#hiddlesmaug

[doct0rstrange]

I cannot tell you how many times I say “i want to die” throughout the week.

[susebron]

Yoda & Galactic Empire ;-)

YODA: FAVOURITE CHARACTER

i’m gonna say luke or finn. probably luke. i just really love him. i still feel like that eight year old, unable to even blink in fear of missing something, when he’s on the screen. but i’m growing to love finn so so so so much. he is so good. anakin is my third fav; my lost, damaged son. there’s a reason one of my friends call me “ani” y’know

GALACTIC EMPIRE: JEDI OR SITH?

oh, jedi. undoubtedly jedi. i even feel a little bad playing as an imperial trooper in battlefront??? so i don’t think i would be a good sith supporter

[meme-sauce]

Hi love. Can you explain to me what being asexual means? I'm quite confused about what it is :/

OH MY GOSH I DIDNT SEE THIS UNTIL JUST NOW I HOPE I DIDNT MAKE YOU WAIT TOO LONGBasically it just means like no sexual feelings or attractions really. Thats not saying you can't be horny, but just no attractions ya feel? Idk that's how it works with me.All it is is just "Sex is cool but have you heard of dragons?"

[have-a-hiddles]

Hi! IM sorry to bother you, but I just joined the slores and someone said you had the list of slores so I wanted to see if I could have it? Please? I want to get to know them :) please, thank you, and sorry to bother you! Have a nice day! :)

No bother at all! Here’s the link to the list as it stands right now: http://haveahiddles.tumblr.com/post/92270139335/slore-list

If you want an Excel spreadsheet or Word doc, you’ll have to wait until I get home and can access those files. :)

[o-sacra-virgo-laudes-tibi]

Someone Else was amazing. Made me tear up. (I also loved your other story, "The Opposite Of Love" that one made me cry) you're amazing. :)

You are amazing. Thank you for letting me know you liked them. It makes my day. (well, night, lol)

[doct0rstrange]

Lets talk about mental health!

Alright. So I want to talk about mental health because its almost that time of the year where I remember when I got sent to a behavioral center (for suicidal thoughts/plans). And it inspired me to write this post and I honestly just want to talk about it. 

So, I'm currently taking an Anatomy and Physiology class and we’re learning about the organ systems. My teacher has made me realize how amazing the human body is. One of the things she explained was that our brain is this amazing super awesome “computer”. And honestly, it is, if you think about it. Our brain is in charged of sending commands to the body. It is sending commands to my hands as I'm typing this and as I'm reading this on my mind. HOW COOL IS THAT?!  You’re obviously hearing yourself read this. So anyways, our brain is amazing. Imagine it as a control room. Now, imagine your super amazing awesome computer brain being slightly or severely damaged. It won't work the same. Im going to personalize this and use depression and anxiety. I have depression and anxiety. Some days I can tolerate it and live with it, some days I cannot. Somedays the sky is slightly grey, like right as a storm is forming, it is not dark grey but more of a soft light grey. Thats how i can describe my mood and how i feel. Grey. It used to be dark and black. Very very dark. Im glad its not like that anymore. Im not where I need to be but I’ve made progress. (Rome wasn't built in a day right?) So, anyways, because of these mental illnesses, sometimes I cannot function properly. Sometimes I don't want to get out of bed and deal with whatever is outside my door because I don't have the energy to do it and my “computer” is glitching and running low on energy. So, now talking about actual computers, what happens to your technology when its malfunctioning? It cannot complete certain tasks!! Sometimes it needs a few hours to charge, sometimes it needs to be taken to a professional to get fixed. What happens when your computer gets a virus? It is a pain in the ass because you can't do certain things. The virus keeps taking control and it takes over your computer. So you go get it fixed. Thats how your brain is (to me). There are days where a “virus” enters your mind and it takes over. 

Now, lets talk about people who tell you to “get over it” “its just a phase” “stop being dramatic” etc. Don't pay attention to those people, because, let me tell you a little secret... ITS YOUR BRAIN, YOUR MENTAL HEALTH. NOT THEIRS. If those people understood half of the suffering and what you deal with on a regular day (mentally) then they won't be saying those things. Let them use a computer with a virus and see how they can complete their tasks. They’re gonna get frustrated, because they won't have control of what the computer is doing. Thats where you’d tell them, “get over it. just work with it” and they’ll get into this massive rage fit. Which, still, they probably won't understand. 

Now, this has taken me a while to learn. The hard way, sadly. That it is MY mental health and nobody else’s. It is my “computer”. If i am functioning perfectly fine on medication, then let me keep it that way. People have come and told me to stop taking my antidepressants because they’re “damaging me” and “I've been taking them for too long” well yes, you're not wrong, but if you’d feel the pain and things i feel when I don't take my medication, you’d go nuts. Because it is a pain you're not accustomed to. So, long story short, live your life. It is your health, you know whats better for yourself, not other people. Yes, suggestions are more than welcome, but don't try to come and control other peoples’ health. Thats why you have your own too. 

With that being said, I encourage you to love yourself. to love your body. Your body is amazing and if you’d see the things it does to protect you from harm then you’d be amazed. Your body loves you, please love it back. Flaws and all. It is, after all, what makes you YOU. Love your and take care of your super amazing awesome computer aka the brain/mind/thoughts/whatever. This world wouldn't be the same without you. So please take care of yourself so we can keep you around a little longer. :-) 

[susebron]

@hiddlesmaug iM SORRY i was gonna tag u but

[tomcuddlesfic]

I spent all night yesterday reading most of your Fics. I love them!! You're amazing :) I actually have been reading them for months now, but somehow I never followed you until yesterday?!! Pardon me! Have a great day :D

Aww thank you so much for reading my stories for this long! I'm surprised by the mass volume of stories I've put out for only a year now. I don't think there are many authors who have written so much as I did and to have you keep going through them is a huge compliment! Thank you so much and I hope you enjoy your stay!

[tenallonsy]

Can I be part of your family? Either Matt Smith, Eleven, or Captain Jack Harkness :)

You can be Matt :) Welcome and thank you for joining!

Join Here!

[marvelousmindloki]

Hello! I just wanted to say that I LOVED your Adam fic. You're an amazing writer and you put so much detail into it. I loovvveeed it. Adam is my favorite Tom role (aside from Magnus) and there's not many Adam fics, but I stumbled across yours and I was enchanted. :)

Thank you so much! I can’t tell you how much I appreciate you taking the time to tell me this!

It was my first time doing first person, and the first really smutty fic I’ve published, so I was very nervous about it.

This muse has a pretty strong hold on me right now so I have a few more fics plotted out for Adam and Lilith’s journey. 

[bohemian-war]

I'll go to your party :D

OMG hun T_T.

I wish you could come.

[doct0rstrange]

Sadly, I cannot get out of a class that's kind of giving me trouble learning the content. Fortunately, I CAN shoot myself in the face and hope that can be a valid excuse to get out. (Jk, I'll "try my best")

[susebron]

am i steve rogers yet or

[doct0rstrange]

I feel like my life is a mess and nothing is even going on. I feel so anxious. I feel so weak.

[doct0rstrange]

First day of second semester is going good so far. My A&P professor is the sweetest person ever and I am so excited to be in her class because she’s very descriptive. She was also a surgeon so she enjoys talking about blood (I love blood so yay). Psychology sounds interesting.. Although my professor is very…. I have no idea how to explain. I’m excited for A&P lab because we’re gonna be dissecting lots of things!!!

It feels so different to go to school 3 days out of the week when last semester I was going every single day. It would drain the life out of me. I hope this semester goes by fast! I can’t wait to start the EMS program!

[doct0rstrange]

Han Solo and R2-D2!

Han Solo: Favorite film?

It has to be The Return of the Jedi.

R2-D2: Favorite Droid?

ALL OF THEM GIVE THEM TO ME PLS. Specifically R2, C-3PO, and BB-8.