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slightlymore · 5 years ago

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cute~

- a pride spin-off -

pairing: haechan x mark

other characters: doyoung, jaemin, jungwoo, onew (??? only bc I needed a name 😔)

genre: angst!! smut! fluff!!! one-shot, company!au (you can read this without reading "pride" first but make sure to read at least the little synopsis below, just to have some kind of context for the first part)

warnings: 18+, language, sexual activities, alcohol, drunk characters

words: 14K (oops)

for those who didn’t read pride and don't want to: doyoung and y/n are in love with each other but because of a series of unfortunate events (them being stupid) they can’t be together. doyoung leaves her after college and starts working at haechan’s company while being miserable; the two boys become enemies/friends. everything goes relatively well until one day y/n makes an appearance and starts working there as well. doyoung and y/n finally get (their shit) together and become a couple. haechan is the happy friend witnessing all of that and this is his story

(the photo was meant to be a shitpost but now I kinda like it lmaooo)

The phone rang for the millionth time that morning, a piercing and resounding noise, making Haechan unable to hear his own thoughts. The boy groaned. It was only 10 am yet everyone suddenly needed to speak with him. Haechan would have loved to spend his workday gossiping on the phone. Maybe chit-chatting about everyone. Listening to his colleagues talk about George's new too-expensive-for-his pockets-but-he's-an-idiot car, or the scandalous hairstyle Alex tried out to impress his already-married-and-twenty-years-older flame, or to hear how someone heard from someone else that somebody had sex with someone somewhere. But not that day. Haechan was exhausted, physically, and mentally, head buried between his arms, the white noises of the office almost putting him to sleep. The infernal device stopped ringing for a second and the young man sighed relieved before it rang again soon after. Haechan whined, almost sobbing, while lightly hitting his forehead on the desk. A soft 'what the fuck' made him raise his face with pained eyes squinting from the sudden too much light. "Are you alright?", the same voice asked, his desk neighbour inquiring. "Mind your own business, Owen", Haechan mumbled and finally put one hand on the phone while massaging the base of his nose with the other. "... my name is Onew", the dude whispered offended, but Haechan's little attention was already drifting away. A female voice said something that Haechan couldn't catch but to which he replied with a short "yeah, thanks", having figured out the words "intern" and "acceptance" through her quick mumbling. When he first heard the news during the beginning of the year reunion, Haechan was ecstatic, to say the least. They said he was responsible and could handle taking care of an intern making Haechan's shoulders widen at the compliments. Also, having an innocent soul to bother for a few months? It meant some company and less work for himself. Paradise. But Haechan had already forgotten about the joy he felt before. He had been feeling weird for a while now and he hated it. The previous night he didn't go home after Doyoung and Y/N left the company building. He listened to them talk for an excruciating period while pretending to sleep. It was beautiful, choked voices and raw confessions, and he felt like the third wheel in his own life. When Haechan walked out of his office one day, months before that, with the intention of "grabbing something important from somewhere" (or taking a break while making it pass as work) and heard the loud bang of the neighbour office door, he didn’t think that his life would go spiralling down from that moment on. It took him days. No, it took him weeks, maybe months, before the uncomfortable feeling creeping on him, making his spine shiver and palms sweat could be classified as something real by his brain. As a feeling. Sitting down on his chair, tired fingers tapping away at the keyboard for hours, he would suddenly feel this ungodly urge to get up and go to that office again as if an obscure force possessed him. To do what? To see a pair of angry eyes. Angry and full of pain. They were beautiful: round but also angled, dark but also light, absent as if looking at anything but their surroundings. Looking at something only they could see. That thing, sadly, was never Haechan. The boy tried everything to be seen by them. Being friendly, being funny, being helpful. Then he tried being rude. To his immense joy, the latter worked better, as if those eyes hatched such an enormous amount of anger that they had to spill some onto someone. And Haechan didn’t mind being that someone if it also meant being the object of those eyes’ attention at the same time. Then he realized that he didn’t want to see only the eyes. Something else was fighting for Haechan’s regard. Pink and soft looking, often stretched in a line, sometimes forming a pout. God, Haechan would have done everything to be able to touch those lips even once, even for a second. And he did it during his most feverish dreams. The first time, he woke up panting, ashamed, shaken to the core, the feeling of that soft skin still ghosting his own lips. The second time Haechan raised a trembling hand and touched the place where his subconsciousness created such a realistic scenario. He caressed it slowly, laying in that obscure slumber, silently, afraid to wake up his rational side. The third time he didn’t need to dream. He just imagined, shamelessly. His lips got kissed and his name was pronounced with such lust and desire to leave Haechan panting. So real, as if Doyoung whispered that while being beside Haechan in his room. It took Doyoung a few good weeks to call Haechan by his name in real life. When he finally did it, he wasn't even scolding him. No. From weird conjunction of stars, Haechan didn’t need to do something to gain Doyoung’s attention that day. He was in the photocopying room. One hand was mindlessly using the machines, the other was warmly hugging a mug of coffee. His slowly descending glasses were being pushed back by one of his fingers when a fluttering shadow appeared behind him. Haechan’s hands stopped as if his crawling skin could physically predict the future. “Haechan”, Doyoung said. Just like that, sweet and soft. And the boy with that name let his coffee mug fall to the ground. Oh. “Haechan!” Doyoung repeated. “What the hell?” Yes. Yes. Haechan. That’s me. That’s my name on your lips. Say it again. “Haechan! You’re doing this on purpose now”. Doyoung stood tall with hands on his hips, looking at the way Haechan was failing to grab his mug, letting it comically slip from his hands, again and again, new coffee stains covering the carpet. I just love how my name sounds in your mouth. I don't want you to stop. Please. “Oops”, Haechan chuckled, the mask he carefully crafted for Doyoung easily slipping on his face, and despite everything, Doyoung rolled his eyes with a little smile himself. “You’re such an idiot”. Oh fuck. That. Haechan almost forgot. The boy could drown in the light that Doyoung’s face emitted when he was smiling. It would dissipate for a split second the darkness lingering around him and it was Haechan’s doing. Haechan did that. It made his little heart buzz every time and soon enough he started to fantasize about a day in which Doyoung would not have that expression line between his eyebrows anymore. And it arrived eventually. Haechan realized everything would go downhill for himself when he got blinded by Doyoung’s soul. He could see it before as well but not this way. Not while the older man's cheeks got red and his pupils were trembling. And Haechan understood soon what that was because a sick person recognizes another sick person easily. Was Haechan like that as well? Were his cheeks flushed and eyes glossy every time he looked at Doyoung? Ah, Doyoung’s soul. He took it out so suddenly and poured it into that girl’s hands. Haechan felt like dying. No. No, wait. It's supposed to go like this. I should be there. I worked so hard. I endured so much. It can’t end like this. This is my story. Isn’t it? And it was, but not the type of story Haechan imagined. In this universe it ended in him being alone, bones cold and empty, looking at Doyoung’s back as he carried his love in his arms. Haechan stayed back there, motionless, no arms holding him. He bit his lips for a little while, looking around the office as if not knowing on which planet he was. Then he crouched down and cried. He was tired. Yeah, he was just tired. It has been a long week and a long day. He was exhausted. That was the reason. Haechan, you're good. Just get a good night sleep. You’ll be fine. Now get up and go home. And he did that. Like a robot. He was alone inside the 4 am metro, blinding, fluorescent lights burning his fatigued eyes. His feet dragged him towards his apartment although he found himself knocking on Jaemin's door instead. Jaemin was a weird guy and Haechan loved him dearly. He just never slept. Every time Haechan called him, he somehow was wide awake doing some random shit. Haechan hoped that he didn't suddenly change his habits because he desperately needed some arms to crash into. And Jaemin opened the door as expected, a popsicle between his lips, eyes wide and bright. Haechan stepped inside and took the snack away, putting his lips on Jaemin's instead, pushing him against the wall, letting the coldness of Jaemin's tongue numb his thoughts. And he let the popsicle fall from his fingers when Jaemin wrapped him between his arms, guiding him towards the bedroom, no questions asked, no romance. I need a distraction right now, Haechan's whole being was screaming and Jaemin was good at reading people. Quickly and effortless, clothes sliding down, Haechan's mind finally lingered in a grey bliss as the only thing he could think of was the way Jaemin rolled his hips into him, sending shots of pleasure through his whole body. But then Haechan's slipped. "Doyoung-", he whimpered then gasped, eyes wide with horror and cheeks reddening. Jaemin didn't care if Haechan called other guys’ names but when Haechan put his palms on his face, chest rising and falling quickly, sobbing desperately, Jaemin stopped and sighed. He let Haechan go and rolled over, wrapping his shaking frame with his arms. "Do you want to talk?" he asked softly. Haechan shook his head, burying it into the other's chest. Jaemin stayed quiet, the only sound in the dark room being Haechan's irregular breaths, his fingers delicately drawing patterns on the other’s skin. "It's going to get better", Jaemin whispered after a while. "You're going to be seen by someone one day, just like you see everyone else”. It was weird how Jaemin always had the perfect thing to say. Though Haechan didn’t believe that, he had no force to argue. He stayed like that for the next hour, in silence, until the sun came out. Then he got up and let Jaemin prepare his breakfast that he barely touched. Haechan then borrowed the other's clothes and said it was fine for him to go to work that morning. You have to be sick to be able to call in sick, Haechan said. Because you’re someone that follows rules and does an honest job, Jaemin commented sarcasting with a raise of the brow. I just need to be busy, Haechan added and left.

Now, heading towards the acceptance, he regretted not staying home, maybe sleeping the whole day. Sleeping would be good but dreaming? He was afraid of that. The squeaking sound of Haechan’s shoes on the main floor tiles was so distressing that Haechan felt like taking them off and throw a tantrum in the middle of all those white collars. Blinking fast he sighed when he saw the new guy, an anonymous-looking young man looking around as if uncomfortable and slightly afraid. Haechan introduced himself in a monotone voice, letting the intern shake his hand then he turned around with a short 'follow me', not giving the other time to do anything else besides tailing his supervisor. Haechan has been babbling about the company for a good five minutes now, walking quickly through the corridors, showing rooms and people. He wasn't doing a very good job because he didn't care. The new guy, weirdly enough, didn't seem disoriented at all and Haechan shrugged internally. "And this is the terrace", the boy finally finished his monologue as they both stepped outside. It was a sunny day but the wind was quite strong, making Haechan close his eyes as his fluffy hair danced around his forehead. "Cute," the guy commented with a soft chuckle. Haechan looked around. Cute? It was kinda cute, he guessed. Too many ugly buildings around though and it wasn't the best-kept terrace. He turned his head to face the intern. "What's cute?" Haechan asked. It was the first word that guy said and Haechan wanted to hear him speak. The intern was looking at him already instead of the surroundings and Haechan could have sworn that the dude's cheeks were flushed with a pink hue. "You are", he said shyly, eyes big and twinkling. Haechan could only blink back. Wait. What? Did this guy just call him cute? Cute? "Listen, thanks, but you have to pay me respect. I'm your supervisor", Haechan replied trying hard to keep his voice stable. He wasn't annoyed but he couldn't just giggle, could he? Also, who calls strangers cute? On the workplace? What a weirdo. The guy’s expression shifted at Haechan’s words as if in slow motion. "Oh God, sorry, I don't know what just happened. I apologize. It was inappropriate", the intern babbled and stuttered, cheeks going from pink to red, eyes darting around, not knowing where to look. Haechan has never seen someone that transparent with his feelings before and he could tell that he was very honest. Looking so naive, Haechan fought the urge to roll his eyes at him just to make him feel even more embarrassed. "I can't fire you personally or anything and I'm not your boss, but I can tell people to fire you", Haechan tried to sound cold even if the situation was rather funny. The look the guy gave to Haechan was of pure terror a for a split second Haechan felt almost sorry. But then the dude’s eyes darted to Haechan’s hair, still flying around his forehead. Haechan puffed annoyed and put one hand on top of his head as to stop the motion. The intern’s expression relaxed. "And what are you going to say? That it's because I called you cute?" he asked. His lips were back into a timid smile. Haechan was baffled. "What is so cute about me?", he sniffled, sure that he caught a cold already and switched the hand from his hair to his ear as the wind got even stronger. The intern took the question seriously. "You have curly purple hair-", he started then stopped as if that was enough to explain his comment, "-and well, your cheeks are full and now they're uhm red and it's... very cute. Also, your eyes are big and round and it's very cute-"

Haechan groaned incredulously.

"Oh my God! Stop saying cute", he spoke up to make his voice heard over the loud rumble of the wind, before turning on his heels and walking towards the terrace door. The intern’s cheeks turned pink again as he tried hard to not add whatever he wanted to say.

_______

Mark was told that he was somewhat of a dense guy. He disapproved. He just paid attention to what he wanted and disregarded the rest. So, if you asked him to show off the company to you, what tasks he had to do or where the bathroom was, he wouldn't know where to start. But if you asked him to tell you how many moles Haechan Lee the Supervisor had, he could answer in a second. It was weird and Mark wasn't a romantic person at all. But when he saw the guy walking out the elevator, eyebrows furrowed and dark circles underneath a pair of tired and red eyes, Mark felt a tingle in his stomach that he could only describe as love at first sight. Okay. Maybe not love. Crush at first sight? Attraction? Mark didn't know what that was and it made him so confused that he could only look at the guy's back when walking around the company as if it could give him some answers. Haechan, he said while letting Mark shake his hand. Of course. It fit him perfectly. Mark could see it - the sun - underneath his skin. Their fingers parted ways too quickly after shaking hands and Mark felt so paralyzed by the sudden tingle on his skin that he couldn’t fully pay attention. Was he also warm to the touch? Mark desperately wanted to find out. Was it weird? He was being weird. But God, he was so cute. Cute. Very cute. Cute. Cute. So fucking cute.

This is all Mark’s mind was thinking about and when Mark thought about something he would just say it. Just like that. Cute. Don’t say it now though. Cute. I swear, Mark, shut up, for once. So cute. Please, not now. “Cute”, his tongue slipped.

Goddammit.

“What’s cute?” Haechan asked. The view. The view is cute. The view, Mark. Mark, say it. Mark, are you listening? The view. “You are”, Mark said instead and Haechan suddenly turned even cuter. Mark gasped, firstly because of the way Haechan’s cheeks turned red and his eyes round and big, then after a good full second that felt like an eternity, because of embarrassment. Oh shit. Fired. He was about to get fired. "God, sorry, I don't know what just happened. I apologize. It was inappropriate", Mark felt like running away. He woke up that morning with the intent of finally living the life he worked so hard for and there he was instead, calling strangers cute and making everyone uncomfortable for the sole reason of not being able to shut his mouth for once. Haechan looked embarrassed as he was though and that little detail made Mark hope that it wasn’t all over. Then Haechan shut some cold blinds on his own face and Mark knew that Haechan thought he was safe, that Mark wasn’t able to see his feelings underneath all that. It wasn’t an efficient job and Mark wondered if other people needed just that little act to not see Haechan anymore.

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"Good morning". Haechan saw the intern’s feet first before hearing his voice, but he didn't raise his face as suddenly something very important and urgent was being shown on the computer screen and he couldn't physically let his eyes fall on the way the guy wore his suit.

It was terrible. Long legs and strong thighs on display right in front of his desk? Terrible, and he didn’t need any more distractions in the workplace. After the intern left for the day with a soft “see you on Monday”, both tired having spent most of the time walking around the company and explaining boring paperwork, Haechan had not been able to stop thinking about him the whole weekend. No. No, it wasn’t a crush or anything. Haechan was just, what’s the word? baffled, s h o c k e d, appalled. Some random guy called him cute and Haechan acted that way? Blushing timidly? Was he feeling that bad? Was he that sick? Unacceptable. He was Haechan, for fuck’s sake. And Haechan didn’t just blush. He could not slip anymore. "Yeah, hi Mike", he replied lazily, fingers typing something he didn’t really need to write. "It's Mark", the intern replied in a neutral tone. Haechan knew it was Mark. In fact, he also knew his full name. Mark Lee. Born on August 2nd, 1999. Toronto. Moved to Vancouver. Graduated from university a few years ago. Great grades. Interested in music and sports. Plays the guitar. Good boy. Loves animals. Does charity work regularly. Has a normal amount of friends. Doesn't know how to take selfies. No, he was not being weird. He just read his CV.

Obviously.

He was his supervisor. He needed to read that. The other info? He Googled him only to make sure that he wasn't a criminal. And the social media research? It was just to check on his personality.

Obviously.

What if he posted about illegal shit? He had to check every photo and tagged person. It was part of his job. He was single, even if Haechan didn't search for that in particular. Haechan loved his work a lot and he didn't care that he worked on that until 3 am, scrolling through his phone, drifting to sleep with Mark's selfies impregnated on his lids. It's just that he took his job seriously.

Okay. Okay.

It wasn’t the whole truth. Haechan was curious. Who calls you cute all of a sudden? Haechan had to know more.

"Okay, Matt. What about you go and bring me a coff-", Haechan started but got interrupted by a hand, delicately placing a cup of steamy coffee in front of him. Haechan stared at it as if not understanding what that was then finally raised his eyes to meet Mark's gentle ones. He was smiling. "I stalked your Instagram. Full of food and coffee", Mark explained honestly with a shrug while walking around the desk and sitting down on his chair. They had to share a desk and Mark was as close as to touch elbows. Haechan hated having people so close to him when he didn't want them; especially at that moment, as Mark rested his head on his hand and just stared.

Yeah, he stared. His eyes were piercing, looking at Haechan as if that’s what normal people do. Scanning him from head to toe, then looking into his eyes as if able to see something there.

Haechan ignored him and looked away. "Stalking my social media is problematic, Mike". Mark chuckled lightly. "You did the same". Haechan's head snapped. "And why would I do that?”. Mark shrugged. "Close the tabs if you didn't want me to find out," he smiled staring at Haechan's laptop.

The younger’s eyes suddenly widened and with a quick hand, he closed it in a second, cheeks hot with shame. He opened his mouth to say something to get himself out of that embarrassing situation but Mark thankfully didn't give him any time.

"What are we doing today, sir?" he asked instead with a sly smile. "We write codes", Haechan replied quietly. "Fun", was Mark's comment.

And they did that the whole morning, ignoring each other's knees as they sometimes brushed against each other. And they ignored the way their knuckles touched when both reached for their own cup of coffee. And Haechan ignored Mark's cologne while Mark ignored the way the computer lights made Haechan's skin glow. Mark loved programming, he always did, but that morning he thought that it would be nice to not be a programmer, just for a minute, just to be in a well-lit office and see how different Haechan would look under the sun instead.

_______

Haechan stared down at his sandwich, sitting still wrapped and untouched in his lap. Then he looked up at the blue sky and let the white fluffy clouds calm him.

It happened close to the lunch break.

"Spaghetti", Mark said suddenly. Onew had left already and in front of their office, everyone was walking the corridor heading out. Haechan was finally getting into the flow of working when Mark's hoarse voice startled him. "It's your favourite food, isn't it?" Mark asked, explaining himself. "Soup. I don't put things I love on my Instagram", Haechan replied. Mark looked pensive. "This is why there's no girlfriend photo there?" he wondered with a timid smile. Huh? What was that? So this is what was happening? This is the reason for the cute?

Haechan had no force to being hit on, as much as Mark intrigued him. He had zero force and suddenly all the thoughts that Haechan buried away for a few days, came back like a bulldozer.

Haechan bit his tongue before talking too much. "Maybe the girlfriend doesn't exist", he mumbled before getting up and grabbing his wallet.

"Wait, are you going away?" Mark got up as well, surprised. "I thought we were going to eat together. I don't know other people-". "Well, I don't want to. Make some new friends", he replied and just walked away. No, he ran away and the first place he thought about was the terrace. It was the only uncontaminated place in the whole company. Doyoung has never been there before.

And Haechan loved the clouds. He loved the wind moving them around fast. It was mesmerizing and in moments like those, he was able to not think about anything, until he was not Haechan anymore, until he was a cloud himself, floating in the blue sky.

"Sorry, I didn't know this was your favourite place", a voice startled him for the second time that day.

Haechan looked at his right where Mark was standing with a plate of food in his hands. He looked like a scared deer, turning around to leave Haechan alone, probably wondering what he did wrong but too anxious to confront Haechan about it.

"It's alright. You can stay", Haechan spoke softly and resumed his cloud gazing.

Mark stopped uncertain, standing still for a little while but then he walked towards Haechan and slowly sat down, resting his back on the wall as Haechan did, raising his eyes to watch the sky.

"Pretty", Mark commented and this time he was actually talking about the view.

Haechan hummed, then after a moment of silence, he apologized.

Mark began eating his food. "For what?" he asked with his mouth full. They both knew the reason but Haechan still appreciated Mark’s effort to showcase that he wasn’t mad at him. "For telling you that I don't want to eat together. I was being an ass for no reason", Haechan explained. Mark shook his head. "It's alright. I'm sorry if I came off clingy". Haechan huffed. "Funny. Usually, I'm the clingy one".

Mark swallowed and Haechan looked at him. "I haven't been myself lately. But I promise I'm not an asshole". Mark smiled back kindly. "I know. I can see that".

Haechan's expression flattered.

Mark took another bite. "You look very warm. Your name is very appropriate for your personality. You're just… very cute", he added with a shy smile.

Haechan continued staring at the other, unable to make a single sound.

The other had a few other bites as if not noticing the way his words made Haechan feel then he finally raised his gaze.

"Why are you not eating? Are you sick?" Mark inquired eyeing Haechan's sandwich. The boy finally sighed and looked up at the sky again. "Maybe". "Well, you'll get worse if you don't eat", Mark commented and grabbed the sandwich, unwrapping it and putting it into Haechan's hand with force. "I can't believe you're treating your supervisor like this. Calling him cute and forcing him to eat", Haechan stared at the food in his hand before taking a small bite, mostly to make Mark happy. The other shrugged. "You act like no one calls you cute every minute. Also, I am older than you. I can do that”. Haechan rolled his eyes. "I'm still your senior. You don't want to see me get mad. I can guarantee you that". Mark opened his mouth to say something dangerously similar to “cute” but then smiled instead, shaking his head. Haechan forced himself to keep a straight face. "If you say it again…", he warned the other. Mark cleaned his already clean fingers on a napkin then suddenly grabbed Haechan's cheek with two fingers. The boy's eyes got wide and he almost dropped his food, his mouth open in a surprised o.

Mark smiled even more at his reaction, gulping his last piece of food while gently pinching Haechan's face as if he were a child. Then he let him go and got up, dusting his pants. "I didn't say anything this time", Mark explained innocently.

Haechan looked up at him, still shocked.

"I'll see you in the office. Finish your food", Mark told him and left. Haechan could distinctly hear Mark comment "so fucking cute" while he was descending the stairs.

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That night Haechan fell into his usual decadent slumber. He was almost fully unconscious, the twilight sleep making space for a depraved and troubled dream. Fingers twitching and muscles quivering, Haechan’s mind transformed his day yearning in darkness. Images of eyes and lips tormented him again. It has always been the same pattern, yet something new derailed the boy’s focus that night. Little details. The roundness of the eyes, the form of the lips, the touch of the fingers, the voice. That voice sounded different and it whispered something Haechan has never dreamt about before. A single word, soft but sensual, repeated again and again in Haechan’s ear.

That morning, after a very long time, the boy woke up with a new name on his lips.

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Mark sometimes thought that everyone was just stupid besides himself.

Not because of an unhealthy superiority complex or something, but because he couldn’t understand how everyone could be that blind.

“Oh, Lara, I love your new blazer”, Haechan would say while walking around the company with Mark following suit. Poor Lara would blush and be genuinely happy about the compliment. But Mark could see that Haechan thought it was atrocious. And Adam’s stuttering speech a well. Oh, and Joseph’s wrinkly newborn.

However, it wasn’t this fake persona Haechan had that made Mark uneasy. It was the one he would wear when talking about himself. Oh, I slept very well last night. No, I don’t need any help. Yes, everything is fine, what do you mean? Smiles and laughs and sarcastic comments.

Mark wanted to know. He wanted to get closer and dust off the misty layer on Haechan’s eyes.

Maybe Mark thought too highly of himself. Maybe it was his ego talking.

I’m going to be the one to help Haechan, that’s the only thing he could think about.

And lately, during sleepless nights, Mark would beat himself up about it.

It’s not your business, Mark. You want this to feel a good person.

Except, he would then frown and hug his pillow tighter, getting annoyed at himself.

No, I would want it even it wasn’t me to help Haechan out. I just want to see him happy.

Yeah. This sounds good.

So he would drift away to sleep, peaceful, knowing that he was selfless.

Alas, it took very little to Mark to realize that he wasn’t that selfless as he thought.

Mark raised his eyes when Haechan’s abrupt manners opened the office door with a kick. “Haechan, you look good today”. The other smirked. “I always look good. What do you mean?” As if the literal sun entered the room. Mark was blinded. “Did something good happen?”, he watched Haechan’s hair bounce at his every step, like a little seedling gently moved by the breeze. Haechan’s smile widened as he sat down, rolling around in his seat, pure energy sprinkling from every pore. “So I guess the answer is yes,” Mark found himself smiling as well, although a bitter taste pasted his tongue on the palate as he spoke. “I just remembered how much serotonin a good fuck gives you,” Haechan opened his computer and started working on his tasks, not paying attention to Mark’s face.

Oh.

Mark hated it. Oh, he hated it so much. God, he hated it.

The boy tried hard to not think about Haechan that day, resulting in him thinking about Haechan all day. Don't think about Haechan. Don't think about Haechan. Don't think about his body touched by somebody else.

It was almost lunchtime when Mark finally broke the silence. “So, now you’re dating someone?” Haechan raised an eyebrow, eyes still too focused on his computer to give his full attention to Mark. “What? No. Why?”, he mumbled distractedly. Mark blinked for a few seconds. Haechan finally processed and laughed. “You’re kinda sweet Mark. I just got dicked down, that’s all”, he got up and stretched his arms up with a whiny yawn. “Come on,” he lightly hit the other’s shoulder, “I think today’s menu is soup”.

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Mark Mark Mark Mark Mark.

It was as if Haechan was going crazy.

It was just a dream. A single dream.

When did this happen? How was it possible?

“Fuck, Haechan, you’re-”, Jaemin gulped, his adam apple going up and down inside his stretched out throat just like Haechan’s body moved on top of him. “Yeah?” the directly concerned boy smiled. “-crazy today”, Jaemin concluded. “Who made you this horny?” Haechan bit his lower lip, hating his mind for not leaving that thought out, even if for a single second. “Call me--”, he ignore the other’s question, cheeks violently turning red. Jaemin groaned at the way Haechan sunk deeper on him in the process. “Call you what?”, he asked breathless, fingers tightening around Haechan’s painfully hard length. “Cute”, the boy finally whispered. And Jaemin said it, again and again until that word replaced Mark’s name from Haechan’s head.

_______

That day’s menu was indeed soup which only added to Haechan’s general euphoria. Mark walked one step behind him, troubled by the double sword his feelings formed inside his heart. His eyes were only on the younger’s face and Mark could only sigh every few seconds.

Oh, I’m falling in love. I’m falling in love.

Lost in his melodramatic thoughts, Mark didn’t notice when Haechan suddenly stopped. “Hey, boys. Haechan,” a dude greeted generally before locking eyes with the younger one. Haechan rolled his eyes and made a step back from where that guy was. The dude’s smile flattered as if annoyed at that obvious showcase of hatred towards him but kept his fake expression on as he looked at Mark instead. “So, I’m organizing this party downtown at the Garages. Do you want to come?”, he asked.

Mark furrowed his eyebrows and eyed Haechan to see what the deal was about.

Haechan huffed. “Mark doesn’t like parties and neither do I, Jungwoo. Thank you”, he replied snarkily while making a step to continue walking.

Jungwoo smirked. “Says the party animal. You never mentioned it to me while I had you on my-”, but Haechan interrupted him, hitting his chest with the back of his hand.

Jungwoo chuckled with satisfaction.

“Oh, so the boy doesn’t have to know?” he asked indicating to Mark, faking innocence.”

Mark felt his jaw muscle flinch and a sudden urge to punch that dude in the face made his fists almost tremble.

“The boy doesn’t like the way you’re making his friend uncomfortable right now”, he spoke with a cold voice not breaking eye contact. “Whatever happened between you before, now Haechan doesn’t want to see you again and certainly he doesn’t want to come to your party”.

Haechan opened his mouth to say something but Jungwoo's laugh interrupted him.

“Oh, but he does want to see me again and come to my party. Don’t you, Haechan?” the dude asked.

“Of course I don’t, Jungwoo. Get fucked”, Haechan replied quickly, eyes rolling in their sockets, feet turning direction and walking away.

“I bet I will”, Jungwoo shrugged with a little smile, throwing one finger gun at Mark. “By Haechan”, he whispered with a wink while leaving him alone in the corridor.

To Mark’s horror, despite those two’s abrasive conversation, he could definitely see that as a silent promise.

So Mark went there as well.

Why? He didn’t know. He liked to think that he was concerned about Haechan’s safety.

That Jungwoo guy had some rancid vibes and Mark hated the idea of the two together. Because he was concerned for his safety.

Not because he was jealous or anything.

Haechan could do whatever he wanted and sleep with whoever he wanted to, but what if, just what if, Haechan changed his mind and chose Mark over the Jungwoo dude?

Mark could do that.

Mark wasn’t self-centred but he still realized that Haechan deserved better and he could provide that.

If that was Haechan needed to soothe the darkness in his eyes, Mark could do that.

But Haechan wasn’t there and neither was Jungwoo and the thought of that man’s hands on Haechan’s skin made Mark’s guts twirl on themselves.

He looked around, frantically, breathing the sweat-impregnated air, trying to avoid being hit by people’s sticky shoulders. Until he started to feel sick, not only because of the loud music and blinding lights but also for some obscure reason, grabbing his throat and choking him.

He had to drown that down.

_______

When Haechan arrived Mark was surrounded by people, eyes closed, face up exposing his neck, laughing and screaming, jumping and moving his body as Haechan has never seen someone do before.

His legs were nicely on display in a pair of severely ripped black jeans that Haechan had no idea Mark liked to wear.

The younger boy was so concentrated on the way a plain white T-shirt could look so good on a person that he noticed too late the way Mark directed his eyes towards him.

He was far away and Haechan couldn’t decipher the other's expression but it didn’t matter as Mark quickly made his way to where the younger boy nervously stood.

Mark was drunk. A lot.

But he still somewhat fluidly avoided the crowd as if dancing until getting as close as hovering above Haechan. The boy had never noticed that Mark was taller until he had to raise his face to look up, his back and palms pressed against the wall. He didn’t notice when he walked backwards either.

“Haechan”, Mark said his name with such worry to make the other’s heart beat like crazy. “Are you okay? Where have you been?”, or that's what Haechan deciphered from his lips since the music was so loud that his ribcage felt about to be ripped apart. “Home. I’ve just arrived”, Haechan yelled and Mark got even closer, giving his ear to the boy’s lips to hear better.

Haechan couldn’t do anything else besides inhaling his odour. Mark was a little sweaty and his breath smelled of alcohol, but Haechan has never found someone sexier than him at that moment.

His eyes were dark under his black curls and his lips looked swollen as if someone sucked on them. Haechan felt like prey and unconsciously pressed his body against the wall even harder.

“And where’s Jungwoo?”, Mark’s voice tingled Haechan’s earbuds. “I have no idea. Why would I know?”, Haechan replied, acting as if he didn’t realize why Mark was behaving like that.

It made Haechan’s palms sweat.

He thought about that a lot, at the way Mark got defensive of him in front of Jungwoo, at the way Mark’s expression darkened even after Haechan told them that he had no intention to go to the party, at the way Mark has been looking at Haechan a lot, at the way Haechan couldn’t just stop thinking about Mark for a single second either.

He came to the party because of that. Haechan’s mind was running again and he wanted to stop it. And also because he played with his phone all day, looking at Mark’s number for a long time.

Mark would have replied but did Haechan really want it? He was such a sweet person and Haechan didn’t dare to contaminate him with his presence. Mark didn’t deserve to be used as Haechan needed.

So he went to the party, ready to contaminate somebody else instead. Who knew that Mark was there waiting for him?

“I’ve been thinking about you the whole night”, Mark talked again after staring at Haechan as if trying to understand the younger one’s thoughts. Just like he has been for the past few months, making Haechan feel small and naked. "Yeah, I bet. While letting those people grind on you?" Haechan replied sarcastic trying hard to conceal his shaking voice.

Mark got closer, bold and cocky, putting his hands on the wall, caging Haechan between his arms, leaning in and whispering into his ear. "Yeah, I was imagining you grinding on me", his confession tickled Haechan’s ear and the boy tried to move his head away on the side, afraid to do something he would regret, but Mark's hand was there and his head had nowhere to go. It wasn't right.

Haechan was sober while Mark was drunk and had no idea what he was talking about. He had to go away, push him back, but his limbs weren't cooperating. Mark's hand though was working just fine and it gently grabbed Haechan's face, turning it into his direction.

"Haechan, please, let me kiss you", he begged, his breath caressing Haechan’s lips.

The boy gulped down surprised, shivering with desire, fighting with himself. He put his hands on Mark's chest, with the intent of lightly pushing him away, but he was made of iron. No, Mark, no, please. You’re too precious to me for this.

"You don't know what you're talking about", Haechan mumbled.

Mark breathed heavily. His jaw muscles tightened. Then he put his head down as if trying to gain forces.

"Yeah, sorry, okay okay, I'm leaving", he retrieved his arms and let them fall to his sides like dead flesh.

Haechan looked at them with some relief, suddenly feeling exposed and cold, even if the club's air was so hot that it was hard to breathe. Or maybe it was just him having breathing difficulties. Haechan had no idea.

"No, wait", his lips betrayed him. "Just-", Haechan interrupted himself, eyes squeezed together as if already regretting what he was about to say, unsure, holding Mark's wrist with both hands. Then he opened his eyes again.

Mark was looking at him his heavy lids. His gaze wandered from his face to his exposed neck, then to his collarbones and chest. Mark was undressing him without touching anything and Haechan felt like going crazy.

"-just a kiss. Okay? It's going to be a short kiss", Haechan continued, unable to believe he was actually saying that.

But there was no harm in that. A little kiss. Just a harmless little kiss. Like the ones you'd have in college during stupid games. No one thought about those in the mornings.

But when Mark's lips curved in a little smirk and his body got as close as to press on Haechan's one again, the younger boy knew that it wasn't going to be just a kiss. Not for him at least. And not only he would think about it in the morning. He probably would think about it for a long time. And he was right. It was indeed memorable. Slow and careful but not timid. Mark cupped the other’s face, palm pressed on his jaw, fingers as far as touching his neck and ear, the other grabbing his hips, pulling them against his. Haechan’s head felt light and he couldn't fathom how Mark managed to have so much control when he was about to lose it all. And then it became even worse as Mark slipped his tongue inside of Haechan’s mouth and the younger boy had to tighten his grip around Mark’s torso. He whined into Mark's mouth, making the other hum back, picking up the pace, biting his lower lip and sucking on it, letting his hand fall from Haechan's face to his neck, then chest, then to his stomach, grazing the skin separated by Mark's fingers only by his thin button-down.

Haechan had to stop him. It was going too far. That was a mistake. They still had to work together. There’s a reason why Haechan avoided talking to the coworkers he fucked before. Mark wasn't realizing that but Haechan did. He had to be responsible.

Stop him, Haechan. Stop him.

"Mark, wait", he broke off the kiss when Mark's hands reached his jeans button. The boy looked down at him, panting, eyes half-closed: he was begging Haechan to let him continue.

Haechan grabbed his shirt and dragged him around the corner, into the shadows.

"Tomorrow we forget about this, okay?", he warned him, shutting his brain off. "Okay", Mark replied quickly putting his mouth on Haechan's again as if unable to be away from it for too long. And he put his hands on Haechan's jeans again as well, opening the button, letting the zip fall slowly, tucking his hand underneath Haechan's boxers, feeling his soft and hot skin, wrapping his fingers around him tightly, not letting the struggling Haechan to break off the kiss to moan. And he didn't even last too long. The boy came shuddering all over Mark's fist after a few good strokes and the older finally let him press his face into his chest.

Shit, he had never lasted this little. What the hell.

Haechan was fucking embarrassed and if Mark wouldn't have been too drunk to remember anyway, he would have just run away to hide in that exact moment.

"Fuck", Mark cursed under his breath, feeling Haechan’s hot release on his skin, nudging at Haechan's temple with his lips while the other came down from his high. "Oh, fuck, you're so hot like this, Haechan. And cute. Shit, you're so cute, I'm going crazy", he babbled before letting Haechan's cock go and trying to bring his fingers to his lips. "Oh no", Haechan gulped trying to stop him. "Mark, don't. You touched all sort of things in the club with that hand", and Mark stopped for a second as if processing the information before dropping to his knees and tasting Haechan directly.

The boy opened his mouth in a silent gasp and he was still so aroused that feeling Mark's tongue made him hard again in a second.

"Fuck", Haechan swore loudly, pressing his fingers into the wall behind him, letting his head fall back, feeling himself grow harder inside Mark's mouth.

He didn't expect it. He didn't expect any of this. Innocent and soft Mark Lee sucking him off like no one has done before in the dark corner of a club? Haechan the slut coming in two seconds and getting hard again soon after? Past Haechan would have laughed, yet there he was, moaning Mark's name like a mantra, coming for the second time in minutes like a little virgin.

It was no dream. It was a reality.

Mark didn't let him go and Haechan felt like flying as his cum descended inside Mark's throat. And then he looked down right in time to catch a glimpse of Mark's eyes, looking up at him, letting his cock out with a lewd plop. "Mark, where did you learn that?", Haechan asked suddenly exhausted. The boy licked his lips and held onto Haechan to get up, shakily. "Was that good? It was my first time doing it", he mumbled with a smile before resting his head on Haechan's shoulder, the cocktail he had right before adding to his brain fog.

_______

Mark woke up to the sound of a heartbeat. It was a comforting sound. Deep and regular.

He groaned softly as his lids realized they were getting hit by bright and irritating sunlight. Then he opened his eyes slowly, focusing on the windows first, vision blurry, then on the plant underneath it, then on the young man underneath him.

Mark's muscles got a spasm and woke up completely as his brain finally made sense of what was going on. Meaning that his face was resting on Haechan's chest. Bare chest. And his own torso, bare torso, was wrapped by the boy's arms.

Oh fuck, he thought. Oh shit.

"It's too late in the morning to run away", Haechan mumbled, waking up softly as well.

Mark froze as he was trying to get up. He was propped up on an elbow when Haechan opened his eyes and Mark felt his breath hitch.

Haechan was there, pillow adorned with his luscious locks lying all around his head like a halo, chocolate eyes warmed by the sun shining through the windows and his skin, God, he looked like an angel.

"I'm not going away", Mark lied, surprising himself by how deep and hoarse his voice sounded like. "Fuck, you're so cute right now", he whispered soon after, unable to control himself.

Haechan's eyes got wider at Mark's words. He expected Mark to freak out, and Mark was freaking out inside a lot, but having Haechan like that, underneath him, vulnerable and beautiful as never before, made Mark feel peaceful at the same time.

This is all he wanted in life.

The older managed to keep it together for a few other seconds, trying to look confident, but when Haechan's cheeks reddened with blush, Mark lost it and blushed as well, rolling away, grabbing a pillow to hide his face in with a scream.

"I can't believe it", his voice came out muffled. "Oh my God", he yelled quietly.

Haechan started to chuckle embarrassed. "What an idiot".

"How-", Mark removed the pillow enough for one eye to poke out. "How far-", he stuttered.

Haechan rolled his eyes, faking nonchalance.

"Just oral", he whispered while getting up and putting his feet on the ground, turning his back to Mark, unable to look at him in the face either.

"Oh", the other sounded weirdly disappointed. Haechan pinched the base of his nose. That man was sending such mixed messages. "You did dry hump my ass if that makes things better", Haechan spoke through his teeth, embarrassed out of his mind, grabbing the bottle of water he kept on his nightstand. "I'm sorry. You deserve to get fucked properly", Mark replied quietly as if thinking at loud, making Haechan choke on his water and spit it all around the room.

Mark sat up quickly and placed a hand on Haechan's shoulder. "Are you okay?"

The choking boy turned around to face him.

"I thought you'd be all embarrassed about this", he commented while drying his wet lips with the back of his hand.

"I am!" Mark's eyes got wide and his red ears confirmed it, but it was still not what Haechan expected.

"I mean", Haechan hesitated, unsure of what words to use, "I thought you'd regret it in the morning. You were really drunk last night and you had no idea what you were doing”.

Mark's face visibly darkened.

"Do you regret it?", he asked.

Haechan went on with his phrase ignoring Mark’s question. "-like I was sober and I was worried that maybe I should have-".

"Haechan".

Mark's voice was so deep and serious that Haechan's heart started to beat faster upon hearing him calling his name like that. "Answer me. Do you regret it? Did I- fuck - did I do something wrong?", Mark asked ruffling his hair with one hand. He looked so worried and distressed that Haechan for a second didn't know what to say.

"No", the younger finally shook his head. "No", he repeated. "I was aware of everything and I made my choice consciously but you-", Haechan hesitated again. "Me too", Mark spoke up, nodding. "I remember everything until you helped me to get out of the club. After I sucked y-".

"Don't say it", Haechan stopped him with a raised palm.

Mark chuckled embarrassedly.

If only Haechan knew how cute he was being in that moment, faking his serious face and steading his voice. Mark would have wanted to see Haechan confess just how weak he was.

"So you, like, you wanted it? Not because you were just drunk and I happened to be there?", Haechan asked timidly. Haechan couldn't believe he was so shy to talk about sex with someone. It has never happened before. Nothing he did with Mark happened before.

Mark gulped down. "I wanted it, yeah. I didn't do it because I was drunk. I did it thanks to that. I don't think I would have had the courage otherwise", he explained. "But I'm also sorry. It mustn't be nice to- like--uh, you know, with a drunk person", he stuttered, eyes closing and opening as he thought about the words to use.

Haechan looked down, shyly. "You were very hot actually", he whispered back, scratching the back of his head.

"Haechan," Mark finally found his voice after a moment of shocked silence. "I swear to God, I would take you-", but interrupted himself abruptly.

Haechan looked at him flustered.

Mark cleared his voice.

Then he shook his head.

"No", he chuckled at himself. "Nothing, never mind", he added suddenly getting up, the covers sliding down his naked body.

Haechan looked at it. He had looked at it the whole night. That night he kissed every inch of that skin and listened to Mark's soft moans. And Haechan realized that it wasn't a hookup. At all. Not for him. But Mark didn't remember that part and Haechan didn't want to tell him. If Haechan had to think about it for the next month, so be it. It was all on him. He let himself go too far and he wasn't talking about the physical aspect. It was all his fault if his heart was aching to see Mark get dressed instead of lying beside him, cuddling, or better, doing what Mark didn't dare to tell him.

_______

"Tomorrow we forget about this, okay?".

Forgetting.

Mark wanted to forget but he couldn't do it. Not the day after and not on Monday morning, seeing Haechan's pretty lips so close to him and not being able to kiss them.

Mark lied when Haechan asked him what he remembered.

Well, not entirely, because he did forget some parts.

But he was definitely lucid when Haechan went down on him, slowly, after kissing his lips, then his neck, sucking on his skin, then his chest and stomach as Mark wrapped Haechan's hair around his fingers. The boy asked multiple times if Mark was okay with that until Mark had to basically beg to just suck him off already. And God, he was so cute doing it. He would never forget how that felt. Divine. His head was so light as if zero oxygen got to it, every drop of blood concentrated inside of Haechan's warm and wet mouth instead.

And he was staring at that mouth now, as Haechan explained the work to do for the day. Mark wasn't even that horny. No. He just wanted to hold him again and softly press his lips on Haechan's plump ones.

"Tomorrow we forget about this".

Haechan was sober when he said that. He meant it. He wouldn't have said that if he didn't mean it. Right? Should he ask? Haechan, did you forget? Do you want to forget? Because I don't.

And I can't.

"Mark", Haechan snapped his fingers in front of him making the boy jolt. "Focus", he ordered. "What are you thinking about?".

You. I'm thinking about you. You. You. I've been thinking about you for days, Haechan.

"Lunch", Mark shrugged. Haechan rolled his eyes. "What an idiot".

_______

That afternoon Haechan was in a relatively good mood.

He should have known that the most peaceful days could bring the most terrible storms though.

So he jolted at the sound of a voice he almost forgot how it sounded like.

"Haechan, I thought you died or something".

The boy in question looked up from his computer to see a pair of feline eyes.

They were bright and amused. Then he saw the lips. Soft and pink stretched in a sweet smile.

Doyoung was still like a house with all the lights on, but now it wasn’t empty anymore. Now everyone was home. This house was full of people, all happy and content.

Haechan was so glad. He truly was. This is what he has always wanted to see since first locking eyes with that man. But he also felt suddenly miserable. Miserable and confused.

His heart shouldn't have skipped a beat like that. Not anymore.

"I did die and I just got back from hell", he replied, trying to sound as snarky as possible. It wasn't entirely a lie.

"What about you? You also went missing". Doyoung blushed subtly at the innuendo and Haechan felt the urge to punch the table. Or himself. "I've been busy", Doyoung replied softly. "So you went to paradise instead, I see", Haechan commented with a smile hoping that no one noticed how fake it was.

_______

"A man can't have his alone time in peace. What do you want?", Haechan rolled his eyes while Mark sat down beside him, resting his back on the rooftop wall, looking in front of him at the blue sky.

It was a sunny day with a slight breeze, enough for Haechan's fringe to wave gently.

Mark loved it when the wind ruffled Haechan's hair but he couldn't bring himself to look at the younger boy. Not at that moment.

"I didn't know", Mark whispered. "What?", Haechan's voice came out irritated but he didn't care.

"That you were in love", Mark added.

Haechan choked on his breath.

"I'm not", he crossed his arms on his chest and closed his eyes as if sunbathing. Conversation over, it meant. An angry bronzing session.

Mark finally looked at him then, feeling safe as he wasn't seen back. He watched the way Haechan’s skin glowed under the warm rays. Mark thought about how it would feel under his fingertips but he wasn’t sure. He touched it before but now he couldn’t remember it. Mark wanted to raise one hand and touch his cheek again, this time fully concentrating on the feeling. He wanted to let it slide down the boy’s jawline, feeling the sharp bone, then on his neck where the angry pulsating artery pumped blood at a crazy speed. Then he wanted to hear Haechan’s soft breath as his hand unbuttoned his shirt, this time feeling his heartbeat. Mark wanted it to be fast and only for him. For Mark.

It all made sense now. But why does it have to be like that? What should Mark do? What do people do in this scenario?

Was he thinking about this Doyoung guy? Has Haechan been thinking about other men? The whole time? While Mark was thinking about him?

Was he imagining kissing that man's lips while Mark's mind was full of Haechan and Haechan only?

Of course, he would.

What was Mark thinking? Isn’t this what he accepted? Isn’t this what he decided to adventure in? Why was Mark suddenly so hurt about Haechan behaving as he anticipated him to do?

We forget about this in the morning and Mark was certain now that Haechan actually did forget.

"Does he know?", Mark asked after a while. Haechan snorted. "Of course he doesn't". "He doesn't know what?".

The other boy sighed at the trap.

"Just leave me alone", he ordered. And Mark actually got up and left.

Haechan's cheeks got wet right when it started to rain.

_______

"Mark, if you have something to say, just say it".

It's been a few days of Mark not talking but still looking at Haechan as if about to burst in a monologue anytime soon.

Haechan had been brusque with him before, but it never came to Mark not talking to him.

The younger boy wasn’t stupid. It was obvious what was going on with Mark but Haechan didn’t have the force to deal with it sooner.

"I don't have anything to say", Mark replied. "Do you have anything to say?".

Haechan rested his back on the chair and looked at Mark, irritated.

"Okay, we need to sort this thing out. We can't work like this". "Like this how? We're working just fine", Mark didn't raise his eyes from the computer. "Mark, you've been writing and deleting the same line for a while now", Haechan indicated the screen with his chin. "Well, maybe something is going on with me but it doesn't have anything to do with you, so we don't need to talk about anything", Mark replied finally starting a new line.

So Mark was able to lie as well, huh?

"Mark", Haechan lowered his voice. "Do you perhaps have feelings for me?", he whispered.

"What?!" Mark yelled.

Onew jolted on his seat.

"Keep your voice down, you dumbass", Haechan put one hand on his thigh. Mark looked down at it then at Haechan's face.

Haechan retrieved his hand back.

Mark breathed heavily before talking.

"It's just--”, he rested his back on the chair as well, “I've never been with someone like that before and I'm so confused right now, like, I don't know if I have feelings for you or just--like, I need closure?", he questioned as if talking to himself.

Haechan was surprised that Mark told him all that.

"You mean that you're a virgin?", the younger asked incredulously. "Uhm, I can hear you", Onew said. "Then get your ass up and take a stroll, Owen", Haechan spoke up.

Mark flinched at his sudden and loud voice.

Their colleague shook his head as if not believing he was dealing with some weirdos and got out of the office mumbling something about gen z people.

"I am not a virgin. I meant hookups", Mark explained after a little pause while his cheeks acted like a virgin's. "You said you've never sucked someone before", Haechan raised one eyebrow. "It's alright if you're a virgin, Mark. You just have to tell me and-”, he interrupted himself as if realizing what they actually did, “-fuck, you had to tell me before as well. God, I acted recklessly, I should hav-".

"I am not a virgin! Stop saying that. I've never sucked before because I've been eating pussy, okay?", Mark raised his voice.

Haechan blinked at him. "So you're confused about your sexuality?"

Mark rolled his eyes defeated. "I know what I like! I'm not confused. Just hear me out!" "You said you were confused just a minute ago", Haechan said. "But not about my sexuality. Because of the hookup!" "Why are you yelling?", Haechan yelled. "I'm not yelling!", Mark yelled back. "You're arguing with me right now". "Because you're not listening! I don't know how I'm feeling about you because I've never slept around before. I-- just--don't like it", Mark stuttered. "Then why did you sleep with me?", Haechan was exasperated. Mark whined. "Because I liked you already”. "So you do like me. You have feelings for me", Haechan raised his hands as if talking with a fool.

The other shifted in his seat as if uncomfortable.

"Don't all people like their hookup partners though? Like, would you sleep with someone if they were ugly as fuck? I don't think so. You still need to be attracted to them a little".

Haechan sighed while massaging his temples. "I can't believe I'm having this conversation. Didn't you have crushes before? Don't you know what it feels like to be in love?".

Mark groaned tiredly. "I did. And I know. But this is different", he spoke with a softer tone.

Haechan sighed. "So what? Am I supposed to help you figure that out? If you like me or not?".

Mark straightened his tie and focused on his computer again as if the conversation was over.

"Listen, you wanted to hear me talk, so I did".

The younger boy stared at the other’s fingers as they started to type something, probably useless.

"Do you even want to like me? Like what's your expectation?".

Mark’s fingers stopped and he remained silent for a little while. "Well, you like somebody else, so it wouldn't be nice if I had feelings for you, would it?".

Haechan prolonged the silence a bit. "I'm getting out of it".

Mark turned his head to him.

That was a lie, Mark could see it. A blatant lie.

"Do you want me to like you?", he asked. His voice was soft and low.

Haechan thought about it for a second. He didn’t know what to say.

Mark sighed, unable to wait like that, and closed his eyes, reclining back on his seat again.

"I like you, Haechan. Okay? I like you, fuck. I don't care if you like somebody else".

Haechan’s heart started to beat even faster than before.

“Was this the problem, then? You were jealous?”, Haechan’s voice came out quieter than he intended.

Mark opened his eyes and looked down at his hands clasped together.

He shrugged.

“You don’t have to worry about me. I just needed to say it. I’m not asking for anything from you”, Mark directed his gaze towards Haechan.

He looked so serious that it made Haechan’s cheeks get pink again.

Mark’s eyes trembled imperceptibly at that reaction but he didn’t dare to say anything about it.

He cleared his voice as Haechan couldn’t bring himself to add anything either and got back to work.

_______

It was very late at night.

Haechan had no idea what time it was but it was not a time normal people would be awake at.

He fidgeted under the covers, restless and irritated. He felt hot and his mind wouldn’t let him sleep.

His hands found his phone after a while, ready to click on Jaemin’s name. But then his thumb slid down and it stopped over Mark instead.

Haechan stared at the bright screen until he felt his eyes tear up from lack of blinking then just pressed it with a huff.

Bad person Haechan. You’re a bad person. You’re such a bad person. A mistake. You did a mistake a now you were about to make another one.

“Yes”, Mark’s rough voice interrupted Haechan’s train of thoughts.

The younger boy opened his mouth to breathe better and he let that monosyllable caress his ears even after the sound already died.

“Hey”, Haechan whispered, closing his eyes, helping his other senses to get sharper.

Mark groaned softly and shifted in his bed, probably turning in a more comfortable position. “Haechan”, he said in the same sleepy and deep voice and Haechan had to make an effort to not whimper into the phone.

Why was Haechan so affected by this boy but at the same time so afraid of him? He shouldn’t have let Mark get so involved. Haechan should have put a wall between them the first time his lips said that first “cute”, then another one when he blatantly saw the way Mark’s eyes couldn’t leave him, then another one that night in the club, and another one when Mark asked him if Haechan wanted to be liked. And now as well. Just end the call.

But he couldn’t.

His walls were not strong enough for Mark and Haechan was a bad person.

He liked it. He liked a lot. Haechan wanted more and more even if he could give back only darkness.

“I’m sorry I woke you up”, Haechan said after waiting a few seconds to recollect himself.

Mark hummed as if telling him that it was alright. “Is everything okay?” he asked and Haechan noticed the way Mark was slowly waking up by the growing concern in his voice. “Yeah, yeah, everything is good. I just…”, Haechan hesitated.

Why did he even call Mark in the first place? Did he need company? Rude. Did he miss him? Gross. He was a bad person, using people when he needed, disregarding their feelings? Yeah.

“I wanted to speak to someone”, he decided to be honest.

Mark’s breath got louder for a second as if he laughed lightly. “I’m glad you thought of me, then. Unless you called other people first and no one replied”.

Haechan smiled, feeling like a teenager talking to his first crush, then stopped, starting to hate himself. “No. You’re the only one I called”, he confessed.

What was he doing? Bad. Bad Haechan. Bad.

Mark went silent and Haechan listened to his breath for a while.

“You confuse me so much, Haechan”, Mark’s voice was a whisper and Haechan swallowed nothing, feeling his throat suddenly dry.

Yeah. It was not fair. Not when Mark told him how he was feeling and Haechan couldn’t do the same.

“But I’m not complaining”, Mark added before Haechan could apologize and end the call, finally getting to his senses. “I don’t care, Haechan. I like you so much. You can do whatever you want to me”.

Haechan bit his lower lip. God, he hated himself.

“Mark-”. “Would you do something for me?”, the boy interrupted him. “Mm? What?”. “Would you-”, Mark stopped, breath suddenly quicker, “-would you-uhm-- shit”, he repeated softly before chuckling, slightly embarrassed.

Haechan’s skin got goosebumps, wondering if he understood what Mark wanted. His heartbeat started to pump blood at a crazy speed at it all went in a single place.

So he did what Mark asked, even if he would end up being wrong, only because he wanted it too. He slid a hand under his t-shirt, slowly, until reaching his nipples, and whined into the phone.

Mark went completely silent for a second.

Haechan whined again a little louder.

“Fuck, Haechan”, Mark’s voice trembled. "Are you-- are you touching yourself?”.

Haechan hummed. “My nipples”, he simply replied as he pinched them, playing with himself, feeling his boxers get tighter at every stroke. “Oh fuck”, Mark’s rough voice made Haechan squeeze his eyes together and open his mouth in a silent moan.

They were both panting. Haechan couldn’t tell if Mark was just lying there and imagining or if he started to shyly let his hand slide south as well.

“How does it feel?”, Mark inquired with a shaken voice and Haechan realized he still had too much control to be rubbing one out as well. “It feels so good, Mark”, the younger one replied, adding soft swears as his fingers got under the fabric of his boxers, letting the elastic hit his abdomen once, loudly, making sure Mark heard it as well. “Hmm -a-ah”, he wrapped his cock with his hand, pumping it slowly a few times, pressing his thumb on the slit.

He didn’t need to exaggerate any sound. Knowing that Mark was listening could make Haechan go over the edge alone.

“Haechan, you make me go so fucking crazy”, Mark’s shaking voice made Haechan bite his lower lip. “You too, Mark”, he confessed in the cloud of sensations.

Then listened to the way the other boy’s bed sheets irrefutably shifted and the bed creaked and his breath hitched as he started to pleasure himself to the sound of Haechan’s whimpers and the image he had of him.

They didn’t talk anymore. There was no need to and they weren’t able to either. Not having Mark near him, made Haechan last longer but it was still too quickly than usual so he stopped right before cumming, edging himself until the other whined into his pillow, cursing and calling Haechan’s name.

_______

Haechan avoided Mark the whole day. He told Mark that he had some other work and barely came into the office.

The older boy would sigh every five minutes, mind racing, making the poor Onew groan.

“He’s feeling awkward. You guys fucked, it’s normal”.

Mark turned his head towards him as if awoken from a dream, cheeks blushing violently as soon as he made sense of the other’s words.

“Also, you’re in love with him. I would avoid someone in love with me as well if I only wanted to fuck them,” Onew added as if talking about the weather. Mark was unable to speak. “He’s afraid to hurt you now”.

“I told him it was alright, though”, Mark finally whispered, trying hard to suppress the hysterical little chuckle he would get when nervous or talking about embarrassing stuff.

Onew got up with his empty coffee mug in his hand.

“Show it. Do something that can make him realize that it’s okay for you to be in this type of relationship”, he added before walking out whistling with not one single worry in the world.

Mark would have wanted to whistle as well but couldn’t.

That advice was breaking his heart.

It was true. Mark said that he was okay, but he was lying.

Of course, he was not alright.

He wanted to, oh he wanted so bad to be alright but it was so late. It was already late from the beginning. Mark didn’t want that kind of relationship. He wanted more.

But Onew was also right. Mark had to do something. If being able to have Haechan like that meant breaking his own heart, Mark was ready to do it.

And when that night he went to Jungwoo’s monthly party again, he forced his beating heart to stop upon seeing Haechan’s back.

The young men’s slender figure was curved in a laugh, the pretty sound almost audible to Mark’s far away ears. Then Haechan sipped from the drink in front of him, still amused by the handsome bartender’s joke, and spun around in his chair right in time to see Mark being hit on by a woman.

Haechan’s lips stopped on the edge of the glass, eyes unable to blink, staring emotionless at the way Mark’s lips curved in a timid smile while his hands weren’t timid at all, firmly grabbing that girl’s hips as she wiggled her ass against Mark’s crotch.

Haechan turned around, placing the drink on the counter with a slightly shaking hand.

“Everything alright?”, the bartender asked.

Haechan didn’t reply and threw his head back, finished his cocktail in one gulp.

_______

It was quite early when the boy left the party. Haechan felt like suffocating in the middle of all those people breathing heavily, clouding his mind.

Waiting for his taxi outside, ignoring the stares of horny people smoking and grinding against each other by the entrance of the Garages, he got reasonable startled when two hands suddenly wrapped his torso.

But those were some delicate fingers and Haechan could recognize that cologne in a thousand others.

Mark rested his face on Haechan’s shoulder and no one said anything for a little while, listening to the deep bass coming out of the club, the yelling and the traffic on the main road just a few blocks away.

“Sorry if I startled you”, Mark mumbled.

Haechan bit his lower lip and turned around, expecting a drunk and horny Mark yet again. But the boy’s eyes were wide and awake, his usual staring-as-if-reading-your-soul eyes met Haechan’s ones.

The younger looked at them for a second then he eyed the bright red hickeys on the other’s neck as well as the slightly unbuttoned shirt.

“I see you’ve had some fun tonight”, Haechan commented unable to hide his bitter tone. Not that Mark wouldn’t have been able to see through his fake face anyway.

Mark licked his lips and tugged Haechan’s hips towards him.

"Is this alright?", his voice was low and sultry, ignoring Haechan’s little jab, caressing his lower back instead.

Haechan started to pant softly, unsuccessfully trying to take a step back then he gulped down staring at the other’s lips getting each second closer.

"We can pretend it didn't happen", Mark went on, "just like we've always done, isn’t that right?", and Haechan could have sworn that Mark was a little pissed off. “Fucking at night then pretending we don’t know each other during the day, huh? Isn’t this what you want? I can do that”.

Mark's fingers reached the hem of Haechan's t-shirt by now, hiking it up slowly, dragging his fingertips on his skin. It was warm, just like Mark had always imagined. A loud cheer mixed with glass shattering made Haechan flinch but Mark shushed him, every second closer until they were breathing each other's air.

"I really want to take you right now, just like this".

Mark's whisper made both of their hearts beat like crazy. The first, not believing he was talking like that, the second, not believing that Mark was telling him that.

And when Haechan finally closed his eyes, ready to melt into the kiss, Mark's lips ghosted his cheek and neck instead, fingers still drawing little circles on the younger's chest, resting his palm on the beating heart. Then he pulled away.

“It’s a shame that you’re pushing me away like this”, Mark straightened his back and walked away.

_______

Mark was a weird guy.

And when Haechan bumped into him inside the local supermarket near his apartment, a large sweatshirt on his frame, boyfriend jeans, ruffled hair, a little stubble, concerned expression behind his golden round glasses, the tip of his tongue out, licking his lips mindlessly, deciding what brand of cereal he wanted, Haechan felt the urge to go there and yell at him that he's in love.

Haechan never liked the "what are we" question.

Everyone around him asked that. What are we? Friends. Friends with benefits. Nothing, we're just fucking. Haechan has never adventured there. But now, looking at Mark's profile, his hand finally picking up the cereal pack, Haechan wanted to ask him that question.

What are we, Mark?

Because I want us to be something.

I want to claim you in ways that give other people no place to do the same.

Not a friend, not a colleague, not a friend with benefits.

An etiquette that only Haechan could claim.

Even if Haechan didn’t deserve that.

Mine. My boyfriend. Mine. Mine. All mine.

Was that wrong? Probably.

But Haechan felt no remorse.

Was that love? Haechan was unsure but he wanted to find out.

So he walked over. Was Mark there because he hoped to see Haechan? "Oh, Haechan", Mark seemed genuinely surprised when the younger called his name. "What are you doing here?", the boy asked.

Mark looked around briefly as if suddenly not knowing where he was. "The meat here is higher quality than the supermarket near my apartment", he explained and Haechan could see the way Mark's expression screamed honesty.

He wasn’t there because of Haechan. Mark might have had a crush on the other but he was slipping away now.

Come back, Mark. Come back to me. Call me cute again. Touch my skin. Don’t do this. Don’t play with me like this.

"Haechan", Mark's voice wavered as the boy got suddenly closer. "We're in public".

Haechan didn’t look away. “You didn’t care about the public last night. You let that slut fuck you in front of everyone then you dared to flirt with me and leave me on the edge like that?”, he confronted him.

Mark’s little stunt made the younger so mad the day before that he felt like bursting in his pants during the drive home. Cheeks flushed and trembling hand, he didn’t even bother to walk to the bedroom. He closed his eyes and threw his head back to rest against the entrance door as soon as he stepped into his empty apartment. He came and came, again and again, until he felt too sensitive to touch himself anymore. God, he was so mad.

“Haechan, are you jealous?”, Mark’s eyes relaxed, the cereal pack still between them, the gaze of some elderly ladies not leaving their backs.

Haechan’s jaw muscles flexed. “Yeah. I am. I am jealous. I am fucking jealous. Okay? I hate it. I hate that you sleep with other people. You’re mine and mine only”, Haechan spat out quickly before he could regret saying it.

He was panting and he didn’t even have to look at himself to know that he was all red.

Mark’s breath hitched in a startled laugh.

“And I hate that you have all of this control over me. I was done, okay? I was done with feelings and here you are, doing all of this bullshit to me. Your little game worked. Are you happy?”.

Getting out of the apartment that late morning, Mark didn’t anticipate getting a confession from Haechan in the cereal aisle while said person looked up at him with furrowed eyebrows, doe eyes and a trembling lower lip.

God, he was so cute, Mark wanted to grab his face and kiss him.

“You saw my game and played by my rules?”, Mark asked impressed.

“You didn’t even give me time to play at all! I got defeated before starting”, the other admitted frustrated.

Mark chuckled. “Why are you getting mad at me, Haechan? You ignored me in the first place, sleeping with other people.”

The boy huffed exasperated and walked away, bumping Mark in the shoulder, making the other pirouette and grab him by the forearm.

“I was joking. Come on”, he cooed. “This is what I’ve always wanted”.

Haechan put his tongue inside his cheek, annoyed. “What? Me making a fool out of myself?”

“Showing yourself to me”, Mark replied kindly.

Haechan rolled his eyes, still using his faking-nonchalance-to-not-show-his-feelings technique, but Mark was already immune to that. In fact, he has been immune to that from the start.

Haechan loved it.

Haechan loved it so much that he got scared. It was too good to be true.

________

It was pouring heavily when they got out of the supermarket. Haechan had his apartment windows open and they could smell the scent of rain, clean and refreshing.

It was cold but Mark's body heated the boy in a second, groceries fallen on the floor, wrapping his arms around the other’s frame.

They did not kiss and Haechan was quite surprised but he didn't say anything, hiding his face the crook of Mark's neck instead, inhaling all of his favourite scents at the same time.

"I called you upstairs for a different reason," Haechan mumbled, surprised at the sudden softness, the sound of his voice muffled by the other's slightly damp sweatshirt.

"I know," Mark whispered against his temple.

He placed a delicate kiss there, then another one slightly below, then another one, drawing a line until reaching the jaw. Haechan raised his face and Mark kissed the corner of his lips, then the other cheek, and jaw again, and the other temple.

Haechan closed his eyes with a little smile as if giving up.

Mark, what are you doing?".

"I want you to think", the other replied, lips still busy. Haechan scoffed. "I want to stop thinking". "I want you to think about me".

His lips reached Haechan's forehead and stayed there for a little.

The only sound was the rain and Haechan's quick heart.

"I already think about you a lot", Haechan confessed, face close to Mark's collarbones.

"And why do you want to stop?" the other murmured.

His voice was so relaxing and calming that Haechan for a second forgot why was he trying to not think about Mark in the first place. Why was he pushing him away? Why has he been pushing him away all of that time?

Then he remembered when Mark's hands slid down Haechan's back.

"Because I'm a bad person". Mark sighed as if he expected that but still wanted to hear the other say it. "You're not a good judge". Haechan tsk-ed. "Well, thanks, I guess." "I am the one who has to decide if you're a bad person or not, and I say that you're not." "You're blinded by love”.

Mark hugged Haechan even tighter.

"Yeah, I am, so Haechan, please, let me love you", his tone darkened suddenly. "Stop pushing me away. I can handle anything".

"I'm going to fuck up", Haechan shook his head.

"You won't and if you do, I still want to take my chances. What if I fuck up before you do?"

Haechan laughed, resting his chin on Mark's chest, rising his face to look at the boy in the eyes. "Mark, you're a saint".

The saint’s eyes were those of a sinner though when he pressed his thumb on Haechan’s plump, lower lip.

"Have you ever made love to someone before?", he asked with a deep voice.

Haechan's eyes widened with amusement. "Are you joking? I’m a hoe.”

Mark hummed. "No. I said, love. Have you? Because I haven't either and I desperately want to make love to you right now".

And Mark was right.

Haechan had never made love with someone before and he realized it as soon as the other's hands cupped his cheeks, kissing his lips softly, pushing him back towards the bed, making him sit on it, letting Haechan watch as Mark elegantly took away his sweatshirt first then the shirt underneath it.

Haechan blinked, emotions he has never felt before invading his whole body as Mark pushed him down with a gentle touch, kissing his stomach and going up, taking Haechan's top with him, letting the cold air caress his skin making it all shiver. It would have shivered anyways, goosebumps forming at every feathery touch of Mark's lips. They took away all of the remaining clothes, touching each other slowly, curiously, exploring everything, with fingertips and lips and tongues. Attentive, remembering which stroke made the other whine louder, what kind of whisper pleased the ears more, what pet name made the other blush.

It was still raining hard, but they weren't cold, tightly wrapped in each other arms, the heavy covers to hide their secret whispers from the world. They were hidden in giggles and heavy breaths, "here?", "yeah", "like this?", "hmm", and Haechan felt so present. He was there, at that moment and he was seen. Mark was looking at him, really looking and Haechan didn't have to do anything to make it happen. There was no reason to put on an act. He just had to be himself. Vulnerable and- "cute," Mark whispered, chests rising, short breaths, his thumb caressing Haechan's red cheeks.

"Say it again", Haechan smiled.

Mark imitated him, his lips murmuring the word until they didn't have to, the feeling of it lingering in the air by itself.

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Devoted 2.

Part 3

Overall warnings: kinkier smut (eg. voyeurism, exhibition, etc.), character death, dark themes

Just how devoted is Jaehyun to you?

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You chewed on your lip as you waited for the news article to load on your phone. Beside you, Jaehyun slept soundly; after drinking more than he could handle at the engagement party that ended just a little over an hour ago. It was 11 o’clock and all night, Yebin and Minkyung had talked about the articles they saw about you and it never occured to you to check those out.

When the first article loads, you skim past it; most of them just stating the basic information anyone can pull up from a simple Google search. From minor awards you received at contests you’ve joined since you were six to you receiving your license as an interior designer and even brief backgrounds on your parents, most articles detailed them all.

There was one that made your heart stop.

Someone was able to find your university’s online newspaper article about your stalking incident and how they never found the guy or even draw up a possible suspect. You look over at Jaehyun, worried about the possibility of everyone finding out about what he had done. You lock your phone and put it way, scooting down the bed and snuggling up against Jaehyun’s back.

No one knows about the incident aside from the two of you; how can anybody possibly find out about it unless you two speak about it?

It was around noon when you start to wake up, slightly startled at the time until you realize you were given a day off by your boss during the engagement party. The space beside you is empty and you figured Jaehyun must have gone to work early despite a hangover. You sit up, wincing at your headache. Carefully, you push yourself off the bed and walk out the bedroom after throwing on one of Jaehyun’s shirts that was just big enough on you to cover your ass.

As you amble down the hallway that leads to the living room, the door to the laundry room suddenly opens just as you were about to pass by it and you scream out loud in paranoia.

“Jesus—[Y/N]! Baby, it’s me!” Jaehyun holds his arms out to grab your shoulders.

“Oh my god! I thought you were at the office!” You wheezed, placing a hand on your chest; feeling your heart thump against it.

“Well, I need to in a while, I just thought I’d do the laundry before I go.” He laughs a little, pulling you against him. “I didn’t mean to scare you. I thought you were still asleep.”

You press your face into his chest and grumble.

“What was that?”

“I said,” You huff when you pull away from him, “You didn’t have to do the laundry because now I have nothing to do today. My boss let me take a day off.”

Jaehyun crinkles his nose at you in amusement, “You don’t have work to do?”

You shake your head, essentially rubbing your face on his chest. “I don’t. I finished up all my projects the day before yesterday.”

“You can go shopping.”

“I don’t want to go shopping.” You whine like a child, pouting when he laughs at you.

He hums, gazing at you with contemplation. “Would you like to come with me to the office then? I’ve never taken you there.”

It’s true, only because he felt like he didn’t hold a position high enough to bring you over and although his older cousin is president, who was dying to meet you, of the company had asked numerous times to bring you over, he declined.

“Are you sure? Won’t I be a nuisance? I mean, you probably have a meeting.”

“You’ll never be a nuisance, [Y/N]. If anything, you’ll be a good kind of distraction when work gets too stressful.”

You scoff, pulling away from him to cross your arms, “That sounds like another way of saying you want me to blow you under your desk.”

Jaehyun grins, “I was thinking more of having you cuddle me while I worked, but if you insist.”

Slapping his shoulder, you feel your cheeks warm as he laughs. “Whatever, I’m going to make lunch.”

“Okay, baby, I’ll finish up the laundry.” He chuckles, slapping your ass when you start walking away.

You yelp at the sudden contact, whipping your head to glare at him but he’s already ducked back into the laundry room.

“Good afternoon, Mr. Jaehyun.” A tall, well-built man dressed in an all black suit greeted as you and Jaehyun walk towards the entrance of the multi-story building.

“Good afternoon.” Jaehyun greets back, taking your hand into his as he leads you inside while the man holds the door open.

You are blasted with a cold gust of air as you step into the building’s lobby, making you shiver and regret wearing a dress instead of pants. Jaehyun, sensing your discomfort, lets go of your hand and wraps his arm around you.

“Cold?”

“Yeah,” You shrug a bit, “But I’ll get used to it.”

He rubs his hand on your shoulder, “We won’t take long, don’t worry.”

You nod, continuing to walk towards the elevators with his arm around you. More people greet him, politely smiling at you, and the more you feel self-conscious about your presence. Did they know who you are? Did they recognize you from the news?

At the elevator, Jaehyun opted to hold your hand again while pressing your back to his chest and resting his cheek on the side of your head. You feel discreet glances made by the other people in the elevator at you and you feel your cheeks start to burn. But eventually, people start to alight the elevator until you reach the 23rd floor and Jaehyun nudges you to step off.

“Mr. Jaehyun!” A female voice greets, “Good afternoon.”

“Good afternoon, Mina. Is Yunho in his office?”

“He went to rest up in his penthouse, but he’s been waiting for you so I was told to ring him up when you’ve arrived.” Her eyes flutter over to you and she gasps, startling you. “You must be Mr. Jaehyun’s fiancee!”

“Ah, yes, I am.” You cleared your throat. “Hello, I’m [Y/N].”

“I’m Mina, ma’am, head receptionist for this floor. It’s finally great to meet you! I’ve been curious about you since Mr. Yunho had announced your engagement to Mr. Jaehyun.”

“He beat me to it,” Jaehyun explains when you look at him in confusion. “I came to work and everyone was congratulating me. As it turns out, Yunho had hijacked the PA system and told everybody about the engagement.”

You couldn’t help but giggle at this, “He sounds way more enthusiastic about our engagement than we are.”

Jaehyun sighs and Mina giggles, quietly excusing herself to make the phone call.

Your eyes wander the vast lobby of the 23rd floor, admiring the sleek black marble floors and complementary couches by the reception area. Golden hour has begun; spilling the orange rays into the room from the floor to ceiling window that overlooked the city. In the distance, you spot a vast building; illuminated by colorful lights that began to twinkle as the sun descended in the west.

Following your gaze, Jaehyun grips your hand and leads you to the window. There, he breathes deeply, causing you to look up at him.

“When dad retires, that casino is ours to run.”

You see the slightest hint of worry in his eyes, and frankly, you were too. You knew nothing about running a company, and although it’ll be a long time before Jaehyun’s dad retires, you’ll have the fate of their business’ most successful project in your hands. You’ve never even been to the casino.

“Have you ever been there?”

He glances at you, “Hardly. Only to pick up or drop off dad’s clients before or after meetings. Why? Would you like to go?”

“I’m not one to gamble so what’s the point?”

“There’s more to the casino than just the casino, you know. It has a hotel we can stay in. The top floors are reserved for us and other relatives. There’s also a club and an indoor strip mall.”

You look back at the casino on the horizon with an incredulous expression. All those fit there? But you start to guess that the large dome at the center held the casino and the concaving building that towered over it was the hotel with the strip mall and club somewhere beneath.

“Maybe you should take Yebin and Minkyung one day. Get pampered at the hotel before taking a look at the club or go shopping.”

“Why are you persistent on making me go shopping?” You jokingly snap at him.

He laughs, “Because you usually end up buying something for me to see.” He leans in all of a sudden, brushing his lips against your earlobe. “Which reminds me, I haven’t seen that new one on you yet.”

You feel your face burn, pulling away from him while placing a hand on his shoulder. “One day, Jae. One day.”

Jaehyun opens his mouth to reply, but the exclamation of his name from behind you makes him pull away and turn his attention to the intruder.

“Ah! This must be the ever famous, [Y/N]!” You look behind you and gape at the man dressed in a pair of slacks and crisp, white dress shirt. You recognize his face from the news, reporters constantly buzzing about his success and his personal life, but you mostly remember him from photos of Jaehyun’s childhood; he doesn’t look like he aged at all, save for the few fine lines around his face. “I’m really sorry I wasn’t able to go last night to the party, I had an emergency meeting in Busan.”

“It’s alright and I’m hardly famous compared to you.” You bashfully shake Yunho’s hand when he offers it.

“Oh, please. Auntie won’t shut up about you during family reunions and the entire Jung clan is just ecstatic to find out that our dearest Baby Jae has fallen in love.”

“Don’t call me that.” Jaehyun groans, the slightest tinge of red coloring his ears. “Anyways, you called me up here the last minute when you told me yesterday to take the day off.”

Yunho clasps his hands together, “Right, right. Well, let’s go to the office. [Y/N], you’re free to join us?”

“Oh, I’d rather stay here.” You decline with a small smile and he nods at you.

“We won’t take that long.” He assures you and waits for Jaehyun.

Jaehyun kisses your temple, “You can stay at my office, if you’d like.”

After you reassure them you’re fine staying right where you were, they head off to Yunho’s office. You wait awhile before walking back to the receptionist, Mina.

“Hi, are you busy?”

She looks up from what she was typing and immediately smiles, “Never busy if my bosses—or their wives—need me.”

You flush at her words, “I’m not his wife yet.”

“Yet.” Mina teases before her grin mellows down to a polite smile, “What can I do for you?”

“Well, I was wondering if you could message me when Jaehyun’s schedule here is free—especially if it’s his lunch time. I’d really like to bring him lunch sometime.”

She looks visibly thrilled at your suggestion, perking up from her seat. “That’s so sweet! Of course! There are days when he’d skip lunch because of work.”

This makes you frown, clearly taken aback from the new information. “He does?”

“Not all the time! Most of the times that he does, Mr. Yunho would drag him out of the office by the ear to eat with him!” When the concern in your face doesn’t leave, Mina starts to apologize. “I didn’t mean to make you worry, ma’am.”

“Oh, no. I’m glad you told me! Gives me more reason to stop by and bring him lunch. And please, call me [Y/N].” You ask for pen and paper so you could give her your number. As you jot your number down, you see something red in your peripheral vision.

“Mr. Nakamoto.” You hear Mina exclaim and you glance up from the countertop, greeted by a wide beam of pearly white teeth.

“[Y/N], right? Jaehyun’s fiancee?” You recognize his face from the two days ago and you nod at his question.

“Yes, I am. Yuta, if I’m not mistaken.”

“You are not. I take it you’re picking him up from work?”

You offer him a shy chuckle, “Oh no, we came in together not too long ago and I’m just waiting for him. Did you mean to catch him?”

Yuta laughs, and it’s almost contagious, “Oh no, I don’t like working on weekends and Mondays. It’s bad enough my sister made me take her spot for that charity event. I’m just here to deliver these to Ms. Amano.” He reaches over the counter to hand a small pot of red flowers.

“Mr. Nakamato, I can’t accept these.” Mina starts to blush, nervously looking around.

“It’s just to add a spruce of color to your workspace, Mina-chan.”

At the way the term of endearment rolls off Yuta’s tongue, you watch Mina’s face grow a darker shade of pink as she hesitantly accepts the flowers.

“Yuta.” The sound of Jaehyun’s voice pierces through the air. You hear Mina gasp, quickly putting the pot down and standing up while you try to inconspicuously slip your number onto Mina’s desk. Jaehyun doesn’t seem to notice, sauntering up to you. “Should I be concerned that you are flirting with our employee?”

“I’m merely adding color to her desk, Jaehyun.” He pouts, “Besides, not everyone is lucky like you.” He nods his head towards you and offers you a more than friendly smile.

Cautiously, you look up at Jaehyun, waiting for his reaction but he ignores Yuta’s comment and slides his hand on your back to your waist.

“You’re more than welcome to tell me if Yuta is bothering you, Mina. We can always arrange our meetings elsewhere.”

Mina chuckles, “I’ll keep that in mind, sir.”

“We’ll be on our way, then. Good day, Mina.” Jaehyun lightly nudges you and you step forward, waving at the receptionist.

“It was nice meeting you, Mina.” You say just before walking away with Jaehyun.

While waiting for the elevator, you glance up at Jaehyun with a smile.

He’s quick to notice and returns your gaze, “What?”

“Nothing. I’m just happy.”

He lets go of your waist and slips his fingers through yours, leaning down to kiss your nose. “That’s good to know. Is there a particular reason why?”

You shake your head, squeezing his hand. Maybe you were just happy that Jaehyun was protective over his employees. Perhaps it was because he didn’t negatively react to Yuta giving you a flirtatious smile in comparison to the day before yesterday’s events of him kissing your hand.

The elevator dings and both of you enter after the doors open. As they were about to close, Yuta slips past them and fakes a nervous laugh. “Phew. Made it.”

“You could have asked us to hold it open for you.” Jaehyun points out, watching Yuta lean on the opposite side of the elevator.

“Now, where’s the thrill in that?” He chuckles lowly and it somehow this doesn’t sit well with you until Yuta bursts out in a fit of giggles. “My sister and I would always race inside the elevator when we were younger. I guess now it’s just force of habit. Oh! Speaking of, she’ll be here for a few days starting tomorrow night to take over.”

“Ah, so your work as rep here is done?” Jaehyun momentarily lets go of your hand to grab his phone from his back pocket, sliding his palm right back against yours when he uses his other hand to check his phone.

Yuta sighs while tucking his hands into his pants’ pockets, “I wish. She’ll probably needs me to translate since she’s still learning Korean. Our dad is starting to think I should be the permanent representative here in Korea. I don’t mind, really. It’s more fun here than back at home; I have more freedom here.”

He glances at the two of you, “I don’t think I was able to congratulate the two of you. I had lunch with Dong Sicheng earlier and he told me you had the engagement party last night. 7 years together, am I correct?”

“Yes.” You feel Jaehyun’s hand relax a bit in your hold when he replied.

“That’s really amazing. You two are lucky.”

You hesitate for a second before asking, “No lady in your life?”

“Not yet.” He winks at you, snorting at his own remark and failing to see Jaehyun’s hand letting go of yours to wrap around your waist instead.

Your body freezes in a split second of fear, but Yuta starts to speak again.

“Maybe in the future, but I’m not looking to settle down right now.” He drags out another breathy exhalation.

“And here I thought you were courting our receptionist.” Jaehyun’s voice was low, trying to sound teasing.

“They’re really just flowers to bring color into the place. You should really get an interior designer to redecorate.”

“I’m an interior designer actually.” You perk up a little bit, “I think the interior is perfect if they mean to give off a professional, sleek vibe. But those flowers are a great contrast, don’t worry.”

Yuta’s grin is back on his face, “Begonias.”

Your eyebrows furrowed a bit at him, “Pardon?”

“The flowers are begonias. A personal favorite.” He smacks his lips together, “I’ve been meaning to buy an apartment here. I’ve been renting out a room in a hotel for the past week and Sicheng suggested that I’d get an apartment. He’s offering me one of his, but it’s just not furnished and it’s completely up to me to design if I do push through with purchasing it. Can I hire your services as an interior designer?”

Your heart swells; there was always a sense of rush and excitement when you meet a potential client. “Of cou-”

“She can refer you to her colleagues at her design firm.” Jaehyun cuts you off, voice hard and stern.

You snap your head up at him, “What?”

“Oh.” The elevator doors open to the ground floor and Yuta gestures for the two of you to step out, explaining his car is in the basement parking. “Well, if they have the same style as you, then sure. You can get my number from Jaehyun. Take care!”

“You, too.” You try to return his smile, but Jaehyun grips your waist harder and starts to lead you away before the elevator doors could even close. At this point, you’re so disappointed and furious at Jaehyun that when you spot your car waiting out in front, you break from his hold and quickly dash out the doors, sparing a strained polite smile at the doorman when you pass him. You don’t even wait for the valet to open the door for you and clamber into the passenger’s seat, crossing your arms after putting your seatbelt on.

A few seconds later, Jaehyun slips into the driver’s side with a heavy sigh. He looks at you with an unreadable expression but you turn your head away from him, fixing your gaze on the smallest spec of dirt on the car window. The car starts moments after and Jaehyun drives both of you home. Thankfully, the streets weren’t too congested enough for you to lose your mind at the tension-filled vehicle; arriving home in no less than half an hour.

Upon entering your apartment, you toed your shoes off and stash them on the shoe shelf along the hallway that leads to the living room. You hear Jaehyun doing the same, but you don’t wait for him and made your way in, heading straight for the bathroom so you could take your makeup off.

Your chest felt heavy and your fingers trembled as they attempted to pinch off a ply of your makeup remover wipes. Jaehyun’s footsteps padded outside the bathroom and you assume he’s changing out of his clothes. When you finally took out a sheet and started to clean your face, your eyes started to prick and your throat felt constricted; and before you know it, you’re crying.

As you pushed through with the rest of your skincare, your jaw quivered in attempt to keep yourself quiet and not full on sob for him to hear. You bend over the sink to wash the foam off your face, scrubbing at your eyes as if it would stop your tears, and as you stand back up after wiping the excess water off, you look into the mirror and gasped; shutting your eyes closed.

You had thought it was your mind playing tricks on you, but you feel his hands on your shoulder.

“[Y/N].”

“No.” You shake your head, eye still closed. “Not now. Go away, Jaehyun.”

“You never look at me through the mirror.”

You swallowed the lump in your throat down. So he noticed?

“Are you afraid?”

When you don’t reply, you feel his lips on your shoulder and you flinch away.

“I am! Okay,” You exclaimed, briefly catching his surprised expression on the mirror, “When I see you in the mirror, all I remember was that night… y-you were a completely different person; just punching your reflection and-”

“[Y/N], stop. We said not to talk about it.” Jaehyun hisses, reaching out to touch you but you dodge it.

“How can’t I bring it up when it gave me the irrational fear of seeing someone completely different with your face in the mirror? I can still hear the glass breaking… the shards I had to take out one by one from your knuckles. Everything is crystal clear in my memory when I look at your reflection.”

A moment passes with the two of you standing in total silence, avoiding his gaze as you organize your thoughts.

“Jaehyun.” Your voice cracks with fear and hesitation. “I… I don’t want to do this, but…”

“Do what?” The way he asks sends shivers down your spine. It was as if you were catapulted back in time to that same night and your heart begins to race.

“I want to make a deal. Let Yuta hire me for his apartment,” Jaehyun’s face contorts into a scowl, but you continue speaking to cut him off, “and it would be my last project under my agency.”

He looks conflicted at your request, pulling his lower lip between his teeth as he considers it.

“But that’s not all… I want you to see a therapist.” You release a shaky breath, swallowing hard, “You can’t control yourself when a man so much as gives me a glance. Jaehyun, how many times do I have to tell you that no matter what, no matter who comes along, I’ll be choosing you. We can’t keep fighting whenever you get… possessive.”

“And if I don’t?”

“Then,” You inhaled as deep as you can, stalling the moment to let you think your following words through, “Let’s… postpone our engagement.”

You wince at his sharp intake of breath, half expecting for history to repeat; Jaehyun just slamming his fist into the mirror repeatedly. If he does, what would you do? Stay like last time? Or leave while you have the chance?

But Jaehyun doesn’t move a muscle. Staring down at you with an unreadable expression, he stands straight with clenched fists on his sides.

The bathroom suddenly felt too small; almost crowded, so congested that you can’t breathe. Silence is a third party amongst you as it takes over for a second time; amplifying the sounds of the world outside: your upstairs neighbors footsteps echo above your heads while the faintest noise of a sports game airs from somewhere below your feet.

“Isn’t that a little too much?”

“A little too much is you controlling who my clients can be!” You snap back at him. “Do you know how that makes me feel? It’s like you don’t trust me at all! It feels like you’re implying I would cheat on you or leave for the next man that comes around. Jaehyun, if I wanted to leave, I would have a long time ago. I wouldn’t be here trying to compromise with you and make deals for this relationship to work.” You slap a palm over your mouth when a loud sob comes out of your mouth.

Before your body starts to fold as you fail to control your sobbing, Jaehyun’s arms are around you; encasing your frame against his chest. There was no point in pushing him away. You were tired in every aspect and it feels like the only thing to relieve you of this stress is to cry it out.

Your knees gave in so suddenly, catching him off guard that he stumbles back a little; balancing your weights until he has both your bodies settled on the floor with his back against the tiled wall.

“I’ll never get tired of loving you, Jae, but please don’t force that day to come anytime soon.” You’re hanging onto his shirt, crying into his collar as he runs his hand over your back repeatedly.

“I’m sorry.” He mumbles into your hair and you can hear the softest crack in his voice that made you think he was on the brink of tears as well.

“You know that’s not enough, Jae.”

His heart is beating as fast as yours. His breathing is slow and calculated, matching it to the pace of his hand while it soothes your arm.

“I know. I’ll… contact our family therapist in the morning.” He breaks the silence, his hand stopping to squeeze your shoulder, “A-and I’ll give you Yuta’s number so you can start working on his apartment.”

Relief floods your system at his words and the last thing you can remember is burying your head into his chest.

You’re jostled awake by your own body shivering, suddenly feeling an ice cold breeze lick the skin that your blanket didn’t cover. Shuffling around the bed, you hide yourself under the covers and reach over to find your personal hot pack—but found the warmth left on his side of the bed instead.

“Jaehyun?” You barely croaked out, hauling yourself up and blink away the sleep in your eyes. The room was dim like the sky outside and you can make out his silhouette against the cloudy abyss, his figure leaning against the open balcony door with his hand to his head.

“Dr. Jeon? I didn’t mean to wake you. I was planning to leave a voice message.” His groggy voice tells you he had just woken up as well. “I’m doing well, but I… I wanted to schedule some sessions with you.”

You sit up at the realization of what he was doing, swinging your legs off the bed and padding over to him.

“Yes… something similar. Ah, thank you. I’m sure she’d like to meet you as well, doctor.” He hums, leaning back a little when you hug him from behind. “She deserves the world.”

A few more pleasantries and a quick goodbye were exchanged before Jaehyun ends the call and twists in your hold so he can wrap his arms around you. “I’m sorry, did I wake you up?” He kisses your forehead.

Looking up at him, you’re taken aback by the dark circles under his eyes, “Did you even get sleep?”

He sighs, “Barely a wink… don’t you remember? You fainted last night. I was so worried, baby, I was ready to bring you to the hospital, but mom called and told me to put you bed instead when I told her about what happened. I was waiting for you to wake up.”

That explains why you were dressed in his shirt instead of your usual pajamas. “I did? I’m sorry if I made you worry.”

“No, [Y/N]. I should be the one apologizing. I know it’s getting annoying and it’s clearly taking a toll on our relationship, but I just… I can’t control it. But I’ll make things right. My first session will be in a few days.”

“Okay.” You rest your head on his shoulder, pulling him closer. “Okay.”

Jaehyun presses his lips over your hair, “I love you, but knowing you’re living in constant fear because of me… I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I don’t understand how you’re still in love with me if I keep putting so much stress on you.”

You hush him, shaking your head. “Because I know you love me. You make me feel it every day without even saying it.”

“I don’t deserve you.”

Pulling away, you reach up to cup his face. “You always say that I deserve the world,”

“—and you do.”

“But I can’t imagine living it without you. It doesn’t matter if we deserve each other or not, Jae. You own my heart.”

A smile graces his face and butterflies erupt in your stomach as it grows wide enough to let his dimples show on his cheeks after you let your hands fall to his shoulders. He takes your hands and kisses each one, “Should we go back to sleep?”

“We’ve don’t usually wake up this early… so, we should have time to spare before we need to get ready to for work.”

His eyes darkened remarkably, “Does my baby want to do something?”

With a cheeky bite of your own lips, you nod your head.

“Okay, but before that, come with me to the closet.”

You look at him, confused, nevertheless letting him lead you out of the bedroom. Your apartment originally had three bedrooms, but decided to remodel one as a walk-in closet while the other serves as a guest room when your friends were too drunk to drive home when you had them over. He leads you to the room across the laundry area, switching the lights on and bringing you over to the full length mirror that served as his closet door for his work clothes. He positions you in front of it, your eyes automatically falling down to the floor as he stands behind you.

“Look at me, baby.”

You try to turn around, but he holds you in place with a firm grip on your shoulders.

“Through the mirror, love.”

“I can’t.” You whined, shutting your eyes and dropping your head low in shame. “Don’t do this.”

“I’m trying to right what’s wrong. If you’re traumatized because of me, I’d like to make you forget about it; replace your nightmares with something better. Trust me, [Y/N].” You feel him move your hair to one side to kiss your neck.

With a shaky exhale, you open your eyes; warily staring at his reflection.

“That’s good.” He hums against your skin, briefly making eye contact with you through the mirror before kissing your neck once more. “Let’s get this shirt off.”

His fingers graze the skin of your hips before pinching the hem of your shirt and pushing it upwards, dragging it slowly up your body. Both of you watch as he exposes more of your skin; the expanse of your stomach to the reveal of your breasts, before you shrug the clothing off and he lets it fall to the floor, leaving you in your panties.

“So beautiful.” He murmurs, eyeing your body through the mirror and making you look down in embarrassment as if he hasn’t seen your body or even complimented you. “No, [Y/N]. Keep your eyes on me. Do you want me to touch you?”

Your eyes snap back to his before nodding.

Jaehyun steps closer until you feel the little fibers of his clothes barely touching your bare back. He slips his hands on to your waist, trailing it upwards until they brush over your chest. “What do you want me to do?”

“Palm my boobs,” He quickly obeys, covering both with his large hands and gently kneading them, “and play with my nipples.”

“Like this?” He whispers, taking each nub between his thumbs and forefingers and rolling it between them.

“Yes.” You breathed, almost closing your eyes in pleasure.

Jaehyun tips his head forward to suck on your neck that’s sure to leave a mark as he continues to fondle your chest like you had instructed. After a while, he asks against your skin, “Where else do you want me to touch you?”

“Down there.”

“Here?” He chuckles, sliding one of his hands down your body and stopping above your belly button.

“Jaehyun.” You whine, leaning back against him but still looking at him through his reflection. “Please, you know where.”

He hums, tracing your shoulder with his nose before finally dipping his hand past the garter of your underwear and coming into contact with your arousal. “Oh, baby.”

You flinch slightly at how he presses down on your clit, throwing your head back at finally being touched where you wanted him to.

Pushing your panties down until they fall around your ankles, Jaehyun nudges your head with his shoulder to make you look back into the mirror. “Look at me, [Y/N]. You’re so wet, baby. Do you like this?”

“Yes.” You moaned as he pushes two fingers inside of you while his other hand came back up your chest, both working to pleasure you.

“I hope you know that in this relationship, you’re in control. I should be afraid of you for the power you hold over me.” He lightly bites down your shoulder and sucks on the patch of skin. He grinds his boner against your ass; his groan vibrating behind you. “I’d do anything for you, [Y/N]. I’ll do whatever you want; just tell me.”

His fingers curl and hit the spongy flesh of your walls, making your knees buckle. Holding yourself up by placing your palms flat against the mirror, you watch his fingers pick up their speed; disappearing in and out of you and drawing out wetness to drip down your thighs.

“Jaehyun.” You drawl, jutting your ass out to feel more of his warmth.

He pulls away, only to push his boxers down low enough to release himself from his confines and slide his aching erection over your mound; just perfectly slotted between your thighs. It’s warm and throbbing against your core; through its’ reflection, you see the tip leaking and red.

“This is what you do to me, [Y/N].” He languidly starts to move his cock along your folds. “Every fiber of my being, my heart and soul, my mind: they belong to you. Only you.” He punctuates his statement with the chastest kiss on your neck, a complete opposite of the lewd actions of his hips.

Your mouth drops open as he eases himself inside of you; your walls welcoming the familiar girth it’s come to known for almost a decade. Arching your back, you feel your head hit his shoulder and you lock gazes with him once more through the mirror. “I’m yours, too. All of me.”

A ghost of a smile graces his lips as he stares at you, eyes softening at your breathy admonition.

“Are you alright?” Your co-worker, Kyungwon, lightly knocks on the cubicle wall; snapping you out of your little trance.

You spin your office chair towards her, a pale blush on your cheeks. “Hm? Yeah. I was just thinking about this new client work.”

“Oh, please, stop kidding yourself. You’re thinking about your dreamboat of a boyfriend, oh wait! My bad, I mean, your bigshot fiance.” She hollers and you’re thankful that most of those stationed on your floor had already left for lunch and those who chose to skip their break had earphones on.

“Kyungwon!” You scold, but you’re unsure as to why you’re even doing so. Admittedly, you were thinking about Jaehyun, especially what took place at your shared closet earlier in the morning, but she didn’t need to know that. Instead, you stand up from your carrel and stretch your back with a pained groan. “Let’s go get lunch, okay?”

You and Kyungwon entered the company at the same time and coincidentally took the licensure exam at the same location. She was the colleague you were closest to since most were male and the other females were your superiors. Jaehyun had met her a handful of times and to say Kyungwon was speechless at his face was an understatement.

“How have you not cared to mention that your boyfriend-now-fiance-and-future-husband is a fucking billionaire?” Kyungwon starts, following after you as you lead her towards the elevator.

“In my defense, I only found out when I moved in with him after college.” You hold the door open for her and pressed the ground floor button after she got on.

“That makes everything so much cuter! You’re college sweethearts that are finally getting married! What are your plans after? You don’t need to work if you’re marrying a damn chaebol!”

You let out a sigh, “I don’t want to be a housewife. Jaehyun’s tried convincing me to quit every now and then. But… I might.”

Kyungwon gasps, deliberately exaggerated. “I don’t know whether or not to be happy because you’re leaving this man-fested hellhole or devastated because you’re leaving me behind!”

The elevator opens to the ground floor and you laugh at her as you both step out, “He asked me to quit and start my own company. And now that you mentioned it, maybe I’ll gear it towards a females only company.”

“Ooh!” She squeals, grabbing onto your arm, “Women empowerment! Please, please, please hire me when that day comes!”

“You bet.” You remove your arm from her grasp and swing it around her shoulders. “Where do we head off for lunch?”

Both of you smile at the security guard that opened the doors for you as you walk out the building, squinting at the high noon sun and just slightly annoyed at the noise of the traffic.

“There’s this nice food park down the block I’ve been wanting to try. Jongmin from the Resources had been raving about it for months and all his takeouts smell so good.” She gripes, nudging you towards the direction until you let her drag you along. “I also heard from the rest of the female populace of our little company that it’s where some medical interns take their lunch when the food from hospital is just a little too bland. And you may have found your dashing prince charming, but I have not.”

It was a quick walk; probably because you entertained Kyungwon’s questions about the proposal and reassuring her it was completely fine she wasn’t able to attend the sudden engagement party.

When you reach the food park, it was not that crowded, but there weren’t exactly enough tables to accommodate the lunch rush. You were immediately attracted to the greasy smell of fries and the scent of burning cheeses of a pizza. Kyungwon must have read your mind because she started pulling your arm towards the only pizza booth amidst the gimmicky food stalls of galaxy-colored shakes or chibi animal cookies.

She orders two four-cheese and beef deep dish pizza to go for the both of you and while the lady behind the counter rings up your orders, she offers to get some milktea; but you declined, opting for juice instead.

The juice stand, Moon Juice, by the pizza booth promised an edible galaxy in your cup and you were honestly curious about it. You order a venti cup of watermelon juice with brain dust and pay for it, striking up a conversation with the girl about the ‘brain dust’ part of the order. As she whips up your order and explain about their product, you couldn’t help but overhear hush voices and quiet sounds of snapshots behind you.

You could vaguely make out the words, but you’re certain you hear: “Fiancee,” “Chaebol,” “Jung Conglomerate,” “Lucky,” and worse of all, “Gold digger.” You already knew you were going to painted like this, but you also knew it didn’t matter what they think of you because Jaehyun and his family know the truth. But hearing it in person is different from reading through comments and articles; their words were starting to crawl under your skin and luckily, Kyungwon called you over to grab your pizza before the poison reached your mind.

After paying separately, Kyungwon tells you she wanted to order dessert from a different booth and you accompanied her while sipped on your drink. As you waited behind her, your eyes wander about until they fall onto a lone male ordering at the adjacent stall. Blinking at him, you couldn’t believe your eyes when his profile registered in your head.

Your lips have parted in a mixture of dread and astonishment. You haven’t seen him in nearly a decade since he moved back to his home country. All at once, the memories you’ve shared together come flooding back and you don’t notice you’re staring at him; not even when Kyungwon calls you by your name, instantly attracting the male’s attention and looking over to you.

Your eyes meet and in those few seconds you’re able to see that he’s out of his awkward puberty stage; that he’s finally matured into a man his family had been shaping him up to be. He wasn’t scrawny like before, but he wasn’t ‘soft-looking’ either; he looked lean and in good shape. The faintest shadow under his eyes tell you that medical school must have been shit to him but he was still handsome as ever with the beauty mark sitting undisturbed beneath his brow.

“[Y/N]?” The way he says your name hits you with nostalgia. He’s still soft-spoken, but you can’t really imagine a doctor having such a stern voice.

Finally coming to your senses, you take a deep breath and fake a chuckle. Who would have thought that after all these years you would be able to stare back into your ex’s eyes?

“Kun,” You gulped, “Hey.”

a/n: yay part 3!!! and yay new character unlocked eheheheh make way for Prince Kun bisses! Hopefully I can resume my every 2 week update after this because You (the nextflix series) has really inspired me istg go watch it i love Peach she’s my favorite character

let me know what you think!! uwu

next: part 4

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