#hoagland

[apoemaday]

The Loneliest Job in the World

by Tony Hoagland

As soon as you begin to ask the question, Who loves me? you are completely screwed, because the next question is How Much?

and then it is hundreds of hours later, and you are still hunched over your flowcharts and abacus,

trying to decide if you have gotten enough. This is the loneliest job in the world: to be an accountant of the heart.

It is late at night. You are by yourself, and all around you, you can hear the sounds of people moving

in and out of love, pushing the turnstiles, putting their coins in the slots,

paying the price which is asked, which constantly changes. No one knows why.

[luthienne]

Tony Hoagland, from Application for Release from the Dream; “The Complex Sentence”

[havingapoemwithyou]

bible study by Tony Hoagland

[lunchboxpoems]

TONY HOAGLAND

[extollingtheeveryday]

Tony Hoagland // "Reasons to Survive November" (2003)

[mikarchive2]

tony hoagland, faulkner

[songpasserine]

[dreaminginthedeepsouth]

I'm feeling everything most of you are feeling. And also this: I will help where I can but I am not letting that rapist sack of shit steal my joy for, at minimum, the next four years of my life. That would bring me to nearly 50 years old. I can't let those years go, sacrifice them to fear. Life goes too fast. I'll keep an eye on things but I am not going to guzzle doom from my newsfeed every day and jump out of my skin every time he makes a move. He won't get that from me.

You all know where my heart is and that I'm against everything he stands for and to some extent I will have to react to what's coming, which will be bad. But I am not letting these robber-baron motherfuckers set the terms for how I feel every day in a world of sunsets, donkeys, horses, music, poetry, dogs, rivers, and mystery. Will that be easy? No. Are there people for whom it will be even harder? Yes, for sure. I'm a straight male in a blue state, for God's sake. But I nonetheless urge everyone not to invite him into your soul.

He has no place there; you have primacy. The world spins, rudderless, on rough seas; you can't steer it and you don't own it. Your body belongs to the earth that will claim it and can be hurt or killed. Your soul is yours and is utterly sacrosanct and autonomous and beyond the reach of rulers. It is a locked room and the key is yours. Guard it zealously.

I tried my hand at being a political commentator on here for a while and it brought me a lot of attention, but no joy. And I didn't relish the pressure. I have no wisdom or advice except to focus on the things within your sphere of control: try to be a good person and act with honor and integrity. You'll fail often - probably not as often as myself. But it'll keep you from being like him and his people, these spiritually barren carcasses bereft of wonder, curiosity or love. Relentlessly pursue your passions, have fun wherever you can, protect the vulnerable, be generous, don't take yourself too seriously, be a believer, not an ironist or a cynic. Offer the political resistance you believe is appropriate, but above all don't let this age into your soul.

A week ago I posted a poem by Tony Hoagland little realizing how it would resonate today. It concludes:

... my happiness would kill them so I shove joy like a knife into my own heart over and over

and I force myself toward pleasure, and I love this November life where I run like a train deeper and deeper

(Will Stenberg)

[littlewhispersmokesigns]

[tha-wrecka-stow]

[luthienne]

Tony Hoagland, Application for Release from the Dream: Poems

[shivvy-roy]

succession 4x03/cause of death: fox news by tony hoagland

[fishingforwords]

the higher you go the freer you are.

mary barnyard, height is the distance down || t.s. eliot, the waste land || parkour || roman payne, rooftop soliloquy || charles bukowski || pascale petit, sky ladder || tony hoagland, from this height || mary oliver, every day has something in whose name is forever

[fluttering-slips]

The Loneliest Job in the World

As soon as you begin to ask the question, Who loves me? you are completely screwed, because the next question is How Much?

and then it is hundreds of hours later, and you are still hunched over your flowcharts and abacus,

trying to decide if you have gotten enough. This is the loneliest job in the world: to be an accountant of the heart.

It is late at night. You are by yourself, and all around you, you can hear the sounds of people moving

in and out of love, pushing the turnstiles, putting their coins in the slots,

paying the price which is asked, which constantly changes. No one knows why.

Tony Hoagland

[miss-lauryn-hill]

THE NEW EDITION STORY (2017)

[dailyunsolvedmysteries]

Malinda Hoagland

Malinda Hoagland was "barely alive" when she was found by Rendell Hoagland, 52, on Saturday at their Pennsylvania home. 

Hoagland dialed 911 stating he found Malinda unconscious and unresponsive. Even though she was rushed to medical help, the injuries proved fatal resulting in her demise. Rendell supposedly informed emergency professionals that his daughter had collided with a tree while biking, which led to her tragic condition.

However, Chester County District Attorney Christopher de Barrena-Sarobe identified that she was "broken" and "barely alive," at a mere weight of 50 pounds suffering extensively from multiple broken bones, bruises, and organ failure.

Her state didn't match up with Rendell's narrative, marking her injuries too egregious to back his story. Rendell and his 45-year-old girlfriend, Cindy Warren, were arrested and charged with attempted murder on Monday evening.

The authorities are reportedly contemplating whether to charge the couple with full-blown murder, pending medical reports that could sway the decision.

Throughout the extensive investigation, authorities made multiple visits to the couple's residence in West Caln Township, scrutinized phone records and the couple's home camera system, and discovered reports indicating that Malinda had been withdrawn from school in late November, transitioning to online schooling the following month. The findings of the investigation were horrifying, according to de Barrena-Sarobe.

Security footage revealed the girl being ankle-cuffed to furniture around the house, verbally abused, denied food over "perceived slights" against her parents, and forced to perform strenuous physical exercises she was unfit to do, such as squats or running in place with shackles still attached to her ankles.

Warren's past offenses are chilling - she allegedly physically abused her three-year-old son and beat another two-year-old child in her care to death, as reported by the outlet. Both Warren and Rendell are currently being held on $1 million bail while they await trial.