#hhhh i forgot all my tags

[linawritestwst]

💌 Send this to the nicest people you know or those who have a good heart. Me and your fo/s loves you <3 💌

SORRY FOR SUCH A LATE REPLY I HAVEN'T USED THIS ACC IN FOREVER AND JUST NOTICED THIS thank you so so much!! <3

[yuriyuruandyuraart]

Hi? Gosh how do I even start with this :'D

I know it's been ages since I've last popped up on here. I've been debating when to post this for a while, but I kept adding to my draft more and more and now it's the end of JULY omgg I felt so guilty disappearing with zero updates but then thought my birthday would be the best day to finally address this considering it'll feel less random? idk but Ive always celebrated my bday with you guys and I'd feel so bad answering your kind asks without me at least explaining why I was gone for months.

Truth be told, I was dealing with a lot of stuff irl. health issues and sudden declining grades that left me stumped and drained for months now- along with technical issues like having to replace some parts of my computer that took a while for me to find to even draw digitally, which I didn't have the time for anyway with how tired and weary I felt every day.

I'm frankly shaken up by a lot of shit rn and I don't know how to be active online with this burden on my chest- Especially as it's been a while since I've even looked at utmv related content and my motivation dwindled. I swear I'd hype myself up to post or reblog something- but I'd see just how much I've missed or the overwhelming amount of posts I'd need to go through and I'd feel so swamped with exhaustion and most importantly guilt, for not clearing the air up sooner to reassure you guys that I'm, y'know, alive, and not dead in a ditch somewhere. And I'd procrastinate cause typing it all out is hard and I'd give up halfway every time and it's just not fair to you all!

I thought I was handling it well when I started going out and socializing more, instead of staying cooped up at home on my computer all day. and in the first draft of this post I made months ago I was gonna detail some of the fun plans I had, for my life and for this blog :D but relaxing my strict study schedule and letting go a bit of my tight routine, thinking it was better than wringing myself dry to keep it up, backfired horribly, to say the least.

I know right?? so silly to be hung up on stupid shit like studies of all things! but this is a very important thing for me considering my career plans and the competitivity encouraged by everyone I'm surrounded by, the pressure of keeping up adding to my already stressful days. I had to fix myself up first and I couldn't handle the strain nor interact with people and thinking of jobs and exams sapped my energy so much it's frankly embarrassing. writing this feels so cheesy too and it frustrates me to know I could've come back a month earlier if it weren't for that, but I also know putting all of this into words then would just sound like incoherent venting (not that this is very different tbf) and I wasn't in the right headspace to address my absence, or anything really- I didn't want everyone to see me return when I couldn't muster up a genuinely positive message, let alone talk to anyone with a shadow of my usual cheer

I feel like a complete mess and It drives me up the wall how depressed I've gotten. I debated deleting this blog so many times 'cause the fear of disappointing my audience and my friends, for lack of a more fitting sentiment, made me feel even shittier. I'm constantly thinking if this wall of text is worth posting, or if it's better not to burden you all with all my sappy troubles as if it's the end of the world. Trust me, I'll be fine. I'm not trying to dramatize this situation, but I don't think I'm up to pretending I'm all sunshine and enthusiasm you're all accustomed to.

So sorry for worrying you all! I'll try to catch up, deliver some missed birthday gifts, and answer some asks while I'm at it! Again, I can't state how much I appreciate your support throughout the years. It's frankly a miracle I kept any of you around with how much I keep popping and leaving at random with no warning. I definitely can't promise for my stay to be without a hitch, and if you don't mind an inconsistent schedule you're free to stay of course, but I'm afraid I can't sustain the pace I had when I first started this blog. I'll keep posting art, but lower my activity in the fandom sphere to reduce the strain on my mental health. so fewer rants and walls of text, more art, and less stress overall. Love you all and thanks for waiting for this long <3

[can-of-slorgs]

Local owlbear, what she gonna explodee✨

[shiningnightstars]

im playing bug fables and for the past three days i have devoted about 25% of my time to playing this silly game about bugs. i just finished chapter three earlier, and now im thinking about the game at 1 am so. have some art.

[bangcakes]

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[sylvumbreon]

I randomly encountered a full odds shiny while I was just out and about I'm......???? like holy shit wtf (i never find shinies bruh, this shit was surreal,,)

Also managed to find and catch all but the friendship trio of eeveelutions..so it was a great night 💕💕 (game-wise anyway lol)

[deityofhearts]

noticeably I’m struggling to eat food again lately

[caelanglang]

Who are your fav skk fanfic writers and why? Do you have their works that you love the most that you don't mind sharing here? 💘

this... this is such a hard question, *brings out a whole safe of records* /j (no srsly it's gonna be a long read--)

Here are a list of authors i really like :3 Their ao3 links/handles are:

the_most_happy: love how emotional their work can be! they have smut and fluff works, and most of all—which i think the the most delicious one, is the way they write angst <3 I actually made a bunch of fanart for their fics/aus when I was just getting into the fandom :3 They're writing is like going into a spicy sexy emotinal adventure... idk how else to describe it xD my fav fic of theirs... augh so hard to choose... In Loving Memory caught me so off guard (cuz i forgot to read the tags and immediately dived into it the moment i saw their post about it hhhh)

forest_racoon: The fluff and softness and magic in their writing is so good! I love the energy and comedy and seriousness and everything in their writing! it's always so fun to pick up any of their works~ Don't be tricked tho,, the angst they deliver have the same gravity ToT it's just so... augh... I first found them through Plate :( and have reread it several times (please check out their other works too it's all so amazing!!)

devilrin: love how she writes. period. the emotions and the poetic energy of it?? the angst?? so. good. the skk energy in their writing is more mellow(?) it feels more realistic—it's like watching people instead of characters ;w; (very cool how she world builds an entire life outside of her fic for her characters actually, got to witness the behind the scenes first hand myself its pretty insane to me) The fic that ruined me tho is Down to a Sunless Sea (which is so angsty im so--)

themadtree: The energy in their writing is just so amazing. it's very hard to stop mid-way! The dialogue feels very fun and engaging and you really get very attached to the characters because of how energetic and full of life they are. Whimsical is the best word I can think of to describe the reading experience of their work :3 They made a bunch of fun aus; their brain is just so amazing (pirate au and avatar au like broooooo) My favorite is Mors Vincit Omnia (yummy pirate au!)

StarshipDancer: one of the first ao3 writers whose name i decided to remember by heart (which means a lot considering how bad i am with names) because they are my most searched user in ao3 xD The fluff is just so addicting. The sillies and shenanegans are so on point for me, idk it just scratch this itch so perfectly in my brain. I draw a of inspiration from my skk sketches from their works actually :3!! READ EVERYTHING THEY HAVE PLS ITS ALL SO GOOD (you should check the fluff week collection augh) Without Words is one of my most reread ones... I think... I reread a lot of their works tho...

setosdarkness: let's be honest. i think everyone whose dived into ao3 skk just knows her alreayd xD she's such a kween for that, making sure we are so well fed with so much fun skk writing. Her works are so fun to read! Very comedic and has such similar energy to the gag moments and bickering and shenanigans of the anime skk for me idk why. I love how fun and unique each fic scenarios are :3 (no srsly you'll never run out of food made with so much love by athina-san)

xLillyle: I am working with Lilly for a Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood skk au!! (its Royai skk BUT it's also beast!skk) it's been so exciting to work with her :3!! You can check some of the teasers here. She made an iwaoi!skk fic recently so if that's you're type hehe *starts bawling*

there are lots of other amazing authors there but these are the ones that came to mind and i am most familiar with for now :3 Here are some other fics ~~

When I Awake: Ghost(?) Writer Dazai and Musician Chuuya. yummy angst. silly skk

castle out of couches: My favorite domestic fluff skk. it's my must read. Halfbloom is such a master of the fluff in comedic tone and capturing that skk domestic softness idk how they do it. it's just so good.

In One of the Stars I shall be Living: A sweetheart wrote a fic about my little prince skk au TT it's so well written and I am so in love with all the references and angst ueueue

Five Steps: My favorite skk knight x prince au TT

The Best Worst Thing: Another sweetheart wrote a fic based on my silly sketches ;w; it's so cute waaaaaa

okay. i am. so sorry for the long answer. I just love a lot of stuffs from these incredible writers. feel free to drop by again :3 these are the ones that comes to my mind first so i may have missed out on a bunch oop

[bl00dngh0uls]

wh0 is the best OC youve ever created hand down and like a total list of all OCS

I wanted to wait to answer this until I had a digital artwork completed of every OC that I have, bc a lot of them I’ve only ever hand drawn (my favorite ,, I love me some good pencil to paper art)

But , I figured I’d be waiting forever, bc with so much going on, and so many other drawing projects I have in the works, this ask would be long forgotten until I saw it in my inbox months down the road and went oh fuck me ,, I forgot to do that.

Sooo , to answer the first part of the question, I don’t think I have a ‘best OC’, because I literally love all my sweet babies so much. They all have their beautiful qualities, and all have their lil garbage ones. They’re all such well rounded characters HHHH, and I want to squeeze them all to death in my arms in one giant group hug.

They would probably hate/fear me if they ever were actually in my presence because, well, I’ve put all of them through some pretty fucked up shit. Some worse than others LOL.

I will now compile a list of all my OC’s.

(I continue to ramble)

Later, I will be adding drawings of my darlings, as I so please, in whatever order, because I really want to try and make my tumblr more of a space for my OC shit. If I could someday get asks directed towards specific OC’s of mine,,,, that,.. would be a dream come true .

But, yaknow, in order to do that, I gotta get on top of actually posting art,, hhhha , that is a goal of mine for the rest of this year, into the following, and forever HAHA ,,my goal is always more art

SO ,, here we go. I’m going to list them in order of creation. (As best I can,, I started making OCs like,, fuck,, 12 years ago almost?? Some were lost along the way.. some were made so close to one another that I don’t know which came first)

1: Thomas James Burns🖤 age: 19

2: Kyle Frederick Hunt🖤 age: 29

3: Lucifer/Lilith🖤 age: n/a

4: Jehovah🖤 age: n/a

5: Esteban De La Cruz🖤 age: 37

6: Percival (Percy) Chauncey Palmer🖤 age: 21

7: Donovan Christian Bell🖤 age: 23

8: Joon Seo Woo🖤 age: 24

9: Ikeda Noboru🖤 age: 40

*Uhm also I have a bunch of OCs that were made to be in the specific stories of these characters,, so this is just a list of the ✨mains✨

Also I’m vvvvery aware that this is a bare minimum list,, just names and ages lol ,, uhm I just want to add a picture of each of them for a better description. So you can see them aaaand get a lil background info on them. I’ll probably start doing a few of those tonight~

Gonna tag all future OC posts with #MYOCDUMP so I can look through all of my own OC shit on my blog like a noob

[despairforme]

     Believe it or not, it feels like his depression is clearing up a bit.

[rucow]

I just now realized I talked more about voryn and nerevar than I ever did about my own ocs, ooohhhh my goooooooood I neglect them so much 😭

[cherrybloodkei]

2013(?) --> 2020; ‘’Revelation’’ (old piece and new one are the same size (wich is much smaller to what im used to nowadays bfksaf; and then a direct comparaison where i cropped the old one a bit)((also dont mind the missing blush and watermark, i only added them last second and forgot to update the comparaison shot fajkbfskabfakbfk))

Old art based on a dream where I was a shapeshifter dragon and when my best friend found out (in the middle of the night, hence why she’s wearing pajamas (not idea why i wasnt oops)), I showed her neat tricks and junk. Also magic/haunted forest. Because we were camping, apparently.

[thecatboyfriend-moved]

hhhhhh online learning is making my anxiety skyrocket and it sucks

[worldsandmuses]

“Can you speak, Spirit?”

A dark, towering figure with a whispy collar of feathers turned toward the boy, narrowing the eyeholes of its owlish, mask-like face. It tilted its head as if examining him before answering in a low voice.

“Depends if you can hear me,” the figure hooted, though in a way that seemed he didn’t expect a reply. Still, the pressure of simmering anger in the air seemed to lessen as the spirit’s interest and curiosity took precedent.

[dyrwoodan]

oc interview

tagged by no one lmao but after i did ravell yesterday i started writing the others too and i got too caught up in this lmao

tagging: y’all with ocs i guess! idk i’m just doin my thing here with my ocs.. just havin fun... expect more interviews....... sorry not sorry i just want to pay attention to my ocs more and im just doin whatever here

Caiwyn Surana this time ✨

What is your name? Caiwyn Surana.

What is your real name? that's... my name.

Do you know why you were called that? nobody ever told me so, no.

Are you single or taken? taken.

Have any abilities or powers? i'm a mage. i have a couple of abilities. i'm adept in various fields of magic, arcane warrior being one of them. very ancient and powerful, also called dirth'ena enasalin, knowledge that led to victory, if you will. passed through the ages from the ancient elves. ever heard of shapeshifters? i can do that too, marvelous magic. studied blood magic for a time as well but... i've later realized how boring and mundane it is compared to other fields of magic. like entropy, *takes a breath and starts another half an hour of rambling about magic and the stuff he can do*

Stop being a Mary Sue. i'm not being a mary sue. *has no idea what it means but he would never admit he doesn’t know something*

What’s your eye colour? pale yellow, not as yellow as morrigan's. she has a much more vibrant and striking yellow. *smiles lovingly* (HE LOVES HER SO MUCH AAAAAAAA)

How about your hair colour? white.

Have you any family members? morrigan and kieran are the only family i have.

Oh? What about pets? pets? no, i personally don't keep any pets. had a mabari once but... i left it in denerim. you see, i don't really like dogs. kieran loves animals though, i believe we currently have uhhh... a bunny and one fox but it comes and goes as it pleases.

That’s cool I guess, now tell me about something you don’t like. i don't like a whole lot of things but... why would i talk about something i dislike when there is so much in this world to like and enjoy? why not talk about that instead? but i dislike people, stupid people, boring people, stupid questions, fish, the chantry *names like 50 other things*

Do you have any hobbies/activities you like doing? i like teaching kieran everything i know, i believe he doesn't find my lessons as boring as the ones i had to endure in the circle. i want to show him the beautiful sides of magic. apart from that... there is always an opportunity to teach myself something new, something i don't know yet. i still train a lot and practise everything i already know and i always strive to be better than yesterday. oh and i like to cook as well. mainly soups i used to eat when i was in antiva. maker, i love their spices.

Ever hurt anyone before? yes, i did. it's inevitable, people are such sensitive creatures. *exaggerated sigh*

Ever… killed anyone before? of course.

What kind of animal are you? i mainly shift into a raven, sometimes a fox. but i can shapeshift to whatever animal i desire.

Name your worst habits. my worst habits? give me a moment... i can't think of any.

Do you look up to anyone at all? no. ...but i do admire morrigan a whole lot.

Gay, straight, or bisexual? bisexual.

Do you go to school? no.

Do you ever want to marry and have kids one day? i already have kieran. morrigan and i have agreed not to bind our relationship with marriage since we both find it... pointless. unnecessary. we have each other and we have kieran, we don't need anything else. least of all *scoffs* marriage. pathetic.

Do you have any fanboys/fangirls? it's very likely that i do. i'm the hero of ferelden after all. and a well-known circle mage thanks to my talent. yes, there is a number of people that admire me greatly.

What are you most afraid of? i would say there's nothing to be afraid of if you're able to keep a clear mind. fear is used to blind and control you, keep that in mind.

What do you usually wear? mostly normal clothes, made out of luxurious materials. i have a number of cloaks too that i wear in just about every weather. i love having gold or silver details on everything i wear, they show nicely on black clothes.

Do you love someone? yes, i do.

When was the last time you wet yourself? i beg your pardon?

Well, it’s not over yet! well, then... go on.

What class are you? (High class, middle class, low class) i would consider myself a part of high class, being a hero of ferelden has paid off well enough. not that it really matters to me, though.

How many friends do you have? many. people tend to find a friend in me often, not knowing what are they signing up for. it seems i have that effect on them.

What are your thoughts on pie? i don't like pie much. i have never baked one either. maybe i'll try my hand at that one day... in human cultures, children usually receive a pie on their birthday, is that correct? *looks thoughtful and probably makes a mental note to bake a pie for kieran one day*

Favourite drink? antivan drinks are the best. zevran made sure to introduce me to them when we were in antiva.

What’s your favourite place? *he takes a breath as if to say something but stops and makes a charming smile* i will keep that one a secret.

Are you interested in someone? i already have that someone.

What’s your bra cup size and/or how big is your willy? this interview was almost pleasant, up until this point.

Would you rather swim in the lake or the ocean? to be honest, i don't like getting wet but if i had to choose i would go for a midnight ocean swim. i usually find lakes too murky but ocean is one magnificent mass of water.

What’s your type? *thinks for like 5 minutes trying to come up with something smart to say about morrigan but then he gives up* morrigan.

Any fetishes? intelligent interview questions.

Seme or uke? Top or Bottom? Dominant or Submissive? now, now, what is it with these questions?

Camping or indoors? i enjoy being outside whenever i can.

Are you wanting the interview to end?! no, feel free to ask me more. but do try to avoid... weird questions.

Now it’s over! so soon?

[reemaroamstyria]

Started some dress up style outfit references for some of my guild wars girls, starting with mechanist Kunai Vei and mesmer Vella Vaire! Now im dreading drawing the actual outfits...