#he's just an example i think of a guy who turned a fun hobby into a job and now he hates doing it

[boy-above]

j/hn wolfe make one video without complaining abt ur audience challenge

[just1cefor4ll]

—You’re the type of person they write rock songs about

modern!au Viktor x fem!reader warning. swearing, might be OOC, not proof read

part four || part five || part six

‘Ooh love, ooh lover boy

What’re you doing tonight? Ooh, hey boy.’

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[powpow] y/n.

[powpow] y/n I KNOW YOU’RE STILL HERE.

[powpow] ANSWER ME YOU COWARD.

[ekk0stime] they’re definitely just lying there, staring at their screen, kicking their feet or some shit.

[ishaq] yeah, probably overthinking a two word message.

[truly.y/n] I ACTUALLY HATE YOU ALL.

[powpow] no u don’t <3

[ekk0stime] soooooo when’s the second date?

[ishaq] “second” implying y/n considers tonight a first date LMAO.

[powpow] THAT’S SO TRUE WAIT.

[truly.y/n] I AM NEVER SPEAKING TO ANY OF YOU AGAIN.

[powpow] oh, so you’ll just talk to Viktor instead? got it.

[ekk0stime] they walked right into that one.

[ishaq] perfect example of self-sabotage.

You groaned, covering your face with your hands. This was a mistake. Responding was a mistake. Having friends was a mistake.

Your phone buzzed again—another message from Viktor.

[vik.tor222] You should rest. Big night and all.

[vik.tor222] Goodnight, rockstar.

Your stomach flipped, heat creeping up your neck.

[truly.y/n] goodnight, vik :)

You turned off your phone and threw it onto your nightstand, rolling onto your side with a groan.

Your friends were.. annoying— but you were all like siblings, hence the mutual bullying.

The next morning, you woke up to exactly 53 new messages in the group chat. You stared at the notification in pure dread before finally tapping on it.

[powpow] GOOD MORNING STARSHINE THE EARTH SAYS HELLOOOOO

[powpow] u guys think y/n dreamt about viktor last night wrong answers only

[ekk0stime] absolutely not who do u think she is?

[ishaq] hell no— she knows a viktor? who the hell is he

[powpow] LMAOOAOA Y/N CONFIRM OR DENY

[powpow] HELLO????

[powpow] I KNOW UR AWAKE.

[ekk0stime] what if viktor was their first thought when they woke up too.

[ishaq] oh, they definitely checked their phone hoping for another text from him.

[powpow] AWWW THAT’S SO CUTE

You groaned, rubbing your hands down your face. These people were your friends—allegedly.

[truly.y/n] you guys need hobbies.

[powpow] we do. it’s bullying u.

[ekk0stime] it’s a full-time job actually.

[ishaq] benefits are great.

You were about to fire back something equally stupid when a private message popped up.

Viktor.

[vik.tor222] Morning, rockstar. :)

You blinked at the screen, suddenly feeling way too aware of yourself. Why was that the first thing you saw today? And why did it make your stomach do a weird little flip?

[truly.y/n] morning, viktor!!

Your group chat was still blowing up, but you ignored it. Instead, you stared at your phone, waiting to see if Viktor would say anything else.

And then—

[vik.tor222] Are you free tonight?

Your brain short-circuited.

You glanced at Viktor's message one last time before typing back.

[truly.y/n] I actually have plans tonight. Band sleepover

You waited for his response, but it was a little too long for your liking, and you started second-guessing yourself. Was that a weird thing to say? Should you have said something else?

Before you could overthink too much, his message came through.

[vik.tor222] Sounds like a fun time. I hope everything goes smoothly tonight.

A sigh of relief escaped your lips as you quickly typed back.

[truly.y/n] Thanks! It’ll be good, I’m sure.——————————————————————————You tossed your phone on your bed and grabbed a jacket, already hearing the excitement building outside your room. Powder, Ekko, and Isha were probably already messing around— making the other people in your block feel like kicking their asses.

As you left your room, the sounds of your bandmates filled the air, laughter echoing from outside your dorm

“Finally,” Powder called out as soon as she saw you, waving bowling tickets in the air. “We thought you were ditching us or something.”

“Right, I’m ready to go, come on— i’ll be driving so help yourself to whatever you want when we get there.” You said, plopping down into the drivers seat before driving off, radio on blast as you started your 15 minute journey to the game center.

Soon laughter filled the air as everyone tried to outdo each other with strikes, spares, and ridiculous celebratory dances after each turn. “Watch and learn, I’m about to get a strike,” Powder declared, only to knock down just three pins. You laughed, offering her a playful round of applause.

Isha made a dramatic bow after her perfect strike. "I’m the undisputed champion of this group." She signed, putting a peace sign before sitting down at the booth to eat some of the chips you bought. Ekko rolled his eyes after knocking down a solid seven pins. "Don't forget, I'm also winning in the high score department." As the game continued, you found yourself enjoying the distractions. It was good to have moments like this, to just not think too much about everything.

By the time the game ended, everyone was feeling a bit more relaxed, though the chatter about Viktor never quite stopped.

As you all packed up to leave the bowling alley, Powder was grinning. “I think we should have a rematch next week, but I’ll let you all catch up to my skills first.” Ekko raised an eyebrow. "Catch up? You just got lucky." "Uh-huh," Powder teased, her voice dripping with sarcasm. "I’m basically the bowling queen." Isha gave you a look as you all walked out to the car. "So, is this the night we hear about your secret texts with Viktor? Or are they still off-limits?" Powder asked, throwing an arm over your shoulder. You groaned. "Can we please talk about something else for once?" "Not a chance," Ekko chimed in, “You know we’re all dying to hear how you really feel about him." You threw your hands up in mock surrender. "Fine. I’ll tell you everything, but later.” Everyone agreed— but you did earn a few groans before continuing your night.

When you finally made it to Ekko’s dorm, you were relieved to have a chance to relax. As everyone filed in, you grabbed snacks and drinks and settled on the couch. “Alright,” Ekko said, popping open a soda and leaning back. “Movie time” You groaned dramatically, “But you always pick the worst rom-coms ever, let Isha pick she always picks the good shit.” Ekko flips you off, grumbling before sitting down on the coach.

After a few moments of silence once the movie credits came rolling in, Powder leaned in with that recognisable mischievous grin. “Alright, no more dancing around it. Tell us what Viktor said. I need the full rundown.”

You sighed, feeling the weight of their anticipation, but you couldn’t help the small smile that tugged at your lips. You knew you wouldn’t get out of this without giving them some details. Isha leaned forward, her eyes wide with excitement. “We promise, no freakouts. Just the details.” She signed and sat right next to you, throwing her legs over your lap to scoot closer so she could see your phone screen which contained all the messages they’ve been dying to see.

You let them scroll through the messages, earning some dramatic gasps and ‘no way’s’ as they handed you the phone back. Of course, Powder spoke up first; “Yeah that’s definitely not a ‘we’re just friends’ type of message.” She said, pointing out several of the messages she deemed fit to that description— Ekko and Isha agreeing. You tried to brush it off, but your heart fluttered at the memory of his words. “It’s just polite. Nothing more.”

“Sure,” Ekko chimed in, raising an eyebrow. “I definitely text my friends good morning texts, ask to meet her alone without her very close group of friends, ask if she’s free the day after that and give her cute little nicknames.” He said very obviously with sarcasm laced in his voice.

The room went quiet for a second. Isha was the first to say something, her expression filled with intrigue. “Hold up. So, he asked if you were free tonight? Like, right now?” “Yeah, but I told him I had plans,” you said, looking at them sheepishly. “I have this sleepover with you guys, so I couldn’t—” you gestured toward them, “—ditch you.”

Powder raised her hands in mock surrender. “Okay, fair, I’d be mad if you ditched us for Viktor. But still... that’s.. something.” You groaned and sank back into the couch, realizing you’d just confirmed all their suspicions. “I don’t know, alright? It’s not that deep. He’s just... being nice.” Ekko shook his head, smiling. “Nah, that’s more than being nice. He’s interested. You’d be crazy to think otherwise.” Isha nodded, her eyes glinting with amusement. “Yeah, he’s not texting you like that unless he really wants you.”

“Ugh,” you groaned again, covering your face with your hands. “Why do you guys have to make this such a big deal?” Powder laughed, slinging an arm around you. “Because, Y/N, it’s adorable and we’re here for it. Also, you’re totally not fooling us. There’s definitely something going on.” You shook your head but couldn’t fight the smile that spread across your face. Maybe they were right. Maybe there was something more to all of this. But you weren’t ready to dive into that just yet.

“Alright, enough about Viktor,” you said, sitting up straight. “Let’s just focus on having fun tonight, yeah? No more talking about him.” “Sure, sure,” Powder said with a grin. “But tomorrow you need to text him— and let us help you out. You’ve been warned.” You laughed, feeling the tension in your shoulders ease as your friends went back to teasing you in the most ridiculous ways. For tonight, though, you were content. You had your friends, a whole sleepover ahead of you, and the feeling of something new and exciting with Viktor still lingering in the back of your mind. You were okay with that—at least for now.

Viktor sat back in his chair, working on an essay the professor handed out two days ago. He let his friends tag along to the library with him so he had some sort of company— and partially because Jayce practically begged to come with.

Vi leaned forward with a grin that Viktor knew was both teasing and knowing. “Come on, Viktor. What’s going on with you and Y/N? There’s definitely some sparks between you too.” He carefully avoided her gaze, taking a long sip of his coffee, as if it would ground him. “There’s nothing going on. We’re just—getting to know each other.” The words felt rehearsed even as they left his mouth. Jayce raised an eyebrow, his attention now fully on Viktor. “You sure? You’ve been acting differently. You’ve never really been one for.. opening up to people.” Viktor remained calm, though his pulse quickened. "I’m still me, Jayce," he said, his voice a little too smooth. "Nothing’s changed."

Mel, who had been watching him quietly, folded her arms and spoke in a voice that was always direct. “You’re not fooling anyone, Viktor. Something’s different. I can tell by the way you’ve been acting around her.”

Viktor’s eyes flickered to her, his usual composure slipping just slightly. “I don’t think you understand,” he replied softly, his tone serious. “I’m not looking for anything complicated. I’m just.. not ready to go down that road. Not yet.”

“Alright. I won’t pressure you. But you’ve got to admit... there’s something there.” Vi said with a awkward smile, sensing the slight tension of the topic. Viktor didn’t answer right away, and for a moment, the conversation seemed to lull. He couldn’t really ignore the way Y/N made him feel—how she’d slipped into his life so effortlessly, how easy it was to be around her. But it was still too new. They’d known each other for less than a month. It felt too soon to even consider anything beyond what it was now.

Finally, after a long pause, Viktor sighed and set his coffee down, his fingers gripping the edge of the table with a tension that betrayed his calm exterior. “Fine,” he said, his voice lower now, quieter. “I do feel something. I won’t deny it.” He hesitated before continuing, his tone thoughtful, almost guarded. “But it’s too soon. We’ve barely known each other for a month. I’m not ready to rush into anything.”

The room fell quiet, the others processing his admission. Vi gave him a knowing look, but she didn’t press him further.

Mel spoke up after a bit, her tone more measured than usual. “It’s understandable, Viktor. Sometimes the timing just isn’t right. But don’t let fear of moving too fast hold you back, either. Whatever happens, happens. Just don’t shut yourself off completely.”Viktor nodded, the weight of their words settling on him. “I’m not shutting myself off,” he muttered, but his voice was softer now, almost to himself. “I just don’t want to move too fast. I need time to figure things out.” Jayce leaned back, crossing his arms with a satisfied grin. “Hey, at least you’re being honest with yourself. That’s a start.” Viktor gave a slight smile but didn’t say anything. Instead, he turned his attention to the books in front of him, the conversation lingering in the air between them.

For now, he’d keep his feelings close. But somewhere deep down, he knew that whatever happened with Y/N, it wouldn’t be so easily ignored.

© just1cefor4ll— I don’t consent to my writing being reposted to other platforms or fed into AI. Translating it is also strictly prohibited. 🚫

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[emyluwinter]

Hey honey.

It's been a long time since I've thrown out some theories.

Before the new part is released at the end of January. I want to share a few ideas about what can happen in general in the arc of Dissomnia.

In Riddle's dream, we see that his subconscious (no, guys, Malleus doesn't create all these dreams, he just gives them sand and various shapes and throws them into the sandbox) made his childhood very…Happy? His loving mother, who doesn't treat him like she's cultivating some kind of experiment. On the contrary, she has a big heart with a tender love for his son. Maybe his parents will be one of those sweet romantic couples with a long and strong marriage. A quiet, serene life. The friends who had been with him for all those years that he was actually locked in the house. Lots of hobbies. Lots of fun, lots of childish curiosity, games and adventures. Yes, he is still respected. But he is loved. Love as a friend and an undergraduate who has earned a good reputation.

Well, it can also be as tall as a two-meter-high Epel. Ahahaha.

Or 1.1, as we saw in Leona's dream. For Riddle, the dream is a nightmare where he continued all his mother's instructions and ended up….broke down. When he realized that the world was completely different from the narrow, tiny world in which he was trapped.

Ace's dream is something wild. It haunts me that we didn't see Ace at the very beginning. You see, we met the characters exactly in the order in which we met them. For example. Epel-Rook-Vil, Floyd-Jade-Azul. Jack-Raggie-Leona and so on. The meaning is clear. But in the arch with the dreams of Hearts, everything went topsy-turvy. It's pretty funny if they just switched places for the sake of Alice's chaos theme.

Ace is definitely going to be a wild card in every sense. Maybe his dream is a simple school life? Or is it an endless amusement park?

But you know, I want to see one detail….

What if Ace's subconscious gave Yu and Grimm better conditions? A Loving Family? A house?

I had an idea what he could give to Yu's - parents. Yuu mother, for example, is a famous photographer and artist (Yu's love of photography and art), and Father is an inventor or craftsman (I will fight with anyone who says the opposite, that Yu does not understand repairs and all sorts of things, after so much has been done in their dormitory) Definitely a man who has golden hands, in short. And Yuu will be their favorite child, having inherited their passion for certain crafts. A modest but very very cozy house where you can exhale and leave all your sorrows at the door. Where there is always a smell of something delicious or pleasant.

Grimm is a part of this family unconditionally. Is he also loved, also slightly spoiled?

The reason, which has strong and deep roots in the form of family and home, is that neither Yu nor Grimm will leave college. Yuu doesn't have to go back to his world, Grimm doesn't have to get used to living alone without Yuu.

Maybe Yuu will even have magic in Ace's dream, who knows?

2.2 We turn the chessboard around again and his dream is all his hidden fears. The horrors and nightmares that haunt him.

Riddle remains the same Tyrant, the rules are becoming suffocating in every sense. There is no help from senpai, teachers, or the principal. Yuu either returned to their world, or were injured or died in one of the overblots. Or they were expelled when Grimm's behavior was no longer tolerated.

Consciousness and subconsciousness are very complex things. Therefore, it is difficult to say what can break out and turn into a dream.

The arc of the other characters' dreams will end. Finally, these filler series will end.

The plan of Idia and Styx. Discussing exactly HOW to wake everyone up and reason with Malleus. Most likely, this will again be a division into groups. 22 characters in one scene, it's a nightmare for a screenwriter!

After we wake up the "last one," Malleus decides to make a move. You know, I couldn't help but think that this Dragon, beautiful as a god, was just waiting for a very convenient moment to attack. And this guy, let's not forget, is also smart. VERY Let's say we woke up the whole "gang for a fight". What's not a great opportunity to sneak up and not destroy the entire pillar? My bet is that there will be a repeat of the sleeping beauty scene. Silver started it, so there will be an attack on him. He's the only one who can walk through other people's dreams without Draconia's knowledge. Permissions NOT too.

What is easier to deprive the only chance to wake up the others again than to fix the main problem? We put Silver to sleep, we throw everyone back into their dreams. Voila!

This will most likely happen after Riddle wakes up. It would make sense because we started the game with Riddle (figuratively speaking), and Malleus closes the door back at the very end. They have some similar themes, which would be well reflected by some of their parallels. Both have a theme of roses and thorns. Both follow their own "rules", both have their own "reputational image", both don't know much about the "outside world".

Finally, let's bring Lilia back into the story. Yes, I miss the reunion of the Diasomnia family.

Yuu will see more dreams about "Sleeping Beauty" as a warning that Malleus has been watching them all this time and waiting for the moment to cut down this weed.

7.1. Yuu also sees all the horror, all the nightmare from the prologue.But not fleetingly in a moment like before…..and live every second of this desperate and hopeless situation. It's like they're being burned alive, torn to pieces, and they see each death in slow motion, like an endless torture.

Silver, because of his unique Magic, can see this nightmare too… and they both realize that this is not a dream at all, and not because of Malleus.

Lilia drinks blood. (maybe Yuu, maybe not) LISTEN, he ate frogs and mice, and another Bag knows what else. Technically, he's a flying mouse fairy. Sooo some species feed on blood. What's not a great solution to give Lilia the "opportunity" to regain her powers and magic before completing the entire arc of studies? It might work as some kind of move that just nobody knew about. Let's think that the Senate hated Lilia because his kind could feed on someone else's blood and become stronger? It's not the most pleasant thing, but we have something. It's a good and logical argument why they didn't want him in the capital so much.

So far, these are all the points that I can come up with in my tired head.

and also

Chapter 8!!

Each chapter has its own "theme" that is discussed one way or another throughout each arc. I may be wrong, but I only use the ones that I noticed myself during the passage. Chapter 1. tyranny and despotism, parental overprotection. Chapter 2 other people's hopes, a brick ceiling (I don't know how to say for sure that even if you give it your all, there is something that you can't go through in any way to achieve more) Chapter 3 - bullying, self-doubt. Chapter 7 the inevitability of loss, grief and loss, and so on.

For chapter 8, it could be Loneliness, isolation, and the outsider. Loneliness? It seems that this topic has not been raised in other chapters.

Yuu's loneliness, because they're not from here. Grimm's loneliness, because he doesn't belong to any part of society either. It's possible that the "puppeteer" is so distraught from loneliness and grief from the loss of something.

Hmm. Most likely, I'm wrong, and the topic of chapter 8 will be different.

They are both isolated from the world in one way or another. Remember how in the same novel, everyone kept them at arm's length and a mop, just to avoid dealing with them.

I understand that we still have a lot to see in Chapter 7, but frankly I have no idea what they have in store for Chapter 8!!

Oh, yeah. Most likely, on this anniversary, the 8th dormitory will be made official and they will be given a "badge", the one with the ribbon that students wear on their uniform jackets. In any case, it's very likely. If they also give you a uniform for Grimm, it will be very cool.

That's the end of my brain gum and I'm taking a break from work.

What do you think, dear?

[artimaz1]

NICK FURCILLO ANALYSIS BECAUSE HES SO COOL AND MISCHARACTERIZED AND I LOVE HIM!!!!

Nick is not a “brooding secret bad boy who HATES women and is a PERVERT”. He is a nice boy from Australia that wants to make everyone happy. Yes, he is a plot device, but there’s still character there, and a lot of people overlook it because of his short screen time and the more interesting characters around him.

Nick is the perfect example of a people pleaser. He wants to make people laugh and be funny because he wants them to like him. He doesn’t open the door when Dylan closes it but apologizes to Jacob, he throws the phone because he thinks it’d be fun, he makes offhand comments during playful arguments but doesn’t join in, he can help Abigail with her bags, he goes along with the party because Jacob says he is- and that’s all in Chapter 1. He obviously doesn’t mean any actual harm- as shown when he profusely apologizes and swears he’ll pay for Jacob’s phone if he fails the QTE to catch it. The biggest example of this behavior is the campfire kiss. Nick has a crush on Abigail, but he wants to make everyone happy, so he goes along with the kiss. He doesn’t want to deal with conflict, but that’s what causes it. Also, Nick was drinking (which isn’t an excuse) so he probably wasn’t thinking straight when he did it.

It’s set up that Nick has a crush on Abigail but doesn’t really know how to approach her about it. He consistently needs nudges (literally) to act on it, but he obviously does care about her. He’s awkward and doesn’t know how to flirt- so he tries to imitate Jacob (or has the option to). He can jokingly ask her to draw him or he can compliment her, either way he obviously thinks highly of both her and her artwork and hobbies. Even while infected, his care for her shows through. The poolhouse scenes aside, Nick’s care for Abigail is shown constantly. He body slams a guy twice his weight for her, his objectives are constantly “protect Abigail”, even after he was attacked by a werewolf- the first thing he asked was if she was okay. (I am NOT condoning how he acted in the poolhouse btw, it was creepy and it was meant to be so. Im also not saying that Nick’s feelings toward Abigail while infected were always positive.)

From a character standpoint, Nick acting meaner while infected is probably caused by confusion, fear, and just not understanding the situation. He was attacked, probably in shock, and suddenly he feels things he doesn’t know how to handle. Unlike everyone else (besides Max when he first turned), Nick had no clue what was going on- didn’t know what werewolves were, didn’t know how the infection worked, and so he had much less time to mentally prepare for it. It isn’t “revealing his true nature”. He revealed his “true nature” when he was talking with Abigail in the woods, explaining that he acted like Jacob because he wanted people to like him and find him attractive because he didn’t feel like being himself was good enough. That is the true Nick, not infected Nick. Sadly, that moment usually gets overshadowed by the kiss and immediate werewolf attack, which is when he gets infected.

And from a gameplay perspective, Nick acted much meaner than the others because he’s the first person we see infected. We don’t know what’s going on, we don’t know anything about how they should act while infected. It’s setting that up. They chose the gentle guy who isn’t particularly outspoken and has a puppy crush because it was the best candidate to show the changes the infection caused. It’s meant to convey “nice character turns mean when bitten by this creature, that means that if you’re bitten your behavior is going to change.” This is shown in Max, Laura, and Emma as well. The only reason Nick acted out the most was to make sure the player understood that.

Using Dylan as a way to say that Nick is actually a super mean womanizer pervert is a flawed way of looking at the infection and Nick. Gameplay wise, Dylan has the option to not be infected. He has cutscenes that are the same even if he’s infected, he’ll act the same and say the same things. Nick does not have that option- he is always infected, always says the same things, always does the same things in the poolhouse. Screen time is a massive factor in this- Nick (not transformed) appears in 6 chapters, and only 2 of them are when he isn’t infected. In the other 4 chapters, Nick is shown to get more and more infected and acts accordingly. Dylan is in every single chapter (unless he transforms in chapter 9) and can be infected for 5 chapters at the most. He acts infected for 1 of them, which is the chapter he transforms. Again, this is because Dylan has cutscenes where he needs to act a specific way, infected or not. There is an obvious difference in screen time, which means there’s more time to get attached to and understand Dylan.

Also if I was infected with a virus that makes you literally explode, I wouldn’t act myself either. And hate who you want to hate, I just wanted to talk about Nick, this wasn’t trying to “convince you” or anything.

TLDR: Nick isn’t boring, people just don’t focus on him until the game forces you to- which is when he is infected with the werewolf explosion virus.

[inactivewattpadauthor]

Johnny Cage x Writer Reader: Basically What The Author Going Through

Warning: Venting. Title is self explanatory ~~~~~~~~~~~~ Your eye twitched as you hear the front door to the studio open and close. Just another noise is needed to distract you. Again! Fucking frustrating.

"Baby, I'm home!" Johnny calls happily for you, grunting as he drops his duffle bag aside, filled with his props or outfits or guns, or wherever the fuck job he came from today.

You didn't call back. Grumbling as you forced yourself to lock in on the page before you. You were about to pull out your hair. Nothing has came to your mind for the past hours... days.... WEEKS!

Only one draft is needed nearly one day a week. So why are you always scarce?

Footsteps thumped to your little office den. "Oh, don't tell me you're still nesting here." Johnny enters and frowns as he was very much told silently.

The death look you gave him just checking up on you.

"Y/n, you're still trying to think of what to write for your paper-"

"You don't get it, you pretty boy bastard!" You hissed.

"Easy, easy." The actor held his hands up in pacifist. "Okay, if it's this bad, why don't you just... step down for a bit. This was an off and on thing for you, right?"

"Okay, yes! It is an on and off hobby for me. But I start caring too much. I don't want to stop, at the same time, I can't keep up. And if I can't keep up, I'll have to redo it all over again."

You pace around the room and speak so fast for him. The concerned blind guy only just follows you with his eyes. Looking at you like the weird hysterical young woman you are.

"It's not like I can force myself to just write ANYTHING. I'm too bougie to be posting dog shit plots. It gets obvious." You add on.

"Okay, are your emails open for your readers? Maybe they can help-"

"𝐍 𝐎."

"Okay, got it." Cage cleared his throat and looked away.

"I already feel pressured since I don't feel that motivated. I don't need more pressure being added onto me like that. I don't miss that feeling."

You stop to breath before furrowing your eyes.

"My emails are always opened to my beloved readers. I like hearing what they have to say and think of my work. But I know the second I decide to take requests, I'm going to be the next Cory."

"Who?" Johnny raises an eyebrow.

"Okay, okay!" You held your face in your  hands and took deep, deep breaths. Finally, you'll stop talking very fast and crazy.

"I... I don't want to stop posting stories. But... without any passion to write... and how I can't think of what to write. I don't think it's possible anymore. I keep telling and telling that I'm running low on pages, that writer's block is itching me, I still force myself to keep up the every six days expectation. And I end up having to post something I feel is crappy or too overused."

You stopped there not knowing what else to say. But it felt some sort of good on your part.

Johnny got to speak. "Look, Y/n. I get what you're saying. And it's okay if you end up slowing down. You'll get back to it whenever your mind is ready. But you can't be too harsh with yourself because that's what makes the fun turn into some nasty prison cell, whatever."

He pats your shoulders reassuringly.

"There's so many other important things you have to do in life. So, who cares if you post a day late. Or two. Or a month. Or maybe even a year and a half. It's your call. Tell all those self expectations to fuck off!" He half jokes and holds a middle finger up with the exclaim.

"Right." You smile.

Wow that feels so much better our chest. ~~~~~~~~~~~~ Thank you :') I wish my creativity didn't go down otherwise I would try harder.

It's like the only time I get motivated is if I'm feeling freaky and decide to write about Fujin, and thats an example of overused. Ik some of yall like it, but I try to post different characters.

[bravo4iscool]

girl, I’m not gonna lie to you, I have some free time, and sometimes I really like to use it uselessly. and I found your ig account, then I did some other research and I found a lot about you and your family, so I could really rate you. And yes, I can say properly: you’re ugly.

now, you're kinda right, I give you that. some fit guys do like fat women, maybe one guy out of ten. but these are REALLY PRETTY WOMEN, 'cause I don’t deny that there are beautiful fat women, but they are usually rare, and that’s definitely not you.

I’m not seeking validation wtfff has nothing to do with anything, girl… you seem stupid. I just really found your behavior hilarious. like, how the false illusion of the new age got you, making you really believe in fairy tales. I mean, you're clearly so insecure, trying to pass as “I’m fine with my weight” while really trying to convince yourself that you’re desirable. and like, you’re not 😭 and it’s so fun when you talk about validation, because, you see, I may be petty or bitter or mean, or whatever it is. but, if you really felt confident, pretty, and good about yourself, you would just turn off the anon or ignore me. but no, you’re here, writing answers so you can post and be consoled. that’s how I know you feel pathetic and horrible about yourself, and need these other weirdos to help you fool yourself. you can ignore me, or reply me, it won’t make difference. you too fucking transparent, so easy to read.

or you wouldn’t be doing headcanons of really fit men attracted to you, because if you were desirable and if you really felt that way, you would just know, and not try to reaffirm yourself along with other equally UGLY FAT GIRLS. the main thing here is how out of touch you are with reality. close the tumblr, go to a nice spot in your town, where you KNOW there are hot guys, and please record yourself being chosen by them. if you're so sure of yourself. and open your instagram account, since you have nothing to hide and being ashamed. I mean, you’re pretty right? lol

y’know i’m not doing this cuz i’m insecure💀 also, i never said those hc’s were about me LMAO. i’m very aware that he and every other cod character is fucking fictional💀. this is just my hobby😗✌🏼.

also, why are you so keen about finding out about my personal life? wtf do i have to do with you? it’s fucking creepy to stalk my ig and all that💀. who tf do you think you are?

the only one being pathetic here is you, because you’re out here insulting me via anon haha. at least grow the balls to confront me correctly lol.

but yk, your stupidity and insecurity is pretty hard to ignore. you can have your opinion about me but let me be. i didn’t ask you for it lmao. also, i couldn’t care less about your opinion. you can think i’m ugly, idgaf, but stop annoying me with it.

and idk if you know but talking down on other people has to do with one’s insecurities, so maybe you’re the insecure one here😘.

and yes, i’m fine with my weight. i’ve come to terms with it, since i can’t change it without a medical intervention. is it so hard to believe that someone overweight actually accepts that fact or what? it says that says a lot about you actually.

also, i’m posting this so people can see that there are, unfortunately, still people with the iq of a fucking brick out there. i couldn’t care less about what they tell me. as i said, i’m perfectly fine on my own.

i’m actually laughing writing this because i won’t ignore you. people like you should rethink their life choices ngl.

you’re going crazy over a tumblr post and start to insult me as fat and ugly and you started to fucking stalk me. you’re being the prime example for insecurity rn💀.

your messages can get as long as you want them to be, i will respond to them because it’s sad people still think like you.

there are people out there saying all things about cod or ghost or whoever. if i don’t like them, i scroll, but i don’t start insulting and stalking the author of that post/headcanon/fic or whatever.

grow tf up and get a helmet💀.

[synthaphone]

doing more background character development/worldbuilding stuff for my neopets ocs again. so:

battleground skirmishes

i think the first obelisk war was an event that is now in the past. the skirmishes at the battleground are an ongoing continuation to fight over the boons, but technically not part of the first war, which ended when the Oracle was discovered

i think its real fighting and not LARPing, but its also seen more like an extreme sport than a literal war to most participants. you can drop in and out, sign up but not fight (and also not win boons, but theres no concept of ‘defecting’) and most people aren’t dedicated to one specific faction so hard that they wont ally with another when convenient. people can and do die but most of the fighting consists of knocking out/incapacitating your opponent rather than aiming to kill. i think magic healing has to do a lot of legwork here

Patton (gold yurble, Ben and Viarnne’s dad, CEO of PDSS) participates regularly, to try to get the Cheaper By The Dozen stock market boon. he brings his children along to “toughen them up” and give them “combat experience” and also maybe as a stilted attempt to bond with them by sharing his hobby

Patton: “look, to qualify for the boon you just have to defeat 10 guys. find 10 weak guys and whack em with this and youre golden” (young Ben interpreted this as “my dad turned Gold because he hit guys with hammers real good) (also- this sounds more like a Gladys line? i imagine Patton being more terse. maybe she told them this when they were scared + asking for guidance.)

Patton gets really into whacking guys on the head with big hammer

Viarnne and Ben as children are both scared of the obelisk battleground but Ben more obviously so as “the crybaby”. there was more riding on Ben not being scared too, because Patton already thinks of him as the weak one- although Viarnne is aware of this too and doesnt want his fathers disapproval to turn on him as well

maybe Ben has a scar from this? Viarnne probably would too honestly. this could be where Ben broke his wing as a Shoyru and became afraid of flying

seeing your dad get angry and yell and then hit people with hammers is probably something you remember when he gets angry and yells at you

downsides to it being a real battle + giving Patton this hobby and involving Viarnne and Ben:

Viarnne being a rich failson who’s never faced serious physical danger before his untimely death feels like a defining character trait- the battleground would 100% qualify as serious physical danger

how does this interact with Viarnne’s established trait of being scared to try things that are obviously physically dangerous? hes too scared of horses to ride one and he doesnt want to engage in extreme sports, but he could perform on a battlefield well enough to not disappoint his father? this isnt impossible to work with and/or write around, but it might muddy things in a weird way. basically, i havent thought ahead enough to know how much knock-on effect this will have on all of my existing characterization for Ben and Viarnne

maybe this distracts too much from the focus of this family being successful business people

upsides to this idea:

solves my problem of Patton feeling too boring for me to want to write

interacts with canon in a fun and interesting way

offers some fun character potential for all of these guys

could contrast with mind game shit Gladys ropes them into assisting with (note to self: come up with examples of the mind game shit (difficulty: EXTREME))

[kunoimochi]

𝟒𝐭𝐡 𝐠𝐫𝐚𝐝𝐞 𝐘𝐚𝐡𝐢𝐤𝐨 𝐆𝐚𝐤𝐮𝐞𝐧

They're so bright I can't–

Edit: these are their old color of their uniform,i change it because this one is to bright and I'm more comfortable working on with a more mute color, please check the updated one in my pinned post about yahiko gakuen 💫

Menori Arai

Members of etiquette committee, a crazy obsessed firearm guy that always carry a lighter and any type of firearm with him. Get banned from entering explosive committee storage because he's once blow up that place. Doesn't care about people around him and avoid joining social events because he hate people.

Burai Kasei

Members of P.E committee, a talkative guy that will carry any people that he find interesting everywhere. Love to compete with people especially someone who's better than him in physical education. Dislike Raiyuu tho, he thinks that guy is annoying

Fuyuto koike

Fuyuto are one of the members of accounting Committee, he's always seen with Maori since fuyuto admire him sm but at the same time fuyuto think that Maori kinda dense and clueless make him very worry about him. Have a very loud voice and talk very loud too. The top students among 4th grader. Close with senju, Date's siblings just different yk he love being around them

Reku muto

Members of equipment and storage committee, always seen carrying his weapons around make people feeling uneasy with him. Easily lose temper tho but he know how to control it. A very problematic students, a bullies, always destroy people stuff and pranking people in a extreme way for example left you in the boat in middle of the lake. Because of this he doesn't have a friend at all

Kimio oye

Kimio is one of the 'weirdos' at the yahiko gakuen, he's library committee members. He's very quiet and very mysterious boy. Close with Hagemu shirai since they both come from the same hometown.

Risaku yano

Members of biology committee, always seen with his iconic sake bottle that he replaced it with soy bean milk (but sometimes he change it into real sake in special situation)

Sunaoshi shimada

A boy that got cursed with fox mask that contains evil spirit, his hair used to be black but turn white since he got stuck with that mask. Have a cunning and sinister personality if he wear that mask, his personality is the completely opposite when he get away from that mask. Etiquette Committee members.

Poki tamanaha

Biology Committee members. Poki is the shortest among his peers, he's doesn't bothered by this eventho his friends making fun of his height. A clingy person and always try to take the Kunoichi's attention with his cute charms (what a sneaky guy) really love insect especially butterfly make him attracted to Senju. Senju clearly despise him so much but he's doesn't care about this. Love to do insect taxidermy.

Oujirou sakurazaki

Health Committee members, a clumsy guy that make a mistake in everything he do. People call him cherry boy because of his hair color that look identical to a cherry blossom tree. His hobby is ikebana a.k.a arranging flower. get bully and pranked by Reku.

Shiroshi Uyehara

There's no information about him except being a P.E committee members.

Ryomie ozaki

A exorcists or also know as the funni guy, always make a trick that he call magic to make people day better. Share his dorm with shiroshi and oujirou since his dorm is bigger inside like a whole house than on how it look outside. Have mixed blood with foreigner. Famous with the Kunoichi's since they say he have a very charming personality and look. The members of Library Committee

[prosciuttulipa]

RAAAAAAH i want a match ngl LMAO

Jjk match because Im a fucking simp, and a guy bcs I am in fact a straight woman thanks

I'm a big nerd. Like, a very big nerd. I do math for fun and I am not ashamed at all when I interrupt someone to correct them (I have autism and ADHD, how could you tell?)

I'm relatively closed off, and most of the time, insecure. I'm shy and I barely ever make the first move (unless I've had a couple of drinks or a lot of eyeliner). I think what people most define me as is the "old soul, young body). I'm like the mom of the group, though I am absolutely reckless when there's another mom in the group, since it takes the responsibility away from me.

I hate going out, and it's really hard to get me to go to the beach, for example. I think my best quality personality-wise is that I'm down to earth and realistic about my goals. A problem is probably how much self-doubt I have, since people constantly tell me I am capable of achieving more than I think I can. I don't settle for seconds, but I'm not too excited when I rech first, because there's always a new competition.

Oh yeah, I'm competitive. Very.

I'm a pessimist, though I like to say it's realism, because why be positive, hype myself up, only for it to go wrong and the disappointment hurt me? As I said, emotionally closed off.

My personality is the infamous black cat, and I think (though I'm not sure), that a golden retriever boy is what would fit me best. (even though I simp for other black cat guys)

For hobbies, I'm boring, though I do have many. I play the guitar, do martial arts (krav maga), draw, sing, write absolutely filthy smut, and, most important of all: do math and study. Yeah, my main hobby is studying.

I'm not sure how I show my love? I don't, usually. I can love someone unconditionally and be absolutely lovesick, but only after a very heavy emotional session, may it be a fight or drinks, will I tell soemone how much they mean to me. I spent the last four years with my best friend, and only after a day's worth of drinking and crying did I tell her how much she meant to me.

I'm a bit icky with physical touch, but if I trust them, I'll let them cling to me. Initially push people away and only after knowing them do I let them hug me, kiss me, cuddle me. I am awful when dealing with compliments, and I cannot take a gift. So probably quality time is my love-receiving language when generally speaking. A boyfriend/husband would probably work with physical touch and words of affirmation, though.

I dont think there's any big turn-off or turn-on in relationships? Maybe not giving me enough attention and helping me emotionally, because I'm easily falling into insecurity, feeling like I'm not enough.

I have like medium curly dark hair and dark eyes. Eyebags, and a lot of moles all over my face. My body is relatively fit? I have a bit of fat ngl but I also have muscles. A bit of a tummy and thicc thighs (they do, in fact, save lives) that double the size when I sit (insecurity alert!) I'm pale, though I am a mixed baby. I dress in all-black most of the time, and all the color variations are like red or dark blue. (I AM NOT EMO). I wear eyeliner from the moment I wake to the moment I sleep and I have pierced ears. I also plan on getting nip piercings and plan on getting

I think i need more songs to listen to, so I'm going with the three songs he associates wit me.

Congratulations! You have been matched with...

Choso Kamo

When people see you and Choso together, they immediately assume that you're just another average emo couple, quick to place stereotypes. But under the heavy eyeliner and dark clothes, are two people who are just trying to figure out life in their own way.

Choso is fascinated by your contradictions: insecure yet quick to correct others, pessimistic but burning with a competitive drive for more. Where some people may see indecision, he sees something much more real and human in comparison to the single-minded characters he's met during his time alive. Living is hard, has experienced it for himself, so he doesn't shun you for your contrasting perspectives. Instead, he wants to learn about the world alongside you, unpicking the way you think, wondering about your insecurities. Although he's been through a lot, there's something inherently innocent and simplistic in the way Choso sees the world. If you're an old soul in a young body, then he's a young soul in an old one. Perhaps by meeting somewhere in the middle, the two of you will get closer to unravelling the mystery that is life.

Choso doesn't mind that you don't like going out, but you often find yourself tagging along as he explores the world in small ways. A trip to the convenience store may as well be a museum visit, with the way he asks you about the products, eyeing them with confusion. He also admires the fact that you study math—to dedicate yourself to understanding anything in such depth is no small feat—and he's happy to sit next to you while you work, occasionally asking questions about your interest in the subject. His most common form of affection is just leaning his head against your shoulder, watching silently as you work.

Dates with Choso are pretty laid back, since he's happy to take the lead on whatever makes you comfortable. It doesn't matter to him where you two are. For him, understanding your mind (and falling in love with the way you think, the way you are) is what matters to him the most.

The Matchmaker's Gift:

Contrary to popular belief, Choso's music taste is rather soft. This song reminds him of the inherent dependence that comes with being connected.

Offering you this song with a curious tilt of his head, Choso asks you if this is how your pessimism feels like.

This is the song Choso uses to confess to you. His feelings are one of the few things he has to his name, and he wants to share them with you.

[crackinglamb]

Choose Violence Asks they said... 👀

16. you can't understand why so many people like this thing (characterization, trope, headcanon, etc)

*immediately forgets everything I've ever known ever*

Okay, more seriously, this is a bit meta, I think. I don't understand why people like to hate on a particular media. Like, engage with it, get involved in it. And then, naturally, create all sorts of nonsense 'hot' takes to display their superiority in disliking it. It combines the worst parts of snobbery and nastiness into one awful flagellating mess, imo.

And I'm not talking about legitimate criticism of things that are wrong in said media. Because that's a different topic altogether. I'm talking about people who willfully play games they don't like, then complain about how terrible they are. Or watch tv or movies that provide them no enjoyment and bitch about it. Or hate read and then harass the author as if it's their fault. Like, you have free will people! You are not being driven by whips to experience this thing!*

An example: my former partner was reading a novel and telling me about it. And how he really didn't like it, but felt compelled to finish it because he'd started it. And I was just like...why? "It builds character," he said. Again, why? Why are you willingly subjecting yourself to something you dislike under the guise of 'building character'? You already have a job. Hobbies are supposed to be fun. The only thing it's building in you is resentment. And then. THEN! He tried to convince me to read it too, even though I had absolutely zero interest. "Oh, but you should experience things you don't like (paraphrasing), so you get perspective."

My dude, my guy, my worthless ex, I have zero requirement to suffer needlessly. Guess what, I have a pretty low quota on suffering for a purpose too. I am not that Buddhist/Catholic/evangelical/capitalist/etc.

Put down the story you don't like. Stop playing the game you aren't enjoying. Turn off the television.

Get over your sunk cost fallacy and go somewhere else that you will enjoy, ffs.

*Notable exception to this is required materials in school, because tiny gods was I forced to read some shit in high school for a grade that I would never have touched in a million years. But we are talking about fandom spaces, so we can just shove this under a rug.

Thanks for the ask! 💕From this list.

[lakanakana]

2, 11, 38, 39

2) show us a picture of your handwriting

an ancient proverb and a bit of English nonsense thrown in too

11) what do you consider to be romance?

I honestly can't tell between romantic attraction and being besties but if you ask teen me it's when someone gets enough points on a list of attractive features (like living in the same country, having emo hair and liking cats) you use to evaluate them and based on that you can accept their confession and start dating.

Here's one example of those lists that you can literally carbon-date to be from 2012 based solely on the usage of the term "swaggot". I was about 12-13 years old.

You've gotta appreciate how my handwriting hasn't changed almost at all in 12 years

I think these were more like points I'd prefer to find out before accepting rather than an absolute test that you'd have to pass to get a good grade in "ok I'll start dating this guy". Pretty sure I never actually outright asked anyone if they masturbated to my little pony because holy fuck lmao what???????? I eventually stopped making these because I was told that calculating distances between home addresses was kinda creepy (￣▽￣||)

My current partner is one I picked based on me wanting to have sex with him and it's been so much fun! I've been so lucky because he doesn't even coerce me into sex and isn't mean to my male friends behind my back ^w^ (wow what a normal sentence to type um maybe I need some introspection on this)

So in the end I think romance is when you have fun with someone?

38) fave song at the moment?

夏物語 by コンシャスTHOUGHTS!! (Conscious thoughts - Natsumonogatari for those that can't read kana and kanji)

I switch between a select few fave songs every now and then and this is my current one ^o^ I like happy sounding stuff a lot

39) youtuber you’ve been obsessed with and why?

I mostly follow edutainment youtubers, my faves being channels like Tom Scott, Miniminuteman and Ben G Thomas, but I'd like to pick something outside of that scope:

GeoWizard

He's a GeoGuesser nerd who just aces the games as if it was no big deal, can pinpoint the precise locations of his patreons' pictures ( granted that they're taken outdoors) and does cross-country walking as a hobby. I really like his straight line missions where he walks across countries in a straight line. Deviation of 25 meters is allowed because you know mountains and shit. If he was a lizard or something he would pull it off in a total straight line I think.

He also does things like crossing cities without using roads and I think it's fascinating how many pretty places you can find among abandoned railways or sewage gutters!

He's just the kinda dude that can identify a country based on how the road is painted, but will happily walk into a bog and then get surprised about almost turning into a bog body <3

at 10:38 he's just like "uuuggghhh a muddy little puddle again :///" not exactly being aware that he's about to turn every kid's fear of quicksand traps into a reality for himself

[luna-loner]

Hi!

Take that as me considering you the Kanzaki connaisseur, but I was genuinely curious about your point of view on a trivia:

Yoshida Taisei crush on Kanzaki Yukiko. It's only ever mentionned in the character profiles, and they don't interact in canon.

The logic goes that he sees her - and his expression softens up - when he turns his head to his left, since their seating is next to each other. (and Hazama has the time of her life observing the shenanigans from her seat behind Kanzaki 😂)

I don't ship them in the slightest, but I think that we can look at it as yet another point on how Kanzaki is percieved by her classmates;

Yoshida is her polar opposite, and I personally imagined the crush to be very surface-level, attached moreso to her exterior and assumed identity of "sweet, demure girl with good grades" (very realistic middle school crush, in a way 😂).

But still, I was wondering what your thoughts on it, your input, are. Their constrast is interesting, to say the least, and I guess we can either ignore it/find a way to go around it, or use it to see what it tells us about these two.

Do you have any headcanons or anything about Yukiko's point of view, etc etc.?

Thanks in advance, have a good day! :)

What if I told you I briefly shipped them at one point? The Tough motorcycle guy x Madonna gamer girl dynamic is pretty fun to think about. Give me a proper lady on her boyfriend's bike and I'll kiss your generous hands. (Meanwhile, Papa Kanzaki looks like he's about to have a panic attack XD)

I've never invested in Yoshida, so this ship didn't sail for me. The ideas above were me seeing him as a trope rather than a character. And GakuYuki's already living rent-free in my mind

That said, from what I've read about him, I interpreted his character as a secret softie with a tough exterior. A nice guy who likes other nice people; it'd make sense why he'd like Yukiko.

I think Yukiko has noticed him looking at her, and it has made her uncomfortable given her horrible luck with men. It doesn't help that the Terasaka gang weren't the most cooperative and agreeable bunch early on in the series.

But as the year goes on and the gang gets along with the rest of 3E, she starts to see them in a more positive light. As for bike boy, he challenges her to racing games as a way to get close to her. (Also because he was surprised she turned out to be a master gamer and thought it was cool) Yoshida would always drop some vehicle facts. Sure, it's mostly bike-related but he knows some stuff about cars, trains, and even planes. Yukiko may not be interested in these things, but she respects him for cultivating such vast knowledge on something he's passionate about. My girl can relate since she prolly knows so much about her hobbies and passions (flowers, Japanese, games, elderly care, etc...).

And ofc, we can't NOT bring up Hara. I like to think Yukiko visits her often to learn recipes for the elderly, and Yoshida tags along (when he's not hanging out with the gang). This gives them more opportunities to interact, and Hara probably has some funny stories from Yoshida's childhood. I can also see the three eventually forming study groups even during high school, and Yukiko helping Yoshida with Japanese (and maybe other subjects) either through texts or in-person. Another thing, they'd definitely partner up to plan Hara's birthday surprises and figure out which gifts to buy.

Hazama would not be Hazama if she doesn't tease the living daylights out of Yoshida. Picture the two sitting together when Hazama casually says Yukiko's behind him (she's not) and Yoshida just jumps. She wouldn't overdo it, or tell the rest of the gang about it (though I don't doubt some of them have noticed, like Itona for example). She'd also try to talk to Yukiko and tactfully bring Yoshida up just to know how the other girl feels about him, or if she's aware of Yoshida's crush on her, which brings me to the next point: All of this fanon interaction can lead to one of two things:

Yoshida starts to see her in a platonic light and they become good friends.

Yoshida's romantic feelings for her grow stronger now that he's gotten to know her a bit more. As for Yukiko, she may or may not like him back.

(Or he starts to see her as friend while she starts to catch feelings for him, which is both hilarious and sad imo...also, why must I torment my girl??)

One more thing, you pointed out how similar they are. I'd like to add that their reason for falling into E Class is virtually the same. She spent too much time at the arcade, while he spent too much time at the racetrack. Whether their relationship takes a romantic or platonic route, I'd like to see them discuss this eventually and bond over it.

And that's all I've got. Sorry it took so long; I was busy irl and didn't know how to properly articulate all my thoughts. I tend to be a perfectionist when it's something related to my best girl, but this was really fun to think about. Hope you liked it!

[dballzposting]

i bet those saiyan stomach enzymes they got are monsters at digesting. like they could eat an animal bones and all but they dont (or do they??????)

anyways those saiyans eat so god damn much that indigestion and acid reflux have a higher vhance of killing them than fighting. No savoring or nuthing, they always eat like its gonna be their last meal lawl.....

I do think yamcha like. Occasionally cooks for them tho. Like as a treat. Like he won't do it often, but I think of him as the type of guy who cooks as a hobby IDK

(maybe vegeta savors his food slightly more than anyone else's IDK!!!!)

I believe this. This is believable

I want to see them eat bones... Chichi is standing at the oven making bone broth one day and Goki is hovering like "when is food time chichi?" and shes like "settle DOWN Goku-sa I'm only just now making the soup stock" and she turns around for a minute and when she returns the bones in the pot are just .. gone?

Future Trunks literlaly has acid reflux. A passionate truth of this blog.

They can eat anything & their bodies put so much WORK and Desperation into digesting that I do believe that it could kill them you're right .. if they only eat bones for example then they wont last long becasue the effort it takes to digest them is more than the returns the meal yields. Imagine eating so much that you die from exhaustion. The Saiyan digestion track is a precarious thing, like a clunky haphazard engine perhaps, always go go going.!! Like a hummingbird's cardiac system perhaps.

The only innate source of insecurity that you'll find in the tough and confident Saiyan is food insecurity .. all of their energy comes from food and they burn an awful lot doing what they love .. they have to eat so much all of the time. So much so that their bodies will digest anything. And sometimes that's scary and their stomachs get sad.

Vegeta didnt really care about Trunks to start but I can see that maybe what made him start to care was, for a reason that he could not make sense of, he began to grow so insecure on Trunks's behalf that he wasnt eating enough. There is literally all of the world's food and like 30 gourmet chefs at his disposal, but vegega was still hovering and telling Bulma "make sure hes eating enough..!" and Bulma would snap and go "Stop backseat parenting me, I know what I'm doing. And all the kid does is eat! He barely sleeps with how much he eats!" and Vegeta would be like "OK. But if he runs out of food for even 20 minutes then make sure he eats still. Feed him the furniture because it's better than nothing."

It's literally never enough.

I got another ask saying that the reason that Vegeta is so short is becasue he didnt eat enough in his formative years. I domt remmeber if I answered it or not but I didnt really agree with it but now I'm seeing the merit. I like the abysmal and acute insecurity that that would leave Vegeta with now that would lay dormant until there was a kid in his life for him to lay all his worries on. Very piquant stuff.

Bulma is like "I knew Son-kun when he was young I KNOW how Saiyans eat" but then she sees Vegeta eating bones with her son as a post-dessert appetizer and shes like ... k maybe there is an oddness here that I wasnt anticipating.

It gets to a point where Bulma feels like Vegeta is getting Trunks to eat TOO much. Trunks will be having fun doing an activity and dinner isnt until hours later amd Vegeta will enter the room and ask "you hungry?" and Ttunks ofc says "yes" so then they go get food and Bulma eventually is like "could you stop distracting him with food every time hes doing something else? He needs to develop his brain not just his stomach! Stop telling him he's hungry when hes fine!" and Vegeta is like "Saiyan children are always hungry. Always"

Like honestly the only time Bulma ever sees any real Emotion and Vulnerability on Vegetas face is the panic-stricken look he shoots her when she says that dinner isnt until 45 minutes.

Honestly like WHAT IF Vegeta didnt have enough to eat in his growth spurt years.. he and his men were having to hunt for themselves AND continuously grow stronger AND Vegeta specifically had to get stronger the most. Maybe Raditz got tall just becasue he wasnt as strong, more energy was allocated to height. But Vegeta had to beat Frieza one day. He had to make sure he was the strongest.

Amyway. If Bulma ever got this story out of him (the loose string that unties the knot being his devout over-empathy and anxiety regarding how much Trunks has to eat, and the way that it's causing him to Not Trust Bulma and shes damn sick of it) then she would say "ohmygod is THAT why you're so short?" and Vegeta would be so surprised that he would stop crying. Just cos he never really thought of it like that. But yeah that is why. And his body knows that it didnt eat enough to reach its full potential and it's forever sad about that.

Oh and not to mention what this would do to Trunks .. hes a healthy kid but Vegeta feels like hes living paycheck-to-paycheck with food so he tells him that hes too thin and needs to eat more. And that's gonna affect Trunks's body image and his relationship with food in a weird way. And hes gonna be all fucked up for it. All he does is eat. He both hates it and needs it as a habit.

Additionally hes gonna learn that if he wants to get out of doing something he can use "I'm hungry" as an excuse and Vegeta will defer to it every time. So now hes just learning about instant gratification and procrastination. Son of a bitch.

Sorry for rambling. I love an insecure Vegeta. I love eating bones. I believe this

OH YEAH and the Yamgeta thing. Lol. I said in the middle of an exceedingly long and rambly post recently that Vegeta does like to eat at Yamuchas cabin just becasue it's Real. Theres never enough but it's an honest meal like the campfire meals that Vegeta grew up with. And Vegeta will use Yamuchas woodstove and end up burning something but it's fun for him to get to cook again too.

Good post

[agreenseil]

Fic Idea:

reincarnation cycle with a pair (or group, but pairs sounds easier to organize), but instead of dramatic tragedy until the Canon life, they're just being besties and picking up hobbies that carry on to the next life

for example, zosan (not in any chronological order):

rivalry on sight (obviously)

sanji learns to cook because he met zoro in an alley eating a yellow thing that definitely shouldn't be fuzzy like that

zoro's the feral bodyguard bc while pretty boi Sanji can hold his own, should he have to???

crap, I cant think of anything else. this all came from that one YT short about past lives but it wasn't fancy or dramatic cycles

they're just hanging out in a yard, harassing chickens and squirrels

sanji keeps his knives hidden away after the doctor tried to use them to "treat" zoro's dying via plague (yoinked scene from the Short)

is that dramatic? yes, but it kinda suits them lol

also example, nami and usopp:

disaster lesbian nami, disaster bi usopp

usopp talking bout a girl he met and rejected and nami asks why and lists all the good things and usopp's like, "why don't you date her then??" and nami's like "wait, I can do that?" bc historical whatevers and usopp's like, "yeah." and nami's like "okay, bet" and then usopp regrets it bc nami cant stop waxing poetic about her partners but also he doesnt regret it bc bestie happy = you happy

and then he finds a hot guy with great muscles and oh, how the turns have tabled

also art buddies

be gay, do crime. nami does the thieving thing with usopp sometimes

isnt it nice to have someone so resourceful?

Also I think Robin should be in one too but idk who with.

Mayhaps Brook. I rlly liked that one fic where Robin dreams of Brook's ship while on the run and Brook sometimes gets this kid on his ghost ship and he cant tell if he's hallucinating and they do the friendship

Robin and Brook at a fair, robin stops to listen to his street performance after they reached for the same book at one of the stands

they don't even know each others names yet but they had a nicer day after meeting each other

in the next life, Robin listens to violin and piano music while she reads, though she can never find the same jaunty tune

brook performs in all the book related events he can find, tailors his style into something fun, but chill enough not to distract you from your book

maybe in canon he visits ohara to perform accompanying music? 👀✨ and robin finds her friend sooner

franky and chopper:

franky, who makes himself into a type of monster

and chopper, who didnt want to be a monster, but learns to accept it

idk how this will work, actually, I just think they complement each other

forgive me, I know nothing about jinbei ;w; I welcome your thoughts about him

and luffy seems to be someone who would be in all of their lives, but he's so bright I think that would make a big impact in their lives

oh! what if he is always there but hinted in the background details because he's not in the pairing

and then he gets his pov scenes where it ties all those hints together and does the fluff and his crew realizes that he had always been there and ahhhh I'm very happy and definitely not going to be writing this anytime soon.

anyone who wants to adopt this idea is free to do so :] pls call me over when you do so I can read it ✨

or if it already exists and you have the link 👀

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Linkin.Topics.13>> Hey everyone!!  VidLink Insert _ _ 

autoArchiver>>This VidLink was not archived due to KuyperBelt privacy regulations

Linkin.Topics.13>> Here’s a vid of my outfit from the last event I attended. I tried to minimize the anachronism of my personal air filter by painting it to match my skin using period makeup contouring techniques, but it’s a reasonable trade to be able to experience events outdoors on the site of this actual ruined EarthTerran mega mall. So historic!

Logic.Omaha>> I get so mad when people say you should have to minimize your air filter or not wear UV goggles. This is a hobby and they’re drinking froot-goop out of vacuum packs anyway, so they should shut up.”

Book.stray2222>> Suggestions have been made that consuming fruit-pac drinks is jarring to the atmosphere we’re trying to create but everyone should remember that we have members with glycemic dysregulations whose health needs have to come first. We don’t want to exclude people. And anyway, they had fruit drinks in Period.

XoCarhartt>> It is not that hard to 3D print a can. There are so many things that we can do to easily hide obtrusive modernity. Nobody can see your hover assist device if you wear wide-leg pants, and it is not difficult to throw a snuggie over a food replicator.

Curious.Rap449>> You could even dress up your stasis pod to look like a tanning bed or a coffin!

XoCarhartt>> I know a guy who built an entire replica Honda Civic hatchback and lives in it during events. All his medical devices, breather apparatus, and food reclamation system are in the engine compartment.

Book.stray2222>> Asking people to hide the things they need to attend an event is exclusionary. If you need your PortaLung, wear your PortaLung. We don’t want folks to feel unwelcome just because they can’t afford a repro reusable Aldi tote to hide it in. And can we really afford to turn away interested players when they could just stay home and buy another self-insert AI blockbuster? The important thing is that we show up and celebrate opportunities for participation.

XoCarhartt>> I really don't think we are going to lose people to VR. People who want to play our game are people who want to be 'outside' in meat space. No one is saying you need to not wear your PortaLung, and asking people to drape a towel over it is not exclusionary.

Twinky.Elvis>> During this period people went to great lengths to conceal medical devices of any kind. Here’s a ‘blog post’ of the time discussing the importance to social status of not showing any form of disability in public if possible.

autoArchiver>>The TextToVid document you linked was not archived due to copyright regulations

LovesLawn>> Look, this is the 21st century *as it should have been.* We should not be reproducing stigma when we have boldly embraced the fact that 79% of the population has what would have been considered a disability at the time. This is the society the blogger envisioned!

GojiraEatMe>> We are already working with a rule set that only barely approximates the organization of 21st c. society. Remember the whole uproar two years ago when the House San Andreas people all showed up in blue tarp hovels?

XoCarhartt>> I thought it really added to the period atmosphere, and realistically a lot of people were unhoused back then.

LovesLawn>> Sure, but what are we considering Period atmosphere? Having all those folks performing authentic slam poetry in Spanglo-Korean at that event was a lot of fun, for example, but I don't think we need to reenact all socio-economic classes for the sake of authenticity. like, if you want to do SoCal urban, set up a popup bodega, maybe get a FeliDroid cat for it, and call it good.

LilithFairBoudicca>> That guy in New Schenectady has that sweet traveling vaccination clinic setup that’s a really evocative backdrop, but is it fair that he’s bearing the full carbon-offset cost of transporting it? Is this a resource the group should be supporting?

HempTeenie>> I love it, but also he complains on NetNer that he should have received the GenCommit award years ago. So off putting. It’s just a stunt. And besides, my group does fine with a comm projector and some pot scent tabs for realism.”

Book.stray2222>> The pot scent tabs really messed with my rebreather when I was at ElectionDay last year. I think it was really thoughtless of you to do that instead of just letting people opt in to a direct neural sim while on site.

HempTeenie>> It's really hard for us as a smaller station-based group to host high-ambiance events. We were doing the best we can, and that information was all in our ElectionDay bid package. It should not have been a surprise.

Dude.snoopy>> We did a really nice ColumbianGenocideDay event without any neural enhancers. You just need to find more volunteers.

LilithFairBoudicca>> I think we need to reconsider the ban on paid assistance. We could free up so much energy to just be in the immersive moment. And we would be helping our members with indenture commitments at the same time.”

HempTeenie>> No, look, we hashed this out last month, I can’t believe that I have to repeat that this should be an equalizing space regardless of work status. Anyone can grab some interlock from the reclamation center and join in.

JavaPony13831>> HELLO DOES ANYONE HAVE A TRANSPORT SLOT FOR ME TO GO TO FESTIVUS? PLEASE PING MY SUBNET

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reijean hitchannie college band AU headcanons that may not lead to fic form but i feel strongly about because i did undergrad at a huge university with a prestigious music school where everyone was depressed + i've been giffing kids on the slope (2012) w reiner's seiyuu + the given akihiko/haruki reijean agenda:

all the warriors grew up playing classical music w/ varying degrees of parental pressure, for example mr leonhart is a violinist and annie's first and forever teacher so maybe she maims him here too (he's like jk simmons in whiplash); karina is into classical music as a status symbol

by contrast hitch and jean know how to have fun. hitch learned everything from youtube, jean's mom let him quit piano lessons as a kid so he came back to it on his own when he realized it was cool/thought it could get him girls (it doesn't) (inspo: nick cave)

annie (lead/rhythm guitar), hitch (vocals/rhythm guitar/octave pedal "bass"), jean (vocals/keys/bass), reiner (drums). reiner would do bass if he had sukuna arms

reijean meet in intro to audio engineering which counts as a science class for some reason, form the band after roping annie into their final recording project; annie's an undeclared part-time student who mostly works

first they try marco as rhythm guitarist but he is too jazzy and cannot wrap his mind around rock tone, annie is furious (low stakes version of trost; sounds derogatory but marco just looks like a jazz guy)

hitch is a business major who thinks music is a hobby, kinda yasu from nana energy. annie recruits her after overhearing her teaching/berating marlowe before he absolutely bombs an open mic night

hitch is an acoustic girlie (dark ukulele past) but annie and jean take her shopping and she picks a danelectro stock '59

annie plays a jaguar bc of her short fingers, she's some combo of lindsey jordan / luna li but also j mascis

reiner's favorite drummer is karen carpenter, deadass

hitch is the least disciplined which equal turns teaches them to relax but incites rage, annie and jean lock her in a room w reiner bc this bitch cannot count

everyone sings but especially hitch and jean, the vibe is michelle zauner and craig hendrix; i think they hype up the other two who are very self conscious

main songwriters are annie and jean, jean finds jazzy chords that hitch hates

annie was concertmaster of her arts magnet high school orchestra until mikasa showed up and the worst part is violin is mikasa's like, tertiary instrument; now they are ex-gf roommates

opera singer mikasa ruins lives, she is kissing kissing mezzo historia in boy drag (inverse girl armin) in uhhh idk la clemenza di tito

ymir is probably a drummer in a nu riot grrrl band, root of her frenemyship with reiner, also i think she's trying to steal annie and/or hitch

reiner is a cello performance major who became interested in rock percussion after hooking up w eren; eren's taste is incredibly lame, he likes like, dave grohl

eren and mikasa both did piano lessons as kids and she forces him to be her accompanist most of the time, but he and jean tag in and out ever since eren gave himself gamer's carpal tunnel before mikasa's first jury freshman year

jean is Not a music major but he makes money as music majors' accompanist; he could be studio art? or something "reasonable" (a la the MPs, business school hitch), like cybersecurity

annie and marcel = violin, pieck and bertie = viola, reiner and porco = cello

bertolt is living studio ghibli whisper of the heart in italy

for the first half of undergrad reiner lived with marcel in place of porco bc that little shit felt smothered by the galliards bUyINg a whole apartment for their boys, but when marcel graduated pocco moved in and uhhhhh evicted reiner, who thought he had saved enough to make it on his own by living rent free but uhhhhh karina stole it

uhhh pieck looks like my first gay crush (a violist opera singer) so let's say she's studying abroad

point is, reiner is isolated through no one's direct fault, really, besides pock; annie is his closest friend in town and she's such a tsundere about it. he lived on her and mikasa's couch for a week but will never return because it was too awkward even for his broke ass