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tleeaves · 16 days ago

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You know, I once dreamed about a guy I had a crush on turning violent because I refused a kiss and to date him, so he punched me and threw me to the ground, resulting in a black eye. I believe he also caved in my jaw? Anyway, it was just a dream, but my subconscious really made me suddenly start avoiding the guy from there on with no explanation to him for a little while and my feelings for him even diminished. One of the strangest ways I've ever lost romantic feelings for someone because it wasn't even real. He'd been pretty much nothing but kind to me, and to this day I still don't know why that dream occurred.

I had another one about him once where we bought a house together but all of his decor ideas were ugly and he wouldn't compromise on anything and I was so sad lmao.

i had a dream about you and you stabbed me

let that be a lesson to those planning on dreaming about me

#why did I refuse to date my crush you may ask? even in a dream?#because in the time of this dream I had already rejected him when he asked me out #and I think a part of me felt guilty for that because all signs up until he asked pointed to “yes” I would go out with him - provided he ask #and yet he asked and I required time to think about it and then I avoided him for an entire year #this is why I say I'm paying in karma now with my love life I've done a lot of people dirty over the years that I need to make up for #anyway even though I still liked him a year later and we had started talking and being friends again #I had that dream and suddenly all romance just disappeared from my mind around him #anyway I rejected him in the dream because it's what I had done in real life and because I had a lot of people whispering in my ear #telling me I could do better than *that* guy which was honestly so cruel of them #he wasn't a looker but he was sweet. never forgave him for that time I asked him to watch my food and then he let ants crawl all over it #that was before he asked me out too - lol maybe I just knew if he wasn't protecting my food then he wasn't worth keeping quite so close #he still didn't deserve what I did though like I said he was always kind to me #I even punched the guy. many many times. and miraculously he still liked me and was attracted to me #he seemed genuinely hurt once though and I remember acting much gentler after that #pfft. poor soft boys. they find ways to worm into your hearts #for clarity I was punching him in the arm. often as a greeting or a playful sign of affection #still not okay though I only ever lightly slap at someone's shoulder or leg these days if they make a joke at my expense #ie. my friends going “which one?” when I talk about a date 💀💀💀

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