#he is so much more than just ‘precious sleepy boi uwu��

[kami-kun1003]

TWST fic writers stop reducing Silver’s entire personality to just “sleepy boy who falls asleep all the time and is sooooo sleepy and tired and did i mention he sleeps a lot and also he loves his dad” challenge (impossible) (gone wrong)

[tamakisuwu]

— make a wish. | tamaki amajiki.

Tamaki Amajiki x Gender Neutral! Reader.

Summary : you were supposed to invite Tamaki over but that changed when you and Tamaki walk together after school.

Warnings : none !!

Content : fluff, fluff, fluff uwu, short-ish one shot

taglist : @kingtamakimurder , @kbakugouwu , @shoutogepi , @katsukisprincess , @bleach-your-panties !! 💘

notes : hAppY hAppY biRthDay to tAmaKiiIi !! its been a few months since i watched bnha season 4 and the moment i watched it tamaki caught my interest immediately cause he’s just so precious like my heart can’t take it 🥺. i was so interested in him that i made my first story about him which was all about jealousy in january !! so happy birtday to this baby, i love him and ya’ll so so much ❤❤❤ happy readings and enjoy !!!

Sunlight hits your bed, yellow and orange setting in your bed-- you groaned loudly as it hits your eyes, softly opening them and blinking them, adjusting them to the freshly exposed sunlight. Turning over to your side, you picked up your phone that was once charging and unlocked it, your eyes immediately setting them on the date.

March 4, 2020. You gasped, it was your best friend’s birthday! your best friend meaning Tamaki-- basically sprinting yourself out of bed, you ran towards your shower, quickly getting ready for the day while you thought of what you could do for the shy, cute, birthday boy.

As you were getting ready for the day, an idea popped up in your head ; a small light bulb appearing on top of your head-- it wasn’t the best idea but it was decent, to say the least. Walking out of your dorm, you walked towards the living room-7 immediately seeing Mirio who, in fact, was eating breakfast. “Morning Mirio!” You shouted, catching the attention of the blonde male while you walked towards the cabinets, opening them and getting a cereal for yourself.

“Hey y/n! how was your sleep? I bet you’re looking for a specific birthday boy.” Mirio said, wiggling his eyebrows while you rolled your eyes at his response, sitting in front of him before putting your cereals and milk together in one bowl. It was true that, in fact, you had the biggest crush on the shy male for awhile now, especially since he’s been your best friend since your first year at UA.

Sighing softly, you shook your head to remove those thoughts out of your head-- grabbing your spoon and shoving it to the bowl of cereals, mixing the milk and the cereals together. “My sleep was fine but actually, yes I am looking for that specific someone! I was planning to invite him to my room and celebrate if he wasn’t busy.” You said, smiling happily as you dragged the spoonful of cereal towards your mouth.

Mirio smiled back at you, feeling happiness bubble up inside him as you explained your plans for yours and his best friend’s birthday. “I think he’s available today but I’m not sure, his parents are out I think so.. take your chance!” Mirio says, smiling his signature smile that made million’s of people smile. You smiled back and nodded in response before going into a very peaceful silence and started to finish your meals.

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Walking over to school with your best friend, Mirio, you glanced at him. “Hey.. I didn’t see Tamaki earlier in the dorms, did you see him when you woke up?” You asked, your eyes showing that one emotion ; curiosity. “Mhm, I did, he did say that he’ll go a bit earlier cause he has some errands to do with Fat Gum.” Mirio says, chuckling slightly as he remembered how Tamaki was running around in a rush.

Finally, arriving at school, you adjusted your bag that was on your shoulder-- walking more slower when you realized Tamaki might not even be in class or school at all today so how the hell were you supposed to ask him? Mirio seems to have noticed your slight change of mood due to him putting his big hands on your shoulder, smiling his heroic smile, like always. “Don’t worry, you’ll be able to ask Tamaki, maybe after school or something? I know Fat Gum wouldn’t keep Tamaki stuck at work on his special day.”

Smiling at this, you nodded, Mirio smiled at your response before letting go and walking over to his class, his bag slung over his shoulder nicely. “See you later or tomorrow y/n and have fun with Tamaki tonight!” Mirio shouted, winking while you blushed. You then realized that Mirio practically screamed that out loud-- making everyone look at you, whispers heard while you blushed even more than before, running over to your classroom, embarrassed as ever.

“I’m so gonna kill you later on Mirio..” You muttered out, grumpily walking over to your desk and setting your slightly heavy bag down. Sitting down, you propped your elbows up, already going into a sleepy mode as you stared at the empty bored that was in front of you. “U-um.. y-y/n..?” A voice muttered out behind you-- your body stiffened as you recognized that voice.

Turning around slowly, your chair moving slightly as slight chattering was heard in the background but you didn’t pay any mind to it, you only payed a mind to him. The guy that was supposed to be with Fat Gum, the guy who was supposed to be working right now. “T-tamaki! I-I thought you were gonna be working with Fat Gum today..” You exclaimed, not expecting that you would be facing your best friend right now-- you haven’t even made a speech on how you should invite him or a script!

“O-oh.. i-it turns o-out F-fat G-gum just g-gave me a-a discount c-card for m-my f-favorite restaurant as a.. b-birthday g-gift..” Tamaki stuttered out, his voice going incredibly low once he said the word birthday gift. Your mouth formed an ‘o’ shape in response before you regained your composure. “U-um Tamaki, I wanna ask if--” You were about to ask him the question before the door slammed open revealing Nejire who was happily walking towards Tamaki.

Nejire reached out her arm, slinging it over Tamaki’s shoulder while you watched, chuckling as you saw Tamaki’s reaction. “Happy Birthday Tamakiiiii!!~” Nejire screamed out, making almost everyone in the classroom look over at you guys while Tamaki’s face went bright red. “N-nejire.. n-not so l-loud!” Tamaki shouted out, stuttering in the process while he covered his face with his hands. “Hmmm, sorry, didn’t mean to!~ so what’s your plan for today? got any speciallll plans with you knoww~” Nejire said, nudging Tamaki in the stomach when she specifically said someone.

Tilting your head in curiousity, you looked over at Tamaki, who was visibly shaking, his ears bright red from embarrassment. “W-well you s-see I-I wanna--” Before Tamaki could even finish his sentence, the door flew open once more. Expecting to see Mirio, you turned around which was followed by everyone in the classroom who was met face to face with your teacher. “We will now begin our new training! now put on your outfits and lets go!” Your teacher says, watching as everyone roamed around the classroom, getting their costumes.

Dressing yourself up in your costume, you sighed. Today was gonna be a long day for sure.

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Groaning loudly, you smiled happily as you realized that school was now over, you stretched your back, immediately hearing your bones cracking. Sighing loudly, you groaned once more, now realizing that you haven’t even asked Tamaki the question yet. You slowly gave up, ‘I mean.. Tamaki must’ve left school already so there’s no point..’ You thought, slowly getting your bag and slinging it over your shoulder.

Turning around your heel and walking out of your now empty classroom, you sighed sadly-- ‘I guess next year, I can try if ever..’ You thought, glancing around your surroundings which was the corridor ; doors were still open while a few students were walking to the dorms-- you frowned, kicking into invisible air before walking away, now walking towards the school entrance.

Step, step, step..

That was all that was heard as you walked towards the dorms, still gloomy due to the fact that you wouldn’t even get to spend the birthday of Tamaki all alone. ‘I wonder what he’s doing now? is he with his friends and--’ before you could even finish your train of thought, a loud, stuttering voice that you knew all too well, yelled out to you while footsteps were heard from behind you.

“y-y/n! w-wait!” Your eyes widened, turning around quickly-- you were met with a sight that you could never, ever forget and that was Tamaki, running over to you, sweat dripping, cheeks flushed, and with him panting. He always looked so... gorgeous and that wasn’t fair. At all. Finally, Tamaki caught up to you-- well he would have anyways, I mean he was in the top three so you wouldn’t even have a chance to beat him in speed nor strength.

Chuckling slightly at this scene, you ruffled Tamaki’s indigo hair before turning around and walking away, making sure that Tamaki is following you as you follow the path. “Whatcha want Tama? I thought you were busy today?” You asked, softly swaying your hands back and forth, slightly brushing over Tamaki’s skin making him blush to which, you didn’t seem to notice. “W-well.. I-I.. I have a q-question for y-you..” Tamaki stutters out, visibly shaking as he feels the nervousness build up.

You smiled happily at him, now realizing that now was probably your best chance at asking him. It’s worth a shot anyways. “Oh! well I also have a question for you too Tama!” You said, giggling once you saw Tamaki’s face become even more red. You sighed happily, wishing that this moment could last forever but then stopped as you realized that you haven’t said that word yet. “O-oh.. t-then you c-can go f-first..” Tamaki says, nervously fiddling with his fingers as he looks at you.

Rolling your eyes in response-- which he doesn’t see since you’re in front of him, you looked around, making sure that you and Tamaki were secluded before turning around quickly and grabbing onto Tamaki’s shoulders like how Mirio does. “Tamaki! if we both have a question for each other then we should both say together okay?” You said, grinning cheekily at him. Letting go of his shoulders, you waited for his response, the both of you now standing still. “O-okay.. l-let’s count o-on t-three..” Tamaki said, his whole face exploding into a shade of red while you nodded in response.

“One..”

“Two..”

“Three!”

“Make a wish!”

“I-I wish for y-you to b-be m-mine!”

Staring at each other in shock, silence was filled in the air, the wind flowing along making your hair as well as Tamaki’s hair fly smoothly while other people’s footsteps were heard, cars passing by, and people muttering, it was all cliche but.. you liked it for some reason.

Being the first one to break the silence, you laughed, laugh after laugh coming out of your mouth while Tamaki stared at you in shock-- were you rejecting him? were you saying no? are you making fun of him for his stu-- before Tamaki could finish that thought, he felt a pair of arms wrap around him tightly, her face burying itself deep in his chest. “It’s so irony how we both said it at the same time and how its basically a question to an answer.” You said, grinning widely as you saw Tamaki’s confused gaze on you.

Deciding that you should be the one to make your move, you looked up at him, smiling still. “Happy Birthday Tama, I don’t have the best gift but I can always buy you next time but I hope this makes up for it.” You said, finally saying the words that you’ve always wanted to say before slightly tip toeing to meet his height and capturing his lips onto yours into a soft but sweet peck.

Parting away slowly, you gazed at Tamaki lovingly, your hand going up to rub his cheek while his hands nervously went around your waist-- his hands visibly shaking-- well.. who wouldn’t? its in public but there weren’t many people around anyways. “And for your information, your wish has been granted!” You said, immediately cuddling yourself into his chest while Tamaki stayed still as you listened to his rapid heart beat.

“y-y/n.. c-can we do t-this at the d-dorms p-please?” Tamaki said, pulling away from you softly while you nodded, grabbing his wrist and dragging him away to go to the dorms. “Of course we can since I love you so much!” You said, making sure to say the 3 lettered word softly and lovingly as you wanted to express your feelings, you wanted to say it and you did. Tamaki’s face went beet red once again, looking down to avoid your loving gaze before muttering out softly but loud enough for you to hear. “I love you too y/n..”

Who knew everything would start out with one simple phrase that was called ; ‘make a wish’ ?

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ending notes : waaa im really happy with how this turned out and i still wanna say happy birthday to this cute ass baby boy like if he was real-- bitch, im gonna cuddle his ass all day while giving him endless food like he’s too precious and now its his special day ? what 🥺. this is a bit more special than any other birthday special due to tamaki being my ultimate bean also the next story will be a new character for my blog which is tomura uwu but anyways i hope you enjoyed still !! requests are open so feel free to request !! 💗💗

[lvngdoncultz]

pre-apocalypse!michael x gallant headcanons~

going out together consists of...

michael NEEDS to be holding gallant in some way, whether its holding hands or linking arms, its a must for him

for safety purposes of course

that and hes just mega clingy :3

gallant finds it really cute how his boyfriend is so affectionate

michael SPOILS gallant to the max

as much as gal begs michael not to buy him anything, he still does bc that twink cant stop the mfin antichrist

but gallant always finds a way of slipping a $20 or $30 into michaels pocket

“baby baby baby lets go in here i wanna see if they got any cute button ups!!” gallant would say as he points to a cute clothing shop

“didnt you just say we were heading over to the food court—?” michael would just simply pull gal closer to him by his belt loop

gallant aaaalways has his hand in michaels back pocket when theyre walking together

michael keeps his arm slung lazily around gal’s shoulder

gallant is two inches shorter than michael and hes always teasing gal about his height

but the height difference is rlly precious

michael already knows what gallant wants to eat because gallant would be rambling about a specific food he’s been craving for all day

it still surprises gallant tbh

michael gets something big for himself bc hes still a growing boy that needs his nutrients uwu

gallant loves watching michael eat his food, not in a creepy way but in a loving way

he just finds it so adorable when michael enjoys his food

michael hums whenever he chews his food, thats how you know he loves whatever hes having

when michael catches gallant watching him, he gets all shy and blushy

gallants heart fucking melts when his boyfriend gets shy, its the purest thing ever

they both share a drink and have two different straws for each other

but it doesnt really matter since they mix up whoevers straw is which

off they go to buy more stuff for each other

if michael ever catches someone staring at gallant, he wraps his arm around gal’s waist and pulls him into a soft kiss with a cute “i love you”, glaring back at the person and probably casting bad luck or curses onto them

vise versa, if gallant catches someone staring at michael, he practically attaches himself to michael by wrapping his arms around the tallers torso and presses kisses onto his neck

sometimes gallant likes to pull michael over to a hidden area to have a quick and passionate makeout sesh

he leaves michael speechless and flustered

the two end off their day with getting frozen yogurt

even though it gets colder when the sun goes down they still want frozen yogurt

michael tries offering gallant his overcoat but he rather hide inside the coat with michael

“this is why you should’ve brought a jacket”

“but i didnt feel like carrying it around!!”

michael takes gallant home to his giant mfin mansion of a house

gallant gets all whiney because he doesnt want his boyfriend to leave

michael gives into gallants begging and cuteness and stays the night with him

gallant just really wants to see sleepy michael thats really it

“...so, about that little makeout session earlier.”

sorry this isnt so great!! its my first time writing a list of headcanons and actually posting it so!! i hope yall liked it!!

[minminnie-shii]

may I request an imagine of verivery dates: where each member would take, how they would treat you, and a whole lot of fluff too

A/N: I’m so sorry this took so long. I accidentally deleted it like twice and I kind of gave up for a while

buttt I’m back at it and ready to write this because these boys are my babies and their comeback has given me motivation

I hope you like itttttt

@multifandomhell23

~

Lee Dongheon

what a hard-working boy

he spends most of his days watching over his six children making sure they don’t accidentally kill themselves

especially Minchan and Yeonho

moving on

whenever he has a day off he doesn’t hesitate to run and spend it with you

shows up at your apartment with your favorite snacks and special treats

the two of you run around grabbing all the blankets and pillows that you own

you make a large fort in the middle of your living room

once its done you both crawl inside

dongyeon opens up his laptop and puts on a cheesy movie for the two of you to watch

in the middle of the movie he starts to poke at your sides slightly

you ignore him until his poking turns into tickling

you giggle slightly and start to roll away from him

he would follow after you and the two of you would get caught in the blankets pulling down that fort

dongyeon would stop once the two of you were completely wrapped up in all the blankets

he would smile down at you and pepper light kisses all over your face

rubbing his nose against your he would finally kiss your lips gently

‘I love you’

after cleaning up the mess you made you would both decided to go to bed early

snuggling up together, dongyeon would tuck you safely under his chin

whispering to each other until he falls asleep

you carefully crane your head upwards pressing a soft kiss on his chin

you fall asleep to the peaceful sound of his breathing filling your ears

Bae Hoyoung 

i may be in love with this squish

i wanna poke his dimple

move on

he loves doing outdoorsy things

going to the beach, amusement parks anything where the two of you can have fun at

he’s also the kind of person that will totally surprise you about going somewhere

he randomly shows up at you door

‘get dressed jagiya, we’re going out today’

you did as you were told and got dressed quickly

the two of you skipped through the streets happily

you couldn’t contain your excitement when you showed up at a festival

dragging him around you two would find many things to do

he would find a game that he really wanted to play

taking you over he would try many times to beat it so he could win you a cute plushie

after a few tries, he gave up with a pout

you smiled at him and played the game, winning on your try

you would hand him the llama plushie that you had one

‘wah, my jagiya is the best isn’t she?’

the two of you would walk around the festival until nightfall 

hoyoung would surprise you by handing you a lantern

‘shall we send one off with our wishes?’

‘you are my wish hoyoung’

he would cringe at how cheesy you were but tell you the same thing

after sending off your wish he would hug you tightly to him

‘you really are my wish jagiya, forever and always’

Hong Minchan

minchan prefers more intimate style dates

the ones where it if just the two of you together

whether it’s the two of you lying on the couch together

or when you’re reading him a new book that you bought recently

but

his favorite type of date

is when the two of you are in his studio and he’s playing the piano for you

you expressed multiple times that you love it when you hear the sound of a piano

so anytime the two of you are in the studio together he makes sure to play for you at least once

he would motion for you over to sit next to him on the piano bench

you would stand up from the couch and walk over, sitting down next to him

he placed his hands delicately on the keys before playing a soft melody

it’s a melody that you knew all too well

your favorite ballad that he ever wrote

after all

he wrote it about you

about how he first fell in love with you and how he knew that you were the person he wants to be with forever

every time he would play for you, it would make you feel sleepy

your head rested on his shoulder as you continued to sing quietly

he would smile and look down at you as your eyes fluttered closed

his heart would burst at the sight of you

once he finished playing he would carefully shift so you was laying against his chest 

running his fingers through your hair softly 

he would hum quietly until you were finally fully asleep

he would carry you back to the couch and cover you up

letting you sleep until he was finished with his work

that was his favorite time with you

Jo Gyehyeon

this boys only mission in life is to show off

especially to you

he loves it when you praise him for something

it doesn’t matter what it is

so where does he take you out on a date

a place to watch him perform his martial arts of course

you sit and gleefully watch as he does multiple flips and twists in the air

in an attempt to really show off to you he does a triple backflip

only for him to slip on his footing and fall on his butt

‘Ah, hyeonie are you okay?’ 

you run over to him to quickly check up on him 

he just lies there pouting with his arms across his chest

‘i can’t believe i did that’

you giggle and help him sit up

‘i can, you’re not exactly the most elegant one’

would pout even more because you made fun of him

he would whine and complain while rolling around on the floor

‘my jagiya made fun of me, my life cant go on anymore’

you would just watch amused as he continued to complain out loud

he wouldnt be paying attention to where he was rolling and would knock into your legs causing you to fall over 

would freak out because he accidentally hurt you

you would just laugh as he would run over to you 

‘jagiya, are you all right?’ 

you would grab his arm and pull him down so he was lying on top of you

holding him close you would stroke his hair and assure him that you were all right

‘youre the best, you know that right?’ 

would blush like crazy and hide his face in your neck

you would continue to compliment him until he couldn’t take it anymore

‘i’m only the best because you make me the best’

so much fluff and cheesiness between the two of you it’s unreal

Ju Yeonho

this little squish

we are all aware that taking selfies is his life

so what does he do on a date with you?

takes you all around seoul so the two of you can take pictures together

it always surprises you that he always managed to find new places to take you to

but, he loved taking you the han river

he could take pictures of you in the sunset

though he always says that every picture he takes of you is pretty

he especially loved it when you take pictures of him

you always gush about how adorable he looks would cause him to smile even more

‘wah, you look amazing in this angle dont move’

would make you stand still for ten minutes until you convince him that he had enough pictures

he even takes pictures of you eating

‘yeonho, if you take one more picture of me, im throwing your phone in the river’

‘but you look so pretty, can i take one more?’

after you two were finished you would sit in the grass and just watched the stars

you would lie on his chest and point out all the constellations that you see

‘wah my jagiya is so smart, everyone must be so jealous’

while talking, you would eventually fall asleep cuddled to his chest

the second he knew you were sleeping, would pull out his phone and take another picture of you

‘delete it’

‘awe but it’s my favorite!’

Kim Yongseung

so like

mr.competative over here

as soon as you make it to the dorm runs over to you holding to rubiks cubes

‘i bet you i can solve it faster than you’

‘bring it on’

you plop yourselves onto the couch and the boys all gather around you

‘ready? start!’ 

yongseung immediately starts working on it

his hands are flying as he expertly flips the sides

‘wow, noona’s really bad at this’

the boys would mutter about how much you suck causing you to be distracted

‘yah! how can i even try when you wont shut up?’ 

you stand up and throw the cube at minchan

‘it wasnt even me that said it!’

while youre all arguing yongseung stands up and slams the cube on the table

‘finished!’

you look at him in shock

‘that’s not fair, they distracted me!’ 

he just smiles and grabs your hand

‘oh well, time for my reward for winning’

drags you into his room and lays you on the bed

‘you did that on purpose, didn’t you?’

he would just laugh as he hovered over you

‘maybe a little’

kisses you all over your face and neck while holding you close to him

‘i’m sorry ive been so busy lately’ 

you lean your head up and press your lips to his in a way to tell him that its okay

‘never, will i blame you for missing a date because of this, youre doing what you love, and i love that it makes you happy’

you really are the greatest

a very long and well needed makeout session occurs after that

after all, he did win

Yoo Kangmin

uwu

this little bean is so precious and must be protected at all costs

his favorite things in life

are soccer and you

so he loves taking you to the field behind your house and playing soccer with you

most of the time while playing you little siblings come and join along

kangmin loves playing with your siblings

especially your younger siblings

being an only child made it hard for him to have fun most of the time

but now that he has you, he’ll gladly to everything he can to keep you close

even if it means having your little brother cling to his leg every time he walks through the door of your house

would take all of you out to the field to start a game

‘jagiya, come be on my team’

‘no i want her on my team!’

you wink at kangmin before running over to your sister

picking her up and resting her on your hip

‘come on together we can beat Kangmin!’

‘wah, are you really going against me?’ 

‘yep, we can totally beat you’

the game begins and you all laugh as you all run around the field

you little brother went to kick the ball he slipped and fell

he began to cry and rub his face softly 

kangmin would be by his side before you were

‘ah, did you get hurt? are you all right?’

your brother would attempt to wink at you causing you to smile

you would steal the ball from kangmin and kick it down the field

‘you betrayed me? i dont know how to feel!’ 

kangmin would chase after you and wrap his arms around your waist lifting you into the air

‘you tricked my jagiya, thats not fair’

you shrugged your shoulders and looked back at him

‘alls fair in love and war’

‘is it now? ill be sure to use that later’

[headoverjojo]

uwu fluffy domestic nsfw for bruno's gang?

Hi there dear! Uh, Iiiii didn’t know what exactly was “domestic nsfw?” Anyway, I hope that what I’ve written is close to what you wanted!

Spicy domestic headcanons for Bruno’s gang

(As always, all the boys are 21+, so no no no minors!! And now under the cut for length and not safe contents!)

Bruno Bucciarati

When he’s at home, Bruno likes to take things slowly. It starts with a lot of foreplay, kisses, touches, that slowly lead to bed for some quality time. Here too he doesn’t rush, savouring every moment, stimulating them just right, before finally giving in. He loves to see his s/o squirming with a happy and satisfied smile on their lips.

He’s usually really attentive during aftercare, softly stroking their hair and sore muscles, bringing them water or another kind of drink and quietly talking a bit to them, before sleeping. It’s one of his most favourite moments; it’s so familiar and warm… it really brightens his mood and put him at ease before sleep.

When he’s at home, kisses are the usual. He doesn’t lose even the slightest chance to kiss his s/o and everywhere he can reach to! Forehead kisses, nose kisses, cheek kisses, neck kisses… if they have time, kisses could lead to touches and more, but, in any case, Bruno is content even to just kiss and hold them. What matters is to be with them!

Leone Abbacchio

At least at home, Abbacchio is softer than how he presents himself outside. He’s not a cuddler, but surely he’d not shoo away his s/o if they hug him or give him a kiss! Especially if this, from casual, becomes hotter, more confident, leading him to pick them up, while still smearing his lipstick on their lips and neck, and take them to bed, to go on more comfortably with their “talk”.

Sometimes, even if he’s more on the rougher side, Abbacchio can be soft, in bed. His lips would never leave theirs, engulfing their soft moans and words of love; his hands would be on theirs, his fingers interweaved in theirs, as he slowly but steadily leads them to their apex. He wants them to savouri it, to feel it with all their being and to feel utterly satisfied after it.

Even when he’s not so soft, he’s attentive during aftercare, checking how they’re feeling and bringing them water and towels. He’d gently scoop them in his arms, relaxing at their soft breath and heartbeat, lulling them to sleep. It usually takes more to him to follow them into sleep, and during this time he watches their sleeping face, finding, for a marvellous moment, a peace he can’t often feel.

Guido Mista

Mista is a lover of domestic life. He loves to spend time in his and his s/o’s “nido d’amore”, seeking for it every time he’s back from a mission. He’s really affectionate, at home, surprising his s/o with hugs and kisses, more than happy if this leads to some quality time in bed. He absolutely adores this way to express his love for his s/o!

Another thing he loves is to take baths with his s/o, especially if he’s just back from a mission. He loves to relax in the warm water, softly holding his s/o and caressing their hair and back. It often leads to steamy activities in the tub, but none of them complains. It just means they’ll wash themselves again!

Aftercare, at home, is the most lovely thing in the world. Even if he’s sleepy, Mista is all for them, in that moment; he checks how they’re feeling, he brings them water and any other kind of drink or even food they may want, he keeps them warm… he loves to make them feel loved and safe! He doesn’t sleep until they happily fall asleep; just then, now that he’s sure they’re resting, he allows himself to soundly sleep at their side.

Narancia Ghirga

Narancia, even if he dies inside to hug them in public basically all the time, usually tries to restrain himself; he’s a gangster, he wants to appear tough! At home, however, it’s another story: he’s always near to his s/o, hugging or kissing them. Every activity, from washing the dishes to pleasure in bed, is framed by kisses that grow needier the more the activity becomes steamy.

Narancia is a cuddler. Since childhood he had been an expansive child, even if he misses physical affection, and now he makes up for the lost time cuddling his s/o every time he can. His favourite cuddling spot is the couch, maybe while they’re watching a movie or a series, under a blanket, all nestled on each other… he’s usually the one who starts to kiss, first playfully, then more and more needy, until the show at the TV is completely forgotten.

As for everything else, Narancia is enthusiast even during aftercare, bringing an entire bottle of water and worrying around them to make sure they’re comfortable and at ease. he wants them to feel good all the time! When he’s done, then, he crashes asleep near them, keeping them safely on his chest, with a happy smile on his face. He’s so cute when he sleeps!

Pannacotta Fugo

Fugo needs a bit to warm up for real to people, especially on a physical level. Outside he’s still quite reserved, limiting physical contact, but, at home, where he can feel at ease and safe, he’s more expansive. He loves to hug them and to cuddle with them on the couch, exchanging some kisses that, from innocent and soft, may grow needier and needier, the more the desire builds up in them.

When he actually has time to take things as slow as he’d like, he dedicates every second to his s/o and to build the pleasure in them. His soft whispers send shivers of pleasure and anticipation down their spine, his fingers work just right to push them right to the edge, but not enough to make them break… when he’s finished, they’re both utterly satisfied and happy, even if tired to the bone.

All the affection he doesn’t show when they’re outside, is given to them during aftercare. When they’re safe in their home, Fugo loves to take care of them, softly cleaning them, bringing them water, holding them tightly to his chest… with them he manages to sleep a bit more than usual, and, when he falls asleep, he clings to them, as to protect them with everything he can offer, keeping them warm too. Sleeping in Fugo’s arms is like sleeping in a safe nest!

Giorno Giovanna

Unfortunately, Giorno hasn’t much time to be at home, but, when he can, he’d be the softest and most caring boyfriend around. He dedicates every minute to them, knowing that every second with them is precious, and he’d not shy away if they want cuddles. His hugs are always warm and strong, his kisses sweet and soft; however, they can be needy and even bruising, if the mood grows into something more than simple, innocent cuddles.

Even if it doesn’t seem, Giorno is an immense teaser. When he has time, he loves to languidly tease his s/o, in the safeness of their bedroom, pushing them up and up until they’re literally begging him to conclude. His kisses are intense and warm, his hands keep them meekly under him, gripping at their hips or interweaving his fingers in his. He claims his s/o, body and soul, showing them how much he missed them and how much he loves them in every way.

Giorno goes on being caring and in charge also during aftercare. In the safe penumbra of their home, he walks around to bring them water, towels, everything they want, and then he softly cleans them, taking advantage of it to leave some more soft kisses on their body, and, finally, he lays down with them, holding them tightly to his chest, smiling in the darkness when he feels them hugging him as well. Affection… how much he desired it. And how much he treasure it, now that he’s so lucky to have at his side someone so precious like his s/o!

[tothe8andbeyond]

D-8 SVT 5TH ANNIVERSARY: FAVORITE GOING SEVENTEEN EPISODE - MT SVT REALITY, GOSE 2019 EP 3-4 & 7, DEBATE NIGHT, SVT PLAYGROUND, DON'T LIE, BOO SEUNGKWAN'S PAST LIFE DESTINY, INSOMNIA ZERO (#2), AND MORE

Season 1 began in 2017 (another reason 2017 is ironically Seventeen's year) and SVT content was changed forever.

It began as more of a behind the scenes with everything from Don't Wanna Cry, Diamond Edge, Clap promo, and all the fansigns inbetween. This season just made me really sad I wasn't a carat sooner but it was a cool vlog for the boys and they were so excited to be filmed, precious bubs. I don't really have a favorite episode but here are some iconic/favorite moments

"Goiiiiing.. SEVENTEEN!" "goinggoing~~~"

Covering the camera with Hoshi's hand

"What if I die?!" "Then you die!"

SVT Energy Skincare™

Jun leaving people "frozen"

Angry MC Santa Wonwoo

Asking for the unicorn frap at Starbucks and having the order total turn out to be $17 thus triggering the members

Minghao flexing on everyone's life (again) on the trampoline

Hoshi being depressed about not getting bday wishes

Dino's "fanboys"

"Americano, aMEricano, ameRIcano, ameriCANo, americanO"

Make It Shine blooper

The dog from the concert poster photoshoot

Dabhao was thriving

My I behind the scenes 🥰

Any Junhao moment bc I'm whipped

Little 8 practicing his singing 🥺

Trauma (Seungkwan remix)

Spin-Off started introducing us more to GoSe in a variety format

We got variety-esque episodes like with the members cooking, writing letters to themselves, making flower crowns, drawing, and the arcade episode! But it was still mostly vlog-esque where we got to see behind the scenes of Thanks, Ideal Cut Concerts, Japan Arena Tour, 3rd Anniversary, their exhibit, Oh My/YMMD, and BSS promo. Again making me emo I wasn't a carat earlier missing all these iconic moments 🥺

My favorite episode is easily MT SVT REALITY and Hoshi yelling out the window still might be one of the most iconic moments ever, PERIOD. My other fave moments include

DK and Jeonghan fake laughing for like 5 mins straight

Minghao's mullet, period.

Driver Minghao for TTT

Jun abandoning DK to help Wonwoo with his apron instead

The birth of the legendary "T H E to the 8" rap (feat. the return of imma)

Producer Woozi

Episode 20 (yes I have that memorized) when Minghao hosts a cute little hotel date 🥺 he tells fans not to think of him romantically and then pulls this shit pretending to feed us and everything which is why I'm sad lol

Minghao's giggle when he did the bottle flip 🥺

Vernon full on losing it during an arcade game while Hao who's playing with him is dead silent

V8 vs. older bros

"you're over, Yoon Jeonghan"

Junnie winning at the fighting game uwu

The iconic Thinkin About You looks

That pose Jeonghan does that screams "your crush is coming, act natural"

Mingyu getting too excited and spitting on the cake so the members cover it but Mingyu thinks they're doing a team cheer

Hoshi screaming "2 captains!" repeatedly while Woozi regrets his life's decisions

Killing the8 in mafia just for returning from China

GoSe 2019 was the birth of the true variety show. They even made a theme song and everything 🤣😭 SVT are such natural entertainers ohmygod (and the editors really stepped up their game thank u staffs)

There was still some behind the scenes like the 4th Anniversary, Japan concerts, and Minghao instructing for Chinese Ver. of home, but they kind of started transitioning behind the scenes content to a different spot on the channel and honestly carats are so well fed with content #blessed. ALSO THIS WAS AROUND THE TIME I BECAME A FAN IM EMO

My absolute fave eps are the ones when they were brainstorming their own ideas for the show (3-4), the making of the intro/theme (7), debate night, and SVT playground but honestly the whole fucking season has so many iconic moments

Vernon not being able to read red marker bc of his red glasses

Jun's 1+1

Honestly it's so entertaining hearing them talk about their ideas even without them implementing them yet, they're seriously so creative

They do skits/roles so well like Jun pretending he's from the Chinese restaurant next door and Woozi being CEO of Going Entertainment dndkdk I cannot make this shit up

"Jeonghan act tired" Jeonghan: *fully falls to the floor and drags his body to the couch djdkdkdkkdld he's so fucking dramatic I'm still dying at this

Wonhao running around dead S.Coups

Minghao doing the going dance down the stairs (flexing again)

Pabo latte

Enthusiastic Minghao in Japan 🥺

The MBTI hidden camera

Diva Boo being pissed he didn't get Beyonce's MBTI but someone else did

Monsta X saving them at karaoke

Pigeon DK thriving during debate night

Geppetto Minghao looking fine af during debate night "I said so many nonsenses, I hope you liked it"

TTT fun - meerkat line rise, Jeonghan and Hoshi catching bugs but screaming the whole time, network love unit playing except Hao and he just gives them a cute "fighting!" Like they're his kids but he's just trying to relax lol, more mafia, Jun being hilarious during try not to laugh, S.Coups wanting to kill the staff (as usual), THE MEMBERS PLAYING WITH KITTENS

Froghao was thriving during svt playground

Bothering Woozi during secret santa

Hao's face when Jeonghan took the iPad

Dino literally got gifted a brick??

Junnie's light up grills

GoSe 2020 continues the variety so well and each member gets a month! So sad they shortened the theme but they gave us subs! Also the previews for next episode are great! They also stepped up the editing too. They are all working so hard for this and it really pays off

My favorite episodes so far are Don't Lie, Seungkwan's Past Life Destiny, and Insomnia Zero (especially part 2). I'm so damn hyped for Debate Night 2. Again so blessed for this content 😭🙌

It's harder to list moments when the entire episodes are iconic!!

DK failing at his own mystery food game

Minghao literally lucky number 8

The saga of Minghao being amazed at Mingyu's eating continues

Hoshi singlehandedly admitting he's mafia then getting Mingyu killed instead then openly killing the citizens at night without needing to hide and then winning the game ohmygod I cannot at how fucking wild and hilarious this episode was

Sleepy Jun during Seungkwan's Past Life Destiny

Junhao, evil twins, seoksoon, mingyuzi rise

Dino rejecting Mingyu with a moonwalk

The overall betrayal of couples omg

SA DALLA

Jun showing the Made in China tag djdkkd

Limbo was fucking wild

The members are all whipped for Woozi that shit made me soft as hell

Talking shit when other members are trying to sleep

Woozi loves dad jokes so much omg

They are so damn dramatic for the ASMR in Insomnia Zero pt 2 omg

TASTY

Jeonghan purposely not answering Hoshi's call to come back

Hoshi giggling that Woozi lost and Woozi fully having a crisis

Wonwoo identity crisis as one of the chill members

Brain Survival and Escape Room made my brain hurt but they're so smart

Minghao jump scare poor bb

Kicked out members becoming audience reactors

DK and Jeonghan fucking around with the props instead of helping

Their delivery food episode just made me hungry

S.Coups not flinching one bit at arm wrestling Hoshi

Trying to act cool when the move spots on the chess board

Seungkwan's wipe out

Getting debate night 2 really saved my life I can't wait for the rest of 2020

I typed way more than I should have but I just love Going Seventeen and all Seventeen content, being a carat really is a blessed life!

[haikpers]

[November 4,2020] 'Chapter 2'

I didn't expect the Night to go by so slow. Ever since I started writing in this I was just so excited to write whatever happens!

Anyways, I just woke up. It's currently 8:30 in the Morning. Wasn't expecting to actually wake up considering the fact that I kinda stayed up most of the Night looking up at my ceiling.

I'm in my Washroom getting ready to take my Daily shower. I've also gotta mention that my Friend Julien picked me up from my House today. For some reason my Pimples always settle down when I'm with him. He's probably Magic at this point.

It's not like I completely want my pimples to be gone just because I wanna look pretty. In all honesty, I want them to go away because I wanna be just like Oikawa! I know it sounds weird, and heck yeah it sounds impossible. But like I at least want to be similar you know? I've got the personality, the same interests as him, etc. So why not looks too?

Oh right, because he's perfect and I'm not. But whatever! I don't really care. I should be taking Shower by now but I'm standing here typing whatever's on my mind. Oopsies~ hehehe

Also, last night I was able to talk to my Friends about moving out and living together in the future. They're definitely going to be my Future Volleyball Teammates! I know, I know, I'm still 14. And yes we may have some age gaps but that won't stop us from setting up a Goal!

Hopefully Future me or any of them doesn't decide to leave. I really want to achieve this Goal of hours living together and staying Best Friends! Miracle, Lev, Mochi, and Colette. The 4 most precious people in my Life so far including myself, we're going to try our best! Anyhoo, I need to take a shower!

Just got done with my Shower. I feel much more refreshed now! I also haven't eaten yet, which I probably should do.. But I'll stay a little longer just so that whatever I post today is actually longer than the one from Yesterday.

Hannah somehow managed to make me cringe at my past self, I wanna die- So basically I used to do digital art, well not used to- I still do digital art til' this day but rarely. My art style was crap, oh GODXDDDDFFKEMFKKWKC.

I wanted to forget about it too, damnit. Now I have to relive my old art.

No idea why my head hurts a bit though. Maybe it's because I've never written a Diary before and my Brain's just malfunctioning because of it. Whatever the cause is, I'm ignoring it. [Unless it gets worse]

Did I mention it was Wednesday today? No, I don't think I have. Either way I'm just excited for the weekly Haikyuu Episode. It always comes out on Friday, which I'm so hyped about! Now that I think about it, I don't think I would've been so invested in Volleyball if it weren't for Haikyuu. In fact, I wouldn't even bat an eye to Haikyuu if it weren't for Oikawa. He caught my eye in one of the Instagram Posts- so, basically he's the reason why I love the Sport.

It's funny to think that my Future is because of Oikawa Tōru, a fictional Character who is both the Setter and the Team Captain for Aobajohsai from Haikyuu. But hey, I'm not complaining! If it's because of him then I'll continue.

Alright, I probably should actually eat now. I'm getting pretty hungry and I'm sure that my Birds are too as well. Their names are Bokuto, and Akaashi. Bokuto is the yellow bird, while Akaashi is the Blue. It fits them so well!

Well, well, well, I am back from my break! Also, I actually took a shower but I came back here like 3 Hours or even more after. Not a lot of things happened during the span of those hours. [Sad, I know]

But I did end up practicing my tosses for a bit! I use my Laundry Basket as a target for my Volleyball to land into whenever I set/toss it. It's not much, but it improves my precision.

I haven't tried setting backwards with it though, I probably should since I might need more practice for that. Also, I read some Hisoka x Reader Fan Fictions. Some were Lemon, the rest were fluff.

A girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do okay? I was kinda bored so I ended up reading some FanFictions before deciding to go back to my own Diary and continue my writing.

I'm not even sure if I could practice outside today.. It's pretty sunny, but I feel like it might be freezing cold. I might as well just wait for tomorrow when I can go to School. Maybe then I could ask my Music Teacher if there's a way for me to Practice in the Schools Gym.

Corona is really pissing me off, I can't even practice or try out for the Team this year! Argh! And I was looking forward to it too. And the fact that I can't find any Gyms that has a Volleyball Court? Really shatters me. How come Japan is more superior. Like, I just wanna practice in a Gym that let's you use the Court for free.

I swear, when I become a Professional Volleyball player, I'm gonna set up a Gym/program in Canada where girls' and boys' like me could practice in without having to rent. I'll even be the coach for the program! Big dreams for tiny me, huhu.

I'm feeling even more sleepy for writing, is that bad? I really do wanna include something exciting in this Chapter but I can't think of anything that has happened that would be worth mentioning.

I also made a promise to myself that I wouldn't discuss any Past Occasions on here sooo... I have to make my current situation entertaining I guess. But~ I can do that after I sleep. uwu

Also, I kind of want to mention a little secret of mine that I do every single day. Before I go to sleep, or like any time during the day; I imagine Oikawa living along side me, interacting with me, and basically just straight up acting like my Best Friend. I also act as if no one else could see him BUT ME! It's honestly a straight up serotonin boost. I even have those moments where I could actually feel warmth where I imagine him to be. It's amazing!

But of course other people wouldn't really understand how much these little imaginations mean to me. Not everyone is this obsessed, but whatever. The more unique I am, the more reason to stay just the way I am.

I'll go check if it's actually cold outside, that way I can see whether or not I could practice my serves. Quick tip, if you don't have a net! Use the swings in parks. You could serve over the Bars, it's pretty useful. But make sure you don't hit anybody!

Bro, I just asked my Mom if I could go outside and practice. She said yes, I'm so excited to actually practice my serves! Wish me luck! I'll be back after. It's like 16° so I need to at least wear a sweater.

[spacegaywritings]

The Wonders of Sleep (5/5) “Meet the Queen”

Summary:Virgil usually knows how to take care of others but at some point, someone needs to take care of him too. It is hard to top the Queen of Self Care :tm: in his own business.

Tags: little pet snake “Deathbringer”, POF included, eventual anxceit, fluff, domestic fluff, tea party, kidnapping mention, mention of 411 (if kidnapping and conspiracy/alien stuff scares you PLEASE do NOT look it up!), accidental deadnaming, ex-paranoia Virgil, reconciliation, softness, family to enemies to ..friends?, food, momceit vibes, Janus Classy “Deceit” Sanders, crying, tears, mentions of past friendship/familial relationship, mentions of betrayal, hurt, slight patton/virgil angst, hurt and COMFORT, making up, sleepy talk (if you are triggered by babyspeak and it is really sensitive, maybe this could be too much!)

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Janus gently nudged his little snake.

 “Deathbringer, come help me here.”

 The little snake obediently slithered over the kitchen counter and quickly wrapped around the little bit of space on his wrist that was neither covered by his lemon gloves nor by his coal sleeve.

 “Look what a good little snake you are”, he cooed.

 The side gently pushed his nose against the smaller snake’s snoot, letting their scales collide for a short moment. The snake bleped at him and he stuck out his tongue in return.

 “Yes dear, I am absolutely not excited either.”

 A small smile appeared on the side of his face that looked just like Thomas, just like about any other side there was for him.

He glanced at the door for a bit.

 “He will totally be late. He is the kind of person to be late to meetings rather than ditch them in a sudden bout of panic.”

 Scaled fingers brushed over his apron. Deathbringer let her tongue snap against his wrist and pulled just a bit closer, her silverish body slithering slowly. It was such an act of art, Janus could not help himself but watch for another moment.

 “Thank you, Deathbringer.”

 The snake seemed to squeeze her little eyes together in a little squint. She pushed against hist gloved hand.

Janus hummed and picked up the oven mittens. A few biscuits could be seen on it. He walked them over to a decorate plate. It was shaped like a little snake, much like his logo. It read “Eat the Rich.”

 A sense of peace came over him and settled in his light heart. It was some sort of happy singing within him even though outside he was not singing, just humming to the slow songs he played.

 One by one, he arranged the biscuits on the new plate while Deathbringer slithered down to push the mugs into place and pull the little porcelain white box of sugar cubes closer. It had a little lid which made it look like a box. The lid was flouncy while still made of nothing lighter than fabric at all. It would not float yet pretended to be able to.

 Sometimes it was just about pretence, he thought to himself.

 A fade sound knocked at his ear. It was so silent, it felt like the demand to please make a sound if he just allowed him to, if he gave the sound the authorisation to actually make noise, do what it would do.

 “Ah, Virgil. You arrived just in time. Sit down, have some tea.”

 The snake boy returned to the tea pot which was happily brooding and boiling inside. His steps were so light, Virgil could have sworn he was flying.

 Was this a crazy tea party?

No, this was not Remus. This would be proper.

In fact, it would be so proper, Virgil even put on his purple dress shirt - despite wearing his oversized, heavy jacket. It was a part of him not even a Janus Classy Deceit Sanders would be able to change with his rhetoric delights and shape-shifting abilities.

Virgil’s choice of clothing was deeply rooted in his function as anxiety. Much like Janus dressed according to his own tastes and needs. According to how he felt he should carry out any and all work regarding Thomathy’s selfish whims and moral dilemmas. This was the misty-eyed veil Janus swore to be “nostalgia”. He wish he could say that it meant nothing to him and let him feel nothing but Virgil was basically allergic to lies. He was a police dog for deception.

A rough ground to stand on when you call yourself a Master of Deception yet try to rekindle the flame of intimacy with a fellow side.

 “I am not on time, I am early, snake”, he dryly commented but still took off his shoes and slipped into the room in comfortably loose pant. Black as the faded eye shadow covering the bags underneath his tired and swollen eyes. Black like his soul, if he had one. It smelled freshly baked like when he spent time with Patton. The air was warm and sweet like a welcoming hug.

He was so glad nobody tried to touch him, though.

 “You are in time for a man who knows your punctuality precedes the estimated time of whenever people ask of you to come around. If I had asked you to come early in the morning, you would ditch your night and camp before my room to be on time.”

 The anxious trait mumbled something into his collar, his face falling into a darkness as one of his eyebrows rose.

Janus turned around, tea pot in hand and his human eyebrow raising up in competition.

 “Don’t be dramatic, now. I am teasing you. Not everyone is out to get you.”

 Virgil bit the insides of his cheeks instead of answering. Deceit vaguely gestured towards the laid table and approached the space with his white, spheric teapot in his gloved hands. He held it like a precious little treat in his mitten-ed hands.

 “Is it black?”

 Anxiety slipped into a chair far away from Janus. He was very much across the whole table. Lethargically, he took in the pain of the sight that was the empty chairs around the table as Janus let steaming water flow into the cups. He seemed so enraptured by the sight of dry leaves twirling in a storm of heat, the water flowing in and turning a darker shade of colour almost upon impact.

Little swirls of orange, no, orange-red, came from the leaves. They danced with the flow of water and easily fogged the inside of the mugs with a deep colour much like the sunset.

 “It is spicy like you, Virgil. You will love it, I promise.”

 Virgil had not noticed Janus’ yellow glove (it was just the one curled around the handle of the heavy pot) emerging from the wide cave of oven mittens. Something about looking at the slow, ginger acts Janus committed gave Virgil a sense of tranquillity deep inside of the core of his very existence. ”..Do you really?”

 Janus blinked.

He was glad he had set the pot down already. His little snake curled back around his left and tugged the remaining oven mitten off his right. All the while, his solid eyes stared into the deer orbs of Virgil who looked at him like a child asking their parents why they yelled at one another so much.

 Something in his chest seemed to rumble. It was soundless but he could feel a shift, he could actually see before his internal eye just how a piece of him clicked together.

Nostalgia did not sounds so bad anymore when it came from the meek, innocent voice that was Anxiety - or.. Paranoia, back then.

 His voice got soft. He was soft. He was soft like the butter he had put out long ago. His feelings would form dents if touched a bit harder than brushing against them.

“Of course I do. If I invite you, I will respectfully treat you as my guest. I do not harm guests, Pa- Virgil.”

 The other side flinched and looked down for a moment. The floor was wooden. What type of person had a dark wooden floor in his room?

Virgil chew on his lip as if to devour it like a candy bar after a long, hard day of hardships and strains.

 “Virgil.”

 Anxiety repeated it as if to enforce the point that was his existence.

The other nodded as he pushed his little tea mug over to his guest. The once white mug appeared to turn transparent in heat. The mug slowly faded in colour from bottom to the top and revealed the darkening liquid inside the steaming mug.

 “I know. I am - Apologies, Virgil”, he admitted softly. His voice was a little pat on the back, a gentle squeeze to the shoulder and the sympathetic smile only Janus’ human side seemed to be capable of.

“I assume that the old times get to me. “

 His eyes cast downwards for a big and he picked up his tea to busy himself. Deathbringer curled around the mug and stuck her tongue out at the colourful display. It must have looked like an aquarium of enormous fishes to the little boopnoodle.

Deceit sat down, still looking at his tea and his hands only.

 “Do you ever think back of how things used to be?”

 Virgil’s teeth lifted from his lower lip. His shoulders seemed more hunch before and maybe this was the reason his eyes seemed so much darker and hurt than before.

 “I ...would like to think the past is in the past.” The anxious trait swallowed heavily.

“I am sick of thinking everyone will hurt me if I turn around for too long, Janus.”

 Virgil took the tiny mug into his hands and blew away the steam. Maybe he hoped to blow away more than just this but his thoughts were hidden in the thick skull of his stubborn exterior.

This was about the only thing sweet enough to remember that it washed away the bitter glue-like taste in Janus’ mouth.

 “We all made mistakes. I, for once, admit to be imperfect. I always told you we are all -”

 “Fallible. Yeah. I know.”

 Virgil slumped further into his chair. It was dark and wooden like the floor. Even darker. Yet, it was not dark enough to eat him like a black hole. After all, some people conspired that individuals were sort of “kidnapped” by the force of a black hole. Not that this was a cut-and-dry theory but it was a thought to explain things like Missing 411.

 He took a deep breath. Janus drew in his share of oxygen.

 “Ja-” “Vir-”

 Virgil blushed and frantically brushed and pressed his fingers against the mug which wandered from one palm into another sleeve-covered hand.

 “Oh.”

 He whispered so silently and gently rubbed one of his hands against his thigh. The other hand was wrapped around the mug, a fingers looped through the handle.

It was so warm and so comforting despite the smell stinging in his eyes and nose.

Virgil sipped a bit at it and felt the steaming temperature rinse his mouth with new heat. There was pain cutting into his tongue and a comfortable amount of burning heating up his mouth. As he swallowed, he could feel the hot liquid seep into his brain and tickle it. It was so warm and tingly.. it made him dizzy in a really nice sense.

Like a good bit of sleep or maybe a hot bubble bath.

 It almost made him smile.

 Almost.

 Janus put one leg over the other and blinked at Virgil.

 “You can go first.”

 On his tongue, the name “Virgil” burned itself into his speech.

He had to let go off the past and move on to “Virgil”, realise that it is okay to be more like Patton and less like him.

 Repression can be very bad indeed.

He could hear the scratchy voice that could only belong to a presence as special as Remus.

 “Okay”, Virgil pronounced slowly. He rolled his lips together into a tight line. It felt like hours before he took the word once more. At least this is what it seemed like to Janus.

“I want to stop.. stop being so hurt about you.”

 He blinked for one moment, just one moment, into Janus’ direction before he stared into his mug again. It was steamy and it made him tear up ..it was actually spicy as Deceit had informed him before.

His tongue clicked into the silence.

 Deathbringer silently slid over to the teapot, unbeknownst to Janus’ as he paid attention to Virgil more than anything else in this world at the moment. If someone was to ask him whether he paid attention to Thomas and his needs at the moment, he would have to lie himself out of it as always. Not that he cared about this.

He cared about the right now at this moment.

 “I.. I want to forgive you, Janus. I was.. um, unfair to expect you to know it all and to rely on you for all there was concerning Thomas and it did not help him or me or you or anyone of the sides.”

 His fingers were tightly wrapped around the mug. If he did not know better he would assume he was trying to choke the tea which looked dark red by now.

It was ad bloody as this whole endeavour.

 “Virgil -”

 “No! I - I was really unfair and I know I am not fully at fault because this is not how this works, this is not how anything in this world works at all. I just.. When I saw you help Patton like this without being bitter about anything because it was for Thomas, I thought I could just stop feeling so upset about you but I still... I am still mad because of everything because I expected you to get great and you were not but this is my problem and it is bullshit to put this onto you.”

 Janus’ eyebrow wiggled into a strict zigzag. He slowly leaned over the table, just a bit. The distance between him and Virgil did not decrease but something changed as he squinted at the anxious side like his eyes needed a seeing aid.

 “It is not as if I have made things easy for you - or the others, for that matter.”

Deceit fumbled with his gloves, his fingers grabbing at one another without actually succeeding in anything. There was no outcome other than repetition.

“I wanted to apologise for being an ..”, he hesitated for a moment as he fished for the right word to say in this exact moment, “a rather insufficient role model and self-declared instructor for every single one of you.”

 His left hand gently stripped his right off the lemon shell of his glove and put it aside with such a slow precision, it seemed like an old tradition that needed to be carried out with the utmost care and attention. At the same time, it appeared to him as the most simple of actions yet it was graceful just as about any action Janus performed.

Even words were more elegant coming from him. This was what it meant to be a snake: slithering and sliding around everything and everyone. Never too much, never too little.

 Janus was the definition of walking the tightrope and testing his limits. He was a Master of Balancing rather than Deception. But oh well, this was just Virgil’s opinion on that matter.

 “Yeah, good for you. We done with this now?”

 Virgil reached for the sugar box and picked one of the cubes to merge it into his dark pit of spicy tea. It burned, tasted of nothing but memories.

What was that again? Trauma was nothing but spicy memories. Heh, yeah. This was really some sort of aesthetic Anxiety would subscribe to. It was so strange to encounter how, every now and then, Janus knew so little about him - and then sometimes, so much more than Virgil seemed to realise about himself.

The deceptive side shook his head.

His state could best be described as pensive.

Deceit’s right thumb brushed over the mug, slowly tracing along its thin rim.

 “We are all growing. This is good for us. It means Thomas is growing and listening to us can help him grow more and we all can be a bit..”

He swallowed. His tongue prepared to unleash a word so strange to his usual way of expressing himself verbally. It was a laborious chore.

“..better.”

 He dared to look up at Virgil, their eyes meeting. They were so similar yet so different. While Virgil’s were so light and changed with his emotions flickering like a candle in the wind of interactions, Janus had two different orbs. One was rigid and never-changing while the other was heavy, deep and darker -  like his room’s wooden floor.

 Their rooms really were reflections of their functionality and their “personality”.

 “You started taking care of the others more, I have seen. Is this part of your growth?”

 Virgil’s shoulders tensed at the comment but he slowly flexed his back as if to pretend this was why he had moved his shoulders in the first place. He covered up the flinch by putting it into the context of shifting into another position and becoming “more comfortable”.

Anxiety hummed in agreement.

He retorted to drink the rest of his tea.

 “You said I can get rid of you all if I give it my best. Did you mean that?”

 Janus quirked up the eyebrow on the human side of his face.

 “Is this why you tried to be there for the others? You want to get rid of me?”

 He was sitting in his seat, his legs moving so left could cross over right now. It was just a little bit of squirming on his part but he could feel his legs trembling. The feeling to his feet was already lost.

 “Why would I wanna take over the job of a liar?”

 Virgil shifted, adjusting his collar.

This tea made everything so hot. It was so spicy it burned him.

Or was he burning him? His body felt so hot.

This was not a nice bubble bath anymore, it was a sauna.

 “I know you can speak the truth but you are here to lie to ..protect Thomas if need be. Whenever that would be or whatever. I don’t like lying. It makes me anxious. If I replaced you, I would be in contrast with myself and split.”

 White teeth dug into his pale bottom lip once more. The right side of his lip had to suffer much more. It was chapped, slightly crimson in little rivulets of blood breaking through the damaged skin.

 “Where is the fun in taking over Remus’ baby sitter? I only ..”, Virgil cleared his throat, “I wanted to help them.”

He fumbled with his mug before finally giving up on whatever goal he had with his constant, aimless finger dance around the porcelain which slowly turned milky again. The transparency faded along with the precious magic of being here once more.

At least.. in part.

 “Help them? What do you mean?”

 Virgil growled but Janus held up his hands in defence.

 “I am only curious. You don’t have to answer to me at all. I supposed you would be open for a talk considering you came here on your own accord. You even asked me to let you come.”

 He pulled off his gloves.

The straining intensity of yellow found the sturdy table. It drew Deathbringer to not slide into the teapot as planned. Instead, she guided herself over to the strong colour without anyone paying too much mind to her. She slowly slithered into one of the gloves, effectively splitting the pair. With her new shield, she clumsily moved across the table to start her long, extensive journey.

 Meanwhile, Janus conjured up the messy excuse of a hurried note. It was a piece of paper, lined dark black on innocent white. The piece had ripped edges, indicating it was forcefully removed from a greater object such as a notebook or a journal. Knowing Virgil, it had to be something personal.

The handwriting was dark blue - no, not Prussian blue. The shade was darker, muddier than even Logan’s tie. It seemed so unruly and hurried that several swears ruined the legibility of the few words that were not completely crossed or blanket out with excessive streaks of more dark blue.

 “Did you already forget about this? Logan said a lack of anxiety leads to weaker memory. Surely, you must be aware of how and when you let this come to me. You left it right in front of my room not too long after I was accepted.

 Virgil shook his head with a force of a storm but looked away dejectedly.

Lips parted only to close again and then, much like a goldfish’s mouth, opened up again without making even a single sound.

 “I -I.. I heard of.. I heard from Patton that you would join us from now on. He said you were good and t-trying to help Thomas.”

The name came out like a judgement.

“We talked and you ca -came to our meetings and to our talks and when we spent time or ate-ate and Patton said it is okay because you make sure he does not hurt Thomas.”

 A barrier of tears rose in his eyes.

There was still barely any eye shadow darkening his appearance any further. Still, the feelings in his eyes strained his facial features and forced wrinkles and shadows onto his young looks.

Anxiety was one of the most recent sides. While he had always been there, he was the one to most rapidly develop and change again and again.

Once he was the pure instinct, then he was anxiety, then paranoia - to only name a few stages of development he had gone through. It granted him with a lot of mistakes and extreme thinking but at the same time it gave him the untouched innocence of a new person, a beginner.

 He was so untainted.

Virgil was pure - well, he used to be.

 “I thought Patton could never be wrong and now I am here again and fuc-..fuck!”

 He grabbed the mug hard. His knuckled turned white while all colour flew to his face. A blush of wrath spoiled his appearance and angry tears spilled down his cheeks.

 “I befriended the most innocent of sides and he still hurt me and Thomas - he still messed up so much and betrayed me!”

 Janus twitched in his seat, a certain.. a knowledge was sparking within him.

But before he could leave his seat and jump over to Virgil, the anxious side flinched, a loud sob breaking from his throat and distorting the peace of the room-

The calming background music was gone. No more soft beats and slow rhythms lead gentle voices to create the illusion of safety. The bubble was burst because he cried it away with his ferocious tears and stubborn feelings.

 “I - I ... “

 He helplessly let go off the empty mug and let it slide into his lap. On the side, he could see just a little hint of yellow and an instinct deeply buried inside of him leaned his head into said direction just to see there was no Janus. No. There was a little glove falling into his direction like some fucking drunkass piece of furniture in a weird shit show Remus would direct. ”Wha-”, he started, ready to jump away when the glove fell over itself and its opening revealed itself to Virgil. A little boopnoodle inside crept out of the squeak yellow means of transportation and bleped at the old friend.

 His tears were soaked up.

 “Deathbringer..”, he whispered in amazement.

His voice was broken like his heart.

 Shaking fingers picked up the mug and abandoned it on the table with little care. It barely stood still - a slightly sharper angle and he would have tilted it enough to tip it over.

The primary goal was in sight. It was not the half-transparent mug. It was the little silver friend sliding over to him and happily sticking out her tongue at him.

His hands formed a little bowl he offered to the friend. She gladly accepted and pushed herself off the edge of the table to fall into the safety of his warmth.

 “You still have her..”

 A weak smile pulled at his lips.

It was half-hearted and betrayed by the storm of feelings left in him. He was drained but the emotion was genuine. Janus could see it in his eyes. The life turned back into it.

 “I missed you so much, little one. What did you do, little crime snake? Did you try to steal Jan’s glove? You tiny law-breaker, you!”

 He giggled, the drying tears long forgotten. Occasional sniffles disturbed the soothing atmosphere that settled onto the room. It was like the sky after a storm in Janus’ humble chamber.

Deathbringer excitedly curled into herself so much, she rolled over once more and tumbled against the root of his thumb before sticking out her tongue just a bit, just for a moment.

 Virgil hissed.

Deathbringer hissed.

Janus silently hisses into his mug.

 It was involuntary! He swore by his name!

The deceptive side did not mean to draw the attention back to him but it had happened with a slip of his own split-tongued mouth.

The sharp sound filled the room, cutting through it like a high-precision master preparing sushi after decades of experience and routine.

 The anxious side lethargically looked up. It was so slow, Deceit could have sworn it took a great amount of effort from him. His eyes were sparkling but they were so, so tired and old. They aged with the amount of energy he had put into neglecting himself and working to keep Thomas up and running at all times - in every aspect of his self.

With every side he could talk to.

 “Virgil.”

 The side ducked, holding Deathbringer close who booped his thumb with her little head as she curled around the digit.

 “Let me take care of you. Again - just this once. As a star, if you want to look at it as some sort of trial phase. We can stop if you do not enjoy it or if it feels wrong, does not help you - whatever reason is sufficient for your precious mind.”

 He licked his lips, finally tasting a bit of ...hope? It was so sweet and consolatory that he did not dare to identify it as something he had deprived himself of ever since the other had left. It was too good to be true but the heat of the moment had him submit to the feelings of dreaming, of nostalgia The warm familiarity of what used to be coaxed him into the mindset that maybe.. just maybe.. things could switch back up if he played his cards right and opened up his heart.

 “I.. I... Janus, I am scared”, Anxiety admitted. He brushed his unoccupied index over the little snakey friend. Gaze focused on her and only her, he barely heard Janus starting to reply to him until he cleared his throat, making him snap out of reality at once.

 “Well, Virgil”, he started anew, the other side’s name rolling off his tongue like a special treat, “when are you not?”

 The anxious trait shrugged.

 “When was the last time you felt scared of something - scared for Thomas, perhaps?”

 Janus got up, circling the table a bit before he arrived next too Virgil. Deathbringer flicked the tip of her tail at her lovely papa and snuggled her head against Virgil’s thumb where she was wrapped around.

Gingerly, Janus pulled the chair next to Virgil closer to himself, his eyes on his guest only. He was scanning him for anything out of the ordinary - well, or anything remotely like Virgil that would alert him enough to change his actions.

 The guest was watching the deceptive side but did neither flinch away nor display any signs of discomfort.

No hissing, no fumbling.

Even the eye shadow was still missing. There were so many feelings but the black refused to spread at all. The mandatory amount of minimum blackness covered his eyes a tad but that was about it.

 He nodded towards him and cuddled into his seat as Janus seated himself next to him.

 “Um.. Thomas wanted to start a new hobby but he is in his thirties and he can get hurt and did you see him jump? He is not physically the most fit and, you know, a bit clumsy and such. It does more harm than anything to start exercise so late in life because it is bad for the joints and-”

 Janus rose one hand, cutting him off.

 “I think I get your point. Not that I have to agree or disagree with you on that matter. The point is that this was just this morning when Thomas looked up videos and it was only about a little idea he had for one workout. You are unsettled by any change there is.”

 The punk pouted at the snake, a gruff glare in his eyes.

 “... I guess-”

 “If even the idea of a new workout scares you, maybe you just worry a bit too much.”

 Virgil looked up at him.

Replacing the glare, there was a softness in his eyes. It was akin to a plead.

 “Let me take care of you. Let me help you worry less. I will listen, I will retreat if you just say what you need, what you think.”

 It was Janus’ turn to give him a begging look.

 “Let me do my job, Virgil. You know I am good at it - even if I am bad at other things. Let me be who you were for the others during all these weeks ever since you were accepted by them.”

 The anxious side slowly glanced at him and before averting his gaze. He stubbornly looked at the snake as if to ask Deathbringer for advice.

The loyal baby simply rubbed the side of her face against his thumb’s underside. She did not even think about going back to Janus yet she kept sneaking glances at him.

 “umhugmeplease”

 Janus blinked at him.

 “Excuse you?”

 The guest grumbled into his jacket and pulled his knees closer, swollen eyes gleaming with upcoming tears.

 “h..hu...hug me.”

 Janus Classy Deceit Sanders quirked his head just a bit. He leaned in, closing in on Virgil who was blushing furiously.

 “With all my arms?”

 Virgil hissed at him.

He fully hissed at him and simply got up and plopped himself down onto his lap.

 “...all of them, idiot..”

 Janus gently wrapped the glory of his six full arms all around Virgil’s upper body and held him close.

The younger side curled up into his arms and buried his face in his neck.

 “I missed you, Jan”, he purred out silently.

 The addressed side chuckled and tenderly hold him closer. A big sigh came from him and he used one hand to brush through Virgil’s messy hair.

 “I missed you, too. I - I am sorry for letting you cry again.”

 Virgil made a soft sound in return. It was like a snort but about three times less intense. He shook his head and snuggled closer to his friend.

 “Shut up, I cry all the time - so what?”

He slowly pulled back just enough to look at Janus.

“It.. you’re there now, aren’t you?”

 Janus nodded and relished in the warmth of their hug for a little longer. He had missed Virgil’s hugs. They were the warmest of all hugs due to his big jacket. It was even more special considering Virgil was not always in a hugging mood. He was the person to be vigilant and one step away from either fighting or fleeing since he was in charge of managing fears and reacting or identifying dangers as such and consult other sides as needed.

Essentially, he was a protector who was always looking out for literally everyone but himself - but at least he had Patton.. well, not really. He had Janus back. That was the real support he had needed. (To be fair, Patton was nice sometimes but pushed everyone too far. Logan did know to look after Anxiety but did not always understand the comfort he needed...and Remus only now came back to him in a way he did not feel scared of being close to him.)

 Janus was the care they all needed.

 Finally, they got it . Even Virgil received care.

 The other carried him away to the couch and snuggled up with him. Deathbringer curled up on Virgil’s cheek as the other finally succumbed to being taken care of himself.

At last, most sides were taken care of.

 “I’m proud of you for caring so much, Virgil”, Janus started, his naked hands still hugging him close while Deathbringer proudly re-claimed the anxious trait as little spot to sunbathe on. Few spots of sun rays sparked through the spaces between the loosely closed blinds.

 “m..you’re jus’ happy ‘m here”, Virgil argued, already half-asleep.

His voice was muffled by not only his jacket but also his sleepy state.

 Deceit had to smile at the adorable little scene.

 “I could never be happier than knowing you are safe and cared for, Virgil.”

 The anxious side cuddled closer into his myriad pairs of arms.

 “Shuddup.. jus’ nap w’f me”, he demanded weakly. The stubbornness was real even when he was barely awake.

 Janus chuckled lowly but complied. His hands removed his cape and let it slide down his back. The hat followed and was quickly put aside.

He snuggled into the comfort with Virgil and drew a blanket over them.

 This was mutual care.

[catboysamatokiaohitsugi]

Toki for the ask game uwu

They ask you how you are you have to say you’re fine when you’re not really fine

( Give me a f/o and I’ll answer these for them !! )

What made me like them

I am such a simp on main for saying this but like honestly ?? a icon set of the charas that a moot reblogged of him— n the pic they used for Toki wookie was him having an especially feral grin on his face n then my stupid dummy brain went ,,, ‘hey... what if you got dokis hmmm...?’ Simping aside, like how much he cares for those he’s close too made my heart do the 🥺🥺🥺 a whole bunch n I could go on an entire essay bout this but it’d lead to gushing so Y’KNOW NEXT QUESTION

My favorite thing about them

I think we both know this already but the huge sprout on his head!!! I love how the right side of the sprout is longer than the other one n it looks so soft n squishy!! Also it kinda makes him look less intimidating cause like yakuza dude!!! But ooh he has a sprout !!! Fear level drop by 5

Nicknames we have for each other

Me actually referring to my ship with Toki but not in s/i POV? More likely than you’d think ok anyways I call him stuff like Toki,,, wookie,,, sprout cookie,,,, toki wookie,,,, sprout man,,,, all that sprout shiggies 🥺

Ngl I never really thought bout this but does precious count ? Thank you for that idea ily

A headcanon of our relationship/friendship

OK S/I POV TIME!!!

Whenever toki has those official yakuza meetings ™️, Kyu’s usually just either sitting on his lap cause he likes to show them off n surprisingly they don’t mind CAJDKWKSBW or they’re clinging to him like a sleepy koala🥺 sometimes Kyu also gets all cuddly towards Toki n he just becomes really soft towards them the poor underlings just there internally like ‘UHHHHHH ANIKI CAN BE SOFT ???’

My favorite image of them

THIS !!! THIS SPARKS SO MUCH JOY CAUSE HE BLUSHY BOI N I WANNA MAKE HIM SMILE LIKE THAT 🥺🥺🥺 hes so cute wtf nghhhhhh ;w;

Anything else!

Hhehehehee Toki’s collarbones

If I told April me that I’d end up marrying him theyd laugh at myself but like look where we are !!! He’s now my highest tier comfort character n I wuv him a lot 🥺

[velvetgons]

junkyu as your boyfriend

junkyu x reader

warnings; don’t think so!!, maybe some swearing

a/n; :(( i’m really sorry for the slow updates on the two fics i have in my list!! i’m just a lil bit of a slow writer with full fics! sorry again :) 

requested; yes!! thank you anon :) 

word count; 3.2k :))

gif credit; virgojunkyu on tumblr!! ((if tumblr removes it again nvonv) as always, please let me know if you’d like it removed at any point!! :) 

ok so! as always, first of all: how did you and this overgrown child meet?

well, well, i have a Different Trope to offer you all today!

so i genuinely think that getting to know junkyu wouldn’t actually be a romantic thing at first?

as in, you’d probably meet him through having multiple mutual friends and you’d go to a lil get together with your friendship group and it’s just like:

ur friend would walk you over to junkyu and some more friends and is just: “oh by the way this is the junkyu i mention a lot!!”

and so you say hello and have a conversation with him and the group of people around you and it’s just very casual

but you end up really liking junkyu because!! he’s so funny and has a bunch of lil endearing habits and so – entirely platonically!!! – you’d ask for his number so you could talk more

and junkyu would be really excited and probably say something like “omg yes!! i can’t wait to hang out :)) see you soon!!!!”

which, to be honest, was super cute and maybe you blushed but you honestly weren’t seeing it as any form of romance

and from then you’d talk a lot, probably lowkey every day, and it’d just be a really fun friendship that you’d formed out of nowhere!!

he’d call you randomly throughout the day to talk about weird things he’d been thinking about (example: “ok just another quick question but how can we be sure that dinosaurs don’t just live underwater now? the ocean is so unexplored and there’s rising sea levels, and we just. we have no idea. oh my god, do i tell a scientist about this?? have i Done Something??”)

you’d always go out for lunches and late breakfasts and coffee meetings together and just joke around :(( n he’s definitely the type to wanna get like. four different foods for the two of you and just share them so he can have a bit of everything

will make you go to the park with him and push him on the swings. no exceptions and no excuses it’s a Must in this friendship

and omg you’d just be really close and you’d spend so much time with one another that you could watch movies and chill out and when something you wanted to comment on happened in the movie neither of you would have to say it you’d just do The Look and he’d KNOW

you’d also sleepover at each other’s quite a lot and it would be entirely normal,, like he’s just gonna fall asleep on ur bed wrapped up in a blanket and ur gonna fall asleep minutes later under ur duvet

or you’d take naps together because he’d get real clingy n just kinda. lay on you. and fall asleep. and i mean, he’s just so warm and soft you can’t help but fall asleep with him

affection would also be a completely normal thing too!! pretty early on into the friendship he’d just say, “to warn u i am a very cuddly person so if that’s not ok with you please tell me now !!” and you’d tell him it’s ok bc uwu he’s still the cute lil friend you met recently and that’s an adorable habit

but oh boy do you regret that now. he will just. cling to you. all the time. he’d lift your arm to curl underneath it n snuggle into you. he’d hold ur hand 24/7. when he’d get sleepy and you’d be moving around he’d back-hug you and be leaning almost all of his weight against you. he’d fidget a lot when you sat to watch things until he was pretty much either spooning you or he’d be leant with his back against your chest.

and lowkey you’d think it was such a cute thing because :(( he’s so precious and he genuinely doesn’t seem aware that he’s doing it most of the time

oof he’d probably give you lil kisses sometimes too? and he seriously wouldn’t think of it as anything other than like ‘smooching ur friends is completely normal ! normalise platonic affection !’ so when he’s leaving he’s gonna give you a lil forehead kiss. he’d give you a lil cheek kiss when you hugged sometimes

and it’d become a habit that you’d probably pick up on too like? if he’s sat within smooching distance when ur quietly watching something together: （￣ε￣ʃƪ）if he’s smiling real big and his cheeks look kissable:（￣ε￣ʃƪ）

and junkyu seriously just thinks all of his feelings for you are completely platonic like?? he thinks that he wants to kiss you all the time because you’re his bestest bud. and he’s always so clingy with you because he’s got big appreciation for you and your friendship with him !

you’re kind of in the same position with it too, u know, because like. junkyu is super cute and he’s handsome and nice and you wanna mwah but?? you’ve also seen this boy trip over air on multiple occasions and he’s held your hair back for you when you’ve been sick and seen you ugly cry before so you assume it’s just because ur super close

but then…one day…he’s just kinda sprawled out across your bed while you get snacks from downstairs and it’s the day you’ve mentioned ((very passingly like: “oh, he’s cute”)) that a waiter at a café you go to a lot is kinda cute

and he’s laying there. and his mind is just spinning?? he’s created this whole picture in his head that: cute waiter boy will give you his number, you’ll go on dates with him, you’ll start to call him your boyfriend, all those long phone conversations and movie marathons and cuddle sessions will be transferred onto this new boyfriend, you’ll stop giving junkyu lil kisses because now you’ll wanna kiss your boyfriend, you’ll end marrying this boyfriend and junkyu will only see you twice a year at mutual friend parties like he used to

which leads him to picturing his life without your presence in it anymore and he’s convinced that he can feel genuine pain in his chest at the idea?? who’s he gonna order too much food with, who’s he gonna watch dumb movies with, who’s gonna tell jokes that make him laugh so much his stomach hurts, who’s gonna have #deep conversations with him??

and then he’s thinking about you doing all that with someone else…and thinking of someone else holding your hair back for you when you’re sick, and someone else knowing your different orders off by heart, and someone else getting to see you ugly cry and hear about your problems and…….he HATES it

by the time he hears you coming back upstairs he’d rush off into your bathroom because he hates to admit it but he’s crying a lil bit and his face is all scrunched up in disgust at the ideas in his head

and you arrive back to ur room to find no junkyu :(( so you go to your bathroom (best guess which was indeed: correct) and you knock a lil bit and hear junkyu cough really inconspicuously before mumbling a, “yeah, just a minute.”

which obviously worries you because that’s your best friend and he sounds upset and the idea of him upset has your heart doing a sad keyboard smash. but you respect that it could be literally anything by this point so you go to ur room and wait there

and junkyu comes back after a lil bit and he’s like “i :(( need to talk to you about something kinda serious” because he’s a lil bit angry with himself because?? a: how did he not realise the feelings he has for you are not platonic at all and, b: he doesn’t want to ruin the friendship

which makes you nervous but you’re like… “ok.. i’m listening and supporting you :)”

and then he doesn’t really know what to say so he just, “please don’t date the waiter boy!! or anyone else!!” and so you kinda recoil because ?? hmmm when did you say you wanted to date the waiter and hmmm why does he care

but then he goes “please don’t date anyone but me…”

and you’re ?? because now that you’re thinking about it properly maybe you do like him romantically? but you’re just so confused because you honestly don’t know what you’re thinking

so you’re kinda like, “can i,, think about this?? i don’t really know what i’m uh feeling right now!!”

and he’s like, “yeah, yeah of course omg i’m sorry!! just….let me know??” n he’d probably leave you too it then instead of liking. hanging around after he’d said that

so you’d spend some time thinking it through you know like,, oh damn…maybe i do like him a little more than i thought huh…

by the time you told junkyu you felt the same he’d have been having four (4) heart-attacks a day waiting for your answer and he’d probably be like “aha! that’s so great! can i come see you,, right now… i’ve been missing you a whole bunch” but on the inside he’s having his fifth (5th!) heart-attack of the day

and so whoosh! now you’re overgrown child friend is your boyfriend :) lucky you

his clinginess? intensified! now he’d feel like there wasn’t the line between ‘they’re just my friend and friends do Not do that kind of affection!’

whenever you walk into a room with him to sit down now, you’re being pulled to sit right on his lap so he can cuddle you more!! his hand is in yours 24/7!!

but…now that you’re dating…he’s too shy to show public affection bc like…now it Means More

i mean people that saw you on the street previously would’ve assumed you were already dating but junkyu doesn’t know that

so no more lil smooches in public!! now it’s strictly hand holding, having his arm around your waist or shoulders, occasionally he’ll just hug you in the middle of a street (you’d be like “i thought you said toning it down….bro i…”)

not much would change but!! he’d love to have proper kisses now :)) kissing junkyu would be super gentle n sweet bc omg !! you’re his baby !! he wants to: love and protect !

let’s you borrow his berets as a sign of love…but he won’t hesitate to steal your clothes either like…

you got oversized sweats that he likes? claimed! you got a cute pink hoodie he just knows he’d look great in? taken! by the time you get the clothes back they’re just slightly stretched out at the arms because he’s long….and you’re begging him to not steal clothes that he must already know won’t fit him but he’s just “:DD they’re cute on me!”

but sadly this is correct. and you always forget not to flatter him because he tells you every time: “it makes me blush too much!! if you compliment me i’ll just die…i can’t handle it!”

this is especially an issue when you go shopping with him to get clothes because every clothing item he tries on you’d be like: “a king!! no one else could ever!! look how great you look!! excuse me while i: scream” and he’d just. squeal. and hide in a changing room because his whole face is boutta go red

having said that, he is your biggest fan! you wear a dress? he’ll scream and twist himself into ungodly angles to get good quality pictures of you. you wear sweats? he thinks you look so warm and cuddly you’re never leaving his arms again.

he’d compliment you all the time and half the time he wouldn’t have to think about it? like, he sees you and his first reaction is to just: “xvonbosab you’re so cute omg i’m in Love”

junkyu is also a firm believe in lowkey matching your outfits: same shirts but in different colours, same coloured different shirts and trousers, etc.

his headass would probably get you friendship bracelets back before he confessed and gets you an extra lil charm when you finally start dating :((

he’s also so caring !! if you told him you hadn’t eaten and it’d gotten to like 5pm he’d freak out because ?? you need to be healthy ! every time he moves to go get something for himself he, “do YOU want anything?”

will tell you to put a jacket on before you leave the house on a cold day ((you don’t because it’d ruin your outfit)) and later,, when you got cold,, he’d passively aggressively wrap you up in his jacket

full offence junkyu carries a candid of you and mashiho round his wallet and will Never remove it

on this topic! whenever you’re around his friends his heart just….beats so much faster…he thought there was something wrong with him at first but after turning to yedam and being like, “my hearts beating out of my chest dndobc” when you did something nice for mashiho, yedam was just like “well yeah it’s bc you love her lol”

and like?? junkyu just kinda. like yeah. he does. indeed. he uh um loves you.

and realistically he knows it wouldn’t be a big deal to say it because he’s said it a thousand times to you when you were friends but now that you’re dating it seems like such a big thing

but boy oh boy once he’s said it,,, it’s gonna be added onto the end of almost every single sentence

you know like the old “breathe in: boi” meme….yeah it’s that except it’s just a loop of junkyu telling you he loves you in the space of an hour

has to say i love you especially (along with a lil mwah) before he goes to bed so he can “have good dreams!!” but like he doesn’t have to lie you’d kiss him anyway ://

would try to make you breakfast but he can never make good quality ones so he just gets you cereal and brings it to you in bed while he does a lil breathy laugh like “it’s your boyfriend, the chef, here with your gourmet breakfast”

i just, i have a Thing, with junkyu, where i firmly believe he just doesn’t really like pet-names?? they’re just not really his kind of style when it comes to dating,, except there’s like one or two that he will. always. use instead of your name

he loves calling you like “angel” because uwu!! that’s you to him!! his aNgEl

he’d do this so often that he’d have your name saved in his phone as ‘my angel’ with a thousand hearts next to it, and his friends would tease him RELENTLESSLY about him but :]]] he doesn’t mind !

and! he has a soft spot for the classic,,, the iconic,, the overused, “baby” bc uhhh you’re His BabyTM? not clickbait?

he also loves doing dumb childish things with you. watching cartoons while eating candy in matching pyjamas? big yes from him! building forts and then sleeping in them? even bigger yes!

if you have drama to tell him about or a secret you have to go under a big blanket with a torch and set in the middle of you two while you tell him in a whisper so no one ((even though you’re literally alone)) will hear

((hehe………is this uhh how do you say…..a Teaser?))

if you watch a show you’ve been watching together without him he will genuinely be so hurt like. “that was a personal thing we were sharing!!! how could you betray me????”

but on a real level. i just cannot see junkyu as someone that does well in arguments.

if you were arguing back and forth and it got mean at all he’d be so upset?? he’d definitely cry no matter what in arguments but if he ever felt that hurt you or if he felt hurt by something you said he’d be such a mess :(

but i also don’t think he’d actually ever have very much to argue about like?? he doesn’t get jealous very easily after a while because he knows you love him and wouldn’t do that to him, he doesn’t get angry very easily, and he just like. completely understands what it is that you want and need?

you were really close friends before so you two would’ve told each other things that wouldn’t come up in day to day discussions with your s/o? like, “omg what’s your biggest pet peeve in a partner!” or even just saying things like, “i think, in that situation, i’m the type of person to…”

because from those conversations you both got to know the things you liked and disliked and what kind of person you both were, u know?

so if by some magic an argument occurred. it’d end quickly. because, a: junkyu would get upset and take some time to himself to calm himself down, or b: junkyu just :(( gives up and stops responding because he genuinely doesn’t want to feed into the argument anyway

he’s much more of a “calmly discuss your issues and find a good solution!!” type of person so he always tries to do that instead of even beginning to argue

n from what we’ve seen so far he’s a lot more of a sad stressed n tired so i think if he found himself feeling like that he isn’t gonna snap at you? he’d probably just want you to cuddle him and play with his hair so he can relax again

junkyu is also fully the type of boyfriend to do ur shoe-laces for you if they come undone you know he wouldn’t think about the ‘omg cute couple things’ he’s just “xocvbov you’re shoe-laces are undone ! you’re a walking hazard this is so unsafe !”

full offence but now that you’re dating junkyu takes you back to that café where you said the waiter was cute and is like “:D finally i can eat here again without feeling nervous!”

which is, to the friends he took to lunch with you and who were not there to witness his confession or that whole day, very confusing and just slightly worrying

but to you it’s like ‘:(( wowie he’s really my baby huh’

but overall i feel like honestly nothing would change after you started dating junkyu? you two would still be best friends and act just like you did before

except! now that you’re dating junkyu gets to kiss you on the Lips! and he gets to cuddle you while you sleep for the whole night too! and he gets to introduce you to people as ‘mY gIrLfRiEnD’

but he’s just such a warm and nice presence to have in your life that when you’d look back on it now like ?? how could you not tell he was gonna be the boy you fell completely in love with

and he honestly thinks exactly the same thing omg he’d think back to things he used to say/do with you or things he’d think about you and be like ‘how did i not realise those are in no way platonic things to think about your platonic friend What?’

but overall i think dating junkyu would seriously just be like being around your best friend 24/7 !!!

[lindzaylove]

me, talking about Han Jisung:

• cause i see he clearly is a rude boi but then i see squishy pics and uwu but then RUDE BOI and i wanna throw hands

• A N D when he pouts and he looks up slightly and he looks gently like a wounded puppy i want to wrap him in bubble wrap and kiss his worries away

• BUT THEN BUT THEN BUT THEN he goes on stage and roundhouse kicks everyone like wtf Ji who HURT YOU kdkdkd there is no need to look like that, rap like that, dance like that or any of that. it's uncalled for

• ALSO HAVE YOU SEEN HIS HANDS hdkdjdjd his fingers are fairly long and slender. his hands look really holdable (?) and i weirdly have a thing for hands and handholding and i could trace people's hands all day and MY GOD do i wanna hold his hands and play with his rings and trace my name onto thw back of his hand and kiss them endlessly

• HIS FACE TOO the shape of his eyes is so unique and pretty like makeup just accentuates(?) them and makes them shine so prettily but without makeup you can really focus on his eyes and how like glossy they really are AND HIS LIPS the shape of those are really pretty and although they are kind of small they are so so so adorable and OOF he spits fire so clearly they are doing something right also his nose HHhhhh it's so cute and fairly small and totally boopable(?) and i wanna kiss it a lot

• OH HIS LIPS they are really kissable too uwuwuwu and his cheeks are as well, squishy and soft and he's got like, pince features like someone write me into this fairytale real quick because i wanna love and hug and hold and kiss this boy RIGHT NOW my god i'd make him sleep a lot and eat a lot and rest a lot and hhhh imagine lazy days where he just kinda drapes himself over you and he gets this stupidly sweet smile on his face and he is honestly just content watching you do anything you want

• OH BUT HE'S LITERALLY PERFECT IN EVERY SCENARIO LIKE HE'S THE PERFECT BEST FRIEND, BOYFRIEND, BROTHER, ETC. LIKE IMAGINE GROWING UP WITH BFF JISUNG AND ALL YOU DO IS MAKE JOKES ABOUT THE OTHER AND WATCH BAD MOVIES AND STAY UP TOO LATE RUSHING LAST MINUTE HOMEWORK.

• omg but Jisung's LAUGH is so pretty you have no IDEA how much i love to listen to it and his SMILE is so precious and pure and innocent and i wanna protect but then he smirks or smth and i wanna SMACK HIM UPSIDE THE HEAD FOR BEING RUDE but also ngl that stupid smirk and his charismatic stage presence makes me just wanna makeout with him likE BoY cHiLL

• ya know what? i'm NOT OKAY. i L I V E for Hellevator, she's a whole queen, and Han Jisung just does the whole family dirty like that like WHO does this boy think he IS

• (also, thinking about that, Jisung with slicked back hair and dressed in all black with a leather jacket and he drives a motorcycle and his siganture item is actually a fucking lollipop)

• LATEST NEWS: LINDZAY CONFIRMED TO BE WHIPPED FOR HAN JISUNG [Source]

• everytime you bring up Jisung my heart hurts

• the idea of a food fight with Jisung makes my heart happy

• wait seriously imagine how soft Jisung is :( like, in relationships he seems like the sentimental one where he'd write paragraphs about how much he loves you and he's always buying something when he and the guys go out because it reminds him of you. he's the one who ADORES skinship and just being /close/ (thighs barely touching, pinkies being held, his head resting on your shoulder, etc.) he's also the one to be the most nervous about dates he'd spent months planning and he'd be more than happy to have the most deep and meaningful conversations. he'll be the first one to laugh at your dorky pun and he'll hold your hand even though he's scared too. he probably really likes the way sleepy kisses feel and he always giggles when you exchange them. he probably giggles a lot just because of how giddy he is in his relationship. he's all smiles now but imagine dating him and his normal smile growing and brightening at the mention of you or you yourself. he definitely initiates most of the cuddling and kissing, just because (although he writes lyrics) his feelings about you never seem to come out right. he's so precious and soft

• i wanna hug him UGH and hold his HAND AND KISS HIS STUPID CHEEKS AND LISTEN TO HIS DUMB VOICE AND UGH

• stop flirting with the camera i will FIGHT

• one day i want to hug Han Jisung.

• i wanna fake date Jisung only for both of us to fall in love now

• I'M SO DUMB WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF.........i was watching videos about Jisung

[littlefallenrebel]

My love and feels for Skz 🌹🖤

I was tagged by my dear @pikachulein (thank you for doing that btw) to do a post about my feels for Skz so here it is! 

I’m just gonna say that this post is probably a bit cringy and makes zero sense because I have a hard time putting my feelings/thoughts into words :p Also... this ended up being.......1,2k+ words long, whoops 😌

Woojin:

I see Woojin as an older brother he’s 3 years older than me so there we go even tho it’s not that much, anyway so with him it’s definitely brotherly and sibling-like love. It would be awesome to have him as my older brother can i swap my annoying bro with him please and I feel like he would be someone who I can rant about stuff and ask advice. Since he’s also super loving towards his members and takes care of them, I can sort of relate to that since I’m lowkey the mom-friend in my friend group. He’s such a sweetheart and I’m so soft ;-;

Bang Chan:

Ah, it’s mister ”here to wreck your bias list once again”. Chan is probably the one who confuses me the most, I mean he’s my bias but at the same time he’s my bias wrecker and I really don’t know how I feel about him?? I just feel drawn and very attracted to him. But despite being attracted to him, I seriously admire and respect Chan a lot. To me, he’s such an inspirational person and I would love to spend time with him talking about lyrics meanings and deep things. I think we're both that sort of people who sometimes think about stuff too deeply and maybe stress over small things. He's still so young and has a lot on his shoulders and i just sjdhsh. I would probably say my love for Chan is intellectual/magnetical type of love.

Lee Know:

Ohlord it’s the pisces+scorpio duo  with minho it’s definitely the best friends/playful type of love, absolutely. I feel like if we two were best friends we would be that super salty duo who throws shade at everyone. Minho is someone who I would love to just hang out with and share some hot tea ☕ about stuff. Also, I feel like minho would appreciate my super bad jokes and puns no one ever likes my puns and i bet my friends are ashamed of me lmao and we could throw awful pickup lines at each other. I would love to just go on a random shopping spree with him or mess around in a park in the middle of the night. Where do I get a best friend like minho?

Hyunjin:

Another sweet child o’ mine, my fellow Pisces son. I relate to Hyunjin a lot on an emotional level since I feel like we’re both emotionally sensitive so I’ll say I have this similar people/affectionate type of love towards him. I want to watch those overly sappy and cheesy movies/dramas with and cry together when something bad happens. Also, you know that face he does when he thinks his face is bloated?? I swear to god I do that exact same face 24/7. he's an affectionate person imo so i think he would make a nice hug/cuddle buddy, heh. and we both have a thing for weird noises too Hyunjin is probably the member who I relate the most to and he’s sometimes such a mood.

Han:

oof, the ultimate bias wrecker. My love for Jisung is probably the affectionate kind of love and he is another member, who I admire.  Jisung is quite deep and poetic person in my opinion and I’d love to discuss and write lyrics with him. I adore his positive and goofy personality and his shenanigans always make me giggle and lift up my mood. I sometimes just get distracted by him and then I find myself thinking “what an adorable bean you are”. He’s such a kind-hearted and sweet person, I just want to squish his cheeks and ruffle his hair. But sometimes I feel like he doesn’t really feel that confident about himself, so I would want to just comfort and support him. I want him to know he’s doing well, that he’s talented and he’s more than just the mood-maker of the group. I just want to cheer him up with my very shitty jokes and drag him to the nearest arcade. Yeah, I just want to be friends with Jisung and have a blast.

Felix:

Felix, my sweet sunshine baby boi, a precious puppy with a deep ancient God voice, I love him so much i might cry. Felix was my first skz bias and is now my second bias, so I do have a sort of special soft spot for him. I would say my love for him is a mix of affectionate and pure love. Felix is such a soft sweetheart and pure, I just want to hold and cuddle him. Like?? i just can’t imagine anything bad or nasty about him??? that boy just radiates sunshine and happiness ;_; Like I would just love to play video games and make goddamn vine references with him, that would be life.

Seungmin:

With Seungmin it’s friendship like love. I just see him as a good friend who I would have a blast hanging out with I lowkey wanna have a roast battle with him, don’t ask why i just do also, as a fellow myday, we two could just scream and fangirl about Day6 together lmao. me and seungmin singing more like screaming the lyrics to shoot me at 2am? sign me up. He’s such a cutie squish. Seungmin is kind of a mischievious person and he lowkey brings out the mischief in me too, so I kinda want to prank the other members with him lmao.

Jeongin:

Okay, Jeongin is not that much younger than me but he feels like a younger brother to me, so with him, it’s probably sibling-like love I would say. He’s so cute and precious and I just want to look after him and I’ll fight anyone who dares to corrupt this smol bean.  I also lowkey want to have that friendly, sibling rivalry -like relationship with him, idk why. I want to make sure he’s doing well and offer my help if he needs it. Jeongin is such a pure baby and his smile is worth fighting for.

baby boy culture uwu

*sigh*

now,

this next part is gonna be the cheesiest thing ever and probably a bit cringy so you've been warned. bear with me and my feels

Changbin:

oh my god, where do I even start with seo changbin. I'm sure everyone and their ancestors know that my love for him is definitely romantic/true type of love. That boy makes my heart burst and I'm just so damn whipped. im so sorry but i must expose myself and admit that there is some sexual love here too sometimes cuz boi i've had some rather heated thoughts/dreams with bin, anYWAY BACK TO BEING SOFT I love that we share the same kind of aesthetic with all the "i love dark" stuff and wearing mostly black, but then actually being the softest. Since we both have had the thought of becoming a tattoo artist, it would be so cool to draw and design tattoos together! andthengetacoupletattoo I would want to spend time with him at the studio, bring him food and make sure he doesn’t overwork himself and even though I don’t know much about making music but I would love to help him with writing lyrics too. I would support and hype him all the way and make sure he’s healthy. I want to make sure he’s eating and resting properly. Also! Since I love the height difference between me and Bin, I just want to give him all my hoodies to see how smol and soft he would look in them!!  I honestly just love everything he does, every little thing. His aegyo, his cute nose crunch, his adorable laugh, his smile,  his fierce stage presence,…. I could go on forever. I want him to know he’s doing well and I want to be there for him. I want to have those random, sleepy 3am conversations with and hold each other close. I want ruffle and run my hands through his hair and boop is cute nose. I want to share soft kisses with him and kiss that jaw goddamit. I just can't properly put it into words how much I love Changbin and how much he means to me. I could honestly just spend hours talking about him and he just makes me go all ajdhshswg. This got rly long and it's very cheesy and cringy sorry. I just love Seo Changbin with all my heart ♡

so yeah, here it is then. this post is a goddamn mess tbh but so am i so 🤷