#hirukawa thinks and feels and as much as you want to stop that there’s no switch no magic words he can say to get him out of that mindset

[jemmo]

seriously I don’t think any show has captured the pain of being a bystander more than miseinen. like i just can’t stop thinking about everything he’s told in this episode and everything he sees and how powerless he is to do anything about it. when you say bystander, you think of people that chose to do nothing, who just stand on the sidelines and watch but don’t get involved. and maybe that’s how minase started out, but this show proves over and over again that it’s not a choice anymore. given the choice and ability, minase would stand up and do something. he’s not the person anymore stood outside hirukawa’s house with the emergency number dialed but ultimately doesn’t do it. bc he cares too much now, and when you care, you want to help. but the world is so rigid in what they expect of him and hirukawa that there is no way to help.

i keep thinking about what the teacher said at the start of the ep. this doesn’t concern you. it’s already settled. don’t make your parents worry. when minase says he’s telling the truth, he’s told to focus on what’s important- and so the truth isn’t important here, neither is what hirukawa thinks or minase thinks. it’s what someone has already decided they are, and they are just too busy or just don’t care enough to go to the effort to see whether that decision is right. it doesn’t affect them whether hirukawa is the awful person they think he is or misunderstood, to them he’s just a part of the job they want to deal with and move on. even though no other adults are as present as hirukawa’s dad or minase’s mom, the show still has these small moments that show us that there is no other option for them to get help bc no one at school cares either. i said before they live in a world of ignorance where they’re unable to ignore, and so they deal with it all instead of being able to find help. and it feels equally horrible when you consider that unlike a parent, who yes should feel some responsibility or obligation but ultimately there’s nothing holding them to that, teachers are employed and paid to care, they should help these kids as much as they teach them, so to see them chose ignorance too is just as hurtful.

and back to minase, this episode showed us perfectly how much it can hurt when you know you can’t do anything. he can’t comfort hirukawa no matter how much he wants to if hirukawa won’t let him, he can’t change his mind and how he thinks of himself bc hirukawa’s trauma traps him in that mindset. he can’t stay by hirukawa’s side and support him if hirukawa sends him anyway, he can’t fight against what someone who’s hurting wants, all he can do is listen, bc no one ever listens to what hirukawa wants, so he will, even if it hurts him, even if he knows that it’ll hurt hirukawa too. minase is done with being a bystander but even here he is forced to be one, bc the truth doesn’t get through to hirukawa just like it didn’t get through to that teacher. what’s right, which would be to stay with hirukawa and help him, doesn’t matter just like it didn’t matter to that teacher, all he can do is listen and do as they say when people tell him to walk away, that he can’t do anything. and that’s why this show is excellent, bc it makes me feel the pain of knowing but being powerless just as much as I do the pain of actually experiencing these things.

[wanderlust-in-my-soul]

Currently Watching - December

aka The Masterlist

Because I love a good little list - in alphabetical order! 😊

Regularly updated during the month, latest update 22.12.2024

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At the end you can have a look at what we can expect in December with a MDL link and a link for a trailer (if avaible).

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1. Miseinen: Mijukuna Oretachi wa Bukiyo ni Shinkochu 🇯🇵 (7/11)

I hate it here. Hirukawa is in so much pain because he is responsibly of everything bad that happens to other people. And he believes he will affect Minase. I really want to give him a hug and tell him he is not wrong and he is not the reason for bad things happen to people. There is so much bad shit that had happend to him, but he still thinks he is not the victim. He is precious!

2. ThamePo Heart That Skips A Beat 🇹🇭 (2/13)

Yeah no. I am totally not normal about them! I love them. I love their softness. Please, they're so soft with each other and with everything and everyone around them! I can't with them! And who wouldn't fall in love with Po when he looks at you like that. And same goes for Thame. Next week we will get some hurt and some comfort. My poor heart!

3. The Heart Killers 🇹🇭 (5/12)

These two? I love them. The rest of the story? What story? Sorry, I was distracted by Fadel opening up to Style. I am honest, I don't watch this one for the plot. I watch it solely for these two and for Fadel slowly falling in love with Style. And for the way Style grabs Fadel's head here. This made me feel really unwell!And I could rewatch this scene over and over again!

4. Word of Honor 🇨🇳 (25/36)

Yes, I kept watching. Well, this will take me a while to finish, I fear.

5. Your Sky 🇹🇭 (6/12)

AAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The consent! The kiss! These two! This whole episode! This series! I am so not normal about them! I can't think right now. I love it here so much!

Finished in December

Series

Blue Canvas of Youthful Days 🇨🇳

They can be glad to end this one with a happy ending! I would have thrown hands if they end it with them to never see each other again. I liked the series. It has such a wonderful melancholic feeling. It is calm and has topics that go very deep. But. The rending was very rushed. I guess we could have shorten some parts of the second couple (I really don't like them that much) and give some more time for the main couple. That is just my feeling. There were just too many questions open in the end for me. And as said, the ending was too rushed. I give this a good 8 out of 10.

Sweet Home Season 1 🇰🇷

I started this series because of him. I love him in everything he touched so far. And after a rough start this series captured my attention and I couldn't stop watching. After a while my best friend joined me and now we watch the rest of the series together. I usually don't watch horror stuff, but this one is really good. It is not too gory or to spooky and there are no real jump scares. I really enjoyed this first season. Overall a 9,5 out of 10.

Sweet Home Season 2 🇰🇷

The reason I kept watching were those two! Yes, I can see everywhere at least one bromance that should be a romance. Come on! Who looks at the lips of someone else like this if they don't want to suck on them too?! He wants to kiss those lips and this kiss would be reciprocated. Because they are in love with each other! Besides that this season was a mess. The storytelling was boring, there was no tension, too many new characters and no real connection with those characters like in the first season. I give it 6,5 out 10 just because love those two and I read some nice fanfics about them!

Sweet Home Season 3 🇰🇷

At least they could hold hands for a short period of time. I am happy Sergeant Kim survived. I am happy most of the characters I liked survived. The ending was... not what I expected. It was not bad, but the tone was a tiny bit off. The rest of the season I really liked. It was tense and the action was good. I had a blast with my best friend and finally I liked some of the characters again. But where did all the monsters gone. Not all transform into neo-humans. And what is the conclusion? Emotions and needs are bad? I don't know. A bit more explanation would have been nice. Over all a good 8 out of 10.

Movies

Short Films

Dropped in December

Love In The Air: Koi no Yokan 🇯🇵 (4/10)

Who am I kidding. I dropped this a while ago. I really couldn't care less about this series. I didn't like the original and don't really like this adaptation. It is the story I can't stand. So it is a drop for me.

Looking forward to in December

0.5D (Dec 4th)

Aki wa Haru to Gohan wo Tabetai 2 Haime! - Trailer (Dec 4th)

ThamePo - Heart that skips a beat - Trailer (Dec 13th)

Eternal Butler - Trailer (Dec 20th)

Sangmin Dinneaw

Eyes On You - Trailer (Dec 11th Pilot)

[voltage-scenarios-and-hcs]

I've been following your blog since way back when, I almost forgot about you for a minute! XD My request: The Love Letter From Thief X Gang Sleeping HCs. Who is a nightowl/early riser, who steals the blankets, what's their favorite position to sleep in, etc. Whatever strikes you. Please and thanks! And welcome back!

Aww, thank you for all of your support over the years!! I really appreciate it, and I’m glad to be back and writing again! @panfanwithaplan

Love Letter from Thief X (LLFTX) Sleeping HCs

Takuto Hirukawa

Definitely a night owl due to his working style

Has honestly no semblance of a structured sleeping schedule at all

Really the type of guy to just go to sleep when he’s tired and wake up whenever he wakes up

When the two of you start dating though, he’s surprisingly clinging and will cuddle up to you whenever you’re in bed

Definitely the type to demand cuddles (he’ll never say it out loud, but when he starts getting pouty and whiny and asking why you aren’t in bed yet, you’ll know) and clings to you like a koala

Favorite position to sleep in is cuddling you from behind, arms wrapped around you and face tucked into the crook of your neck

Although he’ll never admit to it, he’ll probably just make up some excuse about being cold and you were just a comfortable body pillow

You know this isn’t the case since you gave him a body pillow once that he promptly threw out the window

He claimed that it got destroyed in the washing machine

And when you joke about getting him another one he’ll get all tsundere-y and come up with all sorts of absurd reasons why you shouldn’t

Even when you try to online shop for anything, for whatever curious reason whenever you try adding body pillows to your cart they just magically disappear

Isn’t a big blanket stealer cause he just clings to you and you’re all he needs

Kenshi Inagaki

The epitome of early to bed, early to rise

Probably the guy that wakes up at four in the morning, prepares a protein shake and is trying to wake you up to go jogging with him

He stopped doing this after you threatened him when he dared to wake you up from your beauty sleep

Kenshi’s just so peppy in the mornings and full of energy, so it’s rare that you’d ever wake up before him

The two of you usually sleep face to face

And he’s more than happy to offer up his arm as a pillow (cause he’s got those nice, toned biceps)

But it’s easy for him to give you lots of kisses, especially when he’s still feeling energetic at night

So sometimes, you have to sleep with your face turned away from him so you can resist the temptation of kissing him

And to avoid having to look at his puppy dog eyes

Probably doesn’t steal the blankets that much since he seems like someone that would radiate heat

Hiro Sarashina

Likes to sleep in, and will whine if you try to pull him out of bed any earlier than needs be

He’ll use all of his charms to lure you back into bed with him, and usually it works

Sometimes he’s the big spoon, sometimes you’re the big spoon

He likes to pamper you, but sometimes he doesn’t mind if you spoil him

Especially when you play with his hair and run your fingers through his locks

It’s really relaxing to him and that easily makes him fall asleep

Steals the blankets because he thinks it’s cute how you whine and reach out for them to steal them back

Sometimes you’ll reach out to try and grab the blankets back and instead you accidentally grab his hand

(He positions his hand there on purpose)

Then he’ll tease you for trying to get his attention, and I can totally see the two of you getting into tickle fights

Which usually ends with Hiro pinning you down from above as he attacks your face with kisses

Riki Yanase

Early riser, due to always needing to be at his job early in the morning

Often the one that cooks breakfast and has it waiting for you when you get up in the morning

On days when you’re trying to sleep in or avoiding getting up, he’ll come in and literally drag you out of the bed as you whine

So he tells you he’ll give you kisses if you get out of bed

He pretends that he doesn’t know that you intentionally do that just for the kisses since he thinks it’s cute how you’re trying to trick him

Tends to be the big spoon and hold you tightly from behind, he also does it because sometimes he’ll tease you by poking and touching you in different places and it’s easier for him to dodge your attempts at retaliation

If he’s drunk one night though, he turns into a big baby and wants to be coddled

He wants you to snuggle with him and play with his hair and kiss his cheeks and forehead and-

And complains if you try to even move a bit away from him

I see him stealing the blankets from you just to mess with you before he throws the blankets over you and wraps you in a cocoon, holding you tight in his arms and not letting you escape until you kiss him

Atsumu Kashiwabara

Wakes up early due to running the bar and having to get things prepared in the morning

Always super sweet, kisses your forehead before he gets out of bed

Lets you sleep in and will get you to wake up with kisses

If you still try to stay in bed after that he’ll rub his beard against your face to tickle you

He knows you hate it when he does that, so he’ll run away afterwards cause he knows you’ll start a tickle fight with him for payback

Prefers to sleep so that the two of you are face to face

I see him as someone who likes having deep conversations into the night

Hugs you close when you sleep

Definitely not a blanket stealer, he’s super caring so he’s more likely to be the one that wraps the blankets tighter around you and fusses over you in case you might be feeling chilly or cold

Tatsuro Togoshi

You’d think he’d be an early riser due to his job

But since he tends to stay up late a lot, he’s usually super sleepy in the morning

Many times you’ll be the one that wakes up early and you intentionally turn his alarm off so he can catch some extra bits of sleep while you get breakfast ready

You’ll hear him running into the kitchen as you finish setting everything out, and he’s always super appreciative of you making sure he eats in the morning and has something for lunch

Thanks you with lots and lots of cuddles, definitely someone who likes to snuggle up to you

Prefers being the big spoon since he likes having you in his arms

Probably doesn’t like to be face to face with you cause he feels shy and he thinks you’re so pretty and cute and admits that sometimes he can’t fall asleep if you’re looking at him cause he’s too nervous

Will get super embarrassed if you suddenly hug him and tell him to rest his head against your chest

Yuki Arisugawa

I see him as someone who may stay up for long periods of time due to work

Then he just absolutely crashes and is out like a rock for a long time

King of sleepy eyes that blink up at you as he’s trying to wake up

Also probably has the best sounding just-woke-up voice

Especially if it’s been a while since the two of you have spent time together, he’ll likely tug you into bed with him and force you to cuddle with him while he gets some more sleep

I can see him being a blanket stealer and forming a cocoon cause he’s sensitive to cold

It’s too cute for you to really get mad at him cause he looks like he’s a giant puffball when he’s got all the blankets wrapped around him

Likes going to sleep with his head resting against your chest/shoulder, especially when you run your fingers through his hair

He’s very blunt and will comment on if you smell good (especially after you’ve just taken a shower) or that you feel super soft and nice to rest his head against

Hyosuke Kujo

Likes to wake up earlier than you so he can mess with you

He’ll start attacking you with tickles to get you to wake up

Or he’ll wake up and just keep poking your nose or cheeks to wake you up

Gets jealous easily, so if you did something that day that made him upset he’ll sleep face turned away from you cause he’s being stubborn

Will also at that point steal all the blankets to be a brat

When you fall asleep though, he makes sure you’re still asleep before he turns back around and cuddles up next to you

But you know exactly what he’s doing since you’ve woken up in the middle of the night to him wrapped around your arm

You pretend that you don’t know though since you think it’s adorable and he always makes up for it in the morning with apologies and lots of kisses to say sorry

Taiga Kujo

Night owl, definitely dedicated to his work since he’ll stay up late perusing scientific journals or any new research that he’s interested in

But since he’s a doctor, he’s often waking up early in the mornings

You’re definitely on top of things and you know exactly when it looks like he’s starting to get worn out

And at that point you threaten to literally sit on top of him so he’ll stay in bed and rest

Likes to hear you sing, so he’ll ask you to hum a lullaby to help him fall asleep

It’s a bit embarrassing, but you do so since he’s worked hard every day and deserves to get rest

Likes to have you in his arms so prefers to be the big spoon, arms wrapped around your waist as the two of you are face to face

Gives you the blankets cause he worries about you, and one day you wake up with a small mountain of blankets on top of you