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this is very quickly becoming an issue, the rot consumes.
thank you character designer for gravity falls for making ford's design play into every single one of my art style crutches. whoever you are, I love you and wish you the best. I love drawing old men, but specifically this one right now.
#stanford pines#ford pines#grunkle ford#gravity falls#art#sketch#traditional art#fanart#i am ill#he's kinda real. sometimes.#I love drawing old men#old men are my favourite to draw thank you#if you spot the refs for any of these i will cry and then sob to you about how they have changed my soul#my markers are running out of ink and idk what to do about it#what do you mean I cant use the same marker in the same condition for every drawing ever?!? no!!#I have more art I just need to make a ford appreciation post first#everytime I draw ford it's all āoh wow yeah he's so grhggā and then I remember stanley exists and I feel so guilty#love me a fucked up sibling dynamic#thanks alex hirsch#me my sibling and the really fucked up the more you try to understand it relationship we have#like yeah sure we love eachother but have tlu ever considered hatred spite and malice?#keep being who you are gravity falls you are my favourite guys.
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Y'know what would be really funny? If each of the Flynn Fletcher siblings KNOW/have suspicions about Perry's secret, but they each keep it to themselves for individual reasons. It's been pointed out before that Perry can get REALLY reckless sometimes, and other times the boys are too clever/know Perry way too well.
-CANDACE has actually seen and interacted with Perry in secret agent mode, particularly during the time she thought she was high off her rocker and Perry had to save her from a self destructing volcano. She's had dreams where Perry was a secret agent in them.
-She doesn't bring it up or think about it much bc she just has like. A lot of other more pressing priorities most of the time, which is so valid. Also I lowkey thinks she suspects she's got a hallucination problem, like with the Zebra? I get why she doesn't talk about it out loud: she sounds crazy enough to her mother as is without suddenly talking about how their exotic pet is a sentient secret agent in a fedora.
-FERB figured it out almost immediately that day he and Phineas accidentally fell into Perry's lair and they pretended to be "secret agents" for the day. HE knows he didnt make that lair. Everything was almost toddler sized, but functionally and professionally equipped for a working adult. There were only two "P" s in the family, and it clearly wasn't Phineas. Also? Everything was Platypus themed. He put two and two together.
-I figure he doesn't talk about it bc he lowkey knows why Perry doesn't tell them. He and Phineas have a lot of faith in Perry, and Ferb is a lot less emotional. If Perry refuses to tell them about his double life and where he goes, hes just gonna trust him.
-Im pretty sure PHINEAS subconsciously knows about the secret agent thing. From where? Africa. He šÆ spotted Perry in secret agent mode on the other side of the gulf while hanging from that vine, and between his siblings Phineas is CLEARLY the one who knows what Perry looks like best. He can pick Perry out from colour and smell from every other brown eyed teal platypus in the entire tri-state area. He not only recognizes his paw prints: he knows Perry's healthy weight distribution on them to know whether or not hes injured or limping. Like....my boy can be oblivious and autistic 98% of the time, but Phin is also REALLY self aware and trusting of his own eyes and instincts.
-He doesn't talk about it because hes in denial š
#that being said i kinda wanna write a fic where the kids each try to help#in their own way#or help him hide from being found by literally every other member of the family#like in a comical way#realistically if Candace ever walked into her living room and saw Perry in a fedora shes just gonna stop#stare#and then turn around go somewhere else and pretend she didnt see it#and Phineas is gonna straight up dismiss it and pretend hes hallucinating or something#bc he really is his mom's son sometimes#Ferb is the only one out here hiding Perry's jetpacks under the bed and sneaking into Perry's lair after his missions to help modify#his gadgets lets be real#phineas and ferb#perry the platypus
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The Lamb is malicious in a funny way and the Goat is funny in a malicious way. No, I will not elaborate.
Anyway, everyone give thanks to the Lamb for interrupting what was sure to be a very boring and patronizing PSA from their grouchy cat hubby. Truly, they are doing God's work. Granted, the Lamb canonically is God now, so, uh. Mostly they're just doing their own work.
Speaking of their grouchy cat hubby, yes this is absolutely still Narilamb, Narinder is 100% into his goofy-ass spouse always no matter what and we all know it, he just wasn't expecting his brand new adopted kid to share the same single goofy-ass brain cell as the Lamb. :)
#fanart#comics#cult of the lamb#cotl#narilamb the goat AU lmao#cotl narinder#cotl lamb#cotl goat#did i look up a photo of billy the kid to base the goat's outfit off of?#i plead the fifth your honor#for real tho guys#rams and lambs are for sheep#for goats you want bucks and billies#or if you're afabing your goat - does and nannies#(tho to be fair ram IS sometimes accepted for male goats also? instructions unclear on that front tbh)#also don't worry - i am never gonna be all YOU GOTTA USE THESE TERMS OR YOU'RE DUMB AND BAD#it just kinda makes me giggle when i see mixed up animal deets#don't even get me STARTED on cat deets tho lmao#if i had a nickel for every time i saw a fanfic writer give narinder a knot#i would have two nickels#which isn't a lot but it's weird that it happened twice#at least the one where he was a wolf instead of a cat because the author didn't KNOW he was a cat made sense LOL#yeah i'm over here outing all the lemon fics i read idgaf#if you know which fics i'm talking about you can't even judge me anyway cuz we both been at the same devil's sacrament#i should go to bed
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āhe was mentally ill. this monster was a- was a sick fantasy. a product of his dementia.ā
āā¦i saw it too. does that make me disturbed? demented? doesā¦ that make me sick too?ā
#txf#the x files#dana scully#fox mulder#folie a deux#this episode ā¦ this EPISODE!!!!!!#genuinely so indicative of how much they trust each otherā¦.#between mulder just . having to rely on scully for the last part of the ep#scully thinking heās off his fucking rocker and still looking into what he asks her to look into bc she TRUSTS him . bc she LOVES him !!!!#and maybe heās a little nuts but goddamnit she will at least check it out !! just in case heās right!!!#AND she lies for him all the time . i mean she always does this whenever he decides to go nuts But specifically in this epā¦#looks skinner in the eye and goes . yea man im totally fully with mulder on this . and heās definitely not being weird and i definitely kno#whatās going on with him#she lies for mulder all the time its sooooā¦#anyways . drawing wise this drove me nuts i hate drawing mulder . heās so hard for me to draw#theyāre kinda kirie and shuichi coded in the bottom part but . well . why not . might as well be#ALSOOO i chose that quote for the bottom bc . well . does she think heās crazy? like actually for real?#i feel like every time scully talks about mulder (up to season five at least as thats where im at) its contained in some way?#in her reports . to family . to skinner . to mulder !#i think the only time sheās Really honest is in the confessional but even thenā¦#bc its not like sheās against speaking her mind . i mean generally and situational but for ppl sheās close to she usually isnt#but when it comes to mulder it always feels contained and like sheās making excuses for him (he is always her exception .#llike whenevrr he gets some disease or affliction or whatever she ALWAYS jumps to going ābut wellā¦ sometimes thereās this excuseā and she#does this w a lot considering shes science focused but w mulder shes always like . well he ISNT crazy because uhhhh .#this hyperspecific scenario that is in no fuckin way the case)#but does she think heās crazy? does HE think she thinks heās crazy?#is he asking about this specific case or is he asking in general? over the entirety of the show?#its been five years scully. is he crazy? sick? demented?#has this all been a sick fantasy fueled by mental illness? youre the doctor scully . surely you have the answer?#anyways i dont think she knows . and if that is the case ā what does that mean for her?
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Very strange to me that there are Ford fans who don't think he sucks. Like. Are you telling me that's not a feature to you guys
#ford fucking SUCKS sometimes and i love him to death for it!!!!#i am giggling and kicking my legs about it as we speak#you know who else kinda sucks? stan! and fiddleford!#those men have PROBLEMS and theyre so real and interesting for that#i love all my fucked up little geebos#also bill sucks too but he sucks 10 million times more than everyone else so i didnt bother mentioning him#gravity falls#stanford pines#cat rambles tag
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some of the less nice thoughts about being aroace
extras below the cut
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closeups on my favorite panels
bonus: adios
#doodles#kingdom hearts#roxas#axel#olette#aromantic#asexual#aroace#do i tag pence. hes in the background of one panel#ehhhh sorry pence no tag for you#also not tagging soriku and namixi#i mean by the logic of 'theyre in one panel so i wont tag them' i also shouldnt tag axel but. he has dialogue so#anyways i have a very irrational love of olette whenever i need a random side character in a kh comic? olette#i think she uses webmd. anyways im done talking about olette#so let me clarify about this comic#im aroace. this is all just things ive thought before#im not saying in any way these thoughts are real. theyre just thoughts#thats why it ends with 'but there isnt. its just me.' there IS nothing wrong with being aroace. even if it feels like it sometimes#im not trying to send a message im just trying to express a feeling ive had for a while#anyways. the aroace community is super positive and i like that. but not everything i feel about it is that positive#sometimes it feels like im missing something yknow#this comic seems like its about roxas. but its about me. congrats youve been fooled#drafted something similar to this for aro week but didnt finish it in time so this is spiritually part of asaw 2024#btw sorry im not posting as many drawings lately#schools kinda stressful im pretty tired and busy most the time#i am throwing this drawing to you like a slab of meat to a pack of hungry dogs. take this meager ration in these trying times#alright i think thats it bye now
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If you draw dip i woul be sooooooo happy
So I like to imagine Damien likes to fill in Pip about what happens back on Earth
#veearts#south park#sp fanart#fan art#damien thorn#phillip pirrup#pip#dip#damien x pip#i will talk more about this:#they become besties in hell u can't convince me otherwise#based this also a bit off of Damien still being in the bg sometimes#but yeah I think pip would be a bit bummed about passing so soon#ofc he's like well I guess I'm just unlucky oh well! but he'd miss being around everyone#even if they were pretty mean...#as they get closer Damien would tell him about the latest crazy shit that goes on#but he hides it under a lot of fake and real frustrations#pip very much appreciates it and can kinda sorta see through#and yeah basically this is canon in my head thanks
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Had to take this to the professional š«”
We need more dad tony stark content (literally anything you got)
Literally starving
Thank you š
thank you for giving me more excuses to talk about this. Tony is such a good fucking dad in general, but he's especially great when you get sick. if you're in new york, he probably notices cause you're not up as early as usual. idk where this came from, but I can hear him clear as day walking into your room and smoothing your hair to wake you up, saying
"Hey pumpkin, sun's out." you only grunt in response, but it's not your usual sassy I don't wanna wake up grunt. It sounds softer, like you actually can't get up yet.
"You feeling okay?" before you can answer, he's totally on it. "jarvis, run a vital scan."
He rolls you over onto your back so he can look at you. you look... pale. you don't have the usual vibrance to your skin, it's gray and faded. you look like if you weren't lying down, you'd pass out. Your eyes are puffy and watery, your lips are chapped. You're not yourself. While Jarvis runs a diagnostic scan on your vitals, Tony also gets to work. he carefully sticks a microneedling patch on your arm to check your blood - something Strange helped him whip up, among many other ways to monitor your health without all that clunky invasive hospital equipment - as Jarvis gives him the low down.
"Elevated body temperature of 101.3 degrees fahrenheit, swelling of the sinuses, elevated white blood count..." Jarvis rambles on and on while describing your simptoms, only interrupted by an agressive coughing fit.
"And a rather nasty productive cough."
You look up at him and try not to get teary, you know crying will just make you feel more dehydrated and achy.
"Dad... I don't feel good..."
He looks down at you so warmly, and with so much love.
"I know, kid."
He stands up, determined to do everything he can to kick this cold in record time.
"Alright, your schedule for the week is cleared." He cuts you off as you object. "Ah-bup-bup-bup. I don't want to hear it. You are officially on bedrest until further notice. Jarvis, order out for some of that soup we like, some cough drops, and popsicles."
He looks down at you.
"You want ice cream? What am I saying, of course you want ice cream. Jarvis, throw in a few pints of Stark raving hazelnuts and bunny tracks."
He grabs the remote for your tv, putting on your favorite movie and has dum-e wheel you in a box of tissues. He grabs some vaseline and cold medicine, along with a fresh cold water and your favorite flavor of sports drink.
"Now. I want you to lay back, I want you to stay cool, and I want you to get some rest. And you're a Stark, so staying cool should be no problem." He gives you a kiss on the forehead, then stands up to move all his work to stuff he can do at home, and tell Pepper to cancel or reschedule the rest so he can spend the rest of the day watching movies and tv shows with you between naps. You can hear him muttering to himself as he calls Steven over to come check on you. If you weren't so tired, you'd find it funny that the only person your dad trusts to be your family doctor is also a wizard.
"Can stop aliens from invading earth, I can make an arc reactor that can fit in the palm of my hand, how have we not cracked this cold and flu season thing yet?" he mutters, making a mental note to discuss it with the rest of the Avengers at the next team meeting. you drift off to sleep feeling a lot better than you did when you woke up, and thinking about debrief folders titled Avengers v. Rhinovirus.
#dad!tony#iron dad#drabbles#marvel drabbles#marvel x reader#marvel fluff#mcu x reader#mcu drabbles#mcu fluff#tony stark#tony stark x reader#tony stark drabbles#tony stark x stark!reader#tony stark x daughter!reader#tony stark x son!reader#guess who has the sniffles#tee hee!#hearing tony call me pumpkin has cured me instantly#turns out the avengers can beat the common cold#maybe the real cure for disease was the friendship they found along the way#but yeah no he'd have peter and harley alternate checking on you every thirty minutes#they're disinfected. they're masked up. they're wearing medical gloves. they're drowning everything in lysol wipes#peter is also kinda worried about getting sick but harley thinks all these precautions are dumb and would rather just get up in#your personal space#tony will allow neither of those things to happen#so yeah it's comfort food comfort movies comfort beverages to the max#he'll also offer to read you bedtime stories half as a joke but also completely seriously#sometimes you just have him take work calls in your room cause hearing him talk is so comforting#he jokes that he didn't realize his work was THAT boring#and you get to be like daaAAAAaaaddd....
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random throwback to fabio's response to casey saying he should've been black flagged for the whole open leathers situation
#'he is at home and he likes to fish' is truly superb#//#brr brr#heretic tag#current tag#i was reminded of this in a very roundabout way... seeing a social media graphic celebrating fabio making q2#which is like. yes that's nice. but that's also inherently extremely depressing lbr#and i was kinda thinking how... look obviously people don't ignore it and yes the novelty has worn off after last year#but it feels like what's happened to fabio should STILL be getting more attention than it is. like it is a major injustice#that also no past stars of the sport are regularly having hot takes about! they mostly just ignore him!#i do sometimes link casey and fabio in my head. roughly the same age gap to the all-time-great hazing them during their rookie seasons#the only riders within their manufacturers able to wring performance out of their bikes over the course of several seasons#who suffered a competitive decline as their manufacturers went the wrong way#now obviously casey's 2010 is nowhere close to as abysmal as fabio's 2024 but. y'know. and at least casey got to leave for pastures greener#anyway given all that. it is funny that like their one significant interaction is fabio dismissing casey as a fisher#which ironically is of course a deeply casey line. casey had a whole thing about how retired riders should maybe know to stfu#āi have seen the real face of some with whom i had a good relationshipā EXTREMELY casey line#and thus the cycle of life continues#(though casey was obviously right here lol)#ofc the main difference between the pair of them is that fabio at heart is a lover and casey is. not that
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I have come back I know you guys have been starving
For the accession: revenge outfit Scorpius
Idk if I like it but it does it's job for now
#j for the last one I kinda love it tbhš#yes by my logic the first thing he does after escaping a cult is go change into an even cuntier outfit#he's just real like that#my husband has returned from war and is now probably going to disappear for another 100000 years#erik if you don't kidnap gbƤ and keep him in your closet I swear to God#yes I could make a post talking about my thoughts abt the newest episode#but sometimes I like watching stuff and not stopping to ponder about whether it is well written or not#just for my own peaseš#redacted audio#redacted asmr#redactedverse#redacted scorpius#redacted brachium#redacted fanart#hmrhd arts
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I feel like Chip is a very special friend for Sonic compared to the other companions that Sonic encounter on his adventures.chip seem to have a special place on him.
on that scene sonic says as if chip was protecting him this whole time cuz of the fact of him being the light gaia and chip answers that wasn't him, but sonic himself that made it, but i do think indeed that chip was the reason of sonic not giving up to the dark/ being like the people during the night,but not because of chip protecting him as him being light gaia, but as a friend, chip was on his side even during his night/werehog form, chip was there with sonic during his lowest, chip didn't treat sonic different on his werehog form since chip didn't know/met sonic before, he don't have an idea of how sonic was or suppose to be, so, for him both his day and night version are still him, and that's something that sonic friends don't do, since this version of sonic(werehog) is too different from the sonic that they knew, so they don't even reconizer him or treat him like sonic, even though still him anyway. Doing this adventure and going thru this whole new version/situation together with chip, a friend, made sonic not be consumed by the dark.
Also feel that sonic and chip are very similar, chip just like sonic is a hero, an earth protector, just as sonic, both protect and save and care for the world from the evil, a responsabilite/something that none of sonic friends could understand, none of them carry this duty;something that also make chip friendship so special.
On the scene of adabat temple i feel that what chip meant to say, was that he was scared not because of the temple being "scary", but that he feels that on this temple he would find out who he is, he was scary of what would happen after,cuz after him finding his memory back he wouldn't need to stay with sonic anymore since the reason they were together was to find who he was, chip was scared to end the adventure/lose sonic company and friendship; that's why what sonic says on the night scene is so special "do i need a reason to want to help out a friend?", sonic on this moment confirm to chip that he already consider chip his friend, chip don't need a reason to reach out to him, chip was already his friend;
funny how in the beginning chip was the one scared of ending the adventure and lose sonic, but as the story goes now is sonic being the one insecure about it, the difference being that on sonic is a little more subtle, sonic on the eggmanland scene seem soā¦indifferent, he doesn't seem to be determined/excited as he was at the beginning even though he's so close to unite all the world parts again and come back to be his normal form (without have to become werehog on the night), sonic is indifferent/scary/sad cuz that's mean that the journey is coming to an end, and that this fight would be the last moments of him and chip, after that, both would go on their separates ways, but even sad sonic still supporting chip, but deep down he didn't want chip to go(and i feel chip notices that, but now chip is the one accepting and sonic is the one struggling) this scene after is almost as if sonic want to say something, but got interrumped by eggman(ā¦if we think, is sad sonic and chip never had a proper goodbye)
before i didn't understand this chip dialogue "sonic, you have to live"(i was like, of course he has to live you can't just let he die!š
) but now i think i understand, chip wasn't talking about "live" on a life and death sense, he was saying that sonic must go on with his life even without him,sonic must keepā¦living, even if chip is not there anymore, sonic must continuing to live.
Then after when sonic is thrown out of the lava place, he even imagine chip, almost as if sonic was looking out for him, wishing that this was how it end; but chip is not there, the only thing that is, is his bracelet;
"I'II never forget you" "I'II be here by you, always." "A part of the earth you tread"
chip's words of consolation saying to sonic that he is always with him, being a part of the world that sonic lives and protect, when sonic is protecting the earth is as if him and chip were together fighting/doing the adventure and saving the planet, sonic and chip might not be together anymore, but their connection/friendship remains.
chip song("dear my friend") is pretty much very related to all of that, though the song is very related to chip(since the song voice also remind his) i think the song is also about sonic/sonic speaking to chip, no wonder the song image even show both of them, this whole song represents/shows sonic & chip friendship and the game message.
"Good times and bad times, I can count on being with you. I thank you for staying so true (...) And You are my reason I can make it through"
"I know life can be tough on you time and time again laughter maybe gone 'way I will wipe away my tears to-morrow Life must go on, that's the reason that you travel away"
"Just like a river that flows Just like stars in the dark night Lead me in the storm, Lead me in the dark You are the light of my life"
"Memories you can recall With me any time of day You can reach out you can ask me in your soul I will answer when you call me I will come no matter how Cause we are very special friends"
#sonic unleashed#sonic the hedgehog#random things#this text is pretty much me rambling about Sonic & chip friendship#So It can kinda end up a little confuse#But i don't careš¤ i Just want to write about and talk about their friendship and what i feel#talking like that made sonic friends sound like assholesš
no no i dont think they are#it just sometimes our friends are not always the best friends on certain moments and i think this was the situation of sonic here#this last image of sonic & chip never fail to make me smile is so sillyš but also...sad(this is the ādear my friendā song imageš§)#For real Sonic is so serious on this eggmanland scene none of the moments he even smile or something...he seem uninterested#reading my text again made me notice that sonic&chip friendship seem very similar to a situation of friendship of a friend that passed away#well we will never know sonic unleashed origins but i can't deny that reminds...that's sadš§
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gonna start calling them gen retcon from now on bc the lore with āem (as we know it) is alllllllllll over the place
#juri is kinda the only safe one in the gen (for now at least)ā¦ but the otherssssssā#hiyori + lxl: novels retcon (nonfan heroiku and romeo); nagisa: hastily shoehorned in to fill a gap in the retcon#chizuchan: small one; but her intro to lxl was changed to the shampoo ad in kawaiinoni for the sake of a real life ad#mona: entire story was thrown out the window for the [redacted] anime with 0 chance of revival#minami: *who* is minami really. is the real minami the friends we made along the way? is he the personification of our hopes and dreams?#ā¦and so the hw trend of revealing important info through supplementary media (this time a *popup store* of all things) carries onā¦ mannnnn#whatās next; are we gonna find out that juriās actually aizoās cousin or sth. we gotta include our girl in the retcon race too~~~~~~~#i love how the minami retcon has everyone scrambling for honeypre receipts thoughhhhhhh#cāmon hw~~~~~~ reopen the servers for honeypre 2.0 with all of your lore fixed *and* featuring nagisa and ryou this time~~~~~#but aaaaaaaaa even with all of the retconsā¦ i still really do love these silly little guysā¦#though sometimes i think about the person who was like āhiyori becomes a different person everytime she opens her mouthā#and i think they had a point tbh. but i blocked āem inmediately afterwards bc they ship yhy and idw that on my dash
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Fans at the beginning: I wonder if it's BL
Meanwhile the main character: *fantasizes his wedding with a tall muscular vampire that if he bites him they'll be together forever*
Meanwhile the antagonist: mall goth bitch
#ok i know that wedding fantasy was only in the recent episode#but my boy has a body pillow for a boy band member be for real who is straight like that#its kinda funny how deacon fantasizes his straight romances by saving princess and shit#but when chase fantasizes a gay wedding hes like 'sometimes i pretend we're not related š'#BOY-#cinderella boy#webtoon#chase hollow#buddy#mall goth#hes still remains nameless
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Micheal Townsend
"There was a difference between knowing that Micheal's father was abusive and seeing it."
Bonus:
#Micheal townsend#He's an undercover sweetheart#Also him and Celine as a sibling dynamic NEEDS to be talked about moree#the naturals series#the naturals#jennifer lynn barnes#the inheritance games#dean redding#sloan tavish#cassie hobbes#lia zhang#I will be real though I pretend that him and Cassie never happened#They work so much better as friends in my opinion I'm sorry :(#You know sometimes I think about it though and like in the og group before Celine I feel bad because like he wasn't ever like anyone choice#like objectively#Lia would always choose Dean and vice versa for being best friends#And then Cassie and Sloan are best friends#But like who was his?#It's just kinda sad#Like no wonder he wanted to be with Cassie originally#Also no wonder he got back with Lia you know#Like they all love him but he's not really anyone's first choice#It's just kinda depressing
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kinda thinking about how the women who serve as maternal figures/raise kids in yyh are never quite ready for it. genkai's an arguable exception, but like.. atsuko had yusuke at 15, shizuru's basically in charge of kazuma full time in her early 20s/late teens (depending on version) with very very absent parents, and even shiori is given a kid she wasn't expecting, in the form of an old, old demon rather than like. a regular, blank slate ass human baby. and although shiori seems to do quite well with kurama, kurama can never be honest with shiori about who he is, or much of what he's seen. if he was, it'd probably make things far more complicated and overwhelming. atsuko, no matter how much she cares for yusuke, Could Not Have Been and thus wasn't ready to have him at 15. her attempts to make the most of that situation have had middling success at best. shizuru has also been placed into a parental role. we don't really know how long she's been raising kuwabara, but that's.. probably still parentification anyway. she shouldn't have to do that, and she shouldn't have to do that so young. and i think some of her coarseness with kuwa is out of frustration with her own inexperience + inadequacy + uncertainty, his not cooperating, and their parents for putting this on her in the first place. the ones who know the full extent of their situation grow desperate and it squeaks out in unpleasant ways, and the one who seems unbothered by it is the only one who has no idea that she's in way over her head. and i mean. ok. gonna preface this by saying keiko is NOT yusuke's mom in any sense of the word. but she does take care of him in a way atsuko couldn't manage to. she's often looking after him and cleaning up after his messes and stuff. she takes him on as a responsibility, and that is, in a way, a caretaker role. not to say that it SHOULD be her responsibility, but it's how she ends up being.
and when the stress of trying to make someone take care of themselves or be kind or good or Whatever goes awry, again, the violence and arguing and distance and ugliness of caring for someone reveals itself.
and i wonder about that. for a series dedicated to physical fighting as a form of communication, what does it say that this extends to the complicated, quietly desperate situations of so many of the women/girls it depicts, whom our more central characters were shaped and raised by?
hell, even hiei touches on this, because hina loved hiei, but there was no way she was prepared for him, obviously, nor for the pain of losing him. rui (whom i also see as a sort of caretaker figure to hiei, inasmuch as either of them were caretakers) literally throws him off a cliff because she couldn't face down the village elders, and out of some mixture of care for hina and, likely, fear for her own survival. and the guilt and pain of that killed hina and deeply wounded rui.
it's like motherhood, this thing that's so often treated as sacred and beautiful, is a kind of stitched up, painful, eggshell-walking thing that hurts parent and child and it's just. oughh
#genuinely begging for discussion on this bc im too tired to think about it anymore but i think it's cool#yyh#yu yu hakusho#also apologies if any of the atsuko stuff's iffy im anime-only </3 i skimmed the wiki but. it's the wiki so grain of salt#atsuko urameshi#shizuru kuwabara#shiori minamino#keiko yukimura#genkai#yyh meta#<- i never tag stuff w that but i probably should..#this is making me a little emo about all of them but on the side more quietly kurama bc like. bro he loves his mom so much and he can't tel#her ANYTHING. houghhh she will never ever know him she will live and die within his lifetime and not know any of the big beautiful terrible#life of his that she's missed. god that fucking sucks dude wait#anyway something that's only grown in importance to me is how prickly the relationships in yyh can be. like damn they do love each other#and it's even mostly a good thing. but sometimes that means you're shitty to each other. sometimes you're not great at it yk#and the characters therein are complicated and flawed without feeling like it's a huge focus. like plenty of media go here's these fucked u#guys look at how they scuttle and that's cool fr but with yyh it feels so subtle and gentle and real. it's so personal and human and i love#it. even when it means hiei doesn't reunite with the gang at the end or when genkai never tells yusuke what he means to her#y'know? that stuff used to hurt me and now it hurts me in a good touching 'god i love people' kinda way. yeah
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Hey!! So turns out a video I made between a certain āwell beloved but highly sensitive/emotionally reactive T.Vā and an āorange haired inkling-turned-humanā has managed to sweep my YouTube channel and accumulate 100k VIEWS!! THATāS A LOT OF PEOPLE ACTUALLY?? My most widely viewed video EVER to exist in this moment in time?? AAAAA?? Not even mentioning the various comments and staggering increase in subs! Itās so much more then what I expected or even prepared forāmight even be the most impactful thing to happen for me this year <3
ā¦aside from graduating high school + the social connections Iāve been fortunate to make lol
BUT THE POINT IS Iād been closely monitoring the YouTube growth through the entirety of October. Itās make me smile like a dork, gawk in astonishment, dance frantically in my room from the energy boosts, and grow courage to stop being so selective/self-conscious with what I wish to share with the world! Itās kept my ambitions going!
I needed to find some way to celebrate the occasion and express my thanksābecause I canāt NOT acknowledge this milestone jksjskp. Typically I try to avoid getting tunnel visioned focusing on the metrics/numbers. Mr. Puzzles had already demonstrated how much those things can mess with the minds of creatives. Caring too much about chasing views or placing your artistic value in attention seeking gets damaging. But at same timeā¦itās hard to deny the sense of pride the 100k achievement has filled me with. I understand that reaching 100k views doesnāt immediately make me any ābetterā or āworseā then I was before. Iām still just me! It only helps me feel seen by othersāand thatās all I really needed. To hear some nice words & receive reminders that my ideas are cared about. So thank you SMG4 fandom for that, seriously thank you.
Please accept this Mr. Puzzle drawing as a way of sharing the happiness around. Heās so entertaining. Love him for simply existing. So glad we can all collectively be super attached to him (and the rest of the SMG4 cast of course). Canāt wait to see more incredible artworks from the fandom :)
Just incase anyone is confused by my vague description over which āanimated videoā Iām referring to hereāhopefully this photo will help clarify lol. Itās this one!! Sorry about not outright stating the title at the start, I got carried away with writing!!
Iāve been in an odd place mentally when thinking about it. Wondering to myself if any of the attention is deserved considering itās not even fully colored and could be dismissed as ālow effortā content (despite taking several days making it). Itās easy to get into a trap of comparing yourself to others and questioning how much of the videos success is based on your skills, sheer algorithm luck, or only because you used popular characters and catered to a specific fandom. And then judging yourself by looking at other peoples videos. Iāve seen several artists post higher quality works then my own but it somehow gets less views. So why did mine succeed when others (who should have gotten just as much attention if not more) didnāt? Sometimes you feel like youāve unfairly robbed them of that chance to be seen. However Iāve realized that I canāt ever expect views to be consistentāand comparing is pointless. So why worry about it or feel inadequate? I mean itās pretty common for funny cat videos to go viral, so who am I to question the system lol. āPopularā YouTube videos can range from a passion project which took 7+ artistsā¦to a clip of Toad singing Chandelier or a nonsensical Vine sketch. Anything can happen when itās the internet! And just-so-happened my video was chosen. I should stay glad about that and get rid of all the overanalyzing. So thatās what Iāve chosen to do :)
#OKAY SO SO SO actually started doodling this once the video was around 98k this morning#it wasnāt even meant to be art specifically designed to celebrate the milestone at first#I just wanted to draw the funky fella who makes me laugh#but as you can see that changed up fast jksjksp#I was under the impression that my video wouldnāt reach near 100k until December UH?? WHAT HAPPENED MY PREDICTION THWARTED??#seems Iāve severally underestimated how long the traction would continue for geez wow uh#people sure do enjoy comedy gotta love āem laughs and giggles#I CANāT BELIEVE WE REACHED IT THO. THATāS INSANE TO MEāALL THE SUPPORT AND COMMENTS AND SUBS#thank you SMG4 fandom I wouldāve never fathomed the algorithm to carry it so far like this#you wanna know the real kicker?#things would have gone so differently for the channel if I didnāt wrestle with my anxiety & post there#because there was a point during that day where I fullheartedly figured it would cause me to loose subs#I was kinda terrified ngl#this goes to show that you should never hold yourself back from sharing different aspects of your interests#you donāt need to confine yourself to just one thing#or to strive only to make the most high quality videos ever (I put that pressure on myself a bit too much nowadays)#sometimes itās the simple ideas that manage to charm people#and those who see the effort will stick around to support you. You just need to trust yourself during the process and take that chance :)#EWWWW MUSHY GUSHY SENTIMENTALITY CLOGGING UP THE ATTENTION HERE#whatever happened to keeping the focus on āØthe starāØ who made it all possible to begin with huuuu??#show a bit more gratitude to the charming TV who boosted the viewership in the first placeā¦donāt be so self absorbed with morals lonesome š#what is this some sort of My Little Pony episode oh pleaseeeeee š#<- all of that was a simulation of Puzzles interjecting and nagging a bit lol. Iād imagine heās tried of my nonstop nonsense#ā¦.yea the Puzzle brainrot is reaching maximum severities. So thereās high chance Iāll be animating him more down the line :3#stick around to find out!!#hplonesome art
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