#hetalia ask rolplay blog

[askhetaliarussia]

Uh Russia... I didn't expect you to see you... here. (Kaliningrad was anxious.) - @the-former-east-prussia

Of course wherever you go I am always there watching.

[sky-colors]

Minors will still search for R-18 content - Personal experience

I think I should talk about it here instead of on my main blog because it’s more related to my own content.

I can relate to Missy from Big Mouth [happily not at everything (?)]

I was around 9 when I discover how masturbate [I never was sexual abused, unless you count being molested on the bus or streets] I was doing exercise when cross my legs felt good and that... GOSH, I did it once in front of my mother and she just ignore it like the mom of Missy. I ask her and she told me about yoga, I don’t know if she realiced what I was doing, after all I was just crossing my legs and full clothed.

I was 10 (a week for being 11) when I read my first lemon fanfic (it was straight... more exactly, it was Shesshoumaru x Rin, he was my first top husbando (?)). This fanfic has all the warnings, I could skip the lemon part and still understand the story, the author pointed the start and the end of that part, and I still read that part. I can remember how I felt, I had a lot of curiosity about that, and somehow I recognice the other feeling and associate that to the one mentioned the previous paragraph... so it’s obviously what I did.

At that time I <<knew>> “a man and a woman should share a bed and then they can make a baby” I though they search something on the bed and somehow put it on the woman. So it was also funny discover how wrong I was.

After that, time to time I started to search that kind of fanfics(full straight). When I was 11, my last year on elementary school (because that’s the systen on my country) they left us a homework about choose a book write by a Nobel Prize and read it. I read “La tía Julia y el escribidor”, there the autor points he was around 12 when he “has sex” with a woman (I surprissed, even if I already read fanfics with that that book was autobiographic! Just few years after that I recognice that was abuse); many of my classmates read “Las aventuras de la niña mala”, that book was full of ero things, then I knew I wasn’t the only interested on that, and inside I was also feeling better than them because I already “knew” about that and even more detailed.

Maybe I was 13 when somehow I discover doujinshins.

I never told about that to anyone of my family except my twin, I didn’t think I was doing something so bad, but my parents were so old that I think they weren’t gonna understand, and I tought if I told that to another of my sibblings they could said about that to my parents, and I was on a Chatolic school... 

I was 15 when my twin told me about “yaoi”, so “Junjou Romantica” was my first yaoi anime. Before I saw it I thought that was gross because ass was not a clean part of the body, but I saw it anyway. It was a big “Oah...!!!” I liked it a lot and seached for anothers animes like that. I had a lot of questions, but they didn’t matter a lot. So I watched others yaoi contents (Okane ga nai, Boku no Pico, and -my favorite even now- Koisuru boukun), I was a weaboo who didn’t know some of the things I read and though was normal were actually abuse. I was the kind of weaboo who tough rape was bad but still means love and that stupid things. 

Until that time I dint’t think an homosexual relationship was possible. When I was a kid I wish I was a male because I had more male friends and if I were a male I could play with them on Physical Education, but then I though “I like X guy and he's male, if I was a male probably I will still like him, and maybe other males, but that’s not possible, males don’t like males, so I will end alone, but I will have more friends...even if I end up without a partner I want more friends. I wish I were born male”

There was a memory... one day a policewoman came to my school and told us that rape was really bad and it still counts even if the persons were married.

Somehow I entered a Hetalia facebook group. I was terrified because I didn’t talk a lot and I hadn’t many friends (I was ever a quiet person) but I wanted to share my emotion for that anime... so I entered and discover rolplay! I was excited because that was so fun, like writing a fanfic betwen two people without know how it will end. And... I started to rolplay yaoi hard with other girls around my age. In the group were a woman that was 23 I don’t remember rolplay yaoi hard with her, but she did it with a guy that had 14 (I was 15), she never tried to do something real to us (she molested us, but it was full joke and I’m absolutely sure it were jokes, I know how is a real attempt, I was to experience it on messenger if I didn’t recognice some signals). They (the woman of 25 and the puber of 14) teach me some things, like recognice that some things were abuse, preparation is important, most yaoi content is stupid (by the way they manage the relationship and romantice rape) but there is nothing bad on like it if you don’t associate that with reality.

I already didn’t associate fiction with reality (mostly because I didn’t care about reality), and because when I seach for doujinshis some pages show gifs of real porn and I found that really gross. The real thing was (and is still) vulgar and gross to me, I don’t like it. [Well I could said I’m only interested on male gay porn because I like male muscles -not exagerated-, but even that I wont watch it because I felt bad]. I like certain styles of drawing that just manga/anime has (and some cartoons).

Like a year ago I discover “Uncanny Valley” and if you read about that I’m sure you will understand why style is so important on the moment of said that we can separate fiction of reality when it comes from drawings. [Please read about Uncanny Valley is a deep studied thing.]

So since that time I read fanfiction or doujinshis or mangas and understand that there are things that we can explore in fiction but don’t touch on reality and even find gross and that didn’t mean we are just dennying we like it on reality.

It’s really simple, it’s not just with some kind of r-18 content, if you think about a character you really love but is bad or has bad acctitudes and then imagine him on reality probably you want to punch him because he is a trash (my personal example is Kacchan), but you still love him because he belongs to fiction.

I don’t think that is bad that an young adult guide a puber/kid/adolescent about sex things (obviously without touching and without the intention of abuse) because most of them didn’t have someone near who they can feel safe talking about that, but you should learn to recognice when they are trying to take advantage of you (some signals are: try to get your number, where you live or study, your schedule, your full name or your family’s, “inocent” photos that gradually demand more...) Intenet has a lot of answers but just if you had THE question, if you didn’t, you could find wrong things,

Well, it’s my personal experience. I wish I found that fanfic latter, at least when I was 15. R-18 is signed like that for a reason, but even that the curiosity is here since he were kids and even much more when we were pubers or adolescents; the changes, the hormones guide us to search more about that and it’s pretty normal (that didn’t mean we should obsess about that. It’s also normal don’t feel interested about that, just less common). It’s ok to ask an adult with whom you feel confident about that but don’t let your guard down, and... Liking something in fiction doesn’t mean liking it on the reality!

Pd: Since it’s impossible to full avoid adolescent from r-18 content I think the translators or fanfic authors will help them to don’t think abuse is romantic putting warning messages on the first page and tags

Pd2: If you are an adolescent I recommend you to watch “Big Mouth”, the artstyle makes you felt unconfortable, but it’s perfect for their message.

[askhetaliarussia]

If you were to get arrested, what would it be for?

Why are you curios about such things friend? Did my boss send you?

[askhetaliarussia]

Russia, I'm risking throwing up blood and my breakfast talking to you but if I offered sunflowers would you not strangle Kaliningrad?

Or eat my Holy sword She's at my place, so can ya just take the flowers and go? I wanna go back to playing GTA

- @ask-the-awesome-prussian

Sunfl- I'm fine with this. Pleasure doing business with you friend.

:)

[askhetaliarussia]

I found a new hobby where I can have fun time stabbing stuff repeatedly

[askhetaliarussia]

are you best friends with Prussia 🤨

I want to be friends but every time I see him he runs away or insults me before I get the chance to ask

[askhetaliarussia]

Opinion on cilantro

I don't understand friend. Why do you want to know my opinion on a random herb?

(ooc: i read it wrong and didn't understand so i read the entire wiki page on cilantro 😭)

[askhetaliarussia]

I made a flower crown for you, big brother (⁠人⁠*⁠´⁠∀⁠｀⁠)⁠｡⁠*ﾟ⁠+

@g-rlanachronism)

Huh? Oh, thank you. :)

[askhetaliarussia]

Man, even Russia's here now. How's it going?

- @ask-aph-hws-iceland

Very nice, friend. Although I'm so sad that summer is ending and cold winter is soon but I have some time still, да.

[askhetaliarussia]

Hey there Ivan, how cold does Siberia usually get..? Ive heard people say its even colder than in here...

- @maplesyrupandsnow

It gets a bit colder than some parts of your country. I think the temperature gets to be around −25 °C in the winter so I'm happy that I don't go there in the winter.

(ooc: sorry if its inaccurate, i just googled it )

[askhetaliarussia]

sorry that was my Roblox Gravity Coil impression

What's roblox?

[askhetaliarussia]

Hi Russia do you miss living with Prussia

I can break into his house anytime I want just for fun so not really.

(OOC: Sorry it took so long to respond)

[askhetaliarussia]

RUSSIA

WHY DO YOU CARRY A PIPE TO A MEETING

MY LEG. MY LEG HURTS LIKE HELL.

- @ask-the-awesome-prussian

Because It's fun watching others weep like little baby and also the cries of friends reminds me that I'm not alone.

[askhetaliarussia]

Did I see that right. Did Prussia come to your house to not only to prevent you from hurting Kaliningrad, but did he say she is living with him now. And did you just give her to him just for a sunflower and did you just kind of give your blessing to marry her I think? Land and her or just her??? So confused.

I did that? I was probably drunk. But she isn't my friend anymore and I like sunflowers so I don't regret much.... This is a nice sunflower.

[askhetaliarussia]

u r so so sweet hi mr russia hii :33333

Hello :). Nice to meet you friend

[askhetaliarussia]

russia… roblox is a video game! u should try it some time! i have a t shirt of you in a bag on it!

I like video games sometimes so I'll try it.