#honestly i want a lot of things...oh and a journal. i want one so bad rn. i miss writting in those things. but its hard to find cheap -

[devinescribe]

The Kinda Guy To…

Hiccup Haddock Ver.

- He knows you inside and out. Not like that you freaks, like he knows everything there is to know about you. You can look at him and he knows exactly what you want.

- I'm gonna say you were friends before he was a hot commodity. Because honestly, you were the only one that was nice to him the only one that actually cared about him and stayed by his side.

- Is he jealous? ... no. What are you talking about? Jealous? He's not jealous.

"Which is why Toothless scared that guy off?"

"...yep."

- Night rides. You love them as much as he does, and he loves showing off to you what a Night Fury can do.

- randomly starts rambling to you. Let's set the scene, it's late at night, you're in his bed, head on his chest and all of a sudden he starts talking about one of the pages in the book of dragons or in the personal notes of Bork.

- He really likes your kindness. You never once doubted him, and you're always so kind to him. It's what makes him fall in the first place.

- Toothless... loves you. Almost more than he loves Hiccup. Hiccup always watches as you coo and give Toothless scratches, how you giggle and copy the dragon.

- Not only are you good with dragons, you're good with people. You're always willing to help the village in any way you can, often opting to stay behind on missions to help the village prepare for what may be coming. Weather proofing houses, helping make more coats, or more swords. Whatever it is, he knows you'll do it, and you'll do it well.

- With that... he's future chief... so when his dad says, "oh and Hiccup... that lass that's always with ya?"

"Oh um... Y/N?"

"Yeah... that's the one. I like her. You should keep her... she'd make a great future chieftess."

"Th-that's... um... that's the plan... dad."

- Another thing? You're fearless. Well, you don't show it if you are. You jump into action, defending him or yourself. Against dragons or other threats.

- You go along with him for dragon training. He loves how you have learned to handle every dragon they have. Even the terrible terrors! But his favorite is watching you fly Hookfang and Hookfang listening to you. Just because it makes Snotlout speechless and upset. He loves that.

- He loves when you play with his hair. Loves it. Doesn't want you to stop. Ever. Actually whines when you stop. You have to laugh and tell him your hands are tired.

- Speaking of, if you do something for him and later you say x or y part of your body hurts or is sore, he feels bad because he knows it's because you were helping him. Will make it up to you.

- He's strong. I don't make the rules. He's strong. He worked in a forge for years. He handles a dragon. He's strong. If you fall asleep somewhere that's not a bed, you bet he's picking you up and taking you to a bed.

- tinkers and makes you different tools to help you. Whether to defend yourself or just to make certain tasks easier. These things include:

A ring that can flick open with a twist. Inside? A sharp blade. If you get trapped, it’s easy to cut.

Makes you a pair of fire proof gloves(how??? I dunno) not only do you help with dragons, but often times with fires, so it just helps.

A journal. Just a regular journal… fireproof…

- You could be messy and dirty from a hard day’s work and he’s saying you’re the most beautiful woman he’s ever seen.

- He wasn’t praised as a kid. Nor was he given lots of physical affection. Those are his favorite love languages to receive and give.

- Willing to do anything to keep you safe and to make you happy.

- That being said, when you’re captured his first instinct is to just go and get you. He has a night fury how hard can it be? But then he remembers that he needs a plan to keep you safe and get you out unharmed.

- Let’s you engrave your initials oh his stuff. His saddle, his shield, the hilt of his sword, he would let you do it on his metal leg if he didn’t lose them so often.

- At first, when he brought you to the edge, he wanted you to have your own place. And you do. That you barely ever use. Because you basically live with him.

- Has a really good sense of what you need. Do you need to be alone or do you need comfort? Do you need quiet or do you need talking? He knows what you need.

- Gets sick and tries to refuse your help saying he’ll get you sick too, but he literally will not stay down for more than five minutes. You have to remind his he needs rest to feel better and he can’t help anyone if he’s sick. He knows you’re right. Doesn’t mean he likes it though…

[the-fab-fox]

Okay so this has been something I've been chewing on for a long while. About making this post I mean.

This one is to those who actively ingest fanfiction but seem to think it's okay to just read free fiction that people have put time and thought and crafted prose for your enjoyment and do nothing in return.

All we ever ask for and all we ever want is for y'all to AT THE VERY LEAST hit that kudos button if you like the work. That is the BARE MINIMUM of what you SHOULD be doing. Especially all of you who say you're too nervous to comment or don't wish to be perceived. And if you don't want your account on the list, you can log out and send a guest kudos.

But as I said, BARE MINIMUM. If you loved the fic, if you got something out of it that left you feeling good and energized (or whatever angst does for y'all) then I want to take a moment and strongly urge you to comment, subscribe (if a wip), and bookmark those works. Did you know there's an option to even mark it as a Fic Recommendation? You can put notes in to and say why you liked it and things like that (DO NOT DO A RATING IN PUBLIC BOOKMARKS HOWEVER). And, you can indeed make them private! The writer still gets the number added to their stats but your bookmark we won't see.

Anyway, I now wanna turn your attention to Exhibit A:

This is a list of my best performing fics. Do you see the problem with this? The green highlights are the hits I've received for those fics. The red is the Kudos and comment threads. Now the kudos is obviously right?

Let's look at my number one fic right now, Accidentally in Love (a Malleyuu fic from Twisted Wonderland fandom). It's the seventh fic in a romance series. As you can see, it's doing great as far as hits, right? And I know it's an amazing fic from the comments I have received and just from rereading it myself. Note, I am probably the biggest bully to myself as @sunshineandteddybears and @mellosdrawings and @romantichopelessly can tell you in great detail. So when I am saying it's really damn good, you can probably trust it's gonna be pretty damn good. And yet, a fic that has 4K hits only has 119 kudos. And now to bring your attention to the comment threads. So honestly with how bad readers are on actually commenting (which by the way if you log off you can send anonymously as a guest—you'll have to put in your email address but we authors won't see that)... 107 seems pretty good right? But you guys don't see that. You see what's on the info for the story. Unfortunately, on the fic info at the top of the story, it counts every single comment (including the Author's). (The comment threads is just every single starting comment, i.e. the first comment received from each commenter.)

The thing is, I—and probably quite a few other writers—do respond to every single comment.

So that means where the info on my fic itself says 230 comments, in reality, I'm at half that when I subtract my half of the comments. So that's actually 115 comments from other people. So some people might see that 230 and think oh they got a lot of comments so I don't think they want to hear from me or I can't be fucked and they're already doing good so.

NO. NO. NO. Do not look at the numbers as a guide if a fic is good or not. Do not look at the numbers and think that we don't need or deserve to get any more. And finally WE WANT TO HEAR FROM Y'ALL.

Excuses need to stop.

Speaking of numbers. Here's my over all stats current on AO3.

In the 3 years on this AO3 account (I've had others in the past and accounts on ff.net and live journal. I'm an oldie fanfic writer lol. 21 years of fanfic. My gods. 🤣) It didn't used to be like this guys. Back in the day I'd get 12 plus comments on a chapter and this is on stuff a teenager wrote.

We have got to get back to the point of supporting each other and building each other up. Also while I'm at it, I have a huge beef with the fact that fanartists get so much more positive feedback and replies and comments, but the thing is, even their numbers are skewed. You can go into the notes of a fanart on here that has 10k notes to see they have maybe 100-1K reblogs (if that, I'm being generous) and maybe 10 or so replies (if turned on) and the rest are all likes. EVERYONE has been on here long enough by now to know that likes do nothing to get a post in the algorithm and tags only do so much. Reblogs are the only way their art (or our fanfictions for people who post them on here) gets seen! By sharing!

So y'all gotta get better. Yes, we write for ourselves first, but ultimately a story is meant to be shared with everyone and feedback should not be optional if you're actively reading the fics or viewing the art for free and enjoyed it!

TLDR:

IF YOU FUCKING LIKE A FANFIC. KUDOS AT THE VERY LEAST BUT BE BETTER. COMMENT. BOOKMARK. SUBSCRIBE IF IT'S A WIP YOU LOVE. (Like, comment and reblog if on Tumblr)

IF YOU FUCKING LIKE A FANART ON TUMBLR. COMMENT. LIKE. REBLOG.

DO BETTER AS READERS AND US WRITERS AND ARTISTS WILL GIVE YOU THE WORLD (AND MANY OTHER WORLDS TO BOOT)

That is all. Please reblog the fuck out of this if you agree.

(and tagging my current and last fandoms so this can get in fandom spaces where it needs to be.)

[rae2velaris]

2024 Was a Great Year for Elriels

The end of the year is approaching, and unfortunately, there's no announcement yet, but Elriels definitely have plenty to be grateful for this year.

On the contrary... (Quick rant...I'm allowed one a year)

The other side has enjoyed complaining and discrediting articles and large companies commenting on Elriel...

Why?

I suppose it's because their side of the fandom has nothing new to talk about with their ships?

All they have are:

Commissioned art pieces paid for by themselves (great for the artists and Elriels do commissioned pieces to so... touche)

Screen Rant articles. This website is a way for free lance writers to make some money. Honestly, if you want to dive into them, go ahead, but these article centralize on the writers' opinions and click bait/SEO. And no, I'm not going to hunt down these writers' information to discredit. People are allowed to have their opinions and make money however way they want. Just at least take a moment to look at the titles for Screen Rant articles vs. TIME, TODAY, and E! News. You'll see a difference going forward in this post.

Additonal unnecsssary "official" weeks/ "spontaneous" days for ships and characters due to the belief that Elriel fans ruin everything

Anyways, let's dive into this year's pro Elriel content ❤️

January 30th, 2024

TIME- Time magazine is a widely cited resource and maintains high standards of journalism. In this particular article, only Elain and Azriel are mentioned as a possibility for the next ACOTAR book.

January 30th, 2024

TODAY Show- A sit-down interview with SJM. (This particular part of the interview I condensed together on Canva because of the limited pictures we can include on Tumblr) Below, Sarah talks about fate, the idea of exploring rejecting mates, and free will. (Lucien and Elain?) She also discusses her characters ending up with someone who offers growth and joy. (Azriel and Elain?) SJM can't tell us in black and white that she's doing this, but COME ON people. There's a reason she discusses it.

Oh, and the TODAY show decided to like/comment on Elriel comments ONLY.

Side Note: If interested, take a look at this tumblr post for a lovely, thorough breakdown. ( @courtofblooming )

April 19th, 2024

Guilty As Sin Instagram Story from SJM- Sarah loves her little crumbs, and this song honestly encapulates Elriel. We unfortunately don't get confirmation from SJM, but I'll include some of the lyrics for you to judge.

This cage was once just fine

Am I allowed to cry?

I dream of cracking locks

Throwing my life to the wolves

Or the ocean rocks

Crashing into him tonight

He's a paradox

I'm seeing visions, am I bad?

Or mad? Or wise?

What if he's written 'mine' on my upper thigh

Only in my mind?

One slip and falling back into the hedge maze

Oh what a way to die

I keep recalling things we never did

Messy top lip kiss

How I long for our trysts

Without ever touching his skin

How can I be guilty as sin?

What makes it even better? Audible and Spotify commented ONLY on Elriel posts in relation to this song. You won't find these particular companies commenting on any other ships of the fandom.

Side Note: The other side of the fandom tries to discredit these influential companies by stating the person behind the account doesn't represent the whole company or just enjoy saying the companies comments aren't credible. Multi-million dollar companies are NOT going to waste their time and reputation on fanon created ships. These companies are business smart and only invest in what's profitable. There's a reason they make millions...ELRIEL is profitable due to canon evidence. Simple as that.

December 2nd, 2024

Bloomsbury and SJMaas Updates announce that the audiobooks are now available on Spotify- Bloomsbury, SJM Updates, and Spotify are in close collaboration with each other. Makes those Spotify Elriel comments even more satisfying. ❤️

December 9th, 2024

SJM 2024 Author of the Year Spotify Video- Although we got little news for the coming spring about audible books, us as a fandom had a lovely time dissecting the video. Yet again, Spotify only commented on Elriel comments.

Side Note: Take a look at these tumblr posts for an inciteful look into the significance of tea cups/Elain ( @offtorivendell ) and an excellent interpretation of the Spotify video. ( @wingedblooms )

December 13th, 2024

E News!- I know this particular article has ruffled some feathers, but it's entertaining none the less! Gotta love the nod to Azriel's wingspan. IYKYK (And yes, it's credible... it's owned by NBC Universal... the same company that owns TODAY and 33% stakes of Hulu through Comcast (Comcast owns NBC Universal, and the stakes are through NBC Universal). I only add Hulu due to the ACOTAR TV series being developed through Hulu.)

December 17th, 2024

Goodreads- This is just a little star on top of the tree, but it's great to know that ACOFAS made it into the top 10 most read overall books this year. (Interesting how ACOSF didn't make it...) Notably, ACOFAS is the bridge for future spin-offs. (Also interesting how a particular character isn't seen in ACOFAS...)

(ACOFAS pictures taken from @psychologynerd post linked below)

In Conclusion...

As an Elriel, I've truly appreciated the continuous confirmations for Azriel and Elain for the future ACOTAR 5 book in small, simple ways. Even better knowing that Spotify and Audible have outwardly commented on ONLY Elriel posts.

As the year 2024 ends, I'll treasure these little nuggets of positivity until the announcement day! I have a feeling 2025 will hold some excellent news for the fandom. Until then, have a wonderful holiday season and a Happy New Year!

P.S.

If you know of anymore pro Elriel content from this year, by all means, write a comment. 🥰

[beatcroc]

a year!!! as of today i have now been drawing these funny little pizza freaks, to the exclusion of almost everything else, for!!! an entire year!!! i wanted to do a nice group shot/lineup of everybody to compare to when i first started trying to draw them because oh boy were they bad. i never even posted most of them anywhere because they were so bad. but im posting them here, now, to see how everything's changed/evolved.

this is probably the hardest time i've ever had trying to figure out how to work with a style, but we got there eventually; i'm pretty happy with the handle i've got on everybody now...dont let ur memes be dreams. lots of unimportant journaling and idle thoughts abt it below.

older pics

the first one is the VERY first time i drew them, before i thought i was going to actually have any interest in drawing them [lmao]; it was just the one isolated image, for my friendserver, to illustrate the funney message, so there was no attempt to make it Good or actually understand anything going on w/ the designs or style.

second is the original run of practices sketches to start trying to figure them out for real; done after i started having ideas for the comics and such and realized oh god maybe i am actually gonna draw fanart for this. [again, lol, and lmao.]

third one is the first pt art thing i posted on here. there were a couple weeks of sprite studies between this one and the previous image. the one on the top right wasn't part of that post i just threw it on as space filler; i'd intended to shift to doing Sprite Redraws But Stylized to explore tings more, but that was the only one i did. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

individual characters

peppino: by far the hardest dear god. bro what ARE your shapes how DOES your face work. jesus christ. everything i have trouble with this style for, peppino has it in excess. i draw in polygons! i need consistency! and that is the last thing this kind of style is concerned with. they are made of squarshy clay and i do not understand how to mold them. i was really hoping trying to learn this game's style would GIVE me that kind of flexibility for fun exaggerated facial expression but i don't think much came of it in the end 😔. anyway on the bright side all this means once i got peppino figured out a little bit everybody else clicked way easier.

fake peppino: honestly i never did anything with him on purpose except for how his eyes work + the perma-smile thing. i figured ok hes supposed to look weird and off model so whatever happens with him happens. and it did. and it kept happening. it is still, in fact, happening.

noise/ette: somehow, for every bit that peppino was the least natural thing i've ever tried, these two worked pretty much right off the bat. i still don't understand it, seeing as pretty much all the things at play for peppino are also at work for them. i think the new sketches are actually a little worse than older ones but not enough that i care.

gustavo: really funny bc i drew him on model twice and just went 'okay, cool nice, easy, um. he doesn't have any fucking legs?' fortunately he was the only one i had a strong idea for how to stylize him [square] and it worked exactly as i was hoping so wahoo.

brick: is an animal and therefore 5000x easier and more natural for me to draw/stylize than anything else in the cast. that is Just a rat bro. i can draw a rat.

gerome: i think the funniest one here. the most drastic and least necessary change imo. i was gonna have him be really small at first, like smaller than the noises, but then i just... didn't. he's just peppino-sized now. also i gave him like. actual human facial structure, which is funny bc in most cases i'd do anything to avoid, but it works well for his being A Rock to give him some angles and definition like that+ to differentiate his vibe from the rest of the cast who are all very squishy. also since he is essentially Just A Head it's good to emphasize that too ig.

john: i only drew john a couple times but he gets to be here because i like him. and because most of the stuff i applied to gerome was readily applicable to john, though i did try to keep him a little more uncanny because he is a Huge And Lanky Freak. i hate that he is barefoot btw but idk how to make his color balance look right with shoes.

pizzahead: i did not want to put him on here honestly but i Have drawn him a handful of times and more importantly i didn't know what i was gonna do with john's pose if i didn't have him there to be glared at. the only thing that's different with him is giving him wider-bottomed pants, which i got from when i tried to draw these guys in clone high style [i never posted that one either][i will eventually]

snick: he gets to be here because 1. he's like 6 lines 2. i like him and 3. ive scribbled him a few times offhand and it went pretty well

misc

there are some guys missing because those are guys i didn't draw enough [or at all] to have gotten comfortable with them. sorry

i would have Liked to shade these but for the time being i have accepted that my grasp of light/shadow has decayed to the point im not going to be happy with anything i try there, so For Now i am working on my presentation with flats i guess. gerome has a shadow only because he's shaded like that ingame and looks naked without it

anyway if you are still reading [hi?] i get to shamelessly plug now. i'm over the hill of my pizza run now, and while i still have plenty of things i want to make here, most of the bigger more in-depth ones have passed. pizza tower was the first thing in THREE YEARS to get me out of my oc groove to doing fanart, and once i am done with my ideas here i will be going right back to it. if you like my art or how i write characters/interactions you should check out my oc/webcomic blog @jamverse . i can't promise people who like pizza stuff will be terribly into my designs, but i can guarantee i treat my guys with the exact same sort of tone i handle the pt guys with. and hell, i've mentioned it a few times before, but like 70% of my characterization for fake pep is just copied off one of my characters, so if u are going to miss him... he will still be there in spirit >;p

and if you dont care about any of that and are still reading thank you anyway. actually making these comics + seeing how shockingly well-received they've been has done a lot for my confidence, and for seeing that my kind of stuff IS something people enjoy :')

[o2studies]

22:00 || ༻`` 1 June — Sunday

57 days of productivity, 39/57

Big jump from the last update being day 12 😅 And honestly, not sure what to start with now....

I have finished 4 exams so far and I've got 3 left (the next one being Math U.2 on Wednesday) and I feel alright about them. For each one I could've done a lot more work, but I was still pretty much as prepared I could be. I also revised the MOST I have EVER revised last week, being just short of 26 HOURS which is CRAZY. And my brain has been moooore than fried because of it... (I am miscounting days and times and I don't know what's going on anymore 😭😭😭😭)

But within all the bedrotting and bad habits and becoming a study-hermit, I have really begun getting my life together again! (once again screwing over Notion for an app that can do mostly similar things despite it not being it's primary purpose ;-;) I have created a sort of masterlist on google docs consisting of a mood board, different goals, Habitica challenges I'm in, tasks I've to get sorted and habits I want to implement — and I'm so so proud of how it looks!!! This is 100% something I'm going to keep adding to and making use of long term!

So recently I've been (among studying still ofc) cleaning a lot, reading even (I started Powerless by Lauren Roberts over a month ago and I'm finally picking it up again and it's so good!!), planning some more art projects (and I'm soooo excited for Art Fight to begin!), and done more smaller organisations.

For having not updated in so long I planned to write about so much more but that pretty much sums it up... :/ So I'll leave youse off with some pictures and the fact that the next TSJ entry will be uploaded tomorrow!

Oh and I also had my school leavers party!!! (img. 1) Been to 1 if my last violin lessons as I hadn't realised I'd be having so many exams on the days of them 😓 (img. 3) I've tried a reverse To Do list and it's working wonders!!! (img. 5) and I was invited on a family road trip with K and her family one of the days which was really lovely 😊 (img. 6)

Also! I bought myself a new, pretty notebook into which I'll add the likes of less important passwords (like for tumblr, AF etc.) and a savings plan for when me and K start work and properly begin looking for a place to rent together. But that's as far as I've gotten with ideas for it. I want the notebook to have more of those important, adult-y things, not for it to be another journal.

Any ideas for what else it could have?

Day / I decided to stop the counter during my exams and given the reason why, I think it was a reasonable choice

Day 0

Floor time ☑️ // 🍊

[valacre]

hello, just wanted to drop by to say that I adore your writing! everytime you post something it becomes a highlight of my day fr ❤️ I may also have a question... do you have any tips for improving your writing or just writing in general?

Dude, oh my gosh that’s so incredibly sweet of you to say! Thank you!! <33

And honestly? Just write a bunch. I only got better at it because I started doing it a lot. That! And reading/listening to audiobooks because then you see/hear how others write, and it can inspire you as well as help you see better ways to improve your own writing. It takes time and sometimes you may feel frustrated because it feels like you’re getting nowhere, or you feel like you’re getting worse, but I promise you’ll get better if you just keep going at it. I still struggle with negative thoughts about my own writing, trust me, it sucks, and it makes it impossible for me to read through what I’ve written later, but I still love to write so I just try and ignore those bad thoughts and power through it anyway.

It may help to watch/listen to some writing tips videos, but many of those you can take with a grain of salt. Just do what you want to have fun; that’s the most important thing. If you’re not having fun then your writing will suffer from it, so try not to think about “rules” or “the right way” when writing… or do! It depends entirely on what works for you.

I’m rambling, but speaking from my own experience, the point is to have fun. Do what you must to feel inspired and motivated (I listen to music that fits the scenes I think about, for example), and if it starts to feel like a chore then stop and re-evaluate and think about what you’re not enjoying about it. It’s okay to start over, it’s not a bad thing, do it five times or more (guilty as charged with this one) if you must. Sometimes you need to do that to find the best way to get your story down on paper.

So just write, write, and write! Make a document or keep a journal where you note down ideas, prompts, dialogue, etc. No matter how short or long, it can help you quite a lot at a later date. Find out what helps inspire you, be it music, artwork, people, nature; anything and everything. And remember that you’re your own worst critic, so please, try not to be too harsh on yourself.

I hope my ramblings helped you a little! Happy writing! <33

[givemenoname]

Decided to go looking through my Google docs and found a Doc simply titled "Wit."

Barely remembered what it was when I saw it so I ventured in, and it turns out, it's an Amphibia AU/fic I made a year or two back about Marcy adapting to life in Massachusetts. (I hadn't read Marcy's Journal yet, so some things were a bit off.)

Instead of being from Marcy's POV however, the story is told by a character called Cass, who does not put up with the "impossible" rumors about our little lovable nerd.

Four years later though, they end up being dorm mates, and (as we all probably know by now) Marcy's not exactly... normal.

While I remembered the main plot, there are only two pages as of now.

Below is essentially what I have so far if you want to see it (it's pretty old, and I definitely see how I could have done better, but eh.)

Prologue

There’s an old legend, an old tale in Hopkinton, Massachusetts, but honestly, it’s more of an old rumor that spread across the city like wildfire. But now that I think about it, it was made less than six, maybe, five years ago? It goes a little something like this…

“So there’s this new kid, got here over the summer, she's weird. I haven’t talked to her a lot, I only have one class with her. She seems pretty normal at first but don’t let her talk to you! She talks so strange, like, she doesn’t swear, she says stuff like, ‘Oh my Frog!’ & ‘For Newt’s sake!’ Instead! Kinda creepy, right?” 

“You know, there's a rumor going around, that she's got a big ol’ scar on her front and back, like she got stabbed or something.” 

“I have PE with her, I haven’t seen any scar, but this older guy was bullying a boy, and she slashed him in the face!”

“With her nails?!”

“Yeah! They turned into claws, and her fingers got all webbed and stuff! It was so freaky, the guy has scar marks on his nose now! She panicked a bunch and ran away. Some people who were there say her eyes turned orange when she clawed him!”

“Omigosh, I have Science with her, she got a papercut, her blood wasn’t even red, it was kind of a swampy green goop! I got her a band-aid cause I was scared other kids would notice. When I got back though, it completely disappeared! Or, healed, I dunno!”

“You all are making this up. Things like that don't happen unexplained. Her parent’s probably just don’t like her swearing, the stab wound is either fake, or just a surgery scar, her nails are most likely just long, and I’ve seen her around, she draws a lot, she probably just got marker on her finger, she's not a weird frog monster, those kind of things are just fiction.”

“Cass, c’mon, can’t you go a minute without debunking something?”

“No. No I cannot. Not when you three are believing stupid stories like this. Did you even bother to learn her name? It’s Marcy, her name is Marcy.”

It was like this all over the school. Stories of the strange new kid were all over the place, and I never believed it. They died down over a few months,  and by sophomore year, they pretty much stopped. But then…

Chapter 1: Meeting the New Kid, when she’s NOT the New Kid

4 years later…

College. Oh god. I’m going to college. New place. It’s got that new room smell I like, so that's good. The dorm is an apartment like any other is. The living room is, well, a living room. Maybe a fourth of the lecture hall? It’s about half the size of a middle school library, maybe. It’s got a little kitchen area that's kind of a rectangular shape. The bathroom is bathroom sized, and the bedroom… Man I’m not sure, medium? Like, four bathrooms? I don’t know, I’ll probably get a measuring tape at some point. There’s two mattresses and a curtain splitting the room in half, from the door to the window. Just as I put my stuff down, and claim my side, because the right one is obviously superior, I hear the front door unlock. Someone sighs.

“Alright Mars, it’s not that bad.” I can barely hear them speaking under their breath. 

“The living room is slightly bigger than normal apartments. And you can actually interact with someone socially, for once, cause now you have a roommate, and it’s kind of necessary to talk to your roommate cause, well, they're your roommate!” I think they're trying to rationalize this melancholy dorm, their mood is different from what I think is the intended tone. They walk into the left side of the room. I can see they still have their shoes on, looks like orange Converse? Didn’t know they had those. I should introduce myself, we’re going to be stuck here together for a while anyway, might as well get used to it. I hear them sit down on their mattress. God, how do I start this conversation? I grab some of my stuff and stand up to walk into the living room. The curtain is slightly angled so that the room isn’t exactly split in half, and I have to open the curtain to get to the door frame. Once I get to the main area, I put down some pillows to make a sort-of couch. It’s not the best looking, but hey, it works. I sit down, it’s like sitting on a bunch of marshmallows, which is not as comfy as it sounds. They walk out into the area, and I can see them pretty clearly. They’re about average height, with long black fluffy hair that's been let loose, the only exception being an average green hair clip. Their eyes are a sort of gray-blue color, their skin is slightly tanned, but not by much. Their wardrobe seems to consist of D&D t-shirts and blue jeans, and an olive-mint green, slightly oversized, hoodie, with the occasional jewelry, the current being a leaf green amulet.

Aaaand, that's about it.

If you have any ideas or notes, I'd love to hear them :D

[mooniechild]

Eric possible BPD

Look who we have here if is not our favorite going bald guy,well since I made a D reasons let me show you guys a couple E ones,cause honestly I have a whole lot to talk about his mental health,and actually let me add another point here,lot of people who suffer from BPD also have another mental health issues,so Eric could have had BPD and another mental health problem,or maybe none....I'm just theorizing,and my patient is dead so....yeah

1. Intensity and instability:well as everybody knows Eric was a very....exotic person as I say to myself,he would be very unstable specially about his social life,picking up fights and waiting for Chris to back him up,but what calls out to me is how much in the edge Eric lived,always at the extreme,if he was happy he was HAPPY if he was pissed he would be PISSED,he is hot and cold all the time,he would be very passionate about his feeling as he quoted 'im full of hate and I love it',the thing is,that could have been a normal behavior for someone his age,BUT also,if he was in fact dealing with a chemical illness like depression the meds should had help in this,and apparently they wasn't.

2. Mood swings,we'll just in Eric around Columbine we can see Eric changing A LOT during the almost half an hour vídeo,he would laugh and care about Brandi conversation about burritos and be grumpy all of a sudden in his seat while Mike was talking with their other friends,he even do faces,or acting like a child on Christmas morning while playing with a cellphone WEEEEEEE,he would act impatient or even anxious almost like if he was feeling extremely uncomfortable in there,let not forget his crazy relationship which is our next topic

3. Difficulty regulating emotions,this one of the most harsh BPD symptoms,don't know how to control your feelings or express them,and honestly he is this guy,sorry, Eric had a hard time trying to get his emotions in check before the shooting, trying to control his anger and don't freak out 24/7 but something that always peak my attention is how he can't show his feelings,I mean he get all confused in that letter trying to flirt with that girl from his work,you can say "oh but that is teenager boy behavior",okay what about fake a suicide to Tiffany?or don't know how to interact with those girls he talked online, Eric had a hard time showing his true feelings for people bad or good,he was confused about them most of the time,people with mental illness have hard times dealing with interactions and find the rights words, Eric was always trying to fit wanting or not to admit it,he had a lot of emotions but never knew how to feel and express them.

5. Chronic feelings of emptiness;should i start by him literraly begging to be invited and saying how people always let him out of cool stuff?,most of Eric journal stuff are maded for sound cool,'oh but Moon who told you that?'...okay let me explain,most of the time Eric made up a whole character or he so called Reb persona,sometimes he slip's in his own character and ended up really putting his heart on his writings,he talks about hate himself,and low self-esteem,and all of that,he felt empty and he needed something he could pretend,what better to pretend you're fine than a whole persona?

6. Anxiety and worry- most of the time we just can see his anxiety poping up,he play with his hands,look around,shake his legs,trow random jokes and see lost on his own head,Eric posture is always tense,never relax,you can tell that but his body language,the way he always fix his posture,adjust his shoulder's

7. Irritability- he was know for his insane ass mood swings,people use to see two Eric's,the funny laid back one and suddenly....snap....YOU KNOW WHAT I HATE?,we can. Watch his mood changing a whole lot in his Columbine video with Mike,but the most common one was his writing,the whole,I hate racists to 'call me a racist rapist I don't care'

Behavior

1. Impulsivity-welcome back Eric Harris,do I start with the van break in for fun?or I mention how he would literally stalk his "girlfriends",Eric was impulsive as fuck,he was know for being very sincere, honestly I just think he don't think much before say,he just bless us with his impulsivity and that's it,he don't hold much stuff back,one of this moments is when Brandi ask something as 'guess who is at all over my locker' and he simply trow a 'me?'

2. Self-destructive behaviors- he doesn't talk about SH on his diary,but I remember people saying he say something about it on the tapes,I believe he has some sort of angry against himself, especially when he mention having a bad self esteem,he saw his worst version,so I think he probably SH,but we can't tell for sure,but we'll he made bombs which is dangeous as hell he could had blow himself by mistake,a I think that's kinda should count as a self destructive behavior.

3. Unstable relationships- we can't say much about his relationship with his parents,but they seem have a nice parent's-son relationship, Eric said he like his parents at the tapes,and his mom sounds very sweet bringing him slim Jim's downstairs to him,BUT he seems to had a difficult relationship which his dad,he said he could had bond with him at the gun show,and his dad beside seems kinda supportive seems like pressuring him to have a future,college,the marines,him and Kevin seems to have a normal relationship,but in a romantic aspect?I think ALL his "relationship" went down the hill very fast,he had kinda of a bad temper and people usually just got bothered by his behavior,so none of them really work out, especially he and Sasha,who he apparently sent death threats

4. Frantic efforts to avoid abandonment-Eric was definitely scared of lost his friends,and he didn't tried to hide it at all,he felt jealous of Brooks in Dylan around 7 grade according to Brooks himself,he really try his best for his NY friends dong forget about him,even calling one of his friends after the van breaking and sending her a email before the shooting(she didn't receive it)

5. Aggressive behavior- supposably he was picking up fights on his last week's,calling out people and all, Eric wasn't really someone who would engage in physical fights,be he usually would threat or intimidate people,like he did with Brooks or even what he did during his so called 'rebels missions' when he Dylan,Zach and probably Brooks vandalize people's houses

6. Dissociation- if you pay enough attention on his videos you can see him dissociating,is something very subtle,for people who experience it may can be easier to identify,he look to a non existent point and kinda zoom out for a few seconds,he also bite or lick his lips when he do so.

7. Substance abuse- we don't know for sure how much he would smoke,but I believe he wasn't really a fan of cigarettes and did it most for fit in and seems cool purposes,and he said he wasn't a big fan of alcohol,but apparently he was very into weed,which I don't at which point I believe it or not,he seems like the type who would be into pot,but we don't know how much he was doing it,the frequency and all

Cognitive Symptoms

1. Paranoid thoughts- he was least paranoid then Dylan was,nobody really "conspiring" against him,but he seems to had his fair share of,everyone hate me,nobody likes me,nobody wants me around,which is something is understanding considering how people use to treat him at school,but most of it? definitely his paranoid

2.Memory lapses- he mention how he doesn't remember some aspects,and even his childhood years,this can have two possible causes,stress or....*drums* BPD...or both,most people with BPD usually blend their memory together and can't remember the facts or how exactly they happened, usually creating fake memories or even creating a new one due to confusion

Interpersonal Symptoms

1. Difficulty maintaining relationships- well apparently he had a hard time keeping his friends,screaming at Dylan after losing a football game, fighting with Nate over a girl,and apparently according to Devon Addams being a little 'let me steal your girlfriend' with his friend Zach Heckler,most of his friends had a hard time handling his temper and his mood swings,he stopped talking to Brandi after her decline him for prom,and even fake his own suicide to Tiffany after she tell him she didn't want to go out with him

2. Intense attachment- according to most of his friends,he and Dylan are basically inseparable,they would go out together,had dinner once in a outback steakhouse, sleep overs,football game,like the same stuff,Dylan testing Eric maps for him,watching movies together,they pretty much like each other company, according to some neighbors Dylan car was always close to Eric house,and according to Devon, Eric was copying Dylan which made him kinda bothered

3. Manipulative behavior- he would apologie to Mrs Brown,say he was scared of her to his Dad,and apparently according to the men himself he would lie to his parents 'like a fucking salesmen if I have to',he want a master manipulator,but he knew he could make some believe 'he could climb mount everest or I have a twin brother growing out of my back'

4. Lack of empathy-im not gonna say the usual 'oh the cold blood killer he has no empathy that's why he did it' cause I know Eric was definitely waiting for this title,trust me,but...I think he force himself to feel nothing,he wrote

'I must not be sidetracked by my feelings of sympathy, mercy, or any of that, so I will force myself to believe that everyone is just another monster from Doom like FH [Former Human, mob in Doom] or FS [Former Sergeant] or demons, so it’s either me or them'

So yeah,I do believe like every breathing,living,human being,he has feelings,so yeah,this men,had empathy,he showed some in his 'YOU KNOW WHAT I HATE LIST' he mention that he hated people who 'are mean to animals,racists, puffy Daddy (who doesn't hate P Diddy right?) and talk about how he doesn't like people who hate someone just for being a foreign

Physical Symptoms

1. Sleep disturbances- Eric apparently had good nights of sleep,he even talked about one of his dreams to a girl once

2. Suicidal ideation- I don't think I have to explain this one due to the not so shocking news he is gone,but...yeah,Eric dont exactly mention it on his journal differently from Dylan,but he talks about find a bullet on his body in the basements tapes

The End

Well guys that was it,I just wanted to share my psychology knowledge as someone about to graduate college,If anyone have anything questions don't be shy to ask,let's end with skeleton Erickling,cause honestly he was to cute as a kid

[tussive]

Are there any tweaker misconceptions that you could debunk for us

I'm sorry that this took me so long to answer. I did want to think on it and then i did kind of forget about it and then i got called into work early and work was shit so it's just been one thing after another lol.

So, tweaker misconceptions. I'm not positive this is necessarily a misconception...though no I guess it kind of is. I think a lot of people have this idea that all tweakers are like, going to be a stereotypical tweaker. This is actually kind of interesting and something I have discussed with friends before and I don't know why it is. But even when you're doing like a lot or you're using regularly, like not everyone really becomes like a stereotypical tweaker.

Now, I think the longer you're regularly using recreational doses, the more likely it is to happen. But I have spoken with people who have been using for a long time and they aren't like that at all. Then I've spoken to people who y'know, have been going for like a week and it's like one of their first times doing it and they're already like doing tweaker shit. I don't know why it hits some people so fast and others just not really very much. Personally I never really got super tweak-y like that. Towards the end of me doing meth, I was going pretty hard. I was getting like at least half an ounce, usually an ounce, every month and sometimes more than an ounce even. And towards the end of that, I did definitely begin to get a bit paranoid. But it really is just kind of night and day compared to how some people will act.

I think another big one is that you can't use meth functionally. It's hard to do so, I do think a lot of people probably would never be able to. I certainly don't think I could. Believe me, I've fucked tried a lot lmao. But there are definitely people who can eat a bit in the morning or like do a line when they wake up and then maybe another line in the afternoon. I've even seen people who can smoke it and still be somewhat functional. Smoking definitely seems to lower that likelihood. I don't know if I've ever known anyone who IVs who did it and stayed functional...but I think part of that is probably just that if you're IVing meth, you're not looking for a functional experience I feel. Like you're trying to get high as fuck. So could somebody IV a small dose like once a day or something? I really have no idea, maybe.

I guess I kind of am just doing more meth misconceptions than tweaker misconceptions, so I'm sorry if these aren't really what you were looking for. I've never really fucked with tweakers all that much, honestly. Like I would browse the tweaker subreddits while I was on meth and I did enjoy seeing the crazy shit they'd say at times. But like in my personal life, I've almost always preferred the company of junkies to any other type of drug user.

But one misconception with meth is, I guess probably both how dangerous/addictive it is, as well as how not dangerous it is. So, like on one hand if you don't have some kind of like heart problem and you aren't doing like other stimulants or other things that are stressing your heart, it is pretty hard to just straight up overdose and die on meth. If you look online, you will find a bunch of stuff from medical journals about like, horrible experiences that people have gone through, but those are pretty rare. One of my problems with how dangerous it is portrayed, is that then when people do do it and see it's nothing like, insane, they will go the other way with it. Like you end up thinking like, "Oh it's not that bad at all."

Meth is very addictive, it is hard to use it responsibly, there are very much health concerns with using it. But I would say that one thing in particular that is worth keeping in mind, and this is true for "hard drugs" in general, not just meth, most people who try hard drugs do not go on to become addicted to them.

Umm, other misconceptions. I mean, I guess the usual stuff. Tweakers are obviously people, you should try to treat them with respect. Many people who do meth do use it, at least in part, to keep up with work or their home life or whatever. It is very good for that, so you may know people who do use it without ever knowing that they are users. Not everybody who uses meth is white trash or poor or whatever. Etc, etc.

Oh, I guess one last one would just be that tweakers are in fact in direct communication with god and it does imbue with you spiritual energy. This Reddit post actually explains the whole process pretty well imo.

[lysreadsbookssometimes]

I watched the finale of young royals and here are some of my rambles, collected while watching. Enjoy.

Spoilers!!!

So i didn't make it a minute, i paused at 00:59 because i could already feel the tears coming up. What the hell.

I honestly didn't expect the reactions to the closing to be that way. A lot of screaming and blaming? Sure. But August breaking down? Very in character, but unexpected.

I was especially surprised by Vincent going for a hug to calm him down. Really surprised me.

Felice is probably my favorite person in this show ngl

And they see each other from across the room, through the partying people, and we have come full circle back to the first episode. Honestly poetic. I love it.

August got redeemed. And although i am still rationally thinking about the consequences, emotionally it works. My emotional side thinks he's earned it. Somehow.

Felice and Sara making up is healing my soul

Nils finally coming out to his friends. No comments, just that.

They are wrapping everything up so beautifully in the first 30 mins. All the smaller things. The rush from the "last" everything, everybody finally getting their shit in order, all of it. Beautiful.

I am also insanely worried about what is going to happen now. I am writing this at timestamp 26:25 and the 30:53 of emotional damage on the other side of the progress bar is still staring at me. We'll see.

And the interaction between August and Sara just killed me. And its not even over. I had to pause so i could handle Augusts puppy eyes after the rejection. Judging from the big sip of cider i just took i was subconsiously rooting for them. I think i just want them to be happy. All of them. Even Sara and August.

Okay homebro is panicking so bad he PROPOSED, he is down BAD

Also the line "You love who you are when you are with me" was killer, oh my god

The last kiss. The wiping away the tears. "It will pass." Wound, Salt, and then they twist the knife.

But it is a fitting ending. It works. It fits their characters, their journeys. They wouldn't have worked out in the long run and they get their ending. Both heartbroken, but on their way to healing.

I love and hate the idea of "one last night together". It implies and ending i am still dreading. But they deserve to forget everything for a night.

I honestly didn't realize it was still sun out and it caught me off guard so bad (or is that a sunrise? I am so confused)

I don't have the scene on hand but i am pretty sure they framed the scene in the bed at the end of s3e5 the same way as them lying on the blanket (?) here. Super interesting visual storytelling.

(Small detail here, i recently had a crash course on tv journalism and a big part of that was scenes and pictures, thats why i pay so much attention to the visual language here)

The entire lake scene is beautifully shot. The way they have mirroring motions (like brushing hair out of Willes face) in different perspectives, the way the water is shot, the entire calmness of all of it. And then they have these emotional conversations under it that build up these emotions, with these big pauses in speech, drawing out this bit of retrieve from everything.

The way they show Simon swimming away, the distance between them, when they speak about exactly that.

And how they go from Wille sitting at the lake, watching Simon swim, being physically not in the same thing as him (the lake), Simon swimming away, and then the cut over to him alone in his bed.

Beautiful, artistic storytelling.

Also fucking heartbreaking, i am nearly crying already and there are 23 minutes and 54 seconds left to completely destroy me.

I am clutching to the hope that twenty minutes are left to figure everything out and that that would be too long for this to be the end. Twenty minutes, 30% of the finale, cannot and will not be the epilogue, i dont think thats likely and i also refuse to believe that.

Okay, Stella and Frederika are finally together, at least some of my sanity is clutching on. I literally yelled "fuck yeah" and punched the air.

Henry and Valter (i hope i spelled that right) together in the fields also makes me happy. I know they were shipped a lot and although I am not a religious shipper of them, i am rooting for them. Go them.

Wille taking down the pictures could also be taking the happiness out of my heart. Whats wrong with the showrunners for making us do this rollercoaster?!?!

Also him taking off Erik and him before Simon and him. Beautiful.

OH MY GOD THE BIRTHDAY GIFT

I am not prepared. Not at all. Oh my god.

Is that like a farewell? Or a "stay with me"?

Not ready. Will press play though and hug my pillow expectantly.

I made it like three seconds. WILLES SONG?!?!?!!?!?

Wille walking through Hillerska. Seeing all those spots. All those memories.

EVERYONE TAKING DOWN PICTURES. THE GOODBYES.

THE SONG. THE SONG.

Don't let them make you hide yourself.

The callback to the football field.

"WE WERE NEVER WHAT WAS WRONG" !!!!!

All the callbacks. "I could be free" was from the "he would give up the crown for you" scene, if i recall correctly. Simon is revisiting every moment in their story.

"'Cause we were a revolution" WHY IS THIS IN PAST TENSE? NO. NO!

It shouldn't be a revolution to love another.

That quote itself. Then showing August and Sara. Back to Wille.

What is slightly concerning to me is that they haven't shown Simon yet. His voice is singing, but they show everyone but him. (Sara was on the picture, i count that, but he is nowhere. Just a ghost of memories.)

"You were my revolution before it fell apart" I'M SORRY JUST TAKE MY HEART, BREAK IT AND STOMP ON IT. SURE, GO AHEAD, DIDN'T NEED IT ANYWAY

(sorry, this shit is getting to me)

(Although, you apparently read this far through my chaos, so honestly your fault)

(Still cool you're still here)

THE SNOW GLOBE. IN THE TRASH. BROKEN. DISCARDED.

Now, are we discarding Erik or are we discarding broken and damaged things? Like this relationship? fucking tell me i am losing it here

Wille looking at August after he officially graduated. I can't read his look. And i am so confused to the situation and emotions here. Because last time they were drunk, now they are sober and both their relationships with the Erikssons are basically over. That is an interesting dynamic.

SIMONS SONG INSTEAD OF THE CLASSIC HILLERSKA HYMN. SIMONS SONG ABOUT LOVING WILLE. THE ENTIRE REVOLUTION.

Wille standing alone. Then seeing his parents, behaving different from the other parents, but at least being there.

His mom trying. The hug.

And i am finally crying. These breaks to write down my thoughts have kept this at bay so far, but a mother trying and asking for forgiveness has finally broken me. (I should bring this up with my therapist)

Wille going after Simon. And his mother smiling at that.

The heartbeat in the background. After "I never gave up on us." Hope.

WHY ARE YOU SAYING GOODBYE

YOU STILL HAVE THIRTEEN MINUTES TO FIGURE IT OUT

And again Wille is telling Simon to enjoy a holiday. It was christmas. Now its the summer holidays.

But no "i love you"s. Just a heartbeat.

Simon leaving. Again.

And Wille is hesitating. I swear the heartbeat is speeding up. He is hesitating.

And i find myself yelling at the tv for him to finally move and go after him. Fight for him. Fight for them.

Fucking move. Get your man.

And this idiot walks physically backwards. Back to society and his parents, away from his love.

Fuck me, he called Simon the love of his life. And maybe he's young and doesn't know better. But i am not much older and am fairly sure someone would not say that if they didnt mean it. SO BETTER FUCKING GO AFTER HIM.

WHY ELSE WOULD THE HEARTBEAT BE THERE? i mean i am not a medical expert but i am pretty sure that was not one heartbeat, that sounded off. I hope it was two, two hearts and their beats, two lives entangled.

Felice and Sara are actively healing my soul. I am pretty sure i have written that sentence earlier but i refuse to check.

Also Wille being uncomfortable in the car. He should have run after Simon, than he wouldnt be, change my mind.

"You will be a fantastic king."

What if i don't want that?

Ladies, Gentlemen and friends of other assorted genders: FUCKING FINALLY

An honest, open, (somewhat) calm conversation. The one thing they have needed for three seasons. We finally have it. Finally.

The visual conflict of emotions in the queen. The motherly pride and concern for her child and the disappointment and fear of the monarch losing their heir. It's brilliant acting.

The realization on Augusts face hitting him when he sees Wilhelm leave.

The shaky camera as Wille is looking around, searching. The camera was steady in the car, a bit shaky around August, and now it is full on wobbling around. It is a panic, with the music, the emotions swelling.

And then he runs. And yells. And the camera gets steadier.

The regret in his face when he can't keep up anymore. And then the hope when he sees the car stop.

The relief in Willes voice when he tells Simon. And the pain in Simons eyes. Slowly morphing into hope.

The distance between them. When Wille was coming clean, they showed the faces, not the distance between them. Just that they were talking face to face. Now, as Wille asks, if Simon is done with him, they show this distance between them.

Simon starting to smile.

And now, paused, my brain moving faster than i can type, i was wondering why he was sitting in the backseat. They must have someone else in the car. And you can see Felice peeking through the rear window.

And the way they kiss. Passionately. Not holding back. Finally free.

All their moments. Their story. Their love. Finally, them saying i love you. To each other. In the open. Free. Declaring themselves. Together.

And Wille coming with them. Their little found family. Them whoooing in the car, like they did on that night at the football game on the motor bikes.

Them being happy.

And then that final look in the camera. Finally happy, finally free.

Cut to black.

Okay, that was absolutely brilliant.

I loved it, every second of it. It was a beautiful way of wrapping everything up, a happy ending at last. For everyone.

August becomes king. Or whatever. We dont care.

Sara and Felice make up. Are friends again. Are free together.

Felice finds herself outside of money and in people. In her friends.

Sara realizes she has people that care for her and see her as she is. She finds happiness in platonic love, not romantic.

Simon and Wille end up together, overcome their differences. Find a way.

Simon has his love and reconsiled with his sister. He can be true to himself and created his song, his music. Music that touches others, Music that others like.

And Wilhelm got out of that system that caused him so much pain. He got closure, threw away the snow globe, quit being royalty. He is free, the one thing he wanted all this time. Be happy, be himself, be free.

Sometimes family is a former crown prince, his musician boyfriend, a neurodivergent horse girl and the worlds best best friend.

[I think this is the point where i thank you for reading all this. I am going to post this without reading it a second time to keep myself surprised and not edit any reactions. But i hope the rambling made some sense. Thank you!]

[ryuichirou]

If the twst boys go to a regular, non magic college in our world, what do you think their majors would be?

This is an interesting question, Anon, and it was surprisingly difficult to come up with majors for some of them. I’m not sure some of the boys would even be interested in getting higher education, and also spoiler alert we have a lot of business people out there lol But I tried to make it as interesting as I could.

I’ll also note that it’s a bit difficult to speak about this in English, because I don’t know what certain majors are called and what kind of options there are, so I’m sorry if I name some of these incorrectly.  

Riddle – this one is easy, he would go to medschool! This is what his mother and father want for him after all. But he wanted to study law…

Ace – something that he isn’t very interested in, something that’s like “I guess that’d be a good major to build a career in the future”. He is the type that either drops out or pushes through despite being super disinterested in his major and kind of annoyed by the whole thing. Business? PR? Management? Something that sounds impressive but that’s about it.

Deuce – honestly I can’t see him as anything other than a police school student. He wants to get a good education, but if there is an opportunity for him to go straight to action and prove himself to be a better person, he’ll dive right into it. Maybe Ace will join him?..

Trey – culinary school is an easy answer, but Trey really seems to love this field, so he’d probably study to become a pastry chef. Well, he would become one either way, but Trey would probably try to learn as many traditional and innovative techniques as he can to actually improve.

Cater –  I’d say PR, he just has the vibes of a PR student. I’ve seen those lol Cater isn’t really passionate about it, but hey, it’s a good place to make connections. Also!! Maybe journalism. Yeah, that makes more sense.

Leona – Public Administration or anything Politics related. He would do better as a Philosophy/History major, but he would go with the default option for his family.

Ruggie – he would google best majors for a lucrative career lol So maybe some kind of Business/Management, but also anything Tech related is super lucrative, so he might at least try to apply there. But also also, nursing is apparently on the list of good major options in that sense, so he might actually try that. To be a private nurse for some rich old fart seems like an easy deal for him.

Jack – I’m sorry, I can’t think of anything other than him being a skiing instructor, and I don’t think one needs to have a major for that career path… is there some crucial part of Jack lore that I’m missing?

Azul – oh, Business/Marketing. Specifically something related to owning and running a restaurant or a hotel. But at the same time he could also study Law and even go to the Culinary school… Azul is absolutely going to take all the extra courses that he possibly can.

Jade and Floyd – probably Business as well, both because they could hang out with Azul and because their pops actually wanted them to study there. But if they had full freedom to pick whatever major they want, Jade would probably either study Botany or Pharma. And Floyd would pick his major randomly, because he’d be equally good/bad at anything he picks, and he’d get bored by it in a week anyway lol

Kalim – also Business??? Since his family is a merchant family, there are a lot of things Kalim needs to learn. But he would rather study something that’s more easy and fun… something related to art!

Jamil – realistically, either Business or PR. But that’s too many business PR people woah, so ehhh I guess… you know what? Psychology. I can’t even explain this one, but Jamil would absolutely benefit from studying it + I think it would actually be interesting for him.

Vil – acting/film/theatre school sounds like a given, but I feel like Vil would avoid those for some reason (and if you asked him, he would give you a rant about his reasons); so instead it’s going to be either a Fashion major or anything Chemical Engineering/Pharma related. He wants to get better at his craft, but he also wants to learn new things.

Rook – this guy is full of surprises, he could go anywhere and succeed, he’s perfect in arts and in science. I feel like he would pick science though, so any kind of Science major, maybe also Chemical Engineering. But also? A part of me wants to make him a Sociologist because he is hella nosy like all the sociologists are (me included).

Epel – this one puzzles me… if you think about it logically, he might pick something that could be useful for his family, but then we’re entering the Business territory again and it’s way too crowded lol  Plus, I don’t think Epel would go for that one. I actually… have no idea?? Wow this is embarrassing… He’d go for something totally masculine though, like being a carpenter, but for some reason would end up in stuff like fashion without realising how hard it actually is lol 

Idia and Ortho – easy, IT or any other tech-related major. But they would also probably be too good for school, because Idia is a genius and Ortho learned from him (if he isn’t a robot in this universe…). That being said, Idia would probably finish a 6 years course in like half a year and get his degree almost instantly, and Ortho could drop out at some point and switch to the Film major instead. 

Lilia – my first thought is that “he wouldn’t go to school”, but actually? He could spend a couple of years studying anthropology, I feel like it would be a fascinating field to him, and not as upsetting as history.

Silver – whatever father picks for him. But also probably nursing and no it’s not related to the previous reply that we’ve just posted 😭 I just think Silver would be legitimately good at it.

Sebek – this one goes straight to the military school lol But if I have to pick a major for him, let’s go with Communications just because he has to learn some, please Sebek!

Malleus – I think he would either study fine arts/history of art or something vague like philosophy or any type of social studies. He is better at grasping concepts than understanding other human beings, so it might actually be interesting to him. Or he could go the history of art major route and just stare at gargoyles for 4-6 years.

[moonlights-fandom-hell]

At this point, the hazbin/helluva critical community has fallen flat. And when I say that, I mean that it lacks potential. Like, I thought we were criticizing about the characters and the show itself. I thought we were talking about it's issues and what Viv could approve on it. But now, these people are just targeting fans of Viv's show who are just going on about their day, taking screenshots of harmful posts and posting it on the critical blog just to shit on them. You can't even consider that "critical" now when you're just being an asshole. They wonder why Viv and her fans think the critics are so bad. On top of that, these people love to make assumptions about Viv harassing Gooseworx all because she's a "terrible person" like please stfu. "She probably did this" and they don't even have any proof. Maybe consider that Viv actually enjoys tadc and it's success? What is all of this "viv is mad because the amazing digital circus is more successful than her shitty shows"? I dunno, man. That critical community is just so fucking dumb and stupid. They're not even talking about the shows anymore. They just bitch and fuss about everything.

For real, I had never seen such a critical community this much of a train wreck as the fandom is.

I mean hell, I engaged with the SVTFOE community before (and that show has the EXACT same problems as Helluva boss) and the critical blogs were very chill.

I feel like what didn’t help is how immature and unprofessional Vivziepop acts publicly. But at the same time…. I can’t really blame her for getting defensive when these antis dogpile her on everything.

And yes, the screenshots making fun of harmless posts of fans were red flags to me. Like dude, we have rabid fans and Stans do that to us, why the hell are you stopping to their level??? (I’m not gonna include the voodoo controversy because that to me needed to be talked about. A lot of POC fans and criticals had every right to discuss that and Viv should had given an apology or explanation over that. With closed religions that always got stereotypes due to colonizers, you need to be careful when writing about them. )

Oh God don’t get me started on the whole Vivziepop and Gooseworks relationship assumptions… that actually annoyed me too and I’m sure there’s no bad blood with them. I get she had bad blood with Tracey and possibly Ashley, but I don’t think it’s fair to assume she’s like this with every indie creator.

Honestly, its both of their fandoms that are acting unhinged. But I even seen hardcore fans of Viv like Dani praising TADC and Gooseworks, so I doubt the whole fandom are planning to sabotage them. TADC isn’t a rain full of sunshine either, they too have so much bad apples there.

Also my big issue with this community I’ve noted some critical blogs that claim they wanna make an original series (well one already made a webcomic) but they NEVER stop bitching about Viv and go on and on how they never do this to their project… unmmm dude? If you constantly compare your project to Viv’s, your gonna lose your audience this way. This can make you come off as an a logger and a very petty person to others. Trust me, this is NOT going to make people want to be interested in your original projects.

It’s also very unprofessional to do this publicly. I get looking at bad writing motivates you how to not to things… but the constant comparing is going to make you look like a very petty person to your outside audience. And they feel like your project won’t have agency on its own without being “better than Helluva/Hazbin.” I say this because I too am working on an indie project I want to make to a webcomic. And I REALLY don’t wanna ruin my reputation that way.

That’s what Zeartist did when he made his shitty ass books and would constantly hitch and whine about twilight on his life journals. And he would always bring up his original series and how it’s “better” and how he wouldn’t write such garbage like Stephanie Meyer.

And guess what???? His books are just twilight 2.0 but even worse 😂😂😂 he ended up doing the exact same thing stephanie did, bitches out over criticism, and yeah a huge hypocritical asshat.

That’s why constantly comparing your project to another person’s to seen as better is NOT a smart idea. Please have some self awareness there if your actually planning to make a webcomic or an original series.

Also… I’ve noticed people that have beautiful startled would waste it on blind hatred. Like that “I HAtE VIVZIEPOP” blog. Like godamn, their art is beautiful but they had an unhealthy hate obsession with Viv… why waste your energy on that when you can make something better?

I’m not talking about rewrites, AUs, or redesigns because to me those are like fanfics and for fun. The stuff I do is mainly just for fanfic fun and a writing/world building exercise for me. But also a little bit of self indulgence since I sitll admire Viv’s characters. You can enjoy something without giving your support to the actual creator. I’m trying to show my support to the team behind it.

(I’m even planning to buy fan merch from one of the clean up artists on their shop. To me it’s the ethical way of getting Hazbin/Helluva merch without directly giving it to Viv but to her artists instead. )

[lamareeetlerivage]

Miss Marie! What do you think of the others?

Oh!!!!!!!! I've seen the others doing this kind of thing!!! I'd be glad to answer~

Dongbaek, dear Sinner #1 as she is, she's not that outspoken. Though I've tended to notice those not prone to speaking are quite the introspectives, and she's no different~ I quite enjoy the conversation I have with her! She also makes for a great debate partner, should it come to that.

Gretchen, our second Sinner... Quite the figure, really. I don't suppose I go out of my way to speak with her often. Quite the knowledgeable one, though!!

Sinner the Third, Don Quixote—he's eccentric in a completely different fashion to nigh anyone else I've met. Quite the character, he is!! He's a bit much sometimes, but I do enjoy the tales he indulges himself in aboard the bus. He's extravagant—it's like a breath of fresh air, his presence.

Yuzuki, Sinner #4, and I have an... odd relationship? I like her, don't get me wrong!!! She's a good girl at heart. But that relationship we share—I get maternal instincts watching over her. She worries me, she does. But I know she's strong nonetheless. Worst comes to worst, she can hold her own, and I have her back. And—well, with the whole, ah... complicated mess—she has a flame in her eyes that rarely, if ever, goes out. It's inspiring and terrifying. I'd like to meet the woman who raised her one day—she has to be quite the figure to raise a girl like Yuzu. I aspire to be like that if I ever have a child of my own, honestly.

Just because I'm going down the list, next is me!! Sinner #5. Marie. Generally, I do like myself—ooh, and Rivage!! Beautiful thing, she is~ Never failed me a day in my life. But for more... personal traits.... I think I'm good at rallying spirit. Does that make sense? And the others think kindly of me, I believe. Though, uhm... oh, oh! The others sometimes treat me as something to recap past events, what with my journaling and all. Granted, I, um... the journals themselves haven't lived that long until recently, so.... They're moreso relying on my memory. Not a bad thing, though!! Helps me refresh. Keep things in my mind.

Our sixth Sinner, Jia Xichun.... She's quite something. Hmm.... She's blunt at times—sometimes too blunt—and I don't think that'll change any time soon.... Still, I appreciate that down-to-earth quality. Helps with variety in the bus~

... Sinner #7. Cathy. She's... interesting. I... see myself in her, to some degree. Though we've led drastically different lives, I feel I can still relate my own experience to her. Her turn was... something. It... hurt to watch. I refrain to say anything specific, but.... I wish she'd feel free to approach me with anything that might bother her. I don't want her to still be hurting. She's grown since then, but... no, I don't have more to say. Overall, I do like her as a person.

Queequeg, Sinner the Eighth. She's scary!!! But in, um... a good way? Her vocabulary's a bit stifled, but I think that gives her a perspective rare few else have. I like listening to her voice, too. It has a calming quality to it.

Sonya, our ninth Sinner, is quite the playful boy. A bit annoying at times, but nothing bad. I've noticed he's been a lot happier lately with his boyfriend, and that's quite good for him.

Our dearest manager, the tenth Sinner, Jane Doe, Dante, whatever moniker you wish to give—she's amazing. She endures through pain over and over again, all for us—she's the best, simply put. Granted, her situation is strange, so her choice in the matter is... dubious at best? But that doesn't matter too bad. She does her most for us, and it's quite admirable. I do my best to help her out in return. It's the main way I show her my appreciation asides from hugging her to death.

Sinner #11, Kromer.... She's changed. Grown. It's been quite the experience to watch her. She's quite the force of nature in battle. Sometimes she doesn't know how to stop.... I'll admit, she worries me. And scares me. She does both. And she has quite the commanding presence when she wants to. It's a quality I lack, for one. Having that level of intimidation in a snap is incredible to me. Though I haven't seen it in her as of late.... It's part of the changes she's going through as a person, I'm sure. I hope she continues to find herself on this journey as we all do. She's become softer around some of the others, and having people you can turn to in difficult times is a good thing, I'd say. Trust is rare to come by in the city, so I'm glad she's fostered such bonds with the others.

Penelope, Sinner #12, being the only mother on the bus, is quite the comforting personality to have around. She's a bit volatile sometimes, I'll grant—out of an intense sense of longing, from what I've gathered. But the thing is that she pushes through regardless, pushes through as we all do. The level of vulnerability she has when discussing her past is a bit concerning, but I hope that, despite it all, she'll be okay. Also her bow is really cool.

And last but not least of the Sinners, Yuri, the thirteenth aboard the bus. I, um... I'll admit, I still feel apologetic for hijacking her blog. But regardless!!!!! As a person, she's... probably one of the most normal personalities...? Not that she's a normal person—her history far excludes her from that—but she presents rather stable? She reminds me of myself, down to her fervent desire for... ahem. And I consider myself to be mostly a normal person, so.... I'm aware of her internal struggles, though. While I might not understand the minute details, the overall gesture shows she still has a long way to go.

And um.... Argalia. He's... someone, I suppose. Another eccentric figure, more musically inclined.... I haven't found it in myself to take that much of an interest in him. He's... strange? You know, you'd expect someone to have more feelings than this about their coworker, but I just... don't. And I think that's fine. Apathy is a valid emotion, just as all others.

[starsurfacemortalkombat]

Mk1 Kuai Liang :-)

I thought so, so I wrote allllll of this just in case!! :D

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

Regressor Kuai Liang Hcs

🔥 Regresses to about 3-6

🔥 He's usually really calm and collective, mostly to balance out Bi-Han

🔥 But small? Oh boy

🔥 He adores running around, play wrestling anyone who'll let him

🔥 (^ You might need to remind him that he's really strong sometimes because he has accidently hurt others because of this before)

🔥 He fights dirty too, bites when he's loosing >:(

🔥 Basically, play wrestling is only for people who know he fights dirty and might fight really rough and are able to overpower him

🔥 But he likes a lot of things!!

🔥 Loves coloring, giving his pretty pictures for you to put on the fridge

🔥 Main CGs are Tomas and Harumi (SHES MY MOTHER, NO HATING ON HER PLEASE!!!!)

🔥 Also Bi-Han but Kuai Liang likes testing Bi-Han and most times he accidently slips too and Kuai Liang feels bad (he'll still go to Bi-Han some times though)

🔥 I could totally see him enjoying Kung Lao as a babysitter

🔥 ^ He keeps up with his energy, going from peaceful coloring, to having to dive over the table to dodge Kuai Liang's tackle

🔥 Will try to crawl on top of things to get things, like a cup or something

🔥 But also so that you can't catch him >:3

🔥 You need to tell him that he's too small and it's too dangerous to be up there and to please get down

🔥 He doesn't like getting in trouble, so he will get down very quickly

🔥 Oh boy, his hissy fits though

🔥 Not even hissy fits, full blown tantrums

🔥 He has the powers and anger of Scorpion, although very rarely do his powers activate when he's yelling and screaming

🔥 These moments can be very scary honestly, but you need to cross your arms and stare at him while he's sitting on the ground yelling

🔥 Very quickly he'll look up at you and realize he was naughty over something like going to bed, and now he feels not only upset, but embarrassed

🔥 Will sit on the naughty step and apologize very fast when his time is up, he doesn't want you to be mad anymore, please don't be mad

🔥 He's usually very good, it's only tantrums that get him flared up and it's never actually your fault

🔥 It starts with the fact he has to go to bed, but then it's about the entire fact that he'll always be the second son and gets upset that he'll never be able to make his own decision and all the bad things that have happened these weeks will pile up all at once

🔥 ^ To fix the entire fact that he lets things build, encouraging journaling and more communication

🔥 He might ask you to help spell some words if he's journaling while small, but it does really help him in the long run

🔥 It also helps him talk about his problems a little more because now they're on paper and he knows what's really making him upset

🔥 He also really likes journaling because he he can make his personal journal all pretty and his own little design

🔥 Please get hkm stickers to help decorate it, it would mean the world to him 🥺

🔥 Again, normally he's very good unless he's having a tantrum, and his most preferred punishment is the naughty step

🔥 But you HAVE to speak with him afterwards about the situation because he does honestly feel terrible about it, especially if he burnt the floor or something

🔥 Doesn't like the naughty step if he broke a rule or something, he'd rather try to fix it

🔥 Just because he's usually good, doesn't mean he isn't chaotic

🔥 Likes to try and show off his powers while little

🔥 You gotta stop him almost immediately because he has burnt stuff in the past (no one yet though, thankfully)

🔥 Likes helping you out with things like dinner or cleaning

🔥 He can't actually do much, but he enjoys the praise you give him when he's good

🔥 Might get a big jealous if your giving another regressor attention

🔥 Wha- Your HIS CG!!! Why isn't he getting your undivided attention?? >:(

🔥 He won't say anything out loud, especially since he knows others need someone at times too, but he'll poutingly attach himself to your hip and hide in your neck

🔥 Really likes cuddles and is really happy when it's winter because he gets all the cuddles!!!

🔥 But when it's summer? It kinda sucks because he already runs warm and no one wants to hug something warm . . . 🥺

🔥 If you do, however, he'll be super thankful and draw you a pretty picture and try to make your favorite snack (or something that only needs the microwave)

🔥 Favorite little nicknames would be Firestarter, Shooting Star, Sweetie, Little One, Squirt, and Baby

🔥 He's a pretty responsible regresser most times

🔥 The littler he is, the more dependant he is

🔥 But the bigger he is, he reminds you when it's dinner time or can work the remote

🔥 Man is a wiggle worm, he's always doing something with his hands or is doing an activity

🔥 Oh my gosh arts and crafts are his favorite!!!!

🔥 Coloring, making bracelets, painting, anything he can do that he can make something

🔥 Mostly likes making things so he can give them to friends as little thank you’s or just because he wants to give them gifts

🔥 Hanzo doesn't exactly understand age regression, but he still likes hanging out with Kuai Liang and Tomas when they're small

🔥 (^ Encourages every and all bad/naughty decision they wanna make, thinks it's so funny)

🔥 . . . Until Harumi gets mad at HIM instead for ‘corrupting’ her babies, unfair 😒

🔥 But honestly, Kuai Liang is usually a very sweet little that just wants to relax and be a kid again

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

Stop- He deserves to feel like a kid again after all he's been through. I love him. 🥺

[shit-talk-turner]

I'm on the fence whether Bad Disease is solely about Alex but the lyrics: "Oh the power of the man with the switchblade comb", "He always says, I couldn't manage you on my own" is pretty convincing.

Alexandra has said this song was the most 'challenging' to write on The Archer and is also one of her favourites lyrically. There definitely seems to be bad blood between her and Alex, it's clear at least professionally she wasn't happy about how things went down. I don't know if any of you have read the AMA she did on Reddit for her 2nd album but some of her answers make it obvious how she feels about him.

One asked what's the biggest difference between the 1st and 2nd album she said: "I was alone.", Another asked what happened to her partnership with Alex, she said: -.__- (a crying face), She told one questioner the themes of the new album are "manipulation, abuse, rejection and growth." There was a question that asked how her personal process differed for the 2nd album and she answered "Yeah it was a lot less pressure making this record, I had more say and more freedom of expression" She also said this "I was very insecure while writing my first record, and I was co-writing so I used a lot of techniques to shelter my own opinions and feelings, in The Archer it was just me, so it was more of a journal entry than a big fancy record." Someone asked her why she didn't work with Alex and James again she responded with this: -_- Another was when someone asked her why BoS didn't get a 'proper promotional run' she replied "I can't really say, but I don't think I was ever gonna make the kind of $$$ Columbia wanted"

I feel bad for her honestly, sounds like it was a difficult time and that she was going through it for a time after. She's talented and I like her music, her voice especially it's sad she felt she had to fight to be heard or feels she has to prove she is an artist in her own right and didn't rely on someone else to 'make her'.

I think if 'Bad Disease' is about Alex she is describing him as having an abundance of charm and allure "His jacket calls me with obsidian blade" She seems to be seduced by him as a person "I drank the Venom....Made it my life mission to feel that again" He also exudes power "The ground he walks upon reigns to dust" She is aware that he has a power over her too and that she doesn't always agree with but finds herself helpless to resisting him and his ways. "He's got a bad disease, I think it's rubbin off on me, he's got spider silk hands, I think I've fallen into them."

Yeah we think all the allusions to the charm, mystique, charisma and power have Alex written all over them

[tiramegtoons]

WOW another mutual birthday jumpscare it all happens so soon- congratulations on the survival of another lengthy trip around the sun! Hopefully I manage to place this art into the ask box while you are sleeping, then everyone will be blissfully unaware until the morning of mwahaha! I’m sure you’ll receive many other wonderful wishes as the day progresses, because you’ve clearly got a lotta people who care about you >:D

Obviously I don’t know you personally but I’m glad to have the opportunity to interact with your posts online! And in those brief interactions I can tell you are a very chill & respectful person. So I sincerely hope that the next upcoming months will be kind to you as you are kind to others. Because you definitely deserve to enjoy it. As is probably obvious, this here art is themed after your own blogs Subcon banner because I think it’s very nice design. Hope you don’t mind I took inspiration. Happy Birthday!

WHATUDDJEJFJBRJRFJDH

OH MY GOSH THANK YOU!!

(You remembered?? Why did you remember…

Why am I here…)

YOU

YOU IM GONNA EXPLODE YOU(again)

You and your dastardly plans

Darn you

Hdjdjdjfjdj

And Oh come oooon,

Don’t say that.

You really want me get sheepish in front of all these people??/j

Thank you so .. so much, that’s very sweet.< :]

Hope you know there’s people thinking about you too(including myself). And I think you deserve so very much. You’re always giving others such kind and carefully curated tags and comments over others posts and content.

And honestly, between you and me, I don’t really think myself to be a completely good person. Snatcher might have infected my brain, or I could just be stating the obvious. Everyone has parts of themselves they don’t like or admit to.

But hey, I suppose today I should acknowledge and celebrate all those things. Good and bad.

But hold up

Let’s talk about this lovely artwork here shall we?

First of all,

*SOBS*

MYGODWHYFFDJVJTHISISAEEEAAAA

Second of all,

THE BACKGROUND IS SO BEAUTIFULLY COLORED AND BLENDED I wanna drown myself in it!!! GRAAAAAAAA

also one of the best things I love about Subcon is the glowy mushrooms 🍄

ALSO OMG you got some of my favorite things in here

Ya got Morrigan, my sky kid, moon jumper, Black Dahlia, my toonsona, moonjumper and of course, the noodely main course himself EHEHEHEH

Also how do you know I journal?

(I’m so scared rn/j)

Or wait am I drawing…

IN A SPIRAL notebook??

HOW DID YOU-

(IM GOING TO FIND YOU/j)

Also how do you know I look this pensive while I’m doing it?

Wow..

*in a dangerously low voice*

Someone’s put a lot of thought into this, haven’t they?

(I’m really going to go nuclear on you now)

AAAAAAAAAAAA THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!!

I’m gonna die now/j