#hojin stella jung

[wiishopwednesday]

sorry to be autistic but ive gotta tlak about csh for a minute because it really blows me away by how meta twin fantasy is ,like will created ftf as a reflection on the relationship he was in and the emotions he was feeling during the creation of mtm..also like the names of the respective versions ,"mirror to mirror" signifying how both of the people in the relationship only really loved the reflection of themselves they saw in the other [he also references this in strangers, where he says "i sleep lying next to a mirror" which is also a metaphor for being a homosexual] and face to face being the new version, signifying that he has finally come to terms,has finally had proverbial "conversation" face to face about the past feelings he felt while writing twin fantasy and has fully acknowledged what he felt and has moved on. this is also apparent in his past-tense use of words instead of present-tense like the usage of words in mtm [ftf those boys says "they were connected/at the back of the head/they *had* a conduit/their minds *were* the same" meanwhile mtm those boys says "they were connected/at the back of the head/they *got* a conduit/their minds *are* the same". he realizes the relationship has ended and its over now. a piece of fiction, if you will.]

also in mtm will states that "he has only lyrics now," that he is in despair over the loss of the relationship and the fact that the relationship is now a work of fiction that only exists in his mind-a fantasy. however in ftf he recognizes this and comes to terms with it- it is just a song. it is just lyrics. he even changes "he has only lyrics now" to "these are only lyrics now". he has changed, he has reflected and moved on. this is just a piece of fiction to him now, anything can happen from here. i also really like the change in famous prophets to where he no longer name drops himself and cate wurtz. like he says, "the contract is up, the names have been changed". this is no longer a breakup album made about wurtz but instead a piece of fiction documenting the feelings he experienced during a part of his life

i also really like these lyrics, taken from a bible verse about the 3 wise men i believe ? but the end was edited to say "now these Two remain" to reference the two people in the relationship

its just so interesting. you break up with someone, one of you writes a breakup album in a fit of feeling, 7 years pass and youre both left to deal with the fallout. anything can happen from here. now these two remain and they must see face to face to put their past behind them.

the allusion to "the lady" by hojin stella jung at the end of ftf high to death is also incredibly powerful. the way he uses the words hojin uses to talk about their feelings while painting the portfolio of the lady to refer to his own feelings of making the original twin fantasy is so good and so compelling. the way they say "it was intense, it was an intense process, and it was how i was trying to, very hard, personify that intensity/but its hard to talk about her now, because i think she wasnt me/at least thats how i feel and im trying to figure out what to do now......but i did believe in her, 'the lady', and maybe/there is a different form now that the intensity takes" is an incredible parallel to will's feelings about writing the original twin fantasy and its a really powerful end to a song i think

[bizlybebo]

high to death. ghostkicks

this is such a supremely fucked up thing to do to a man you genuinely have no clue. hold the fuck on i’m breaking down how severely evil this is

^ this would clearly be a verse from william’s pov and it’s so soul crushing 2 think about because dakota’s watched people waste away, in a sense, before and even though william is #dying throughout canon for a different reason, it’s still supreeeemely fucked up . ohhhh my god.

^ 2 ME. THIS IS EVERY TIME WILLIAM PRETENDED TO SLEEP BECAUSE HE COULDNT ACTUALLY DO SO. CAN YOU HESR MEEE

^ ok. ok ok ok ok so obviously we have the smoke motif with william but considering that this is a callback to stop smoking (we love you) where the lyrics are essentially “keep smoking, we love you, and we don’t want you to die” this swap is OUGGHHH. OUGHH. because honestly this lyric 2 me implies someone breaking off the relationship because their lover is slowly destroying themselves but neither of them would ever do that #codependency <333 and so. i . ohhhohoh. to me. TO ME. i think it’s actually dakota’s pov at “keep smoking, i still love you”, encouraging william to keep going and keep trying to save ashe etc. and william’s pov is the “but i don’t want to die”, because he’s freaking the fuck out s2ep14 style about having no blood.

^ i’ve seen this lyric interpreted by some1 else before as william’s (wiwi here just 2 extra clarify) younger/pre-fall self talking to him now. and i think it could also be william talking to himself when he wanted out of the hero stuff (or “whatever this is”, like he said in s2ep14) . william “let me out” wisp and dakota “let me in (i just want to help you)” cole. im sick 2 my stomach

^ s2ep34 when william confesses what he did during greyscale arc. FUCKING. FUCK and i think if you stretched it you could interpret “hell is the sun, burning forever at the center of things” as some sort of reference 2 the spirit world and how it feels like it’s sort of taking over william’s life and is always omnipresent (like the sun) no matter how hard he tries to run away. also the sun like keeps Everything alive and william is, in a way, only alive cause of his wisp powers which he got from the spirit realm YKNOW

^ THIS IS LITERALLYYYYY THE MOST FUCKED UP PART OF THE ENTIREEE SOMG THRU A GHOSTKICKS PERSPECTIVE.

i (william) can’t turn this thing off, it (dakota) keeps following me

^dakota cole dog motif. dakota cole following william literally anywhere because of how strongly he looks up to him, william being the same but also being afraid because it’s such a responsibility to have somebody as great as dakota look up to and follow him like that

used to be so human, now it’s just a machine

^this could be william in reference to himself but i also think it could be either william or dakota and how they feel in reference to the hero system, whether or not they are seen as people or just machines now that they’ve gone through. all that they’ve gone through. of course dakota is still a much. bigger fan of the hero system but even he was having doubts, questions, etc., as seen in his “no more statues” speech and his address to the heroes at deadwood and things like that

WHEN’D YOU SAY YOU WERE LEAVING?? WHEN’D YOU REALLY LEAVE??

^ TIMESKIP. WILLIAM BEING BITTER ABOUT DAKOTA DISAPPEARING FOR SO FUCKING LONG GODDDDDD GOD. FUCK. AND DAKOTA BEING BITTER ABOUT WILLIAM NO LONGER BEING A HERO-IN-TRAINING AND WORRYING THAT HE MAY NOT WANT TO DO THE WHOLE Prime Defender (tm) THING ANYMORE. WWHATEBER. SURE. IM NORMAL

you could even take the hojin stella jung talking about their portfolio + The Lady at the end and make it ghostkicks. the world is ghostkicks

(i understand the importance of this piece and the speech given about it i do not want 2 diminish that this is simply leaning rlly hard into the ghostkicks lens)

^ william pov when dakota was gone for those 10 months.

^ this could be william or dakota in reference to their s1 selves but im kinda leaning towards dakota because of how strongly he fuckjng masked and all the shit that went behind it and all that he went through and OUGUHHHHH.

TLDR PHOEB WHEN I FUCKING GET YOU. WHEN I FUCKING GET YOU

[deadkennys]

♡ .˚⊹ The Many Faces of Wendy Testaburger ⊹˚. ♡

I've always felt like because she's written to fulfill specific roles (I elaborate on that here) Wendy is five girls wrapped into one. While that's due to poor writing, I feel like all of these fractured selves can be reconciled into one girl who's struggling with figuring out who she really is and who she presents herself as.

Non-South Park Sources In Order of Appearance: "Jobless Monday", Mitski ♡ Succession 4x10, "With Open Eyes" ♡ "Presumably Dead Arm", Sidney Gish ♡ Neon Genesis Evangelion 1x16, "Splitting of the Breast" ♡ "Drunk Drivers/Killer Whales", Car Seat Headrest ♡ Jeremy Strong on his character in Succession ♡ One of Pete Wentz's Blogs (ohoneohoneohone) [archived here] ♡ Hojin Stella Jung on her portfolio The Lady via the Nevada Museum of Art's Audio Guide ♡ Pete Wentz Blog

South Park Screencap Sources In Order of Appearance: "Deep Learning", "Super Fun Time", "South Park: Post COVID", "Breast Cancer Show Ever", "The Hobbit", "Tom's Rhinoplasty", "Breast Cancer Show Ever"

[twinfantasy-daily]

Hello, my name is Hojin Stella Jung, I am a senior at McQueen high school

-high to death

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[movieshead]

Hello, my name is Hojin Stella Jung, I'm a senior at McQueen High School, my portfolio is a collection of paintings - that was created during last summer, and the first half of my senior year, and it's called "The Lady", and I didn't feel very well when I painted the first, and I didn't feel very well when I painted the last. It was intense, it was an intense process, and it was how I was trying to - very hard, personify that intensity, but it's hard to talk about her now, because I think she wasn't me, at least that's how I feel and I'm trying to figure out what to do now

But she represents fervor in woman, she is powerful, yet fragile, she dares but also averts her gaze, and I love her, at least - I did, and - but now I feel lost, and I'm unsure of what to think and feel most of the time

But I did believe in her, "The Lady", and maybe, there is a different form now that the intensity takes

[totallyfuckd]

Inner back cover of Car Seat Headrest’s ‘Twin Fantasy (Face to Face)’ by Hojin Stella Jung, 2018

[9thandhennepin]

Hojin Stella Jung - The Lady

Outro from Car Seat Headrest - High to Death

Hojin Jung’s Tumblr

[carseatheadrest]

(via https://open.spotify.com/album/5DVz44ns2O3SnrnNKExLDO)

Sorry for neglecting my blog. Here’s this.

Art by Hojin Stella Jung