#hot chocolate and lots of love

[bailarinasworld-blog]

Was it just me, or did you guys also notice that Laurel talks to Tyler in a very suspicious way? He looks quite uncomfortable when she cups his face. I don't know, she looks like she's...trying to seduce him sometimes? And Tyler's father is an idiot, chasing the wrong people while he has a pedophile torturing his son, and who knows what else 🤮

[franco-barbis-sweetness]

Guys, I was thinking about Franco and his life story and all of the things that probably happened to him when he was growing up and it genuinely just made me. Really sad ?? This dude wouldn't have been a monster if he didn't have to endure all of the things he did. He wasn't born that way, he was created :(

Like, just think about it. He had defects from birth that affected his appearance, which he was born sometime in the 1930's most likely, and I'm sure his appearance cast him out from society automatically. He was even disowned BY his own father for the way he looked.

His father apparently murdered his mother, and he must've had ENOUGH reason to believe it was his father who did it since he talks about it in his game dialogue. He may not have seen the body or anything but this probably caused some early childhood trauma straight off the bat. (The fact he had nobody to love or nuture him or read him bedtime stories makes me WEEP. He had nobody to be kind to him, to cook him breakfast, to tuck him in, to give him any love at all SOBBINGGGG)

His dad was literally the head of the Martino Crime family. So he grew up constantly surrounded by a life of crime. Blood, murder, violence, all while he was sooo young. All of those things are a horrific environment for a child, yet alone him having to watch his own FATHER being the ringleader of it all.

Salvatore was probably an avid and violent drunk, so I'm sure Franco was beat all of the time. He might have been exposed to some sort of SA from his father at some point, considering how absolutely horrid he was ??

Literally the only mother figures Franco had were his father's various lovers and wives. And all they ever did was neglect or humiliate him. Of course his mafia don father wouldn't attract polite or goodhearted women.

Franco probably grew up believing murder was something good, something to be proud of. He took his first life at 12 years old because he thought it was something that would make his father proud of him. With that being said, the only time that poor baby was ever embaced was when he KILLED somebody ????? And of course, because he got praise for murdering a man, he latched onto that bit of affection and positivity he'd never gotten before, and grew up further starting to do the only thing it seemed he was slightly liked for.

Since he started doing jobs for his dad as a debt collector and hitman, I'm sure he developed a complex through all of that, surrounded by his praise for violence and being unwillingly surrounded by it constantly. He became violent because that's what the world shaped him to become. Franco probably grew so used to the familiarity of killing that that's why he lost all meaning for the lives of others. And among the fact he was only ever outcasted in the first place by everybody ? I'm sure he felt some sort of revenge by reaping lives of the world that only ever did him wrong :( He probably viewed everybody as the same cold, heartless people he knew in his upbringing. He might've felt he had some sort of fucked up place in the Mafia, something he never had anywhere else.

He really wasn't ever taught... proper affection ? Innocent or sexual, all he ever knew was his father's behavior towards women, which wasn't good at all. When he snapped and murdered prostitutes, he might have seen it as a fresh start to something he ruined, behavior he may have learned from his father and the murder of his previous lovers. Violence was also VERY much a norm for him at this point in his life.

He was literally abused and humiliated so much he learned to get off on it sexually. The only thing Franco perceived of what sex was, was his erection being smashed painfully into a cold floor. He didn't know soft or gentle caresses. And because of his lack of a mother, he searches for a maternal figure within a sexual partner. Its like his line between a mother and a partner is blurred because those two relationships became one and the same in his mind. Its not that he views HIS actual mother as a sexual thing, I think its similar to like daddy issues ? How women tend to look for the care they never got from their father in older men they date. Its a complex, a symptom of neglect. I think franco desperately wants that motherly love he never got in the form of a lover, but he's definitely gone crazy along the way and it's become a deranged version of it from the things he was forced to endure :(

Franco's brain was also most likely SEVERELY damaged when his father beat him after the whole Angelina thing. I mean, have you seen his head in the game ??? I'm sure he looked relatively normal before that. I think it was his dad's doing that made his head all red and infected how it is. He was literally beat within the inch of his life, he almost died. I can only imagine he suffered from brain damage, head trauma, skull fractures, various infections, loss of hearing, sight, loss of teeth, etc. This probably made his messed up way of thinking even more messed up.

Then, he was exiled further by his father, physically this time, when he sent him off to Cuba. He killed even more people there and was practically on warfront. War is known to cause PTSD and stuff and other mental illnesses for a lot of people that unfortunately have to go through it. So even though Franco was already mentally damaged beyond any repair, he went through front line raids against revolutionary forces.

Then, yk, Murkoff got a hold of him eventually and I'm sure they did their fair share of whatever experiments they did on him. Placing him in the trials, putting his father's name on signs, and even naming the boat in his map after Angelina. It's like they made him relive all of his worst memories in a large box.

Anyhow, those are my Franco rambles. I feel like he's genuinely such a complex character that endured so much and it's just like. He's fucked up for a reason. It's not an excuse for the things he did in the game, but its a society vs. man thing with him. He had such a horrible life and a horrendous upbringing and I can't even imagine the agony his life was. Just thinking about the things he was subjected to and the way his mind was shaped so early on is so heartbreaking. Makes me wish I could've been there for baby Franco, if he had the proper love he never would've turned out the way he had 🙁 Red barrels really does have a way of making me feel bad for all of their characters. Most of them are just so unbelievably tragic.

[pink-tk-a-latte]

WE ARE WINNING SO HARD

[thedorfmirrin]

Drew my baby Aisha, Minbitty, to try and submit to the neopets gallery this month!

This baby loves winter and all the stuff it brings ❄💙❄

[mobius-m-mobius]

diana bestie, you need to read this archiveofourown(.)org/works/51607924

Yooooo coincidentally that was the very next fic I had bookmarked and it did indeed turn me into a broken shell of a human being in the best possible way so Eena tysm bestie 😭💐In turn I've got to rec the fic I finished beforehand which is possibly the most incredible fix-it combining and tying up every loose end of the finale perfectly so thank god for all the amazing writers out there saving lives 🙏

[shatterthefragments]

I’m becoming who I’m meant to be, slowly.

I’m inhabiting my body as a home as I make it such that it is a home for me.

💖😌✨

Also it’s a lovely studio! Masks required, hepa filters running, quiet area, but still near a bus route, was quiet once some of the people left (my artist was also super surprised that all of the tables were in use when they arrived at the shop too!!) and even though we didn’t chat (they put in their faq basically that they often forget to chat so bring headphones or whatever to do while they work) it wasn’t awkward or anything. It felt like such a safe space and I adore it so much :) (and it’s more local to get to than the other one that I’m definitely also going to go back to too at some point hopefully this year) (yay local queer owned covid cautious studios!!!!!)

[sundove88]

Countdown to Christmas- Day 20- Litwick @stormrider824 and @microwaved-toast

Day 20 gives us an adorable little Litwick, who has just made hot chocolate for itself and its Tynamo friend (Who you’re seeing the POV of)!

And yes, the hot chocolate mugs represent the SubMas. The Ingo mug is for the Litwick and the Emmet mug is for the Tynamo!

We’re at the home stretch- five days to go! We’ve got this!

[rui-drawsbox]

I wanna draw olba stuff for chrismas (based off the swap au chrismas fanfic) and naruanzu for new year (new yuri) but i also want to celebrate with malleus something,,,,

[cw-but-starkid]

About the song title!!!

Minor NPMD spoilers below the cut

I was talking to a friend earlier about the songs that Pete and Steph share / are about one another in NPMD.

Cool As I Think I Am, If I Loved You, and Cool As I Think I Am (Reprise)

And then of course, The Best of You. But more specifically the first three.

And, well— the fact that Cool As I Think I Am (Reprise) is kinda both a reprise of CAITIA and If I Loved You brought up the kinda small idea of— what if it was called something else? Because it’s not just a reprise of CAITIA.

So, we started smashing the names together and came up with a few things such as

If I Loved You, That’d be Cool

Cool To Love You

Show You’re Smart / Cool

Love You As I Am

Finally Cool

But— that’s just random spewing from yours truly <3

Them <3

[just-bendy]

Marry super-duper-early-christmas Bendy! Or just..happy winter time :-) here’s some hot chocolate I made, hope you like it! And remember to stay warm this season it’s very chilling

- Your local kitty

Thanks! I'll most definitely be stayin' nice and warm this season! Yer tasty hot chocolate helps a lot too! Oh, and Merry early Christmas!

[wormbraind]

social media may be toxic for YOU but i come away from conversing with the little people in my device feeling overwhelmed by joy for life and love for my fellow people of this earth

[twpsyn-who]

All I want for Christmas is a PruCan fic where Prussia surprises Canada on Christmas by showing up uninvited and they spend it together ^^

[mobius-m-mobius]

Praying, begging, crying that Lokius will win tomorrow night and that kiss scene wasn't just a delusional rumor!!!

You and me both anon!! 🙏💖

(For anyone wondering and to try and keep hopes in check, there was talk of a cheek kiss being filmed BUT as much as I'd love for that to be the case there's also an even stronger chance it was simply rumor which is doing nothing to keep my expectations down 😅)

There's only been implications of Lokius front and center pretty much every moment either or both of them have been on screen in s2 which is the most unexpected delight I can ever remember having while watching anything and makes it impossible not to assume we're getting the follow through regarding their feelings for each other! The near confession from Loki around the end of ep 1 has kind of been hanging over and influencing everything about their interactions since then and after it seemed like Loki not being more obvious about choosing Mobius led to the downfall of the entire timeline that's pretty much all I needed to apply the same reasoning to the series as well.

At this point I'm all in but also with no trust in the writers/Marvel so in a weird way it's like ascending to a level in which I'll be able to talk myself into a win no matter what happens as long as we don't lose TVA!Mobius to the timeline?? An unfathomable option that would leave me bereft of spirit for the rest of existence but one I can't ever see happening when the entire point of is exercising free will to choose and he's never done a single thing but pick and support Loki every time 💖

[peaceeandcoolestvibes]

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[protect-daniel-james]

hehe I’m reading Emery’s biography and the man’s personality grows onto me with every sentence... To summarize, he described himself in his playing days as “a coward”, with his former teammates and managers saying about him:

“a player with evident qualities, but brittle mind”

“It is true that he doubted himself. In training he was capable of making big difference but he didn't have much confidence in himself.”

“Mentally, he was missing something. He was fragile in that respect.  As soon as there was pressure, he couldn't take it.“

“...The brain is constantly emitting thoughts. Sometimes these thoughts control the actions you take and can affect the quality of your work. There are even elements that sabotage you, and others that hinder your desire to do well. This fear can lead to a mistake in circumstances that are actually easy for the player. Perhaps in those moments, in those matches, it was his brain that was perturbing his activity as a player.”

His own brother says: “We are very nervous people. The Emerys are very stubborn, hard-working and honest.” 

and then he himself says:

“Fear, in a way, haunted my mind and I didn't know how to control it because no one had taught me and I wasn't capable of it.” + "my playing career has been more a path of suffering than joy".

Unai, a suffering blorbo with brittle mind 🥺🥺🥺

[haysaprocky]

jot nov. 23rd, 2024 down as the most unexpectedly biblical day of my life