#honestly almost the only time in my whole life that my parents actively enforced feminine gendered actions on me in a way i fully hated | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

unopenablebox · 9 months ago

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is there a reasonable market in, like, secondhand tallit? i want a new one that doesn't a. have rust stains b. give me severe dysphoria due to its delicate feminine embroidery, but i would really love to not give money to israeli judaica companies right now. and i also want it to be made of natural fibers and be nice to look at while im making demands

#the only tallit i have is the one i got for my bat mitzvah where i was informed i could Not have any of the embroidered ones i liked.#but i could have a delicate silver and lavender tracery pattern! which i have always hated and now also experience as an act of self-harm!#honestly almost the only time in my whole life that my parents actively enforced feminine gendered actions on me in a way i fully hated #which. is weird. because it was a tallit. which you'd think wouldnt need to be that gendered as things go #anyway. i tried the etsy ~vintage~ but i mostly saw ones i hated that seemed to be from dedicated bulk resellers which is not ideal either #can i. hire someone to make me a tallit. no because it will cost several thousand dollars to do that probably.#if i learn to weave. and buy a giant loom which i won't. will THAT be a kosher tallit?#i assume the answer is no because i don't believe in god #but that fact in itself would be pretty funny.#box opener

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