#he's hot AND complex what more could you want in a guy?
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Bi-Han headcanons from the deepest part of my brain
Doesnât believe in fiction books or doesnât care to read them because heâs always been told to âgain knowledgeâ and he wasnât allowed to read fantasy novels, the closest thing was reading up on the type of beings in other realms hence the entire dialogue with Nitara
Despite being a cryromancer, hates hates hates cold food and drinks, his tea MUST be piping hot (he never gets burned) as compared to Kuai Liang who leaves his food and drinks to cool down before having themÂ
Would make ice flowers for his mother since Artika doesnât really have flowers growing from the ground
Takes long walks in the forest, at night, whenever he doesnât feel in sync with himself and just kinda wants to reset and calm down
Doesnât like to be touched, especially his hair, which is why he keeps it long because he hated people touching or cutting it when he was younger (Kuai Liang wanted to follow his older brother so he also keeps it longer, #twinsies)
Likes desserts that are milky and not super sweet (custards, puddings), will only eat deep-fried desserts during special eventsÂ
Always stays up to watch the first snowfall of the winter season (yes I know it is always cold but whenever the winter season begins, he waits for the first snowfall because he is sentimental like that, it is when he feels his strongest)
Insecure sometimes about not having complimenting powers as Kuai Liang as compared to TomĂĄĹĄ (Where thereâs smoke, thereâs fire), worries it affects the bond they share
Used to help sneak snacks out of the kitchen quarters for TomĂĄĹĄ and Kuai Liang because those two together couldnât stay quiet long enough to avoid getting caught (he would always steal cookies from both, not because he actually wanted them but because they would always whine and try to hold the packets away from him, yes heâs THAT person)
Horrible to buy any sort of gifts for, nobody knows what he likes except maybe the brothers and even they are stumped on what to get himÂ
His father hated how he would always show attitude (sassy ass eyebrow raises, dirty looks, side eyes, eye rolls and more) but it made him do it more
Contrary to people's idea of him, I really don't think he is purposefully mean to those he loves/likes BUT he can overstep in the name of being honest or straightforward, doesn't like to beat around the bush or be fake with others (social skills are pretty limited)
He gives me vibes of someone who doesn't have many hobbies because he's a workaholic and training/being Grandmaster is his job
If you enjoyed this list, I will be back in 2-3 business weeks for either a part two or a different MK character!
#mk#mortal kombat#bi han#Bi-Han#lin kuei#mortal kombat 1#MK1#sub zero#Sub-Zero#headcanons#really wanted to think of things that aren't just an amalgamation of things I've seen about him on Tumblr.com#he's a really interesting person#source? my head and the brain of all Bi-Han fans#no one can stop you from projecting your ideal version of a character#seriously though#he's hot AND complex what more could you want in a guy?
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ridi im sorry i need to rant and i think youll get it đ like not to be a bitch but this fandom kinda going off the rails and annoying the shit out of me https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRbYASpf/ everybody in the comments unironically loving it,,, i mean wtvr ship who you want but its kinda getting delusional like ppl are just operating on thin air and pretty fancasts atp and i do Not understand or emotionally connect with any of it. at least w wolfstar theres so much material and foundation to explore but what is all the rest of this?? just hot celebrity fancasts and crack. to be fair part of me respects taking a terfs canon material and making everybody gay but the way it seems to be so oversaturating fics and the fandom that characters dont even feel like their original selves .. atp its all just surface level OCs
hello! yes! i'll be honest talking about things like this always make me a little nervous, and i feel obligated to preface anything i say with a disclaimer that none of it really matters, nothing i say matters, and you should do what you like, because--who cares. i am not an authority on--anything, frankly. my opinion holds no more weight than the next guy's, and all i'm doing here is giving it, so. essentially what im saying is--people are perfectly entitled to disagree with me, but people are not entitled to be mean to me about it xx
having said that. it is my personal opinion that s x barty is one of the worst fucking things i have ever heard lol. who even is barty who is that guy. why would s be interested in him at all. i do not understand it it does not make sense to me. from where are we sourcing the character traits and personality that we are giving barty that would ever endear sirius to him, because it objectively cannot be canon.
overall i do not get the new interest in barty + evan + pandora (+ regulus, but we won't go there)...at all, other than guessing that people were bored with the marauders and wanted a new version of them (and new celebrities to fancast) while simultaneously changing next to nothing about them other than superimposing them onto the first slytherin side characters they could rustle up. i expect ive become a bit of a broken record in regards to my dislike of the popular meow-meow-ification + complete absolution of regulus as a character in order to make him a loveable oc (just as i think erasing all the negative traits that r/s have in order to make them more likeable is just as boring), and all of that applies to those other guys as well (with the slight difference that they are, somehow, even less interesting and significant than regulus in canon), so i won't get into that too much. but i think what you say about having no emotional connection to any of it is exactly right lol--it is a sort of shift? i guess? in the fandom that is simply of no interest to me. they are characters that i just have no emotional investment in and admittedly struggle a little to understand why other people do. i am emotionally invested in, like, five characters overall (and even out of those--there's only two i'm really here for innit xx) and i personally cannot extend that investment to a creepy little side character who is mentioned maybe twice in the entire series.
and that is okay! i do not need to understand it. i don't want to say it annoys me because honestly--i don't go there, its nothing to do with me. if i dont like it i just wont interact with it, and the fact that it doesn't interest me has no bearing on what other people are into or want to do, and i couldn't give less of a shit what people do with the canon material, which is largely garbage anyway. take the bits you want from it, play around with those and ignore the rest. in that respect we are all doing exactly the same thing. but yeah i think s x barty is genuinely awful lol. hate it. very terrible. he's already got a loser werewolf boyfriend and he loves him so so much. leave him alone.
#i know most people are reasonable and thus it is perhaps overly cautious of me to insist on shrouding my unpopular#opinions in like. layer upon layer of placatory disclaimers but. well im a rather anxious guy i can't help it xx but im going to use these#tags to have a bit more of a consequence-less hater hour so. if you like regulus or barty or any of that lot i suggest you look away now#because i am about to express opinions about them that you probably wouldnt agree with + wouldnt enjoy reading!!#like full warning what im about to do is NOT any sort of analysis or defence of my opinion i will just be hating on them. is that clear.#okay. having said that. hater hour. barty and evan and honestly regulus were all cunts? like they were terrible people why do we care#about them now. regulus interests me solely as a piece of context for sirius' character. i could not give less of a shit about him as a#person in his own right. which leads me to my next hater moment: why oh why oh WHY on earth would canon james potter be interested#in canon regulus black. it makes sense in like a muggle au where they are virtually completely different characters but canon?#why would he be attracted to him. there is nothing. there is no chemistry i am ASLEEP and so is james. he would not give that#guy a second look. like it just baffles me it truly does. i feel like you have to bend over backwards to create a situation in which#james potter would ever show an interest in regulus. and i know jegulus is a fucking force to be reckoned with nowadays but god i just#do not like that ship. also i think the fact that barty and pandora and evan are essentially just oc characters who have been coloured#in by general fanon consensus shows in that what they have become is just. not interesting or complex or well fleshed out lol. like#idk i feel like they are just. very shallow. deliberately. so they are easy to like and easy to ship because that is what theyre there for.#god it feels so good to say all this. i will never be a hater again (<- lying) but i needed to be able to just. say this just once xx#also if you needed any more indication what barty and evan and regulus are here to do you just have to look at their#super-hot super-conventionally attractive celebrity model fancasts. like it all adds up its like but what if these death eaters were#not actually evil :-( what if they were really sweet and also? so so hot. like they were all so hot and actually really good#and none of them meant to be evil they didnt want to be :-( they were just hot good guys all in love with each other and the evil stuff#they did wasnt their fault :-( like that has to be. the most boring thing you couldve possibly done with these blank slates. surely.#anyway. im done now but i enjoyed hater hour immensely this was so fucking good for my soul xx thanks and goodnight xx#anon#telegram#scream hang on sorry. just looked at the comments of that tiktok where people are saying they were prison besties. girl. girl.#girl they were in prison for very different reasons baby. baby you know that right. baby look at me. look at me
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idk how to start this so this post is ab individual action, trying to motivate positive change in the world, etc etc
a lot of growing up in the US for me makes things feel more scary than they are. like itâs actually not that difficult to go out of your way to get a bottle of water or iced cup of water from some random drive through if you think you should do it. either fast food conglomerate or local actually, itâll usually be cheaper than 5 dollars to get drinkable water. i try to have 5-10 dollars i can justify spending on water, and asking for change, because sometimes when iâm out driving i need to go grab water.
i do not do this for me as much as i try to do it specifically when i see someone whoâs most likely homeless on a street corner. iâm sure one day i might do this and they might not be there when i come back, but what have i lost really? a bit of time and a bit of money that wouldâve meant more to them, that i can hold onto until i see them next.
the pressure that a lot of people feel when they think âwhat can i doâ comes from this grand narrative that the average citizen can singlehandedly fix the housing crisis. rich people? maybe. nonprofits? not in a day, not all one person still. what can i do is a question i ask a lot. what can i do, not just because it feels bad to move along like nothings wrong with the world, but what can i do that will do anything. what can i do that makes even the smallest change.
i feel like it took me too long to figure out a personal method to what i consider individual action. itâs taking time to get to my own financial stability to be able to do more. but for now itâs as simple as water and cash. not water and food, but water and cash.
individual action means a lot in small steps, go get a bottle of water bare minimum and the price of a meal if you can and then just give it to them. if it wasnât such a miserably hot place where i live i would keep a pack of water in my car, which i still want to do for the sake of having immediate access to water to give someone who might need it- hot or cold sometimes wonât matter. but when itâs hot out, get cold water, if itâs cold out, a warm tea will hydrate more than coffee will as long as itâs not super caffeinated.
#very genuinely iâve always felt paralyzed by the idea i cannot doing anything to help and on the grand scale i kind of canât#i canât give someone a house to stay in where i could take care of the space enough to get someone back on their own feet#but i can give someone water and some money for whatever they need#one day iâll be able to do more but for now. water bottles and cash.#what i want to say here is everyone knows bare necessities and everyone knows ways to get them#i also have an opinion that you should sit with and hold the harsh feeling of seeing the world fall apart and help people survive anyway#idfk man#iâve met some extremely fucking jaded people in my time at college who seem to have no way to piece together that they can do SOMETHING#one of my classmates once complained about feeling bad about not doing anything for a guy on a corner and i recognized who#because iâd seen him too and done nothing at least 5 times before one day on the way home i gave him all the cash i had on me#sheâd said sheâd do more if she wasnât so scared and anxious of being hurt. i donât see how he could even look harmful or dangerous#he blessed me and offered a hug and asked me to have a good day and said thank you and i still canât see why she was scared of him#at the same time i hadnât done anything until i saw myself in someone else and thought it looked nasty. looked uncaring.#i saw him again today and gave him a water bottle and all the cash i had on me. i told him the weather seemed hot#he agreed with me and he took the bottle of water#i think i interrupted him opening it to hand him the rest#he got up and he blessed me again#offered a hug and more thank youâs and itâs so simple but i felt us both human in that moment. talking about the weather in a brief exchange#wishing each other well as we go different ways#he wouldnât stop thanking me and wishing me well#i told him it was the smallest thing i think anyone could do and i still walked away hollow wishing to have done more somehow#to suddenly own an apartment complex nearby for him and anyone he knew that needed it too#not a rigid shelter but a place to make home#blah blah blah talking too much about a deed done because i get emotional about humanity#tauto talks
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Somebody [SVTHUB world tour collab]
pairing;Â choi seungcheol x f!reader
genre;Â smut (minor dni), fluff, angst, romance, fake dating au
summary; When you need someone to help you out of a bind quickly, you pick the first person you see to be your âboyfriendâ, you just didnât expect it to be your single hot dad neighbor, Choi SeungcheolâŚ
content warnings; single father!seungcheol, teacher!reader, seungcheol has a child (obviously), eating/drinking, jeonghan/joshua (implied relationship but not stated), betting metioned, alcohol, medical field - doctor!seungcheol, doctor!joshua, mentions cheating in past relationship, mentions death/accident of spouse - widow!seungcheol --- i am sure there are more, if there is anything important you want me to add let me know
smut warnings; unprotected sex (birth control mentioned), creampie, fingering, oral (f receiving), begging, crying (pleasure), multiple orgasm, lots of pet names, marriage kink, seungcheol carries the reader and is larger than the reader, manhandling, shower sex...again if I miss something let me know.
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You were exhausted. You had been living in your new apartment complex for around three months, yet you still werenât completely unpacked. Between work and just a general unwillingness to complete a single project that had to do with your personal life, it seemed easier to let the boxes sit where they lay until they became an inconvenience. Today, they were an inconvenience.Â
So now you find yourself having worked a full eight hour work day and you still managed to unpack four of the daunting boxes, and you were feeling pretty good about yourself. At least you were until you made your way down to the parking lot to put the boxes into the recycling bin and heard an unwelcome voice.Â
âY/N⌠hey.âÂ
Your ex-boyfriendâs voice made any strength you had in your arms leave as you attempted to push the boxes into the large blue bin. He didnât live in your complex. In fact, you had moved out of your shared apartment with him, which was at least a 20 minute drive away. It should surprise you that he would show up uninvited and unannounced, but after a five year relationship with him, you knew he was persistent.Â
Wiping your hands off on your jeans, you clear your throat and turn to meet the manâs eyes before looking for how you were going to get out of the situation. You werenât afraid of your ex; it was more that he didnât know when to stop. You had told him time and time again, after a very messy breakup where you had caught him cheating, that you wouldnât take him back. It didnât make it any easier that you had the same profession as him and when things had been great, the two of you had applied at the same place.Â
âAlex⌠wild seeing you here. You donât even live here.âÂ
He knew you were being evasive. You did the same thing at work, but that didnât mean that he couldnât still try. Persistence was key. There had been something there between the two of you that made a relationship last for as long as it did, and if he worked hard enough, he could get it back. At least thatâs what he thought.Â
Sighing, Alex watches you turn away from him, heading back towards the building. Following behind you, he groans when you shoot him a dirty look.Â
âBabe, seriously? Iâm looking at the apartments in the area. I thought Iâd just stop by and say hi.âÂ
Rolling your eyes, you use your body to shield the keypad so you can type in the code to unlock the complexâs door, hearing the code get denied, once and then twice. You were flustered and hitting the wrong buttons.Â
âSure, whatever. You have a perfectly fine apartment, and donât call me babe. Iâm not your babe.âÂ
When you canât seem to get into the building, Alex sighs again, reaching out to try to comfort you, but he only manages to make you uncomfortable as he grabs your arm, telling you to calm down. You look to the door surprised to see it opening, a larger man furrowing his brows at the sight in front of him before you give him a relieved and pleading look.Â
"Oh, thank God, hi honey. Alex, have you met my boyfriend?âÂ
Tilting his head in confusion, Seungcheol looks between you and the man holding your arm before he sees the desperation on your face. You were in some sort of distress. He knew you lived in the building; in fact, you were his neighbor, though he hadnât had much of a chance to speak to you yet. Seungcheol knew he could say he didnât know you, go on his way, staying out of your business, but something about you and what was happening told him he needed to play along. Extending his hand towards the one around your arm, Seungcheol gives the man a tight warning smile.Â
âHey man, Iâm Seungcheol.âÂ
You feel Alexâs hand slide from your arm, his brows furrowing at the new information. Watching the two men, you feel your heart in your throat as they shake hands and the man named Seungcheol moves closer to you with a smile, looking at you expectantly.
âIt was great to meet you Alex, but uh...â Clearing his throat, Seungcheol tries to think about how to get you out of this without making you uncomfortable. Shrugging, he sighs and just goes for it. âI was just coming to see why you had been gone for so long. Dinner is ready.âÂ
Your cheeks burn as Alex stares at you, his eyes narrowing. You can tell he is almost looking for holes in your and Seungcheolâs story, but when you smile and Seungcheol puts his arm around your shoulders, Alex rolls his eyes. You werenât sure if he actually bought the entire story on the spot, but it had been enough to get him to put his hands in his pockets and for him to back up, muttering.Â
âIâll see you at work, Y/N.âÂ
Offering your ex a strained smile, you lean into Seungcheol until Alex is out of sight. Taking a deep breath, you feel the pressure of being around him lift off of you before you glance up at Seungcheol and give him an apologetic look. Moving his arm, Seungcheol chuckles and shakes his head, turning back towards the door and using his keyfob to open it for you, letting you slip by him.Â
âUhâŚthank you. Seriously. Iâm so fucking sorry to drag you into that.âÂ
Leaning against the metal doorframe, Seungcheol just smiles and shrugs. His eyes stay on yours as you walk backwards for a few steps towards the elevator.Â
âMy pleasure, honey. Have a good evening.âÂ
You canât help the smile that spreads across your lips when the handsome man teases you. Backing into the elevator door, you laugh and shake your head, turning to press the button before glancing back to look at Seungcheol, still watching you for a moment before he waves and lets the door shut, leaving you alone.Â
Finally, in the elevator, you can take a breath as you lean against the wall. With each soft ding of the elevator as it climbs the floors, you chew at your lips and laugh under your breath at how the exchange between you and Seungcheol has ended. It was silly for you to feel so smitten by someone who had just helped you out of a hard situation, but god had he been attractive.Â
Walking towards your apartment, you sigh, taking your key out of your pocket as you glance to the door next to yours. Your brows furrow as you remember the first few days when you had moved into the apartment complex and you had met your neighbor in passing. He had been nice, asked you if you needed any help, but most of all, he had been attractive. Feeling your heart sink into your stomach, you picture the face of the man who had asked if you needed help moving boxes and itâs the same face that had pretended to be your boyfriend.Â
âSara!âÂ
Jutting your hip to the side, you barely manage to let one of your students run by you as he heads straight for a friend. Smiling at the interaction, you donât notice the boy's father trailing behind him, a small backpack in his hands.Â
âMatthew⌠You need to apologize to your teacher. I know you are excited, but still watch where you are going.âÂ
Shaking your head, you start to turn around towards the somewhat familiar voice when the small boy pouts up at you. He is so cute that you canât stop yourself from squatting down to his level to smile at him and adjust his small tie on his uniform.Â
ââM sorry, teacher. I havenât seen Sara all summer. Daddy wouldnât let me stay at her house because Iâm a boy.âÂ
You find yourself nodding along with his words, sympathizing with him until you canât help the small laugh that slips from your lips.Â
âItâs okay, Matthew. There will be plenty of time to play with Sara at school. Cut your daddy some slack, okay?âÂ
Ushering him along, you watch him for a moment longer, half turning towards the boy's father but still not quite looking at him. You have a habit of watching your students more than you do their parents, it would only take a second for a five year old to find trouble.Â
âDonât worry about Matthew. No harm done.âÂ
Seungcheol grins at you as you watch the kids so diligently. He had no idea that you were his sonâs teacher; this was a happy surprise, or perhaps an awkward one. He hadnât really made up his mind yet. It isnât until you finally glance at him and your mouth falls open in confusion that Seungcheol presses his lips together and winces at your reaction.Â
âDidnât know your boyfriend had a kid, huh? Is that a deal breaker?âÂ
You can feel your cheeks burning at Seungcheolâs joke, but your eyes quickly move over him before you give yourself something else to do by reaching for Matthewâs bag. It was better if you kept yourself busy and just did your job. Laughing a bit awkwardly, you meet Seungcheolâs eyes and bite at your lip out of nerves as he lets you take the bag and you move to the small wooden cubbies to find Matthewâs name.Â
âUh⌠I will be honest, I didnât. Iâm sorry again, by the way. Even more so now. I swear to you, Iâm not a complete mess; Iâm a good teacher.âÂ
Shaking his head, Seungcheol finds himself frowning when you seem to find the need to explain yourself and defend your position. He hadnât meant to cause that reaction.Â
âIâno⌠Iâm sure you are. Iâve heard nothing but great things about you leading up to today. I apologize⌠that was rude of me. I was just trying to make a joke. Break the tension.âÂ
Feeling a pang of guilt at your reaction as Seungcheol frowns, you take a deep breath and shake your head. You didnât want him to feel bad. It just wasnât the most ideal situation to find yourself in with a parent. Running your fingers over your hair, you press your lips together and scrunch up your nose, drawing Seungcheolâs attention to it. He smiles, finding the expression on your face cute. You were cute.Â
âNo, no, I know. Iâm sorry. Iâve only been here a couple years and this is my first year without working in someone else's classroom. I just donât wanna mess up.âÂ
Seungcheol nodded, understanding the feelingâperhaps not in the same profession, but he had been there in his own way. Gesturing towards the kids, Matthew in particular, as your eyes once again move over the kids, more of them making their way in, he shrugs as he speaks.Â
âWith how you have been watching them... I donât think we have a single thing to worry about.âÂ
He finds himself wanting to stay, if not just to talk to you but also to Matthew. It was his first day of big boy school, and even if Matthew looked like he was doing just fine with the adjustment, Seungcheol couldnât say the same for himself. One glance at his wrist, seeing how much time he had spent standing in the classroom, however, makes Seungcheol sigh and run his fingers through his brown hair.Â
âI gotta go. I should get out of the way anyway. MatthewâŚâÂ
Hearing his name, the small boy perks up and looks towards his dad with a grin before making his way over. Ruffling his hair, Seungcheol practically pouts, making your heart feel heavy. This part was hard, even for you. You didnât have children of your own, but the sentiment was still there when you watched loving parents leave their children for the day.Â
âI love you. Please be good. Learn somethinâ?âÂ
Giggling, Matthew leans into his dadâs touch and rocks on the balls of his feet as you take a step away to give them a moment to themselves.Â
âLove you too. Iâm so smart, Daddy. Teacher will be suppised!âÂ
Rolling his eyes at how cocky his son sounds, Seungcheol groans under his breath and looks at his watch again.Â
âYeah, alright, it's 'surprisedâ and stay away from Uncle Jeonghan. Learn some humility.âÂ
âI donât know what that means, Daddy.âÂ
Your small laugh draws Seungcheolâs attention and makes him grin as he ushers Matthew towards you.Â
âI bet Miss Y/N knows and she will let me know if youâve put it into practice when I pick you up after school.âÂ
Winking at you, Seungcheol turns to head out the door, glancing over his shoulder to wave at you as he goes. Looking down at the small boy with an expectant look in his eye, you bite at your lip and try to think about how you are going to explain humility and modesty to a five year old on a Monday morning.Â
âThatâs so good!âÂ
You clap as you watch a few of your kids preen with pride after counting to ten. They had been working hard after recess and a snack. It had been a good first day and you were proud of each and every one of them, even if you couldnât help how your eye kept going to Matthew. He was so cuteânot that all the kids in your class werenât; there was just something about his gummy smile that reminded you so much of his dad.Â
Looking up at the clock as the bell rings, you quickly look back at the kids, who mostly look confused until the door opens and parents start to file in.Â
âHey! Everybody⌠I know you want to see your parents, but letâs remember to grab our bags. Cubbies first, please!âÂ
You watch as most of the kids listen to you, moving in small lines to the wooden cubbies to grab their jackets and bags before finding their parents and heading out the door. Bending to pick up a few toys, you furrow your brows when you hear your name. Itâs said by a small, familiar voiceâMatthew, who pouts at you when you finally meet his eyes. He looks around, seeing most of the room clearing out, but his dad is nowhere to be found.Â
âHey, whatâs up? Maybe your daddy is running late. Maybe mommy is coming?âÂ
Shaking his head, Matthew gives you a confused look as he tugs at the bag on his shoulder.Â
âI donât have a mommy. Can you call my daddy?âÂ
Feeling a pang of guilt at mentioning his mother, you squat down to Matthewâs level so he doesnât have to tilt his head back to look up at you anymore. You knew you could call Seungcheol if you needed to, but school had just ended. Maybe you could give him a few more minutes. Reaching for Matthewâs bag, you sigh and offer the boy a smile, watching him match it with that cute gummy grin.Â
âHow about we give him a few more minutes and if he doesnât come, we can call him? You can pick any book you want and Iâll read it to you.âÂ
The idea of choosing any book in the room is enough to make Matthew okay with your terms. Wiggling out of his bag, he goes to the shelf, looking over the book covers as you stand and put his bag on the table with your purse. Checking the clock, your brows furrow with a sigh. It wasnât that late and you were sure this wouldnât be the last child you would be waiting for.Â
Cursing under his breath, Seungcheol looks at his watch as he speed walks through the school halls towards your classroom. He was over 30 minutes late and he was sure you were upset with him. He should have called but he was more concerned with trying to get to the school in one piece.Â
Reaching the door, he starts to speak when he hears your soft voice and for some reason, it makes him stop in his tracks. He sees Matthew sitting in your lap as he rests back against your chest, a book in your hands. You smile as you read the book, trying to come up with a voice for each character, making his son laugh. Seungcheol almost feels bad for interrupting the moment, but then he feels bad again for leaving you here at work with Matthew for so long.Â
âY/NâŚâ
Lifting your head, hearing your name, you smile at Seungcheol, feeling Matthew slip off your lap and run towards the door. You were definitely second best, but that was completely fair. Seungcheol holds the back of Matthewâs head as the boy wraps his arms around his legs and pouts up at him, asking him where heâs been.Â
âI got caught up at work; Iâm so so sorry. It wonât happen again.âÂ
Moving towards the table, you pick up Matthewâs bag as you shake your head.Â
âItâs no problem. It happens. Maybe you could just text me to let me know if you are gonna be late?âÂ
Nodding, Seungcheol lets out a breath, lifting his hand to rub at the back of his neck. You were right.Â
âNo⌠yeah, absolutely. Iâll make it upââÂ
âOh! Hey⌠Seungcheol, right?âÂ
Your smile fades hearing Alexâs voice as you watch Seungcheolâs brows furrow in confusion. Moving quicker towards the door, to hand Seungcheol Matthewâs bag and get his attention, but his eyes move to your ex.Â
âIâyeah⌠I gotta get Matthew home.âÂ
Looking towards you as if asking for an explanation, Seungcheol takes the bag from your hand while ushering his son out the door. You try to let him go, gesturing towards the hall, when Alex scoffs and gives him a once over muttering under his breath.Â
âSeriously, Y/N? A parent...âÂ
Swallowing hard, you feel your chest tighten when Seungcheol stops in his tracks. You wouldnât blame him if he told Alex it was all bullshit right there. It would be smart of you to do it, he wasnât going to let it go either way. Starting to speak, you stop when Seungcheol is quicker, keeping his voice low as he smirks at Alex.Â
âIs there a policy against that, Alex?â Glancing at you, Seungcheol reaches out to grab your hand, squeezing it lightly, winking at you before dropping it. âSee you later, Y/N.âÂ
Your cheeks burn as you watch Seungcheol walk down the hall with Matthew. The young boy glancing back to smile at you curiously before looking up at his dad and saying something you canât make out. Beside you, Alexâs jaw tightens as he watches you keep your eyes on the man leaving. What he wouldnât give for you to look at him like that again.Â
âThere should be a policy against itâŚâÂ
Shooting him a look, you turn towards your classroom, your hand on the doorframe as you speak.Â
"Well, there isnât, Alex, but there is one about harassment. Leave me alone.âÂ
You watch his mouth open and close a couple of times as you close the door in his face, leaving you in peaceful silence to wrap your mind around what had just happened.
Wiping sweat from your brow, you glance around your living room at the boxes that had once been piled up in a corner. It had been difficult to tell if you were moving in or out, but as you broke down, one last box signified that you had officially settled in. It had only taken you months to do it, and for some reason this Saturday felt like the right moment; everything was feeling like home in this apartment for once.Â
Grabbing as many of the boxes as you can, you let out a groan at how many trips you are going to have to take as you make your way to your front door and push it open with your shoulder. Cursing under your breath to the sound of your keys hitting the floor at your feet, you try to lean down without putting down the boxes when a hand brushes over your fingers, taking your keys from you. Before you are able to say anything, your eyes meet Seungcheol's, and your lips pull up into a shy smile.Â
âYour hands seemed full.âÂ
Nodding as you take the keys and slip them into your back pocket, you donât notice Seungcheol glancing into your apartment, seeing the pile of boxes. It isnât until he clears his throat, gesturing inside, that you tilt your head curiously.
âWant me to help with the rest? I think we can get them all down to the bin in one go.âÂ
Your first instinct is to tell him no, that you donât want to bother him, but there is a look in his eye that you donât want to turn him away. So you step out into the hall and smile at Seungcheol instead.Â
âI mean, if you are really offering.âÂ
Laughing, Seungcheol nods and slides past you, glancing around your apartment with a grin before he leans down to pick up the larger pile of boxes, heading back towards you.Â
âItâs not a big deal, Y/N. I was hoping to talk to you today anyway.âÂ
Moving through the hall with Seungcheol at your side, you use your elbow to press the elevator button, your head once again tilting to the side, almost like a puppy hearing a new word as you listen to him speak. He wanted to talk to you. You try to think of the reason, but only one comes to mind. Â
âIs it about Matthew?âÂ
Pursing his lips briefly, Seungcheol quickly smiles at your assumption and nods to cover up any doubt. You werenât wrong in thinking he would want to talk about his son. You were his teacher, it was only fair that he would be the topic of normal conversation.Â
âMmm, he loves school. I think you are the main reason.âÂ
Shaking your head, you step off the elevator and head for the main doors out of the apartment building with Seungcheol in tow. When you stop to lean your boxes against the wall, opening the door for him, Seungcheol smiles at you as he moves through the door, only to stop and hold it open for you with his foot.Â
âThanks, but no... I think itâs his friends. He loves hanging out with Sara.âÂ
Seungcheol lets the door close behind you before trailing along at your side as he shakes his head. He knew how much his son liked his friends, but there was something different about Matthew since he had started school.Â
âItâs more than that. Heâs eager to get there. He can see Sara anytime, and that doesn't have to be at school. He wants to get to Miss Y/Nâs class.âÂ
Feeling your cheeks heat up, your lips pull up into a smile that you are unable to hide even as you look down. It was one thing to be told you were good at your job; it was another to hear that a student wanted to go to school because of your class. It was everything a teacher wanted to hear.Â
Watching Seungcheol push his boxes into the bin, you run your fingers along the underside of one of the boxes still in your hands. You werenât sure if he even understood the gift he had given you while helping you with a mundane task that you had been dreading. Glancing down, you take a deep breath, hoping the butterflies in your stomach will calm down when Seungcheolâs voice brings you back to reality.Â
âHere, let me put these in there too.âÂ
Meeting his eyes, you swallow hard, feeling his fingers glide over yours as Seungcheol takes the boxes from your hands. When you glance away with a small smile on your lips, he takes notice. Pushing the rest of the boxes into the bin, Seungcheol bites at his lip, trying to choose his words carefully, before he turns back to you and scratches at his brow.Â
âAnything else to throw away? Is whatâs his name lingering around? I can toss him in too.âÂ
Feeling your cheeks burn, you scoff into a laugh as Seungcheol moves back to your side. Walking in tandem towards the building, you glance up at him, shaking your head as he laughs, along with you leaning to knock your arm with his to let you know he is joking.Â
âAlex⌠and thankfully he isnât. God, I am so sorry about all of that. I shouldnât have gotten you involved to begin with.âÂ
Shaking his head, Seungcheol purses his lips, watching you take your keys out to tap your fob against the reader, letting him open the door for you.Â
âItâs not a big deal. You seemed really uncomfortable. I was happy to help⌠I mean, I still am. He strikes me as the type to not give up easily.âÂ
Scoffing once again, you follow Seungcheol to the elevator, leaning against the wall as you meet his eyes. That was an understatement. If he was able to tell from just a couple of meetings with your ex, that should say plenty about Alexâs character. You find yourself allowing your eyes to move over Seungcheolâs face, his handsome eyes, and his plump lips before you sigh and look down at your hands as the elevator steadily climbs the floors.Â
âHeâs not. He thinks thatâs a redeeming quality.â Sighing into your words, you push off the wall as the doors open, stepping out into the hall as Seungcheol follows you. âBut heâd be wrong. I couldnât ask you to help me anymore. Youâve done so much.âÂ
Offering Seungcheol a smile, you walk backwards for a moment as he tilts his head, his own smile lifting at one side as his eyes move over you. You were so cute; he knew it was dangerous this game he was playing. He wanted to get close to you and he knew there were better ways, this had just been the one that had been presented to him.Â
âYou didnât ask. Iâm offering⌠Speaking of, you busy this evening?âÂ
Shaking your head, you slide your keys from your pocket as you watch Seungcheol lean against his door. You canât help but notice the way your eyes once again move over him. He was possibly the most handsome man you had ever seen and also the most unattainable. You needed to remember who he was and the boundary that was set, even if it was blurred.Â
âMm, no. Why? Need some help with Matthew?âÂ
Seungcheol sighs into a laugh. It wasnât unfair that youâd assume he wanted to ask you something involving his kid, but he just smiles as you look at him curiously, as if realizing for the first time that Matthew isnât around.Â
âOh⌠no. Heâs with my parents this weekend. I was gonna ask if you wanted to come over for dinner?âÂ
Your brows furrow at Seungcheolâs question. That boundary was getting even more blurred as you considered his question and he seemed to see you struggle before he laughed and bit his lips before speaking up again.Â
âWe can talk about how to pretend to be a good fake couple. You know, for appearances sake. Maybe get Alex to get a life.âÂ
While Seungcheolâs explanation wasnât entirely convincing, you smiled and nodded. In truth, you didnât want to turn down the dinner invitation. You didnât want to tell Seungcheol no and that you didnât want to spend more time with him, even if Matthew wasnât involved. It was a dangerous line you were walking.Â
âGreat! Uh⌠around 6?âÂ
At 5:55 you were considering texting Seungcheol to tell him that you had suddenly come down with the flu. Your anxiety was causing your heart to rise into your throat as you tugged at your shirt, trying to make sure you looked decent.Â
With your hand hovering over the door, you whine to yourself before knocking lightly at Seungcheolâs door and waiting. Maybe he would make it easier on you and just not answer the door, but then the idea of that makes you frown. You hate the idea of not being able to spend the evening with Seungcheol. Even the idea of something disrupting it causes disappointment to bubble in your stomach until the door opens and you are met with his handsome face and a gummy smile that matches your favorite one of Matthewâs.Â
âHey, you lookâuh⌠I mean, you look pretty. Come in.âÂ
Seungcheol stumbles over his words, the flush of his cheeks evident as he shakes his head, trying to keep his head and not overstep with you. He knew where he stood and where he wanted this to go, but you had made yourself pretty clear the first day in your classroom. You were his sonâs teacher and now this situation... It was odd. Seungcheol was just happy to at least have you in his life as a friend, if not more.Â
Swallowing hard, you look down to hide your smile as Seungcheol compliments you. You werenât sure how to react, so instead you pressed your lips together and gestured outward to his apartment.Â
âYour place is so nice.âÂ
Shrugging, Seungcheol leads you towards the open kitchen and living room area where, the dinner, he has been working on bubbles quietly on the stove. You watch him adjust the temperature and stir a sauce as he sighs, tilting his head.Â
âItâs a mess. I should have cleaned up more. I donât usually have company besides a few friends, but they are used to Matthewâs shit laying around. Here, do you like this?âÂ
Holding the wooden spoon out towards you over the bar, Seungcheol watches as you blink at him a couple times before leaning forward to take a bit of the sauce off the spoon. It is savory and delicious as it hits your tongue and the back of your throat. Closing your eyes, you nod and lift your fingers to brush them over your lips as he watches you with a smile on his face at your reaction.Â
âItâs delicious, Seungcheol.âÂ
Turning down the heat even more, Seungcheol moves to the sink to strain another larger pot as you watch him closely. His voice is calm and soothing. Everything about him makes you feel almost instantly comfortable in a space where you thought youâd want to hide under the table without a reason to truly be there.Â
âI donât know if itâs all that great. You are being nice, but this is my go to for dinner. Matthew likes pasta and Iâm halfway decent at it. So I hope you actually like it.âÂ
Licking your lips, you lift your hand to cover your smile as you watch Seungcheol putting the finishing touches on dinner. He moves with ease, his eyes catching yours every once in a while, making your skin erupt in chillbumps as you glance away shyly. You could feel yourself getting too comfortable around him if you were to let your guard down, and that was all your body was telling you to do.Â
âMind to grab a couple of those wine glasses?âÂ
Glancing to your right, you shake your head gently before collecting two of the fragile glasses as Seungcheol moves past you towards the table. You hear your stomach growl as the smell of the pasta and garlic bread greets your nose when you get close enough to set the glasses down. Smiling, Seungcheol sneaks a look in your direction, watching your brows furrow and your lips turn down in embarrassment as he hears the grumble coming from your stomach.Â
âIâsorry. I didnât eat lunch.âÂ
Shaking his head, he picks up the bottle of wine, twisting the opener into the cork as he takes a breath to cover a small laugh. Seungcheol swore he could feel the effects of the alcohol before even taking a sip, with you standing so close to him and with how sweet you were. He knew this was a dangerous arrangement. Not that either of you would be doing anything wrong, but as the moments ticked by, it was getting difficult not to give into lingering glances.Â
âYou have nothing to apologize for. Except perhaps to yourself. You need to eat regularly, Y/N.âÂ
Groaning playfully, you hold the glasses steady, allowing Seungcheol to easily pour wine into each before he moves your chair, letting you sit down first. You can feel your cheeks flush up into your ears. The sound of blood rushing to your head has your hand reaching for your wine, bringing the glass to your lips to take a sip of the liquid courage as Seungcheol lifts your plate, putting pasta on it with an appreciative hum.Â
âThank you. I promise, Iâm usually better about eating... and I always make sure the kids eat their lunch and snacks at school. So donât think my own behavior somehow reflectsââÂ
Moving his hand from the serving fork, Seungcheol slides it over yours, meeting your eyes as you start to ramble. You were spiraling and there was no reason for it.Â
âHey⌠I know you are a good teacher. I donât worry a single moment in the day about Matthewâs wellbeing when I know heâs with you. Donât worry about that.âÂ
Taking a deep breath, you flex your fingers under Seungcheolâs palm, feeling his hands wrap around yours as his brows furrow. You can see the look in his eye and how heâs searching to make sure you understand what heâs told you, so you nod. Even if you didnât completely feel adequate, you needed Seungcheol to let go of your hand before you fainted into his floor or made a run for the door.Â
âMmkay⌠IâmmâŚâ Smiling, trying to compose yourself, you watch Seungcheolâs hand move from yours to his wine, making you feel like you can take a breath. âThe wine is very good. Thank you for inviting me to eat.âÂ
Letting the wine glide over his tongue, Seungcheol smiles against the glass. He had noticed that you were starting to panic, but so was he. It hadnât been his intention, but the alternative was you feeling like you werenât good enough and that just wouldnât work for him. Gesturing towards your plate, Seungcheol clears his throat and tilts his head before picking up his own fork.Â
âThank you for eating with me. Iâm a sad, lonely sap when Matthew is gone on weekends. You saved me from boredom.âÂ
You werenât sure how truthful Seungcheol was being but his words made you feel warm and they made you settle into your chair. They gave you a purpose to be there and not rush. You didnât want him to be lonely. You suddenly realized how quiet it was in the apartment. You were used to that in yours but you could also sometimes hear Seungcheol and Matthew through the walls and they always sounded happy together. Of course, a weekend alone might be lonely for him.Â
Two glasses of wine down and after refusing another helping of pasta, you felt even more relaxed around Seungcheol. He was funny and warm. You understood even more about Matthew after spending time with his dad. They were like a mirror image of one another and as much as you adored Matthew, you could see yourself feeling that way about Seungcheol as the night carried on.Â
Soon you found yourself on his couch, another glass of wine in your hand as you pulled your legs up under you. Seungcheol grinned at you as you told him about going through your first year of assistant teaching. He could tell that you had a passion for your career and it was just one of the many things he was starting to love about you. This was becoming one of the easiest and equally difficult evenings of his night. While he loved talking to you and being close to you, he couldnât help as his eyes moved over your pretty face and along your neck as he pictured getting closer to you and seeing if youâd let him touch you. Instead, he kept his respectful distance and admired you.Â
Watching Seungcheol stand up to grab another bottle of wine, you tilt your head, letting your eyes move along his fit frame. You werenât blind. You were a woman, you had needs, and god, if your body wasnât screaming at you that you were an idiot for not trying to get closer to the man who had been smiling at you for the past few hours. You were simultaneously enraptured by him and terrified of him. You could see yourself falling for him and it would be hard and messy. It couldnât end well, because the first person you saw in your mind was Matthew.Â
Looking back around the room to pull your mind back to the present, despite the euphoric cloud of alcohol, you smile seeing the pictures of the boy on the wall. There were so many, from the time he was an infant to now. You could see pictures of Seungcheol and Matthew with others as well. A woman who you assumed was Matthewâs mother and some men who looked to be around Seungcheolâs age, perhaps brothers. A wave of longing hits you and you rest your head on your arm, a frown on your face as you keep looking around, finally noticing the degrees on the furthest wall.Â
Narrowing your eyes, you struggle to make out the words, finally sitting up and leaning forward to read as Seungcheol moves back to the couch with a sigh. Reaching for your glass, the man says something you donât pay attention to as he tries to hand you the glass.Â
âY/N? Is white wine okay?âÂ
Blinking a couple of times, you meet Seungcheolâs eyes and look at the glass in his hand with a clueless look on your face. A smile spreads over his face. He tilts his head and lets you take the glass from him as you gesture towards the wall with your other hand.Â
âYouâwait⌠Youâre a doctor?âÂ
You werenât sure what you had assumed Seungcheol did for a living, but a doctor hadnât been on your bingo card. Looking around the room as you feel reality setting in, you can see that things make a bit more sense. The furniture was really nice. The wine was delicious and tasted expensive. Seungcheol, even in lounge wear, looked expensive.Â
Shrugging, Seungcheol purses his lips as he takes a sip of the wine from the glass in his hand as he looks at his medical degree on the wall. He hadnât really considered that you didnât know or that it would matter. Meeting your eyes once again, he sighs and leans back against the back of the couch, getting comfortable.Â
âMmhm, family medicine. I have a small private practice in the city and a couple days a week I work out of the hospital in the emergency room. Are you that surprised? Do I not look smart enough to be a doctor or something?âÂ
Sitting up, you shake your head so fast Seungcheol is afraid you might get whiplash. Reaching forward as he laughs, he runs his fingers over your arm as you lift your glass to your lips, finally taking another sip to calm your nerves before explaining your apparent shock.Â
âNoâŚNoâof course you are smart. You just donât look like a doctor. I didnât expect you to be... you know.âÂ
When you donât elaborate, Seungcheol laughs as he leans to put his glass on a coaster on the end table. You take another larger sip of your wine as your eyes fall to the fingers of his other hand as they rest against your forearm and the couch. It isnât lost on you, no matter how tipsy you might be or how much you enjoy his fingers on your skin.Â
âI donât know. Tell me. You can tell me anything.âÂ
That was a very dangerous thing to say to you and Seungcheol seemed to know it as he watched you snort into a laugh. Giving you the smile that you had grown to love so much, he bites at his lip and leans forward slightly, listening to the laugh fade as your eyes focus on him.Â
âSeriously, tell me what you mean.âÂ
There was a lump in your throat and wine wasnât going to get it to go down. You werenât sure anything could. No matter how much you swallowed or cleared your throat, it was only when you glanced down at your wine that you were able to feel the pressure subside enough that you could talk.Â
âIâyou know what I mean, Seungcheol. The whole package, I guess.âÂ
Shaking his head again, Seungcheol sighs out a laugh, wishing he could just get you to say what you mean instead of this game where you beat around the bush.Â
âPackage? Like from Amazon? What are we talking about here, Y/N? Help me out.âÂ
He was frustrating in the most adorably clueless and teasing way. You had a feeling he knew what you were hinting at, even if he was trying to play dumb; he was a doctor after all. You had already insulted his intelligence once. Glancing up long enough to meet Seungcheolâs eyes, you take a deep breath and let it out with a sigh that sounds more like a laugh as you speak.Â
âYouâre incredibly attractive, a doctor, obviously successful, and a good dad. The whole package. I donât think you can order that on Amazon.âÂ
Seungcheol bites at his lip after hearing you explain your words. It was better than he had anticipated. He felt bad for making you say it, he knew it had to be somewhat embarrassing, but he had to hear it. He might never hear it again, because at the end of the day, this wasnât a real relationship.Â
âMm, well, thatâs good for your boyfriend to know.â
Opening your mouth, you look confused but Seungcheol grins and picks up his wine, letting you off the hook as he takes a sip and continues.Â
âYou know, fake boyfriend.âÂ
A small, confused laugh slips from between your lips as you nod, trying to act like it is easy to understand and it all makes sense. You try to pretend like this is going to be easy and that him âhelpingâ you keep up this ruse is a good idea, but who was it actually helping?Â
âRight, my fake boyfriend. My fake doctor boyfriend.âÂ
Smirking, Seungcheol rolls his eyes and watches you finish off your glass of wine. He hated the word fake. Was it horrible of him to hope for a time when he could remove the word fake from his and your vocabulary? Yes, he knew it was. So he just takes a deep breath and points at your wine glass.Â
âMore wine, fake girlfriend?âÂ
Your laugh is so pretty, it almost breaks Seungcheolâs heart. He watches your head tilt back and his eyes move along your neck and back up to your face as you sigh. Itâs when you glance at the clock on the wall and pout that he matches the pout, knowing what you are going to say.Â
âItâs so late. I should go home.âÂ
Two in the morning. That was much later than you had intended on staying, but the look on Seungcheolâs face made you almost reluctant to get up. You were tired, the wine was doing a great job at aiding that fact, but it didnât lessen that pout on his handsome face. You watch as he nods, a soft sigh escaping between his lips before he takes your empty glass and stands up.Â
âThank you again for coming over. I really did enjoy it. Maybe we can do this again sometime.âÂ
Your eyes follow Seungcheol into the kitchen as he puts the wine glasses into the sink. When he glances over his shoulder at you, giving you a hopeful look you canât disappoint him even if your brain is screaming about how much this is going to hurt you.Â
âAbsolutely.âÂ
âThatâs all you did?âÂ
Groaning at Jeonghanâs tone in his question, Seungcheol pushes a plate of leftover pasta across the kitchen island towards him and Jihoon. Lifting his hands, he gives his best friend an incredulous look before stabbing at his own food with a pout on his face.Â
âWhat did you expect him to do, Jeonghan? Jump her the first chance he gets.âÂ
Jihoon rolls his eyes as he shoves a fork full of pasta into his mouth, talking between bites. Out of the two men, in his own opinion, he had the most level head in this situation. He understood why Seungcheol had let you go home and why he hadnât made a move. Jeonghan, on the other hand, stared at his friend as if he had two heads and was growing another.Â
âI expect him to grow some fucking balls. You deserve some happiness, Cheol. You have this hot little teacher next door that you wonât shut up about; she comes over, and thatâsâthatâs it!âÂ
Jeonghan made it seem like he had committed a crime by respecting you and your position as his teacher. Not that the two of you had exclusively said you didnât want to actually explore things, but it was an unspoken thing. Seungcheol wasnât an idiot. He didnât get through medical school on a wish and a prayer.Â
âIâm helping her with her stupid douche of an ex. It would be wrong of me to actually make a move. Plus, it would be weird for Matthew.âÂ
Finally swallowing a bite of his food, Jeonghan scoffs around the pasta at Seungcheolâs half ass attempt at an excuse. In his mind, it didnât make any sense and he was grasping at straws. He had seen his best friend fall for someone before and he didnât want to see him lose that chance because he was scared.Â
âBullshit, it would be weird for Matthew. He already talks about Miss Y/N all the damn time. He likes her more than he likes me at this point. Itâs offensiveâŚâÂ
Chuckling, Jihoon gets a harsh side eye from Jeonghan that he matches with one of his own.Â
âI think itâs hilarious and I think that you need to stop riding Cheolâs ass. If he wants to ask her out, heâll do it. If notââÂ
âHeâll die alone and pouting.âÂ
Dropping his fork into his plate, Seungcheol lifts his hand to push at his temples as his friends continue to talk about him as if he isnât even in the room. Both of them had good points and as much as he didnât want to admit it, Jeonghan had some of the better ones. He knew he was being a wimp when it came to you, but he wasnât ready to bet and lose.Â
Noticing that Seungcheol had gone quiet, Jeonghan turned his attention back to him, letting out a sigh as Jihoon did the same. Neither of them liked the look on his face. They had been friends with him for over a decade and been through a majority of the highs and the lows. They had been there for the best of his life so far and the day that he thought his own had ended because hers had.Â
Rubbing his thumb into his palm as he thinks about what to say next, Jihoon furrows his brows deeply. For a moment, he looks annoyed, but thatâs because he is. Heâs annoyed that heâs going to agree with Yoon Jeonghan for the first time in a long time. Sighing in a groan, the man leans forward and taps his fingers on the island as he tries to make his point.Â
âListen, Iâm not saying I completely agree with Jeonghanââ
âBut clearly, he agreesââÂ
Shooting a look at the man, Jihoon watches a smirk pull up at Jeonghanâs lips as he stops talking, letting him continue.Â
âBut... even I can admit that something is going on in your head, Cheol. Iâm not going to push you as hard as him, but donât let it slip through your fingers because of the unknown.âÂ
That was what terrified him. The unknown. You could reject him completely. He could look like a fool. You could accept him and fall in love with him. Then he might lose you. There was so much unknown. The unknown had ruined his life before and only the people closest to him and his son had kept him from drowning.Â
âWhat if it doesnât work out?âÂ
Nodding, Jeonghan lifts his hands off the island and takes a deep breath, letting it out as he meets Seungcheolâs eyes to answer his question.Â
âAnd what if it does?âÂ
Forcing a smile on your face after a long day, you stand up as the bell rings and parents start to move into the room to collect their children. Taking your time, you note each one, telling them to have a good evening and that you will see them in the morning.Â
It wasnât that you hadnât enjoyed your day, but you could feel a headache behind your eyes and fifteen screaming five year olds was a lot for anyone. So as the numbers started to dwindle, you could feel the anxiety starting to fade from you.Â
âHey, buddy!âÂ
Glancing up as Matthew squeals happily, you watch him run towards a slender but fit man that you vaguely recognize. Perhaps he had been on Seungcheolâs walls in one of the pictures, but you didnât have a name to putâ
âUncle Jeonghan!â
Ah, so this was Uncle Jeonghan that Matthew talked about so much. Picking up your clipboard, you furrow your brows, moving over to him and the man as you quickly make sure the manâs name is listed as someone authorized to pick up.Â
âHave a good day? This must be Miss Y/N that your daddy talks about all the time.âÂ
Lifting your head from the clipboard, you meet the manâs eyes as your cheeks start to burn. Opening your mouth, you close it quickly as he smirks at you and ruffles the boy's head as he clings close to him.Â
âIâYoon Jeonghan? If you could just sign for Matthew, since you're not his legal guardian and only listed as an authorized person, itâs policy.âÂ
Taking the clipboard from you, Jeonghan grins as you seem to shy away at his words. He could see the appeal. You were beautiful and seemed responsible. You were exactly Seungcheolâs type.Â
âNo problem; Y/N. Cheol had to work in the ER today so here I am to save the day. I honestly donât know why he didnât just ask you to bring him home.âÂ
Scoffing in surprise, you watch as Matthew gasps and looks up at you like a new toy.Â
âThatâd be so cool! Miss Y/N, can you one day? I can show you my toys.âÂ
Not wanting to disappoint the boy, you give him a strained smile and meet Jeonghanâs eyes, realizing he was an enabler. Seungcheol should have warned you about him, but maybe he didnât even realize how your first meeting with him would go.Â
âMaybe⌠Iâm your teacher, Matthew. We play at schoolââÂ
âWell and his neighbor and his daddyâs girlââÂ
Shaking your head, you watch as Jeonghan bites his lip to stifle a laugh before nodding and holding up his free hand as a way of surrendering. Apparently Seungcheol had shared some details of your ârelationshipâ with his friend. You wanted to crawl into a hole and never come out, but you had a feeling this man was the type to pull you out and back into the spotlight.Â
âMaybe one day, Matthew... but letâs not get our hopes up.âÂ
Pouting up at you, Matthew just nods and moves away from you both to go get his things. Letting out a breath, you take back your clipboard and put it down on a shelf behind you as you and Jeonghan glance towards the small boy as he pulls on his jacket.Â
âHeâd let you take him home.âÂ
Furrowing your brows, you glance over at Jeonghan and shift on your feet at his words and the implication behind them. Noticing how you seem to nervously shift from foot to foot, Jeonghan smirks and glances down at his phone in his hand, answering a text from Seungcheol as he speaks to you.Â
âOne day heâll man up and ask you out for real. This fake dating shitââÂ
âDonât curse in my classroom, please.âÂ
A laugh slips from between his lips as he glances up from his phone to offer you an apologetic smile before nodding and continuing.Â
âSure, sorry. As I was saying, this fake dating nonsense you two have going on right now isn't going to work. I can already tell you like him.âÂ
Insufferable. That's how youâd describe Yoon Jeonghan. You had known him for less than ten minutes and already you knew he was going to be an issue in your life. Crossing your arms, you start to sigh into your words, a dramatic big breath, when Alexâs voice once again ruins your moment.Â
âMatt, buddy, let me help.âÂ
Jeonghan watches as your head moves like prey sensing a predator towards the other teacher, who was now helping Matthew with his bag. His eyes move to his godsonâs face as he grimaces as the man tugs on the straps, keeping them tight on his arms.Â
âHeâs fine, Mr. Alex. Thank you.âÂ
You still sounded like yourself, with that sweet tone to your voice, but even Jeonghan could hear the hint of malice behind it. So this was Alex, and now Alex thought it was okay to mess with Seungcheolâs son. The âfakeâ dating made sense. This man did not understand boundaries and used everything in front of him as an open door.Â
Stepping in front of Alex, you smile at Matthew and the smile transfers to the boyâs face. Jeonghan feels relief wash over him at the sight as you kneel down, adjust the straps back to where they were and then tie his shoe properly.Â
âI was just helping out a student, Miss Y/N.âÂ
Oof⌠There was so much tension in this room that even Jeonghan felt like he was going to drown in it. Stepping forward, he clears his throat and offers his hand towards Matthew, letting him take his fingers.Â
âAnd while Iâm sure she appreciates that, and the parents do... I donât know you, Mr. Alex, was it? From where I was standing, some strange man was touching my godson, which honestly made me nervous for a moment. Iâd be more careful; this isnât your classroom.âÂ
Standing up, you feel your cheeks burn under Alexâs eyes as he looks to you to defend him, but you donât. Jeonghan had a point. Not every parent or guardian knew who all the teachers were, not even the students knew the other teachers. Simple acts could be misunderstood and while he was doing something to âbe niceâ and it was innocent, you knew there was another reason he was inserting himself into your and Matthewâs lives.Â
âWell, I do apologize for the misunderstanding. My classroom is right down the hall. I was just coming to see Miss Y/N. We are very close.âÂ
Jeonghan just smirks at the man and shoots you a glance before looking at his phone and seeing a reply from Seungcheol.Â
âIâm sure you are.â Dismissing the man, he looks at you and smiles brightly. âY/N, dear⌠Cheol asked me if you wouldnât mind helping me with Matthew once you get home? Iâm an awful cook.âÂ
Opening his mouth to say something, Alex stops when Matthew squeals with delight and grabs at your shirt, begging you to come over.Â
Another point to you and Seungcheol.Â
Staring at Seungcheolâs apartment door, you listen to the sound of Matthewâs laughter. While you knew why you had agreed to Jeonghanâs ridiculous plan, you werenât sure why you were attempting to follow through with it. You could so easily just text Seungcheol and tell him that your evening got far too busy, and you wouldnât be able to help Jeonghan out with Matthew, but suddenly it felt important to you.Â
Jeonghan had been doing a good job, for the most part, at keeping Matthew distracted from asking when you were going to come over, but every few minutes the question kept coming up. He knew there was a slight chance you might bail on them, but he had a good feeling you wouldnât, so he simply told Matthew, âsheâll be here soon,â each time he asked. So when you knocked on the door, a little after 6:30, Matthew squealed in delight and beat Jeonghan to it by a mile.Â
âMiss Y/N! Iâm so excited. I have coloring pages and my trucks to show you. Can we paint?âÂ
Shaking your head, you run your fingers over Matthewâs head with a sigh as you listen to Jeonghan chuckle under his breath a few feet away. It was clear to see that the little boy had you wrapped around his little finger. You werenât supposed to have a favorite student, and maybe that wasnât even what was happening here, but you adored Matthew. Him and his gummy smile.Â
âMaybe? Iâm supposed to help with dinner. What did your Uncle Jeonghan have in mind?âÂ
Giving you a once over in your more casual clothes, Jeonghan nods in approval before gesturing towards the kitchen as if you didnât already know where it was.Â
âLuckily for me, Cheol is a great father. He left a note that says, 'stuff for pizza in the fridgeâ, so it looks like itâs pizza, Teach.âÂ
Rolling your eyes, you let Matthew hold on to your waist as you make your way into the kitchen and glance at the note in question.Â
âAnd you canât make pizza on your own?âÂ
âUncle Jeonghan burneded my chicken nuggets last week. Can you make me pizza, Miss Y/N?âÂ
Letting out a breath, you meet Matthewâs eyes before looking back up at Jeonghan, who grimaces at the mention of the chicken nuggets. Maybe it was a good thing that you were here if this man couldnât even be trusted with the most simple of foods.Â
It didnât take long for the three of you to get into a comfortable rhythm. You quickly took over things in the kitchen, leaving Jeonghan to entertain Matthew, which in turn kept him from being under your feet. It wasnât until you were putting the homemade pizza into the oven that the evening started to calm down and you were able to really look around you and feel your heart tightening. You wanted this. Not with Jeonghan, though he was starting to grow on you as a friend, but you wanted to be around Matthew more and to help with him.Â
Feeling your cell phone vibrate in your back pocket, you wipe your hands off on a dish towel and slip it from your pocket only for a smile to pull at the corner of your lips.Â
Seungcheol: I owe you big timeÂ
Glancing towards the living room, you press your lips together watching Matthew and Jeonghan sitting at the coffee table with crayons covering most of the surface. Now that feeling of wanting this more often was even stronger as you thought about Seungcheol, wishing he was here⌠even though that felt wrong on some level. You shouldnât want something with a parent of one of your students⌠there had to be something wrong about that, or at least Alex was good at making you feel like there was.Â
Y/N: Donât say that yet. Pizza isnât out of the oven yet. I might burn it just as bad as Jeonghan.
Grinning as he leans against the wall of the break room, Seungcheol allows himself a moment to just enjoy the idea of you in his apartment. He knew he would be there in a few more hours, but picturing you with Matthew seemed so domestic. Jeonghan was right, as much as Seungcheol hated to admit it⌠he wanted more with you than some fake relationship.Â
âWhat are you smiling at like that? Itâs creepyâŚâÂ
Scoffing at Joshua Hongâs teasing words, Seungcheol quickly replies to you before clearing his throat and sliding his phone back into his coat pocket. He had never been good at âacting casual,â and most of his friends knew that, so this time was no different.Â
âNothing, why are you? You know, being nosy? Donât you have a patient in Five?âÂ
Joshua smirks as he watches Seungcheol scratch his neck. He could see that his friend was nervous and that, paired with the stupid, love-sick smile he had been wearing, could only mean one thing.Â
âI just discharged that patient. Are you simping that hard over some girl? Choi Seungcheol, are you fucking someonââÂ
Lifting his hands, Seungcheol is quick to let out a panicked sound in order to stop Joshua from continuing. It was bad enough that he had to deal with Jeonghan on almost a daily basis. Dealing with both Jeonghan and Joshua, now that was a nightmare.Â
âShut up. Iâno. No, Iâm not fuckâIâm not sleeping with anyone. You spend too much time with Jeonghan if you are talking like that.âÂ
Joshua had never known Seungcheol to be so proper and flustered before, and honestly, it was pretty amusing to see him sweat over something as simple as a girl.Â
âHannie and I enjoy our quality time; thank you very much. Get the stick out of your ass and tell me whatâs going on, or Iâll just have to ask him. Iâm sure he knows.âÂ
The idea of Jeonghan being able to explain his love life, or the lack thereof, to anyone but especially to Joshua was a terrifying and humiliating thought. Shaking his head, Seungcheol groans and reaches for Joshuaâs arm, stopping him from leaving the break room as he glances towards the clock to see how much time he has left on his break before he explains from the beginning.Â
Seungcheol: Well burnt or not, canât wait to get home and have a slice. See you in about an hour?
You had stared at your phone and Seungcheolâs text for a bit longer than you had meant to. When Jeonghan pursed his lips and glanced over your shoulder to see what had your attention so enraptured, you gasped, pulling the phone to your chest.Â
âSorry, I said your name a couple times, but you were staring at your phone like it was a bomb. I had to make sure you didnât need help with it.âÂ
Furrowing your brows, you clear your throat and put your phone face down on the counter, turning towards the oven and leaning to glance at the pizza through the window. You were avoiding the topic, but Jeonghan wasnât the one to just give up.Â
âYou set a timer, didnât you? Should come out right in time for us to eat. You know, Matthew, me, you, and Cheol.âÂ
Glancing over your shoulder, you narrow your eyes at Jeonghan and straighten to your full height so that you feel a bit less small in front of him.Â
âI wasnât going to stay for dinner.âÂ
Tilting his head, Jeonghan starts to speak when Matthew whines and the sound of his little feet hitting the wood floor draws your attention. You get ready to explain to him that you need to go, that you have so much you have to do before bedtime, but one look down at him and the pout on his face... all excuses die on your tongue.Â
âPlease donât go! Eat pizza with me. You said maybe to playing with trucks.âÂ
You watch as tears start to gather in Matthewâs eyes and it almost breaks your heart. Even Jeonghan feels a pang of guilt knowing he had pushed a little too hard, and he finds himself hoping youâll stay as he looks at Matthew, his small shoulders lifting to take a breath, trying to keep himself from crying.Â
Squatting in front of Matthew, you run your fingers over his cheeks and offer him a smile, happy to see his lips pull up even slightly in return. It was easier to say no at school. You knew you had authority and there was more to say no to. Children would get into trouble more often if you gave in, but here, what would you lose if you said yes? What harm could it really cause?Â
âIâIâll stay for dinner. I made really good pizza. I would hate to miss out on it or your trucks.âÂ
Wrapping his arms around your neck, Matthew grins as he giggles. He had known a lot of sadness in his short life, but his father and those around him had worked hard to show him even more joy. This was more joy. There was something special about you, and it wasnât just that you were his teacher or that he liked you so much; it was more that you felt so warm and made him wonder what his mommy would have been like. Not that he would tell you that, at least not tonight.Â
Patting Matthewâs back, you glance up at Jeonghan as he purses his lips, the look on his face a mixture of apologetic and appreciative. It takes a moment before you are finally able to pull away from the boy and meet his eyes, seeing a bit of wetness on his cheeks, but that big smile on his face remains even as you wipe the tears away.Â
âThe pizza has to cook for a bit longer. Wanna show me what you and Uncle Jeonghan were working on?âÂ
Letting out a deep breath as he walks through the door, Seungcheol finds the stress of his day quickly replaced by fondness. He knew you had decided to stay for dinner, but seeing you in his living room with Matthew for himself was a different story. Now he couldnât help the smile that played on his lips even as Jeonghan watched him carefully, studying him for what seemed like a full minute before Seungcheol finally moved further into the house.Â
âThought you were going to stand in the hall all damn night.âÂ
Scoffing at Jeonghanâs words, Seungcheol shakes his head before meeting your eyes trying not to lose himself in your soft smile. You are so beautiful and it was becoming impossible for him to pretend like he didnât like you, and that he didnât want to see what this could be without some silly stipulations to your relationship.Â
âHowâs the evening been so far? Donât I get a hug?âÂ
While his words were meant for Matthew, you still pressed your lips together feeling a slight urge to stand up and move into Seungcheolâs arms too. He looked incredible, even as tired as he was. You were having a hard time not staring at him, and Jeonghan was taking notes.Â
âI think the uhâthe pizza is cool enough to eat. So you have good timing.âÂ
Nodding to your words, Seungcheol squats down to hug Matthew. You watch fondly as he rocks the small boy back and forth a few times, causing him to let out a delighted sound before Seungcheol stands and runs his fingers through his hair.Â
âAwesome, thank you again for helping, Y/N. Iâll⌠uh get changed and meet you guys at the table.âÂ
Swallowing hard, you nod as your eyes follow Seungcheol through the room until he is out of your line of sight. A small chuckle to your right pulls your attention back to the present and to Jeonghan, who simply lifts his brows and pats Matthewâs back, ushering him towards the dining room.Â
âPizza time, buddy. Too much ogling is going on in this room for my stomach to handle.â
Looking up at Jeonghan, Matthew tilts his head as he walks beside him, a look of confusion on his cute face.Â
âWhatâs ohgling?âÂ
With a groan, you drop your head into your hands for a split second before moving to your feet and following along with the two just in time to hear Jeonghan explain how to say the word properly and that it means to look at someone for a long time because you like them. At least he had kept it PG.
âCan Miss Y/N tuck me in tonight?â
Matthewâs words make you stop what you are doing mid-bite. Jeonghanâs smirk only grows as Seungcheol tilts his head, looking at his son and over to you as you give both of them a deer stuck in headlights look. The evening had gotten exponentially more interesting since Seungcheol had gotten home. You two werenât fooling anyone, at least as far as Jeonghan was concerned, and this was the cherry on top.Â
âIâwell⌠Thatâs up to Miss Y/N.âÂ
Meeting your eyes, Seungcheol looks a bit worried that you might say no. He wouldnât fault you if you did, but he hated the idea of his son being disappointed. You could see the look and it was so very similar to the look in Matthewâs eye that your stomach was in your throat. Why were these two so impossible for you to refuse?Â
âI donât mind.âÂ
Clapping his hands together, Jeonghan gives you both a wide smile before pushing his chair back from the table and wiping at his lips.Â
âGreat, now thatâs settled, means I can get headed home. Thank you for the lovely dinner, Y/N. Please invite me again.âÂ
Following Jeonghan, Seungcheol gives you an apologetic look as you start to speak but canât seem to find the right words to defend yourself. While you had grown used to his teasing over the past few hours, it didnât make it any easier to handle in front of Seungcheol and Matthew. You could feel heat rising in your neck and face as you turned your attention back towards Matthew as he grabbed your hand and tried to tug you out of your seat.Â
âCome on! I gotta show you my room and my trucks. Daddy says they are the most coolest.âÂ
You were lucky to have such a sweet distraction, just two of your fingers in his small hand as Matthew led you down the hall and away from the embarrassment of Yoon Jeonghanâs words. After watching you and Matthew for a moment, Seungcheol then glances back at his best friend as he slips his shoes on and offers him a triumphant smile. In his mind, clearly, he had managed to play matchmaker well if you were staying longer than he was. He could almost hear the wedding bells in the back of his mind, but the look on Seungcheolâs face was one of doubt, which always leads to delays.Â
âYouâre welcome. Get that stupid look off your face and seal the deal.âÂ
Scoffing, Seungcheol double checks that you canât hear either of them before he meets Jeonghanâs eyes once more.Â
âWould you shut the hell up? Iâwe donât know whatâs going to happen. She was doing me a favor because you trapped her in a momentââÂ
âNo, she came over because she wanted to. She could have canceled and she could have left hours ago, Cheol. She wants to be here and she wants to be here with you. You werenât here to see her schoolgirl crush smiling at her phone every time you sent a message.âÂ
Pressing his lips together while learning about the couple of hours before he had gotten home, Seungcheol couldn't stop how the corners of his lips started to turn up. He wanted to see that smile. He loved your smile. He loved how you made Matthew smile. God, he was falling for you and it was that hard sort of falling that people warned you about.Â
âReally?âÂ
Shaking his head, Jeonghan reaches over to pat Seungcheolâs bicep as he rolls his eyes at his friendâs reaction. You were the school girl and here was your school boy. It was a match made in heaven, and it was nauseating to be around.Â
âReally, Casanova. Donât let her slip through your fingers because youâre a pussy.âÂ
Seungcheol groans, his smile falling at Jeonghanâs wording. Why did he have to be so crass? No, he wasnât some church going perfect angel himself, but at least he didnât go around calling people a pussy.Â
âGet out, seriously. If Matthew starts saying shit like that, Iâm personally making you pay for his therapy sessions.âÂ
Getting one last cheeky grin from Jeonghan, Seungcheol closes the door and makes his way back towards your soft voice. It was getting late and being a school night, it was around the time he would normally get Matthew ready for bed. He almost hated the idea of that tonight. He knew that Matthew wanted you to tuck him in, but what would that mean afterwards? Would you have leave right way? Could he talk you into staying for a glass of wine? It was a school night for you tooâŚ
âNo, that truck was my favorite too. Get your teeth in the back too.âÂ
Surprised to hear you and Matthew in the bathroom, Seungcheol tilts his head and leans against the wall, watching you smile at his son. It was surreal to see something like this. He had always wanted this for Matthewâand, if he could be selfish, for himself.Â
This wasnât something he had gotten much of from his wife before her accident. She didnât get to help him put Matthew to bed once he was old enough to remember her. While Seungcheol would always regret that, he found himself allowing himself a bit of time to relish Matthewâs little piece of normality with you.Â
âGood! Big smile.âÂ
You laugh, your heart full and warm, as Matthew shows you his clean teeth. This was dangerous. You were so in love with this family. You could see yourself doing this every single night and never getting tired of it. There was something about Matthew and Seungcheol that made your life feel complete and that was terrifying in ways that you couldnât even explain to yourself.Â
âOne of my favorite smiles. Time to change? Then I can come tuck you in.âÂ
Turning to follow Matthew, you stop short, seeing Seungcheol watching you from the hall. You get hit with a sudden rush of anxiety, wondering if you have overstepped, but the smile and look on his face tell you that you havenât. You watch his fingers glide through Matthewâs hair before he glances back at him, telling him not to bring trucks into his bed, before he looks at you and takes your breath away with a smile.Â
âYouâre a natural.âÂ
Shyly, you shake your head and move towards him and Matthewâs bedroom, stopping just outside to give the boy time to change.Â
âJust teacher things, I guess.âÂ
Seungcheol shakes his head and fights his urge to reach out and pull you towards him. You were standing too far away from him and with how he was feeling, all he wanted to do was pull you into his arms and do exactly what Jeonghan had told him to do. Why was he dancing around this? You were everything he had been wanting and not even the fear of the unknown was enough to keep him from taking that leap.Â
Starting to speak, Seungcheol watches you take a deep breath when Matthewâs small voice makes him stop before he even gets started. You instead watch as he smiles and rubs the back of his neck, gesturing for you to go ahead. Biting at your lip, you nod and give him a small glance as you pass by, only for your breath to get caught in your throat when Seungcheolâs fingers trail over your fingers just before you cross over the threshold into the bedroom.Â
âGo ahead; Iâll say goodnight once heâs tucked in. Something tells me he might get upset if I try to interrupt.âÂ
One last look towards Seungcheol, and you move into Matthewâs room and sit on the side of his bed as he grins up at you. Your stomach was doing flips as butterflies held a rave inside of you, but with a deep breath, you managed to keep your cool and tuck the covers around Matthew.Â
âHowâs that? Too tight?âÂ
Shaking his head, Matthew wiggles under the covers to show you that he can still move easily as you run your fingers over the top of his head, feeling his eyes move over your face.Â
âOkay, good. Sleep well and Iâll see you at school in the morning.âÂ
âMmkay, Miss Y/N.âÂ
You smile at his tired words, starting to stand when Matthew whines and you stay right where you are, giving him a concerned look at the sudden change.Â
âCan I have a hug for bedtime?âÂ
You knew you would say no. Sure, it would make Matthew sad and, in turn, make you sad, but maybe it wouldnât hurt as much as what you chose to do. Instead of saying no, you nodded and leaned down to let him wrap his arms around your neck and hold you close to him as he whispered his thanks for the day and told you goodnight. You could feel the tears rising in your eyes even as you willed them to stay back.Â
âItâs my pleasure, Matthew. Thaâthank you for hanging out with me. Sleep tightâŚâÂ
Seungcheol had to take a deep breath while watching his son cling to you like a safety net. It almost broke his heart to watch you sit up, but then you ran your fingers over Matthewâs face and whispered goodnight and Seungcheol could have sworn he saw tears in your eyes. Was that a good sign or a bad one?Â
Sliding past Seungcheol, you sniff softly but smile at him as you let him move into the room. You find yourself wanting to watch as he finishes up the bedtime routine, but your heart wonât let you. The tears on your cheeks tell you that you need to run out of this apartment as fast as you can, but you wait, feeling the need to say your goodbyes to Seungcheol.Â
The soft click of the door shutting draws your attention back towards Matthewâs room and Seungcheol as you wipe your cheeks quickly and put your smile back on your face. You didnât hate what you were feeling; it just terrified you to no end. You had never pictured a family with Alex; no matter how many times he had brought up what a fantastic mother you were going to be to his children, it wasnât something that you could see. Looking at Seungcheol, you could picture that future and you werenât even in a real relationship with him. What did that say about you?
âHey, thanks for doing that. Heâs already out like a light. I never get him down that easy.â
You only manage to hum into a small smile at Seungcheolâs words as he moves closer to you, his presence making it harder for you to choose if you want to stay or run.Â
âItâs no biggie. Heâs a great kid.âÂ
Nodding, Seungcheol opens and closes his hand a few times before taking the leap and reaching out to wrap his fingers around yours, feeling your hand shake in his. Maybe you were just as nervous as he was? Maybe you could already see where this was going? Maybe, just maybe, you wanted it too.Â
âHe is⌠But, um, could I say something? Not about Matthew and you hear me out?âÂ
Those butterflies had taken something strong at their rave and you felt like you were going to be sick with nerves. Your head was woozy even as you nodded to answer Seungcheol, unable to find the right words. Swallowing hard, he sighs into a small laugh before reaching up to scratch at his brow with his free hand, keeping yours in his other.Â
âIâokay, Iâm just gonna say it, alright? I love having you around. I really like this, you know? Us. So I was thinkinâ if you arenât busy, maybe we could get dinner this weekend? Just the two of us?âÂ
Letting out a breath, you pull your fingers back and smile at Seungcheol, trying to think straight, but nothing in your head makes sense. You were panicking. The look on Seungcheolâs face told you that he could see you were panicking as you took a step back from him and literally looked for your escape route.Â
âIt is so late. I have work in the morning, but you know that. Thank you so much for dinner. I mean, you know what I mean.â
Following you, Seungcheol runs his fingers through his hair, feeling panic start to roll through him as you pretend that he hadnât just confessed to you and asked you out. Was he that bad of a choice? Or was this about something else? Were you afraid too?
âY/N? What? Wait, no, I know you have work. Shit⌠wait. I didnât mean toââÂ
Turning to face him as you reach the door, you canât stop the tears that run down your cheeks. The same tears seem to resonate with Seungcheol and stop him from giving you his reasoning. All he finds himself wanting to do is hold you and make it better, but that fear of pushing you away is stronger than ever as you wipe at your cheeks and apologize under your breath, pulling your shoes on.Â
âI will talk to you later, okay? Just⌠I canât do this right now.âÂ
Seungcheol knew he should say something else, do something to stop you from leaving until more was said and understood, but all he could do was watch as his door shut and leave him in silence. His heart beating hard in his chest, the pang of rejection and confusion rips through Seungcheol as he turns away from where you had been standing and moves to the couch to sit down and rest his head in his hands.Â
Inside your apartment, you let your tears fall freely. You didnât want to disappoint Seungcheol, but the first thing you saw when he said those words to you was Matthewâs disappointed face. Thatâs the face you would have to see if the relationship didnât work out. That's who youâd be hurting. It wouldnât just be your heart or even Seungcheolâs heart on the line; it would be that childâs heart.Â
So now you sat on your kitchen floor, your heart feeling shattered as you forced yourself to stick to what you had decided instead of running back over to Seungcheolâs apartment and telling him that you felt the same way. Sometimes people donât get what they want just because they want it. Sometimes they have to give up what they want for the benefit of others.
Seungcheol was nervous as he stood in the doorway to your classroom. He knew he was early and that Matthew wasnât particularly happy with him because he would be the first student at school, but he needed to talk to you. The way things had ended the night before was eating at him.Â
Ushering Matthew into the room, Seungcheol watches as his son runs over to you. He feels his heart tighten as small arms wrap around your waist and he wants to do the same thing. The confusion and surprise on your face are enough to make the thoughts move from Seungcheolâs mind as he smiles at you and lifts Matthewâs bag, walking towards the cubbies.Â
âYouâyouâre early. The others wonât be here for probably half an hour.âÂ
Wincing at your words as he hangs Matthewâs bag up, Seungcheol considers lying. He thinks about telling you that he just has to get to work earlyâthatâs the only reason heâs bringing Matthew in so earlyâbut the look in your eye tells him that he should just tell you the truth.Â
"Iâyeah, I know. I just⌠Could I talk to you for a second?âÂ
Glancing towards Matthew, you sigh as he moves away from you both towards the building block area to play. Crossing your arms, you gesture back towards the door and the cubbies to give even more space between yourself and Seungcheol from the boy so he canât hear.Â
âIâm not sure thereâs a lot to talkââ
âI know⌠Iâm sorry. I donât mean to interrupt you, Y/N. But please? Can I just say this? I didnât really get to finish what I wanted to say.âÂ
You furrow your brow, glancing down at your fingers on your forearm as you nod. This conversation was already too difficult. Seungcheol felt too close, but glancing off to the side towards Matthew as he stacks up blocks, counting them quietly under his breath, makes you take in a deep breath as you listen to what he has to say.Â
âOkay, canât we just try it? This seems to work great. I mean, at least it does to me. All I asked for was dinner. I like you, Y/N. Like, really, really like you.âÂ
Tilting his head as he stops walking in the hallway, Alex narrows his eyes, listening to the conversation in your classroom. He had wanted to see you before school started, before your students arrived, but clearly someone had beat him. As he listened closer to the voice of the man, he recognized it, Seungcheol, your boyfriend. Why would he need to tell you how much he liked you?Â
Shaking your head, you lift your fingers to quickly wipe at your cheeks, feeling moisture under your eyes as you take a deep breath. This isn't about what you wanted or what Seungcheol wanted. That had become obvious to you last night. You couldnât and wouldnât risk breaking Matthewâs heart and ruining something good in his life. You couldnât be more than his teacher. Even being his friend was putting too much pressure on him. Everything could come crashing down and it wouldnât be you or Seungcheol who would suffer the most; it would be Matthew.Â
âI shouldnât have asked you to do this. I should have had more guts to justââ Stopping to let out an unamused laugh, you meet Seungcheolâs eyes as he gives you a confused, sad look. âIâm so sorry, Seungcheol. We need to stop this. No more pretending. Itâs not good for us and itâs worse for Matthew.âÂ
Pretending. The word causes Seungcheolâs heart to feel like itâs breaking and it causes Alex to scoff. You had been pretending to date Seungcheol. Shaking his head, Alex smirks as he turns back towards his own classroom, running his fingers through his hair, leaving you to finish your breakup with your fake boyfriend. He could always talk to you later.Â
âIâY/NâŚplease. Why do you think that this is going to hurt anyone? I donât ever want to hurt you and I certainly wouldnât hurt my son.âÂ
Biting at your lips, you furrow your brows and take a step back from Seungcheol as his voice cracks. You could hear other people in the halls now; this conversation had to end.Â
âHave a good day, Dr. Choi.âÂ
With his mouth falling open in confusion and hurt, Seungcheol closes his eyes at your words before nodding. He could hear the sound of the other children in the halls too. He knew he couldnât force you to talk about this or to come out of your shell, even if he could obviously see you were holding back something.Â
You turn from him as Seungcheol moves back into the classroom to lean over Matthew, kissing him on top of the head and whispering his goodbye before glancing at you once more. Without another word, he leaves the room and you feel like you are standing in the ocean as a wave of pain washes over you.Â
The day is longer than any other that you can remember. You avoid Seungcheolâs eyes as he picks up Matthew, even as the little boy grabs at your hand, asking you to come back over for dinner. When Seungcheol tells him that tonight isnât a good night, you hold back your tears as you listen to Matthewâs small, sad voice asking why.Â
That was why this wasnât going to work. You were so good at disappointing people. That was what your degree hanging on the wall should be in. A PhD in Disappointment.Â
Walking through your now empty room, you let the silence wash over you as you picked up books and toys, not hearing the door open. You donât hear footsteps approaching you until Alexâs voice pulls you out of your haze and brings you back to reality.Â
âYou didnât have to be so pathetic and pretend to have a boyfriend, babe. Seriously? I donât need to be jealous to want you back in my life. Iâll take you back, Y/N. You donât have to put on a brave face.âÂ
Alexâs words bite at your self esteem and your confidence. Keeping your back to him for a moment longer, you fight back your tears, realizing he had to have heard your conversation with Seungcheol at the beginning of the day. You want to be angry and embarrassed, but instead you are relieved. There is no longer a secret hanging over your head, no need to pretend or worry about some big reveal as the panic slowly fades from your body.Â
All you are left with, once the anxiety is gone, is disgust. You try to quickly picture a time when you were in love with Alex. You try to imagine wanting a full and long life with him after hearing him say such hateful and degrading things to you, but you canât. All you can feel is hate and pity. The pity isnât even for yourself; instead, you feel an overwhelming pity for the man who once made you laugh before he made you cry.Â
Turning to face Alex, you meet his eyes as he smirks at you, the smug look on his face looking more like a mask than something real. He wants to play the villain so badly and you could play the victim and let him have it, but instead you just sigh and nod.Â
âThank you, Alex.âÂ
Starting to speak, Alex looks surprised and hopeful before you lift your hand and stop him as you continue to speak.Â
âThank you for reminding me why I will never allow you in my life again. I never want to see you again. Someone who would say something like that to me... well, it should be obvious if you ever loved me why I couldnât and wouldnât want you near me. Please get the fuck out of my classroom and my life.âÂ
Your voice is even, a bit of emotion laced in it, but you arenât hysterical like Alex had imagined or perhaps wanted. You are instead mostly calm and collected and your words stab him in the gut like the final nail in the coffin of any chance at a relationship that he had imagined.Â
Taking a step backwards, Alex tries to speakâto come up with some excuse for his actions, but you were right. As he thinks back on the person that he had been and the person that he has become, guilt bites at him, making it harder to defend himself.Â
You watch as he shakes his head, muttering something so low that you canât hear it before he moves out of the room and your door shuts, leaving you once again in that empty silence.Â
Closing your eyes, you are back in that ocean as waves crash over you. Tears stream down your face and you recognize the pain as heartbreak. Heartbreak from the final mourning period of a relationship and the impossibility of another. Another wave knocks you back and you let out a sob, your hand on your stomach. More loss, but mixed with relief.Â
You feel the loss of a possibility for your own family. You had seen yourself with Seungcheol and Matthew, but that was possible. The relief was from letting go, or attempting to. It was also a loss of the weight that had been on your shoulders from the very moment that you had lied to Alex.Â
You just wish that it had never been a lie.
Despite many pep talks from Jeonghan, Seungcheol couldnât make himself knock on your door. He had seen you around the apartment complex during spring break, but you were avoiding him. Worst of all, you seem to be avoiding Matthew.Â
He didnât really blame you. After what you had told him, it made sense. You were scared, but so was he. He had been terrified from the moment he realized his feelings for you, but he had taken the leap and ended up falling short.Â
Any other time, Seungcheol would have given up. He would have stopped looking for that person and tried to push them out of his life, so why couldnât he do that with you? Why would he lay in bed every single night and picture you in yours, just an apartment over? Why would he look at his phone and pray that you would text him? Why couldnât he just get some guts and text you himself?Â
He had decided that after spring break, the first day of school, he would try his best. At school, it wasnât like you couldnât talk to him. You had to talk to parents, and you had to talk to your students. Matthew was excited about seeing you again; this would be the perfect time. It would have been perfect if, when Seungcheol had come through the door, there wasnât a completely different person standing at the front of the classroom.Â
 âDaddyâŚâÂ
The whine in Matthewâs voice almost broke Seungcheolâs heart. Running his hand over Matthewâs hair, Seungcheol offers the woman a smile and tilts his head as he walks towards her as she looks down at her clipboard.Â
âHi. Uh, Matthew Choi⌠Iâm Seungcheol, his father.âÂ
Smiling at the boy and at Seungcheol, the woman finds Matthewâs name and places a check next to it before sighing.Â
âSo prompt, I value responsibility. Hello, Iâm Mrs. Lim.âÂ
Shaking the womanâs hand, Seungcheol tries to keep his smile, but he knows itâs strained as he glances around the room, realizing how much of the room has changed. The posters were different. The books were in a different place. This wasnât your classroom anymore.Â
âItâs really nice to meet you. Iâm so sorry, but where is Miss Y/N?â
Swallowing hard, Mrs. Lim nods at the question before putting her clipboard to her chest and taking a deep breath, knowing she would be handling this question many times today.Â
âThe school was supposed to send out a letter, but perhaps not everyone got them in time. Miss Y/N accepted a job in another district. I hope that I can fill her shoes hereâŚâÂ
Feeling like a truck had run him over, Seungcheol just nodded as Matthew looked up at him, confused. A small hand tugs at his jacket and Seungcheol nods once again before glancing down at his son, trying to smile at him even as Matthew frowns.Â
âUh, Miss Y/N is teaching other kids, buddy.âÂ
âNo! Daddy!âÂ
Hearing his son cry was one of the most painful things that Seungcheol could experience. He knew it wouldnât be the last time, and it hadnât been the first by a long shot, but there was so much heartbreak in his sobs. Moving to his knees in front of Matthew, Seungcheol controls his own emotions as he wipes tears away and shushes the little boy to calm him down.Â
âItâs okay. Mrs. Lim seems so nice and Iâm sure you two will get along.âÂ
Pulling back from Seungcheol, Matthew sniffs hard, talking between sobs as big tears roll down his cheeks, meeting his dadâs fingers.
âDid I make Miss Y/N mad at me?â
Shaking his head quickly, Seungcheol pulls Matthew into his arms and closes his eyes, having an even harder time keeping himself in check. He was upset with you for not telling him, but he was even more upset with the fact that you felt like you had to leave.Â
âAbsolutely not. Miss Y/N adores you.âÂ
It takes a few more minutes before Matthew is calm enough that Seungcheol feels comfortable leaving. After apologizing to Mrs. Lim for the small outburst on behalf of his son, Seungcheol moves out into the hall and leans against the wall to catch his breath.Â
Running his fingers through his hair, he shakes his head and sniffs back his own tears that had threatened to fall when he hears a familiar voice. Glancing to his left, all Seungcheol sees is red. His feet moving quicker than his brain, Seungcheol pushes his forearm against Alexâs chest as the manâs back hits the wall with a dull thud. Only the sound of a gasp from another teacher is heard over Alexâs grunt before he tells the woman itâs fine.Â
âItâs not fine... what the fuck did you do? What did you do that made her leave?â
Scoffing through a bit of pain, Alex meets Seungcheolâs eyes and there is pain and hurt in both. The hurt in Alexâs eyes only serves to piss off Seungcheol more as he pushes harder against the manâs body, feeling his hand grasp at his wrist.Â
âIâget off me. I donât have to tell the fake boyfriend anything.â
Leaning back only to push against Alex harder so that his head hits the wall, Seungcheol watches the manâs mouth fall open in pain as he hears the sound of the security guard moving towards them. Taking a step back, he holds up his hands, showing them heâs done before he grabs him.Â
âYou donât know anything about Y/N and you donât know a damn thing about me and her.â Pointing towards Alex as the guard puts his hand around his forearm, Seungcheol scoffs, keeping his ground. âStay away from Y/N and if you ever touch Matthew again, I wonât need to file a report with the school. You got it?âÂ
Rubbing the back of his head, Alex winces and narrows his eyes at Seungcheol. It had all been grounds for him to let them drag Seungcheol out of the school until his kid was mentioned. Now Alex needed to save face. No, nothing had happened, but he had crossed the line multiple times with you and by approaching a student that wasnât his, he had already been warned by the administration.Â
âLet him go. Everything is fine. Just a misunderstanding. We are fine⌠We understand one another, I can promise you that.âÂ
Feeling the hand on his arm relax, Seungcheol scoffs at how quick Alexâs mood shifts. He was pathetic and he could understand why you wanted nothing to do with him. Giving the man one more look of contempt, Seungcheol shakes his head and moves for the main doors, letting them slam behind him.Â
Rolling your head from side to side, you rub your neck as you let out a soft sigh. You were tired after a long day and a longer commute than you were used to at your new school. The students were great but they werenât the same. The entire day, you found yourself missing your students, as you had to check name tags to remember who you were speaking to.Â
It would just take some getting used to. This was the best decision. It was easier for everyone to do it this way. It didnât matter that you looked for Matthew in the circle of children on the reading rug only to be disappointed when you couldnât find his sweet gummy smile and his kind eyes looking back up at you. Your heart would heal.Â
Taking your keys out of your purse as the elevator stops on your floor, you keep your eyes down until you are almost at your door. Seeing shoes on your welcome mat facing you makes you stop in your tracks and causes your eyes to slowly lift to meet Seungcheolâs as he rests against your door with a frown on his face.Â
You had done such a good job of avoiding him and Matthew. Sure, there had been a few times you had found yourself turning on your toes and heading in the other direction, but you had done that to make things easier for everyone. Looking at Seungcheol now, making eye contact with him, you knew there was no running away.Â
âUm⌠Hey.âÂ
Seungcheol had hoped for more after not talking to you for so long, but he would take what he could get. He knew he was putting you on the spot; clearly, there was no other way to get you to talk to him.Â
âHey. So, I, uh, I took Matthew to school this morning and needless to say, we were both a little shocked andâfuck, I wonât even lie, we were heartbroken when you werenât there. You quit?âÂ
Taking a deep breath, you look at your keys in your hand as Seungcheol speaks. Learning that he and Matthew were hurt by your absence makes your stomach feel queasy, but you try to stand your ground and keep yourself somewhat stoic as you nod.Â
âSorry, I got an offer about an hour away and I felt that I should take it. Ya know, itâs betterââ
âFor who?âÂ
Being interrupted by Seungcheol, you meet his eyes once again and let out a breath through your nose before looking off to the side. You didnât want to look him in the eye and try to explainâor lie about this. It was hard enough trying to convince yourself every day in the mirror.Â
âFor everyone, Seungcheol. I canât work there anymore. I didnât want to ruin things for Matthew or you. I couldnât be around Alex anymore.âÂ
Stepping away from the door, taking a step towards you, Seungcheol reaches out to take your wrist into his hand, trying to get you to actually look at him. When you donât instantly pull away, he lowers his head and leans to the right to make you meet his eyes as he speaks. The wet glaze over his eyes makes you feel like your heart is breaking all over again as your bottom lip quivers until you bite at it to force it to stop, once again forcing back any emotions that threaten to bubble to the surface.Â
âMatthew isnât happy without you, Y/N. Why in the hell would you think that he would be? Heâs depressed without you at school and without you in his life. I donât understand why you think heâd be better off without you around.âÂ
Sighing loudly, Seungcheolâs eyes drop to your bitten lip as you try to keep your tears back. He can see them on the rims of your eyes and he knows that you understand, even if you wonât say it.Â
âMy son loves you. Donât you get that? I lovâfuck⌠I need you in my life, Y/N. When I found out about you quitting I saw Alex and I confronted him. I told him to stay the fuck away from you, away from us.âÂ
Shaking your head, you pull your arm from Seungcheolâs, feeling his fingers chase after yours as he whines your name under his breath. You can hear and feel the desperation behind his voice and it makes you want to make it better, but you donât think he even understands what heâs saying to you or what heâs done.Â
âYou shouldnât have done that, Seungcheol. Thereâs no point. It was wrong of me to put myself into your life and into Matthewâs life. This is what I do. Donât you get that? I disappoint people. Please let meâlet me go. You donât get it.âÂ
Frustration rises in Seungcheol as you speak and as he watches your tears run down your cheeks. You were the one who didnât get it. You thought this was just pretty words and a dream but to him, it was so much more. You were so much more.Â
Sliding his hand along your cheek to push away your tears, Seungcheol whispers your name as you let out a soft sob. Wanting to make you see what he feels, he cups your face in his palm and brushes his lips against yours, feeling you stiffen in his grasp for only a second before you relax. His kiss not only stuns you but it also takes your breath away. Your tears flow even more freely as Seungcheolâs fingers brush at your skin and his lips move over yours until he finally pulls away and rests his forehead against yours.Â
âDo you understand now?âÂ
Wrapping your fingers around Seungcheolâs wrist, you sniff back tears as you lean your head back from his and shake your head.Â
âIt wonât work, Seungcheol.âÂ
Walking you towards the wall, Seungcheol shakes his head in return before leaning to kiss your cheek and tasting your tears on his lips.Â
"Yes, it will. It has to. I want it to⌠so fucking bad, baby. You feel like my missing piece. Y/N, youâre my somebody. Let me prove it to you.â
Seungcheol cups your face with both of his hands as you push your front door closed, letting him once again walk you backwards until your back is flush against the wall. The only difference this time is that itâs your lips that meet his first. You feel his fingers slide along the side of your head as he deepens the kiss, his tongue gliding into your mouth to mesh with your tongue before he groans, feeling your fingers grasp at his sides over his t-shirt.Â
This was everything Seungcheol had pictured for days, if not weeks, after being around you. He had wanted to kiss you that night when the two of you had shared wine on his couch. He had wanted to ask you to stay the night after dinner so that he could make love to you, and now he had you in his hands.Â
Sliding one hand along your neck, Seungcheol breaks the kiss long enough to meet your eyes, checking for any hesitation as his other hand moves to your hips and tugs them flush with his own. The only look in your eyes is one of desperation and desire. He wasnât the only one who had wanted this, he had just been better at admitting it to himself than you had. Now that it was real and in front of you, your brain was in a frenzy.Â
âYouâre so beautifulâso fucking beautiful. Wanted this⌠God, Iâve wanted it since I laid eyes on you. Wanna make you mine.âÂ
Seungcheolâs hand moves back to your face, resting on your jaw so that his thumb can brush over your bottom lip, tugging it down as you whimper. There truly was nothing better than this. No art in any museum could compare to you. No artist would ever capture that look in your eyes, the bitten look of your lips, or the desire that was burning in you for Seungcheol.Â
âPlease? Please, CheolâŚâÂ
Nodding, Seungcheol groans under his breath as you beg him to do what he wants. Glancing away from you, he gestures towards the hall in hopes that his guess of the layout of your apartment wasnât too far off.Â
âYeah, second door.âÂ
Smiling at your pretty voice, Seungcheol leans down to capture your lips once again as his hands move from your face and hips to wrap around your thighs right under your ass. Feeling your arms wrap around his neck in surprise, he grins on your lips and lifts you with little effort, even as you gasp.Â
âSeungcheol, oh my god, I can walk.âÂ
Clinging to Seungcheol, you watch as he shakes his head, walking you towards your bedroom. His strong hands are under you, holding you close to his body with each step.Â
âWhatâs the fun in that, baby? Let me have this, okay?âÂ
Stepping into your room, Seungcheol only glances around for a second before his lips are back on yours and he takes another step towards your bed, only to sit down, allowing you to rest on his lap. Your cheeks were hot with how flustered you felt, not only about being carried to your room but about how you could already feel Seungcheolâs cock between your legs. Letting out a shaky breath on his lips, you hold onto Seungcheolâs shoulders as you give into your desire and rest your knees on either side of his legs. Rolling your hips over the bulge in his jeans and earning you a deep groan from his throat, Seungcheol leans his head back and presses his fingers into the swell of your ass through your pants.Â
âShit⌠thatâthat feels so good. Itâs been a long time for me, Y/N.âÂ
Nodding, you slide your fingers from Seungcheolâs shoulder along his neck and up to his face to tilt it back towards you so you can meet his eyes as you roll your hips over him once again. You feel your own arousal beginning to soak through your panties, causing them to stick to your folds, a soft whine slipping from between your lips as your brows furrow.Â
âThatâs okay. Itâs been a while for me too, Cheol.âÂ
It might be selfish of him, but Seungcheol thinks at that moment that if he had his way, he might be your last. He would be all youâd ever need. Youâd never want to look for anyone else. All he needed to do was prove that to you.Â
Smiling into a soft groan, he groans as his brows furrow, feeling your fingernails press into his shoulders over his shirt. Seungcheol leans his head back and your lips against his throat has his eyes closing and his fingers tightening on your hips, pulling you down over his lap. Sliding his hands upwards, Seungcheol whispers your name as your lips move along his jaw and his head almost becomes cloudy with thoughts of putting your back on the bed and having his way with you.Â
âY/N⌠fuck. I need to see you. Can I? Can I see you?âÂ
Nodding, you lean back from him, letting his fingers work up your sides, pushing your shirt up as he goes. Brown eyes take in every new inch of skin exposed to him as Seungcheol furrows his brows and whispers out soft praises for you. He tells you how beautiful you are, how perfect you are, and how much he cares about you, all before pulling your shirt up and over your head and tossing it behind you into the floor.Â
Your cheeks burn at his attention as Seungcheol smiles at you, his fingers once again on your body. You canât help the way that you gasp and shift in his lap as his fingers walk along your flesh, leaving goosebumps behind his path.Â
Shifting your shoulders forward, you feel your bra straps fall down your arms when Seungcheolâs fingers work the clasps open at the middle of your back. The garment gives way and you feel warm breath fanning across your skin before soft plush kisses move from your shoulder to the center of your chest.Â
Letting your bra fall into your lap, you slide your fingers into Seungcheolâs hair as his name slips from between your lips like a prayer or a hymn. You didnât have much doubt that he would have been good at this, but it was still surprising at how much attention he was giving you and how he was taking his timeâeven if you wanted more and more quickly.Â
Tugging at his hair, you whine almost in frustration as you feel his lips brush over your nipple, only for Seungcheol to pull away and place a kiss in the same place on your other breast. You were so arousedâso wetâthat you felt like you could cum untouched on his lap, but every single teasing touch kept you right on the edge.Â
âCheol⌠please? I need more⌠Give me more.âÂ
He wanted to give you more. He wanted to see more, but tasting your skin was like tasting sugar for the first time. The salt in your skin was addictive. The smell of your body wash, the perfume that you used... even the laundry detergent that you chose was like the perfect mix to keep him dazed. Itâs only your voice that brings him back to the present and reminds him what heâs supposed to do.Â
Standing with you secure in his arms, Seungcheol quickly turns to lay you on your bed so he can hover over you. The feeling is instantly different. You had known that he was a large man and that he worked hard in the gym, but having him on top of you like this made it even more obvious how small you were compared to him.Â
Letting his eyes move over your face for a moment as your eyes widen, Seungcheol smirks slightly, trailing his fingers along your stomach to the clasp of your jeans. Working them open, he watches you bite your bottom lip and all he can think is how he wants to do that for you, how heâd do anything for you if you asked him to. It could be in this bed or the most simple domestic task and he would make it happen.Â
When Seungcheolâs palm presses to your abdomen and his fingers work their way into your jeans past your panties, you canât help the small, surprised gasp that escapes from behind your lips. Your hips lift and Seungcheolâs middle finger barely presses between your folds, brushing over your clit, and itâs almost enough to make you want to scream his name.Â
You didnât remember being this easy to please, but perhaps it wasnât even that⌠no, perhaps it was Seungcheol touching you. Maybe it was his fingers sliding against your wet folds and parting them so that he can circle your entrance with that same middle finger. It was because this time you were with the man you had spent hours trying to avoid picturing spending your life with and now he was groaning your name, feeling your slick arousal coating his fingers for the first time.Â
âBaby, oh my god, Y/N.â Seungcheol feels his mouth water as he feels his fingers slipping through your soft, wet folds. He just shakes his head as he tries to angle his hand in your tight jeans to press his finger into you, only to whine in frustration when he canât. âGotta get these off. Wanna taste you⌠gotta open you up, baby girl.âÂ
Smiling as you run your fingers through Seungcheolâs hair, hearing him whine, you lower your eyes to his hands as he tugs at your jeans, working them down your legs. There was this amazing juxtaposition when it came to him. You had just felt so small under him and now you were listening to him whine and talk with a pout on his lips as he tried to pull your pants off while still talking to you with such a dirty mouth.Â
Grinning to himself as he drops your jeans on the floor next to the bed, Seungcheol glances up at you before he wraps his arms under your thighs and scoots you up in the bed suddenly. Gasping his name, you grab at his shirt out of surprise, feeling it pull up his body as he meets your eyes again with a raised brow.Â
âCanât have you falling off the bed. Do you want my shirt? You can have it, sweetheart.âÂ
Your eyes follow Seungcheolâs hand as he reaches over his shoulder to tug at his shirt, pulling it up over his head with one swift movement. There were many ways to remove a shirt but that had to be the sexiest way you had ever seen. Trying to push your thighs together, you find you canât as Seungcheolâs knee rests between them, drawing his eyes down to your legs as he hands you his shirt.Â
âFuck⌠look at you.âÂ
Hissing out a moan, you clench your fingers around Seungcheolâs shirt and lift your hips when he pushes his thumb against the center of your panties, where the cloth was sticking to your skin. This wasnât what you meant by giving you more, but any complaints canât make it out of your mouth as Seungcheol smirks at you, one hand resting on the bed next to your hip and the other staying between your legs.Â
Brushing his knuckles over your wet panties, he lets out a breath before pulling them to the side and letting out a deep groan at the sight. He knew you were wet. He had felt it on his fingers and it was easy to see even through your panties, but seeing your glistening skin was another thing entirely.Â
âSo pretty⌠youâre so wet, baby girl. Is it uncomfortable?âÂ
Nodding, you close your eyes tightly, feeling tears threatening to spill over the rims of your eyes from just anticipation.Â
âYes, CheolâŚâÂ
A soft, sweet, faux cooing sound slips from his lips before Seungcheol lowers himself down between your legs to run his tongue over your soft folds. Grunting to the taste, he furrows his brows and wraps his fingers around your panties tighter, keeping them to the side as he wraps his free arm around your hip, tugging you closer to his mouth. One simple taste wasnât nearly enough, it was only enough to make him feel feral with desire for you and for him to want to bury his face between your legs for the rest of his life.Â
Bringing Seungcheolâs shirt up to your mouth, you bite down on the cotton to muffle your moans. Your eyes close tightly, tears running from your eyes and towards your hairline as Seungcheolâs lips wrap around your clit, and he sucks hard and groans, sending a vibration through your body. You feel yourself clench around nothing until he runs his tongue along your folds, massaging them, pulling them into his mouth and finally pressing his tongue into your needy hole.Â
âSeungcheol!âÂ
The shirt falls from your lips as you scream his name, feeling the pressure that has been building in your abdomen and threatening to overflow. Seungcheolâs lips pull up ever so slightly, even as he nudges his nose against your clit and fucks you with his tongue, feeling you clench around the muscle.Â
He wanted you to cum for him. He needed it more than he needed water to survive the desert. You were all that made sense right now, and getting you to bliss was the answer to everything.Â
Sliding his hand from around your hip, Seungcheol grunts under his breath as he leans back, face wet with your slick. Spitting on your entrance, he works two of his fingers into your velvet walls, watching you arch your back off the bed.Â
âThere you go, baby.âÂ
He could feel you clamping down around his fingers as you became impossible wetter, your cum seeping around his fingers with each deep thrust.Â
âOh my god, Cheol...â
Smiling against your inner thigh, Seungcheol glances up at you to meet your eyes as he carefully slides his fingers out of you, feeling your walls pulse around them. He wanted more, but even if you decided that you couldnât handle more or that you didnât want more, seeing you like that would be enough.Â
Reaching out for him, you wrap your legs around his waist, feeling instantly frustrated at the feeling of his jeans against your skin. The only thing that makes it better is his soft, plush lips on yours. You try to think quickly of anything better than Choi Seungcheolâs kissâthe way he would smile against your mouth before licking into it with a groanâand nothing comes to mind. Muttering into the kiss, you drag your fingers along his sides, feeling him shiver under your hands before he leans back to look down at you with want in his eyes.Â
âOff, take them off. WantâI want you. Please?âÂ
At first, when you say off, Seungcheolâs heart almost drops into his stomach. He thinks that you really have had enough of him for the night, but then your nails tug at the top of his jeans and a smile pulls at his pretty lips.Â
âAnything you want... fuck, Y/N. Iâd give you the world.âÂ
Sucking on your bottom lip, you feel heat rising in your cheeks and along your chest and neck at Seungcheolâs words. You had fallen deep and hard for this man and he was a romantic. You werenât going to get out of this without a few scars or in one piece, but now you werenât sure if you wanted to.Â
Watching him closely, your eyes follow Seungcheol as he slides off the bed to push his jeans down along with his boxers, leaving him naked in front of you. Bringing your fingers up to your already bitten lips, you turn on your side and press your cheek against your arm, trying to hide your reaction, but the look on Seungcheolâs face tells you that you havenât gotten off that easily.Â
Moving back to you, he runs his hand up the length of your leg, stopping at your hip as he tilts his head to meet your eyes, his other hand pulling your fingers from your lips. Seungcheol watches as your lips fall open on a soft, breathy gasp of his name when he guides your hand to his cock. With your hand in his, he guides your palm over the head of his length before wrapping your fingers around his shaft and dragging your hand from tip to base.Â
âThis okay?â
Nodding quickly, you whine, feeling Seungcheol thrust his hips gently towards your hand as he lets go of yours in place of running his fingers over your head, a groan slipping from his lips. He didnât want to get off like this, and he wouldnât, but with how you had been looking at himâa mixture of lust and surpriseâSeungcheol wanted to make sure you knew what was going inside of you.Â
Your eyes stay on his face for a moment longer before they drop to your hand and Seungcheolâs cock in your hand. It wasnât as if you couldnât tell he was big, but feeling and seeing were different stories. It wasnât length but girth. He was thick enough that you could already imagine the stretch and found yourself thanking him in your mind for making you cum first.Â
âShâshit baby⌠I gotta stop you.âÂ
Putting his hand back over yours, Seungcheol licks his lips and moves your hand from his leaking cock as it twitches, almost begging you for more. He already felt so close. Just looking at you, fucking you with his tongue, and feeling you on his fingers had been enough to make him feel like he was going to cum, but now your hand on him? He was lucky he didnât cum the second he put your fingers around his cock.Â
âFuck me, Cheol.âÂ
Your voice is timid and almost a whisper but Seungcheol can hear it. Furrowing his brows, he licks his lips once more before shaking his head and this time your heart sinks before he speaks and slides his hand between your legs, parting them so he can once again run his fingers through your already swollen, wet folds.Â
âNo⌠Iâm not going to fuck you, baby girl.â Grinning as you start to pout and whine in protest, Seungcheol leans to kiss your lips as he pushes two fingers into you, feeling you arch off the bed. âIâm gonna make love to you. Thereâs a difference.âÂ
Gasping on his lips, you hold on to his shoulders, digging your nails into his skin as Seungcheol rocks his fingers back against your spot, feeling you clench down over them once again. When you throw your head back, cum once again coating his fingers, Seungcheol groans, leaning to press his lips to the column of your throat, feeling your swallow hard under his kiss.Â
âThatâs it, such a good girl. You feel good?â
Out of breath, you nod weakly as Seungcheol looks down at you, sliding his fingers out of you.Â
âThatâs all I want, babyâŚâÂ
Glancing around the room, Seungcheol leans his head on his arm before taking a breath and wincing a bit before asking you what he had been mildly dreading from the moment this had begun. He knew it could make or break the moment, but it was important.Â
âI didnât bring anything with me with the assumption that something like this was happening.Â
Fuck, I mean, I donât even think I have condoms at my place. Do you have anything?âÂ
Smiling as you bite your lips, you run your fingers over Seungcheolâs cheek before tracing his lips, feeling him press a kiss to your fingers.Â
âIâm on birth control, Cheol. Itâs fine.âÂ
Taking a deep breath against your fingers, Seungcheol nods, feeling the pressure melt away as you run your knee along his outer thigh up to his hip. He hated the idea of disappointing you after making a big promise like he had, but now the pressure was taken over by desire. It was an honor to be in your bed in the first place, but like this? His head was spinning.
Sliding his fingers along your bent leg, Seungcheol leans into your hand as you cup his cheek before he turns to kiss your palm and nods, letting you know without words what he was doing. Gasping softly at the feeling of the tip of his cock running through your folds, you close your eyes and drop your hand to his shoulder as you push your head back into the pillow. Not even imagining the stretch could actually prepare you for the real thing as Seungcheol slowly eased inside of you bit by bit.Â
âOh my god.â The words fall from your lips like a prayer, tears finding your eyes again as the painful stretch is quickly replaced with pleasure. âSeungcheol⌠fuck. YouâreâŚâÂ
The words get caught in your throat and Seungcheol looks up at you in concern, seeing tears running from your eyes. Running his fingers over your face, he stops moving and presses his lips to yours, only to feel you shake your head and lift your hips, trying to get more of him inside of you.Â
âAhâfuck, Y/N⌠I justâI wanted to make sure you were okay.âÂ
Nodding, you capture Seungcheolâs lips, kissing him between words.Â
âIâm okay. Feels so good, baby. Please give me more.âÂ
Hearing you call him baby left Seungcheol stunned and love struck. He pauses before feeling you once again lift your hips before you wrap your legs around his waist and whine his name on his lips.Â
âOkayâŚokay. Itâs just... call me that again? Please?âÂ
You hadnât even realized what you had said until he asked for you to call him the pet name again. Opening your eyes as you press your head back into the pillow, you feel Seungcheol bottom out in you, the stretch so intense that you clench around him, earning yourself a well deserved groan from his chest.Â
âBaby?âÂ
You watch as Seungcheol nods, another groan dripping from his lips like candy for you to collect. Smiling, you canât hold back a soft moan as Seungcheol makes a shallow thrust and you feel full and complete. You find yourself wanting to always feel like this. Warm, full, and safe.Â
âIâloââ You struggle with your words as Seungcheol thrusts deep and harder, sending your head towards the headboard. Reaching back over your head, you hold on to the side of it and hum out another moan before nodding. âJust like that, baby. Iâm so close. Youâre right, thereâs a difference.âÂ
Seungcheol smiles at your words as he leans down to press a kiss on your shoulder. He was hoping you hadnât been upset with him for telling you he was going to make love to you. There would be plenty of time for him to fuck you laterâat least he hoped so. If he got his way, this would be forever. He could already picture himself buying a ring and getting down on one knee.Â
Shaking his head to push that thought from his head, not wanting to scare you away, Seungcheol nips at your neck and groans, feeling himself about to burst. He had already made you cum twice, but it was important to him that you were satisfied. He would do everything he could not to cum before you.Â
Tugging one of your legs loose from his waist, Seungcheol meets your eyes as he slides his hand between your bodies and finds your folds. He watches as your mouth falls open as his fingertips rub in tight circles over your clit, all while his cock is buried deep inside of you until that cord that was winding in your abdomen snaps once again.Â
âYesâŚyesâoh fuck!âÂ
Your voice was like music and had to be what angels sound like. That was all Seungcheol could think of as you came on his cock. You were so tight before, but now, as you orgasmed for the third time with him inside of you, he had seen heaven, and he wasnât sure how he survived you.Â
âPlease⌠now you. Cheol, baby⌠please?âÂ
You begging him to cum only solidified that he had to have died and gone to heaven because there was no way for him to resist you. There was no way for him to hold back. Groaning loudly against the crook of your neck, Seungcheol cums as he feels your thighs start to shake around him.Â
Running your fingers through his sweaty, damp hair, you close your eyes and focus on catching your breath as Seungcheol rests over your body. He was afraid he was too heavy, but the moment he tried to move away from you, a small whine of protest had him staying right where he was. Placing small kisses on the top of your breasts, Seungcheol then glances up at you, seeing the bliss on your face and he canât help but smile.Â
âYou are so beautiful.âÂ
Laughing softly, you open your eyes and look down at Seungcheol before lifting your hand to hide your face. There was no way you looked remotely beautiful at the moment. You knew you were sweaty and in desperate need of a shower and yet here was the most attractive man you had ever seen in your life, telling you that you were beautiful.Â
Wrapping his hand gently around your wrist, Seungcheol pulls your hand from your face and kisses the back of it before bringing your palm to his chest. You feel his heart beating hard as he too works to catch his breath.Â
âIâm serious, Y/N. I am soâshit I donât want to scare you away, but Iâm afraid if I donât, Iâll lose you again. Iâm in love with you.âÂ
Taking a sharp breath at Seungcheolâs confession, you glance up at the ceiling to avoid having to look at his eyes. A small frown replaces his smile as he hears your heart beat quicken in panic. He hadnât wanted you to panic, but he knew it was a risk. Carefully sliding out of you and to your side, Seungcheol lifts your hand from his chest to his lips and kisses the back of your knuckles as you bite at your lips.Â
âY/N, baby, please look at me? I wanna talk about this. I know you feel something for me or else we wouldnât be in this bed.âÂ
Pushing your thighs together, feeling even more sticky and sweaty, you feel yourself becoming even more self conscious until you meet Seungcheolâs eyes and see the concerned look on his face. You didnât want to hurt him again. You had spent so much of your life running and once you had a good thing, it bit you in the ass. So now that you had walls that he had taken a sledgehammer to, it was terrifying.Â
âIâyouâre right. I do feel something for you. I feel a lot of things. Iâm just so fucking scared, Seungcheol. What if we mess this up? I donâtââÂ
Closing your eyes, your words end on a sob as your emotions get the better of you. Moving to pull you into his arms, Seungcheol shakes his head and shushes you before kissing the side of your head, letting you continue.
âI canât hurt Matthew. I love him so much. I know I shouldnât. Itâs not proper for a teacher to have a favorite like that.âÂ
Smiling against your head, Seungcheol takes a deep breath and places another kiss before shaking his head.Â
âI donât think it has anything to do with being his teacher or a teacher in general. I thinkâand you can tell me to shove it up my ass if Iâm out of line, but I think it has to do with just love in general. You are maternal, Y/N.âÂ
Swallowing hard, you hold onto Seungcheolâs forearm as you think through what he has said.Â
There was a part of you that did want to tell him to shove it, but a larger part that knew he wasnât wrong. You had pictured far too often a life with them that wasnât just being Matthewâs teacher.Â
âI feel like I should apologize for that or something.âÂ
Leaning back to look down at you, Seungcheol moves his hand to tilt your chin up so you will look at him. Furrowing his brow, he shakes his head and the look in his eyes is the most serious you have seen in the entire night.Â
âNever apologize for loving my son. He loves you too.âÂ
The words go straight to your heart and tears stream down your face. You picture Matthewâs sweet smile as you close your eyes and you know you have to ask about him.Â
âIâokay. Can Iâcan I ask how heâs doing?âÂ
Pulling you back to his chest, Seungcheol leans against your headboard and leans his head back against it with a soft sigh.Â
âHeâs sad, baby. He misses you. He doesnât like school as much, even if Mrs. Lim is a decent teacher. He asked if you didnât like him anymore and that was why you had to teach other little kids.âÂ
Seungcheol knew the truth of what Matthew had been dealing with would hurt you, but it was something that you needed to know. He could have sugar coated it, but when it came to his son and how he was feeling, that was something Seungcheol would never do. He isnât surprised when he feels your body shake against his. It breaks his heart to feel your tears against his chest as you turn in his arms to be held tighter.Â
âI canât go back to thatâto that school, Cheol. I didn'tâŚÂ Iâm the fucking worst.âÂ
Shushing you, Seungcheol kisses the top of your head as tears sit on the rims of his eyes, feeling your heartbreak and his own for his son.Â
âI know it wasnât just about us. That wasnât why you left. Whatâs done is done. You arenât the worst; donât talk about yourself like that. All we need to do is talk to Matthew about it. He will understand.âÂ
"Alright, listen, if your dad asks about the weekend, what are you gonna say?âÂ
Jeonghan lifts a brow as he looks down at Matthew on his right. The little boyâs hand in his as he smiles up at him. It had taken a lot to get that smile on his face and he was proud to see it. Between him and Joshua, a weekend of trash tv, and all the worst foods you could feed a child, he was finally seeing the Matthew he knew.Â
âThat Uncle Jeonghan and Uncle Shua let me watch edgeucational things only on TV.âÂ
Clicking his tongue as he winks at his godson, Jeonghan fishes his key for Seungcheolâs apartment out of his pocket and pushes the door open. Shifting the overnight bag on his shoulder, he doesnât glance up until he hears Matthew gasp in surprise. The sound scares him, his eyes widening as the boy takes off, running towards the living room and drawing his eyes in that direction.Â
âWhat! Whatâs wrong?âÂ
Itâs when he sees you sitting on the couch with Seungcheol that it makes sense. He watches as Matthew wraps his arms around your neck, the sad expression on your face and tears in your eyes as you wrap your arms around the child, pulling him into your lap.Â
Meeting Seungcheolâs eyes, Jeonghan lifts his brows and gets a grin back as an answer. Shaking his head, Jeonghan drops the bag from his shoulder onto the couch and lets out a low, deep sigh. It had taken long enough, but clearly things had worked out the way they were supposed to. He just wished it had happened sooner and not at the expense of Matthewâs happiness. At least he could relish in the happy look on his face now, that was making up for almost all of it.Â
âWell then, I was going to see if you needed me to stay for a bit today, but clearly...âÂ
Rolling his eyes, Seungcheol stands up to hug Jeonghan, whispering that he will explain everything later. Glancing back to you and Matthew, he presses his lips together as you nod along with Matthewâs story about his weekend with Uncle Jeonghan and Joshua, letting him have a moment to walk Jeonghan to the door.Â
âYeah, I wanna know all the juicy details. Jihoon owes me 100 bucks.âÂ
Grinning as Seungcheol makes a face of disgust, Jeonghan waves at you and Matthew before walking out the door, leaving the three of you to yourself. Leaning against the wall, Seungcheol watches for a moment longer, his lip caught between his teeth as you run your fingers through Matthewâs hair lovingly while you explain the new job.Â
âBut, Iâll still see you all the time. I promise, okay? I just have to help other kids for the rest of the year.âÂ
Pouting a bit, Matthew wraps his hand around yours, pulling it into his lap before nodding.Â
âMmkay⌠as long as you come over all the time.âÂ
Smiling a bit sheepishly as he looks from you to his dad and back, Matthew kicks his legs and giggles, making you tilt your head as Seungcheol moves to the couch to sit next to you.Â
âDaddy, does this mean that Miss Y/N can be my mommy now?âÂ
Blanching slightly, Seungcheolâs mouth falls open as he looks at you, watching your lips press together. Meeting his sonâs eyes, he tries to speak before laughing and rubbing the back of his neck.Â
âUh, thatâs adult business, son. I donât know. Maybe one day. You know if Y/N will have your daddy as a husband.âÂ
Looking away to hide your embarrassed smile, you clear your throat as Matthew giggles once again and slides from your arms to his dadâs.Â
âI think thatâs a yes. All the boys on the TV show Uncle Shua liked got down on their knees and just asked. Most of the girls said yes, even though they were behind a wall!âÂ
His eyes widening, Seungcheol looks at you as you laugh and brings your fingers to your lips before speaking.Â
âI thought you said you guys watched educational videos?âÂ
Looking down at his hands, realizing he had said too much, Matthew grins and shrugs.Â
âI didnât say nothing.âÂ
Eyes narrowing, Seungcheol presses his fingers into his sonâs side, tickling him as he shakes his head.Â
âI need to have a talk with your uncles about teaching you how to lie and letting you watch garbage.âÂ
Smiling, you watch the two people you love the most as they laugh and end up hugging when Seungcheol kisses Matthewâs cheek. You could get used to seeing this every day.Â
You had thought that after you had helped Seugcheol get Matthew to bed, you might sneak back to your apartment, but then he wrapped his fingers around your wrist and pouted. That was how you ended up on his bed, his lips on your neck as you whined softly, doing your best to keep your voice down, feeling him smile against your skin.Â
âSeungâSeungcheol, please. Iâm trying to be quiet. Iâm not sure I can do this. What if we wake up, Matthew? How do we even explainââÂ
Leaning back, Seungcheol meets your eyes and purses his lips before sliding off the bed and offering you his hand. Taking a breath to calm down, you put your fingers on his and let him guide you off the bed and towards the connected ensuite.Â
âWe donât have to explain anything, baby. Heâs a heavy sleeper, but if you are worried.âÂ
Leaning against the counter of the double sink, you watch as Seungcheol leans into the glass shower to turn it on. The sound of water fills your ears and you smile as the man you had grown to adore beyond words looks back at you for praise as if he had just moved the earth for you.Â
âSmartâŚâÂ
Nodding along with your words, Seungcheol moves back over to you, sliding the skirt of your sundress up your legs to your hips.Â
âI mean, I am a doctor. Itâs a requirement.âÂ
Smacking his chest, you listen to Seungcheolâs laugh and it makes you feel warm and safe. Lifting your arms, you let him quickly undress you, dropping your dress on the counter before he takes a knee and hooks his fingers into your panties, shimmying them down your legs.Â
âYou donât look half bad on your knee, Dr. Choi.âÂ
Seungcheol lifts his brow, a smirk pulling at one side, before he leans to press a kiss to your leg, discarding your panties to the side. You run your fingers through his hair, enjoying the feeling of his soft lips on your skin, chill bumps spreading under his kisses.Â
âYou like me on my knee? Wanna see me like this again?âÂ
Your cheeks burning, you bite at your lips and hide your smile as you look away from his eyes as Seungcheol looks up at you before rising to his feet once again. Turning your head back towards him, Seungcheol brushes his lips over yours as steam starts to fill the room. He could feel the warmth on your cheeks under his fingers as he ran his thumb along your cheekbone towards your hairline.Â
âHm? I asked you something, baby girl.âÂ
Whining his name, you take a breath as Seungcheol takes a step back to tug off his shirt and quickly get rid of his pants and boxers before offering you his hand once again.Â
âYou canât ask me things like that. Itâs too soon.âÂ
Shaking his head, Seungcheol leads you towards the shower, opening the door for you and following you inside. His eyes move along your body as the water hits your skin and you lean your head back into the stream of water with a smile on your face. Lifting his free hand, Seungcheol runs it between your breasts and down your stomach as the smile on his lips grows.Â
âToo soon for what? For me to already be thinking about wanting to marry you? Shit, I was thinking about that the night we drank wine until 2 in the morning on my couch.âÂ
Licking water from your lips, you lift your head to look at Seungcheol as he speaks to you. His words make you feel hot and almost speechless. He had wanted you for that long? He had wanted you that way for that long.Â
Meeting your eyes for a second, Seungcheol lets out a soft hum of appreciation at the dazed look on your face before his middle finger drags between your folds and your knees buckle. Quickly wrapping his arm around your waist, he groans as he turns your back towards the shower wall and lets you rest against it.Â
âIâm in it for the long haul, baby. I think you know that. Is that something youâd want? Hm? What was Matthew asking earlier? To be his mommy?âÂ
Your lips fall open in a moan of Seungcheolâs name as you feel two of his fingers hook into you and his palm rests against your clit. Lifting your leg, you wrap one around his waist, letting him keep you upright as you try to think straight, only managing to babble incoherently. You werenât sure how he wanted you to think clearly and come up with logical words when his fingers were so deep in you.Â
âTell me⌠I really wanna know. Doesnât mean itâs gonna happen tonight, but... I wonât lie, thinking about you like thatâas my wifeâŚâ You feel Seungcheol shiver as a grin pulls at his lips against your jaw. âIt turns me on.âÂ
You knew Seungcheol was romantic and now you knew he had particular kinks. God you were in trouble. You were in trouble of being in constant pleasure if you did end up being this man's wife. Holding onto Seungcheolâs biceps, you whisper his name as his lips brush against yours before nodding and feeling him nod in return.Â
âYou do? Yeah? Can you say it for me? I wanna hear it. Indulge me, sweetheart.âÂ
Whining, you lean your head back against the shower wall as you feel yourself starting to fall over the edge. Tears threaten to spill from your eyes from pleasure as you whimper and your mouth falls open, cum slipping down Seungcheolâs fingers as you moan out the words he wants to hear.Â
âI would; I would wanna be your wife, Cheol. I love you.âÂ
Bracing himself against the wall, palm flat against it, Seungcheol groans, feeling himself unable to hold back. Itâs not everything he has to give you, but you are surprised to feel warm cum on your stomach, drawing your eyes downward.Â
âOh, my god...â
Sighing, Seungcheol laughs, a bit embarrassed, before pushing off the wall and sliding his fingers out of you. Wiping his mouth clean of water, he uses his other hand to hold your leg to his hip as before, stroking his still hard cock a couple times and lining himself up with your eager pussy.Â
âI told you I liked the idea of it. I love you, too. FuckâŚâÂ
The last word out of Seungcheolâs mouth is drawn out as he slips himself inside of you with some effort. In this position, you were even tighter than he was used to. He had taken you to bed a few times over the weekend, but never like this and you had never sucked his cock in like you were trying to milk him dry.Â
Holding your hip tightly, Seungcheol meets your eyes as you let out a soft gasp, feeling his hips meet yours. At this angle, you felt like he was going to tear you apart, but you werenât complaining. There was bad pain, and then there was this. This was that sweet, satisfying pain that led to so much pleasure that you saw stars, and you were starting to see them.Â
Lips meeting yours, Seungcheol groans into the kiss as he grinds his hips against yours, finding it harder to move after a few deep thrusts when you clamp down over him and cum once again. Scratching at his wet skin, you bite down into his bottom lip before leaning back from his kiss to pant out his name when Seungcheol groans so deep it sounds like a growl.Â
He had made love to you before; there had truly been a difference between that and now. The way his fingers were bruising your hips and the way his hips were slapping against yoursânow he was fucking you. You knew you wouldnât be able to tell him which way you preferred, even as you watched his mouth fall open as he cums once again, this time filling you and pushing it out with each deep thrust.Â
âHoly shit, baby.âÂ
Furrowing your brows, you let out a soft gasp as Seungcheol slips from you and lowers your leg safely back to the floor. Keeping your back to the wall, you take a few deep breaths, feeling his fingers running along your sides as his lips press to your throat, up your jaw, and finally to your lips before you smile.Â
âThat wasâŚâÂ
Nodding to agree with you, Seungcheol laughs against your lips before taking a step back to step under the showerhead, feeling the warm water run over his body. Opening your eyes, you canât help the way you shyly look at him before laughing and looking away, making him grin as he reaches for his shampoo with a tilt of his head.Â
âWhat? Are you shy now? Is this about being in the shower with me or, uh, wife talk?âÂ
Wrinkling your nose, you knock your head back against the shower wall before pushing off of it and towards Seungcheol. Watching him follow you with curious eyes, you sigh and lift your arms to run your fingers through his hair, spreading around the shampoo as you speak, feeling his hands running over your hips.Â
âThe last part. It is a little fast. but Iâis it bad that I like it too? Maybe I want that? Not now!â You are quick to add on the last to your sentence, making Seungcheol laugh before he leans his head back into the water, washing out the shampoo from his hair. âJust in the future, with you?âÂ
Taking a breath, Seungcheol runs his fingers through his hair and then holds on to your waist, switching positions under the shower head to let you stand there as he grabs body wash to start spreading it over your body slowly.Â
âNot at all. I want it... in the future.âÂ
Smiling brightly, Seungcheol meets your eyes as you whine, feeling overwhelmed. Leaning to kiss your nose, he sighs and spreads the soapy water along your body as he nods.Â
âDid I ever tell you that if I got married again, Iâd love to have my honeymoon in Barcelona?âÂ
He was great at breaking the tension. You couldnât help the smile that pulled up at your lips or the laugh that spilled from between them as you shook your head, turning in his arms to let him wash your back.Â
âNo? Well, thatâs my dream destination. Iâve never been, and what better place to go with my bride?âÂ
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Figuring out I'm on the ace spectrum was so difficult because I have always been a horny bitch. I knew what sex was at a fairly young age, because I'd asked my mom and she's one of those good parents who'll answer questions like those, and as I grew older and would ask more complex questions, her answers would evolve along with my curiosity and understanding of the world. And I remember having fantasies as young as 9 or 10 years old, even if they were hella vague and nothing close to what sex actually is lol
So as I became a teenager, and all my friends' focus turned from playing with dolls to flirting with boys, I automatically thought I was attracted to boys. And I paid more attention to Cute Boys than I did to Cute Girls, because girls were just nice to look at while boys were People To Have Crushes On. Because of heteronormativity. Looking back on it now, I know there were girls I liked to stare at just as intently as boys, although less often because I wasn't trying to pay attention. And I certainly didn't fantasize about girls because I started reading romance novels in 5th grade, so I was fantasizing about male romantic partners because that was the fiction I was consuming. I didn't even realize fantasizing about girls was possible until I was 17, and I had a few "am I a lesbian" internal crises for years because of it.
So when I did start having sex, I had A LOT OF IT with SO MANY different guys, and eventually a couple of women once I started accepting that bisexuality was real. But it was never really fulfilling. Not like my fantasies were. Not like my books were. I was slutty because sex was fun, I was horny, there were plenty of options so I kept searching for that satisfaction I was craving.
Getting married was a relief (even though it turns out I'm aro-spec too lol) because I was tired of hunting, and even if sex with my husband was meh, at least I had someone around to scratch that itch if I had it, and he didn't mind if I occasionally took care of things on my own because I'd read an especially hot scene in a romance.
I learned about asexuality in my early 20s, but I brushed it off. Couldn't be me, I'm far too horny for that. But I think that comes from the fact that everything you hear about Aces is attached to sex-repulsion or sex-indifference. I wasn't either of those things. I was horny all the dang time. I was fantasizing about sex all the dang time. I figured actual sex was meh because my imagination was so vivid that real life could never match up. Which could be true to an extent, but I think not as much as popular opinion would have us believe. If fantasy was really that much better for everyone, then I think we'd have less incels and unplanned pregnancies than we do.
In my 30s I finally saw people talking about The Spectrum, and I started examining my past, and I figured out I wasn't really attracted to anyone I had sex with. I do occasionally find someone attractive; there are men and women and enbies who make my skin feel tight and give me a little wave of lightheadedness lol... but it's always always the fantasy that gets me really going. If given the opportunity I wouldn't have sex with any of those people. Thank you, but no thank you, I'd rather just imagine it than physically participate in the act with them.
(Ok I might go down on them, but that's less about wanting sex, and more about being able to add them to my Tally. Hell yeah I want to brag about making *insert hot person* have an orgasm. There's PRIDE in that kind of accomplishment lol)
I have a lot of respect for aces that are not horny. I understand it even if I don't share the sentiment. And I feel like most of them understand me even if they don't share the sentiment. There's a solidarity between us.
Until I go into a fandom tag for a character that the aces have glommed onto because they're canonically ace or headcanoned as ace. Good lord, the non-horny aces can turn into downright vicious bastards if a horny ace sexualizes their blorbo.
This post is for them.
Horny aces exist. Please look up "autochorissexual, lithosexual, and aegosexual."
Refer to those definitions in regards to romantic attraction as well as sexual attraction.
Some aces may not fall into one of those definitions, because asexuality is a spectrum, but they may still be horny.
Horny aces are not disrespecting you by enjoying being horny on main. We promise we'll wash the stickiness off our hands before we hold your hands in queer solidarity.
And most importantly: Your blorbo is fictional and does not need to be defended from icky sexuality. They exist in an infinite multiverse, so your blorbo and my blorbo are not the same, even if they appear to be on the surface.
AND:
This post is also for the people who are confused about themselves because they're horny but don't actually feel attraction. You're not crazy, you're not wishy washy, you're not "waiting for the right person to come along" (unless you are, in which case I hope you find them). You're just a thin strip of color on a massive rainbow that holds more unique shades than anyone can perceive at a glance.
You're valid. You're one of us too.
And don't be mean to the non-horny aces. Tag your smut so they can avoid it. (But actually so I can find it lol)
#ltleramblings#queer stuff#seriously the fandom fights are so exhausting#thank goodness for the block button#asexuality
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OKAY OKAY idk if you still do Eddie Munson if not it's fine but I just ended a situationship/fwb with a rude white boy, I lowk wanna see a fanfic. where Eddie has this relationship with reader, then he flirts with someone else and takes them to bed, and reader is just heartbroken,and gets revenge
toxic!eddie munson x female!reader
summary: you think Iâd let him destroy me and end up happier than ever? no fucking way. he doesnât get to win.
warnings: smut! 18+, cursing, very much angst, arguing, mature content, etc..
a/n: wow, you actually got me out of hibernation with this one. i haven't wrote eddie in a long time so bear with me but since fuckboys very much PISS ME OFF, i had to do you a solid and i hope you enjoy! as always, apologize if you hate this.
Your relationship with Eddie was not something that you could explain in a few short words. Of course, it was complex, complicated, difficult, angering, loving, warm.... But again, not something you could name with a few short words.
It had been about three months ago when you caught Eddie staring at your ass while you were playing dodgeball and he was sitting at the bleachers.
He had that sly smile on and his back leaning on one of the levels on the bleachers, staring at you intently. Not only was it enough to catch your attention but enough for you to keep looking.
All it took was a wink and a few whispers in the locker room for you to be hooked. But after, Eddie had made it clear with you that he wasn't ready to be in a relationship.
Eddie kissed your neck while his grip on your neck was harsh, "Listen baby, I want this so fucking bad but I'm not ready for somethin' serious," He whispered but the trance you were in only had you saying,
"Uh-huh,"
And since then, you had been stuck in a friends with benefits situation with Eddie Munson.
It wasn't the worse thing in the world but sometimes, it never felt the best. I mean, it wasn't like Eddie was an asshole who didn't care about you after you fucked or did anything. He would always cuddle you or clean you up when you felt tired.
He would always let you vent to him, give you kisses, and make you laugh. Those were the times when you felt like you could be more with him.
And then there would be times where he talked about Stacey Callahan's ass with a sly smile and glint in his eye, almost making you want to stab him.
You would shoot daggers into him but he would never notice because he considered you a friend.
And you could never tell him your real feelings because then you guys would be nothing and that seemed like a worse fate.
But at least, he never made an actual pass at girls in front of you and from what he had told you, he hasn't fucked anyone since you and him had started.
And that made you feel like you could be more.
But you were afraid you spoke too soon when you were trying to find Eddie and saw him and Caroline Blaren making out under the bleachers.
His hand groping her ass and her moans echoing throughout the gym. If it wasn't for the fact that it was after school, almost half the school population would've been cursed with this sight.
His mouth leaving hot kisses on her neck as he did with you a multitude of times, whispering sweet nothings into her ear as she giggled.
For the first time in your life, you had felt as if your heart had shattered.
A part of you wanted to make a scene, maybe go batshit crazy and curse Eddie to the brink of eternity and then the other part of you wanted to walk away, realize that you were worth more than someone who you thought cared for your feelings or for you at all.
Before you could leave the gym and maybe cry in a corner, Eddie locks eyes with you and smiles before he excuses himself and tells Caroline to wait under the bleachers.
She scoffs a little bit but twirls her hair as she stands there, mugging you.
You still have a shocked expression as Eddie approaches you, grinning ear to ear,
"I know I said we were gonna meet today but," He shyly cheers, "I've been trying to bag this for months and I really need this, Y/N, we can meet tomorrow though," He says as if this was casual.
You blinked at him as he awkwardly laughed at your expression, "Earth to Y/N?" He waved his hand in your face as you closed your mouth and swallowed.
You did your best to form a smile, "Uh- yeah sure,"
He cheered, kissing you on the cheek, "You're the best, I owe you one," He winked at you before going back to Caroline.
He put his arm around her shoulder before exiting the other way of the gym.
You couldn't believe that you let Eddie Munson break your heart.
There were multiple thoughts entering your head the sight of this.
One was that you were a complete idiot and let Eddie Munson play you like a fiddle. The second was that he had never taken you seriously. The third was that you needed to make him feel as you did.
And maybe it was petty for you to feel like you needed revenge but you couldn't let Eddie get away with making multiple girls feel this way,
Harmless to him but cruel to you.
And now you had to make him pay which you knew wasn't going to be easy.
Making Eddie Munson jealous was one of those things that was damn near impossible. He always prided himself in being as 'chill as a cucumber, when it came to his love life.
You had never seen him get jealous once and you didn't even think it was a feeling to him.
But you did know Eddie hated being ignored.
You remembered when he jokingly called your ass flat and you ignored him for an hour before he looked like he was on the brink of tears.
That was the one sore sport of his that you knew of and it certainly wouldn't hurt to use it to your advantage.
So when Eddie had called you that very night, you answered but not with the same eagerness you always had,
"Hello?" You answered, holding the telephone up to your ear.
"Hey Y/N," You heard Eddie's voice on the other side of line, voice excited.
You swallowed before answering back flatly, "Hi,"
He sounded surprised at your tone but didn't mention it, "Jus' wondering if you wanted to come over, Caroline just left,"
Your blood felt like it was boiling. It was as if he wanted a snack to go with his meal which only pissed you off more and it had been six hours, he had been fucking Caroline for six hours.
"I can't," You said, concealing your anger.
He sounded astonished, "Uh, why not?"
"Busy," You replied, annoyed.
You could feel your vagueness starting to worry him, "Busy with what?" He said snarkily.
"Stuff," You scoffed.
When did Eddie care so much about what you were doing? Maybe once he realized you wouldn't be at his beck and call any longer.
He took a breath, "What about tomorrow?" He asked, hoping your answer would be different.
"I'm busy, Eddie," You snapped.
There was silence on the other line for a few seconds that felt like decades before he replied again, "Is something wrong?" He asked, the worry present in his voice.
"No, I really can't talk right now, I'll see you later," You said quickly, putting the phone back on the link before he could answer.
You sighed, trying your best to feel as if this was the best decision. Of course, you knew ignoring Eddie wouldn't be the easiest thing in the world but you didn't expect it to be the hardest either.
Once Eddie gets fixated, there's not really a way to get him off the case.
And that turned out to be a fact when you saw him at school the next morning,
"Y/N," Someone grabbed your arm, pulling you in the custodian closet.
You made a surprised sound before realizing it was Eddie, "Jesus, I thought you were a murderer," You said, releasing your arm from his grip.
He ignored your joke, locking his eyes into your eyes, "What's up with you?" He asked.
You gulped, "I don't know what you're talking about,"
He scoffed, "You fucking dodged me on the phone,"
You rolled your eyes, "I told you I was busy,"
"You've literally let me eat you out before you had an huge exam in the next hour so that's a load of crap," He replied as you gawked, "So tell me what's actually up,"
You moved your jaw to the side, looking away as Eddie fumed in front of you.
You were lost for words but this didn't stop Eddie from waiting for answer so you gave one,
"I'm done fucking you,"
Eddie looked shocked, lost for words, he almost seemed as if he was having a stroke. He snapped out of his trance by laughing, "Are you serious?"
Your demeanor didn't change, "Deadly."
He bit his lip, almost wanting to laugh because this had to be a joke, "Baby, thats a big decision," His chest was against yours at this point, "Are you sure about this?" He asked, his breath whispering against your ear.
You could feel yourself breathing harder and a bit turned on but you knew this cycle wouldn't end if you didn't stop it. You pushed against his chest as he stepped backwards, "I'm done Eddie." You stated, walking out of the closet and leaving him in there.
You took a deep breath before walking to your class, it was hard to believe that you had just rejected Eddie and that he didn't utterly make you regret it.
You sat in class as you watched Eddie come on minutes after, always arriving after the bell. You could feel the tension radiating off you both but he didn't care to take a glimpse of you, his hard expression already telling enough.
You eyed him as he sat down next to you, a shocked expression on your face. Eddie had never sat down next to you in classes or let alone even show up.
You could already tell he was about to start fucking with you.
As Ms. Rodriguez started her lesson, you started to feel a fingertip tracing your knee as you swallowed. You looked at Eddie but he kept his hard expression, not even a smirk forming.
You watched him as his finger rose higher, almost at the hem of your skirt.
There was something in you that wanted to let him, maybe get your last taste Eddie before it was over forever but if you did this, it would never be over.
You knew this was Eddie trying to win and you couldn't let him.
In a flash, you grabbed his hand which caused him to finally look at you and you slammed it into his own lap. He looked furious and you felt a small victory as he pushed out his chair and stormed out while Ms. Rodriguez yelled for him to come back.
âââââ
The bell rang as you went towards the cafeteria, going to sit with the mutual friends you shared with Eddie.
Ever since you and Eddie had started hooking up, he had introduced you to his friends and you didn't actually mind sitting with them. They would always banter in front of you which always made you giggle and it was never superficial with them.
Usually, you would've sat next to Eddie but since shit hit the fan, you took a seat next to Gareth.
You saw Eddie shooting daggers into your soul but you kept your composure and ignored him.
You could hear them arguing over something about D&D which only made you laugh before Gareth noticed you, "Hey Y/N!" He beamed as you smiled.
"Hey Gareth, what are you guys talking about?" You asked, looking at him.
Gareth grinned, ready to start his tangent, "Oh so basically, we were talking about if Paladin or the Monk had more of a power bu-"
Eddie cut him off, "What are you doing?" He asked, looking at you as the table went silent.
You steamed, "What are you talking about?"
He began his theatrics, "I mean did I say you could sit here?" The whole table looked between you and him, there had never been one argument between you and Eddie, let alone one in front of them.
You sneered, "Why would I not be allowed to sit here?" You asked, wanting to kill Eddie for doing this in front of everyone.
"Well because, you don't belong here," He said, nonchalantly.
You laughed, "I don't belong here?" Your eyes were locked onto his, anger present in them.
"Yeah," He smirked which only made your blood boil.
"So since I'm sucking your dick anymore, I can't sit here?" You questioned, causing the entire table to gasp.
You weren't planning to reveal that you and Eddie had fucked several times but since he was really trying to get under you, there was no other choice.
"You can't sit here because nobody wants you here, Princess," He said, hatefully.
You looked at everyone around the table but they kept their gazes low, not wanting to go against Eddie.
Eddie was expecting pure anger to come out of you or maybe you would have to reconcile with him and you guys could go back to how you were but instead, you had gotten up and a smile was present on your face.
"I think I'm actually gonna sit with Jason," You slyly said as Eddie felt enraged, "I think that's a dick I actually would like to suck," You grabbed your tray heading over to jock table.
It wasn't exactly the best plan considering you hated Jason but Jason had been trying to get under you for years and this was the only way to get under Eddie's skin.
Your skirt rose up as you blinked dumbly at Jason sitting next to him, "Hi Jason," You sweetly said as he grinned from ear to ear.
"Y/N, what do I owe the pleasure?" He asked, him eyeing your body.
"I was wondering if you could teach me a few things about basketball at yours, I've got a research project," You said, fingers grazing his thigh.
It was not your best effort at being seductive but it was enough to get Jason Carver.
"I think I could help with that, mine at seven?" He said as you nodded.
You turned your back to see Eddie staring at you, more mad than you had ever seen him.
He was jealous.
And this was only the beginning.
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LIFE | jhs
pairing: military!hobi x f. reader (ft. namjoon)
genre: slow burn ; tension ; converse high trope / smut, tiny fluff
word count: 8.6k
summary: hoseok has always had a secret thing for you and once he learns you're single, he doesn't waste time and knocks on your door.Â
pinterest board: life / playlist: listen / taglist: join / discord: join
warnings: mutual pining, hobi is a feet guy, mentions of a partner giving you a cold shoulder and silent treatment, strong tension, praise kink, petting, nipple play, oral sex (f. receiving), overstimulation, slight dd/lg, raw and rough sex, size kink.
note: SHE'S BACK. HOSEOKSLUNA IS BACCKKKKKKKK. HELLO, MY BABIES. I MISSED YOU ALLLLL SOOOO MUCH AND I MISSED WRITING SO MUCH THAT THIS IS SOMETHING I WROTE IN MY YEARNING TOWARDS THE END OF MY HIATUS. fuck, this is way too hot. and i, again, had to take breaks to do something :D actually, i was inspired to write this at 4 am when i landed in my country after my vacation in dubai and got the weverse notification from hobi. :) yep. he ruined me, destroyed me, and i had to start writing. ENJOY THIS FILTHHHHHH. i missed writing abt dd/lg, too.... hehe. let me know what you think. and if you mayhappsss want part two? I LOVE YOU, MY BABIES. MWAH.
Hoseok, at your doorstep bringing in the moonlight before the midnight hour, was not something you quite expected to see when you heard the bell ring. You were lounging around on your couch, clothed in your new silky pajamas that you bought to heal your wounded heart a little, along with a peachy Korean face mask, a banana vape and a vanilla candle that you lit up as soon as you exited the shower. The creamy white sheet is what you were still wearing on the planes on your face when you stood there, taken aback because the man, clad in his military uniform, was certainly not your friend that visited you often.Â
Hoseok was a mutual friend. A friend of your best friend Karina⌠and a friend of your now ex-boyfriend Namjoon. A friend that hated your gutsâa friend that could not stand you.Â
A friend that would let his eyes linger a little while longer on you upon seeing you on regular night outs and then ignore you for the rest of the event. A friend that would lock his gaze on your intertwined hand with Namjoonâs before narrowing it and scoffing in a private way that you invariably saw through.Â
You werenât stupid. You knew what his deal wasâitâs only that you couldnât do anything about it. You were Namjoonâs for eight wonderful months that were splotchy with the depth of poetry. Words from his heart that would give your life meaning, keep your head up above the surface. You needed those words as you spent your whole girlhood drowning in the sea of FOMO, rowing your arms through the waves of life that never got you anywhere. Seeing the little beauty of day and night of Seoul with your friends paled in comparison with what Namjoon showed you. You always believed that your life would begin with a man by your sideâyou prayed for it, you waited for it and it became reality.Â
But it was not the reality that your body sought in the long run.Â
Yes, the sex was great. Significant to your mental development, especially to your female one as you truly did become a woman in his hands, letting the lush girlish version of you die in his palms. As well as the museums, the hikes, the dinner dates that let you in on the complexity of Namjoonâs intellect that you found so profound and full of beauty.Â
But as you nearly reached a year with him, your body began to seek more. The flowers beyond the box of your relationship with himâand you knew that those petals carried the scent of Hoseok.Â
He liked you. You saw it in the extremity of his purposeful ignorance towards you, in the forced hatefulness he put across, and in the distance he set as a boundary. You saw it, too, in the way he would entertain other women in the bars and glance at you every now and then to make sure youâre seeing what he wants you to see. And it excited you, his interest in you that he kept at bay.Â
It was a forbidden fruit that you smelt and smelt, but could never bite intoâand it drove you insane. And when he got enlisted in the military, it drove you off a cliff.Â
Missing him made you search for him. Not in Namjoon, but in other men. Privately, in your soul. And it cost you your relationship.Â
Namjoon was a jealous, possessive man. He would fight with you if you looked at a guy for a beat longer than is necessary and if a half of a smile crept up upon the corner of your lips, he would give you the cold shoulder. An action that cut through you deep enough to make you bleed and you had to put a stop to it.Â
You thought talking to him about it like an adult would straighten the road you were walking upon, but like the intelligent man Namjoon isâhe knew that what he was giving to you was no longer what you needed. He threw it back at you, using the poetry of his words, and all you could do was be honest with him. Nod your head, tell him he was right, that you were seeking something more. And what surprised you was that Namjoon wasnât willing to go the extra mile.Â
He didnât consider it. Didnât mention it.Â
He nodded his head, too. And you parted your ways as friends who loved each other and lived an artistic life together.Â
And at that moment, a door to your mind opened and Hoseok stepped in. Made a bed, fluffed the pillows, and rested.Â
It seems now he has awoken. Rang your doorbell, bashed his fist against the wood and narrowed his eyes at you in his normal fashion.Â
An action that weaves a rhythm into that flat, bruised heart of yours.Â
His military jacket is slung over his arm. His two black dog tags, hung by a silver chain around his long neck, rattles as the breath of the fresh, autumn evening breezes past, scattering goosebumps along your chocolate-buttered skin. You notice, within the brief silence while you look at each other and exchange words long overdue, that his hair is way shorter. Not buzzed anymore like Namjoon showed you on Hoseokâs first day in the military six months ago, but tousled and sticking out in different directions as if he raked his fingers through the strands a million times over. Your own itch, wrapped around your vape, his beauty heightened by his evident newly-gained manliness washing over you like an icy stream of water.Â
You shiver, blaming it internally on the wind, and not on the lightness of the attraction that you feel sinking beneath your skin, overpowering you.Â
And that small movement of your body propels Hoseok to speak, at last.Â
âI come home to find you single,â he scoffs, his voice deep and raspy, marked possibly by his job in the military. And you feel it marking you just the same, opening windows in the house of your body for that wind to blow in and exhilarate you, help you breathe. âHeâs drunk out of his mind, crawling on Jungkookâs lap and youâre here. In your pajamas with a fucking face mask on.âÂ
Briefly, you furrow your brows, not understanding the meaning of his words. Is he bashing you for not crying your heart out? Or is he bashing his brother for doing whatever it was. Your heart turns halfway, painfully. Those days are goneâthose you spent in bed while that broken muscle wept while your body used that time to repose from all the stress it went through, being in an environment it grew out of.Â
You sigh, weary of the recollection of that peculiar pain, and show no sight of the turbulence happening within you. âJungkook must be happy about that.âÂ
Hoseok chuckles, humorlessly. A chilling noise that erects your bare nipples beneath your pajama button down. Awkwardness slinks down your sternum and you shift your weight on your other foot as Hoseok deepens his gaze down on you.Â
Tension settles between you and you use it. You use it, wholeheartedly, as you should have all those months ago. The only thing you ever took advantage of were the touches Namjoon graced your skin with. Youâd grab his hand, while Hoseok watched, and bring it underneath the table. Part your mouth, pretending he was touching a sensitive, private place while he was merely drifting his fingers along your thigh. Hoseok would gulp, but he would keep his gaze locked on yours, very much like heâs doing now. Itâs the only form of intimate interaction you ever had, save for the heated debates about different things you two did not have in common.Â
All else remained hidden in the silence shared between you.Â
And it no longer shall.Â
If he came all the way here, unannounced, then you shall let fate, one that is enamored with your body, have her way in your life.Â
âIf you came here to talk about him, then Iâm not interested,â you say, letting go of the door and slipping off your face mask, ignoring the hurtful pinpricks along the perimeters of your heart. âIf you came here for me, then the door is open.âÂ
And with that bravery, you pivot on your heel and walk back into the living room, not expecting him to follow you and not expecting him to walk away. You let fate do her thing, and you begin to tap in the essence of the peachy face mask into your skin with quick, gentle slaps.Â
You toss the sheet, along with the packaging, into the trash, your hair clipped away from your face whooshing around you with your movement. Kicking off your slides, you hear them bump into something stable, and when you turn around to seek that strange sound, you see Hoseok standing by your armchair near your couch.Â
So he did come here for you. You tremble in a different manner, filled with sparks of excitement, and, turning around to sit on the couch, you flush, smiling happily to yourself.Â
But all those feelings turn to dust when Hobi kneels by the edge of your couch and fixes your home slippers. Aligns them rightly in front of you so you can comfortably slide your feet into them once you get up.Â
Your stomach drops and your fingertips tingle, all of your nerve endings set on blazing fire by that one act of service.Â
The first kind thing heâs ever done for you.Â
He throws his military jacket over the backrest of the armchair, where he nestles himself. Legs spread, elbows propped on his knees. His long dog tag chain swings back and forth in the sudden, atypical calmness of the atmosphere that you cannot adapt to fully. Not when your mind creates an image of that chain hanging over your face, your neck and your chest when youâre bare and ready for him, laying on your back, all for him to take.Â
You bite your lip, tracing the band of your sleep sock with your fingers, and Hoseokâs eyes fall to it. You quickly lift them, sheepish. Distract your mind by opening a package of eye patches and placing them on your dark circles that just wonât leave. His gaze skims over each motion, studying it, wordlessly, and you canât take it anymore.Â
You canât be the only one whoâs brave this evening.Â
You take a puff of your vape, inhaling its sweetness, and stare right back at him. A smile, a foolish girlish smile quivers upon your lips. One that you dislike because you did grow out of it, but it seems as though the more you swallow the intensity of his shadowed, violent sea-charged energy, the more you transform back into that little girl you were.Â
And the process soaks your panties.Â
So much is said in the silence, always has been, but you canât stand it anymore.Â
âYou should start talking before I go to bed,â you bite, willing your smile to flatten, and Hoseok kneads his hands. His knuckles bear a faint memory of yellow bruises, veiny and strong as they are, and for a moment you wonder how far his ferocity reaches.Â
He showed you little of it. You know heâs capable of doing things that would change you for all eternity, give you a new form that would not wither with age.Â
And you yearn for it. Have yearned for it all those months without knowing that was the thing your body sought. The thing Namjoon could never give you.Â
Violence. Roughness. The licks of an outraged sea.Â
Youâre a witness to it sloshing in the pools of his darkened eyes as he chews the provocation you uttered his way. And you can bet he likes the taste.Â
âDid he break your heart?â he asks amidst the banana-flavored smoke, his knuckles whitening for a split second as he clenches his fist before relaxingâas if the thought of Namjoon breaking your heart angers him.Â
It rouses you, and the way your chest lifts with each breath stimulates your stiffened nipples. The candlelight sways, casting shadows on his worn features, and youâd much rather sit on them than talk about your ex.Â
âDid you not hear what I said?â you spit, throwing your vape on the cushion of your couch. Hoseokâs façade splits as he smirks, dropping his gaze for a moment before lifting it back to you.Â
He leans back, slouching in the chair. âAnswer the question.âÂ
The sedatedness of his tone stuns you. Your heart begins to thump as well as the bundle of nerves between your folded legs. It has been too long since you had your release. Months upon months. And youâre too weak to not get carried away by these new feelings youâve shamefully forgotten about.Â
The veins from his knuckles travel all the way back to his arms and your brain empties out. Too, too fucking long. You shouldâve fooled around with every guy you found attractive, use them for orgasms, make the best of your womanly years, but instead you dwelled at homeâin and out of your misery. And now, now it feels as though youâre a virgin, alone for the first time with an older man that enlivens your body.Â
And you might as well give him what he asks of you.Â
Sucking on your vape for a puff of bravery, you donât blink as you stare at him through the smoke. You elongate your legs, placing them on the coffee table next to him, your toes facing his outstretched knee, and his eyes, once again, plummet to them.Â
âHe didnât break my heart, I broke his,â you say, your words shrouded by that white mist curling out of your mouth, and you watch as his eyes widen en route to yours.Â
He didnât expect that.Â
Something about that satisfies you. Selfishly.Â
Hoseok runs the pad of his finger across his bottom lip, his head tilted to the side a little bit. âIt was about time you did.âÂ
The searing heat that rushes forward in your cheeks forces your gaze away from him, begs you to look away, but you donât. A bead of perspiration trickles down your cleavage, one that is visible to him as you couldnât be bothered to do all the buttons after your shower. But Hoseokâs eyes donât flick to it. No, he canât miss this. He canât miss the gravity of the moment, of the spoken confirmation of the fact that what went on between the two of you for so long is real. You squeeze your thighs together, the thumping in between unbearable, and the longer you bask in his brave words, in the masculinity of his initiative, the more your own poetry begins to rise in you.
If it drags, itâs not meant for you. If itâs fast, it couldnât wait to meet you.Â
And Hoseok notices. It is only when you let out a little, barely hearable sigh that his eyes do travel down to scrutinize your bodily reaction. To your nipples poking through, the shine of your sweat in between your bare breasts, to the friction youâre rubbingâthe miniscule grinding movements that you make in order to alleviate yourself of the ache of desperation that you feel. And because youâre baring yourself out for him, he does the unthinkable.Â
He lets you see his true face, his façade collapsing at his big, sock-clad feet.Â
Hoseok lifts his hips, hides behind the pretense that heâs just making himself more comfortable, but in reality he did it to turn your attention to his lower region. His length, semi-hard yet still long, stands out, protruding from the camo of his pants and youâre hot, hot all over.Â
The thumping worsensâand you need him, all of him, to make it better.Â
Perceiving that heâs succeeded in his strategy by the way you just wonât stop ogling him, he blushes and hides it, in vain, with outstretched fingers spread across his face. As if he was doing his signature idol move. Itâs a riveting sight to behold, a seemingly cold person growing warm from you gaping at that private part of him.Â
And you want more. You want to see more places of his body that are flushed. And you want it now.Â
âIt was about time you and I talked alone, donât you think?â you ask, following on from his previous statement. All that pining, those stolen glances, that distanceâall that tension advances forward now, stronger than ever.
Hoseok can feel it, too. At your words, his manhood grows harder and his breathing quickens. He tries to stabilize it, but he fails. He fails even when he returns to his original position with his elbows propped on his knees. That chain of his swings with more momentum, teasing you, and you place your legs even closer towards him, and upon witnessing the light flash in his eyes, you realize that you teased him right back.Â
The man likes feet.
You draw in a sharp breath when he fists both of your feet in one hand, brushing his thumb over the tips of your toes. The first touch in this lifetime, the first time upon your new virgin body, so intimate, private; he might as well have wrapped a blanket around them with how warm his hand is, secure and trustful. Goosebumps flood your skin, bringing in the iciness that you felt when you took in his beauty against the background of the trees and the moonlight. And its beams must be stitched around his fingers because daintiness clasps you close, the notion that youâre taken care of, in good hands, descending upon you like the most delicate feather tickling you, and you let itâyou let it consume you.Â
And you let his following question consume you just as much.Â
âWere you in love with him?âÂ
Itâs a question you never had the bravery to ask yourself in the two months youâve been single, but it is here and you welcome it. You hear it whisper to you the hint of your answer and your body is smart enough, capable enough to figure it out.Â
No need for long nights of overthinking.Â
No need for long hours of listening to your heart crack.
âNo, I was used to himâthatâs different,â you hush out and the moon lowers herself, spilling through your windows, bathing you in a milky light that feels as welcoming, as right as your confession. And maybe, just maybe itâs the way the shining stream submerges in your neediness that drives you to be bratty. And briefly, before you do, you ponder over the fact how in your life shared with this person drives, moves forward. Thereâs never a still timeâand you find that mesmerizing. Enough for you to simply brood in greed. âWhatâs it to you?âÂ
Hoseok flinches. Parts his mouth. His chain rattles and his fingers squeeze the balls of your feet, coaxing a hum out of you that is immediately silenced by his sudden outburst.Â
âWhatâs it to me?âÂ
There it is. Another plot point. Your heart hammers.Â
Hoseok lets go of your feet and you lament the absence. Stands up and towers over you, the moonshine soaking him in divine light that causes your breath to hitch in your throat. A faint layer of sweat has coasted along his hairline and settled thereâand you long to swim in his bodily fluids. In the persona of his, in the tumultuous sea of the tension locked within him.Â
âYouâre genuinely asking me this question?â he pressures, lifting your legs in order to step in between them, and the unthinkable visits you once again. He props his hands on either side of your head and those two dog tags swing in your face.Â
A wet patch forms in the center of your pajamas. Your breath mirrors hisâhasty, deep and strainedâand you canât take it anymore.Â
How far into this road of bravery until the moon averts its opaque eyes away from your sin?Â
You arch your spine, hook your fingers on his dog tags and pull him a little closer. Breathe his air, breathe in his masculine, musky scent that intoxicates your senses to the point that there is absolutely nothing stopping you from getting dragged in the natural flow of this situation.Â
âYes, Hoseok. Whatâs it to you?âÂ
He pants. Glides, delicately, his fingers along your arm until he winds up at your small fist, clutching it in his as if it was his. And that warmth, you want to dip your head in it.Â
âI had to watch you sit in that chair and not crack a smile. Sit next to him like an obedient girl, not allowed to speak. To me,â he grunts, tightening his lips, and that anger of his seeps into you, becoming yours. âHe didnât deserve you. Youâre not a pretty toy. Youâre a person.âÂ
He straightens but, panicking, you draw him right back by that chain. âDonât fucking walk away from me.âÂ
He seethes and you feel your essence trickling down your thigh. That sea, inching forward, you whimper. And then he spreads that warmth over the crown of your head, rubbing your hairline just once with his thumb before he peels off your eye patches that you have forgotten about.Â
And this is when your brows curl. This is the time that says thereâs no going back.Â
âI talked to you. We fought, donât you remember?âÂ
He sweeps that digit over that soaked dark circle of yours underneath your eye. âWhat do you think wouldâve happened to you if I talked to you nicely?âÂ
Cold shoulder. Uncomfortable time of forced aloneness, filled with the abyss of guilt that you had done something wrong. A toy that didnât move its lifeless limbs right by his will.Â
âIâve known him for far longer than you. I know how he treats those he thinks he loves. I brushed it away with the others, but with you⌠I couldnât. You were so full of life that was stuck in you because of him. Because he didnât let you let it out. And I canât forgive him for that.âÂ
What life? The one you searched for all your girlhood, the one Namjoon molded with his own hands until it no longer recognized the once-familiar lines of his palm? The one that yearned for Hoseok instead?Â
A film of tears clouds your eyes and as hard as you try to blink them away, they linger, pooling at your waterline like sea foam. You need your vape, you need him inside youâyou canât face the mirror of the reality of that unfair treatment.Â
How blind you were; how Hoseok has become that guiding stick.Â
âDonât forgive him,â you utter, grasping his chain tighter, drawing him even closer, making his breath tremble. The first tear that pours out leaks into the print of his thumb and at the sound of your soft cry, Hoseok topples. Kneels on the couch with your legs on either side of him and you pull, you pull him closer.Â
âDo you want me?â he asksâa foolish, foolish question. Presses his forehead against yours, cups your face with both hands now while his back shakes and you touch it, you drag your fingernails down those prominent muscles. And he sighs, so desperately, so tenderly. âDo you want me to let out that life in you?âÂ
âYes,â you whisper, sliding your hands underneath his black shirt, scratching the lowest part of his warm, warm waist before hooking your fingers on the waistband of his pants. Itâs hisâit always belonged to him. âTake me. Here.âÂ
He brushes his nose against yours, your breath and his singular. âYouâre so feisty.â Lips nearly touch yours and your lungs give out on you, your air coming out in pathetic staccatos that make him growl, subduedly. Muscles rigid, bundle of nerves devoutly pulsing. Please, please. âBut no.âÂ
The world implodes, the mocking shimmer of that planetary light gushing throughâhand in hand with sobriety.Â
But Hoseok, the prince of the unthinkable, dips your head back into that darkness. Lifts you by your armpits and sets you down on his lap, his hard length against your core uprearing your need for release.Â
A hand sailing down your neck, your sternum, acknowledging itself with your respiration. âDonât give it to me that easily.âÂ
Your own cages him there, right at the apex of the fleshiness of your breasts. âJebal, Hobi.âÂ
Please, Hobi. You drive, in his fashion, your hips forwardâever so slightly. His eyes round at the mellow variation of his name wandering out of your mouth and wrapping around his neck, as if the gentleness you give him pains him, transforms into a noose around his vocal cords and he canât speak.Â
He sighs, the noise melting into a soft, low-pitched moan. âDonât beg me,â he croaks out, so terribly strung out. âIâm-Iâmââ
You lengthen your spine, closing your mouth over that one spot on the side of his throat that you can reach, silencing him. He doesnât need to speakâyouâre fine with the tacit language of his hands. And the taste of his skin, that fucking warmth dissolving upon your tongue, you canât help but to moan just the same against him like that, rocking your hips awfully, awfully slowly, driving him to the point of madness that he stood at the edge of for so long.Â
âI want you to touch me,â you murmur, tugging his hand lower to the first done button of your silky shirt and itâs him who hooks his fingers over that fabric now. You lick a stripe across the thick vein of his throat, grinding a little harder when you hear him suck in a pained breath. âI want you to feel that life in me and know itâs yours. Jebal, Hoseokie.âÂ
He grunts, ripping you away from him. You expect his eyes to be narrowed in that typical manner of his, but theyâre not. Theyâre soft, round and glossy, looking down at you, unblinking. A face youâve never seen before, that feels too, too significantâand youâre not sure if you deserve to get a load of it. Of his pinkish cheeks and downturned mouth, of his fingers agonizingly sluggishly undoing the first button of your shirt.Â
Of his sentimentality that you never thought he was so efficient at.Â
The sea that has remotely stilledâbut youâre still riding the lenient waves, your torso curving with each button popping off as he engraves his warmth into your cold, cold skin. And once he reaches the very last one, he stops. Holds your shirt together, squishing your breasts, waiting for you to lift your head out of the sea water.Â
And you do.Â
He inches forward, grazing his lips against yours, making you feebly cry out.Â
âDid you cry for him?âÂ
Your cry prolongs, vexation splattering over your arousal, and youâve had enough of it. You flick your eyes between his, drawing back, flattening your lips in that anger of his that seems to be still flowing in you somewhere. No more, no more Namjoon; no more talk of your past relationship. Itâs over, itâs over.
âStop fuckingââ
Hoseok doesnât relent. Sinks his fingers into the roots of your hair at the nape of your neck to make you listen. âDid you cry for him?âÂ
Your heart wept, but your eyes didnât. The tear you shed in front of him was the only liquid emotion that spilled out of you since the day of the break up. âNo.âÂ
He blows a heavy breath of relief that oddly validates youâand light opens in your sensitive bosom. âGood girl.âÂ
And it is now that Hoseok presses his chest, his dog tags against that light of yours and clamps his mouth down on your top lip, hoisting you a tiny bit to sit you right down on his manhood. His strong arm wraps around your back while the other floats down and curls around your bum, growling into the kiss that he deepens. And then he parts your lips with his, slipping his tongue inside, and the dam breaks between your legsâas well as the quick little whines and squeaks that begin to leak out of your mouth and into his.Â
The life in you throbs.Â
His cock hardens even more underneath you and he pushes your clit against it, his noises and yours growing louder and louder in tandem until heâs breathless, panting so vivaciously that he needs a moment. A moment to focus on the mess heâs created of you, a glowing ball of rosiness, the prettiest of all flowersâand you feel like it, being looked at like that.Â
âI knew you were smart,â he coos, peppering feathery kisses upon your cheek, jaw and chin, descending to the base of your neck. You moan out, fisting his shirt below his collarbones, the continuation of his validation for you nesting in your core. âThat life in you will always win. No matter what.âÂ
You believe himâin fact, thereâs nothing left for you to do, but to submit, submit and submit. And it feels like entering a dream that is kind, a reality that appears to be a dream, but is better. An existence smeared with clemency, where you can be a little girl again.Â
âTouch it, please.âÂ
Hoseok hums, kissing the cleft between your clavicles. Shifts forward on the couch so you can rest your spine on the backrest, your head against the wall, and he slides his palms upward from your tummy to the apex of your breasts. You whine, torturously, at the contact, and you shudder and double over when he swipes his thumbs over your still stiffened nipples, buzzing shocks of acute pleasure coursing down your body, rooting in your clit that asks for his fingers, his tongue, but he remains where he is. Transfixed, starving, ravaged.Â
He kneads your breasts like he kneaded his hands, with overpowering strength that quickens your blood flow, your body submitting to him and flushing like his does. A sliver of skin that your shirt exposes catches his attentionâand at the sight of the flesh of your breasts spilling through, his cock twitches, his breath ragged, eyes droopy and so, so drunk. He pinches your nipples, still through that silken fabric, as if he was punishing you for causing him this unfair pain.Â
Knead, flick, pinch. Your noises are obnoxious, his heat in you rising and rising, and you canât take it anymore. The drum in your clit thuds and you push him away, the pleasure too overwhelming, too good and too arousing.Â
And he pushes away the fabric, revealing your perky breasts. A glint settles on the edge of his irises and he gives you a coy smile before he smashes his mouth against yours, moving it in a rhythm that reflects the one in your bundle of nerves. And you grind, you grind like your life depends on it, your nipples and your pussy rubbing against him, against his icy dog tags, getting you closer and closer to your orgasm. And you would come like this had he not physically ripped you away from him.Â
Heaving, he focuses, all over again, on the ruination he makes of you. The warmth in you flits so invitingly that you have to touch the places he didâyour stomach, your sternum, your breasts. And as you do, you watch his gaze darken, you watch him nod his head, and wipe the corner of his mouth clean, catching his drool.Â
âYou feel it, donât you?â he rasps, following the invisible traces you left on your body. Your stomach, your sternum, your breasts. âRight here. Life. Beautiful life.â He teases your hardened nub, circling it with the pads of his fingers, sliding it between his knuckles and squeezing, his smile growing with each shudder of your chest, with each response. âItâs time to make you come and let it out, you ready? Letâs take these off.âÂ
He tugs off your pajama pants, throws it behind his shoulder, examines the large wet stain on your panties that he coos at, raspily, petting it with his thumbâand youâre so turned on that even such faint touch like that brings you pleasure. You hold onto his arms for dear life, depending on him, trembling when the panties and the shirt are next, tossed upon the pile of your pants.Â
Youâre bare and heâs still fully dressed. Such titillating unfairness that turns you unhinged, maddened by liveliness your body is diffused with.Â
Hoseok pins your legs back. Takes one hand and glides his fingers across your entire femininity, soaking them in the dew he has coaxed out of you, moaning gutturally.Â
âHe never made you wet like this, did he?â he asks, pride dripping out of him like his masculine pheromones, and with his wet fingers he palms himself. âYou donât even have to answer that. I know. I need to taste you, baby.âÂ
You donât even get to fill a lungful of the stuffed, vanilla-scented air and he dives in, keeping your legs glued to your shoulders as he seizes your clit in his mouth, sucking on it briefly before he flattens his tongue all over you. He licks you like a lost man finding an oasis, humming into your heat while he tastes your personal slickness, swallowing everything he sowed. You bang your head on the wall, a numbed pang expanding all throughout your scalp by your claw clip, taking it all, moaning so loudly the whole of Seoul must be hearing you. Even Namjoon in his drunkenness, shameful that he never managed to eat you like this in the eight months you were his to consume.Â
Your orgasm inches to you quickly. With half-lidded eyes, you watch the candlelight create sublime, eccentric images on his back. And as if he couldnât handle the warmth anymore, he peels himself away from you just to take off his shirt, adding it to the pile. He doesnât let you see his muscular bodyâhe plunges back down, tongue outstretched, flicking the muscle on your swollen clit. He pinches your thigh, your mound, your folds, whimpering onto your flesh, hurrying to close his mouth over you to suck your clit.Â
And within that divine suction, you come apart. The beautiful images on his back advance, fluttering on his smooth skin, and you hold him to yourself. The life in you explodes, saturating him in a dimmed, soft-hued, colorful light that he himself must be sensing because he moans, loudly, sinking his index finger inside your clenching hole. You canât speak, you canât breatheâyou can only feel, you can only take. Your orgasm continues on, a ceaseless stream of delight untwisting in every part of your body.Â
And when he begins to fuck you with that finger of his and hits that good spot, your orgasm melts into another one. And this time, you canât take it.Â
You shake so vivaciously that you fall off the edge of the couch, but he catches you. Hoseok unclips your hair and lays you down, propping your hips on the armrest instead and when he bends at the waist and opens his mouth, you scream out your disagreement, pushing him away.Â
He blinks at you, mouth sopping wet. âI wasnât finished.âÂ
Your oxygen is stuck in your throat, one that gets bespeckled with the beads of your dew. âHoseokieââ
He traces it, wiping it off, holding you there. Presses his hard, clothed length against your bare pussy, rocking slowly, casting a private, affection-filled shadow with the arch of his body over yours. Hoseok kisses you once, a nasty kiss perfumed with your tangy scent, and you cry out.Â
âThe fact you canât take the bare minimum personally offends me. He had you all to himself and he didnât do his job well,â he mutters, squeezing your throat once. Drags his wet hand down your sternum, grasping a hold of both of your breasts, clenching them until they flush, again, like him.Â
There it is, the saltiness of his sea. You yearn for the physical principle of it coating your tongueâfor his cum to trickle out of the tip of it like your dew is off of his. And his words, his anger towards his best friend because of youâit heals you in a way you could never heal yourself. Another person seeing you and telling you that you deserve better, it is the most pristine form of remedy there is and you splutter on the whole beauty and compassion of it all, too weak to accept it at once.Â
âThatâs right,â you agree, as enthusiastically as your dopeness allows you, smiling lopsidedly, heart pounding. âGo slow on me.â
He croons, squeezing his eyes. âMy little girl.âÂ
He buries his face in your neck, kissing you there, and along with the life in youâyour heart explodes, too. The finality of your detransformation. Tears of joy ache in the corners of your eyes, the rawness of human fulfillment housing in you for all eternity.Â
He kisses his way down to your breasts. âIâll go slow on you,â he promises, darting out his tongue and flicking it over your nub, making you tremble. He straightens and dances his fingers along your thighsâup to your knees. âDo you want to stop here?âÂ
You shake your head. Place your feet flat on his toned stomach while you feel your dew dribble down your bum. Hoseok smiles, his mouth curving in that way of his that causes your own stomach to drop. He holds your heels, hooking his finger under the band of your socks and yanking them off.Â
And his grin blooms at the sight of your dusty-pink toes, an endeared look thawing his eyes. He rubs them like he did at the beginning of this journey, keeps one at his stomach while he lifts the other one to his mouth.Â
Your poor heart skips a beat.Â
âDo you want me to fuck you like a little girl like you deserves?âÂ
He kisses the ball of your foot, doesnât break the eye contact. Watches your mouth part in absolute astonishment and your cheeks deepen in their hue. And when he kisses it again, slower this time, it wakes you up from your stupefaction, and you lower your free foot down to his clothed cock. Hoseok groans, the sound muffled against your tootsie, shutting his eyes at the impact. Your chest flickers with a sense of pride that you made him react like thatâand you want it again. You trail your toes across that length of his, but before you could reach the most sensitive part of him, he stops you.Â
Sucks in that pained breath of his, red all over.Â
âIf you keep doing that, Iâm gonna come.âÂ
You mirror him, the idea of being capable of doing that to him pleasuring you. You leak onto the couch. Your blood boils.Â
âThatâs so hot.âÂ
He chuckles, anchoring your foot upon his heart, tapping it with your big toe. âItâs because you have my heart.âÂ
Your body ceases all work, as well as time. Even the candlelight pauses its dance, concentrating its caressing radiance on that chain of his.Â
And you donât think as you scurry onto your knees and embrace him, his dog tags no longer icy. He plants his nose into your hair, inhaling you, sealing you into the hug with both of his arms. Your heart reaches its own towards his and they cling to each other, too.Â
And youâre not afraid to reciprocate his feelingsâtheyâre as clear to you as that very luminescence of the vanilla candle.Â
âYou have me,â you whisper into his ear, his body not quivering but stable, safe. âYou have my life. Itâs more of a treasure than my heart.âÂ
He had you the moment he so evidently disapproved of your past relationship. He had you the moment he was curious to see if you were jealous when he was entertaining other women. He had you the moment he purposefully put a distance between you and him because he didnât want you to get hurt by Namjoon.Â
You just didnât know it yet, not until clarity arose in front of you in the form of his honesty.Â
Hoseok kisses your own ear, lingers there. âI want both.âÂ
âThen, have it.â
And he kisses your forehead. âThank you. Iâll take care of it.âÂ
You can see in the ivory mist of his eyes that he means itâand so you tug off his military belt as you begin to pepper kisses down the column of his neck because he deserves it, because he cares for you, because he came to you as soon as he heard that you were single. And when you reach those dog tags, the words of his title imprinting themselves onto the surface of your lips, you clasp his cock in your hand. Too big for your small fist, too warm for you to handleâ
âLay back down.âÂ
You bite into the flesh right above that first steel pendant while keeping your eyes locked on his. âYes, Sergeant.âÂ
Hoseok curses. Wrings a sharp gasp out of you when he pulls on your hair, giving you a nasty kiss full of tongue. âDonât call me that when I need to be gentle with you,â he scolds, sucking on your bottom lip to make it better and you disintegrate. âRight now I would bend you over this couch and fuck you until Sergeant and Sir was all you knew, but I canât do that. Not when youâre not used to me yet.âÂ
Yes, the promise of the seaâyou convulse from head to toe, pining after it.Â
âI want that so bad.âÂ
He nods, marking you on your neck. You whimper and he groans in response. âAnd Iâll give it to you, you just need to be good now. Lay down.âÂ
You comply, but you take him with youâgrabbing him by that chain as you arch your back on the couch. He lets you, grins at you like the utmost sunshine, but that expression of delight breaks when a certain realization dawns upon him.Â
âI didnât bring any condoms.âÂ
You huff out a soft noise. âGood. I want you to come all over me.âÂ
Hoseok hangs his head low, sighing, on all fours above you. His chain swings, drawing the memory of this very night on your breasts. He looks up at you from this position, his eyes thin slits that cause you to clench around nothing.Â
âIâll give you a big load.âÂ
You beam like the purest angel, in spite of the context. âYes, please.âÂ
Hoseok rolls his eyes back, his façade cracking, and he beams just the same, his mouth widening in the shape of a heart that moves through you. He kisses you deeply, a long peck that breaks you down into a putty, and when he withdraws, you can still see that smile plastered on his glowing face.Â
âGood girl. Such good manners.âÂ
And with that praise, he sheathes himself inside you. You both gasp in union, entering a paradise no other human will ever witness in the afterlife. He stretches you out, slowly, careful not to hurt you as he waits it out, petting your hair in the meantime.Â
âI can feel you stretching around me, fuck. Youâre so warm, so tight for me,â he rasps, panting, that smile trembling on his lips as he tries to keep it together. He straightens, pinches your nipple and you feel yourself accommodating him quicker at that sudden electricity of pleasure, at the sight of his toned body and that chain. The shine of sweat, the dance of the candlelight, the width of his shoulders and carmine chest as it heaves in desperate hums and groans. You could come just from thatâand the sensation is so dizzying that your eyes droop. Hoseok notices, grappling the crook between your neck and shoulder. âStay with me, baby, you can take this. Iâm gonna make you feel so good and youâre gonna come on this cock.âÂ
Those hums of his cruise all the way to your mouth as he sinks that encouragement into it, kissing you deeply, pinning your hands back above your head and sliding his fingers into a celestial intertwinement with yours. They throb within you, those words of his, where they disperse all around, helping you believe that you truly can take the whole manliness of him. Your mind spins, the pressure of your shared atmosphere ringing in your ears, and he knows, he knows that youâre ready for him.
âIâm gonna start moving now. Talk to me, baby. Tell me everything youâre feeling as I fuck you,â he murmurs, unsheathing himself a tiny bit before he curls his hips forward and upwards, creating a languid, spine-tingling rhythm that replicates the waves of his sea. They slosh to and fro with every slow stroke and he kisses your good spot with the tip of his cock. Your eyes flutter open and close, rolling like those waves, but you can still see the way his jaw is clenched, his gums on full show as he seethes in his self-control, the flush of his neck and the flexing of his abdomen that you canât help but to touch in your otherworldly daze. He stares down at you, intensely, narrows his eyelids and furrows his brows when he feels your touch, and you discover that the spot, where his V-lines lead to your antidote, is one of uttermost sensitivity.Â
He moans, burying himself deep in you, and stopping there. Mound to mound, soul to soul.
âFuck, baby, you just know where all my spots are, donât you?â he asks, his voice so terribly strained, torso doubled over, and you grin.Â
âI think I was born already knowing them,â you flirt and Hoseok pounds into you for itâa singular thrust that scrambles all your brain cells. Your smile falls, your brows crunch, your throat utters such whiny noise that he himself grunts at the sound of it, and when you lift yourself onto your elbows to see his length driving in and out of you, he pushes you right down by your throat, kissing you hard enough that it hurts.
And he alleviates the lip lock by licking over your tongue, toying with itâall while he, little by little, picks up the rhythm, fucking into you with a force that coaxes your rawest moans out of you.Â
âYou canât handle my tongue and I canât handle it when you flirt with me,â he scoffs, smacking his mouth as he turns his head, claiming your mouth, claiming you. âGod, I wanna destroy you so bad.âÂ
Your cry is cut out by another savage thrust and you claw at that sensitive spot of his, inciting him to do it again and again. âIâm yours to destroy.âÂ
He pauses, the crown of his cock teasing the beginning of your heat. Sweat drips down his temple and he runs a hand through his hair, messing it up in a way that makes your heart twitch in absolute sensuality and relish.Â
âSay that again.âÂ
Your breath hitches. âIâm yours to destroy.âÂ
Hoseok curses, driving into you all the way. You whine out, clenching your fists, feeling every ridge and every vein of his cock glide forwards and backwards along your walls. And by tensing your body and focusing on the delight heâs gracing your body with, the build-up of your orgasm announces its presence.
âFuck, Hobi, you feel so good,â you cry, gripping his forearms as he begins to hold your waist steady. He jackhammers into you so viciously that your vision scatters with a creamy hue of ivory, moaning in ragged staccatos that influence you so much that you naturally imitate them, fading into him, becoming one.Â
âWhose are you?â he growls without interfering with the gracefulness of his sadism, moving back only an inch before slamming back into you, bruising your cervixâand you lose all brain cells, the synapses blanking out.Â
But only one thing is clear.Â
âIâm yours.âÂ
And the following snap of his hips drives you out of this world and out of this universe. The gravity keeps your muscles tense, confining your pleasure and the closeness of your orgasm within. The ringing grows in volume and youâre on the cusp.Â
Hoseok is, too, because he begins to beg.Â
âPlease, please, baby. Come for me. Iâm so fucking close for you. Please, Iâm gonna come all over you.âÂ
And with a scream that vibrates through the walls of your living room, you comply. Your core grips him, your skin prickles and you levitateâyour back arches off the couch, aching to be closer to him, and Hoseok whines.Â
Pulls out, straddles you, and fist-fucks his shaft with frantic, frenzied motions. Covers you with ropes and ropes of his cum that ripple on your stomach, your sternum and your breasts as you drift in and out of consciousness. Warm, warm essence of his masculinity that is warmer than the rest of him.Â
Blood-hot.Â
And you feel as though you deserved every drop.Â
Deserved to see the beauty of his orgasm. The flush of his lower regions, especially. The sight you longed to see.Â
Hoseok lets go of his manhood, his hand shiny and wet, though heâs still hard, reaching the beginning of your parting lungs with how big he is. Bigger than Namjoon, bigger than anyone you ever dated. Their names wither in your mind, decomposing. And they lose all meaning.Â
They cease to exist.Â
Youâre not his best friendâs ex. Youâre not anyoneâs exâ
âLook at how little you are,â Hoseok comments, interrupting the surge of your maddened thoughts. He smears the puddle of cum on your stomach that his cock can reach and your pussy flutters in constant motions that ask for him again. âSo little under me and all mine, arenât you?âÂ
His avowal brings a fresh dose of oxygen into your lungs and you breathe it in. Want to breathe it in for the rest of your life with him.Â
But Hoseok doesnât stop there. Once you agree with him by the nod of your head and a dopey, gratified grin that casts an affirming light on him, he bends over you, his fists on either side of your head.Â
âIâll show you what true possessiveness looks like. The world will burn if it hurts you and if people say one bad word to you, it will be the last one they ever said. But they will talk to you and you will talk to them. You will learn about this life of yours. What it holds, what it looks like. And Iâll be standing beside you and Iâll watch over you. Learn it, live it with you.âÂ
He rubs your forehead with his thumb in a fond gesture. Looks at you with a mute meaning that touches your heart and crawls inside before he kisses you, relaxes his lips against yours, and kisses you again.Â
Again and again.Â
Again in the shower. Again in your bed when youâre riding him, tasting the life he let out of you, because you blazed up with desire after you washed his body. And the sex is quiet, smothered with those kisses until your mouth and his is numb.Â
And again throughout the years you acknowledge yourself with that life and realize that you understand it more profoundly and clearly in the process of getting to know Hoseok than this world.Â
Hoseok is that life.Â
And you kiss him and whisper those words onto his mouth when you marry him at the altar, years and years later, connecting your life and his forever.Â
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Picture Perfect
just want to apologize for not posting in a while, I was recovering from an illness .
toji f. & shiu k. x f!reader
we all want to be stuffed by these two, right?
summary : your two hot older neighbors agree to stuff you on camera, a viral sensation.
warnings and tags : rough fucking, age gap (readers in her early twenties, the other two late thirties), blow jobs, multiple orgasms, spit play, smoking, porn (making it duh), some anal, nipple play, boob jobs, degradation, etcâŚ
âhello everyone,â you spoke to your webcam, waving at your viewers that were currently tuned in with your livestream. you grabbed a claw clip that was on your desk, putting your hair up before continuing.
âtodayâs stream is going to be very interesting. remember those two neighbors i was telling you guys about? how i was fantasizing about them fucking me? well, todayâs the day!â you said with a giggle, teasing yourself through you ruby red laced bra.
you had been a camstar for a year now and your page was doing really good. at first you were really nervous about showing your face and body to a bunch of random people, but when you got the hang of it; it became natural and unnerving. you only showed from your lips, downward and would blur out the rest of your face and any guests you would be having on the stream. you were making bank, this was a good source of extra income.
you grew really popular, starting off with just some solo play before collaborating with other cam stars, who you became really close withâto now, about to fuck your hot neighbors. they were all for it when you asked them a few days ago, as they have been wanting to fuck the shit out of you for the longest.
the two of them were tired of getting stiff boners watching you walk through the apartment complex, bending over to pick up packages or simply jogging around in your small little outfits; while they shared their daily cigarette. and just like they watched you, you watched them. toji, the one with those hypnotizing green eyes, lived right next door to you; and you could hear everything that went on in his placeâand you knew what how good he was.
as for shiu, he lived across the hall from the both of you and would always be at his best friend tojiâs house. you werenât strangers, but after today you would be more than acquaintances.
âwhen are you gonna stop talking to that camera and come over here, so we could fuck that pretty little mouth of yours?â tojiâs deepâpanty wetting voice alerted you and your plump lips contorted into a smile. âmmm, canât keep them waiting. enjoy the show~â you reached behind and unclasped your bra, showing off your plump breastsâbefore getting up from your plush seat.
sashaying over to your bed, where the two halfânaked men awaited, you kicked off your heels and joined them on your king sized bed; pulling toji into a kiss while you reached over and palmed shiu through his briefs. the kiss immediately became hot and sloppy as he pushed his tongue into your mouth, dominating you with ease. freeing shiu from his underwear, you stroked himâhis precum sticking to your hand as you moved.
he grunted as he watched you give him the best hand job he had ever received. your manicured hand was soft and your grip around his thick eight inches had him bucking his hips up; wanting more. breaking away from your kiss with toji, you used your one free hand to pull off your soaked panties, tossing it aside; before squatting down on tojiâs clothed bulge.
ânot wasting any time, are we? guess we really gotta fuck you good nowâ toji chuckled, grabbing you by your plush thighs and hoisting you onto his face; planting your wet cunt onto his scarred lipsâwhich made you lose your grip on shiuâs cock. a loud moan left your tongue, as toji swirled his on your throbbing clitâsucking and slurping on the swollen bud; your eyes closing shut from the pleasure. but, you had completely forgotten about shiu. that is until you felt his fat tip being smacked onto your plump lips.
his precum became smeared on your lips as he rubbed himself on your mouth, before pushing his way inside of your warmâwet mouth. âshit..â he breathed out while you didnât hesitate to slobber all over his girth, your moans vibrating against him while toji continued to pleasure you with his tongue.
you started off with using one hand to grip shiuâs cock while you frenched it, tongue swirling around his tip and underneath his cockâcausing a low moan to leave his mouth. the way your mouth felt was so euphoric for him. the way your cheeks puffed up and suctioned as you took him, the way your sex filled eyes were brimming with tears and the way spit pooled out the corners of your mouth; had driven him to insanity.
your eyes widened even more when you felt shiuâs big hands grip the sides of your head and push you further onto his cock, making his tip hit the back of your mouth; stuffing you completely. he didnât let you get used to his roughness, he slammed his hips into your chin; fucking your mouth to his liking.
âyeah, take it like a good little slutâfuck, no hands.â your hands fell to your sides while he proceeded to make a mess out of your mouth. he was so rough, it made your head spin. the more he pumped his fat dick inside, the more your desire increased and everything about his cock turned you on. the smell, the taste and the shape made you hornier; and your throat slowly relaxedâallowing him to push himself deeper inside.
your face was so fucked out and sloppy, coated with slobber as he continued to make your mouth his personal fuck toy. some might find this to be dirty, but he found it arousingâso arousing that he was going to cum real soon, and you knew it too. your clit was pulsating uncontrollably in tojiâs mouth. your sweet juices flowing out and into his mouth while he happily lapped them up, dipping his tongue in and out of your hole; building up your orgasm as well.
you couldnât help but moan and grind your hips on his face, adding some more stimulation to your clit. âshit, y/nâgâna cum in that pretty little mouth,â and a few seconds later he did. he painted the inside of your mouth white, the taste and the warmth only made you want to swallow it and hopefully milk him for more. you wanted to keep sucking, but he pulled out of you with a pop. finally able to breathe right, you gasped and let out a loud moan, as toji sucked on your clit hard; causing you to cum right on his mouth.
âoh f-fuck!~â toji gripped the fat of your ass while you grinded against him, cumming hard all over his face. licking every last bit of your cum, toji pulled you off of his face and pressed his lips onto yoursâthe mixture of your cum and shiuâs swirled around in your mouthsâbefore the two of you separated, breathless.
shiu immediately grabbed you by your hips and placed you near the edge of the bed where he was standing at, pushing you into the doggystyle position. the sight of your ass was beyond sexy and he couldnât help but dive his face in between your cheeks, his tongue and the hairs of his mustache tickled you, but it still felt so good. mewls spilled out of your mouth as shiu licked from your ass all the way down to your clit, sending you into a frenzy.
you never been pleased like this before and having your ass ate was such a new, thrilling experience and you craved more. you rocked your hips back onto his face, the fat of your ass smothering him which he loved. it was no doubt that shiu was an ass man.
while shiu pleased you from the back, toji decided to see how good your head game was. âhow good is it?â toji asked his best friend, when he finally came up from air, alluding to your mouth. âway too damn good, toj. and fuck her mouth hard, she loves that.â hearing his best friendâs approval, the raven haired male pushed his fatâleaking tip into your mouth, groaning at the feeling.
his dick was so much fatter than shiuâs, your cheeks were spread past its normal size due to his thickness. he tasted so good too, you swirled your tongue and bobbed your head, sucking him like it was an ice pop on a hot sunny day. âtoo fucking goodâŚ.shit, this bitch is gâna make me cum already,â toji grunted, pulling himself out of your mouth, so he wouldnât cum too early before he could fuck your mouth like he wanted.
âtold you,â shiu spoke before he stood up from his spot and grabbed his head, pushing it into your slick coated entrance. you couldnât help but gasp as he stretched you out, which resulted in choking on tojiâs cock. âdick too big mama, hm?âitâs alright, you can take it,â toji coached, one of his hands resting on your throat while he restarted to make a mess out of your mouth.
you were in pure bliss while the two men filled both sides of you. your cunt was drenched with your juices and your mouth ached in a way that you found pleasure in. these men were going to break you and you were loving every bit of it.
the pornographic sounds of shiuâs balls smacking your wet cunt, along with the slurping sounds you were making; filled the room the more the two men pounded both of your ends. your live stream was going crazy. it was dinging each time someone joined and subscribed; they were enjoying seeing you get dominated by two older men, and you were as well.
and thatâs when you smelled the pungent smell of nicotine. you looked up at toji and saw a cigarette in his mouth, before he took a pull from it and reached over to hand it to shiu. the two of them were smoking while they ravaged you, and you couldnât help but get turned on from it. âoh? did this just turn you on? seeing us smoke, while we fucked you?â shiu sent a smack to your ass, causing you to moan which vibrated around tojiâs eight inches.
âyou like that mama? here~â toji removed his cock from your mouth and blew some smoke in it, before a wad of his spit followed along with it. you swallowed it and moaned, sticking out your tongue for more; which made the male chuckle. âso fucking nasty,â he let out another drop into your mouth and shoved his cock right back in, his tip hitting the back of your mouth repeatedly.
shiu could feel how much your walls were clenching around him crazily and knew you were close, âcum for daddy baby, let daddy see how much this pretty pussy cums.â and it didnât take much for you to let go afterwards. a few more hard strokes with his tip hitting your spot, you creamed around his dickâeyes rolling back in your head as you did. âshitâlook so damn sexy when you cumâŚ.gâna cum too~â toji breathed out before he emptied his balls into your mouth, with you swallowing his load immediately after.
a trail of spit mixed with his cum followed once he pulled out and you let out a series of moans when you felt shiuâs cock repeatedly slam into your cuntâstill sensitive from cumming. a warm filling sensation followed shortly, making your womb feel full with his cum before he pulled out as well.
you laid there breathless, stuffed with cum and a sore aching mouth; until you were flipped over onto your backâbeing met with tojiâs green eyes once more. âmy turn~,â he said with a smirk plastered onto his face, before he aligned his tip with your entrance and pushed himself in.
you couldnât believe it. you were about to have your third orgasm for the night and you were completely fucked out and cock drunk. your cunt gushed as toji pounded into you, his cock stretching you and hitting your g-spot with each stroke. your hair was sweated out and all over the place, but you didnât careâit was just another sign you were being fucked good.
shiu on the hand was playing with your tits. showing your hard sensitive buds some attention, leaning down to lick on them; while his cock brushed onto one of them. the stimulation sent jolts of electricity to your clit and you loved the feeling from it. âagainâŚmmm do it againâ
âwhereâs your manners, princess?â toji asked, spanking your clit; earning a whimper from you. âpleaseâŚ.do itââŚ.again, daddy~.â you locked eyes with shiu and he smirked, before he rubbed his cock against your nipples some more. âgood girlâ
you were overstimulated to say the least and you could feel your orgasm coming, the two of them were close behind as well. âthink she can squirt?â toji asked his best friend, keeping his finger in your clit while he pounded you. shiu looked at your fucked out face and smirked, âdefinitely.â and he didnât waste no time in trying to get you to squirt. he thumb swirled on your clit, while his strokes became harder; your orgasm coming at you hard.
âim cummingâim cumming!â you repeated, eyes rolling back into your head as you did and just like shiu said, a stream of clear liquid left your cuntâdrenching toji and the sheets beneath you.
âfuck, that was hot. gâna cum tooâ shiu began stroking his cock, keeping his left hand on one of your breastsâbefore he painted them with a thick coat of white. and soon, toji was right behind the both of you. after a few more sloppy, hard strokes, your womb was filled once againâtummy full with both of their seeds.
you laid there dazed and out of breath, while shiu stroked your hair and lit up another cigarette. toji sat on the bed and began to massage your sensitive legs, so they wouldnât be too sore the next day.
âgood job mama. maybe next time we could do this againâ
and you would definitely take him up on his offer, fucking them on and off camera again.
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. âş . ⌠the doghouse â ken sato x reader
Š mitskicain all rights reserved. the modification, translation, and plagiarism of my work is strictly prohibited.
synopsis: any guy could let a girl fuck him, but it takes a real man to be somebodyâs bitch
content warning: graphic details of sex, p in v, unprotected sex, possible spit play, slight breeding kink, cowgirl, teasing, denial, marking, use of collar and leash, elements of BDSM
word count: 1.5k
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004: collared and leashed
Kenâwhimpering, gasping, moaning under your graspâflushed and hot all over. God, what a sight.
âThatâs good, youâre so good for me,â you coo in his ear, eyeing the reflection of the both of you.
You were positioned behind him, arms stretched around him, stroking the base of his cockâagonizingly slow. You kept your grip light, barely allowing for any sort of hard friction between him and the skin of your palms, which kept him just about on the edge, but not being able to push himself through it.
Heâs been on the edge for 45 minutes.
âYouâre torturing me,â he says in between pants, trying to compose himselfâstill trying to compose yourself. You found his efforts adorable, trying to remain modest and shy despite him being completely undressed in front of your fully clothed self. He clung desperately to whatever little control he had, and you intended to strip himself of every single bit of it. It didnât matter that he was likely some billionaire rich kid, successful athlete superstar whateverâtonight he was yours to do with as you pleased. He swore on it, begging for you to take him when he was kissing all up on our neck, the two of you writhing on the floor.
Now look at him: pathetic, begging; not even to cum. Just for you to tighten your grip, to go faster, anything to drag him out of the limbo you had kept him in for nearly an hour. Because you can edge and tease someone only for so long before the pleasure mixes in frustration, mixes into painâthe dull ache that reverberated throughout him, aching for release.
âPlease,â he whines, âplease, god.â
He tries, without fruition, to buck his hips up into your grip. You counter this by quickly wrapping your legs around his waist, forcefully parting his legs and keeping him from being able to thrust up. He whines again, frustration buildingâtrying, again, but find it useless as youâre holding him down.
You smirk, entertained by his distress, and lick the side of his face. In this position, with his entire back pressed up against you, you could feel every breath he took, every twitch, every shiver. You relished in the feeling, being able to understand the complex mechanism of his body. Really, you wanted to be the best fuck of his life. You wanted to be unforgettable, burn yourself into his memoryâbecause he had the audacity of reinserting himself into your life again, couldn't stand just being a one-night-stand, thought himself above it. So now you were going to fuck him, break himâsuch that he would never even dream of reaching this height of pleasure with anyone else but you. You felt a growing sense of possession, an ugly jealousy that began to bubble in the bit of your stomach. You retaliated silently by biting into the skin of his flesh.
Ken jolts at the feelingâa sudden, sharp pain that caused him to wince and once again buck up into your grasp. You let out a deep, throaty laugh into his skin, sending vibrations down his spine, feeling the goosebumps that rose on the back of his neck. He exhales in relief when you release your mouth off him, a few breathy moans escaping his lips as you lick at the tender flesh.
âYou,â he mumbles, âyou bit me.â
You chuckle.
âI did,â you say, leaning forward to look at his flustered expression, âyou like it?â
He turns away, covering his face with his hands, and you laugh. He was adorable. That made you want to ruin him even more.
âHey,â you beckon, turning his head to look at you, hand on his jaw. âDonât hide from me, come here.â
You press your lips onto hisâthe first time youâve done thisâand regret for having held out on him for so long. He tasted like heaven. Like every single indulgence youâve ever denied yourself. You hum into the kiss, sucking on his bottom lip, your tongue swiping against the entrance of his mouth before pulling awayâa string of saliva connecting the two of you. You smile at his expression: eyes half lidded and glazed over with desire. How could you possibly not let him have what he wanted?
He lunges forward, capturing you in another kiss, this time all teeth and tongue. Hungry. Feral, even. Heâs climbing on top of you, cock bobbing, precum beading on the tip. Your hands find them in his hair again, pulling his head backâanother trail of spit.
âStop,â you command, and you can almost hear him whine; see the frown that curls at the edges of his lips. You slip out from underneath him, his expression confused. He tries to stop you but just tumbles off the couch, crawling on the floor to reach for your ankle as you walk away from him.
âNo! Please, Iâm sorry,â he cries out, his cheek against the skin of your calves. âIâm sorry, donât go, please. Iâll behave. I promise.â
You hum at the sight, enjoying the way he beggedâwrithed for you, the desperate look in his eyesâlike heâd combust if you took your gaze off him. You promptly grabbed one of the new collars you had bought after Lassie chewed out her last oneâblack and sleekâand clipped it around his neck, much to his bewilderment at the accessory. You held the leash in your hand, waiting to see if heâd protest, and when he didnât, you dragged him off to the bedroom with you, him trailing closely behind. You didnât even ask him to crawl, he couldâve walked if he wanted, but he stayed on the floor, in fear that acting remotely human would provoke you even further.
His mouth was heaven. J as good for kissing as it was for burying into your cunt. As you laid there, thighs on his shoulders, spread for him as he licked you up with such fervor, an urgency, like he was trying to catch every drop of you before you melted away. You grind your hips against him, the crook of his nose practically perfect. Built for you, youâd say. When you tugged on the leash, pulling him towards you to kiss him againâyou saw how the entire lower half of his face was practically soaked with your slickness. You could taste yourself on his lips when you pushed him back on the bed, climbing on top of him again.
He winced when you pushed him inside of you, completely bottoming out in the first thrust. When you lift your hips up, tightening your core so thereâs a bit of resistance, and you hear him suck in another breath. You feel his hands grab roughly at your thighs, white knuckled and all, as he makes that pained expression again.
âWhatâs wrong, baby? You can tell me,â you whisper sweetly, watching him closely. âToo much?â
He nods his head, eyebrows furrowed and jaw clenched, trying to keep himself from moaning.
âAw,â you coo, âtoo bad.â
You slam down into him, feeling the tip of him kiss your cervix. He gasps, and as you begin to rock your hips, riding him at a feverishly quick pace, he canât control himself. Heâs a flushed, writhing mess underneath youâholding on for dear life, whimpering to himself, whining. For a moment, you think youâre going too hard, so you slow your pace, but you find his hands on your waist and him buck up into you, chasing after his own pleasure. You could feel the way his slick covered cock thrusted in and out of you, lewd wet sounds and all, hitting your g-spot repeatedly. You throw your head back, drowning in ecstasy. God, how could you ever go back to other people after this?
When you sink your teeth into his neck again, you have devious intentions. One, yes, to hear his oh-so delicious moans, but two, because you wanted to mark him. You wanted to leave him a reminder of you when he looks at himself in the mirror tomorrow, something for the paparazzi and tabloids to pick up on during his games or interviewsâa sign of your existence on his body, a memory of tonight, what you did to him, that he was yours.
âYou feel so good baby,â you say, on the edge, âso good.â
Kenji just whines underneath you, bucking up into you faster. Your climax hits you like a home run, pulsing and fluttering around him, making a mess of his lap and your sheets. He follows closely after, hips stuttering as he spills into you, still thrusting, riding out his orgasm. Almost immediately, you feel his lips trail up the entirety of your arm, your neck, before finally crashing onto your lips. He kisses you like heâs grateful, all gentle and loving, and for a moment, you melt into his touch, arms locking around him. But being the good boy he was, he couldn't just leave you beâhis cum and your arousal dripping out of your pussy. So he flips you over and laps at you again, cleaning you up, drawing another orgasm out of you, or two, or threeâyou wouldnât know, youâve lost count.
All you know is that Kenjiâs the best fuck of your life. That nothing could ever possibly beat this. He traces letters on your clit, spelling out T-H-A-N-K-Y-O-U-T-H-A-N-K-Y-O-U.
He was spectacularâthe greatestâand he deserved it. Every last bit of it.
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WE CANâT BE FRIENDS
Oscar Piastri x Reader
Authorâs Note: thereâs a lot going on in this fic and I shouldâve probs split it into two so I could do the storyline justice, but Iâm nothing if not slightly lazy so that never wouldâve worked. If you notice any mistakes please do let me know! Rn itâs 2 am and my visions blurred so Iâm gunna post and hope for the best
Iâm actually gunna recommend songs for this fic!!tbh just listen to Willowâs entire discography (apart from that one song with MGK) and if you want to give unholy a listen it is by Hey Violet (though I donât know if I like the song or not, but it says what I needed the fic to say) and of course All I Wanted Was You is paramore! I hope you enjoy
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youruser: thank yâall for the love on unholy, the last slide is how I feel now that Iâve been let out the house!! Hot gal y/n is back!
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user1: OH WE ARE SO BACK!
user4: IS RHIS CONFIRMATION ?? IS THIS CONFIRMATION?? IS THIS BREAK UP CONFIRMATION
â youruser: girl, if the song wasnât confirmation enough idk what is
sza: welcome back y/n the streets have been waiting for your return
â youruser: tell the streets Iâll get back to them, I have other plans
â oscarpiastri: đ đ
â youruser: gtfo
â landonorris: trouble in paradise?
user32: whoâs the song about???
â landonorris: yeah y/n whoâs the song about??? đ¤¨đ¤¨
â youruser: I will block you norizz
â landonorris: oh shiver me timbers
oscarpiastri: amazing song y/n! So proud to call you my best friend
â user22: bro đ đ
â user32: either brother doesnât like her at all or he just has no rizz
â user44: god the friendzone must hurt extra hard after she just released that song about you.
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youruser: thank you all so much for all the love over the last month! Iâm so glad you not only watched Queen Charlotte but that you loved it! As you all probably know I havenât released much art in the last three years, but I never stopped making and art is forever. Iâm now just so glad I can now share it with all of you. My new album empathogen is out now on all streaming platforms. Some familiar tracks on there, some not so familiar. Hope you guys enjoy!
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lewishamilton: đđżđđż
â youruser: đ¤đ¤
user10: canât believe unholy isnât on the album???
â user11: I mean I kinda can⌠all the other songs have much deeper meanings and the sounds are so much more complexâŚ
â user13: thatâs what I was thinking, unholy is giving forever 21 changing room, whilst the album is like, masterpiece level shit
âuser17: thank god Iâve been arguing with people on twtr all morning about this,
â user32: itâs never that deepâŚ
oscarpiastri: Iâm in awe of what your mind can create đ§Ą
â youruser: couldnât do it without my forever muse
â user21: đ¤¨đ¤¨đ¤¨đ¤¨
â user32: yâall are we seeing this??
â user45: WHAT IS HAPPENING IN THE HOUSE OF COMMONS????
â user67: lord help me Iâm about to read too much into an interaction on the internet. But him adding a heart. Her not adding a heart. Iâm drawing conclusions
â user76: please stop drawing conclusions đ
jonbatiste: so much talent for someone so young, keep flourishing y/n
â youruser: thank you Jon for all your help đ¤
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youruser: I bagged myself an f1 driver yâall! I hear theyâre in high demand good thing I got you, was scared Iâd have to settle for Lando Norris.
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oscarpiastri: this is not the caption we agreed onâŚ
â youruser: oopsie daisy⌠Iâm just a girl?
â oscarpiastri: MY girl
â youruser: đ¤¤đ¤¤ say it again
landonorris: now why am I in this??
â youruser: you saying you wouldnât like to date me?? đ¤¨đđđâšď¸
â landonorris: What no Iâm sure youâd be a joy to date
â oscarpiastri: hey watch yourself Lando thatâs my girlfriend
â landonorris: I mean of course I would never date her
â youruser: âšď¸âšď¸
â oscarpiastri: so youâre saying thereâs something wrong with my girl Norris? Why wouldnât you like to date her
â landonorris: Iâm so confused
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oscarpiastri: making up for lost time, at least we have til the end of it
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user32: oh⌠his caption just called me single in 45 different languages
â user21: the difference between his and y/nâs captions is what had me cackling
youruser: canât wait to spend eternity with you,
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COULD YOU MAKE IT ANY MORE OBVIOUS?
⸠pairing: rockstar!percy jackson x ballerina! reader
⸠synopsis: you and percy jackson are absolutely, totally, by no means dating ⌠as far as the public knows
⸠warnings: none!
⸠notes: THIS WAS THE CUTEST IDEA EVER, I LOVE IT SM!!! iâm down to do more parts if anyone wants⌠đ requested! also, pls understand the reference in the title đ
exhausting was the only word for it, your life. and as of lately, there was so much going on that you could barely see straight.
your ballet company had always had long hours, but now that the performance that you were not only in, but the star of, was quickly approaching, it was chaos in sparkles and pointe shoes.
wake up, rehearse, workout, rehearse, meetings, rehearse, costume fittings, rehearse, sleep, repeat.
you had just finished up with your final rehearsal for the night when your manager called you into an impromptu meeting and shoved a screen in your face.
eyes blurry from lack of sleep, it had taken a moment for you to see the image clearly, but when you did, your heart dropped all the way down to your sore feet.
a screenshot from a news article in some random pop culture tabloid with your name plastered across the caption along with another you knew: percy jackson.
international rockstar and lead singer of the sensational boy band, greek symphony, percy jackson was all the talk in gossip magazines and blogs, a modern-day heartthrobs for girls to go crazy over.
he was a troublemaker at best, holding the worst record yet best reputation among his band mates. he was dangerous, mischievous, and so undeniably hot. and therefore, so totally off limits.
in the world of shoebiz, the two of you fell on opposite sides of the spectrum. you were a peaceful black swan, whereas he was the thunderous wave that disturbed your peaceful gliding across the waterâs surface, sending your world into a frenzy by a mere touch.
but as off limits and unlikely of an idea as he was, he also happened to be confined to the same home city as you in new york. could they really blame you if you said things just ⌠happened?
âwhat is this?â you asked, looking dead at a photo that you knew was definitely you.
apparently, you and your clandestine lover hadnât been as careful as you usually were and a photo had been captured by a rouge paparazzi.
luckily, it was dark and showed none of your face and about half of his side profile, and therefore, easy to play off as a mistake.
âaccording to the article, itâs you scurrying about with the rockstar percy jackson,â your manager told you, a sour look on her face.
âpercy jackson? are you kidding me?â you gasped, lips twisted in a disgusted frown. âiâve never even met that guy, much less been scurrying around the city with him!â
two lies in one sentence, you were on a roll.
âwell, according to just about every celebrity news outlet right now, youâre his latest victim,â said the head of your pr team, piper. âand this picture is their proof.â
âthatâs not me!â you argued. it was you.
you could pinpoint exactly when and where that photo was taken, actually. it had been last week, when you and percy had to sneak out the back of his apartment to avoid his bandmate, leo valdez, seeing you all piled up in percyâs arms while watching pride and prejudice.
apparently, paparazzis liked lurking around the backend of apartment complexes.
âyn.â said piper, giving you a pointed look. âare you sure?â
âi think i know what i look like, pipes,â you scoffed. âhe may be running around with some girl, but itâs not me. please, make sure everybody knows that.â
at your words, your team got started on damage control, while you snatched up your things and headed home to your apartment, right where the very boy youâd just convinced everyone that you had never met was waiting for you.
you dropped your dance bag to the floor the second the door to your home closed, exhaling a deep breath as the anxieties and physical abuse of the day hit you all at once.
as you leaned against the closed door and blew a tuft of hair from your eyes, the familiar face of your boyfriend rounded the corner.
âthere she is!â he grinned, wielding a spatula as he threw his arms out dramatically. âdinnerâs almost ready. howâs my favorite girl?â
âexhausted,â you sighed with a smile. âsorry for being so late, something came up.â
âah, donât worry about it,â he told you. âi put the spare key back, by the way.â
you already knew that, of course. he put it back where it belonged every time he used it, but never failed to let you know.
six months youâd been doing thisâ sneaking around behind the backs of your friends and the media, falling further in love with someone you werenât even supposed to be acquainted with inside the private four walls of each of your apartments and secret meeting spots.
you followed him into your little quaint kitchen, where he went to flipping a final pancake on the stovetop.
âlooks good, honey,â you smiled tiredly. âbutââ
âoh no, no buts,â he whined.
âbut,â you insisted. âwe have an issue. someone snagged a picture of us last week and today it was published. my teamâs already working on getting it down, but itâs done some damage.â
you pulled out your phone and showed him a picture of the article as he turned the heat off on the stove. he took a moment to squint and it and evaluate before saying,
âokay, thatâs not as bad as i expected. jase called about an hour ago and told me all about it, but he said he denied that it was me to mr. d.â
thank the heavens above for jason grace (the bassist in percyâs band and member who had a better head on his shoulders than the other three of them combined).
âi dunno perce, itâs a pretty good shot of you,â you told him.
âi think all shots of me are pretty good ones, if i do say so myself.â he smirked, closing the already small gap between the two of you as he leaned a hand against the counter on either side of you, trapping you in.
âi bet you do, rockstar,â you replied, looking up at him through tired lids and half-smudged mascara. âI remember it being a pretty good view, personally. except for leo screaming his head off inside.â
percy chuckled, his breath fanning across your cheek. âthe price we pay for privacy.â
âapparently not private enough,â you sighed, the headline of the article seared into your mind. gosh, you could already see yourself getting dragged on twitter. âoh, whatâre we gonna do if people do find us out?â
percy could see the creases between your brows and the doubt swimming through your irises, a light, almost unnoticeable path of lilac underneath your eyes. you were worried and tired, and he couldnât be having any of that.
âi donât think itâd be so bad,â he shrugged, his hands closing in to rest on your hips. âi mean, i know both our bosses would be out for blood, but itâd be worth it for people to know i have you.â
âyou want people to know you have me?â you asked, a small, trace of a smile creeping up on the corners of your lips.
âdo i want people to know i have a beautiful, smart, sweetheart ballerina for a girlfriend? hell yeah, i do.â he answered. âeventually, yâknow.â
your smile appeared now, reaching up to your eyes and hiding away the tiredness in them. percy loved that smile.
âhow soon do you think eventually is?â you asked, draping your arms over his shoulders as his face leaned closer to yours.
âas soon as you want it to be, pretty girl,â he answered. he then leaned all the way in, capturing your lips in a sweet kiss that melted away all the tension in your muscles as he pulled you in close.
when he leaned away, you chased his lips and landed another peck to the corner of his mouth and then another to his nose, just for good measure.
ânow,â he smiled. âletâs forget about the stupid public for a little while and eat, yeah?â
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Falling in Love on the Fourth Floor
Azriel x reader
Summary: you move in with a guy you kind of know who happens to have a really hot brother.
Authorâs Note: this is part 1 baby!! Likely 5-6 parts, that is currently what I have planned for this. This part is shorter to set things up for later okay love you đ
(Part 2)
âMor I donât know about living with your long term hook up.â
She rolls her eyes, her blonde hair blowing in the wind over facetime. âHeâs great - heâs super sweet, super funny, and heâs really hot. Besides, youâve already signed the lease. Itâs too late to back out now.â
You sit in the u-haul you rented, filled to the brim with your belongings, waiting for the leasing office to open so you can grab your keys. You had just pulled up, deciding to call Mor while you wait the ten minutes for them to arrive.
âI donât know, Mor. What if this was a mistake?â
You chew your lip while thinking about all the ways this could go poorly. She smiles, her face taking up the screen of your phone. âSweetie, itâs going to be fine. Iâve known him for a long time. Heâs friends with my cousin. Worst case scenario you move out at the end of the year into a new apartment.â
She was right, of course. At worst it would be a year. Youâve met Cassian a few times, Mor bringing him to a couple parties and casual get togethers. You were always awed by his warm presence and ease around anybody, qualities that are great when youâre moving in with someone you hardly know.
You nod your head agreeing, but spot someone walking towards the leasing office. âHey I gotta go Mor - leasing office person is here. Iâll call you tonight?â
She shakes her head, âI canât tonight - stupid dinner with stupid family. Iâll have pizzas sent to your place, howâs that?â
You smile, her absence one out of familial obligation. She hated her parents, but they also funded her degree so you couldnât be upset at the one-off events she had to attend to appease them. You also know she tried to get out of the event tonight, but ultimately youâre glad that thereâs a now zero chance your new roommate and your best friend will have sex while youâre moving in.
You pick up the keys, sign last minute paperwork, and hop into the elevator to ride up to the fourth floor. You keep reciting the apartment number to yourself, having double checked with the office and with Mor. You find it, situated at the end of the hall with one other apartment next to it.
You run through how this could go in your head - you could unlock the door and have Cassian be pissed off because he wasnât sure when youâd be arriving. You could wait for him to come out and act like you were just walking up at the same time. Or you could knock on the door, which you find yourself doing.
The door swings in a moment after your knock and you find Cassian looking at you, a confused expression on his face. Despite the early hour, Cassian doesnât look like he just woke up. In fact, his hair is tied up in a half bun, heâs dressed in a shirt with the sleeves ripped off (allowing his tattooed biceps to be on full display) and some sweatpants, and you can smell bacon and eggs wafting through the door.
âWhyâd you knock - did they forget to give you a key?â
Your cheeks heat with embarrassment, this whole situation leaving you uncertain of what to do at each turn. You look up at him as he stands in the doorframe waiting for your answer. Cassianâs a big guy, easily clearing a foot and several hundred pounds of muscles on you.
âUh- no they did, I just didnât want to disturb you.â
He looks at you and youâre certain he can feel the nerves radiating off of you. He chuckles and tells you, ânot much disturbs me.â
He opens the door more, allowing you to come in. You hadnât toured the place before signing a lease, your desperation leading you here without many other options. Living in a college town had itâs benefits, however finding a new place to live in July was not one of them. Not a single complex had a room for you. It was either stay with Cassian or crash on Feyreâs couch in her studio apartment.
The place is decently nice - to your left you see the living room with two couches that face quite possibly one of the largest televisions youâve ever seen. You peer to your right, the kitchen a little bare but clean. You spy the pan and plate that Cassian had clearly just used to eat his breakfast.
âI can give you a tour,â he tells you, âitâs not much but itâs home.â
You take note of the in-unit washer dryer in a closet off the kitchen facing the front door. âJust donât leave things in the washing machine,â Cassian told you, âpet peeve of mine is wet laundry sitting. Smells awful.â
He shows you where to find all three remotes for the tv and what each remote does, information your brain likely will never remember. He pulls up to one door, opening it slightly. âThis is my room,â he says softly due to you being right behind him. He walks to another door, opening it to show a small bathroom. âThis is the extra bathroom - this is usually where guests go.â
You two reach the final door, and as heâs opening it he tells you, âand this will be your room.â
You step in and look around the bare room, feeling so small in such a vast and empty space. The roomâs not large by any means, but itâs yours. Itâs your first step into independence and that feels vast. Thereâs no furniture, just a router on the floor that makes you chuckle. The blinds are drawn, the soft light peaking through illuminating the cream colored walls.
It feels like freedom. It feels like this place could be a home.
Cassian, the saint of a man that he is, offers to help bring up your boxes. The two of you make quick work of bringing up all of your worldly possessions, frequent occupants of the buildingâs sole elevator.
He even helps you bring up the bed frame and mattress you had to buy, just barely fitting into the elevator with both.
The two of you passed the time idly, occasional words spoken between you. Sometimes heâd laugh about the organization of your boxes - one box reading both âtamponsâ and âfall semester textbooksâ.
Eventually everything is up in your room, the space cluttered with your boxes and various things. Cassian offered to help you with the bed frame, and when you asked him if he was doing anything else today, he told you, âI cleared my schedule. Wanted to help my new roommate settle.â He winked at you and you smiled back. You suddenly recall Mor describing Cassian as a âgenerous loverâ once and you can totally see it. The manâs love language was clearly acts of service if today was anything to go by.
The two of you set up the bed frame, bickering over the instructions. No one, not even sweet, gentle giant Cassian is immune to the frustrations of lackluster instructions.
As youâre picking up the mattress and placing it in the frame, Cassian starts speaking. âI should probably mention that my brothers live next door. Theyâll probably be over now and again.â
That piques your interest. Setting down the mattress with a huff you ask, âwhy donât you live with them?â
Cassian shrugs, looking away from you, âI was initially offered a scholarship at another school, but I got injured, lost my scholarship, so came to my back up school. By then my brothers already had their own place, but they were able to set me up in the same building. That was three years ago and moving is a bitch so weâve just kept this arrangement. Sometimes whenever Az and Rhys are butting heads I let one of them stay here in my room and I take theirs, but otherwise itâs worked out pretty well.â
You look at him, and you know thereâs a bit more to the story by how sad his eyes look at the memory. He offered a piece of himself, so you offer a piece of yourself in return.
âMy parents kicked me out,â you tell him, scratching the back of your neck. âThey uh donât really approve of me or my plans, so I got the boot.â
You rub your arms, making yourself as small as they make you feel. âThey um werenât very good parents and I finally stood up for myself and they didnât like that. They have since disowned me and donât really want anything to do with me.â
You bounced up and down on your toes during your admission and Cassianâs eyes soften as he looks at you, practically a stranger. You two had met a handful of times, his fling with Mor lasting a few months. He walks out of the room, and youâre worried youâve offered too much, until you hear the fridge door open and close and he returns with two beer bottles. He opens both with his teeth, causing you to inhale sharply, thinking about a chipped tooth. He hands one to you, holding his out to toast. He speaks after your two glasses make a soft clink.
âMor knew I had a spare room. The leasing office only charges me for my room, so itâs no big deal. Havenât done much with it, except use the shower when my drain was clogged.â
He takes a sip and looks around your new room before continuing. âShe begged me to let you come here. Told me you were one of the kindest, hardest working people she knew.â
You smile, looking up at your new roommate, âshe said that?â
âShe also said you had a great ass and an incredible rack.â
You throw your head back laughing. âThat sounds like Mor.â
The two of you drink in silence, the weariness of the past few weeks creeping into your bones. Maybe Cassian wonât be so bad to live with after all.
Several hours later you and Cassian were setting up one of your bookshelves when someone walked through the door, a delicious smell permeating the apartment.
âCass, Iâm here with pizzas. Whenâs the âgreat rackâ supposed to get here?â
You and Cassian are on the floor of your room and before he can respond, you yell back, âthe great rack got here about five hours ago.â
You hear muttered cursing when a beautiful male walks in, his short cropped black hair pushed back. Rhysand - Morâs cousin. You recognized his almost violet eyes and sharp features from her family photos littering her desk, as well as her determination to convince your friend Feyre to go on a date with him. He was taller in person, but not as tall as Cassian.
âMy apologies, you know how Mor can get with her physical descriptions of people.â
You laugh, screwing in a shelf. âAll is forgiven. There are much worse things to be known as or called. Mor has quite the mouth on her - you should hear her talk about Cassian.â You say, pointing your head in his direction.
His head raises from the instruction booklet heâs reading to ask, âwhat does she say about me?â
âI believe the words âtree trunkâ have been used to describe certain body parts on multiple occasions.â
Your new guest barks a laugh, shaking his head. âWell, I brought pizzas should either of you desire them.â
âThatâs really sweet but I couldnât impose-â
Cassian cuts you off, holding a hand up to stop your sentence. âToo late. Youâve imposed. Guess you have to eat the pizza. Besides I hear the best way to keep a great rack is to keep it fed.â
You smile, thinking that maybe this wonât be so hard. It was a rash decision, living with Cassian. You couldnât stay at home, your parents had made that abundantly clear. Your plans had been to live with them until you graduated in the spring, wanting to save money on housing.
After all the shelves and furniture were set up in your room, you found yourself sitting on the couch with Cassian and Rhysand, pizza boxes on the coffee table in front of you. Rhys, he had told you to call him, had started a movie that was the third in a series. He spent twenty minutes explaining to you the plot of the first two movies. They sounded like generic action movies to you, but you let him go on about the intricacies of the plot and how cool the main character was.
Halfway through the movie the front door opens and closes softly, and all three of you turn to look at the tall man who entered. He was fit, not as muscular as Cassian was, but still toned, even through his shirt. Onyx curls adorned the top of his head, coming close to blocking his hazel eyes. Youâre not sure if youâre even breathing looking at him as he looks around the room.
âAzzy, meet my roommate.â
Azzy, as Cassian called him, looked to Cassian to scold him for the nickname before his eyes met yours.
âAzrielâs fine.â
âOh, okay,â you laugh, telling him your name with a little wave of your hand. His eyes are still on yours, as if heâs trying to commit to memory the name to the face.
âMorâs friend, right?â
âYeah, great ass, incredible rack,â Cassian responds, mining out an hourglass figure with his hands. You kick his foot, telling him âis this how youâre going to introduce me from now on.â
He winces as your foot makes contact with his shin, rubbing the afflicted area. âI mean it tells you everything you need to know about someone. You guys can just start calling me âbig peenâ.â
Rhys chuckles, then starts taking a sip of his drink as you tell Cassian, âI think theyâd just call you big head, mysterious third nipple.â
Cassian gasps, eyes widening as Rhys spits out his drink, âI canât BELIEVE Mor told you that about me!â
Rhys gets up, walking to the linen closet to grab a towel to dry off his shirt. Azriel walks to the fridge, grabbing a beer before heading to sit next to Cassian on the other couch as the two of you continue to bicker. As he walks past, you swear you feel every bit of contact as his legs brush past yours.
And if Azrielâs eyes lingered on you as he sat down - you might just have made that up too.
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Trial Period
"Harry, what the fuck is wrong with you?" Blake's voice rang out through the apartment, though I couldn't quite tell why my roommate was currently mad at me. Still, if I didn't talk him down from whatever ledge he was on, he was just going to get more and more pissy. I sighed, and minimized the spreadsheet I was working on.
"Blake, you know I'm working from home today. Whatever you're mad about, you can come in here and talk to me about it. I'm sorry I left some dirty dishes in the sink, or whatever." He must have been mad, whatever I had done-- usually he waited until after he showered to talk to me.
He stomped into the living room so that he could stare down at me. "Oh no. You are in way more trouble than that. I just had the most interesting conversation at the gym today. Some beanpole fairy came up started flirting with me, and when I told him I didn't swing that way, guess what he did?" He paused, clearly waiting for me to confess to something, but I still had no idea why he was upset. "He pulled out his phone, and showed me a whole-ass conversation on Grindr with someone using my photos!"
I couldn't help but laugh, which certainly did not help him calm down. "Okay, and? Look, I'm sorry you got catfished, but I don't know why you're mad at me about it. You're trying to start a modeling career, right? It's one of the unfortunate risks of the job. I'm sorry that one of your Instagram followers has no sense of chill, but I don't see why that makes it my fault."
He shoved his phone into my face. "You see this photo? I downloaded it for a scheduled post, but it's from a gig that hasn't released yet. I'm not allowed to share any of those photos on social media until the magazine spread drops. You're the only other person who could have gotten onto my phone and grabbed it."
Well, that was a complication that I wasn't expecting. I stared at him, trying and failing to think of a loophole that sounded plausible. There was only one thing left to do. "Seth, I know you're in here," I said, loudly projecting my voice. "I know you wanted to try out a few different guys before you committed, but that's not gonna work anymore. The trial period is officially over. You broke it, you bought it. If you don't take Blake, he's going to ruin everything."
Blake scowled at me. "Who the fuck is Seth? Harry, what in the fuck is going on?"
"You're so cute when you're confused," I said, pinching his cheek. He was already pissed at me, I may as well go all out. Besides, I needed to give Seth enough time to prepare. "I'm not actually Harry. I haven't been for the last two weeks, not that you noticed. I'm actually a ghost who decided that this apartment would be a great place to find some new bodies to inhabit. And let's be honest, this whole complex is jam packed with hot, young studs like yourself." I couldn't help but flash an excited grin, and I think I might have let my real eyes flash for a few seconds. Well, whatever. I no longer needed to worry about keeping secrets from Blake.
I had clearly spooked him-- he started creeping backwards toward the door. "Harry, you're scaring me. That's not funny. Don't joke about that sort of thing, Harry. Just⌠fuck, delete that profile and promise me you won't do it again."
"Like I said, I'm not Harry," I said, grabbing my laptop bag and putting it in arm's length. I pulled out the mason jar that had Harry's soul in it, and placed it on the couch. "This is Harry. Or, what's left of him, anyway." Harry's soul fluttered around in a panic, banging into the glass walls as it tried to escape. Or maybe it was trying to warn Blake about what was about to happen next? It didn't really matter.
Blake had turned to run, but he didn't make it more than a few steps into the kitchen before he fell to the ground, as if something had slammed into his back. Seth hated possessing people using brute force, but his error hadn't left us with many other options. "Sorry for the close call, Phil," he said, adjusting his posture. Where Blake was constantly puffing his chest and arching his back, Seth had more of a forward slouch to his shoulders. It was a posture I was very familiar with-- regardless of the bodies we wore, we had been together long enough to recognize each other's presence.
"At least Blake has a good body," Seth said as he pulled himself up off the ground. "I was probably going to end up choosing this one anyway, to be honest." He started feeling up his chest, giving his nipples a few test pinches and letting out a soft moan. "Oh yeah, he's just as sensitive as I remembered. Do you have any spare jars in your bag? Obviously I didn't have time to put him to sleep before I possessed him, and he's just screaming non-stop in my head right now."
"Sounds like that's what you get for being careless," I said. "You know that helping you expel the soul is my favorite part. I'm not letting you rub one out in the bathroom, we're doing this the right way."
Seth pinched the bridge of his nose. "Come on, babe. You're at work for another five hours. I already said I was sorry, please don't force me to put up with the flesh owner for that long."
I closed my laptop and started unbuttoning my shirt. "Who said anything about waiting for me to get off work? No one tracks my activity as long as I get my work done on time." I leaned back and started groping Seth's hefty bulge. "Besides, we both know that Harry is trapped in a shit job. I bet we can get him something that pays way better."
He leaned over to give me a deep kiss. "You know, one of these days you'll get tired of turning your new hosts into porn stars," he said, as I grabbed one of the empty soul jars.
"Maybe so," I admitted. "But that day is not today. This body is wasted on white collar work. Anyway, you know the drill. Time for lube-- I want you to ride my cock while I sit here." He placed the jar underneath his hardening cock, ready to catch his load.
The first time we fucked in new bodies was always my favorite. Seth came first, coating the inside of the jar with a layer of jizz in addition to Blake's soul. I wasn't too far behind, since Harry's body was new to gay sex and still quite sensitive. I rolled off to the side and basked in the afterglow while Seth sealed the jar and placed it next to Harry's soul.
"Part of me still wants to be mad at you for almost ruining everything with that 'trial period' idea of yours," I said, as he laid down next to me to cuddle. "Next time we need to pick new hosts, we're picking one and done again. None of this trying out multiple bodies rubbish, it's too much risk."
Seth just smiled and ran his fingers through my hair. "Fine, no more shopping around, I promise. But you know you can't stay mad at me." As we laid there, holding each other tight, I had to admit that he was right.
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đŹđŽđŚđŚđđŤđ˛: a soft day on the beach for a swordsman and mermaid. they're really not as odd a pair as they sound.
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đđ¨đ§đđđ§đ: mermaid!reader, continuation of this fic, fluffy shenanigans, requested
Having a human boyfriend wasnât as hopelessly romantic as the girls in your pod made it out to be. Sure, the idea of star-crossed love was appealing, and the physical nature of human boys was certainly something to admire. But really, you didn't care much for human men in the carnal senseâZoro was your exception.
Usually, you were nothing but doting on him, flaws and all, and he did the same for you. The pair of you slouched together, brooded together, gossiped together, napped together. You both wore the otherâs sensual markings dotting your skin with pride, flaunting them even.
But sometimes, tensions do rise.
You watched as Nami and Robin headed down from the ship to the sandy beach down below, wanting nothing more than to join them, but you would find it much more enjoyable if your swordsman joined you. But all Zoro wanted to do was sleep.
You stood over him, fangs peeking out as you bit your lip. âEveryoneâs gone down to the beach.â
He grunted in reply, eyes shut contently. Narrowing your eyes, you stepped sideward and let the rays of sun youâd been blocking hit his face. Zoro contorted uncomfortably, blinking up at you. âHuh?â
âIâd like to swim with you,â you stated simply.Â
âWhy?â
âBecause itâs fun.â
He rolled his eyes and shifted away from the sun. âHard pass.â
The deck went dangerously silent aside from the far off sounds of the sea, so he wasnât all too shocked to crack one eye open and find you fuming over him. âSomething wrong?â
âYes!â You huffed and crossed your arms. âMy boyfriend wonât swim with me, his beautiful, amazing, awesome mermaid girlfriend.â
He gave you a single sigh, and you knew you had him hook, line, and sinker. A pleasant smile spread over your face as Zoro heaved himself to his feet, barley sparing you a glance even as he slung an arm around your shoulder. He sported a scant grin, so he wasnât too frustrated. âCan we go on a walk after?â
âOh, so now youâre contributing?â You nuzzled into his side and stepped onto the soft sand. âYeah, we can go on a walk.â
Zoroâs cheeks dusted pink, chin ducked like he wasnât a big romantic under all that muscle. But you knew the truth, even when Sanji pleaded with you to see sense and leave the mossheaded swordsman. Like youâd ever listen to the stupid cook anyway.
âThanks,â you murmured into his skin, kissing his hand draped on your shoulder. âI couldâve gone without you, but I didnât want to.â
Your bluntness always warmed his heart, even when your words came out less than tender as they just did. He kissed your temple briefly, Zoroâs attention caught by Luffy and Usopp splashing each other in knee deep water. A bright laugh left you and you were gone, fleeing his side to bound into the ocean. Ten seconds later, you yelped, falling head first into the lapping waves, a vibrant tail flipping up where your feet should be.
Chuckling after you, Zoro waded in to just below his knees, arms folded over his chest. Your soaked form floated through the shallows, arms gliding your way through. He watched with amusement as your ducked underwater and raced at Usoppâs legs, clamping your hands around his ankles and sending the poor guy leaping back to the beach. Thatâs when he bellowed out a laugh. Your eyes darted to find him in an instant, warmth spreading from fin to face as his smile consumed you whole.Â
Laugh fading, Zoroâs eyes fluttered open to your hot-cold gaze. You always bit at him harshly when he said youâre an open book, but itâs the truthâZoro loved being able to tell what youâre thinking, never having to make complex deductions like he often does with everyone else. And though it made his skin feel warm and tight, he could see now exactly the depth of what you felt for him. Something in that was immensely assuring.Â
He shed his shirt in one motion, hurling it back on the sand and trudging to meet you in deeper water. Standing over you, he let slip a warmer smirk than usual. Your eyes peeked up over the water, smile warped below the surface. The water lapped at Zoroâs chest as your hands reached for his shoulders, and you dragged yourself up in his body to hang off his neck, nose inches away from his own.
âHey, sailor,â you giggled.Â
He huffed a laugh. âHey, fish.â
You swept your tail around his legs, curling around his limbs till he nearly toppled over, your lips a stiff line. âCareful, Zoro-Mine.âÂ
His eyes took on a darker tone, the name youâd gifted him some months ago capturing his attention wholly. Zoro nosed at your cheek, humming softly. âWalk?â
âIâve barely cooled off!â You snorted, pushing his face away as you slipped right through his arms, ducking underwater and darting off before his hands could catch you. You emerged at Namiâs side, scaring her out of her skin, a laugh stifled by your pruning fingertips.Â
Maybe an hour rolled off your shoulders before you scanned the area for your swordsman, finding him sitting atop the powdery sand with his eyes set on the horizon. Zoro practically glared at the sky, so much so that he didnât notice you dragging yourself up the shore till your soft grunts of effort met his ears. Jolting to attention, Zoro reached to scoop under your arms and pulled you closer, resting you between his legs. He leaned his head on your temple, your body melting into him as his warmth spread to your cold skin.
âReady?â he mumbled. You nodded gently, and when the sun dried out your scales and made them retreat into your skin, Zoro clutched your hand to alieve that familiar sting all through your body. Your tail parted down the middle and formed two ever-awkward legs. By some ancient magic neither of you understood, your clothes sparkled to existence along your skin.Â
Zoro gripped your hands and rocketed you off the ground, relishing in the little laugh you gave when you landed on your feet. You called over your shoulder absently mindedly, not entirely caring if the others heard you, eyes fixated on Zoro alone. âWeâll be back before dark!â
You faintly heard Namiâs, âYeah right,â before you led Zoro into the forest with a slight skip.
Having a human boyfriend could be exciting at times. Zoro never frowned at your questions, always ready with a reply whether he really knew the answer or not. He could toss you over his shoulder and race you through the trees (and somehow you always win despite your fawn-like legs).Â
You just broke through another low-hanging branch when Zoro caught your hand, swinging you around into his chest. Bubbling laughter, you flashed a fanged smile up at him, gaze swallowing him whole. Zoro traced your cheek with a fingertip, simply admiring your expression as it softened into one of blissful content.Â
With a shake of his head and a gentle grin, Zoro slung his arm over your shoulder and started to walk back to the beach. âLetâs just walk back, yeah? I donât have the energy to lose another race.â
You chuckled into his shoulder. âSure. I donât care to win anymore anyways.â
(The fact that he always let you win hung in the air, unspoken and tender on your heart).
Time slipped right through your hands, and soon enough the sun dipped below the treeline up above. You watched it disappear through the dense branches. âNami was right. Weâre gonna be late.â
Zoroâs shrug shook your body. âSheâs usually right, but she doesnât need to know that.â
âSo⌠we should stay out all night to scare her instead?â He cast you a smile. âRead my mind.â
Having a human boyfriend could be annoying too, sure. At times their kind perplexed you, turning you around till you didn't know left from right. Yet the only ones who held you steady were on that crew--Zoro's crew.
Zoro was human, and he couldn't help it, and you found yourself caring less and less with every day that went by, till he was no longer your human boyfriend, but simply Zoro-Mine, who happened to be human.
And with every day that passed, you lost the title of mermaid girlfriend in his mind as well, and became only yourself, who happened to sprout a tail when he took you up in his arms, ran out to the moonlit ocean, and tossed you squealing back into the waves.
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here we go again - pt.1
pt. 2 , pt.3
jude x fem!reader , trent x fem!reader
empty promise after another leaves you walking in the cold. alone. on valentines day. youre never speaking to another player again.
word count : 1K+
watch it : mild fluff, heavy on the angst, situationships, toxic relationships, Jude is kinda an ass in this one sorry, not very happy ending
happy valentines day LOL
â--
you and Jude have a complex history, complex relationship.Â
you aren't officially together but at the same time you are exclusive. it's odd, but it's what works at the moment, (even if you wish he would just grow the balls to make you his already.)
you get he's a busy guy, top player both club and international. you aren't going to force him to choose you or make him get with you while his career is soon about to peak.Â
your wishes for more soon fade into the background as he presses gentle kisses into your skin. he called you a few hours prior, wondering if you wanted to keep him company while he binges movies and orders you a pizza. you said yes, maybe a little foolishly. but it's hard to stay away from him.Â
he's addicting. maybe it's a rush of being with someone whose whole existence is so grand. maybe it's the fact of knowing you have what millions of others crave for. you don't know, you try not to read into the intricacies. bad habit.Â
so here you are, face pressed up against his chest while you lay side by side on this stupidly large couch, action movie playing, your pizza done, belly full and body warm.Â
"what are you thinking about love?" he mumbles.Â
"you." you shrug.
"me ?" he chuckles.Â
you hum, wiggling deeper into the pile of blankets.Â
"i've been thinking about you. and us." he confesses, almost shy. the movie playing in front of you has long fizzled out of your attention.Â
hey might as well rip the band aid off.Â
"me too," you hum, "why aren't we official again?"
you feel him sigh dramatically, "because my career."
you squint. there goes the same lousy explanation. "you could put more i don't know, thought into us."
he shifts under the blankets , "valentine's day is coming up. dont worry love i have it all planned out." he assures you.Â
"oh yeah ?" you tease
"just you wait, the best valentine's day ever." he kisses the top of your head soundly.
â--
worst fucking valenties day of your life. you don't remember being more livid a day in your life. you cant remember the last time so much pure rage burned through you, hot enough to hurt. you didn't think it was humanly possible to clench your fist so tight youve dug into your palm hard enough to draw blood.Â
your head hurts, your legs hurt, you think your arm is starting to bruise from where you were shoved into a table on "accident" but what would Jude know. he was so busy taking pictures with models and laughing at corny jokes while you kept yourself company. texting and calling didnt work and he didn't even try to give you any attention the whole night, you can't keep doing this with him.Â
"you can't just run off-" Jude shouts from somewhere behind you.Â
"or what Jude. or fucking what." you seeth, not bothering to face him, storming out into the night.Â
It's your fault for trusting him all those nights ago. your fault for falling for the same shit over and over.Â
he sprints to catch up to you, "i don't know why you're being like this."
you stop dead in your tracks, "oh i don't know, let's think. you didn't tell me your escorts would be there. and to top it all fucking off they have to nerve to be on my ass the whole night, not letting me get anywhere near you even through we walked in together?"
he doesn't respond and you half the mind not to punch the shit out of him, walking further away from the club you just came from, heels clanking against the sidewalk so hard it hurts, pulling on your dress so you dont trip and fall. maybe you should let it go so you can fall flat on your face. that would be a better ending to the night than seeing his face. silly stupid you thinking this would work.Â
"happy fucking valentines day huh Jude. you take me to a damn club, you ignore me the whole night, and you spend all your time surrounded by other women who might as well just suck you off right then and there." you yell, hell if anyone hears. you want them too, you want him to be as humiliated as you feel.Â
Bellinghams date thrown away the moment you step inside, ignored and tossed for some common whores. oh you can't wait to see where your face ends up online after tonight. you can see the headlines now.Â
he grabs your arm, making you face him, "love listen-"
"no, you dont get to fucking do that anymore. you cant keep sweet talking your way out of things when you fuck up. why can't you just pretend to care" your voice shakes, you can feel tears brimming in your eyes.
"i'm not trying to talk my way out of it, i'm trying to explain." he tries.
you yank your arm out of his grip, "i'm not listening anymore, im done. all i asked was one day for us, just valentines day to make things work. and you showed me you dont care enough for that."Â
"please, let me fix this." he pleads.
"its too late."
"i wanted things to work so fucking bad, and you humiliated me Jude. i imagined a nice dinner, hell i would have settled for take out and a few kisses. that's how bad i want things to work, that's how bad i wanted you." you tremble.Â
"please my darling. let's talk about this. come back inside and i'll show everyone that you are mine," he holds a hand out to you, waiting. silently pleading with each breath he takes.Â
the street lights dance across his skin as for a moment you almost believe him. for a moment you think about stepping back inside with him. you can't do that to yourself, not again.Â
"no, iim done. don't follow me, don't call me dont text nothing. i want nothing more to do with you." your firm, final. swallowing the lump that builds in your throat, youd be damned if he sees you cry after this fucking shit show.
he stops in his tracks at this, not bothering to try and stop you.Â
it hurts more than it should to leave him behind you, but you honest to god can not keep up with his lifestyle.Â
all those articles and rumors were right you suppose, he's an arrogant stuck up bastard with too much money to know what to do with, too cocky for his own good and destroys anything good that comes his way. you hope he's happy without you.Â
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Alright, so there's been a lot of chatter about some of the most common racist takes in the fandom lately, and I know most people aren't engaging in good faith but I'm gonna spell some things out anyway. Here's a handy-dandy White Fan's Intro to Racist Fanon 101
Why is it racist to depict Ed as uncontrollably violent?
Because he's not actually depicted that way in the show. OFMD goes out of its way to depict Ed's relationship with violence as complex and intensely traumatic for him. Because he has so many hangups around violence, Ed is one of the least violent characters in a show full of violent characters. He is always shown giving people many chances before they're able to push him into reacting with violence.
Even if you think you're just doing a character study on a guy who is really very complex and nuanced, please take the time to consider if you're assigning more weight to Ed's violent actions than those of other characters or assuming he's worse than he actually is (for example, Ed never physically hurt the crew during his kraken spiral, just Izzy. His crime was being a shitty boss, not going on mindlessly violent rampages).
What do other common fanon depictions of Ed that are racist look like?
The biggest ones are depicting Ed as untidy/messy, as illiterate, and as needing a white man (most often Izzy) to clean up after him. I hope I shouldn't have to spell out why these are racist, but please keep an eye out for them in the fanon you consume so you can be critical of how you respond when they pop up.
Are you saying that all Izzy fans are racist?
Liking a character is morally neutral. Insisting that the viewpoint of an antagonistic character is the lens through which the show should be understood, though, especially when that antagonistic character's whole deal in the first season of the show was trying to control the behavior of the brown lead so he could gain power for himself, however...
Just please consider - why do you find Izzy's tears more deserving of sympathy and compassion than Ed's?
But my hot take/fic/meta doesn't say anything about Ed's skin color!
It doesn't have to. Most of the racist takes/fic/meta out there don't mention Ed's skin color explicitly. Racism doesn't just look like saying "this character is a brown man so he's bad." Everyone who grows up in a racist society (that's everyone on the planet, btw, you included) has biases to unlearn, and those biases impact how you interact with the world around you, including with the media you consume.
The thing is, OFMD isn't a subtle show. It's very consistent with telling us who Ed is, how he responds to situations, and why he behaves the way he does. If you find it easier to throw all that aside in favor of believing what a white antagonistic character tells you about him, then you should really take a bit to examine that.
And here's the most important thing to keep in mind:
This is not about you.
Trust me, it has to be pretty damn bad for fans of color to call out racism in fandom. Every time we do, we know we're gonna harrassment and just some truly awful shit in our inboxes. But you, random white fan who Did A Racism? No one is out to get you. No one thinks you're an awful person for including a racist trope in your stuff, we just wish you'd examine it so we can make this fandom a better place for everyone.
I have had amazing discussions with white fans who saw my posts on fandom racism and wanted a sensitivity read or a check so they could fix an instance where they uncritically included a racist trope. But most people who make similar mistakes will just double down and insist they didn't do anything wrong, and that makes fandom a worse place for all of us.
Fans of color deserve to feel safe and included in this fandom, and we're just tired of feeling like we have to beg to get some circles to see poc as people. You can do your part by being critical of these tropes and your reactions to them when they pop up.
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