#he hasn't taken a bath in 20 years

[shinedoitsulikeabright]

Oh lord, what have I done...

He's so gorgeous, I love him sm! He looks even better in that harness than I could've ever imagined jsjsj.

blood and semi-nsfw warning for content below…

but uh some sea maiden and ocean warrior au content

also hi calliope aka my crazy oc w dyed hair and pronouns

blame the harness gag on @bigidiotenergy it’s all his fault

[lineli225]

Tomura Shigaraki 's abuse and neglect under All for One

I've decided to make this post due to the fact AFO's abuse towards Tomura is often ignored and even denied, so I'll be bringing a collection of scenes that prove he was being severally neglected during the 15 years he lived with AFO

1- Malnourishment and Underweight

At the beginning of the story Tomura used to be very skinny, his spine visible, very accentuated collar bones.

We can't see if his ribcages are exposed too since he's always dressed, but we can tell he is abnormally skinny and thin.

Some theorize AFO's purposefully keeps him in this state so he's more weak and frail similar to Yoichi. Or so it adds to his tiredness and numbness.

He's also been shown randomly struggling before (it could've been the aftershock of Stain attack, i don't know)

2- Lack of hygiene

He literally lives in pure filth, trash bags, old soda cans, paper, boxes, packages of food that seems ordered other than homemade, it lingers all over his floor, he is clearly a hoarder

It's completely different of the kept and clean bar, and now before you say "That's Tomura's responsibility, he's an adult he should clean it himself!" just think for a minute, if you had a son, that you see as your heir, and bets on their future so much,If you truly cared about them and saw they felt into a hoarder mindset, wouldn't you at least help?

Why not even Kurogiri cleans if Tomura was being cared by him? This clearly is intentional neglect, specially to keep his mood constantly down.

3 - His teeth

Tomura canonically has crooked teeth (compare his teeth to the other's in the jump festa art), cavities or at least what looks like plaques or dirt all over his teeth.

For someone raised by someone as filthy rich as AFO, he should've had access to dental care

4- Shaggy hair

His hair looks un-brushed, shaggy and dirty, which had no reason for before MVA when he became homeless, so why even at the start? How long has he taken a bath or a shower?

Look at the blatant difference in this scene after he showered at the PLF mansion

5- Unkept, ragged and broken nails

despite his hands also being very skinny, his nails are also all rough and broken Now, I know Tomura isn't a kid to have someone cut his nails for him, but this implies he was never teached how to take care for himself.

Besides of course his clear symptoms of depression and suicidal idealism, which, are very obvious, All for One IS neglecting Tomura by keeping him in that state /knowing/ he isn't being capable of taking care of himself.

6- His bedroom

First of all: No windows

Second, notice how empty it used to be, he had nothing but a bed and a desk, but right as he committed his first murder he started to receive toys, AFO is lovebombing and manipulating him to kill more

7- The obvious neglect to his pain

Notice how every time Tomura panics or is even wounded, he is just ignored and left on the floor bleeding out, puking or writhing.

Which uh- it isn't normal to watch your kid writhe in the floor while smiling and monologuing

8- 24/7 Surveillance and lack of privacy

There are cameras everywhere, AFO spends most of the time watching Tomura, even in his own bedroom, and even talks to him, Tomura probably hasn't had any privacy ever since he was 5

Which is a sign of abuse and control

His entire childhood from 5 to 20 is often relatable for people who grew in cult like environments, and homeschooled children who grew under controlling parents, despite the abuse not being as "obvious" since AFO never directly physically hurt him, the neglect and psychological torture is still there, that and more all the manipulation, gaslighting and grooming (think of Mother Gothel from Tangled as an example of this type of abuser)

By the way, talking about it

9- Gaslighting

"but wasn't /you/ who desired my power?"

The entire body possession plot is a clear evidence AFO never saw Tomura as anything other than a toy to play with, the same way he saw Yoichi, but so many people say the possession was a retcon because "early afo cleared saw him as his heir, he even said it's all for him!"

Well, argue with the literal "he's the next me", while he is.... weirdly caressing the screen while he watches his kid with no privacy- 100% creep behavior

10- AFO's bizzare behavior towards Tomura

The way All for One's hands are often shown caressing him or encasing him somehow, which yeah, it's part of the symbology of Tomura's character (hands that can both hurt and save)

But knowing AFO represents /hurt/ and, you know, i'ts kinda weird to caress the kid you kidnaped off the streets like that-

Cuz yes! Picking kids from the street even if they are orphan is illegal!! You should take them to a police station instead :D

Tomura was KIDNAPED by AFO, not saved.

11- Proof Tomura doesn't /feel/ saved

During his fight against Bakugou, when he sees him being helped, besides being "broken" he starts to spiral on "why no one saved me even before i was broken?"

The visual including the granny that ignored him on the streets

AFO broke him.

He recurrently thinks back to when he was on the streets, even though he was already traumatized, and had already killed his family, he still had /hope/ he ADMITS he believes he could've been different if it wasn't for AFO

If AFO had truly saved him,he wouldn't think like this

12- AFO gifting Tomura the corpses of his family to intentionally keep him nauseated, uncomfortable and traumatized, so he never heals

Besides their weird placements- On a kid. the gangster's hands being in his chest...

13-AFO's intentional desire for Tomura's discomfort

If this entire thread didn't make it obvious already, All for One benefits of Tomura's tiredness, ill feelings, nausea, depression and suicidal mindset, and over all physical and psychological discomfort

This ensures he's submissive to his manipulations and orders, keep him feeling hatred and anger due to constant overwhelming feelings and makes it harder for him to think of why AFO does all of it at all.

I could go even deeper than this about it, but i've reached thread limit and am lazy, so I hope you enjoyed this thread!

Thank you for reading

[agent371]

This is just a post, so my best friend can read what I've done of my story so far (not much).

Feel free to ignore it.

1st arc

introduction : Lila (main character) is tied up and has had her blindfold taken off (its shown to be on the side so people know that she needs it), she has her hands tied but still gets up and fights back the gang who had her, because she has her blindfold off she can hardly see but still fights and gets her ties cut off that's when she finds her blindfold and kicks ass she gets very injured in the fight and just limps out.

Cut to at home where Lila gets her injuries patched up by Marley where he calls her kid and she calls him dad (quickly establishing their relationship), then have Lila, Marley, Zuri and Tamar on the sofa chilling and chatting (establish Lila and Zuri are very close friends and Zuri has a crush on her). Tamar questions something on the news as it's the 20 year anniversary of something on earth, have Zuri explain ‘Wipeout’ (this explains universe lore, sets up a new storyline and establishes Tamar hasn't been on earth for long).

Marley, Zuri,Tamar and Lila team up on a mission where they were hunting down the people who kidnapped Lila and overhead that there was going to be an assassination attempt, the gang didn't know much but did know the name in what they gave up after some pressure (Shade) this leads to a flashbacks to Lila's backstory.

Flashback: Kidnappers talk about how her family died and how they took her. Then show them mid experiment, and the files they looked also show Shades file, during this Wolf breaks In and saves Lila, the person hes with then shows him Lilas files and then shows that theirs more victims in this organisation show of Shade but also have Raijin and a note that that building burned down.

-2nd mission to stop assassination fails and Shade escapes in a chase sequence and he's then seen disappearing into a wall of roses and the team suspect he has help(Rick)

-On 2nd mission Marley sees another crime and leaves the chase to the others so he can stop the robbery where he meets Ace, Ray and Dia. He catches Ace but the other escape

-Ace gets put into juvie and Marley makes a deal with Ace and police that as a licenced hero he can take Ace in and help him, Ace will be with Marley for Friday-Tuesday and his at home with a ankle monitor for Tuesday afternoon to Friday morning and has to go to school with monitor as well. Ace is shown eger to agree and when he gets out he tells Marley he only agreed so he could see his friends (Dia and Ray) again and doesn't really care for helping people and Marley tells him that he won't give up on Aces potential and trying to make him a hero

Tiger goes looking for Rick and finds him at an empty house she's trying to get information from him. In the fight she cuts off the lights to get the advantage and then takes off her blindfold that then lets her see perfectly in the dark, then corners him, this is where he uses his magic 1st time to the audience and traps her in the vines while running away the magic takes a big toll on him and he falls so he hides and he let's her out, she runs out but quickly gets blinded as during the fight the police were called and the lights were too bright for her as she didn't have the blindfold on, Rick uses this as a distraction to escape.

-After this there is a bath scene where Rick is drinking wine and examining his scar. He thinks back to when he was young and did magic recklessly, in his reckless pursuit a more experienced magician tells him how dangerous he's being and he brushes him off.

↳ meanwhile Tamar and Zuri hunt down Shade, learn she was sent to kill Lila by ? They take them to the prison system that's set up to hold people with powers

↳ at the same time Marley and Ace were looking for clues about the 2 villians like who they are and where they would next be, they learn that Shade and Rick were being paid by the same account (they couldn't trace account) and that there was a meet up the next day with the buyer the keep ? Updated with what was going on

-After the fights all 5 of them sit down to talk about all the information they've got, they come to the conclusion that Shade and Rick were sent by the company that experimented on Lila as Shade got his powers by the same place, they also make a plan to ambush the meet up

-The 5 of them wait at the meet up spot but only Rick shows up and waits impatiently for the buyer after no one else arrives and Rick starts to leave and then the 5 attack.

Final fight:

Lila is the 1st to attack and Zuri, Tamar and Marley make themselves known but Ace hangs back.

Rick uses his magic and imitate goes to take down the whole building - if he can't escape then neither can they- Zuri uses her powers to keep the building up and stop crumbing.

During the chaos reinforcements for Rick came in (? Knew about the ambush and set one up as well).

Where are they now:

Lila is fighting Rick

Tamar and Marley are fighting the reinforcements

Zuri is holding the building together

Ace has disappeared

Tamar and Marley are getting run thin as they get out numbered and Rick has taken his and Lilas fight to the roof as the goons were getting in the way of the fight. Zuri is still struggling to hold things together.

Cut to Ace who is seen walking away from the fight self dialogueing ghat he's not a hero and just wanted to see his friends again but during this dialogue he starts feeling guilty because Marley put faith in him and his skills and Ace just left. Nobody had ever had that much faith in Ace and his potential and he starts to question if he could actually be a hero and if what Marley said was true. This got him to turn around and when he got back to the building he helped Tamar and Marley out and the 3 of them managed to win.

Cut to Lila and Rick fighting, Lila is struggling against the magic and the building that's still being destroyed and Rick is struggling trying to fight while the magic is attacking his body, another flashback to Rick's past where he if purposely showing off his magic in a fight to impress a girl watching, the person he was fighting got mad and placed a curse on him that everytime he uses Magic he'll pay the real consequence and can see that magic isn't just fun in games and needs to be used very sparingly as its very powerful. After that he falls from a sharp pain in his foot where he sees the vine scar start to form.

A small timeskip in the flashback: Rick is using magic to protect the girl he was previously impressing from a group of guys, he fights them off but sees how the scar grows, then the very pregnant girl hugs him in reassurance that he did the right thing.

Then Zuri is saying she can't hold the building together and to get everyone out. Marley, Ace and Tamar start cleaning out the goons at the bottom.

At the top both are fighting to stand upright against the crumbing building, Lila is still beating him with questions like why was he being paid to take her out, names of the people and where they are and he was refusing to answer, but he told her that the guy who wants her dead was blackmailing him with his kids safety and that he had to do this, not for him, not for the money but for his kid he hasn't seen in years.

Rick's mask at this point is off and he uses more magic to hold him up and attack Lila, this extends his scars to his face and discolours his hair then the magics that's holding him up starts climbing up the scar marks and he panics, Lila is trying to get to him but can't reach, the magic then starts piecing his body, Lila yells out for him as he falls of the roof.

By this point Zuri has climbed the building to get Lila out of there and takes her waist and uses her powers to take them out of the area.

Once the building had completely fallen Lila goes back trying to find Rick's body but fails to find it and believes he was already dead from the magic and that it took him completely.

End of the 1st arc

Motives:

Shade- has been after Lila for years as the people who gave him powers wanted her dead as she was their experiment, the one that got away. They failed to find her and gave up and became a merc. Then got paid by ? to take her out, after failing once he got help this time.

Rick- was in dept to ? as ? Helped his kid in the past (after that Rick gave his kid up), So when Shade requested help ? put Rick on the case. Rick has been trying to get away from this life as the curse consumes him but was threatened by his unnamed kids safety by ? And was blackmailed into helping.

Ace: Was dragged into it at first but now he recognises that he can be good and wants to redeem himself for Marley

Lila: Saving people (learned by Marley and she initially got into hero life for revenge)

Marley: to help people

Zuri: To give hope to people

Tamar: for adventure

Arc 1 overview

Protagonist: Lila kay

Side Characters: Marley Kay, Zuri Molfe, Ace Hadley, Tamar

Antagonists: Rick Miciele, Shade

Notes:

Have the 'wipeout incident’ in the news in background to set up next arc, mention it in casual dialogue how the 20 year anniversary of the wipeout incident is coming up and have Tamar question it -it's her 1st year on earth she doesn't know what it is- and have them tell a story how 20 years ago there was an attempted alien invasion that started in England, the hero's won but only 6 came out alive and the 6 have since retired.

The Curse:

Everytime he uses magic it travels up his leg and makes it harder to use his limbs. The magie takes the form of roses and rose vines, and this makes the scars appear as a rose vine.

[talesofsonicasura]

Sukuna and Ghostbuster!Reader: Bustin' The King of Curses

Am I writing a Jujutsu Kaisen headcanon with Ghostbusters? Oh hell yeah. To me, Curses are just another type of spirit so ghost busting should work. Can be read as preferred gender or gender.

Living in Japan is much different than the USA as Curses were the usual 'pests' than ghosts. Either way, they were spirits and it was your job as a Ghostbuster to bust them.

You were the clever cookie amongst spiritual hunters. Modifying the signature Proton Pack to render Cursed Energy ineffective and Domain Expansions useless with a blowback system. This lets it absorb the energy then either fire it or expel it as a harmless mist.

Something that made ya a pain in the ass for Jujutsu Sorcerers who thought you were a problem as they couldn't harm you. And none of them were dumb enough to get too close without being tased.

Why did the sorcerer think you were an issue? The unique view point of not seeing all Curses as evil mindless monsters. A lot prefer being left alone or were genuinely curious about people but otherwise harmless. It's only the aggressive ones you go after.

Especially one as malicious as Ryomen Sukuna, the King of Curses. You didn't know how a Jujutsu Sorcerer could become a Cursed Spirit but something major must've pushed him over the edge to make him the most violent and powerful spirit ever born.

Powerful enough that his 20 fingers can't be destroyed to this day, each bearing a fragment of his power. They were also your target as a Curse gave you the job of containing those fingers. Some of them rather not have the malovent king return.

A job made harder when one of your information brokers informed ya about an attempt at resurrecting the King of Curses. What was with cults resurrecting/summoning powerful supernatural entities anyway? Said being would 99% of the time kills them for breathing much less a dumb offer or threat.

Finding the cultists was easy although you didn't arrive in time to stop the large gorey bloodbath. And amongst it all was the four armed Two Faced Specter, Ryomen Sukuna. Judging from how 19 of his fingers look withered, the king is at 1/20th of his true power. Better chances at catching him now as you fired up the Proton Pack.

He definitely heard you from the four red eyes looking down your smaller frame. Sukuna raised a finger and the pack's Cursed Energy gauge rose. Fucker tried to off you like a fly.

The curse was taken off guard about his attack failing, an opening to blast him square in the chest with a Proton Stream. Serves the arrogant fucker right.

Pissing off the King of Curses is definitely the scariest but also most hilarious thing you ever done. Upon realizing his Cursed Energy isn't gonna do shit, Sukuna decided to come at you like a bull.

His effort earned him ectoplasm to the face as you used the Slime Blower for a makeshift jet dash. Ryomen Sukuna started swearing up a storm when the official taunting. Standard Ghostbuster protocol to piss off supernatural spooks.

Despite how fun it was to blast his face with a Proton Stream, the King of Curses is now ready for a trap. You snagged him in a Capture Stream and went to town slamming the Curse in every object imaginable. A tree? Timber! The ground? Stomach mouth spitting out dirt from an ant hill. Fire hydrant? He hasn't taken a bath for a thousand years.

Once Sukuna was dizzy and winded, you threw a trap right under him. Practically screamed like a bitch while trying to escape the trap's pull.

You waved him goodbye as the King of Curses fully enters the his new trap home. One Two Faced Specter served up. Picking it up, you can imagine Sukuna cursing from inside.

Sorry Sukunbitch, but you ain't getting out . Like the company theme song always said. 'Bustin' makes me feel good.' And busting the King of Curses felt awesome.

Yep! Sukuna got trapped by a Ghostbuster. If you haven't guessed, some of this has inspiration from the Ghostbusters Videogame. Slamming ghosts and the Slime Blower being two of the mechanics in combat.

Other equipment from the game will be showing up in these headcanons along with a few other things. Sukuna is going to be popping frequently as well. Commentary from inside the trap sorta deal.

Also I thought of putting my own twist at Sukuna being weakened and not using Yuji. Until next time folks, I'll see you soon. For now, I'll leave you the main page for the game's equipment.

[stonertransdad]

Life Update since I hadn't been on here in forever

The pandemic was/is wild! Lockdowns started literally around the time we were going to the fertility specialist to get her pregnant. I lost my job to COVID in March shortly before we did the procedure, but we decided there's never really a good time to have a kid. Why not during a global pandemic when one of us in unemployed? (BTW, I don't recommend having a kid during a pandemic. Not being able to go to all of the appointments and having to sit in the parking lot was brutal.)

Let's talk about May friends...it was rough. (TW for mention of suicide btw. I'll post a gif where it's safe to start again if you wanna skip over it.)

So May 1st is the anniversary of my father's suicide. It had been 4 years. I found his body and since he wasn't married, I had to handle his affairs and arrange his funeral. May 1st, 2020 my wife and I had a Zoom game night with our friends and I got drunk because everyone was drinking (except my wife because she was pregnant). After our game night at like 2am, I had a psychotic break. I threatened to kill myself numerous times. My wife tried to talk me down, but eventually called the cops to take me. I thank her for that because looking back, that was the moment I knew something needed to change. I was convinced the cops were gonna kill me because I'm a trans dude in rural West Texas. I legit took the phone out of my wife's hand, hung up on 911, and yeeted her phone across the backyard and tried to hop the fence. Eventually the cops came and talked me down. They took me to the hospital an hour away in handcuffs (for their protection I did nothing wrong). They took me to the religious hospital that I was born in. So when they looked up my info by my name and date of birth from my driver's license (I only changed my middle name) literally all my paperwork and my bracelet had my deadname and wrong gender despite all of my legal stuff saying male with my new middle name. I mentioned it to them and they didn't care. They misgendered me the entire time I was there. I had hit my head hella hard on the bath tub when my wife was trying to snap me out of it, did the hospital even check me for concussion? Nope. I had punched so many things and my hand and wrist were swollen and discolored. Did they check out my hand and wrist? Nope. I was there for over 10 hours before I was able to convince them I was okay and that it was just the alcohol. Did I mention during that 10 hours I was literally out in the hall on a gurney with no mask and this was when COVID was running rampant in Texas (the first time)? I heard people die that night. I had nothing to distract me because they took away all of my personal items and clothes. My wife picked me up and we went home and I have been sober ever since. It's not the first psychotic break I've had with alcohol in my system. Alcohol just doesn't agree with me, but I'm finding new things to replace it with.

TW has been lifted...it's safe now.

A couple of weeks after that I began teletherapy because I had been on the same mood stabilizer and anti-depressant for almost a decade. The more I thought about it, the more it made sense that I felt like it hadn't been working for at least a year. This is a reminder to check in with your doctor if you feel like your meds aren't working. You may just need a different dose or a new med. There's no shame in that. I bounced around on various medications trying to find the right combo, some side effects scarier than others, but we got there. Before this, I had been diagnosed with ADHD, Major Depressive Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder, and Generalized Anxiety Disorder. My therapist threw out my Borderline diagnosis and said it was CPTSD instead, which made sense.

Fast forward to December because my wife was pregnant, I was unemployed still, and we did absolutely fuck-all because the global panini was still raging.

Our son was born on December 3, 2020. He weighed 5lbs 9oz and scared the ever loving shit out of us. He wasn't breathing when he was born so they called NICU in ASAP. I'm freaking out because I can hear and see what's going on while my wife was asking if he was okay as they put her guts back in place to sew her up. 5 or so minutes pass and a nurse asks if I want her to take some pictures. I'm like is he okay, he still hasn't cried. She's like "oh yeah, he's chillin." This goon was being held by a nurse and was just looking around not crying or anything. Chillest baby ever (he still is btw). I held him next to my wife's head until it was time to go back to the room. Little dude did have to spend 4 nights in the NICU because he couldn't keep his sugars or temperature regulated, but he was healthy otherwise. He's now 4 months old and is starting to sit up on his own a little bit and he's OBSESSED with standing. He's still a little guy, but very healthy and growing like a weed. He saves my life daily.

So after being unemployed for over 9 months, I started a new job working in a call center. I absolutely hate talking on the phone. It gives me anxiety and throws me into panic attacks, but I had been putting out hundreds of job applications since I lost my last job and this was the first offer I got. I wasn't really in a position to turn it down since my unemployment had ran out 2 months prior. It was 2 months of training, then we'd be on our own. I got thru the training and thought I could handle it...until they started putting us on live calls with someone helping us if we got stuck. My mental health hit the lowest point it had in a few years and my wife was terrified she was going to lose me. She convinced me to quit on February 28th (not because I didn't want to, but because I'm a stubborn ass who felt guilty). My meds got tweaked a little bit more dosage wise during this mess.

Starting about mid-February, I was experiencing severe shakiness, tremors, and spasms. I've always been a shaky person and never really thought too much about it, but at some points I could barely feed myself, or get a drink, or hold my son. On March 7th, I tried to make an appointment with my doctor about the weird symptoms I was experiencing, but she was out of town and her next opening wasn't until the 31st. My body said that won't work and my wife rushed me to the ER on the 9th...I had begun having seizures that day. I had no previous history of seizures. Got to the ER and had a seizure literally as I was walking thru the door, so they rushed me straight back. They took some blood and that was literally it. No MRI. No CT. They pumped me full of Ativan and said it was just a panic attack and to go home and chill.

Spoiler Alert: It wasn't just anxiety. I was having 20+ seizures a day. On the 10th, my wife rushed me to a different hospital...the good hospital over an hour away. First we had to drop off our gremlin with my mom to make things a little easier. Yet again, I had a seizure as I walked in the door and was taken back immediately. I don't really remember much because they kept pumping me full of Ativan and morphine because I had been in excruciating pain from the number of seizures I'd had. I do remember them doing a CT pretty quickly after I got there. Then they weren't happy with the results of the CT, so they took me to get an MRI, which showed possible signs of Multiple Sclerosis (but I didn't find that out until AFTER the notes showed up in my patient portal after being home a few days, so I raised hell...more on that later.) They did a 24 hour EEG on me and it showed nothing abnormal. Also, EEG glue is a bitch on your hair and scalp. After looking at everything and given my previous mental health history, they diagnosed me with Psychogenic Non-Epileptic Seizures, or PNES. It is a subset of Functional Neurologic Disorder, or FND. I couldn't walk well anymore and had to use a walker when I was discharged. I was in the hospital for 3 days.

When I had my follow-up appointment on the 23rd, I asked why the possibility of MS was never mentioned to me since it was very clearly in the notes. The doctor didn't have an explanation. He called in a referral to neurology so I could get a 2nd MRI to confirm MS and marked it as high priority. He also didn't take my pain seriously. My pain levels had been at a 5 or higher every single minute since they took me off of the morphine in the hospital. He told me to keep taking prescription strength doses of ibuprofen and Tylenol, which I had been. I let him know I had been and it didn't even take the edge off the pain. He ignored me. Leading up to this appointment, I had also added urinary incontinence to my growing list of symptoms and was forced to wear diapers so I didn't have to do laundry all the time. The doctor also took me off my ADHD meds because they were lowering my seizure threshold. He also took me off of my sleeping meds and nightmare meds for the same reason I'm assuming.

I kept my appointment on the 31st with my primary doctor because she's been my doctor for 5 years now and I knew she'd take my pain seriously. She did. She immediately wrote me prescriptions for a muscle relaxer and Tylenol 4. She also told me that my referral had been rejected by neuro. She said my case wasn't a good one for what she called a "wallet biopsy" and the doctors in neurology could be real assholes. She immediately sent the referral to other locations to get an approval. I am still waiting on that despite it being marked as high priority. She wrote me a prescription for a wheelchair because we both agreed my wheelchair was not enough for particular days.

Yesterday my wheelchair was finally ready for pickup, so my wife drove me to go get it. I'm still unable to drive due to my seizures and my tremors and twitches as it's predominantly in my legs and arms. I am an ambulatory wheelchair user now. Some days I can go short distances without my walker, some days I can't go without my walker, some days I can't even get out of bed, and some days I will be using my wheelchair. Don't judge a book by its cover, not all disabilities are visible. I have managed to keep my daily seizure count down in single digits and have even had a few seizure free days. They are still incredibly taxing on my body. I feel like I can't ever replenish my spoons fast enough to keep up with anything in my life.

So all in all, life has been chaotic. We are moving from Texas to New Mexico in the next few weeks, which should be interesting considering I can't overdo it without throwing myself into seizures. We will be closer to my mother-in-law so she can help us with our son and I can start resting a bit more on the more difficult days. Being a stay-at-home dad with an invisible illness has been one of the most challenging things I've done in my life, but I wouldn't change it for the world.

Sorry this is so long. I just wanted to update my followers since it's been over a year since I posted before a few days ago.

[omegangrins]

Chibnall, Children, Choice and Consequence

Allow me to introduce a companion piece to A Treatise on the Doctor:

It's pretty simple:

Chibnall knows what he's doing and is playing a long game to show how the Doctor needs to take more responsibility.

Let me start off with my favorite examples. That's right, plural.

Every single villain 13 faces is never defeated, merely pushed away from causing them any immediate problems. Tim Shaw being the prime example.

1&10. Seriously, Tim Shaw. Her plan was to use his own bombs on him and then teleport him off the planet. Even without Ranskoor Av Kolos, the Doctor should have thought to check in on him. Especially after The Ghost Monument showed the Stenza were a greater threat than she knew. She still hasn't even checked up on WHAT THE HELL THE STENZA ARE! They sound worse than Daleks but naw, let's go rain-bathing in the upper tropics of Canstano instead.

2. Ghost Monument. We saw the END of an interuniversal race. What the fuck is the beginning that got them there? Who is Illyn and how and why did he orchestrate a super race?

3. Krasko. Sent back in time. Really, Doc? Not gonna take a look at the device and see where Ryan sent the prick so you can double check that he's not gonna cause anymore damage?

4. President Trump analog. Ooooo, you looked at him menacingly, Doc, that'll show him!! Not like he's gonna KEEP DOING ILLEGAL SHIT LIKE THIS.

5. The Pting. She literally shunted it off ship to be dealt with by someone else BUT DOESN'T GO BACK TO BE THAT SOMEONE ELSE ONCE SHE HAS HER TARDIS. That's like leaving a living nuke floating around after sweeping it under the rug while you fly off to Paris.

6. The Pakistani-Indian conflict still happens and millions still die. Not her fault but still....

7. Kerblam. Sure, Charlie's terrorism was solved but not the underlying problem that led to it. Humans still can't work because corporations like profits over people.

8. Similar to the Punjab, how you gonna solve sexism, classism and all the -isms?

9. WHY WAS THE SOLITRACT THERE IN THE FIRST PLACE??!! It's been around since before the universe. Why'd it decide to come back now? It's a whole universe trying to hug our universe to death. Maaaaaaybe we should check out why.

11. She's gets a pass on the Dalek. Fucking impossible to eradicate them.

12. The Master!!! Finally she checks up on something after the adventures... and it's horrible. With everything gone to shit in her absence. Seeing a pattern yet?

And Barton? And the Cassaven? They didn't disappear into smoke.

13. Multiple Earths being multiply fucked. Remember when I said the Doctor couldn't solve racism, classism, sexism, or any of the other -isms? Starting to look like she needs to TRY.

14. The Skithra FLY OFF after getting hit by a laser beam. That kind of thing tends to piss people off. Even if they're idiots using other's technology.

15. Jack. The Judoon. The Ruth Doctor. All things I'd start checking out if I had a time machine BUT

16. WE CAN'T cause the TARDIS emergency alert is going off and we need to hurry up and run and solve this problem before we run out of time in our TIME AND SPACE MACHINE. Leading to another problem the Doctor could help solve but won't. Plastic and over-consumption.

17. Oh yeah, let's trap two Eternals from another universe in the same place. There's NO WAY that could ever turn out bad.

18,19,20. And again. Cyberium. Pushed off Shelley onto herself and onto Ashad and onto The Master.

That's almost 20 "enemies" the Doctor still needs to deal with.

Oh, not to mention that they let UNIT go defunct because they didn't have the forethought to ask if they needed any money in their alien fighting budget. After asking for an office, a desk, and a job. Kinda funny that way, aren't they?

I hope by now you've gotten the idea that this is VERY deliberate. This is Chibnall laying down some very heavy pipe to smack the Doctor like a clothesline. There isn't a one of these situations that can't come around to bite her in the ass.

Barton, Roberts, Skithra. These are all very loose strands for a time traveller like the Doctor to get tripped up on. Chibnall's past episodes prove it. They're all about the Doctor learning how to take responsibility.

42: The Doctor almost gets Martha killed and almost gets himself killed trying to fix it.

The Hungry Earth: The Doctor (a thousand year old "adult") tells Elliot (a 10 year old kid) that "Sure it's totally fine to go get your headphones while we prepare for an approaching unknown alien force." And 11 rightfully gets his ass chewed for it by the child's mother when the kid goes missing because OF COURSE THAT'S WHAT HAPPENS, JACKASS!

Cold Blood: I could write an entire essay about the Doctor's guilt over the Silurian/Human conflicts they've witnessed, but I don't need to. Because every single Silurian centered episode written in the new era is from Chris Chibnall. And you can feel the sad knowledge of Classic Who spill through. He KNOWS how many times the Doctor has fucked up with the Silurians (about 8 times in television format. And it's rough everytime. Rough.) and he writes those episodes like an apology on behalf of the whole human race. And the Doctor. You know why people are put off by Warriors of the Deep? 5 releases a gas that melts the Silurians. And though it's cheesy, the idea and execution is still horrible.

Add to that if the Doctor hadn't stopped to check the crack, then Rory wouldn't have waited and been around to be shot then absorbed by the time crack.

Power of Three: An entire episode about how the Doctor has a problem slowing down and really taking account of the lives of their companions.

Dinosaurs on a Spaceship: The Doctor actually tries to be responsible and pick the right people for a job. For once. But gets angry when they realize it's too late and there's another bunch of Silurians they failed to save. Classic!

Like I said, if you can't see the pattern, you're not paying enough attention to your responsibilites.

Which leads me to the why.

When you fly around time and space for thousands of years, you develop a few duties of care along the way. In every situation, you're the oldest. Technically the only adult in terms of experience. You have a responsibility to act a little less rude and be a bit more aware than needing cue cards to tell you that you should be sad about things around you. And that's the purpose of 13. She's unlucky but learning. Like 12 telling himself something with his face he couldn't say out loud, 13's instincts are leading her to a new place for the Doctor: being a caring, responsible person. Not so much laughing hard or running fast, but being kind. It's the one thing they recognized as a problem in themselves when seeing 1. Being a Doctor is about being kinder than that. Just because you HAVE to saw someone's leg off, that doesn't mean you can't wait a little and comfort them before you do it.

You wanna know what gave me every faith in Chibnall showrunning Doctor Who? 13 staying for Grace's funeral.

Do you understand how unprecedented that is? This is the same person who never said Goodbye to Jo Grant as she got married and fucked off into the night. The same Doctor who said, "I don't do domestic.", did it with Rose a regeneration later, and then closed himself off to everyone but a married couple he felt guilty about who ended up birthing his wife. Have you any idea the number of funerals the Doctor should have the common decency to sit through? This many.

So for 13 to stay around for the death of a woman she has only just met and not only that, BUT call out Ryan's father for not doing the same, it shows tremendous character growth. It's taken millennia but they're still changing.

Something similar happens with Rosa and The Witchfinders. Realizing that there a lot of companions who have been in situations that are sometimes worse than aliens, but they still manage to make it through. So she needs to buck it up and persevere for everyone else.

That's where her anger comes from, and really it's one of my favorite traits on her. It reminds me of 7. Someone impossibly old and impossibly kind saying to hell with it and at least having some fun with the evils who drag us through the universe. And just like Cartmel planned for 7, 13's past will come to haunt her.

That's where children come in. Most of us are crying babies to the Doctor.

There's this thing you notice most in British shows about answering the question directly as asked. Someone says "Are you sure?", you answer "Sure". That's a direct acknowledgement that you heard the question, understood it, and processed it enough to respond in a manner directly correlating to the question asked. Yas and Graham got it and said "Sure" but Ryan missed it and said "Deffo". This is like Elliot with the headphones. The Doctor should have immediately been like, "Okay, Ryan, it's obvious that you're still dealing with the trauma of your grandmother's death and probably not processing things on a logical level. I said "Are you sure?" Not "Are you deffo?" Because we are most definitely not deffo, Ryan. Graham, you wanna help here?"

I'm being sarcastic for points sake but you understand the idea. The Doctor knows better and has a responsibility as such. She should've really sat down with Ryan and Graham and seen if there was a better way to process their grief.

Because I'm fairly certain that "Deffo" is gonna lead to Ryan's death and Graham's cancer resurging as time cancer (I don't know what time cancer is. I just know it's bad.)

And that is gonna piss Yas off. Which will give you all that character you think she's missing (she isn't. Her character is in her subtleties and silences.). That's WHY her character is a police officer (like how does no else see that the man who wrote Broadchurch wrote an inspector character companion?) Imagine you're Yaz and you see the Doctor flying around in a big, magic box that says POLICE. As a fellow officer, you're gonna expect some basic safety protocols.

Like do a background check on everyone flying in the TARDIS to know whether they're stable enough (mentally, physically, emotionally) for time and space travel. It's no picnic. These people are going to go through hell. A little vetting and planning like Time Heist or Dinosaurs on a Spaceship goes a long way.

Secondly, full fucking disclosure.

"Oh. I can't die because I change my body. Oh. I have arch enemies that will try to kill and torture us any chance they get. Oh. My home planet is full of the biggest assholes in the universe and I'm including my arch enemies."

Third, police like to do this thing called "check-ups" where they go back to the scene of the crime in order to see if there is any more information that can be gleaned which you might not notice when you are busy running around trying not to be killed... Like, the Doctor has the perfect machine to do this with, but nope. Adventure done, run to the next place!!

These are all things you'd expect any reasonable person to do and say when taking others flying off into time and space and "helping". Even if they are an idiot passing through and learning. Especially when you consider the Doctor is vastly older and more experienced than everyone they encounter. They SHOULD know better. And they've got the lifespan to slow down. It's not like they need to be in a hurry because they're going to die at any moment like humans. The Doctor could easily stay for tea and it would be less than a drop in their lifespan.

Now, as usually is the case when I make these theories, I have a parts 1,2,3,4 and 6. There's allways this 5th piece I miss but I manage to get at the end.

But the 6th piece is the Timeless Child. The Doctor isn't a Time Lord anymore. They're not beholden to those people and ideas anymore. Even moreso, those people basically raped her childhood for their own gain so it's not like you'd really listen to them and their "policy of non-intervention".

I'm sensing a coming Trial of a Time Lord season (even believing these two seasons are the opening statement and preliminary evidence of the trial itself) wherein the Doctor finally gets the turnaround 6 deserved. A Trial of the Time Lords, if you will.

"In all my travels through time and space I have battled against evil, against power-mad conspirators. I should have stayed here! The oldest civilization: decadent, degenerate and rotten to the core! Power mad conspirators? Daleks, Sontarans, Cybermen — they're still in the nursery compared to us! Ten million years of absolute power: that's what it takes to be really corrupt!"

This is what it's all coming down to. Chibnall's takedown of the Time Lords. And The Master is going to play the most crucial role of all.

They're going to be revealed as an Ux alongside the Doctor and show how the only constants they have in this universe are each other and it's about damn time they work together and tell these high collars to eat Schitt while they explore every star and planet they can find.

Come on, the episode is called The Timeless "Children". If it was just the Doctor it'd be called "The Timeless Child". The Master says as much with the misdirect line, "built on the lie of the Timeless Child." since we see two kids playing in that flashback.

"Since always. Since the Cloister Wars, since the night he stole the moon and the president's wife, since he was a little girl. One of those was a lie, can you guess which one?"

Now we know which one was a lie, we know the Master HAS known the Doctor since they were a little girl. THAT little girl...

But this is all just speculation. It's not like Chris Chibnall could have been thinking about this for the past 40 years and was given a blank slate to do whatever he wanted for five years on his favorite TV show. If y'all want to think he took those reigns and is choosing to make things worse...

Well then you don't know much about responsibility.

I'll let the man himself tell you about it.

"Very early in my career,” says Chibnall, “someone told me that you learn more from a failure than you do from a success. And then I lived out that phrase for a year in Los Angeles. I learned that I would not work that way again or be put in that situation again.” The essential lesson was: “You either have to be in total control of a show or working with people who share your vision and will work with you to achieve it. Also, never work with 13 executive producers.

“Camelot was the classic case of too many cooks. It wasn’t a harmonious set-up and I think that does manifest itself on screen.

“I had a fantastic cast but you have to be free to tell the story you want to tell in the way that you want to tell it. What ended up on screen was not what I wanted and so it is a blemish on my CV.”

Credit to @thirteenthdoc

“You immortals - so entitled, so spoiled. You never clear up after yourselves and you always leave stuff lying around.” - Thirteenth Doctor in Can You Hear Me?