#hed have to know something about their urges and/or amnesia

[minty-bunni]

AU where Halsin immediately figures out durge is a Bhaalspawn with a brain injury.

[majorasnightmare]

For durge list 8 15 19

I SPENT SO LONG ANSWERING THIS ASK SPECIFICALLY AND THEN TUMBLR JUST ATE THE FUCKIN THING. CHRIST.

gonna do what i can LMAO

8. How does your Dark Urge feel about the wilderness?

he thought he was ambivalent towards it until he got to the city LMAO

hes positively neutral about it, like he isnt a huge nature guy like halsin but he is like "yeah this is nice"

the lack of available options to satiate the Urge isnt as much of a downside for him since he tries to pace himself out anyways, and overall he enjoys the relative quiet and the wildlife. the scent-scape is generally more pleasant+less obnoxious also, which helps

15. What is your Dark Urge’s greatest fear?

if you asked him when he first woke up, hed probably have to think a while before eventually settling on something like "having to kill a loved one" or something equally generic. not entirely inaccurate but definitely an answer he thinks is fitting rather than strictly true

that changes when he gets to the gate

its forced helplessness. its being bound to something you cant escape from. its something hurting you, twisting you, punishing and abusing you, and you cant make it stop or escape because you carry it with you. its being forcibly hollowed out into a shell that walks around like normal, like nothings wrong. its being warped into something unrecognizable to yourself and not knowing who looks back in the mirror. its a lifetime of paranoia and terror masquerading as power and ambition.

its father dearest and how your always the hand he cut free but wants to reattach

19. Has your Dark Urge become particularly close to anyone romantically and/or platonically in their journey? If so, who, and what is the relationship like? If no, why not?

i spent so long answering this one and tumblr ATE IT ALLLLLLLLLLLL

i got this ask twice so ill just break the answer up LMAO

and for this one ill do family edition

dirge is TECHNICALLYYYY the youngest of four bhaalspawn, cut from their fathers flesh, and each considered a failure leading to the creation of the next one. its roughly split into two "generations", an older "classic" generation and the newer one dirge is a part of. none of this is bg3 canon but it lives in my brain rent free so here have it anyways.

dirges eldest sibling is another tiefling by the name of zherimon, who he only really knows pretadpole. the next eldest is a drow named ornaryn, who he distances himself from pre AND post tadpole. and his next oldest brother is a goliath, haaflidi, and haaflidi had the unfortunate luck to get snatched by a nautiloid

haaflidi is a barbarian (then monk multiclass) whos response to being tadpoled was to slam his head into the pod repeatedly until the explosion proof glass shattered, and gave himself brain damage induced amnesia in the process. closer in age to dirge than any of his other siblings (save orin), the mutual amnesia meant that when they dragged their bloody bodies off the beach, they were able to forge a relationship without the pressures of the bhaal cult breathing down their necks. it takes a little while but after a sceleritas visit post alfira confirms the half remembered suspicion of being related, the mutual Urge suffering and late insomniac nights lets the two of them establish something vaguely resembling a sibling relationship. dirge is very connection driven, and he unironically considers his older brother to be an impressive and admiration worthy person, their rapport is amicable in the "older brother bullying a younger sibling who keeps coming back for more" kind of way. haaflidi isnt particularly talkative and very blunt and direct, so dirge rarely has to guess how hes feeling, and the fact he responds at all instead of making an effort to drive him off is proof enough that the affections reciprocated. if haaflidi was angry, or genuinely wanted him dead, the dirge would simply be dead, instead of their usual playfighting. they have a healthy amount of respect for each other and a good amount of sibling camaraderie that they just werent able to develop in the cult thanks to its abusive family dynamics.

both of them fall in p easily into a familial dynamic with jaheira, who almost definitely groks the bhaalspawn reveal way before either of those two do. dirge in particular has a strong craving for community and close pack dynamics, which jaheira almost certainly picks up on, and her "effects first, morals later" approach means that they can maintain a friendly relationship despite their conflicting alignments. dirge is more motivated to be good to his loved ones than he is to satisfying his impulses or causing harm, and his loved ones are broadly on the good spectrum, which is enough for jaheira. what trouble he does get up to is either too minor for jaheira to give him shit for, or wont have consequences until well down the line, which is a problem for future jaheira. so despite dirge being unrepetantly evil, and jaheira having zero intention of compromising her good alignment any time soon, the fact that he values his relationships enough to make an effort to preserve them and their mutual goals is enough to let jaheira feel comfortable calling him an ally. his particular struggles trying to achieve independence from bhaal and trying to regulate his murderous impulses almost certainly remind her of her days with gorions ward, but even without that hes personable enough that falling into a rapport with him is easy. when he isnt being a blatantly evil shitheel, dirge is fairly easy to care about, especially since so many of his struggles hit close to home. jaheira almost certainly figures out his "lone wolf" vibe, not in that hes some brooding badass, but that dirge is isolated, panicky, prone to paranoid aggression, and desperately seeking connection and stability, and thats enough to pull her into trying to mentor and support him, a relationship dirge only lightly pushes back against to tease her. he appreciates her no nonsense approach to situation handling, and how shes driven by material conditions and what results she wants, rather than her ideology, and shes just good fun to play bicker with. sometimes you just gotta give an old lady shit.

minsc falls into the familial dynamic too, though hes not as close as jaheira. dirge appreciates that he can take a beating mostly unharmed, and vents his constantly growing bloodlust by sparring, which minsc happily participates in because physical violence is a form of friendship. he wont call minsc it himself, but dirge doesnt push back when minsc calls himself dirges uncle, and overall just considers the guy to be great fun, ESPECIALLY when it comes to bullying jaheira