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the bird hath taught me the way.

crusty old man will now live in my brain

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AAAAA ok so recently I've been Obsessed with my open original species I made, SYNTHS! *infographic here

Here's some of my favourites, and some little character profiles ab them 😊

🧿 SHIMMER

Shimmer is interesting bc I actually have two canons for her! I originally made her as a demaverse OC but I also have an original story for her that I'm creating with @silkysong <3

🌈 Shimmer is bisexual and A Creature first and foremost. Gender is incredibly incedental to her and her pronouns are She/It.

DEMA STORYLINE

☆ Shimmer is a Bounty Hunter ("Compound Representitive") in Dema who works off the books to capture escapees and bring them home. Synths are not allowed to hold positions of power in Dema so she tries to clutch it wherever she can.

☆ Due to the suppression that her society forces upon her, she despises humans and sees the presence of humanity in her biology as a defect. She works with a shady doctor (owned by @polarized-disguise ) who does strange genetic experiments on her to try and suppress that human part of her.

☆ She's very isolated and closed off, and doesn't like to open her heart to anyone. She only cares for her brother, Skye, who is the only person she respects at the start of her story. Over the course of it, she meets Iona (owned by @silkysong ) who troublemakes her way into a begruding Shimmer's life.

ORIGINAL STORY

☆ Similar to above, Shimmer is a representative of a power station in a small town, of which has far too much influence and power over its citizens.

☆ She has intense romantic tension with Iona who she begrudgingly begins to befriend over the course of the story.

☆ Female Rage Incarnate <333

🩵 SKYE

I literally only have recent photos of him and Shimmer together MFMSKD do not separate!!!

🌈 Skye is pansexual!

♡ Skye is a club owner in Dema who puts up a front as an empty headed, vacuous party boy but he secretly hides depth under his charming veneer. He aids the banditos by arranging escapes and supply drops, and tries his best to inspire FREE WILL into others, and encourages them to make their own decisions, whatever they may be.

♡ He and his sister oppose intensely in ideology but love each other deeply because they're all each other have really had for so long. Both of them think what the other is doing is dangerous, but would support each other in an instant if things were dire.

♡ He's constantly haunted by the fact that, due to being a Synth, he will never truly be able to connect with other humans. He often feels lonely and like a ghost, putting up a front to try and get through life. Where this instilled a deep longing in him, it prevented his sister from forming empathy.

♡ He's just a sincerely kind person :) <3

🦭 AQUAMARINE

Pictured: Ultrababy of forever

🌈 Nonbiney creature. She/They

◇ Aquamarine is a young plucky turquoise synth that loves to play and draw.

◇ She was plucked out of her life - from school, from her home and all she knew - and placed in an Incarceration Compound... To guard and monitor an unstable Empty Synth, 199 (owned by @silkysong ). She, despite her diminutive size, is physically very strong and good at helping calm others emotions, which is why she was selected.

◇ She's exposed to horrors beyond her comprehension and is forced into a role of responsibility that she should never have been given, but despite it all she loves her job and 199 and would never trade him for anything. She's selectively mute and chooses to sign her words!

⚔️ BLADES

HORRIBLE vile stinky man. art by the lovely silkysong <3

🌈 He's into anyone he can use to further his nasty little agendas

♤ Blades is another Compound Representitive that works in Dema alongside Shimmer. He's soooooo sucks <3 He very rarely actually does his job, instead choosing to hole up in his living quarters and do absolutely nothing to help Shimmer. He only makes a move when he absolutely has to, or if he has something to gain by doing so.

♤ He actually does the exact opposite of his job, distributing banned material to the inmates of the compound in exchange for "favours" or high prices. He's selfish and opportunistic, and is allergic to any form of responsibility for anything.

♤ He essentially never truly formed connections with others due to isolation, and therefore doesn't really have a working concept of love or empathy for others. This leads him to do terrible, irredeemable things, and hurt people who could possibly save him from himself.

❤️‍🔥 AEFRID

One of my NPCs from my DNDema campaign! She's so awesomes...

🌈 Aefrid probably likes women but she hasn't really thought about it

♡ Aefrid is a young, elite vialist priest who works directly under the bishops in the main towers. She is part of a secret experiment which attempts to strip synths of their autonomy and steal their augmentations, in her case, pyromancy.

♡ She is immature and overconfident due to being told how amazing and elite she is her entire life, and she fully believed her own hype. However, when she was finally faced with conflict from a source outside her sect, she IMMEDIATELY had her ass handed to her, and was dismissed from the sect.

♡ She has a deep bond with her sister, Maeve (Staunch vialist but with a warriors spirit - I also love her but dont have her art yet), who always tried to keep her feet on the ground, however, these lessons never really permeated.

♡ When Maeve was defeated, Aefrid jumped to save her from death and was mortally injured herself. The party members decided to save her, to which Maeve, who is a warrior above all, pledged her debt to. Aefrid is Resentful and Furious that Maeve would EVER help them and doesn't understand why her life is valued this much. She's currently very begrudgingly being sent to Trench so she and Maeve aren't hunted down and Glorious Gone'd.

🐺 FENRIR & 🫎 ANTHELION

These two r actually the cutest... I love them so dearly. Or should I say deerly B)

🌈 Fen is bisexual and Anthelion likes Fenrir :3 Fen is He/Him and Anthelion is They/Them

☆ Fenrir is another vialist priest in the same sect as Aefrid and Maeve. He is, however, completely unimpressed by the role and only got there because he scored incredibly high in all of his aptitude tests. He feels immense pressure from his family, his city and the Bishops to persue his intelligence and somehow ended up in with the Elites.

☆ He's a reliable, intelligent person that deeply cares about others despite his flat affect. He often guards himself because he doesn't believe in the teachings of Vialism, however he's in an Elite Sect within the church where any known dissent would lead to immediate death so he just keeps up airs despite being resentful of the entire practice.

☆ He longs to be free and immerse himself in Trench. He almost escaped a few times but always had second thoughts and returned to the towers every time... Until he both realised the horrible things they wete doing to synths through his new friend (and crush) Anthelion, along with meeting again with his old schoolmate (and crush) 199, who helped inspire him to fight back and leave the sect.

♧ Anthelion is a tender loving person who has not had much exposure to the world, due to being a Generation 3 synth. They were created as a purposed synth to be used in the experiments by the sect, and their abilities are related to Decay and Rot. Their focus is on plants, where their abilities allow them (and Fenrir when they are interlinked thru psychokinesis) to cause plants to decay instantly, and bloom again from the nutrient rich soil. People often mistake their abilities for controlling Plants when they really control the rate of decay and bloom within those plants.

♧ They and Fenrir are deeply tied to one another, due to the fact they were the only ones who treated each other with kindness and understanding while both were trapped within the towers. They trust and rely on each other to protect one another, and have spent a lot of time in each others minds bc of the psychokinesis, so they know each other very well.

♧ Anthelion is neurologically disabled! They have a speech impediment and have slowed reactions, and they need some extra help sometimes to understand the intentions of others, especially when they are bad ones.

BONUS QUESTIONS

🎉 Which one has the most growth over the course of their story?

I feel like they all have similar amounts of growth, be it progression or regression, but I think I've worked on Shimmer the most out of all of them!

🖍 CAN PEOPLE DRAW YOUR OCS? <3

YEAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSS

(others ocs and art owned by @silkysong and @polarized-disguise )

[sips-tea-cutely]

Atsushi, Dazai, and Chuuya with a s/o who is v into physical affection? Like they're always hugging or kissing them?

Physically Affectionate S/O

a/n: GUYS IM NOT A DAZAI SLANDERER ITS JUST FROM MY OWN DAZAI KINNIE THOUGHTS 💔💔💔💔

atsushi nakajima, osamu dazai, chūya nakahara

@chuuyas--boo <3

#Atsushi Nakajima

tbh he’d be a little uncomfortable with it at first :(

its not cause touching is a nono for him he’s just a little unnerved from when the orphan director hammered his foot so yea 💔💔

BUT, after getting used to it and atsushi being reassured that the director was gone and even so, still deeply cared for atsushi, HE’D BE SUPER INTO IT <333

god almighty, please DO hug and reassure him, he’d be so grateful <33

oh god tho, no matter how close you two are, DO NOT surprise cuddle him or any surprise affection of that sorts. despite being pretty soft, hes still an agency member and is always on guard.

i feel like at least once, atsushi was chatting with the you and kyoka and then dazai snuck up to surprise his lil subordinate and got a black eye

its ok he deserved it/j

IDSKDJDNDN anyways omg, he’d love all the affection you’d give him and would always try his best to reciprocate

HE’D ALWAYS ASK FOR CONSENT TOO UUDHSHSJSJ

“*taps shoulder* hi s/o, can i kiss you :0? <3”

in private tho, while he’s drifting to sleep, he’d be wondering ‘am i really deserving to be loved by them? im no good at all, not good enough for them, not good enough to help anyone at all.’

plz do reassure him!! even if it doesn’t get all the intrusive thoughts away, it’d lessen them to the point that he feels that he is allowed to love you and is allowed to be touched and kissed by someone as kind as you <33

#Osamu Dazai

UGH, you’re too adorable for your own good <333

no matter what he’s doing— even if he’s with a government diplomat or interviewing a serial bomber, he’d always return the affection tenfold (bonus if the person he’s with is uncomfy)/HJ

would probably get harassed by kunikida for showing too much PDA in the workplace

“what, kunikida? am i not allowed to kiss and hug my darling s/o? 🙁🙁🙁” “dazai, you were fondling their ass. what do you mean kiss.”

okay but seriously, he’d be so touched that someone as sweet as you would want to give your affections and love to him out of all people

would probably cry about it at night, you’re way too gentle to someone as unforgivably disgusting and vile as him.

‘s/o, they’re so kind, too kind. why would they love me? ive ruined so many peoples’ lives, why would i be rewarded with unconditional love— especially love from them?’

if eventually you’d move in together, expect him to never give you any space. it is a MUST now for you to be on his chest or him on yours. it’s something so plain and simple, but to him, it’s almost like a lifeline. without you—no, he could never imagine how miserable he’d be without your love.

#Chuuya Nakahara

love? yes please!! <33

honestly, he’d just accept them. at first, he’d be a lil uneasy considering his ability. but eventually he’d come around and be much much more affectionate when receiving them <333 (snuggling into your shoulder, grabbing your waist, etc.)

still though, he needs to keep his rep as the scary vessel of arahabaki and would threaten anyone who saw his sweet, almost childlike smile at his s/o

“did my little brother find love? how sweet~…” “verlaine, i swear to fucking god if you tell anyone you saw that 🙁🙁”

is so touch starved, please oh god kiss him, he really needs it. would probably depends on when you met him; he wouldn’t accept love as great as he would in his adulthood when he was 15-16 cause of ykyk…

honestly, physical touch isnt rlly his love language, moreso affirmation and giving gifts but if it’s what his s/o wants then, it’s what they’ll fucking get ‼️‼️‼️ we slay a malewife

i feel like he’d have lots of sleepless nights thinking about whether or not he is the real, human chuuya nakahara or the one that’s 2400 lines of code.

but when he met you, those nights lessened and were replaced with thoughts such as kissing ur cute lil forehead and the moments in life that made him really happy that he was born.

still tho, he thinks you wouldn’t wanna be with a guy who’s record is everyone he cared for dying or leaving haha jk… ‘what if one day, they decide, they dont want to be with someone who doesn’t even have a family? eugh, i wouldnt blame ‘em if they thought so…’

these thoughts would always disappear the moment he saw you curl up on his side, clutching his shirt. dear lord, how could you get even cuter? sure, his life mightve been hell on earth but, if this was what it would come to, he’d do it a hundred times over.

[sunkissedchldrecon]

𝑷𝑺𝒀𝑪𝑯𝑬 (𝟏𝟔) 𝑰𝑵𝑻𝑬𝑹𝑷𝑹𝑬𝑻𝑨𝑻𝑰𝑶𝑵

dedicated to @kune10 for chosing the asteroid + being an amazing follower <333

𝒊. 𝑫𝑬𝑭𝑰𝑵𝑰𝑻𝑰𝑶𝑵 & 𝑻𝑯𝑬 𝑺𝑻𝑶𝑹𝒀 𝑶𝑭 𝑷𝑺𝒀𝑪𝑯𝑬

the traditional meaning of psyche deals with the human soul, mind, and spirit. as opposed to our physical bodies, the psyche is our center of thought. it creates who we are and what we believe.

in greek mythology, Psyche was a mortal princess who was said to have the beauty of a goddess. humans admired her beauty so much so that they compared her to Aphrodite and even started to worship her over the traditional goddess of beauty. angered, Aphrodite told her son, Eros (also known as Cupid), to make Psyche fall in love with the most vile, horrendous man possible; upon visiting Psyche, Eros fell in love with her and wanted to shield her from his mother's punishment. eventually, Psyche was brought to Eros' palace, and he told her that she could not see his face. after being egged on by her sisters, Psyche took an oil candle to his room in the dark of night and woke Eros; she was caught disobeying the one rule he placed. Aphrodite made Psyche face four trials. she passed most of them with relative ease, but the last trial led to her death as she opened a box of Persephone's beauty that contained the essence of death. touched by her sorrow, Eros saved her life and took her to Mount Olympus where she became the goddess of the soul. Psyche and Eros went on to have a child named Hedone, the goddess of physical joy.

when i think of this asteroid, i think of what the soul wants. what it craves to achieve and experience. it also reminds me of selflessness.

what is something you care about so much that you'd be willing to give your life up for it?

what is something you care about so much that you can't live without it?

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𝒅𝒊𝒔𝒄𝒍𝒂𝒊𝒎𝒆𝒓: 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒄𝒂𝒏 𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒌 𝒂𝒕 𝒃𝒐𝒕𝒉 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝒂𝒔𝒔𝒐𝒄𝒊𝒂𝒕𝒆𝒅 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒑𝒔𝒚𝒄𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒊𝒈𝒏 𝒂𝒏𝒅 / 𝒐𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒊𝒈𝒏 𝒂𝒔𝒔𝒐𝒄𝒊𝒂𝒕𝒆𝒅 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒑𝒔𝒚𝒄𝒉𝒆 𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝒊𝒏 𝒐𝒓𝒅𝒆𝒓 𝒕𝒐 𝒈𝒆𝒕 𝒂 𝒇𝒖𝒍𝒍𝒆𝒓 𝒊𝒏𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒑𝒓𝒆𝒕𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏.

𝒊𝒇 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒂𝒔𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒐𝒊𝒅 𝒊𝒔 𝒊𝒏 𝒓𝒆𝒕𝒓𝒐𝒈𝒓𝒂𝒅𝒆 𝒊𝒏 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒏𝒂𝒕𝒂𝒍 𝒄𝒉𝒂𝒓𝒕, 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒎𝒂𝒚 𝒇𝒆𝒆𝒍 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒏 𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒆 𝒔𝒐 𝒄𝒐𝒏𝒏𝒆𝒄𝒕𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒔𝒐𝒖𝒍'𝒔 𝒑𝒖𝒓𝒑𝒐𝒔𝒆 / 𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒕𝒔. 𝒊𝒕 𝒎𝒂𝒚 𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒘𝒉𝒆𝒍𝒎 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒕𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒑𝒐𝒊𝒏𝒕 𝒘𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒌 𝒂𝒃𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒊𝒕 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒚 𝒅𝒂𝒚. 𝒊𝒕 𝒄𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒂𝒍𝒔𝒐 𝒃𝒆 𝒂 𝒄𝒐𝒓𝒆 𝒑𝒂𝒓𝒕 𝒐𝒇 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒊𝒅𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒊𝒕𝒚 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒗𝒂𝒍𝒖𝒆𝒔.

𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒄𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒊𝒏𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒑𝒓𝒆𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒂𝒔 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒐𝒘𝒏 𝒊𝒏𝒅𝒊𝒗𝒊𝒅𝒖𝒂𝒍 𝒔𝒐𝒖𝒍 𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒕𝒔 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒊𝒕𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒇 𝒐𝒓 𝒊𝒏 𝒂 𝒇𝒖𝒕𝒖𝒓𝒆 𝒔𝒑𝒐𝒖𝒔��.

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𝒊𝒊. 𝑪𝑶𝑫𝑬 / 𝑵𝑼𝑴𝑬𝑹𝑶𝑳𝑶𝑮𝒀

1 and 6

the number 1/11/111 represents new beginnings and power.

the number 6/66/666 is a reminder to sit back and reflect on yourself. it's a warning that one is distracted and needs to refocus their attention on the more important things.

in her story, Psyche was pulled from the happiness of her life with Eros because her sisters told her that she needed to see his face. Psyche was already blessed with a great home and being saved from Aphrodite's original wrath, but outsiders led her to a more difficult route that she never had to go towards.

in one's birth chart, this could represent a place where you could gain power and satisfaction, but people tend to lead you away from it because they believe they know what's better for you. your soul and you know what it wants. others can't forge that path for you.

7

the number 7/77/777 indicates luck and incoming blessings.

when i think of the asteroid psyche being connected to the number 7, i think of the life path number. life path seven is associated with dreamers. there's an innate insight into the more hidden parts of the world. there's also a major focus on the meaning of one's life - what drives them to keep going when there's seemingly no reason to.

𝒊𝒊𝒊. 𝑷𝑺𝒀𝑪𝑯𝑬 𝑻𝑯𝑹𝑶𝑼𝑮𝑯 𝑻𝑯𝑬 𝑺𝑰𝑮𝑵𝑺

𝑨𝑹𝑰𝑬𝑺:

𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘤𝘳𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘢𝘯 𝘪𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘱𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘰𝘳 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘯𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘰𝘯𝘦. 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦'𝘴 𝘯𝘰 𝘦𝘯𝘥 𝘪𝘯 𝘴𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘱𝘴𝘺𝘤𝘩𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘪𝘨𝘯. 𝘴𝘱𝘰𝘯𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘦𝘪𝘵𝘺 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘶𝘳𝘱𝘳𝘪𝘴𝘦𝘴 𝘶𝘳𝘨𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘰 𝘬𝘦𝘦𝘱 𝘨𝘰𝘪𝘯𝘨. 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦'𝘴 𝘢𝘯 𝘶𝘳𝘨𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘴𝘰 𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘭𝘺 𝘱𝘢𝘴𝘴𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘢𝘵𝘦 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘰𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘵 𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘦𝘴 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘴𝘦𝘯𝘴𝘦𝘴. 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘢𝘭𝘴𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘺𝘱𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘢𝘭𝘸𝘢𝘺𝘴 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘯𝘦𝘸 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘦𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘪𝘯 𝘰𝘳𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘺 𝘰𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘵𝘰𝘦𝘴. 𝘪𝘧 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘤𝘦𝘥 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘰 𝘢 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘱𝘳𝘦𝘥𝘪𝘤𝘵𝘢𝘣𝘭𝘦 𝘰𝘳 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘱𝘶𝘴𝘩𝘦𝘥 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘣𝘢𝘤𝘬𝘨𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥, 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘪𝘯𝘦𝘥 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘯𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘱𝘶𝘳𝘱𝘰𝘴𝘦.

𝑻𝑨𝑼𝑹𝑼𝑺:

𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘤𝘳𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘴𝘦𝘤𝘶𝘳𝘦. 𝘵𝘰 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘢𝘴 𝘪𝘧 𝘺𝘰𝘶'𝘳𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥𝘦𝘥 𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘵𝘩. 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦𝘴 𝘰𝘧𝘧 𝘱𝘶𝘱𝘱𝘺 𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘳𝘨𝘺 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘢𝘺. 𝘦𝘢𝘨𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘰 𝘱𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘣𝘦 𝘱𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘦𝘥. 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘳𝘢𝘸 𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘵𝘩, 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘪𝘧 𝘪𝘵 𝘩𝘶𝘳𝘵𝘴, 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘢𝘵 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘪𝘵 𝘥𝘰𝘦𝘴𝘯'𝘵 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘳𝘺 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵-𝘪𝘧𝘴. 𝘪𝘧 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦𝘥 𝘪𝘯 𝘢 𝘴𝘪𝘵𝘶𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘧𝘦𝘭𝘵 𝘶𝘯𝘴𝘢𝘧𝘦 𝘰𝘳 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘢 𝘱𝘪𝘦𝘤𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘴𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘯𝘰 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘦𝘴 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵, 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘣𝘦 𝘴𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘭𝘺 𝘸𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘥. 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘮𝘢𝘺 𝘢𝘭𝘴𝘰 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘯𝘶𝘳𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘰𝘳 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘯𝘶𝘳𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘦 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘴.

𝑮𝑬𝑴𝑰𝑵𝑰:

𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘤𝘳𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘶𝘭𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘥. 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘭𝘸𝘢𝘺𝘴 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘤𝘶𝘳𝘪𝘰𝘶𝘴 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘢 𝘵𝘰𝘱𝘪𝘤 𝘰𝘳 𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘰𝘯 𝘪𝘯 𝘰𝘳𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘰 𝘬𝘦𝘦𝘱 𝘨𝘰𝘪𝘯𝘨. 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸𝘭𝘦𝘥𝘨𝘦 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘪𝘯 𝘱𝘴𝘺𝘤𝘩𝘦. 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘥𝘦𝘣𝘪𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘪𝘯 𝘢𝘯 𝘦𝘯𝘷𝘪𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘰𝘳 𝘦𝘥𝘶𝘤𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘥𝘦𝘦𝘮𝘦𝘥 𝘶𝘯��𝘮𝘱𝘰𝘳𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘰𝘳 𝘣𝘰𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨. 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦'𝘴 𝘢𝘭𝘸𝘢𝘺𝘴 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘯. 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘯𝘦𝘸 𝘵𝘰 𝘪𝘯𝘷𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘨𝘢𝘵𝘦, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘧𝘪𝘳𝘴𝘵 𝘪𝘯 𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘧𝘪𝘨𝘶𝘳𝘦 𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘵 𝘪𝘴.

𝑪𝑨𝑵𝑪𝑬𝑹:

𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘤𝘳𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺 𝘦𝘮𝘰𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘪𝘵 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘴 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘰 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘵𝘢𝘤𝘵 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩. 𝘵𝘰 𝘶𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘸𝘩𝘺 𝘪𝘵 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘵 𝘥𝘰𝘦𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘯𝘶𝘳𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘦 𝘪𝘵𝘴 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴. 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦'𝘴 𝘢𝘭𝘴𝘰 𝘢 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘰𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘶𝘪𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯. 𝘪𝘧 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘥𝘰𝘸𝘯𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘺𝘦𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘰𝘳 𝘥𝘪𝘥𝘯'𝘵 𝘵𝘳𝘺 𝘵𝘰 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘯𝘦𝘤𝘵 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶, 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘪𝘤𝘦 𝘤𝘰𝘭𝘥 - 𝘮𝘢𝘺𝘣𝘦 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘻𝘦𝘯. 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦'𝘴 𝘢 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘴. 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘴𝘶𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶'𝘳𝘦 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘰𝘬𝘢𝘺 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘣𝘦𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘦𝘯 𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘰𝘯 𝘢𝘯 𝘦𝘮𝘰𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘢𝘭 𝘭𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘭.

𝑳𝑬𝑶:

𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘤𝘳𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘤𝘰𝘨𝘯𝘪𝘻𝘦𝘥. 𝘵𝘰 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘧𝘶𝘯 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘦𝘯𝘫𝘰𝘺 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦 𝘢𝘴 𝘢 𝘸𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘦. 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘤𝘳𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘪𝘵𝘴 𝘢𝘶𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘤 𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘪𝘯 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘪𝘵 𝘥𝘰𝘦𝘴. 𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘢𝘭𝘭, 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘤𝘳𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘴 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘪𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘦𝘯𝘫𝘰𝘺𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵. 𝘪𝘧 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘤𝘦𝘥 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘰 𝘢 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘤𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘷𝘪𝘵𝘺 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘦𝘹𝘤𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘣𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘦𝘥, 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘧𝘭𝘦𝘥 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘤𝘳𝘢𝘮𝘮𝘦𝘥 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘰 𝘢 𝘣𝘰𝘹. 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘤𝘳𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘤𝘰𝘨𝘯𝘪𝘻𝘦𝘥 𝘰𝘯 𝘢𝘯 𝘪𝘯𝘥𝘪𝘷𝘪𝘥𝘶𝘢𝘭 𝘭𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘭.

𝑽𝑰𝑹𝑮𝑶:

𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘤𝘳𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘦𝘳𝘷𝘦 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘴. 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘪𝘨𝘯, 𝘱𝘴𝘺𝘤𝘩𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘭𝘦𝘴𝘴. 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦'𝘴 𝘢 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘭𝘺 𝘣𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘰𝘧 𝘴𝘦𝘳𝘷𝘪𝘤𝘦. 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦'𝘴 𝘢𝘭𝘴𝘰 𝘢 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘰𝘧 𝘤𝘭𝘪𝘮𝘣𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘶𝘱 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘳𝘢𝘯𝘬𝘴 𝘪𝘯 𝘰𝘳𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘰 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘤𝘩 𝘢 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘢𝘭 𝘨𝘰𝘢𝘭. 𝘪𝘧 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘤𝘦𝘥 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘰 𝘢 𝘫𝘰𝘣 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘩𝘢𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘳𝘪𝘤𝘬 𝘰𝘳 𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘥 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘰𝘳𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘢 𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘧𝘪𝘵, 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘢 𝘮𝘰𝘯𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘳. 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦'𝘴 𝘢 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘭𝘺 𝘵𝘳𝘺 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦 - 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘴𝘵 𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘰𝘧 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘣𝘦.

𝑳𝑰𝑩𝑹𝑨:

𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘤𝘳𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘢 𝘣𝘢𝘭𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦. 𝘵𝘰 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘧𝘦𝘤𝘵 𝘢𝘮𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘧𝘶𝘯 𝘴𝘰𝘤𝘪𝘢𝘭 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘲𝘶𝘪𝘦𝘵 𝘪𝘯𝘥𝘪𝘷𝘪𝘥𝘶𝘢𝘭 𝘴𝘱𝘢𝘤𝘦. 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦'𝘴 𝘢𝘭𝘴𝘰 𝘢 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘧𝘰𝘳 ����𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘪𝘯 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘧𝘰𝘭𝘭𝘰𝘸 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘢𝘸𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘤𝘦. 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘢𝘴 𝘪𝘧 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘤𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘴𝘯'𝘵 𝘣𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘰𝘳 𝘪𝘧 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘤𝘢𝘭𝘦𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘶𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘣𝘢𝘭𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘦𝘥, 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘮𝘢𝘺 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘴𝘪𝘤𝘬 (𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘱𝘩𝘺𝘴𝘪𝘤𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺). 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦'𝘴 𝘢 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘯𝘦𝘤𝘵 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘴 - 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘩𝘶𝘮𝘢𝘯 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘥𝘪𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘢𝘴 𝘢 𝘸𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘦.

𝑺𝑪𝑶𝑹𝑷𝑰𝑶:

𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘤𝘳𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘶𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘶𝘯𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸𝘯 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘰 𝘢𝘯𝘥 / 𝘰𝘳 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘢𝘤𝘤𝘦𝘱𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘪𝘵𝘴 𝘥𝘪𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘦𝘴. 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦'𝘴 𝘢𝘯 𝘶𝘳𝘨𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘵 𝘰𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘦𝘮𝘣𝘰𝘥𝘪𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘭𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘰𝘳 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵. 𝘪𝘧 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘤𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘧𝘰𝘭𝘭𝘰𝘸 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘳𝘰𝘸𝘥 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘧𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘰 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘮𝘪𝘵𝘺, 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘧𝘶𝘭. 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘪𝘨𝘯 𝘪𝘯 𝘱𝘴𝘺𝘤𝘩𝘦 𝘢𝘭𝘮𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘳𝘦𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘮𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘭𝘪𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘩. 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦'𝘴 𝘢𝘭𝘴𝘰 𝘢 𝘥𝘦𝘴𝘪𝘳𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘱𝘰𝘸𝘦𝘳 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘯𝘴𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘮𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘯 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳'𝘴 𝘱𝘰𝘳𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘺𝘦𝘥 𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘶𝘳𝘧𝘢𝘤𝘦.

𝑺𝑨𝑮𝑰𝑻𝑻𝑨𝑹𝑰𝑼𝑺:

𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘤𝘳𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘧𝘳𝘦𝘦. 𝘧𝘳𝘦𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘦𝘹𝘱𝘭𝘰𝘳𝘦, 𝘧𝘳𝘦𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘮 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘰𝘱𝘪𝘯𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘴 𝘪𝘵 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭𝘴 𝘤𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘧𝘳𝘦𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘪𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦. 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘪𝘴 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘷𝘪𝘭𝘺 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘯𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘥𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮𝘴 𝘱𝘰𝘴𝘴𝘪𝘣𝘭𝘺. 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘮𝘢𝘺 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘧𝘰𝘭𝘭𝘰𝘸 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘥𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘰𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘶'𝘭𝘭 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘭𝘺 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶'𝘳𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘢 𝘮𝘦𝘢𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘭𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘵𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦. 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦'𝘴 𝘢 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘦𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘪𝘵 𝘩𝘢𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘰𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘳. 𝘵𝘰 𝘢𝘯𝘢𝘭𝘺𝘻𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘶𝘯𝘪𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘦 𝘢𝘴 𝘢 𝘸𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘦.

𝑪𝑨𝑷𝑹𝑰𝑪𝑶𝑹𝑵:

𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘤𝘳𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘢𝘤𝘩𝘪𝘦𝘷𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘣𝘦 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘣𝘭𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘪𝘵𝘴 𝘢𝘤𝘩𝘪𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘴. 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘢𝘣𝘭𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘶𝘱𝘱𝘰𝘳𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘴𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘰𝘳𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘰 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘱𝘦𝘢𝘤𝘦. 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘺𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘯 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘥𝘦𝘷𝘰𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦, 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘯, 𝘥𝘦𝘷𝘰𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘰𝘰. 𝘪𝘧 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘤𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘭𝘪𝘦 𝘰𝘳 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦𝘥 𝘪𝘯 𝘢 𝘴𝘪𝘵𝘶𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘭𝘪𝘷𝘦𝘭𝘪𝘩𝘰𝘰𝘥 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘢𝘵 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘦, 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘣𝘢𝘣𝘭𝘺 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘤𝘵 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘢 𝘥𝘦𝘦𝘳 𝘪𝘯 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘭𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵𝘴. 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘢𝘴 𝘪𝘧 𝘺𝘰𝘶'𝘳𝘦 𝘨𝘰𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘪𝘯𝘴𝘵 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘢𝘴 𝘢 𝘩𝘶𝘮𝘢𝘯 𝘣𝘦𝘪𝘯𝘨. 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘤𝘳𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘪𝘵𝘴 𝘢𝘭𝘭.

𝑨𝑸𝑼𝑨𝑹𝑰𝑼𝑺:

𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘤𝘳𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘯𝘦𝘤𝘵 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘴. 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘴𝘰 𝘯𝘦𝘸 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘵 𝘦𝘹𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘩𝘶𝘮𝘢𝘯𝘪𝘵𝘺. 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦'𝘴 𝘢𝘯 𝘶𝘳𝘨𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥 𝘢 𝘣𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘯 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘧𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥 𝘪𝘵. 𝘪𝘧 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘤𝘦𝘥 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘰 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨, 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥𝘯'𝘵 𝘣𝘦 𝘢𝘣𝘭𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘪𝘵. 𝘺𝘰𝘶'𝘥 𝘺𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘣𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘬 𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘳𝘦𝘣𝘦𝘭 𝘢𝘯𝘺 𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥. 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘺𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘯 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘰𝘯𝘦'𝘴 𝘥𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮𝘴 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘺.

𝑷𝑰𝑺𝑪𝑬𝑺:

𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘺𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘯𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘦𝘷𝘪𝘢𝘵𝘦 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘪𝘳 𝘣𝘶𝘳𝘥𝘦𝘯𝘴. 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘪𝘳 𝘱𝘢𝘪𝘯 𝘪𝘯 𝘰𝘳𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘮 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘺. 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦'𝘴 𝘢𝘯 𝘶𝘳𝘨𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘦𝘳𝘨𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘴 𝘪𝘯 𝘰𝘳𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘯 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧. 𝘪𝘧 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘰𝘭𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘴 𝘣𝘦𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘰𝘳 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘵 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘴 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘥𝘪𝘳𝘵, 𝘪𝘵 𝘸𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘤𝘳𝘶𝘴𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭. 𝘪𝘵'𝘴 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦. 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘪𝘯𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘭𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘰𝘱𝘱𝘰𝘴𝘪𝘵𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘱𝘢𝘴𝘴𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘣𝘢𝘣𝘭𝘺 𝘸𝘪𝘴𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦𝘯.

𝒊𝒗. 𝑷𝑺𝒀𝑪𝑯𝑬 𝑻𝑯𝑹𝑶𝑼𝑮𝑯 𝑻𝑯𝑬 𝑯𝑶𝑼𝑺𝑬𝑺

𝒇𝒊𝒓𝒔𝒕:

𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘣𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘯𝘦𝘸 𝘰𝘱𝘱𝘰𝘳𝘵𝘶𝘯𝘪𝘵𝘪𝘦𝘴. 𝘪𝘵 𝘮𝘢𝘺 𝘣𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵𝘦𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘦, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘢𝘤𝘵 𝘢𝘴 𝘢 𝘭𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘴. 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘮𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘴𝘦𝘤𝘶𝘳𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘪𝘥𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘵𝘺 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘥𝘰 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦.

𝒔𝒆𝒄𝒐𝒏𝒅:

𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘣𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘪𝘢𝘭 𝘢𝘯𝘥 / 𝘰𝘳 𝘮𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘢𝘭 𝘴𝘶𝘤𝘤𝘦𝘴𝘴. 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘮𝘢𝘺 𝘯𝘢𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘬 𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘦𝘯𝘫𝘰𝘺 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶'𝘳𝘦 𝘥𝘰𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘰𝘧 𝘷𝘢𝘭𝘶𝘦. 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘮𝘢𝘺 𝘢𝘭𝘴𝘰 𝘥𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘭𝘰𝘱 𝘯𝘦𝘸 𝘴𝘬𝘪𝘭𝘭𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘢𝘪𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘬 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭'𝘴 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘴.

𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒓𝒅:

𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘤𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘴. 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘯𝘦𝘤𝘵 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘪𝘣𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘥𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘭𝘰𝘱 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘭𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘱𝘴 𝘪𝘯 𝘨𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘳𝘢𝘭. 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘤𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥 𝘢𝘴 𝘢 𝘸𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘦.

𝒇𝒐𝒖𝒓𝒕𝒉:

𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘯𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘧𝘦𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘦 𝘴𝘪𝘥𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 /𝘰𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘥𝘪𝘷𝘪𝘯𝘦 𝘧𝘦𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘦. 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘴𝘦𝘤𝘶𝘳𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘯𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘳𝘰𝘰𝘵𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘦𝘮𝘰𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘴.

𝒇𝒊𝒇𝒕𝒉:

𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘮𝘢𝘺 𝘣𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘧𝘶𝘯 𝘦𝘹𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘦𝘴. 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘮𝘢𝘺 𝘣𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘢𝘥𝘷𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘦𝘹𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘳𝘰𝘮𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 - 𝘦𝘪𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘪𝘯 𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘰𝘯𝘢𝘭 𝘳𝘦𝘭𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘱𝘴 𝘰𝘳 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘨𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘳𝘢𝘭. 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘮𝘢𝘺 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘯𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘤𝘩𝘪𝘭𝘥𝘳𝘦𝘯.

𝒔𝒊𝒙𝒕𝒉:

𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘮𝘢𝘺 𝘣𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘨𝘰𝘰𝘥 𝘭𝘶𝘤𝘬 𝘪𝘯 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘵𝘩. 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘮𝘢𝘺 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘰𝘳 𝘦𝘢𝘵 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘦𝘳. 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘮𝘢𝘺 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘳𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘬 𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦. 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘮𝘢𝘺 𝘥𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘭𝘰𝘱 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘱𝘰𝘴𝘪𝘵𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘣𝘪𝘵𝘴 𝘢𝘴 𝘢 𝘸𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘦 (𝘮𝘢𝘺𝘣𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶'𝘭𝘭 𝘴𝘭𝘦𝘦𝘱 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘰𝘳 𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘵𝘪𝘤𝘪𝘱𝘢𝘵𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘴𝘦𝘭����-𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦). 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘮𝘢𝘺 𝘢𝘭𝘴𝘰 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰𝘸𝘢𝘳𝘥𝘴 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘴.

𝒔𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒉:

𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘮𝘢𝘺 𝘣𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘱𝘰𝘴𝘪𝘵𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘵𝘩𝘺 𝘳𝘦𝘭𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘱𝘴. 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘳𝘰𝘮𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘤𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘪𝘯𝘷𝘰𝘭𝘷𝘦𝘥 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘰𝘳 𝘳𝘦𝘤𝘦𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘢 𝘣𝘶𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘵𝘯𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘱 𝘰𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘳. 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘳𝘦𝘭𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘱𝘴 𝘢𝘴 𝘢 𝘸𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘳.

𝒆𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕𝒉:

𝘪𝘯 𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭, 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘮𝘢𝘺 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘴𝘩𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘥𝘦𝘥 𝘪𝘯 𝘮𝘺𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘺, 𝘰𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘴𝘩𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘥𝘦𝘥 𝘪𝘯 𝘮𝘺𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘺 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘣𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶. 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘦𝘹𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘨𝘳𝘰𝘸𝘵𝘩 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘯𝘴𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘮𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘰𝘸𝘴 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘴𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘴𝘧𝘪𝘦𝘥 𝘪𝘯 𝘪𝘵𝘴 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘬. 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘮𝘢𝘺 𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘦 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘯𝘰 𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘳 𝘴𝘦𝘳𝘷𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶.

𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒕𝒉:

𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘴𝘥𝘰𝘮. 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘮𝘢𝘺 𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘭 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘦𝘹𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘪𝘯𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘢𝘥 𝘰𝘧 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘴𝘪𝘮𝘱𝘭𝘺 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘪𝘵 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘴. 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘮𝘢𝘺 𝘦𝘹𝘱𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘷𝘪𝘦𝘸𝘴 𝘰𝘯 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘰𝘯 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦.

𝒕𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒉:

𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘣𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘢 𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘳𝘦𝘱𝘶𝘵𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯. 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘮𝘢𝘺 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘯𝘦𝘤𝘵 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘦𝘯 𝘢𝘯𝘥 / 𝘰𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘥𝘪𝘷𝘪𝘯𝘦 𝘮𝘢𝘴𝘤𝘶𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘦. 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘳𝘦𝘤𝘦𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘤𝘰𝘨𝘯𝘪𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘣𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘩 𝘢 𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘧𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘧𝘶��𝘶𝘳𝘦.

𝒆𝒍𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒉:

𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘮𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘴. 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘮𝘢𝘺 𝘥𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘭𝘰𝘱 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘮𝘦𝘢𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘧𝘶𝘭 𝘧𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘱𝘴. 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘥𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮𝘴, 𝘸𝘪𝘴𝘩𝘦𝘴, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘮𝘢𝘯𝘪𝘧𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘴 𝘮𝘢𝘺 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘧𝘳𝘶𝘪𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯. 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘧𝘶𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘦 𝘭𝘪𝘦𝘴 𝘪𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘰𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘧𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘪𝘯 𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘱 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭'𝘴 𝘶𝘳𝘨𝘦𝘴.

𝒕𝒘𝒆𝒍𝒇𝒕𝒉:

𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘣𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴. 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘯𝘰 𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘳 𝘣𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘫𝘰𝘺 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘷𝘦, 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘱𝘢𝘪𝘯 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘴. 𝘬𝘢𝘳𝘮𝘪𝘤 𝘤𝘺𝘤𝘭𝘦𝘴 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘦𝘯𝘥 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘭. 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘳𝘦𝘤𝘦𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘤𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘶𝘳𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵'𝘴 𝘣𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶.

[rayofsunas]

s/o who dies.

A/n: listennnn, I wasn't going to write something dark, but then I unregretfully decided to listen to edgy/dark audios and I was suddenly in the mood to write this so yeah lmao. also, guess what? I'm planning on making a discord server right after posting this! so, be on the lookout for that when I get it all sorted out. also, note for Scaramouche's that the reader inserts tend to lean more femininely versed (I hope that's okay), the only reasons why I do that is because one I simp and I'm female AND two since I am doing a mini-series for Scara, I've kind of based his imagines/fics around that universe (baby daddy universe). I haven't started his yet, but consider these part of that series' universe. anyways as always thank you for requesting anon and enjoy! <333

Summary: you die + how the boys cope afterward.

Parings: Albedo/Gn! Reader, Xiao/Gn! Reader, Scaramouche/Fem! Reader

Warnings: swearing, angst, death, poison, illness/cancer, murder, arson, obsessive behavior

Word count: 2.1k

Albedo

"You need to keep this on your head." Your lover said for the one-hundredth time, placing the cold cloth on your forehead once again after taking it off only seconds earlier.

"This is pointless," You said, no longer wanting to ignore nor hide behind the invisible thick curtains of the obvious death sentence approaching. "My body rejected the medicine the first twice doses, what's a third time going to do?" You asked, knowing Albedo wouldn't answer; your hope was to knock some sense into his thick skull. but he was too worried trying to ignore the obvious as you had previously been doing, not anymore though.

This was saddening to watch, both Albedo's unfolding and the girl who accidentally poisoned you, whimpering into Sucrose's shoulder. She was only a young girl, barely seventeen when she was chosen to work under Sucrose and your boyfriend. She was very good at Alchemy and luckily had a desire to practice the craft. But unfortunately, she hadn't paid much attention when it came to Surcrose's educational poison lesson and had unknowingly mixed up poisonous liquids and materials.

After tipping over some clutter in Albedo's office and knocking over a test tube laying unsealed on the counter, you had realized the contents spilled on your skin, bleaching into your pores. You had been tasked with bringing the famed alchemist and his assistant some vials and materials for the collection of a rare butterfly they had found. It was both telling and obvious that something was wrong when you never showed up with the required materials requested and it was already too late hours later when the chief Alchemist, his assistant, and Alchemist in training came bounding down the stairs of Albedo's home laboratory.

It didn't take long for the trio to realize something was wrong. Sucrose had found the vile on the floor, most of its contents spilled and in a little puddle, plus your state on a nearby lounge chair was obvious; slumped awkwardly, forehead visibly sweating, eyes closed, breathing raspily.

You accepted the first doses of the supposed nullifying medicine without hesitation, just wanting the numbing feeling to go away. But when it never kicked in you decided it would be best to save the medicine, because it wasn't working. Your time was coming.

"Since the medicine is taking immediate effect, you should try to get the contents out of your system," He said, reaching out for you. Badly you wanted to argue that the medicine wasn't working at all, but he wasn't listening and already has his lean arms wrapped around your middle, helping gently lift and guide you over to the sink.

You hear materials being shoved to the side and soon enough you had your head dangling over the sink, shaking hands gripping the metalled edge tightly. Soon enough, Albedo's hand was on your back rubbing up and down, hoping to comfort you, it wasn't working though. You could only think about your death, what the other side would look like. Could there even be heaven or hell, maybe a place in between, maybe nowhere...?

As soon as you felt the urge to vomit, you did, and despite it being utterly disgusting Albedo seemed to welcome it happily. He took this as something good, but it only worried you when you saw the reddish hues in the bile.

"I think they should leave." You muttered acknowledging Sucrose and Elizabeth, the taste of gooey, metal only becoming more apparent. The blonde agreed, nodding and muttering "Okay."

As Sucrose lead Elizabeth towards the stairs, the pair heard you say. "Goodbye Sucrose, Elizabeth." Which only seemed to make the young girl wail louder.

You sighed sadly once the silence was back. Just your thoughts of death, and Albedo's slowly crushing heart.

"You should probably leave soon as well. I don't want you to be here when I go." Albedo frowned at your statement, head shaking.

"Don't say things like that."

Of course, he'd say that. Why did he feel the need to ignore this when it would only come back to hurt him even more later on when you were gone?

"You're the smartest man I know and we both know where this is heading," You said, head feeling much heavier than before. It was getting closer to your time. "I'm going to die, and you can't do anything about it."

"I'm not leaving your side. We promised to stick together through everything, you can't ask me to leave."

"I guess... But promise me this."

"When I go, stop blaming Elizabeth. It was an accident..." You said sincerely. Albedo wanted to make a fuss about it, tell you he'd never been able to forgive her. But for you, he would try. If it was your list desire, your last wish, he'd make it come true. Though it would be difficult. Accidental or not, she was the reason you were leaving him here, alone.

"Okay, I'll try..." He said honestly.

"Thank you," You said, letting out a shaking breath you had been holding for a very long time. Now you felt much more peaceful. "And since I know you stubbornly won't leave," You started, finally turning away from the sink to look into his cerulean eyes. "At least hold my hand."

"Of course, love."

even a year after your death, no matter how hard he tried, there was still this nagging feeling every time he looked at Elizabeth

he wanted too badly forgive her, but he couldn't

she had, although accidental, taken the one person that meant so much to him and he'd never forgive

Albedo is gonna be distant towards everyone he knows and it's completely purposeful

he doesn't like the pitiful gazes that people send his way and he hates that all the captains stared at him at your funeral

obviously, some questioned if he was able to stay in the field

he hadn't taken any time off, even when Jean advised he was welcome and that it would be best

tbh, albedo's going to have a hard time for a while

Xiao

Why did it have to be you? Why not him? He'd feel much better knowing you could live another day, after all, he'd been living a very long time.

But no, the fallen Archons, Gods, Yaksha had chosen you to join them. He wished that weren't the case

Humans and their pathetic vessels... So weak, he thought. Allowing something like cancer to beat them.

No matter how harsh it sounded, he didn't despise you, no. It wasn't your fault. You didn't ask for this. He just knew that if you were a godly being this wouldn't have happened like this or at least not so soon; Xiao had known Gods that had terminal illnesses to live years. Why couldn't you be like them?

He hated watching you lie there in that bed, immobile, sickly, and tired, and all you could say was that everything was going to be alright, that he'd be alright.

But it wasn't. He wouldn't be okay without you. He would struggle daily, fall deeper into a hole. You were the light of his life, the only light in his life. And you were gone, just like that. Turning external scars into internal ones tattered all over his dying heart.

Xiao for the longest time has been by himself, so the people of Liyue know it'll be harder for him to overcome this, no matter what he says or does to prove otherwise

Zhongli in particular knows how hard this will be for his friend

his first and probably last love, dead, gone in the blink of an eye

he'll continue fighting all the monsters he crosses, becoming even more violent when he does so, trying his best to get rid of this stupid sickly feeling of heartbreak

but it won't go away, no matter what he does, no matter how absurd

he just wants the feeling to go away, he despises that feeling so much

if you have a secret place somewhere, like in the mountains, Zhongli often finds him there, wallowing in invisible self-pity

"You know they wouldn't want you to be like this." Zhongli would say, only trying to help

but it doesn't

it only enrages Xiao, even more, fuels him to push everyone out of his life again instead of letting them in like he'd done in your presence

Scaramouche

How dare you. How dare you leave him like this. Alone, nonetheless with a toddler to raise who kept crying for her mommy. He couldn't do this without you, he didn't know how to raise a child, speak to her with the gentle care that you did. That was your expertise but now he'd be doing it solo.

And never again would he entrust someone who he cares about, into ignorant, incompetent arms. Never again will he ever allow any member of the Fatui to watch after his daughter; no matter their rank or position. They had one job while he was away doing business in Liyue. Guard your home twenty-four seven, accompany you into Inazuma's port town should you need anything, watch after his daughter while she plays happily in the luscious Inazuma fields. And they couldn't do that. All he gave them was one simple task, watch and keep you and your daughter safe. Instead, they slacked off, probably drunk in some bar while you were being brutally attacked by murderous mercenaries, left to fend for you and your daughter, only to die protecting her and leave your home to be severely burned.

He knew those idiotic Fatui soldiers were incompetent the moment he stepped foot into the harbor and found that everyone seemed to quiet down. Especially the eerily silent soldiers flanked on each side to welcome him home; he was the highest-ranking soldier in the land of Inazuma after all. Not a single one bothered to step forward and tell him what was wrong, what they all criminally allowed happen. Scaramouche only realized what had happened when he was mere minutes away from arriving home, his daughter had come running from his widowed mother's arms, the sight of smoke rising in the air, from the direction of his home. You were nowhere to be seen.

It all happened so fast, in the blink of an eye. His daughter was clinging to his shirt and his mother only stared with tears of pity.

It didn't take long for the puzzle pieces to be put together and before he knew it, Scaramouche was standing in front of his home, part of it burnt to a crisp and black.

He didn't need to ask what happened, he didn't need to know where you were, because he already knew. What he didn't know was who exactly had done this. But he was going to find out, now.

Incompetent, selfish, bastards. They would all pay for this. The lazy piggish Fatui soldiers who he should've never trusted with such a simple task and the thieves who had murdered you. They all had it rightfully coming.

Scaramouche hates the world after he lost you

he hates it so much and can't understand how this had happened

he's not a good person, so he blames it on karma and those stupid idiots who couldn't protect you

ngl, he's not gonna be around much after your death... his mother would argue that he should be here to raise your daughter, because she's also in pain and doesn't understand that this isn't some game of hide and seek this time

instead, he's focused and driven by revenge

he doesn't listen to a word anybody says, he's much more dangerous than before, and he only trusts his judgment

anyone trying to get him to stop his mission, is someone who doesn't want to see him happy he thinks (though that's not true at all. they hate that he is obsessive over this) but he will personally put a stop to that

and he'll only return home to his daughter and mother when he finds who did this and they along with their bloodline is exterminated

while he's gone, the remainder of his family is relocated somewhere he knows they'll be safe, for example, even though he despises childe, he knows his mom and daughter will be safe with his family

sorry, but Scaramouche will hold this deep-rooted hatred and love for you after you die

yes, he still loves and misses you dearly, but he hates you for leaving him alone, hates that although it wasn't intentional and out of your control, that you were gone

no matter how hard you tried to fight, it was selfish of you to leave him like this

he's not going to stop until he believes whoever was behind this is dead

and in his case, he'll stop believing when he chooses, even if they are innocent/guilty, he'll keep going

3.19.21, rayofsunas

[darkened-heart]

I think I needed my psychotic break

While it at first made me a purely mean, hateful, narcissistic, vile human being that was super toxic. It needed to happen.

Let me explain. It’s really come to my attention through a lot and I mean a fuck ton of reflection, but I was (and possibly still could be) a very selfish and manipulative person. Yes, before psychosis.

Let me give y’all examples. My ex fiancee dumps me for the first time after she had found out I cheated. Firstly, I had honestly ZERO fucking right to be upset about her leaving me. If I didn’t want her to leave, I shouldn’t have cheated. My heartbreak there was bullshit. 

She comes back anyways less than a week later (would not be surprised if I used my emotions to manipulate her. Y’know “Oh boo hoo you hurt me and I miss you :(”) but there were others reasons as to why she came back (the guy she ran off with was physically abusive at the time, and also toxic in other ways).

I was selfish in not wanting to do housework because “I work a lot” motherfucker so didn’t she when she had a job. Yet she came home and cleaned everything, dishes, laundry, folded clothes, I barely took the trash out. She did it all. And I did appreciate her for doing all that, but I should have gotten off my fucking ass and done more.

Now when she left the second time. That was honestly all my fault. She expressed her discomfort in me watching this persons NSFW twitter, and looking at their onlyfans. I snuck it. Got caught. And she had a right to feel disrespected, and she had a right to be mad, and she had a right to leave me. 

And what did I do? Got depressed, thought of killing myself (I didn’t tell her this), I did, however, one night at work get so overwhelmed emotionally and had a mental breakdown over her leaving me, and work being shit, and I burnt myself to jolt myself out of my mental breakdown. I forget how it was brought up, but eventually I showed her that burn. That right there was manipulative, too.

Now don’t get me wrong, she wasn’t all innocent either. Firstly, if she was truly done with me, she shouldn’t have consensually had sex with me (more than once) whilst talking/fucking/sleeping in bed/whatever with her new man who lived with us. She shouldn’t have shook her ass at me giving me those dirty looks. She did it while he was at work. She knew what she was doing. And two wrongs do not make a right. She also should not have been trying to control who I vented to when I was feeling super fucking low. I had a right to go to my friends to get help with my emotions, and to vent off the steam. Cause honestly, I really don’t wanna know what would have happened if I kept them bottled up. Probably something stupid and regrettable. 

She also should not have been snooping through my messages on facebook to see who I was talking to and what I was talking about. That is an invasion of my privacy, and I never once got on her phone to look through her shit. I didn’t need to, nor did I want to. If I don’t want you going through my shit, then I’m not gonna go through yours. Hell I didn’t even wanna be on her phone when she’d hand it to me for even simple shit. I felt wrong and gross even being on it, made me feel hypocritical in a way when it wasn’t even anything like that.

And also...I was very manipulative with my emotions months later. “Life’s been harder without you” “I’ve been depressed since you left” well, darkened-heart, maybe you should have respected the person you claimed to love and you wouldn’t be here. 

Now...as for October and onward. Well..I think what ruined my chances of her coming back to me was when I said “I loved” this girl I tried moving on from my ex fiancee with. When I told my ex that she was fucking pissed. Mind you, I left that girl in hopes my ex would come back. 

Here’s how the convo went. 

“Did you love her”

“I did but not as much as you”

*this is where she visibly got angry, and even got a tone with me*

Randy, you didn’t fucking love her. You used a girl in an attempt to move on from your ex fiancee. You didn’t love her. You loved how she filled the voids in your heart. You loved that you were no longer alone. You loved that you could come home to somebody again. You loved that someone loved you. You didn’t love her, you loved the voids she filled. And that folks is why I’m still fucking single. Cause I’m not using another fucking soul. I have to fill the voids myself without using somebody. Yet the shitkicker is. The voids are still there. I still want my ex, I still pray for my ex to come back into my life. I see any fucking angel number whether it be 1111, 111, 222, 333, 444, 4444, etc and fucking wish for her to come back. Well news fucking flash Randy. She’s not gonna come back. Why would she come back to a selfish, lazy, disrespectful, at times fucking crazy, at times flat out vile human being. Why would she come back to a guy who’s anger issues makes him tell people they’re worthless, or some derogatory slur. Why would she come back to a guy that’s told people to off themselves because they pissed him off? Why would she come back to a sore fucking loser? Why would she come back to a fucking manipulator? 

She deserves better than that, and knowing at one point her man was being shitty towards her pisses me off. She deserves better than fucking him, too. She deserves better than what she’s gotten from me, and she deserves better than some of the fucking shit he’s done to her. And while I love and miss that beautiful girl so goddamn much. I hope she finds better. She deserves the goddamn world, but I’m not the man to give it to her. I want to be, I’d do anything to be, but that requires knocking myself off some bullshit pedestal I placed myself on. That requires digging into my foundation and demolishing it and building it back up better. If the roots are shit, then the product is going to be shit. 

I needed psychosis. I needed it to finally try and get over my goddamn victim complex. I needed it to realize I can’t have everything my way. I needed it to realize that I can’t get what I want all the time. I needed it to realize my poor, toxic, shitty, narcissistic behavior. And people tried calling me on it, and like the sensitive little bitch I am, I’d get upset, or I’d get angry.

“You’re being arrogant”

“You’re gonna go far, kid” with a thousand lies and a “good” disguise.