiiiiiiiiiii hope your having a good day , can i plz request nsfw headcanons for the axis with a reader that tears up during sex ( not because its painful or uncomfortable but because she just tears up easily and it feels so good)

ouh this is right up my alley , i definitely can do this req for you 🤍 thank you !

{ request } axis x emotional! reader ♡

type • nsfw content , crying during sex , comfort , reaction , they/them pronouns used

author's note* yo it's totally natural to cry after or during sex btw! it can be intense, and sex in itself (to me at least) is a really emotional act! never feel like you need to hide your emotions and remember to communicate with your partner if needed. MWAH

n. italy/feliciano vargas

a look of concern washes over his face as he watches the first few tears fall from their eyes

he uses his thumb to wipe them away, rubbing their cheek in order to soothe them

he asks them for a quick kiss on the lips, gently pulling away so he can ask what went wrong

feli's relieved to hear that his beloved partner is just feeling everything he's giving to them ;)

germany/ludwig beilschmidt

he's stopping immediately to ask what happened

his heart is racing, and so is his mind, wondering what he could have possibly done to make them cry

did he hurt them? he would never do it intentionally

he's looking down—is he too much to handle...?

his panicked, heavy breathing slows down to a much calmer pace as they tell him that he's just too good

japan/kiku honda

his rhythm slows down to a halt as he politely asks them to look him in his eyes

"tell me what's wrong." he says it so seriously it's almost enough to get them to let out a small laugh

japan feels conflicted when they tell him that it felt amazing, he supposes something such as this could induce quite a reaction

although he didn't expect it, he proceeds. lowering his voice into a soft whisper against their ear, asking if he can continue now...

prussia/gilbert beilschmidt

he backs off as soon as he hears their tearful wince coming from under him

internally, he's freaking out. "WTF WHAT DID I DO?!"

but he knows how to approach a situation like this of course, so he asks if they should stop

he can't stop the red-hot feeling that is warming up his face when they plead with him not to stop, and the subsequent smile that comes right after he hears those exact words

s. italy/lovino vargas

he gets kind of embarrassed...wanting to kick himself for hurting his own partner

he quickly asks them if they need anything to feel better, offering them something to drink so they can hydrate

"if they're crying, they're going to need it..." he thinks to himself

he was ready to give them whatever they needed to help them feel better, but he wasn't expecting them to tell him that they needed him.

author's note* read part two here 🤍

[lees-chaotic-brain]

rating things my classmates said/did after my dad died! (feat. class 1-a)

cw: mentions of death obviously, you're a member of class 1-a, crack, hurt/comfort, reader is religiously ambiguous, implied depression ig, some angst but mostly crack

note: guys i swear it's okay to laugh at this! i did!! some may say it's too soon but humor is how i cope and i missed writing so when this little idea invaded my brain while i was rewatching bhna (it's my comfort show) i couldn't resist

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ochako: “if you believe in heaven i would offer to use my quirk on you so you could float up to heaven and visit your dad but i doubt they'd let you in anyways”

9/10

low key made me giggle

iida overheard and was horrified.

izuku: “i'm so sorry for your loss. if you ever need to talk i’m here. i know it’s not the same at all but my dad wasn’t around while i was growing up so i can kinda understand. not that i’m saying you have to talk to me because of that or that i understand or that we should make a dead/missing dad club oh my god i need to stop talking i’m so sorry i’ll leave you alone now bye please tell me if you need anything!” *scurries away*

11/10

sweet cinnamon roll 🥹

we should fs make a dead/missing dads club

todoroki: “i’m so sorry for your loss. if i could make my father trade places with yours i would do it in a heartbeat. unrelated, i heard you and midoriya are starting a dead/missing dads club. may i join? mine is dead to me.”

8/10

right idea i guess 😭😭

it was going so well during the first sentence too…

ps ofc you can join our club

bakugou: stormed into my room and violently ripped me from my depression burrito and dragged me downstairs to force feed me a warm home cooked meal bc he knew i hadn’t left my bed or eaten in the last 24 hours

6/10

i always knew you cared abt me us blasty 🥹🥰

the food was delicious but plz be more gentle abt it next time king 🙏

mineta: “yo your mom is a total milf.”

numbers don’t go low enough to express my feelings towards this one

like at my father’s funeral?? the AUDACITY

jirou: spent hours searching for a very specific song my dad sang to me when i was little and actually found it bc she found m crying bc i couldn’t find it and i wanted to hear it again

♾️/10

i actually love you so much

you have no idea how much this meant to me ❤️

aoyama: stuffed cheese into my mouth while i was crying in my depression burrito

-3/10

wtf man that was actually more traumatizing

it wasn’t even parmesan or brie

tokoyami: went on a long spiel about how we are all destined for the Great Darkness then abruptly ended by saying he was sorry for my father’s early departure and disappearing back into his room

7/10

i think you were trying to make me feel better so i appreciate the effort. i am a little confused tho

kiri: ask me if i wanted a hug. when i started crying he started tearing up too then gave me one of the best bear hugs i’ve ever gotten

20/10

super manly dude. i really needed it at the moment and appreciated it ❤️

gonna end this here. i had a few more but i felt like these were the best ones. not tagging anyone since this is like a personal self comfort one lol

THAT DOESN’T MEAN I DON’T WANT YOU GUYS TO LAUGH OR TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK. TRUST IT WILL MAKE ME FEEL BETTER

[applebuttercringe]

Episode 5 immediate thoughts

Spoilers ahead!

-Oh hey it's the big guy who used to be on Caitlyns strike team.

-Get em Vi

-Jinx is betting on Vi's fights

-Average lesbian breakup experience

-Did she dye her hair black? Or did she just cry enough eyeliner onto herself that it turned it black?

-THE SISTER REUNION

-Vi is reminded by the shimmer tear that Jinx isn't fully in control of herself.

-Proud of Jinx though for being able to be in Vi presence without a breakdown

-Last time they saw each other Vi was fully ready to kill Jinx. Most brutal fight in the series. Now they can work together? Thats kinda rushed.

-Caitlyn using her detective skills again!

-"Peacekeeping operations" Yeah right Caitlyn.

-Caitlyn is full on racist

-Full on fascist

-The Caitlyn stans are gonna be fighting for their LIVES trying to defend her.

-This is the first time we've seen Mel not collected, or at least put together and considerate.

-ELORA!!!

-Mels brother?

-Mels brother!

-Well Vi got over basically all the Jinx stuff pretty quick.

-I mean this is basically what both of them really wanted, to be a family again, and it was achieved with very little ceremony.

-Did Jinx find out the mushroom aren't toxic by eating them? Does she eat every new thing she finds just to check?

-If Vi thinks this is Jinx lying why would she follow her?

-"BITCHMITTENS"

-Typical sibling behavior

-Vi is a child hitter confirmed. Considering Jinx's lingering trauma from Vi's reaction to the explosion in S1 Ep3, I'de think she would have a worse reaction to Vi hitting Isha.

-Whaarwhick is more savage than any beast in Noxus? Knowing Noxus from league I find that hard to believe.

-Wait, did Silco kill Vi and Jinx's parents? Is that why they split? I need to rewatch this frame by frame.

-Singed holding his daughter

-Singed real name is Dr. Reveck

-If Mel and Kino are surprised Ambessa has a love child, were they her hatechilds?

-Mel herself is a magical maguffin for the cult running a foreign nation. I thought she was just a super cool girlboss.

-Jinx is a jacket sniffer.

-Was Vander in love with their mom? I thought he was their adopted dad, has he been their bio dad the whole time?

-Vi defending Jinx 🥺

-Is that Singed daughter on the record Felicity is playing.

-Oh no young Silco is hot

-Felicity sounds like Jinx when she says "working up the nerve"

-That one tweet was right, Arcane music is horrifically literal.

-I don't care if it's rushed. This scene is straight out of a feel good fix it fic and I love it. Happiness and family for the Zaun sisters!

-Is this Salo after being healed by Viktor?

-Knew it

-Jayce, where ya been buddy?

-Viktor broke Jayce out so he could come see him. I mean it is probably not Viktor, it's the hexcore taking people over, but still.

-And once again the dynamic is reversed

-Just leaving Ekko and Heimerdinger in their huh?

-JAYCE STRAIGHT UP MURDERED HIM! HOLY SHIT! WHAT!?

-I THOUGHT HE WAS JUST GONNA BONK HIM TO KNOCK HIM OUT!

-WTF HAPPENED TO HIM!

Overall: Ok, so this felt rushed. The last 4 acts have been tearing these sisters apart, entirely centering on the traumas and outside forces that keep them from being a family. Then Jinx shows up and it takes one sentence to get Vi back, granted Vander being alive is big news, but Vi thinks Jinx is lying to her. Why wouldn't she be mad at Jinx?

Jayce straight up murderred a guy, I wish we got to see more of how he got to this point.

Caitlyn is still as much of a dictator as she has been all, but she does get consistently worse.

Mel is in a totally different story now.

Things are only looking up for Jinx and Vi.

Even with it being rushed I do like Jinx and Vis story here, I want happiness for them , sue me. But I don't see how they could possibly meaningfully redeem all the other characters in the 4 episodes left. Which means I think Arcane season 2 might not be peak anymore, entertaining? Yes. Interesting? Yes. Exciting? Yes. Peak? Maybe not. I still love it, but the cracks are showing.

[d3sertdream3r]

I really don't know how to feel about the ROP finale... I feel like we shippers got baited a bit and I really don't like that. Like did he even actually care about galadriel at all? And WTF was up with the heal yourself line? What does that even mean? I want to like the episode but I don't know it felt off to me like it wasn't emotional enough.

I think we all have personal preferences that are influenced by our own experiences, so it's perfectly normal to like something others don't or not like something that others do. It's ok if you didn't enjoy the finale as much as you were hoping to. You don't have to try and force yourself to like it, and it's totally valid to feel upset and baited if you were hoping for things to go differently.

That being said, I enjoyed the finale! I personally didn't feel baited at all, but I was expecting it to be like this. I find it interesting because I saw a lot of people nervous the end of season 2 would be too much like the end of season 1, and now a lot of those same people are upset that it wasn't enough like the end of season 1.

From my perspective, Sauron made it clear that "not all of it" was an illusion, and he wanted to place a crown on her head and make the world worship her. And honestly, the scene where Sauron turns into Halbrand and Galadriel instantly drops her battle stance made me cry. Especially with Halbrand's theme in the background... curse you, Bear McCreary!!! (In a good way, lol). I feel like Halbrand was the closest to pre-evil Mairon we've seen in an adaptation. Definitely more depressed and prickly than Mairon would've been, but I think he was still just as snarky and charming before his corruption by Morgoth. I feel like Galadriel saw Mairon inside of Halbrand (unknowingly) and that's who she developed feelings for. For me, Halbrand's theme is Mairon's theme before he went to the dark side. So from my perceptive, it was really emotional to see what he could've been and what the two of them could've had.

Ironically, Sauron was trying to show her exactly that; what they could've had. But what he doesn't understand is what Galadriel truly wanted was his light self all along. It reminds me of the scene in TROS between Rey and Kylo Ren/Ben Solo when he asks her why she didn't take his hand when she wanted to. She says she wanted to take Ben's hand, not Kylo's. Galadriel wanted to take Halbrand/Pre-Darkness Mairon's hand, not Sauron's.

However, that doesn't mean that she isn't drawn to Sauron in all his dark glory at all. She was absolutely tempted to become his evil queen at the end of season 1. I just think what she ultimately wanted was his light, even when she's drawn to his darkness. I don't know if that makes any sense, but it does to me!

The "heal yourself" line was something I loved, though it looks like most people weren't as fond of it as I am. I love the idea that for Sauron to truly be able to achieve his goal of healing the world, he has to heal himself first. He literally can't heal the world until he himself is healed, he isn't capable of it. All he has in his soul to draw from right now is poison, so that's all he can give the world. I've seen a theory floating around about Sauron one day being redeemed during Dagor Dagorath and helping the good guys defeat Morgoth, and I'm obsessed with it! Helping them fight his old master could help him find the light again and become Mairon the Admirable once more. Only then could he truly heal Middle Earth.

[mrsnancywheeler]

im so hyperfixated on your billy dunne fics rn, and i cant stop thinking of him getting back from rehab. and reader is just like "wtf why is he being so normal and acting like he didnt make my life hell for so long". and eventually she asks him how come i didnt get this billy years ago. and she just starts sobbing and doing that punching thing on his chest, idk how to describe just throwing a tantrum i guess. and then billy just grabs her and lets her sob into his chest. he finally starts realizing how much he hurt you over the years, and then i feel like he would show his muse how much he loves her later (smut while he is praising her, only focusing on her pleasure) idk sam claflin is making me go feral today

-🦋

billy dunne brain rot is so real, I need him biblically

but you're used to periods of grace before breakdowns so for the first few months it's good, but then it keeps going. he's not perfect, like he'll still have moods, be tempted by things he knows he can't have, but he abstains, and always apologizes now. so it's odd, you start to feel like you're walking on eggshells so eventually something has got to give, right? so you're getting quieter, scared she'll say something that'll set him off, he'll be a few minutes off from when he said he'd be home and you're getting nervous, asking where he was. one morning you're being all quiet again, serving him breakfast, just a small "good morning"

and he's pulling you into his lap, "what's going on, baby?"

"nothing" and when he's in a mood anything can be the trigger, saying that could've set him off on how nothing's enough for you, opening up could've meant that it was a rant about how it's so much worse for him, but apparently not.

"yes there is." he sneaking a small kiss in, "'m worried about you, tell me what's going on in that head of yours." and she's quiet so eventually he's just sighing, hands playing in the ends of your hair. "what can I do? we can go back to bed if you want? go hit the beach later." and suddenly you're sobbing and he's so confused, but trying to be comforting.

"why are you being like this?"

"being like what, baby?"

"you're being different, stop it!" it feels like you can't breathe, not having the cycle is weird, overwhelming

and he's trying to press if forhead to yours, "I'm getting better, baby, getting better for you, for me, for both of us. it's good, what you deserve-"

you're up off of his lap, "did I not deserve it then? why are you changing now? just be angry!" as calmly as he can he's standing, trying to hold you, to calm you down, but he feels like he could cry because now he can clearly see what he's done to you.

"you did deserve it then, baby, you always deserved so much better, and I am so sorry. the shit I pulled really messed you up, but we're gonna get healthier. you didn't deserve for me to always be mad at you, I'm sorry I confused you." he can feel his eyes burning because it's a lot to confess and he hates it, but you need to hear it.

you just stare for a moment before shaking your head, "no, stop it, billy, just be angry." when he doesn't react you're trying to hit his chest, which takes his off guard but does nothing so after a beat you keep going. "you're angry with me, be angry! I'm disappointing and should leave, be angry! I'm being clingy and intense, I know you're mad at me, be mad!" and eventually he's got his arms wrapped around you so you can't hit and you're just sobbing into his chest as he holds you.

"c'mon baby, just let it all out." eventually he just lifts you up to take you back to bed and lays there cuddling with you until you've completely calmed down.

yes, and later there's totally him between your legs for hours and different apologies for things he's done. reminding her that he really does love her, she's the one no one else, his girl, irreplaceable, loveable.

he's my man and I'm in love with him

[djljpanda]

Heyy could you read about fem!reader and Wednesday like reader is like bimbo meaning that she is girly and dumb sometimes!! Or where she and Wednesday are together but they are completely opposite of each other 

Awe I Love This Couple Dynamic.

Who would have thought that the "dumb" pretty girl was dating Wednesday, Wednesday couldn't believe it either.

To many you are just another pretty face but Wednesday had seen past that. Many have thought you were dumb and just waiting for you just to get married to a wealthy man and have a easy life.

But one day Wednesday saw you crying in the library. Now Wednesday just sees crying as something stupid and would just leave, but unknown to Wednesday from getting to know you because of Enid she had wanted to become more closer to you.

She walked up to making you jump when you notice her as you whipped away your tears. After some talking between the two of you Wednesday had learned that you had heard what many students think and say about you.

"Many look down on me all because I didn't know what the stupid answer was. But I was never really good with that subject anyways, maybe I am dumb".

Wednesday didn't like seeing you talk bad about yourself like this and surprisingly she had asked if you wanted her to help you. You were surprised but you had always thought of Wednesday as a talented, smart girl so you said yes.

And that was just the start of your relationship. From afar you two are totally different, you wear bright colors as she wears dark colors, you are loud and talkative while she just sits there and listens.

There are times where you are an airhead and she knows how you can be pretty dumb at times but that just makes her love you more.

You are so adorable to her you even convince her to paint her nails, but you were mad she choose black instead of a pastel purple.

When it comes you both of you wardrobe you both are so different it's just hard to comprehend that you two were dating. As you would walk around in a nice bright colored outfit that shows off yourself while Wednesday would be right behind you. As she knows the type of clothes you wear and she doesn't really care but she is always near to make sure that no one comments on your outfits.

When studying together you would space out, that is how you even fallen for Wednesday as you just started into her eyes getting lost in them. But Wednesday is patient with you as you would ask her questions and she didn't mind telling you as she can tell you are trying your hardest.

But on a final note Enid and the rest call Wednesday a Moronsexual, why call her that well...

Y/n: *Trying to open a door by pulling it, almost breaking it* I think it's broken

Wednesday: Mi Amour I think you push it says it right there *Wednesday pointed at the Push words on the door*

Y/n: :0 Oh

Wednesday: :) *For once in a blue moon she smiles

The Gang: WTF

[kkatastrophic]

DRV3 CHP5 DEADLY LIFE NOTES:

Yo spoilers are ahead watch out, play the full game and THENNN come back to my blog! ;D

Tenmiko for the soul while you scroll :)

Okay, the people who haven't played should be gone by now, awesome!!! :D

--- WHO DIED?!

WHO IS IT, KOKICHI OR KAITO?!?!?!??! HELP??? IS IT JUNKO AGAIN? DOES SHE GO "Yo bitches and bitchess-es I'm back for the THIRD time, recognise that death scene? Yeah that was me hos, I'm back!"

That'd be hilarious tbh.

(Little did I know that after the chapter finished there would be a cutscene with Junko Enoshima)

--- The Courtroom...

So you guys know how much I hate THH right...? They themed the trial ground as the THH one...

I'm gonna cry I DESPISE THH AUGHHHH

--- Oh!

what the hell why is there an exisal with kaito and kokichi here?!

Wait so Kaito is dead?

Wtf is going on guys help-

"OHHH MAN! I totally dug my own grave again! I give up." <- Shortest trial in Danganronpa history.

Tbh all this dialouge is very... UN-Kokichi like...

Why is the exisal bipolar

"Now, Maki-Roll, don't you believe me?" <- IF IT'S KOKICHI OH MY GOD-

The low quality THH background is pissing me off, I want the V3 one back-

--- PSYCHE TAXI RAHRAHAAA:

Me when Psyche Taxi:

AJAJASNDJWQDHUKEJNSC I LOVEEEE PSYCHE TAXIIIIIII!!! It's so fun and silly!!!

--- They think they're THE SURVIVORS:

How the cast of V3 feel after saying "Hope!" "Despair!" "Battle" "Remnant" or "Junko Enoshima!"

--- BAWLING:

"Don't worry about me Maki Roll... just... run... run... and live! You gotta live!" We be bawling.

--- Me being dumb:

How I feel choosing "blood-tipped arrows" as an answer to the question of: "If Kaito's cause of death wasn't the arrows, what could it have been?":

Himiko losing her shit that Kokichi isn't the Mastermind is so funny to me.

BUT this further proves my theory... of... Tsumugi Shirogane. It's her.

It's so weird talking about Miu, she only died last chapter... she's still relevant which is great, but I'm not used to talking about her in past-tense like that yet.

--- ANGSTYYY:

Okay I got distracted and forgot to type stuff...

AUGH THE ANGST, KAITO WANTS THEM TO KEEP SMILING NO THIS IS SO SAD 2RU3RQRFKDJLWEMFRHU9J *crying*

And like... EUGHHHHHH KOKICHI DIED TOO!

:,)

--- Afterward:

I'm up to CHP6 now and I'm confused, there was no "daily life" so I can't finish my ftes with smoogs and unlock my skill >:(

My Kaimaki soul is hurting...

[puppypeter]

(Roy's parents anon again!! Loved your response, as per usual 💕💕)

What I found really intriguing about the potential dynamic of Roy and his parents come from three main factors:

1) Obviously, his closeness with his grandad. Already sets up an interesting family dynamic, and given it was never fully expanded on, there is LOTS of ways to explore this. Did Roy's grandad move in with them because he was sick? Was it actually ROYS parents who had to move in with his grandad because they were struggling financially (he did live in a council estate)? How would this subversion of the usual nuclear family dynamic impact Roy's childhood?

2) the fact that he is obviously close with his sister, despite the real likelihood of not growing up with her in the traditional sense because of his time at Sunderland, but NEITHER of them seem to reference their parents. This more than anything is what got me initially intrigued, because that sort of sibling relationship when you're sort of united against your parents speaks to a more combative or at least contentious relationship. (I also loved how you mentioned his relationship with Phoebe -- there's an interesting angle there that Roy's attentiveness to Phoebe's needs, not just material but ESPECIALLY emotional, could be a means of Roy healing his inner child. I TOTALLY agree that Roy came from a, while not outright abusive, but DEFINITELY emotionally neglectful household).

3) Roy's reaction to Jamie's close relationship to his mom. Now, I know the Watsonian reason was because the show was sort of amping up the whole 'mommys boy' thing and Roy's clear shock and fascination was just meant to exacerbate the joke, but MY reason is deeper than that!!! Because I think it implies that Roy cannot even fathom that type of physical/emotional closeness with his own parents, especially as an adult -- and isn't there a lot to unpack there!!!

I really think there's so much potential here, particularly when it comes to navigating the grey area of "how can I emotionally connect with my parents as an adult when I didn't really grow up with them and they are practically strangers to me?" Especially if your parents weren't outright abusive, AND worked very very hard to provide for your material needs (but neglected your emotional ones), so you have to grapple with the guilt of feeling OBLIGATED to have a relationship with them, while simultaneously feeling resentful of this obligation BECAUSE of your lack of intimacy with them.

Thanks for indulging me, I know this is a sort of niche character interest, particularly because it relies so much on speculation, but your engagement is super encouraging and fun!! ✨✨✨✨

super late on this one too sorry!!! gonna put it all under the cut

I do like the idea that maybe grandpa was sick and just trying to protect him from seeing him like that (you know how i say dog!roy would be a german shepherd and i can confirm they do that too! they hide away from the owners to not let them see them pass in case you fancied a cry!). But the one less mouth to feed/money coming in also very much suits their situation.

There's definitely loads to explore on how his relationship with his sister is so close despite being apart growing up. So many ways it could've gone, whether they got in touch more when he was at Chelsea or later after she got pregnant and had to deal with her shitty husband. Also all depends on how old we think they are! He doesn't mention a baby sister when talking about going to Sunderland so are we assuming she is at least 10 years younger? I absolutely love his relationship with Phoebe and especially how honest and open and vulnerable he is with her - perhaps it's exposing, sure, but not as much as with adults? or maybe he knows she is candid and honest right back and will tell him the truth? I literally was rewatching and made a post about them just the other day > here

Honestly as a roy-shaped-girlie I also took the Georgie&Jamie scene as a wtf you hug your mum like that? with a hint of jealousy. Cause I didn't grow up with physical affection (maybe besides when I was very little) but I don't really cuddle or hug with my parents? So I was also weirded out (not in a puritan way some people were, more in a I wasn't really exposed to this level of intimacy ever). Your added point legit sounds like what I expect my therapist to say to me this week lmao Like I like them because they are my parents but we're not really close? I imagine they obviously know what Roy does etc (especially his dad) and they might talk about "work" but it's like they don't talk about it to listen? The obligation kind of comes full circle back to Jamie being in a somewhat similar position of "I know my dad is a dick but he's my dad"

[the-space-jesus]

♪ Rehearsal 7 ♪

Oh jeez oh boy this is a long one. BUCKLE UP!

So, since this Tuesday we had a free day (this is literally as rare as an eclipse happening we never get random free days) our theatre group decided that we should do the most productive thing of all with that free day: rehearse! (Instead of practicing for the test that I have literally the next day...). So, I'm that one person of the group that lives an hour away from everyone else, and I decided that for once they should be the ones to have to bike for like 45 minutes or sit in a tram for an hour! It's also because I found this really cool amfitheater-like spot near my tram-station, and I figured it'd be the perfect place to rehearse!

I brought my totally neurotypical bag (from the 'if you see some1 w this bag wyd' post) and went in what I currently already have for my Ricky costume!

When I arrived at the tram-station, Ocean was already there (very in-character of her) and we chatted until the rest arrived too, and we went to the spot to practice. We basically did a bunch of random scenes, but for the most part it was a walkthrough of the entire musical (is that the correct English word btw??), but we didn't get very far...

By the rest, I mean Karnak 1. We were a small group, being only me (Ricky), Mischa, Karnak 1, and Ocean.

When we were rehearsing Fall Fair Suite, this random child and it's mother just decided to spawn out of nowhere and feed the ducks whilst we were rehearsing, it was so awkwardd.

At some point we decided to go to my house because why not?? But we got distracted by the playground right behind the amfitheater-space...I tried to stay in-character but the playground isn't very fun when you can't walk correctly...also we toooootally didn't jokingly try pole-dancing on one of those fireman-poles and fall to our certain deaths, and by we I mean Mischa (and I'm pretty sure Ocean tried it too at some point).

why did I just randomly get a HIT of rehearsal 1 nostalgia wtf

Anyways, after the playground (it sounds like we're all like 7 years old or some shit XD) we continued walking to my house and I discovered that Karnak 1 knows THE NEIGHBORHOOD THAT I LIVE IN better than me. So yay.

Don't ask me why, but like 70% of the time that we spent walking I had put on the Nyan Cat Theme. It was just funny idfk we probably looked like crazy people smh. Also, we were in-character at some point whilst walking and basically what happened was that we were all already at the point in the time-line where we're dead, and Ricky annoys everyone by playing Nyan Cat on loop. How he can play it with no wifi? He downloaded it. It is the only song he has every downloaded. The St. Cassian Chamber Choir will forever be hearing the Nyan Cat Theme.

Anywayzeee, then we got to my house and ate some cheese sticks (it's a Dutch thing and is NOT as disgusting as it sounds, I <3 cheese sticks!!) with some orange juice and for some reason we were all really calm and down to earth (probably just tired from rehearsal). We js talked about plans for RTC and (other) stuff.

My dog REALLY liked our new guests, also yes I have a dog she's the sweetest little DEMON named Pixel. She literally jumped on everyone and could not stop sniffing them and begging them for cheese sticks. I had to teach my friends how to say "DOWN!" in Bulgarian (Доло), because that's one of the few commands that she listens to.

Then, we decided to continue rehearsing because why not! When Mischa was performing Talia, my dog was very intrigued and worried, and she started barking REALLY loudly when Mischa started (fake-)crying at the end of the song. Apparently his performance was so good that my dog believed it haha.

Before that I also had to practice my monologue and little thingy after SABM and it was kind of chaotic and I didn't do very well because for me to do a scene properly I have to be in the mood and also rehearse in front of the mirror like 40 times...

I also gave them a room tour!! Mischa had a lot of appreciation for my RTC wall (which has grown btw, I will make another post about it soon!).

That was all!!^^

-Ricky Potts🖖

[mandalhoerian]

bruh my comment was too long to post under the new chapter so i’m sending an ask. saw the ao3 notif and scheduled to read it this fine evening, good thing i was like “lemme scroll on tumblr and see what’s up” because SJFKDJLXBZB the face i made when i saw i was tagged and followed BY YOU? also ma’am 🤚🏻wdym nobody comments like i do. like what do you mean. i have a concerning relationship with receiving praise so i advise you to stfu (affectionately).

my poor girl vera can’t catch a break, loss after loss after loss in such a short period. i just want to give her lots and lots of hugs (consensually). on another note i love that she clocked ada’s intentions right away bc capcom wtf is that writing. one person taking down a whole organization is like sending only one person to save president’s kidnapped daughter (laugh track). let me tell you i have been waiting for this 🤌🏻 vera and ada interacting 🤌🏻 leon being there all charming and naive and trusting people easily 🤌🏻 shai you just get the dynamics of all the characters *so right* 🤌🏻

sorry for the excessive amount of parentheses and emojis let me just find another obnoxiously annoying emoji to spam about the intimacy between leon and vera. 🤧 it’s this one but i’m wiping my snot away from crying about it. the small touches between the two are so tender in this fucked up world 🤧 vera’s hand on his forearm… leon collecting her in his arms, comforting her 🤧 his arm on her shoulder 🤧 i could cry and get a headache from thinking about them. i’m so serious.

(gnawing at the bars of my enclosure) JILL VALENTINE MENTION???? VERA KNOWS HER? WHAT IS THE LORE? I NEED TO KNOW.

how does one end a delirious comment. uhhh. so yeah. i love nttd and vera so much and i’m so happy that it’s back babyyyy.

Ofc I followed!!!! I don't remember why I didn't in the first place like but like ???? ur making it sound like I'm some big shot but like pls im a loser who's writing oc fanfiction on the internet and is so lucky and grateful to get people invested in it!!!!! AND YES nobody comments like you do! You're the dream of a fanfiction author ON GOD. THANK YOU SO MUCH

ramble below to keep your dashboards clean:

I think we talked about this over on ao3 but honestly re2r's ada just doesn't make sense to me. The FBI cover is logical (when you first think about it), but the way she's immediately pulling a gun on Annette the minute they see her and DECLARING her intentions isn't. She then proceeds to reveal her target is Annette, and then her going with the FBI thing becomes less logical, bc why would Annette hand over the G-Virus sample to the feds, either? It's entirely a shock factor thing revolved around Leon, she's only fooling him -- or maybe, she's fooled Ben like this, too, and was forced to stick to her cover when shit went down, we don't know 😭 why did they do my girl ada like that... (ngl re4r ada supremacy. period.)

But either way, un-truths she would throw as a bone to a "civilian" like Leon would of course be caught by Vera, nugget by nugget, while still making her think "mayhaps the FBI is misinformed????" -- I didn't want to ruin that fine line by Ada going on about Annette making the virus and her being the most dangerous of all "g-virus g-virus g-virus" or whatever because 1) WHY WOULD A SPY DO THAT???? 2) it would surely make Vera go "yeah NOPE" 💀💀

it's so much fun for them to try sussing each other out, Light and L mind games over there while Leon is happily frolicking. not one thought behind those eyes 😭

ALSO LIKE YES THE TOUCHES!!!!!! It's Leon initiating all of them for me 👹👹👹 physical touch taking over when words can't. my favorite thing of all UGGHHHHHHHH THANK YOU FOR JOINING ME IN MY MISERY

ALSO totally not going "actually 🤓☝" as I'm saying this because it's been HALF A WHOLE YEAR + the fic is over 100K words -- Vera knows Jill from post!mansion incident - pre!outbreak, in that ephemeral "investigation" phase of Jill's. I do mention it in the fic that Vera supplies information to Jill (as around that time she's trying to get rid of the weight of all she knows and trying to pass on the "hero's job" to someone else) and they exchange their findings while trying to be careful not to get caught by ppl Umbrella put on Jill's tail. I think I wrote it in passing that Vera was disguised as a secretary and sat back-to-back with Jill on a booth in one of those occasions? She's loosely connected to re3r by having a brief appearance in carlos' police station section in my head, entrusting Jill to him and all and promising to meet up with them in the station once she talks to her dad about it ☹

"delirious comment" WDYM ITS MY LIFEBLOOD THANK YOU 😭

[longeyelashedtragedy]

lampard life update

just got the sweetest message from a Very Experienced Social worker i worked with. censoring things that identify the specific place i worked, and my name bc i fucking HATE my name and would rather pretend it didn't exist:

basically this is the kind of feedback i've been getting for the past almost 24 hours--my phone's been blowing up between coworkers and people who work for the City Government (TM). i talked shit on the phone with said Dana this morning (who is...amazing and this very passionate jewish lady who totally plays into my Mommy Issues and she wants to meet me for coffee) and she said she'd act as a reference and gave me some interesting job tips. mind you, i've only known these people since october.

-as i said to protect daniel james i've applied to more jobs in the past 12 hours than frank lampard has applied to in the past 7 months! people are like "you should rest and relax" and like yeah, but i'm not young enough to be on my parents' health insurance anymore and as marieke said, being unemployed in america is scary. being close to broke in nyc is terrifying! i'm stressed as fuck but also never have to enter that trauma pit with the Evil Boss again?

-i was crying last night not even because of me but because of thinking of all the people i work with and support who i didn't get to say goodbye to and i don't know what they will do without my support cause i have no idea who tf will replace me. and whoever does, isn't going to know the context of how to help these people. i literally called some people of my own volition today--i still have access to the city databases that i use--and will have some more calls monday. i cared. i fucking loved my job in terms of the actual duties and responsibilities, and i was GOOD at it when i wasn't being traumatized by, as my New Job Work Bestie said on the phone last night, "a stupid evil cunt." if the shoe fits lol. like literally there are people whose timesheets i sign on fridays and i have no idea who the fuck else can sign them and how will they get paid!!!!! i was frantically texting them at like 11 last night because fuck! that's not fucking right if people don't get paid bc of this evil woman!

-people are advising me to lawyer up and lawyer parents are looking into it. they messed with the wrong bitch! the reason why i am possibly pursuing this is because at the time of my termination~ i had already opened the process of an ADA (americans with disabilities act) accommodation request, feat. a letter from my psychiatrist discussing my PTSD, which is not like. A fun thing to discuss multiple times with multiple people at work, and yet i did. Because i wanted to try to make it work, and all i fucking asked for was to be moved to another job location. My job has around 50 locations. In no universe is that a difficult request, plus, i was asking for a like secondary thing instead which was--fucking staff the vacant position at my job so i was no longer one person doing a two person job.and WEIRDLY, on wednesday i was just told that i WAS getting another person--on monday! she's someone i vaguely know, and we had an amazing zoom talk yesterday afternoon--so like. wtf? the famous dana (see above) said that at the least we could bully them into a better severance package if they were afraid i would sue. The place i worked at is Very Behated in new york and the media thrives on the place getting negative attention.

-another option that occured to me is that i was fired by Evil Boss because she thought i was going to rat her out about things she is doing that are unethical and probably illegal. (i know this sounds dramatic but i won't go into job details in public for various reasons--i already revealed too much in the screenshot!) i was not going to do that, but also i wasn't DEFENDING her and saying what she was doing was okay, and that came to her attention yesterday and she went the fuck off on me. she told me i had to tell the famous dana NOT to inform people that their rights were being violated, and i'm like---I cannot tell someone what to say and not to say, and that would be a REALLY SHADY THING TO SAY? so this bitch probably got spooked. Who even knows what happened but this is clearly one of the most unjust sackings in history 😂 maybe they will hire mourinho to take over my position

-how did i make such a positive impact on 7914433 people while having the most horrific trauma episode since before i started taking meds? damn. i guess i put my whole longeyelashedtragedussy into making connections and truly enjoying them

[sophism84]

To anyone who says someone who makes under 360,000 a year doesn’t work hard enough.

Since January 1st-dec19th of this year I have made my job $969,415. I worked 1820 hours, that computes to $532 and some change an hour I worked. What do I get paid an hour you ask? Under $20. What was my Christmas bonus? $350. The second highest earner for the job? $735,435, his hourly wage? Over $20. His Christmas bonus? Idk.

I did take 8 days off this year. If I didn’t I would be over 1000000.

What would Elon tell me? “Ask for a raise”

Well when I asked for them just to treat me w respect they said said I was so unstable they found it hard to talk to me and I had a “book of mistakes” they were both men. When I went to talk to the women who these men spoke of. Both of them didn’t know what I was talking about. They said they never said that also this “unstable” was “well you do make faces”

Wtf so me making a face means I’m unstable? Funny how this unstable person handles so much around the office w so little customer complaints? Shocking! Also because she makes so little at your office she gets up at 2:45 am at a totally different job lol which pays over $20 and works till she gets to your job. So by noon when she’s falling asleep at her desk and you’re yelling at her? Lol bro.

My life is a god damn joke. What should I do? Work for bezos? I hear they pee in bottles. Lol Jesus fucking Christ

If you see me crying/ yelling/ singing in my car. Yes I’m unstable. So just look away. I’m earning someone a life I can’t afford with my talent and they just call me crazy.

Yeah I’d have to live in an alternate reality too if Ihad to look me in the eye too.

It’s okay. Go play golf. And I’ll just pay more taxes than you. Lol

But you’re right, I’m just a lazy American who doesn’t try enough?

No I’m not willing to makes the choices you did and do to have that life. And what’s so god damn funny is I don’t even try when I’m there. Half the time I’m thinking about something totally unrelated to what I’m doing, or I’m high I could do this shit in my sleep. But I’m literally the reason your business did so fucking well this year. Isn’t that insane? You’d think they would’ve fire me by now but they haven’t and we’ve fired two other people. But like I do a good job.

But a job reference? If I quit? Probably would be “too unstable” but somehow managed to be an office favorite and make us the most money? Wtf is this bullshit somehow “gets along w everyone in the office” but then is “so mentally unstable” fuck gaslighting is part of the job! Lol omfg

You’re not doing enough lol brokey lol

But as we all walk into this billionaires rule the world. These monsters were only created because they were willing the make the ruthless decisions not because they are great humans.

Man. But they’re the successful ones. Such earthly things. I know. When so much more is going on that no one knows.

[asoulofatlantis]

It makes you wonder if this picture was supposed to tell us something as early as before even starting the Calvard-Saga. (I totally forgot by the way how beautiful the music was that played on the title screen...)

[On a totally unrelated note I pushed all the settings to a maximum and thus testing the might of my supposedly High End CPU. Lets see how it does. I do remember that the PS4 struggled a bit with the game at times. So let's see the might of a 6000€ Gaming-PC! (I am sure you are not wondering anymore where my financial troubles come from at this point, huh? XD)]

Lets go, go, go!

Its really nice how the Introduction starts with showing the different cultures in Calvard and of course that godforsaken Tower - not to self, trust your guts when a tower in a Trails-Game makes you feel like there must be something abnormal behind it! - as well as the fact that there are are dark things happening underground. It give you a clear first impression on Calvard.

[The loading time is awful at the moment and the animation of the mouthes is slightly lagging compared to the voice-acting. Not sure if it has anything to do with my settings tho...]

Yumes, huh? I guess it is the best they could do, as he often calls her Yumebo or something like that. I am not sure about any of the voices just yet, given that I come straight from Kais Japanese voices, but I guess so far they are all acceptable.

I take it back! Yumes voice does not sound cute enough! Also... a bit too old if you ask me.

I actually totally take it back Paulettes voice doesn't sound kind enough at all. In fact, she sounds like Bulma from Dragonball. I do like Bulma but... if you know her, you get what I mean.

ALSO they literally pronounce Van like the freaking car. WTF?!

Everyone should know by now that I was not happy about the voice they choose for Agnes from the very start. I feel like it should sound more quite if you get me. Its a too high pitched noise for such a calm, gentle and mature character.

(BTW... Agnes... my girl...)

I should have been aware how much that scene would hurt... but I was not prepared... and now I have the awful feeling like I am right before I start crying again XD And she hasn't even knocked yet ^^'

Funny how much the beginning of a game can suddenly hurt XD

I feel like I will not like ANY of the ways they pronounce the names this time. Not sure what there problem was here, they did to a fine job with the Cold Steel names. (I am pretty sure I will keep pronouncing the names they I am used to from the Japanese version tho.

I clearly remember my reaction when I fist played that game with the Spreadsheet. I was like ´"HE DID NOT JUST SAY THAT!" I mean it was literally telling a schoolgirl she has a nice grown up feminine body... from the guy who doesn't want to date her because she is a schoolgirl XD

(Sorry about the tex beeing half cutoff. The Window-size is a bit of an issue, but I do not really want to make it smaller...)

Well if she doesn't she will learn it the hard way soon ^^'

Funny, because in Kai it seems like everyone and there mother got one XD

You say that, but you were searching for a missing cat in Kai - yes, it was with an Enforcer, which makes it a bit special and all... but it is still the kind of request the guilds "suckers" would take. (I am very glad that I am way past the time were I was a sucker for those suckers and would have felt totally offended by this commend XD)

What I always liked about Van is the fact that he isn't the kind of "does dark and shady work" - guy who drinks beer and smokes cigarettes in a daily basis, but instead, he is absolutely addicted to sweets, which makes it totally cute XD

Suuuuure... tell yourself that Van XD

He says that, but I've been the Guild for a while and I am pretty sure they would have charged way more for this. We do get like 1000 Mira just for a missing cat - not to say that that is an easy mission but compared to what they have to go through it actually IS a lot easier - and I think that is also what he ends up charging Agnes in the end.

Japanese games are very evil for including those Kids in games. It remind me of Nanako in Persona 4. You can not not love them, especially if they have a close bond to your protagonist. So its like this Meme "I might only know her for a day but if something happens to her I first kill you and then myself!" XD I would not kill myself but don't you dare hurt her or you get to know Van AND me!

Will probably make a good father one day - not that any of our MCs will ever reach that point ^^'

Its so weird, isn't it? This guy is dying in the same chapter he got introduced to us and yet for some reason Falcom found it funny to bring him back in Kai. I guess it was just for laughs as he isn't really a threat or anything, but it's still weird...

I am pretty sure he was impressed by that and her attitude. She looked like a spoiled little schoolgirl to him at first that would hide behind him if things get dangerous, but instead she showed him she was willing to put in some work and face some danger for what she wants. I think she left a good impression at the end of the day.

[unmotivated-student]

Now, liveblogging something that I do like :) [I decided to throw everything in a single post just because:)]

"you are here to play a game on which your lives depend" getting serious and we're just getting started ʘ⁠‿⁠ʘ

"what did you do to us?!" "nothing in particular" "then what is this pain?!" "I was very clear... in this game your lives are on the line" i kinda love Decim (⁠ ⁠ꈍ⁠ᴗ⁠ꈍ⁠)

"Sorry! My hand slipped!" [👁️👁️liar]

I had forgotten how dramatic this episode was [i kinda love it tbh]

.....

"of all the emotions that humans exhibit, which is the most primal?" "i don't know" "fear"

"pain is a part of this game"

"everyone makes mistakes. but people's feelings can manifest through the most subtle of expresions. you're an arbiter, don't brush them off"

....

i remember about this episode :D

🧍

"and so it starts.." "how so? what does that mean?" "nothing" (...) "as such, the two of them may not be facing a favorable outcome." "no way..." "however, whatever the outcome may be, we must accept what happens"

Decim my beloved showing his sense of humor🫂

"Life really is a mysterious thing... Each and every life spins its own totally separate tale, yet they become intricately entwined in each other and no one knows how they will end up" "that´s true, you´ll never know until you die... you may not even know after you die... but you know what? that´s what makes it interesting, right?"

I honestly don't know how to feel about this one, because if we ignore some details it could be considered cute, at least the ending imo but idk

....

Lady... what kind of tv shows are u watching? [I know she's confused and in denial but still]

"How is that fair?!" "Life is never fair. I´m sure you´re aware of that" Decim triggering trauma ◉⁠‿⁠◉

i didn´t remebered this episode at all and now i'm like o.o

this is the saddest one so far to me. am i weak? maybe

"You did everything you could... both of you... did everything you could." okay, now i'm crying...

why did i forget about this one?

edgy ed

...

i'm starting to realize that from ep 4 onwards my memories about this show are a blur (i´ll take that as a good thing)

yep, definitely a good thing that i didn´t remembered all of that, it made me go "wtf's going on here?" all over again c:

dude, do you really want to do that?

see? u got ur ass kicked and for what?

that makes sense i guess

oh we´re on Jimmy again

.....

wait, i do have memories about this one (not many but)

Ginti looks so done and the game hasn´t even started

mmm... if only you knew..

show off

no. what part of freezing to death is romantic to u? at least in titanic there was a love story before the freezing to death part

show off

u piece of trash

so this guy has feelings after all

such different ways to go

Claviz looks so excited about this xd

Oh wow, I was i hater during most of this xd

...

She remembered!!

Maybe he's not there much, buut i kinda like Claviz, he's just a little guy 🫂

"third: arbiters cannot feel emotions, for they are merely puppets" neat...

edgy ed makes more sense now

how are u still here?

...

"not that different" huh?

oh, it's over and i didn't write anything about this one... uhm... well... it was good...

...

"I bring out as much of the darkness in their souls as possible and take it in, then i pass judgment... that is what it is to be an arbiter" damn

oh now they're serious

PLOT TWIST

sir, u are disgusting

fuck, this guy is insane!

i hate this guy

nufofnhdiewwwwww *dies*

SHUT UP ALREADY

wowuwhihweeirundu *dies again*

this one was heavy...

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i-.. i don´t have much to say

...

he's just messing with her, isn´t he? [I genuinely don't remember]

this scene is making my skin crawl afsydrs

i'm trembling idk how i survived this the first time

definitely one of my favorites

...

Decim... no... that... no...

cryiiiiiing agian

Deciiiiiim

THE MANNEQUIN, THE SMILE ಥ⁠‿⁠ಥ

it's 3 am btw i should be sleeping rn but instead i'm here sobbing

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I love this anime so much ♡

I definitely recommend it!!! [If you are comfortable with the mention of themes like death of course:D, i mean it's called "Death Parade" xd]