#hello anxiety my old Friend

[littlemisspascal]

Getting ready for bed only to get a call a family member's in the emergency room. It's gonna be a long night 🥺

[airenyah]

the good news is: i'm supposed to meet a new friend in town tomorrow for the first time

the bad news is: i have a driving lesson tomorrow and i had put it at 8:30am in my calendar but i just checked the driving school app before going to sleep and turns out the lesson is in the afternoon????? and i can't move it bc they're currently super full and it's also a driving instructor i like for tomorrow's lesson

the good news is: i still have just over 2h for lunch with my friend before my lesson

the bad news is: my friend is coming into town from a different town. i hope she'll still be willing to go all the way to hang out with me even if i don't have much time

help.

[astrabear]

Help, I have achieved that combination of anxiety/stress/sleep/food hormonal issues where I am convinced that 1) my old friend but new housemate is secretly mad at me 2) the cleaning service ladies are judging/laughing at me and 3) the fic I've been working on may have started out well but has gone off the rails and is now terrible.

1 and 2 are irrelevant to tumblr, but 3 has got me wanting to delete my posts and/or leave the thing unfinished. Who cares anyway, right? It's mawkish, bathetic, unsubtle and far too on the nose. It is a pile of cliches and cheap sentimentality and I am embarrassed to have shared it.

I suspect this might not be entirely correct, but it's a very persuasive argument.

[justhere4thevibez]

like I hate living under capitalism but when it comes to the people in my head. pay up. this ain't free real estate, buddy

[frivolous-pastel]

I was SO confused by the adderall comments until I remembered some people take adderall for fun instead of to function

[prettybbychim]

Screaming

[streets-in-paradise]

Even tho i calmed down a bit, i can't sleep.

[melvinthedepressedrobot]

.

[x-heesy]

Don’t look for shadow behind me; I carry it within. Suheir Hammad

Darkness by Pressure Drop 🎧

[mothvalentino]

// is it just me or have more Val blogs been popping up lately... and why do I feel lowkeye responsible for that

[kuromi-hoemie]

i had a fun day 2 day ૮˶• ﻌ •˶ა everyone has been so nicey 2 me all day from the minute i left my house earlier ૮ ᴖﻌᴖა ♡⁠

i went to a Retreat for the first time for work earlier 0: and I did SO good for being up since 2am it didn't even feel like it 💀

it was so chill i drove like an hour away but Away from the city so there wasn't rly traffic and the mountains r so pretty 2 drive thru (❁´◡`❁) got some rain n v low clouds and since it's autumn there's all these pretty colors. i took an edible on the way n was just jammin out n enjoying the scenery among the many safe opportunities 2 look

and then at the thing we got 2 do different ice breakers n go on decently long breaks; i got 2 hang in different groups n actually Talk w a bunch of ppl which i never have time for omg. it's nice working at a legal nonprofit, i would NOT want to do this with corporate mfs !! 😹

went around n said hii to the enbies and i ran up a hill that looked a lot smaller than it was, i made it like 80% of the way before my legs were immediately like no girl we're done !! but my brain was like but it's Right There, and i struggled 2 finish the climb but I Did !! ૮ ᴖﻌᴖა and i was so so tired i do not remember ever being that winded before 💀 getting down was so much slower n worse bc my legs were Done and when i finally made it to the bottom i laid flat on my back for like 15m, and when when i made it back to sit n chill i still need like 10 more minutes akskska. i do not b exercising !! i just wanted 2 play it looked fun and i got excited (⁠｡⁠ﾉ⁠ω⁠＼⁠｡⁠)

in between things i was working on my sister's choker n kept winding up w a group of ppl around me 2 talk to about it and just talk 2 in general n the company was rly nice (❁´◡`❁) ♡ had a lot of different kinda talks 2day!! everyone is a sweetie!! some ppl r so funny n chill and i rly hope 2 get 2 talk more casually w people perhaps As Friends when i go in 👉👈

there's one girl in particular who is rly cute n sweet and i want 2 see her again ૮˶• ﻌ •˶ა when I got home finally i had 2 hop on my work laptop real quick 2 look up her name again 2 make sure i didn't forget ☝️😌 we do not work at the same office but hii i am visiting next week 🐇

yippee!!!! ૮ ᴖﻌᴖა !!!

[dreamweaved]

ive talked about this before but, when briar was younger he’d actually had quite a bad fall. itd been enough to knock a tooth out of his mouth, and left him concussed and disoriented. as a teen he was pretty rebellious, got in trouble with his mother often. but was still adjusting to his worsening vision; which definitely contributed to the accident. i have a lot more on the adjustment period, and how the disharmony within penacony may have worsened his condition,,, but om too tired to make a massive post on that that makes sense.

[wiseagent]

just   a   quick   note   ,   i   am   currently   debating   if   i   wanna   move   loid   to   my   slowly   working   multi   or   not.   all   threads   &   plots   will   move   there   if   i   do   ,   but   i'm   not   too   sure   if   i   will   do   it   or   not   yet.   WE   SHALL   SEE.

[livrary]

Nausea would be a great wordle first entry if it had five letters

[howifeltabouthim]

. . . but the fear had crept in and was sitting on the wrought-iron bench beside you, your own ghost lover that only you could see.

Lisa Taddeo, from Ghost Lover

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...