#hey can you ask a therapist about derealization without getting hospitalized. asking for a friend.

[baileycatarina]

mad.

Why does no one bother to tell me anything. Why am I always the last person to find out about something.

My dad and brother took the time to say goodbye to mom and that they're heading off to the movies but did they bother to tell me? Nope! I had to notice on my own that they were gone (after I sat around for well over an hour wondering why my brother hasn't come and gotten me for our drive) and then I ask my mom where they were, who then LAUGHED AT ME.

That doesn't sound like much I know it sounds stupid but this shit happens constantly. Like with EVERYTHING. Just no one bothers to fucking tell me anything in this house. I'm the last to find out that someone left for an event, I'm the last to find out about family drama, I'm the last to find out when relatives are coming over (which is usually a day or two before so I have No time to prepare) and I'm fucking Sick of it!!

"Oh well you're always in your room we never see you" YOU TOOK THE TIME TO WALK UPSTAIRS TO TELL MY MOM YOU WERE LEAVING, MY ROOM IS ON THE WAY, YOU COULD HAVE KNOCKED ON MY DOOR ON YOUR WAY OUT TO LET ME KNOW. I HAVE A PHONE TOO, SEND ME A FUCKING TEXT.

Fcking christ. Why don't I matter to anyone lol.