#hm loh

[stiltdeer-snootnoodle]

Never lost my love for Edmond. Yeah, Light of Hope is controversial and kinda glitchy but he makes it worth it.

[avendesuragameblog]

Yeah after an incident like that, I wouldn’t want to either!

[dinisuciyanti]

Debat cawapres #1

Postingannya agak telat, karna kemarin cukup muak dengan pembahasan debat di twitter yang gak beres-beres. Anyway.

Untuk sesi debat kali ini, aku bukan gabut, tapi menyempatkan, karna penasaran sama performa kandidat yang jarang terlihat ngomong di publik.

Untuk sesi 4 menit pertama, paslon yang sering dibully itu ternyata ngomongnya lancar-ringkes-bagus, daripada kandidat lain. Katanya sih, dilatih ya, tapi ya gapapa dilatih, artinya usaha dan niat untuk belajar, terbukti kantung matanya gede mungkin ybs banyak baca.

Untuk sesi tanya jawab dari panelis, ada kandidat yang terkenal blunder, hm, kalimatnya terlalu banyak, belibet, gak rapih, ujungnya kepotong mulu sama timer. Mungkin belio mesti dilatih cara ngomong yang ringkes dan tepat sasaran. Terbukti, ketika pasangannya ngejelasin soal 40 kota besar yang akan dibangun, itu lebih jelas dan bisa dicerna, daripada omongan debat beberapa hari lalu.

Nah, sekarang sesi tanya jawab antar kandidat cawapres yang ramai dibicarakan orang. Pertanyaan 2 paslon boomer itu gak tendesius, ya sewajarnya aja. Misal nanya tips & trik cara dapat dana yang besar dari pusat, tapi yang jawab malah emosi duluan. Padahal, belio bisa jawab dengan yakin dan masuk akal tanpa suudzon dulu.

Lalu pertanyaan menarik soal cara membuat regulasi carbon storage. Yang jawab ya bener, mesti pake scientific based dulu, untuk regulasi bidang apapun yang akan dibuat. Tapi kandidat "muda" malah ngenyek suruh googling, merasa kurang puas dengan jawaban belio.

Pertanyaan lain muncul dengan singkatan SGIE, yang sengaja banget gak dijelasin apa. Yo opo seh cuk. Menanyakan pertanyaan jelek itu gak bikin kamu terlihat lebih pintar. Performa mu loh sudah bagus, malah dirusak dengan pertanyaan jelek. Juga, kalo ditelaah, ya emang bagus-ringkes kalo jawab pertanyaan dari panelis. Giliran jawab pertanyaan dari paslon lain, muter-muter dulu, malah gak kejawab, misalnya soal tax ratio. Ya mungkin mesti banyak baca dan belajar lagi.

Yang aku highlight lainnya, adalah soal SMK. Duh. Benci banget. Dari 10 tahun lalu sejak bapaknya nyapres, "SMK bisa, lulusan SMK langsung kerja". Sampai 10 tahun kemudian, masih terjebak di "SMK bisa". Udah 10 tahun loh, TANGI, masa gak mau naik kelas? Coba gratisin kuliah sampai S1. Kemenkeu bisa kok bikin dana abadi untuk LPDP, masa buat di scale-up ke gratis kuliah s1 aja gak bisa? Memang perkara willingness sih. Jokes nya adalah, tetep dibuat standar SMA/SMK, biar warga bisa dikibulin karna kemampuan analisisnya rendah. Biarkan persentase lulusan perguruan tinggi hanya 10%, maka langgengkan kekuasaan dan korupsi. Hebat. Menuju generasi cemas 2045.

25 Desember 2023

[hexes-and-os]

Hm? Oh, hello little one!

(it's @the-amazing-sun , and yes I know what I'm doing)

He-loh!

...Yu luuk liek my mama. But yu arn-t...

[yupihepi]

Xday: Prolog

(Kembali ke waktu 13 tahun sebelum ES didirikan. Di kota saat musim natal)

Jin: Cup, jangan nangis lagi dong, Hocchan

Hokuto: ….

Jin: Mumpung lagi natal nih~ Kalau wajahmu muram terus kayak gitu nanti Santa-san bakalan bilang “Uwa, gelap banget wajahnya!” dan nggak akan mau mengantarkan hadiah untukmu.

Hokuto: Aku nggak nangis kok

Aku juga nggak seanak kecil itu untuk percaya Santa-san itu ada.

Jin: Rasanya cukup ironis (?) loh dengar anak kecil yang bilang dirinya sendiri “Aku bukan anak kecil”

Yah meski aku juga ga pantes bilang gini ke orang lain sih.

…hm? Ada apa?

Hokuto: ….

Jin: Bisa nggak jangan tiba-tiba berhenti tanpa alasan. Bakalan berabe kalau seandainya kau tersesat, nih gandeng tanganku sini. Kalau seandainya Hocchan tersesat, aku bakalan kena masalah. Kalau Hidaka-senpai sih masih mending, tapi kalau ama si Nyonya bisa-bisa aku bakal dibunuh.

Hokuto: Jin-kun Jin-kun.

Jin: Apaa, Hocchan? Kok terus ngelihatin ke arah yang lain gitu… Beneran ada apa sih, kamu lihat semacam hantu ya?

Hokuto: Hantu itu nggak ada, Santa-san juga nggak ada.

Jin: Aku udah denger itu tadi. Beneran bocah yang nggak punya impian gitu ya. Idol ama aktris itu sama-sama pekerjaan yang menjual impian loh, pada umumnya. Padahal kau lahir di antara orang tua yang seperti itu lo… nggak, justru karena itu ya.

Hokuto: Jin-kun, berisik loh bicara sendiri terus. Tolong diamlah. Aku nggak bisa denger nih suaranya.

Jin: Suara?

Hokuto: Aku mendengar suara seseorang yang bernyanyi.

Jin: Ah~ yah lagi natal juga sih. Palingan penghibur jalanan yang sedang tampil kali ya. Padahal sedingin ini loh beneran pekerja keras ya.

Hokuto: Hari libur bagi orang-orang itu bagi idol adalah kaki..kaki…

Jin: Kaki-ire doki (waktu yang paling banyak menghasilkan untung)?

Hokuto: Nah itu. Aku dengarnya seperti itu Oleh karena itu, Papa dan Mama jadi sangat sibuk.

Jin: Yah, oleh karena itu juga aku yang kebetulan lagi nggak ada kerjaan jadinya dipasrahin ama senior yang memiliki nama besar ini untuk menjaga anaknya. Padahal lagi natal nih ya~ aku apes banget beneran.

Hokuto: Jadi seperti itu. Kalau Jin-kun nggak ada kerjaan sebagai idol, Jin-kun jadi bisa bermain sama Hocchan gitu ya. Kalau begitu aku akan minta ke Papa dan Mama biar Jin-kun nggak bisa lagi kerja sebagai idol.

Jin: Jangan bilang hal yang mengerikan dengan wajah yang polos dong, dasar bocah ini.

Hokuto: Kan harusnya lebih penting bermain sama Hocchan daripada bekerja.. Tapi… kenapa Papa dan Mama…

….

Jin: Ah, hei! Jangan asal nyelonong pergi kemana-mana sendiri lo. Seenaknya sendiri aja.

Hokuto: Abisnya aku denger ada nyanyian.

Jin: Kamu sebegitunya penasaran ya sama nyanyian penghibur jalanan (sementara) itu. Tapi beneran suaranya indah ya. Suaranya kayak tinggi banget pitchnya, seperti suara gadis yang masih muda. Aku jadi ingin menangis kalau membayangkan dia tampil demi mengumpulkan uang receh di langit bersalju sedingin ini. Orang tuanya gimana sih.

…yah meski ini aku juga nggak pantes bilang gini ke orang lain.

Hokuto: Jin-kun, gendong dong. Aku pengen bisa lebih melihatnya.

Jin: Hm… tapi beneran banyak sekali kerumunan orang sih. Jangankan Hocchan, aku saja nggak bisa melihat dengan jelas wajah yang bernyanyi karena kerumunan ini.

Hokuto: Aku ingin cepetan jadi besar.

Jin: Nggak usah terburu-buru juga kok. Anak kecil sebaiknya menikmati masa anak-anaknya. Aku sendiri yang mengganggap “itu” remeh pun berakhir dengan penyesalan sekarang.

Tapi ya sudahlah, satu dua tiga… Kalau begini kelihatan nggak, Hocchan?

Hokuto: …..

Jin:  Ada apa? Apa yang terlihat?

Hokuto: Seorang anak…

Seorang anak kecil yang bernyanyi.

Jin: Anak kecil katamu?

Hokuto: Iya, anak kecil seumuran Hocchan yang bernyanyi sambil menari. Dan sambil tertawa-tawa seperti orang bodoh.

[alineaa]

Setelah melewati masa terpuruk pada tahun 2019/2020, setelah dirimu melewati semuanya, setelah dirimu berjuang untuk mendapatkan posisi mu sekarang, akankah kamu akan menyerah secepat ini? Tentunya tidak kan cantik?

Kamu ingatkan bagaimana perjuangan mu waktu dulu? Kala itu kamu baru lulus sekolah menengah atas, kamu yang mendapatkan predikat pelajar terbaik akademik saat kelulusan, kamu yang selalu mendapatkan peringkat 1 paralel, semua usaha mu waktu itu agar bisa mendapatkan nilai baik dan bisa berkuliah. Tapi nyatanya apa cantik?

Waktu itu, kamu tidak berkuliah. Keluarga tidak mendukung bahkan hanya meminta restu untuk mendaftar SNMPTN dan spantkin saja tidak direstui. Dan akhirnya apa cantik? Ya kamu tidak lolos dikeduanya haha. Hari pertama UNBK malah mendapatkan berita buruk dan ya membuat mu buyar untuk menjalani ujian. Kamu yang selalu takut ketika ditanya "sekarang kuliah dimana? " Oleh para guru dan teman teman, karena kamu tidak berkuliah waktu itu.

Sebulan kelulusan, kamu pergi merantau ke kota metropolitan mencari pengalaman dan pekerjaan sebagai spg di mall thamrin city, lalu bekerja di salah satu PT di kawasan Cikarang. Semua yang telah kamu lewati itu, hebat cantik. Kamu berani keluar kota dan berada di kota orang sendirian tanpa keluarga atau saudara, hanya seorang diri. Kamu ingat kan, saat awal kerja di PT ketika kamu diminta untuk foto dan menuliskan alasan bekerja di sana itu apa? Ya, kamu menuliskan kurleb "mengumpulkan biaya untuk berkuliah". Dan kamu pernah nangis saat sesi wawancara ketika ditanya, kenapa tidak kuliah padahal kamu berprestasi loh? Dan nangis ketika tidak ada yang bisa mengantar ketika akan menjalani sesi wawancara beasiswa ke kota Tangerang di sekolah karisma bangsa. Hahaha semuanya aku ingat.

So Mei, tetap semangat ya, tetap berusaha untuk bisa menyelesaikan apa yang sejak dulu kamu mimpikan dan kamu cita cita kan. Aku yakin kamu pasti bisa menyelesaikan tugas akhir ini.

Badai saja kamu bisa melewatinya, kenapa kala gerimis saja kamu akan menyerah hm? Aku menyayangimu Mei🫂

[lamyaasfaraini]

Tuesday run w/ ica bestie

Kemarin siang ica wa ngajak lari hayu kemon subuhan lagi di paskal. Tadinya pengen sarapan bareng setelah lari jd startnya abis nemo pergi sekolah tp ternyata icanya gabisa okedee next time yak!

Sebetulnya ica ngajak lari atau ngga, planning ku memang hari selasa mau lari tetiba ica ngajak ya ayo~ kaya biasa sih janjiannya yg duluan dtg lsg lari aja nanti janjian duduk di indomaret sebelah BBQMB kek biasa hahaha jd ica jg parkirnya disana. Akumah start lari beneran dari depan rumah sih krn warm up nya selalu dirumah dulu. Jadi nyampe paskal lebihan dikit dah nyampe 1k. Lari lah kami tp ngga papasan2 sampe akhir haha. Planning ku cuma 5k, anggap aja recovery after 10k wlpn jedanya sampe 2 hari haha. Akhirnya aku berhenti di 6,2k dan ica di 7k. Memang jadinya aku duluan yg berhenti dan nunggu.

Pov mya. Pov ica

Oiya ica jg sama recovery run, diamah recovery nya sampe 7k wkwkwk. Iyak itu waktu hari minggu dia hampir HM capai 20k, 1k lg HM ituu tp segitu aja dah uyuhan sih gileee icaa proud!

Biasalah yaa bestie kalo ktemu ada aja obrolannya, ya seputar lari ya seputar hal random yg tiba2 ada dipikiran kita wkwk. Ngobrol2 pas hari minggu almost HMnya ica, aku yg baru bisa 10k 2x cuma bisa terkesima hahaha lalu aku mengeluh tiap abis 10k lutut suka pegel seharian sampe kudu dipijitin sama suami, tp besoknya udah ilang sih alhamdulillah. Kata ica belom terbiasa haha beklaah.. Ica yg 20k aja itu pulang2 lsg di pijitin suaminya, katanya mestinya sih rendem es batu treatmentnya cm keburu kondangan haha lalu kita bahas yura yunita yg ternyata kita sama2 liat konten dia yg HM 22k, edan sih bangunnya bukan subuh lg sebelum subuh mana katanya kurang tidur trus staminanya kureng dari awal2 km jg tapi lama2 dia bisa dpt tenaga entah dari mana dan bisa menuntaskan 22k nya itu weitsssss artis mah ya ada PT, couch, pacer ah you name it lah belom lg after run nya treatment team pijet2 dah nungguin. Coba kita rakjel abis lari ya kudu ngurus budak nyiapin sarapan dll wkwkwk nasiippp.

Kita bahas jg kalo suami2 kita suka wewet krn mreka lebih nyari tau drpd kita istri2, tentang kalo landing itu pake telapak depan atau belakang, aku selalu depan dan suami suka belakang. Itumah scr spontan gabisa ngatur jg dah kebiasaan, emg jadinya telapak dpn pegel wlpn hanya saat itu aja. Trus ica jg ngalamin salah ngayun tangan krn kaku akhirnya dikasih tau suaminya yg bener. Sama sepatu jg ngaruh, kalo longrun enakan pake Asics kalo recovery enaknya pake Hoka. Pokonya secara teori kebanyakan suamiku lebih tau drpd aku, nyari sepatupun sama mau lokal mau import tipenya yg mana, sepatu karbon apalah apalah w gapaham wkwk.

Oiya sebelum lari udah wanti2 sama suamiku tercinta bebebku my darling @sagarmatha13

Setelah solat subuh

👱🏼‍♀️: aku mau lari dulu sama ica ya jam 5.30

🧔: okey

👱🏼‍♀️: bisi aku rada telat tolong bikinin bento nemo yah

🧔: bikin apa?

👱🏼‍♀️: euh roti abis ya, bikin nasi telor nori aja pake cetakan teddy bear yg itu tau kan? Sama jeruk kupasin

🧔: okey

👱🏼‍♀️: tengkyu loh

🧔: 😌

Iya betulan telat kalo lari ada sobi mah ada aja ngobrol ngalor ngidul yang biasanya 6.30-6.45 dah nyampe rumah tadi kayanya jam 7.15 deh nyampe rumah dan bento dah siap masuk tas, aku intip yaampuuuuunnnn bener udah bikin wlpn ngga rapih tp gpp kan first timer wkwkwk terharu akutu. Roti dirumah kebetulan abis kalo ada mah dah roti selai aja simple. Maaf yaa ngerepotin kali kaliii. Luvyuuuu

[pomegranarchy]

Have You Any Faith? Chapter 5: Reluctance

wordcount: 3,422 content warnings: alienation, again. coping with family loss link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/47796682/chapters/122165881

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reluctant: adjective re·luc·tant

1: feeling or showing aversion, hesitation, or unwillingness 2: having or assuming a specified role unwillingly

The Wordsmith stares down at her shellwood carving. It looks like a bird, but only if someone were squinting at it from a distance and happened to have one eye.

"I don't think this is working," She admits.

Hopper takes a look at her sculpture. "Why not? You're holding the knife just fine, and you're doing better than most first-timers."

She's thankful that he mentions nothing about her concealed hands, despite it making the task harder. He may be the person in Gravel she most closely considers a friend, but not even he has an idea of what lies beneath her layers. Surely, he'd consider her larvae-like at best. Monstrous at worst. Sighing, she brushes a wood chip off of her lap.

"This doesn't resemble anything in my head. If I didn't know what it was supposed to be, I don't believe I'd recognize it."

"It's alright. That's why you asked me to help you, isn't it?" Hopper gestures to his own sculpture with the tip of the carving knife.  "What are you trying to make? Maybe I can tell you how to get it closer to what's in your head."

The Wordsmith bites her lip. How much can she describe without having to explain the concept of warm-blooded creatures? Or having an internal skeleton?

"It's… a creature from where I come from. They're called birds."

"Birds." Hopper repeats. He rubs the bottom of his face, considering. "What do they look like?"

"Well, they're… shaped and behave like maskflies. There's a lot of variety to them, but they're all covered in feathers. Feathers are…" Here, the Wordsmith pauses. What makes the most sense to a bug? "A feather is made of a thin shaft, like a flexible piece of carapace. Attached to either side are hundreds of tiny soft fibers. They look a bit like fuzzy antenna, but they're firmer and used for flying."

Hopper makes a noise of acknowledgement. When he doesn't immediately reply, the Wordsmith can tell he's trying to imagine feathers. She spends the silence wishing that the chairs in his home were more comfortable.

"Do you like these birds?"

"I think they're alright. They can be very pretty. It's… it was my father, who liked them. Loved them, really." She taps the sculpture's uneven head.  "We both loved to watch little things, I think. He would spend his time birdwatching, and used to tell me about the birds he'd spot. Where they went to build their nests, or if he'd seen one splash about in a puddle. It wouldn't surprise me if he'd ever considered becoming an ornithologist."

"What is a orin… tha-loh gist?"

"Ornithologist." She pronounces the word clearly, enunciating each syllable. "It's a person who is well-studied in birds. Ornithology being the word for the study itself. I think studying the little things sort of ran in our family."

"What's your little thing, then?"

"Oh, mine is…" The Wordsmith hesitates. "Bugs, actually. The ones that don't talk, like tiktik and vengeflies. Where I come from, bugs are smaller than even those, and meeting another who could understand you was… rare."

Impossible, actually. But it's not like Hopper needs to know that.

"Hm. It would be, if our King's influence couldn't reach you. Your home sounds too far away and strange for that."

The Wordsmith wonders what the hell that even means. Is every bug in this kingdom so loyal? She considers the way Tiak speaks a bit overzealous, but maybe that's just the standard way to refer to the royalty here? Almost reverent, and as if they had godlike power. She's not sure how she feels about that. Does feudalism exist here? Nevermind. It's not as if she's in a position to figure that out. Instead, she shrugs.

"You're right in that. To me, this place feels very strange."

"Hmm. How did you travel? Walking? You wouldn't have stag beetles to carry you around places, I'm guessing."

She gasps. "You have stag beetles? That's a species I was wondering whether lived here! They have such beautiful and impressive mandibles, it's a--"

"Woah, there!" Hopper waves his hands in front of him, laughing. "You're awfully eager to see a bug of your type, aren't you?"

"Ah…?" The Wordsmith blinks at him, then finds herself blushing furiously. "No! No, I didn't mean to-- oh no."

Hopper only laughs harder at that. "It's alright! It's alright, we all have wants. I can't blame you for them. But I should warn you, stags don't have very impressive mandibles at all."

"They don't?"

"No, I'm afraid you're chasing after the wrong type of bug."

"I swear that's not..." Yeah. He's not going to believe that she wasn't lusting after a big beetle. The Wordsmith sighs with disappointment, dreading when this conversation falls into Gravel's stream of gossip. "I see."

Hopper chirrups, tapping his leg against the floor. "Ah... well, for your bird, I think there's a pretty easy solution." He waves a hand, gesturing for her to hand it to him. Carefully, the Wordsmith cups it in her palms and deposits it in his grip. As he takes it, Hopper turns it over. He nods at it, then at her. "It's like your dreamcatchers. They don't have to be pretty and perfect in order to work. It's what you feel when making it, right?"

The Wordsmith stares at him, then back at her ugly little sculpture. She's not sure what he means by 'work,' since they're only grass and string. It makes the village folk feel better, though. Enough that Tiak does his best not to outright beg her for extras to give to traders.

She nods. "Right."

"Then think about how much your father loved birds. I'm sure he would love that you made him something to make him happy, and tried so hard." Hopper holds up the sculpture to the lumafly lantern in the ceiling, illuminating it better. The Wordsmith watches him. With a different perspective, it does look nicer. Maybe it isn't a very good sculpture, but… it's not like the point is quality. The point is to remember, and to love. Beneath her mask, she smiles wistfully. She imagines giving it to her father, explaining it's supposed to be a heron. Then they both laugh over how wonky it looks, and he sets it on his windowsill so it can look outside.

"He would." She holds her hands out for it. "I think I'm ready to show it to Humi. Thank you, Hopper."

"Of course!" Hopper chirrups, delighted. As he sets it in her hands, he stands. Together, they step outside. The walk to Humi's-- home? Shrine?-- is shorter from Hopper's house than her own. There isn't yet a name for what Humi's old home has been turned into. In a way, the Wordsmith believes the bugs of Gravel are waiting for her to provide one. She searches her mind, and decides she'll tell Hopper once they get there.

The place hasn't changed much. If anything, it's only become more cluttered. Some objects have spread to the worktable, work-in-progress bracelets, carvings, and drawings. Finished pieces are pinned to the walls and stacked precariously on the main table.

The Wordsmith's hands cradle her sculpture.

"Place it anywhere there's room," Hopper mumbles idly. "Maybe we should get shelves in here…"

"I was thinking," The Wordsmith starts, "about what we should call this place. It's not quite Humi's home anymore, is it? Not her's alone, anyway. It's a bit of everyone's; the people that are remembered here, and the people that remember them."

Hopper looks up at her curiously. "It wouldn't be right of me to say I wasn't waiting for you to decide on that. What have you got, Wordsmith?"

She smiles a little at the title. It's yet to feel like herself, but she's come to accept it as truth. "Gravel's memorial. A memorial is a place that's dedicated to remembering a person or an event. This memorial-- Humi's memorial-- would be dedicated to the people important to Gravel."

"Ah. Yes, that sounds right. Where do you get all of these words? It's as if you have an endless store of them."

The Wordsmith shrugs. "Some of them were taught to me. Others I taught myself."

It's a true enough explanation, while avoiding the details that would invite further questioning. She leans over the table, and places her sculpture down. For a moment, she simply stares at the heron. She brushes her hand across its beak. Hopper remains quiet, giving her the time to reminisce. Eventually, she stands straight. Just as she opens her mouth to speak again--

"Wordsmith! Woooordsmith!!" Tiak bolts inside, startling the two so badly that Hopper falls over. The Wordsmith yelps, holding an arm out to Hopper before flinching back. Tiak continues to jump and flail about, arms and antenna waving erratically.

"Tiak!" Hopper barks, rolling about on the floor. "What's gotten into you?"

"There's a bug asking for the Wordsmith!"

"And? Help me up, boy! My legs aren't so spry anymore!" Hopper holds his hand up agitatedly. Tiak squeaks apologetically, crouching in order to tug Hopper to his feet.

"I'm sorry! It's just, oh! Wordsmith, it's like one of your stories!"

"What?" She says. "Tiak, you ought to calm down. Let's step outside." What’s gotten into him? Sure, Tiak can be a bit excitable, but nothing so extreme as to knock people over. It begs the question of what kind of story he thinks is going on. She sends her memory through the ones she’s told, as if it’ll help any.

"But-- okay! But quickly, quickly!" He dashes outside just as fast as he came in.

"That boy…" Hopper grumbles, brushing off his wings. The Wordsmith sighs sympathetically, following close behind. Even if she knows he’ll be fine, the fall worries her. Just outside, Tiak paces about in a tight circle. As soon as he sees them, he jumps up.

"Wordsmith!! Do you know how important this is??"

She fights to keep the annoyance out of her tone. "No. You have yet to explain what this is about."

He shrieks. "It's a high class looking bug! He came in on the trader's road, but he's got fine clothes and a shined up carapace! He said that he's from the palace, and he kept asking if this is where the Wordsmith stays, and if someone could go get you because the King is asking to see you!"

The Wordsmith laughs. "A king, wanting to see me?"

This is like a story! Imagine royalty wanting anything to do with some random stranger. Covered in rags and old dirt, no less.

"That's what he said!! And he said it was very important, too!"

She starts to giggle, only to realize that Tiak is being serious. This isn't something he would dare joke about. Coming to her senses, she presses a hand against the bottom of her mask. What would a king possibly want from her? To demand citizenship, maybe? But why take notice of her specifically?

"Did… did the bug say why?" She asks.

"It's about your dreamcatchers! The Wordsmith who makes the dreamcatchers! He said that the King wants to see you, and heard that you lived here in Gravel!" Almost desperately, Tiak waves his hands about. "Please, you need to see him!"

"I… alright, Tiak. No need to repeat yourself. Take me to see him."

"Yes, Wordsmith!" Tiak scurries off without so much as a warning. The Wordsmith watches him for a second. Even if she started running now, she wouldn’t catch up. Given that the result will be the same, she glances at Hopper.

"Don't wait for me. Maybe in my younger days I could keep up, but now my joints are too brittle for big leaps. I'll catch up." He waves her off. Accepting this, the Wordsmith starts after Tiak.

It takes a bit longer than she expects. Mostly because Tiak rushes out of sight too often, then has to come careening back for her once he realizes that she's behind. He has to duck back and wave her forward out of a deadend, or to explain she went down the wrong road. She didn’t think Gravel had so many paths. Through it all, she can’t tell if he's annoyed with her or merely frantic.

Eventually, they reach the edge of the village. Standing in the road is a bug dressed in a white cloak of some kind, long antenna stretching from his head. Around him are a few curious bugs, trying to prod him with questions.

"Come, come! Here! Here, look!" Tiak skids to a stop, waving back and forth between the white-dressed bug and the Wordsmith. "This is them! This is he! Wordsmith, meet…?"

"Tymm." She initially resists the urge to raise her eyebrows, then realizes no one can see it behind her mask.

"A pleasure to meet you, Tim. What brings you here?"

"I come from the White Palace." His wings buzz a little, ruffling the cloak laid over them. "The Pale King wishes to see you, to talk about your dreamcatchers."

"They aren't mine," she clarifies. "They're only something that I've helped bring here."

Tymm doesn't seem to acknowledge this, simply waving a hand in the air. "Come with me."

"Right now?"

"Yes. The sooner the better."

"I see. Allow me to say my goodbyes, first." Of the bugs assembled, she sees Thea gasp and press her hands against her face.

"You'll be returning." Despite his impersonal tone, the Wordsmith is offended. Why the rush? Can’t a king bear to wait a few minutes longer?

"Even so, I don't wish to abandon the bugs that have welcomed me into their homes." The Wordsmith bows her head a little, then turns to Tiak. He stares imploringly up at her.

"Don't delay, Wordsmith! Don't you see? This is like one of your stories! You're off to see the Pale King himself, and he'll have you marry him or the Queen, and you'll be a monarch yourself!"

The Wordsmith blinks. "I don't… think I should come between their marriage."

"I don't think that's a problem," Tiak says, oddly reminiscent. "He did make that arrangement with the Queen of Beasts! And you said yourself how important the spiders are! Someone as talented as you will fit right in!"

"Is that so…?" The Wordsmith cautions, uncertain of what to make of that response. Is the king polygamous? Does the queen not mind, or is she as well? Who is the 'queen of beasts'? A spider, presumably, but what arrange--?

"The Pale King wants to see the Wordsmith about the dreamcatchers alone." Tymm interjects, a hint of agitation in his tone.

"Or he could marry you to somebody else!" Thea cries. "Imagine that, the King himself making your marriage official! What an honor to have the Wordsmith as a spouse. A union blessed by the Pale King!"

"What's this about marriages?" Hopper says coyly, arriving just in time for embarrassing assumptions. "Wordsmith, I never expected you to be so open in your interests. Now is hardly the time!"

"No one is marrying anybody," Tymm says, now clearly annoyed.

"That's right," The Wordsmith hurriedly agrees. "This is to be an unromantic visit."

Thea sighs disappointedly, but she doesn't know why. Previously unnoticed, Lu peeks out from behind Hopper. Something is clutched against her thorax, hidden by her arms.

“Then let us go,” Tymm says.

"Wait!" Lu cries. She fidgets, ducking behind Hopper. He pats her back reassuringly, and she peeks out again. "Before you go?"

Her tone is so hesitant, so sweet, that it reminds the Wordsmith painfully of her youngest cousin. Only a baby, when she had first seen her.

"Of course,” She says, with as much compassion as she can muster. “What is it?"

Lu hesitates, remaining behind Hopper. But eventually, she steps out. In her hands is a small, round object. Slowly, she stretches her arms out to present it. The Wordsmith crouches down, looking at it carefully. It looks like a shellwood pin. There's a design etched into it, resembling the faces of various bugs. She thinks one is meant to be Hopper. The little one in the front is clearly Lu. The Wordsmith smiles, charmed by the wobbly, inexperienced lines.

"It's very cute. Do you mind telling me what it is?"

"It's a gift! So that you can stay safe, like you made me feel safe. I know it's not finished, but… I want you to have it, before you go." Lu stares down at the ground, unable to look directly up at the Wordsmith. Her heart aches.

"Oh, that's so kind. But I… Why don't you finish it for me, for when I come back? That way when you give it to me for the first time, it'll be done."

"But…" Lu glances at the object. "I don't… I don't want you to forget us."

Ah. The Wordsmith answers with as much reassurance as she can.

"I won't. I promise. You've all been very kind to me, and I would never forget the bugs who've helped me.” She places a hand over her chest, trying to summon as much sincerity as she can. The eyes of the other bugs rest on her, bid into silence by the exchange in front of them.

“Besides, I won't be leaving forever."

"Still… you can…" Lu looks up with shining eyes. "You can keep some of me with you. So you won't forget me."

Before the Wordsmith can answer, Hopper steps up.

"Come now, Wordsmith. You're a gift to Gravel. You deserve a gift in return." Hopper holds out for the object. Lu gives it to him, albeit reluctantly. He pats her on the head, then starts to run a finger over the carved lines. "This has care in it. It's meant to make you happy and keep you safe. And Wordsmith, I think you've more than deserved that much from us. You've cared for us, after all."

"That's right!" Thea cries. She sidles up next to him, holding her hands out. Hopper gives her a look, but passes it to her without a fuss. Once it’s in her hands, she presses her face against it. A kiss? The Wordsmith wonders. She hadn’t realized these bugs did that as well.

"There. For you to think about when you get lonely! You'll know we're all here to support you."

Tiak bounces up and down, waving his arms as if they’ll lift him off the ground. Only once it’s been passed to him next does he settle down.  

"Yes!” He cries, hugging it against his thorax. “We'll never forget your stories, and you'll never forget our faces!"

Hopper extends an arm for it, and Tiak gently passes it back. The item is returned to Lu. She clutches it tightly, staring one at a time at the bugs who touched her gift. Then she nuzzles it over her forehead. After a final, long, thoughtful stare, she speaks again.

"Yeah! All of what they said. You can keep us with you, and you won't get lonely or anything."

“Then I would be a fool not to accept it. Would you do me the honors?” The Wordsmith smiles, though she knows nobody can see it. Gently, she holds her hands out. Lu’s antenna perk up, and she beams at her, dropping the item in her hands. There is silence as the Wordsmith turns the item over in her hands, examining it. "Thank you. This is so very sweet, and I… I'm flattered that I've come to mean this much to you all. I've done my best to earn my keep here, and to help where I can. I never expected anything more than basic needs in return. Thank you, all of you."

She looks down at Lu.  

"I'll make sure to keep it with me, okay? It'll be my good luck charm. Then when I come back, you can finish it and it'll work better than ever." She grips it tightly, feeling her affection twinge at her cheeks. When was the last time she smiled so hard it hurt? For just a moment, she thinks the charm shimmers with life. Better not to lose the dear thing. Assuming it to be a trick of the light, the Wordsmith merely affixes it to one of the hanging pieces of fabric covering her. Lu bounces in place, nodding eagerly.

As she stands, Tymm gestures for her. "We should get going. There's a Stag Station we can take."

"Of course." With one final goodbye, the Wordsmith departs. “Thank you all, again.”

[tinogiehd]

hm i don't know i was convinced dnf was real before i even joined the fandom bc the first dteam content i watched was a dnf compilation but dnf dating was real in my head when kissgate happened

like it's sort of. ahard question because my intro was the vod of george's loh and i thought it was already established he was gay and had a thing for dream but then later i saw the "one thing in the entire world" clip and in my brain that solidified like girl you're FUCKED and then the quiz was my dnf is real from both sides moment

[suatuharinanti]

Mari Kita Namakan "Pertemuan"

Senin kemarin aku kembali datang bertemu dokter Anne. Sebenarnya jadwal untuk ke psikiater adalah Sabtu besok. Tapi karena satu obatku hilang entah di mana dia, akhirnya aku datang di hari Senin. Di hari itu sebenarnya aku mau merenung, tapi sayangnya uangku ga cukup dan kalau merenung duduk sendiri apesnya suka didatangin yang minta sumbangan.

Hari itu ramai, tetapi nggak semenyebalkan kalau harus konseling di hari Sabtu. Urutan ke delapan namaku dipanggil. Sebenarnya hari itu aku bertemu temanku, aku juga ingiiin sekali memberikan pendapatku tapi beliau buru-buru karena harus mengantar "seseorang" dan kesalnya pas sebelum berangkat aku harus bersihij pup kucing dan disalahin karena membuat dompet suami kecuci. Jujur aku udah capek disalahin hiks.

Namaku pun dipanggil,

"Gimana perjalanan ke Bali dua minggu lalu?"

Aku bercerita kalau, biasanya aku akan tertekan kalau ada di keramaian. Ada di antara orang yang vokal atau aktif. Kenangan di masa itu masih ada dengan begitu jelas. Di Bali, aku juga hanya sebentar. Pekerjaan sebagai ghost writer yang nyatanya mengantung.

"Hm di Bali perjalanan pergi aku bilang ke diriku kalau 'Allah ada di dekatku jadi aku ga perlu khawatir' itu yang membuat diriku tenang dok. Aku juga ga ekspektasi tinggi, aku di hotel aja pun ga apa-apa karena saat itu uangku pas banget untuk pulang dari bandara ke rumah. Tapi ternyata afirmasi kalau aku percaya sama ketentuan Allah luar biasa banget. Aku dibayarin semuanya, aku juga nggak memaksa diriku untuk berbicara dan aktif. Semua itu di luar kendaliku. Jujur aku merasa nyaman, aku diam, senyum, jawab dengan malu-malu. Karena aku hanya bisa mengendalikan diriku. Dan aku jadi tahu pekerjaan ini belum tahu akan dibayar berapa,"

Dokter duduk termenung, aku juga kaget sama diriku. Loh kok aku jadi bijak begini. Kadang aku suka bete dan marah-marah tapi sekarang lebih ke "setelah ini aku harus gimana? Apakah perasaanku valid? Kalau aku marah apakah selesai? Kenapa kamu berpikir negatif yang nyatanya belum terjadi"

"Dok, nggak salah kan aku suka Kpop?"

Aku suka NewJeans. Semua lagunya. Aku membuat diriku senang, hal yang paling aku ga suka, bersihin rumah, masak, nyuci, bersihin pup kucing, semua kulalui dengan dengar lagu NewJeans. Saat suami ga mau anterin jalan-jalan yaudah aku sendiri jalan. Saat suami ketemu teman atau perjalanan dinas ke luar kota selama berhari-hari, yaudah aku juga bisa sendiri jalan-jalan. Aku bisa bahagia dengan caraku. Salah satunya ngefans sama NewJeans.

Dokter tertawa dan beliau membuatku berkaca-kaca karena aku diapresiasi

"Perkembangan yang sangat bagus loh inii. Saya senang dengarnya. Kamu nggak fokus ke masalah lagi tapi udah tau copingnya gimana"

Deg!

Aku ga pernah menyadari ini adalah apresiasi. Tapi kenapa orang lain menyebut ini apresiasi.... Dokter adalah orang pertama yang berkata seperti itu. Rasanya kali itu aku mau nangis

"Suci, kamu harus sering-sering apresiasi dirimu. Puk-puk dirimu. Sambil berkata, kamu sudah berjalan begitu jauh dan berhasil melaluinya"

Nangis :")

Jujur hari itu berat banget. Merasa kenapa aku disalahin terus kenapa aku ga diperhatiin, kenapa dan kenapa. Tapi kata dokter aku memiliki kemajuan! Aku masih tetap minum obat meskipun dokter bilang aku boleh hapus satu obatku.

Aku sudah berjalan sejauh ini, rasanya aku ingin segera bertemu kembali dengan diriku yang baru. Meskipun rasanya jujur aku merasa menjadi beban karena satu dan lain hal yang sama Allah belum dikasih jalan keluarnya. Tapi raut wajah dan perkataan dokter Senin lalu jadi membekas banget. Itu yang membuatku tersenyum dan lupa bagaimana aku yang bertanya mengapa aku menapaki jalan seperti ini ya?

Mungkin jawaban dari pertanyaan itu nanti akan dijawab

[nonapejalan]

Untuk siapapun yang masih merasa kecil dan tak berguna.

Kenapa sih masih mengutuki diri dan merasa bukan apa-apa dan tak berguna?

Konco, kita tu berguna dengan cara dan jalan yang berbeda-beda loh, tapi ya sayangnya kebanyakan dari kita tidak melihat itu karena terlalu sibuk menyamai persepsi sama si itu dan si ini.

Capek gak sih? Capek kan? Hm...

Udah yuk gak usah jalan jauh-jauh buat cari validasi sana-sini, mending duduk sambil ngopi dan lihat ke dalam diri.

Pasti akan sadar ternyata banyak hal yg terlewatkan,

yang sebenarnya bisa kita syukuri karena kita ada dan berguna dengan cara-cara sederhana; mampu membuat orang lain tertawa misalnya.

Konco, ingat ya

Tidak semua prestasi dan pencapaian harus terposting, cukup Tuhan yang lihat dan kamu yang sadari serta syukuri.

[sunshineandsuitcases]

US TRIP 2022

Part 1

Yes! Finally saatnya kita share perjalanan terpanjang ke sebuah negara dari Kota Makassar!Maybe akan jadi 4 part? Soalnya ini aja baru perjalanan.

Berangkat dari Makassar ke Jakarta, 2 jam. Sampai di Jakarta kita nunggu di airport sampai semalaman. Jujur ini part yang sangat tidak nyaman. Sorry to say, kalo ada tante dan om dokter THT yang baca blog ini hehehehe.

Sebenarnya jauh lebih comfy kalau kita itu nginep di hotel bandara, hotel capsule gitu. Pertama lebih nyaman karena bisa rebahan dulu harus menghadapi 18 jam perjalanan ke US. Yang kedua, lebih aman juga buat barang bawaan. Yang ketiga, bayarnya juga bisa per 6 jam. Yang keempat ada kamar mandi, jadi bisa mandi dan skincare dulu sebelum bobo dan sebelum berangkat. Apalagi waktu berangkat itu ku lagi haid, jadi sangat comfy kalau memang nginap di hotel dulu.

Tapi harus maklum di dunia kedokteran yang menjunjung seniortitas tinggi, harus solid, harus ga enakan sama senior (SO SORRY TO SAY). Jadilah, tidak ada yang mau ikut bersamaku untuk nginap hehehehe.

Ini di Bandara Soekarno Hatta, sekitar jam 3-4an subuh. Pokoknya sebelum waktu subuh Jakarta, kita dibagiin passport dan luggage tag. Kelihatannya kayak terkatung-katung gitu yaaaaa😆

Di bandara juga belum bisa turun kan ke gate. Jadi masih terlunta-lunta di terminal. Harus skincare di toilet umum yang hm…. Kemarin waktu ke Korea lebih asik skincareannya karena di toilet gate keberangkatan dan banyak eonni-eonni juga yang ikutan skincarean, toiletnya wangi dan bersih.

Oke next, setelah selesai dengan bagasi etc kita berangkat ke US. Rutenya itu kita transit di Singapore (dan Jepang). Sebenarnya, hanya transit Changi aja tapi tiba-tiba cabin crew minta kami turun juga di Narita. Aneh banget soalnya labil gitu pihak maskapainya. Awalnya ga usah, terus harus turun. Padahal ini sekelas Singapore Airlines, tapi labil gini. Sampai ada bule yang ngomel gitu kan sama cabin crewnya.

Here’s some dumps from Changi and Narita Airport. Jadi ingin ke Jepang🥹

Setelah perjalanan panjang dengan makanan yang enak, sampailah kita di Los Angeles. Nah, bandaranya itu LAX, ternyata milik swasta loh! Jetlagnya parah banget sih, yang sampai ngantuk berat dan sembelit. Heran sama temenku yang kuliah di US, kuat banget sama penerbangannya!

Ini pas mendarat di LAX, super jetlag. Sangat tidak nyaman karena di pesawat ya cuma bisa pake deodorant aja, belum ganti baju, mandi, etc. Mana harus lanjut lagi ke Santa Monica Pier hahahaha aneh banget kan masa pake sweater sm ransel ke Santa Monica?

That’s it for part 1, lanjut ke part 2!

[dinisuciyanti]

Kemarin ada yg bilang gini, "kamu posting email itu buat adu nasib ya?". Well. Gak gitu konsepnya.

Sebenernya, cuma pengen cerita detail phd journey disini aja. Tapi kemarin, entah kenapa tertrigger sharing di ig. Hm, mungkin karna, aku pun terbantu dari sharing orang-orang yg sudah melalui fase nyari spv dan beasiswa. Jadi, why not aku share juga. Meskipun segmented banget karna yg mau phd itu jarang.

Juga, ingin membantah pemikiran bahwa battle beasiswa itu gampang sih, juga nyari spv itu takes time. Kayanya orang-orang terlalu terlena dengan postingan selebgram a day in my life gimana cara kuliah di luar negeri menikmati autumn yang cantek. Jarang banget diliatin babak belurnya.

Sama, aku tuh agak gatel sih. Mungkin kalo anak s2 boleh lah sering upload reels karna waktunya (mungkin) banyak. Tapi anak phd, kok sering banget ng-reels wakakak. Terlepas dari menjaga engagement sih. Sempet lagi di lab di videoin, terus ngedit, dan itu sering posting nya. Kalo sekali duakali ya wajar. Yang sering ini loh, waktunya banyak banget ya haha. Tapi tapi, phd emang banyak waktu si karna gak kuliah gak ngerjain tugas. Pinter-pinter gunain waktu buat baca dan research (?). Sotoy banget dini.

Anyway. Yaa socmed socmed dia sih. Bodo amat. Cuma agak gatel aja pengen ngomong wkwk.

27 November 2022

[rrabbyy]

Real kiss

Selesai dari rumah sakit.

Sekarang mereka sudah berada di rumah Yosa.

Tangan Juwar terulur menghapus air mata Yosa yang masih setia turun.

“Udahan dong nangisnya.. nanti kalo kelamaan nangis mata kamu bisa sakit”

“Tangannya masih sakit gak?”

Juwar menggeleng.

“Kan udah di kasih obat, aku bakal ngerasa sakit.. kalo yang dapat luka ini tadi kamu”

Pandangan Yosa belum beralih dari luka di tangan Juwar, yang sudah tertutup perban itu.

“Yosa.. tentang Dea-

“Udah.. Harda udah cerita, tentang foto ciuman itu juga udah dia jelasin”

“Maaf.. aku kira dia udah gak suka sama aku. Makanya pas tahu dia pindah ke sekolah kita, aku diam aja. Tapi ternyata.. aku salah, harusnya dari awal emang aku gak boleh biarin dia.”

Yosa menggeleng.

“Bukan salah kamu.. emang udah resiko, kamu kelewat ganteng sih! Jadi banyak yang naksir”

Juwar menarik tubuh Yosa untuk masuk kedalam pelukannya.

“Aku udah hampir bikin kamu celaka.. maafin aku Yosa”

“Ini resiko aku juga.. karna udah mau jadi pacar orang ganteng kaya kamu”

“Yosa”

“Hm?”

“Aku sayang banget sama kamu”

“Iya.. tau kok”

“Makasih karna udah percaya sama aku.. and nanti kalo kejadian kaya gini terulang lagi, tolong tetap percaya sama aku ya..”

“Pasti”

Juwar melonggarkan pelukannya. Ia tatap si kesayangannya, Yosa.

“Yosa..”

“Apa?”

“Hm.. itu..”

Yosa balas menatap Juwar, namun dengan tatapan bingung.

“Kenapa?”

Juwar menelan ludahnya, ia tampak gugup.

“Mau.. nyoba ciuman gak?”

Deg..

“HAH?!”

“Y-ya udah.. kalo gak mau juga gak papa”

Juwar memalingkan wajahnya, Yosa juga sama.

“B-bukanya gak mau! Cuman.. aku belum pernah ciuman! Takutnya nanti aku bakal ngasih kesan buruk”

“Kamu pikir aku udah pernah ciuman?”

“Emang belum?”

“Belum..”

Hening.. sangat cangggung.

“Mau nyoba?”

Juwar menatap Yosa kaget.

“Boleh?”

“B-boleh.. kan kamu sekarang pacar aku”

Belum mulai, namun wajah mereka berdua sudah sangat merah.

Rasanya jantung Yosa benar-benar ingin copot, tiba-tiba Juwar mengangkat tubuhnya untuk duduk di pangkuannya.

“Biar.. lebih nyaman”

“T-tangan kamu masih luka loh!”

“Gak apa.. badan kamu ringan kok”

“…….”

“Ada keluhan?”

Yosa menggeleng.

Mereka saling menatap.. perlahan Yosa dan Juwar mulai mendekatkan wajah mereka.

…………..

Lembut..

Ketika bibir tipis Yosa menyatu bersama bibir penuh Juwar. Sensasi yang mereka rasakan benar-benar luar biasa. Perut mereka terasa menggelitik, namun mereka menyukai perasaan itu.

Di abaikan suara detak jantung yang semakin terdengar berisik.

Untuk ciuman pertama.. ini sangat sempurna.

Juwar memimpin ciuman dengan perlahan dan lembut. Membuat Yosa menikmati setiap sentuhannya.

Buktinya, sekarang tangan Yosa sudah mengalung indah di leher Juwar.

Juwar pun sama.. bahkan di bandingkan Yosa, Juwar lebih menikmati ciuman itu.

Bibir Yosa teramat manis dan lembut.. Juwar pusing, ia hampir gila di buatnya. Rasanya.. Juwar ingin mencumbu bibir Yosa, lebih.

Namun Juwar masih ingat batasan, ciuman mereka tidak berlangsung lama. Sadar Yosa yang sudah tampak sulit untuk mengimbangi ciumannya, perlahan Juwar mulai melepaskan pagutan bibir mereka.

Setelah ciuman terlepas, Yosa tenggelamkan wajahnya di dada Juwar. Guna menutupi wajahnya yang semakin memerah karna malu.

Juwar tersenyum, kembali ia peluk Yosa. Erat.

[diarykatharina]

𝗦𝗘𝗠𝗨𝗔 𝗧𝗘𝗡𝗧𝗔𝗡𝗚𝗠𝗨; 𝗦𝗘𝗟𝗔𝗟𝗨

Hal Paling Berkesan Di Posa

Banyak banget hal berkesan disini, tapi aku pilih pas bagian greeting dan mejeng di weekly schedule! I love bonding, jadi di greeting aku berusaha maksimalin interaksi walaupun ga semua diving tapi gapapa guys, i love you. Nanti kita bonding lebih banyak ia

Yang Paling Diingat Dari The Fairys

Bang Xavier ini keliatan tegas banget walaupun gitu, masih ada sisi jamet dikit dan bau sad boynya kuat banget. Btw abang, sorry to say but tiap kali liat kamu tuh bawaannya keinget pacarku kenapa ia, kaya... Bjil mirip pacarku ajeee (tapi pacarku ga sad boy), boleh kapan kapan kenalan kaya pinang dibelah dua(?)

Kalo Arka tuh dulu divingnya rajin ya pas aku masih pdkt, terus kalo sekarang yang paling aku inget arka itu bucin! Aku suka liat bucinan sama oa tetangga itu loh

Si lucu Dara, ini mah dari awal udah bawel banget oek. Lucu seperti kucing dan forever my baby! Vibesnya juga ceria banget, terus bokem but babynya kerasa banget, aku suka tiap liat dara

Pilih 2 Lagu/Tahapan Favorite

Kalo lagu aku pilih pertemuan singkat sama seandainya, kalo tahapan aku pilih terlalu lama (kalo ga salah) sama seandainya

Pesan Untuk The Romancer

Halo temen temenku! Ga kerasa udah mau pisah aja nih kita, aku sejujurnya sedih sih karna ngerasa deketnya sama itu itu aja... Entah aku yang kurang nyapa kalian di tl lalu akhir akhir ini aku jarang diving atau kalian yang emang lagi ada kesibukan jadinya jarang diving dan muncul di mentabku, hm idk ya. But I hope abis ini kita bisa ngobrol lebih proper ya, jangan sungkan buat jbjb upcharku atau tweet randomku karna tbh aku juga sering gitu kok kalo lagi gabut! Makasih ya udah jadi temenku, makasih udah ngobrol sama aku, maaf aku belum sempet reach out kalian dengan proper juga. Kalo aku reach out setelah Posa selesai gapapa kan? I mean like, aku kalo misalnya gabut suka tiba tiba mention soalnya hehe, jadi pls tanggapin aku...? Jebal?🥺 Udah ia kayanya segini aja, soon aku diving dan jbjb kalian jadinya tunggu aku di mt kalian ya

Pesan Singkat Untuk Diriku Sendiri Setelah Melewati 3 Tahapan Bersama

I just realized kalo semua tahapan ini pernah aku alami sendiri, dari nt, cinta yang berbalas dan juga kata seandainya yang hanya jadi penyesalan. Tapi bukankah itu memang yang dinamakan siklus kehidupan? Mau ga mau, kita juga akan alamin fase itu dan you did well Katharina, kamu bisa lewatin tiga tahapan itu dengan baik walaupun awalnya emang ga baik baik aja sih. Tapi setidaknya setelah ini mungkin bisa jauh lebih ikhlas dan kuat ketika harus melepaskan sesuatu yang bukan untuk kita, berhenti menggenggam sesuatu yang sudah gamau digenggam atau sesuatu yang memang ditakdirkan untuk pergi. Setelah ini, ayo lebih kuat? Kita memulai lembaran baru, dengan cerita baru yang lebih baik juga.

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Beyonce Sering Kirim Karangan Bunga ke Artis Lain, Mencurigakan

Kamu pasti sering mendengar dan melihat berita soal Beyonce yang memberikan buket bunga ke rekan sesama artis? Pasti sebelum kejadian kasus P Diddy, aksi Beyonce ini dianggap sangat berkesan kan? Tapi jangan salah, sekarang hal itu justru jadi bumerang ke Queen Bey ini guys. Loh kok bisa?

Jadi gini guys, aksi Beyonce yang sering mengirimkan buket bunga ke beberapa artis ternama itu diduga menjadi sebuah ancaman nih. Menurut penilaian publik, itu menjadi cara Beyonce berkomunikasi ke sang artis lain bahwa ia tahu tempat tinggal mereka. Hm, gokil gak tuh?

Narasi ucapan yang dikirimkan oleh Beyonce sebenarnya normal-normal aja. Ia memberikan selamat dan ucapan cinta kepada para artis di sebuah kartu ucapan. Lalu para artis yang dikirimkan buket bunga itu juga sempat mengunggah bunga tersebut di media sosial.

Kalau diingat lagi, Beyonce pernah memberikan buket bunga untuk beberapa artis top, seperti Reneé Rapp, Lady Gaga, hingga Taylor Swift.

Nah yang paling bikin netizen salah fokus adalah aksi Beyonce mengirimkan bunga ke artis muda SZA beberapa tahun lalu. Saat itu SZA mengunggah bunga pemberian Beyonce beserta kalimat ucapannya.

Pada kalimat itu Beyonce mengucapkan selamat kepada SZA dan berharap artis muda itu tak berhenti berkarya. Namun ada huruf yang terpisah sehingga kalimat itu menjadi 'ending you'.

"I'm so happy for you, beautiful! Watching you grow and watching you win is an honor. S," tulis Beyonce pada kertas ucapannya.

Huruf S di atas sebenarnya tergabung dalam kata 'sending' pada kalimat berikutnya. Namun Beyonce menuliskan secara terpisah sehingga kata-katanya berubah menjadi 'ending'.

"Ending you a huge congrats talented queen. All my love and respect. B," kalimat lanjutannya.

Nah dari sini publik pun merasa ini peringatan untuk SZA, sebab saat memenangkan penghargaan di Grammy, pelantun lagu Kill Bill itu gak mengucapkan terima kasih ke Beyonce di panggung.

Tapi hal ini belum diketahui kebenarannya ya guys, dan Beyonce pun gak pernah menanggapi isu tersebut. Tapi gimana kalau menurut kamu?