#he reminds me of my dad too. and my dad would've made me cry as well bc he speaks so curtly

[neonstatic]

it's ridiculous rly bc i'm a grown adult! i shouldn't feel like crying bc my instructor seemed frustrated w me. it probably had nothing to do w me anyway. he's a man doing his job and being at work sucks, and still he was patient w me. but just the thought that being w me, a complete beginner, could possibly be v frustrating to him made me feel so so small and before i knew it, i had a knot in my throat :C i think this is why i just bottle up everything cus otherwise i'd be crying way too damn much. i'm super sensitive.

altho my sister thinks that actually, if i don't wanna be sad all the time (cus it rly feels like that sometimes, like i am either numb or sad) then i /should/ cry. i have a hard time believing that crying so much could be therapeutic, but again i have so little experience in the matter... cus in my head, crying equals being sad, and since i don't (let myself) cry then i'm not sad but... clearly that's not true. maybe if i cried more, i'd be less sad. hmm.

anyway now i worry that my 3rd lesson will be w the same man again, bc my brain's playing some silly association games and i'm afraid i can't separate that feeling of judgment and frustration from him as a person... i'll see how i feel. it wouldn't be the end of the world to request another instructor. but i don't wanna start a pattern all bc of my fragile feelings

[echobx]

not my type 3 - Rafe Cameron x plus size!fem!reader

summary: y/n is trying to reconcile with her feelings towards Rafe

warnings: angsty, swearing, Rafe being a bit of an ass

word count: 3.1k

author's note: I don't really know what happened. I'm sorry /gen

masterlist part 2

“What's he doing here?” you hiss at your best friend when you watch Rafe walk in, a blonde girl on his arm as he is greeted by your father.  “Your dad invited all the partners, you signed up on that, remember,” Claire reminds you and you groan. If you had remembered that he'd be there, you would've worn something else. Something more revealing.  “He doesn't look like-” Claire mumbles as you turn and drag her with you towards the bar. “I know he doesn't. And he's not my type. And I hate him,” you list, and she lifts her eyebrows at you.  “But?”  “I haven’t- I tried everything okay, literally everything. But I can't cum,” you whisper. “The only time I manage to even get close to it, is on my own picturing him. And I hate it. I don't like it at all. It's disgusting and shouldn't be happening. Especially not to me.”  “I think we should get drunk. Hammered, actually. Like in college,” she smiles and orders two shots of tequila for each of you. You down the shots and turn back around to watch the mass of people in front of you. Everyone is mingling but no matter how much you try to not pay any attention to him, your eyes seem to be stuck.  He looks good. Too good. The loose suit shirt half unbuttoned, giving view to his abs just enough to make you wanna rip the fabric off. 

It had been three whole months. Three months since he had left you wanting more. Three months since you had made him sleep on your couch, denying him the pleasure to sleep in your bed after what he had pulled at the restaurant and when you had woken up he had been gone. No note. No goodbye. Nothing.  It was a clean cut. The same thing you did the first time round. Just that he managed to make you cave, and you can't let it happen again. You have too much self-respect to let him get to you, again. Too much resentment towards him. Too much of all of it for him to ruin you. And besides, you can always hold onto the fact that he really isn't your type, he'd never be. 

“Abort. Abort! Move, y/n/n! They are on their way over,” Clair pushes against you, but it feels like you're stuck. “And they're here.”  “Mr. Cameron, you remember my daughter,” your dad smiles politely, and you do your best to mirror it, but refusing to actually look at Rafe. To meet his gaze and get lost in it. Too scared that it'll remind you of that day.  You hold out your hand to shake his, but instead of giving it a proper shake, Rafe takes your hand softly into his own. He leans down and kisses your knuckles, staring right into your eyes, and you can swear your heart is about to stop. And there you are again, mentally trapped under the weight of his hot body, his eyes never leaving yours as he pounds into, nearly splitting you in half.  You could swear he thinks of it too when your eyes linger before you harshly pull your hand away.  “I remember him well. Please, do enjoy the party,” you say and quickly excuse yourself to the restroom. 

You lock yourself in a stall, sitting down on the toilet and trying to keep yourself from crying.  “Are you okay?” Claire asks and you let out a choked cry.  “No. I don't think so, no.” You shake your head. It's unfair that you feel like this while he's perfect and not at all having any issues with it.  “If you cry, bend over, so the tears fall on the floor and don't ruin your makeup,” she suggests, and you stand to follow her instructions, just in case.  “Please tell me she's an escort. I can't deal with this if she isn't,” you press out. You don't know what exactly is wrong with you, never having been in a situation like this before.  “I don't think so. But I can do some research on it and get back to you,” you hear her stilettos on the marble as she walks away.  “He's no one. You don't care. You hate him. He's an asshole. A complete asshole,” you tell yourself, and it seems to help at first, but when you close your eyes he's there again. Brushing sweaty strands of hair from your face and telling you that you're his. And it all starts anew. 

“Y/n? Are you still in there?” you hear Claire ask and reply with a quick “yes.” “So, not an escort, but they just met at a bar. I guess he just brought her along to mess with you.”  “I think I'm having a heart attack,” your breath hitches, and you hold yourself up with a hand pressed to the stall door, still standing bent over like she had suggested earlier.  “Okay, tell me your symptoms, and I'll look it up. I'm not gonna call an ambulance if it's not real,” she replies, and you hate that you love her for being so pragmatic. “I can't breathe, and my chest feels narrow and at the same time as if it's about to burst and I wanna rip his head off,” you cry out.  “Yeah, no, WebMD says- Actually, you're probably right, it's probably just a heart attack,” your best friend doubles down quickly. Lifting your head you unlock the door and step out, snatching the phone from her hands to read the screen.  “What the fuck does WebMD know about heartache? How am I supposed to even have gotten that? I don't even like anyone. Especially not Rafe Cameron!” you sneer.  “Okay, let's just calm down and then go back out there and not make a scene. You think we can do that?” Claire slowly pulls her phone out of your claws, and you glare at yourself in the mirror.  “Of course we can.” It takes you a second to switch up your face, back to smiling and pretending like your life was just as good as everyone thought it to be. “Who cares about some small town asshole, right?”

You manage to spend the rest of the night without much drama, always making sure to not be close enough to him so he couldn't share another look with you or even get close enough to pull you away. 

And when you get home you pull off your heels and throw them to the side while stepping out of the elevator.  It takes some time to peel yourself out of the outfit you had forced yourself into, and even longer to free your hair from all the fixing gel the stylist had put in it.  In the end you find yourself curled up on your couch, sweats on and a blanket drawn over you while eating ice cream and watching your favorite movie, just to make it easier on your heart. 

You really want to avoid going to the office the next day, but after your dad announced to open another office down in Florida, you didn't expect him to put so much of the work on you to make up for it.  That's how you find yourself buried in paperwork and working through the night, making it 4am when you finally get back home.  And you're exhausted, drained and moody and not at all able to rejoice. The job you once loved is reduced to a dull day to day bullshit that you can only imagine being the worst you have ever felt. And all of it was because of him. 

“You need to look at the Cameron account. He says we gave him a bad deal. Fix it,” your dad orders the next day, and you grit your teeth, but you can't just not do it. This was professional, nothing personal should've ever gotten in the way of that. “I'll fly down next thing tomorrow morning,” you tell him and hang up the phone. But getting back to the paperwork seems impossible. 

The jet lands and you smell the salty air, so clean compared to New York.  “Do you want to go to the hotel to freshen up first, miss?” your driver asks.  “No, take me to the office. I want to be off this island again, as fast as possible.” 

“Mr. Cameron isn't available right now,” his assistant tells you and you scoff.  “He’s not getting a better deal unless he gets his ass over here in the next five minutes. Do you understand that?” you stare her down, and she nods before getting on the phone.  “He's on his way, Miss,” she says shyly after hanging up, and you smile at her. “Thank you.” 

“Didn't think you'd actually come down here for it,” Rafe mocks a laugh as he walks into the building, pulling his glasses off.  “I take my job rather seriously, Mr. Cameron.” You look him up and down, there is no mistaking. He had been out golfing.  “Let's go to my office,” he starts walking, and you follow, clenching your jaw because your eyes keep darting down to his ass, that looks so delicious in the tight pants. 

“What's the issue with the contract?” you ask flatly, whilst taking the seat opposite of him.  “Oh, there's no issue with the contract. Not that I don't think it's a perfect contract, but it's giving good enough profit on my end, so I shouldn't care too much about it,” he waves it off and you can feel your blood boiling.  “Why did you make me fly all the way down here for nothing!” You spit out and stand, harshly pushing your chair back as you do.  “That's it, that's the issue. There's nowhere in there where it says ‘Miss y/l/n has to come and check in on Mr. Cameron every once a month.’ We missed that little line, I'm afraid,” he's cocky. Too cocky. And for once you don't find it charming.  “I'm your boss, remember?” Your eyes narrow and he smirks deeply.  “You wouldn't be if I dropped you. I can always just do that. Unless you don't want me to. We wouldn't wanna disappoint daddy, right?” he mocks and you swallow hard. But he's bluffing, he has to be.  “He'll understand after I tell him how you took advantage of me. Two can play this game, Rafe,” you say his name with so much disgust in your voice that he's pretending to be offended by it.  “If anything, you were the one taking advantage of me. I mean, you are my superior after all. And I'm just a young man, who lost his father and is struggling to keep his company afloat.”  “You're a real asshole, you know that?”  “Been told before,” he grins. 

“What do you really want?” you finally cave and ask the question that had been lying on your tongue since landing on the island.  “You,” he looks at you, no hint of a lie in his eyes.  “I don't want you, though,” you lie nonchalantly. But your heart is racing, and the heat has been puddling in your pants for some time.  “Why not?”  “I don't need to give a reason for that. At least I didn't go around hiring escorts or whatever for events that no one even wanted me to be at,” you huff.  “Your dad invited me personally. He called, telling me about how much of a Debbie Downer you are. He actually tried to apologize for your behavior that day,” Rafe laughs and your eye starts twitching, nostrils flaring and jaw clenching in anger.  “Listen, I know it's partially my fault, but I was the only one there who was actually prepared to teach you a lesson. I don't know if you've learned it yet, but I'd be more than happy to give you a refresher on it.”  “You're fucked in the head, Rafe,” you mutter before going to walk out.  “Yeah, ‘cause I'm the one with the unresolved issues here,” he calls after you as you storm out. 

You know you can't go home already, it'd be too suspicious, so you take the room at the dumb hotel and at least try to relax a little. 

The next morning your dad calls just to tell you to check out on the properties, make sure that Rafe wasn't selling undervalue.  You make your way to the construction sites, your jeans and skimpy shirt are the only thing covering your body as you fight the heat.  “The best Italian marble, Miss,” the site manager tells you while walking you through what would later be the master-bathroom.  “Looks good. Will you be able to stick to the schedule?” you ask and hear a familiar laugh behind you.  “Of course they will, we've got only the best men down here, Miss.” Rafe walks over and you roll your eyes.  “I care about numbers and about making my clients happy. The rest is not on my level of expertise, especially the quality of men down here,” you tell him before looking back at the manager. “Thank you so much for the tour.” 

You turn in your heels and walk out to what will one day be a beautiful garden. “Walk with me, Cameron.”  “Are you suddenly interested again, or?”  “Keep it in your pants, asshole. No, and I'll never be ever again.”  “You say that now,” he smirks, and you roll your eyes again.  “I'm not a puppet for anyone. Not for my dad, and especially not for you. Do you understand?” you urge, and he runs his hand over the light stubble on his chin.  “I was just like that, then my shit father died and some therapy later, and now we're better than ever.”  “You're wrong. I'm not like you, and I'll never be. Wanna know why?” you lean in and he swallows.  “Pretty sure you're about to tell me, sugar.”  “Because I actually chose this life because I wanted it, not because I felt guilty or like I needed some praise. My life is perfect as is. Understood?”  “Sure you are,” he laughs.  “I am!”  Rafe leans in and whispers, “is that what you tell yourself, late at night when you can't cum unless you think of me. The way I made you beg, and you could only finish ‘cause I let you. Because at the end of the day, you'll always be my good girl.”  You push him away from you, watching him stumble backwards, before stomping back to the house, through it and getting into your car. 

You can't help it, it feels like he's jinxed you. And when you're back at the hotel and try to get off, you once again can't. It's frustrating to say the least and the worst part of it is that he knows, and you don't know how he found out, but it's too late for that. 

You didn't intend to find yourself knocking on his door. But here you are, standing in your sweats and hoodie, hammering on the windowpane until you can see him run down the stairs, and you wrap your arms around yourself.  “What are you doing here?” Rafe asks but lets you in, anyway.  “I had a nice life. I was content with it all. I was happy. I could go to clubs and hook up in a dirty bathroom and get off whenever I liked. I was free!” you yell at him, but it's hard to stay focused the way he's standing in front of you. Bare chest and gray sweatpants that never could've tried to hide the outline of his massive dick even if he had wanted to.  “I understand,” he tries his best to not smile as he wets his lips.  “You owe me one. That's for fucking sure. So, I came to cash it in so we can go back to pretending neither of us exist or have any interest in each other in any way. Ever. Good?” you tilt your head to the side before storming past him upstairs into his bedroom.  “That's a really bad idea!” Rafe calls after you, but he's also not actively stopping you. And when you open the door to his bedroom you know why. Or better who. 

“Are you coming back to bed?” His assistant is lying there, face pressed into his pillow and completely naked.  “Oh, you gotta be fucking kidding me,” you huff a laugh, pushing past him just as he made it up the stairs.  “Y/n, I can explain,” he tries, but you're filled with rage.  “Why would you need to explain anything? You're free to do what you like, or in this case who. I just don't know if HR would like to know about this arrangement,” you scream, not giving a single fuck about the girl.  “We don't have HR,” Rafe reminds you.  “Fine. You're fired.” Your voice has reached a pitch that you had never heard of yourself before and breathing got harder by the second.  “You can't fire me.” “I can do whatever the fuck I want, Rafe! I can do anything I want!” ‘Apart from getting what I want, what I need,’ you think, but you don't tell him that.  “I would've kicked her out if I'd known,” he tries to console you while following you back downstairs.  “Oh, that's really soothing. Thank you, Rafe,” you scoff.  “You're acting a little crazy right now, sugar.”  “Says the guy who made up an emergency, so I would have to come down here in the hopes that I'd jump his bones? And the fact that it would've nearly worked if you weren't so fucking selfish. You're such a selfish asshole!” You don't even realize that you're crying until you rip the door open and the cold wind makes your teary face feel frozen.  “And you're a bitch,” he snaps back, finally actually fighting.  “You left without saying goodbye!”  “You made me sleep on the fucking couch!”  “I should've kicked you out on the street!”  “Why the fuck are you suddenly pretending to care so much about what I think or do? I'm not even your type, remember?” he sneers and your walls, the perfectly built walls inside of you start crumbling. 

“I don't have a fucking type, Rafe! I don't get to have a type! I get to take any hot guy that thinks it'd be fun to fuck a fat chick, because they are high or have to get a dare out of the way. And you don't get to hurt me. You don't get to tell me how to feel about myself. Do you get that? This is my game, I'm the queen, and I thought that maybe, just maybe, you could be different. But you're not. You're just who I thought you'd be. No disappointment there.” Your rant calms you down a bit, and you get quieter with each sentence. “I'm going home. Don't even think about ever stepping foot into my city again.” 

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part 4

[cosmicalily]

my japanese kpop-stan mother gives kpop idols roles in her life (if she knew them) - SKZ, BTS, TXT and ENHYPEN

tagging @thevampywolf since she loves my mother and her iconic content (and my mum loves her too, they're like the same person at times welp)

my mum and dad are currently beefing about seungmin and jeongin bc both of them like to annoy each other so vote here on opinions and to hear the full story since it's fun

SKZ

chris - "my client." (for context, she's a psychologist, and she likes to assess kpop idols for fun)

minho - "he would have been my boyfriend, but i wouldn't marry him, because we're too similar, and we'd have too many cats and be a bit crazy."

changbin - "my workout buddy." (they're both gym rats)

hyunjin - "a popular boy in high school that i did a group assignment with."

jisung - "my best friend." (she thinks he's funny)

felix - "i probably would've had a crush on him when i was junior high school."

seungmin - "a guy i hated in high school." (mum's very minho coded, and so she'd probably beef with him the way minho does, so sorta affectionately)

jeongin - "my son in law." (she wants me to marry him, like she straight up told me she won't let me marry any other boy.)

TXT

yeonjun - "the nephew of a twin i didn't know i had." (she's getting a little too creative with these and this one made me snort)

soobin - "son in law."

beomgyu - "my best friend." (i'm actually scared of the chaos that would ensue)

taehyun - "school captain that i hated." (she actually loves taehyun and seungmin, but she thinks she wouldn't get on with them when she was young since she was very sassy and probably would clash personalities or get annoyed lmao)

huening kai - "my son." (he's her child in her opinion, and he reminds her of my little brother so she sees him as a son)

ENHYPEN

heeseung - "he would've been my boyfriend in high school." (duolingo has another person to battle here, although she says she wouldn't marry him or minho, because she's already married to my dad, which is cute lmao)

jay - "classmate in uni."

jake - "my neighbour's son who i didn't hang out with much." (i swear she's thought about these answers before sjgdhs)

sunghoon - "classmate."

sunoo - "my little brother." (this was cute, she has a very soft spot for him and i can see her protecting him and also fighting with him since they're both sassy)

jungwon - "a kid i made cry in primary school." (i'm literally WHEEZING)

niki - "my son." (he's a japanese boy, so of course he's close to her heart.)

BTS

jin - "the rich neighbour's son i hated." (the way she's beefing with so many idols i'm CRYING)

yoongi - "my friend in high school." (they'd get along well, i can see that)

namjoon - "a weird guy in my university class who liked making friends and tried to talk to me too much." (THE DETAIL HELP)

hoseok - "my best friend." (she once dreamt about him working in a theme park as one of those dress up characters lmao. him, gyu and hannie and her would be a chaotic and unstoppable team)

jimin - "my gay friend." (i asked her why she thought this, and she said he reminds her of me, and since i'm bi, she just decided that was the defining factor)

taehyung - "my brother." (she loves him, his music and his dog, he's her bias and i think he belongs in the 'has a soft spot for' category with jeongin, sunoo, huening kai, soobin and niki)

jungkook - "a kid who had a crush on me in junior high school." (i asked her if she liked him back, and she said even if she did, she would avoid him, since he'd be annoying. i think her reference for this was the seven music video and since then her view's been tainted)

my mother is such an icon for this welp, she was just like "you know let me give skz roles in my life," and then it turned into this

[conanssummerchild]

my own ranking of every rick and morty episode, inspired by the lovely @fandomwe1rd0 :3

sorry this is a bit scattered, the random quotes are just lines that i liked/found funny. i had to shorten all my reasonings by a fuck ton bcs i was just going on forever lmao, so if some things feel kinda cut off, that's why.

i binged all of rick and morty in like a week to make this, just to make sure the ranking was fully accurate to me and it took me way to long but i'm finally done !!

btw this isnt a ranking of which episodes are objectively the best, its very biased and just my personal opinions, im aware some epsiodes definitely shouldnt be as high as they are but a lot of them are just my comfort episodes 🤷

f tier: episodes i actively dislike, have little to no redeeming qualities.

71. rickdependance spray: audibly said "oh, fuck no." when i realised this was next. the rest of weird-ish episodes have some redeeming points but this one just has no plot relevance and isnt very funny.

70. raising gazorpazorp: main reason i dislike this episode is the end credit, it reminds me of when i was listening to family line and my dad insinuated conan was making it up and that if i got famous i'd do the same, like, no, if i talk abt what a shitty dad you are its bcs you were a shitty dad, do better. anyway i just thought it was an unfunny joke. due to daddy issues. also its just a boring episode.

69. a rickconvenient mort: summer and rick's storyline was ok but not enough to make up for how much i hate planetina. i liked beth in this episode. rick and summer's dynamic was nice too, but unhealthy.

e tier: episodes i don't dislike, just find boring/have bad elements but more redeeming qualities.

68. m. night shaym-aliens!: the little crystal wrestle was adorable. other than that not a super memorable episode.

67. rise of the numbericons: the movie: i didn't hate it but compared to the rest of s7 it was pretty weak. i think mr goldenfold is funny, but not enough to get his own episode. it would've been more entertaining if rick was in it lets be real, i missed him.

66. interdimensional cable 2: tempting fate: i care very little about jerry's penis. the interdimensional cable was good as usual though.

65. how poopy got his poop back: fine episode, not my fav. i liked seeing bp and squanchy again.

64. edge of tomorty: rick die rickpeat: "Damn, Morty, you're bad at maths, but I'm giving you an a-plus in confidence!" an okay episode.

63. rick: a mort well lived: pretty weak episode to follow solaricks. summer's die hard was good. some cool emotional components.

62. rattlestar ricklactia: "Hey, Morty, listen. I can tell you're pretty upset about the whole snake encounter thing, so I'll tell you what. I'm just gonna go ahead and avoid you for the rest of the day." rnm were kind of cute at the end. yk, until rick punched morty in the face :/.

61. the jerrick trap: sorry ik a lot of ppl love this episode but tho burger & fries were cute characters its not all that for me. memory rick's return, however, was all that. i love him.

60. childrick of mort: "Oh my god, grandpa, you fuck boy." rick being a space nerd <3. loved to see more of beth and rick together but other than that this episode was kinda mid.

59. amortycan grickfitti: honestly made me feel bad for jerry which isnt easy, i sort of liked rick here, he seemed reluctant to let the hell demons make fun of jerry, he still did, but even apologised with only a little prompting. can't say the same for beth. summer and morty were sweet in this episode, i wish we would get more of them.

58. rickmancing the stone: "I don't know why I'm crying." "Well... try crying 15% less?" not bad, i liked the emotional components.

57. mortynight run: again, not super memorable to me. the roy montage was good. You kind of wasted your 30's, though, with that whole birdwatching phase." the animation for the song was great.

d tier: mostly okay to good episodes with minor faults that i can look past in the general scheme of the episode.

56. one crew over the crewcoo's morty: fucked up what rick did to morty. and to mr pb, his life went to shit after this, bcs of rick.

55. night family: had some great moments, but wasnt my fav.

54. anatomy park: loved dr bloom, john oliver voiced him perfectly.

53. lawnmower dog: sweet scenes between rnm. liked the dream inceptor, loved scary terry, snuffles was good too but not as much.

52. claw and hoarder: special ricktims morty: "Are you gonna slay it?" "First off, i always slay it, queen. Secondly, yes." summer being on morty's side was nice. while the soul orgy was a bit weird, the rest of this episode was pretty entertaining which is why its higher up, sorry.

51. bethic twinstinct: jerry saying he would khs, not cool jerry fuck you. "You ladies discuss responsibility while i get stoned and play video games with your kids." the end 💀 i felt bad but it was funny lol.

50. final desmitation: maybe my fav ep of jerry and rick's relationship. i liked seeing rick disapprove of them making fun of jerry, had some funny moments and i even liked jerry here.

49. a rick in king mortur's mort: not the best but i enjoyed rickbot being nice to morty. also this episode sets up for rmrm which i love.

48. promortyus: morty's little yee-haw 😭. and their conversation, so sweet. taking the adderall line as an adhd rick confirmation. "It is my thing. Just like yours is dying alone," get his ass. i feel like the romance couldve been a compelling story if the hosts werent rnm.

47. the whirly dirly conspiracy: rick's take on jerry was accurate. "But no, like father like goddamn daughter! You wanna be like Rick? Congratulations, you're just as arrogant and just as irresponsible!" morty ate. i prefered summer and beths storyline to rick and jerry's.

c tier: solid, episodes, some have a few faults but theyre small

46. mort: ragnarick: it's so high up because i found rick to be likeable and liked his dynamic with morty. ricks clone was cute too.

45. look who's purging now: "Screw you, Rick! I'll purge you too, you old rickety piece of crap!" rnm's storyline was great, i liked arthrisha.

44. the ricks must be crazy: "I dropped out of school. It's not a place for smart people." "Ohhhh, snap!" lmao literally my reaction. "Ooh. Wow. Gaaay!" "That is pretty gay." not much more to say, good ep.

43. never ricking morty: rnm were sweet in this ep. the gay ass song with rick and bp. "Rick are you– do you need to go to the hospital?" the forehead kiss was sweet. (we're ignoring "Lips if you want.")

42. mort dinner rick andre: mr nimbus is a great character. the wine storyline was a bit boring. "I havent been to a full week of school in years! I don't know shit!" love the peek at rick's backstory too.

41. rick potion #9: important lore episode. some funny bits. morty was a little creepy in this one. i love jerry primes character development. first look on down from the bridge moment !!

40. forgetting sarick mortshall: "What are you, eight? Is this macaroni art? You expect me to believe you built this because you don't care?" liked ricks storyline and he actually does seem to be showing minor development. the end song was good. liked garbage goober's lore.

39. morty's mindblowers: rick removing whatever memories he wanted was fucked up. rick saying granite instead of granted will always be funny. also him losing in chackers and skiing into a tree.

38. mortyplicity: entertaining enough if a little convoluted, i liked it though. sweet moment between the decoy family, shame they died.

b tier: good to great episodes.

37. big trouble in little sanchez: actually liked jerry and beths storyline in this one. tiny riiick !! "old rick! ruining everything!" good episode.

36. pilot: good intro, sets the tone. rick is such a dick (affectionate). rnm's dynamic !! the animation is great. overall great episode.

35. pickle rick: ik its a overrated but i think its good. hes pickle riiiick. dr wong's speech to rick was actually really good and accurate.

34. meeseeks and destroy: rick was such a whiny bitch this episode (affectionate), up until the mr jellybean stuff, which i liked bcs it was handled well by the writers and rick was actually very sweet.

33. rick and morty's thanksploitation spectacular: president curtis' alcoholic sci-fi boyfriend is probably my favourite way rick has been refered to in the show LOL. overall i enjoyed this episode.

32. something ricked this way comes: idc now but, the first time watching rick's r slur speech it was obnoxious and offputting. summer and rick were great, i adore their dynamic, love summer and rick episodes, but idrc for jerry's storyline, he bores me so bad.

31. full meta jackrick: "Rick can't change, Morty. Change is what you might call his Kryptonite." there were a lot of things i liked abt this ep.

30. vindicators 3: the return of worldender: very good episode. forever a believer that the ride was for morty and rick just chickened out.

29. a rickle in time: the va for the testicle monster was great. beth and jerry's storyline also wasn't bad. rick jumping into the hole and sacrificing his life for morty, im sobbing. great episode.

28. the vat of acid episode: morty trying to make rick feel better about not being able to make the thing was very sweet. morty's relationship with that girl was adorable, so sad it was erased by jerry's dumb ass /lh. fuck rick in this episode. the end was funny.

27. rixty minutes: while i do love interdimensional cable this episode would've been lower if it wasn't for all the character moments. "You can't leave, you're 17." "Yeah, and I'm not pregnant. I'm gonna have better judgement than you guys had at my age." loved summer getting screentime. beth and jerry's moment was quite sweet.

26. ricksy business: bp and squanchy !!! >:) bp coming through with the deep speech. the montage of rick morty and summer at the end is so adorable i love them sm <3. "I love my grandkids." "Aw :)." "Psych, just kidding, my new catchphrase is i dont give a fuuuck!"

25. get schwifty: first president curtis episode !! i love him. love morty and bp interactions haha. "In bird culture, this is considered a dick move." "It is random debris. I found it in my carpet. I don't know what humans eat." crying i love him sm. one of my personal favs lol :).

24. juricksick mort: tbh i mostly like this ep bcs of "You pompous autistic cadaver!" but there was other good moments and it was entertaining. rick was funny and likeable and very much a disaster of a human being, as i was promised when i started watching rnm.

23. star mort rickturn of the jerri: space beth !! "You cosplay as your shitty father in his 30's." "Its funny. I always wondered who would win if we ever fought." "Then you were always a bad friend." :(. "Holy shit, I'm a terrible father." i forgot how good this episode was, very angsty.

22. total rickall: genuinely love this episode. KEITH DAVID >:D. rick's "weird made-up sounding catchphrases" compilation is one of my fav moments in the show lol, everyone looks so concerned 💀.

21. rest and ricklaxation: "Grandpa's here." SOBBING. "Because you kept drunk-dialing me and crying about it!" "I wasn't crying!" loved jessica and ricks dynamic lol. great episode.

20. rickfending your mort: great follow up to unmortricken, i like that rick doesnt just go back to normal and we see it takes a while and even then its only bcs morty steps in. morty making up titles for all their adventures is adorable. great sweet scenes between rnm.

19. the rickchurian mortydate: autistic rick !! also minecraft. the president is such a pathetic loser lol <3. i loved rick and morty being on the same wavelength in this episode. the ending was good.

18. wet kuat amortycan summer: summer-centric episode !! rick was likeable, liked seeing him clumsy getting his grove back. him saying summer reminds him of diane again, he's getting so much more open, im so proud, can you imagine s3 rick being sincere like that?

17. close rickcounters of the rick kind: best s1 episode, love citadel episodes. evil morty !!!!! some funny moments. "You're crying? Over a Morty?" sobbing. "Yeah, but wheres the transmitter?" and the evil morty song oh god, best scene ever fr. i love my evil guy :3.

s tier: outstanding episodes, the 16 best imo.

16. that's amorte: FANTASTIC episode, the end montage is the only part of any rnm episode thats made me cry a little, it would be higher up but i have some personal favs which i put higher. i feel like this episode was very classic rnm after having them separated half of s7.

15. the old man and the seat: jerry and morty's dynamic is pretty funny. tony and rick's storyline was fantastic. some pretty angsty stuff. "The saaaddest piece of garbage in the entire cosmos."

14. the abc's of beth: rick and beth episode !! rick saying that an adventure clearly needs morty in it, aw. i did not care about jerry's storyline at all. beth had no right being so relatable in this ep.

13. ricktional mortpoon's rickmas mortcation: rick relapsing into finding prime !! "I'm not touching that thing. I'll get neurotypical cooties." ok, so ik a lot of ppl don't like the speech rick said to morty, but i do, he was going through a LOT, this clearly took him quite a few steps back in development and healing, i think it was less bad than a lot of other things he's done and way more justified.

12. fear no mort: loved morty getting his time to shine, LOVED diane and rick. morty realising rick wasn't in the hole has to be one of the best moments in the show. rick not going in the hole at the end bcs morty told him not to, hope some day he'll get to the point of doing things for morty in front of him so he can realise how much he cares.

11. analyze piss: look at rick asking dr wong for advice. him relating to piss master :(. also i read a phenomenal fic abt this ep (tw sh) (link).

10. air force wong: UNITY RETURNS! Rick was kinda childish in this episode but i feel like it was justified, he wasn't being a dick just bcs, he was hurting, and he even kinda apologised to summer, hes trying. rick going to drink with the president instead of being alone.

9. the rickshank rickdemption: RICK PRIME. "That, diane, is the last great idea that will ever be had in this garage." :((((. ricks backstory. "he's not a villan, summer, but he shouldn't be ur hero." fantastic ep.

8. rickmurai jack: love two crows rick. rick's full "crybaby" backstory !! "Now you're evil morty, too. sooner or later we all are. on this side of the curve." THE END OH GOD. THE MUSIC. EVIL MORTY LETTING OUT A SIGH OF RELIEF. INSANE finale.

7. gotron jerrysis rickvangelion: rick is so spectacularly autistic in this one. i like how he doesnt silly hyperfixtate, he full on unhealthy hyperfixtates. i practically know this ep off by heart. comfort ep fr.

6. rickternal friendshine of the spotless mort: im not sorry for putting this up so high, i love this ep so fucking much. memory rick is so silly i love him sm. "You were a good friend, Rick. Goodbye." the blood ridge confession makes me FERAL. i can quote it word for word.

5. the wedding squanchers: THIS EPISODE. rick watching bp die in front of him. rick turning himself in :(. "everyone i know goes away in the end." the music was so good. "he's not coming back, is he?"

4. the ricklantis mixup: best citadel ep, fight me. j-22 trying to save simple rick only to suffer the same fate :(. slick jumping into the wishing portal. the ending was phenomenal, every single storyline was amazing and important. and evil morty returns.

3. auto erotic assimilation: love unity and ricks dynamic. blim blam humbling beth and jerry. jerry using the weed whacker right in front of the garage where rick just attempted. and no one notices. bc that's how it is. "do you feel it?" is a great song. maybe this ep is higher than it should be but it's my comfort ep, it means so much to me.

2. solaricks: first time we get to see dimension c-137 out of a flashback !! "I hope Summer knows what happens to the people you love!" "Oh, am I cool enough for you now? Well, that was easy. It only cost me fucking everything." "I don't know him. You're my grandpa, rick." rip jerry prime, my fav jerry. THIS EPISODE IS PHENOMENAL.

1. unmortricken: ok anyone who knows me knows this is my fav ep bcs i never stfu abt it. i mean, evil morty backstory, rick beating prime to death, GOD. ian cardoni was COOKING with the delivery of those lines, and the lines were fantastic. some good rnm moments. the angst is so good. "How's it feel? Better? No? Exactly the same? Yeah, it always does." best look on down from the bridge moment.

i keep going over this a million times just to make sure everything is perfect but idk, some episodes are maybe interchangeable, im just going to post it bcs its been rotting in my drafts for quite a while now, everyone promise you dont hate me for putting an episode 1 slot too high or low /j

and sorry for all the jerry hate in this post, i dont hate him i just find him boring, so eps where he's the centre tend to be lower on the list.

[mrs-nate-humphrey]

Okay wait… dan & milo & ‘i made out with two chicks once in college.’

this got... long. i was like "oh it'll be just 2 paragraphs 300 words" but i forgot that milo is my achilles heel sdkslhgfkh. it's under a read more :3

"Dad, they're not..." Milo frowned. Shifted his hands around. "I'm not cheating on Gabrielle with Jonathan."

Dan thinks back to their own high school and college and young adult years, thinks of all the mistakes they've made. Cheating was something their friend group had become desensitized to doing to each other, despite how much it hurt to be on the receiving end. They'd sworn to be a better person with Milo, which is why they were here. Staging an intervention after they caught their kid kissing some random boy despite being in a long term relationship with that girl from his art elective, Gabrielle.

Dan liked Gabrielle. She was creative and rebellious and intelligent, perpetually reading scientific articles on her iPad, smoking up with Milo when she thought Dan wasn't looking. She reminded them a lot of Vanessa, but she had Nate's easygoing attitude - sometimes Dan thought if the two of them ever had a kid, their kid would've been just like Gabrielle.

"Okay, explain what I saw then," Dan says to Milo. Firm, but not angry. They'll be damned if they treat Milo how Rufus treated Jenny.

"Dad, I'm... we're..." Milo took a deep sigh. As if he was afraid. "Gabi and I are both dating Jonathan, too. We're polyamorous."

There were a million ways Dan could've imagined the situation playing out, but not like this. Never like this. They look at Milo, and they think about Blair and Nate's sage advice about threesomes. Then they think about Blair's messy break-up with Chuck and Nate's equally messy break-up with Chuck. They think about Vanessa and Olivia and how they're engaged to each other, and how Dan doesn't mind anymore, doesn't feel hurt or left out, but when they were younger, it'd felt like there was something about Dan that made them unlovable. It'd hurt.

"I'm sorry if you have a problem with it," Milo says, obstinate, jutting his chin out and scowling. He is so much like Jenny sometimes that it stuns Dan that there's no blood relation. Milo is a Humphrey through and through, in all the ways that matter.

Milo at seventeen is also a lot more emotionally mature and responsible than Dan or any of their friends had been at seventeen.

"I don't have a problem with it," Dan says. And then, because they don't know what else to say, "‘I made out with two chicks once in college."

"That is not even remotely the same thing, oh my god!" Milo exclaims, but he looks less tense-angry-scared, so Dan considers it a win.

"I had two girlfriends for maybe a week? Then they both broke up with me to be with each other," Dan says. Saying more wouldn't be right, given that the kid has a decent relationship with his Aunt Vanessa and her fiancee Olivia. "All my friends at the time told me polyamory was bound to fail. That it was a stupid choice."

Milo looks upset now, relief crumbling into the face of someone who is likely going to cry but trying to suppress it.

"That's not what I"m going to tell you, however," Dan says. "More people involved means more feelings can get hurt. But it also means that you can experience more - and not necessarily negatives. To love and be loved by two people is a wonderful thing, but to break two people's hearts or have your heart broken twice is sad and painful. All I can say is... treat each other with care, all three of you. And that I'm sorry I assumed you were cheating, when I've only seen you treat Gabi with respect. Thank you for telling me despite that."

Milo leans forward, and Dan's arms open, letting their kid fall into the embrace. They ignore Milo's small sniffles, the way he's shaking. He must've been really scared.

Dan wonders at themself. At what they should've done differently, to make it easier for Milo.

"I'm proud of you, kid," they say, and Milo clutches tighter, holds onto Dan like he never wants to let them go.

[two-white-butterflies]

WAITING FOR A BUS

Pairings: Aemond Targaryen x Reader, Daemon Targaryen x Reader (MODERN)

Description: A new promotion at work prompts you to move into a small modest town with your boyfriend, Aemond Targaryen. There you meet a few friendly faces. It seems like life is going where it's supposed to. That is until you meet your new boss, Daemon Targaryen, who is your boyfriend's estranged uncle.

It doesn't help with the fact that you've been having dreams about him since birth.

masterlist | chapter twenty-one

Black was your husband's favorite shade - he wore it everywhere, from galas to charity events. Black was the color that reminded you of home - but you dreaded seeing it know.

"I offer my condolences," your small family walked towards the altar where Aegon was nearing Alicent's casket. "The doctor said she was living on borrowed time, we were all expecting it." Aegon replied with a bitter chuckle, staring at his mother's closed casket.

It wasn't his first funeral - the mother of his twins died the same way too. Aegon couldn't stand staring at his mother's dead body, with closed eyes and skin hardened from chemicals. "Who would've thought that she'd live five-years after her expected diagnosis?" he added, turning slowly to face you.

His eyes softened at the sight of Maekar. He had a soft spot for children. "Alicent was a radiant soul - she commanded respect wherever she went." Daemon compliments, his hands were wrapped around the small of your back - protecting you from the vipers.

"That I agree upon. Mom was scary - we all loved her for that." Aegon smiled gently walking away from the casket. You all walk beside him, finding your spot in one of the pews. "She died at the right time - she was in peace, the doctors told us that she didn't feel any pain." he informed and hum exits your lips.

"It's nice to hear that." you add with a deep breath. There were only a few guests occupying the chairs - it was too early in the morning for them to arrive just yet. Aegon leans on his chair, waving at his daughter, Jaehaera, who was playing outside of the clubhouse.

"We should stop talking about her - she doesn't like being spoken behind her back." he joked while squeezing Maekar's cheeks gently.

Maekar cooed at the touch of his cousin. Aegon's fingers were soft, cold and relaxing for the baby boy.

"By the gods, (Your name) he looks like you." he remarked with a slight chuckle. "Daemon swears different," you smile. Daemon's hands slither towards your own, entangling it with his comforting touch.

"Look at him properly, Egg. Maekar is a real Targaryen." he argued while combing through his son's hair.

"His hair, yeah - but look at his face." Aegon pointed out, earning an eye-roll from his uncle.

THE EULOGIES : Rhaenyra Strong

Rhaenyra steps into the podium, her eyes were wet with tears and with a heaving breath - she opens her mouth.

"Alicent was my childhood friend. She was eight years older than me. She was one of those girls that would braid your hair or help your mom around the house. She was my babysitter - and it was weird for her to marry my dad at first." she joked, earning a small laugh from the crowd.

"Our family didn't welcome her with open arms but slowly and surely she made her way into our hearts." she touched her chest, not bothering to wipe the tears that were flowing out of her eyes. "She was an educated woman who spent her life attending charity events, helping the poor and needy - and heaven is lucky to gain such an angel." she praised, looking at the casket behind her for a second.

"Wherever she is now - I'm sure that she's happy, and in peace."

THE EULOGIES: Helaena Targaryen

Helaena wasn't crying, her eyes weren't cloudy with mist, and her clothes weren't in mourning. But deep inside her heart - she was heaving for the loss of her mother.

"I can't remember my father, I was born a year before he died - and ever since I could remember ... my mother my only parent. She was the one who provided and took care of us." she praised with a shuddering breath. She didn't dare shed any tears.

"I remember going to college - and I didn't know what course I was going to take. I knew that everyone wanted me to follow my father's footsteps and to become an Engineer - but my mother knew better." she smiled, remembering the memory in clear color.

In all of the siblings - she was most closest to Alicent. She was the one who took care of her mother - changing her IV drip, and helping her go to the bathroom. She was the one most affected by her death.

"A day before enrollment - she told me that I could be whatever I wanted to be. That my skill in art was something that she was proud of. My mother shaped me, and turned me into the woman I am - now I don't know where to go because she's not walking behind me anymore." Helaena finishes and the tears finally flow out of her eyes.

Harwin walks to the podium, gently escorting his sister-in-law to her seat. Rhaenyra presses a kiss on the top of her head, whispering sweet nothings in an effort to console her.

"Who are these righteous ones? These saints who are in heaven?" Daemon hears the loud voice of Otto Hightower. He was never the one to listen during the mass - matter of fact, he was atheist. If the gods were real, they wouldn't allow injustice to happen. God wouldn't allow injustice to persevere around the world.

The Catholics and the religious had their explaination - but he didn't care for them. He was content with his beliefs - and his efforts in becoming a better person. After all, the purpose of religion was to become a better member in society.

He walks towards the garden, past the small fountain that he used to clog with coins. His mind drifts off to his nephew, Aemond, Alicent's favorite child. Cain to Abel. The one who wielded the rock against the world. He sees the boy sitting on one of the benches - and like a grown uncle, he still sees Aemond as a child.

"Aemond." he says firmly, like a man knocking on a little boy's door. "Daemon," the boy turns around - and the eyepatch was no longer in his eye. They were akin to each other - their names were anagram of each other names. Daemon scorns it - but he sees a piece of himself inside Aemond.

"Go away." he added, reminiscent of the conversation they had decades ago, only this time Viserys wasn't present to torment his son physically - but the mental scars remain.

"Why weren't you there?" Daemon asked, circling the man cautiously.

In the back of his mind, he could smell the scent of candy-canes and eggnog. He was transported to the boy's childhood room.

"It's not appropriate for me to be there, I promise you." the boy replied smugly, not willing to let go of his pride just yet.

"It's your mother's funeral - becoming a horrible human being doesn't mean that you're not allowed to be there." the older man replies with the tilt of a hat. "Fuck off." Aemond gritted his teeth. "I've already done what I can - four years in a mental institution and I'm back here." he grumbled, unable to meet his uncle's eyes.

Daemon keeps staring at the man - waiting for him to click and rant. "I fucking regret what I did. Is that what you want to hear?" Aemond raised his voice, clenching his fists and taking deep breaths.

Instead of responding to his nephew, Daemon places his hands behind his back - raising to his full height and feigning ignorance to everything that was happening. "You are welcome inside," he finished while walking away - not wanting to go back to the mass just yet.

Once the eulogies and the second-day mass was over, the family returned home (Harwin and Laenor were left behind in the Clubhouse) to rest and reunite with each other. Visenya took a quick liking to her cousin, always playing with his round cheeks and white hair. "Soft bones, Vissy - please be careful." Rhaenyra warned, already saying 'careful' for the third time in a row. "Kay mama." the girl responded while continuing to touch the baby.

"I'm sorry about Visenya - its her first time seeing a baby." Rhaenyra's eyes softened while attempting to pull her daughter away. You chuckle softly, combing through Maekar's hair.

"It's fine, plus - Maekar hasn't been around another kid too." you confirm hearing the children's laughter radiate through the house. This was your third time inside Alicent's house - your first time without her baking cookies for you.

Aemond stares at the portrait of his father - to be honest, he couldn't remember the story behind the picture. He seemed to be smiling, but the joy wasn't reaching his eyes - his father was carrying him on his back, holding a football and posing for the camera. He was wearing that stupid Casio watch - even the look of the watch brought back memories that he hid long ago.

He remembers being hit on his behind, crying for his mother and his siblings could do nothing but watch. He just wanted to touch his father's watch and he was rewarded with punishment.

"Maybe it's time to make peace with our parents." Aegon cleared his throat leaning on the door-frame. Their parents weren't perfect - but they provided and took care of them. "Father was afraid of going back into poverty - and mother was afraid of him." he explained, remembering their relationship very clearly.

"I can forgive mom, but I'm not forgiving him." Aemond clenched his fist, placing all of the portraits inside a box. "He was a good dad to Rhaenyra - I don't know why he wasn't good to us." Aegon hummed, helping his brother hide all the photographs.

"Because we weren't worth changing for." Aemond laughed darkly, closing the box in his hands. "He never loved us, that's for sure - but mom did. Mom loved us with all her heart." he mused.

It was the last day of the funeral - Alicent's body was lowered into the ground and the crowd was beginning to disperse. The only ones left behind were Daemon and Aemond. "I hope that you'll be okay after this." the older man hummed, holding an umbrella to protect him from the sun (a habit he picked up while being in an Asian country.)

"You're an orphan now - Aemond. There's some things you need to let go." Daemon advised, maintaining his distance. He loathed the man, hated him with all of his soul - but Aemond was still his family, the blood of his blood, the child he comforted once upon a time. Monsters weren't born, they were made.

He holds out a small box. The world 'CASIO' was spelled in bold letters. The box was dusty - filled with cobwebs, but Aemond knew what it was. "I hope that you're able to break free from our generational chains - the sins of our past. (Your name) has not forgiven you, and she never will - I hope that you can forgive yourself." he added, walking closer to the boy.

Daemon wonders if there was something he could've done to prevent Aemond's decline. He wonders if he should've stopped his brother from hurting the little boy. He thinks about the life they could've had - the life the boy could've had.

He hands the watch to Aemond.

And with a last breath, he bids his silent farewell.

He's got a lot to live without. As he never met, what could've been Aemond.

Will he forgive himself? Or will the cycle repeat again?

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[justmenoworries]

My unorganized thoughts about Hazbin finale because I am feeling all the feelings.

Positives

The songs? Absolute bangers. Both of them. The Chaggie "More Than Anything" reprise got spoiled for me but I still loved it. We stan a supportive couple ready to go to war together. The reprise for "Happy Day in Hell" at the end was a nice touch. Loved that it was Lucifer who picked up the slack to cheer up Charlie. Mans finally becoming the dad who stepped up.

The battle as a whole was awesome. Hot take, but if Adam didn't have the spawn infinite enemies cheat all bad guy armies seem to have in these situations, the Hotel definitely would've won.

I'll admit, I wasn't too jazzed about Sir Pentious replacing Mimzy in the main cast but he kind of redeemed (lol) himself for me this episode. Bro was both one of the funniest and most heartwarming characters in the finale get yourself a man who can do both. The unholy (lol) noises I made when he showed up as a redeemed soul in Heaven. Good for him! He deserves the best. Also I find Sera's and Emily's reactions to the reveal kind of interesting. Emily is overjoyed seeing that Charlie's idea works, but Sera looks... mortified? Disgusted? Kinda tells us which one of these two really deserves the title of Big Good. Side note, but it's kind of funny how the only physical change a redeemed sinner goes through is that their color scheme is now pastel instead of goth.

ADAM FUCKING DIED YESSIRRRRR! GOOD RIDDANCE BITCH NO ONE WILL MISS YOUUUU (Except for Lute, but no one gives a fuck about what Lute thinks, cry harder hoe)

Charlie's and Lucifer's true formssss! Razzle and Dazzle getting to be badassss! (R.I.P. Dazzle, hope you somehow end up in Heaven too)

Alastor Vs Adam. Cool fight, surprisingly not as one-sided as one might've thought. I mean, Alastor still lost but he lasted a lot longer than most of the others who fought against Adam (Poor Sir Pen)

Vaggie and Lute rematch, I fucking called ittttt!

Seeing everyone gear up and fight for the Hotel was cool, seeing so many Exorcists get axed off was cathartic as fuck.

Lute losing a part of her body because of Vaggie, just like she took a part of Vaggie's body was *chef's kiss*.

Lucifer Vs Adam and Lucifer just... not taking the fight seriously at all until Charlie almost gets hurt. He was really just toying with Adam for the entire first half and when he started getting serious Adam got trashed so fucking quick, I love it.

Charlie fucking shanking Adam and stopping his punch Just Like That. I lover her, she's such a badass. Sure wish we could've seen more of that (foreshadowinggg)

Vox acting as the greek chorus for the events of the episode works surprisingly well. Ngl I thought his constant commentary would get annoying really fast if they kept cutting away from the action just so he can say a funny. But no, they actually managed to time it pretty well. Props to Adam Stein (writer for this episode).

The Negatives (Yes, They Exist)

The other Vees did not need to be here. Seriously, we're starting off with Vox alone in his control room and we could've stayed there. Velvette and Valentino didn't even talk for the majority of the episode. And I'm not a fan of how Val continues to be played for comedy. Unfriendly reminder that this man is a r*pist and an abuser. If you needed a V for the funnies, Velvette and Vox are quite literally right there. (Can you believe Velvette had no lines this episode but fucking Val had both a speaking role and a not insignificant part of the ending song? Weak.) You can still have the ending scene of the Vees hanging out and planning after the aborted Extermination, literally nothing changes if you cut Val and Velvette from the cutaway gags.

Not a fan of how Lucifer stole the spotlight. "But you said you liked the Adam Vs Lucifer fight-" Yeah, I did. Doesn't change that this shouldn't have been Luci's fight, it should have been Charlie's. We've had hints this whole season that Charlie is actually way stronger and wrathful than anyone thinks and that she's actively working to keep up her cheerful and friendly persona. Her stabbing Adam with her trident was a nice start, but after Lute killed Dazzle and seriously endangered Vaggie, this should've been the moment Charlie decided "Alright that's it, no more Miss Nice Girl, I didn't want this to end in bloodshed but these assholes are going down." This should've been the moment where the gloves come off. How much more impactful would it be if Charlie was the one beating down Adam but stopping before killing him? If the show made it clear Charlie could murder this asshole, but she doesn't, because she's still better than he ever will be. What a way to show that Charlie truly does believe in the good in everyone or at least still believes in non-lethal solutions to the conflict between Heaven and Hell! But nope, Charlie gets two badass moments, then is banished to the side-lines and to the role of damsel Lucifer has to save and who has to be the metaphorical angel on Lucifer's shoulder who stops him from offing Adam (for some reason). If we needed to get Lucifer involved, maybe have him show up earlier to help the Hotel but get hurt somehow, forcing and motivating Charlie to step up as the future ruler of Hell. Speaking of-

Why the fuck was Lucifer so late to the fight??? Yeah yeah, I know, depressed shut-in, but in "More Than Anything" he literally calls Charlie "the only thing worth fighting for" in Hell. He knew the Extermination was coming. Yeah, maybe Charlie didn't tell him that the trial in Heaven went south and that Adam's Exorcists were going to target the Hazbin Hotel, but you'd think he'd have noticed something was up??? More importantly, if he really wanted to support Charlie's dream of saving the sinners in Hell, why didn't he take part in the battle from the start??? Why didn't Charlie ask him to fight alongside her??? Yeah, Charlie is reluctant to ask Lucifer for anything because they don't have the best relationship, but we've had an entire fucking episode of them growing closer and Lucifer assuring Charlie he'd help her. And this wasn't just a matter of pride, Charlie's friends and her girlfriend were in danger of getting killed, you're telling me she'd choose her own hang-up over all of them??? "But if Lucifer was there, the fight would've been over too quick-" refer to the previous point. Angels can be hurt and killed by angelic weaponry, there were like over a hundred Exorcists on that battlefield and don't tell me Adam would be above fighting dirty by attacking while Lucifer is distracted. There. Easy way to take Lucifer out of the fight and make way for Charlie.

Not a fan of how Cherri Bomb x Sir Pentious was bullrushed in this last episode. Yeah, we established Pentious likes her, but Cherri had like no interest in him until Angel commented he might have two dicks. Which, I guess her being after a purely physical relationship could work, but we all know that's not what Pentious wants. Their "romance" gives "He Was a Boy She Was a Girl" vibes. Like Velvette and Valentino, nothing in the episode would've been lost if that particular plot-line was dropped.

"The future of Hell belongs to the Vees" Yeah but does it though? Does it? Sorry, but I'm having a hard time taking these three seriously as a threat. Vox got effortlessly trounced by Alastor (and contrary to what the Vees believe he isn't missing, he came back), Velvette talked a big game about fighting the Exorcists but then did absolutely nothing and Val would eat dirt so fast against anyone who can actually fight back. Plus "Overlords hanging by a thread"? Which Overlords, exactly? Alastor? He's not dead and like previously stated, he's not 'missing'. Rosie, Carmilla, Zestial and the rest of the Overlords are just fine, the Extermination was centered around the Hazbin Hotel this time, no other turf even got scratched. "Nature abhors a power vacuum" What power vacuum? Again, no Overlords even died! No territory outside the hotel was destroyed! Are they just on a high from Alastor's supposed disappearance? I hope that's it, because otherwise damn, you three fucking suck at being Overlords.

[fuwaprince]

I'm in a terribly dark place after coming home. Sad and tired. Angry. I'm sorry for speaking about my life again. I wish I could post without bothering anybody

I went out last night with the same old dude for a cig run. I thanked him for making time for me and gave him some of the frosted brownies that my stomach couldn't handle eating. I wanted to make it as worth it for him as possible since I know people's help is usually conditional. The brownie offering wasn't enough for him. He wanted more.

I had already been crying all day and night and just wanted to leave the house for a break. Just wanted something to change since I was basically rotting away in bed. I didn't want to be alone anymore. Anybody's company would do. I reach out online often for strangers that want to meet for a once time distraction.

When I make it to the gas station, I get two sodas. One for me and one for him. The girl cleaning the drink machines who is also the girl working the register was so sleepy and exhausted that I had to help her check out my items. She looked at me like she was struggling and she could clearly see the struggle that I was going through by looking at my face. I told her, "enjoy the rest of your shift" and she told me that she really appreciates that and to have a safe night. Seeing her was the best part of my whole damn day honestly. She kept apologizing for being tired and I just kept saying "no, thank you for everything you do", "thank you for working", "thank you for being here". It meant something to hear her wish me safety.

I go back to the guy's car and we drive to some empty lot so that I can smoke a cig. He kept relentlessly trying to force me to touch him, as per usual, by guiding me with his hands and pulling me into him while I'm standing. It was so annoying and forceful. I kept saying no angrily, stepping away and dancing around him with my lit cig to avoid being touched... After a long fucking time and many failed attempts at trying to force me, it was enough to get him to stop. Glad that I didn't play the role he had in mind but I don't enjoy the consequences either.

I thought about my ex who is the only other person irl who sometimes gives me rides. One time he dropped me off and told me things like "I COULD be like them" "I COULD take advantage of you" as if he's doing me a favor by not. Thanks ex of mine, that's so sweet of you to not violate me!

Guy who just got rejected again cried a bunch next to me and mumbled shit under his breath for the rest of the night. Said maybe he should leave then which reminds me of the time he suggested that he should care less because I didn't let him touch me during a car ride that I asked for in the middle of the night.

He gives backhanded ass comments all night long about how maybe I'll finally do something for myself and work harder to live the life most privileged people such as himself just get born into. He tried randomly bringing up how he saw screenshots of texts I sent to my mom that weren't very kind. I'm not sure why. He just wanted to spite me for not complying.

PS I would say that shit to her face in front of anybody and everybody. I would post it on my blog. I don't give a fuck. I don't take any of it back. She failed as a mother of two. She abused a dog to death. She failed to protect me, denied me a relationship with my birth dad and his whole family, lied that her most recent husband was my father and let him abuse me all my fucking life. She didn't even tell me my race out of shame and groomed me to hate "Spanish" people (she's too afraid to say Mexican, idk why). I would've never found out if I wasn't so damn persistent to find out why her stories don't add up. She sabotaged the benefits I was depending on in hopes I starved to death. Literally. Fuck her. When I called her crying that my ex had broken my bones and left me with a bloody face, she told me I was a liar and made sure to tell everyone else I was a liar too (despite my ex OPENLY ADMITTING TO BEING VIOLENT TOWARDS ME. I had to beg him to tell them it was true. She and her friend's whole family still call me a liar). She denied me being raped as a child. She acted like me calling CPS would ruin the family the day I threatened to without really knowing what CPS was. Her husband was going to choke me if I didn't. My mom has done FUCKED UP SHIT. FORCED ME TO LIE AND PRETENDED HER DENTURES BROKE TO GET MONEY FROM HER FAMILY MEMBERS SO SHE COULD FUEL A GAMBLING ADDICTION INSTEAD OF USING IT TO PAY FOR US TO HAVE MORE THAN JUST EGGS AND RICERONI DURING THE 2008 RECESSION. She forged my signature to move me schools when I gained the courage to tell a counselor at my highschool about the abuse when I was a freshman. She told me I was a liar and that I never got raped after the doctor whispered to her during an appointment that my fucking child hymen was broken and asked if she knew why. She told me to lie for her and to protect her husband so that he would still pay for the house he would eventually kick me out of. She said they'd take my brother and I and split us apart into different foster homes if I did and I would never see him again. She threw belts at me on my birthday. She took a whole rack of belts that her husband had in the closet and angrily threw them on top of my crying body on my 18th birthday. She said "you want to hang yourself? Here! Hope this helps!". She left me waiting after school until 9pm regularly. Telling me not to come home even though it was only across the bridge and down a few easily walkable streets. She told me I would get raped if I did. She'd ignore my calls from the payphone because I didn't have a phone growing up. She told me it was because I didn't deserve one and I would use it to talk crap about her. She said that's the same reason she didn't give me braces "why would I fix your ugly teeth? You use them to talk shit about me". She threw knives at me and my little bro when I was 7. She would tear down the whole house, pack it into a box and LEAVE without telling anybody where for so long. My brother and I would cry. And if we went to our grandma's house or knocked on the neighbor's door, we would get punished for "bringing our problems to other people". My mom has done horribly fucked up shit. She would attack me and rip apart all my belongings. All the art I was proudly posting on my empty walls. She'd destroy whatever I put up in her routine attacks. Then she would leave me crying to clean her mess after unplugging the home phones and leaving. I was too young to figure out why they wouldn't work and I remember being so desperate to call my elementary school friends for help. When I told them what happened, she would tell them that I was a liar seeking attention and not to listen to me. When I told people I was suicidal, she told them I was spoiled and fine because I had both my parents (I didn't). I didn't have lights in my bedroom until I was in my senior year of highschool. When I lost my baby, she said God punished me because I'm bad.

He asked if I would share a place with him again and I told him it's polite to offer but no because I don't want to commit suicide from being mistreated in another shitty home situation where if I don't abide by people's every command, they kick me out on my ass... Which is exactly what would happen. I'm not trying to be owned, trapped as a sex slave and threatened to be thrown back onto the streets if I don't play the role he casts onto me. I don't consent to it. Not gonna happen. People who don't understand the situation will tell me that I'm choosing to be miserable by not accepting his offer. People like his mother will say I'm a "bad woman" for not just marrying her entitled brat. That's who she is. She lies to people saying I threaten her and that I'm crazy nowadays. She tried showing off some screenshots of texts that I sent her. I hope anybody who judges me based on a few angry texts know that they're part of the problem.

I'm back home now. I don't want to exist. I don't want to be. I really wish somebody would smoke me out so that I can pass out in bed and hopefully not wake up crying tomorrow morning. I'm coping how I can. I can't keep doing this. I don't want to be here. I'm so desperate to escape my situation but all my opportunities to leave are actually just worse options. I wish I had SOMEBODY here who actually wanted good for me. I feel like I don't have anyone.

Thank you again for following my shitty life story. I'm sorry for being so sad. Things aren't fine. I just want life to be okay

[sunny-bunnys-blog]

Hi! I decided to write a bit for my Human!Astral AU! Some info before continuing:

• Astral uses gender neutral pronouns in this for simplicity so you don't mix them up with Yuma(It also matches a headcanon of mine AHEM)

• This is intended to be platonic keyshipping, with Yuma and Astral having a sort of sibling dymanic/relationship!

• Apis(the name used for Astral at the end) is not my idea! It comes from a thread by @keylimejuice and @toughcookiecontentcenter :D

Without further ado, let's begin!

If Yuma knew how this happened, then he would've stopped it before it even got as serious as it was at that moment.

And now there Yuma was, in his room and watching over the supposedly 'humanised' version of his friend, Astral.

He had noticed that over the past few days, 8 days if you want to be specific, Astral hadn't been acting like themselves. They looked like they could pass out at any moment but would always give an excuse like 'I'm just tired', or 'it's nothing to worry about'

But it had proven itself to be much more serious then they said it to be when they came out of the key with a hazy glaze in their eyes before fainting onto the ground and turning into a human. Thankfully, Yuma had a break from school so he was able to carry their ragdoll-like body onto his actual bed and dressed them in one of his dad's old shirts and sure, it was a bit too big on them, but it worked for the time being.

Every so often, they'd groan a bit and twitch in their sleep before falling silent again, making Yuma worry more.

As they shifted around again, Yuma noticed the way certain areas of their skin dipped, appearing to seem as if chains had been recently pushed up against it. 'Looks like the marks from… then aren't gonna leave any time soon.' Yuma thought to himself, stroking their soft hair that had fallen out of its usual spiky crescent shape.

"H-Huh? Where am I…?" The voice was softer and quieter than normal, but Yuma could recognize it from anywhere.

"Astral! You're alive! I can't be any happier than I am right now!" Yuma cheered, crying happy and silly tears as he hugged Astral tightly, extremely confusing them and scaring them.

'Astral' shoved Yuma away in confusion and curled into a ball on the corner of the bed. "Who are you even talking about? Who are you?! Where am I?!"

This caught Yuma off guard. "Wait, what? Astral, this isn't funny! Stop joking around!" "Who is this 'Astral'?! My name is…. Wait, what's my name?" 'Astral' spoke, causing even more confusion for the both of them.

"You don't remember your name? Or anything?" Yuma said, his breath getting shaky. 'Astral' looked over to the boy with sympathy and looked down in shame. "Yes, I don't remember myself, you or what happened before. I'm sorry."

Yuma sighs before smiling again, but even 'Astral' could tell that his face didn't depict how he actually felt. "It's fine, you couldn't help it. I guess I have to introduce myself to you again, huh?"

"Yes, but before you do." 'Astral' says before touching their chest and flinching, they definitely touched the scar that no.96 left on them. "It seems like you knew me before now so I wanted to ask you, what was I like back then? Did I have many friends?"

'If I tell them about the Astral World and what happened then they would be worried, so maybe I should lie?' Yuma pondered before deciding to go with his gut and lie. "You were really kind! But you were really shy as well so you didn't really have any friends other than me."

'Astral' slowly got out of the foetal position and crossed their legs and Yuma told them about how they 'used to be'. It seemed like they were believing what he said, which made Yuma relieved.

"I sounded like a very nice person, thank you for reminding me…. Toma, was it?" 'Astral' said, reminding Yuma of their first meeting with each other and causing a bit of sadness.

But he quickly recovered and responded with a silly shout. "I've already told you, it's Yuma! Yu-ma! Yuma!" This caused 'Astral' to widen their eyes in shock before covering their ears and shuffling back on the bed.

Yuma was quick to realise what he did wrong and began to apologise profusely for startling them, making them slowly uncover their ears and their eyes softened before speaking again.

"Ah- I'm sorry I reacted like that, I have no idea what brought that on.." Yuma, of course, knew that Eliphas had something to do with that reaction.

"Also" 'Astral started, not giving Yuma any time to respond before talking again. "I know this may sound a bit silly, but, what is my name? I heard you call me 'Astral' and I'm confused." "Oh! Uh, Astral is your original birth name! But you never really liked it, so me and your other friends always just called youuuu… um, Apis! Yeah, we all called you Apis!

Yuma knew he was lying through his back teeth, but he felt like he had to do this at least for a while. He wanted to give his friend real happiness and a true sense of belonging, and that included a name of their own which wasn't just their home planet.

"Apis, huh? I have a very lovely name.."

[blackhakumen]

Mini Fanfic #1055: Worth All the Worries and Heartaches (RWBY)

4:45 p.m. at Xiao Long's Household's Living Room.......

Ruby: (Sighs While Frantically Pacing Back and Forth in Front of the Coffee Table) I can't believe this right now.....

Oscar: (Holds On to the Side of his Patched Shoulder, Using his Magic to Heal the Wound) Now Ruby, try and stay calm for me, alright? It's going to be okay.

Ruby: (Stops Pacing) Calm? Okay? (Turns to Oscar With a Very Panicked Glare on her Face) How can I be calm and okay about this, Oscar!? I turned my back away for second and the next thing I know, some gunslinging bastard came out of nowhere shot you point blank!!

Oscar: Well, technically, he was gunning for you, so.....(Starts Rubbing The Back of his Head Back and Forth Awkwardly) I.....may have jumped in at the....very last second.....

Ruby: You....WHAT!? WHY WOULD YOU DO SOMETHING LIKE THAT!? No, better yet, why didn't you used your magic barrier at the very LAST SECOND, HUH!?

Oscar: It didn't cross my mind at the time! Plus, I've been shot by Ironwood before, I'm used to it. (Winces a Bit in Pain) For the most part.

Ruby: USED TO IT- (Pauses Herself For a Second Before Taking a Very Deep Breath) Okay, first off, getting shot is NOTHING to get used to that easily. And second, Ironwood shot you and left you falling off a platform. With your aura depleting with it.

Oscar: I mean....you're not wrong, but....I still survived the fall, didn't I?

Ruby: By Ozpin's help! If it weren't for him, you would've fallen all the way down to the deep abyss while the whole place starts getting in shambles with no way out, and we would never see or hear from you ever again on that day! (Tears Suddenly Starts Falling Down her Eyes) ('Sniff') And the gods only know what Salem would've done to you if Jaune and the others weren't there to- (Stops Speaking For a Brief Second Before Crying Softly)

Oscar: (Eyes Widened Before Quickly Coming Over to His Girlfriend's Side) Ruby, hey. (Gently Places his Hand onto Ruby's Shoulder) What's wrong? Why are you crying?

Ruby: (Starts Wiping the Tears Away) I'm sorry, I-('Sniff') caught up with old, terrifying memories again as usual. ('Sniff') (Quickly Pouts at Oscar) And sit back down! You shouldn't be up with an injury like that!

Oscar: (Winces a Bit in More Pain) ('Ngh') Now you tell me....

Ruby: (Sniff Some More as She Takes Oscar Back to his Seat) Come on. Back to the sofa with you, mister.

Oscar: Yeah, yeah. (Seats Back Down on the Sofa With Ruby Sitting Next to Him) Are you okay now?

Ruby: ('Sighs Heavily') Kind of....You really gotta stop doing this.

Oscar: (Raises an Eyebrow in Confusion).Doing what?

Ruby: (Frowns Sadly and Worryingly) Getting yourself hurt and nearly killed. I know you're doing your best to prove yourself and all the things I've mentioned seconds ago, happened to you at the worst possible time, but it always breaks my heart every time I keeping see you like this. And I'm pretty sure everyone else in our friend group would say the same....(Playfully Smirks a Little) Your moms and dads especially~

Oscar: (Chuckles Lightly) Don't remind me. I have to put up with their overprotective antics almost every day.

Ruby: But ya still love 'em a bunch, right?~

Oscar: (Smiles Softly) Everyday. (Turns to Ruby) And I love you too, Ruby. Sorry I made you worried and cry just now.

Ruby: Don't worry about it. I'm always worried about you, so it's not really surprising that I get this far into the water works.

Oscar: (Eyes Starts to Widened a Bit in Genuine Surprise) You're....always worried about me?

Ruby: Of course. Oscar, you're my partner, one of my best friends, my heart, my Honey Pie for god sake!

Oscar: (Puts on a Deadpinned Look) Honey Pie?

Ruby: It's a cute nickname for you, sue me! (Takes Another Deep Breath Before Calming Down) But anyways, you mean all of those things and more to me. I would go through hell and back and throwdown with ANYONE who dares tries to hurt you! (Smiles Brightly) Because I love you like that. Always.

Oscar: (Heart Begins to Melt as He Starts Smiling Again) I would do the same for you too, Ruby.

Ruby: C'mere~ (Leans Closer and Gives Oscar a Very Loving Kiss on the Lips Before Hugging Him) We're in on this together, Oscar~ (Smiles Brightly) Which is why we start our first training of the month first thing tomorrow morning!~

Oscar: (Eyes Widened Again) First thing tomorrow morning!?

Ruby: Yeeeup! We gotta make sure what happened earlier today won't repeat the next time. (Raises an Eyebrow) Plus, don'tcha think you need more work on your hand-to-hand combat skills, Mr. Pines?~

Oscar: ('Sighs in Defeat') Yes, I do....But can we start training at 10 a.m. at least? Getting up at 7 is way too early for my liking.....

Ruby: (Smirks Seductively) Give me some loving and cuddles for the rest of the day and you got yourself a deal~

Oscar: (Grabs a Nearby Blanket Beside Him and Throws it Up to Come Down and Covers Both Him and Ruby Under It) Sounds good to me.

Ruby starts giggling before reaching towards Pscar for a another kiss until.....

'Stuck in the Suburbs! Just like Michael Jackson!'

Oscae: Uh....(Chuckles a Bit Awkwardly) Excuse me. (Picks His Scroll Up From the Coffee Table and Answers it) Hello?

Within an instant, a loud motherly like scream starts startling the young couple's eardrums.

Oscar: Nora! Nora, calm down, will ya? I'm okay.

Nora: (Chattering on the Other Line)

Oscar: ('Sigh') Yeah....I shot. Again.

Nora: (Starts Screaming Again on Panic on the Other Line)

Oscar: (Smiles Sheepishly) B-But luckily, Ruby and I were back home and heal myself before I lost a large amount of blood. So it's not all bad.

Ruby: (Smiles Brightly) Your baby boi is in good hands!~

Nora: (Starts Chattering on the Other Line Again)

Ruby: About to watch some TV and junk.

Nora: (Starts Chattering Again)

Ruby: ('Sigh') Yes, Nora. We'll cuddle responsibly. (Glares at her Scroll) And stop threatening to break my legs already! I need those! (Immediately Starts Blushing) A-And not for what you think either, damnit!!

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[rueria]

hshm thoughts

things that fuck me up about tmmr (this devolved into just hcs lmao):

1. him dying 22 times to kws somehow. why. what. how did mnkm fail 22 times. like ik he was still a kid but like. 22 times.

2. him not knowing how to swim and just. letting himself drown when he's in water. at least struggle my guy

3. him not stepping on any puddles for 2 years bc he didn't want his shoes to get dirty (biting my fcking fist—)

4. him somehow not looking at any mirror for years to notice his eyes became blue?? i don't remember the reason for this one

5. him getting carried away in his hallucinations, this guy probably got into many accidents as a kid. (or not, since he's got ppl looking after him) (i think i remember apparently mnkm's the one who was always getting into accidents and tmmr would usually look after him)

6. him covering for kws. he wouldn't tell who the kappa was. and even if kws killed mnkm, he'd still cover for him. what. (ever think about how tmmr basically tried to let himself die in front of kws, knowing he'd stop him. ever think about tmmr going to meet that kappa despite the heavy rain and the midnight hour and mnkm's warnings) (in a way, you could say tmmr chose kws over mnkm 22 times) (maybe this is part of why mnkm is so reluctant to just fcking talk with him lmao) (and then their positions are reversed like ten years later...)

7. (maybe kind of a stretch) each route has him 'chaining' someone to him with smth more tangible than simply love. with mnkm, it's his stories. with kws, it's the hashihime. with hnzw, it's hell. with hks, it's his eye. (i don't wanna think about kaoru route sorry)

8. apparently it's bc of the hashihime obscuring his feelings for mnkm(?) but bro. guy just wants friends, man. he's too selfish and egoistic and dense to actually connect with people (which is why he's a perfect fit for the hashihime) until the shopkeeper literally had to force him to face his own flaws. but like. i want him to meet more people that aren't in love with him lol.

9. guy was asked to write about love, writes fcking hardcore smut, like. it's funny but also sad somehow?? brother.

10. if not his writings, then what else could another person love about him?

11. his feelings about his parents' deaths (also grandma's in mnkm's route). specifically how did he feel about his mother? for a decade, he thought "she left" and abandoned him, and it's only mnkm's route that he finds out what rly happened to her. is this why he's so desperate to cling to other ppl so they don't leave him—

12. and re: 4th point: is that why he never looked at his reflections long enough to realize his eyes literally became blue, bc looking at his face reminds him of his mom—

12.5. and knowing him, he probably didn't cry over his mother's disappearance or shown grief over it externally, and imagine how that would've made mnkm feel

12.6. "minakami really is a good friend. he couldn't even lie to his friend and tell him his mother will come back."

12.7. and did he think his mother left bc he did smth wrong? bc she was fed up with him? bc she didn't love him enough to stay?

12.8. "when my mother left, she took the umbrella she gave me, as if to erase any proof that she existed."

12.9. tmmr unconsciously trying to suppress all memories of his mother

13. him just being ridiculously and uncannily good at forgetting things in general.

14. sometimes i think about how unreal his dad's death is (being killed by a bear) and i wonder if there's smth more sinister that his mom and grandma just decided to shield him from

14.5 also the parallel of his dad getting killed by a bear and him getting killed by a kappa...

15. on that note. if you think about it, if the hashihime didn't exist from the beginning, tmmr would have really just died, huh. the only reason he's alive is that mnkm loved him enough to keep trying.

16. does tmmr have schizophrenia? or some form of psychosis? and schizophrenia is highly likely to be hereditary...

17. he hates himself and can't trust anyone who likes/loves him unconditionally... is that why hakase makes him uncomfortable afgsjdk

[berrieluv]

HI ok i was thinking “sweet tea in the summer cross my heart won’t tell no other and though i can’t remember your face i still got love for you” (seven by taylor swift lol) with remus lupin if that’s okay !!!

remus honored your memory remembering you in the trees, just as you made him promise. the days back when you were high on the branches and too scare to jump where now past and gladly for him, his heart knew you were too high in the sky now.

remus imagined you sometimes, you would talk to him while he would be enjoying a cup of tea and grading some papers, sometimes you would remind silence, but remus felt your presence there and sometimes it was more than enough.

"are there still beautiful things?" you would ask, wondering about the future you never got to live.

"you would've love the sweet tea in the summer with the castle views"

remus couldn't remember your face pretty well, the disappearing memories from a growing mind, damaged with now only lycanthropy but with need to forget about something he didn't have and he missed with his whole heart, but if there was something remus lupin would never forget was his love for you.

"y/n?" he called one day, whispering to the dark and hoping for an answer "now that you're there, were you allowed to know if your house was haunted?" he chuckled "i've been meaning to tell you, i think your house is haunted, and that was why your dad was always mad?"

in his mind, he saw you frown, just as he were sure you would, he may not remember how you looked like but he knew you, and he was sure you would look at him exactly at how he was picturing it.

"i wanted you to live with me, i was going to tell you that" he said, tears filling his eyes "we could've been pirates. and you wouldn't had to cry. or hide in the closet"

remus was afraid that feeling would passed on, he appreciated it too much, and he knew that if he doesn't learn to live with it, it would consume him, he wanted the perfect balance of his new and past life, your love was meant to last so long, and he would not break his promise, because he knew neither would you.

[jimimn]

It's really interesting that we always heard stories about Jimin almost not making the team and how they wanted to fire him almost every week and then they still made the choice to make him debut. It's interesting especially after knowing now that he's one of the most popular members, they made him lead vocal and main dancer, even though he almost didn't make it. Sometimes I think about how different this group could have been if Jimin wasn't included, because we all know how much he helped the others and how much effort and energy he put into being in BTS. We know how hard he worked and how he helped the others work hard too. He motivated them, cried with them, comforted them, and it's pretty clear that the others relied on him a lot and vice versa. How different Jungkook would've grown up if Jimin wasn't in his life, how Tae would have adjusted to the group, etc. I'm really happy he made it because he has been such a comfort person for so many of us and sometimes he is the only reason I can get out of bed and do my daily tasks. Sometimes I think about what would have happened to the group if they weren't seven, if Jimin didn't make it, if Hoseok didn't come back, but then I remember that fate brought them together and everything had to happen the way it happened so that they could find each other and we could find them. I'm really glad they made it. They deserve everything they got and so much more. I hope we can walk this path with them for a long time.

you’re so right omg :( reminded me of when jimin said that he would just watch when tae and jungkook got vocal lessons and then practiced it by himself later. how he would sleep at 4 am after practicing and then wake up for school at 6:30 am. he used to call his dad and say that he might not make it but not to worry because he’ll he will be successful by himself somehow :((( this particular thing makes me cry lol because look how far he’s come. all his hardwork and all his dedication paid off. and despite everything he’s so so so humble and kind and loving :((( he’s such a strong support for all of them really :( when tannies were asked who gives the best hugs and most of them picked jimin 😭😭😭 my heart melted 😭😭😭 really though i can’t imagine bts without even one of them .. really can’t imagine what it would've been like. they worked so so hard and they deserve every bit of the success they have now and they deserve so much more. They deserve the world. i love them so much :(((

[aprillikesthings]

Note, I hit the image limit AGAIN before the end of the episode

"I don't see why you keep bringing it up" (this is Shadow Weaver speaking)

I really have to suppress the urge to type "girl shut the fuck up" after every line of her dialogue pfft

AGAIN REMINDED OF MY DAD LOL "I apologized, so you're not allowed to be angry anymore" (he didn't say those exact words but it was definitely implied, and that's when I cut off contact)

Castaspella: "You roped my brother into your twisted dark magic when he was only a child. You could've killed him." Shadow Weaver: "It would've worked had he not broken the connection. Micah was an exceptional sorcerer, even then. It's a shame it didn't run in the family."

For real tho is Shadow Weaver just determined to make everyone hate her or what

Poor Swift Wind is super unhappy to be near so many clones/Horde Prime and is like "no tech is worth you getting captured by Prime!!"

Entrapta: "it's not about the tech, it's about our chipped friends!"

Swift Wind is so worried about her

well fuck

lol Entrapta's little "uh ohhhhhhh"

lol I paused it and started giggling HYSTERICALLY bc I remember this part

it's too fast to get decent screenshots, but flames suddenly encircle Adora, Catra yells out a panicked "ADORA" and just jumps in and grabs her and pulls them both out.

AHHHHHHHH oh my god

And Catra looks down and smiles, but then--

help I can't stop giggling

look at them just flirting right in front of everyone aaahahaha

Adora snort-laughs and it's so cute i can't

Castaspella also thinks they're cute

Castaspella is visibly trying not to laugh, oh my godddd

And as Adora stops laughing in a quiet voice (which nonetheless makes it into the captions) she says "oh, that's good"

Anyway apparently not all the fire is real so Catra didn't actually need to do that 🎵but she di-id🎵

BITCH SHUT THE FUCK UP

I'LL SET YOU ON FIRE >:(

Adora: "It's none of your business." Shadow Weaver: "But it is. If your emotions are blocking you from becoming She-Ra, it's all of Etheria's business."

AUGH and of course that's exactly how to get to Adora--imply her actions will hurt a bunch of other people--and Shadow Weaver KNOWS this

"How long has it been since you were able to transform?" Adora (starts to cry): "It's been happening ever since the Fright Zone. What if...? What if I'm losing her?" Shadow Weaver: "She-Ra is a being of pure magic. To unleash her full strength, you must be focused, clearheaded. But you are letting your emotions pull you in too many directions."

What I'm not sure Shadow Weaver knows is that when she was first able to become She-Ra without the sword it was because she was terrified Catra was dead and furious at the people who hurt her!! Shadow Weaver is pulling some Light Hope "you don't need attachments" bullshit but Catra's the REASON she can still be She-Ra

but also she's always disliked Catra, like that's not a secret

Man I am not sure if I've ever hated this bitch more than I do right now. fucking STOP TOUCHING HER

"Haven't you hurt each other enough? If you care about her, focus on protecting her."

"And if She-Ra can't stop Prime, then we are all doomed."

SHUT UPPPPP oh my GOD I mean ugh she's the one who first convinced Adora that she was worthless unless she worked herself to death for the approval of other people so I dunno why I'm surprised she's pulling this shit NOW

But at least Adora yanks herself away from Shadow Weaver

Adora: "I will stop Prime. No matter what."

and it turns out Catra was eavesdropping this entire time. don't like that at all. (aw shit I remember a thing coming up, fuuuuck)

omg right after this he's like, "Why do I know your face?" And Entrapta does the most heart-breaking little "...Hordak?"

"Don't say that name to me. I have no name." But he turns around and he's still got the little gem in his pocket that she made for him ;_;

Hordak: "What have you done to me?"

I didn't mean to get her eyes half-closed but

Entrapta: "You do remember me. I knew you would."

but yeah Swift Wind literally grabs her overalls in his mouth and drags her away

Hordak: "Go. Maybe then these memories, these imperfections, will leave me." Entrapta: "Remember:"

awww

what you don't know a failsafe when you see one? lol

(did anyone else have to google the definition of failsafe bc I wasn't sure I remembered what it actually means, normally, as a word.)

Bow: "It's bigger than I thought it'd be. How are we gonna get that to the Heart?" Shadow Weaver: "The Failsafe is a code. It's stored inside of the Crystal."

(no, it's a tattoo a ton of lesbians and other sapphics end up getting lol)(also I ordered two shiny stickers of it a few days ago, one for my laptop and one for my paper journal)

Adora: "so...how do we..." Shadow Weaver: "It needs a password."

And again Shadow Weaver just fucking grabs Adora and puts her hand on it. Instead of ASKING HER to touch it like a normal, non-weirdo person.

Shadow Weaver: "I think you know what [the password] is"

Is she, y'know. A "friend of Mara"?

The crystals kind of move away from each other and are covered in First Ones writing. Glimmer asks what it says.

I feel like that could've been worded more poetically but it does get the point across lol

"and carried to the Heart of Etheria in their body in order to be deployed." oh, god

Bow is the voice of reason here: "Are we sure that's safe?"

There's a ton of electricity sparking in there, but Adora just starts resolutely walking towards it. And Catra runs towards her. ;_;

Shit, look at Shadow Weaver's hand. She's pissed.

"Someone must take the Failsafe."

Catra: "So, you do it, then. I've been watching you the whole way in."

LOL I HIT THE IMAGE LIMIT AGAIN oh my god okay

can I finish this before I gotta get ready and leave for the Maundy Thursday service let's find out lol

(Edit: Nope.)

THREE MORE EPISODES LEFT

*cries*

s5 ep11 Failsafe

someone hold me

I have to actively suppress the urge to read the synopses of the episodes at this point

oh also lol this is just funny to me, I saw a post Elsewhere Online where someone watched all of spop the first time and they HATED the dumb names everyone has, and I think they mentioned Castaspella specifically.

And like FIFTY PEOPLE responded with "dude they had to use the original names from the 1980's series" and I was the only one there old enough to have watched the original series and I had to point out: the original series was made to sell toys. The vast majority of cartoons in 1985 were only made to sell toys. They gave everyone those dumbass names because it was easy for kids to remember and beg for the toys."

That's also why all the female characters in the original series have the exact same body type. Yeah the body shape itself was due to 1980's-era sexism, but also? It was so much cheaper to animate the show AND make the toys that way!

But also, it's hella ironic to me that the 2018 show has so little official merch!

And now, back to crying over cartoon lesbians:

good question

ugh I hate her

Shadow Weaver: "While you were traipsing around in space,"

OH MY GOD they were saving a few people's LIVES and it was kind of IMPORTANT but WHATEVER

"--some of us have been working to stop the Heart of Etheria from falling into Prime's hands. And we discovered the same thing you did. Rumors of a Failsafe that will break the restraints the First Ones built and set the stolen magic free." Glimmer: "Are you kidding? After everything that happened last time, you're still going after the Heart of Etheria? And you're helping her?" Castaspella: "We're trying to free the magic for all of Etheria so we can be strong enough to fight Prime. I'm doing this for your father and for you. Shadow Weaver is the lesser of two evils."

I love that she says this right in front of Shadow Weaver. Like "girl I hate her too"

nice

okay ngl I have mixed feelings about this one because unfortunately she's not entirely wrong here but also, shut the fuck up

(something something people are responsible for their own actions but also she wouldn't have done all that godawful shit if Shadow Weaver hadn't been such a shitty parent)

but yeah Catra gets up like she's about to fucking throw some hands and Adora's like It's okay bb

;_;

but also they do need the information Shadow Weaver and Castaspella have

so it turns out Mystacor was built on top of a First Ones' citadel? huh

Castaspella: "Beneath Mystacor, there are many secret tunnels and rooms, forgotten and sealed off. No one has been able to access them in centuries, but there are whispers of what they contain." Shadow Weaver: "An artifact known as the Crystal of Arxia, hidden there by a group of traitorous First Ones." Castaspella: "You said I could do it!"

lol they bicker like old marrieds

Adora: "If you figured it out on your own, why come back here? Why do you need us at all?" Shadow Weaver: "Because Mystacor is controlled by Micah, who, you may recall, is controlled by Horde Prime."

they've been TRYING

"If he seizes the Heart, it will all be over."

Stop toUCHING HER

oh god Adora turns around to ask Catra to help out--and she's gone

YOU'RE THE REASON SHE'S FUCKING "SULKING" and you fucking know it, why are abusers always so god damned surprised to find out their kids don't want to be anywhere near them

(I mean I know why, they think they should be able to control you forever)

aaahahaha Adora's just like Nah I'mma go look for her tho

anyway roll intro!

omg look at Netossa and Spinny on the bottom left awwwww

she looks so sad

well okay sad and angry

their conversation here is so good, because Catra's fully aware of why Adora's doing this, but is really struggling to push past how much she (justifiably!) hates Shadow Weaver and hates being around her

I actually do kinda wish I'd kept a list of all the times Adora does the self-sacrificial thing, separated into "someone asked her to do it" vs "nobody asked her to do it" lol

BUT ADORA EXPRESSES A NEED oh nice that's progress

Adora: "Hey, she can't do anything to us anymore. Please, come. We--I-could really use your help."

two things I really love about this: One, she doesn't say that she doesn't like Adora, just that it's not the reason she's going. Two, I feel like Adora knows damn well Catra's not being 100% honest here.

Like, to some extent Catra's saying this as a way of attempting to protect herself a little. She's taking baby steps towards vulnerability, and it's terrifying! And I think Adora can see that and is fine with it--not JUST because she's like "any crumbs are better than nothing" but ALSO because she doesn't want to push Catra.

Because yeah, if there was any actual doubt that Catra does like Adora--

WELL.

Entrapta was able to get Spinerella's chip out but says it had started fusing with her nervous system and they're running out of time to safely un-chip everyone.

But she's been digging around the network that connects all the chips to Prime, hoping to figure out how to disconnect everyone at once, and Bow gives her a little encouragement, it's really sweet.

OKAY so everyone who can, teleports to Mystacor with Melog making them invisible. (Apparently Catra doesn't get motion sick from it anymore which is nice lol)

I love the way they animated them being invisible

oh GOD okay

Catra turns around and says "looks like there's no sorcerers here" while, unfortunately, a sorcerer walks into the room. Shadow Weaver grabs Catra and puts her hand over her mouth to keep her quiet, and Catra (understandably!! but unfortunately!!) jerks away in fury and yells

And her fury causes Melog to drop the invisibility

And now the chipped sorcerer knows they're all there

they manage to duck the attack but Adora goes to transform into She-Ra--and can't do it

she had this issue last episode aaaugh it's not from being near Shadow Weaver she wasn't there

okay but also Adora runs behind a pillar to hide from an attack with Catra and it's cute

girl help why is this giving me so many emotions

y'know it's funny how often I've bumped into posts of people who are confused as to why Adora starts trusting Catra again so quickly, and I frequently wonder if they forget all the childhood flashback scenes of these two. To varying extents they both spent their entire childhoods seeing the other as their only consistent source of comfort and (something resembling) safety, and with some notable exceptions Adora's spent the last four seasons (which was like three or four years) visibly holding out hope that one day she could trust Catra again. This despite the fact that she now has other sources of safety and comfort and love!!! Being with Glimmer and Bow and everyone else was healing, sure; but it never erased her grief over losing Catra. She always, always held out the tiniest flame of hope that Catra would change sides.

And Catra basically tried lighting her own grief on fire (metaphorically and kinda literally) over and over and it just didn't go away, and I feel like when she saved Glimmer and apologized to Adora she had sort of come to terms with the fact that her grief over losing Adora couldn't be burned away, but of course by then she figured she'd fucked up so bad Adora would never forgive her or trust her again. And rather than take it out on other people or suffer any longer she was willing to just die, instead. She really did think that sending Glimmer to Adora was going to be her last act, and she wanted Adora to know she was sorry before she fucking DIED. And I don't think her saving Glimmer was consciously meant to be proof that she meant her apology, but it was. And that's part of why Adora trusts her again.

The fact is, even after everything that happened, both of them had a hole in their hearts shaped like the other. ;_;

And that's why Adora runs and hides behind the same pillar as Catra. (I mean yes, it was also closer, but that's not tHE POINT)

Anyway, this is all why, as I previously noted, Adora's not being pushy. That failed on her, spectacularly; the couple of times she tried it. Asking Catra to come along on this mission is the closest she's come. And even then, it wasn't "you're a good person deep down and you should change sides because I think I know you better than you know yourself," It was "please do this for me, because I need your help." And Catra is fully aware of how hard that is for Adora.

And these two still have a lot to work out post-canon (like, Catra has still got to deal with her need to not just be seen as Adora's sidekick/shadow, and lbh right now some of the rebellion is like "we're only putting up with you for Adora's sake" as if Catra was Yoko Ono) but that's part of why I'm writing a fic lolol

I have so many feelingssss on a related note I spent like fifteen solid minutes last night in bed having taken an edible and listening to my playlist and staring at this gifset lolol

ANYWAY Castaspella knocks out the chipped dude and they run for it

AAAND lol I gotta get ready to go to church. There's still 17:30 left on this episode. Pfft.

BACK FROM CHURCH I washed someone's feet, they washed mine, they stripped the altar, I go back at one or two in the morning for the overnight vigil

In the meantime: gonna finish this episode

(what is my life sometimes)

Entrapta plans to find a bunch of clones so she can figure out how their signals to Horde Prime work. Swift Wind is like Ugh, fine, I'll go with you, someone's gotta save your ass

Entrapta: "Thanks, bird horse!"

lol how many times have they had that convo

A family can be a sorcerer and her evil ex, a girl and a boy, two traumatized lesbians, and a cat

But also it looks like something out of an episode of Scooby Doo

Shadow Weaver opens a magic door

ngl that's PRETTY. like it's obviously about the Heart of Etheria but wow!

(and there's a dinosaur???)

Adora notices how stressed out Catra is and says "It'll be okay...Trust me." ;_;

Shadow Weaver: "There's no time to waste!"

"...disturbance."

The disturbance was your fault, dumbass. I am reminded of all the times my dad got angry at us for being afraid of him. And would hit us. For being. Afraid of him. Because y'know. That's how you stop a kid from being afraid of you. By hitting them.

In any case Shadow Weaver is still trying to get between them and separate them and I just really need this bitch to stop.

(Yes yes I remember she dies later)

Castaspella: "We're on the right path. The Crystal of Arxia was rumored to be the key to reaching deep magic within Etheria."

"But those who hungered for more power have long sought other ways to obtain the deep magic...with disastrous results."

HIT THE IMAGE LIMIT lemme reblog

[fireheart118]

‼️𝙂𝙝𝙤𝙨𝙩𝙗𝙪𝙨𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙨 𝘼𝙛𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙡𝙞𝙛𝙚 𝙎𝙥𝙤𝙞𝙡𝙚𝙧𝙨‼️

I really need to talk about this and I don't want to ruin if for any but I need to get this out before it drives me insane. When I get super passionate about something this is what happens. Now, I don't think I've ever written a review or anything like it before but here I am giving it a go. It's really just my thoughts and opinions on Ghostbusters Afterlife.

𝗛𝗲𝗿𝗲 𝘄𝗲 𝗴𝗼

For starters, is raised on Ghostbusters and a few other franchises. My dad is a movie lover and has been taking me to see movies since I was small. Jurassic Park, Lord of the Rings, Star Wars, James Bond and Ghostbusters. To name a few of the franchises he raised me on. So I was watching the first Ghostbusters in diapers basically, he'd sing the song to me sometimes to put me to bed. No joke. So the Ghostbusters franchise means alot to me. When you're raised on a film or series i think that love for it sticks with you forever and carries over into your adulthood. It certainly did for me when it comes to all the franchises I listed above. But I'm getting off topic here. Point is Ghostbusters is important to me.

When I first heard they were making another one, after the one with the female cast I was concerned. Considering I hates every single second of that one, it didn't feel right to me. It honestly felt like they were making a mockery of such a beloved classic that it just enraged me. No offense to the cast, because they're all great actresses but that movie an atrocity and should've 𝗡𝗘𝗩𝗘𝗥 happened. Like I said it moreso felt like they were poking fun at the original and that just made me mad. So yeah, I was concerned. But when I heard Finn Wolfhard and Mckenna Grace were going to be in this one I got excited. They are two actors that I have a lot of love and respect for. They're two very powerful young actors in Hollywood who never cease to amaze me with what they can do. The range they both have is even better than their adult costars most of the time. They're very talented for their ages. Knowing they were going to be apart of this put me at ease a little, over time I got excited but in the back of my mind lingered that sliver of doubt. Because we all know how bad sequels can be.

I waited forever to see this movie, tried not to let anything spoil it. Only watched one of the trailers. I wanted to go into this fresh. I didn't want to know too much about it. I wanted to see it opening night, but I couldn't. So I saw it the next night after work. My friend and her nephew accompanied me. I'll say it now if you want to take young kids to this it's definitely family friendly. Her nephew is eight and he loved it.

To say I was on the edge of my seat through it would've been an understatement. I laughed alot, I got alot of nostalgia and of course there were tears. I don't want to spoil too much but when Egon Spengler is mentioned I get teary eyes. As a kid, my favorites were always Spengler and Venkman. I'd argue they're two of the best characters in the franchise along with Dana. Because Sigourney Weaver is a boss. Shes phenomenonal in anything she's casted in to be honest.

Spengler meant alot to me because he's always reminded me of my dad. They act alot alike and they're both SUEPR intelligent, they try to be funny and it doesn't always work. But they try. He just always made me think of my dad, who is my best friend. So you can imagine the passing of Harold really effected me. I was young when it happened but I know it upset me. He was an absolute legend, honestly this crummy world didn't deserve him but we were blessed with his presence anyway.

Any time he was mentioned or even shown in Afterlife I was crying and I mean really crying. I love the little tributes they did to him throughout the film it really got to me. They definitely knew what they were doing.

𝗦𝗽𝗼𝗶𝗹𝗲𝗿 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗲𝗻𝗱𝗶𝗻𝗴

Then at the end when we got to see his ghost. Now, that really got me. I was sobbing like a baby as were most of the people in the theater. Did I mention it was sold out?? Seeing Harold as Spengler one last time was the best gift in the world and I was so happy and yet so sad at the same time. Because I knew it truly would be the end. I'll probably never see him as Spengler again and that hurt more than I can express.

So, I highly recommend this movie to anyone who loves Ghostbusters as much as I do. Even if you've never gotten to see the classic itself, which is suggested before seeing this one..you can honestly watch this one without it. It's great for the whole family and im so happy it exists.

I definitely give it a 10/10. Best movie I've seen all year.

[spencers-renaissance]

Fic Rec Bingo!!

So instead of Fic Rec Thursday, I thought I'd do something a little different this week and recommend 25 fics based on this bingo card (although it turned into 26, oops). I kept most of these as CM because that's my blog's focus, but due to the nature of the prompts, there are 5 Marvel (Irondad) ones & 1 Sherlock towards the end!

from @lightveils on twitter, but found posted on tumblr by @cywscross <3

1. A fic with a premise that shouldn't work but does

I never would've thought I'd enjoy a fic with Spencer as a little rebellious shit because it seems so ooc, but I loved this one!

las vegas kid by trashcanbarbie - 1.9k, 1ch, Gen/Aaron Hotchner & Spencer Reid, Gambling, Spencer Reid Needs a Hug, Young Spencer Reid, Teenage Rebellion, Protective Aaron hotchner, Pre-Canon, Father-Son Relationship, Teenage Spencer Reid

JJ raises her eyebrows, “so, you're trying to say counting cards isn't cheating?” “No,” he grins, boyish and charming, “it is.”

2. A fic you've reread several times

Discipline Changes by fullofcrazyness - 1.2k, 1ch, Aaron Hotchner/Spencer Reid, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Hurt/Comfort, Past Child Abuse, Spencer Reid Needs a Hug, Comforting Hotch

Jack stopped and looked at his dad, finally seeing that his dad wasn’t actually angry. Concerned and relieved, but not angry. He was about to say something when he saw someone in the doorway, white as a sheet. “Papa?”

3. A comfort fic

i'm always tired, but never of you by @iamrenstark - 2.2k, 1ch, Derek Morgan/Spencer Reid, Hurt Spencer Reid, Angst with a Happy Ending, Sad Derek, Established Relationship, Hurt/Comfort, Spencer Reid Needs a Hug, Derek Morgan Needs a Hug, Men Crying, Gunshot Wounds, Blood and Injury

When Spencer figured it out, he was stepping out of the elevator on the bottom floor of Quantico, and he went to tell Derek he loved him like he did every day, but he froze up, because he was afraid he wouldn't hear it back. (Or, Spencer thinks his boyfriend is falling out of love with him.)

4. A cathartic fic

Every Little Transgression by @58thacademic - 1.6k, 1ch, Gen, Angst with a Happy Ending, Sad Spencer Reid, Protective David Ross, Protective Derek Morgan, Mentioned Suicide Attempt, Spencer's Backstory, Implied/Referenced Rape/Non-Con, Spencer Reid Needs a Hug, Episode: s03e16 Elephant's Memory

Ok so. Elephants memory was really good because we got Reid backstory. But I'm still annoyed that he didn't defend himself against Hotch. So this was born.

5. A fic you'd print and put on your bookshelf

One Call Away by GhostInTheBAU - 204k, 32ch, Aaron Hotchner/Spencer Reid, Dubious Consent, Attempted Rape/Non-Con, Domestic Violence, Rape Recovery, Referenced Past Drug Use, PTSD, Hurt Spencer Reid, Protective Aaron Hotchner, Mutual Pining, Slow Burn, Angst with a Happy Ending, Fluff, Flashbacks, Healing, Nightmares, Suicidal Thoughts, Hurt/Comfort, Whump, Eventual Smut

When Reid's boyfriend attacks him, leaving him broken and bleeding, he calls the first person he thinks of for help. He calls the only person he really wants to see. He calls Hotch.

6. A fic you associate with a song

I associate this fic with The First Thing You See by Bruno Major. I think if you listen to the song, you'll easily see why <3

You Make Waking Up Worth It by @guccifloralsuits - 2.1k, 1ch, Derek Morgan/Spencer Reid, Fluff, Minor Angst, Established Relationship, Morning Routines, Hurt/Comfort, Good Things Happen Bingo

“Morning sweetheart,” Derek says, pausing briefly to ruffle his hand gently through Spencer’s hair. The genius nuzzles into the touch but doesn’t reply. It’s too early for conversation, Morgan knows. Pretty boy may get up earlier than he does, but it takes the younger a lot longer to really wake up.

7. A fic that inspires you

This fic could have been in so many categories because I adore it, but I wouldn't have started writing Rain is a Chance to be Touched without this fic so it definitely belongs here.

Forgive Me For All I Could Not Become by @degrassi-fanatic - 105k, 20ch, Aaron Hotchner/Spencer Reid, Canon Divergence, Getting Together, Angst, Case Fic, Confessions, Complicated Relationships, Near Death Experiences, Friends With Benefits, Smut, Miscommunication

In which Reid has always been good at hiding things. He hid his father's departure and his mother's illness from social services. He hid his addiction from his team. He hid his sexuality from the world. He hid his inappropriate feelings from his boss. That is until he's bleeding out in Hotch's arms, in an abandoned church, in Oklahoma. From there on out, Hotch and Reid learn to make a complete mess out of each other.

8. A fic that brought you on board a new ship

Even though it's unrequited, this was the first fic that really had me going !!! at Penemily <3

Another Wide-Eyed Girl by mallfacee - 2k, 1ch, Gen/Derek Morgan & Penelope Garcia, Penelope Garcia/Emily Prentiss (Unrequited), Coming Out, Internalised Homophobia, Derek Morgan is a Good Friend, Friendship, Gunshot Wounds, Episode: s03e08 Lucky

Derek Morgan is handsome and calls her “baby girl” and smiles at her like she’s the only girl in the room. Penelope Garcia knows she should be swooning and all she can think is that there must be something wrong with her not to react to a man like that giving her all this attention. Two years later she meets Emily Prentiss and understands.

9. A fic you wish could be a movie

Listen, I adore the soulmate trope, and an angsty moreid soulmate movie? Fucking sign me up right now

i need you now but i don't know you yet by @iamrenstark - 3.1k, 1ch, Derek Morgan/Spencer Reid, Hurt Spencer Reid, Hurt Derek Morgan, Mutual Pining, Soulmates, Hurt/Comfort, Buford Mention, Angst with a Happy Ending, Getting Together, Season 5

It goes like this; Spencer hasn't spoken to his soulmate since he was ten, didn't know their gender or their name or a single thing about them. Spencer's soulmate doesn't want him, and that's okay.

10. A fic that led to you making friends with the author

I'm doing two because fuck you that's why

This was one of the first fics I read of Adam's and I immediately fell in love with his writing! And I'm pretty sure that we ended up becoming friends after I rec'd it!!

Plum Sauce by @goldencatchflies - 1.5k, 1ch, Derek Morgan/Spencer Reid, First Kiss, Friends to Lovers, Getting Together, Canon Divergence, Fluff, Jealousy, Platonic Morcia, Episode: s07e13 Snake Eyes

Garcia tells Spencer about what she thinks happened between her and Derek. He doesn’t seem too happy about it...

I read this from Syd and absolutely loved it, and like with Adam, we became friends from there! (I mean technically husband and wife, but, y'know. Semantics.)

You Belong With Me by @spencerspecifics - 11.4k, 1ch, Derek Morgan/Spencer Reid, Song Fic, Getting Together, Angst with a Happy Ending, Pining, Fluff

A fluffy Moreid fic based on You Belong With Me by: Taylor Swift

11. A fic you associate with a place

This reminds me of a chilled Sunday afternoon on my old sofa in my living room, with the fire on in the background. I read it all in one sitting and loved every word <3

Metanoia by @makaylajadewrites - 39k, 16ch, Derek Morgan/Spencer Reid, Canon Typical Violence, Implied Rape/Non-Con, Implied/Referenced Torture, Established Relationship, Near Death Experiences, Frostbite, Rape Recovery, Suicidal Thoughts, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Autistic Spencer Reid, Drug Use, Eventual Smut, Eventual Happy Ending

Oh, Derek… He couldn’t stand the thought of him bursting in with SWAT in tow, gun at the ready, only to descend those creaky stairs and find his naked, bleeding body, vacated of life, crumbled on a red-stained mattress. The realization that he was going to die at the end of this was catching up to him, but maybe it would be better that way.

In which an unfortunate resemblance to an unsub's victims puts Reid right on his radar.

12. A fic that made you gasp out loud

Gasp out loud might be a *bit* of an overreaction, but this one took me on a rollercoaster and I loved every second of it (all of bau-gremlin's fics will do that to you tbh)

The End by @bau-gremlin - 3.1k, 2ch, Aaron Hotchner/Spencer Reid, Graphic Violence, Stabbing, Blood and Injury, Temporary Character Death, Hurt Spencer Reid, Whump, Hurt/Comfort, Angst with a Happy Ending, Hurt Aaron Hotchner, Sleepy Cuddles, Protective Spencer Reid

The famous interview with Chester Hardwick ... except Hotch and Reid get separated and Reid is left alone with Hardwick and a prison-made shiv.

13. A fic you found at the right time

You're Going to be Okay by fullofcrazyness - 2.6k, 1ch, Gen/Aaron Hotchner & Spencer Reid, Dark, Suicidal Thoughts, Depression, Implied/Referenced Self-Harm, Suicide Attempt, Sad Spencer Reid, Hurt Spencer Reid, Depression, Protective Aaron Hotchner, Hurt/Comfort, Happy Ending

Spencer was no stranger to depression. His father leaving him, his mother’s episodes, being twelve years old in a Las Vegas high school. All of those things made him very familiar with the illness. “I… I think I need some help.”

14. A fic that you would read a fic of

Chain Reaction by EloquentDossier - 42k, 16ch, Aaron Hotchner/Spencer Reid, Alternate Universe, Texting, Dialogue-Only, Text Fic, Self-Esteem Issues, Fluff, Angst, Implied/Referenced Past Drug Use, Canon Divergence, Pining, Oblivious Aaron Hotchner, Happy Ending

A dialogue-only AU in which Hotch texts what he thinks is Rossi's new number but is actually the slightly eccentric stranger whom Hotch knows only as "Spencer." What follows is something neither man could have ever quite expected.

15. A fic that made you laugh out loud

The Bet by @degrassi-fanatic - 1.6k, 2ch, Aaron Hotchner/Spencer Reid, Hijinks & Shenanigans, Bets & Wagers, Humour, Fluff, Canon Divergence

“Fifty bucks says Hotch writes you up and sends you to sexual harassment sensitivity training.” she declares as she stares him down. Without looking away from her, Reid takes out his own wallet and flips it open to pull out a fifty dollar before placing it down right next to Prentiss’s own money. “Fifty bucks says Hotch will go out with me.”

16. A fic that gave you butterflies

The healing and dynamics in this one is just.... off the charts :')

Who Spencer Reid Loves by @blueberriesandbubbles - 36k, 11ch, Derek Morgan/Spencer Reid, Rape/Non-Con Elements, Abusive Relationships, Domestic Violence, Abuse, Hurt Spencer Reid, Mutual Pining, Rape Recovery, Healing, Fluff

Derek Morgan has been in love with the resident genius as long as he's known him. When Spencer enters a relationship with a mystery man, Derek is unhappy. He is even more unhappy when he meets this man. Spencer starts acting different and Derek knows something is wrong and he has a feeling its connected to the man Reid is dating.

17. A fic that embodies something you value in life

The utter and total love and devotion in this fic just punches me right in the gut every time I reread it

A Little Fall of Rain by jack_hunter - 4.3k, 2ch, Aaron Hotchner/Spencer Reid, Hurt/Comfort, Fluff, Angst, Spencer Reid Whump, Autistic Spencer Reid, Major Character Injury, Secret Relationship, Team as Family, Dad Rossi

Morgan crept up behind the doctor and snatched the headphones off of his head, earning a yelp of a protest as he slipped them over his own ears. “Les Mis?” Morgan asked with a quizzical look, “didn’t peg you as the musical type, Pretty Boy.” Spencer snatched the headphones back. “I’ve always loved the theatre and I went to see Les Misérables with-... a friend last Friday.”

18. A favourite AU

The Curious Case of Dr. Reid by severaance - 37k, 10ch, Derek Morgan/Spencer Reid, Transgender Character, Fluff, Trans Spencer Reid, Light Angst, Getting Together, Developing Relationship, Smut, Insecurity, Happy Ending (Warning for Homophobic & Transphobic Slurs)

"And your names for the order, please?" The barista asked, eyes flickering expectantly between the two before her. "Spencer," she answered, although she was not talking to the barista. "I'm Spencer." The man before her had the same idea. "Derek."

19. A fic you stayed up too late to finish reading

I stayed up one night and read pretty much all the marvel fics this author has written, but this was the last one that I simply could not resist. The next day wasn't pretty :/

The more you say, the less I know by forthenightisdarkandfullofterror - 13.9k, 3ch, Gen/Irondad, Angst, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Temporary Amnesia, Protective Pepper Potts, Not Endgame Compliant, Tony Stark Acting as Peter Parker's Parental Figure, Peter Parker Needs a Hug, Blood and Violence, Hurt Peter Parker, Whump

Tony wakes up from snapping with amnesia and for the life of him can't remember the kid hanging around, claiming to be 'just an intern'. Feelings get hurt.

20. A fic that made you feel seen

heavy in my bones by hopeless_hope - 4.4k, 1ch, Gen/Irondad, Chronic Pain, Hurt/Comfort, Hurt Peter Parker, Whump, Father-Son Relationship, Dad Tony, Worried Tony Stark, Angst, Chronic Illness, 5+1 Things

Five times Peter lied to someone about his chronic pain, and one time he told the truth and got the help he needed.

21. A fic you love without knowing the source material

(I mean this is literally all marvel fics but I'll rec this one because I loved it so much)

the locker room by searchingforstars - 15.5k, 3ch, Gen/Irondad, Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Non-Graphic Rape/Non-Con, Hurt Peter Parker, Peter Parker Needs a Hug, Mental Health Issues, Misunderstandings, Arguing, Miscommunication, Crying, Whump, Angst with a Happy Ending, Rape Recovery

Peter's falling apart and he doesn't know how things will ever go back to normal again after Ryder.

22. A fic you've gushed about IRL

Genuinely, this fic is better than most published fiction I've read...

The Third Option by Uncertainty_Principle - 220k, 37ch, Gen/Irondad, Hurt/Comfort, Sexual Abuse, Emotional Abuse, Physical Abuse, Alternate Universe, Hurt Peter Parker, Foster Care, Identity Reveal, Slow Build, Disordered Eating, Homelessness

Ben and May divorced before Peter’s parents died, so when Ben is murdered Peter goes into foster care. It takes just a tiny taste of superpowers for Peter to decide he doesn’t want to put up with his horrible foster father anymore—the streets are infinitely more appealing. All he wants is to be Spider-Man anyway.

So he leaves. Simple.

Simple, that is, until Iron Man needs Spider-Man’s help. Peter isn’t about to turn down an opportunity to fight alongside Tony Freaking Stark, but he also isn’t going to let his hero know that his recruit is a fifteen-year-old homeless dropout. So they strike a deal. Peter will help Tony. In return, the mask stays on. And that’s when things get complicated.

23. A fic you still remember many years later

The Transport Series by ancientreader - 135k, 2 works, Sherlock Holmes/John Watson, Backstory, Canon Drug Use, Childhood Sexual Abuse, Physical Disability, AU, Important Character Death, First Time, Developing Relationship, Angst with a Happy Ending, BDSM, Humour, Fluff

How to become a consulting detective. // Jim's lessons are hard to unlearn.

24. A fic with a line or two that you've memorised by heart

"He has held up buildings and nuclear bombs and whole entire countries on his back. Peter’s body is the heaviest thing he’s ever held."

when my body won't hold me anymore (where will I go) by @madasthesea - 4.4k, 2ch, Gen/Irondad, Temporary Character Death, Angst, Grief/Mourning, Father-Son Relationship, Hurt Peter Parker, Crying, Forehead Kisses, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Medical Inaccuracies, Hugs, Platonic Cuddling

But he knows. He knows. He can feel it. Peter’s dead. Peter Parker watches as Tony carefully arranges his limbs on a cot. “Mr. Stark,” he tries for the dozenth time. No one hears him.

25. Free Space

And to round it off, we have to celebrate the fic that really and truly welcomed me into the CM fanfic world...

Chanel by @4x24 - 24k, 7ch, Derek Morgan/Spencer Reid, Getting Together, Spencer Wears Makeup, Friends to Lovers, Light Angst, Canon Compliant, Canon Typical VIolence, Humour, Fluffy Ending, Pining, Smut Heavy

Penelope mentions offhandedly one night that she thinks Spencer might look good in makeup. Spencer takes the suggestion to heart. Derek likes the new look - and Spencer - more than he probably should. (Season 4)