#here's to hoping i can actually achieve that

[contract-crawdad]

Look Outside Character Recruit Concepts: Part 3

Back for another round!

Phillippe — The Traitor Friend to the End

It’s everybody’s best friend, Phillippe!! Despite his low health, low speed, and an attack stat so sad that it makes Sophie’s look good, his skills allow him to pull his weight in combat anyway! Still, it's advisable to keep an eye on him while performing any of them, just to make sure that there any totally unintentional downsides.

Recruited by following the route to the ‘He’s Real God Damn it’ achievement and obtaining Philippe’s remains (an item that does actually exist in the game, for those unaware).

You must also purchase a humidifier (not real) from Mutt’s Fish n’ Chips, which will be set up back at your apartment similar to the coffee maker. The humidifier itself provides no benefit, but if you have Phillips’s remains you will get the idea to place them inside your kitchen's trash can in the hopes that the combination of humidity and the nutrient-rich environment might be enough to revive him.

After a night passes, Phillippe will be growing out of the garbage the next morning.

“I hate you. I hate you so much.”

> Only a true friend would be so honest… sniffle…

“You’re fucking with me. Are you really this gullible? So… what, we’re supposed to be friends now? I’m supposed to say ‘Gee willikers, you saved me with the power of friendship, I’ll help you kill guys now’? Is that it?? Is that how you think this is going to go?!?”

> Pretty much, yeah.

“No, but— you— I’m…! Fine. You win, you deluded little cretin. I’m your best buddy Phillippe and you saved me from the eeevil mushroom queen… or some shit like that. At any rate, since you killed my progenitor/life support system, I can’t survive for long without your humidifier. So it looks like I’m stuck here anyways.”

Phillippe possesses many powerful skills, but each has a tendency to ‘accidentally’ harm the party in various ways. As long as he is in your party, every character gains the ‘Watch Phillippe’ skill.

Passive Quirks

All teammates have the 'Watch Phillippe' skill in battle.

Physical attack stat does not increase upon leveling up.

Can eat rotten leftovers and mushrooms with no downsides.

Early Skills

Watch Phillippe

Not actually one of Phillippe's skills, but as long as he is in the party, every other character has access to this skill.

Don’t you trust him?? Use your turn keeping a close eye on Phillippe to make sure he doesn’t try anything funny. Removes the downsides to the next skill Philippe uses this turn. Cannot be used by a character that is blinded. Has no STM cost.

Fungal Affront

Phillippe makes a perfectly crafted and deeply hurtful remark about the opponent. Chance to inflict between 0 - 2 of the following statuses: blinded, stunned, and/or any mental status except for fear or charmed. Moderate STM cost.

If nobody is keeping an eye on Phillippe, he will also throw in a crude remark about a random teammate which randomly inflicts them with statuses as well.

Leech

Phillippe saps life from an opponent using his root-like mycelium. Deals moderate piercing damage and restores HP to Phillippe equal to half the total damage dealt. Low STM cost.

If nobody is keeping an eye one Phillippe, he will ‘accidentally’ brush against an ally, using a weaker version of this attack on them.

Late Skills

Spore Rapport

Phillippe scatters spores, giving all enemies the ‘toxic’ status effect (similar to poison but ramps up in damage each turn until it is cured). Moderate STM cost.

If nobody is keeping an eye of Phillippe, he will ‘unintentionally’ get some spores on the rest of the party, but only enough to inflict them with regular poison.

'Friend?! Help!'

What an adowable widdle guy! Phillippe brings out his cutesy moth schtick to trio the enemy, convinces them to fight for your side. Charms them for one turn (or until they take damage) if successful. Heavy STM cost.

If nobody is keeping an eye on Phillippe, he will actively conspire with the enemy, marking every member of his team except for himself. This is problematic if there are multiple foes, and something to deal with when the charm wears off.

Apartment Interactions

> How are you feeling?

“Better than that time you killed me. Remember that? Hey, if you really care about my feelings, do me a solid and answer a question… is that vision of beauty in your bedroom single?”

> Xaria?

> Monty?

> …Juicebox?

“What? No. Ew. I’m talking about that potted temptress you have squirreled away back there. Can you ask them if they’d be open to a mycorrhizic relationship? Mind you, I don’t usually go for that sort of thing, but with chloroplasts like those I’ll gladly make an exception.~”

> What did you do before all this?

“Mostly a lot of trickery, deceit, gaslighting… say, do you think that sort of thing would look good on a resume? Do employers look for those traits in a candidate? Because I guess I’ll have to get a job in the near future.”

> What do you think will happen?

“I’ll tell you what’s going to happen, the first group of mutated freaks to get properly organized and expand fast enough will inherent the whole damned world. That’s what the gang and I were trying to do, anyways.”

> Did you look outside?

“I’m a fungus, genius. I don’t really ‘do’ sunlight.”

> Glad you're safe, even if we couldn't get you back to normal.

“I keep telling you. I was never a moth. Never! That was a just ploy to get you to feed yourself to my mother organism.”

If Joel is recruited: “It’s okay that you’re not a moth anymore Mr. Philip!! Lots of us… hhh… look different now!”

“Sigh… I miss being dead.”

Harriet — The Worrywart

A bit of an all-rounder, with average stats across the board aside from notably high defense and awful luck. Her training as a nurse comes in handy when using healing items in battle, even if she won’t equip any shoe items for some strange reason…

Recruited by reuniting her with her daughter and then taking her up on their offer of a visit. Upon entering their home on F2, it seems some kind of monster put a bunch of huge holes in their walls while Harriet and Sophie were both out looking for one another (heavily implied to have been Jeanne’s rampaging heads looking for food).

Harriet will insist that she and Sophie could probably figure something out, but will be tremendously appreciative if you offer her and Sophie a place to stay. Recruiting her will also re-recruit Sophie, but from this point onwards you cannot have Sophie in your party unless you also have Harriet. Harriet is able to join the party without Sophie, however.

Harriet, while in your apartment, will chime in when you’re attempting to craft something for the first time. Basically meaning no crafting outcome is ever uncertain!

Harriet functions a lot like Sam, Papineau, and Ernest in that she has very few equipment restrictions! The only thing she will not equip are shoes, for no immediately obvious reason that surely isn’t cause for concern.

Passive Quirks

Can't wear shoes.

While recruited, all crafting attempts have known outcomes.

Won’t let Sophie go on expeditions without her.

Doesn’t react well to Sophie being knocked out…

Early Skills

Read the Label

Requires 1 medication. Applies the effect of medication to the entire party. Makes one bottle of medication go further by actually knowing how much of it you’re supposed to take. Low STM cost.

Frugal Application

Requires 1 balm. Applies the effect of balm to the entire party. With a daughter like Sophie, she knows how to use this stuff optimally. Medium STM cost.

Kick em Where it Hurts

Harriet delivers a suspiciously powerful kick to a sensitive area on the opponent, dealing crushing damage that pierces defense as well as slightly lowering all the target’s resistances. Low STM cost.

Late Skills

Divvy it Up

Requires 1 tonic. Applies the effect of a tonic to the entire party, but at only 25% of the usual effectiveness. Who would have thought that a set of measuring spoons would be so useful in the heat of battle? High STM cost.

Proper Dosage

Requires 1 stimulant. Applies the effect of a stimulant to the entire party, but at only 25% of the usual effectiveness. It’s definitely not healthy for one person to take the whole thing anyways. High STM cost.

Secret Ability

If Sophie and Harriet are on the same team and Sophie is knocked out in battle, Harriet enters a secret form. Hiking up her dress, she reveals that she is in fact cursed: possessing far far too many legs.

Harriet is on the warpath!

Each turn, she will randomly choose between:

Kicking with many legs, dealing crushing damage 3-9 times to randomly chosen opponents, and 1-5 times to randomly chosen allies. Each hit deals a moderate amount of damage.

Scratching with dozens of claws, dealing slashing damage 3-9 times to randomly chosen opponents, and 1-5 times to randomly chosen allies. Each hit deals very little damage but has a high chance to inflict a layer of bleed.

Tearing through flesh with reckless abandon, which deals heavy piercing damage to a single random enemy and causes all allies to panic. Deals extra damage to bleeding targets.

Harriet only calms down and hides her legs again once combat is over.

Apartment Interactions

> How are you feeling?

“Just fine, thank you. It’s been a rough couple of days, but you’ve been a great help.”

> What did you do before all this?

“Most of my time was spent working as a nurse and trying to find babysitters that hadn’t blocked my number yet… sigh… say, you don’t babysit by any chance, do you? I kid, I kid!”

> What do you think will happen?

“Honestly? No clue. I just hope there is a world, when all this is said and done.”

> Did you look outside?

(If Harriet has not gone berserk in battle):

“What? Of course not! You’ve seen what looking outside does to people, I’m… I’m not like that!”

(If Harriet has gone berserk in battle):

“…R-Right. You saw those. Look, I… I understand if you need me to leave, but please don’t tell Sophie. She can’t know. It’s under control. It’s fine.”

> Can I ask your advice on making something?

“Oh, sure, what do you need to know?” (Opens up a list of craftable items and selecting one reveals its recipe)

Plant — the Wild Card

Your potted pal has really grown over the past few days! The ultimate offensive jack of all trades, able to deal many different types of damage if properly equipped. Doesn’t have the best defensive qualities, however.

Recruited by having met the following conditions:

Have a good relationship with Plant! Relationship is improved each day in a row that you talk to the plant, and increased further if you’re keeping up an ideal watering schedule..

Move Plant into the light when prompted and never moving them back.

The earliest you can recruit them is by day 6, but it could be longer if you’re not consistently meeting the talking/watering conditions. After Plant is happy enough, one morning…

…Your plant is pacing the room on thin, tendril-like roots. Their leaves sway towards the door, wordlessly conveying a longing to see the world outside your apartment in all its glories and in all its horrors.

They extend a tendril towards you.

A kinship between man and plant has been formed.

Plant cannot equip accessories or clothing with the exception of hats. On the plus side, using their many tendrils they have access to four weapon slots instead of the usual two! None of these slots are designated for specifically for melee or ranged weapons either: this means you could equip four different melee weapon, or four different ranged weapons. Two handed weapons still take up two slots.

This does not mean that Plant can attack four times! What this does mean is that they can perform a basic attack with any one of the equipped weapons, and they have access to all of the skills of each equipped weapon (which each still deal their respective damage type). Has no restrictions on the type of weapon they can equip.

Instead of guarding, Plant has the option to Act Natural, allowing them to pretend to be an ordinary houseplant and fade into the scenery. Doesn’t work if Potted Plant is marked, the only party member left standing, or against attacks that hit the entire party.

Passive Quirks

Weak to fire and ice

Resists acid.

Hides instead of guarding.

Cannot equip clothing except for hats.

Has access to four weapon slots.

Early skill

Photosynthesize

Potted Plant embraces the life-giving light of the visitor. Heals a variable amount based on the time of day and your location in the building. Fails at night or in the basement, most effective at noon, and provides a full heal and cures negative statuses if used on the roof. Can only be used once every six hours (effectively meaning you can only use it once per battle at most).

Late Skill

Fan the Hammer

Perform a basic attack with each of Plant’s equipped melee weapons and fire a normal shot of each equipped ranged weapon (provided you have the necessary ammunition). Targets chosen randomly. Increased chance to damage each weapon used. Moderate STM cost.

Apartment Interactions

> How are you feeling?

Five of their leaves form an impressive approximation of a thumbs up.

> What was life like for you before you got all… mobile?

A unfamiliar flowery smell fills the area. You suppose they’re trying to communicate through chemical signals but have no idea what they’re trying to say.

> What do you think will happen?

Somehow, their leaves produce a high pitched tittering noise. You’re… not quite sure how to interpret that.

> Did you look outside?

They use a leaf to make the ‘fifty-fifty’ gesture.

> Do you still want me to water you? Or would that be weird now?

The plant pats your shoulder comfortingly with a tendril. Seems you’re relieved of watering duty. You feel strangely sad.

[erosia-rhodes]

Thoughts on the Andor finale:

Oh, Lonnie, I was rooting for you, but you should have known better than to give up the goods before you were safe! How did you survive as a double agent this long?

The hospital scenes made me wonder what the Imperial healthcare system is like, but obviously it'd identical to the American one because even a fantasy show about a fascist dystopia couldn't imagine something worse than that. But instead of declaring medical bankruptcy, you have to work off your debt in a labor camp. And just taking an ambulance to the hospital guarantees six months of community service picking up space trash.

I was not expecting an origin story for Luthen and Kleya, but loved getting one! (And no, she's not Cassian's sister, guys. Those two aren't morons. They would have figured that out themselves sometime in the past five years.)

Seeing that ISB twink get used as a human shield was such a striking reminder of how all Imperial soldiers eventually get fed into the meat grinder.

I've had some terrible upstairs neighbors, so I really felt for that couple who'd been living under a Rebel safehouse for years.

I love that the cover story for finding Kleya was a possible plague since it harkens back to Partagaz saying the ISB exists to root out disease. Major fail, dude! No wonder you had to kill yourself.

OMG, Nemik's podcast has gone viral! The pandemic of rebellion can't be quarantined!

Perrin and Sculden's wife are hooking up! Delicious!

I love, love, love that Dedra ended up trapped in the system she'd been serving. I bet her fellow prisoners shank her within a year. Or she rises up to be manager and produces the most efficient floor in the building.

I also liked that Dedra got so fixated on finding Axis that she never realized catching him didn't matter anymore because he'd accomplished what he'd aimed to. It's like she spent her life searching for a lit candle, found the burnt down wick, and was proud of her achievement.

Love that we had confirmation that B2EMO is living his best life on a farm with his best friend the yellow droid.

When I first saw the baby reveal, I thought it was a bit hokey, but then I realized it's actually about hope. Cassian didn't get to grow up in a free galaxy, but his kid will because of everything Cass did. It's the sunrise he didn't get to see!

(And if anyone is bummed that the Republic collapses again eventually, just commit your mind to another timeline. The great thing about fiction is that you can make up your own ending and it's just as valid and just as real because none of its real. I'm living in the expanded universe from the 90's and it's mostly lovely here!)

I was amazed by how many characters were left alive. I assumed most of them would die before Rogue One, but the death count was surprisingly low!

But I have to wonder why they didn't use Wilmon as the intro to Saw in the film instead of looking for Jynn. Maybe Will parted on bad terms with him? But wouldn't he be dead if he'd gotten on bad terms with Saw? I would like some clarification on this.

[valeriecherishes]

i definitely understand the desire to doom and detach from the show, and i do think it makes sense to use this as an opportunity to get ourselves to a more "manage your expectations" mindset since this show is extremely.... not planned out to say the least, so they really can change course whenever.

but beyond that, i do think that this could actually be a good thing for bucktommy overall, if they are intended on keeping that thread open (which i believe they are). i think that they wanted these last few episodes to be bobby and grief focused, rightfully, so anything resembling a reconciliation for bt would have been rushed and possibly centered in grief, which may not have been particularly satisfying and people would use that as a way to devalue their reunion/feelings for each other.

as much as i find it sad that buck likely doesn't get a more personal "win" that is entirely his at the end of the season, i wouldn't be shocked if they are setting him up for potential captaincy and by proxy wanted to show the audience that he can rely on himself and trust his own value before eventually getting back to his love life next season, especially so his final arc this season would be all about bobby. i personally think this could have still been shown with tommy by his side, but i wouldn't be shocked if they wanted him to stand by the "learn how to be alone" idea from 8x11 for the rest of the season without going back on it in a handful of episodes. it allows him to have a reason to be single while still not closing the book on bucktommy.

but, i think the reality is that buck does not have any good longer term love interest options other than tommy. by far this is his canon love interest that has gotten the most love and investment from fans (and engagement from all the drama from bvddies), and that is VERY hard to achieve when a ship does not involve two main characters. it's rare to find that especially this late in the show. since buck does not have any main characters he can reasonably be paired with atm, i think after the fan reaction to their 8x06 breakup, they likely realized they had something with potential here that can be made into a longer term love interest.

i know a lot of people are confused about why they would re-open the thread by bringing tommy back for a few episodes and then not resolving it this season, but i would not be shocked if they realize they have genuine "will they/won't they" potential and didn't want to waste that reunion in an arc that is centered around grief. i think they intentionally brought him back to keep him in our memory, made their breakup seem much more fixable and less final, and re-open the thread with the intention to likely return to it. and on a social media engagement level, i wouldn't be shocked if they still wanted to play both sides by kicking the can to the next season to avoid the bvddie backlash of having bvddie not going canon again AND buck being in a relationship again in a finale and having them crash out all summer even more than they already will.

i think the last bucktommy scenes being positive and open-ended and tommy continuing to get more enmeshment into the lore of the show through the flashbacks at least likely shows an intention to continue that story next season, which can, if done right, involve a less rushed, more satisfying reunion and more potential for it to be long-lasting in the end by giving it the care of dragging it out beyond a rushed end-of-finale montage.

i definitely wanted the personal satisfaction of getting a reunion now, but i am very hopeful that this is a good sign. i think how lou spoke in his interview and how oliver is speaking in this interview implies, to me, that they are likely expecting more because it ultimately makes the most sense that they would go back to them based on their last interaction. anything can happen of course, they could change their minds at any moment and 8x16 could be tommy's last appearance forever, but as of now i think if they want buck to have any somewhat viable option for endgame that will be liked by fans (or at least a longer term love interest), tommy just makes sense and would be hard to replicate with another character this late in the game in terms of fan engagement and ability to be weaved into the dynamics of the show. and i think the writers know that by how they've ended them on a hopeful note.

[zvahlne]

technically aphmau relevant because of the start of the post..? anyway, i can explain!! and actually, the conclusion here is kinda funny...

i think OP did mean effective, but technically, affective could have worked, in this very specific use case. first though let me explain the difference between "effect" and "affect", because that's a common mix-up and still happened here. we'll get back to effective/affective!

an effect is the result of something. it's a noun! you get an effect, you have an effect - you can't effect anything. it's something you receive, have, or give, not something you do. for example, in minecraft, you get a potion effect, not an affect!

so then, affect is an action. it's a verb! you affect someone, someone affected you. you can't have an affect, it's something you do, or something that is done to you.

now, you can have an effect on someone, which is a very similar phrase so confusion is understandable. but note! you are not effecting them, you are having an effect! have is the verb in the sentence, effect is the noun. easy to get tripped up on though...

with that out of the way: effective vs affective!

effective was (very likely) the intended word, as it's much more commonly used (and we weren't sure on what the difference was). effective is the one that means "this works well!" (it's good at achieving the desired effect!)

affective was probably not intended, but does, specifically, kind of work here, because it relates to emotions! specifically! so i think you could say "the flirting in aphmau isn't affective," because it's not causing emotion! this is a rarely used word though afaik, it's mostly for psychology. but i think it could, technically, have worked here! so that's funny lol

um. thank you for coming to my class everyone? :] hope it's helpful (aaaand if you notice a mistake correct me, i don't wanna steer anyone wrong)

either none of the flirting stuff in mcd and mys is affective or I’m just to aroace to see that it is

[astralfortune]

congratulations on the follower milestone aahhh!!! well deserved—even if im a little biased and have a potential 4 mcs for different on/off personality combos ajdjandna

as for the prompts… could i ask for number 48, “I told you to take care of yourself,” with T/H?

"I told you to take care of yourself."

Is that really the first thing they're going to say to you?

"It is, considering how the last time I saw you, you were already running a low fever."

You didn't even realize you were speaking out loud. They sigh and set the plastic bag they were holding down on your bedside table. Sitting down on your mattress, they fix a stern gaze on you. "I thought we agreed that you wouldn't shoulder things on your own anymore."

You look away to avoid their judgement. You feel your cheeks heat up even more on top of the fever. "I didn't think I'd get this sick. And I've been through worse." You can't help the pout that forms on your lips. Maybe being sick has left you with no filter to hide your true thoughts.

Their eyes soften but there's still a hint of sadness in it. "Imagine my shock when I got a text from O saying you almost passed out during a shoot," They reach out and place the back of their hand on your forehead. You lean into the cool touch instinctively. "And you're still burning up. You have to know when to take a step back. If not for yourself, then for me."

"For you?" You whisper softly.

Their heart clenches at the sight. If it's your watery eyes or the way your voice wavers with emotion, they don't know. They pull back their hand and you whine a little at the loss. "Yes, for me. After all, we're both pretty shit at taking care of ourselves for our own sake. Might as well do it to keep each other from worrying too much."

You don't reply right away. You take a deep breath, but it comes out a little watery and a little strained. You'll blame the fever for it. "Okay. I'll try to do better next time."

For the first time since they've arrived in your apartment, they smile. "That's all I ask for," They reach for the plastic bag and pull out a few things. A bottle of lemon tea, cooling patches, and cold medicine from what you've managed to see. "Is there anything you want me to get you?"

You think for a moment, trying to push through your fuzzy mind. Eventually you reach out for their hand. "Stay with me? Until I fall asleep again."

They smile again, leaning forward to kiss your warm cheek. "Of course. I'm not going anywhere, I'll be here even when you wake up."

You close your eyes and fall back on your bed, sighing with contentment. There's still so much the two of you need to work on in your budding relationship but each day is always a small step forward.

And that alone is enough.

[itsabea]

i am internally screaming-

i am metaphorically frothing at the mouth-

i am going insane-

one of my favourite artists just posted march fanart out of nowhere-

is this a sign??

is the world going to become all fine and dandy now??

the post << go look if ya wanna be eyeball blessed-

cause i am loosing it.

[no1cutiepatootie]

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[yet-another-haven-of-dollya]

Horishito I just done drawing some most beautiful art pieces that I had ever done in a while I'm so proud of myself.

I was right to take time and practice I AM getting better✨

[moinsbienquekaworu]

Worked on a ref for my fursona 🎉

[leatherbookmark]

hopping around different blogs is fun.

a post on blog 1: i find it a little weird that -- don't get me wrong, the barbie movie looks great with all the doll-like details, i bet the actors had great fun and i'd like to see it myself, but -- people are getting excited about marketing of this movie. they're acting as though mattel's 3985* deals with 837* different companies are something new, exciting and creative instead of... 3985 deals with 837 companies spanning many different areas! this movie is a commercial for a doll! isn't this kinda weird?

*numbers made up

a post on blog 2: i don't think any sane adult doesn't realize that this is a toy commercial! it's rather obvious.

a post on blog 3: boo hoo 'the barbie movie is capitalist propaganda' i don't give a SHIT marx won't fuck you. did you do this for transformers too? do you think only stupid girls who like pink need the reminder?

like, oooooh! things are happening!

[qaanngi]

My new favourite motto 🌼✨👍🙏

[musical-chick-13]

Like I genuinely might just. Have to not finish this story, if I can't get all of it posted before January. I know this is the absolute LEAST of my potential problems should a certain someone get elected, but it still sucks.

[transmutationisms]

How many of you have plans for your future? Do you have a career that you're working towards, and goals you hope to achieve? Do you have younger members of your family that you hope to see grow up safe? Do you want to start a family of your own?

Even if you're not sure about your future, the knowledge that you will have one is a privilege many of us take for granted. Amidst a violent occupation, Palestinians have tried to build futures and lives for themselves, and have been very successful. But recently, many people have found it hard to hold onto their dreams as their home is destroyed all around them, and their pleading with the world to help them falls on apathetic ears.

The fundraisers that you see shared on here are these families lifelines, but recently I've noticed that people have completely stopped caring about them. This is not normal and it's not okay!! If you are exhausted, I need you to consider how exhausting it is to live through it! Every fundraiser you see is a real person. These are not just games of getting numbers to go higher. These are people's hopes of survival, hopes for the future, hopes for their children.The way you react to these campaigns has a real effect on these people, has a real effect on their ability to believe in a better future and hold onto hope.

Your alliance with the Palestinian people has to be material and concrete. My friend Dina has been struggling severely to see a future for her children as her campaign goes ignored and her pleas for help are met with silence. Her children won't survive on your well wishes, they need actual help. Please don't stand idly by while this genocide continues. You may have seen the horrific crimes occurring every day in Gaza but you haven't seen how my friend fears for her and her children's lives every time a new horror occurs. Only you, through your support and care, can restore her hope for the future.

verification

$15,376 / $50,000

[dammit-sammit]

instructions unclear about whether we’re judging their ability to serve cunt or be a cunt here. I love them both very much but they are both pretty insecure and use picking apart other people’s insecurities as a first defence mechanism so I think if you put them in a room together, previously undiscovered heights of MLM hostility would be reached. And then they would both be sad and need a hug.

If we’re talking about *serving* cunt then I’m sorry I think this is a draw.

They are both very loveable little jerks though. OP’s decision to pit two bad bitches against each other was very cruel but very shrewd.

People who only vote for characters they recognize I rebuke thee

[bitteriekitten]

calling them your husband.

synopsis — what the title says <3

warnings — extreme doses of fluff

featuring — xavier, zayne, rafayel, sylus, & caleb (separate fics)

notes — i was originally going to post this by the time the game releases anything related to sylus's birthday banner - but i'm getting fkn impatient 😀 infold's just edging me atp </33 hope u enjoy this n pls leave feedback if u can <3 and ofc, you can find more of my works here!

Xavier would think he misheard you at first.

You began calling him your husband after seeing a video of another couple doing the same, finding the boyfriend's reaction hilarious. But you soon find out that you would have to get creative with coming up ways to repeat yourself calling him your husband. On your end, he looked indifferent, like he hadn't even heard you speak at all. But on his end, he was internally freaking out, wondering what he'd done to get this special treatment from you.

By the 5th time you referred to him as your husband, you were so close to just giving up. But then Xavier grabbed you by the shoulders to face him, barring you from any chances of escaping. He stays like that for a while, just assessing you intently without saying a word. You giggled at his expressionless face, "Yes, my husband?" you then asked, cocking your head to the side to appear more clueless and innocent.

"So I wasn't hearing things." he said, finally cracking a smile. He let go of your shoulders and caressed your cheek with his palm. You instinctively leaned into his touch as you mirrored his grin. "I don't know what I've done to be able to hear you call me your husband, but I'm incredibly honored, my love." he murmured, stealing your breath away right after with a soft kiss.

Zayne wouldn't be at all surprised when you start referring to him as your husband.

In fact, he expected it, as he's already discussed the prospect of marriage with you a handful of times already. The idea of marriage with you, possibly having kids and having a simple, domestic lifestyle in the future – it seems possible (and extremely easy to achieve, too) with the way your relationship was progressing. But on the other hand, he barely keeping it together, with how much you like calling him your husband. He's this close to just spontaneously getting on one knee to actually marry you.

"Aw, my husband's so stressed lately." you cooed, walking over to the back of his seat and placing your hands over his shoulders. Zayne cracked the smallest of smiles at his unofficial title, sighing inwardly as your hands began massaging him.

"Keep this up and I might actually become your husband," Zayne quipped. You abruptly stopped massaging him and let out a surprised laugh. "Dr. Zayne, when did you get so bold!" you laughed in delight. Zayne chuckled along with you, wondering if next week would be an appropriate time to go ring-shopping.

Rafayel would be reduced into to a puddle of shyness and absolute devotion for you.

It would take a hot minute for it to register in his brain that you just casually referred to him as your husband. He's still trying to get used to you being so bold with your affection ever since you two finally became official. For you to just drop the title husband next to his name, like it was second nature was mind-blowing. He can't even bring himself to tease you about being so forward, calling him as such when you're still new to this relationship.

You held him in your arms, his head on your chest. "My husband just needs a good cuddle, hmm?" you asked, sweeping your hand over his soft hair to see his eyes. Rafayel squirmed under your touch to avoid looking at you, unsure if he hated the attention or reveled in it.

"Cutie..." he began, but was unable to finish what he was about say. He genuinely sounded like he was in deep pain as he grumbled into your skin. "What, does my husband want some space?" you teased him, pretending to pull away from him. But Rafayel was quicker to pull you back to him, tightening his arms around your back. Needless to say, he loved being called your husband.

Sylus, without giving it any second thoughts, accepted it instantly.

He's always happy to indulge in whatever you wanted to do, yet this was on another level. As much as possible, Sylus would try to keep a straight, unbothered face – an incredible feat that would last him approximately fifteen minutes. He can't help the flutter that attacks him when he hears you call him that. He'd become extra clingy, his affection amped up to 500, and his words a lot softer and sweeter.

"Hubby, you're starting to act like a velcro baby." you joked, trying to navigate around Sylus's bathroom with him clinging to your backside with his arms wrapped around you. He grunted in response as he rested his chin on top of your head, watching you with sleepy eyes through the mirror.

You wrapped up the rest of your nightly routine with Sylus still clinging to you. You both plopped down onto his bed, tucking in for the night even though this was when Sylus was usually awake. He climbed on top of you and you wheezed at his weight on top of you. "Ack– you're crushing me, hubby!" you whined, trying to shove him off of you. Sylus ignored your protests with a content hum, his body and mind relaxing for the first time in a long time.

Caleb would have to use half of his strength to behave himself.

If he wasn't lovesick before, imagine the lengths he jumps over now. He already acts like a husband whenever you're around, you calling him as such amplified it to 400%. Cue then the uncontrollable smiles and giggles as he settles 100% of his attention onto you. He'll never ever admit it to you, because he knows you'll definitely use it to your advantage, but this is absolutely the surefire way to get anything and everything you could possibly want from him, no questions asked.

Caleb grinned widely as you excitedly squealed over the plushie he won you. "Hubby! I can't believe you got it!" you marveled, hugging the sheep tightly. Caleb chuckled at the silly nickname, patting you on the head and kissing you on the forehead.

"I couldn't have done it without the unwavering support from my... wifey." Caleb replied cheekily, earning a bright smile from you. You hugged him, your new plushie squished between your bodies. "You're the best, hubby." you muttered into his ear, and Caleb kissed your forehead again. You peeked over his shoulder and saw a restaurant that caught your eye. You pointed at it, "I'm a bit hungry now, hubby. Can we grab something to eat there?" you asked him. Without saying anything back, Caleb agreed - anything for his wifey.

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⊹ ! ೀ Pile 1 ꒱

꒰ Your current personality ꒱

You are someone who has dealt with aggression or passive aggression from other people who created drama in your life. These people were I’m hearing - egoistic, competitive and jealous, the kind to see the glass half empty. The energy that I’m getting is a group of ‘friends’ ganging up against you, just for the fun of it, so that they could possibly knock you down to a peg. That’s what their purpose seems to have been. Also, recently, if not throughout life, you’ve dealt with other people just disliking you, trying to humiliate you, backhanded jokes, mean comments to your face, etc. There was just this aggression that you could pick up from other people, even if they didn’t say anything, in fact, this energy might be even stronger now. Let me give you a simple question, did you achieve something, start working or just earning in some way? If yes, there’s your answer right there. Every time you’ll achieve something as simple as a small internal or external accomplishment, you’re going to have other people start feeling all worked up towards you for no reason. It is going to amplify the strongest when you get your first job/salary/earning of some sort and when you get into a relationship with someone. Right now, you are working through your shadows and revelations that came forth due to power struggle between you, and others that you decided to peacefully step out of while you had been forced into isolation or taken up solitude. You have an interesting personality as in, you like when others are jealous of you and there’s some drama due to it because it’s flattering but at the same, you don’t enjoy it because you’re someone who seeks peace. I just heard Regina George’s “and I was like ‘why are you so obsessed with me?’” You can’t deny that you do find it flattering how people seem to be kind of obsessed with you to some extent honestly. This is something you do not express outwardly to most people though. You are someone who is finding the strength to feel the beauty in life after a pretty long time. ‘Epiphany’ by Jin of BTS is the energy that I’m getting here. While, you were in this period of solitude, feeling weak and tired from the extreme aggression that you seem to have received from either a group of people or different people around the same time, you realised that you’re the one you should love and take care of. There were days when you couldn’t get out of bed without really really pushing yourself to do it but now, it’s just not as bad, you seem to be more enthusiastic about taking care of yourself. You have an iron heart but not in a bad way, you’re just very firm as a person in the actions that you take. You hold a silent power that you operate with and I’m calling this silent power because despite your actual personality and character being a certain way, you’re perceived to be pretty soft as a person. You’re someone who seems to fear abandonment and attachment, possibly due to your past experiences because you seem to have walked away from people and you’re firm in the decisions you make in regards to your life. No matter what you were like in the past, now if you choose to walk away, that’s it, you’ve walked away. You’re so much of a peace seeker that you avoid anyone you can if they even slightly disrupt your peace. People tend to view you as this loving person who’s emotionally volatile, insecure, uncertain about themselves and easy to manipulate. Also, someone warm with good intentions and very imaginative.

Which is why they think you’d be easy to manipulate because they may assume that they can sell you dreams and fantasies but little do they know, you demand and expect respect from others. They don’t realise that while you are a pretty peaceful person who is actively working on themselves, you crave power strongly. They don’t realise that you’ll always end up finding a way to have the upper-hand in any situation. I’m not sure what it is but you lack certain morals when you stop caring about people. You’re very in control of yourself by this point, in the past you used to think that knowledge was power so you tried to keep the other person mentally stimulated in order to keep them in your life, and you could have expressed certain thoughts in a more forceful and pushy manner but you may have realised that this is a trait of yours, and might be trying to get rid of it for the best? You’ve become very stern hearted as in, you don’t mind leaving people and situations without thinking much or without much evidence? You don’t really have it in you to wait it out anymore. Once you walk away, you also become closed off to communication in any form. You are someone who fakes happiness but still very in touch with your negative emotions, thoughts and patterns internally. Emotionally, you like for connections to develop naturally and kind of slowly, you’re someone who doesn’t jump into being all passionate and lovey dovey with someone as soon as you meet them. You’re like “I only know them for two weeks, I don’t know if they’re even a good person at all. They probably do not hold any loyalty towards me this early on, I do not need to trust them yet” is the way you approach connections these days, whether you’re aware of it or not. You’re also someone who carries most of your emotions by yourself. Even in your connections with others in the past, you’ve been the one to carry the most of the burdens. The connections wouldn’t even have carried on that long if it wasn’t for you doing all if not most of the work. However, now you’re someone who is driven towards goals and on a dedicated mission to succeed, that’s why your emotions seem to be much more reliant on yourself and your own progress than other people, and interpersonal connections. There have been situations that led you to ending some sort of conflict (or multiple ones) and detach caused you to feel powerless, underestimated, unworthy and manipulated in some way? You are focused on taking your power back now because you’ve realised that you’re not powerless? Like, ‘things can only hold power for as long as you let it hold your attention’ is what I heard. You’re trying to get more in control of your life but you’re not doing so in a restrictive manner. You’re releasing any and every old bond, one by one and have grown resistant to many kinds of temptations that you would have fallen for in the past. You’re breaking free as a person and developing more audacity in the best way possible is what I’m hearing. You’re reclaiming your power and are taking empowering choices. You’re letting go of limiting beliefs that seem to have had you trapped at some point, beliefs that you’re unworthy, that you’re not powerful that’s why others dislike you and find it easy to walk all over you. You’re realising that they feel the need to crush you, not because you’re weak but because they are and that they want to feel powerful by crushing other people. You realise the power that you have a person after a long time and you know that you haven’t even fully stepped into it yet but you’re getting there.

꒰ Your future spouse’s personality when you’ll be together ꒱

They’re going to be a very contemplative person when they’re by themselves. They will have this ability to look for beauty in everything. They’ll value passion greatly and will be able to find not only beauty but also wisdom, knowledge and I’m not sure what word to use but a feeling of peace mixed with passion and love for something universal, not anything all that divine but just a zest for life itself? I hope you understand what I’m trying to express right now. They’re going to be the type to overanalyse situations and people. I do not recommend trying to get them jealous or something of that sort because they’re going to get defensive and argue. Honestly, if you like your men (or women) obsessed and slightly possessive, you are going to love what I’m telling you. They’re going to stalk your social media pages, keep tabs on you, ask you where you’re going, who you’re going with, etc. If you tell them that you are going out with your friends and one of your friends is very active on socials, they’re going to view their stories to see if you’re with them, who all are present and what you are up to. They’re going to have a positive outlook on life after having undergone emotional lows, dealt with negative emotions, letting go and forgiven themself, and others. They are going to be extremely ride or die when it comes to you. They’re going to be there to support you and will be committed to being with you through thick and thin. They’re going to overcome loneliness, thanks to you and they’ll be utterly grateful to you for that. They’re going to find themself becoming more secure due to your connection and they’ll want to provide you with a secure home too. They’re going to have more trust, hope and faith in life, and I’m getting that it’s going to be because of you. You’re going to be welcomed by them with open arms. They’re going to be a lavish spender and could indulge in something like a substance though. I’m not getting it being in excess amount but lol, the money spending, indulging in just life, whatever their guilty pleasure is is going to be very big. They’re going to be a go getter when it comes to their goals. For some of you, they could be a protein junkie who eats a lot but then works out equally as much. The part I just mentioned is not going to be applicable for all of you.

They’re made for success because they are willing to work for it. I just heard “I can’t complain about having a lot on my plate when my goal was to eat.” There are going to be moments when they will misjudge you, they’ll doubt themself which could lead to some unfair blame and false accusations but they’re not going to let it get there. I just heard “it’s not your fault that they hover, I mean no disrespect. It’s my right to be hellish, I still get jealous.” However, emotionally they are going to be heavily committed to you. To them, you’re basically going to be one with them. They’re going to have a pretty good sex drive that will be emotionally driven because of how much they’ll love you. They will be an optimistic person usually and very passionate when it comes to you, and life itself. They’re going to crack a lot of jokes with you and also their friends. I’m getting the two of you just sitting there, making fun of the way someone said something or did something and having a good laugh about it. They’re going to want to be a good spouse and partner. They’re not just going to want you to be their spouse so that they can say that they have someone, it’s going to be deep and emotionally fulfilling to them. ‘Ishq sufiyana’ or ‘divine, passionate and deep love’ is literally how your connection is going to be, it’s going to be sort of divine in nature or at least that’s how they’ll perceive. They’re going to feel like the impossible is possible with you due to the synergy that you’ll share, a very divine and deep one that will only make them feel like they come alive even more everyday. They’re going to feel like you’re their soulmate and are going to act the part with you. They’re going to be so emotionally content with you and the family you’ll create (even if it’s just the two of you), they won’t be able to stay away from you, like they just won’t. Supposing, they have to travel for work, they’ll feel like their heart isn’t beating the way it should, only after they come back home to you will they feel fine again. The two of you are going to bond because much like you they’re also a silent power and iron hearted. It only makes your love more real though. They’re going to be very childlike though, like no matter how much they grow up, they’ll always continue being like their child self i.e. kind, fun loving, pure and innocent but just in a bigger and more grown body 😭. You gotta be careful with their heart, they’re so pure, they need to be protected for real. Thank you for reading. Much love and take care.

⊹ ! ೀ Pile 2 ꒱

꒰ Your current personality ꒱

In the past, you used to be someone who used to work in harmony with others and almost blended with others in a way where you even started thinking, and looking at things from their perspective even if it was hurtful and disrespectful towards you. You’ve grown to become someone who values passion and has a very passionate nature that you, yourself are aware of, and you have this understanding now that you’re not as helpless as you once felt. You might feel like even though the helplessness felt real back then, it never really was. One thing that you seem to be aware of is that others did put you in this situation of helplessness but instead of being all “I’m the victim”, even though you have the awareness that you didn’t deserve it, you’re instead reasonably accepting where others did you wrong and where you did yourself wrong. You don’t seem to care as much about what others think anymore. You are starting to become more empowered but you know that this is not the end, that you’ll only grow to become more and more empowered going forward until you fully step into your power. You are at a phase where you find it both funny and angering that you let yourself be trapped by shitty people and shitty situations. You’re not being excessively hard on yourself anymore though. Instead, your life is changing and you’ve made the choice to actively change for the best too. You’re embracing transformations and all the events of the past that are helping you grow into a new version of yourself. You’re still in the process of it. You’ve become very cutthroat and don’t mind being mean. You realise that your boundaries were too low at some point, your standards were too low which led to you experiencing low quality experiences so you’re honestly a bit defensive. You’re reestablishing your boundaries and have already managed to do enough of it. You’re very firm in your boundaries at this point and desire to be yourself, even if it offends others. You’re also very hardworking and have this desire to improve your skills, and build new ones. You value routines, self improvement and productivity these days, and actively try to manage them. You still hurt sometimes but I’m getting that compared to how much you hurt the past and how helpless, and trapped you felt, this is nothing. Hurtful memories and thoughts pop up into your mind sometimes but you are choosing not to operate from that state of hurt at this point. Emotionally, you’re giving yourself a chance to be a kid, you’re going yourself a chance for newness, you’re giving yourself a chance to dream and to feel happy, joyful and grateful despite all the pain that you’ve experienced. You’re starting to find and develop this new passion for life and yourself, and also a new way of thinking and communicating that is creating this contentment within you. You’re starting to count your blessings is what I’m hearing. There was once a time when you wished for nothing more than to change, to be open to newness and now you have it, despite feeling heavy hearted sometimes, usually you’re pretty content and satisfied these days even if you’re not filled with utter joy, you still have an inner joy within you.

You’re planning your future based on your passions while trying to make the most out of your life right in the present moment. I saw this video on Instagram, basically the girl asks god to make her life better than 99% of the people and god fulfils her wish but she ends up living the same life she currently has because her life is better than 99% of the people already. You seem to be sort of aware of the fact that despite the problems, you also have your own set of blessings anyway so you’re choosing to not let the sorrow and negativity you feel sometimes overpower you. You value passion so much, you probably think about sex a lot too. On a soul level, you fear being abandoned, betrayed and hurt. You fear being heavily emotionally involved with people just to be left behind. You’ve realised that the realest connections are those that flow naturally yet at its own time and not the connections where you seem to vibe right away just to be disillusioned later. You’ve learned many tough lessons through the tough realisations that you had when you had to accept things as they were. You’re very passionate and seem to be focused on your goals in some way. You’ve realised that no one can bring you the happiness that you can bring yourself. You try to be enough for yourself while also actively developing as a person. You have a great zest for exploring and seeing where life has to take you. You’re sort of detached and yet anticipating growth, and change in your life. Your approach to connections have changed, you want to be the one who gets approached and pursued. You have this desire to leave all of your past behind, to simply be present and you’re doing really well, I would say. You sometimes think “just like I desire connections, other people also desire connections. They can come to me if they’d like.” Your standards for the people you’re going to let in seem to be pretty high too. You are proud that you have matured enough to not look at your past too nostalgically. You’ve become someone who doesn’t value your history with people as much anymore, you only value what their recent and current actions show you. You’ve given up on carrying the burdens of connections solely by yourself, you prefer dealing with your emotions by yourself and these days dealing with negative emotions for you is to just letting them go, just letting them slip away. You’re someone who prioritises self care and is deliberately taking care of yourself. Emotionally, you’re remaining a lot of control within yourself. You’re at a point where if anyone tries to get you out of your emotionally peaceful zone, you’re going to get angry and possibly blow up. You’re very selfless emotionally and desire someone so strikingly and unconditionally kind, and selfless in your life that you would naturally feel like you can give out unconditionally, selflessly and generously. You also think about virtues like kindness and selflessness a lot because it’s innately in your nature. Despite choosing to have stronger boundaries and not being as selfless as you once were, you’re still kind and giving in some way. You seem to have a lot of faith in yourself. You believe that the grass will always be greener for you no matter where you end up because you have the resources to and are willing to water it.

꒰ Your future spouse’s personality when you’ll be together ꒱

Your future spouse is someone who doesn’t mind leaving people behind. I keep on getting something about peace here, they do not like it when people try to mess with their peace of mind. There seem to have been times in community settings like school, church, etc. or work settings in which people have taken offence to their presence for no reason and made it their mission to humiliate, hurt and leave your person out within those environments. Something like this could have happened during their school life, possibly middle school for some of them or highschool which has caused this thing to stay deep within their psyche. “I can never forget” is what I’m hearing. They will still be carrying some baggage from that time. What seems to have been even more heartbreaking for them was that they didn’t even feel like they belonged anywhere. Some of them didn’t even feel like belonged within their own family. “You’re in the wind, I’m in the water, nobody’s son, nobody’s daughter.” They didn’t feel like they belonged anywhere so wherever they were was their home. They’ll know how to take good care of themself. They’ll also be good natured and genuinely consider others including you obviously. They’re going to put a lot of emphasis onto both self care and selflessness. When they were younger, they felt like they were loved only when they tangibly added onto other’s lives so they naturally tried to be of service to others but at some point, they found out that they could be disrespected despite what they do for others but they found an inner joy when giving out freely and selflessly so they will try to give out to those who they think deserve, and need it. It seems to be very subconscious, something that they won’t be aware of. They’re going to worry about your well-being and quite literally the type to scold you if you tell them that you haven’t eaten yet. They’re going to be the one to pursue a connection with you and will be very sensitive, and tactful. They’ll know just what to say to make your heart flutter and slowly open up to trusting them. They’re going to be a true romantic and such a charmer. Like, you won’t even be able to stay mad at them because they’ll know just how to melt your heart. I’m getting that whenever you’re with them, you’ll just be smiling ear to ear. Despite the baggage that they’ll be carrying, they’re going to be a very present person. Some of them are also going to be very physically active as well. They’re going to know how to make you feel special by expressing their gratitude for you. “You know, I don’t know how I got so lucky to get with you.” The love that you’re going to share is going to feel surreal in nature due to how well they’ll treat you. They’re going to be quite a flirt with you. In fact, I don’t like to say this and it’s not intentional but due to how smooth their tongue naturally is, there will be moments when you’ll probably get mad about them flirting with others. I’m getting a very golden retriever kind of a personality from them.

They’re going to be very touchy with you in little ways such as resting their head on your shoulder, tugging at your sleeves, kissing your shoulder, kissing your neck, so on and so forth. Despite moments when you’ll get upset about their smooth tongue, they’re going to make it up to you by romancing you. They’re also going to be genuinely remorseful because despite their intentions, they’re going to understand where you’re coming from. They’re going to be the type to pepper you with kisses all over your face while apologising to you. Instead of jumping to be all defensive when you point out something that hurts you or makes you feel less secure within the connection, they’re instead going to take accountability for their actions and tongue, and genuinely try to make it up to you and will try not repeat the same thing in the future. They’re honestly very pure of heart. They’re going to be a bit more secretive about their negative emotions initially but you’ll be able to see right through them because the connection you’ll share will be very youthful in nature. Like, you’re going to bring out their inner child so you’ll naturally end up seeing their vulnerabilities. Even throughout the marriage, late into it, they’re going to have the biggest crush on you. Honeymoon phase? What is that? They’ll only know your connection. They’ll be psychically connected to you. You’ll understand each other without having to say much if anything at all. I just heard ‘completing each other’s sentences’. Deep into the marriage, they’re going to break down in front of you and legit cry, not caring about gender roles, and stereotypes. I’m getting that your marriage is going to be one where there will not be particular gender roles, they’re going to want to take care of you and the household in any way possible, and you’ll want to do the same. There could be some childhood or abandonment wound for many of your future spouses. They’re going to have worked on healing their wounds of not having been enough in the past, of having been left out in the cold, of having been abandoned time and time again. They could have felt abandoned by their family emotionally and financially, like even if they had family, it was basically as good as not having any. Not every one of them is going to have had a bad family life but they’ll still have dealt with abandonment in the past and will have dealt with the aftermath of that. They’ll have released the grief and will be moving forward with you after having overcome a lot of despair. They’re going to have an understanding of what’s truly valuable and that’s going to be you, that’s going to be the present moment and just life as it is. You’re going to heal their inner child, make their inner child feel happy and safe, and they could never not love you due to who you are and how you make them feel. Thank you for reading. Much love and take care.

⊹ ! ೀ Pile 3 ꒱

꒰ Your current personality ꒱

You are a loving, kind and nurturing person who is thinking about how you’re never anyone’s first choice. ‘Nobody’ by Mitski is coming through here. You have always been very empathetic and kind, often even trying to look at things from the other person’s perspective and just remaining eternally loving, and empathetic. ‘You’re losing me’ by Taylor Swift is coming through. “How long could we be a sad song? Till we were too far gone to bring back to life. I gave you all my best me’s, my endless empathy and all I did was bleed as I tried to be the bravest soldier. Fighting in only your army, frontlines, don’t you ignore me. I’m the best thing at this party (you’re losing me) and I wouldn’t marry me either - a pathological people pleaser who only wanted you to see her.” You’ve developed this mindset of “what’s the point of genuinely doing for people if they won’t even recognise it or appreciate it?” You used to have good intentions towards people and tried to be there for them in tangible ways. You’re thinking about all the times that you were neglecting yourself by trying to be there for others just because you wanted to remain unconditionally loving. You wonder if you were scared to be lonely sometimes. You’re adjusting your priorities currently because you feel like you’re being unable to take care of yourself as well as you could. A very specific message but someone here could have not been taking their medicines or multivitamins for a few days now, possibly a week or so (maybe you ran out of it or just forgot). Due to how everyone has preferred someone else over you, you sometimes wonder if you’re just that unworthy or at least if people deem you to be so. Internally, you seem to be aware that you’re a very worthy and admirable person but for some reason, it seems to remain unrecognised by others which confuses you. Your self esteem seems to be really low and you’re a bit more self reliant these days because in the past, being kind, loving and social, someone who gave a lot led you to nothing but humiliation, disrespect and loneliness. I’m hearing that song in my head but it’s been such a long time since I’ve heard it, I’m not sure what the lyrics are. Just looked it up and “what do you get when you fall in love? A guy with a pin to burst your bubble, that’s what you get for all your trouble. I'll never fall in love again”, “what do you get when you kiss a guy? You get enough germs to catch pneumonia. After you do, he'll never phone ya. I'll never fall in love again”, “don’t tell me what it's all about ‘cause I've been there and I'm glad I'm out, out of those chains, those chains that bind you” and “what do you get when you fall in love? You only get lies and pain and sorrow. So for at least until tomorrow. I'll never fall in love again.” I’m also getting that you have money and career on your mind, that’s what your main area of concern these days is. You felt left out in the cold, actually, it’s not just a feeling, you were in fact left out in the cold. You pretty much had your life turned upside down and everything stripped away from you. Currently, you’re trying to climb up this rock bottom and have already made significant progress. There seems to be a lot of financial responsibility placed upon you so there are times when you get into small disagreements and discussions with people because of money?

Probably just family members. You could feel like there is no one to not only emotionally support you but also financially support you. Someone in your family could have made a financial promise to you but could not follow through. It could have been something as simple as “focus solely on your education because I’ll make sure you get to complete your education” just for them to be unable to live up to that promise. Your worst of the worst fears came true, I’m not even exaggerating right now but you have just been facing it and trying to rise above it all. You’ve already survived the worst and you seem to be aware of that. You’re learning a lot from the past and are trying to build a stronger foundation, and more stability for and within yourself. You feel isolated and are choosing to be alone as well. You’re slowly healing, even if you don’t feel like it, trust your journey. One thing that I need to correct you about are your little anger tantrums that you’ve been having recently. You’re facing a lot of setbacks in your life and tend to feel uninspired by it sometimes but you still try to get up, and maintain a routine. You seem to have failed to do so many times this year but it’s almost the end of the year and you’ve not yet given up, that says a lot. Even emotionally, you’re pretty alone. Just a hack for you, you need to commit to a routine and goal consistently, that’s how you’re going to grow emotionally and become more stable. You feel like emotionally too, within connections most people are inefficient and you’d rather be alone than settle for such inefficiency. You lacked receiving respect from your peers at one point which led to you feeling powerless and possibly even manipulated. You could have fallen victim to other people acting like they were better than you, that they were right when in reality, they were just self absorbed and acting self assured but back then, it was easy for you to fall victim to them undermining you. You seem to have had an inferiority complex back then honestly. It caused you to feel confused yet angry but with no where to express any sort of emotions at all. You were given the misinformation that something was wrong with you and you believed it. Now that you’re starting to come to your senses, you’re like “how could I be so stupid?” and you’re mostly angry at these people. You’re focused on your own ethics, morals, money and provision of some sort. Many of you here seem to be providers or at least self providers at a young age with a genuine desire to provide outwardly to others. You are currently breaking free from all that had you trapped and feeling disempowered. You’re starting to accept yourself and are becoming free. You’re embracing your authenticity and are not as afraid of being the black sheep anymore as you once were. You are making choices everyday that your course of life could depend on. Every little change you make could make or break your future. You’re a very emotionally intense person and have jumped to conclusions that if they loved and respected you, they’d not put you through everything that you had to go through. You are also self protective and slightly closed off when it comes to connections because you desire emotionally rich and intense people who will choose you, and only you. You lack tolerance for anything lesser than this.

꒰ Your future spouse’s personality when you’ll be together ꒱

Right off the bat, I am getting that the both of you will act out in ways that are incompatible with each other. Initially, before the two of you get together, they’re going to feel connected to you and will want to explore that connection with you, and will desire directness so they’ll come forth fast but it’s going to come off as kind of off putting to you. You’re going to awaken this love within them, the desire for it, this excitement and you’ll make their inner child very very happy. They’ll be taken by you almost right away but they seem to flirt in a way where they come off egoistic and arrogant. This reminds me of that one time when one guy called me weak right on the first meeting as an attempt to apparently ‘flirt with me’ 💀. I found him very off putting too so I totally get you here. You’re going to see them as someone who has high expectations for themself and others but fears new responsibilities, and is sort of commitment phobic. It’s going to be funny because they’ll be getting so emotionally involved with you, having so much love for you and just feeling giddy around you, like they’ll feel like a child around you quite literally which could lead to their personality coming off a bit childish too. The way they’ll present themself will make you not want to trust them. They’ll end up acting like a bit of an ‘all talk, no action’ kind of a person. You’ll also find them to be sort of rude when they’ll try to tease you and you won’t have it in you to put up with whatever this bullshit is. Not my words, that’s how you’ll think. Oddly enough, they’ll also be acting with a lot of integrity and fairness. They’re going to have a lot of life lessons that they’re going to share with you. They’re going to be truthful with you for the most part but you’re still going to doubt their loyalty due to how commitment phobic they come off. You��re just going to find them to be unstable for you. You’ll think that you’ll be around each other for just a short time then move on with your lives once you lose touch with each other. At some point, they’re going to end up making you feel unwelcome and vice versa. This is why I was saying that you will both act out in ways that are incompatible with one another. You’re going to feel like it’s just difficult for the both of you to come into the same page and they’re going to feel like that too. You’re going to think that they didn’t take enough of an initiative when it came to you so they must’ve not wanted you enough. They’ll feel like maybe you lack feelings towards them and it was all in their head. You will probably fall out of touch with one another and they’re going to miss you so much. They’re going to find more of themself, more love and more direction within their life but there’s going to be this lack of emotional fulfilment. They’re going to reminisce over you and miss you so much when you’re in no contact. I’m not sure how you’ll come back together but their love for you will not have lessened with time, instead it will have only intensified, alongside their awareness of it having grown stronger. When you’ll first meet each other, even if you really wanted to, you would not have been able to make it work because you will just be so out of sync with one another but this time apart is going to be beneficial in terms of being sure about your feelings.

You will make them question their values a lot and they will make you question yours which could be the reason you feel triggered by each other, hence you put this off as something unstable and ‘not right’ for you. You will put the past behind in order to move forward together. When you’ll be together, they’re going to create a lot of conflicts with you because first, you seem to be incompatible with each other, second, they’ll sort of question your loyalty and their importance in your life, they’ll just feel like you were more than fine without them when you lost contact the first time so why wouldn’t you be fine now? You’re going to love this pile if you like your partners obsessed with you though because they will be. Also, I think that you’re going to enjoy seeing them all riled up over you because it will make you feel desired but at the same time, you’ll also not like it. The connection you’ll share will be so complicated, I don’t even know what to say. You’ll most likely be opposite in some ways which will lead to an irresistible attraction but also disagreements. They’re always going to want to do right by you within the connection and will want to grow old with you. They’ll be committed to you and will take accountability for anything that might have affected you negatively. They’re going to want to have the partnership be fair and balanced. They’re going to get pretty jealous and will want to be your one, and only in every way. They’re going to be quite a grudge holder though. They’re going to feel unstable within your relationship sometimes because of how you didn’t seem to have any problem being away from them the first time you lost touch. If you talk to them in a slightly different tone, cancel plans or travels, they’re going to feel upset and slightly unstable. They’re going to sometimes feel like they have an overload of things to do all the time but they still make up time for you but you don’t do the same for them so maybe you’re still keeping your options open because of how the first time around they let you go. “Is he/she still mad at me for that?” Aww, they’re insecure within the relationship but very sweet. Even years and decades into the marriage, they’ll still feel just as giddy and happy around you. They’re going to admire, adore and deeply love you. They’re going to care about your feelings and will be very keen on making the relationship succeed. They’re going to remember your younger days and will want to tear up at how much you’ve both grown. The excitement that they’ll feel towards you, the way they’re just filled with utter and childlike joy with you, will never disappear. Something interesting that is coming through here is that the universe or god didn’t intend for you to be together as life partners. It was originally supposed to be something that brings you both comfort, something that you learn from and are able to grow into your best selves, discover your individual purposes in life and beat emotional dissatisfaction by yourselves after meeting each other but you will make the impossible possible by desiring each other and loving each other so purely. Oh yeah, you were asking for an emotionally intense and rich partner, you will get exactly that. Congratulations. Thank you for reading. Much love and take care.