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fatrainbowmermaidunicorn · 6 years ago

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But I Still Want You (Jungkook x You ONESHOT)

A/N: Thankyou for this request anon! Im sorry it took me forever to get this done! I tried my best to think of a way to write the story so that it will have its own version but is still heavily inspired by the movie. From what I see, Love Rosie is a story of misunderstanding, missed timings and missed opportunities, making it such a challenging (AND FUN 😀) piece to write. Its 12.6k long and I hope you will like it 😘

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“Oh God, I love you. I love you so much Y/N. I have always… always love you,” Jungkook keeps on repeating the words in her ear as he continues to thrust, sweat trickling down his forehead. Too consumed with pleasure and the intoxication brought by the excessivd amount of alcohol in her, Y/N only replied with a moan as her heavy eyelids fluttered closed due to the intense pleasure she’s feeling. Jungkook keeps on kissing her neck, not believing that the girl he had love for so long is finally underneath him. He kiss her lips passionately and with one last whispered of I love you, he released himself into her and rolled off to the side, still keeping their sweaty bodies together as he hugged her tight, as if he dont ever want to let go.

“Now you know… Now you know how exactly I feel about you. I love you Y/N, I love you…”

/////

Y/N woke up the next morning with not a very clear memory of what she did the night before. As she squinted her eyes from the blazing sunlight entering her window, all she was able to remember from the night before was she attended a new year’s party, and now she’s home, on her bed, naked. She looks around the room, and judging from the her haphazard clothes laying on the floor, her messy bed and the feeling between her thighs, one thing she she can say for sure is that she had absolutely slept with someone last night.

The problem is, for the life of her, she cant remember who.

“Shit, what have I done?” Y/N slapped her forehead as she throw herself back on the bed. How drunk must she has be to not even remember with whom she came back home with? No, how drunk and stupid does she has to be? She groaned, wanting nothing more than to just pretend everything that happened last night, didnt.

Jungkook rushed around to finished his errands quickly, his heart race as he waited to run back to Y/N’s apartment and talk to her about what happened last night. He didnt want to leave her alone this morning. He didnt want her to wake up alone and thinks that he left her after doing what they did last night. After taking advantage of her. He wanted nothing more than for her to wake up besides him, hell, he has been dreaming about it ever since he can ever remember, maybe they can even take a shower together and share a nice little breakfast. He wanted to take this opportunity to finally talk about them, about their feelings, about his feelings and where they stand before he has to go on tour next week.

He’s really going to go crazy if he have to leave for tour in his condition right now.

Jeon Jungkook is in love with his best friends that he has known for years, and he doesnt have the balls to tell her.

He sighed as he remembered how it all went down the night before. He really didnt expect things to go the way it did last night. The two of them went to a new year’s party where Y/N practically forced him to accompany her. Although Jungkook is reluctant, he can never in a million years ever say no to Y/N and she knows that. And anything that involves spending more time with Y/N, of course Jungkook will be more than glad to do it. He didnt get to spend much time with her, what with his extremely busy schedule, and he will take every chanve he get. The night went well, Jungkook tells her she’s beautiful, they laugh all night, dancing with each other and drinking, until they bumped into one of Y/N’s nemesis, Soori, who is always out to bring her down and everything went downhill from there. Soori always seems to have a way to bring Y/N’s self confidence down and try as he might, Jungkook was never able to find out what exactly went down between them. After their encounter, Y/N started drinking like crazy, making her more than drunk, until Jungkook had to dragged her home to put her to bed.

Deep in his heart, he knows she probably dont mean it, she was absolutely drunk. After giving her a cup of coffee, he put her to bed, and as he was about to walk out and make himself confortable on the couch, Y/N pulled him back.

“Dont leave me Kookie. Please. I need you,” She looks like she was about to cry and Jungkook’s heart soften.

“I will just be right outside Y/N. Get some sleep yeah?” He patted her hair as he smile at her. Y/N shakes her head, tightening her grip on his arms.

“No. Please stay here with me Kookie. Please,” After thorough consideration, Jungkook nodded and slipped in the blankets beside her. They have cuddled and share a bed together before. What could be different this time right? Y/N snuggled closed to him, burying her face in his chest and Jungkook’s heart starts to pound faster. “Thankyou Kookie. You always make me feel better,” she whispered. Jungkook didnt answered but continue to pat her head, hoping she would just fall asleep. But as the time ticks by, Y/N starts to trail small kisses down his chest, which is exposed dues to his unbuttoned two top buttons. Jungkook gulped and slighyly pushed her away.

“Y/N, what are you doing?”

“Something I have wanted to do for a long time,”

“Wh..what?” He stammered. Y/N continue her kisses, every peck on his skin makes him hotter. “Y/N, stop, you arre drunk,”

“I’m not!” She pouts and looks at him as her fingers starts to open the rest of his buttons. “Jungkook, I want you. Dont you want me?”

Jungkook feels as if his heart is going to jumped out from his chest at how loud its pounding at her question. “Y/N, stop it. You are drunk. You dont mean any of it,” he said softly as he pushes her away but she held on tight.

“No. No I’m not. And I clearly know what I want,” Y/N cut him off by placing her lips on his and Jungkook is a goner. In the corner of his mind, Jungkook knows it was wrong, but consumed and clouded by lust, desire and his burning feelings for her that has been hidden for years, Jungkook starts to believe her when Y/N deepen the kiss him, telling him how much he means to her all the while.

And as Jungkook starts to kiss her back, finally tasting what he had wanted for so long, shaky fingers clumsily sliding off her buttons, he knows there is nothing in the world that he wanted more than making Y/N his that night.

Jungkook finally reached her apartment and once he entered, he was greeted with the sight of Y/N sitting bundled up in her blanket on the couch, a cup of steaming hot coffee in her hand as she flashed him a smile, a smile that is extremely beautiful to Jungkook, obviously nursing a hangover. In a rush to get there, Jungkook didnt think about what he’s going to say to her, which resulted in him being extremely anxious right now, palms and forehead sweaty.

“H..hey. How are you feeling?” Jungkook stammered as he walks over and takes a seat besides her. Y/N rubbed her temples, to ease some of her headache.

“You really should stop me from drinking Kookie! What kind of best friend are you?” Y/N groaned out, as Jungkook chuckles, feeling more relax that Y/N is acting normal with him, as she continues to rubbed her temples, indicating that she is suffering from the worse hangover there is.

“Hey I did try. You would feel a lot worse of it wasnt for me,” he defended himself, before the awkward silence strikes again. Why is Y/N not saying anything about last night? Is she okay about everything?

“Urm.. about last night…” Jungkook trailed off, gazing at her face to gauge her reaction.

“Urghh,” Y/N groaned again as she lay her head on the pillows that lines the couch. “I dont ever want to talk about last night. I did the biggest mistake of my life. I was horribly drunk! I swear, I’m never getting drunk ever again!” Y/N wailed out as she covered her face with a pillow.

Jungkook’s heart ached and he immediately frozed at her words. He can feel his heart starts to breaks into a million tiny pieces. He definitely didnt think that last night was a mistake, in fact, he thinks its the best thing that has ever happened to him. And he absolutely want to remember last night and talk about it. He looks at Y/N’s face again, to ensure she meant what she said. When he saw what is clearly shown as regret of everything that had happened last night, everything that he had planned to say to her today, his feelings, his carefully planned confession, slowly fell apart. Y/N didnt want it. She didnt fell the same way. She regretted everything.

“Urm.. yeah. Okay then,” Jungkook looks down to his hands, suddenly feeling awkaward and not knowing what to do. “Urm, I should probably go,” he quickly gets up, not wanting to be here any longer than neceesary. Y/N raised her head at Jungkook’s sudden departure.

“What? Whyyy?” She wailed. “Where are you going? Arent you going to have breakfast with me first?” She pouts. Jungkook tries to get how adorable she looks out from his mind. She didnt feel the same way. She never will. Its time to get over her.

“I’m sorry Y/N, but I cant today. I have something to do at the dorm. The hyungs wanted me to get home as soon as possible,” he lied.

“But you just got here! And its New Year’s!” She pouts again and Jungkook just gave her a sad smile. “Fine! Cant believe you are leaving your hangover bestfriend who cant remember anything from last night alone,” she pouts. “But I will see you before you went off for tour right?”

“Yes. Of course you will,” Jungkook was too focused on his quest to get out from there to actually hear what Y/N had said, and flashed one last tiny smile before he hastily makes his exit, feeling like his whole world has shattered.

////

Jungkook lied, he had avoided her all week, not allowing her to see him at all and Y/N is starting to feel restless as he dont understand why. Is something wrong with Jungkook or the boys? They usually have free time bedore they go on tour. Why is Jungkook so busy this time? She had tried contacting him in every way possible; texting, calling, hitting him up his social media, showing up at the dorm and even calling the other members for just a chance to talk to him, but everytime she did, there are no reply, or the members with guilty faces will claim that Jungkook’s busy or he went out somewhere. If she didnt before, Y/N is absolutely sure that something is wrong now. The two of them had never throughout their close knit friendship spend more than one day of not contacting each other. Not even while Jungkook is on tour. He always makes the effort to reply to her or calling her himself. What could be possibly hindering him to do so now?

Is he angry at her? Why is he avoiding her? Why? Y/N cracked her brain and try to think if anything bad went down between them. As far as she can remember, the last time they saw each other was the morning after the new year’s party, and even then, Y/N didnt feel like anything is wrong. Jungkook was still acting normal.

Did she do or say something to him at the party? Y/N groaned out in frustration as she tries to cracked her brain to remember what happened that night. But try as she might, she just cant remember a thing. And for the millionth time that week, she swore to herself that she will never get drunk again. Not when it leads to her almost losing her best friend.

Its only two days left now before Jungkook is set to go on tour, and Y/N cant bare the thought of not seeing him for the next six months. Its now or never. She has to make a move now or they will spend the next six months giving silent treatment to one another and she didnt want that. Y/N decides to try one last time and make her way to his dorm. She promised herself to make sure to see him at whatever cost today. Jungkook needs to come back to sleep doesnt he? She needs to see him. She have to. She cant live without Jungkook’s presence in her life. She wont survived it. She needs to figure out what’s going on between them.

Why is Jungkook acting this way?

“Oh.. ah.. hey Y/N,” Taehyung nervously greeted her when he opened the door. Y/N gave him a small smile.

“Hey Tae. Is Jungkook around?”

“He..he is. But I dont think-” Y/N didnt wait for Taehyung to finished before she pushed past him the moment she heard Jungkook is in, and walk straight to Jungkook’s room, having remembering where it is from her days spend here hanging out with him. No more running. No more avoiding Kookie. We are going down to the bottom of this.

“Kookie, why are-” Y/N stopped in the middle of her sentence as she pushed opened the bedroom door, only to be met with the sight of none other than Soori, naked except for her bottom half which is covered by a blanket, on top of an equally naked Jungkook, who is currently a moaning and panting mess underneath her as she rolled her hips. They both stop their movement and turn towards the door to see Y/N gaping and she strughle to find her words.

“So..sorry,” she quickly closes the bedroom door with a slammed and ran out. Y/N cant stop the tears that automatically starts to cascade down her cheeks and she angrily swiped it away as she ran dowm the hall, exiting the dorm altogether, making the other boys worry. Y/N didnt know why exactlt she’s crying. She didnt knos what hurts more. The fact that Jungkook ignored her all this while just to sleep around, the fact that she saw the man that she has been harbouring feelings for for years having sex with someone else or the fact that out of everyone, Jungkook chose to do it with Soori when he clearly knows how she felt about her.

She’s in love with Jungkook, and she’s not ashamed to admit it anymore. The tears that wont stop flowing is a clear evidence of her feelings, and the horrendous sight she just saw kills everything in her.

Jungkook who was still startled and stunned by what just happened finally snapped oit from his daze and with panic immediately pushed Soori off of him and grabbed on whatever item of clothing nearest to him in the haste to chaste after Y/N. Lucky for him, the building has an exceptionally slow elevator and he managed to grabbed Y/N’s hands while she’s waiting for it to arrive before she managed to ran for the staircase door.

“Y/N, please… please stop,” Jungkook calls out with a staggered breath.

“How could you Kookie?” Y/N finally turned her tears soaked face to him. It hurts Jungkook like hell to see the face he loves looking so upset, knowing he is the reason why. “You ignored me for a week, saying you were busy, and I came here just to try and talk to you and I find you… doing… doing.. that?!”

Jungkook’s brows furrowed in confusion. Is Y/N upset because she found him with someone else? Why does it matter? She’s the one who wanted to pretend like nothing happened between them before.

“Why are you so upset to find me sleeping with someone else Y/N?” He cocks his head to the side. “I dont think you have any right to be this angry. I’m not your boyfriend remember? There is nothing between us. You are nothing but my friend,” Jungkook knows he sounded bitter, but the fact is, he is bitter. He is still deeply hurt than Y/N wanted to pretend that their magical night together didnt happened. He is still hurt that his feelings is not taken seriously. Like its just some kind of a joke to her. He bared his soul to her that night. Y/N looks at him with a look of utter disbelief. Is those words really coming out from his mouth right now?

“What? Is that what you think this is about?”

“You heard me,” Jungkook didnt bother to repeat himself. Y/N wiped away her tears and shakes her arms loose from his tight grip, making him winced.

“You think that is what I’m upset about? You sleeping with someone?” Y/N questioned, voice low, trying to hide her the tremble in her hoarse voice. “Yes, I’m not going to lie. it hurts me to see someone….” she hesitates. “Someone I have been in love with all my life, sleeping with someone else, although I know this is not the first time, but listening to you telling about it is different than actually seeing it,” she lets out a forced chuckle as she stops to take a deep breath and Jungkook’s heart almost stopped at her confession.

Wait, did Y/N just said she loves me?

“But do you want to know what hurts more?” Y/N didnt give him a chance to speak up as she continues. “What hurts more is the fact that out of everyone, you chose to do it with Soori when you out of all people know how much she has ruined my life,” Y/N starts sobbing again. “But you know what, you were right, I shouldn’t be crying. I shouldn’t even be saying anything. I shouldn’t even have come here. You clearly dont want anything to do with me with the way you have been avoiding me the past week,” she closes her eyes, as if already feeling how much her next words is going to hurt her. “You are absolutely right. I am nothing but just your friend, but let me make it easier for you Jeon Jungkook, from now on I’ll just be nothing at all to you,” Y/N finally declared as she stared hard into his brown eyes.

Jungkook, who is still trying to process all the information shoved to him in such a short time felt his head is spinning. Out of everything that Y/N has said, the only thing that repeats in his mind is she loves me, she loves me. He reached out for her hand again but she winced and take a step back from him.

“Wait, Y/N, you… you love me?” Jungkook moves closer as he tries to stop her from leaving. “Y/N wait, I-”

“It doesnt matter anyway. It never does. I wish you happiness with Soori. Have fun on tour,” Y/N spatted her final words, just in time for the elevator to dings open and she stepped in, quickly pushing the buttons to close the doors before Jungkook can find the opportunity to stop her.

/////

Jungkook fiddled with his phone in his hand, staring at its blank screen every 5 second. Checking for new messages or missed calls incase he missed any. Currently seated at the airport waiting room, ready to fly off for his long tour any minute now, Jungkook didnt feel even an ounce of excitement as all he could think about is Y/N and the conversation that took place in front if the elevator. Her crying face haunts his dreams and he miss her so much he felt like dying. Jungkook tried to call and text her non stop for the last two days but it seems like she has shut down her phone for good. Going by to her apartment also didnt give him anything as Y/N seems to not come back there since their debacle, already predicting that Jungkook will come by. There is really nothing else left to do. If he didnt have this damn tour he would be more than happy to camp outside of her apartment until she agrees to just talk things out with him, but unfortunately he cant. He sighed heavily as he leaned his head back on the head rest.

Y/N loves him.

And of course, like a stupid fool that he is, instead of just talking to her about what happened that night, he went and screwed it up by ignoring her for a week and sleeps with her worse enemy.

“Hey, take it easy Kook. You guys have been best friends since forever. Im sure whatever it is you two will figure it out,” Taehyung patted his back, worried at the maknae’s condition. He has been dazed out and staring into space every since the day Y/N ran out crying from the dorm and Taehyung is worried.

“I dont know hyung. It feels different this time. I really screwed up real bad. I dont think she will ever forgive me,” Jungkook sighed, defeated.

“What do you mean?”

“It means… I think this time… this time I’m going to lose her for good,” Jungkook closes his eyes as he finally released all the tears he has been holding in all this while, while Taehyung softly patting the heartbroken maknae’s back, not knowing what else to do to comfort the maknae from heartbreak.

/////

“I met Y/N last week when I went home for a visit,” Jungkook immediately snapped his head around at the sound of Y/N’s name. Its been two years since he had talked to her, although the last time he did they were screaming at each other in front of the elevator, but just the thought of her still make his heart fluttered like crazy. Millions years could have pass but his feelings for her would never change. He is sure of it.

“Oh, now you seem to be interested in what I have to say,” Soori snickered as she raised an eyebrow. “Dont tell me you are still in love with her or something?”

Jungkook quickly shakes his head, denying something that is so obvious. “When am I ever in love with her?” Soori rolled her eyes. “Besides, I’m with you now arent I?” Jungkook steps forward and hold her hand, trying to calm her down, eventhough what he really wanted is to know more about Y/N. What has she been up to all these years? Soori shakes her hand off from her boyfriend’s hold and sat herself down on the sofa, not at all believing that Jungkook is over Y/N. That boy is head over heels in love with her, its getting ridiculous.

Jungkook had lost all contact with her since that last day at the elevator. She had kept her distance throughout the months while he’s on tour, and when he finally came back, eager to find her again, she still kept herself hidden from him. Jungkook couldnt find any way to get in touch with her, and after some time trying, doing anything and everything he could, he finally gives up. There is no point in trying when Y/N herself is trying so hard to stay away from him. Maybe he should finally gives her the space she wanted Heartbroken, lost and frustrated, Jungkook decides its best to give Y/N time for herself, and just like clockwork, that is when Soori came into the picture.

Truth be told, Jungkook’s hearts never stops beating for Y/N. He will always love her. He will always want her. Soori is just the closest thing he could think of having that could somehow linked him to the memory of Y/N, no matter how bad it is, and that’s the reason why he agrees to give her a chance. Its not easy for Soori to get Jungkook to agree, that’s for sure. After multiple shameless advances and drunken nights where Jungkook ended up between the sheets with Soori, he finally decides to give her a chance. She seems to really care about him, and since Y/N is already long gone from his life, he figured he have nothing to lose anyway. And with the state that he’s in, he really needed someone to make him feel wanted and loved, and Soori is perfect for that. Its been two long years now since Y/N decides to end the friendship because of his stupidity, he knows he should probably move on by now, Y/N most likely did, especially now that he has Soori by his side, but the void in his heart stayed empty.

In his heart, its always Y/N.

He will always wants Y/N.

“Yeah. I know you are with me, but are you really? You never once said you love me Kook,” Soori whined as she takes a seat besides him. Its true, when Soori asks him to give her a chance after countless nights he spend with her to distract himself from thoughts of Y/N, Jungkook directly informed her that his heart belongs to another, and he cant promise that he will ever be able to love her back. Soori still willing take the chance, believing that as long as Jungkook is hers, she will be able to change his mind someday.

What started as a plot to hurt Y/N turns into something real. The rivalry between the two goes a long way back and Soori realized she is to blame. She ruined Y/N’s family, thus her life and she should stop. Chasing after Jungkook only starts off as a plan to hurt Y/N more, knowing exactly how Y/N felt towards him. As she plotted her plan and getting to know him in the process, Soori never thought her heart would start to beat a little faster everytime she sees the doe eyed boy with a bunny smile. Then on one cold night on new year’s day, she found a disheveled looking Jungkook in a bar, and after endless drinks and meaningless flirting, he offered to take her back to his dorm. Soori felt like she had killed two bird with one stone. She gets the boy of her dreams and her plot to hurt Y/N works when the said girl herself saw the passionate moment that they shared. After Jungkook came back from tour, Soori tried her best to get his attention again, and with Y/N out from his life, he finally gives in.

However, its obvious that Jungkook will never love her. He might start to care for her, but he will never ever love her like he loved Y/N.

“We have talked about this Soori,” Jungkook sighed. He already informed her about his feelings before rhey get into this. She is the one who agreed to it. Jungkook knows its not fair, but how can he say something he dont mean? How can he tell her he loves her when his heart beats for another? When it beats for Y/N.

“Yeah, whatever,” Soori grumbled. “Anyway, Y/N looks happy,”

“She does?”

“Yeah. She’s a dancer now. And own a dance studio uptown,” Soori told him, as Jungkook teied to keep a poker face as he listens to his current girlfriend talks about the love of his life. “She looks very happy. Most probably over you, a guy who broke her heart,” she turns, gauging for his reaction but getting none. God, she hates how no matter what she do, Y/N will still be number one in Jungkook’s eyes. What does she have to do to make him get over her? Is there even anything else she can do? Soori thinks about her next word carefully, hoping that this new information will change Jungkook’s heart forever.

“Its been two years Kookie. Im pretty sure she has found somebody new,” she slowly starts off. Jungkook just nodded, not saying anything nor look at her. “And she probably did. I saw her Kook… she… she has a daughter. She has moved on, and so should you,”

Jungkook never expected to hear the words that came out from Soori’s mouth. He turns towards Soori, trying to see if she’s joking but is only met with a serious faced Soori, staring back at him. Y/N has a daughter?

“What?”

“Yeah. She has a daughter. And from what I was told, she’s also a single mother,”

/////

Y/N smiles as her two year old daughter runs around the dancing studio, laughing as her students chase the little girl around. She smiles softly at Nara, thinking about how the little girl’s presence changed her life two years ago. Nara is her happiness and with her around, Y/N dont think she will ever be upset again.

Y/N found out she was pregnant two years ago, a few weeks after Jungkook went off to tour. Still hurt, broken and lost from the exhausting fight with him, Y/N is more emotionally confused when she found out she’s pregnant and realized she has no idea at all on who might the father be. She is now more positive than ever that she slept with someone that night of the new year’s party. She cracked her brains for days, but she really cant remember who. Y/N locked herself in her room for days, crying and bawling her eyes out. She has lost her one and only friend, who is also the love of her life, and now she’s pregnant and alone. Finally finding strength after a week of self pity, Y/N patted her stomach and crawled out from her dark hole and make a promise to herself that she would be the best mother she could ever be for her child, no matter who the father is.

That is exactly what she becomes.

Struggling as a single mother and a student of a dance major, Y/N make the hardest decision to take a break from studying, since she obviously cant dance with a pregnant belly anyway, and work her ass off to earn money to support herself and her child. One look at her beautiful daughter on the day she was born, every struggle she had faced dissappeared and she realized that she has never love anything as much as she loves the tiny hands thats holding hers. She knew then that all the sacrifices that she made was worth it. It was worth it because its for her daughter. And she’s going to love her no matter what may happen.

Focusing on her newborn daughter and continuing to achieve her dreams of becoming a dancer is a great distraction from thinking about Jungkook who is still very much in her mind. She misses him every single day and it doesnt help that he appears on the news with his band members, looking so handsome and adorable, just like how she remembers him, almost every time Y/N switch on the TV. However, the past is the past now and she has a new future now. A future without Jeon Jungkook in it.

Nara is her everything and she will give her all to the little girl.

The sound of her phone ringing snapped Y/N out from her thoughts as she immediately picked it up without looking at the caller ID, first checking if Nara is still safely playing with her students.

“Hello?”

“Urm, hi. Is this… is this Y/N?” The caller’s voice sounded too familiar for Y/N’s liking. Y/N moved her phone away from her ears to see the screen and only ‘unknown number’ is written on it.

It couldnt be, could it? It couldnt be him.

“Yes. This is she speaking. Who is this?” Thinking it might be someone calling regarding her dance academy, she continues on.

“Y/N… its me, Jungkook. Jeon Jungkook…I… I miss you,”

/////

Y/N stared at the clouds, her mind off somewhere else, as she is currently seated in a short flight from Busan to Seoul, courtesy of her long lost best friend, Jungkook. After that surprised phone call, Y/N had immediately hangs up in panic the moment Jungkook made himself known. She had spend years trying to lose all contact with him in order to mend her broken heart, and now that its almost heal, Jungkook once again came back to her life. How can he just call her after two years and says he miss her? Her heart almost burst just by the sound of his voice.

Jungkook, not giving up this time, has been relentless in his effort to get her to talk to him. Calling everyone, even harrasing her parents and work place until Y/N didnt have any other choice but to talk to him. After careful consideration and a deep breathe, she finally did. They talked for a while, and after countless awkward silences, they start to warm up to each other and Y/N felt at ease, just like he did before. Just like when they were still best friends, before everything goes down to shit.

Everything feels like a dream to Jungkook. He would never in a million years thought Y/N would ever want to talk to him again no matter what he tried, but he have to. He needs to reach out to her. He left Y/N alone during her pregnancy, and now that she’s a single mother, Jungkook believes Y/N needed his support more than ever. Taking things slow, he starts with light conversations and old memories. Memories that never failed to make him smile. After finally getting the feeling that Y/N is comfortable enough with him, Jungkook held his breath as he finds the courage to invite her to Seoul to visit him.

“Come to Seoul,”

“What?”

“I want to see you again Y/N. I cant come back to see you,” he sighed. “My schedules dont allow me. Please come to Seoul,” he plead. He needs to see her. He needs to tell her in person that he will always be there for her. Maybe not as somebody special, but as her best friend. She needs to know that she is not alone.

Y/N was really reluctant at first. Why would she want to go all the way to Seoul just to meet up with the boy who broke her heart? But another part of her misses him so bad. She cant lie to herself, after all this years, Jungkook is still the one that she wants. Always will, always have. But is her heart ready for this?

After much coaxing from Jungkook’s part, telling her how he miss her and how they should meet to catch up on good old days, how he needs his best friend, Y/N gives in.

Afterall, what could have gone wrong, right?

So after kissing Nara goodbye, no way is she bringing her daughter along to see Jungkook, she packed her bags and board the plane, and here she is now, in front of the one man that both broke and owns her heart at the same time.

“I’m finally here now Jungkook,” No greetings, just a statement. She didnt know what to say, or what to do she cant and wont let her heart fall for him again. Jungkook just smile warmly at her, knowing her wll enough to know that underneath that cold exterior, Y/N is just hurt and vulnerable.

“I know you are, and I still cant believe its real. Im not dreaming am I?” He pinched his cheeks. “I miss you,” he peered into the pair of eyes that he missed so much.

“Well, I cant say the same thing about you,” Y/N quickly averted her gaze from Jungkook’s deep ones. Jungkook will know she’s lying. He always do. Jungkook sighed but smile anyway.

Its okay. They just met again after a long time. She is still hurt. She needed time.

“Y/N, the reason I wanted to see you is… other than the fact that I do miss you, is..I know. I know about your daughter,”

“What?” Y/N was shocked. How did he know? Did he keep tabs on her all this while?

“So… someone saw you and told me. Why didnt you tell me? You didnt have to go through it alone. I’m your best friend arent I? No matter what happens you know I will always be here for you,” Jungkook reached out to hold her hand across the table, and surprisingly, Y/N didnt pulled back her hand and basked in the warmth of Jungkook’s touch instead. She has been alone and struggling for so long, it feels good to feel some support for once.

“How am I supposed to tell you? I didnt think you still care Jungkook,” Y/N closes her eyes, the painful memory of two years ago came flooding back.

“How can you say that? How can you even think that? Of course I do. I always care about you Y/N,” his thumbs slowly rubs the back of her hand. It hurts to think the woman that he loves thought so lowly of him.

“If you dont mind me asking,” Jungkook place his words carefully. “Who…whose is it? Who’s the father?” Jungkook asks the question that he has been dreading, jealousy starts to rise in his chest. Who is the lucky man who manages to captured her heart?

“I…I dont know,” Y/N finally admitted, tears are starting to pool at the corner of her eyes as she tries to blink them back. Jungkook’s eyes widen as he registered what he meant. He knew she was a single mother, but he thought its only because the two of them broke up but the father is still in the picture. He didnt know she struggle this much alone.

“Oh, Y/N,” Jungkook immediately stood up and engulfed her in a hug. “Shhh, its okay. Im here now. You wont be alone anymore,” Jungkook tucked her head underneath his chin and continue to hug her tightly as Y/N finally let herself cry in his embraced.

She finally gets Jungkook back, and for once in the last two years, she finally doesnt feel scared anymore. She doesnt need to carry all the burden alone anymore. Jungkook is here with her. He will always be here for her.

The rest of her trip was spend to getting to know Jungkook again. He told her everything that had happened during the past years and she told him all about Nara. It makes her happy to hear how successful Jungkook has become and how happy he is with his career. Its as if all the dark tragedy that happened before has been totally forgotten.

“Im glad you are happy with Nara, Y/N. She seems wonderful. I wish I could meet her someday,” Jungkook beams as they walked side by side by the river.

“Yes you should. Maybe next time I will bring her with me when I come to visit,” she smile. “Come to think of it, she has the same brown doe eyes like you. I must have missed you too much while i was pregnant with her that she ended up looking like you,” Y/N laughs as she jokes. She never thought that she would ever be able to smile in Jungkook’s presence ever again. Jungkook’s eyes crinkled at the thought that Y/N is willing to come and visit him again.

“How about you? Dont you have anyone in your life? It must be lonely to be a big shot celebrity but no one to share it with,” Y/N turns to face him, cocking her head as she asks the question. Jungkook gets nervous as he cleared his throat. He wonders if he should tell her truth about him and Soori. They might not be serious but they are still dating. There’s no point in lying. Y/N will found out soon enough.

“I’m… I’m dating Soori,” he softly confessed. Y/N’s mouth gap wide open as she looks at him. Is this really happening?

“You are dating Soori? The Soori? Did I heard correctly?” Jungkook just kept quiet, confirming what she heard is true. Y/N tried to keep calm and composed herself. Why Soori? Out of every woman in this world, why must Jungkook date Soori?

“Y/N?” Jungkook quietly calls out her name when she kept quiet for a while. She sighed as she stabilize her breathing.

Calm down Y/N. Jungkook can date whoever he wants. You are nothing to him remember?

“Im okay Jungkook,” she flashed him a forced smile. “If you choose to date her, I have no right to say anything about it. Her issues are with me, and not you,” she said softly. Jungkook suddenly feel a mix of frustration, guilt and anger rise up in him. Why is Y/N so accepting? Just two years ago she is willing to ruin their whole friendship because of Soori and now she’s this calm? “But Jungkook… why must it be her?”

“Then who Y/N? You?” Jungkook suddenly snapped. He didnt know why he feels so angry. Is it because he had laid his feelings bare in front if her that night only to be humiliatingly ignored and now she’s giving her opion on who’s more suitable for him?

Y/N’s eyes widen at his sudden remark. What is wrong with him?

“Wh..what?”

“You said Soori is not good for me. Are you trying to tell me that you are?”

“Jungkook, thats not what I’m trying to say at all!”

“You know what, I dont know what happened between you two but it was way in the past and because of your pettiness who just cant let go of some teenage problems, you let it ruined our friendship! Atleast she was there for me when you arent Y/N! When I was lost and alone, where were you?! Just get over it already!” Jungkook didnt know why he snapped. It just pisses him off that Y/N would make a comment about his relationship when she’s the one who ruined theirs in the first place. He might not love Soori, that much is true, but atleast she did be there for him when he was lost and feeling alone. Y/N’s lips starts to trembled at Jungkook’s sudden outburst.

“Jungkook, I’m sorry for what happened two years ago. Im sorry for wasting our friendship, but, this has nothing to do with it,” Y/N managed to choked out between her incoming tears. She didnt know Jungkook is this hurt about what happened two years ago. “I’m.. I’m just trying to tell you that Soori is not the kind of girl you should be with,”

“Oh, like you are the one to talk about relationships Y/N!” Jungkook wailed his hands around. “Dont you dare judge my relationship with her when you are the one wh got pregnant by someone you dont even know like a little whore!” The moment those words left his mouth, Jungkook’s eyes widen and he immediately regrets it.

His shouldnt have said it. He didnt meant any of it. He is just too consumed with anger.

His heart ached even more when he sees Y/N’s eyes widen and her face scrunched up in hurt by his words.

“Y/N… I didnt mean-” Y/N raised a hand to stop him.

“No, I think that is exactly what you meant Jungkook,” Y/N angrily wiped her eyes. “This is a mistake. I shouldnt have come here. I shouldnt have come to see you,” she mumbled and quickly turns around to ran away from him, leaving both Jungkook and Seoul behind, swearing to herself that she will never again let this man make her cry.

Jungkook fell down to his knees as he tried to contained the tears from falling. He just got Y/N back after two years, and now he lost her again. All because of his stupidity and pettiness.

“Y/N no… I’m sorry. I love you,” Jungkook whispered with the last of his strength but Y/N is already long gone to hear whay he had got to say.

When are you ever going to stop hurting the girl you love Jeon Jungkook?

/////

After she took the next flight out back to Busan, Y/N once again cut off all communication with him. What he said hurts so much. She would never thought something so hurtful and vengeful could ever come out from Jungkook’s mouth. She cried during the whole flight, making the other passengers and even the stewardess worry about her. Y/N never thought her broken heart can get broken even more, and she is definitely wrong.

When it comes to Jungkook, he will always have that power over her.

Arrived home, she peeked into her daughter’s bedroom and as she saw the little girl sleeping face, all her problems melted away. Jungkook can say anything he wants about her, but when she looks at Nara, Y/N didnt feel even an ounce of regret over what happened to her, instead, a certain kind of happiness fills her heart, the kind no one can make her thinks otherwise.

Another long year has passed without Jungkook in her life. Sure, she still misses him a lot. There are still so many good memories that she shared with him that no amount of hurtful things could ever erased. Even despite everything the two of them had been through, the push and pull, Y/N knows, in her heart Jungkook is still the wants she loves, the one she wants. But he doesnt seem to need her in his life anymore, and if that makes him happy than she is okay with it. Their last conversation, although happened a year ago still constantly repeats itself in her mind.

“At least she’s here for me when you arent Y/N”

“Dont you dare judge my relationship with her when you are the one wh got pregnant by someone you dont even know like a little whore!”

“Hey sweetheart, you okay? You are thinking about something again arent you? Something is bothering your mind again?” Y/N snapped out from her thoughts at the sound of Jae Hee’s voice as he gave her a hug around the waist from behind, tucking his chin on her shoulders. Y/N turns and smile softly at him.

“No, nothing at all,”

“Dont lie to me. I know you well enough Y/N. You are thinking about Jungkook again arent you?” Y/N sighed. She knows there is no point in lying to this man. He can see right through her. He turns her around to face him and cupped her face. “You know… I know you miss your best friend. Why dont you invite him to our wedding? You can even ask him if he would do the honors to do the speech,” Jae Hee softly suggested as he looks into her eyes.

Right. The wedding.

She’s getting married to a wonderful man and she still cant stop thinking about Jungkook.

Y/N stares back into Jae Hee soft gaze and the memories came gushing back. She remembers how she found him drenched in front of her dance studio, stuck in the storm. Although terrified of helping a random stranger that late at night, she still offered him a warm place to stay to wait out the storm until it passes. Its as if fate has planned something for them, the storm lasted the whole night and the two, stuck in the dance academy, spend it in the warmth glow of candlelight after the thunder cut off the town’s electricity, just talking to each other. Even in that short amount of time, Y/N has never felt so connected to someone as she did with Jae Hee and apparently the feelings are mutual as he keeps on popping up for a visit since then. Friendship blossoms into something more and with time, Jae Hee finally confessed his feelings for her.

Still hurt and scarred by love, Y/N refused, wanting nothing more than just a friendship from the kind man. Persistent to make her his, Jae Hee promise that he understands the affection she felt for him will never be considered as love, and it wont matter to him since he loves her and Nara too much. He promise if Y/N would give him a chance and accept him in her life, he would love both her and Nara for eternity and becomes the perfect husband and father to them. His genuine love for them touched Y/N’s heart, especially when she saw how he really loves Nara. Y/N always believe that Nara needed a father to feel complete. Try as she might, she still cant fill the void that her daughter is feeling. Pushing aside her own feelings, Y/N decides to take a chance with Jae Hee as she thinks he will be the perfect father for Nara.

After once again laying down her true feelings, making sure Jae Hee really understands that it isnt possible for her to love again, he proposed and she accepted. Y/N told everything that happened between her and Jungkook, but of course, leaving out the part of how she is head over heels in love with him and how he is the reason of her heartbreak. All the while thinking that the reason Y/N is upset is only because she is missing her best friend, Jae Hee finally suggested what he had thought about for some time.

“So what do you think?”

“In..invite him?” Y/N stuttered. Can she really do it? Will her heart be okay to see the face that she loves on the day of her wedding?

“Yes. He is your best friend sweetheart. Im sure whatever issues you two have can be solved after some talking. It breaks my heart to see you so upset,” he tucked her hair behind her ear. Y/N smile at that. Jae Hee is really a blessing. And as she looks inside his eyes again, his soft gaze looking at her, she saw a love so genuine, making her believe, that even if she wont ever love him back the way he loves her, Jae Hee will always be special to her and Jungkook’s presence wont be able to change that.

“Okay,” she softly agreed between her breath. “Okay, I will invite Jungkook to our wedding,”

/////

Jungkook lay down in the middle of the empty practice room, breath hot and heavy after an intense session of dancing. His hyungs has all gone back to the dorm to take their respective showers and most probably off to sleep, but like the past one year, Jungkook will spend some time alone every night after practice, just laying there, thinking about Y/N.

His last words to her still haunts him every night. It got even worse after Soori finally broke up with him, admitting defeat in the battle to win his heart from Y/N. Jungkook doesnt really care. His breakup with Soori past by him like its nothing, but the words he said to Y/N that day repeated himself a thousand times over in a super slow speed every single day. How could he say that to her? How could he even think it?

He closes his eyes again, the memory of Y/N’s laughter filled his mind, taking him back to when days were easier. When him and Y/N are still best friends and he could see her anytime that he pleased. He smile to himself like a mad person as one by one their memory replayed itself in his mind.

I miss you. I miss you so much Y/N.

His phone rings, making him snapped opened his eyes as he grabs it. His eyes almost bulged out from its sockets when he saw the caller ID.

Y/N ♡♡

Is this real? Or is he hallucinating again? Y/N has his number blocked since that day and he wasnt able to contact her since then. But why is she calling now? Is she okay?

“He..hello?”

“Jungkook?”

“Ye..yeah,”

“This is… Y/N,”

“I know. I… I still keep your number,”

“Oh,” silence. “Urm well, Im just calling to tell you that…”

“Yes?” Jungkook gets up from his laying form, anxious to hear her next words. Its been a year and now she’s calling. She’s calling to tell him something. What does she need to tell him?

Please tell me you love me again. Please tell me you love me again. And I swear this time I will shout out my feelings for you. I wont ever let you go again. Jungkook silently prayed in his heart as he closes his eyes, heart racing nervously.

“To tell you that I’m getting married and I would like for you to come and if you would accept the honor, to give out the speech… as my best friend,”

Jungkook thought he knew what heartbreak felt like before, but as he felt his heart breaks into even tinier pieces at Y/N’s words, he knows now what he felt before is nothing. This is what heartbreaks feels like. And it hurts like hell.

Y/N is getting married. And its not to him.

Jungkook ponders on Y/N’s requests for weeks after that. Is he strong enough to do it? Can he take it to see the woman that he loves officially belongs to someone else?

Jungkook closes his eyes and starts to think back about what happened between him and Y/N since that night. Where did it all go wrong. He starts to think and the painful memories came crushing back to him.

“I dont ever want to talk about last night. I did the biggest mistake of my life. I was horribly drunk!”

“Yes, it hurts me to see someone I love sleeping with someone else,”

“You know what, you were right, I am nothing but just your friend, but let me make it easier for you Jeon Jungkook, from now on I’ll just be nothing at all to you,”

“Dont you dare judge my relationship with her when you are the one who got pregnant by someone you dont even know like a little whore!”

“Y/N… I didnt mean-”

“No, I think that is exactly what you meant Jungkook,”

“Y/N no… I’m sorry. I love you,” but Y/N is already long gone to hear what he had got to say.

Jungkook’s eyes snapped opened again. He sees it now.

He never once told her how he felt. He never told her how much he actually loves her.

Y/N never knew that Jungkook is in love with her.

I have to go to the wedding. I have to stop her. I cant lose Y/N again. I have to tell her I love her. I have to tell Y/N I love her!

With that realization, Jungkook jumped up and quickly rushed to his room to get ready to board the next flight out to Y/N.

Jungkook arrived just in time for the rehearsal dinner. He looks around at the crowded place, trying to locate Y/N as he try to smooth down the crinkled of his shirt from the flight. A handsome man who is busy greeting and shaking hands with the guests approached him and smile.

“You must be Jungkook,” he greeted "Jeon Jungkook?“ He flashed him a friendly smile.

"Urm.. ye.. yes,” Jungkook shakes the hand that the man has held out, puzzled. How can anyone here know him? He doesnt look like a fan. “How do you know who I am?” The man laughs.

“Of course I know you. I’ve seen your pictures and heard a lot about you,” he smiles again. “I’m Jae Hee. Y/N’s fiancee. And Jungkook, we should talk,”

/////

Jae Hee lead Jungkook to one of the empty room around the hall and offered him a glass of whisky, which Jungkook gladly accept.

“So,” Jae Hee turned to face him as he took a seat, “I would like to thank you for actually coming. I know it would mean the world to Y/N,” he smiles.

“Ye..yeah. Of course. I am her best friend after all,” Jungkook replied, trying to hide the shakiness of his voice. Jae Hee gave out a hearty laughs, finding his sttement ridiculously funny.

“Jungkook. I think both you and I know that you are more than just a best friend to Y/N,” Jae Hee gave a small smile as he took a sip from his glass and stood up, taking a step closer to Jungkook.

“What..what do you mean?”

“Y/N might not tell me her true feelings about you. In fact she tried her best to hide it. But she did told me that she wont be able to love anybody else ever again. She didnt tell me its because of you, obviously,” Jae Hee chuckled. “But I know her. I can tell. From the way her eyes sparkles when she talks about you and how she cant hide a smile when she says your name… I can tell that in her heart its only you Jungkook,” Jungkook swallowed a hard lumped in his throat. Y/N talks about him? To her own fiance? The information makes him both happy and nervous.

“And from the fact that you are here right now, looking the way you do…” Jungkook raised an eyebrow. What does he means? Jae Hee laughs at Jungkook’s questioning look. “Looking like you just ran through hell just to see her…” he explained before continuing, “It shows that you clearly feel the same way about her too,”

Jungkook kept quiet and Jae Hee took it a sign to keep going. He sighed. “You know. I love her. I love her so much and Nara… I dont think I can live to be apart from Nara. And I really want them to be happy,” he swirled his drink around in his glass. “I have already come to terms that Y/N will never love me like she loves you. But Jungkook,” Jungkook looks up at the man as he calls out his name. “I can make her happy. I promise you that. I will take care of her and Nara with all my heart. I dont know what you came here for, but whatever it is you planned on doing, please just think about her happiness first,” Jae Hee locked his gazed with Jungkook’s, making the latter speechless.

“I love her Jae Hee. And I want whats best for her too,” Jungkook softly said, feeling he should explain himself too. Jae Hee just nodded, creating a silent understanding between the two man.

“Jae Hee… there’s just one thing I need to know,”

“What is it?”

“Is… is Nara yours?” Jae Hee chuckled.

“I wish she is. She is wonderful and I already thinks of her as my own daughter. But unfortunately no,” he shakes his head. “Y/N got drunk at some new years’ party three years ago and she doesnt remember a thing. She cant remember who the father is. She keeps beating herself up for it, blaming herself for the reason Nara not having a father, but I think she did a great job bringing her up alone,” he explained proudly.

“She really did,” Jungkook whispered before something that Jae Hee said crosses his mind again. “Wait. New years’ party three years ago?”

“Yes,” Jae Hee looks at him quizically but didnt say anything more as he stood up. “I would love to talk more with you Jungkook, but I got to go. This is my wedding rehearsal dinner after all,” he chuckles. “But please, please think about what I said and I hope you will make the right decision for both Y/N and Nara,” he nodded and went off but something even more important is going through Jungkook’s mind.

New year’s party three years ago?

That is the night he slept with Y/N. The night when everything started to go downhill.

“I dont ever want to talk about last night. I did the biggest mistake of my life. I was horribly drunk! I swear, I’m never getting drunk ever again!”

“Cant believe you are leaving your hangover bestfriend who cant remember anything from last night alone,”

“Who…whose is it? Who’s the father?”

“I…I dont know,”

“Y/N got drunk at some new year’s party three years ago and she doesnt remember a thing. She cant remember who the father is,”

Jungkook starts to trembled as the pieces starts to fall together.

Nara is his daughter.

He has a daughter with Y/N. He has a daughter with the one woman he had love all his life.

Another sudden realization makes his heart sinks even further. Y/N didnt remember they slept together that night. She didnt know. She didnt hear Jungkook confesses his love to her that night. What she said that morning, she didnt mean it the way Jungkook had intepreted it. She didnt regret sleeping with him. She only regretted gettng so drunk that she cant remember anything.

And him, Jungkook placed his head in his hands, him, being an absolute idiot that he is, went with his feelings and ruined every single thing just because of his petty bitterness.

Y/N didnt think he was a mistake. Y/N said so herself. She loves him. If only he didnt ruined it, they would have been together already.

Jungkook loves her. And Y/N loves him. And Nara is his.

I need to get Y/N back.

With utmost determination, he rushed out to the main hall, only to see Y/N and Jae Hee holding hands at the main table. The girl that he had love all his life laughing and smiling so happily besides Jae Hee as Nara stand besides him, clinging tight to his pants. Jungkook saw how Jae Hee leaned in to kiss Y/N on her cheek before he kneeled down and bobbed Nara on the nose, making the little girl laughs as she held onto his neck, jumping closer to give him a tight embraced.

“You know. I love her. I love her so much and Nara… I dont think I can live to be apart from Nara. And I really want them to be happy,” he swirled his drink around in his glass. “I have already come to terms that Y/N will never love me like she loves you. But Jungkook,” Jungkook looks up at the man as he calls out his name. “I can make her happy. I promise you that. I will take care of her and Nara with all my heart. I dont know what you came here for, but whatever it is you planned on doing, please just think about her happiness first,”

Jungkook closes his eyes as Jae Hee’s words rings in his ears. His determined fist starts to fall limply as it unclenched by his side, defeated by the truth.

I need to let her go. Jae Hee makes her and Nara happy. I need to let her go.

With one last deep breath and angrily wiping his tears away, Jungkook enters the hall as he huts his champagne glass with a spoon, making everyone turned their attention to him from the sound. He flashed his wide bunny smile as he looks straight into Y/N’s eyes who is gasping in surprised at his presence.

“I am the bride’s bestfriend and I would like to make a toast,” he starts off, still smiling at her.

“Jungkook…” he can hear Y/N calls out his name and his heart feels like breaking all over again. This could be the last time he will ever hear her calls it out.

“Y/N and I has been bestfriends ever since I can remember. We did all the silliest thing together. Looking at how she has grown into such a beautiful woman she is right now, you wouldnt believe me if I said she could climb trees faster than me, swim better than me and throw a punch stronger than me, Jungkook hears a few chuckles from the guest but his eyes is only focusing on the love of his life, looking straight at Y/N’s teary ones. "You know Y/N… I am always competitve. I always wanted to win. But I willingly lose everytime when it comes to you, just so I can watch you jumped around in victory,” he smile wider although his heart ached.

“For you Y/N, I’m always willing to lose as long as it makes you happy,” he said softly. “You are the most beautiful person I have ever had the pleasure to meet and you had made my life so beautiful just by being in it. You are the only person who knows me inside out, and everyday that I spent with you, I’m happy. Its your turn now Y/N. Be happy. I will gladly lose again as long as you promised me that you will be happy,” Jungkook couldnt help but felt the tears starts to pricked his eyes as he tries his best to blinked them back. Jungkook still kept his gaze on Y/N, never letting go as he knows this is the last time he will be allowed to do so. He flashed her his widest smile, bunny teeth showing. “I love you so much L/N Y/N. It has always been you and will always be you,” Jungkook’s last words came out as a whisper but as the hall has gotten extremely quiet, each and every guest who attended is able to hear what he had said. Y/N is shaking from sobbing too much as Jae Hee rubbed her back comfortingly. Jungkook, finally snapping out from his emotions by Jae Hee’s gesture realized where he is and who is around him and quickly continues. “I… I mean that you will always be my best friend Y/N. I dont think there’s anyone else who would put up with my shitty ass,” he added and the guests let out a nervous laugh. “To the future bride and groom,” Jungkook toasted and the whole hall raised their glasses up.

As Jungkook swallowed up his drink in one go, his eyes never left Y/N’s, and so does hers. He flicked his eyes over to Jae Hee who smile sadly at him and mouth him a thanked you, lifting his glass up as a sign of thanks and respect. Jungkook return the gesture and as he puts his glass away, he smile at Y/N from where he is standing from across the room.

“I love you so much Y/N. Be happy. Goodbye,” he mouthed before turning away and exiting the hall, never looking back again.

Three years later

“We are going to meet with a new batch of dancers today. They will be working with you for this upcoming tour,” PD-nim announced. “Please come with me. We are meeting the academy’s owner to discuss the concept of your cheography,” the seven tired heads bobbed and followed the PD out.

Making his way out and still tired from their non stop practice, Jungkook arrived first and didnt bother to take a look around the meeting room and quickly sat in his designated seat, slumping down on his chair and leaning his head back, not aware to the fact that there was already someone else in the room.

“You seem tired,” Jungkook’s ears immediately perked at the sound of the familiar voice. A voice that he miss. A voice that has been haunting his dreams. He straighten himself up and right across from him, seated in the opposite chair is Y/N, grinning from ear to ear, looking at him. Jungkook rubbed his eyes, making sure he is not hallucinating again.

“Y..Y/N?”

“Hello Jungkook,”

/////

“So… you are a dancer huh?” Jungkook awkwardly tries to make a conversation as he stir his cup of hot coffee. He couldnt take his eyes off of Y/N during the whole meeting. Hoseok even have to elbowed him, hard, to ensure that he pays attention. The minute the meeting is adjourned, he quickly rushed over to Y/N as she starts to move away and ask her out for a cup of coffee, to 'catch up on the old times’ he says, which Y/N glady accepted, and here they are, sitting opposite each other in a coffee shop.

Y/N giggled at his nervousness.

“Yes. My dance academy finally gets its recognition,” she nodded. She reached out her hand to touch Jungkook’s over the table and he flinched in surprised. “Jungkook, its me. You dont have to be so nervous,”

Jungkook takes a deep breath.

“I know its you Y/N. That is precisely the reason why I’m nervous,”

“Why is that?”

Because I love you. I still love you and I still want you. But I cant have you.

“Because I havent seen you in so long,” Jungkook lied through his teeth. After a moment of silence he finally find the courage to ask the question he really wanted to both know and dread. “How’s Jae Hee?”

Y/N smile. “He is doing great,”

Jungkook felt like he just took a punch. “G..good. Maybe one day all three of us could meet up sometime,” he casually suggested.

“Well… I dont know if his new wife would allow that. She’s not very fond of me,” Y/N chuckles as Jungkook’s eyes widen.

“What? New wife? Y/N, are you and Jae Hee-”

“Divorced? Yes,”

“Oh Y/N. Are you okay?” Jungkook immediately reached out to carressed her cheeks, not noticing his immediate response is to reached out to her. Y/N smiles and leaned into his touch.

“Im great actually. Dont worry so much. We broke up on good terms Jungkook,” Jungkook nodded and played with his hands

“May I ask why? What happened?”

“Because he knows we will never work out. Not when my heart is always beating for someone else. And he wants me to be happy. He’s letting me go for me to chase my happiness,” Y/N gave a small smile, hoping Jungkook gets what she’s trying to say making Jungkook swallowed a hard lump in his throat.

“Urmmm ah, how’s Nara?” Jungkook tries to avoid the topic. Y/N’s brow furrowed as Jungkook tries to change the topic. Of course this dork would be oblivious as ever.

Truth be told, Jungkook thinks about Nara as much as he thinks about Y/N ever since finding out that she is his own daughter. There is nothing more in the world that he wants than for her to call him her father and is able to do all the things that father-daughters do together. But Nara is happier without him, and even if it hurts, its something he has to endure.

Just like before, Jungkook is willing to lose as long as it makes Y/N and Nara happy.

“She’s doing great. She’s in preschool now. I think she has a great talent in drawing… and dancing,” Jungkook smiles when hearing that. “Like you,” Jungkook’s eyes immediately flickered to Y/N’s steady ones, nervous to know where Y/N is going with this. Y/N studied Jungkook’s face closely before saying her next sentence.

“I know you know you are her father Jungkook,” Y/N said softly.

“What?!” Jungkook was shocked. No one knows he is the father or knows he knows. “How.. when…”

“Jae Hee told me about the talk you had with him that night. And he told me how you were acting strange after he told you about the new year’s party. And that’s when everything came back to me…” she trailed off. “Everything that happened that night between us. Everything you said to me…:

"Y/N…”

“Why didnt you tell me?” Y/N’s eyes are already glassy with unshed tears.

“I knew you are going to be happier without me. I thought you would be happy with Jae Hee,”

“No. Why didnt you tell me the day after the party? Why did you leave me? Why did you avoid me instead Jungkook?” Y/N cant contained her tears anymore and let it fall free down her cheeks. Jungkook stood up and sat besides her, turning his whole body to face her, wiping her tears with his thumb.

“I was stupid,” Jungkook continues to stroked his thumbs on her soft cheeks. “I’m still stupid. When you said you wanted to forget that anything ever happened, I thought you meant with me… I didnt know you didnt remember anything. I was stupid. So so stupid,” his voice came out barely above a whisper as he remembers the pain that started this whole mess six years ago.

“You left me alone. I was so lost without you,” Y/N starts to hit his chest but Jungkook pulls both of her wrist and engulfed her in a hug.

“I’m sorry. I am so so sorry,”

“I miss you Jungkook. I miss you so much,” her voice muffled by his chest but still manages to make his heart flutters. Jungkook pulls her back and kiss her forehead.

“Me too Y/N. I miss you so much. You cant even imagined how much,” he choked the words out, not able to hold his emotions much longer.

“Y/N, I love you,” he finally said it. After all this years of pain and hurting, Jungkook finally manages to said it in front of the only girl he had ever love while looking straight into her eyes. “Everything I said that night… I mean everything,”

“Do.. do you really mean it? Even after all these years… do you still mean it?” Y/N asks through staggered breath, trying to calm down her tears.

“After all this years. After everything weve been through. After everything that happened. After everyone that we met. Its you Y/N. I still want you. I will always want you,” Jungkook wiped the corner of her eyes with both of his thumbs and smile at her. “I love you L/N Y/N. Not just as my best friend,” Y/N chuckle, remembering the speech he gave at the rehearsal dinner. “But as my love, my girlfriend, the mother of my child, my future wife and my everything. I love you,” he kisses her forehead again as Y/N starts to smile against her still steady tears.

“What about you? Do you still love me? Do you still want me?”

“I will always want you, Jeon Jungkook. Always,”

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