#heiji balls of steel

[bastionbibi]

Imagine if Heiji just started calling akai and rei Otchan. Like nonconsensually using casual honorifics acting like hes already close with them. The very definition of fake it till you make it.

[autumn-foxfire]

A Heiji episode that isn't about demons? What a surprise!

And it has Okita, who looks like he could be Shinichi and Heiji's love child but will probably be Shinichi's cousin.

I'm not hallucinating am I? I'm pretty sure the shirt Shinichi wore in London was pink, not a green checkered design? Sorry but this OP has changed it and it still looks just as bad T-T Also I know why the OP changed to the London episode "confession" because I'm very close to the episodes where Ran "returns" it but damn does it just show us HOW BAD that moment was. And how abusive it made Shinichi look.

Can't be a Heiji episode without him being gay for Shinichi, can it.

He's probably Shinichi's cousin, Ran.

Okita is barking up the wrong tree though, Ran is a lesbian in denial. Although he'd probably treat Ran much better than Shinichi does, as what Shinichi does to Ran is borderline if not already abusive.

Can we not label Ran "someone's girl" please. She's a fucking person. Just say she clearly looks uncomfortable with the advances and to please stop and respect her boundaries. She doesn't have to "belong" to another man for men to not fucking flirt with her.

I will complain a lot about how Heiji has made his confession into a competition however at least he WANTS to confess properly. Unlike Shinichi who only "confessed" because it was to get Ran to shut up about his bad behaviour. I still can't believe this is the main romance of the series and people actually enjoy it <.< They need better taste.

Satou has balls of steel.

Ran is once again more invested in someone elses relationship than she has ever been in her own. Probably because she doesn't want to be in one with him :p

Ran is jumping the gun a little, there...

LOL Heiji is feeling how Hakuba felt that episode where he thought he could have ruined evidence.

Well, at least it's refreshing that a Kaito/Shinichi lookalike doesn't have 400 IQ.

Ran does not have time for this man's revenge, she needs to get them to the match so Heiji and Kazuha can finally get together. Also obligatory THIS IS WHY RAN SHOULD KNOW. She's so strong, she could be his fists while he's too small to defend himself.

[mintchocolateleaves]

Hmmm...17!

I chose to go with HeiShin, seeing as I haven’t uploaded any before, and I know you feel like there’s an absence of it. I hope this makes you suffer!

17. ‘You mean so much to me. Please, let me help.’

Thefirst thing Heiji realises when he sets foot inside Shinichi’shospital room, is that he’s not there.

Ranis. She’s leaning forward from the chair she’s been sat in, chewingher bottom lip, fingers wiping tears from her cheeks. Her eyes arered, but she offers Heiji a smile as soon as she sees him. It makeshim suspect the worst, makes him think that maybe…

Heforces his way further into his room, makes his way over to the chartthat lays abandoned at the end of the bed. Blankets have been left inan untidy heap by the edge of the bed – not kicked off, like heimagines Kudo would do when getting out of bed, leaving Heiji todeduce that he’s been moved. Not long enough ago for nurses to comeand make the bed, but still soon enough that Ran hasn’t made aneffort to leave yet.

Hishands hover over the medical chart – he doesn’t want to open it.Doesn’t want to read about the consequences to the attack Shinichihad suffered shortly after returning to his own body. Doesn’t want tolearn about what state the detective’s body had been left in afterall the building had collapsed over him.

Heijiknows he should have been here sooner. He’d been away on a schooltrip, hadn’t thought to respond to the phone calls from an unknownnumber – he hadn’t known that Ran had been using a friend’s phonein order to contact him…

“He’salive.” Ran says, and like that, Heiji lifts his hand away from thechart, turning to face her instead. “He wanted to go outside for awhile.”

Heijitilts his head. With all of the time they’ve spent apart, he’d haveexpected Ran to stay by Shinichi’s side – he’s no sure though,which of the two has decided to prolong the separation, doesn’t knowwho needs the space.

“Youdidn’t go with ‘im?” Heiji asks. He wrings his hands together,trying to calm his own thoughts down. Shinichi isn’t in the intensivecare unit, meaning his injuries aren’t fatal – maybe they had beenonce, but he’d pulled through – and since he’s allowed outside, hemust be recovering well. Shinichi is alive, and he is fine.

“Idecided to stay back,” Ran says, lifting her phone up, “I stillneed to phone a lot of people to say he’s going to be okay.”

Heijitakes a moment to decipher her words. Going to be okay, isn’tthe same as, okay. It suggests that something still isn’tright – does this mean that Heiji’s going to have to visit thehospital for a lot longer then? He’s not sure.

Allhe knows fully is that Ran’s stayed behind because she needs sometime to mourn. Heiji isn’t sure whether it’s because of Shinichi’sbeing injured, or whether he’s finally told her the truth behindConan, but she’s stayed behind to deal with her own emotions.

She’shad to be supportive then.

“He’sin th’ courtyard, yeah?” Heiji asks, and waits for the respondingnod. He doesn’t stay long, pats Ran on the shoulder in an attempt tocomfort her, and leaves to find Shinichi when she urges him to go toShinichi.

Heijifeels almost guilty to leave Ran behind. He knows that Kazuha willlecture him later for not asking about what’s wrong, for not tryingto comfort her – but well… Kazuha has always been closer to Ran,will always be comfort her first, before Shinichi.

Anabsence of signs pointing to the courtyard almost leaves him lost.Eventually though, Heiji finds his way there, stopping once to ask anurse for directions, but otherwise ignoring the rest of the world,focusing only on one thing.

(Hisfather says he’s good at things like that, says he has a one-trackmind. Heiji isn’t sure whether it’s as bad as he states it is.)

Bythe time he finally steps out into the courtyard, his mind has goneblank. He sees Kudo, sat by the grass, glancing down at the flowersthat are growing. He doesn’t move as Heiji approaches him, simplyleans back on his arms, legs out in front of him.

“Kudo,”Heiji says, as he reaches him. He’d broken out into a run as soon ashe’d seen him, amazed to see him generally unhurt. He almost trips ashe stops in front of him, joining him on the floor. Gaze flickeringup and down Shinichi’s body, he surveys the other detective’sinjuries – other than the bandages around his chest, continuingdown his lower back, he looks unharmed.

“Hattori.”The response is flat. Not the sarcastic, irritation that he’d usedwhenever they’d seen one another back when he’d still been stuck atConan. His voice is devoid of all emotion. “You came.”

“O’course I did.” Heiji says, and he’s not sure whether it meansShinichi thought he wouldn’t, or whether he was hoping he wouldn’t,but there’s no satisfaction in the responding ‘thank you’. Maybe he’dbeen wrong in his deduction, he thinks, maybe Shinichi had been theone who’d asked Ran to stay behind.

“Thecase is finally over now,” Shinichi says, and he turns to Heiji,offering him the ghost of a smile. It’s haunting, but something aboutit is fitting – Shinichi’s been a ghost in Tokyo for almost a yearnow, his expressions are starting to fit that. “I finally get to gohome.”

Heijinods, “you won.”

Hegets a small laugh in response. It’s hollow, empty. “No I didn’t. Ijust solved a case.”

Itsounds like winning to Heiji. But maybe the damages far outweigh thesuccesses. Maybe leaving behind his life for a year, isn’t worth thesuccess of taking down the largest crime organisation Japan’s everseen. Heiji feels almost stupid for not thinking of it as a loss, fornot thinking about the long-term effects of Conan…

“Atleast it’s finally over.” Heiji says.

“Finally.”Shinichi says. He hesitates, pushes himself up with his hands andpoints over at a football that’s been abandoned by a bush. He says,“Hattori, will you get me that?”

Heijidoes. He brings it back, passes it over to Shinichi, who throws it upin the air, catching it again. He never throws it high, not likeHeiji would expect him to, instead keeping each throw controlled.

“Youknow,” Shinichi says, “being Conan made me remember what I lovedabout football. Or rather, playing with the Detective boys did.”

Hethrows the ball into the air again, higher this time. The windcarries it forward, and Shinichi lets it roll away when it bouncesback onto grass, his gaze following it.

“Iwas going to join the football club again,” he says, “being Conanmade me miss playing with a team.”

Heijisays, “it’s not tha’ far in the school year, you can still join.”

“No,”Shinichi sighs, “I can’t.”

Thereis a moment where all that Heiji can hear is his pulse, where allthat he can feel is confusion tearing apart his subconscious. Butthen it registers. Then, his gaze flickers over to the wheelchairthat’s been left beside one of the many benches in the courtyard. Heglances over at the football, reminds himself it’s for kicking, notthrowing. Recalls how Ran had needed time on her own to let heremotions overwhelm her, how she’d said he’d be okay.

“Youcan’t walk.”

Hedoesn’t receive a confirmation, but he can read it in the wayShinichi’s shoulders tense. Can see it in the way he turns his headaway, as if embarrassed – as if this is something to be ashamedabout. Heiji wants to shake him and say that surviving a buildingcollapse is something to be proud of, but he doesn’t.

“Whenthe building went down, I fell forward…” Shinichi says, “so anydebris that fell on me, hit my back.”

Heijicloses his eyes, takes a moment to process what he’s hearing.

“Thedoctors said that the trauma hit the lower end of my thoracic spine.there’s a chance I could walk again, if I join the rehabilitationprogramme… but I won’t be able to play football again.”

Heijilets out a deep breath, steels himself, and reopens his eyes. Thereis raw emotion on Shinichi’s face, misery. He’s gone through toomuch, Heiji thinks, to just give up now. “You will.”

“Iwon-”

“Youwill.” Heiji says, “even if it’s just against me, you will. Haveya accepted th’ programme yet?”

Shinichishakes his head, “I needed time to sort my head out, I needed tocome outside and figure everything out.”

“Let’sgo an’ accept it then.” Heiji stands, pushes the wheelchair fromthe bench, bites down on his tongue to keep his own emotions incheck. Then, he holds his hand out to Shinichi, waits for him to takeit.

“Youdon’t need to…” He looks almost guilty, as if he feelsundeserving of any help.

“Youmean too much to me, fer me to not help ya,” Heiji says, liftingShinichi’s arm over his shoulder, and pulling him up. “So please,let me help.”