#homosexuality aside i think if ur

[hajikei]

HI BESTIE very excited about seeing ur art :D

could I ask for ur sdra2 sexuality and gender hcs?

Of course! Thank you for the question, “anon.” ^v^

I do plan to post art soon! I might make something quick for Syobai’s birthday on the 3rd as well. 

Anyways, this is my sexuality + gender headcanon list for SDRA2! It includes spoilers for the entire game and notes explaining why I chose the headcanon.

SDRA2: SEXUALITY + GENDER HEADCANONS

Sora - Unlabelled (Both regarding gender and sexuality. Prefers presenting femininely and using she/her pronouns, though.)

Yuki Maeda - Cisgender Questioning (He’s not exactly sure. I ain’t either.)

Mikado Sannoji - Unlabelled (Anything and everything. Couldn’t care less what you call him, or who he finds interest in.)

Shinji Kasai - Cisgender Heterosexual (I apologise Shinji fans. Chapter 6 stuff.)

Syobai Hashimoto - Cisgender Pansexual (He cares more about money than what’s in your pants.)

Emma Magorobi - Cisgender Lesbian (Very closeted. 100% inspired by Good Luck, Babe!)

Kokoro Mitsume - Cisgender Aroace (I don’t think she was romantically interested in Sojiro, and only had a child with him for her experiments.)

Nikei Yomiuri - Cisgender Bisexual (He DOES present androgynous, though!)

Setsuka Chiebukuro - Transgender Lesbian (I think she’s the only transfem I headcanon in the Danganronpa Another series. Just hear me out.)

Iroha Nijiue - Cisgender Pansexual (She doesn’t mind whatever gender her partner is - she prioritises connection.)

Hajime Makunouchi - Cisgender Homosexual (I would make him bisexual but buff gay guy HITS.)

Yoruko Kabuya - Cisgender Bisexual (This is canon! Leans towards women.)

Yuri Kagarin - Cisgender Heterosexual (Also another canon one.)

Hibiki and Kanade are both Cisgender.

Hibiki isn’t interested in dating; she’d be too afraid of losing her partner. Kanade wouldn’t allow it anyways.

Kanade isn’t interested in general. (No explanation aside from the entirety of Chapter 3.)

Teruya Ōtori - Cisgender Pansexual (He gives heavy pansexual vibes, no reasoning needed.)

[counttwinkula]

hi i have been obsessed with your “the monster’s body is a cultural body etc” post since i saw it like a month ago. do you have any book recs where i can read more about this, like, forever. (I’m aware of your podcast I’m checking it out too) <3

i'm glad you liked it, it's an honor to introduce the people of tumblr to cohen's seven theses

first and foremost i would recommend The Monster Theory Reader, ed. Jeffrey Andrew Weinstock, which includes several seminal essays including:

"The Uncanny" by Sigmund Freud

"The Uncanny Valley" by Masahiro Mori

"Approaching Abjection" by Julia Kristeva

"Horror and the Monstrous-Feminine: An Imaginary Abjection" by Barbara Creed

"The Monster and the Homosexual" by Harry M. Benshoff

i would also recommend the book in which Cohen first published his seven theses, Monster Theory: Reading Culture, ed. Jeffrey Jerome Cohen

(i must admit that i haven't gotten around to reading either of these books in full yet)

aside from the essays mentioned above, here are some foundational texts for monster theory but not specifically about monster theory:

The Uses of Enchantment by Bruno Bettelheim

Mythography: The Study of Myths and Rituals by William Doty

Vested Interests: Cross-Dressing and Cultural Anxiety by Marjorie Garber

monster theory/horror criticism texts i've read:

Monsters in the Closet by Harry M. Benshoff

Skin Shows by Jack Halberstam

Murder Most Queer by Jordan Schildcrout

It Came from the Closet, ed. Joe Vallese

Horror by Brigid Cherry

Men, Women, and Chain Saws by Carol Clover

Dark Places by Barry Curtis

The Dread of Difference, ed. Barry Keith Grant

The Monster Show by David J. Skal (SEE NOTE BELOW)

Darkly: Black History and America's Gothic Soul by Leila Taylor

The Ghost: A Cultural History by Susan Owens

and some others i own but haven't read yet:

Dark Carnivals by W. Scott Poole

Phantom Past, Indigenous Presence: Native Ghosts in North American Culture and History by Colleen E. Boyd and Coll Thrush

Queer for Fear: Horror Film and the Queer Spectator by Heather O. Petrocelli

Pretend We're Dead: Capitalist Monsters in American Pop Culture by Annalee Newitz (just started this, already love it)

Theatre and the Macabre, ed. Meredith Conti and Kevin J. Wetmore, Jr.

and i can't neglect to mention The Monster in Theatre History: This Thing of Darkness by Michael Chemers

before i say anything further i want to give one warning. my particular interest is on monstrosity and queerness (probably evident based on some of my recommendations). monster theory and horror criticism have generally been rooted in psychoanalytic theory, particularly as it has been interpreted through a feminist lens. unfortunately, this leads to a lot of arguments and interpretations that are sex essentialist and fail to address gender with the necessary nuance. this is particularly true in Men, Women, and Chain Saws and The Dread of Difference.

(Vested Interests is… complicated. it's not monster theory exactly but cohen cites it. garber is generally better than the others mentioned here in her consideration of trans people but her work can still be uncomfortable.)

i have a lot of reservations about recommending The Monster Show. i loved reading it and i think skal has great analysis. somehow, however, in the middle of his discussion of how marginalized people have been historically monsterized in american culture, he has the audacity to cite The Transsexual Empire by Janice Raymond, the ur-text of TERF ideology, and skal uses this text to monsterize trans women. it's disgusting and reprehensible, and if the rest of the book wasn't so strong i wouldn't recommend it

the best medicine i have are texts by trans people. It Came from the Closet is an anthology with several essays by trans people, i adore it. i am forever obsessed with Gender Outlaw by Kate Bornstein, which isn't exactly monster theory, but i would say it's monster theory adjacent and i wish everyone would read it

and if you haven't, you must read "My Words to Victor Frankenstein Above the Village of Chamounix: Performing Transgender Rage" by Susan Stryker. (see i even put a link to that one. drop everything and read it now)

alright if you're still with me i have a couple other things to put out there:

the docuseries Queer for Fear, available on Shudder, is incredible and i'm obsessed with it

she seems to be inactive these days but @draculasdaughter has a lot of posts quoting texts and articles on monster theory/horror criticism that i highly recommend

i've only seen the jacob geller videos on this list but i mean to watch this youtube playlist of video essays about horror, fear, and dread

and i also keep a #monster theory tag on my blog that has various posts on the subject, some funny and some earnest

[quiet-admirer]

yes pls tell us abt ur ocs 👀👀👀

WELL, I’m so glad you asked! Dump incoming:

Ira is an uptight, straight-edge-before-straight-edge bassist and frontman of Fagocyte, a hardcore punk band in 1979 hailing from Orange County. He’s very rigid in his belief that hardcore = DIY, and he’s the kinda guy who if you asked if he had a lighter would respond “I don’t poison my mind and body with chemicals”. But despite the prickly exterior, he deeply cares about his community and will viciously defend anyone The System™ casts aside.

Diego, our main character, is a stoner punk from LA who just wants to play his bass and be a homosexual and get by in life. His band, The Vents, has been struggling to find their place as the punk scene changes rapidly around them, and they find themselves experimenting on both ends of punk's new fun synth-pop and angry hardcore divide.

When Ira hears the suspiciously commercial sound of The Vents' newest music, he doesn't hide his disdain: he hates when punk bands sell out and can't understand why Diego doesn’t seem to care at all about the culture or ethos of hardcore (or punk for that matter) despite being in a band that has roots in the genre. Ira seems to pick a fight whenever they’re within 40 yards of each other, which is a lot because Ira helps organize for DIY spaces and music production. Diego doesn’t get why this short angry punk seems to have something very specific against him when a lot of punk bands have gone way more commercial than them, but it doesn’t seem like Ira truly knows either (it’s because he thinks Diego is hot but he won’t admit it).

More under the cut -> -> ->

Jumpcut: they figure it out and get together.

Now, Ira might seem like a self-depriving hard-ass, but the end goal of what he’s all about is experiencing life unfiltered and to the fullest. In bed, he’s into dominating guys into getting fatter and has had several play partners he’s helped gain varying amounts of weight. Diego on the other hand is a jack-of-all-perversions in the BDSM and Leather scenes, and is an experienced dom but he’s flexible. He’s always been fat and whenever times are harder and he drops some weight, he always tries to get it back up again whenever he has the chance. So, although he’d never heard of it before, he's totally into Ira making him fatter.

Ira isn't particularly skinny himself, but is strictly into feeding and encouraging, and strictly into domination. As Ira slowly lets Diego get to know him, though, Diego begins to suspect there’s more to that story than Ira’s saying.

Bonus: Ira’s 'little brother'/‘son’ (no relation) is Jesse, a 15-year-old delinquent who Ira discovered vandalizing his van after a gig and took him under his wing. Jesse is the human equivalent of opening a roughed-up soda can and no amount of Benzedrine can keep him in a single spot for more than a minute at a time. But Ira stuck a pair of drumsticks in his hands and he shortly thereafter became Fagocyte’s drummer, helping catapult their sound from gritty punk to high-energy, infectious hardcore.

I haven’t spent time thinking about the other band members since a few years ago when this story was about modern-day explicitly feedist bands, and they weren't even developed in a lot of detail back then, so they’re still pending :)

[yuukei-yikes]

hope you dont mind me asking this but since you seem very knowledgeable about the fandom and all i thought it was suitable

why is there so much ship content between sato kido and kano?? are they not adoptive siblings?? theres even some in semi canon (i think) contents like in anthologies too,, i mean not surprised it exists since weird people are in every fandom but its talked so casually here

with momo and hibiya too actually! because of the huge age gap you would think it wouldn't be such a casual ship but it somehow is?? as far as i seen anyways

oh man lollll nah i dont mind. fair question and it's much better to have an answer to this

im putting it under the cut bc it turned out kinda long and into a rant, and also to warn i mention the themes suggested in the ask (incest, age gaps)

basically it's no secret that in japanese media, incest and age gaps are widely normalized even today so just imagine in 2013 when kagepro was at its peak.

back then, kido and kano specifically were a WIDELY popular ship. here's the thing with the weird kano and kido (and seto too but mainly kano and kido) shipping, aside from what i said abt normalized incest and shit. kano and kido (and seto) being siblings is actually... sort of a spoiler? it's not revealed early on.

kano and kido are presented as 2 kids the same age living together and having different names. and they purposefully stop acting like siblings. SO it doesnt register until you get into their backstories. they're both adopted into the same family when theyre like... 7 or 8, and were friends before becoming siblings so people were able to use this excuse: "OHHH THEYRE MORE CHILDHOOD FRIENDS"

but like..... they live together as siblings for YEARS and to be honest im sure 99% of people watch the song mvs FIRST which u can binge in 1 afternoon and if ur watching with any sort of actual interest and attention, you WILL see kano and kido as part of the tateyama family in ayano's theory of happiness. not to mention the anime came out in 2014 which im also sure 99% of kagepro fans have seen. so to me that was always an excuse if it came from a very dedicated fan though i do understand it if it's from a casual enjoyer, like they truly didn't catch that they're siblings

when i joined the fandom i was 13, didnt know eng or japanese, and thought mekatrio childhood friends made total sense for some good 6 months into the fandom until I realised properly. a few months ago, i discovered a very close friend of mine had a kagepro phase in 2014 or something and told me he really shipped kano and kido and when i told him they're siblings he was like WHAT!!!!!!!

and another thing abt kano and kido. they're indubitably the queerest characters. THEY LOOK THE FUCKING GAYEST. there is Something abt pushing the gay characters together?? kido is constantly mistaked for a guy. kano the poor thing had ANOTHER popular ship going for him with ayano because people decided he is that way to shintaro because he actually had a crush on ayano. yeah. this was the fucking consensus with kano, shintaro and ayano. like i mentioned i DONT KNOW japanese and only ever read the translations of the novels and i also dont Know what jin was thinking when writing kano and shintaro. But. dear lord it reads fucking homosexual my dude. jin does this by accident a lot though. look at kido and momo. momo calling kido beautiful 1000 times but she's like Well as a woman i am jealous i wish i was that pretty. bruuuh ok anyways moving on Ill GET to jin again in a second.

like you said, semi official stuff like the anthologies are very heavy on this ship and also.... sorry, the manga which is an official media. is Heavily into this ship. for jin's stance on it, i am not sure. i do think he laughs it off but he NEVER intended to write them that way. in the seventh novel theres a whole bit where kido's telling kano you shouldve never hidden this from me im your sister we are family. even shintaro who is the pov ur reading from is like wow what a nice brother and sister AND THATS THE SECOND TO LAST NOVEL WHICH BY THEN THE SHIP WAS SUPER POPULAR SO TO ME THAT WAS JIN'S WAY OF REMINDING EVERYONE THEYRE SIBLINGS. personally i think jin truthfully intended to write kano and kido as siblings but doesnt care people ship them otherwise he wouldnt have had the manga written by someone who shipped them

so basically what happened. kagepro was confusing and people sometimes missed they are siblings. in japanese media its super normalized. it is 2013 so here it is also normalized in fandom spaces. fanart ensues, even official or semi official content teases it, and yeah. boom its popular

another big part of it was, EVERYONE GETS A PARTNER!!!! kagepro content has A LOT of Shipping Pieces if that makes sense. idk what to call it but like god, pixiv entries with 1 shinaya, 1 harutaka, 1 setomary.... and 1 hibiya and momo and 1 kano and kido. god awful. if any golden year kagepro fans follow me they will KNOW what im talking about.

now that i mentioned it. hibiya and momo. ough. idk man. people were properly weird with this one. because with kano and kido they at least made up a damn excuse. with hibiya and momo there was nothing. but the thing is, jin is entirely to blame here. absolutely fucking disgusting bro. unlike with kano and kido, with hibiya and momo he actively wrote it. in the third novel their chapters together or any of hibiya's chapters are actual fucking torture to read. i wont go into details if u havent read it but like there are Reasons i never recommend kagepro to people.

its good to give jin proper respect he IS the creator of my favorite characters ever in the whole wide world and the writer of the story that makes me the happiest ever in the history of life. but. that doesn't mean i dont hold him accountable for being weird as hell in his writing because he absolutely is

back in the early days of this blog i had my very own Gets Send Deaths Threats arc by some people who shipped these guys or people who were mad i criticized jin (i always suspected it was like. the same 1 or 2 people. with a lot of time in their hands) soooo honestly answering this activated my fight of flight a little bit but tbh i havent seen Any content here on tumblr (i do have everything blacklisted to hell and back) or gotten ANY rude messages here in years, so i think we're good👍

hope this was helpful and i hope ur not grossed out of kagepro though I'd understand. u kinda need a strong stomach not only for its themes but sadly kagepro does the gross anime thing animes do :(

[slackerstudyblr]

I hate studying because school is a distraction from writing and drawing.

That aside, this is my intro post. I hate a lot of things so you'll probably be blocked over something minor.

I have attention deficit homosexual disorder , as a result my main obstacle while studying is thinking about hot men. I probably fucked ur dad. Just here to post about accessibility tips , ways to slack off and things I accomplish by prioritizing fulfillment over classes.

[forabeatofadrum]

Happy Sunday and thank you @coffeegleek for the tag (how the turns have tabled) and a thanks back to @wellbelesbian.

Do you see this bespoke banner? The title "Sonic Sunday" is by @ivelovedhimthroughworse and while I was looking that up, I realised staff flagged this entire blog as mature content. I literally complain all the time about how I do not know what sexy times are and yet...

Anyway, Tumblr fuckery aside, I claimed a fic for the Caught on Tape Podfic fest. It was a brash decision, because I have zero (0) experiences with the podfic world. I've uhhh never even listened to one so feel free to send recommendations. The things is that, to this day, I still read English text out loud. That's partially how I learnt English. And then I always give characters voices etc. so I thought: "Why not try this?" and also the mods said the fest was open for everyone. I was a bit worried, since I don't own a microphone or anything, but it's all in good fun. I did contribute, like, 5 lines to the Dalton Audiobook, but that's it. (And my chapters haven't been posted yet.) But the list of fics of this fest is absolutely phenomenal and I even had to stop myself from claiming multiple and I told myself to keep it around 1K fics, but damn. I already looked up how to pronounce Telemachus, but how the shit do you pronounce Swithin???

So I decided to try to podfic my own fics, just as some sort of equipment test. I only have a phone, after all. I originally wanted to try my hand at My rose-coloured boy, since that's my shortest CO fic, but again, this is a try out, so I picked my shortest fic on AO3, which happens to be my Klaine fic called The Moon fic, with a whopping 49 words. Behold, The Moon fic:

You'd think that a 16 second podfic would be a fucking cakewalk but I am at my parents' house and I recorded this in secret to avoid telling them that I was reading a fic about fictional homosexuals on the moon so I didn't have a second screen aka I did this whole 49 words fic from memory and even though it's literally only 49 words, I did 10 takes cause I kept messing up the text. I guess I will also have to learn how to edit and shit, since the fic I claimed is just over 1K.

Anyway, don't care too much about the quality of me reading out loud. That's not what this test was for. But how does it sound? I did read some tips in the Discord about maybe recording underneath a blanket or in a closet, so I might redo it from there just to see how it looks.

And now, the weather: @quizasvivamos @blurglesmurfklaine @esperantoauthor @otherworldsivelivedin @caramelcoffeeaddict @sillyunicorn @bazzybelle @dragoneggos @raenestee @tectonicduck @nightimedreamersworld @urban-sith @thnxforknowingme @captain-aralias @you-remind-me-of-the-babe @justgleekout @cerriddwenluna @tea-brigade @ivelovedhimthroughworse @moodandmist @whogaveyoupermission @bookish-bogwitch @confused-bi-queer @ionlydrinkhotwater @1908jmd @special-bc-ur-part-of-it @larkral @chen-chen-chen-again-chen ​ @cutestkilla​ @artsyunderstudy ​ @martsonmars ​ @facewithoutheart ​ @shrekgogurt @boyinjeans @rockitmans @bitbybitwrites @blackberrysummer @whatevertheweather

[dentixvoxel]

Tell me about ur wanky ship

oh man, oh boy. time for insane autism rambling. (maybe slight wanky spoilers) Akio and Keiichiro my beloveds. The relationship they have in canon is wild. When they first see each other, its when Akios driving the Porsche and Kei thinks it blackbird but figures it can't be him. And it takes him like a day to figure out it was the driver of the devil Z and hes like !!!!!!!!!!!. And then Akio is made to work on Kei's supra by the body works guy, Takagi (in my mind, working on someone else's car so it'd drive better is homoerotic). Before the race, theyre both driving on the expressway and its as if Akio's teaching him the road, and where to break and stuff. And when they finally race, Kei just keeps going after the Z, even when his car clearly can no longer withstand the speed. Because the Z made him rediscover his connection to the supra. And Akio admits he poured his soul into that supra. After the race, in the manga, Akio gets UPSET OVER KEI'S CAR BEING MESSED UP. I aint ever see him get that close to breaking down. and it was over Kei's car. And at one point, Akio drives Kei in the Z. Like, picks him up. bcuz Kei didn't have his soupra anymore. But aside from that, they both just Make Sense to me. Akio's this guy who tries to appear Normal(tm) but actually doesn't allow anyone get close to him (except for the Z) because he has barely disguised trust issues. Kei, a dude who has clearly more social experiences (even though he's also actually pretty bad at being social, he still tries, like he became a host even though he admitted that hes bad at flirting with women (as opposed to men hmm?)) probably can't help but be drawn to this weird nerd. And Akio can't compute why Kei's so... nice and genuinely interested in him. (bro suffers from being comphet and thinking he cant trust anyone bcuz they'll leave him ): (says it in the manga btw)). Even though at one point Kei's like "haha noo i dont think we'd get along" i can call his bluff. he's lying. he wants to kiss Akio. They should just kiss. Like, it was Akio's work and help with the supra that gave Kei an insane experience on the expressway. homosexuals both of them.

[rainysflowers]

if ur curious, my PC tumblr URL website thing's background was chosen to emulate on of my fave desktop wallpaper 2008 images cuz i find it so odd and strange

like its sooooo weird to have one of the many "the artist wants to be working on a yaoi instead" images of the boys chained together in a homosexual way whilst also looking like someone threw them in the blender in a fucked up and evil way whilst also topping and being topped in a homosexual way as ur background... who would do that...

😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐

who would do that.

😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐

anyways, just if u were wondering...

if u were a little curious...

what do you mean you dont give a shit :( /lh

Jokes aside, why the fuck is that ur wallpaper. What if ur mom sees that shit. What's she gonna say???????? Its like a fucked up light BDSM pinup my dude. Also, i love it, its my wallpaper in a way now, fuck you

I think it fits the aesthetic of the blog. Tho, i cant help but think that one of the other images might work better... they love chaining the two up, its in like, all the images

side note, the promo art NEVER has anythign to do with the anime or manga????????????? but like i can see it from a manga stand point, idk why it makes me think of Divine Design but it does (def Ban pretty moments UGH), but the anime?????????? where its like the most normal shit ever??????????? wtf happened. Im telling u the artist just wanted to work on a yaoi, smh

UGGGGHHHHH sorry im nnormal abut them :sob: :sob: :sob: :sob: :sob: :sob: :sob: :sob: :sob: :sob: :sob: :sob: :sob: :sob: :sob: :sob: :sob:

[mechawolfie]

listen i know chanda is like a murderer but also hes kinda um. well uh, well. um. well.. 👉👈

[lesbianrobin]

im so sorry i just need to say something and i feel like youre one of the very few reasonable people in the stranger things fandom and i just. honestly. is it just me or have people latched onto the hanky code thing WAY too hard with eddie even though it was like fully not intended coding by the wardrobe department and also. barely makes sense for the character at least in my eyes idk like maybe it Is just me but i feel like a twenty year old high schooler from rural indiana wouldn't be some kind of bdsm expert who's well versed in gay culture and flagging like that. like yeah its fun that the double meaning is there w/the hanky bc eddie Is very much a homosexual but i feel like people just latched onto it as if it's canon gospel with zero thought as to whether it would make sense for him (or his relationship with steve which is a whole other can of worms) but. yeah sorry for rambling just Yeah

oh no yeah i totally agree!! i like joking ab it and i'm not opposed to the idea of eddie like knowing ab the code but i don't rly think it was intentional and i don't think that eddie is like a hardcore bdsm dom at all dkcndncnf. like. i am a firm virgin eddie believer because he is a goofy little gay nerd in rural indiana who spends all his time playing dnd or guitar or selling weed out of his lunchbox. even if he IS flagging intentionally i do not think he has any practical experience.

my personal favorite interpretation of the hanky came from my friend sarah @steveharrington this isn't like anything she posted but she had the idea that maybe eddie learned vaguely about hanky code but not rly any specifics and he got So excited about the idea of flagging in any way that he just went out and got a black one bc it matched his usual outfits and he started wearing it without much idea of what it Means bc he wanted to have a connection to the community. i just think that concept is adorable.

another interpretation i enjoyed a lot is from the fic the affliction of the feeling where eddie is a virgin who thinks he knows what he's into but very quickly discovers that he in fact does not. it is explicit fair warning but i figure ur okay with that judging by the content of this ask lmao.

ultimately i think of the hanky as like something fun to play around with but i wish people didn't take it so far because it's definitely like. not rly in character. even setting aside whether or not he'd realistically be well-versed in hanky code yknow the thing is that eddie has this sadistic DM persona but when he's with chrissy or steve or any of his other friends he's always so genuinely sweet and playful and goofy in a way that just. does not scream sado top to me. eddie hates when his friends are upset or uncomfortable and he'll do anything to make them smile. i rly cannot see him being like taunting and sadistic during sex vnfncnfnc like sorry but he's a nerdy little virgin and he would be giggly and awkward and sweet.

nobody asked but personally i think his first time eddie would try So hard to be sexy and cool and his partner (steve bc i am a steveddie warrior and this is my post) would be like What are you doing and he'd be like uh seducing you and steve would be like no the fuck you are not you're acting like a pornstar who failed theater in high school and eddie's like ouch :< and steve is like look just relax can you just be eddie right now and eddie's like aw yeah... :')

anyway. sorry about all of that fkvjfjcjf basically i totally agree with you i think people latched onto the bandana wayyy too hard for what it is. thank you for the ask!!

[mithliya]

All else aside on political lesbianism and how it's harmful to lesbian women, it also does no favors for other OSA women (other than the self-proclaimed [political] lesbians).

As a straight woman, I feel like just being honest and saying "I'm a straight/bi woman who is voluntarily celibate and leaving hetero relationships behind," and then being an example of how straight women can thrive without men, is so much more inspiring to me than me finding out later that you used lesbianism as a political identity.

To me, it reinforces the idea that only lesbian women can be successful without male companionship. A lot of them are also very vague or don't ever talk about having any OSA, so I have a hard time knowing unless they're really up front about it.

yeah i think when it comes to not being with men, it’s a given for lesbians. it’s an abnormality when we ARE in any way with men, it’s normal for us to not be aren’t dating or fucking men. on the other hand a het woman being celibate is actually making a BIG decision and is actually doing something significant, even a bi woman choosing to exclusively be with women is doing something a lot more significant than.. lesbians simply acting on our sexuality (ie excluding men and exclusively being with women). so ultimately it really says a lot more when ur openly bi or het vocalising the choice to cut off men, than pretending that doing that makes u a lesbian. these women be an example to other bi & het women, that you don’t have to be with men and men aren’t an inevitability…. instead they appropriate lesbianism and perpetuate classic homophobia like “homosexuality is a lifestyle choice!” while making themselves unknown to other OSA women as women who are making an active choice not to be with men.

[mariska]

so a few days ago i bought an ~Adult Gentleman's Entertainment~ magazine on ebay cuz it featured a person i am a fan of in it and there was a listing for 2 dollars so i was like yeah sure why not, i collect magazines/books/comics etc, i have a specific little suitcase in my room where i keep my magazine collection specifically and theres plenty of room for more, get on in there. and the whole situation has just kind of been cracking me up ever since because

1.) i have never bought like. anything remotely nsfw for myself ever aside from like. Lollipop Chainsaw or Bayonetta, like M rated games that might have suggestive themes or stuff like that, because i have very little independence due to the limitations of my disabilities and have only had my own personal income since i was approved for disability payments in like 2020 or 2021 so i'm still very new to the concept of having any money that isnt birthday or xmas gifts from family to spend on anything

2.) because of the above part, i immediately felt like a big ol scumbag because i got a swimsuit edition type of magazine with a buncha pretty ladies in it and Those Are For Adults!!! Not Me, A 25 Year Old Grown Adult!!!

3.) i havent checked my public profile section in a few months on ebay but im pretty sure i have it set with my bio to be like '25 | she/her | big fan of anything vintage/retro' just 'cause i think it's nice for me to give a bit of an idea of who someone is selling stuff to in general, but then my profile picture is like, official Barbie art from the 80's/early 90's era Barbie design and my name shows up on my profile which is a very traditionally feminine name and the whole profile is just. very femme presenting, very obviously Flamboyant and Girly™️ in nature (i dont use a specific gender label for myself aside from nonbinary as kind of an umbrella term but i am very femme by choice as im sure nobody could ever tell by spending two seconds on any of my online profiles lmfao)

anyways. the person i got it from who was like the exact opposite of me and had a pretty masculine seeming profile/username/general online presence was very nice and shipped it out super fast and left me a positive feedback right away after they shipped that was very kind so that was all wonderful. and it arrived in like two or three days or something so of course i also immediately left a nice positive review and added them to my saved seller section in case there was ever another collectable thing on there i would be interested in. but the point of the story is just. it cracks me up so much whenever i get something on ebay that is not a part of my typical like, aesthetic/community and theres this unspoken knowledge between me and The Ebay Seller that I Am Gay. I Am A Homosexual. and like i'll check out the other reviews on the persons page and it'll be like, a bunch of men and grandpas and dads being like 'thanks man really appreciate it, trustworthy guy' and then Im There like 'super kind seller high reccommended!! shipped out very fast and exactly as described, really carefully packaged as well, thanks so much!! :) 🤗✌️✨' with the item listing right above that being 'sexy ladies magazine swimsuit issue manly male entertainment brand' hdshvdsgsfwidhsdhshdjsgajdbdskjdjsf. just me and the boys hangin out in the feedback section. goin' fishing later should be a great time. bob's hosting a bonfire tonight since the wives are on vacation this week, bring ur guitar we're gonna improvise some AC/DC on the beach and eat the worst stakes you've ever had in ur life

[nightswithkookmin]

I am a hard Taekook shipper but recently Jikook have been melting my heart by being so cute and cudly and loving. I understand and i am sorry for so mhch hate from Taekookers but trust me Taekookers are a bit shaken right now. I cannot disclose my name here but i would like to say if Jikook is real or they decide to come out which i higly doubt then i am 100% in support and also ur page helped me open my eyes and see a diff sude of shipping which is needed alot more. I am Loving Love ryt now.

C'est la vie!

So sorry for the late response love. You've always been on my mind.

I get not every Taekooker is wild and rabid just as not every Joker is sane and fake woke. Lol.

I mean I'm still holding on to my grudge against your people for storming my business pages and leaving shit reviews on my books- and laughing about it? What was that? Damn. Had to change my author name and everything and I've since been publishing under an alias- let me tell you, it's no fun at all.

In retrospect, I shouldn't have called y'all's ship dead- but honestly it dead, it dried up like a drop of sweat on a dessert. What can I say? People just don't want the truth, lol- had these angry thirteen year olds and fake woke Jokers coming for my ass and my business ass on the flamingo app. Chilee. Your people don't want to be civil. Sigh.

Some people just have no sense of personal responsibility and when they get called out for it they slap you with the whole, 'no one asked you to put yourself and your business out there' - this creepy behavior and mental adroitness is not far from rapists blaming girls for wearing short shorts and mini skirts or thieves blaming people for not putting up a fence and shit to protect their property. It's fucked up.

And don't get me started on what they do to Jimin or JK... or even Tae- not to make you feel bad or anything. It's just my people suck, your people suck, we all suck square- don't apologize for it unless you plan on doing something to change it?

As for Taekook, yea I don't think there is anything wrong with shipping them. They have a beautiful bond, they are both visuals and both funny as hell. If you won't ship them I will. Lol.

Just know the reason you are shipping them? If you are shipping them because you genuinely believe they are a couple too then you need to stop shipping them and start supporting them?

And once you start supporting them then I think you'd sooner realize there isn't anything there to support in the first place. Lol.

I support Jikook because I believe with my full chest they are real and are closeted- emphasis on closeted. And for the record, they are the only queer couples in BTS.

Tae lost his queer card when he accidentally outed Jimin on that radio show. 'I think he likes men' yea, straight up het behavior. Lack of homo sensitivity.

Did you see JK's reaction when JM was asked to spill tea on their pervy behaviors behind cams? My butt quivered. Chilee, I thought he was gone out JK too. Damn.

I think the word real and closeted have come loose and cheap on these streets these days. I don't think most of these shippers when they throw it around fully understand the term or realise what it means and what it takes. If they did, they wouldn't randomly be labeling every ship as 'real' within the fandom.

If you believe Taekook is real and that they are equally hiding their sexuality as well as their relationship within the group, then you should understand how severe and traumatizing this fact is and would be for them as gay men?

The thing is, they are not just hiding parts of themselves and their identity for the sake of their careers or military or whatever if they are real, they are lying to millions, millions of people at a time about who they really are by keeping their identity a secret. Secrets are lies honey, however way we want to see it.

If they are real then they are concealing their true identity away from not just their families and friends- if they haven't come out to them, but acquaintances from work, businesses who wouldn't work with them otherwise, brands, sponsors, Heads of states, their fans....

It's one thing for a heterosexual to keep their heterosexual relationship a secret, it's another for a queer person to keep their queerness and or queer relationship a secret.

A lie as heavy as this is bound to take a toll on them, no matter how good they are at hiding it. A secret gets heavy before it gets easy. Not to sell you on anything but do you see any such secret taking a toll on Taekook? Because I see it taking a toll on Jikook.

Do you believe Taekook are closeted? Because I believe Jikook are.

Being closeted means they have to carry the guilt of knowing that each time they pander to heteronormative roles in variety shows or interviews, or imply by omissions that they are straight, or make generalizing statements about their sexuality to avoid addressing their sexuality directly or give it away, that they are lying to people and spewing half truths- seven years in a roll.

Being closeted is not a joke. It's heavy. I think you need to grasp this before you claim it for anyone.

People like to throw the 'closeted' phrase around willy nilly but fail to comprehend its weight and complexity and consequences especially for people that they believe are actually queer.

It's not easy lying to people about who you are. Unless you are a pathological liar and a psychopath, it's like drowning each day you wake up. You die a little each time. Your sexuality is a huge part of your identity and when you deny it for so long by lying and suppressing it, it's like shutting out a peice of yourself and silencing your own voice. The more you push it aside the louder it screams and the harder it fights to come out.

It's a state of constant internal struggle. You wake up everyday contemplating whether to risk the perfect life you've spent years building just so you can turn off the guilt that comes with keeping a secret of this nature.

And each time you get better at omitting or generalizing and evading questions that hint at your truth, the more you hate yourself and the more guilt you feel. This guilt can become a driving force that pushes you to make risky moves and take impulsive actions such as 'borderline outing your relationship'- does that sound like Taekook to you?

If you are not driven by the love you feel for your partner, you are driven by the guilt and neither is a great place to be if you are queer.

You lie everyday, you get caught up in the lies and soon you start believing in the web of lies you've woven around yourself such that you don't even recognize who you are or why you are, anymore. As such, you are constantly searching for yourself, to reconcile the bits you've hidden away and perhaps forgotten, and you keep exploring your identity because you are unsettled- honey, that sounds more like Jikook than Taekook to me but c'est la vie.

Being closeted is not about moments that get cut by editors, or less interactions, or being seperated or seated further apart from eachother. These are just ship street parlance. Being closeted is an attitudinal, internal attribute rather than external manipulations or influences- it's a science. Lol

Coming out may be risky for any of these boys if they are real, but I promise you hiding is much harder for them.

And so When I look at Taekook, and I see how beautiful they are yet I don't in God's honest truth see them 'dealing' with any or all of these struggles Jikook deal with or have dealt with at one point, in my opinion- forget the homophobia, the wanting to come out, the low key microaggressions they deal with even within the group- 'the Jk never stops crying,' 'the real men don't do this and that talk' talk, the toxic masculinity and internalized homophobia traits JK and Jimin used to exhibit in their early days talking about 'real men don't twerk,' 'real men don't wear rings on their pinky'- all the times Jimin have had to defend his masculinity or even femininity, or stand up for Kook's within the group. 'Men, men, men. What is men?'

Jikook are the only two within the group that in my opinion have struggled most with their identity, with embracing aspects of themselves; you hear them complain about 'living a lie' 'tired of hiding, lying' and all these are themes consistent with closet behavior that they've both explored in one way or the other and even as of 2020 they are still dealing with or 'exploring' their identities perhaps as a means to reconcile their true selves? I'm really struggling with this post because I don't wanna get salesy on your ass. Lol.

Don't get me wrong, Tae struggles and deals with issues too- mostly with loneliness, lowkey depression in my opinion, lowkey bullying- sometimes, lol and he often expresses a desire to find someone and be happy and yet 'his supporters' don't recognize that...

You can wait till Jikook come out officially as queer, if they ever chose to, to support them- Or you can choose to support them and love them now because that's what they need in order to officially come out as and when they choose to? Ok I'm being salesy. Lmho. I'll stop. Don't mind me. But think about it.

Ship whatever ship you want but support Jikook. It's all I'm asking. And by support, I mean don't exhibit any anti homosexual attitude towards them- deadass. You and I gone fight, square up toe to toe, if you do. Lol.

People don't need to be afraid of Jikook. They just need to treat them as human beings and not reduce them to a mere ship. They are a ship too yes, but they are more than that if you ask me.

You sound nice. I love you. I'm glad you enjoy my posts. Merry Christmas and cheers to our ships.

Keep supporting Jikook. Jikook is real.

Signed,

GOLDY

[sapphicambitions]

like when I say I think Luke Castellan is gay I don’t mean it as a cutesy “don’t u wish ur fave was gay” kind of way I mean textually and seriously I believe he was gay. 

I could cite the petty stuff like “he only had female friends growing up” and “he clearly never showed interest in women even though many women were interested in him” or “he is one of the few people in the series who didn’t actually have a serious love interest / partner” or whatever but i feel like it’s actually much deeper than that. Luke was a young person who had a difficult and strained relationship with his parents. He saw how flawed the system was and how it was treating people like him, and sought to change the system, give power to people like him, and start it all over. (Yeah, he fell victim to people who influenced him to the dark side but that had nothing to do with his gayness, imo.) He just reminds me a lot of characters like Nico and Catra from She-Ra: repressed gay with a strained relationship with parental figures, angry and willing to take down the world. In this essay I will-

.......like no but seriously

Luke had a very troubled childhood because of his mother’s damaged mind, and the fact that she was constantly having fits and telling him how terrible things were going to be for him. When Luke is (angrily) describing his childhood to Hermes he says: “You could’ve helped me when she was having one of her fits, shaking me and saying crazy things about my fate. When I used to hide in the closet so she wouldn’t find me with those glowing eyes,” like!!! he even mentions hiding in a closet (let me find the subtext where i want it)  but seriously, you know what’s one of the first things my mother said to me when I came out to her? “You know how much harder your life is going to be, don’t you?” So then Luke ran away from his home and found a new family, one that looked out for each other and loved each other more than their blood family ever did. This is a queer narrative!!

And with Hermes, it was all sorts of fucked up. His father kept him at a distance. Made Luke feel like there was something wrong with him, like he didn’t love him. His dad made it very clear to him what his expectations were of him, tried to encourage him to be a great hero, like all the heroes before him (when he was talking to him about sending him on a quest and Hermes said “You will get a change to be a great hero before…”) but Luke didn’t want to be the person his father expected him to be. He wanted to be something new, something true to himself. Luke was always burdened down with the weight of his parent’s expectations, both the expectation that he should strive to be a perfect hero and the knowledge that his future was doomed. 

So one time i was at a bar with friends and me and the only other queer person there were talking and he was like “gay men and their dads, you know what i mean?” and I was like “yeah also gay women and their moms” and we had a whole discussion about growing up with a certain set of expectations of who you’ll be from your parents and the gendered expectations they have for you and having to crush all of that when you come out to them and navigating the difficulties that come with that when you want to be your own person so like there’s your real world comparison / evidence for that argument

ALSO Luke ran away from home but then kind of immediately went to Camp Half-Blood where he was shoved into the Hermes cabin with all of his siblings and undetermined kids and then still expected to scrape part of his food in the fire and be thankful to his deadbeat dad. That would suck! He was already harboring all of this rage inside of him, and then he went on his quest. Saw the world. Was exposed to other schools of thought. He understood that he was just being used as a pawn. He came back a different person, he didn’t quite fit in at camp anymore now that he’d seen the world. Kind of like when I went off to be gay at college and then came back to my childhood home and had to be straight around all my high school friends. just saying.

Luke saw the flaws in the system, the way the gods ruled the world. The way the gods treated their children and how much it hurt them. He felt so betrayed and hurt and abandoned by his dad and all the gods, so instead of sitting with it, he thought “I can do better.” Luke sought to rebuild the world, scrap it all and start new. Start with new leaders who took better care of everyone, who did things completely differently than the way it was done before, and raze anything before it. We’re going to ignore the fact that he was influenced to the dark side for a moment because it’s not related to this essay, but I also feel like this is a very queer narrative. (how many times can i say that phrase in this essay) Seeing the flaws in the way the world is treating people like you and wanting to do better. Luke said (this not an actual book quote more of a dramatic sentiment): “I won’t be used and I won’t be who you want me to be. I will become my own person and there’s nothing you can fucking do to stop me. I will make a new world, better than before, without you, for people like me, and I will tear down the walls of the previous world if I fucking have to” and i just think that’s very gay rights of him.

A thing that I’m a big fan of is seeing specific character types and relating them to each other. For example: our fave Nico di Angelo and Catra from She-Ra. (If you haven’t seen She-Ra, she’s the DEFINITION of an angry repressing gay) We can see from Nico’s narrative and from Catra’s narrative and also just straight up my own personal narrative that sometimes when you’re gay and repressing and afraid of becoming the person you are warned against, while also knowing that you were meant for more but maybe not quite understanding what that more is yet, and overall just want to feel accepted and loved as who you truly are but not receiving that, it can tend to make one lash out in angry and irresponsible ways. It can make one isolate themselves from those they previously were close to. It can lead to irrational and impulsive choices for all the wrong reasons because you don’t feel right and you don’t know why. Not at all saying this is the same across the board for queer people, it’s just something that honestly happens to some people and I can relate to when i see it in characters. 

I see that in Luke. He is weighed down by everything his parents want him to be, both good and bad, and is trying to scrap the world and make a new one for people like him. He wants to take his turn, pushing aside anyone who’s hurt him. Luke was someone who was constantly being torn apart by the world and just wanted to feel safe and secure in who he was and the world he was in. He was acting in anger and fear and hurt and revenge for his childhood and because he still felt like there wasn’t a place in the world for him. He lashed out against his father and his family and his friends and pushed them all away. Sure, he had some friends at Camp Half-Blood, but Annabeth’s devotion to him was not enough to make up for like, all of his childhood trauma. First everything with his mom and then being on the run for so long and then meeting his dad and then losing Thalia (which also fueled his anger and hatred of the gods but like we knew that) and his quest and just everything. He was dealt a cruel hand and he didn’t handle it well. Not that that has anything to do with him being gay but I’m just lamenting over the tragedy of his life. Anyway.

Also not to quote the Lighting Thief because it’s not technically in Rick’s canon but i still think they perfectly understood the characters so I’m including it, but the idea that Luke has tried to be a good kid, he’s tried to do what was expected of him, he’s done everything they ever asked of him, but it didn’t pay off. It didn’t matter. It still wasn’t a world he belonged in. “you know this world will never be ours as long as our parents rule over the stars” and “it’s time to make the world our own” strikes me very much to the tune of LGBT activism. once again ringing in that idea of “if you won’t make the world better than i will do it with my bare hands” he also sings “the gods were never on our side, so i think it’s time we watched them fall” which gets to me every time because like he was just a kid! he was just a kid who had so much hurt and anger inside of him and he went about everything the wrong way but he was just a fucking kid! 

also YES to be petty and shallow but while Annabeth and Thalia refer to luke romantically, he never mentioned the same for him. Kelli the sexy monster hits on him during Battle of the Labyrinth and was clearly interested in him and he pushes her away without any hesitation. IN FACT the only demigods referenced on Luke’s ship are Chris and Ethan (why we didn’t see any of that trio, I’ll never understand), with Ethan working much closer with Luke and being a major player in the Titan War. (also I think Ethan is queer too but that’s a battle for another day.) And Rick LOVES romances. pretty much every character gets paired up with someone in the original series (percy and annabeth, grover and juniper, even Clarisse and Chris) which is fab thank u rick for my percabeth rights but Luke is the only character who does not get a girlfriend!! because he’s a homosexual!!!! you know what other character didn’t get paired off in the original series??? NICO, a known homo!!!  i do think that luke is a case of “accidentally written homo” because this was before rick saved the world and gave us nico’s coming out and really started pushing for queer rep in the books (thank u again rick!!!!), so I’m allowed to find my gay subtext in the original series, thank u very much!

listen all im saying is that my favorite character narrative is “angry gay coded villain who is repressing and lashing out at the world because of it” and i truly believe luke fits into that narrative and I stand by my argument.

Thank u for attending my TED Talk

[tycwi]

Whats the thing that ur posting about that youre so angry about? I would love to hear about it /gen

if u need an actual explanation of what im talking abt and not inane ramblings uh. this person explains it well sdkljggskgdsjdgs

OMG OMG OMG. so . :D. im. assuming the thing ure talking abt is sanremo SLDGJD cause thats like my last one hundred posts. basically sanremo is a song contest italy holds every year in march to choose the artist to send to eurovision ! and this year’s sanremo is AGGRESSIVELY HOMOSEXUAL AND CHAOTIC AND I LOVE IT SO MUUUUUUCH. this is my first year properly watching it- it’s been gay before- but....... ok. so. there’s two hosts. one is amadeus, who does the, actual, hosting, LMAO, and the other is fiorello, who does......... funnies. fiorello has kissed amadeus on the forehead. fiorello has serenaded amadeus multiple times. amadeus has shaved fiorello’s mustache on stage. amadeus looks at fiorello like he’s the light of his life all the time. and then. and then. get this. ACHILLE LAURO.  aside from just existing and being perfect. every night he’s done a VERY ELABORATE THING. yesterday he was cOVERED IN GOLD AND POSED LIKE A GREEK STATUE. today........................................ honestly. i dont know if i can explain it with words. i think you just have to watch it. (tell me if the link doesnt work). you have to understand this is on national tv, on GOVERNMENT FUNDED NATIONAL TV NO LESS,. the guy in black in the video is fioRELLO BY THE WAY. hes just having a gender moment................................................... on top of all this homosexuality. there’s MADAME, who just, is AMAZING, and her entry is a song abt a past relationship with a woman, and MANESKIN. maneskin makes me want to yell at the tv “AMADEUS YOUR ROCK CONTESTANTS LOOK GNC AS FUCK”.  i just. god idk sanremo is really somethign to experience. it’s really hard for me to sum up what makes me go so insane about it slkjggsklggdslsgdlskgdsgdskl.-.,.,. especially without sending like a million screenshots of things. it really captures italy’s Homoerotic but Homophobic essence and as a stupid little italian i cannot get enough of it. the insane costumes. the tender looks between same gender singers as they passionately belt a love song. the hand holding. fiorello and amadeus gave eachother pet names on the second night..................... i dont know. italians. we’re just like this. when something brings us together we all go collectively insane and sanremo is The THing slgkjslkgjsdk  so. yeaH SLDKJDSK

[riv-ika]

nobody kill me but i actually,,, liked the rise of skywalker

SPOILERS BELOW

like obviously im bitter about oscar isaac not getitng his finnpoe but otherwise i thought it was good??

i was never a big fan of reylo but i’m not upset about how they ended it. i want more movies to actually put effort into their redemption arcs and not kill off the characters needing to redeem themselves but oh well

the gay joe russo thing is getting old disney are cowards. lesbian resistance pilots are cool-- thanks-- but how about mORE THAN TWO SECONDS OF THEM

leia’s death was depressing AS FUCK but the poetic cinema of rey and kylo’s thing going on halfway across the universe just as she died and rey feeling it and ugh *chef’s kiss* AND THEN CHEWIES REACTION NO THAT WAS SAD AF

the shots were gorgeous and the scenery was beautiful as always

i genuinely thought there were gonna kill chewie and FLIPPED my shit. when it happened i heard my dad whisper ‘upsetti spaghetti’ and nearly lost it laughing which was awful

them sliding in a potential female love interest for poe last second was kinda :/// like ok i headcanon him as a bi disaster but finn is RIGHT THERE yall just dont want people to think he’s a Homosexual fuck off disney

also hey what the fuck with the spice runner thing? i thought his parents were rebels or smthn????

i’m glad they didn’t force the rose/finn thing again? but im upset they shoved her aside she was a really cool character and i loved her. also the new character who was also a turncoat from the first order??? i loved her but i didnt even catch her name

SPACE HORSES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

poe taking over the resistance gave me goosebumps it’s what my boi deserves

The trio banter killed me instantly. the first half of the movie was a Whole Meme. i love that the shining stars of the resistance are just bickering like children while Finn, the only one leia can take anywhere, is like “pls for the love of god stop fighting”

also idk what was up with Finn needing to tell Rey something i know people thought they were hinting at an I love you confession but i actually thought he was just gonna tell her he was force sensitive? also lmao lil jealous poe right there thank u for ur service oscar isaac

rey and kylo with the fuckin!!! lightsabers!!!!! bro that was beautiful with that smooth bond-pass that was so cool i think i died

han’s ghost literally broke my heart and it took me a straight 12 hours to realise that ben meant to say i love u and han just i know and when i figured it out i sCREAMED

also thank god they confirmed somebody uses Dad in the star wars universe instead of Father do u know how much easier that makes my fanfic writing

FURTHERMORE if i hear one more motherfucker say rey taking the skywalker name was a disgrace because she’s a palpatine, i am going to SNAP. yall get upset that there isn’t enough found family in a movie and then u get mad when they actually use it??? SHUT THE FUCK UPPPP she’s a skywalker ok the Force ghosts approve

the NOSTALGIA!!!!!!!! the ewoks at the end made my sister :D and going back to luke’s home on tatooine i was like !!!!!!!! why would u do ani dirty burying his lightsaber in the sand. bUT REYS NEW LIGHTSABER BRO THATS SO COOL

anyway i actually really enjoyed it! i think it’s nice for my generation to have our own set of star wars movies, especially one with such a diverse cast and developed characters, despite its flaws