#her face in the 3rd gif gets me everytime

[harmoonix]

🩶 Chill Aesthetic Notes 🩶

~ Only me and the ocean ~

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🩶 - Libra Sun/Moon/Rising are having good aesthetic eyes for fashion, Ariana Grande has an Libra Moon and her style is ethereal I love her energy and i love all the Libra Moons who are reading this post 🩶

🩶 - Moon sextile/trine/conjunct Jupiter has an imense amount of intuition and spirituality and is also one of the most beneficial aspects for the moon 🩶

🩶 - Venus square/opposition/conjunct Chiron can end up as the person who always want to find love but ends up heartbroken, in a way is always hard for you to find real love and to feel love 🩶

🩶 - Ascendant trine/sextile/conjunct Venus always felt like having an very good style and aesthetic, someone who looks very lovely 🩶

🩶 - Lilith opposite/square/conjunct Sun are extremely rebellious and HATE it when someone tells them what to do, they don't like when people do these things to them 🩶

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🩶 - 3rd house or 2nd house ruller in the 1st house can indicate having singing abilities or just an gift related to music/speaking/singing 🩶

🩶 - Venus in Aquarius degrees (11°, 23°) can find their love partners in their friend group or someone who might be in their friend circle 🩶

🩶 - Venus in Cancer Degrees (4°, 16°, 28°) can get an very lovely and supportive spouse, someone who might keep them as an safe spot🩶

🩶 - Venus in Taurus Degrees (2°, 14°, 26°) can find their love partners as being very grounding and connected deeply people, someone who loves to keep everything with love and respect 🩶

🩶 - Venus in Virgo Degrees (6°, 18°) can get very supportive and loyal spouses, just wait for the right partner to come and not rush into toxic relationships, your spouse can aswell be like a teacher for you and to teach you new things

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🩶 - Venus in Scorpio/in Scorpio degrees (8°,20°)/Venus in the 8th house look ethereal in black clothes, it fits them completely, their partners can be extremely protective of them and possesive 🩶

🩶 - Sagittarius Venus/Venus in Sag degrees (9°, 21°)/Venus in the 9th house on the other hand looks amazing in purple clothes, purple is a lovely color for these placements 🩶.

🩶 - Ascendant - Moon aspects = AGAIN, I love these, I love them at my fullest and deepest feelings, they are just magnificent people to have around 🩶

🩶 - Sun square Moon aspecting benefits is that they can understand all the moods someone can go through, is that they can understand these mood changes 🩶

🩶 - Moon square/opposite North Node needs to balance their emotions and to understand that having some different emotions is perfectly fine and normal because you are a human afterall 🩶

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🩶 - Aquarius/Pisces and Uranus/Neptune Influence in your big 3 (Sun, Moon, Rising) gives beautiful eyes to the native, did you ever met people who told you about your eyes? 🩶

🩶 - Cancer/Taurus Sun/Moon/Rising have adorable face features, mostly the eyes because they can have doe eyes (search on internet for pictures 🥰) they are adorable (GIVING BAMBIE 🦌)

🩶 - Jupiter trine/sextile/conjunct Venus gives an good romantic life to the native, romantism, sensuality, love, bounding and good relationships (Harsh aspects can struggle with those things)

🩶 - Everytime I check someone's chart and I see that they have an air moon I always have the feeling they love music and art 🎨

🩶 - Virgo Moons are actually so lovely..I see so many nasty things being written about Virgo Moons and GURL WHAT? That type of delulu is not that healthy but VIRGO moons are adorable and friendly and also very supportive natives 🥰

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🩶 - Saw someone saying having 12th house placements is bad and GURL that's so sad to say, a lot of people forgot that 12th house is also the house of unfinished karma so people with 12th house placements are very strong (esp Sun, Moon or Mars and Neptune in the 12th house) 🩶

🩶 - Checking someone's chart and i see a Water Venus, instantly I think that they have a deep love and an deep desire for finding real love without getting hurt because that can ruin them 🩶

🩶 - Venus aspecting Pluto aspects are so hot and irresistible, this is an top placements for being HOT, but can make the native posesive and jealous aswell 🩶

🩶 - Saturn aspecting the Moon can have an very sensitive soul inside and an protective shield outside, they won't let you know you hurt them but they will always remember everything 🩶

🩶 - Saturn aspecting Chiron is indeed an very heavy placement to have in your birth chart, indicates an open wound to your karma, father, past life and restrictions, this wound heals slower but once it heals it becomes powerful 🩶

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🩶 - Venus in Gemini/Sagittarius are getting so much hate and for what? Like girlie Venus loves being in these signs and feels great, Venus in Sag is looking for freedom while Venus in Gemini is looking for fun and socialization.. side eye to the haters 🩶(Not even side eye, BLANK stare is better)

🩶 - Aries in big 6 (Sun, Moon or Rising, Venus,Mars, Mercury) is so intense to have but aswell something precious because Aries being the 1st sign in the horoscope is hard to catch it (mostly rising) but they are so protective, so dominant so brave..I love them 🩶

🩶 - Check your favorite artist/celebrity birth chart to see what placements you have in common because that's usually the reason why you like this specific person that much 🩶🥰 (For example I like Nicki Minaj and her chart has big Sag/Aqua influence and mines aswell so I get along with her music, style, personality etc..)

🩶 - In my opinion Lilith in water/earth signs have an special connection to earth and spiritually while Lilith in fire/air signs focus more on the physical things the earth has and the Intensity they bring with it 🩶 [h12] Lilith

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🩶 - Asteroid Lilith (1181) represents the sexuality more than other Lilith placements because is the inner side of your soul and your desires 🩶

🩶 - Cancer/Capricorn suns/moons/risings being so sassy and attract people so easily they are sister signs and it makes sense for them to be so attractive 😍🤌🏼

🩶 - Moon aspecting Pluto should listen more to their intuition because is very strong and well detailed, whenever you have hard feelings just listen to your intuition to guide you on your right path 🩶

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🩶☁️ How is everyone doing?🩶☁️ We already entered in August and I can feel summer wants to leave already but still appreciating the moments 🥰 here you have this beautiful made astro post for you all 🥰🩶

🩶🥰 Have an amazing day for everyone who is reading my notes 🥰🩶Take care of your loved ones and enjoy the moments with them 🩶🥰

🩶 Much love and light energy for everyone who's reading my notes 🩶

[gothicmoisturee]

I Tried but He Found Me

Mikey x Reader

Chapter 2

March 3rd,2017 7:48pm

“You’re really early Kazu-“ I stood in the doorway shocked. I felt as if I was paralyzed I couldn’t tell if I was happy,mad,frightened, or confused by all this. He shouldn’t be here at all. He said he cut ties with all of us long ago. Why is he back? I don’t understand him and never will. Why is Manjiro Sano here?

Mikey’s POV

“Nice seeing you too Y/N” I give her a small smile before letting myself in their home.``Seems nothing really has changed,I hope you haven’t changed either.” Watching her stand there like a deer in headlights is amusing and pretty laughable though. “Say Y/N, can we play like we used to?” I ask cheerfully And smile at her waiting for a response. She nods slowly and I grab her wrist tightly “Let’s play hide and seek you hide.” I drop my smile immediately.``And we try to find you until 8:00 , try to not get caught, if you do get caught though, who knows what will happen to you .” In a blink of an eye she took off running out the house. I stood and watched chuckling. I pull out my phone calling Sanzu, hearing him pick it up.” Start the chase, make sure she won’t make it to her “date” , don't want my pet running off after all these years, do as you must just get them!” “Yes Boss, me and the Haitani’s are on it. Anything else you want us to do?”

I chuckle a little” Yeah, make sure “Lover Boy” doesn’t go looking for them, let alone try to find my precious Y/N.” I end the phone call and start walking around Y/N’s house taking some of her things here and there.

Flashback Mikey’s POV

I woke up drenched in sweat,it was another nightmare again. I slowly get out of bed looking around the room, everytime feels so hazy and I feel like I could fall. Stumbling my way to the bathroom I start the shower turning the water on cold and heading back over to the mirror. I noticed that the longer I Stare at my face the more I notice how much I dislike the person I’ve become. Ever since Bonten started every single night was between hanging out in strip clubs, taking or dealing drugs, and by the end of the night Gambling with a random guy his life and most likely they lost and we killed them and took his money. By the time I get back home I get lonely and think about the old Toman days. Everything was so fun then, I miss everyone but I know I can’t be around let alone near them. I have a problem and I realized it early on, I can’t be fixed,,,,Well there is one person, she can’t really fix me but I would say she’s more of an aid to me.

“I can’t wait to see you again…….Y/N.”

I call up Sanzu as always he answers immediately, “Sanzu I need you to track down an old friend of mine you know her well.” “ Huh? Who specifically are we talking about?” he said, sounding so confused, most likely because last night we tried a new supply from the cartel.” Hunt down and find Y/N! And don’t take too long doing so knowing her she's doing a lot these days but is private about her personal life, also find out what she’s doing tonight I want to see her again myself” I ended the call and took off my clothes hopping in the shower. Taking really cold showers everyday helps me wake up more since everyone can tell I'm always tired.

March 3rd,2017 5:35pm

I was doing paper work trying to sign off on a property to make another club when I got a call from Sanzu, I answer the phone in a tired tone”I reckon you found her already?””Yeah, but there’s a problem. I know your relationship with her and you aren’t gonna like this when I tell you” confused I stated”What’s the bad news? It better not be something that isn’t that big ….” Sanzu went silent for awhile then in a low tone said” When I stalked her today she was headed to the Petshop Chifuyu Matsuno and Kazutora Hanemiya own, I overheard them talking when I snuck in that she’s going on a date with Kazutora and that she chose him over you.” shocked I dropped the phone immediately I didn’t know how to feel. I went from shocked to angry.

“She can’t forget me”

“She can’t leave me “

“We never really officially broke up. I still own her….”

“I own her still so she’s kind of cheating yeah that’s it”

I kept telling myself those things till I finally picked the phone back up addressing Sanzu.”Give me the time of the date and her address, we are gonna pay (N/N) a little friendly visit.You know how much I can’t stand cheaters.” “Yes Boss” Sanzu said before hanging up and texting me the details.

“She’s gonna wish she never left me for him.”

END OF FLASHBACK

Y/N POV

I was running all throughout Tokyo trying to get somewhere or to someone's house I knew was safe. A black car was chasing me everywhere I went,every corner I turned , every ally , the car was there that jackass probably sent his men to spy on me. I ran towards the pet-shop banging on the door the lights were still on Chifuyu couldn't have been locking up this early "Chifuyu!!!Open up it's Y/N!" . The more I banged and banged on the door I felt like I was loosing hope and he didn't hear me. I turn around seeing the black car again parking as two men get out the car. I know one guy was Sanzu and the other I barley recognize he had a mullet and Burgundy and Light Lilac hair with a blue suit . I took off and ran into the back alley of the pet-shop hearing them chase me from behind. I kept running looking back a few times to see how close they were,I looked back one last time before I bumped into someone he had black hair with white streaks ,a scar on his face near his eye ,and a cigarette in his hand blowing smoke . He looks at me then smiles saying" I think we found you , little Y/N"

Next thing I know I was grabbed by the arms of Sanzu and the purple haired guy, I kicked and screamed trying to get out of their grasp then next thing I know.

I blacked out.

[fangirlstorycreator]

Max Parish X Reader

Context: Max is your bestfriend, he drives you to a date and stays at the bar incase he's a danger. It ends up with Max punching your date 😱💚

Since both you and your bestfriend Max worked together in the police force, you were there for eachother weather it was friendship related or for protective legal issues. You hadn't had much luck when it came to dating, they always had something about them that was right. One guy wasn't over his ex, another was actually gay! Then there was one who was dating both you and another girl at the same time, and the only way you found that out was because he booked a date with you, but forgot he also booked it with her, at the same restaurant! He ended up having two drinks thrown in his face, such a waist of drinks. Anyway, there was this guy you were talking too, and had had one date with before, and it seemed to be going ok. But you wanted Max to join you there anyway.

It was a running thing you both did for eachother, if there was a girl he had a date with who was getting too clingy or too serious straight away, you would be there to help. With you he was much more protective, being a woman out on your own with a guy you had just met was a lot more dangerous. Woman get mugged and attacked a lot, and Max wasnt going to let that happen. So after work, you did your makeup and put on a nice dress, then walked down stairs and towards Max's car. "Wow babes! You look stunning!" "Thank you Max" you said as you sat down in the passengers seat. "Oh man, hes going to take one look at you and melt, any real man would" "That's so sweet Max" He started driving to the car, it was about a 20 minute drive, and when he parked up it was just outside the bar.

"Right, I'll see you in there Max" "I'll be right behind you babes" You walk out first, and even though you dont see it, Max cant help but check you out. He hadn't told you how he really felt about you, he thought he could never get a woman like you. Little did he know, you felt the same, and didnt think you were enough for him either, that's why dating was so difficult, they weren't Max. You enter and see your date sitting at the bar. "Hey Tony" "Hey Y/N, take a seat" he offers you a stool like the one he's sat on, and out of the corner of your eye, you see Max sit in the booth opposite you and Tony at the bar. He gets a waitress to bring him a drink as you and Tony order yours. You had hoped this date would have gone better than the last one, but it seemed that wasnt the case. Tony didnt really ask how you were, he mostly just talked about himself and how skilled he was, at many things.

You got the impression that he wanted to sleep with you tonight, but you weren't that kind of woman. If you had more in common with him and actually had a real bond, then sex would be something you would want, but again, not this early. You decided to make a hand signal to Max, you both came up with hand signals to show how you were feeling in the situation, and the one you did meant 'He's not for me, no 3rd date' he nodded in your direction and you pulled out your purse to pay for your drinks. "Hey what's up? Your going?" "I'm sorry Tony, I'm just not connecting with you. But I think your a really nice guy, I think I'm just not the right woman for you. But it was nice getting to know you, I hope you understand" You pull out some money and put it on the counter, and that's when things start to turn.

"Who the f#ck do you think you are?" "What?" "This is the second time we've been out, so if we weren't gunna f#ck then what's the point?" "Are you being serious?" "You really think I'm hear because I'm interested in you? In what you say or what you think about things? As if you think your so f#ckikg interesting? F#ck your so dumb" You cant give your ears, he was being so nasty to you, so cruel, it even made your eyes start to water. "Look, everytime you start talking, I think to myself, who the fuck does this girl think she is? You are so boring" You cant take this anymore, you stand up and grab your purse, but that doesn't stop him. "Hey, I'm gunna be honest with you, any guy who says he's interested in you beyond just f#ckikg you, is full of sh#t" How could he be so horrible, after you were polite enough to be honest with him, it made you cry quiet but still painful tears.

"Oh come on, your gunna cry now?" He didnt have a chance to say anything else to you, because Max had walked up to the bar, pulled Tony in his direction by his shoulder and punched him square in the face. There was a loud thudding noise when his fist net his face, followed by the sound of Tony crying and falling to his feet, holding his face as blood dripped out from his hands. "You #sshole! Who the f#ck do you think you are?!" "I'm the bestfriend of this wonderful woman, and I also happen to be a cop! Everything you just said to Y/N is nothing but bullsh#t and I will not let some scrawny little runt like you bring down this queen, or say anything that will damage her self esteem, you got that?!" Tony doesn't respond, that is until Max kicks him in the leg "Ow! Yes yes!" Max wipes away your tears as Tony continues to cry from his bleeding nose. "You ok babes?" "Yeh I'm, I'm fine...thank you for that" "No problem, hes an #sshole, screw him! You maybe wanna go get a burger from the meat palace?" "Max I would love nothing more" He smiles as he put his arm over your shoulder and leads you back out to the car, you were so thankful to have him with you, he was literally the best.

[laven23]

La's Frerard theory

⚠️Make sure not to hate in the comments. If you're not interested chill out, go out!

This is a very important era. The fans started to really feel like it was actually happening. The evidences were getting much obvious, pretty soon they would tell us they were dating or something, right?

2007

If I chose to waste the past 10 years of my life to explain something, that would be that confusing year in my chem. There was no single moment these two weren't doing something onstage. Seriously, look at those pictures yourself and tell me if for an anti-homophobia message it wasn't too much:

Much weird, right? I mean. Not disgusting at all lol. But isn't it too much even for making the fans happy, to make homophobes mad, or anything else? There was not only inoffensive kisses, they were not even fast, and sexual things was happening too much. About the kisses, what's more interesting were those passionate ones:

Chronologically 1st one ->

2nd ->

There you could watch them doing it freely. Nothing to hide, nothing to care. Frank was single and so was Gerard. But why? Why when people asked them it turned into nothing? When it comes to the interviews there was only laughing and embarrassment (specially coming from Gerard).. They were playing with us? With each other? Pretty soon you'll see who got more played in this situation.

Interview 1

Interviewer: (...) Wants to know if Gerard sleeps naked

Frank: Yes he does

Gerard: No!

Frank: Well you did when you slept with me

Gerard: a literal nervous laugh.

Interview 2 (About the most famous kiss)

Interviewer: How it was to kiss Frank?

Gerard: oh it was like magic! Fireworks!

Frank on the background: hiding his face

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Ending of 07's: Suddenly Wife!?

Let's not talk about her in specifical this time, but about what brought her into the fandom. Surprisingly Gerard appeared with a woman, and we heard they got married in December 3rd. But not only us but everyone else including the bandmates didn't know Gerard was even that serious with her since they were dating about three months until that moment, even them being old friends it was still too soon. Fans shocked. Some of happiness, liking her, her band and stuff. Others wanted to know what about Frank. Others just hated her because she was too possessive (still) but as I said this is not the subject.

That was an literal nightmare. Gerard and Frank just fought onstage after that, not sure If Frank tried to kiss or tackle him but Gerard got him rolling to the floor. Everytime I watch this I feel so much pain.

The fight ->

We can guess Frank was the only one who fell for him. Or Gerard wasn't brave enough to show off with him. It's very hard to say but deep inside Gerard can be an insecure guy looking for some rescue, something that wouldn't make him worry and get anxious like a gay relationship for example. Not saying he doesn't love Lindsey, but I can't say he doesn't (didn't) love Frank sometime. Personally i feel like it can't be that he didn't fall for him. Even Frank being the insistent one, You need two individuals to make a kiss, right?

Frank started to show himself in a depressed way. Like one time that he went to the backstage and started crying when Gerard was singing Cancer, like he couldn't stand up even for a inoffensive sad song. And more, There's a rumor that says Ray saw Frank crying in the bathroom (not sure where).

2008

Results: Frank was pissed. Like for real.

We never saw him this pissed before. We knew kiddo Frank. The crazy one, the eternal teen, the bone breaker. Now he was an literal adult.

As we all thought is the obvious, he got back together with Jamia and it didn't take long until he got married too.

With that, what a musician would do about it? Music, of course. First Frank started writing poetry (about Gerard) on his site on myspace called ftwwillz (which one he still used until 2013 or 2014), pretty soon he would use those lyrics to make his new songs. Leathermouth came with the most violently depressing songs, reminds a lot of Black flag, his favorite band.

2009

MCR was inactive. Frank started a new band of electronic-rock called Death spells. Full of those myspace lyrics as much as Leathermouth. I think Frank made this account for some of the fans see and believe what he says. What he feels.

All for today killjoys

[waves--6821]

Ardent ~ Chp. 27

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3rd Pov.

"I mean, if it's not too much trouble." Agent Coulson says next to Steve, who stood close with his arms crossed.

"No, no it's fine." Steve replies, Coulson glancing at him everytime he speaks. Louise chuckled at his enthusiasm from her sitting position on the round table ahead of the command controls.

"It's a vintage set. It took me a couple years to collect them all. Near mint. Slight foxing around the edges, but-"

"We got a hit. A 67% match. Wait. Cross match, 79%." An agent says from his screen on a lower level, Coulson approaches him.

"Location." He orders.

"Stuttgart, Germany. 28 Konigstrasse. He's not exactly hiding." The agent responds, Louise nodding as she remembered faintly of the address for some reason.

"Captain, Ms. Grant, you're up." Fury speaks from command, Louise jumping up as she stood to face Fury.

"I need the faster way there, sir. I'm usually interfering or undercover ops." She states, Fury nodding in agreement as Steve awaited at the doors for her to join him.

"Agreed, Ms. Grant." Fury responds and gives a nod to Agent HIll, the agent of command earlier.

"You'll need to be out immediately, we have your equipment ready." She states, quickly escorting her to a ship with her things.

"Louise, we should go together." Steve says as he quickly steps in time with her down the Helicarrier halls.

"Steve, you know I'm more of an infiltrator than the people we know. Which means I need to go in before a rash attack. Besides, being undercover never held me back, you gotta trust me, Rogers." Loiuse says fastly, leaving Steve behind as she was handed a bag and shuttled towards the fastest ship to bring her to Germany.

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The bright marble walls of the museum surround the gathering guests and aristocrats. Louise softly stepped through the second floor exhibit, before the main speech began. A soft mossy coloured gown adorning her glowing honey toned skin, the dress clinging to her larger curves from her breasts to her toned hips and backside. She sips a flute of champagne, staring over a large art piece. One of two men fighting, one above and another below, reaching for one another. Her eyes scanned it in interest as a few whispers spoke behind her before traveling to the main event down the stairs.

"A beautiful piece, is it not?" Louise speaks softly, a surprised look capturing the God's face as he approaches from behind her.

"Yes, but nothing compared to you, my pet." He responds a few feet away, holding his glowing golden scepter as a cane in his palm. Louise gives him a smile at his compliment, making him smirk wider with his gleaming teeth.

"Are you among your people, Sir?" She plays along, keeping her gaze ahead to keep anonymity.

"Not quite, my lady. Rather farther than you could fathom." He responds, stepping to her side to get a better view of her composure.

"Most would be far from these crowds, living off others' work and tireless effort, not one cent really of their own devices." Louise states, giving into some complex that could be a part of Loki's ego.

"Are you one of these people?" Loki questions, completely engaging into her views.

"I must be, inheriting the family business and using it to its efficiency. I never wished for this life but many things come with perks." She states with disdain, taking a sip from her flute of champagne.

"That indeed, my lady. The truth behind the distinguished and the royalty. You are rather astute in your own society than I'd have expected." He praises, keeping his hands behind his back to appear studious. Louise mimics the stance to seem engaged, glancing to his eyes for intent.

A loud voice over takes the marble and stone building, a man's voice speaking pleasant German informing the guests of the party. The couple take a step from one another, separating from their exchange. They share a look, a tie, that begins its stemming to root in one another. Loki is the first to speak, his tongue sneaking a peak as he wet his lips.

"I must bid you adieu, my pet. This has been a dazzling meeting, I do hope you keep that view, it makes you rather admirable." He gently gramps her free hand, laying a soft wisp of touch from his lips before moving back and stepping away to the staircase. Louise lets a breath free, a calmness over taking her senses as she tries to decipher the feelings she suddenly holds.

The soft clicks of her heels add to the noise from below her, her gaze following Loki as he descends away. Her azure coloured eyes flit behind him as she admired his coat and dark verdant scarf with gold accents. She pauses her savoring to see him hit the landing of the staircase, his demeanor changing.

Loki flips his specter in the air, catching the golden handle to smack the gleaming blue grip across a guard's face, making the crowd gasp as they shuffled back. Loki's left hand latched around the curator's throat as he dragged him across the floor; to the main exhibit of the museum, a sculpted bull with a golden slab in the middle; flipping the man across it as the crowd scattered back.

Louise takes slow steps to disappear from sight, quietly sleuthing down the staircase as shouts fill the air before voices clamor and bodies begin to sprint away. Many still rush the stairs, keeping Louise to the side to hear screams fill the air. She shoves and rushes down to catch up, slowing as she sees the curator hanging limp from the statue's slab, blood leaking from his eye socket, quickly presuming him to be dead.

A sigh leaves her lips, her head shaking at her carelessness as she lifts the side of her dress. Notching the fabric high on her thigh on a strapped holster for her throwing knives, pulling out three black blades for her hand. Her golden heeled feet sprint to the exit as she hears shrieks and crashing sounds from outside. Louise's feet move faster as she stops to the sight before her outside the museum. Many guests and civilians were surrounded and blocked by four separate Lokis' in the performance pavilion ahead of her.

"I said...kneel!" Loki demands, the civilians slowly moving to kneel on their knees as the main Loki takes steps forwards and through the crowd. Louise slowly approached from behind, keeping distance as he began to speak.

"Is not this simpler? Is this not your natural state? It's the unspoken truth of humanity, that you crave subjugation. The bright lure of freedom diminishes your life's joy in a mad scramble for power, for identity." Loki says heading to the middle of the area, many surrounding him on their knees, Louise herself listening at the sidelines, watching, catching her gaze to his speech.

"You were made to be ruled. In the end, you will always kneel." Loki states, an elder man rising back to his feet to speak out.

"Not to men like you." The man speaks, making Louise smile just slightly, the knives in her left hand itching to be thrown.

"There are no men like me." Loki retorts,

"There are always men like you." the man responds, making Loki chuckle as he raises his fully bladed scepter in the air.

"Look to your elder, people. Let him be an example." Loki speaks, Louise jumping to action as she feels a familiar presence near.

Louise flips athletically forward into the crowd, landing between civilians to hurl her knives into the three decoys, illusions. Quickly taking Loki's attention as he shoots an energy blast at the elder man; Steve lands in front, ricocheting the energy blast back to Loki, who falls back to the ground. Louise gives Cap a nod, pulling a fourth knife free, readying up for a fight as Steve spoke up.

"You know, the last time I was in Germany, and saw a man standing above everybody else, we ended up disagreeing." Steve distracts, taking steps to move closer to Loki, the crowd still kneeling in fear.

"The soldier. The man out of time." Loki claims with a laugh as he pushes back up to a stance. His head turns to Louise, who gives him a smirk, twirling the knife in her left hand.

"I'm not the one who's out of time." Steve replies, a quinjet essentially appearing and hovering high in the air behind him with a heavy gun targeting Loki from under it.

'Loki, drop the weapon and stand down.' Natahsa speaks from the jet on speaker, Loki easily blasting energy from the scepter at it. The jet dodges it and sweeps away; Steve takes his chance and throws his shield at him. The crowd shoots up in screams, scrambling away as Steve charges, catching his shield back and punching Loki. Using the scepter, Loki hits the shield, Steve blocking it before Loki beats the shield away, nabbing an abdominal attack making Steve shoot back on the ground.

Louise sprints forward, dodging the crowd and throwing a knife at Loki, the blade hitting off his scepter as he turns to face her. She charges a hit, the scepter blocking her arm and swinging back to her stomach. Louise lurches down swiftly, ducking and kicking his leg down, making him kneel before her. He snatches her right leg, catching the edge of her dress.

Loki smirks wider, throwing her up to which she flipped back onto her feet; Steve charges back with a shield hurl. Loki knocks the shield down, Steve taking the second for a swing, which Loki dodges back and twists around, swiping the scepter at Steve's torso again. Steve ducks back, missing another swipe before throwing a rib shot to only get slammed back from the scepter, making him fly forward onto the ground behind Loki. He stands back to him, shoving the ferrule of the golden scepter at Steve's bowed head.

"Kneel." Loki commands, Louise taking her shot and lifting up her dress to let her legs move freely.

"Not today." Steve responds, hitting the scepter up and landing a kick at Loki's face. Louise mimics the hit, kicking from the other side, causing him to stumble away. Steve takes back over, dodging and taking hits from the scepter. Loki takes a chance, grabbing Steve and tossing him away as he approaches Louise.

Louise sees the quinjet hovering, another light in the dark sky appearing as she takes a breath in and hopes her made up plan works. She throws a weak punch, easily letting Loki envelope her in his arms, his mouth next to her ear.

"Are you even trying, pet?" He murmurs, a loud song playing suddenly from the jet's speakers as the light appears closer, a red and gold figure appearing closer in the night sky.

"No, not really." Louise responds as the figure gets closer, her feet jumping up as she twists her body, breaking contact as her heeled foot knocks hard across his face, making him stumble back but open for attack.

A golden energy fires against Loki's chest, making him hurl through the air and crash into a small staircase of the pavilion. The figure lands heavily behind Louise holding its metal hand up ready to fire from its hand, and rockets elevating from his shoulders and arms. Louise nods to herself, now understanding who it was, Iron Man.

"Make your move, Reindeer Games." Tony Stark says from inside the red and gold metal suit, Steve joining his side, as Loki stares at the trio before him. His Asgardian armour shimmers away in a gold light, his hands slowly rising as he still wears his Asgardian coat and regular dark green clothes, Tony standing down the rockets as they stare down at him.

"Good move." Tony says, Loki giving a glance to Louise who steadied her breathing easier than Steve.

"Mr. Stark." Steve greets, Louise giving Stark a nod of acknowledgement instead of words.

"Captain, Grant." Stark responds, as the quinjet lowered to a hover behind them.

Louise picked up the throwing knives, sighing at them, as she thought to herself of better materials. Nat and Steve, taking Loki into the jet as Tony stepped to Louise who turned back around to face him.

"So, you're Howard's kid?" Louise says, no real question as he gave her a nod, his mask lifting to show his face. She stares at his face, smiling only slightly, seeing some resemblance.

"You're what he spent years on, right?" He retorts, making Louise chuckle as she steps in tandem with him to the jet.

"Yup, maybe more on Steve, though. It was a secret project, nothing more."

"Why did you let Reindeer Games grab you at the last moment, I could see the fight from the air. You-" Tony starts, Louise interrupting him. "Because I got an easy opening, Stark. Nothing easier than temptation, and trickery." She responded as she stepped into the jet. Letting him look in as she grabbed a bag, taking some clothing other than the dirtied dress she wore. Loki gives her a smirk, which she shakes her head too, moving to a side she set up to change in from others, that Steve stood to guard, just in case.

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"Is he saying anything?" Fury's voice fills the air, Nat and another piloting the jet, Steve and Tony standing just behind the pilot pit.

"Not a word." Nat replies, Louise pausing to listen lightly.

"Just get him here. We're low on time." Fury says, Nat ending the call by pressing a button at her side, before looking back out through the glass.

Louise sat across from Loki, adjusting her black combat suit. Her suit was equipped with many throwing knives along her thighs and calves, a gun holstered at her back waistband, her brunette hair braided back as she fixed her matching boots as well. Loki stares over her, taking in her essence, smirking to himself as he thought over her then back to his plans.

"I don't like it." Steve says with his back facing Louise and Loki.

"What? Rock of Ages giving up so easily?" Tony responds back, glancing at him.

"I don't remember it being that easy. This guy packs a wallop." Steve continues, Louise pausing, fixing her zipper at her chest that was high up.

"Still, you were pretty spry, for an older fellow. Oh, and woman." Tony plays off, gesturing to Louise to not give offense.

"What's your thing? Pilates?" Tony says, playing around as Louise shook her head, catching Loki's stare.

"What?"

"It's like calisthenics." Tony adds on, speaking to Steve who had a confused/frustrated expression on his face.

"You might have missed a couple things, you know, doing time as a Capsicle." Louise chuckles at the name, making Steve give her a glare which she gave a fake smile in return.

"Fury didn't tell me he was calling you in." Steve says as he turns back, Tony glancing back at the duo in front of him before looking at Steve.

"Yeah, there's a lot of things Fury doesn't tell you." The sound of thunder and a bright flash of lightning near the jet sounds out, Natasha glancing to the side to see out.

"Where's this coming from?" She speaks up, making Louise rise as she feels something approaching from her mind. More lightning strikes closer around the jet, making it shake slightly from the force. Loki jerks forward slightly, looking up around the jet, alerted as Steve looked back to scan the back.

"What's the matter? Scared of a little lightning?" Steve sets up, Louise glancing up as Loki looks over at her as he speaks.

"I'm not overly fond of what follows." Lightning crashes harder around them, a force speeding from the clouded sky above; Louise feeling the powerful energy force rocketing near them.

"Lou?" Steve says, Loki catching onto her action as her pupils widen from her mental abilities.

Lightning strikes harder, a hard jolt landing above them shakes the jet, making Steve and Tony regear their helmets and his shield. Nat steadies the jet as Louise focuses her power, stepping to Loki to block him in between his sitting feet position. Tony steps forward, hitting a button on a side panel to open the rear hatch, passing Loki and Louise.

"What're you doing?" Steve says, Tony stopping as a person lands on the hatch in a kneel before rising. Long golden hair, large shining chest plate, a fiery red cape, and a large hammer laced in his right fist. Thor.

Tony goes to shoot from his hand cannon, Thor, Louise presumed, hitting Tony's suited body with his hammer, knocking him back farther into the jet. He steps to Loki, Louise snatching a parachute from behind him, and kicks Thor's chest. Making him jerk back a step before he swings his hammer at her, Louise blocks quickly with her forearms, the force of the hammer slamming her into the opposite metal side of the jet.

Thor rips the straps holding back Loki, lifting him easily to stand before grabbing his neck securely and twirling his hammer at his side. Taking off into the stormy night, as Louise clenched her hands with a deep grunt, moving to a position on all fours on the jet floor. She grabs the parachute back as Tony and Steve speak, Steve heading to her in slight worry.

"And now there's that guy." Tony phrases, going to jump from the hatch to follow the gods, glancing at Louise who jumped to a stand with an irritated look.

"Another Asgardian? Think the guy's friendly?" Steve shouts, Louise quickly strapping a parachute to her back, hiding her grunt from the last attack.

"Doesn't matter. If he frees Loki or kills him, the Tesseract's lost." Tony states back through his helmet, moving to the hatch, which Louise moved to next to jump off.

"Stark, we need a plan of attack." Steve pushes, finally seeing Louise ready to jump.

"I have a plan. Attack." Tony states, about to take off as Louise slid a helmet over her head to see easier.

"Can I get a ride down?" She jokes, Tony grabbing her chute and taking over into the night, leaving Steve and the quinjet far behind.

Wind hurls past them, as Tony soars through the air, tracking after Thor and Loki. Louise keeps her eyes peeled, trying to stay prepared as he flies harder, coming closer and closer to the godly brothers.

'Drop me here.'

Louise orders since it would've been harder to say, using her power for the first time in many years. Tony's body jerks from her unintentionally powerful mind manipulation, dropping her into the air far above where she saw the two gods from below. She pulls her chute, hurdling through the cloudy air straight towards the cliff top. She pulls hard on the cords, her speed high as she jerks back from the chute deploying. Louise races close to the cliff, hitting the red handle and freeing her chute completely off, skydiving towards the cliff from over a hundred feet. Her body collides into the cliff top, landing in a kneeling position before standing tall. Tony slams into Thor at full force with his suit and takes him down into the woods far below the cliffside past her. Louise steps to Loki, looking more intimidating with the covering black helmet, as she approaches with purpose. Loki stared back, ready to fight, his attention becoming taken slightly from hearing Tony and Thor crashing down to the forest floor. Louise grabs Loki's coat, making him face her, mind battling on whether or not to use her power.

"Tell me, pet, what's your little gift?" Loki dares with a grin, Louise kicks out his legs, making him fall onto his back. She stands over him, lifting him into a sitting position of control, both of them facing the small battle on the ground.

They watch as Stark gets thrown back by Thor's hammer, seeing Tony blast Thor in the same way. Thor then summons lightning to this hammer, charging it for a few seconds before firing it at Tony, sparks flying from the suit and force, burning some of the metal his suit was made from. The lightning stops, Stark resituating his stance before firing an even higher powered blast at Thor, flipping to land at a stump from the force.

"Enjoying the show?" Loki asks to displace the silence, as Tony flys him and Thor into the sky and into the side of a cliff, dragging him across it going up. Thor kicks back, sending them back onto the forest ground before fighting more hand to hand.

"It seems you do, your majesty." Louise responds, making Loki smirk at the presentation.

"So you do want to be ruled, Midgardian." He states back, Louise slaps the back of his head for his words, his chuckles disarming it as he watches on.

"You couldn't handle me, your highness." She retorts with a smirk under the helmet, watching as the men fight fist to metal, both hitting back and forth. Tony gets stuck on the ground before shooting out from under Thor knocking him down, vearing back around and hitting him. The Captain America shield shoots across both of the fighters heads, Tony and Thor's attention going to Steve who stood on a tall broken tree stump.

"That's enough!" Steve shouts to them, jumping from the stump to land in a pose before standing.

"Now, I don't know what you plan on doing here." He continues as Thor speaks up,

"I've come here to put an end to Loki's schemes!" Thor states, making Loki look in with interest as Louise kept pressure on his back with her knee.

"Then prove it. Put that hammer down." Steve pushes, trying to disarm him and the situation.

"Uh...yep! No! Bad call! He loves his hammer!" Tony yells through his suit, Thor jerking his hammer up and slamming Tony back with a hit to silence him.

"You want me to put the hammer down?" Thor shouts, running and jumping high into the air at Steve. He ducks down using his shield to block his hammer as he lands his hit. Lightning flashes from the contact the force waves from it sending them all back. The force flying above at Louise, making her fall back along with Loki who landed before her as she tumbled to the edge of the cliff on the opposite side.

A hand catches her rock clenching fist, another grasping for her left hand that lost grip. Loki appears and lifts Louise from the edge, having her crawl back onto the ground. She sighs deeply, staring at him as he was crouched from helping her, she moves to a stand, removing her helmet off to see him unfiltered.

"Don't get cocky, little prince." Louise speaks, an underlying tease in her voice, as she gives him a nod in acknowledgement of his action. He rolls his eyes at the name as they see the trio below stand and cautiously glance up at them from below.

"Be grateful, pet."

"Not a chance, your highness." Louise responds back to him, as Louise goes to signal for Natasha for pickup up, an earpiece at her side.

[mayancalet-blog]

I wrote a story pt. 1

Its highkey bad tho

I also wrote this a few years ago

“I have loved the stars too fondly

to be fearful of the night.”

Amore Valentine ran her hand in her curly auburn locks that cut off just right above her shoulder as she unconsiously tapped her foot on the cold floor as she waited patiently in the library for Casper Byron, her new study partner. This was their fifth tutoring session together but she just couldnt help but feel butterflies in her stomach. She had a crush on Casper Byron ever since 3rd grade, even though her friends tried countless times to try to get her to move on, she just had her eyes on prize, and wouldn't bother to look anywhere else.

Casper was a very lovable person, and he was also an undeniably handsome young man, he had sandy blonde hair and brown eyes that looked like pools of honey that anyone would want to drown in. In Amore's eyes he was exactly what love looked like. So it was no surprise that girls would always fawn over him, what was surprising though was when Amore got the news that he was failing astronomy since he was normally a very good student, he was always just right behind Amore in grades. And she was even more surprised when she found out that she was the one that was going to be tutoring him. Especially because his girlfriend and him would constantly compete when it comes to grades.

Casper's girlfriend; Lili was a smart girl, not as smart as Amore, but still smart. Her eyes where what one could describe as murky and her hair had an excessive amount of 'blonde' hair dye —that was probably dyed with the cheapest hair dye in their nearest drugstore— that made her hair look almost yellow. She most likely dyed it to match Casper's naturally blond hair, making them a 'perfect' Barbie and Ken-esque couple.

Amore didn't have a clue of what Casper saw in Lili, everytime Lili is asked 'how she got the guy' she replies with the same 5 minute long speech of how she charmed her way into Casper's heart that never fails to leave whoever was patient enough —or rather hypnotized enough— to still be listening up to the very end to be either yawning or rolling their eyes until they're dizzy.

Her thoughts came to a halt when she heard the door creaking open, to reveal the one and only; Casper Black. He had his usual smile on his 'perfect' face, something Amore knew and loved.

They said their hello's with bright smiles on their faces as he took a seat opposite to her.

A few hours had gone by, as day turned into night and their tutoring session was going by smoothly, but quickly, much to Amore's dismay. And though Casper would never say it out loud as it may sound awkward and creepy, he very much enjoyed his time with Amore. It had always been something he looks forward to because he quite enjoyed learning about the stars although he found it hard to form constellations as to him; they only looked like beautiful specs of white in the dark night sky. And also that Amore's warm and welcoming aura provides some sort of comfort and peace in what seems to be troubling times.

But then again, peace can only last for so long.

Lili barged in the room. Her hair was a tousled and tangled mess and her shirt wasn't even buttoned up right. She quickly made her way to Casper, spinning his chair around and straddling him. And then she gave him a passionate —or rather aggressive— kiss, with her still swollen lips. His face contorted into a look of surprise for a quick few seconds before giving into the kiss, as Amore watched with wide eyes still trying to comprehend what was happening. When she finally processed it completely, she quickly looked down and cleared her throat.

Lili's head snapped to look at Amore with her eyes seemingly trying to pierce her. As Casper gave her an apologetic look.

"What?" She said; her voice clear with irritation.

"I'd really appreciate it if you don't shag in front of me." She said in a somewhat sarcastic but firm voice. Trying desprately to remain in her calm and collected demeanor, to not show the jealousy burning inside her.

'I shouldn't be feeling jealous, after all she IS his girlfriend." Said her mind, when her heart said otherwise.

Lili rolled her eyes before she eyed Amore as if she was analyzing her, with a look on her pale face as if her eyes would pop out of her head, making Amore sit up straight and look at her uniform.

"Okay." She said bluntly getting up from her former position. Giving Casper a final kiss straight on the lips making Amore clench her jaw.

Both of them watched as Lili went for the door, giving Casper a wink then flashing Amore a harsh glare. Of course, Amore gave a glare that was just as cold —colder even— that made Lili roll her eyes before shutting the door behind her.

Casper apologized to Amore, as he got up and went after Lili, who was walking away with loud thuds. Leaving Amore all to herself, like he always does.

"Where have you been?" He asked

"Studying." She replied bluntly; but with a hint of anger, as she took larger strides away from him.

He stopped in his steps and turned back and started to walk back to the library.

"I'm really sorry for that." He said solemnly as he took a seat across her.

"It's okay." She said even if it wasn't.

With the smell of parchment from the books around them, they were engulfed in the awkward silence that left too many thoughts hanging in it.

"Let's get back to it!" He said clasping his hands together; desprately trying to break the awkwardness.

They spent the next hour or so, teaching and learning about the stars and the confusing things they form. With a look on her face, that was full of worry and concern, she had a hundred thoughts running through her head,however, one stuck out the most.

'Why couldn't he see?'

'Or did he just choose to ignore it?'

Because only a fool wouldn't notice that Lili mess of a hair was probably caused by somebody running their fingers through it —and possibly pulling on it— somebody who was definitely not Casper, as he was actually studying with Amore the whole day.

And he was a fool.

A fool for the wrong person.

And for all the wrong reasons.

[bandomgay]

My brain to yours pt.1 b.u

Tw: blood,gore,self harm,violence,hallucinations,slight mention of an ed

Au: hey babes this is gonna be my 5th time trying to post this and i want death so bad...however if there is any confusing things or typos or things seem to quickly paced im sorry thats just my brain babey! Enjoy...i guess

Word count: 1,894

It all started when he was about 6 years old, he never spoke ever,not that he couldn't he just wouldn't, his parents were worried about his development,however nothing was ‘wrong', he had a quite developed thinking process for a child, but it wasn't a good one for his age nor was it a normal one,no child should be so terrified of talking to people and being thought lesser of as his voice shook violently while trying to say the easiest of sentences.

he understood people to early into his young life ,he got the memo that everything was too stupid and too hard to understand so he gave up . his mother took him back and forth to hospitals and child psychologists ,his mother scared for what was to come of him could this weirdness she didn't even have a name or diagnosis for develop into something more as he grew? She thought, would he be normal? Would he be like the other children who laughed and giggled at the littlest of things? Would he be happy like them? She had decided to push her concerns into the back of head deciding that maybe he was just awkward it's okay to not fit in hes a fucking 6 year old boy maybe it's not that deep.

he was now in the 3rd grade now and teachers became more and more loud and responsive with their problems, he thought maybe whatever bad stuff they had going on at home they just needed to vent threw aggressiveness and shaking hands and restless mornings,but however it was their screams he didn't care for, he looked them in the eye wondering what he had done wrong, however he didn't care enough to continually think about it, but he realized slowly that couldn't feel anything like the red faced teacher did, he’d envy the poor mannered teachers feelings if he could, just how they could get so angry and fed up with kids who were disgusting and vile and how he never felt that…... he never felt anything at all .Now he was in the 5th grade he had to repeat the 4th grade due to staggeringly low grades and his failed attempts at homework he never seemed to have remembered. Things were getting hard to remember, so hard to remember what the teacher had said in the classroom that seemed to fade away after he was picked up by his mom and the sheer silence of the drive home and his mothers sneaking looks into the mirror with furrowed eyebrows at her son who never told her how his day went.

In school it was just so easy just to drift off in the land of dark swirls and dark worlds filled with make believe that he couldn't separate from the real world that never seemed to go away and darkness he felt comfort in his head till he heard nothing but the disgusting laugh of a teacher who had looked as if she wanted to deck him in the face ( he imagined about 3 different scenarios of how that actually could have occured, he held back a giggle and a sly smirk) as she snapped her wrinkled hands in his face “earth to brendon” he heard the aged feminine voice laced with anger repeat twice but he had failed to tune into the first reminder he was too dissociated to notice, he came too but didn't understand her reasonings of not just leaving him alone and let him rot and break free and he soon heard the fits of laughter coming from children he knew he was too weak to stop.

he wanted to do terrible things to everyone in that very room including himself, a dark desire he couldn't contain from his mind but he never followed through with these type of thoughts. he could never seemed control them he thought of them like messages being sent from an unknown source in the back of his head that had an invisible connection to someone he could see but nobody else could he dared himself if he could just pull at the cord in his head he wouldn't have those those thoughts, the figure never showed up in the same form it could be the shadows of dirty rain water coming from outside showing like a projection on the dingy beat up wall rising above him to claim a mental dominance , or the rotten stain of mold on the bathroom floor that now seemed to have a charming glow yet secretive smile or the bag of dirty clothes that sat high up on its rounded edges now smiled at him and watched him threw the night .

now it was the 7th grade and things had went to shit,it was already shit but it had gotten no better, fits of depression had left him wanting to call a hitman on himself and letting himself be cut open so all the organs in his body to be shot out of him or rip his jaw and everything behind it out of his body but he was too fatigued to think about it anymore his brain seemed to have stopped working back in the 6th grade, he could never think clearly a heavy fog on his brain he could never do much for himself he found the most simple of things he couldn't do, he couldn't pay attention, he felt dizzy at random times becoming feverish and not thinking about why because he couldn't think he thought process lessen and lessened with every passing day until all there were was thoughts of gore and death,sadness and the never ending thought of killing anyone or anything that had managed to make him want death even more.

he just continued to fade in and out of reality staring into the wall for to long or unknowingly staring at the couple of people who he thought was calling him pathetic and worthless with the contradictory voice telling him he's so much better than the disgusting people he saw and that they didn't deserve to smile they don't deserve happiness even though they’d never even spoken a word to him, they were never mean to him. he started pinching,stabbing,pulling at his hair,clawing at himself hard trying to see if he could care that he'd just hurt himself he continued to hurt himself hoping somewhere in the back of his mind he start to feel things, to show him he's real everyone sees him, but his inner self knew what he was doing he wasn't just trying to see if he was a real person he was punishing himself because he couldn't do what the rest of the real kids could do he couldnt plop himeself in a hard metal chair and take a test without thinking about what a disgusting person he was, without hearing them say he wasn't shit that his brain is mush that he couldn't understand the easy directions how he could get so angry and mad without hesitation how he could imagine killing his parents im cold blood… he stomped on his own foot,why is he thinking about this why is he thinking about this why, they creeped back up on him showing him images of his brother and sisters dead and gutted his parents choking on blood and vomit pale and dying, he hated himself for thinking these things,but if it was possible for him to be completely honest with himself he didn't care if they had died or not he just didn't have the ability to care.

He couldn't look people in the face without seeing these images of grewling faces pushed together in piles of pink and red flesh crawling into each others organs which looked rotten and distorted, why was he seeing this things these disgusting things these things… he wouldn't admit to himself that everytime he looked in the mirror he tried not to vomit he tried to hard, he bashed in the mirror bloodlying his hand, his hiss echoing in the empty bathroom he couldn't go to the nurse he couldn't look her in the eye and see her like that, besides he was on the first floor and he was too weak to go all the way to the fourth floor he knew he would pass out, he felt something pooling in his stomach it was anxiety he felt the cramping in his stomach and the salivating in his dry mouth, he vomited into the sink, he hasn't eaten anything in about 3 weeks so the pain of dry heaving for almost half in hour into the sink made him dizzy and ultimately pass out. he had now awoken to bright lights that made him nauseous and whimper, he was in the hospital again. he tried so hard not look the nurses and doctors in the eye and seeing horrific images in his mind of them dead, rotten maggot filled and bloody be he regained his ability to see the normally after a while.

“Brendon honey…” his mommy's voice was there “mommy...hi mommy” he said in a broken whisper. She had realized he never calls her mommy unless something's wrong he wasn't aware that he was, he turned to the right finding an iv carefully placed into in scarily pale arm “honey...they found you in the bathroom your hand was cut up...you where passed out what...t?” she silenced herself for a moment seconds later starting up again. “They found you in the bathroom..the mirror was broken and your hand was cut pretty deep and passed out” he mouth trembled a bit, she moved his sweaty bangs out of his forehead, he felt wetness on his skin his own uniform shirt clinging to his skin he was sweating.

He didn't feel real he didn't respond properly to what she had said he only looked away.. And said “dizzy….everything hurts…” he was so surprised he felt something but if feeling was like this he didn't want it. “I d..don't wanna feel like this..can you make it stop mommy please?!” Nani was absolutely terrified she'd never been so scared for her little boy, “its gonna be okay,sweetie...i swear..to god i swear…” in this moment if she was honest she didn't believe there was a god, no god would do this to her son, she turned around after hearing the door and hard footsteps.

“Hello ms. Urie im dr. Yakima, i will be assisting and diagnosing your son” she nodded softly wanting her son to be okay. “Hey son,open your eyes for me,i'm here to help” brendon heard a much more distorted version of what the doctor had said than nani did, but then again he was fading in and out. He handed her pills and said firmly “these are anti-nausea and pain killers i'm gonna give these to him and he will feel much much better i promise..” He was right it with his cocked up eyebrow and charming smile that sparkled with calmness and reassurance that worked its way into nani. the medication  worked but not instantly. “Sit up honey..” She said softly, he followed what she said slowly with a wrecked groan and intense muscle pain however there was no rush.