#hi this is about my mum projecting her trauma with psychiatric medication onto me | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

kkoct-ik · 5 months ago

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secondhand trauma is so fucked up because you have these horrible doom feelings and you dont even know why. youve been told the world is scary and you believed it and it was never something you made your own mind up about. its just part of life. and how do you argue with parts of life

#hi this is about my mum projecting her trauma with psychiatric medication onto me #and leaving me too afraid to take even headache medicine all my life #kostik speaks #i had a blood test recently and the vitamins and stuff came back fine. my depression and illnesses arent about my intake #my mum Insists they are. she Insists that if i just eat well enough ill see theres nothing wrong with me and i dont need meds #but shes clearly wrong #and its occuring to me maybe theres more for me out there than doing one thing a day and being sick every week #Maybe theres medication for this #and i dunno thats a weird thought. i keep echoing her telling my therapist im fine dont need meds. but i genuinely cannot function #and im chill about it because its all ive known and i like to be blase but. to anybody else. my health is pretty concerning #my constant exhaustion is pretty concerning. and i know why i have it #but it didnt really occur to me that i might benefit from medication #someone brought it up to me. ill have a ponder

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