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Lovers' fevers.
Quick summary: Rust tries to overcome the night you spent together.
Word count: 655 words
Warnings: Mentions of smut; don't chain-smoke???
A/N: Last drabble before I actually commit to a longer story. Read context for this (and eventually that) here!
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To remove himself from his tendency to think and think and think, Rust smoked, slumped over the wiry railing of the upper balcony outside his place. His first instinct had been to drink, of course—but, once he had opened the fridge, he was consumed by the image of your fingers curled pretty over the neck of the Corona he really shouldn’t have given you.
So far, he had made his way through half a pack, sucking down smoke as if he’d be nearly as lucky enough to be granted his silent death wish. At least, then, his skin would stop buzzing like a halogen bulb, give way to true silence.
It was evil, really: if there existed a God, He sure loved violence. Rust would’ve loved to blame it on external possession: it had not been him reduced to an animal, really, but something other, and that something had touched and been touched and had indulged in that pointless hunger. Selfish.
He shuddered quietly at the memory, which pulsed thickly, rhythmically, just behind his eyes, an all-consuming vibration. Half-convinced that there was something supernatural about your touch, Rust hastily lit another cigarette, crushing the previous beneath his matted work shoes, counting on the habit to numb this inconvenient distraction. His skin was thick. So thick, in fact, that there were times where Rust felt it was really a suit, some aspect he could step out of and inspect for maintenance. No sensation, no pain, could ever compare to the fact-based knowledge that everything happens in the head. Manage the mind; manage the self. The mind outlasted the self. Nostrils burning, eyes blown wide, Rust would tell that to Crash before receding, so that his brain would not leak from his ears. It usually worked. Here, he felt acutely aware of every temperature shift, every varying texture upon his skin, writhing secretly with near overstimulation.
Still, you remained, like a ghost. He dragged a hand across his face, like he might manually remove the anguish there.
He should’ve liked to blame you. Temptress, Eve in the garden. Only, in what world would that ever be fair? Rust only existed to deliver what was fair, what was just. He refused to align with the supposed blameless. Marty considered himself blameless, and some unmanaged part of Rust loathed him for it, itched to apprehend him.
Rust was not blameless – far from it. Every bad thing that happened to him, he knew he deserved. Call it karma. Nature carried out its dues – why shouldn’t he?
You had smelled so fresh.
You were trying to quit – he had almost felt guilty, smoking so openly in front of you. Then too, it had been a last-line defence against the craving that only grew every time he allowed himself to look at you, that gnawed and tore at his gut when your tired voice had quietened to a low drawl. You: threat to his realm, soft, wanting. When you had opened yourself to him, took him in deep, you were close and warm and wet – Rust would have liked to have blamed it on his programming, the way he responded. He knew, though, that it was just him.
He would not sleep tonight, he understood. He would not even approach his bed. The whole place still smelled like you, even though the linens had been to the laundromat’s, even though he had had the windows cracked open to Louisiana’s summer heat every night since.
Maybe Rust would drive to a bar. Maybe he would stop at a gas station, stock up on Camel Blues. Then, he would shower. In the morning, he would shower again, knowing that, in any proximity at work, he could risk weakening your resilience to quit with the cigarette smoke that seemed infused into his very being. Or perhaps he would let you be tempted by this – perhaps you would then understand what was happening to him.
#rust cohle x reader#rust cohle x reader smut#true detective season 1#rust cohle#he is such crazy pussy#he makes me SO#the idler wheel TD
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was feeling good and then i remembered altans last words were centered around finally getting his vengeance
#he makes me so#ARRSKGJSAGRAJHR#anyways#yes he deserved his vengeance#but i hope he found peace in the afterlife#altan trengsin#the poppy war
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a sketch i did of evil peppino in attempt to break out of art block (with two expressions bc both were just so good)
#pizza tower#pizza tower peppino#my art#pizza tower fanart#evil peppino#pizza tower evil peppino#he makes me so#skcjdjcjdjc
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Every time I think of John I cry a little
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🩸 THE VAMPIRE OMAR, info.
opportunistic, power and fame-hungry at any and all costs. the true paramount of all narcissism, omar puts his own desire for success and worship above all others.
born in egypt in the early 1500s - turned willingly by another grand, old vampire around the year 1530 (during the early days of the ottoman empire in egypt). omar was promised wealth, good standing and all the riches he could ever imagine by his maker, easily seduced into joining his coven of other beautiful, powerful vampires - with no hesitation, omar accepted, eager to live up to what he believed to be a life destined for greatness.
even during his mortal life, omar found himself drawn to the finer things - to the ideologies of worship, of gods, of altars and those who came to devote themselves to something higher than themselves. he thought highly of himself as he grew up, his looks and marble-etched physique garnering him positive attention from men and women below and above his status. every opportunity to escalate himself through the rungs of society, he took. power was his drug of choice.
in truth, omar lacks genuine ambition for anything besides notoriety. there are no skills that he enjoys, no hobbies that he excels in, no talents to speak of besides the things that he has learned to earn the adoration of others. he is a master manipulator, someone who easily masks his intentions in a crowd and still manages to usurp and harness the end result of whatever it is he wants in that moment. his soul is a dark, murky abyss, ever-hungry for love, attention and approval in any and every form he can obtain it.
he has sired many vampires by his own hand, all exclusively for his own benefit - unfortunate souls manipulated by his greed to benefit him and him only. other aspirational humans who hold more genuine talent than omar, willingly and unwillingly turned by the elder vampire who believed that he could gleam their talents, notoriety and fame for himself - attach himself and leech off of what they possess that he does not. those who resist him perish at his hands. those who fail in giving him what he wants perish at his hands. only a handful of his progeny survive, usually by hiding from their maker until he grows bored and delves into another unwilling escapade.
omar alienates himself from his maker and his coven in the late 1700s, believing that they are inhibiting his full potential for greatness - beginning to roam the earth as an independent, stronghold vampire.
from the 1800s onward, omar’s penchant for success and worship takes a nosedive - he seems to be followed by a black cloud of bad luck, overshadowing his every attempt at regaining his societal and social status of a high-rise life, praised by others who know no better. call it karma or fate, but some unforeseen obstacle always seems to get in his way: this only furthers his desperate determination to rise in the ranks of being an abhorrently powerful vampire.
🥀 OMAR + ELIZA: omar, like much of the rest of the world, finds himself beguiled by the international rockstar sensation, eliza kardel. he watches her debut onto the bursting new music scene from her early career in the 1960s, soon recognizing the force of nature she’ll be and the droves of fans that flock to her very existence.
for all intents and purposes, eliza is the very opposite of omar - catapulted into fame when her desire was to be anything but. he spends years stalking her career, her team, her life - waiting until the pinpointed moment at the height of her fame to insert himself into her daily practices. he bribes and schmoozes her management team, playing off the act of being nothing but an unimaginably wealthy fan of hers. eliza accepts that as the reality, viewing omar as no threat until he forcibly turns her, toppling her life as she knows it upside down.
omar attempts to use his charm, manipulation and wit to bend eliza to his will - bring him into the folds of her fame and success. make him a household name, too, bring him on tour, allow the masses to see her alongside him and they will love me, too. eliza resents him, shields herself from him, hides from him and resents what he has turned her into. upon seeing that she will not be swayed to his desires any time soon, he abandons his fledgling without so much as an explanation on her newfound nature.
with time and neglect, he believes that eliza will come crawling back to him, have no choice but to accept him and his desires. eliza would rather kill her maker or die trying.
#if i got anything wrong abt general vamp lore . u can correct me only in a KIND WAY#otherwise it's literally tumblr writing greg calm down#* V / vamp.#guest muse: omar tag /#he makes me so#(incoherent growling noises)#bc he's such a good bad man#i am not a history buff and i did my best to research ok#details abt his early life are still tbd but i feel like#the later actual vamp life is more important#ANYWAYS (: VOILA (:
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..see him face
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Sakata Gintoki, chained by promises to protect, burdened by his failures to do so
*head in hands*
#gintama#銀魂#sakata gintoki#he makes me so#finished takasugi vs gintoki in the shogun assassination arc again#and its really driving home that everything gintoki has done really is to protect#the majority of the promises he's made is to protect#he's haunted most by his failures to protect#need to write this more coherently but GODS#my post#myst's musings
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okay yes i said i was going to do an intro but i must thought stew
is this blog going to turn into a bf appreciation blog WHAT no crazy anyway
i look at him as he's talking about something i don't know anything about and his eyes are so bright with unabashed passion and suddenly my future is film reel and in each frame i am finally the lead role and he is the camera and he is the constant of time passing and the flickering between frames and we are both sat in the audience as our hands brush one another's and in his eyes i find starlit solace as they crinkle up as he smiles and that dimple in his left cheek is there again and his hair is in the light and this is love in a moment and it will all be over soon so that it can happen again
sorry moots who followed me for go or tma i do this shit on the daily time for a cup of tea and a lie down in the grass
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my thought process while playing Ace Attorney: Dual Destinies (Turnabout for Tomorrow)
I definitely see the potential in this case and I appreciate how the writers managed to string clues to this case throughout the game. However I find many issues with the way capcom-
omg miles edgeworth (*^.^*) <3 <3
#he makes me so#eeeeeeee#ALSO WHEN PEARL CAME??? I FREAKED#miles edgeworth#ace attorney#dual destinies#phoenix wright#aa#pwaa#aa5
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im writing dr ratio porn hehe
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I need to make coherent thoughts about Yusuke's definition of love being "giving affection for nothing in return" because ooougggUGGIJFNFH
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Andrew Garfield talks to Elmo about grief and the passing of his mother
#andrew garfield#agarfieldedit#andrewgarfieldedit#gif#dilfgifs#mancandykings#flawlessgentlemen#dailymenedit#dailycelebs#userbbelcher#usersavana#userchristineb#underbetelgeuse#gaybuckybarnes#usereri#useraurore#userallisyn#tuserpolly#usergal#userdarren#usertyger#flawlesscelebs#the way he talks about it makes me feel so in love#this interaction made me dsfhgdhjsdf
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y’all just— thinking about how excited Stanley must have been to host the twins— Alex says he smokes cigars but he doesn’t smoke once in the show— has a beer gut but he only drinks sodas in front of the kids— doesn’t swear when they’re around which must have taken INCREDIBLE effort— Stanley Pines, known crook, buying pancake mix at the supermarket and many bottles of syrup— learning to cook basic healthy meals and burning so many of them before he gets it right— buying new sheets, new mattresses— avoiding bunk beds because it reminds him of Ford— looking at the attic room he made wondering “is this enough will they like me”— trying to act aloof at the bus stop so he doesn’t betray the fact that he was there hours early— watching them goof around and thinking of New Jersey beaches— then the first night they’re there, he watches them debate running away and only stay because Mabel shook a magic 8 ball. That must have kept him awake all night.
#stanley isn’t perfect but the fact that he made tangible efforts to be a better guardian just makes me ache so much#he has so much love inside him and it had nowhere to go until the twins came#man. The show hits harder as an adult methinks#gravity falls#gf#stanley pines#grunkle stan#thisisnotawebsitedotcom#stan pines#dipper pines#mabel pines
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the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again
#yeehaw#1k#5k#10k#posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours?#also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that!#unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference#edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense#also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags#1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now#he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic#2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign#like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock#3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing#it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is#extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once#it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life#i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about#Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect#if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it#aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week
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Doey from poppy playtime met someone like him!
#myart#chloesimagination#comic#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#fnaf fanart#doey the doughman#golden freddy#fnaf cassidy#evan afton#dave afton#Jack ayers#kevin barnes#Matthew Hallard#poppy playtime#poppy playtime chapter 4#Besides the doctor Doey made chapter 4 so good#doey makes me cry and sob#he did deserve all tha pain#god take all his pain away and give it to Harley Sawyer#the doey trio and the golden duo could get along#a full friend group they are together#and I think that’s so sweet
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heart is pouding
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