#he just needs some time :(

[gurlu]

Ben is back to being himself !

He feels bad for being a dead weight during these past few floors...

Hopefully some relax time will help.

[hopeforbountifulasks]

hope are you aware that:

we love you

[mrsfrecklesmarauders]

TW: Homophobia and Internal Homophobia

Sirius couldn't sleep again. The nightmares were endless. Sirius couldn't stop thinking about everything his parents said, everything Alphard said and everything Regulus said before he left. Sirius thought it would be easy now that he was at The Potters. But he couldn't get away from his wicked family. They didn't leave his mind.

James was next to him, snoring occasionally. Sirius was grateful that after James heard him yell waking up from a nightmare, he had suggested to sleep in the same bed. But Sirius was also embarrassed. He didn't want to be this vulnerable around his friend.

Sirius sighed as he noticed James moving in his sleep. He was facing Sirius now and this position helped him not snore anymore. Sirius stared.

James' hair was a mess. Even wilder than normally. Without his glasses, Sirius could see James' features more clearly.

Sirius noticed his long eyelashes, the marks of the glasses' bridge had left on his nose. His lips were too dry to be true. This boy never moisturize his lips. And in a comical way it seemed like he was smiling.

James wasn't particularly handsome. But there was something about him that made him good looking. His untidy hair made him kind of hot, and even through his pijama t-shirt, Sirius could see his muscles. The white cotton contrasted with the chocolate smooth skin. Sirius stared at James' apple moving as he swallowed.

Almost without thinking, Sirius' hand reached out for James' hair. Sirius’ fingertips barely touched it before he realized what he was doing...

What the fuck was Sirius doing? What was he thinking?

Faggot, faggot, faggot... Was what crossed through Sirius' mind as he pulled away so fast, he ended up falling to the floor, making a horrible noise.

Sirius had been going insane ever since Remus kissed him last term. He couldn't stop thinking about it. Sirius had been sure his whole life that he was straight, into girls. Nothing more. He wasn't like Dumbledore or Edgar, feminine and happy. Typically gay.

Then Remus kissed him, and he enjoyed it for a second before definitely pulling away. Then over the summer, Orion had been accusing Alphard of being gay, so Sirius lost it. He said he was gay too. Only to contradict his father, only to piss him off. He was severely punished for that.

But Sirius had been going mad and paranoic about the subject. What if he was gay? He couldn't be, right? He couldn't. He was just going mad, that was it.

"Padfoot?" James asked with a sleepy voice "Are you okay?"

Sirius swallowed the pain in his back and the knot on his throat, as James popped up his head to look at him. His hair was even messier and his eyes were half opened. He put on his crooked glasses.

Sirius looked away. This was James. Sirius was going mad. Probably because of how James flirted with Sirius as a joke all the time.

"What happened?"

"I fell out of bed" Sirius answered irritated "What does it look like?"

James gave him a sympathetic look.

"Nightmare?"

Sirius stood up. He was too hot and restless.

"Something like that" he started walking "I'll be right back"

"Where are you going?"

"Out! I need some air..." And a cigarette. But Sirius didn't buy them. It was usually Remus who gave them to him. But Sirius didn't want to think about Remus right now. This was all his fault.

"I will come with you..." James said opening the covers and revealing his boxers, his bushy legs and his crotch.

Sirius hated that he stared for a second before mentally slapping himself.

"No!" he practically yelled "I need to be alone"

"But Pads..."

"I said alone, James!"

James didn't insist. When Sirius used his name it meant he was really pissed.

"Okay" James said worriedly. And then he yawned.

"Go back to sleep" Sirius tried to avoid James' presence as he put on his shoes. And then he quickly walked out of the room.

The knot on his throat went bigger and bigger as he walked outside to the Potters' Garden. He let out a loud sob. He wasn't breathing properly well.

Sirius didn't want to be gay. He guessed he had nothing against gay people. Dumbledore, Edgar and Marlene were the ones he knew. But he couldn't be gay himself. He had to be normal.

Sirius would hate that for himself. He didn't want fingers pointing at him, he didn't want people assuming he would go to gay bars and use makeup, he didn't want people calling him what Orion had called Alphard. He didn't want people whispering about him or laughing at him. He didn't want people calling him a faggot and hitting him in the street.

"NO SON OF MINE IS GOING TO BE A FUCKING FAGGOT, DO YOU HEAR ME?" Orion had yelled as he hit Sirius "I RATHER YOU'D BE DEAD... I REALLY RATHER YOU WOULD BE DEAD"

The worst part was that he hadn't sound angry. Orion had been disappointed and hurt. Almost crying. As if Sirius would have failed him.

Sirius had always been a rebel, always making his parents angry. But he never wanted to be a failure to them.

Sirius was just being paranoic and stupid. He fancies girls. He fancied girls. And he fancied only girls.

Sirius realized that he was panting and grabbing his chest when he heard his name.

"Sirius? What are you doing here on your own, love?"

When Sirius saw Effie on the door, he bursted out crying. He really couldn't help it. He really wanted to be normal. But now he was crying like freaking idiot. Sirius hated himself.

"Oh darling..."

Effie hugged him and Sirius broke down into her arms. She was smelling nicely and welcoming, like cotton, fresh flowers and home. She felt Sirius feel safe.

"It is okay, sweetheart" Effie said as he sobbed "I am here for you, okay?... Sh sh sh" she added as she patted his back.

Sirius ended up telling Effie everything that happened at Grimmauld Place over the summer and that night. Remembering every detail hurt.

Euphemia offered Sirius a cigarette which he appreciated, apparently Fleamont and James hated that she did that but she sometimes sneaked to have a fag. Sirius thought she was cool.

"I am not gay, though" Sirius added quickly, trying not to blush or feel stupid "I just said that to defend my Uncle... He is not gay either"

Euphemia gave him a big smile and squeezed his hand.

"Parents should love you for who you are, sweetheart..."

"But I'm not..."

"I know..." Effie interrupted "I was just saying that whatever you are and whoever you love, parents should love you"

Sirius sighed "I don't even know who I am"

Sirius was embarrassed to tell her about his weird feelings and thoughts about Remus, about James, about everyone at the moment. His mind was playing weird tricks.

"You are a special sweet boy who deserves all the love in the world" Effie smiled "Monty and I accept you as who you are"

"A straight boy?" Sirius smiled nervously. Are you sure about that? A voice said inside his mind which he tried to ignore.

Effie chuckled "A boy who defends what he believes"

Sirius smiled at her. But he wasn't hundred percent at ease. Perhaps he was just sad and angry. Once at Hogwarts, he would flirt with girls and perhaps find a cute girlfriend and this would all be forgotten. He wasn't gay.

But he needed to talk to Remus. And he had no clue what he was going to say. He didn't want to lose him.

"Effie..."

"Yeah?"

"Thank you for listening to me" Sirius said. Effie smiled "Do you mind not telling James and Monty about this?"

"Sure"

"I will tell them eventually, just not now"

Euphemia nodded and Sirius was relieved.

"Let's go back to sleep, love"

"Okay"

Perhaps everything would be easy if he had parents like The Potters. But they weren't his parents. Orion and Walburga hated who he was and would hate him even more if he was gay. But Sirius wasn't gay, just confused.

[vivizn]

@malt-rants-and-stuff

He will as soon as he figures out his foot

[egophiliac]

buckle up lads we're going BACK INTO THE BOOK

[squidsmeister]

dungeon meshi is my favorite road-trip comedy film

[gabichanwrites]

Just realized that if only Poseidon went straight to Ithaca and asked for Odysseus, Penelope could do the biggest gamble of them all and get one of the suitors in SUCH DEEP SHIT.

Poseidon: "Odysseus of Ithaca! Tell me this instant where is this mortal who dared to hurt my son and try to lie about his name!

Penelope: ...

Suitors: ....

Penelope: *stops weaving*

Penelope: *pointing right at Antonius* There he is! This one is Odysseus, my husband and king of Ithaca! Please don't sink us, almighty god of the sea!

Antonius: What? I'm not Odysseus, I--

Penelope: Of course he would say that! He's a liar!

Poseidon: *has no reason to not believe her, wipes him out effortlessly*

Then Odysseus comes back like "It's me, Penelope! Your husband!"

Penelope: "No, you're not. From now on your name is Agamemnon the Greater and the new lover I marry to make king."

Odysseus: *grumbling* why after Agamemnon though...

AND HOW WOULD POSEIDON EVER KNOW?!

[aalghul]

once again thinking about jason as duke’s robin. he’s ~4 years younger than jason, and that puts him at 8-12 during Jason’s time as robin. that’s prime time to get attached to your local kid vigilante before your own life goes downhill.

and if we try to keep duke’s meeting with bruce in zero year + duke’s age (so he can remember the meeting and hold that conversation with bruce), he has to be around 8. if he starts following batman through the news at that time because of the mess that just happened, the robin he sees is probably jason. I’ve literally connected the dots

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

i vote that next year instead of reading Dracula we do a Jeeves & Wooster Book Club. those two never got the rabid tumblr shipping fandom they deserved (disqualified for the sheer technicality of being published a century too soon). we must correct this injustice

[captain-krow-drozdov]

Danny Is An Alternate Version Of Ra's Al Ghul And Flash Already Called Dibs On Adopting Him

Danny In All His Sleep Deprived Slightly Scuffed Up From A Fight Glory Is On His Way To Clockworks Tower To Hopefully Get A Nap And Maybe Some Homework Done When A Natural Portal Opens Up In Front Of Him And Proceeds To Unceremoniously Drop Him In The DC Verse Just Outside Of Central City Before Promptly Closing Leaving A Tired Danny Behind In A Run Down Abandoned Parking Lot.

It's Times Like This When Danny Regrets Putting Off Learning How To Make His Own Portals, Cause Now He Is Very Much Stuck For The Foreseeable Future And He Has No Idea Where Or When He Is. Luckily For Him However Central City Isn't Too Far Away, Unlucky For Him However Is That Once In The City He Realizes This Isn't His Dimension. He's Pretty Sure He'd Remember Something Called The Justice League.

So What Do You Do When Supernatural Bullshit Fails You? You Fall Back On Your Mad Scientist Roots And You Make A Portal Gun. So That's Exactly What Danny Plans To Do.

Unfortunately Staying Alive And Building Questionably Safe Portal Technology Requires Money And Supplies, So He Ends Up Wandering From City To City Doing Odd Jobs/Fixing Up Busted Tech For Cash Or Unwanted Electronics For His "Operation: Get Home" Needs. This Obviously Ends In A Few Superhero Encounter Shenanigans.

Though He Always Ends Up Back Near Central City, Both On The Off Chance The Natural Portal Will Open Up Again And Because Out Of All The Superheroes That Apparently Exist In This Universe The Speedsters Are His Favorite (Red Robin Is Solidly His Second Favorite Ever Since The Gotham Vigilante Gave Him A Large Coffee Filled With Enough Caffeine To Kill A Man).

Unbeknownst To Danny However Is That Every Hero/Vigilante He Has Encountered Has Come To At Least One Of The Following Conclusions; 1. Run Away Meta Who Is In Desperate Need Of A Good Meal/Adoption Bait. 2. Possibly Red Robin/Tim Drake Clone 3. A Good Kid But Could Possibly Be A Future Rouge If Left Unsupervised. 4. Did Bats Get A New Kid And Why Is He Here?

All Flash Knows Is That He Saw The Kid First And Therefore Has Dibs. Suck It Bruce.

Fast-forward A Few Months And Danny Gets Hurt During A Rogue Attack While Trying To Help Some Civilians Get To Safety (Old Hero Habits Die Hard (Ha Die Hard) And All That Jazz) And He Nopes Out Once Everyone Is Safe And When The Paramedics Are Busy With Other People Unaware He Left A Blood Sample Behind.

One DNA Test Brought To You By Paranoid Bat Concerns Of A Possible Red Robin Clone Later And They Find Out That Dannys DNA Matches One Ra's Al Ghul.

They Now Think Danny Is An Escaped Ra's Al Ghul Clone.

Memes For The Vibes:

[rika-mortis]

Headcanon: Deep down they both want to be their fairy godparent/godkid again after losing them, but don't believe they deserve each other and feel like they aren't worthy to be their companion anymore

They both need counseling and therapy as a whole package

[bookalicent]

yeah so this was insane

[egophiliac]

was this anyone else's first thought, or

[plutonicbees]

"it's really me. is it really really really you?"

some yj19 konbart for @superfamilyweek day 2: across space or time/friends & teammates (kind of ended up fulfilling both??)

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Flower Empowered.

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