#he’s here too ig

[neptinaut]

Another textpost entirely dedicated to talking about Chapter 7 because GOD

its so good, I wanna give all the writers 1 million dollars to make more

This time I will be talking about Pure Vanilla and Shadow Milk’s dynamic and how it’s parallels to religious trauma are uncanny. Because intentional or not, the signs are there so let’s dissect this dynamic shall we

[ SPOILERS: EPISODE 7 OF BEAST YEAST ] and [ TW: TOPICS OF RELIGIOUS TRAUMA ]

THE IMAGE AT THE VERY END HAS THE F SLUR IN IT (this is a slur I can reclaim and use often, I just think that picture is funny)

DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT HATE CHRISTIANS OR CHRISTIANITY, I AM EXPLAINING THIS THROUGH THE LENSE OF SOMEONE WHO HAS HAD SOME RELIGIOUS TRAUMA IN LIFE SO IM USING MY EXPERIENCES TO DECIPHER THE COMPLEXITIES OF THIS COOKIE GAME

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It’s a common misconception that Shadow Milk and Pure Vanilla are enemies. They hate eachother yes, but shadow milk’s hatred is akin to that of a god, hating you because what you’re predestined to become goes against his rules. Pure vanilla’s hatred is akin to that of a victim of abuse, or a hatred to a divine entity.

The difference being that Pure Vanilla’s hatred is mostly a byproduct of fear and paranoia,

and Shadow Milk’s hatred is that of pure rage.

While the entire episode/chapter drives home the theme that Shadow Milk has been watching over Pure Vanilla his entire life, this one interaction really solidifies the implications:

Shadow Milk has hated Pure Vanilla since the day he was born because of something he would obtain in the far, far future. He watched and waited patiently for the day he can finally break him and take back what the witches took from him.

This is the main reason I don’t consider them enemies and more-so relate their dynamic to religious trauma and abuse.

Pure Vanilla was made to have this soul jam and the power that comes with it, but even before he had it, Shadow Milk had this hatred for him, because of something he was predestined to be.

Much like how it’s said that. “God hates the gays”. With god being all knowing (another parallel to Shadow Milk I find interesting) would he not hate us since we were born because of the things we’re meant to be in the future? Knowing this adds a layer of paranoia to the judgement felt by having a god “always watching over you”

Another common theme is Pure Vanilla being a puppet and just puppet’s in general.

In christian faith, it is common to live for god, to devote your entire life to him, you were made to serve him

I’m not exactly sure how to word my thoughts about this specific point, which is where music comes in. The song Irreverent Girl by WeevilDoing (if you haven’t listened to this song I totally recommend it, it’s so good) captures the theme of this episode really well, but specifically these lyrics:

“When I was 8 they bathed me, their water made me pure. What did an 8 year old have to ask for forgiveness for?” |

“If my life is spent in worship, then is it really mine?” |

“A man that I have never met and maybe never will, they said that I must beg and weep for his forgiveness still.” |

Last point I wanna touch on is the paranoia Pure Vanilla has experienced since finding out about Shadow Milk,

There’s a lot more than this but this is the most profound example, I feel like this speaks for itself (I don’t know how to explain it at the moment)

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Thank you for coming to my Ted Talk, I hope this was able to provide you with something, be that entertainment or knowledge.

Though I do believe it’s important to know that at the end of the day its night, I’m not a mental health expert, I’m just a 19 year old a little too obsessed with the deep lore of this gambling cookie game and tumblr is one of my two outlets to yap about a twinkish old man and his religious trauma.

[bashcrandicoot]

Husbands who adore each other that i think about daily

[p0rur0]

cleaned up some sketch from my notebook. The other last one is old and was supposed to be like a study but I gave up midway, might redo it at some point

[felyas-stuff]

consider this. honeycat

[fumifooms]

This chapter was very interesting, even if it was mostly set-up. Besides learning the new girl’s name and getting confirmation that she just get kicks from playing with people, the most insightful part was definitely seeing Asa and Yoru’s reaction to the fame.

We see that Asa feels happy over the fame, even if she denies it, and even Yoru admits that it feels soothing, like a need being met, fulfilling. This isn’t surprising at all, after all the whole of Yoru’s goal is to become relevant again, for people to fear her once more, to know of her, and she’s insecure over being called dumb and whatnot: she craves recognition, wants power so she can make people see her wether it be through inspiring awe or inflicting suffering and destruction. Asa has struggled a lot with feeling like she was invisible, or worse, being seen and getting negative attention, being bullied and judged and seen as dumb, annoying, ugly, boring, useless, someone who always messes up and can’t do anything right, worthless. She is afraid of the spotlight, but we’ve seen that she wants it as well, notably inside the aquarium, in that blissful moment when everyone was cheering her for having her phone. So of course, getting such widespread attention, praise, validation, when she hadn’t even intended for it, when she was just being herself and doing her own thing, it’s like being accepted for once. Being seen, and being loved, not only from a small group like a class but on a wide scale.

Of course, for both of them, such recognition and fame is only a substitute for meaningful human relationships, and it can’t replace those. I think it’s actually very lucky that Asa and Yoru have each other currently, it’s good to be reminded that for how much Asa is alone and isolated currently, she was so even more before Yoru, and Yoru similarly doesn’t seem like she had anyone, rotting away i alleyways losing strength more and more over time. Asa seems to want to keep a cool head over the fame to be self-righteous, but is it more because she wants to keep a collected appearance or because she truly doesn’t want to be sidetracked and be swept away?

Either way, I think it’s interesting that she recenters herself by reminding themselves that she’s doing it for Chainsaw Man. In a way, her goal then is something like a human relationship like I mentioned. Not that I think she thinks she’d get to get closer to Chainsaw Man or something, but that she’s motivated by something akin to selflessness, for someone that means a lot to her. A lot to Yoru too. Yoru sees Chainsaw Man as the one who took away her recognition, who stole her thunder, by eating atomic bombs out of existence, meanwhile Asa sees Chainsaw Man as one of the first people who saw her, who talked to her at her lowest and looked at her at her filthiest, and decided that she was worth something, worth protecting. I’m getting sidetracked here but ough!! Let’s just hope Asa doesn’t lose sight of that interpersonal relationship that he inspired her to pursue, gave her the courage to do so, because of easy and fickle validation from fame, is what I’m trying to say.

On Denji’s end, things seem to keep getting worse, even as they… Kinda get better? It turns out the woman is an ally and not an enemy, but Denji seems disappointed by their fight being discontinued, losing the rush he’s so acquainted to. He can’t be Chainsaw Man anymore, right, but he could still fight as Denji, except… It’s not necessary, he’s protected and people have it covered. He loses a possible love interest and enemy as she turns out to be something more like a colleague if anything, their relationship becoming professional and distant by nature, himself making a comment about that. She says that she likes/admires him because he’s Chainsaw Man and Denji is stunned, is it because that attention is a crumb of recognition, recognition that he used to be center stage for all the time just not long ago? Or is it because he’s "Chainsaw Man" in her eyes, because even as she speaks to him the crumbs of validation are directed at Chainsaw Man and not Denji, because he lost the opportunity to have a genuine connection as himself. Fame gives and even as it does, it takes away.

It’s very possible that Denji feels jealous of Asa in the posters scene. Not only does she get to fight devils and do what he’s not allowed to do anymore, but she also gets to do it with her name and her face public. While he was told times and times again that he couldn’t have his identity be public for his safety, Asa gets to do it freely wothout repercussion (thus far), she gets to be liked as herself. But moreso, I feel like the scene’s about loss. With Asa rising up in fame, Denji will have to keep hearing about her and her exploits, not only as a reminder of not being able to be Chainsaw Man anymore but also a reminder of the girl he liked that he had to dump. He couldn’t keep Chainsaw Man, and he couldn’t keep Asa either. Things have possibly never been more normal for Denji’s daily life, and yet it is utterly miserable.

[twinksintrees]

did anyone ask for some platonic omegaverse chuuaku hurt/comfort? :)

[mochasucculent]

Was looking at refs and since Viktor has two different leg braces I was wondering, do we think he wears them simultaneously?? The refs don't perfectly line up perspective-wise so it's hard to tell but parts of the one he wears during the Hexcore scenes look like they could maybe line up with the brace that he wears over his clothes, but also some parts really don't and look like they'd be super uncomfy. Also HOW does he take these on and off. Experts weigh in

[pistachi0art]

he will be missed pt. 2 🙏

[crunchchute]

duude

[pineappleciders]

too little yuri in saiki k fandom.., we need more :brokenheart:

yuri? in saiki k? it's more likely than you think

[the-huxler]

zim in his worst outfit

[punnifullife]

Request from @wafflesandd1ck for an evil starfire request. I wouldn't say "evil"-evil, but this was if she was either mind-controlled/under a hallucinogen (like robin was in that episode "Haunted") but she sees everyone as enemies or something. idk. And I couldn't decide on what he was saying at the end, BUT i know my girl could body all them if she didn't hold herself back 👍

[daydreamycrustacean]

my beautiful son named "Self-preservation Skills" he loves giving up everything for the person he cares about and running into oncoming traffic when someone is in trouble

[graciethegreat]

If Ukitake saw Rukia's bankai

[raddest-laddest]

local man accidentally throws his dead wife into a cult and forgets