#how I feel

[mrdogshit]

Control what you can control. The rest will take care of itself

[secretcherimaybe]

[rahulshikha11]

[1five1two]

[socialbutterfly19]

How I’m taking on the day

[pure-mee]

How I feel on a daily basis

[lilrebelkat69]

[reality-detective]

The best I could do, was ‘pretend’…

There are times in life, when the sum of all the moving parts simply feels overwhelming. When it rains it pours, like they say! Last week I really needed to take a break and dry myself from the downpour of hurdles I’m currently having to deal with.

It was just a ‘time-out’, a simple halt in the game, a brief chance to regroup, rehydrate and gather strength. I needed to disconnect.

So for 48hrs I took the chance to ‘pretend’ everything, everywhere, was OK.

I decided to go Christmas shopping and mingle with the seemingly carefree NPCs of my perceived reality. The streets were busy with people going places, important places, judging by their determined walk and look in their faces. It made me feel very lucky that on that one day, I had nowhere specific to go or anything specific to do. Ou la lah! La liberté!

It struck me then, that perhaps, all I was doing was pretending to be an NPC myself; present but not active, walking but not going, talking but not saying, being but not feeling, living but not alive…

My NPC-self managed to buy a few things and even greet a few people without engaging in anything meaningful. Thus far, I was nailing it! My numb performance was deserving of an Oscar! I was totally getting the hang of it; blinders on, mind switched off, empathy on standby, ego on the steering wheel and heart reduced to a pump. Got it! C’mon Laura, you can do it!

Except I couldn’t…

The pretending only lasted a few more hours. Argh! Who was I kidding?! There’s no switching off from this transformative process we are on, no getting off of this ride, no stop button, no mute option!

There’s instead a need to connect, to know, to see, to be, to grow, to learn, to discover and to witness the world as it goes through the most fascinating evolutionary process it’s ever been through! How on earth can you be an NPC at this time?! It’s impossible! Unless you really are one… 🤔 (some people totally fit the role!)

I simply was not born to pretend not to care, on the contrary, I give all the hoots in the world about everything that’s going on! And it’s exhausting and draining and painful and disturbing and frustrating and exasperating! But it’s also exciting and fascinating and more than anything, it’s the reason we chose to be here right now, so I don’t want to miss a thing! And I know that you don’t either.

We are the opposite of NPCs, we were born to be noticed and heard and hated or loved, but above all, felt, because we care! And that, my friends, is what makes it impossible to ‘pretend’.

Oh well, I never wanted an Oscar anyway! Being our authentic tin-hat-wearing selves, is far more rewarding than fitting into a numb society of hypnotised NPCs.

So here I am, back on the trenches of the truth-seeking, dragon-slaying, justice-crusading army that we are!

It feels good to be back home after 48hrs of unsuccessful ‘pretending’. 🤔

- Laura Aboli

[noname-404s-blog]

[blabbershere]

[azhar456]

I give a lot of love to people and all I get is hurt, not saying I do it to get something in return, I never expected anything from anyone anyway, I guess I give it to the wrong people or perhaps no one deserves my love.

either way

I just feel too much

[iwntlvforever]

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[dailydungeondelves]

I can do this!!!

[foxgoddess345]

Today was well

[albertweskersplaything]

"Such a wet cunt for me. All dripping wet, just for me and only me. begging to be filled with my seed. what a good girl." he whispered in your ear, dragging the tip of his cock along with your swollen pussy, teasing you with that smug smirk.

"Don't worry, you'll get your reward soon baby." he said in a low growl, before biting down on your bottom lip hard enough to draw blood, but not too deep or long enough to really hurt you - just enough to make you gasp. You felt your body heat up at the thought of being fucked like this by the big bad wolf of your dreams. He was so hot. And you were so horny.

You couldn’t stop thinking about him, how good it had felt when he had buried his fingers inside you. How good it still felt when his dick slipped inside your wet pussy. You couldn’t stop dreaming of it. Even now you could feel him moving in and out of you in a slow thrust, his strong hands gripping your hips tight.

"Ah, so fucking wet. So ready for me." you heard him murmur in between breaths as he continued thrusted into you relentlessly. His hands moved faster and faster as he drove himself harder into you, hitting one of those sensitive spots inside you that had you moaning loudly and throwing your head back against his shoulder.

"So fucking sexy," he breathed against your neck, nibbling on your skin gently and licking the marks left behind. "And all mine. My sweet little slut." Your hands flew up and cupped your breasts instinctively, letting out a soft moan when his tongue found a particularly tender spot, sucking on it harshly until you were gasping for air.

“God fuck. Fuck, I can’t….I need to come.” you panted out, pulling his head off from where it had been resting on your shoulder and kissing him frantically, feeling his hand trace circles over your clit until you came undone.

Your moans became louder and louder, your body shaking uncontrollably as you came undone, your orgasm ripping through you like a tidal wave. He pulled away from you, panting heavily, his eyes dark and lustful as he looked down at you, “Fuck, you are so beautiful.” he murmured, leaning down and kissing you softly.

[discodoodles38]

this is so true