#hhhgghhhh i feel so very nervous and conflicted

[dyk3nukem]

me: okay I've been very certain that I'm on the autistic spectrum ever since I was a kid, I've taken like 5 online screenings and all of them say I should talk to a professional, I'm going to go get screened so I can finally have the peace of knowing or the validation of a diagnosis

the tiny goblin that lives in my brain: but your mom (who has adhd, and her sister is autistic, and your brother also has adhd) says you can't be autistic because you hit developmental milestones as a toddler and made eye contact once she yelled at you enough times, so you shouldn't bother getting screened because you're just like this as a person