#hopefully tomorrow it goes over easier but i have to write double fic on friday or wake up early and write a fic saturday

[commanderogerss]

Wish I could explain it better

Fanfic for MERWeek. 

Sorry it’s late (like it’s almost 1am my time). No major spoilers unless you haven’t played the first... 10mins of ME2? This Shepard is based off of my self!Shep, but is only called Shepard and uses they/them pronouns. 

          Day 3: missed opportunities. Describe or draw a relationship that could have been. What kept them apart? Do they regret it or are they happy the way things turned out?

ship: Liara/Shepard word count: 935 summary: In one life Liara and Shepard used to be together, in another life they aren’t. The two wonder what a life would be like if they decided to stay.

          “Shepard,” Liara asks from the med bay while the Commanding Officer of the SR1-Normandy is getting patched up after a mission.           “Yeah?” they reply.           “Have you ever … dated outside your species?” she finishes her question.            Chakwas looks from Liara to Shepard and widens her eyes for a moment before finishing up the bandaid to Shepard’s forehead.

         “You’re patched up, but you need to rest before you go out again,” the doctor says before patting Shepard on the shoulder and making her way out of the med bay.           Shepard just came from a small mission on Korlus, fighting off the Blue Suns and some enemy Krogan. It isn’t all bad at least, Shepard won in the end, got the document that the Alliance needed. It’s just that they’re banged up a little.          “What was the question again?” Shepard asks, closing one eye to look at Liara, “I’m a bit wounded here,” they say as they hold onto their chest.           Liara laughs a little before shaking her head, “I asked if you had ever dated outside your species, you know, the humans,” she asks again.           Shepard shrugs their shoulders, “I mean not really. I spoke to a lot of like people of different species whenever I had down time during my N7 training, but I’ve never actually had a Turian girlfriend, or a Krogan boyfriend, no, simple crushes.”           “So, I guess, I’d be your first…” Liara ponders for a moment.           Shepard smiles as they look at Liara. They have always found an attraction to people, to humans and aliens alike, never really thought about the gender. Even with Asari being monogendered but taking on gendered pronouns (though Shepard wonders if this is only around humans). But actually dating someone, they didn’t have the guts. Lots of first dates, last dates, but nothing turned into a kiss or a hug beyond friendship.           Until her.           Shepard could stare at her all day and just smile and be content with everything that’s going on in the world.           “What?” Liara asks.           Shepard, shaking their head, chuckles, “nothing, just thinkin’ ‘bout us,” they reply.           “Do you whoo all the Asari with your words?”           “Tried to, only one it’s worked on was you, so,” Shepard says. Before leaning in and giving Liara a kiss on the lips. “I could get addicted to a certain kind of happiness.”           “Yeah?” Liara asks with a bit of a smirk.           “But we mustn’t, not in the med bay, and I just got out of surgery, I need to rest!” Shepard says with a little bit of the dramatics.          “Shepard, let’s go to your room then,” she says with a bit of a giggle.           Shepard gets off the medbay bed while taking Liara’s hand and making their way to the Commanding Officer’s room on the other side.

          “Shepard,” Liara asks from the table she is sharing with the Commanding Officer of the SR2-Normandy.           “Yeah?” they reply.           “Have you ever… thought about us?” she finishes her question.           “There’s been a hit, Adelaide, Australia was taken by the reapers,” a civilian says to a friend that both Shepard and Liara can overhear. Shepard does a deep sigh at the mere mention.           Liara and Shepard are on the Citadel, relaxing between a mission while Shepard waits to see Udina. Between that and meeting up with current and old crew members, Shepard will also be stocking up on supply’s before they go out again to battle the reaper forces, or Cerberus. Shepard is staring out of the view that’s next to them. Looking at all the hover cars going past. This is a luxury that a lot of people aren’t allowed right now, is it bad to sit for a while?           “What was the question again?” Shepard asks, closing one eye to look at Liara, “I was a bit distracted here,” they say as they nurse the cup of coffee in their hands.           Liara sighs for a moment, “I asked if you had ever thought about us, since you… died,” she asks again.           Shepard shrugs her shoulders, “yeah, I have. It never sat right with me that I didn’t tell you we weren’t dating, I just… well, I died, Liara. I wouldn’t have blamed you if you found someone else, I wasn’t technically alive.”           Liara ponders for a moment, but gives off a slight pout, “I thought that bringing you back showed you, I cared.”           Shepard rubs at their forehead. They knew that compared to everyone else, Liara was the only one willing to tell science and Gods to go fuck themselves. Garrus, Ashley, Tali, and Wrex were all on that ship same as Liara was, but compared to them who went their ways, Liara was the only one willing to risk it all to be associated, even for a moment, with Cerberus.           There’s a sigh from Shepard, their right hand that is nursing their coffee shoots out to grab Liara’s hand.           “What?” Liara asks, almost recoiling from the impact.           Shepard, shaking their head, smiles, “nothing, just, thank you — for bringing me back,” they reply.           “Do you miss what we used to be?”           “Sometimes, I wonder what anarchy we could uncover,” Shepard says. Before rubbing their thumb over the back of Liara’s hand. “I’m glad I could spend my last few months fighting the reapers with you.”           “Yeah?” Liara asks with a smile.           “Definitely!” Shepard says with a mirrored smile.           “Shepard, I’ll meet you on the ship soon,” she says keeping her smile.           Downing the last bit of coffee in their biodegradable cup, Shepard stands up with it and kisses Liara on the forehead. Before making their way to the other side.