#honestly i cant do it w astrology

[bedforddanes75]

just saw someone call astrology 'space racism' pls i cant do this

[obbystars]

Farewell to All the Earthly Remains

Synopsis: He loved them. That’s why he had to make this decision no matter how much it hurt. It was for the better. This was how it should’ve been.

Notes: OC-insert / Pressure OC / Oberon Sol x GN!Reader / can’t believe i wrote that… / pre-pressure Oberon / talk about death / fluff leading to angst, no happy ending / reader is dying, cause is left open for interpretation / some scenes are based on recent game stuff I’ve been doing on roblox / if anyone knows what the title is referencing ily forever / oberon lore!

Credits: dividers by @cafekitsune

(here’s the oberon x reader i promised you 😭😭 i cant believe im doing this but hey, oberon lore and you get to know a little more about him so win i guess. i have been wanting to write more for him tbh. i don’t think i’ll put him on the list since he’s like… my oc, yknow? i think it’ll be more of like a treat? not everyone knows who he is so yeah.)

Every now and then, there was a young man who’d sit on the bench by the tree as a crow or two had hung around him. Sometimes there were three, sometimes four. He seemed to always have food for them, and every time, not a moment too soon, the crows would be there waiting for him. Then, while the crows went on about their day, he’d simply people-watch his time away.

He’d almost never actually speak to anyone who passed by unless they spoke to him first. Sometimes, those people scared off the crows, but sometimes they stayed. Sometimes the children who pass by want to play with the crows, and he’d have to tell them how they should handle them. Sometimes, people would observe from afar. They would admire, question, maybe even feel a little uncomfortable knowing what crows tend to represent.

A bad omen. An impending change. An unexpected change. Death.

Maybe sometimes it looked a little unsettling, but that didn’t seem to stop you from watching from afar. Every time he was there, whether alone or someone had him preoccupied, you’d watch him and try to build up your courage to talk to him.

You slowly approached him from behind, but you didn’t get very close as the man turns around and crows suddenly flew away. Only now did you realize his eyes are red. His eyes had widened and looked back to the crows. A part of him seemed a bit startled and sad that the crows left.

“I’m sorry! I didn’t mean to scare them off,” you quickly apologized.

When he looked back to you, he smiled, “It’s alright. They always come back anyway. They just need to get to know you, that’s all,”

You nervously laughed, “Is it alright if I sit with you?”

“Of course. I don’t mind at all. I don’t think they mind too much either,”

He’s referring to the crows. Either way, you were still nervous as you sat down next to him.

“I believe it is considered rude to sneak up on someone the way you did,” he suddenly adds.

You immediately tensed, “I-I didn’t mean to be rude! I just didn’t know how I should approach you and I’m honestly not very good at this kind of stuff and-!”

He laughs, cutting you off, “Please, don’t stress yourself over such things. I understand not everyone can start a conversation with a stranger, but maybe it’s not the best first impression, yes?”

“You’re right. I’m sorry,”

“Let’s start over then. My name is Oberon,”

You looked at him and smiled, “[Name], it’s nice to meet you,”

At this point, one of the crows came back. It was like they were testing the waters and slowly walking closer. Then another came back, and then another.

“If you don’t mind me asking… Did you happen to be named after a moon?” You bring up to try and keep the conversation going. Although, maybe it wasn’t the best thing to bring up.

“Oh? Do you happen to be interested in astrology?”

“Yeah, kind of,”

“You’d be correct then. My name came from a moon of Uranus,”

More crows came back and both of your attentions had been redirected to them. Oberon seemed to have more food for them and began to give all of them their share. One of the crows eventually made their way up to his shoulder while another had went to perch on his hand. The others were either on the bench or interacting with each other on the grass.

“Did you name any of them?”

He lets out a faint laugh, “If I did, I would grow too attached to them. I figured it’d be best if I didn’t. They are still wild animals, after all,”

“That’s true. You can’t really cage a wild animal,” you continued to watch the crows seemingly all accept Oberon as one of their own.

It looked rather strange. It was like a variation of the ones who would be surrounded by pigeons.

…you feel so awkward. He was welcoming and didn’t mind company or a conversation, but it felt so difficult to talk to him. You kept your hands on your lap, completely tense. You dragged yourself into this, and it’d be even more awkward if you just decided to bail now. Maybe even embarrassing.

Oberon suddenly holds a few seeds to you, “Do you want to try feeding them?”

“H-Huh? Are you sure?”

“You’re tense. Maybe this can help you relax,”

You look at him for a moment, then down at the seeds. The crows already looked interested, but seeing as you were there too, they didn’t go for it. With a shaky hand, you accepted to try it.

“Take a deep breath and relax yourself,” he continues, “Avert your gaze, let the birds know you’re not a threat to them. They’ll know the food’s safe. They’ll warm up to you,”

You did as he said. You calmed yourself as you stared out towards the field. You can hear the crows making small noises. It was like they were discussing if they should trust you or not. You can see a crow in the corner of your eye inching closer and closer to your hand before it snatches up a seed and moves back.

It was silent, and then another decided to try it too.

“See? They’re not going to hurt you. They just want to talk,”

You blinked and turned to Oberon. He was talking to the crow on his hand. Before you knew it, the other crows had already taken all of the seeds you had. You did feel more relaxed, but they still seemed cautious about you. Trust with birds doesn’t come easy after all.

One had suddenly come up to your blind spot and cawed at you. When they see you jump slightly, it jumps off and onto the ground to join the others. It was like they were laughing. You can hear Oberon holding back his laughter, and you couldn’t help but laugh yourself.

The two of you would continue talking for a while. Time was practically lost. The crows would eventually start moving away, some even leaving. Oberon seems to take that as a sign and stands up.

“I suppose that’s time, then,”

“Off to do other stuff?”

“By stuff, it’s mostly work,” he admits, “Lots of work to do. This was just my own little break,”

You pulled out your phone to check the time, but then you hesitantly asked, “Do you think we can stay in contact? I’d love to talk more if that’s okay…?”

He looked at you with a surprised expression, but he still smiled, “I’d love that. Would same time tomorrow suffice?”

“Oh, yeah!” You nodded.

“I’ll see you tomorrow then, [Name],”

You watched him leave and observed the remaining crows who stayed behind. There was one who lingered closer to you and sort of pecked at your shoes. Maybe you’ll come here on your own time just for the birds as well.

You and Oberon have been meeting up quite frequently the past few weeks. Sometimes it was during his routine of feeding his corvids, while others were a bit sudden as you had run into each other. This time, you two ran into each other in a dessert buffet. It had just opened a few days ago and you found the time to have a look, and it seems like he had the same idea.

“To be honest, I didn’t expect you to be into sweets,”

“D-Do I really give off such an impression?” He stuttered, “I try to make it a habit to eat different kinds of food. I was hoping maybe this buffet could have something new,”

You smiled, “I think I heard they have quite a variety of treats. I wonder what kind of cake they have,”

“I’m hoping that they have a red velvet cake. I’ve never tried it before,”

“I’m pretty sure they do. I saw a video of someone reviewing it already which is why I even came here, actually,”

He turns to you with a smile, “Oh? Looks like you already know what’s in here,”

“Only a few things! Maybe they added new stuff? Even though it’s only been a few days…?”

“Only one way to find out, then,”

The two of you were given a table that was on the second floor which did give you a good view. Once that was settled, you were free to get whatever you’d like. There was a wide variety you could choose from. They even had some sandwiches you could choose. After a few minutes of deciding, your plate was filled with some of your favorites. The table was still empty when you came back. Looks like Oberon is still searching around, so you sit down and place your plate and cup of your preferred drink down. You didn’t get too much as you can always go back down to get more if you wanted to.

About a minute passes by and Oberon came back with two plates full of treats. He found the red velvet cake and cupcake, he had some eclairs, croissant, macarons… He might as well eat everything in this buffet.

“Wow. Didn’t think you’d REALLY love these,” you laughed.

His face turns red in embarrassment, “Everything looked so good! I couldn’t decide!”

You take another bite out of what you had picked up, “You can leave your plates here. I’ll watch ‘em while you get something to drink,”

“Thanks,”

He carefully places them down and almost runs back down the stairs. The sight of that was amusing, and looking at his plate… It’s taking all of your strength to not steal one of them. He won’t notice, right? Right?

No, no. That’s rude. He probably won’t be too happy about it. Who knows how he’d react? You looked away and continued eating your own to try and not think about it. It doesn’t take too long for him to return with a cup. You watched as sparkles seemingly appeared in his eyes as he ate. Hell, you swear you can see sparkles surrounding him.

Even after you got your second plate and finished what you had picked up, he pushed for a fourth plate to get whatever he hadn’t tried. It was pretty impressive to see he can eat that much, and it was nice to see such a happy look on his face. In the end, he seemed satisfied with the experience.

You two stayed to chat for a little while longer, even going back down to grab another drink. Oberon offered to pay when the topic of the bill came up and you didn’t mind, but you still felt like you could’ve at least paid for what you ate. He did get a lot to eat after all. Even if you offered to pay your share, he would’ve insisted he handle it.

You checked your phone for the time as Oberon offers to walk you home as it started to get dark, which you thanked him for. It also meant a little more time with him.

You lightly shoulder bumped him, “Did you have fun?”

“Of course I did,” he smiles, “The food was good, we had a very nice view… I had really fun with you,”

You tried not to blush at that comment, but you can already feel your cheeks heating up, “We should go together again some time. What do you think?”

“I’ll let you know whenever I can. Of course, as long as your schedule allows you to,”

“Oh yeah, that reminds me. I never asked what you do for work, so I hope you don’t mind me asking now,”

“Hm, what if I keep you in the dark there for now?”

“Sounds mysterious. Alright, fine,” you smile.

As you continued to walk, you notice that Oberon seems to like looking up at the stars. There wasn’t that many out tonight, but that didn’t stop him. Part of him looked a little sad though. You eventually pass by the graveyard your home happened to be close to and Oberon’s attention immediately shifted towards it. It was almost strange, but maybe he lost someone. You’re not one to pry.

He stopped walking all of a sudden, “Do you think those people were afraid?”

“Huh?” You stopped to turn to him, “Afraid of what?”

“Of dying. Were they scared in their final moments?”

You didn’t know what to say at first. As you looked to the countless tombstones that scattered across the field, that same question would repeat in your mind. Were they scared? Were their final moments filled with fear that they wouldn’t be at peace?

“I think… Some of them were. I mean, who wouldn’t be, right?” You hum, “But I also think some felt happy even in death,”

“Why’s that?” He questioned, his voice almost in a whisper.

“Maybe they were happy with how their life came out to be. Or maybe they were surrounded by family and knew they were the last ones they could see,”

Oberon is silent. You turn to him to see his sorrowful expression. It almost looked like he didn’t believe a word you just said, but he doesn’t speak of it.

You gently tug on his sleeve, “Oberon, are you… Afraid of death?”

“I wouldn’t say that,” he quietly admits, “I’m just… I’m just confused. Even when you led a life you wanted to live, one where you accomplished everything you wanted to. Even when you’re surrounded by people who love you, wouldn’t you be at least a little afraid?”

You looked down, hesitating to hold his hand, “Yeah, maybe that’s how some felt deep down,”

“Do you believe there is an afterlife?”

“I like to think there is. I mean, that can’t be it, right? Our lives suddenly come to an end and suddenly there’s just…nothing?”

“Is that why some are afraid? There may just be nothing on the other side?”

You looked down, “Maybe, but I don’t think they thought of that even in their final moments,”

“…I hope you’re right,”

Both of you continued to stare at the graveyard in silence. You really do wonder why he brought that up.

“I’m sorry, I don’t know why I brought up such a topic. Come on, we’re almost there, right?”

“Oh, yeah,”

For the rest of the way, you two walk side by side and in silence. He would walk you to your door, say good night and goodbye, and you’d watch him disappear into the dark through your window. Something about him was strange, but strange in a rather interesting way. You wonder if the feeling is mutual.

When you awoke, you were… in your room. It was just as you had left it. Was that a dream? A very, very long dream that felt all too real? You leaned forward as you gently rubbed your head. It was such an odd dream, yet with the remaining moments of what you remember from it, you can’t help but feel warm all of a sudden.

That man you’ve been meeting with. He was sweet, gentle, and patient. He loved the bakery you invited him to. He loved crows and fed them whenever he could. His view on death was… interesting. He was afraid. He was confused when others didn’t seem to be afraid of their end and rather embraced it. Had he lost someone before? Is that why he was afraid? Maybe you should ask him next time you meet.

Just as you were going to stand up, you hear footsteps approaching. Your door suddenly opens and a strange man entered. He had a black mask and black horns. There were two pairs of wings on him, one located on his head while the other pair rested beside his waist. There was even a halo above his head.

An angel? You must be dreaming again…

The white eyes on the mask almost looked sad when he saw you, “I apologize for the intrusion. I’m sure you have many questions, and I assure you they will be answered. Most, at least. It depends on the question,”

You tried to stay calm just to make sure this was indeed a dream. You’ll wake up any minute now, right?

“How did you get in my house?”

He shakes his head, “While it may appear to be, this isn’t a house. It’s a room, your room. Where you are is my realm that resides in the line between life and death. It only appears as this because this place is where you feel the safest,”

You feel your heart beginning to pound against your chest. Between life and death? Realm?

“W-Who are you?”

The man pauses as he went to pull a chair over and sat down in front of you, “You…may refer to me as Mr. Sol,”

“What are you?”

“I suppose the closest thing I can call myself in your words is a grim reaper, but I am not here to collect your soul. Perhaps I can describe it as…guiding your soul,”

Grim reaper? Soul? He’s not an angel?

“Guiding my soul? Where?”

“That’s for you to decide,”

Mr. Sol has been strangely open about answering such questions. It’s hard to tell if he is lying or telling the truth. It may be the mask, but his tone seemed genuine.

“I don’t understand. Am… Am I dead?”

Mr. Sol looked down for a moment, and the white eyes closed, “Not yet,”

“What happened to me?”

His eyes open at that question, “You don’t remember?”

When you shake your head, he starts looking around. A few drawers open and eventually, a file is pulled out from one of them. He opens it, giving it a quick read before closing the file and holding it to you.

“This will explain everything. From the moment you were born to your eventual end,” he says, “But it is up to you to read it,”

You stare at the file then briefly looked at him. Your entire life, and it’s in a small file that he holds in his hands. Hesitantly, you grab the file and open it. A picture of you, your name, your age, your date of birth, your family, your school life… It was all there. The final paragraph detailing your fate was suddenly cut off, but the moments that happened before was all there. You were dying.

You look up at him, “You said you will guide me to where I want to go. What do you mean by that?”

Mr. Sol pauses yet again. He crosses his legs and his hands rest on his lap, “[Name], I am giving you the choice to continue where your life had left off or to end it. I am giving you the choice to go back, to wake up in the living world continue with the life you planned for yourself. I am giving you a second chance,”

“And if I say no?”

“Death awaits,” was all he said. His tone had shifted slightly as he said that.

It was an easy choice. Anyone would want to continue living. Anyone would give anything for a second chance when absolutely nothing was being asked for in return. You’d even see him again. You wonder if he had tried contacting you during that moment. He must be worried.

“This is the only chance I get, right?”

He nods, “Yes. It is all I can give you,”

“So we won’t be meeting again, huh?”

“It’d be best if we didn’t…”

Should you? The answer feels obvious, so you finally give him your answer.

“I’d like to go back,”

Mr. Sol nods and stands up, holding out a hand to you. He pulls you up to your feet and suddenly pulls you closer to him. He held your hand close to where his heart should be.

“I must tell you, once we go back, you won’t remember your time with me. You won’t remember a thing about me,” he lets out a shaky breath, almost like he was holding back tears, “I’m sorry,”

The crows seem to like hanging around the bench you often sit at. You’re not quite sure why. It’s not like you had any food on you for them. One of them was even sitting on the bench, looking up at you almost like you were an old friend. You only stared back, wondering why a flock had decided to hang out around with you.

One suddenly flew off and soon, the others followed one by one. You watched them leave and begin to surround a man walking down the path. He had held out a hand for one to perch onto.

Ah, maybe they were only just waiting for him. Crows can remember faces after all, and perhaps they accepted him as their friend. It was strange. You’d think it would be pigeons one would be surrounded by, but this man had attracted and befriended them. He must be very knowledgeable with them, maybe even grew up with them.

You smiled, stifling a laugh. It’s not often you see something like that, but it is a sight to behold. You wonder just how long it must’ve taken the flock to accept him.

The man continued down the path beyond your sight. The crows follows his steps and look up at him, almost begging for more food. The one on his hand caws, turning its head towards their usual meeting spot.

He shouldn’t have allowed you to get so close in the first place. He shouldn’t have allowed himself to get so attached.

I am actually ashamed to say I made an Oberon disguising as a human and I hate it so much he looks like a generic anime boy

UGHH I LITERALLY COULD NOT LOOK AT HIM HELP MEEEE 😭😭😭

BOY KEEP YOUR MASK ON

[causenessus]

HELLOOO GOOD AFTERNOON!! how are you doing <3 i already told u ab what happened at my school today but MORE HAPPENED. i was walking out to my friend's car since it was the end of the day and we were gonna drive back to our apt BUT BRO???? ness idefk what happened but a car bumped into me im not even joking 💔 like bumped me from behind and made me fall over. like how does that even happen omf 💔 not demure, nor mindful. BUT IM PERFECTLY FINE DONT WORRY!! i just scraped up my palms and my arms a liiiittle bit 🙂‍↕️ so i hate parking lots that was not cute at all

I SAW YOU AND MANGO ANON TALKING ABOUT ZODIACS A LITTLE BIT ONE TIME WHEN U ANSWERED THEIR ASK AND WAS LIKE OH!! NOW IM CURIOUS!! like im really not big on astrology i only know that im an aquarius thats all ive got! but i was searching up like what certain signs' relationships look like? i guess? or like compatibility? one of my friends are a cancer AND I KEPT SEEING THAT THEYRE THE LEAST COMPATIBLE W AQUARIUSES? (is that the right plural of it? aquarians? idk whatever) so like i had a revelation and i remembered you were a cancer so i was lowkey disappointed with all of the zodiac compatibility stuff i was seeing online 😞 ALSO I SAW THAT MANGO ANON GOT A BURNER!! (i mean like i saw through your post i didnt find their blog LMAOAOA) is this the end of an era?? if it is im gonna miss seeing their asks and your responses on my dash aaaaadbsjk they are so cute!!

ANYWAY lately ive been really pondering (i feel like this word is funny to me) what an ideal friend looks like to me because someone at school asked me that😭 i feel like the first people that came to mind were you and mango anon!!! i keep mentioning them SORRY i just adore how sweet they are omf 💔 why am i telling you this? idk! but i feel like in terms of friendships i seek out people like you!! i cant really describe the traits SPECIFICALLY but i feel like you're a super good friend ‼️ i was also curious what an ideal friend looks like to you though! cause i feel like people always look for specific traits or have traits that theyre naturally gravitated towards and they're always super different from person to person, yk? KINDA RANDOM THO LMAO

ALSO today in my speech n debate class my friend started drawing on my hand as we listened to people's oo's from the national oratorical (is that even what it's called i have no idea) and like... i totally zoned out.. so now im behind in that class JUST A LITTLE!! listening to peoples speeches can be so boring i have serious regrets regarding choosing that class honestly 😞 but i feel like it's also one of the more fun classes you can take to fulfill the speech credits for graduation so i GUESS im staying... some of the people in that class are super cool!! getting peer pressured into joining the competitive team sigh

THATS ALL IVE GOT TODAY!! I FEEL LIKE THIS ONE WAS KINDA LONG OOPS. how are you doing ness!! i hope you're getting enough rest! make sure you're drinking enough water and eating! AND DONT FORGET YOUR MEDS ‼️ I LOVE YOU

HELLO SAV!! i??? i??? i can't? A CAR BUMPED INTO YOU??? LITERALLY DID THEY LIKE APOLOGIZE??? MAKE SURE YOU WERE OKAY??? ANYTHING AT ALL???? THAT IS SO HORRIBLE 😭 I'M SO GLAD YOU'RE OKAY BUT OMG THAT'S LITERALLY AN INJURY?? LIKE????????????????????????

AND AWH DW 😭 tbh i don't think i know many aquariuses (idk the plural version either!!) BUT THE STARS HAVE NOTHING ON US </3 AND YES!! MANGO ANON GOT A BURNER BUT I THINK WE'LL STILL BE YAPPING THROUGH ASKS A LOT <3 IT'S JUST FOR US TO BE LIKE "i miss u </3" and tell each other short things in the meantime 😭

AND AW THAT'S SO SWEET AND KIND THANK YOU SO MUCH :((( PLEASE DON'T APOLOGIZE AT ALL FOR BRINGING US/MANGO ANON UP!! you're not doing it a lot or anything so don't worry at all <33 idk who my ideal kind of friend is!! like everyone is so unique and i think i get along with most people <3 i just really appreciate people who are like very understanding and kind!! like obviously i'm very?? like soft hearted?? or like gentle. like for example i don't like to curse outside my fics bc for me i always associated it with being mad?? or just kind of scary?? like ofc i really don't care if other people curse!! it's just a personal preference/choice and so i think i just appreciate people who are observant and kind!! idk everyone super cool :D and i've learned a lot from people who are different from me so i like most people!! (just not middle school freshmen boys who are super rude and annoying and loud yk 🌝)

SPEECH AND DEBATE SOUNDS HORRIBLE 😭 I'M SORRY BUT I COULD NEVER I'M SO LUCKY MY SCHOOL DIDN'T HAVE A SPEECH REQUIREMENT OR ANYTHING BC I WOULD NOT HAVE SURVIVED </33 and i've always been like a very "idc!! u have ur opinion and i have mine i'm not gonna try and convince u to have my opinion!! like seriously idc pls i don't want to argue or debate!!" so i really just could not survive that class at all but best of luck to you!!

IT WAS GOOD TO HEAR FROM YOU SAV!! i am doing ok!!! it's nice bc idk my manager didn't really schedule me this entire week 😭 BUT I'M NOT COMPLAINING!! I AM LIVING MY BEST LIFE WITH ALL THIS FREETIME LIKE I ACTUALLY AM REALLY ENJOYING IT so that's been nice!! AND THANK YOU SO MUCH <33 TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF TOO!! I HOPE YOU TOOK YOUR MEDS!!

[cinnaleaf]

Hey! I loved the dreams for part 10 OMG How do you come up with everything? I make fics for another fandom am curious about your process 💕

WARNING: rambling about writing & life

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aw thank youuu! i don’t feel like i have a set process but i'll try. 3 months ago i wasn't even thinking about writing lol i used this blog for years to download sims cc/read fics 💀 but my life is kinda chaotic and i jump into things on a whim so here we are!

as for the process, my ideas come naturally mostly. irl i have to be creative w work bc it’s 110% necessary, so it’s not hard for me at all on here but it’s draining irl tbh. i’m constantly thinking of ideas, but i add small bits of myself and others in characters too.

ex: anxiety is a very real thing for me so i included it in the fic to relate to the character. every time i post i nearly want to delete everything bc my brain is convinced ppl hate it 🙃

i try to make sure readers can see parts of themselves in the fic, in any character; like descriptions or dialogue (humour). nothing makes me close a fic faster than seeing descriptors like ‘your porcelain skin’ bc i cant relate to that at all and it breaks immersion for me. i don’t want other ppl to feel like that reading my stuff so i use words like ‘soft skin’ instead

for T, i use what we know + astrology (i’m well versed w libra men 😔) but i try to use the good parts only bc…. loll. anything else, i just go with what feels natural for his character development

for J, i just love his silly personality and can’t stop myself from adding him in some way. i also don’t feel that comfortable adding T’s family into the fic just yet so Jude is sort of there for that too. i honestly need to make more jude fics

for smut i try to think of interesting scenes so its not the same every time. i also include more sensual scenes for the romance (like the bubble bath and the couch scene)

the dreams were a creative way for me to explain their subconscious thoughts w some light foreshadowing. i also added flashbacks to show the relationship progressing since i did a time jump

i let the story tell itself as i go. i know the ending (for now) but there’s so much in there i never planned on adding. y/n wasn’t supposed to have siblings, the eclipse thing was meant to just be witty dialogue at first, they were supposed to bump into each other at the route 66 trail marker in santa monica pier instead of a train (may still add that somehow)

i write over a period of days and finish a chapter when it feels right, then i edit at least 3 times for 1-2 days.. but never the same day of writing. ch 9 didn’t have that park flashback in it originally until edit #2 and i can’t imagine the storyline without it now.

i also enjoy adding hidden messages/symbolism. it’s fun to let readers decipher things they don’t understand yet. it’s like a little side quest

all in all.. im just a serial daydreamer who enjoys romance.. been that way forever. i’m also delusional so that helps a ton!!! 😌

feel free to pick my brain more, i love these kinds of questions 🥰

[cliveguy]

in my experience

air signs: really fucking weird, the mum friend, will literally clean someone else's messy room, love creative writing

fire signs: FUN and loud, always wanna seen happy even if they aren't, very artistic

water signs: know what they're fucking doing, smart AND emotionally articulate somehow? complete history nerds

earth signs: could be your devil or your angle tbh, VERY clever and outspoken, love reading

[domjaehyun]

omg hi jewel i am a such spotify anti. idk tho why i just am❤️. so seeing a fellow apple music enjoyer/apologist on this app really tickles my fancy.❤️

YEEEEEAH love this for us omg 💖 i do not like spotify !! ppl are like “they do personalized playlists !!” so does apple music 💖 “they can suggest artists based off of other artists!!” so can apple music 💖 i cant think of other “flexes” ppl have abt spotify honestly but i don’t like it 🤷🏽‍♀️

not to mention i do Not like dark mode anything (i have it on twitter and that’s IT) so the black & green interface is not appealing or welcoming to me at all !! also dislike strongly that when i HAD spotify premium (i got it for neozone era i think they had a listening party and i got premium for a better experience AND i tried it in freshman year of college) i had to ask siri to play songs “on spotify” and that may sound silly but i am very big on like . quick precise wording !! the longer it takes to get to the point the angrier i get !!

the ONLY flex that i acknowledge for spotify is like . the cute lil graphics they do for spotify wrapped like the end of the year summary ? and like the quirky features they do like that music based astrology birth chart or smth?

but yeah i am WITH YOU babe i am not messing w spotify i Do Not Like It 💖

[bisexualrapline]

i just stumbled upon That blog and aside from all the bullshit thats been said there I just cant get over the post that says "Jimin is a Libra, ofc he is manipulative, I know that because I'm a libra too" like...on one hand wtf? i thought people understand that astrology can be cool and nice but its not accurate for everyone under the same sign 100% of the time (its the same as me saying "Yoongi is a pisces and likes coffee, and I'm a pisces too, so that automatically means I like coffee too???!) but on the other hand idk if its just me but I get the vibe that this person can be kinda obsessed with Jimin? (even if they claim they like Yoongi the best), like they always talk shit about Jimin and even if his name isn't mentioned they always do it somehow and continue to talk about him???

omg they’re a libra??? i bet they’re a september libra 🤢 /j

no they are 100% obsessed w jimin honestly as i’ve noticed a lot of the other boys’ solo stans can be it just seems to me that jimin has the most vocal haters in this fandom and they always presume this weird shit about him and it literally all just comes from jealousy and insecurity bc jimin is well-liked by literally everyone on earth people call him it boy he arguably has had one of the biggest impacts in kpop in general and… that makes bitches mad i guess lmao!!!! people are petty as hell and it extends most often specifically to people who are (or perceived to be) well-liked

tl;dr jimin should cover keri hilson’s pretty girl rock

[starsstruck]

Astrology wise, in the Hollywood industry if you could think of somebody on the top of your head who do you think would be the most suitable person in Hollywood for hairy and terms of their astrology? Or out of all of his exes do do you think was he most compatible to astrology wise once again.

me <3

honestly i dont know in terms of hollywood i truly cant think of anyones charts and for his exes i barely even know their sun signs but i will tell u this ! his chart is a disaster of libra/aquarius and we see him close with mainly earth and water signs which is interesting because like, as someone w an air heavy chart myself i do love earth signs i feel like i find this comfort and calmness with them but then really enjoy the company of air/fire as well, and if u look at basic compatibility, air and fire signs go hand in hand <3 aquarius and libra compatibility is often with geminis, sags, aries, and other libras and aquarius !  

but personally i would love to see him w another air sign or maybe even a fire sign who knows but i do understand and know the appeal of earth signs there is just something about them <3

so make of that what u will - i dont know if ive made any sense but at the end of the day astrology is something we can only experience for ourselves and its tough to match charts of people we dont know !

[piplupod]

21 questions game!

tagged by @candescentcurio tysm this is so fun aaaaa!! 💙

nickname? june bug, junobear, tiny bastard, acorn, pip

real name? Juno Pippen! I'd like to legally change it to that one day!

zodiac? Virgo sun, cancer moon, leo rising/ascendant LOL i used to be somewhat into astrology but not anymore! it basically means im a big emotional baby w good brain tho

favourite music artists? ohhh this is a difficult one bc i like a lot! my general favs are hozier, david bowie (as of recently), mother mother, aurora, and the crane wives!

favourite sports team? i do not know anything abt sports, so I'll just say the local Special Olympics soccer team bc my brother is in it LOL

other blogs? too many!!! the main ones i keep up with are @grimirror (horror and barghest aesthetic), @dandelionpath (pagan/occult blog), @dandylion-fluff (lovecore, softcore, and recovery), @dandelionsquad (writeblr and character aesthetics), @forthesakeofoddities (literature, poetry, and original poems!), @forest--walker (gardening and environmental/nature info!) and a nsfw blog 🤫 (i just rb cool lingerie and some text posts LOL)

do i get asks? sometimes but not too often! its all good tho, i dont consider myself to be a popular blog LOL and i have friends to talk to shfjdjkl, i used to care a lot more but now im just vibin

how many blogs do i follow? as of this moment.... 1789..... too many ......

tumblr crushes? uwu

lucky numbers? hmmm. 13 maybe? just to be edgy?

what am i wearing? my classic overalls, a bry merch shirt (the irish singer/songwriter/youtuber), and bumblebee jar earrings that i made! no socks for this hobbit!

dream vacation? ummm idk I'd mostly like to visit my friends tbh 😭💙

dream car? smth eco-friendly and long-lasting!! i hate how many vehicles ppl buy UGH

favourite food? tbh.... its pizza LOL, i just love it a lot 😂

drink of choice? water or gingerale! cream soda is ALSO very good! or rootbeer LOL, but generally just water makes me very happy 😊

instruments? in order of how good i am at them: piano, flute, melodica, ukulele, accordion, alto sax, fiddle. i stop being very good at flute, but im decent up until alto sax LOL

languages? english, cereal box french (just a few keywords), and a little bit of Norwegian!

celebrity crushes? 🤔🤔 idk any celebrities tbh,,, it's more fictional characters dbdhdjl, but uh. yea i honestly cant think of any?? I'm trying bc i KNOW theres probably one,,,,, i just cannot think of who it'd be?? WAIT OMG NVM ITS A FICTIONAL CHARACTER AS WELL SMH (howl.......) fun fact tho, i used to crush on griffin mcelroy for a while LMAO (if david bowie counts..... he's dead 😭 but i think he's very pretty,,,,,,,)

random fact? um ... accordions were first invented to tune pianos! travelling piano tuners would carry them around since accordions stay in tune so they'd be able to use it to base the piano off of!

favourite ecosystem? OWO THIS IS AN INTERESTING ONE!! i honestly rly like my ecosystem where I live! forested area with river!! its very beautiful and there are lots of interesting animals and ways that it works!

i think a lot of ppl care abt "foreign and exotic" ecosystems more than their local one, and I'm trying to change that! we've got to take care of what we've got before we care for others! 💙

favourite cat? calico for sure!!!

OOF OKAY WE'RE DONE. IS THAT EVEN 21 QUESTIONS?? yes it is i just counted sbdhdkl

anyways I'll taaaaag.... @dxveyjacobs @wormchester @warpy @richardsikenpdf @rosewyrms @autistic--zuko aaaand anyone else who wants to do it!!! pls tag me tho so i can see 👀💗💗💗

[onlymiel]

quarantine got us all fucked up taggy thing 💓

tagged by the sweet @giovannisroompdf tyty carol :o)

if you’re staying home, who’s with you?; my mum and my doggies/cats (we rlly be havin a whole zoo here doe afgafdg)

are you a homebody?; im a fire dominant 😔 ,,, but also a taurus sun,,, but also goes in a fire house,,, who takes cover¿¿ who knows ... ahdjsgsh

an event you were looking forward to that got canceled; not totally cancelled but it probably will due to,,, obvious reasons asfahsf, metallica’s concert !! it wasn’t like i had tickets or smth AGSJAGSHDHS but we’d still have got our way around last minute !! the date was just some days before my birthday so it would’ve been a rly cool memory + a friend and i were about to take some art & music classes :o( <3

what movies have you watched recently?; i honestly lost count aaaa . but one i rly liked was “el hoyo” which was,,, so! SO! good !!! + to be on netflix, it’s a rly good one, u gotta give it that lmaoo . + i’ve been binge watching all shrek movies LMAOOOAJDLAJDK . them lil onions can like,,, get it u kno ...

what shows are you watching?; sadly nothing atm lmao but i rlly need to find a new serie to help me cope whoop,,, tho im rewatching friends for about +100th time, it is what it is,,,,..,,,,

what music are you listening to?; cant stop listening to wasteland baby by hozier,,, i mean apocalypse songs fit well in this time innit asgsjagdh . fleetwood mac + mitski !!

what are you reading?; uhh,, i literally just today started “the witch’s shield” by christopher penczak and i plan on reading “astrology, the divine science” by marcia moore v v soon !

what are you doing for self-care?; the arts are keeping me sane :o) !!! asfhsgs just rambling w my guitar from time to time + writing shitty poetry !! what do i have to lose !!!

taggin — @sadbarrett @goghnuts @isapetal @bbbrianjones @11th11th @babydwiver @ohdarlings @punkslap @hellocoopter @lovestreett @windsofthewest @tangerine13 @vampirelez + aaanyone who’d like to ! 💞

[witchsheartbooks]

Can you do the boys and Clair confessing to their crush, please?

You ready for some cute flustered babs? Cause that’s what you’re getting.

Claire:

For a good while Claire doesn’t even realize she has a crush. Just that you’re super important to her.

Though upon the realization, her heart flutters and she cant help but grin.

She’s more cheerful then normal when she approached you.

She hasn’t really had to do this but what’s the worst that could happen?

She’s very smiley, taking your hand and opening up to you as her feelings spill out in waves.

It’s almost overwhelming with how much Claire talks but you find it utterly endearing. This is just like her.

When you accept her affections, she pulls you into a tight squeeze.

Claire pulls back, bouncing up and down.

She goes on about all the fun things the two of you will do while she takes your hand and leads you somewhere, no real destination in mind.

That’s just how she was, doing things without much thought.

Ashe:

Over time he’s been getting close to you, attempting to drop hints and just being overall pleasant for you.

You give him fairly good responses via your interactions but the flirting seems to pass over you.

Either you don’t realize it or you have trouble believing that he has actually been subtly flirting with you.

So one morning he wakes up really early, heading straight to the kitchen.

He wanted to do something for you that he felt only he could.

He spends several hours, pouring over this recipe and being an over all perfectionist.

He almost stresses himself out even though he’s the type that really enjoys cooking and backing.

Wiping the sweat off his brow he grins at his handiwork as he dots the last of the frosting.

You had been standing in the entry between the dining room leading into the kitchen.

Though he only just notices you and tenses.

“Oh [Y/N], I’m so sorry! I didn’t realize you were there.”

He tries to obscure your vision setting himself between you and what he was working on.

You quirk a brow and playfully ask him what he’s up to.

Not wanting to lie to you like he was so used to doing with other people, he sighs and offers you a timid smile.

“I wanted to present this to you at the right time, but I guess you caught me.”

He moved aside showing a small cake in the shape of a heart.

The frosting work was perfected and even the words piped on the front which stated. I love you, Y/N.

You cover your mouth, blushing like a school girl before looking back at him.

He begins to play nervously with his braid, waiting for some sort of response from you.

You briskly close the space between the two of you, wrapping your arms around the taller male and planting a kiss on his cheek.

His nerves melt instantly and he’s visibly happy.

He goes so far as to lift you up and squeeze you in a tight hug, while nuzzling your collarbone.

“Let’s have some cake!”

Wilardo:

He wasn’t the type to beat around the bush on any subject, honestly.

So when it came to flirting? He was open and made sure you knew.

Even through any such denial he would continue to fluster you.

Finally he felt it necessary to confess to you properly.

While his interest in you was already obvious and the flirtatious teasing was  fun. He wanted to woo you correctly.

And for this, the brooding handsome immortal decided to use the language of flowers.Of which he was already so well versed in.

Leading up to this you noticed a note slip under your door.

Quirking a brow you pick it up and glaze over the words.

Come see me in fifteen minutes.

The message itself was cryptic but your heart still fluttered at the thought. There were some petals inside the note too.

This was a different approach to what Wilardo would normally do in regards to you.

Those minutes pass and you follow his instructions.

Hesitating briefly outside his room, you give a gentle knock.

Except when you do, the door creaks open.

Curiously you step inside, noticing those same petals from the letter lining a trail on the floor.

Your gaze pans up following the trail until you stop at  his sorting table.

There you see petals forming in the shape of a heart.

In the center of those petals you see a Lavender Rose and a Blue Rose, their stems wrapped together in forget-me-nots.

You’re nearly breathless as tears start to form.

Then you feel two hands cover your eyes via a pair of familiar calloused fingers.

You giggle slightly which prompts those hands to drop as you turn around to face Wil.

He’s genuinely smiling although grinning slightly more at your reaction.

You wrap your arms tightly around him and he silently reciprocates, rubbing your back gently as his face buries into your shoulder.

Why would he need to exchange words for a confession when the language of flowers did that well enough on its own?

Sirius:

He is an utter nervous wreck.

He overthinks everything having to do with this upcoming confession.

Just being around you causes his chest to tighten and his tongue to tie.

His crush on you had been building for a while though he was very hesitant to ever admit or acknowledge it.

One afternoon he approaches you casually, but he’s very obviously flustered.

“[Y/N], are you busy at all today?”

You blink, tapping your chin before reassuring him with a no.

You were very observant of Sirius regarding his behaviors of things.

So you were one of the few who noticed his shift early. You just weren’t mean about teasing him with it like the others.

He shifts his position and clears his throat.

“Then join me for tea. I would like to speak with you.”

You smile and eagerly follow him.

He’s having trouble looking at you and he keeps adjusting his cravat.

The two of you go into his room though you notice it’s cleaner than usual. It’s usually already ridiculously tidy but he had gone the extra mile.

In regards to the tea however you also see that it wasn’t just tea he was offering you.

There were plates upon plates of sweets and small snacks. No this was definitely a high tea if you’ve ever seen one.

This is when you visibly began swooning which of course only made Sirius even more nervous.

He pulled out a chair for you.

“Y-Yes yes, just sit down, [Y/N].”

You follow his directions and do so.

He seats himself across from you and proceeds to pour your cup first before his own.

It was a lovely translucent red tint and you smile up at him asking about it.

“I-It’s just a strawberry tea that I infused. Nothing special.”

Except you knew much about Sirius’s tea assortment in the kitchen. He didn’t pull this one out often specifically because he didn’t have as much of a sweet tooth as Claire or Ashe.

Sirius watches you silently before shifting in his chair and setting a small plate of macrons in front of you.

You stare at the small colorful treats but then notice they’re decorated with little hearts.

You quirk a brow before investigating them more closely.

Most of them had symbols like hearts, stars or moons. Though there were a few with simple small words.

Love, Sweet, Cute

You put the puzzle pieces together in your head before your cheeks light up.

His blush becomes even worse as he tries to hide his expression by taking a sip of his tea.

“W-Why are you giving me that look. C-Claire helped me make all this. It i-isn’t a big deal!”

Though his flustered words of denial didn’t sway you at all.

You place your hand on top of the one he had resting on the table.

You notice him tense before he sets down his cup.

His fingers entwine with yours and the two of you stay that way for a while until Sirius breaks the silence.

“R-Right! Well… The tea is going to get cold.”

You grin at him and say I love you too.

This brings his blush back.

“Y-Yea well, you better! I wouldn’t forgive you if I embarrassed myself like this just for a rejection!”

Even with him saying that you noticed how much more visibly relaxed he was after hearing those words from you.

Noel:

The two of you had been chatting more recently.

Discussing things like space, stars, planets and even astrology signs.

You walk into his room one evening and find him waiting where he usually was each night by his window.

He smiles warmly as you walk over to join him.

The two of you stand by the window for a few minutes and stare at the sky from the other side of the window.

“[Y/N] I thought we could do something alittle different tonight. Would you like to join me?”

Noel offers you his hand.

You eagerly nod and take it.

Upon blinking the two of you appear in some sort of glimmering fantasy space.

You both stood in the center of a large field of flowers under a starlit sky.

Moon boats floated softly in the stardust sea off the horizon as you just took in your surroundings.

The flowers that surrounded you both consisted of White Gardenia’s and forget-me-nots.

Noel sits down and motions for you to join him.

Once you do, the two of you lay back and star gaze.

You do so in silence while Noel lists off the stars and constellations above you.

You barely realized when his hand takes yours, his fingers threading between your own.

“[Y/N] I’ve been meaning to say this for a while now. I just hope it isn’t to late for me to do so.”

You blink curiously and face him.

“I love you, [Y/N]. You are the moon and all of my stars.”

A blush dusts your cheeks before you roll on your side and tightly hug him.

He’s flustered but pleased by your reaction as he pets your hair.

The two of your stay this way until you manage to fall asleep.

Noel can’t stop smiling and before morning breaks, he lays you in his bed before having to leave at dawn.

A note is left on the side table, letting you know that he can’t wait to see you again tonight.

~Mod Sirius

[lavellane]

21 QUESTIONS

TAGGED BY: @chuukitten thank u gal !!! 

RULES: answer 21 questions and tag 21 people

1. nickname: tay or tay tay is what ppl usually call me !!! sometimes ppl online call me lahtays but they usually mispronounce it so :) 

2. zodiac: aquarius! tho i swear astrology fucked up that day bc im the furthest thing from mysterious OR creative lol

3. height: last time i checked like 175cm (ish) so about 5″11 ! i have a very limited concept of my own existence so i rly dont think abt my height at all oof

4. hogwarts house: h*fflepuff

5. last thing i googled: the definition of orthopedic sdfhfjfsdjdsjf

6. favorite musicians: i hate these questions bc whenever someone asks i just. completely blank hhhhhhhh but okay i rly like regina spektor, radiohead, the national, tamino, the wombats, twenty one pilots, k.flay and 2wei so basically yea im a mess lmao

7. song stuck in my head: tummy by tamino ://///// its been 4 days and im losing it but,,,, it still slaps lmao

8. following: 324

9. followers: ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

10. do you get asks: not much anymore! i turned off anon a while back due to the,,,,  honestly impressive amount of creepy anons i was getting dsjdfskjfdskj

11. amount of sleep: honestly TOO much my sleep schedule is messed up djfdkjfd

12. what are you wearing: grey cat pyjama shorts and a blue tank top 

13. dream job: Wailing Forest Maiden 

14. dream trip: greece ! for the ancient history and architecture! also ive always wanted to go to new orleans! 

15. instruments: i can play hot cross buns on the recorder  :))))))

16. languages: english and a little bit of arabic tho ive forgotten most of it now lol

17. 10 favorite songs as of now: (i cant pick faves so i’ll just chose the songs im into rn)

tummy / tamino (also just. his entire discography but whatever lmao)

brutus / the buttress

calamity / king shelter

i apologize if you feel something / bring me the horizon 

i should have been a con man / avi vinocur

suspirium / thom yorke

the cultess - moana 

lost elf theme - trevor morris (DONT @ ME. DONT @ ME. DONT @ ME.)

hope is a dangerous thing for a woman like me to have / lana del rey

moby dick / jakey

18. if you were an animal: if i had a choice, i’d wanna be a fat, fluffy af housecat lmao

19. favorite food: hmmmmm i think maybe curries ! or anything sauce based w like. a Lot of spices nd flavour

20. random fact: when i was like 11 i wrote a short childrens story for my homeschooling program and my teacher loved it so much she literally called my mum and asked if she wanted to help me publish it lol. i had a panick attack and cried and it never happened bc i am truly :) a Dumbie Bitch

21. my aesthetic: hmmmmmmm faded hoodies, chipped nail polish, cosy nights in, campy horror films, messy buns, ugly laughter, cat fur Everywhere

TAGGING: @caiwyns @emerius @denerims @drthamen @synthzander @trvelyans @femmeshep @velvetvelor @eledhrim @ratcorvo @seradagna @morenva @nordxz @lvllns @noonvraith @lelianasgf @yennefre @oneshallop @harlotrohan @ciriofcintras @dragonaqe

[a-nice-tea-time]

HELLO I have arrived and am kindly asking you for 1, 7, 18, 24, 25, 43, 47, 52, 53, 60, 64, 89, 91, 95, 98 :))

1: 6 of the songs you listen to most?

I cant choose, everything is fantastic

7: What’s your strangest talent?

oh boy I don’t know if I even have talent

18: Do you believe in karma?

sometimes, when I’m having a very bad day and my anxiety takes over and I remember every single bad thing (in my standards) !!!

24: Do you have a collection of anything?

I collect these !!!!!

I can’t take a pic rn it’s too dark here sorry-

25: Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?

I can’t make hand gestures when I talk on the phone to explain better what I’m saying BUT video chatting means people have to see my face and honestly I don’t think they want to

can I just stick to texting ?

43: Do you have any nicknames?

too many

47: Do you have any obsessions right now?

flirting with you ;)

jk jk, I’m drawing fire everywhere

52: What is your astrological sign?

Aries !

53: Do you save money or spend it?

oh I try to save it but it doesn’t work

60: Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?

yes, a piñata my friend brought a few days ago ! she filled it with uncooked noodles, I love her

64: Where is your best friend?

I don’t know, where are you ?

also how dare you make me choose, I consider so many people as my best friends

89: What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on?

^that one

91: You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?

I can slow down people’s anxiety when it gets too high ! nice !!!!

95: You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?

h o w d a r e y o u m a k e m e c h o o s e

I wanna see you and KK and EE and I can’t do everything at once-

98: Ever been on a plane?

yeah !!!

55: Love or lust?

oh, definitely love

77: How can I win your heart?

exist, be yourself (you’re already great, no need to change) and I’m all yours ;)

[skizmin]

you’re my favourite constellation.

stargazing!au, friends to lovers with han jisung

(this giF IM SCREAMING CUTIE)

request from @straybin: Can I request a stray kids jisung friends to lovers star gazing au! Your aus are super sweet I loved the seungmin one!

(thank you so much ily 💝💓💖💕💞💘💗)

alright lets get straight into it

so youre a highschool student with an affinity for astrology, like, you love it

for your birthdays you get astrology books and maps and even once a really cool telescope!!

its just what you love, okay?

anyway, recently youd moved in with your cousin who lived alone and needed a roommate, plus it was closer to your school than your own home.

you parents practically shoved you in there with short notice (at least they were paying rent and grocery expenses) and you were like well okay

you didnt mind your cousin at all, but she can be a bit excitable and overbearing sometimes but you have to deal with it really

“dUDE i gotta show you something follow me”

you were unpacking when your cousin said this, you set down your telescope and followed her out the front door. your cousin lived in an apartment block basically, she was on the third story out of five. there was a very cute young family across the hall from you guys n stuff

anyway she kept going up and up these stairs and you were like where the fUck are we going im so tired

she laughed and said you were almost there and proceeded to push open a big heavy door

wow

you were in complete awe

in front of you was a massive open roof, the setting sun and the wide sky completely in view from all points, and when you looked up? oh my god it just seemed so clear

“you like stargazing dont you? youre allowed to come up here all you want as long as you dont make a ruckus yeah?”

you agreed, smiling W I D E and attacking your cousin in a hug

like,, two weeks later?

you still hadnt gone stargazing on the roof yet

on top of moving in and mid term school, it was a struggle to deal with so you just didnt have the time at the moment

untillll you had a falling out with a friend. it wasnt anything too serious but a few hurtful truths were said and the added stress of everything else going on, it was just overwhelming

so when you got home that afternoon, you packed a small box with your telescope, your notebook and pens, a couple of your astrology study books and two big blankets

then, after you made and ate dinner with your cousin, you made a big cup of hot chocolate (or coffee or tea or a moccha, whatever you prefer) and told your cousin you were going upstairs and youd probably be back late so youd take a key in case she was asleep

your cousin agreed and watched you balance the massive mug and your box in your hands and also the two big pillows you spontaneously grabbed as you walked out

arriving on the roof, you laid everything out, not bothering to set up your telescope just yet and you sat back sipping your hot drink

you didnt know when you started to cry but it happened, and soon enough you where silent sobbing on your own letting out a few sniffles here and there. life was just too busy and overwhelming at the moment

it was about half an hour later when you stopped sobbing, you were still crying, wiping your tears from your face every minute or so, this was when the door to the roof opened and shut

you thought it would just be your cousin so you stayed still and aited for her to find you and comfort you

the the felt a foot hit your thigh and heard a whisper shout of “hoLY FUCK”

you sat up, hastily wiping your tears as you tried to see the dark figure in front of you, they had turned on their torch and were now shining it directly into your eyes

“i am so sOrry i didnt even see you there, were you sleeping? oh god i cant believe i just almost stepped on you- wait? are you crying? oh my god”

it was some sort of god in front of you, you were sure. perfectly tanned skin, gorgeous doe like eyes, soft cheeks and pink lips. you were pretty much mesmerised, even as he crouched down in front of you

“hey, im sorry. i really didnt mean it its just dark out, are you okay? i didnt hurt you did i?”

he sounded so unbelievably guilty that you felt bad, snapping out of it you responded with a choked out “im sorry, im fine, its okay!”

the boy in front of you smiled out of relief, eyes lingering on you before looking at the set-up around you

“im jisung, i live on 2nd floor. i havent seen you around before, i didnt know we had new neighbours”

he looked at you and tilted his head in confusion, his eyebrows furrowing and his lips set in a slight pout. your heartbeat involuntarily picked up at the sight

“oh! im uh- im y/n, i just moved in with my cousin y/c/n, she lives on third floor...” you awkwardly and shyly looked down to the ground, hastily tidying up the mess of notebooks and your hot drink as he replied

“oh! y/c/n! i know her, shes really nice. how old are you? you look a bit younger than her honestly” his brows furrowed further and he smiled lightly when you looked up at him, he was still crouching in front of you

“oh, im 17, she lives closer to my school than my parents and she needed a housemate, so here i am!” you laughed really nervously and looked down at your fingers again

jisung smiled to himself, ah, theyre cute

“oh, im the same age then!” he laughed before looking away slightly, asking the difficult question, “are you sure youre okay? you look like youve been crying,”

dread crushed your chest, he’d seen you crying, this was really embarassing for you

“oh nothing! i was just- uh, i was just a bit stressed is all” you held your breath, hoping jisung wouldnt pry any further, you really didnt want to talk about it

he laughed good heartedly, “ah yeah, we all get a bit like that sometimes. what are you doing up here though? its freezing, are you studying or something? waiT IS THAT A TELESCOPE?!”

it was your turn to laugh, this kid was really positive and seemed to know how to take a hint

“im stargazing! my cousin said i could come up here but, if you need to roof then dont worry ill go down its no porblem”

you looked at his face this time as you spoke and oh my god stop smiling at me like that 

“stargazing? thats so cool! dont worry, i only came up here for some fresh air, my housemates are a bit loud. so what, do you just look at the stars and planets or?” he finally sat dwn next to you. “can you show me a constellation?”

you giggled and nodded, you whole body tingling because of the close proximity of your bodies and the idea of the stereo-typically romantic thing you were about to do. “we need to lay back okay?”

you laid back, he followed, his head was lost to to yours and his hands rested on his stomach, he turned his head to look at you

m i s t a k e

you didnt turn to him. you were bright red at the feel of his breath fanning across your face you kept your head straight on the sky

“now what?” he softly whispered it to you, your stomach violently dipped and your heart practically stopped

youre all “uhhhh uh- well, uh, you just um- see that sorta diamond of stars over there? and then it sorta uh, has a triangle on top?”

jisung follows your line of eyesight and tries to focs on specific stars that make out the shape, he sees it “oH! i see it!”

“yeah, thats lyra, its a harp basically.”

jisung squints and you lightly turn your head to him, not fully, just enough to see his face. “oh, it does look like a harp i guess, whys it there?”

“it represents the lyre of orpheus, who was a greek poet and musician, he was killed though...”

“wow, thats sad but also so cool...” jisungs phone buzzes, you see its a message from someone called minho, asking where he is

“crap, y/n, ive gotta go but um. i really liked talking to you and im really interested in the stars now, it seems like theyve all got stories. would you mind teaching me again sometime?”

he was scratching the back of his neck awkwardly

“oh! um- yeah of course i will, i mean, yeah definitely!”

you realised you didnt have his phone, so you couldnt really get your number for him

he saw you looking and spoke up “uh, maybe just next time, um, come and grab me? my apartment is number 6, im almost always there if im not at school really. just, whenever youre going up and you feel like some company, come knock on the door or something?”

you smiled, the thought made you nervous but you did want to see jisung again. “okay, of course.”

he smiled brightly at you, you cursed your heart again, “great! ill get going then, dont stay for too long okay? youll get a cold.” he stood up and waved to you

“bye jisung!” you call out softly as he walks away

you leave not long after he left, it felt boring on your own suddenly. you didnt even remember youd been crying at all, it felt like a massive weight was lifted off of your shoulders.

you slept so easily that night, dreaming of the stars and jisung.

a week and a half later? it was a friday night 

you were packing your box to go stargazing again when you remembered jisung, you wanted to bring him along with you. he might be busy, but you packed an extra couple of blankets and soem pillows and placed them just inside your door before you went downstairs to go and get him

you were so nervous as you knocked on the door, preparing for utter embarrassment. the door opened up tho

“oh, youre not the complex owner thank god.” you were greeted by someone possibly younger than you, he had reddish hair and a sweet smile. “how can i help you?’

you tried to block out the screeches coming from inside the apartment, you could hear about five voices screaming at once “im uh, im y/n, im from upstairs? i was wondering if jisung was here at all?”

he smirked, like he knew something you didnt. “sure one sec, im seungmin by the way.” he turned away from you and screamed into the apartment “jiSUNG, SOMEONES HERE FOR YOU, HURRY UP.” 

“coMING!!” was heard throughout the apartment followed by a “fELiX gEt ofF Of mE” and seungmin smiled awkwardly at you before a head popped past the wall into the entrance way

“oh! y/n! you came!” he tried to walk over to the door but you noticed a body dragging on his legs.

“jiSUNG PLEASE DO MY CHORES FOR ME.” the boy yelled at jisungs feet

seungmin laughed, looking at you saying “ill leave you to it” before jogging over to a tangled up jisung and who you presumed was felix and tearing felix from jisungs body, dragging him away

“uh, sorry about that, hes lazy and pathetic.” jisung laughed, so did you

“i was just wondering if you were free? i was about to go up to the roof..”

jisung smiled brightly, “of course, let me get my coat and phone.”

once he was ready you two went up to your apartment, you told him to come in and wait a bit while you made him a hot drink of hit choice, then you grabbed some pillows and your box and you both walked up the remaining flights of stairs to the roof

it was the beginning of a tradition really, youd go down and grab him, his housemates would call for him as soon as the saw you, before he left theyd whisper things into his ear that made him blush but you simply shrugged it off

after about two months of going up to the roof together, you admitted to yourself that you liked him

a lot

you liked his smile, his voice, how he was endlessly making you happy, you liked he warmth of when hed lie next to you and the way he’d rest a hand on your lower back, guiding you up the stairs. you liked his goodbye hugs and the way he’d hold your hands the one week you couldnt find your gloves. you liked how he was so interested in the stars like you, but you considered giving up looking at the sky to simply look into his eyes because they held galaxies within them. you liked the way he’d whisper your name to check if you were awake and the gentle touch of his fingertips when he brushed your hair out of your eyes

you liked him so much, you couldnt deny it. it crushed you in a way, you thought he would never like you back, and you increasingly got more nervous and drifted away bit by bit

one night, you were up on the roof and jisung sighed loudly, you asked him what was wrong

“can i rant a little bit? please?” jisung had puppy eyes as he sat up and looked at you, you sat up as well and nodded for him to go on

“ah, this is hard,” he started before looking at the pot plants next to your set up that were the centrepiece of the rooftop, 

“i um, basically i like this uh, this person right? i like them as more than a friend,” your heart clenched and dropped to your stomach. oh. this was heart break. “we’ve been friends for a while and i thought, well, yeah i thought id been quite obvious with my feelings. i hoped that their shyness was them maybe reciprocating my feelings but? maybe not. lately theyve just-”

jisung huffed and looked up at you again, your heart got caught in your throat, you could see he was nervous about telling someone about his crush and he looked sad talking about the unfortunate circumstances

“theyve been distancing themselves from me. they flinch away we i try to be more affectionate and- and they just dont seem like they like me anymore. not even in a romantic way, in a friend way. and im just upset i guess. ive never ever liked someone this much before, every night im filled with these feelings of just wanted to cuddle with them and take them on dates and hold their hands and- and kiss them. the whole package. it hurts, y/n. why dont they like me?”

the sad feeling you was feeling showed in your voice as you replied. “youre a great person jisung, theyd be an idiot not to like you, seriously. i cant think of someone more deserving of love than you.” you tried to nervously look into his eyes

“then why dont they like me y/n? no one ever likes me.” he was still looking down onto the ground

“i like you jisung.” 

oh no

oh no oh no oh no oh no oh no W O R D   V O M I T

you clenched your eyes shut, your heart was beating rapidly, you cant believe you just said that when hed just been speaking about liking someone else. you wanted to cry, to bury yourself alive, anything to get out of that situation.

“really? what?” he snapped his head up, staring at you wide eyed and shocked

“nevermind jisung, forget i said it, i didnt mean to make it awk-”

jisung cupped your cheeks, you felt his warm palms and cool fingertips before you felt his lips, slightly chapped yet soft

your mind was going crazy, you barely managed to move your lips along with jisungs before he parted away, still holding your cheeks and smiling widely

“out of all the stars in this world, youre the brightest y/n.”

you died inside before realising he liked you, all the things he said earlier were about you

jisungs eyes were hopeful, happy, loving, especially when you smiled at him so purely

“jisung, kiss me again.”

and he did, pulling you into his lap and letting you tangle your fingers into his hair

he even kissed you outside your apartment, giggling in happiness and tugging you into his body before saying goodbye

jisung couldnt remember a time he’d been this happy, and honestly, neither could you.

finish!! hope you liked it omg

[ksjmoon]

alphabet tag

i was tagged by @taettu thanks for the tag eheh

and i taaaaag @jinsoulc @jinseas @dreamksj @anamjoon @wlwtual @solare-hoseok @yeontanstan @jjksangel @capgi and anyone else that wants to do it also if u don't wanna do it or have done it I'm sorry just ignore it djdjjsjs

a // age: 19

b // birthplace: lisboa

c // current time: 23:41

d // drink you had last: water

e // easiest person to talk to: probably rita, dont wanna be cheesy but idk i trust her and feel comfortable being myself w/ her

f // favourite songs: ATM: promise by jimin (im so proud of my bby boy uwu), riding by lana del rey, pluto by bts (im never getting over this song????), good evening and tell me what to do by shinee, love shot and tempo by exo (seqshi), lambada by kaoma (its been literally stuck in my head for weeks), diz-me que sim by 4taste (they are best band of this generation no one can tell me otherwise) sghdd idk i cant choose fav stuff i hate when ppl ask me that jhdjdhjd

g // grossest memory: this is really not a gross memory but the first thing i thought about was when i didnt had a skincare routine and id go to bed without washing my face omghfghdg im ridiculous that shits disgusting 

h // horror yes or horror no: no

i // in love: no got better stuff to do with my free time 

j // jealous of people: definitely more envious (not in a toxic way tho) and not jealous at all really? 

k // kids of your own someday: hell no thats way too much responsibility for me

l // love at first sight or should i walk by again: walk by again i guess shdjhdjh

m // middle name: i dont really like it shjshsjsh its isabel

n // number of siblings: 1 older sis 

o // one wish: for things to go smoothly career wise i mean im in the middle of my degree but i feel that i dont have the potencial/confidence for things to work out and have a successful career and everyone in that college is way more talented and has better skills than i do and that makes me really nervous shssh omg sorry abt the rant 

p // person you last called: mom

q // question you’re always asked: “do u believe in astrology? :O” omg yes i understand and study astrology in my free time let me breath jesus also people used to ask me if my nails were really mine and not fake ssjshsjh yes they are mine 

r // random fact about you: i really like high fashion and id love to work for vogue or fw someday even tho thats kinda impossible 

s // song you last sang: im trying to recall new years karaoke night but i dont really remember the last song we sang? but probably britney spears, backstreet boys or a song from mamma mia 

t // time you woke up: 08:30am

u // underwear colour: black

v // vacation destination: milan, iceland, santorini, thailand, india, cuba, honestly so many places i have a whole list :(   

w // worst habit: procrastinating 

x // x-rays: like going to the doctor and they take an inside pic of you? yea hdhdjdh 

y // your favourite food: theres this plate idk the name in english, curry, literally all types of salad and pasta with a bunch of ingredients like veggies and fruit u know and veggie lasagna. now moving on to sweets i luv my moms chocolate cake, honey and walnuts cake and i also like my sisters pear pie!! and a bunch of other pastries whose names i dont know in english shshjs im sorry 

z // zodiac sign: scorpio sun eheh 

happy new year everyone!!! i hope u all had lots of fun and that this year brings u all lots of good stuff <333333

[gocatboygo]

1-50 for Rosa

I’m Love You.

1) What is your OC’s favorite color?

maybe red? could also be brown, but like probably red

2) Does your OC collect anything? What do they collect?

bad christian romance novels from pre-war. cass gives her most of them. twilight is included in this but its by no means her favorite like she thought it was just ok

3) What kind of things is your OC allergic to?

nothing comes to mind

4) What kind of clothing does your OC wear?

in public she almost always wears a mask, usually either the legion recruit mask or the ncr ranger mask. also construction gloves. spends most of the beginning of the game in a sherrif’s duster & then from there she just wears whatever covers most of her and supports her gear, if it’s really hot out she’ll wear the wasteland surgeon armor

5) What is your OC’s first memory?

she still has her memories from before the bullet so probably something from her childhood

6) What’s your OC’s favorite animal? Least favorite?

she really fucking loves horses. like she’s a Horse Girl TM. least favorite is like,, djfdsfjs cazadores idfk

7) What element would your OC be?

definitely earth!

8) What is your OC’s theme song? 

probably a mitski song lmfao. either that or everybody wants to rule the world by tears for fears

8) Do you have a faceclaim/voiceclaim for your OC?

bold of you to assume i have anything for this oc / i just realized i fucked up the numbering here so enjoy that sdkfjdsk

9) What deadly sin would best represent your OC?

after she gets pretty deep into the game, maybe after the sierra madre? greed. i can see her going a little out of control after she has to give all that gold up (even though she could bring 1 bar back bc She Big) and just kind of. taking everything

10) What are your OC’s hobbies?

she’s a courier at heart so delivering packages dsjkflsjdw. farming, solitaire, reading those bad novels i previously mentioned, knitting, gecko hunting… watching holotape movies on her pipboy… getting terminally bored and taking med-x ksdjfkds

11) How patient is your OC? How hot-headed are they?

she’s fairly patient, the only time she really gets hot-headed is at fortification hill when she goes to meet with lanius (caesar dies of his cancer p early in her canon). also probably at the tops, she doesnt like bein in there

12) What is your OC’s gender / sexuality / race / species / etc.?

cis woman / bi / mexican / human / etc.

13) What foods does your OC like to eat? What are their least favorite foods?

uhh she learned how to cook from home-grown ingredients and in lasting bulk so she mostly eats stew and potatoes. every time she goes to freeside she gets that “mystery meat” from the stand in front of the gate despite the fact that its transparently radroach meat. she doesnt like the meat from the ultraluxe (even before she finds out it might be people, its fancy and garnished and she dont trust like that) but she loves their brahmin cheesecakes so she like, settles kdsjfksd

14) If your OC could have any pet, what would they choose? Why?

rex. rex. rex. rex. r (she also has like 2 brahmin at some point ksdjfksdf)

15) What does your OC smell like? 

that’s ! a wildin question huh! probably gunpowder and old leather 

16) How do they make a living? What kind of job do they want / not want? What is their dream job? What do they think of their current job?

she works for house, owns a small farm (after a while, in spring of 2282), and does various quests around the mojave for money. she was a courier for 8-9 years and she loved it, so id say thats her ideal job, but she’s past it. she’s very happy with where she is in all 3 of those jobs !

17) What are your OC’s greatest fears? Weaknesses? Strengths?

her biggest fears would probably be claustrophobia and getting buried alive (because benny). she has nightmares abt it, like 2 the point where every so often she wakes up and just Has A Good Sob. she has very low charisma (1) and very high endurance (9), her strength is also pretty good

18) What kind of music do they listen to? Do they have a favorite song?

she thinks truly madly deeply by cascada is the best love song ever written. she also listens to radio new vegas & a holotape cass gave her that’s mostly feminist anthems from the 20th century and 2 instances of mad about the boy

19) If they came from their world to ours (if not already in our’s) how would they react? What would they do?

oh god she would fucking hate the pre-war world. she would probably just go find a horse tbh sdfjsdkf what else is there to do! 

20) What personal problems/issues do they have? Pet peeves?

she has brain damage from the bullet. it didnt affect her intelligence or (for the most part) her memory, but she does have, like. chronic headaches, brain fog, dizzy spells, things like that. like i said before, she also has nightmares & claustrophobia from the same incident. as for pet peeves, she hates people who talk a lot without saying anything or try to sound smart for no reason. she has no problem with talkers as long as they like,, Say Something dsfdksfj

21) What kind of student were they/would they be in high school?

she grew up in a very small (very catholic) village, so im not sure if she exactly went to high school?? but she did attend school. she was sort of a loner, she had a single mother w no siblings & shes like 6 feet tall so both of those things made her a little bit outcast ksdjfksd. i mean she. She Was A Horse Girl what else do i have to say

22) What is a random fact about your OC? 

god i dont know!! uh… oh omg she thinks astrology is something vulpes made up and when she hears arcade talking about it she out of bodies

23) What is their outlook on life? What is their philosophy / what do they think in general about living?

rosa’s a very simple person, she mostly just wants a good life for herself. stable work and a stable life make her happy. a lot of her philosophy throughout the game is based on the fact that she’ll do (almost) whatever her employer asks her to, thus her being a house courier. most of her relationships are based almost entirely on trust, which is another major philosophy of hers 

24) What inspired you to create them / how did you create them? Were they originally a fancharacter? What was their personality / design like when you first made them?

honestly??? i read so many fics (especially f!courier/vulpes) where the courier was a Relateable Pretty Girl TM that i probably just wanted to make a female courier who had actual substance and weight. rosa is married to (ex-legion) vulpes so she rlly does largely serve to subvert the genre in fnv fic

25) Who is the most important person in their life? Why? Who is the least important to them (that still has an impact and why?

i mean. her husband probably skdfjkdfs. she’s been travelling with vulpes for a long time and she’s had to put her life in his hands a lot of times because of that, so he’s grown to be very important to her. mr house is a close runner up. i hate to say this but arcade is probably her least Impactful TM companion skjfdkds she barely travels w him 

26) What kind of childhood did your character have?

i say some of this in the other questions but like heres all of her backstory in one i guess kdsjfsd. rosa was raised in small catholic village somewhere outside nevada, i havent decided on what state its in bc im fucking dumb as hell. her family (like great grandmother type shit not her personally) & a few others came up from mexico years ago to get away from raiders, made a village and Kabaam. her mother had her, and then a second baby who was stillborn, and her father disappeared a few months after this happened. her mother raised her there until she was 20 and she signed on with the mojave express as a courier in an attempt to get out of her village and find Something To Do With Herself TM. she was a little outcast growing up, not totally isolated but certainly not very popular, and it caused her to be a very independent person later in life.

27) What kind of nervous habits do they have? Do they stim? Do they have any kinds of addictions?

she fidgets sometimes but i wouldn’t say she stims. clenches her fists when she’s nervous. she likes to smoke and chew tobacco (especially when she’s stressed out) but it’s only a minor addiction

28) If they could choose their epitaph for their grave, what would they choose?

honestly?? “Forgive Me Mama” bc that’s what it says on her helmet sfjdsfhd

29) Do they want to get married? Why or why not? Would they ever want kids? Do they have kids? Why?

apparently bc she fuckin did! she wants stability and someone to take care of her, and she likes the idea of being a unit with someone a lot more than she likes the idea of just dating them, so i guess thats how vulpes Happened ™. she actually can’t have kids bc she got irradiated pretty bad while she was looting searchlight :/ but she doesn’t want kids because 1) she’s travelling a lot for her work and 2) she doesn’t want to have to shape her life around a child. god knows vulpes cant interact w children, but he still wants them in theory because he wants a legacy

30) What is their most traumatic memory/experience? What is their favorite memory?

ring-a-ding-ding! it’s getting shot. her favorite memory is probably either like, easter when she was a child, or some time she swam in a river with vulpes, she’s fuckin basic

31) If they could have one thing in the world, what would it be?

a horse. i wanted to answer this differently but it really is just a horse

32) Would they ever kill someone? What would someone have to do to push them to kill someone? If they would kill someone, why? 

she’s killed! if she’s provoked or if her employer asks her to, she will absolutely kill someone. destroying the bos bunker was hard for her though :/ i like to pretend she didnt do it even though shes house ksdjfklsdhg

33) What social groups and activities does your character attend? What role do they like to play? What role do they actually play, usually?

maybe its just the fact that its 2am and i have poor reading comprehension but i have no fucking clue what this means

34) How is your character’s imagination? Daydreaming a lot? Worried most of the time? Living in memories?

her imagination is pretty good! i wouldnt call it excellent but it’s pretty good. she usually only daydreams before she falls asleep or gets up in the morning (or if she’s just like rlly chilled out skdfjds). she doesn’t worry much.

35) What does your character want most? What do they need really badly, compulsively? What are they willing to do, to sacrifice, to obtain?

i have no idea how to answer this one, which is a tragedy. maybe ill come back and answer it someday lmao

36) What’s something that your character does, that other people don’t normally do?

The House Always Wins I-VIII

37) What would your character do with a million dollars? 

in all seriousness she’d probably just stop having any financial restraint and start buying whatever she wants whenever it comes to mind. also she’d buy vulpes like 100,000 gambling chips from gomorrah and tell him to lose his mind skdfhjldksg

38) What is in your characters refrigerator right now? On their bedroom floor? Nightstand? Garbage can?

fridge at her farmhouse: vegetables, gecko meat, some seasonings, leftovers, beans, cram / fridge at the 38: An Entire Pot Of Stew ™, leftover tops restaurant takeout, a cheesecake, crispy squirrel bits, a post-it note from veronica saying they’re out of shampoo / bedroom floor: ;) / garbage can: empty cans, vulpes, plastic wrappers

39) Your character is getting ready for a night out. Where are they going? What do they wear? Who will they be with?

first thing that came to mind was to gomorrah, in her Fancy Riot Gear and ranger’s helmet, with raul. no idea why but like have a fun night bb sdkfjdslkf

40) What does your character do when they’re angry? Why?

depends on why she’s angry, but usually she’ll either start ranting at whoever she’s mad at (which never lasts long) or just go silent and tense up. she’ll also grumble. i mentioned this before but fortification hill was probably the only time she was so mad she was just yelling at everyone skfjkdsf

41) Does your character have any scars? Where did they get them from? 

she has a lot of scars! the most visible one is a cobweb-shaped scar on her forehead from when benny shot her. she also has another less prominent scar on the side of her face from Some Shit. various scars on her torso and arms from various sources, another bullet scar on her arm from raiders, maybe more. there’s a particularly bad scar across her ribs from being slashed w a knife (raiders again)

42) What was the most offensive thing your character had ever said?

she hates the irish

43) How does your character react/ accept criticism?

i dont know if she really cares? shes still a little bitter abt some insults she took as a kid but like arent we all. it makes her more angry than insecure

44) If your character was given a slice of pineapple pizza and they HAD to eat it (or something bad would happen), how would they react? Do they even LIKE pineapple pizza?

under normal circumstances, she’d throw it in the fucking trash. if she HAD to eat it she’d be fine skjfsd she just wouldnt like it

45) Your character is given a voodoo doll of themself. What do they do with it? Do they see if it actually works?

yeah, she probably puts a needle in its shoulder or something to see if it works. shes so used to being end 9 she doesnt consider the fact that She Will Lose Her Shoulder

46) Can your character draw? What do they like to draw? Do they doodle?

she can’t draw slkdfjsd. she probably has like… some warrior cats type drawings from when she was a kid and thats it

47) What were their parents like? How has that affected how they are as an adult?

her father dipped when she was maybe 1-2 years old, a few months after her brother was stillborn.

48) Does your character like candy? Do they get sugar rushes? What are they like when they get a rush?

she likes a little bit of candy, mostly lollipops. i cant see her getting a sugar rush

(i know i fucked up the numbering) 50) If your character was presented with imminent and unavoidable death/fatality, how would they react? Would they try to avoid death anyways? Would they try to make their last days count?

this,, could actually very easily happen because of her brain damage, ive explored that concept before. she would probably spend a lot of time alone or with the people she’s closest to reflecting on her life and trying to die in peace. if she had enough time she’d go see her mother again, but it’s still unlikely

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jesus fucking christ thats long, rip mobile users. tysm for sending me this!! i didnt realize how much 50 questions was dksjfkds. yall can keep sending me these (like 1-10 at a time skdfjdg) for other couriers if you want but like i understand if ur tired of hearing me Fucking Talk after this