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you've been diagnosed with an STD, it can easily feel like you are all alone. Whether you've recently contracted an infection, or you've had one for a long time, the stigma and shame associated with having an STD can be incredibly isolating. It's not unusual to feel like no one else in the world understands what you're going through. However, the statistics tell us that is simply not the case.

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Where do you get all of your information from? I’m so grateful to you for spreading awareness and positivity, but sometimes the things you say seem too good to be true and I’m just curious as to what your sources are. Also, I’m going to see my doctor soon and I would like to be able to say something a little more substantial than “someone (who is really great btw) on the internet told me _____” Y’know?

If you check out my stats n facts page (if you’re using the app search my blog for #stats; if you;re using the computer click the little computer icon from the menu button on my page) that is where I get a lot of my information from. 

But to sum up, mainly the CDC, WHO, projectaccept, the American Sexual Health Association (ASHA), Westover Heights Herpes Handbook, and herpeslife

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A little about me

I was diagnosed with hsv-2 over a year ago. I was devastated. I was 21 with my whole life ahead of me, I had just met the perfect man we were together about 6 months at the time. I felt like my life was ruined. I had been a carrier for at least a year. Turns out that my birth control pills had been suppressing the outbreaks and I only found put after switching to the mirena. I was so scared that my boyfriend would think the worst. He would assume I cheated or assume I knew the whole time and hid it from him. I was scared he would leave or be mad. I remember telling him and crying when he just wrapped his arms around me. I was bawling I was telling him that he probably had herpes and HE was trying to support ME. I remember asking him why he wasnt mad at me and he said because I love you and I know that you didn't do this on purpose. I WAS LUCKY. Thankfully so was he. When he got tested a week later his results came back negative. I briefly considered leaving him so that I didn't infect him but decided to stay because he was so understanding and supportive.

The next step was contacting my ex to make sure he was aware and hopefully keep him from spreading it to any other people without their knowledge. He told me I was lying. He still doesnt believe me and refuses to get tested. That was the hardest part. Telling someone that I have hsv and having them call me a liar.

The doctor gave me my first dose of antivirals and told me that "hopefully" I wouldnt have another breakout for a while. Well I did. I have had a breakout every single month since then. I knew that all I had to do was go back and they would give me medication that would prevent the breakouts. I was just so ashamed, so embarrassed, that I couldn't even force myself to talk to my doctor about it. I still cant talk about it out loud without crying a little. I lived with monthly breakouts for over a year because I was too afraid of being judged to do anything about it. I just suffered in silence.

Slowly it started getting a little easier. I stopped thinking about it as much I suppose, but I still got monthly reminders. Very painful, miserable monthly reminders that made me hate myself.

This week I finally had the courage to go back to the doctor to be put on suppressive therapy. I was in the waiting room and they finally called my name to come to the back but when I looked up my heart stopped. The nurse that I had to talk to was someone I knew personally, someone that knew my whole family. I wanted to run and hide, but I didn't. He asked me why I came in and I thought about lying, but I couldn't. I started crying and he tried to assure me that there's nothing he hadn't heard before. That didn't help. I just kept telling him that it was hard because I knew him, but I finally managed to tell him why I was there.

This week has been the biggest setback since the initial diagnosis. This week I feel miserable. Afraid and ashamed for the first time in a while. I know that I have done nothing wrong. I know that this disease doesnt make me a whore or a bad person or worth any less than I was before. But this week its hitting me really hard. The worse part is I have no one to talk to about it. No one that will actually understand. No one who is actually going through what I'm going through. Just people that listen and say they're sorry for what I'm going through while I know in their head they're really thinking thank God it's my and not them.

#herpes #herpeslife #hsvpositive #hsv-2 #mylifewithherpes #iamnotworthless #stopthestigma #livingwithhsv

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It never fails to put a damper on my day when I go to wipe and have a sensation of pain....like oh wtf is that...oh yea....I forgot I'm one of the lucky ones to be a glitter girl. Ugh this sucks...I need to find my tea tree oil.

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n you've been diagnosed with an STD, it can easily feel like you are all alone. Whether you've recently contracted an infection, or you've had one for a long time, the stigma and shame associated with having an STD can be incredibly isolating. It's not unusual to feel like no one else in the world understands what you're going through. However, the statistics tell us that is simply not the case.

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