#he's 19 its flattering and never going to happen lol

[ishizizzle]

got my hair braided and now I can see my coworkers interest in me lmao

[eliteseven]

do you, by any chance, have more HCs about the House of Tavyndír? 👉🏻👈🏻 how are Serena's mom, how is she called, how she sees Serena, Serena's brother and etc

i absolutely adore how you constantly think about your story and you always keep saying new things LMAO aside from the final result, which is when you upload a new chapter, i love how it makes more alive and richier than already is

Ahh thank you so much! 🥰 it’s definitely a living, breathing AU this way and it’s so fun to just consider all the possibilities with everyone!

I actually happen to have an entire planner sheet in docs dedicated to BG3 Nobility/Patriar Families and House Tavyndír’s history. I am SO flattered you would like to hear more 🥹 I was going to paste the entire thing here, but I think it's a bit too long and I don't want anyone to hate me lol. If you're interested in THAT much depth of their family life/history pre BG3 events, I'll make a post for it! 💕

A Few Tavyndír Family HC's:

-House Tavyndír was a once-great patriar family that owned a sizable fleet of trade ships and some dry docks in the Grey Harbor. This means they also enjoyed an estate in the upper city and frequented High Hall; they had political sway, at some point.

-By the time Serena's father came to power as the heir, their house was already in decline.

-Serena's father was Lord Aldin Tavyndír of Baldur's Gate, and he wasn't always cruel. In fact, he was kind, sociable, and liked well-enough by his peers before inheriting a failing dynasty. Though towards the end of his life, he only had time for his vices. He was the son of nobles, and thus was well-rounded in his skillset. In Serena's early years, he couldn't go a day without seeking her out and sitting her atop his shoulders- so strong was his adoration for his daughter. He was warm, then. He was well-read and Serena often enjoyed having him read to her, when she was a young child. He used to make Serena feel safe.

-Serena's mother is Lady Amelia Tavyndír, formerly Bayne, of Cormyr. She married Serena's father out of familial/business obligation. She liked Aldin, at first. By all accounts, he was a good father and a loving husband. They did enjoy a happy life, for a brief time. I think that’s an important bit of info.

-Serena has no siblings- though perhaps due to the stressful situation they found themselves in, Amelia could not conceive after her. This made Serena a little lonely- she would seek company from the estate staff, if her parents were feuding or worried about the last shipment that never reached the docks. A sibling definitely would've helped soften the blow of how everything played out. She made friends easily enough- but there were so many rules imposed upon her, upon the other children of nobility. She wasn't allowed to be a child, in the traditional sense- though she tried, anyway.

-Serena’s favorite activities: sneaking to the lower city (was often caught and as the severity of the punishment increased, she stopped). She enjoyed watching the guards train and switch posts. She loved going down to the docks and just people-watching, as well as keeping an eye out for new ships coming into the harbor. Wouldn’t be surprised if she tagged some walls with charcoal, just like Shadowheart mentions upon visiting the city.

-Though Serena's father began to grow cruel with time and pressure, turning to alcoholism, to gambling, etc.- her mother remained a beacon of light for her the entire time. Amelia is one of those people who simply radiates warmth, happiness. Serena knew the callousness of her father, yes, but she also learned love in its purest form from her mother.

-Serena’s mother would often sing to her, a talent she picks up and passes on to her own baby, eventually 🥲💕

-Serena was pretty capable by the time she was 19 or so. Though her family name was beginning to be tarnished, she was well-liked in court and an eligible bachelorette, which fueled her desire to escape with her mother. She could see the toll her father’s presence was taking, not only on her, but her mother. Surely, she could likely marry out of this abusive situation (and hopefully not into another one), but her fear for her mother made her strong.

-Serena and Amelia have nothing when they return to Cormyr. Amelia’s house has long since crumbled inwards- there is no family for them to join. Serena is forced to provide for herself, and her mother, and has few options other than joining the military. Still, they’re happy to be alive, relatively unharmed, and away from Baldur’s Gate. They go from riches to rags overnight.

[betweentheracks]

Heyo! Not to be too nosy here but you mentioned you're in bad health and recovering, and I just wondered what happened? Also how would it impact your career since, from how you've made it all seem thus far, it's a highly active and demanding job?

Hope you take care and get well! You appear quite strong and not like you'd take whatever has happened just lying down, so here's to you!! 🙏💓

No sweat and no worries here, I dont find this particularly invasive. If anything, I'm flattered you care to ask after me lol. 😁

A few weeks back I met a friend I hadn't seen in some time for lunch. This was against my better sense of caution that I've held firmly to throughout the pandemic, but I would feel regretful and dismissive if I didnt agree to see her while I had the chance. I should've listened my gut and stayed safely at work because this "friend" failed to mention she had tested positive (she knew already by the time of our lunch date, she has since admitted) and had figured since she had no symptoms there was no harm in being in public.

FF only a few days later and I was feeling a little unwell but had put it off as an effect of the winter blast that had just hit where I live. I'd spent half a day out in the cold and snow for a photoshoot only the day before and thought it was probably due to that since I'm susceptible to weather influenced head colds and bronchitis. Fortunately, my job mandates a rigid COVID-19 screening twice a week due to our high profile clientele and as an assurance of health and safety for us all. Mine read back with a positive and with the way I had been feeling I was immediately sent home and the company closed its doors while the building was sterilized and our clients notified.

Thankfully I managed not to infect anyone I work with nor my son. Regrettably, I did infect my best friend since we're horrifically incapable of maintaining personal space and have weak shit immune systems. We both agree it is a wonder we made it this far into plague times without it catching us.

So I went and got looked over and sent on my way with my prescription of potent anti-virals and steroids. I was well prepared to abide the quarantine guidelines and had sent my son to my mother's home for the duration so that he was out of the danger zone. It was fine, I was kinda cool and keen on getting a few days to myself to rest up and all that jazz. But it wasn't meant to last and I found trouble in the form of being unable to remain conscious much at all and would pass out constantly. After a few times of this I gave my brother (he's a doctor and vaccinated) a ring and told him that my fatigue was no joke dude and needed him to come give me a better once over than the one I'd gotten before bc I was sure I was not meant to feel this badly. He found me unconscious in the shower that night, my head battered from crashing to the basin.

After ensuring I wasn't concussed and jokes on what a hard head I have to take such a beating and show no signs of registering it beyond bruising (a joke between us due to him having once accidentally put a golf club into my forehead and fracturing my skull but that's a different story) he told me to call him regularly so that he can review how I feel and the progression of my symptoms and left. By the morning I had already had two more instances of sudden fatigue and collapsing in on myself. I had been posting on my main blog here about how I was doing and due to this I caught the concern of @peekbackstage and upon their suggestion to have my O2 levels tested it was revealed that I was having issues with my blood not circulating oxygen as it should and nearing hypoxia.

Here's the rub. I have a heart condition that is already very dangerous and bleak which limits my heart's capability of delivering blood through my body as it should. Cardiomyopathy or, as it seems better known, congestive heart failure. I've had surgery for it and it has been a while since it caused me any real issues as long as I stick to my routine of care and manage my health, but when COVID-19 infiltrated my body it immediately snagged upon this weak heart of mine and sank its fangs in.

Within a day of being admitted to the hospital I had a grand mal seizure due to the constant fluctuations of oxygen in my blood and the way my body was working double time to supplement for it. And only 2 days after that and when my nervous system had finally quieted down, I went into full cardiac arrest with a heart attack at my young age.

My next weeks were spent connected to machines doing more for me than my own body could. I developed pneumonia in my lungs, acute though it was it was still another complication that my wrecked body had to overcome as it made my already ragged breathing even worse. I was steadily shedding muscle tone and definition due to a lack of mobility and the fact that my body felt like a deadweight I could hardly take command of, and generally very weakened. My heart, the horrible thing, was inflamed and trying too hard by beating too fast, too hard.

FF some more and I was doing fairly well and treatments were showing some improvement. My heart was still being an ugly and gnarled beast in my chest and throwing weird spikes on the monitor that raised alarms. The pneumonia was retreating and I had no further seizures. It was the dawning light of my first signs that I was recovering!

It took a while more and so fucking many tests day in and day out for me get cleared for release. I tested negative for COVID-19 and was ashamed that I actually forgot that that was why I was even in the hospital to begin with, given all that happened. I have to undergo physical therapy and counseling; PT for heart happy exercises as well as to manage to my depleted muscles, counseling bc I was rocked mentally from all the almost dying and the depressive haze of being holed up in the hospital and surrounded by people who, like me, came in with COVID-19 but unlike me did not come out of it.

I'm home now. I had to have a pacemaker implanted and must stay vigilant for any showing that my heart is not performing as it should. I still have some severe inflammation and chest restriction in my airways as well as my blood vessels but nothing too daunting. I also have a full battalion of prescriptions, most for my heart, and a nebulizer to ease any breathing issues. The worst is honestly that I still am very weak and have severely limited reserves of energy.

My job is required to make me take 12 weeks of leave for rest and recuperation. This is very upsetting since I had been requested by name to be an assistant stylist at the Grammys this year which is truly a dream (especially with BTS in the mix 😩😩) and also bc I'm just a workaholic by nature and love my job. When I return I am expected to learn how to properly delegate tasks that do not directly require me to handle and slow down the pacing of my projects. My boss terminated a contract with a client that was nearing the scheduled end of our agreement and was also incredibly problematic to help lighten my workload. It's imperative that I reign in my stress levels or my heart will not last until the next surgery I'll need, so I'm gritting my teeth and letting my job be picked apart to reduce my responsibilities.

My post awaits my return but I will not be returning to full activity for a while after, which means no rifling through the racks for hours alongside the archivists in search of the perfect piece. I'll be welcome to meet with my clients and oversee the glam teams, will still be the command tower for final verdicts on which styles to use. But I will not be running around showrooms nor personally handling matters any competent trainee could be tasked with like I've always done. I will no longer be able to fly out anywhere for destination shoots or fashion shows.

If, after my next surgery, things are better and my heart stable to the point that they are hopeful of things will be reevaluated. While it is difficult beyond measure for me to relinquish the reigns of my career and be restricted in what I can do now, I am very thankful to be alive and upright when that wasn't a certainty just a little while ago. This is such a humbling experience to have survived when my stats kept dropping every day. I've been told to expect that I will never make a full 100% recovery and to expect to stall out around the 70%-90% range, with 70% being the most realistic.

My best friend (the one I gave the plague to) will be moving in with me so that I am never on my own if things go tits up and to assist in wrangling a toddler since I am currently without the energy to do so as my child is, sincerely, a crazy gremlin spawn with limitless battery life. Slowly, my life will regain some normalcy 💖

[zalrb]

Take Two - 1x02  Review

1. “I mean she’s from New York where things tend to move faster.” What’s funny is how hilariously accurate this is. When I moved from Toronto to a suburb and my neighours’ kids found out that I went to school in the city, their mentality was like this and it was literally a suburb that was like an hour and a half away from the city and Toronto isn’t even like a CITY city.

2. Also I remember going to high school in my first year and meeting girls who would ask girls right away “Are you a virgin?” and then said they only hung out with girls who were virgins. So I know that anons are freaking out about these conversations and the way they’re presented but there is an accuracy there.

3. “Drew Barrymore in Scream” “Ooh a ripoff of a ripoff” this dialogue is funny meta because KW wrote Scream.

4. “Yes, that is an obvious interpretation of the story”. LOL. Great teaching.

5. I never had to read Wuthering Heights for high school and it seems like every American high school in fiction has students read that book. You know, to make obvious references to the plot.

6. OH MY GOD SCOTT FOLEY WAS IN THIS FOR ONE SECOND.

7. “I told you, Dawson, they move fast in New York.” LMFAO, Joey, she said ‘hi’. Lmao. It’s like when Xander says Cordelia is dressed like a hooker and she’s wearing a sweater. 

8. Dawson’s parents are entirely inappropriate.

9. Dawson pretend kissing a mannequin head is like when in American Pie, Jim asked his friend what sex felt like and he said “warm American pie” so he went home and fucked a pie. Yes, I said what I said.

10. It is very high school and sweet that Joey pretends that it’s her upstairs, though.

11. OK I’m sorry but Dawson describing what he imagines is happening between Jen and Cliff at the dance is basically, like, teenage Mr. Brightside

12. No seriously:

At this very moment they're slow dancing. Her arms are wrapped around his waist and they're moving to some stupid cheesy 80's song, and he's whispering things into her ear to kinda make her giggle and toss her hair off to the side.  Every once in a while their eyes meet and they shift awkwardly because they know it's all coming down to that one moment at the end of the night where he leans over and tells her what a great time he's had. He asks her if they can do it again, and she just smiles in that sexy, teasing way that she has, it's not really teasing, but just sexy and says "I'd like that." And then their lips meet. Their mouths come together. Their tongues find each other, I...aauugghh!  I can't take it.

How did it end up like this? It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss Now I'm falling asleep And she's calling a cab While he's having a smoke And she's taking a drag Now they're going to bed And my stomach is sick And it's all in my head But she's touching his chest now He takes off her dress now Let me go And I just can't look, it's killing me And taking control

13. Joey:

LOL, Joey is OVER it.

14. TONIGHT I’M GOING TO DO IT, I AM GOING TO KISS THE GIRL *puts on a vest*

15. This school dance is KILLING ME because that’s ACTUALLY a high school dance. In all of its awkwardness.

16. This is. the dorkiest dance. ever. I love it.

17. I’m just sitting here like ... I couldn’t in my WILDEST imagination be like this teenager is seducing me. Tamara, get your life together.

18. “Because in some moral sectors, what they’re doing is known as foreplay”. They’re basically doing this

19. Every time I see Dawson in that vest I think of Superbad

20. Honestly, the way Katie plays Joey’s nervousness and disbelief and also excitement at slow-dancing with Dawson is done really well.

21. Also the moment the slow-dancing gets kinda serious and they’re looking in each other’s eyes, well done. I believe it.

22. “I feel that connection” THEN YOU SHOULD’VE DANCED WITH HER, YOU IDIOT.

23. “She could be you ... except ... she’s Jen” OK that’s terrible for Joey to hear and it’s also just an idiotic thing to say but Dawson legitimately does not know that Joey has feelings for him and they previously established that they can still tell each other everything so I get why he said it.

24. I like how they called Dawson self-aware when he’s actually just self-absorbed.

25. That was not a flattering pose for Jen.

26. Dawson is just Ted Mosby before Ted Mosby.

27. I like how Dawson doesn’t even follow up with Jen’s New York “stumble” speech, like do you want to talk about it?

28. They have a cute dance but his dance with Joey was better.

29. They really were going for the Audrey/Marilyn thing with Katie and Jen.

[bigdanteague3]

Red dress...here we go in chronological order.  I had a friend from high school.  He dated the same girl for many many years.  We lived together after high school.  His girlfriend lived really nearby.  Walking distance.  She had a roommate.  I knew his girlfriend obviously.  I liked her, we were friends, she would come over often of course.  The 3 of us would occasionally watch movies or just whatever.  We’d all known each other for at least 10 years or more.  Anyway, at some point, her roommate also came over one day.  Pretty girl.  Not like...drop dead...but definitely pretty.  Slim body, pretty nice sized boobs, and pretty good butt.  Nothing happened.  It wasn’t just the 4 of us on a double date and anything awkward.  There were like 10-12 people there and I noticed her but nothing unusual at all.  I was still unhappily dating Emma the lion and not generally happy lol.  I remember talking to her maybe?  Maybe not?

Anyway, a few days later my friend tells me that even though she has a boyfriend, dress girl thinks I’m hot.  Interested in me.  I can’t call her dress girl...let’s call her......Holly.  Remember I’m easily flattered and I needed a confidence boost so this was like some primo A+ ego boost.  I ask about her boyfriend and my friend tells me he’s never met him and he doesn’t come around.  I file this away for future reference.

They come around again and armed with my new found knowledge, I make a point to speak to her.  I don’t think I was bold enough to try some cheesy pick up line...but I had a conversation with her.  This happens a couple of more times soon after.  I remember one time telling her I liked her shirt.  Because I’m fucking smooth.  Emma is being a bitch as always and I’m wondering if there’s a possible something there.  One night they come around and are heading out to a party.  They ask me to go but I can’t.  I do remember walking her out and talking to her outside.  Nothing more.

Phone rang about 2am.  I knew who it was.  It was Holly.  She was like 3 miles away at the party and needed to get home and was wondering if I could come get her.  She asked if I was asleep and I lied and said no.  I was there 5 minutes later and she comes out with a 7up bottle.  I can’t remember why we didn’t immediately leave but we sat there for like 5 minutes.  Waiting for someone else I assume.  She wasn’t drunk.  She was slapping the bottle on her leg and then my leg.  Pop pop.  Definitely throwing vibes.  She comes to pop my leg again and I grab it.  A little tug of war and I take it from her and take a sip.  Pop her leg.  I pretend to give it back and she reaches for it but I don’t let go.  I ask her if she wants it and she says yes.  So I kissed her.  Let her have the bottle but I kissed her good.  I think we were interrupted by whoever we were waiting on getting in. 

I take her back and don’t expect anything more.  I don’t make a move to get out but she says I should come in.  I do.  We go at it as soon as the door shuts.  She leads me to the......couch.  Not the bedroom.  That’s ok.  We make out and I get on top of her and grind into her.  She makes no move for the bedroom and I’m not going to be a dick and move too quick.  So that’s all that happened that night.  Making out, dry humping and maybe a rubbed titty.  My friend walked through in the middle and didn’t say a word.

It wasn’t long before word got back to me that I should come over again.  I did. When I went in she was on the couch again, a 7up bottle on the coffee table and she was wearing like this seafoam green dress.  I went to the couch and we started repeating the first night.  I was wearing gym shorts and as I got on top of her and kissed her, that seafoam dress kept riding up and showing her panties.  They were cotton, said Victoria’s Secret on them and were nearly the exact same color as the dress.  She tugged the dress down a couple of times before finally saying something to the effect of fuck it....I told her I liked it better that way and we continued.  I’m putting my dick right on her pussy and thrusting again.  I pull the dress up even higher and her titties fall out.  She has/had really pretty nipples...puffy and poky. Really round and dark. They were hard and easy to play with. She’s on her back on the couch and I don’t want to be the one to invite myself to her room.  So I don’t.  She’s fucking into it though.  I give them a little lick and suck and she’s grabbing my dick through my shorts. That hard nipple between my lips, sucking and licking softly. Little moans. She likes nipple play. I’m on top of her kinda hovering and holding myself up with my arms. She’s grabbing my dick like she’s mad at it so I stop sucking for a minute. Through those soft gym shorts. Tugging hard.  Beating me off through them. I sit upright on my ass and feet on floor and she keeps going.  She sits up too and puts her hands in the waist and pulls shorts out a little...getting a peek.  She sticks her hand down there and smiles.  I smiled and helped the process by pulling them down.  I’m sitting in the middle of the couch, she’s stroking me good. My head leaned back just relaxed and enjoying it. I’m telling her how good it feels. You’re amazing, yes, like that. Your hands feel so good. Her hands were really soft.  I wouldn’t say she really sucked it...but she did lean over and put it in her mouth so it counts. A few licks up and down shaft. A couple of sucks and then back to Jerking.  Handjob was really good and I told her she was going to make me cum....she kept tugging and jerking really firmly and I rotated my hips a toward her so I could cum on her legs and stomach.  I’m not going to let a pretty bitch jerk me off or suck me off and not cum on her. That would be a wasted opportunity. If life gives you the chance to cum on a pretty bitch, you cum on her. By the time it actually shot out I was almost facing her and she’s tugging and twisting and I know it’s going to be a big one. An intense one. Most of it sprayed her thighs, panties and stomach. Biggest shot was that area between her belly and her bush. I came a lot. It was good. She seemed pleased with herself. 

I had learned how to eat pussy by this point and I wanted to return the favor...i put my hand on her chest and laid her back down...I pulled those seafoam panties down and she spreads her legs for me like a good girl. She had her pussy trimmed pretty short...scissor cut I think, not super short and not shaved but a nice pretty triangle..and I went to work.  Licking her clit slowly and steadily....sucking a little...sliding my finger in and out.  She was really fucking tight. Little pussy. I didn’t just hammer away...first one finger then 2...I would slide and curl inside her a little. Slide and curl. Little drops of my cum were on her thighs and the money shot right above her bush. I clearly remember getting her pussy hair in my mouth and liking it.  She had her legs spread as far as possible and was fucking moaning. One foot on floor, other against back of couch and bent at knee.  She had really good sex noises. Not forced or fake. I spread her lips out wide and just licked her clit and soaked in the noises and the wetness, I knew I was killing it...she came and she came fucking hard. Grabbed my head, slapped the couch. I just kept flicking my tongue and she squealed. I loved those sounds and knowing she came on my mouth. Not going to say she screamed.  But she didn’t give a fuck who heard.  Not going to say she quivered in delight.  But I think she did.  There were some involuntary spasms. It wasn’t a put-on. It was good. Pretty sure she’d never had her pussy eaten like that. Never had it eaten that good. Not sure she had ever cum that hard either. I asked her if she liked it and she just breathed really hard like she had just run 10 miles and couldn’t get words out and nodded. Told her I did too. I remember kissing her immediately after with her pussy juice all over my face. She didn’t object or back away at all. I still had my shorts down and my dick was resting on her bush and close to her pussy as we made out. We weren’t in a rush to get dressed or clean up. But nothing more was going to happen. Her pussy stayed out, my dick stayed out. I made sure to take many mental pictures to file away of her pussy and titties. We kissed a little more just exposed like that. Maybe 2-3 minutes. I was hard again but there were no further activities. I got dressed, she wiped the cum off her belly with her hands and we kissed goodnight. Thinking this could become a thing and the first of many.

It did not become a thing.  She moved home for the summer without telling me bye and I even found her number and called her and she politely declined.  Boyfriend guilt I guess. I never saw her again. Flash forward 19 years

I see her in public with lots of people around.  We are outdoors and she walks toward me in a fucking pair of yoga pants.  She didn’t just walk, she sashayed.  She says, “I bet you don’t even remember me” and I cut her off right there.  I said “of course I remember you” and what my mind was thinking was not what I said.  What I thought was ‘once you pick somebody’s pussy hair out of your mouth, its hard to forget’.  But surrounded by so many people and not being a d-bag...i just say ‘of course I remember you...you look exactly the same’.  I think that was pretty smooth and I’m not usually smooth.  A subtle compliment to say she still pretty bad but nothing that could be taken the wrong way. She smiles and I ask her how its going blah, blah...and she walks away with that booty in those pants.  That was over a year ago. 

Flash forward to recently.  Fate has thrown us together.  Not in that way.  She’s married and I assume happily.  But I don’t see the husband often.  Its usually just her.  We are friends on facebook and they have a shared account.  Its always very polite and cordial.  Friendly. One time it was just us and she mentioned how long she had been out of school and I slyly said something like that’s impossible, seems like yesterday. (hint hint, I remember your fucking panties, and your poky nipples). She really does look the same.  I know she remembers and like I said about others...that’s fucking hot.  Does she think about how good I licked that pussy every time she sees me? She has to right? How I made her squirm and how she took my dick out and how it felt. Even if she fucked 50 guys later, you never forget. The red dress was nice and all and we talked for a few minutes before leaving.  She leaned in to tell me something privately.  Not super close but she lowered her voice. I pretended not to hear everything and said what? I heard her fine I just wanted her to lean in closer and invade more personal space. She leaned closer, repeated it, I leaned closer and listened. She also leaned down at one point and I took a quick peek and saw pretty much her whole bra.  It was black and basic and she didn’t know it was visible. It was all innocent and I made it sound dirtier than it was. But the titties still look good. There was no touching and even when she talked quietly about something pretty dull, I wasn’t brushing against her. Just talking to you earlier made me feel little bolder to see if I could get her closer. Share a secret. A boring secret. Really just something she didn’t want one person to overhear.

That’s it.  That’s the full truth and story.  She still wears yoga pants occasionally and I see her 2 or 3 times a week.  Most times its just hey...bye.  See you later.  Nothing will ever happen. But sometimes she seems to try to get a minute or a second alone. And she still has soft hands.

I also realize how unlikely this sounds. But it’s true. I tried to think of a way of sneaking a pic with her in background so you could see the dress. But that felt dirty and shameful. Like...look at this pretty tree and her being far left of frame. It’s also kind of cheesy to post a handjob story after you talked about getting skullfucked. But it is what it is. Maybe I can sneak an innocent pic later

[damienthepious]

>:3c hey i got two this week. happy LKT babes!!

Scattered On My Shore (Chapter 3)

[Ch 1] [Ch 2] [ao3] [Ch 4] [Ch 5] [Ch 6] [Ch 7] [Ch 8] [Ch 9] [Ch 10] [Ch 11] [Ch 12] [Ch 13] [Ch 14] [Ch 15] [Ch 16] [Ch 17] [Ch 18] [Ch 19]

Fandom: The Penumbra Podcast

Relationship: Lord Arum/Sir Damien/Rilla, Sir Damien/Rilla

Characters: Rilla, Lord Arum, Sir Damien

Additional Tags: Second Citadel, Lizard Kissin’ Tuesday, Pre-Relationship, (for the three of them. it’s established r/d), Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Injury, Injury Recovery,  Hurt/Comfort,  (this will also be), Enemies to Lovers, (for damien and arum eventually lol)

Fic Summary: Strange things wash up out of the lake near Rilla’s hut, on occasion. But this monster… this monster is certainly the strangest.

Chapter Summary: Sir Damien and Rilla discuss the issue at hand.

Chapter Notes: did u want: canon typical Damien spiraling? <3

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Arum is stable, the offending injury has been cleaned again and sealed and dressed and hopefully, hopefully, this time it will actually start to heal. Rilla’s mind buzzes, exhaustion and adrenaline and the satisfaction of a problem solved. That little shard of black talon (definitely talon, now that she’s seen it up close; add the satisfaction of a called shot, too) is safely and carefully stashed away in a clean sealed vial for later analysis, where it can’t do any more harm. And Arum-

The sedative probably won’t wear off for hours. Probably for the best, considering how exhausted he was before he went under. It’s probably just her imagination, just wishful thinking, but he looks… calmer. Like his sleep is more restful, now, than it had been. Imagination or no, she takes some satisfaction in that, too.

Rilla washes her hands, splashes her face, and when she meets her own eye in the little mirror above her washbasin she sees the bags under her eyes and the hair clouding around her face and the manic tilt to her expression and she- laughs.

Damien. Oh, Damien-

What the hell is she going to do about him?

She could be irritated with him just for coming into her exam room, whether or not the door was locked, but- well, it’s not like he wouldn’t have some rule breaking to throw back in her face. She sighs, dragging her palm over her mouth and noting the visible exhaustion that’s making her shoulders sag.

Well. No point putting it off, right?

She checks on Arum one more time, resettling the blankets more securely around his shoulders, ensuring that he’s warm enough, leaving a cup of water beside the bed in case he wakes before she does (whatever happens with Damien, however she gets him out of her hair, she’s going to get some sleep after this, she needs to).

Dead asleep, still, but- he mutters something, some whispery wordlessness as the back of her hand presses to his forehead to make sure his temperature is still consistent, and the breathy murmur and the way his resting expression goes even softer makes Rilla gently smile before she can help herself, and her brain is still buzzing as she thinks, rest well, you ridiculous monster, and heal.

She steps away from the cot, and she sighs, then. This next part is going to be unpleasant.

Damien is pacing in a straight line when she exits the exam room, turning on his heel to keep going in the same stuck path before he registers that she’s joining him, and then his eyes widen.

“Oh my heart, you are safe! Oh, my dearest Rilla, I was terrified that you had been- I felt only moments from bolting in to ensure that you had not been-”

“Damien. I wasn’t in danger,” she says, keeping her voice low and gesturing for Damien to follow her as she steps away from the door to the exam room, away from the possibility of waking Arum accidentally. Her hut isn’t that big, and it’s not like they could have this conversation outside, but they can at least stand in the kitchen, a little ways away where they won’t literally be shouting (she assumes they’ll end up shouting, frankly) so damn close to Arum.

“I know you are terribly brave, my love,” Damien says as he stumbles behind. “But surely even you must understand- I do not know what sort of- of experiment you are intending to run, but I must advise-”

“He’s not an experiment,” Rilla growls, bristling because she already, already regrets the brief window during which she… did kind of think of him that way. He deserves better than that.

“Regardless, regardless of the why, it cannot continue, surely you must understand that. The danger- the danger the creature presents, to yourself, to any other patients you may have, to the Citadel itself! Rilla surely you can see that it must be destroyed-”

“You’re not touching him, Damien. He’s my patient-”

“It is a monster-”

“Yeah, I gathered that Damien, thanks, but you still aren’t touching him. He’s my patient, and he’s one of a kind, and he’s not gonna hurt me. If he wanted to, he definitely already would have tried something. He’s still weak as hell but he’s stubborn and he would have tried, if he really wanted.”

“Of course the monster wants to hurt you, my precious flower. That is simply what monsters do.”

Rilla scowls hard, turning away from him to pull the curtains aside, realizing with no small degree of wonder that it’s dark outside again. Already. Already? Before she woke Arum to discuss pulling the talon out, she’s sure it couldn’t have been much past sunrise. Saints she needs to sleep. But before she can-

“Damien, I’m gonna put this as simply as I can. He is my patient. That means that it’s my job to take care of him, and to make sure he’s safe and that his injuries are treated. I’m finally at a point where I’m making progress, and-”

“Finally,” Damien echoes, his brow furrowing as his thoughts churn. “Finally? How long have you- how long has this been going on, precisely?”

“Few days,” Rilla says, noncommittal. She- she isn’t quite sure, anymore. She’s been keeping hourly notes, coded longhand, but she’d put it on pause for the surgery, and-

“So,” he says, sounding pained, “when I came to you last, and asked-”

“I lied,” she says flatly. “I lied, because I knew you would respond like this.”

“I am attempting to do my duty, my love. I must protect you and every citizen of the Citadel, must cleanse the monsters' blight upon this land-”

“Not this monster,” Rilla says. “Not him. He doesn’t need cleansing.” She grins, a little wildly. “I already disinfected him pretty thoroughly.”

“You cannot jest about this, Rilla. Surely, surely you know I cannot allow this, it is-”

“Treason?”

Damien blanches, his face going vaguely ashen, and his voice is near-mournful when he answers. “Rilla, my heart, my forever-flower you know that I would never accuse you of something so vile-”

“Even if it’s technically true?”

Damien’s entire expression freezes, as if she has stabbed him. “You can’t mean that. You wouldn’t-”

“He was hurt, Damien,” Rilla says. “And I’m a doctor. I’m just doing my job, as far as I’m concerned. But I very much doubt that the Citadel will see it that way.”

“He is a monster, my love- he could- he could do anything to you, he could kill you or steal you away or-”

Rilla rolls her eyes. “Or lie in bed complaining about the fact that he’s too weak to even stand. Oh no. Whatever will I do to defend myself against the constant annoyance of monsterkind.”

“Rilla you have seen as well as I have the cruelties done by its ilk, the violence and pain! Any benevolence must be a trick, it must be, meant to lull you into a false sense of safety around such a dangerous beast! A devious machination, meant to make you lower your guard for the moment he will strike and then what, my dearest love? What will happen, when you, with your gentle miraculous healing hands, deliver the beast back to strength enough that he may enact his plan? Oh Saint Damien protect us, what will happen when he has been healed enough to harm again? What then, my Rilla?”

“He’s not gonna hurt me,” Rilla says, entirely dismissive. “He won’t. He-” she interrupts herself with a deep yawn, jaw going wide as tears pop into her eyes. “Oh, Saints. I thought I could have this argument right now but I absolutely can’t, Damien. Can you please just trust me, at least enough not to do anything tonight? Go back to the Citadel and we can talk about this in the morning. Right now, I’ve barely slept since I found him, and now that I think I’ve finally dealt with the worst of it and got him stable- I could really use a frickin’ nap.”

“No,” Damien says, slashing his hand through the air. “No, I refuse to leave you helpless and unprotected while that- that creature-”

“My patient.”

“Awaits a moment of weakness! Awaits a moment of vulnerability, wherein he may creep close and destroy you, or curse you, or- or any number of terrible intentions that could come to pass the very instant your mind is settled into well-deserved rest, my love. I cannot stand idly by while-”

“Oh for Saints’ sake, Damien, he’s sedated. He’s not going to slit my throat in my sleep. I promise.”

“It could all be a trick, Rilla. Even with your brilliant mind- the machinations of monsterkind are often more clever than one would expect, and what if this is all some scheme? You are a genius, my Rilla, the greatest doctor in all of the Citadel, and certainly the monsters at large are aware of your prowess, are aware of how many precious lives you have personally gentled back to the realm of the living after countless heinous beasts have expended their most vicious effort to send them to their grave! A doctor of your skill and status- surely monsterkind must be desperate to remove your ferocious protective presence from thwarting their attempts-”

“Damien. First, please try to keep your volume down. I know this is- stressful for you, but the hut is small and the yelling is- not helpful. Second- it’s really flattering that you think they’d pay that much attention to me but I really think you’re overreacting.” She takes a moment to breathe, then sighs quite deeply. “Look, if you’re so worried about it, you can stay here for the night.” She smiles gently, reaching a hand to cup his cheek. “I’m sure you already had a long day before coming over here. Come to bed with me? If it’ll make you feel better, if it’ll make you feel like I’m safer, you know that I love sleeping with your arms around me-”

“I cannot lie idle and sleeping while such a beast rests but one room over, Rilla! I cannot sleep at all while it remains a threat-”

Rilla sighs and drops her hand. “Fine, Damien, fine. If you don’t want to rest with me, then you don’t have to, but I am going to bed and you are not touching my patient. Understand me?” She glares, and the force of her ire could knock Damien to the floor. His mouth goes dry, his words freezing. “If you undo any of my hard work I will not forgive you for that. Do you understand me? I will not forgive you,” she says in a low voice, and Damien swallows. “I don’t care if you wanna sit and guard the door, that’s annoying but it won’t hurt anything, but don’t you dare interrupt his rest.” She pauses. “Or mine, for that matter. Now if you’ll excuse me, Sir Damien?”

She gives him a tight, angry sort of smile, then excuses herself towards her bedroom, her shoulders already sagging again with the weight of her exhaustion, and Damien’s heart aches for her, aches for her to be safe and rested and in his arms-

But he must do his duty, first. He must protect her.

Damien paces outside the door to the room the monster currently occupies, his mind roiling and racing and terrified, and he whispers low for guidance. Rilla’s hut is not particularly large, and he has learned his lesson many times that if he prays as he naturally wishes to, he will keep his beloved from sleep rather effectively, and he does not wish to anger her any further just now. So: whispers. Saint Damien will hear him just as well, anyway. It is only for the throbbing in his own heart that his volume yearns to rise.

A monster. A monster, and his beloved Rilla so determined to see it healthy again. One of a kind- and certainly that is even more of a danger than if this were some ordinary ogre, is it not? What tricks might this beast possess? He could have any magic, and skill, any trick up his sleeve-

“What if it is is not sleeping?” He whispers, eyes sharp on the door as he paces, compulsively drawing his bow, the curve of it feeling like safety in his hand. “What if it is already scheming, already creeping towards my Rilla’s room?” His volume is rising, he can barely control it, he tries, but the words are a deluge he caught up in, helpless, helpless. “What if it is already crawling close to her bedside while she breathes light and lovely into her pillow and then it smiles a demon’s smile in the dark and it laughs at her precious kindness and then at last it raises a savage claw-”

Damien chokes a breath, pressing a hand hard over his heart and another over his mouth. No. No, he is between the beast and his beloved. He would have seen- he would know. That- that is merely his fear taking him by the throat. He must stand tranquil against it.

“Saint Damien- oh Saint Damien please,” he murmurs low, wringing his hands and trying, oh trying to slow his breathing. “Please your tranquility my Saint, I must be tranquil if I am to keep her safe, as she deserves to be-”

Rilla forbade him from harming her “patient.” Forbade him from disturbing its rest, as absurd as that is (what foul dreams fill a monster’s mind in repose? What passes for peace in such a violent, chaotic creature?). But-

She did not forbid him from entering the room. Did she?

He considers that. He looks to Rilla’s bedroom door, closed tight against him.

No- not closed tight. If he abandons his charge to protect her and goes to lay by her side, he is certain that she will gather him up in her arms and her bed and soon he will be blessed to hold her soft and lightly snoring in his arms. She is angry with him, in some misguided way, but she did not lock the door. She would not lock him out.

She did not lock him out of the room where the monster coils, either, though.

He ponders, for a few moments longer, before the thought springs unbidden again- the monster, slipping off of Rilla’s examination cot, slithering across the floor, up the walls, over the ceiling-

What powers it may have, Damien does not know. Camouflage? The ability to creep, silent? He does know of the viciously sharp claws this creature possesses, the jagged teeth that showed in his slackly open mouth-

What if it is attempting to escape?

Out the window, yes, and then- anywhere. It could slither off to find cohorts, other beasts with which to return, to raze Rilla’s cozy, humble home to the ground. It could slink around the side of the hut, could find another window- Rilla’s window, could insinuate itself back inside and-

Another deep, shaking breath.

No. Even if the creature is silent, Damien will hear the pane of glass shatter, if the creature escapes.

He cannot simply-

Damien cannot-

Every moment it is unoccupied, his mind will spin. It will tumble down into the darkness of catastrophe, will show him newer and darker possibilities, and so long as he does not know, not for certain, what the monster is doing in there, Damien will be trapped by these feelings, these foul potentialities.

He must enter. He must have his eyes on this beast. It cannot possibly harm Rilla nor anyone else, if he has it safely under his scrutiny.

And Rilla did not forbid him from entering.

He has one hand on the knob of the door, one on his bow, and he creaks the wood open. His entire frame tenses for the strike, whether that strike be his own or the leaping of the monster, but no such strike occurs. It is dim, in the room. Dim, and still, and quiet.

It is mostly quiet, anyway. After a pause, the door ajar but not yet passed through, Damien recognizes the slow, soft noise of breath, coming from inside. He frowns, but he supposes that it is better, is it not, to know that the beast is still where he can keep an eye upon it. If he had opened this door and it was still as death, and there were no noises of life whatsoever- certainly that would have been a more frightening outcome.

Damien takes a step, and then another, and he leaves his hand on the knob as he suspiciously enters this shadowed place.

Still, no attack comes. The light pouring in through the doorframe illuminates enough that Damien can see the shape on the cot, a long figure curled slightly on its side, covers shifting slowly above its chest.

The monster breathes.

It is repellent. This creature, this vile thing soft-sleeping here in a room meant for human healing, for care, for the comfort of his lovely Rilla’s talents and compassion, it is abhorrent. And Damien knows that Rilla is compassionate, oh certainly she is, but this- this? Certainly, certainly, love, there must be some limits, mustn’t there?

The monster breathes and sleeps and does not move, and Damien is even more nervous, even more furious than he was before.

He paces, but the sound of his shoes clicking on the floor sets his teeth on edge. What- what if his noise wakes the creature? If it attacks him, certainly it would be justifiable, to retaliate. Of course it would. But-

Rilla warned him not to disturb the creature’s rest.

So, until she wakes again, at least, he will not.

There is a stool, close beside the bed. When he had entered earlier, Rilla had been perched just in front of it with her hands on the beast, as if she had been seated at some point, and slowly edged forward in tension and focus until she had hovered entirely away.

If Damien wishes to sit, he is going to need to come close enough to the beast to take the seat for himself.

He takes each step across the floor as if it could be rigged with traps, as if more monsters might leap from any given shadow. This… proves unjustified. Yet again Damien is unmolested by monstrous intent, and when he comes close by the bed he stares down at the creature.

Evil. Evil made manifest. Long limbs hidden beneath layers of cloth, sharp claws obscured, the angularity of that body made slack and strange by sleep, that reptilian face-

The monster’s mouth hangs just slightly open, the tips of sharp fangs barely, barely visible behind his thin lips, the ridged line of his brow softened, the low light gleaming on his colorful, mottled scales-

Damien’s jaw tightens. He picks up the stool and moves it away from the bed, moves it to the corner nearest the door, and he perches up upon it facing the bed with a hand on his bow and a scowl set on his face.

The monster does not wake for this, either.

He scowls for quite some time, until his cheeks are a little bit sore. Then he settles into a glare, his determination too strong to be unsettled by boredom. This is only a trick, regardless of the way this creature looks- fragile, curled there on Rilla’s examination cot. More of his scales are bandaged than not, from what Damien saw earlier, when Rilla was working upon him, and the frill at his neck is nearly in tatters, one of his elegantly curved horns cracked (Damien wonders if that is the sort of thing that heals- not that this creature will have time to find that out, of course), and even despite the undeserved serenity of sleep this monster looks exhausted.

A trick. All of it a trick, of course.

… but a very, very convincing one.

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[pastelbatfandoms]

Pick 14 OC’s

1. Roxy (WWE) 2. Michelle (Riverdale) 3. Renee (The Flash) 4. Rika (NOES) 5. Carrie (Gotham) 6. Helena (AHS) 7. Rihannon (HP)

8. Amara (Marvel) 9. Meghana (Descendants) 10. Esme (Descendants) 11. Marianna (TW) 12. Suzanna (TWD) 13. Mandy (ST) 14. Ashlee (AVTED)

1. Would you rather date 5 or 12?

Suzanna. I feel like Carrie might kill me if I pissed her off....

2. A man wearing a thong and boxers on his head comes up to 8 and demands their money. Their reaction? Amara would taken aback and just look at the guy weird. “Earth has some strange customs.” She mutters as she hands him some Asgardian coins.

3. 6 comes home and finds that 2 has broken into their house and is stealing their possessions. What happens? Ah hell...literally. Michelle,I’d run. 

4. Would 13 ever have sex with 9? lol their is no way they’d meet,but if they did I mean Meghana is a Demi God so probably. 

5. What would 5 and 10’s lovechild look like?  Well She or he would definitely have dark hair,and striking Romanesque features with bright eyes. In a word,stunning. 

6. What would 7 never ever admit to the world?  Other then not telling Muggles she’s a witch...I’m not sure.

7. Do you think that 1 is sexy/cute? um yes lol

8. Is 9 or 14 more likely to commit murder? Ashlee,I mean she kills Deadites all the time. 

9. What is the last thing that 14 would ever wear? Anything too frilly and princess like. 

10. Why would 13 hate 7? I have no idea...maybe jealous of her because one she knows magic and also she can have the men in her life at the same time!

11. Is 4 a virgin? No

12. What would 2 get 3 for their birthday? Michelle would probably get her a gift card to a Restaurant or a jewelry store. 

13. Does 9 go to church? No,doesn’t exist in Auradon. 

14. 12 and 1 go scuba diving. What happened? Skipping,because I have no idea. 

15. Would 6 survive a zombie apocalypse?

Dang wish this question had been for 12...but Helena would be fine,chances are her Husband made The Apocalypse so....

16. Who’s taller, 4 or 14?

I think Rika.

17. 5 and 8 get in a fight. Who surrenders first?

The Carrion Crow vs The Valkyrie...That would be some battle! I can only seeing Carrie surrendering first because Amara has powers. 

18. Does 13 trust 3 enough to drive with them during a heavy rainstorm in heavy traffic? yeah sure,just don’t let Mandy drive. 

19. Could 8 ever win a swimsuit competition? YES

20. What scares 7 more than anything? Losing her loved one’s,especially to He who shall not named...

21. How long could you stand to be around 10? A good while,she’d be fun. 

22. Your old high school enemy comes up to you on the street and punches you in the face. What would 13 do? Mandy would beat the crap out her. 

23. What would 2 say/do when extremely drunk? I’m just going to put this gif here...Remember Michelle starts off with Jughead...

24. Would 1 ever crossdress? like wear a suit? Sure I guess.

25. 1, 8, and 14 are playing tug-of-war against 7, 9, and 12. Which side would win? Roxy,Amara,Ashlee VS Rihannon,Meghana and Suzanna. 

If Amara couldn’t use her powers I’d say Meghana would win for her team because she is the daughter of Hercules. 

26. 11 and 3 are arguing. Who resorts to violence first? Marianna she is a Wolf...Good luck Renee. 

27. Does 9 or 4 have a worse temper? Meghana,She got pretty pissed after Hades broke up with her. 

28. Who would you least want to meet in a dark alley, 14, 11, or 6? Helena,Definitely... 

29. If 10 got drafted for the army, would they go for it or dodge the draft? She’d dodge it like a thief in the night ^_~

30. What is 13’s worst memory?

Billy’s death.

31. Why would the government be after 3? Because of her connection to Reverse Flash. 

32. You run into 2 on a busy street? What is the first thing you notice about them?

Her Gothic attire

33. Would 11 ever get cosmetic surgery?

No

34. Does 5 love or hate themselves?

She does to an extent,but I feel like she regrets some of her past actions and who she associated with/dated. 

35. 13 gets hit on by someone of their own gender? Their reaction?

Ok,I mean she’d be flattered but she doesn’t really swing that way. That I know of....

36. What is 14’s worst habit or addiction?

This might change,since I haven’t written her into a story yet. But I think Ashlee has a tendency to think she can go it alone,she’s very stubborn and doesn’t forgive easily either. 

37. What kind of movie would 11 go see? An Action movie

38. Does 10 still live with their parents? Technically Esme lives at a boarding school,so no. 

39. Does 6 dance?

Yes,usually to entice Michael or to entice someone to their side. Helena is also very good at swing dancing as well. 

40. 3, 5, 12, and 14 are playing poker. Who is the most likely to cheat?

Carrie.

41. What would be the main thing standing between 1 and 10’s love?

the fact that there in 2 Different stories, Michelle is with Juggie and Esme is with Charming. Michelle would remind Esme too much of what she was trying to escape from the isle. 

42. Is 2 or 4 more mature?

Rika,she is older. 

43. Does 1 or 8 have a bigger ego?

Amara,though Roxy does know a thing or two about ego’s,dating wrestlers...

44. Would 12 rather drive a small, environmentally friendly car, or a huge Hummer with bad gas mileage? A hummer,because at that point it wouldn’t matter. A vehicle is a Vehicle in The Apocalypse,though she’d prefer a Motorcycle.

45. Does 6 care about their appearance? Yes,she’s spent years not being able to see it as a Ghost,so now she can be quite fussy at times. But given who she’s dated in the past that’s not surprising....

46. 5, 7, and 14 go into a haunted house. What happens?

Carrie wouldn’t be phased she’s seen worse,so has Ashlee but she hopes there’s no ACTUAL evil dead here,which would be what Rhiannon would try and find out. 

47. 13 is walking along and gets pulled aside by a prostitute. Do they accept the offer? omg what is with these questions...poor Mandy lol honestly living where they do she’d probably be used to it,she’d just brush her off and walk away. She has Billy,she doesn’t need to PAY for it. 

48. Does 10 have or want kids? No she’s too young,though I’m sure Chad will want an Heir at some point. 

49. How will 13 probably die?

omg! Easy answer probably by a Demogorgon!

50. Why was 6 picked on at school?

Helena was actually...because she was different then the other kids,an orphan Witch,no one dared pick on her after she met Dandy though. 

51. For what would 11 worship 4?

Marianna would look up to Rika because she’s “fought” a dream demon and survived,even though she’s only human. 

52. 3 and 14 are running against each other for president. Who do you vote for?

Probably Renee she seems a bit more level headed then Ashlee but then Eobard might become Vice president...I suppose it’s better then Ash! lol

53. 1, 8, 12, and 14 gang up on 5. How long does 5 last?

Quite awhile and this must be when Carrie is bad again,otherwise Amara would have no reason to fight her. 

54. Who would 11 rather take to the prom, 2 or 9?

Mari would take Shelle to the prom,she’s a bit more low key.

55. Would 7 ever wear a leopard-print miniskirt in public?

Maybe

56. Who has a more normal weight, 4 or 10?

I have no idea,I suppose Esme.

57. Why would 13 be arrested?

For Beating up someone or stealing or underage drinking/smoking.

58. 3, 6, and 11 go to the movies. What happens?

Renee would be watching it,Helena would be bored and Mari would try to enjoy it but would get irritated at the group of people talking to loud and kicking her seat,that she’d promptly get up and tell them off. 

59. 13 is trying to escape from a burning building, but sees 1 trapped in the corner. Would they try and save 1?

Yes bad girl or not she’s still not going to leave someone to die.

60. 14 and 8 are exploring an abandoned tomb, when 14 suddenly falls through the floor and barely manages to avoid the spike traps. How would 8 save them?

With her powers,she’s levitate Ashlee back up. 

61. Would 2 rather marry 6 or 14?

Probably Ashlee.

62. Does 10 smoke or drink?

:: Nope.

63. The house is about to explode, and 9 can only save 3 or 12. Who do they choose?

Suzanna...Hopefully Renee could get herself out or Thawne could come to her rescue. 

64. Would 11 ever deal drugs?

:: No, never.

65. Did 13 graduate high school?

she’s still in school

66. 7 tries cooking a new icky looking dish and invites 4, 9, and 13 to dinner. Who eats the dish? Mandy,she don’t care. Its better then nothing,she’s not as picky as she used to be. 

67. Would 3 ever pierce their tongue?

:: No

68. What about 9 annoys 14?

That she’s a God yet she can’t fix The Deadite problem...

69. Does 1 or 5 sleep more?

Roxy

70. Who does 14 like most out of 2, 8, and 12? Who do they like the least? Suzanna,they can relate to each other more,though I feel like Suzanna would be the mother figure,Amara would be the cool big sister and Michelle would be like Ashlee’s twin or BFF. 

[hardtobcmysxlf]

1-70

Okay first of all, how dare you...

Second of all, here you go finally anon, was hanging out with my friend last night so I wasn't on my phone much...

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents?

I feel like I have a somewhat decent relationship with my mom, it's definitely better than how it was when I was a teenager. As for my dad, he passed away when I was 8 and I miss him so much, but we had a great relationship.

02: Who did you last say “I love you” to?

The last person I said I love you to was my grandma last week.

03: Do you regret anything?

Hmm...I can't think of anything that I super regret 🤷‍♀️

04: Are you insecure?

Yuuuup I sure am!!

05: What is your relationship status?

Single af

06: How do you want to die?

Probably in my sleep or surrounded by my family and close friends if it were something killing me slowly...

07: What did you last eat?

A breakfast grilled cheese a couple hours ago when I got home from my friend's house

08: Played any sports?

I used to play soccer and softball when I was a kid, but haven't played anything since

09: Do you bite your nails?

I don't necessarily bite them, but I do pick at them and clip at them if like they're too long for me or there's a snaggy nail or ya know...anxiety...

10: When was your last physical fight?

I've never been in a physical fight sooo never...

11: Do you like someone?

Kinda?? There's a couple people I like on here and a girl and a guy I both kind of like at my work 😂 #gottalovebeingbiamIright?

12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours?

I feel like I have but I can't remember when

13: Do you hate anyone at the moment?

I don't "hate" anyone, but I do have some strong dislike for a couple of people I've met last year...

14: Do you miss someone?

My friend who's house I left even though we hung out all day yesterday xD I miss my dad, my great-aunt and a couple of other friends

15: Have any pets?

Pfffft I have A LOT of pets, I have chickens, 3 goats, 2 turkeys, 5 dogs (4 of them are foster fails from my family doing animal rescue) 6 cats (all rescue) a few ducks and a bunny. I'm hoping I got them all and counted correctly lol.

16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment?

Honestly? In pain because of cramps (yay being a girl) and a bit sad because I didn't want last night to end because it was so fun and nice being out of my house!

17: Ever made out in the bathroom?

HA NOPE

18: Are you scared of spiders?

Sometimes yes, but like the daddy long leg ones...nah

19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?

Oh hel yeah! I'd go back to being a kid so my dad would be here <3

20: Where was the last place you snogged someone?

I....I've never snogged anyone 🙈

21: What are your plans for this weekend?

Well now I'm gonna just chill in my room until I gotta get ready for work this week

22: Do you want to have kids? How many?

Yes and 1 or 2 at most

23: Do you have piercings? How many?

4 in each ear and 1 nose piercing

24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)?

English and a tiiiiiiiiny bit of math

25: Do you miss anyone from your past?

An old friend of mine, even though they just stopped being friends with me a month or so ago because I'm friends with someone else again...and these two actually used to be friends years ago

26: What are you craving right now?

Something with lots of chocolate syrup

27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart?

Nope, I'm always the one getting my heart broken

28: Have you ever been cheated on?

Pfffft most likely yes

29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?

I don't think so, if I did then they never told me I did...

30: What’s irritating you right now?

Surprisingly nothing xD but I know something or someone will probably later!

31: Does somebody love you?

I know my family and my animals love me.

32: What is your favourite color?

Either black or blue

33: Do you have trust issues?

YES

34: Who/what was your last dream about?

Ya know, I don't even remember my last dream so I couldn't tell you

35: Who was the last person you cried in front of?

Umm...I think my sister because she showed me a fan-video on youtube and it hit me in the feels

36: Do you give out second chances too easily?

Hahahaha depending on the person yes, sometimes even more than 2 chances!!!

37: Is it easier to forgive or forget?

It depends on the situation for me.

38: Is this year the best year of your life?

I sure fucking hope it is!!!!

39: How old were you when you had your first kiss?

Umm...first kiss with a guy? I think 20? I can't remember, first kiss with a girl? I was 21

40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked?

Ew no

51: Favourite food?

French fries.

52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason?

Yes and no

53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?

Set an alarm on my phone and stared at the old glow-in-the-dark stars and planets on my friend's ceiling until I fell asleep 😂

54: Is cheating ever okay?

NO

55: Are you mean?

I can be if you piss me off or talk shit about me behind my back

56: How many people have you fist fought?

None!

57: Do you believe in true love?

I feel like it honestly depends if I vibe with the person.

58: Favourite weather?

Sunny but not hella hot, or maybe some clouds.

59: Do you like the snow?

I like it for the aesthetic, not the cold lol

60: Do you wanna get married?

I do yes

61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?

If its someone I know and am close to like a partner or a close friend, yes! If it's some random stranger, then noooooo

62: What makes you happy?

Cosplaying, video games, coffee, animals, actually having the same interests as someone or being able to be myself with someone without feeling judged or stupid.

63: Would you change your name? Nope! I like my name :)

64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?

YUP YUP YUP!!!

65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

Tell them I'm flattered but not interested (unless I like him too idk) but I don't have any male friends

66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?

Umm no, I don't really have any male friends...

67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?

Does my lyft driver count? XD he told me some very interesting facts about one of the mountains here on my ride home LOL!

68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

One of my friends

69: Do you believe in soulmates?

I do yes

70: Is there anyone you would die for?

I'd die for my family, animals and a few friends

[lalka-laski]

1. Do you ever go back and look through all the surveys you’ve taken? Are there any answers that make you cringe, or that you’d answer differently next time around? I do that occasionally. There are certainly answers that make me cringe which is why all my former Facebook surveys are now PRIVATE. But it is fun to read through old ones. They’re little snapshots of my life at any given time, like journal entries.  2. What is something most everyday people don’t know or wouldn’t be able to guess about you? I love reading the profiles on WriteAPrisoner.Com and then researching the inmates’ crimes. I’ve never actually sent a letter to an inmate but I *might* consider it someday.  3. If you could have someone make you breakfast every morning, what kinds of things would you want them to make? As lovely as that sounds, I’m not much of a breakfast eater. I love breakfast food, but I’m rarely hungry in the mornings. Buuuut if someone wanted to serve me a mimosa every morning well, I wouldn’t mind ;)  4. Where is the scariest place you’ve ever been? What made it so terrifying? See, when you have crippling anxiety like me, ANYWHERE can be scary! 5. Did you celebrate Easter? Are there any holidays you are more inclined to celebrate than others? If so, which? My family celebrates Easter in the commercial sense in that we fill baskets with candy and have brunch etc. It’s actually one of my favorite holidays. I was so bummed this year when all the fun holidays like St. Patrick’s Day and Easter were smack-dab in the middle of quarantine! 

6. If you’re on the internet, what are you most likely to be doing? Scrolling Facebook or Twitter, or Googling the bizarre questions that pop into my head throughout the day 7. When was the last time you experienced a pleasant surprise? I don’t know, for some reason the pizza we ordered last night was like OUT OF THIS WORLD. It was our regular Domino’s order but it was tastier than anything we’ve ever had.  8. What were your favorite parts of the previous week? Do you have any plans for this week? Last week was go-go-go but it ended up but it was mostly fun stuff! Tommy visited for the weekend so we tried to pack as many activities into the weekend as we could. We hit up a lot of restaurants, shops and bars, plus a cemetery and a cidery! It’s hard to narrow it down to one ultimate favorite because the whole weekend was a blast. Although I am looking forward to a quieter weekend/week ahead to re-coop!  9. What was the last thing you deleted? The previous person’s answer to this 10. What colors make up the majority of your wardrobe? Is there any color you like, but don’t wear often? Despite my affinity for light colors and pastels, I own mostly black clothes. I guess just because they’re slimming and flattering? As for colors I don’t often wear: I try to steer clear of anything that’ll make me look even paler than I already am, so grays, beiges and yellows.  11. When was the last time you were in any amount of pain? I had slight cramps today. Although I wouldn't describe them as necessarily *painful.* Then again, women are tough as nails and we normalize this shit.  12. Do you have any unusual habits or preferences when it comes to food? I’m not a picky eater at all but I might have some unusual preferences. I prefer hot foods to be served at room temperature, particularly pizza. I like it when the cheese has solidified just a bit. If a pizza is delivered to me still piping hot, I’ll pop it in the fridge for a few so that the cheese can harden. 13. Tell a fact about the last person you spoke to. She’s a savior in my workplace (and my personal life, TBH). I really look up to her and I don’t tell her enough.  14. What is something you tend to carry with you everywhere? My phone, of course. But don’t we all?  15. What was the last thing you completed? The previous survey. LOL, what a productive work day I’m having!  16. Do you take pictures often? What are the main subjects of your photography? Definitely. My camera roll is comprised mostly of food and babies.  17. Post a picture of one of your favorite memories and tell the story behind it? 18. If you’re reading a book, how close are you to finishing it? Do you have any idea what you’ll read next? I was in the middle of a really gripping book a few weeks ago but life got too hectic for me to sit down and read. I really want to finish it but one of its main themes is death and I’m not sure if that’s a little too raw for me right now. So we’ll see. 

19. Is there anything you’ve been more optimistic about lately? My job prospects. I don’t want to go into further detail though because I’m afraid of jinxing it.  20. What does the sky look like right now? I couldn’t tell ya because I’m in a dungeon (aka the lower level of my office, which happens to be windowless).  21. What was the last thing you snacked on? I had soup for lunch but that wasn’t really “snacking.”  22. Do you prefer fruits or vegetables? I definitely buy/eat more veggies but I do love fruit!  23. When was the last time you had to ask for help? What about the last time someone asked you? I needed help stringing lights on my Halloween tree the other day. It’s funny because I told Glenn that I’d put up the tree entirely on my own. He knew that really meant “I’ll need lots of help” aaaand he was right. He was a great sport about it though!

As for the last time someone asked me for help uh... I’m blanking. Ha! What does that say about me? 24. Where was the last place you went? How long will it be until you leave the house again? I’m at work currently so I guess this is the last place I’ve gone. I’m heading home in an hour and I don’t plan to leave again ‘till tomorrow morning.  25. What’s the longest you’ve ever stayed inside? How about outside? I’ve stayed inside for several consecutive days before but I’m not sure what my record is. As for outdoors, uhhh only a matter of hours. A full day but no more than like 12 hours I’d say.  26. Who was the last person to hug you? Do you hug this person often? Glenny bear and yes of course, multiple times a day.  27. What are you most likely to argue or debate about? Silly, unimportant things.  28. What was the last show you watched? Have you seen it before, or is it something you’re watching for the first time? Catfish last night. Even though it’s been on for years I only started watching it a few nights ago. And I enjoy it as my bedtime show now. It’s perfect for that because it’s not too loud or action-packed, and it doesn’t require a ton of focus. It’s good to fall asleep to.

29. How would you describe your taste in clothing? What would a dream outfit look like to you? If money and time weren’t factors, my dream wardrobe is classic and feminine. I’d wear skirts and dresses everyday. But I’m lazy, tired and broke so I usually settle for jeggings or leggings most days. It’s kind of sad, tbh. I DO have good taste and a sharp eye for style but I feel I never get the opportunity to showcase that. 30. How has your day been so far? Pretty damn good actually! And I’m going home in less than an hour so it’ll only go up from here :)

[allofthisnonsenseplease]

firesonic152 - 06/19/2017 XDDDD IT;S OKAY GABE IS TOO SPELLBOUND TO REALIZE THE WEIRD FACTOR

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/19/2017 WHAT IS THIS BIZARRE MAGIC JACK HAS BOTTLE THAT SHIT AND WEAPONIZE IT

firesonic152 - 06/19/2017 he's a siren or something seriously

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/19/2017 :O au where he IS and he's got scales and shit all up his back

firesonic152 - 06/19/2017 OOO this.... is his curse

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/19/2017 XD

firesonic152 - 06/19/2017 is gabe a sailor or just a regular dude

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/19/2017 ffff Gabe is a pissed off force of fucking nature, the rage of a whole stand of dryads whose forest was burned down and Jack is a half human dryad who gets washed up along the banks of a river where the forest used to be i dunno

firesonic152 - 06/19/2017 ooooo i dig it

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/19/2017 **jack is a half human SIREN F U C K

firesonic152 - 06/19/2017 LOL gabe is so pissed off and then jack shows up and fuckin hypnotizes him LOL IT'S OKAY I GOT U

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/19/2017 XD just fukkin into the trash

firesonic152 - 06/19/2017 XDDDD yay gabe angst about whether or not jack actually cares or if it's just bc he's a siren!!!

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/19/2017 Jack has fallen in love with anger incarnate, and it's a damn good thing his inhuman side has given him enhanced healing abilities, 'cause gabe is not a gentle lover at first You think they're both maneaters? Like, Gabe gobbles up the soul and Jack gets the meat? Maybe Jack's full siren. He starts luring men in to replant the forest, then him and Gabe have a romantic dinner. They have a lovely white picket fence made of bones. I have found this humerus. XD

firesonic152 - 06/19/2017 LMAO JESUS THAT GOT KINDA DARK

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/19/2017 the sweet and horrifying monster AU no one asked for would it be better if the men who burned the forest knew they were killing dryads, so jack only goes after the ones gabe tells him are responsible?

firesonic152 - 06/19/2017 yayyyy jack gets weirdly horny after murder

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/19/2017 XD jack is a monster of many appetites

firesonic152 - 06/20/2017 so i started watching buffy the vampire slayer of all things today this is not what i thought i would be doing LMAO Concept for half siren Jack: he doesn't know he's half siren, he just thinks he's really good at getting guys into his bed LOL

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/20/2017 what happens if someone figures out what he is and accuses him of coercing his partners? what happens if that comes up shortly after he realizes that he might actually be in love with his most recent conquest, one Gabriel Reyes?

firesonic152 - 06/20/2017 !!!!!! awwww jack is all like "holy shit gabriel is kind of the Best Ever maybe i want more than a one night stand with him" and then whoever-it-is accuses him and he's like oh,,,,,, okay yeah that makes more sense than gabe actually liking me,,,,,,, meanwhile gabe is wondering when tf is jack gonna call

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/20/2017 ; ;

firesonic152 - 06/20/2017 When Gabe finally gets sick of waiting and gives Jack a call Jack is like nO

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/20/2017 okay, so if Jack won't talk, is Gabe gonna push? 'cause if Gabe takes no for an answer, how are they gonna get this resolved??

firesonic152 - 06/20/2017 Gabe probably realizes something is wrong, Jack is acting weird

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/20/2017 . . . how can he tell? XD

firesonic152 - 06/20/2017 LOL good question Oh maybe Jack makes up an excuse like he's sick or something and gabe is like oh no Jack's sick!! Let me go take care of him!! But you see Jack ISN'T SICK XDDDD

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/20/2017 was being mean to jack. 's prolly 'cause jack is no longer trying to set the world's record for most sexual partners w/in a week

AH!! Stupid panicking jack!! XD that one! THAT ONE!

and then he's like 'shit i have to play sick wtf i don't get sick how does this work???' and he makes a complete mess of it

and gabe figures it out right quick and is kinda pissed, but also way curious now 'cause there are tons of easier ways jack could've blown him off, so why'd he make this crappy effort?

firesonic152 - 06/20/2017 gah my phone died right after i sent that XD kay back!! LMAO ja c k lol what if gabe gets back at him pettily by pretending to believe him and going over the top w the caretaking

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/20/2017 omg YES. PLS. sicfic EXTREME EDITION XD

firesonic152 - 06/20/2017 LOL awwwww oh no what if jack thinks gabe is trying so hard to take care of him bc of the siren shit qoq

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/20/2017 OHHHHH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO X'D

firesonic152 - 06/20/2017 gabe insists on tucking him into bed and making him soup and getting a heating pad and cold washcloth and everything jack is wincing internally (and a little bit externally)

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/20/2017 he really wants to confess but he doesn't know how and it feels so nice to be cared for (when he pretends that Gabe is doing it for realsies and not bc of the siren shit) also, ngl, when I read gabe insists on tucking him into bed my brain immediately supplied: and tips over face-first into Jack's lips XD

firesonic152 - 06/20/2017 AHAHAHAHA awwwwwww gabe carries on until finally jack just like blurts something out probably lol like I'M SORRY YOU REALLY DON'T NEED TO DO THIS SORRY FOR MANIPULATING YOU all in a rush

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/20/2017 and Gabe's just: 'Well, it was a pretty poor attempt at manipulation. I knew you weren't sick. Wanna tell me why you were faking it after ignoring me all week, though?' Jack: . . . n  O ?

firesonic152 - 06/20/2017 LOL

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/20/2017 But Gabe sitting on the edge of the bed, and thinking maybe Jack was just shy and didn't know how to say that he likes gabe so he put on this big show for attention, and Gabe is a bit flattered by that thought, so he's mostly just amused at this point and thinking that things will be all right. He reaches out to where Jack is wringing his hands, and gently takes one of Jack's hands in his. He's looking back and forth between Jack's downturned face and the contrasting tones of their skin as he plays with Jack's hand.

"Tell me what's going on," he urges. "I won't laugh, I promise." He can hear the smile in his voice, though, and he leans closer to rest his head against Jack's.

Jack is slowly filling up with misery as his magic continues to work its effect on Gabe even though he'd never, ever, ever wanted to do anything so horrible. Especially not to Gabe.

pass. :D

firesonic152 - 06/20/2017 QOQ sobs quietly

gabe's confidence falters as jack only seems to retract further and further into his shell instead of opening up

jack slowly removes his hand from gabe's and inches carefully away, looking around skittishly

gabe tries to maintain his smile but it's getting more difficult. "whatever it is," he adds, "it's okay, you can trust me."

jack groans and hides his face in his hands. "it's... this is super cliche, but it's not you, it's me."

"that is the vaguest explanation you could have possibly come up with."

jack sighs and drags his hands down his face. "this isn't real, gabe. sorry. you can go home."

that doesn't clear anything up for gabe LOL

"i... don't understand," he says with a surprising amount of evenness.

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/20/2017 Gabe: have...have i entered the matrix or...?

firesonic152 - 06/20/2017 LOLLL

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/20/2017 XD I'M SO SORRY PLS CONTINUE

firesonic152 - 06/20/2017 LOL IT'S OKAY THAT'S TOTALLY WHAT HE'S THINKING

jack flops back on the bed miserably. "i'm not..." he struggles for words for a moment. "i'm not what you think, gabe. i'm not human. not... not completely."

gabriel has question marks above his head at this point he's so confused that they have manifested in reality

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/20/2017 XD

firesonic152 - 06/20/2017 Jack stalls for another minute and then finally gets out "I'm half siren and I manipulated you into sleeping with me by accident, it was a mistake, I'm sorry, I'm probably manipulating you right now, you can go now,,,," OKAY PASS XDDD

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/20/2017 FUCK THAT NOISE XD uhm... gimmie a minute ((this is why i don't rp X'D))

firesonic152 - 06/20/2017 XDDDD I'M WORRIED ABOUT MY PHONE DYING AGAIN

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/20/2017 plug it in, plug it in~! it's gonna take me a couple minutes

Gabe takes a moment to process what Jack's just told him. He understands the words, but... "Wait, wait, wait. That doesn't make sense. You're...? Jack, I've seen you. You're definitely human. Where did you get this idea from?"

Jack draws up his knees and locks his arms around them. He's made himself as small as possible--which isn't terribly small, given his size--and is huddled as far away from Gabriel as he can manage. He's the picture of misery as he talks, face hidden against his knees and voice muffled. He tells Gabe about the person who revealed his heritage to him and explained why he's never had an issue hooking up with anyone who caught his interest. Jack's ears are burning red at that admission--Jack, who had never shown any hint of self-consciousness before. Gabe feels sick at heart watching him. He isn't sure yet if he believes what Jack has told him, but it's obvious that Jack believes it.

"Even if--" Gabe pauses, knowing how skeptical he sounds while Jack is apparently baring his soul. "Even if that were true, do you really expect me to believe that the effects lasted all this time when you hadn't done anything on purpose?"

"I don't know." Jack's gruff voice is almost a whine. "Gabe--Gabriel. Even if it wore off, if I did.... If I actually...." He curls in even tighter on himself. "Please go. I don't want to make you do anything you don't want to do."

"You mean like leaving you here like this?" Gabe asks, deadpan.Jack flinches and looks up at him, wounded and uncertain.

"You can't trust me," he insists.

"I can trust my own judgment. I trust your sincerity right now, and I trust that you're hurting because you don't want to hurt me. You're the one with trust issues."

Jack opens his mouth, but nothing comes out, although he looks as if he'd like very much to argue that.

"You don't trust that what I feel right now is genuine. How about I confess something to you?" Gabe reaches out, catches one of Jack's hands and pulls it close to press it against his heart. "I felt something for you before you ever came on to me, back when all I knew about you was what I saw with my own eyes everyday and what I heard from the others. I've had you on my mind all week, wondering when you were going to call, but willing to give you space and not push if that's what you needed to be comfortable. I played your game, I heard you out, and I'm still here. Maybe you don't trust what's going on in my heart, but I do, and I'm the one living with it."

okay quick how do we make gabe immune to sirens so that it's all good for sure?

firesonic152 - 06/20/2017 SOBS LOUDLY sorry for disappearing lmao I was actually socializing irl uhhhhhh hmmmm

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/20/2017 haha no worries! ^^ i've actually been trying to turn that gabe-with-hanahaki thing into a thread ^^;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;

firesonic152 - 06/20/2017 ooooo!!!! Still thinkin about siren immunity

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/20/2017 hrmmmm...

firesonic152 - 06/20/2017 I consulted friends and all we could come up with deafness Oh how about Gabe offers to like put in noise cancelling ear things while they have sex to prove he wants it fun sensory stuff :DD

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/20/2017 XD but, like, if Jack isn't doing it on purpose, then any old flirting could be his siren song, right? I'm just imagining him and Gabe trying to talk this out, and Gabe suggesting 'well, just don't try to seduce me, I guess' and Jack being all 'But I WANT to seduce you! ;-;' and honestly upset by the fact that he can't do it fairly, and Gabe is just //// FUCK i want him RIGHT NOW

firesonic152 - 06/20/2017 AWWWWW OMG

firesonic152 - 06/21/2017 oh how about it's like... jack genuinely likes gabe vs not genuinely liking all those other dudes so maybe those feelings like. are an automatic shut off to his powers?? idk

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/21/2017 maybe like the siren powers are activated by hunger, you think? and while Jack's sexual appetite motivated all his other conquests, in Gabe's case he's motivated by love? 'cause he's fukkin' smitten like a goddamn loser? sorry it got too goopy XD

firesonic152 - 06/21/2017 AwwwWWWWW yes how do they figure that out tho LOL maybe there's some visual cue that shows up when jack is doing his siren thing and he's unaware of it

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/21/2017 haha what if it was Genji that told jack all like 'lol nice powers bro here's what you're doing' and then hanzo comes along all 'i heard my idiot brother was spreading half truths' oooh...i like the visual cue idea, tho or maybe it's a voice thing? maybe his voice goes a bit smoother, but it's always rough around Gabe, and he gets tonguetied sometimes, which he never did before.

firesonic152 - 06/21/2017 AWWWWWW sweeeet gabe starts noticing it when jack sweet talks other people into doing shit without thinking about it

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/21/2017 XD What if Jack, like, just knows stuff about other people--like what would work best to bribe them? But with gabe, he has to discover it or be told. The intuition doesn't switch on, either.

firesonic152 - 06/21/2017 boiiiiii

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/21/2017 'cause, like, sirens were supposed to tempt with stuff other than sex, right?

firesonic152 - 06/21/2017 yeah!!! jack staring intensely at gabriel and when gabe is like "what are you doing" jack grumbles about how he can't figure out what gabe wants gabe grins and pulls jack into his arms and is like "you, you idiot" all smoothly

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/21/2017 al;jbhf;akl meep. <3

firesonic152 - 06/21/2017 <33333 jack works so hard and like takes notes on all of gabe's likes and dislikes and favorite things he has a little notebook of lists there is a very extensive nsfw section LMAO

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/21/2017 XD

firesonic152 - 06/21/2017 when gabe discovers the notebook he scribbles "JACK" on the first page surrounded by cute little hearts jack totally didn't cry (he did a little)

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/21/2017 omg orz please you're killing me

firesonic152 - 06/21/2017 >||3c oh earlier i sent a message and it never?? idk posted???

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/21/2017 what, on here?

firesonic152 - 06/21/2017 yeah lol i was just plunging the siren one back into angst by wondering if like. when their relationship is going to shit jack gets desperate and accidentally uses his powers on gabe without really thinking about it

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/21/2017 D= WHY WOULD YOU NO WONDER IT DIDN'T SEND FOR SHAME!! we'd have to either re-work the trigger for his siren magic or have it so that he went and learned to actually use it, though. 'cause that's still a different impetus than just hungering for the D lol

firesonic152 - 06/21/2017 hmmmm i was thinking like they've been getting emotionally distant for awhile but still having sex just for the sake of it but then gabriel is like "i need to take a break jack i can't do this" and like a combination of jack having practiced his powers for the needs of his job to get what he wants and just the primal Thirst triggers

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/21/2017 ; ; i have a sad

firesonic152 - 06/21/2017 oh nooo

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/21/2017 you caused it

firesonic152 - 06/21/2017 I'M SORRY BUT not that sorry

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/21/2017 jeezus XD

firesonic152 - 06/21/2017

jack doesn't realize what he's doing until he becomes aware of the fact that he's been talking the entire time while gabe has been uncharacteristically silent

jack by now knows why he hadn't used his powers on gabe before, when he didn't know about them. it was because it was about more than just sating a hunger. the fact that he's doing this again - with gabriel - is a scary slap in the face about the state of their relationship

he's also scared by how much he doesn't want to stop. this is wrong for so many reasons but the worst part is that he just wants to let it happen. thankfully though, he gets too caught up in his internal monologue and stops talking. gabriel slowly snaps out of it.

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/21/2017 oh god does gabe realize? or does he just think it was nostalgia and that he was missing Jack? so he's all 'well, maybe things are okay after all and i was just tired before' or something. so they sleep together, and it's almost like it was when they started seeing each other. Gabe is more tender than he has been for a long time. but Jack knows why. He knows that he went and messed with Gabe's head, confused him, and even though he stopped, the effects lingered.

firesonic152 - 06/21/2017 SOBS LOUDLY jack had lured him back with a song about how they used to be

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/21/2017 aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

firesonic152 - 06/21/2017 i'm upset

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/21/2017 AND WHOSE FAULT IS THAT

firesonic152 - 06/21/2017 ASFASVSDHDFH when gabe falls asleep, jack has to get out. gabe's arms are wrapped loosely around him and he feels sick. he goes and curls up on the couch in his office.

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/21/2017 s toP orz

firesonic152 - 06/21/2017 IDK HOW TO FIX THIS SDGSFBDFNVN

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/21/2017 I do. Gabe is now magically immune. The bad stuff was a nightmare Jack had about his powers going wrong. He wakes up and Gabe comforts him by complaining about all the annoying shit Jack does until he's more mad than upset, and then Gabe gives him sleepy kisses, assures Jack that he still loves him, tells him to shut up and go back to sleep, and wraps an arm around him to hold him close on the soft mattress beneath the covers.

Jack eventually gets comfortable with what he is, enough that he can turn on the charm, flirting with Gabe, and humming, which should work pretty well, but only bounces off Gabe. He can focus his bedroom eyes and hum and sway his lean hips as he crosses the room to sink down onto Gabe's lap, and Gabe will smile and settle his hands at Jack's waist ad lean up as if to kiss him and whisper against his lips: "It's still your turn to take out the trash."

firesonic152 - 06/21/2017 afasvdsbdfhfdb even tho this is a cop out it's so cute that i don't care what if they're able to reconcile bc the song was literally just about "let's be in love again" and gabe is like oh goddd mistakes have been made we love each other idk how we forgot that

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/21/2017 what's love got to do, got to do with it? what's love but a secondhand emotion? orz

firesonic152 - 06/21/2017 akcjnasasxknj cries

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/21/2017 yah TT^TT XD i'll take the fucking cop out fix idgaf tonite

firesonic152 - 06/21/2017 you know what me too LMAO jack trying to use his magic to get out of chores and failing is hilarious

SuspiciousPopsicle - 06/21/2017 XD and continuing proof that he hasn't actually mindfucked gabe or whatever so he has to work, but at least he knows that his boyfriend loves him for realsies

firesonic152 - 06/21/2017 yay!!!!

firesonic152 - 06/22/2017 we never fuckin WE NEVER MADE A "VORE ME JACKIE" JOKE WHAT A MISSED OPPORTUNITY

[writterings]

tagged by @beckology !!! rules are answer the questions and then tag some friends. (perfect timing too i did this all during a long car ride)

1. do you have a good relationship with your parents? it’s….complicated

2. who did you last say “i love you” to? no clue lmfaoooooo

3. do you regret anything? i regret hurting anyone i’ve ever hurt but otherwise nah

4. are you insecure? aren’t we all

5. what is your relationship status? if you have a crush on me, confess and let’s see where it goes from there

6. how do you want to die? okay. i’m 25, wearing designer brands, i’m fit and have had top surgery, and i just had an all week bender with all of my closest friends. i wake up in a ditch. i get up, and see that a parachute was attached to me. i have no memories of the past week and i reek of sweat, mud, blood, sex, and various intoxicating substances. i get out of the ditch to see that i’m in a corn field. i get out of the corn field and see that i’m near a strip mall which has a chinese food buffet in it. i take off the parachute, and try making my way over to the buffet but suddenly get hit by a 2007 volkswagon beetle. the driver calls an ambulance. as the EMTs start performing CPR on me, i feel my phone buzz multiple times. it’s my ex-lover, and a few of my friends, all of them texting me that they wish to know of my whereabouts because they still care about me and love me. i do not get to read these texts. i pass away in the ambulance as they rip off my shirt and attempt to use an AED on me.

7. what did you last eat? chocolate peanut butter fudge ;3

8. played any sports? i played basketball, softball, and soccer in middle school!

9. do you bite your nails? yes

10. when was your last physical fight? depends on your definitions of “physical” and “fight”

11. do you like someone? yes.

12. have you ever stayed up 48 hours? nah

13. do you hate anyone at the moment? yes myself and also several people who have wronged me

14. do you miss anyone? all the time all the time

15. have any pets? yep! a lizard and a goldfish (and my family has 4 cats)

16. how exactly are you feeling at the moment? tired

17. ever made out in the bathroom? no thats nasty

18. are you scared of spiders? YES

19. would you go back in time if you were given the chance? MAAAAYBE for educational purposes

20. where was the last place you snogged someone? in the back of a minivan filled with kids as their uncle drove us home from a paintball birthday party

21. what are your plans for the weekend? driving home from vacation and then work :/

22. do you want to have kids? how many? not really but if they happen, they happen

23. do you have piercings? how many? my ears are pierced

24. what is/are/were your best subject(s)? english and history!

25. do you miss anyone from your past? all the time all the time

26. what are you craving right now? romantic affection and maybe a slushie

27. have you ever broken someone’s heart? unfortunately yeah

28. have you ever been cheated on? nope surprisingly

29. have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? not really

30. what’s irritating you right now? im being forced to hang out with distant relatives i hardly know because they happen to also be vacationing like an hour away from where my family is vacationing

31. does somebody love you? i hope so

32. what is your favorite color? idk man it changes but rn its emo black

33. do you have trust issues? honestly???? it depends on how a person acts. if they do something that reminds me of someone else that i don’t like then YEAH i have serious trust issues with them.

34. who/what was your last dream about? getting railed by king alfor from voltron but then we were on a train and it was the 1800s and we walked into a saloon and i won a bar fight with my impressive fidget spinning skills (i was also a little drunk last night so maybe that was affecting my dreams)

35. who was the last person you cried in front of? my brother because he just came up to me the other night and was like “hey watch this video” and it was like a sad death scene in a movie and i was like “why would you make me watch this” and he was like “BECAUSE I DIDNT WANT TO BE THE ONLY GUY I KNEW THAT CRIED OVER THIS”

36. do you give out second chances too easily? no.

37. is it easier to forgive or forget i forget but i don’t forgive lol. like i’ll act like everything is fine if you’ve wrong me bur eventually it’ll all come spilling out and you’ll know then that i never forgave you.

38. is this the best year of your life? i hope not

39. how old were you when you had your first kiss? 15/16 ??? i forget lol

40. have you ever walked outside completely naked? yes

41. favorite food? pecan pie, milkshakes, and snickers bars

42. do you believe everything happens for a reason? no

43. what is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? check tumblr asjdjkskaksk

44. is cheating ever okay? no

45. are you mean? depends

46. how many people have you fist fought? depends

47. do you believe in true love? depends

48. favorite weather? HEAVY RAIN AT NIGHT

49. do you like the snow? its okay

50. do you want to get married? nah but if it happens it happens

51. is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? Y E S

52. what makes you happy? fly clothing and nice eyebrows

53. would you change your name? prolly

54. would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? ……yes

55. your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? “i’m flattered but i’m too old for you. like seriously my brother is about a year younger than you and i only see you as a younger sibling.”

56. do you have a friend of the opposite sex that you can act your complete self around? these questions were written by a cishet weren’t they

57. who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? my mom ????

58. who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? my cousin

59. do you believe in soulmates? depends

60. is there anyone you would die for? no. maybe. yeah.

i tag @magicalbenadryl @shipidtyshipship @pennamepersona @lifepassesbyinwaves and @squidisms 💕

[snsmissionaries]

2/6/19 -- Sister Nicole Ritman, Spain, Madrid Mission

The Story of Sany/I'm Officially a Cultured Citizen

Subject Line: This email will have two parts! The first is the story of our amiga Sany, who got baptized last Sunday, shared with permission. The second is just about my week.

 The Story of Sany

 Right about when I got to Málaga, we got a text from one of the members saying she had a friend we could go visit. She'd been going through some rough times, and so a few weeks back their other friend gave her a Libro de Mormón and just said "Sany, you mean a lot to me and I know you are going through a hard time. I'm giving this to you because this is what brings me comfort when I'm not feeling good and so I wanted to share it with you because you know I'd do anything to make you feel better and this is something that's important to me. You don't have to read it if you don't want, but I know it can help you." Sany started reading and once she told them she liked it, they invited us to teach her more. I don't know if you all remember, but like a month back I said that we had a first lesson with someone and I'd never seen someone change so much in just one lesson? Well that was Sany! Everytime we taught her, she was so committed to really studying and learning. She applied what she was learning to what she already knew and what she found the guide to the scriptures even though we hadn't showed her yet and looked it up there. She did the 21 day challenge of the Libro de Mormón diligently and really followed the commitments we extended. I don't think we ever had to extend a commitment twice and some she was already doing before we could extend (like starting on Ven Seguime as soon as she finished the 21 day desafío). 

A miracle that happened with Sany was that she lives here and has two daughters living in the Dominican Republic. Well one day Sany told us "I just found out that the church my daughter goes to is the same one! I didn't remember the name but she told me she told me three years back when her boyfriend introduced her to the church and got baptized. She's going on a mission in a few months and is getting ready to go to the temple." Well we were speechless. I'm not making it sound as surprising as it was, but seriously the member we had in the cita and both if us were like" what??!". It's so crazy how they found the church independent of another and gained their own testimonies and now are working to go to the temple together. I wish the missionaries that baptized her daughter would know this extension of the story! 

What I was most impressed with was that most people who work as internas (live-in caretakers for a senior) don't come to church because they work. Well Sany took her work to church. (I'm sure not everyone could but this was her solution). She would get up super early to get both the Señora and herself ready and would carry the wheelchair down the flights of stairs and push her all the way up the giant hill. We'd help her and the Señora loved going out for a stroll, yelling "venga, vamos, rápido! Rápido!" No quiero llegar tarde!" until I was practically running. Going down the hill is almost harder because you have to pull it from not speeding down into traffic. Good times jaja. The day of the baptism, she got permission to get off a few hours earlier to go to church and drop off the Señora. She was so excited! But then this Sunday she got super sick. :/ Good thing we had the baptism last week. 

 I'm Officially a Cultured Citizen 

 So I'll start this part of with a sad story. Three days after the baptism, we got a text saying the man who had baptized Sany had passed away. We hardly believed it, but we asked the Elders and the pres de Sociedad de Socorro and the Elders confirmed the text was talking about him. 

We actually were on our way to a cita with Sany so we gave her the sad news and she was so sad because she was so grateful to him for being a part of her step on the convenant path. We had a good discussion about life and death and the plan of salvation and I was feeling pretty reflective and pensive. 

Then, we leave the cita and see that the pres texted us. And guess what--it's turns out that he's not actually dead! He's not dead its his brother in law! Still sad for his family, but man alive we were so embarrassed. What a big fat fail. Probably the biggest one I'll ever have on the mission. I reread the original text and totally not our fault--it was written in a way that didn't clarify who they were talking about. But literally it was so crazy because lemme tell you it's a weird feeling to find out someone passed but it's a weirder feeling to find out that PSYCH they haven't. Like a TV show in real life except the jokes on you because you have to text the mission office and say "nevermind- we don't actually have to know what happens when we need a signature on the baptismal record of someone who's dead." I'm sure they think we're crazy jaja. And then when we texted Sany all she said was "ahhhh- vale." Luckily she hadn't brought it up since. I'm also glad we found out before Sunday when he would've walked into church alive and all three of us faint of shock. 

 So I chose the header because I felt like it has been a very *cultural* week! Yesterday, we went over for almuerzo with a Tibetan Man and his Moroccan wife and had cous-cous. Literally one of the best things that's ever entered my mouth! Basically you boil a bunch of tasty vegetables and pumpkin and halal beef and spices like cinnamon in a pot for an hour, and then pour it over a giant thing of cous-cous (tiny ball-shaped grain) and pour the broth, gravy all over. We were so close to finishing but we had a slice of pumpkin and some cabbage left. They gave us plates to help us eat the meat, but they wouldn't let us portion it out. We all used our spoons and ate from the same giant platter. They also wouldn't let us drink cold water until after the hot food because I guess mixing cold and hot is bad for your stomach. I suppose that's why they traditionally drink tea at meals, but since we politely refused the tea 50 times no lie (the wife didn't understand until I said it wasn't halal for us jaja and even after the husband would sip his tea and say "oh how delicious! Oh how healthy! Made with 5 herbs!" and made us smell it because we wouldn't sip it lol), we had mint infusion, which is just a fresh mint sprig with hot water poured on top and a little spoon of sugar. It was so good we bought fresh mint today to make it again! Maybe it won't be the same because we don't have the fancy Arab teapot they used to heat the water jk. Definitely an eating cita I'll never forget. 

 Then for Pday today I felt extra cultural because we went to the interactive music museum and saw instruments from all over the world! We stayed in the room with the piano, guitars and cello the longest and all played songs together. (OK in reality I tinkered a tune  while Hermana Zito played the cello. It's her major at BYU and it was worth my museum entry fee to hear her play lol We would all request songs and if she had the tune in her head she could just play it). I also loved the rooms where you jam out to crazy world instruments like the zither, the nose flute, double-guitars and even an ancient harp thing made from a human skull. (you pressed buttons to hear sounds of the instruments you weren't allowed to play). There was also a gladd floor with a medieval wall they uncovered and put a museum time capsule for 2033. I'll be back when they open that! 

 After we went to an Italian restaurant because H Mecca said it looked close to authentic. She ordered in Italian and chatted with the waiter and told us what to order. I felt a little less fake with her lol. We got gnocchi and margherita pizza and the other Hermanas got pasta carbonara which I tried and was probably the best. She gave it a 9/10 for authenticity so I figured that's as close as I'll get until I go visit her in Italy. 

 Then as we were walking back some guy stopped me (somehow he didn't notice the other Hermanas-just me) and in English (was Spanish but was determined to use only English) said "are you from the Mormon church? I love that church! I studied with the boys in Granada. I want to learn again." Hope he's cool and not creepy so I'll keep you updated if he ends up being cool! 

 Also something special about today is a finally debuted my pants! Hermana Mecca did too. Some pics mine don't look too flattering but they're not that bad in real life I promise. I didn't realize how cold my legs were all the time until I wore my pants! 

 Sometimes it's frustrating when you think of everything you should be doing as a missionary that you're not or you try to do but noon shows up (cough cough people who told us they would come to the capacitación H Mecca and I planned and didn't) but the mission is about learning to deal with daily disappointment and trying to find the little adventures. Like when we found a gorgeous historic Barrio in the foothills and the wind was blowing too much for wearing a skirt and it was too confusing to find a single address we wanted to pass by, but it was so gorgeous and so Spanish we weren't even mad jaja. And tip: if you ever accidentally offend a member, they will be appeased with brownies. I'm telling you brownies are the secret here! Convinced!!! 

 Os quiero, 

 Hermana Ritman 

 Contact Information

email: nicole.ritman@myldsmail.net

 Sister Nicole Ritman

Madrid Spain Mission

Avenida de Tenerife, 11

28703 San Sebastian de los Reyes

Madrid, Espana

 Malaga Week 8

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[jellyfishfics]

I miss you. I feel empty. But i dont know why?? Maybe its been so long that you havent updated SYRM fic of yours. Not that im rushing you. I know what it feels like to lose your muse in writing it coz it happens to me too (art block actually) (1/?)

Hi there nonny! I’m really happy to receive all your messages and the feelings attached to them! I’m gonna put them under a read more since I think this answer will end up being really long…

And coz i miss you. I reread SYRM again. Like every chapter, read word by word with heart. It still amazes me to the core of my bein. Absolute golden creation. It never stoo to fascinate me. I fell in love with it all over again. (2/?) 

Loves seiji once more and more than before. Such an adorable child really. And really great story line. Just everything about it screams awesome and i cant get enough really. How i wish i could tell you personally how awesome you are !! (3/?)

I still remember the day that chapter 19 was released, i felt extremely happy but at the same time, i felt sad too coz its just one chapter more and its over. I dont know what to do like what would i be looking forward to my next day without it(4/?)

Coz really, its like the only thing that keep my mind away from my horrible present life that time( i was actually kicked out of my civil engineering course caused by my 2 times failed major subject) i was so depressed that time (5/?) 

So then i decided to read a fic, and saw yours. I became engrossed to it(uptil now really i still reread time to time). It took me away from my pain it was replaced by mixed emotions from pity to angsty to happiness and then extreme happiness (?/?) 

Its so great it takes me away from i dont know, reality perhaps?? Yeah right reality. My sour salty reality in bein a failure. But that not all that. Since it gave me back my “good mood” to make great life decisions on what to do next(?/?) 

I’m really really happy my fic was able to be a positive influence on you! It’s more than I can ask for when I write, to make the reader’s day a little brighter!

I know what it’s like to read a fic and have it totally blow your mind!! When the words and plot flow together so perfectly that you just sit there like…I’m so utterly amazed. And I’m so flattered you feel this way about mine.

I understand feeling depressed, I’ve been in the same boat for a while now…but I’m working through it, and I want you to get through your sadness too!! I’m happy my fic was able to give you some piece of mind when you hit difficult times.

Personally, I have a lot of mixed feelings toward syrm as a story and I’ve burned myself out on it. For my own happiness and mental health, I’ve decided to move on and work on fic ideas for another fandom. I’m sorry, and I hope you understand.

I’m going to try and answer your individual asks:

1. I’m sorry you feel like you miss me, I’m still around! I’m not very active on tumblr anymore, but I always answer direct messages and I’m very active on twitter. I’m not sure I can do much about your empty feeling except encourage you to keep your head up and look for something that fills the void! And I hope that if you’re going through an art block, you’re able to find your groove again!!

2. Thank you for rereading! It makes me so happy that you love my story enough to read it with such care…it’s the most flattering thing an author can hear! I’m terribly flattered by all your compliments too!

3. Thank you for loving Seiji!!! I was so afraid that no one would love him…you know it’s always hit and miss with OCs. and I’m happy you think I’m awesome, geez just keep stroking my ego lol.

4. Wow, I get the bittersweet feeling of being excited for the next installment of a series you’re into but also dreading the ending! I’m astounded that my story was powerful enough to make you feel this way!!

5. I’m so sorry that happened to you…I understand that uni can be a ton of pressure and civil engineering is such a tough subject!! My brother studies it too, and he has had problems with his classes as well. I hope that you’re in a more stable place right now, but just know that failing classes doesn’t define you.

6. Like I said before, I really am so glad that my fic was able to cheer you up! i hope if you decide to reread again, it will continue to uplift you and motivate you.

7. Listen…reality does suck a lot sometimes, and I feel you when you’d rather bury yourself in fandom and fiction where everything seems better, but I want you to know that you’re incredibly strong. It takes a lot of courage to send a person a message, and it take so much personal strength and courage to talk about your personal issues so openly. I’m glad you came to me, and I hope that writing your issues out made you feel a little lighter. I know it helps me a lot when I can use fanfiction to write out issues I deal with in a new setting with character I love. I hope my answer can also take some pressure away for your shoulders. Unfortunately, you’ll have to do a lot of the heavy lifting yourself…I know this from experience. But if you ever need me, I’ll be here for you!

Stay strong, bold, and keep your head up. There are people who care about you, and I’m one of them!

Thank you for sending me these messages.

[morgansfave]

so sometimes i go through these phases where I'm 110% done with life (part four, over a year later)

no one reads these but if you happen to stumble upon this somehow, i’ll probably mention some different stuff like s*xual abuse and grooming so if that stuff bothers you then please don’t read this😁

keep in mind that i’m a huge people pleaser and it’s very hard for me to say no to people.

i don’t remember what i said in part three but i definitely remember doing one but i’m too lazy to go looking for it so i’m gonna trust my memory skills even though they’re slowly deteriorating.

i know in like part two or something i did a bunch of bitching about my friends and boyfriend and THANK GOD THOSE PEOPLE ARE OUT OF MY LIFE.

but there’s new people…because of course there is.

we had a situation with a guy who’s about a year older than me (i’m almost 19) and i’m gonna call him carl (mostly because even the thought of typing his name nauseates me. so anyway, i meet carl and he’s cool i guess but then literally the next day he tells me he has feelings for me and i’m like…okay what the fuck😀 because i don’t even catch feelings THAT fast.

i still thought he was cool and i wanted to be his friend but at the same time, i didn’t want to lead him on because that shit isn’t cool. so i told him straight out that i was flattered, i wasn’t mentally ready to be even considering the pursuit of any kind of romantic relationship, and i wanted to be FRIENDS with him and nothing else.

after making that abundantly clear, he tells me he understands. then not even five minutes later he starts talking to me about how he’s ugly and annoying and no one loves him and he’d be better of dead and whatever. at this point it wasn’t a pattern so i didn’t see what he was actually trying to do, but the fat that he was randomly dumping all of this information on me made me uncomfortable. but he was telling me about how alone he felt and that’s a shitty thing to feel.

the feeling of hopelessness combined with loneliness is something i’m all too familiar with and i’ve dedicated most of my time to make sure people never have to feel that, even if i’m putting myself and my mental health at risk. harming myself mentally has always seemed worth it to me if it made someone else feel good.

i know i need to prioritize myself but i don’t know how.

so anyway, this goes on for awhile. whenever i tell him “no” he tells me he’s suicidal, he’s ugly, he’s worthless, no one loves him, he relapsed, he’s getting drunk and is about to go drive, he’s going to k*ll himself. i knew what he was doing but i didn’t want to believe it because 1. i ALWAYS force myself to see the good in everyone, and if i can’t then i make something up and 2. i’m an idiot. i gave into almost everything.

there was one time i was crying my eyes out over an argument with my mother. he asked me to call him and i said no. the guilt tripping started and i gave in, genuinely afraid he’d hurt himself.

the one thing he repeatedly asked me was for me to be his girlfriend. he attempted to guilt trip me so many times.

it was extremely difficult for me to tell him no but even my willingness to please people has a limit. i refuse myself to ever be in a relationship that i don’t want to be in. it’s not only unfair to me, but to the other person as well. i told him no every single time and his refusal to respect my decision further showed me the type of person he is. the type of person i’d never want to be involved with. romantically or platonically.

i strongly considered ending our friendship more times than i could count. each time he’d say something about being suicidal, i’d feel bad for him, and i’d be right back.

he never asked me if i was mentally okay enough to handle the extremely triggering information he gave me. when he relapsed he showed me his…cuts without warning. i was mortified. he knew i was struggling with the same things. this friendship was completely one sided.

going through emotional hell is fine but if you put someone i care about through some shit like that, especially if that person’s a minor, non-confrontational, people pleaser, passive kat disappears completely.

he was speaking to someone close friends of mine, who i view as younger siblings, one of them (a cousin on my dad’s side) is 14 years old. carl, the sick bastard that he is, makes constant sexual comments to this literal CHILD. sexualizing him, talking about having sex with him. i don’t think i’ve ever been so angry with a person.

so my cousin, let’s call him dylan, tells me there’s this girl he’s talking to, the girl is 15, i’ll call her sarah. his conversations with sarah were equally inappropriate, telling her things like “i wish you weren’t a minor”, i’m horny right now”, and “i think you’re really attractive, personality wise”. these are direct quotes and i have SO MANY SCREENSHOTS OF HIM SAYING THIS SHIT ITS UNBELIEVABLE

so i bring this up to my friend ethan, who’s about three months older than me (he knows im talking about this and he did give me consent to use his actual name) and i tell him EVERYTHING about him guilt tripping me, sexualizing my height, the sexual conversations with minors, and the fact that he was sharing these same triggering things i mentioned earlier with these minors.

i told ethan something NEEDED to be done about this as quickly as possible.

i met carl and a few other people in a group chat and since we were all pretty close, we figured they deserved to know about the guy they’ve been talking to. so we take it to the group chat and immediately almost everyone is noting the experiences they’ve had with this man and it only fuels my distain for this man.

you mess with me, fine. you mess with my friends or children, i’m gonna do something about it.

so there’s this guy in this chat, i’ll call him tyler. tyler posts on his instagram story saying something along the lines of “leave carl alone he didn’t do anything” despite all the P R O O F right in front of them and they continuously tried to flip this situation and say tyler was the one in the wrong. TYLER, WHO IS 14 AND BEING SEXUALIZED BY A 20 YEAR OLD, A GROWN ASS FUCKING MAN, IS IN THE WRONG.

as you can imagine, this pissed me off beyond belief. every part of it. i was angry at myself for letting him manipulate me for so much. i was angry at him for manipulating me, and preying on children. i was angry at tyler for SUPPORTING it. and i was angry that there was nothing i could realistically do.

anyway, yesterday tyler “apologizes” by basically saying lol sorry but im not gonna stop being friends with this predator and everyone is like…okay😃

like…are me and ethan really the only people who are outraged by this whole thing???

i strongly feel like my anger is 100% justified but idk

[sichevg]

zoom bday party chat TT___TT

21:12:05 From song kang : IM STILL TRYING TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO SHOW EVERYONE ON MY SCREEN 21:12:13 From song kang : how will i take a cute picture if I can only see one person 21:12:27 From Uyen Irene Tran : it’s on the top right 21:12:34 From Uyen Irene Tran : it’s called Gallery View 22:22:26 From Jio Lee : my sister’s gonna wash caleb in the room that i was in :-\\\ 22:22:31 From Jio Lee : and my brother’s doing his zoom class in here 22:22:41 From Jio Lee : cause he’s weird 22:22:43 From Jio Lee : and he’s like 31 22:22:48 From Jio Lee : and he’s taking data science 22:22:52 From Jio Lee : yeah 22:22:55 From Jio Lee : masters 22:23:07 From Jio Lee : you see this empty spot next to my head 22:23:13 From Jio Lee : caleb ripped my polaroid off 22:23:26 From Jio Lee : he came in here 22:23:27 From Jio Lee : YEAH 22:23:31 From Jio Lee : WHILE I WAS SLEEPINGGG 22:23:49 From Jio Lee : are they sleeping 22:23:53 From Jio Lee : my brother’s in here lMFAO 22:25:04 From Jio Lee : in the closet 22:25:21 From Jio Lee : it’s on the ground!!!!! 22:26:14 From Jio Lee : you keep your shoes in your room 22:27:11 From Jio Lee : i wanted one of those clothing racks but my room at home is too damn small 22:27:27 From Jio Lee : ive been looking at them on wayfair 22:28:08 From Jio Lee : it’s like 50 dollars bro 22:28:24 From Jio Lee : YALL 22:28:30 From Jio Lee : let me show you the apartments im gonna move in to hopefully 22:28:35 From Jio Lee : help me think of how to design it 22:28:51 From Jio Lee : single but i share the apt 22:29:18 From Jio Lee : omg i have to quit zoom to screenshare hold on 22:31:14 From Jio Lee : all the rooms 22:31:15 From Jio Lee : look like that 22:31:17 From Jio Lee : in that apt 22:31:25 From Jio Lee : maybe 22:31:31 From Jio Lee : but i think i could like shove it into the corner 22:31:36 From Jio Lee : and then put a full body mirror next to it 22:31:45 From Jio Lee : lemme check 22:32:18 From Jio Lee : it’s like 18k a year 22:32:21 From Jio Lee : i know 22:32:26 From Jio Lee : sf baby 22:32:34 From Jio Lee : san fran rent be wack 22:32:38 From Jio Lee : a studio’s hitting like 4k 22:32:50 From Jio Lee : i KNOW 22:33:03 From Jio Lee : san fran is wild bro 22:33:23 From Jio Lee : just me 22:33:29 From Jio Lee : it’s like 1k a month? 22:33:31 From Jio Lee : yeah 22:33:33 From Jio Lee : included 22:33:38 From Jio Lee : i kNOW 22:33:41 From Jio Lee : bro i know 22:33:45 From Jio Lee : but you get an in unit laundry machine 22:33:50 From Jio Lee : and stove + appliances 22:33:53 From Jio Lee : so i’m likeeee ok that’s fair 22:34:00 From Jio Lee : bro the dorms are expensive too 22:34:03 From Jio Lee : they’re like 14k for a triple 22:34:21 From Jio Lee : off campus rooms are like 22:34:24 From Jio Lee : 800 a month minimum 22:34:30 From Jio Lee : and you share with like 1-2 other people 22:34:43 From Jio Lee : it’s like 800 + utilities 22:34:55 From Jio Lee : i’m getting my money’s worth 22:35:03 From Jio Lee : bro the flight ticket 22:35:06 From Jio Lee : is like 150 22:35:15 From Jio Lee : 150 roundtrip 22:35:17 From Jio Lee : for an hour????? 22:35:32 From Jio Lee : A HUNDRED 22:35:40 From Jio Lee : let’s go to paris 22:35:45 From Jio Lee : buy a hazmat suit 22:37:24 From Jio Lee : bro my friend was going back home to thailand from the uk 22:37:28 From Jio Lee : and people were out here wearing hazmat suits 22:37:34 From Jio Lee : yeah she was like 22:37:39 From Jio Lee : i was obviously underdressed 22:37:59 From Jio Lee : she had a mask and gloves on and she was like ????? 22:38:08 From Jio Lee : uk was bad 22:38:20 From Jio Lee : i heard vietnam is reopening 22:40:08 From Jio Lee : dude i never heard about your bf 22:40:12 From Jio Lee : how’d that happen 22:40:43 From Jio Lee : scandalous 22:40:44 From kang : a true modern day love story 22:41:04 From Jio Lee : so you guys switched LOL 22:41:21 From kang : this is why u can never trust female friends 22:41:24 From Jio Lee : ^ 22:41:29 From Lilie Mai : ^^^^ 22:42:19 From Jio Lee : that’s weird 22:42:48 From Jio Lee : wtf LOL 22:42:53 From Jio Lee : men 22:43:29 From Jio Lee : a drunk text 22:45:49 From Jio Lee : interesting 22:45:50 From Jio Lee : LMAO 22:46:20 From kang : AND THEN WHAT DID U DO 22:46:21 From kang : HUH 22:46:23 From Jio Lee : LMAOOO 22:46:25 From Jio Lee : SHE TEXTED HIM 22:46:31 From kang : this is so random but jio has such a small head 22:46:33 From kang : how it do that 22:46:33 From Jio Lee : LMFAO 22:46:53 From Jio Lee : I TRIED THAT THING 22:46:57 From Jio Lee : WHERE YOU PUT YOUR FACE BEHIND A PIECE OF TISSUE 22:47:00 From Jio Lee : LIKE TISSUE PAPER 22:47:03 From Jio Lee : IT WORKED LMFAO 22:47:06 From kang : teach us ur ways 22:47:13 From Jio Lee : like the toilet paper 22:47:28 From kang : whose mans 22:47:29 From Jio Lee : if you like turn it one way 22:47:30 From Jio Lee : it works 22:47:31 From Jio Lee : omg 22:47:31 From kang : my head: huge 22:47:34 From Jio Lee : his head is so small 22:47:59 From kang : so many idols had loose fitting masks 22:48:01 From kang : and im like how 22:48:08 From Jio Lee : oh the face masks 22:48:09 From kang : my mask: full 22:48:35 From kang : my cheeks be too chubby 22:48:56 From kang : i can make an egg 22:49:01 From Jio Lee : i put your letters up here 22:49:04 From Jio Lee : next to my polaroids 22:49:14 From Jio Lee : i couldnt put seoyoung’s cause it had korean curse words 22:49:20 From Jio Lee : but i have it kept in my book shelf 22:49:21 From Jio Lee : very safe 22:49:32 From Jio Lee : didnt want my mom being like 22:49:37 From Jio Lee : who tf is cursing at you through snail mail 22:49:43 From kang : SNAIL MAIL CURSING 22:49:46 From kang : DLKFDKSJFKJDSH 22:49:50 From kang : my specialty 22:49:53 From Jio Lee : LMFAOOO 22:49:56 From Jio Lee : i have like four korean friends 22:50:01 From Jio Lee : it’s my goal to make korean friends at cal 22:50:02 From kang : same i have like two 22:50:05 From kang : rose dont count 22:50:08 From Jio Lee : LMFAOO 22:50:25 From kang : bring me my rich korean boyfriend 22:50:34 From Jio Lee : LMFAOO 22:50:38 From Jio Lee : the business school at cal is called haas 22:50:42 From Jio Lee : so they call the guys there haasholes 22:50:54 From kang : my friend went to a dive thru 22:51:04 From kang : drive 22:51:07 From Jio Lee : omg 22:51:13 From Jio Lee : i heard they shove a q tip up your nose 22:51:20 From Jio Lee : until it feels like it pokes your brain 22:51:24 From kang : she lives in new york and she went to a drive thru test 22:51:37 From Jio Lee : apparently it goes up to like 22:51:39 From Jio Lee : your sinuses 22:52:05 From Jio Lee : my eye used to flutter too 22:52:26 From Jio Lee : that helps 22:52:43 From kang : i love eyeliner 22:52:49 From kang : i always be looking like a raccon tho 22:52:53 From Jio Lee : my eyeliner’s always uneven 22:53:03 From kang : saem bcs my eyes are uneven 22:53:05 From Jio Lee : IVE BEEN TRYING TO LEARN HOW TO WING IT 22:53:09 From Jio Lee : so i keep winging it 22:53:11 From Jio Lee : but one’s always higher 22:53:15 From kang : do u guys see MY EYES R UNEVEN 22:53:24 From Jio Lee : you just go straight out 22:53:26 From Jio Lee : and then 22:53:27 From Jio Lee : you like 22:53:29 From Jio Lee : triangle it up 22:53:31 From Jio Lee : from the bottom 22:53:38 From kang : its true 22:53:42 From kang : thats what i do 22:53:51 From Jio Lee : oh yeah ive seen the videos 22:53:55 From Jio Lee : but like you gotta be white 22:54:01 From kang : u gotta like draw a straight line and then draw a triangle up 22:54:03 From Jio Lee : white people have enough space 22:54:09 From kang : my eyes be too droopy 22:54:14 From kang : to do foxy eyes 22:54:16 From Jio Lee : my eyes are too round 22:55:04 From kang : we are all deformed 22:55:12 From Jio Lee : one side of my face is significantly flatter than the other 22:55:16 From Jio Lee : because i slept on that side 22:55:26 From kang : bruh i sleep on my stomach 22:55:27 From Jio Lee : i’ve been trying to flatten the other side 22:55:31 From kang : apparently it fucks up your chin 22:55:46 From kang : i heard u lose weight when u sleep on your back 22:55:50 From Jio Lee : rly wtf 22:55:59 From Jio Lee : my nephew sleeps on his stomach 22:56:07 From kang : yeah u gotta sleep on your back and lift your arms above your head 22:56:13 From Jio Lee : THAT’S HOW I SLEEP HAHA 22:56:20 From kang : and you’ll lose weight 22:56:26 From Jio Lee : sometimes when iwake up i lose all feeling in one arm 22:56:34 From kang : but you’ll literally fuck ur chin shape up if u sleep on ur stomach 22:57:20 From Jio Lee : im gonna get that nose surgery 22:57:23 From Jio Lee : then it’s over for everyone 22:57:26 From kang : my dad had to go to work at his gas station bcs one of his employees called out 22:57:33 From Jio Lee : LMFAO 22:57:37 From Jio Lee : THE SHIELD 22:57:44 From kang : IT LOOKS LIKE AFISHBOWL 22:57:50 From kang : yeah he comes home in like an hour 22:57:58 From kang : he made the plastic shield tho 22:58:00 From kang : IT KILLED ME 22:58:09 From Jio Lee : bro i saw someone pull their hoodie up and pull on the strings all the way 22:58:13 From Jio Lee : and put the pot lid in front of their face 22:58:17 From Jio Lee : so it was a makeshift shield 22:58:24 From Jio Lee : it looked so effective 22:58:26 From kang : HOW THEY GONNA SEE 22:58:29 From kang : ohhhhhh 22:58:29 From Jio Lee : it’s glass 22:58:30 From Jio Lee : HAHAH 22:58:39 From kang : WHY DID UYEN HAVE A POT LID ON HAND 22:58:42 From Jio Lee : but the handle’s in the front 22:58:46 From kang : SHE JUST PULLED IT OUT 22:58:48 From Jio Lee : dorm life 22:59:06 From Jio Lee : do you have a single 22:59:10 From kang : are there people in ur dorm 22:59:13 From kang : why didnt they go home 22:59:19 From Jio Lee : oh LOL 22:59:59 From Jio Lee : wait what 23:00:03 From Jio Lee : oh 23:00:03 From Jio Lee : LOL 23:01:42 From kang : white ppl things 23:02:04 From kang : i think so 23:02:38 From kang : excuse me 23:03:22 From kang : thats why i dont offer anything to anyone 23:03:48 From Jio Lee : damn imagine if you had your party now 23:04:01 From kang : im so hungry 23:04:05 From kang : to eat or to not eat 23:04:09 From Jio Lee : water is your best friend 23:04:14 From kang : rip 23:04:22 From kang : i FINISHED 23:04:25 From kang : u want me to wet the bed 23:05:02 From kang : my dad always told me if i eat watermelon before bed I WILL WET THE BED 23:05:08 From Jio Lee : bro some white girls copied apink’s choreo for a “tiktok challenge” 23:05:37 From Jio Lee : wild 23:05:44 From Jio Lee : they claimed it was theirs 23:05:45 From kang : cultural aPPROPRIATION 23:05:51 From Jio Lee : and then they blocked off comments or something 23:06:03 From kang : white ppl: stealing cultures since day 1 23:06:33 From kang : whites have no culture to steal 23:06:36 From kang : what r we gonna steal 23:06:39 From kang : grilled cheese? 23:06:41 From kang : we dont want it 23:06:57 From kang : I HATE CHEESE 23:07:04 From Jio Lee : my brother b playing league in my room now 23:07:08 From Jio Lee : and his class is still going on 23:07:15 From kang : im playing league 23:07:18 From kang : dont hate on us 23:07:22 From Jio Lee : LMAOO i made an acc 23:07:27 From Jio Lee : but i haven’t played 23:07:32 From kang : NOT RIGHT NOW BUT IN GENERAL 23:07:44 From Jio Lee : im gonna be a twitch girl 23:07:53 From kang : i suck too much TO STREAM 23:07:56 From Jio Lee : ok same tho 23:07:57 From Jio Lee : i suck 23:07:59 From kang : I LOSE EVERY GAME 23:08:02 From Jio Lee : we can just get decently good 23:08:06 From Jio Lee : and then be like here’s my venmo 23:08:25 From kang : im not cute like that 23:08:29 From kang : maybe in my next life 23:08:31 From Jio Lee : ^ 23:08:35 From Jio Lee : i’m gonna take my dad’s dslr to sf 23:08:44 From Jio Lee : and i’m gonna become a youtuber and pay for my tuition through youtube money 23:08:58 From kang : when u got a full ride tHO 23:09:01 From kang : SHUT UP JIO 23:09:07 From Jio Lee : HAHAH BUT I NEED 용돈 23:09:26 From Jio Lee : so versatile 23:10:08 From Jio Lee : bro i finally paid off my credit card in full 23:10:12 From Jio Lee : my credit boutta skyrocket 23:10:18 From Jio Lee : time to make a new one 23:10:24 From kang : omg i wish 23:10:25 From Jio Lee : LMFAOO 23:10:32 From kang : i have 1500 on my credit card 23:10:37 From kang : but will i pay it off: no 23:10:44 From Jio Lee : LMAOO isnt it cause you got a laptop 23:10:51 From kang : YEAH AND I KEEP SPENDING MONEY 23:10:57 From Jio Lee : chase freedom 23:10:57 From kang : get discover 23:10:58 From Jio Lee : is the best 23:11:09 From kang : if u get a referral u get 23:11:11 From Jio Lee : discover isn’t taken at a lot of places so it gets annoying 23:11:12 From kang : $50 23:11:31 From kang : when i opened my discover card i only opened it bcs my friend had a referral code 23:12:02 From kang : omg i lied i only owe 1200 on my credit card 23:12:04 From kang : thanks dad 23:12:48 From Jio Lee : some guy i went out on a date with 23:12:51 From Jio Lee : had a spongebob meme on his 23:12:55 From Jio Lee : yeah but it wasn’t worth it 23:12:57 From Jio Lee : LMFAOO 23:13:10 From Jio Lee : he changed his name on zoom to jim halpert 23:13:20 From Jio Lee : NO HIS NAME IS MICHAEL 23:13:20 From Jio Lee : LMFAOO 23:13:23 From Jio Lee : HE SHOULD’VE DONE MICHAEL SCOTT 23:13:42 From Jio Lee : everyone wants to be jim 23:13:49 From Jio Lee : REALLY LOL 23:13:51 From Jio Lee : i love dwight 23:13:56 From Jio Lee : i think dwight’s my favorite character 23:14:05 From Jio Lee : he is 23:14:08 From Jio Lee : LOL KELLY 23:14:16 From Jio Lee : WHEN SHE BECAME MINORITY EXECUTIVE 23:14:29 From Jio Lee : bro it’s leaving netflix 23:14:45 From Jio Lee : i think it’s leaving in 2020 23:14:51 From Jio Lee : they pushed up the date or something 23:14:55 From Jio Lee : lol i jacked my friend’s hulu 23:15:05 From Jio Lee : how much is the nbc one 23:15:12 From Jio Lee : damn 23:15:16 From Jio Lee : im gonna get it lOL 23:15:21 From Jio Lee : just so i can watch the office 23:15:27 From Jio Lee : same i might just buy the show 23:15:53 From Jio Lee : dude i think iw atched the office like 10 times 23:15:55 From Uyen Irene Tran : https://soap2day.to 23:15:56 From Jio Lee : i’m on season 7 23:16:26 From kang : ok i have a review session at 7am so i will sleep 23:16:28 From kang : gn chingus 23:16:48 From Jio Lee : bro i’ve been on shein putting stuff in my cart 23:16:52 From Jio Lee : and some clothes are so hoe like 23:17:14 From Jio Lee : WHAT 23:17:18 From Jio Lee : HOW OLD IS SHE 23:17:19 From Jio Lee : holy shit 23:17:44 From Jio Lee : LOL wtf 23:17:46 From Jio Lee : then you have to pay 23:18:01 From Jio Lee : be that girl that wears white 23:18:36 From Jio Lee : yikess 23:18:52 From Jio Lee : 20 omg 23:19:38 From Jio Lee : that’s so young 23:19:42 From Jio Lee : she’s gonna have a kid by like 24 23:20:06 From Jio Lee : damn bro 23:20:17 From Jio Lee : dude some girl i went to middle school with 23:20:18 From Jio Lee : she has a kid 23:20:22 From Jio Lee : and she’s our age 23:20:32 From Jio Lee : but is her man even rich 23:20:45 From Jio Lee : yikes 23:21:02 From Jio Lee : she said this man is UGLY 23:21:07 From Jio Lee : facts 23:21:09 From Jio Lee : he’s RICH 23:21:11 From Jio Lee : he’s probably rolling in it 23:21:18 From Jio Lee : SHOTGUN WEDDING 23:21:20 From Jio Lee : omg 23:21:22 From Jio Lee : he is ugly 23:21:52 From Jio Lee : their kid boutta be 4 feet 9 23:22:03 From Jio Lee : omg if it’s a boy 23:22:07 From Jio Lee : that boy is not getting any girls 23:22:58 From Jio Lee : i keep forgetting uyen’s english name is irene 23:23:03 From Jio Lee : and i saw the irene and i was like 23:23:06 From Jio Lee : irene??? 23:23:33 From Jio Lee : LMAOO 23:23:47 From Jio Lee : bro i want an english name cause people be butchering my name left and right 23:23:54 From Jio Lee : in asian ass california 23:24:52 From Jio Lee : yikes 23:25:11 From Jio Lee : broooo 23:25:23 From Jio Lee : LMAOO 23:25:27 From Jio Lee : SHE SAID IM GONNA BE IRENE 23:25:36 From Jio Lee : irene’s a cute name though 23:25:48 From Jio Lee : that timing 23:25:59 From Jio Lee : they’re like 23:26:00 From Jio Lee : JAI OH?? 23:26:10 From Jio Lee : sometimes they’re like 23:26:11 From Jio Lee : jia 23:26:13 From Jio Lee : and im like 23:26:15 From Jio Lee : it’s a whole ass o 23:26:24 From Jio Lee : so time to adopt an english name 23:26:27 From Jio Lee : i hate that 23:26:44 From Jio Lee : it looks like my though 23:26:53 From Jio Lee : like it looks like it would be my 23:27:03 From Jio Lee : HAHAH DAISY MAE 23:27:57 From Jio Lee : bro you’ve been taking chinese for so long 23:28:15 From Jio Lee : i stopped taking korean after hs 23:28:29 From Jio Lee : i had like 23:28:32 From Jio Lee : the foreign language req 23:28:35 From Jio Lee : and i just took korean 23:28:39 From Jio Lee : because i didnt wanna do spanish or french 23:29:15 From Jio Lee : bro i was gonna apply to amherst 23:29:18 From Jio Lee : but their app was so annoying 23:29:54 From Jio Lee : you should come to a uc HAHAH 23:29:58 From Jio Lee : come to cal 23:30:08 From Jio Lee : oh rly 23:30:11 From Jio Lee : it’s like 4 prompts 23:30:17 From Jio Lee : COME TO CAL 23:30:18 From Jio Lee : HAHA 23:32:10 From Jio Lee : bro my friend goes to bu and apparently they’re thinking of shutting down the fall semester completely 23:32:21 From Jio Lee : like not even having class 23:32:37 From Jio Lee : yeah cause you can’t make students pay for zoom university 23:32:43 From Jio Lee : and they still have to pay the profs 23:33:22 From Jio Lee : i know uci made students pay for facilities they can’t use 23:34:02 From Jio Lee : bro LOL my friend bought an animal crossing switch cause she got her housing refunded 23:34:46 From Jio Lee : broooo 23:35:31 From Jio Lee : my friend bought one for 650 23:35:39 From Jio Lee : cause he was desperate 23:35:42 From Jio Lee : but he hasn’t opened it 23:35:47 From Jio Lee : he’s gonna wait for the restock 23:35:53 From Jio Lee : bro get animal crossinggg 23:35:53 From Jio Lee : yeah 23:35:56 From Jio Lee : so like if it restocks 23:36:07 From Jio Lee : bro i want one for myself 23:36:09 From Jio Lee : i use my family’s switch 23:36:29 From Jio Lee : the coral one is pretty 23:36:32 From Jio Lee : yeah bro 23:36:34 From Jio Lee : i wanna hook it up 23:36:42 From Jio Lee : HAHA 23:36:47 From Jio Lee : the se is so small 23:36:57 From Jio Lee : i think so 23:37:00 From Jio Lee : bro wtf LOL 23:37:10 From Jio Lee : that’s wack 23:37:16 From Jio Lee : im pretty sure 12 is coming out in september 23:37:25 From Jio Lee : unless the production was pushed back cause of covid 23:37:52 From Jio Lee : ANDROID 23:38:01 From Jio Lee : huawei 23:38:02 From Jio Lee : HAHA 23:38:33 From Jio Lee : bro im just waiting for the 12 23:38:39 From Jio Lee : my phone’s battery dies so fast 23:38:59 From Jio Lee : the galaxy interface is so weirdly counterintuitive 23:39:10 From Jio Lee : WITH THE PEN 23:39:11 From Jio Lee : LOL 23:39:25 From Jio Lee : the new samsung ones dont look bad tho 23:39:30 From Jio Lee : the one with the strip in the back 23:39:32 From Jio Lee : the black strip 23:39:42 From Jio Lee : bro i saw someone using that at costco 23:39:50 From Jio Lee : i had to stop eating my salad 23:40:03 From Jio Lee : BRO YEAH 23:40:04 From Jio Lee : I WA SLIKE 23:40:06 From Jio Lee : WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT 23:40:14 From Jio Lee : bro 23:40:15 From Jio Lee : razor 23:40:24 From Jio Lee : the flip phone 23:40:24 From Jio Lee : HAHA 23:41:37 From Jio Lee : do you remember that green tiny ass phone that was for kids 23:41:41 From Jio Lee : and it had like two functions 23:42:02 From Jio Lee : i remember my friend had that and i was so jealous 23:42:06 From Jio Lee : same 23:42:08 From Jio Lee : i wanted one so bad 23:42:12 From Jio Lee : DO YOU REMEMBER THE JUKE LOL 23:42:34 From Jio Lee : IT FLIPS LOL 23:43:02 From Jio Lee : i wanted one of those phones that you opened and it had a keyboard on it 23:43:03 From Jio Lee : so bad 23:43:15 From Jio Lee : i had the sliding one 23:43:33 From Jio Lee : i had the red one i think 23:43:59 From Lilie Mai : https://www.todayscloseout.com/v/vspfiles/assets/images/samsung-gravity-tmob-aqua-tall.jpg 23:44:11 From Jio Lee : https://www.ebay.com/p/100047448?iid=174029957447&chn=ps&norover=1&mkevt=1&mkrid=711-117182-37290-0&mkcid=2&itemid=174029957447&targetid=883075326854&device=c&mktype=pla&googleloc=9031532&poi=&campaignid=9248480877&mkgroupid=94100691256&rlsatarget=pla-883075326854&abcId=1141156&merchantid=110607992&gclid=Cj0KCQjwhZr1BRCLARIsALjRVQPoQyirAPKfCSzNWiHrRFPtfJKqdzUDcKCpUbhzN_NLsybqqUCmulsaAva-EALw_wcB 23:44:13 From Jio Lee : bro i had this one 23:44:49 From Jio Lee : brooo i remember that 23:44:52 From Jio Lee : i wanted that one 23:45:12 From Jio Lee : i think 3rd grade 23:45:19 From Jio Lee : i was home alone a lot 23:45:21 From Jio Lee : so my parents were like 23:45:23 From Jio Lee : you need a phone 23:46:11 From Jio Lee : bro home phones still exist? 23:46:13 From Jio Lee : LMFAOO 23:46:22 From Jio Lee : remember when you had to pay for each text you sent 23:46:28 From Jio Lee : and you had to buy a package of however many texts 23:46:40 From Jio Lee : i went over my texting limit bro 23:47:02 From Jio Lee : omg you had to press one button 3 times 23:47:21 From Jio Lee : bro that’s wild 23:48:56 From Jio Lee : TEN MORE DAYS LOL 23:49:08 From Jio Lee : bake something 23:49:08 From Jio Lee : HAHA

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100 Sex Questions

1. What was your first time having sex like?

In the car next to golf course

2. Are you into BDSM?

Ye

3. Do you watch porn, and if so what kind?

Babes n hunks

4. What’s the weirdest porn you’ve watched?

Hentai

5. Have you ever watched porn with another person?

Yep

6. Do you prefer professional or amateur porn?

Pro

7. Add a link to your favorite porn video.

8. What was your first experience with masturbation like?

Came twice or so, shivers up n down the spine to the head then orgasmed

9. How often do you masturbate?

3x week or so

10. What’s your favorite way to masturbate?

Using Knuckles😏

11. Have you ever had shower sex?

Yes

12. Have you ever had period sex?

Yes

13. Have you ever had sex in someone else’s bed that didn’t belong to anyone involved? (Not including shared spaces like hotels, Airbnb, etc.)

Yes

14. Have you ever had sex in a public place?

Yes

15. What’s the weirdest place you’ve had sex?

Swimming centre toilets

16. What’s your most embarrassing sex story?

Got caught by police

17. Have you ever been caught masturbating or having sex?

Neaaarly

18. Do you have any sex toys?

Yes

19. What is your favorite sex toy?

Handcuffs

20. Are there any sex toys that you really want to try?

Rabbit mini vibrator

21. Have you ever tried anal, and if so do you enjoy it?

Yes and nah

22. Have you ever used a sex swing?

Nop

23. Have you ever had sex standing up?

Yess! Fkn love it

24. Have you ever recorded yourself having sex or masturbating?

Ye

25. Have you ever taken a nude and sent it to someone?

Ye

26. Write out a real or made up sexting conversation. (At least 4 lines)

Check tagged me stories

27. What was your first time giving oral like?

Terrible lol

28. What was your first time receiving oral like?

Too gentle

29. Do you like giving oral?

No

30. Do you like receiving oral?

Ye

31. Do you prefer clitoral stimulation, penetration, or both?

All

32. Do you enjoy penetration?

Ye

33. Have you ever masturbated in front of another person?

Kinda

34. Have you ever masturbated with another person?

Yes

35. Have you ever masturbated in a public place?

Yes

36. Do you enjoy voyeurism? (Being watched or watching other people)

Ye

37. Does cross-dressing turn you on?

No

38. Do you have any kinks that you’re embarrassed about?

Nop

39. Have you ever had a sex dream or wet dream? If so, pick one and describe in detail what it was about.

Cant remember probs tryna fuk but cant feel the sensation?

40. Have you ever cheated? If so, do you regret it?

Yes and yes

41. Are you into cuckolding?

Tf

42. How many orgasms do you typically have in one session?

At least once

43. Do you enjoy edging?

Tf is that

44. Have you ever had a ruined orgasm? Was it intentional?

Ye lol

45. What’s the longest you’ve gone without an orgasm?

1month of nofap

46. When was the last time you masturbated? Describe what you did in detail.

Last night, fantasized bout a 8.5inch cock

47. Have you ever gotten injured during sex? If so, what happened?

Does hickeys count

48. Have you ever contracted any STIs?

No

49. Have you ever had unprotected sex and accidentally gotten pregnant?

No

50. Do you prefer to have sex in the morning, afternoon, or night?

Morning always

51. Have you ever woken up in the middle of the night to have sex or masturbate?

Yes

52. How often do you wake up horny?

Too often

53. Have you ever had sex with a complete stranger without knowing anything about them?

Ye

54. Have you ever done anything sexual while driving?

Ye

55. What is your favorite thing about quickies?

Dont like it

56. Have you ever had a sex dream about someone unexpected and freaked out about it? If so, who was it?

Nop

57. Have you ever fantasized about having sex with one of your teachers?

Nah too innocent back then

58. Do you usually have sex with your eyes open or closed?

Closed

59. Have you ever had a threesome? Do you want to?

Nearlyy and maybe

60. Have you ever had group sex? Do you want to?

Nop

61. Have you ever masturbated with a group of people?

Nop

62. Do you enjoy dirty talk? If so, give an example of something you would say or would want to hear.

I want it rammed up in you inch on inch till you feel my balls

63. Have you ever given a blow job to someone who was wearing a toy?

Nop

64. Have you ever had someone give you a blow job while wearing a toy?

Ye

65. If you had to choose, would you rather be a dom or a sub?

Dom

66. Have you ever done anything sexual with an animal?

Nah

67. What is your favorite sex position(s)?

Upright carried n bouncing on dat d

68. What is the weirdest object you’ve masturbated with/humped?

A pen

69. What’s the worst place you’ve ever gotten an erection? (Bonus: What’s your most embarrassing story of getting an erection?)

At the beach

70. Have you ever been so wet that you soaked through your clothes?

Ye

71. Do you get really wet, an average amount, or not wet enough?

Super wet

72. Have you ever had trouble getting it up?

Ye his problem

73. Have you ever squirted or made someone squirt?

Ye twice in my life

74. What’s the naughtiest fantasy you’ve ever had about a stranger?

Being abused felt so wrong

75. Have you ever been so horny in an inappropriate place that you’ve had to excuse yourself?

Yup i was in highschool and went to toilet to fap

76. How many fingers do you prefer inside you?

2 max

77. Are you loud or quiet?

Loud

78. Do you like it rough or gentle?

Gentle asf but hard.

79. Do you enjoy being on top or bottom?

Bottom

80. Have you ever dry humped someone while being fully clothed until you had an orgasm?

Ye

81. Have you ever had sex while drunk or high?

Ye

82. Do you have a specific playlist for sex?

Ye

83. Have you ever role played? If so, tell the story.

Ye i was the cutesy hunny bunny and he was the evil demon

84. Have you ever kept going even when you were too sensitive?

Ye

85. Would you rather have your hair pulled or be spanked during sex?

Spanked

86. Would you rather be handcuffed or blindfolded?

Handcuffed

87. Would you rather cheat or be cheated on?

Cheat. But how bout none

88. Would you rather get caught masturbating by your parent/guardian or your crush?

Crush duhh

89. Would you rather have an obvious orgasm every time you meet someone new or never have an orgasm again?

Orgasm everytime its healthier to.let loose

90. Have you ever had sex with someone who couldn’t satisfy you?

Yup

91. What’s something you’ve always wanted to ask about sex but was too afraid to ask?

Can guys pee while sitting n pooing?

92. Describe what you would do sexually if you had different genitals for a day.

Jackoff

93. How many dates do you typically need to go on until you feel ready to have sex with someone?

3

94. In your opinion, what makes someone good in bed?

Technique and attitude

95. What’s the most flattering thing someone has said about your naked body?

Youre so fcken tight babe

96. Do genital piercings turn you on?

Nah

97. How long was the longest orgasm you’ve ever had?

About 6hours or more

98. What’s the most sensitive part of your body?

Clit

99. Is there anything you won’t do in bed?

Rape