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grave-gift · 17 days ago

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I'm having top surgery on friday. i'm so incredibly anxious it's unreal. i know logically it is what i want (have wanted it unconditionally for a decade) but my concerns about recovery and aesthetics and 1000 other things is really overshadowing that right now

doesn't help that my fiance had to go back to school already (different country) so my parents are taking care of me and i don't want that for about 100 reasons (that are all minor, my parents are good folks). i'm just sad he (fiance) can't be here to comfort me and do the very intimate care tasks that will be required.

anyways. any encouragement or reassurance would be appreciated.

#tate.txt #giving up nipple sensation is like. it's a lot for me. it'll be fine but i would rather keep the nipple sensation #my surgeon isn't really good at fishmouth or t anchor i don't like the results when he does them so #DI it is I think but I am sad #not to mention I'm like. god idk it's been years but I'm probably at least a D cup #so. DI is probably all that's feasible anyways #but yeah idk #ugh #he's a good surgeon but i'm still terrified of being butchered #AND WAKING UP DURING SURGERY #and having a sore throat after #also I'll be on my period #and being grumpy and uncomfortable with my dad as my caregiver whos not a very patient man #he loves me he just won't know what to do with me bitching and moaning dfvjbfkdf #ugh ugh ugh #it'll be worth it #but dear god #top surgery #transmasc

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