#hope you don't mind that it isn't exactly what you requested anon. i tried lmao

[redo-rewind-if]

Soooo can we have Amara and V reaction to finding MC dead in an alleyway?

Okay, so, I was actually going to give a proper answer to this. Write you some short angsty snippets with V and Amara but, uh... things got away from me a bit so... Yeah...

This isn't quite what you asked for but hopefully you'll enjoy it regardless. Gonna put it below the cut since it got a little long. Whoops.

It’s a wonder you’re still alive.

Bleeding and broken as you are, body limp on the pavement, blood loss leaving you cold. You can hardly think, hardly see, vision hazy and spotted. The world awash in red—red light, red blood, red coat—until there’s nothing left.

Your killer laughs as he speaks to the woman who held you in place, held you as he shot you. Laughs as they walk away, leaving you slumped amongst the trash.

Is this how it ends? You think, delirious, eyelids growing heavier by the second. You fight against the inevitable, but to what end?

You’re dead.

The footsteps you hear behind you must be the cleanup crew. Whoever was called to dispose of your body. Of you.

You’d laugh if you had the breath for it.

The steps grow closer, heavier. Faster. “No.” You hear a familiar voice say. You know them, don’t you? And yet, try as you might the thought slips from your grasp like water.

“This is—please no. This can’t be… I didn’t think… If I had any idea…” Knees hit the pavement. A hand, gently pressed against your pulse point. “You—you’re alive?” A gasp, a sob, or both. You can’t tell anymore.

“Just, hold on. I’m going to call for help. Please hold on.”

The words don’t fully register, as if spoken underwater. But are you the one drowning or them?

What does it matter?

Let go. You need to let go. Close your eyes and let sleep take you.

“Please. Just a little longer.” A siren sounds in the distant.

Their hand, so warm as it clings to yours, almost unbearable in its heat, tempts you. And yet—

You close your eyes. A raindrop hits your face, then another, falling in a steady rhythm. Soft and gentle and loving in a way you don’t quite understand but feel nonetheless.

You don’t think you’ll open them again.

[imo-chan-imagines]

hey, i hope ur having a good day (:

i'm writing a nsfw tsukishima fanfic and i'm going to write a smut chapter, but i honestly don't know how kei would react to having sex for the first time. like would he be nervous or would he just go for it or if he would be submissive or want to be dom yk like the basics?

this isn't a request though like to write a one shot but rather how you think he would react if that makes sense?

Hello, Anon! I'm having a great day, thank you!

That's really interesting! First of all, thank you for coming to me for characterisation advice, that's really flattering 😚 Secondly, I don't normally write for Tsukki, so I don't characterise him much, but I'll give it my best shot! ✊😤

Firstly, I think you have to take into consideration how much you're trying to mimic canon. It's perfectly acceptable to do a complete 180 on canon and just do whatever you want, or do anything in between. But given the way you worded your Ask, I'm going to guess that you're trying to make it as much like canon Tsukki as possible, so that's how I'll angle my ideas.

Please bear in mind that the following characterisations are merely my ideas, and people are free to disagree with them or whatever.

Nervousness?

I'm going to go ahead an say this, but despite his generally calm and smug demeanour, Tsukki is actually quite nervous when it comes to stuff like sex, at least at first, as somebody who's never done it before

I imagine that the better he knows the other person, and the more he's in love with them, the more nervous he's going to be, but that's exactly why he'll try to cover it up even more with all his big talk

But there's definitely going to be a lot of moments where you can see that mask cracking

For instance, heavy blushes when his partner says/does something intimate, breaking eye contact, maybe his hand shaking a little, swallowing hard, and his voice suddenly breaking its demeaning or commanding tone when something feels good

If he doesn't know them very well or isn't really in love with them, he probably won't feel as much pressure and he probably won't get as flustered

But however much he knows them, the longer the encounter, the less nervous he'll get, so long as he can feel that his partner is enjoying themselves and feels the same as him

Dominant or submissive?

Personally, I think Tsukki is a predominantly dominant switch, meaning that, depending on the situation, he could be a dom or a sub, but is more likely to be a dom

But people aren't normally very experimental in their first time, because they don't really know what they like, so I'd say that Tsukki would start off trying to be kind of dominant, but it sort of fades out as he gets caught up because he's not experienced enough to keep it up

In which case, I think he'd probably be a lot...softer than people would imagine

I also think that his partner has a lot to do with it. If his partner is equally as inexperienced, or is experienced but submissive, he'll probably take a more dominant role. But if they're dominant, or neither, but generally more experienced than him, he'd be more likely to be submissive

But I see Tsukki as a fairly reluctant submissive. It's not that he doesn't enjoy it, he just gets ambarressed and flustered, and tries not to

But over all, I don't think there would actually be a whole lot of power play in his first time, especially if it's with someone he knows and loves well, because it's actually just kind of overwhelming with them at all

Sounds and sensations?

So, dom Tsukki is all about dirty talk, and probably quite teasing and demeaning with it, too

Since it's his first time, most of what he says is going to sound a little off? Because he doesn't have the experience of saying it while actually going at it, lmao

The closer he gets to cumming, the less he's going to talk. It's probably going to devolve into shaky breathing, which he's going to try and steady with EVERYTHING he has, but it's not really going to work

If he's being submissive, it'll probably be little moans and whimpers. Again, really doesn't want them out there, but there's not much he can do about it

In general, during his first time, particularly if there's been some mutual pining or something, I don't think he'd talk all that much, tbh. That's more for times after that

No diss to Tsukki, because this is probably everyone during their first time, but he'll find it hard to keep a good pace, because it feels more overwhelming than he thought it would

If he cares for the perosn he's with, he's probably more likely to be slower than faster during his first time, in order to try and make the experience last longer

If they're a rando or he's not in love with them, he'd probably go a little too fast...

Not big on kisses etc. during sex, more into pressing foreheads together or interlacing fingers, if anything

Afterwards, though, I can see Tsukki wanting to hold them close, plant kisses over their shoulders and neck, and fall asleep to the rhythm of their heart, just because nobody else is there to see it and the post-sex high has got him feeling all soft and vulnerable

None of that soft stuff if it was a hookup or didn't mean anything to him, though

Clumsiness?

Tsukki's probably not likely to be clumsy during his first time, but it probably depends where it's happening

Might be the kind to accidentally knock some stuff over if it's a more playful or desperate kind of situation, but in general, not prone to accidents and slip-ups

He's nervous but not THAT nervous

But his limbs are long, so it might happen anyway

Would probably get embarrassed if he did something clumsy, and it might put him out of the mood if it's bad enough

I hope this made some kind of sense, and was maybe helpful? If it was, feel free to ask me something like this again. It was fun! Thanks again for asking me, Anon ♡