#heyitswitchard

[heyitswitchurd]

If the PowerPuff Girls are made up of sugar, spice, and everything nice, I’m made up of anxiety, depression, and a ton of self-doubt.

It’s not like I enjoy being this way, it’s just how I’ve become over the past three to four years. I’ve desperately wanted to change my ways and be more cheerful and optimistic but no matter what, I find something to hate myself for. Sometimes I’m unable to find a reason to hate myself, a prime example being the events that occurred about an hour or two ago at the time of writing.

So, it’s about 10:00 PM and I’m with two friends of mine that I’ve known for a couple weeks at this new university of mine, just chilling out and watching them play pool as I daydream about life - you know, the usual. That’s when one of these friends, let’s call him Jeremy, mentions how he has a song stuck in his head - that song being “i’m so tired...” by lauv and Troye Sivan.

If you had asked me one week ago to sing this song from memory, I wouldn’t know what to do as I wasn’t familiar with it in the slightest. But somewhere in the past week, not sure which day in particular but Jeremy started singing this song out of nowhere and I fell in love with it instanteously.

Despite how I am a hipster and feel semi-obligated to not think highly of “mainstream” music, I really really started to enjoy this song to the point where I decided to learn it on the piano earlier today - about an hour before meeting up with Jeremy.

With this being said, when Jeremy stated that it was in his head, I said that I had learned it on the piano earlier tonight and didn’t expect much more than a simple “cool” or “nice.” But fuck, he asked me to play it for him and our other friend once their game of pool ended, which I gladly agreed to do - primarily because of how I thought he’d forget about it all (to my slight dismay, spoiler alert, he didn’t.)

Even though I was nervous as all hell to perform in front of these two people which I had really grown to enjoy over the past couple weeks, I still tried my best and to my surprise, they were awestruck by how I had done.

I distinctly remember Jeremy saying something to the extent of “Why didn’t I know you could do that?”, which I responded to with an anxiety-laced “I just kinda keep it to myself.”

He told me not to anymore, which well, I can’t lie, it felt like it was something he was telling me because I’m his friend and all that jazz and how he didn’t want to hurt my feelings.

At this point, two of Jeremy’s friends, let’s name them Marissa and Abbie, walk over to the three of us. As soon as he sees them, Jeremy tells them to listen to me play this song. At this point, I play the song once again but it feels easier this time for some reason. Not quite sure why, since I’m playing for strangers that I don’t know and this would normally freak me out, but I did it perfectly.

Once I finish, both of the girls genuinely comment and compliment on how I did, and just- these kind words did end up making an impact on me since they’re coming from the mouths of complete strangers that didn’t know me five minutes beforehand. I felt as if I could trust them more than Jeremy, despite him being an amazing friend, due to the potential bias in his words due to our friendship.

Abbie told me to “please keep singing, as you have quite a gift” or something to that extent which- my emotion in that situation:

I couldn’t believe a complete stranger was saying this to me, of all people. I’m not saying any of this to give myself an ego boost, like goddamn, I think my voice is alright or pretty okay but I’ve never though that I have a “gift.”

After this, the five of us sat at the piano and sang songs together - ranging from various broadway tunes to Christina Perri’s “Jar of Hearts.”

At some point, we all said our goodbyes and left each other for the night.

As I walked back to my apartment, I realized that the experience I just had was the first time I had sat around a piano and sung with others since high school about three to four years ago.

And well, fuck, it made me feel at home with myself once again. I had missed the feeling of just being with others and letting us all speak the language that we know the best:

music.

Did you think I was gonna say English? Well, I mean, you’re not technically wrong as the lyrics were in English but seeing as how I’m unable to really speak and make sense approximately a quarter of the time, I wouldn’t say I’m great at speaking it. Even though I can’t read music for shit, I’d still like to think it’s the language I know the best.

From this experience as a whole, I’ve learned that I need more faith in myself and more optimism in the world, because there are good people out there - they might be hard to find but they are out there, you’ve just got to find them.

If I didn’t have friends like Jeremy that threw me out of my comfort zone, I don’t know where I’d be today. I can’t not thank him and the others who’ve supported me so far this semester - I don’t know if you’ll ever see this but you all mean so much more to me than you’ll ever know.

So here’s to sitting around a piano with friends and singing our hearts out - a time that made me reminisce days far gone and hopefully look forward to many more to come.

[heyitswitchurd]

I put this on Snapchat but then deleted it shortly afterwards when I realized that it was too close to home and had a friend message me in response, telling me how I don’t necessarily need romantic relationships and just need real friends which fuckin hit hard.

Here’s to real friends.

[heyitswitchurd]

DJ SHIFT #8 DJ LIONHEART VMFM *12/01/2019* ~~~~~~ 3 HOUR SEMESTER FINALE

Algiers - Dispossession

Flaming Lips - Yoshimi Battles The Pink Robots

Bon Iver - Faith

Justice - Randy

Wye Oak - Fortune

Hepcat - No Worries

Neon Indian - Toyota

Kraftwerk - Musique Non Stop

Norman - The World and You

American Princes - Real Love

Tame Impala - It Might Be Time

Soundgarden - Flower

Sharon Van Etten - Love More

Grimes - So Heavy That I Fell Through the Earth

LCD Soundsystem - North American Scum

That Dog - If You Just Didn't Do It

Insecure Men - Teenage Toy

Vivian Girls - Sludge

Pearl Jam - Spin The Black Circle

Big Thief - Not

No Use For A Name - Why Doesn't Anybody Like Me

Rex Orange County - 10/10

Regina Spektor - On The Radio

Best Coast - For the First Time

Depeche Mode - The Meaning Of Love

Angel Olsen - Pops

Beach Bunny - Prom Queen

Gay Dad - Joy

Luke Lalonde - The Perpetual Optomist

Radiohead - How To Disappear Completely

DIIV - Taker

Father John Misty - Mr. Tillman

Bat For Lashes - Kids In The Dark

Luscious Jackson - Let Yourself Get Down

M83 - Temple of Sorrow

Grizzly Bear - Two Weeks

Vetiver - Wanted, Never Asked

Charlotte Gainsbourg - The Songs That We Sing

Ali Barter - History of Boys

The Strokes - Reptilia

Nirvana - The Man Who Sold The World

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DJ SHIFT #7 DJ LIONHEART VMFM *11/17/2019*

Aunty Social - Trying

Cursive - A Disruption In The Normal Swing Of Things

Fran - So Surreal

Mitski - Your Best American Girl

Kae Astra - Howl

Rage Against The Machine - Bulls On Parade

Matt Maltese - Curl up and die

Velvet Underground - Sunday Morning

Louise Burns - Clowns

Animal Collective - Grass

Lightsout - Lucky Strikes

Police - Wrapped Around Your Finger

Faye Webster - Right Side of My Neck

Jesus and Mary Chain - Sometimes Always (with Hope Sandoval)

Pixies - Catfish Kate

Foo Fighters - The Pretender

Grimes - Violence (with i_o)

Flying Lotus - DMT Song (feat. Thundercat)

Hot Chip - Positive

Oasis - Wonderwall

Husky Loops - I think You're Wonderful

Apparat - Song Of Los

MIKA - Ice Cream

Coldplay - Violet Hill

Frank Turner - Sister Rosetta

The Decemberists - The Hazards Of Love I

Talking Heads - Take Me To The River

Amber Run - The Darkness Has A Voice

Fiona Apple - Werewolf

FKA Twigs - Cellophane

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DJ SHIFT #6 DJ LIONHEART VMFM *11/10/2019*

Boy & Bear - Hold Your Nerve

Beach House - Master Of None

Geoffroy - The Fear of Falling Apart

The Decemberists - Severed

Great Grandpa - Digger

David Byrne - Girls On My Mind

Turnover - Still In Motion

Regina Spektor - Samson

Electric Guest - More

Nick Cave and The Bad Seeds - Fifteen Feet Of Pure White Snow

Bat For Lashes - Kids In The Dark

Joy Division - Love Will Tear Us Apart

Ben Folds Five - Do It Anyway

girl in red - bad idea!

Hole - Celebrity Skin

Radiohead - Karma Police

Matt & Kim - Go Go

Bright Eyes - I Woke Up With This Song In My Head This Morning

Muffs - A Lovely Day Boo Hoo

The 1975 - TOOTIMETOOTIMETOOTIME

High Dials - Employment and Enjoyment

Jawbreaker - Fireman

Milky Chance - Daydreaming (feat. Tash Sultana)

David Bowie - Blackstar

(Sandy) Alex G - Hope

Hotel Tokyo - Sell The Stars

Sarah Bethe Nelson - Weird Glow

Hepcat - You And I

Father John Misty - Just Dumb Enough To Try

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DJ SHIFT #5 - DJ LIONHEART  VMFM *11/03/2019*

Men I Trust - You Deserve This (album v)

The Decemberists - O Valencia

Peach Pyramid - FOMO

alt-J - 3WW

Hana Vu - At The Party

My Bloody Valentine - Only Shallow

Girl In Red - Girls

Portishead - Glory Box

Caroline Polachek - Door

Radiohead - Idiotesque

Ezra Furman - Calm Down aka I Should Not Be Alone

Blonde Redhead - Equus

Luka Bloom - I Need Love

Ali Barte - History of Love

The 1975 - Give Yourself A Try

DIIV - Blankenship

Boy Kill Boy - Civil Sin

Metronomy - Salted Caramel Ice Cream

Ariel Pink - Bubblegum Dreams

Little Church - Outside

Best Kissers In The World - Picking Flowers For

FKA Twigs - Holy Terrain (feat. Future)

Sharon Van Etten - Comeback Kid

Rex Orange County - 10/10

Feist - 1234

Chromatics - Light As A Feather

A House - I Want To Kill Something

A View Of The Earth From The Moon - Boring Girl

Mest - Masquerade

Banks - Better

Sufjan Stevens - Love Yourself 

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DJ SHIFT #4 - DJ LIONHEART VMFM *10/27/2019*

Destroyer - Crimson Tide

Mojave 3 - Love Songs On The Radio

Broken Bells - Good Luck

Replacements - Kiss Me On The Bus

Battles - Titanium 2 Step (f/Sal Principato)

Strokes - Heart In A Cage

Bon Iver - Faith

Stone Roses - Made Of Stone

Antony and the Johnsons - Thank You For Your Love

Foals - The Runner 

Able Baker Fox - Stuttering

Porches - rangerover

St. Vincent - Digital Witness

Elbow - Empires

Groove Armada - If Everybody Looked The Same

Twin Peaks - Oh Mama

The Verve - Bitter Sweet Symphony

Big Thief - Not

The White Stripes - Truth Doesn’t Make A Noise

Bootstraps - Evergreen

Architecture in Helsinki - Heart It Races

The Dandy Warhols - Everyday Should Be A Holiday

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DJ SHIFT #3 - DJ LIONHEART VMFM *10/20/2019*

Amber Run - The Darkness Has A Voice

Daft Punk - Aerodynamic

Temples - Context

ODESZA - Late Night

Gruff Rhys - Bæ Bæ Bæ 

Fiona Apple - Criminal

Wilco - Love Is Everywhere (Beware)

E-Bow The Letter (with Patti Smith) - R.E.M.

Death Cab For Cutie - Kids in ‘99

Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Maps

Safes - Baggage Claim

Bauhaus - Ziggy Stardust

Idles - Mercedes Marxist

(Sandy) Alex G - Hope

Afghan Whigs - Something Hot

Moondoggies - Tidelands

The National - Rylan

Liz Phair - Everything To Me

The Head and the Heart - See You Through My Eyes

The Mountain Goats - Age of Kings

Brittany Howard - Stay High

Stone Temple Pilots - Down

Patrick Park - Five Alarm

Grizzly Bear - Two Weeks

The Lumineers - It Wasn’t Easy To Be Happy For You

Frightened Rabbit - The Modern Leper

Yeasayer - Ecstatic Baby

Frou Frou - Must Be Dreaming

Depeche Mode - Enjoy The Silence

WHY? - Reason

Marina and the Diamonds - I’m A Ruin

[heyitswitchurd]

Hiya!

My name is Richard Witchard and I’m going to be making and sharing content on here for the forthcoming future! Not really sure what that content is going to be, whether it’s daily logs, random thoughts, shit posts, or something else, but we’ll go with the flow and see where it goes!

*spoiler alert, it’s definitely going to become a  C L U S T E R F U C K*  

I don't know if anything I post on here will be entertaining or anything like that but I at least hope you learn something about me and hopefully get a laugh from anything that I end up putting up on here in the days, weeks, months, maybe even years beyond this first posting!  :))))))))