#he gets occasionally internally angry when gansey fixates on adam. hes randomly very hostile towards blue. idk. whats up with that bud. | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

yarrowleef-babbles · 2 years

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(it case it needs 2 be said, when i make speculative live-blog thought posts like this, i Do Not want anyone to confirm or deny or give me hints about what happens later, unless i specifically ask plz and ty)

ANYWAY jumping off that last post, one of the things I consistently saw in fanart before i knew anything was a queer pairing involving...SOMEONE, couldnt say who since my memory is being filtered through a me that couldn't keep any of the names straight. I ALSO could not for the life of me tell if it was *actually canon* or if it was one of those instances of a fan pairing getting really popular and taking over fanworks, even though its just ""subtext"" in canon (which often translates to 'the characters hang out a lot'.....i'm not *mad*, i have simply been mislead and then disappointed by canon when it comes to fandom habits like this more than once)

but it felt so consistent that i THINK it may have actually been based on canon. so i have spent this reading wondering who and how it was going to manifest

like is Ronan having vaguley homoerotic nightmares about Adam but twisted up and colored through the Catholic Guilt(tm) filter or am i reading it wrong lmao

#it is kinda fun knowing (maybe) that its a thing but trying to rule out who it applies to #like i think its ronan and i am not against it being with adam #largely because adams doomed relationship with blue is depressing an id like it to be put out of its misery #adam made a passing comment at ronan in book one about him being 'not straight'#and declan glared at him for laying too close to adam in the car. that felt significant #but what i dont know is if ronan is actually *out* to anyone or to himself #because he's never directly addressed it #like the prologue alluded to a type of secret that one doesn't want to admit to themself #and maybe??? its that??#im just saying he describes adam as very pretty fairly often but still in a plausibly deniable way #BUT ALSO. theres A LOT of shit going on with him. idk if 'being gay' is a big enough deal to warrant being a real ~secret~#when compared to the life and death nature of the other sorts of secrets in this story #BUT HIS FAMILY *IS* VERY CATHOLIC #which could MAKE it a big cataclysmic deal #idk!! theres a lot i still dont understand about ronan #the narrative definitley isnt always straight forward about why he is feeling certain ways #he just Feels Something and it upsets him and you kind of have to figure out the pattern yourself #which i appreciate but also no idea if inam projecting completley the wrong narrative onto his emotions lol #he gets occasionally internally angry when gansey fixates on adam. hes randomly very hostile towards blue. idk. whats up with that bud.#i mean i think it would be very interesting if it were implying that because i always appreciate complicated crushes portrayed subtly #without the author holding your hand with whats going on #i just hope im not missing some Bigger More Important Thing by thinking about it like this #yarrow reads trc #trc #the raven cycle #dream thieves #cause Adam also...made a vague sacrifice to some talking trees #and THAT could very well be the only reason Ronan is dreaming of him in such bizarre ways

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